11:21 I think that even though one might fall over and over again, to a degree, it is bound to happen due to inexperience. I guess what I'm trying to say is that after you fall, you're not at zero. On the contrary, every time you get up, you become more experienced and more adept at dealing with life. It's like building blocks; each time you stumble, you add another block to your foundation of resilience and wisdom.
Found this channel a few weeks ago, it feels so weird to have someone tell you your exact problems in thoughts you couldn’t form into words, keep up the good work you’re doing great 👍
I discovered this channel a few days ago. It's so refreshing seeing video like this that somehow make sense of how I'm feeling. I am turning 26 at the end of this year and there have been countless times where I've wanted to just give up on everything. I realize that I am extremely young to be having thoughts like this, but some days are just really difficult. Some days I just don't even feel like getting out of bed. Seeing videos like this and some of the other videos you've put out have opened my eyes and helped me realize that I can't give up yet. Thank you for continuing to make these videos, I'm sure you've helped quite a bit of people that feel very similar to how I've been feeling. I guess it's just nice sometimes knowing that you're not alone. :)
Firstly I just wanted to say you're so wise and motivational! Please never stop making videos. I recently stumbled across your channel, and started binge-watching these videos. I relate a lot to your videos, especially "I want to live." It's so refreshing to know someone else that exists in this world feels similar to how I feel. Since 14, I've struggled with depression, and merely existing and "meta living", and "stuck it out" to try and get into a good college. As a 21 male in college now, I still struggle a lot with looking in retrospect on what feels like has been a derailed train merely avoiding collision with the world around it for years. I will finally be starting my first medication ever to help address it. I'm curious as to your thoughts about the merit of antidepressants, and what interventions pulled you out from where you used to find yourself. KEEP UP THE GOOD CONTENT ♥
I would like to hear her opinion as well. I'm not on anti-depressants but know some co-workers on it. I hope things are going better for you, man. College can be tough, but I think that's where a lot of growing can happen when you keep going and analyze things around you (which I'm assuming you already do xd). Just keep going. At least something will improve, my honest opinion.
hi, currently my thoughts oscillate between “i wanna kms”(im okay) and “no matter the outcome, ill be fine”. one thing that helps is asking myself what went well and the end of each day. im doing the “bare minimum” for my classes. hopefully everything turns out alright.
This video entirely changed my perception of hardships in life and I can't help but thank you for that. when dealing with these types of things it is important to know that things rarely stay that way and time will pass regardless of what you do. when seeking support it's essential to not only talk to someone about your feelings but also push your feelings into reality. sorry for kind of summarising I just wanted to write it down to emphasise it to myself
ive been depressed and had a very bad mindset for over 10 years at this point. i do stuff as best as i can and get some things done. i workout regularly, i meet friends online once a week, sometimes i meet irl friends too... but im still in the same place i was 10 years ago. it was the tiniest bit of hope that kept me going over those years, but its fading with every passing day and theres nothing left. maybe i am actually hopeless. maybe there are some people who are destined to have that life. i dont know. i just dont want to keep trying anymore, im so exhausted.
I like the part about if ur thinking about stuff goalwise u need to apply them so they materialize u just can’t think about, u have to do them to get it done or there’s no points of having those thoughts everyday.
I was crying as I found this video. I really relate to your story, thank you for sharing, it feels like people say they relate to you but they never actually mean it, makes me feel like noone has actually felt depressed like this. But your story is very relatable for me. I also have the spontaneous mindset like just jump on a plane cause I'm not leaving anyone behind except my parents.
It’s so strange to me when people say to “be delusional”. Like we have to act like that to get through life?¿ kinda sad. But also it’s so crazy how much I resonate with you and we are the same age and stage in life. Love uuuuu!!!
