This entire lecture tore me up so much. I have been feeling alone all my life despite having people that love me dearly. The loss of relationships with women really made me think there is something wrong with me and that I could never feel truly loved by someone because there might be something inherently wrong with me. I am still not sure of my type but I feel and think that I am a soul temple templar. Feeling useless, misunderstood, help not appreciated, people simply not accepting me or using me for their gains due to my inherent desire to help. It was a rough ride those years but in the end I understood that you simply can't give up and end your life like INFJs and ESTPs do either via their own hands or by substance abuse, just like an ESTP friend of mine that has his brain fried from using different powders for years and is very close to suffering something to his head. What we have to understand despite of type is that it will eventually get better and there will be people there that will accept and love us for who we are. It might be hard to find them but they will come eventually and in that moment never let go of them.
I apologize for such a long comment, listening to this material, somehow it moved me a lot and listening to it I thought about my situation and felt the need to share these thoughts. I identify as an ISTJ, and it's interesting how all these Soul Temple types interconnect. When you talk about the struggles that INFJs and ESTPs face, I can somewhat see myself in them too. Similarly to those types, I crave closeness and deep connection. However, I don’t seek it within a group but rather in one special person-the love of a woman. I’m currently 24 years old. When I was around 18, I was really drawn to characters like Yuno Gasai from Mirai Nikki or Zero Two from Darling in the Franxx. They had a way of making their loved ones feel desired, wanted, and cherished-they did so much for them. I would love to belong to a woman like that, to unite with her. To be hers, to be a treasure she would care for and nurture. One such person would be enough for me. Maybe I would also like to have a group, but only as a complement to my relationship with that girl-just to have someone extra to meet up with and do things together. Since I was about 13-14 years old, when I first noticed my struggles with communication, shyness, and self-consciousness, I developed dysthymia and started exploring psychology. To this day, I strive to improve my communication skills, to become a better person, to understand more about myself and others, and to be more accepting and understanding. The popular phrase "love yourself" has never really resonated with me, and I’m still not convinced of my own worth (not that I’m beating myself up over it). I struggle with not being an ambitious person, which has kept me somewhat stuck in terms of career and financial growth. I know it's important, but I lack motivation. I have insecurities about not being a different type, about not being more like ESTPs-at least the way I perceive them. At one point, I even emailed every hypnosis specialist I could find, hoping to become more like them, or to have a mental switch that would let me step into a different personality when needed. But I’ve never been able to be someone else-I’m a terrible actor. As for my core sin-wrath-I suppress it as much as I can, keeping my emotions in check. Only when someone really pushes my buttons do I explode like a volcano, though I can only recall a few instances. Regarding Absolution, I do try to rationalize and justify others (or myself) if I see reasonable arguments. I aim to be understanding and non-judgmental, though I also feel like I stay objective. For example, a girl I was dating-whom I had typed as an ENTJ-told me about how some people at her job treated her poorly, making her feel uncomfortable. Instead of offering comfort, saying something supportive, or badmouthing them, I started analyzing their motivations-why they did what they did-and tried to explain to her that she shouldn’t be mad at them. At the same time, I ran a thought experiment, putting myself in her shoes, and acknowledged her feelings and how unpleasant their behavior was. I even pointed out that she is very proud, which is why she took it so emotionally. After that, despite us having slept together and despite her previously saying she would always be there for me and that I would always have a place in her life, she hasn’t spoken to me in a week. As for the interesting thing you once mentioned is, that soul types are also like soul-eaters. It's interesting how after this relationship with this girl, I “ate” her passion as to porcelain or vintage clothing. It’s probably difficult for anyone to get through this wall of text, but if someone has read it all, I hope it might be insightful for them or that they see a part of themselves in what I’ve written.
Wow. Did not expect this..have been in a depressing place for so long, i dont even know. You gave me hope and much needed perspective. The heart and revelation you shared is life changing. From the bottom of my soul, thank you CS Joseph. One day i will thank you in person, if not here, in heaven. ❤
I think you have done exceptionally well integrating the octagram with the main udja test. Ive done a few shoutouts to you and the team in the private FB group, while mentioning that the tests are never going to be foolproof, but you have taken typology closer to the human soul than it has ever been. Sooner or later people are going to have to "fill in the blanks" or "do the work" as it were. Yeah, I think entps are much more accepting of loneliness which breeds resilience.
you made me cry....thank you there was a time when i could not cry, or laugh at my self. in Jr. high i walked and talked monotone until it was brought to my attention.
You are just repeating yourself all over again and nothing new. “Infj are lust types, they have the highest body count. Infjs are lust types they have the highest body count.” I understand your monologue as a man who is hurted by some infjs. But for the gods sake stop hate vomiting and accept your past. People abondened you, people cheated you and this is nothing to do with the mbti. Of course functions gives us some tips about someone’s personality but you can’t scapegoat all infjs for your past traumas. You choose those people for some reason. Not everyone have the same experiences with the infjs as you had in the past.