I've recently started watching your videos and i feel strangely connected to you, specially after this i really, really needed to hear this... Thank you
Even the trees have their leaves falling in autumn and they’ll start to bloom in spring, a human life is just the same, you’ll have ups and downs so if you’re happy today be aware that you’ll be sad and hopeless another day cuz your brain needs some rest in order to function properly, but this is hard to comprehend during depression and some people need to understand that depression doesn’t solely belong to Netflix series and it exists in real life too…
Yep see things the way they are nice :)) and yeah you don’t get to have the power to change them but yes you do get to change the way you choose to react to those actions that’s all :)
And I'm so glad that you're able to help others including me! This is what it means to be human. We collaborate in order to thrive, and we make the world a better place by being kind ourselves. I think a lot of people have forgotten about this fundamental rule of survival. I hope the world treats you kindly tomorrow. Good night!
Frank Ocean - Blonde Album-use to be one of my favorites when I was still teaching in S. Korea. That was years ago tho when IU - Palette just came out and made a twenty-something Taiwanese American feel not so alone to be living there. Your last video thumbnail upload made me happy because it reminded me of one of my personal favorite albums. It also reminded me though that I'm in my early thirties now and still got the heart of a baby bunny-I get attached too easily. Makes me sad-like J.Cole - "Hello" vibes...So this'll be my last visit to your channel. I wish you the best Meiqiii. And i hope you'll give the Frank Ocean - Blonde album a listen while on a peaceful and safe nighttime walk. It was my fondest experience longboarding through those empty streets on the other side of the world with the wind brushing against my skin and the music in my ears. Made the whole world feel like heaven in those times. I hope similar feelings might be given to you as a gift of parting and gratitude Be well ~
To that last point about hope, I've recognized that I have (what I call) inherent hope. No matter what happens or how depressed I feel or anything, that there's always a possibility for a good thing to happen (but the vice versa is true for me as well). Nothing is ever 100% with me/my decisions. There's always at least 0.1-1% of doubt at a minimum towards anything positive. The other side of that coin is what I call logical pessimism (explanation's kinda in the name) and that plays into why there's never a 100% positive outlook on a situation/life, and vice versa. Ithink these two balance each other out to make me see things neutrally and always play devil's advocate to see miltiple angles of a situation. Ive gotten pretty depressed before, but it's never to the point where I just couldn’t do anything. There's been moments where I for sure just sat there to think about my situation and stress, but ultimately, if I have something I needed to do, I'll still go and do it. I did have a friend/coworker that felt that feeling of dread, like there's no point to anything and a few of us were able to get him out of it. I'm honestly really happy about where he is mentally and such right now. And I guess to add to the hope and pessimism, my ultimate mindset was, and still kinda is: what you do/who you are, doesnt matter. As long as the people around you/that you care about are in a better position/you are able to help them when needed, that’s the important bit and thay you dont really have a reson to complain (e.g. don't have anyone that you feel you cam share everything with [family included], you've been single all your life. They don't matter because you dont need them to help others financially, emotionally, physically, etc.)
Hey, it’s me again whether you recognize or not, whether I’m slightly familiar or no, but I kind of felt this way about one month ago, and I don’t wanna be the type guy who puts down situations or look down on it saying it’s a small thing etc., but I’m only like 2mins into the video and perfectly agree with the fact that a lot of people won’t be able to understand this mental state, because describing or explaining to them is only to rant rather than look for actual advice. Just wanna tell y’all to hold on and stay strong even in a stuck or indescribable circumstance, because once ur out like u got tons of stuff going on and u might even forget about this problem until someone brings it up again. Look for the joy in life in those small moments that may not be now, but anyway I’m not an expert just giving my personal authentic take and to say y’all got this. Cuz someone believes in you.
When I was feeling like the lowest in this situation, I wanted risky horrible things to happen, for change in my life regardless of good or bad, and everything felt stuck and repetitive, even things I was doing that I didn’t want to do already felt like things I was used to. And just letting things pass and resting made me kinda skip that phase (in my experience anyway) and then now my life is so gosh damn busy every week I think it will be the busiest I will be within the past half a year but I just keep getting busier, and I’m not saying y’all will turn out this way but just that change will happen at some point so you can actually prepare for that and who knows, you might be ready by then.
Just reached the 3 minute 20 sec point and I really still relate the same and think it’s kinda like my experience. Really well explained and communicated by the way bravo to you.
Okay so I’m watching past that part and I gotta say these are incredible points like, I need to really use that and share that with people haha, I need to reach that mindset like more often while I’m conscious, if yk and uh thanks for the sharing btw
You're vidare videos very calming. Take things slow and take your time and relaxed. Everything will be better just to let you know that you will ho thru tuff battles with great rewards. I feel that the same thing laying on my couch and watch youtube videos and then fall asleep days that I do feel stuck
If I come back to this video and comments a few weeks later, I don't think I'll be able to say how stressed and anxious I've been. I'm managing people's emotions for an event RN and everyone is on edge but I don't want to take even more responsibility and I want things to go smoothly. I've also been extremely depressed. It's awful. I've been living life on careless mode that with pressure (which isnt the problem, its the tension) that I'm not used to confronting things. In 42 hours things will be different...
I think the emotions vs brain kind of thing gets labelled as feminine and masculine energy online. I don't like those terms, but I do think that it's very important to balance those out.
Do you ever feel like when you have no boyfriend, no spontaneous things, no incredibly tragic story that you can romanticize into a novel, everyone is super judgmental, everyone always seems to have an opinion, the world treats you unkindly, and you're trying to make everything work but time is moving way too fast, you know that you're literally meaningless in this world, and you're young? I watched this Adult Swim video where Bambi's mom told him that "You're a deer! You're useless!" and I found it really funny because it IS true.You're literally just a deer. I'm literally just a human. Our lives are meaningless in this world. Also, do you ever feel like you want to be a bird? Like perch up on trees and stuff. I don't want to be human anymore. I get it that we can do some cool stuff like work and eat in Michelin star restaurants but Lord, I need a break. Can you please make me into a bird for one day and leave my real body paralyzed for ONE DAY? At night I often crawl in my room because of all the stress I'm facing. And I think about how it's all so stupid. Success is a concept. Injustice is a concept. The fact that I'm a girl is a concept. Who cares? Humans are so stupid. I'm so stupid. Sometimes I feel like I understand why some redditors want to nuke the world. Also watched a bunch of Near-Death videos today and brainwashed myself into thinking that I know what comes after death. You know, the tunnel, going closer to the light, feeling euphoric and thinking that we are all one? I think I'm not that afraid of death anymore if that's what it is.
Exactly how I’ve been feeling. This world is unkind to the ones as kind as ever.
As an unattractive Asian Man, this statement couldn't be more true.
11:21 I think that even though one might fall over and over again, to a degree, it is bound to happen due to inexperience. I guess what I'm trying to say is that after you fall, you're not at zero. On the contrary, every time you get up, you become more experienced and more adept at dealing with life. It's like building blocks; each time you stumble, you add another block to your foundation of resilience and wisdom.
Yes, I often overthink and have problems with thinking that I’m a loser for needing help. I know not but I have an unrealistic feeling of perfection.
Wow this explains the exact way of how i feel.