Just like recently, another depraved ENFP, went awol on me (why do I attract these guys like a magnet?). Because I had my integrity, and didn't bow to the emperor. He pulled everyone's strings to turn against me, and leave me behind, completely abandoned, once more. The pain, being eviscerated from the inside out, torn to pieces. Every single time. I can only hope, the guy finds the answers one day, and becomes a wise person. I am only left one option: Carry the scars, as yet another sentence for life.
@@danjiroxd3730 The lingering question: why? Trying to understand, what makes no sense. As Ti child is trying to get the logic behind it all, and finds nothing but lunacy. Followed by self-doubt, self-destruction, and effectively starting to believe, I must have done something wrong. Knowing well enough, there is not one single justified reason. And the mere act, of the people you supported and believed in. How quickly they turn from their smiles, to plunging a knife through your heart without second thought. The logic isn't there, and your child is being ritually murdered. Whether this happens to me, or someone else. It always tears my heart to pieces. Just because they justify it in their mind, doesn't make it just.
Damn that was a huge click!!! I INFJ cannot stand my ENFP blanket statements or judging groups of people together in serious wrath mode. Now I see why. Reject before rejected.
Is scrooge an entp? And tiny tim an infj? Idk , from how CSJ was speaking on his infj friends coupled with the raw emotion that he was exhibiting a hunch is telling me that scrooge might be entp. Thats also interesting cause iirc jung said that extroverted intuitives could be likey found in the field of BANKING, which scrooge was !! So idk, it's interesting
I started the journy on your yt chanel and wanted all seasons to learn but there is no season 4&6 so i stopped why is that so?!?!? Why cant you put it on yt?
I'm so lost at the moment (male infj, long time follower). I've had so many presentations and frameworks for myself of the "optimal life" and the best Ni this and that... I've even come to some really solid answers/truths too. But in the end, I have no one to share them with, no passion or no gift to spoil on anyone with, because people aren't accepting it. I want to share knowledge regarding to health, about psychology, about God, about money, about politics, about purpose, about etymology, about history, about "spirituality". People are simply uninterested in answers, or building. They want to follow their semi-serious, in the moment interest of things. No deep dive, no real treasure to be had, no change, no permanency, nothing to build towards. Just a little fun here, a little gossip there. You talk about lonliness, but all I see is my innate passion for life, spoilt by not having an outlet. Why should I live for *_myself?!_* . Sure, I can be critiqued by not having "found the right people". Well, if I need to turn every 1000 stone to find one, there is no guarantee I am the right one for them either. So here I am, sitting, wasting away potential, having found mostly what I wanted, but am not invested, because no one cares.
When you talked about Idols I remembered King Solomon in his final days, the wisest man in that time succumbed for the idols because of his hundred of wifes and concubines, he lost his identity, I believe he was an INFJ
I don't like the way you using labels on people but here's what u wanna hear, the "unhealthy INFJs" are the ones who stick with losers, who allow themselves get chained by the social norms, and the ones that are "healthy" in ur words are the ones who said, fuck this... I'm done... and I'm goin all alone...
From my experience infj are not lone wolfs just lonely healthy or not. I think the majority or infj surround themselves with people just to have a tripe even tho they don’t belong there.
I see a new CS joseph video on infj and I say, ok ready to ride the self growth train!! Very much appreciation for the work of genius you gift us!!!!
This entire lecture tore me up so much. I have been feeling alone all my life despite having people that love me dearly. The loss of relationships with women really made me think there is something wrong with me and that I could never feel truly loved by someone because there might be something inherently wrong with me. I am still not sure of my type but I feel and think that I am a soul temple templar. Feeling useless, misunderstood, help not appreciated, people simply not accepting me or using me for their gains due to my inherent desire to help. It was a rough ride those years but in the end I understood that you simply can't give up and end your life like INFJs and ESTPs do either via their own hands or by substance abuse, just like an ESTP friend of mine that has his brain fried from using different powders for years and is very close to suffering something to his head. What we have to understand despite of type is that it will eventually get better and there will be people there that will accept and love us for who we are. It might be hard to find them but they will come eventually and in that moment never let go of them.
Ok, How old are u?
Oh no, hearing you talk about loneliness is making me not look forward to watching this one
I apologize for such a long comment, listening to this material, somehow it moved me a lot and listening to it I thought about my situation and felt the need to share these thoughts.
I identify as an ISTJ, and it's interesting how all these Soul Temple types interconnect. When you talk about the struggles that INFJs and ESTPs face, I can somewhat see myself in them too. Similarly to those types, I crave closeness and deep connection. However, I don’t seek it within a group but rather in one special person-the love of a woman.