Found this channel a few weeks ago, it feels so weird to have someone tell you your exact problems in thoughts you couldn’t form into words, keep up the good work you’re doing great 👍
I discovered this channel a few days ago. It's so refreshing seeing video like this that somehow make sense of how I'm feeling. I am turning 26 at the end of this year and there have been countless times where I've wanted to just give up on everything. I realize that I am extremely young to be having thoughts like this, but some days are just really difficult. Some days I just don't even feel like getting out of bed. Seeing videos like this and some of the other videos you've put out have opened my eyes and helped me realize that I can't give up yet. Thank you for continuing to make these videos, I'm sure you've helped quite a bit of people that feel very similar to how I've been feeling. I guess it's just nice sometimes knowing that you're not alone. :)
Firstly I just wanted to say you're so wise and motivational! Please never stop making videos. I recently stumbled across your channel, and started binge-watching these videos. I relate a lot to your videos, especially "I want to live." It's so refreshing to know someone else that exists in this world feels similar to how I feel. Since 14, I've struggled with depression, and merely existing and "meta living", and "stuck it out" to try and get into a good college. As a 21 male in college now, I still struggle a lot with looking in retrospect on what feels like has been a derailed train merely avoiding collision with the world around it for years. I will finally be starting my first medication ever to help address it. I'm curious as to your thoughts about the merit of antidepressants, and what interventions pulled you out from where you used to find yourself. KEEP UP THE GOOD CONTENT ♥
I would like to hear her opinion as well. I'm not on anti-depressants but know some co-workers on it. I hope things are going better for you, man. College can be tough, but I think that's where a lot of growing can happen when you keep going and analyze things around you (which I'm assuming you already do xd). Just keep going. At least something will improve, my honest opinion.
hi, currently my thoughts oscillate between “i wanna kms”(im okay) and “no matter the outcome, ill be fine”. one thing that helps is asking myself what went well and the end of each day. im doing the “bare minimum” for my classes. hopefully everything turns out alright.
This video entirely changed my perception of hardships in life and I can't help but thank you for that. when dealing with these types of things it is important to know that things rarely stay that way and time will pass regardless of what you do. when seeking support it's essential to not only talk to someone about your feelings but also push your feelings into reality.
sorry for kind of summarising I just wanted to write it down to emphasise it to myself
being practical.thats what I need in my life...I also used the excuse of being depressed
realest one rn 😭 keep it going ❤
ive been depressed and had a very bad mindset for over 10 years at this point. i do stuff as best as i can and get some things done. i workout regularly, i meet friends online once a week, sometimes i meet irl friends too... but im still in the same place i was 10 years ago. it was the tiniest bit of hope that kept me going over those years, but its fading with every passing day and theres nothing left. maybe i am actually hopeless. maybe there are some people who are destined to have that life. i dont know. i just dont want to keep trying anymore, im so exhausted.
Why did you start creating this content? I am just curious since your videos reflect how the society is today which is, in fact, important to discuss.
cause she wanted to
@@knightofpeacelmaoo
Because she’s looking to change the world
u just said it yourself
Stop acting like a fool, get yoh ass up🙄
I just found a lot of comfort in your channel recently. Your thoughts and your feelings are so real.
I like the part about if ur thinking about stuff goalwise u need to apply them so they materialize u just can’t think about, u have to do them to get it done or there’s no points of having those thoughts everyday.
I was crying as I found this video. I really relate to your story, thank you for sharing, it feels like people say they relate to you but they never actually mean it, makes me feel like noone has actually felt depressed like this. But your story is very relatable for me. I also have the spontaneous mindset like just jump on a plane cause I'm not leaving anyone behind except my parents.
"you recognize you can take a shovel and get rid of that shit" analogy actually goes so hard
It’s so strange to me when people say to “be delusional”.
Like we have to act like that to get through life?¿ kinda sad.
But also it’s so crazy how much I resonate with you and we are the same age and stage in life. Love uuuuu!!!
I've recently started watching your videos and i feel strangely connected to you, specially after this i really, really needed to hear this... Thank you
Even the trees have their leaves falling in autumn and they’ll start to bloom in spring, a human life is just the same, you’ll have ups and downs so if you’re happy today be aware that you’ll be sad and hopeless another day cuz your brain needs some rest in order to function properly, but this is hard to comprehend during depression and some people need to understand that depression doesn’t solely belong to Netflix series and it exists in real life too…
I’m glad that the algorithm brought me to your videos
let it bring you to mine
Yep see things the way they are nice :)) and yeah you don’t get to have the power to change them but yes you do get to change the way you choose to react to those actions that’s all :)
And I'm so glad that you're able to help others including me! This is what it means to be human. We collaborate in order to thrive, and we make the world a better place by being kind ourselves. I think a lot of people have forgotten about this fundamental rule of survival. I hope the world treats you kindly tomorrow. Good night!