I’m currently 24 years old. When I was around 18, I was really drawn to characters like Yuno Gasai from Mirai Nikki or Zero Two from Darling in the Franxx. They had a way of making their loved ones feel desired, wanted, and cherished-they did so much for them. I would love to belong to a woman like that, to unite with her. To be hers, to be a treasure she would care for and nurture. One such person would be enough for me. Maybe I would also like to have a group, but only as a complement to my relationship with that girl-just to have someone extra to meet up with and do things together.
Since I was about 13-14 years old, when I first noticed my struggles with communication, shyness, and self-consciousness, I developed dysthymia and started exploring psychology. To this day, I strive to improve my communication skills, to become a better person, to understand more about myself and others, and to be more accepting and understanding. The popular phrase "love yourself" has never really resonated with me, and I’m still not convinced of my own worth (not that I’m beating myself up over it). I struggle with not being an ambitious person, which has kept me somewhat stuck in terms of career and financial growth. I know it's important, but I lack motivation. I have insecurities about not being a different type, about not being more like ESTPs-at least the way I perceive them. At one point, I even emailed every hypnosis specialist I could find, hoping to become more like them, or to have a mental switch that would let me step into a different personality when needed. But I’ve never been able to be someone else-I’m a terrible actor.
As for my core sin-wrath-I suppress it as much as I can, keeping my emotions in check. Only when someone really pushes my buttons do I explode like a volcano, though I can only recall a few instances.
Regarding Absolution, I do try to rationalize and justify others (or myself) if I see reasonable arguments. I aim to be understanding and non-judgmental, though I also feel like I stay objective. For example, a girl I was dating-whom I had typed as an ENTJ-told me about how some people at her job treated her poorly, making her feel uncomfortable. Instead of offering comfort, saying something supportive, or badmouthing them, I started analyzing their motivations-why they did what they did-and tried to explain to her that she shouldn’t be mad at them. At the same time, I ran a thought experiment, putting myself in her shoes, and acknowledged her feelings and how unpleasant their behavior was. I even pointed out that she is very proud, which is why she took it so emotionally. After that, despite us having slept together and despite her previously saying she would always be there for me and that I would always have a place in her life, she hasn’t spoken to me in a week.
As for the interesting thing you once mentioned is, that soul types are also like soul-eaters. It's interesting how after this relationship with this girl, I “ate” her passion as to porcelain or vintage clothing.
It’s probably difficult for anyone to get through this wall of text, but if someone has read it all, I hope it might be insightful for them or that they see a part of themselves in what I’ve written.
Wow. Did not expect this..have been in a depressing place for so long, i dont even know. You gave me hope and much needed perspective. The heart and revelation you shared is life changing. From the bottom of my soul, thank you CS Joseph. One day i will thank you in person, if not here, in heaven. ❤
i love nothing more than crying...Joy, sorrow, or laughter. Thank you for crying with me.
I think you have done exceptionally well integrating the octagram with the main udja test. Ive done a few shoutouts to you and the team in the private FB group, while mentioning that the tests are never going to be foolproof, but you have taken typology closer to the human soul than it has ever been. Sooner or later people are going to have to "fill in the blanks" or "do the work" as it were.
Yeah, I think entps are much more accepting of loneliness which breeds resilience.
you made me cry....thank you there was a time when i could not cry, or laugh at my self. in Jr. high i walked and talked monotone until it was brought to my attention.
Thank you very much for this precious and useful wisdom
I had to hold my tears and take deep breaths. Now I know why I do some stuff that I do. Thank you.
You are just repeating yourself all over again and nothing new. “Infj are lust types, they have the highest body count. Infjs are lust types they have the highest body count.” I understand your monologue as a man who is hurted by some infjs. But for the gods sake stop hate vomiting and accept your past. People abondened you, people cheated you and this is nothing to do with the mbti. Of course functions gives us some tips about someone’s personality but you can’t scapegoat all infjs for your past traumas. You choose those people for some reason. Not everyone have the same experiences with the infjs as you had in the past.
I'm 25 Male maybe SDUF or UDSF with zero body count but every month at least twice a time i have to suffer with extreme level internal sexual lust .
1 hour of 2 line repition?I think ur just hyper focused on that why who knows lol highly doubt it
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Mister by any chance are you a templar? you are exposing him there.
Rusted Typology and C.S. Joseph are the only channels that understand ESTP/SLE imo.
Just like recently, another depraved ENFP, went awol on me (why do I attract these guys like a magnet?). Because I had my integrity, and didn't bow to the emperor.
He pulled everyone's strings to turn against me, and leave me behind, completely abandoned, once more.
The pain, being eviscerated from the inside out, torn to pieces. Every single time.
I can only hope, the guy finds the answers one day, and becomes a wise person.
I am only left one option: Carry the scars, as yet another sentence for life.
I can relate to you because it happens this to me all the time. However, I can't imagine the damage it can cause to a lady.