Frank Ocean - Blonde Album-use to be one of my favorites when I was still teaching in S. Korea. That was years ago tho when IU - Palette just came out and made a twenty-something Taiwanese American feel not so alone to be living there. Your last video thumbnail upload made me happy because it reminded me of one of my personal favorite albums. It also reminded me though that I'm in my early thirties now and still got the heart of a baby bunny-I get attached too easily. Makes me sad-like J.Cole - "Hello" vibes...So this'll be my last visit to your channel.
I wish you the best Meiqiii. And i hope you'll give the Frank Ocean - Blonde album a listen while on a peaceful and safe nighttime walk. It was my fondest experience longboarding through those empty streets on the other side of the world with the wind brushing against my skin and the music in my ears. Made the whole world feel like heaven in those times. I hope similar feelings might be given to you as a gift of parting and gratitude
Be well ~
You look quite young but its surprsing how wise you can be sometimes and at some topics. I admire that :)
To that last point about hope, I've recognized that I have (what I call) inherent hope. No matter what happens or how depressed I feel or anything, that there's always a possibility for a good thing to happen (but the vice versa is true for me as well). Nothing is ever 100% with me/my decisions. There's always at least 0.1-1% of doubt at a minimum towards anything positive.
The other side of that coin is what I call logical pessimism (explanation's kinda in the name) and that plays into why there's never a 100% positive outlook on a situation/life, and vice versa.
Ithink these two balance each other out to make me see things neutrally and always play devil's advocate to see miltiple angles of a situation.
Ive gotten pretty depressed before, but it's never to the point where I just couldn’t do anything. There's been moments where I for sure just sat there to think about my situation and stress, but ultimately, if I have something I needed to do, I'll still go and do it. I did have a friend/coworker that felt that feeling of dread, like there's no point to anything and a few of us were able to get him out of it. I'm honestly really happy about where he is mentally and such right now.
And I guess to add to the hope and pessimism, my ultimate mindset was, and still kinda is: what you do/who you are, doesnt matter. As long as the people around you/that you care about are in a better position/you are able to help them when needed, that’s the important bit and thay you dont really have a reson to complain (e.g. don't have anyone that you feel you cam share everything with [family included], you've been single all your life. They don't matter because you dont need them to help others financially, emotionally, physically, etc.)
Hey, it’s me again whether you recognize or not, whether I’m slightly familiar or no, but I kind of felt this way about one month ago, and I don’t wanna be the type guy who puts down situations or look down on it saying it’s a small thing etc., but I’m only like 2mins into the video and perfectly agree with the fact that a lot of people won’t be able to understand this mental state, because describing or explaining to them is only to rant rather than look for actual advice. Just wanna tell y’all to hold on and stay strong even in a stuck or indescribable circumstance, because once ur out like u got tons of stuff going on and u might even forget about this problem until someone brings it up again. Look for the joy in life in those small moments that may not be now, but anyway I’m not an expert just giving my personal authentic take and to say y’all got this. Cuz someone believes in you.
When I was feeling like the lowest in this situation, I wanted risky horrible things to happen, for change in my life regardless of good or bad, and everything felt stuck and repetitive, even things I was doing that I didn’t want to do already felt like things I was used to. And just letting things pass and resting made me kinda skip that phase (in my experience anyway) and then now my life is so gosh damn busy every week I think it will be the busiest I will be within the past half a year but I just keep getting busier, and I’m not saying y’all will turn out this way but just that change will happen at some point so you can actually prepare for that and who knows, you might be ready by then.
Just reached the 3 minute 20 sec point and I really still relate the same and think it’s kinda like my experience. Really well explained and communicated by the way bravo to you.
Okay so I’m watching past that part and I gotta say these are incredible points like, I need to really use that and share that with people haha, I need to reach that mindset like more often while I’m conscious, if yk and uh thanks for the sharing btw
I love this video because I have thought a lot about and experienced these things as well and this makes me feel a lot less alone in this
ur so inspirational
Omg what you're talking about is literally me, I get this so much. Lite with every sentence you say I'm like yes, yeeesss, yeeeessssss YEEEEESSSSS
You're vidare videos very calming. Take things slow and take your time and relaxed. Everything will be better just to let you know that you will ho thru tuff battles with great rewards. I feel that the same thing laying on my couch and watch youtube videos and then fall asleep days that I do feel stuck
If I come back to this video and comments a few weeks later, I don't think I'll be able to say how stressed and anxious I've been. I'm managing people's emotions for an event RN and everyone is on edge but I don't want to take even more responsibility and I want things to go smoothly. I've also been extremely depressed. It's awful. I've been living life on careless mode that with pressure (which isnt the problem, its the tension) that I'm not used to confronting things. In 42 hours things will be different...
Watching your vids calm my mind.
I about to graduate high school and I feel so "compressed" like I have no idea what to do
I literally can't remember what I did from ages 18 to 21. Its such a gap for me while others have gone and done incredible things during those ages.
Amazing video
Thanks a bunch for sharing. ❤
I think the emotions vs brain kind of thing gets labelled as feminine and masculine energy online. I don't like those terms, but I do think that it's very important to balance those out.
Do you ever feel like when you have no boyfriend, no spontaneous things, no incredibly tragic story that you can romanticize into a novel, everyone is super judgmental, everyone always seems to have an opinion, the world treats you unkindly, and you're trying to make everything work but time is moving way too fast, you know that you're literally meaningless in this world, and you're young?
I watched this Adult Swim video where Bambi's mom told him that "You're a deer! You're useless!" and I found it really funny because it IS true.You're literally just a deer. I'm literally just a human. Our lives are meaningless in this world.
Also, do you ever feel like you want to be a bird? Like perch up on trees and stuff. I don't want to be human anymore. I get it that we can do some cool stuff like work and eat in Michelin star restaurants but Lord, I need a break. Can you please make me into a bird for one day and leave my real body paralyzed for ONE DAY?
At night I often crawl in my room because of all the stress I'm facing. And I think about how it's all so stupid. Success is a concept. Injustice is a concept. The fact that I'm a girl is a concept. Who cares? Humans are so stupid. I'm so stupid. Sometimes I feel like I understand why some redditors want to nuke the world.
Also watched a bunch of Near-Death videos today and brainwashed myself into thinking that I know what comes after death. You know, the tunnel, going closer to the light, feeling euphoric and thinking that we are all one? I think I'm not that afraid of death anymore if that's what it is.
You are pretty ❤
i find your videos very heartwarming. you are such cool person 🌸💛 !
I love these videos 🖤
Thank you.
meiqii is so hot and so smart.
your like a lot better and kinder version of the wizard liz imo
I still get stuck in life 😢
Sweet eyes Relax and live a little okayyyyyy 😁🥰😇🤍🩶
Thank u Chad grandma !!
u help me, thankyou
please keep makin vids
thanks, im here for now :(
The world is cruel, therefore, I won't be.
you're pretty
Great video
Do you go to UBC? Because that looks like the rose garden from UBC lol
I really just got called out at 8:00
Yo came here from a shoutout from conorsanimeworld
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Every fucking person be like, I’m so fucking kind but the world is giving me shit. Yes I feel like that too. So what
Cross fingers overthinker 🤓
hey can you do more videos on social media
have you tried Going blonde. Sometimes changing your Hair color give you a Huge boost. Youd Look wayy hot with blonde Hair m8
How old are you btw !? 😁😝🙃☺️
Bhai simping krna band kr de
16 comments in 2 hours? Bro really fell off😢😔
it be like that