@@danjiroxd3730 The lingering question: why?
Trying to understand, what makes no sense. As Ti child is trying to get the logic behind it all, and finds nothing but lunacy.
Followed by self-doubt, self-destruction, and effectively starting to believe, I must have done something wrong. Knowing well enough, there is not one single justified reason.
And the mere act, of the people you supported and believed in.
How quickly they turn from their smiles, to plunging a knife through your heart without second thought.
The logic isn't there, and your child is being ritually murdered.
Whether this happens to me, or someone else. It always tears my heart to pieces.
Just because they justify it in their mind, doesn't make it just.
@@AegisAmaranth
I feel this. 💙 / ENFP
Follow the teachings of Jesus Christ and King Solomon to prevent these depraved people.
ENFP is the personality type I dislike the most, they're so selfish and mean, almost all bullies I had in school were this type
Damn that was a huge click!!! I INFJ cannot stand my ENFP blanket statements or judging groups of people together in serious wrath mode. Now I see why. Reject before rejected.
People probably don’t understand what it means to seek connection and to have finally found it, even if it is just for very limited time.
That scene in Scary Movie 2 with the priest exorcism 😂
Thank you Chase
They will know we are God's children by our LOVE
Is scrooge an entp? And tiny tim an infj? Idk , from how CSJ was speaking on his infj friends coupled with the raw emotion that he was exhibiting a hunch is telling me that scrooge might be entp. Thats also interesting cause iirc jung said that extroverted intuitives could be likey found in the field of BANKING, which scrooge was !! So idk, it's interesting
Just imagine how much an individual had to lose to drop some wisdom outta their mouth such as Jesus. Just some food for thought.
C F Joseph :) :) :) i have my freedom to have my own opinion of you, I think you are REALLY cool!!!! Thank you good Sir, the soul society is pleased!
I started the journy on your yt chanel and wanted all seasons to learn but there is no season 4&6 so i stopped why is that so?!?!? Why cant you put it on yt?
i have social anxiety and seeing cs joseph just casually swinging and talking to himself in a public space is making me jealous but im a girl
This was a good one.
Lonelyness is the urge to be relevant
In this lecture specifically, when the word “God” is mentioned, are you referring to the God of the spirit realm, or the god of the material realms?
Good question
Algorithmic comment. The deadly sins are a very interesting topic. 👍🏻
I need a hug too 😅❤🎉
Captain leaves last brothers.
I'm so lost at the moment (male infj, long time follower). I've had so many presentations and frameworks for myself of the "optimal life" and the best Ni this and that... I've even come to some really solid answers/truths too. But in the end, I have no one to share them with, no passion or no gift to spoil on anyone with, because people aren't accepting it. I want to share knowledge regarding to health, about psychology, about God, about money, about politics, about purpose, about etymology, about history, about "spirituality". People are simply uninterested in answers, or building. They want to follow their semi-serious, in the moment interest of things. No deep dive, no real treasure to be had, no change, no permanency, nothing to build towards. Just a little fun here, a little gossip there. You talk about lonliness, but all I see is my innate passion for life, spoilt by not having an outlet. Why should I live for *_myself?!_* . Sure, I can be critiqued by not having "found the right people". Well, if I need to turn every 1000 stone to find one, there is no guarantee I am the right one for them either. So here I am, sitting, wasting away potential, having found mostly what I wanted, but am not invested, because no one cares.
I love you too chase
When you talked about Idols I remembered King Solomon in his final days, the wisest man in that time succumbed for the idols because of his hundred of wifes and concubines, he lost his identity, I believe he was an INFJ
Tell me who's not INFJ in ur eyes..
@LonerWolf1224 🤣
@@LauraINFJ Like seriously, why aren't u tired of hearing the word INFJ? Because this is ur kool-aid?
when i get hungry enough i cry tears of joy. weird.
my neighbor says i am a small talker.
Mitochondria will punish you when you lust or virtue wrong
Disagree re. comment of Islam. Sufism (islam) offers forms of mysticism and perhaps a different perspective.
i give creepy hugs.
i am not gay, and i don't like gay jokes though women make me uncontrollably nervous in person.
Why is ISTJ and ENFP not in the title? YOu are sooooooooooo inconsistent.
well this just ruined my mood
why are infj comments on here look so pathetic
specify unhealthy INFJ when you talk about them not all INFJ are lone wolf.
I don't like the way you using labels on people but here's what u wanna hear, the "unhealthy INFJs" are the ones who stick with losers, who allow themselves get chained by the social norms, and the ones that are "healthy" in ur words are the ones who said, fuck this... I'm done... and I'm goin all alone...
From my experience infj are not lone wolfs just lonely healthy or not. I think the majority or infj surround themselves with people just to have a tripe even tho they don’t belong there.
what in tarnation....
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