100k Subscribers Mega Video: Which Secret Could Ruin Your Life? (r/AskReddit Stories)
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"No one will probably ever see this but.."
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It’s not like any of them are going to be alive 150 years from now so it doesn’t matter
777 likes
Don't be an arse and ruin it
Wow, the video is 12345 long!
yes 1:23:45 seconds long, pretty funny
I wanted to like this comment but it currently also has 123 likes and I wont be the one to ruin that.
200k Special needs to be 678910 long!
oh wait
This made me realise this video is over an hour long
Wat?
The one where the kids body had been comepletely crushed and flattened but his head was still operational made me really sad tbh
Life is one sick and strange bastard man.
I hope he gets help for his PTSD one day.
It startled me.
timestamp?
Paramedic here, I had to quickly pour and drink a TALL glass of bourbon after this one.
You get used to shit, numb, to the point where you’re proud of being able to “handle” shit.
But kids always get to you. Even if the most horrifying stuff out there just rolls off your back, the shit involving kids being hurt somehow reaches through ever callous you’ve built up, right into the feels.
My very first 911 call was for a 5 y.o. girl in cardiac arrest. I was 19. My little sister was 5 at the time. I have no idea if she lived or died. We got expedited to another call after we worked her up and took her to the ED. I don’t remember her face. I only remember the sound of her father screaming and crying. I remember him grabbing me, with tears in his eyes, begging me to help her, to help him. I’ll never forget that sound.
I held it together throughout that call, and for the entirety of the shift. I cried the entire drive home. Had to stop a few times to compose myself.
I still think about that call at least once a day.
This happened innocently, there was no one at fault, so the most sickening part about this was that I was paid only $10/hour to operate with that amount of stress and responsibility. This was only a few years ago and hasn’t changed. I don’t make much more than that now, and have seen hundreds, if not thousands of scenes as horrifying as this.
My entire career is now dedicated to increasing the education, role, support, and salary of paramedics.
No one should feel that helpless. Not the parents, and not father. The medic shouldn’t have to deal with that and then have to decide whether to pay rent or to eat. The father shouldn’t have to decide to pay the tens of thousands of dollars or medical bills, or feed his remaining children.
The whole thing makes me sick. And this is coming from a guy who is traditionally a free market advocate.
I know that was long and probably something I should instead talk about in therapy, but it feels good to put it out in the open for the first time. Thanks reddit/YT.
The imaginary friend guy struck a chord with me. I'm 24 and often imagine I can transport myself to other worlds, going so far as to invest days at a time deciding how to handle certain issues I literally created myself. It started as a way to get to sleep faster, but now it has become the exact opposite. I don't casually fall asleep, I stay up thinking about this stuff until I eventually pass out. It's running my life, but I can't bring myself to stop. I feel like a hero there, and everything is exciting, when IRL I'm a boring IT nerd
That's cool i guess
I do that all the time. Hearing these stories makes me realize I'm not actually crazy. Thank you.
dont worry, you just have an imagination. ;)
You should write it down and see what it adds up to. Might be a great book rolling around your head and you don't even know it.
Maladaptive daydreaming disorder? There’s help for this, either way
To me Reddit Stories are like asmr, I put on my wireless headphones and walk around or sit and, just listen to Reddit. Its 5.56 am, I, still listening, watching this.
For me its 6:12 am
bruh I’m reading this at 5:56 am
wtf it’s 5:56am too
Yeet the Cow it’s so relaxing to listen how a man lost all emotion after he saw a child die after having his whole body crushed
4:43 lol
Holy duck, I got through the whole video!
I am at 52 mins atm. This vid is pretty good isn't it?
I'm at 20 mins but I intend on getting through the while thing :)
Currently starting the video hoping that I won’t waste my time
Lmao same when the video ended it caught me off guard
Same!
The one with the kid playing with marbles at a family dollar, holy fck. Such a horrific accident. That's some final destination type shit. That movie always scared me, not a regular horror movie type of scare, it was more of a paranoid and anxious type of fear.
7 year old me was afraid to leave my room for more than a second for 2 months afte i watched that movie
its probably not true
I can't drive behind or next to a log truck...
It’s not a true story. I have epilepsy. You don’t choke on your own tongue when you have a seizure. Period. It has never happened to anyone and won’t ever. Try swallow or breathe in your tongue, seriously.
Anyway, unless someone in this situation was trying to assume something and spouting it as fact, there would have been no legitimate information on his tongue choking him (meaning no dr, police officer, emt would have mentioned that).
Your username says it all 👏
so is no one gonna bring up the fact that a man killed 7 ppl...
That was one of the most shocking stories I've ever heard. How does one even deal with that?
@@samsmusichub Booze
@@Venislovas I would sure hope not. That doesn't sound like it would end well.
Time stamp???
SOVIET UNION it’s pretty early on
I didn’t realise how long this video was until about 50 minutes in when I was contemplating what to watch next and checked how long was left. Thanks dude for entertaining me all night when I Was originally just looking for a few minutes of time wasting.
jeppzer I always watch these videos while I draw
@@3juliano680 same
50 min = all night ??
CG Rx11xh Guxpp lmao
TH-cam and time wasting go hand in hand all sit down and watch a minute 4 hours later I'm still watching it
1:11:58 I thought this story was going to end with him not attracted to Jill because he had gotten so used to fat people
Same, but if you think about it, you can be attracted to different types of people/bodies
@@blakeelementalist2198 I know that, my mind just tends to go toward the darkest/saddest possible ending
Same!
I still think he was a douche.
@@ValerieRonquillo how for prefences are you high
That imaginary mom comment really hit me and i teared up.
I remember when I was a kid, I will hug my favorite pillow and cry myself to sleep and imagine the pillow is my mom.
My mom is still alive. I can't remember why I did that back then but right now we're not in speaking terms.
Me: My life sucks
*Me after watching this video*
Me: Actually my life is great.
Omg I have so much appreciation for what I got 💯💯💯
After hearing actual sociopaths and these dark secrets. It’s safe to say yeah I just do some bad things but I’m a good person. These guys make me wonder what else goes on
I went the other direction unfortunately. Violent and manipulative family growing up.
i feel like a great person after this
This video just makes me sad, so many deaths and people suffering, people turning into school shooters, sociopaths, and just getting depressed cause of other people.
That's what I have been saying, bc other ppl
I don't know men, I found some of them funny, I think that Im the one who is a sociopath, or at least have a very dark sense of humor.
That one dude who almost killed himself after his wife told him his baby was the size of a sweet pea was so heart warming!
Got me so emotional when I heard it while my gf was still pregnant.
My little sweet pea was born a few days ago and I couldn’t be happier
@@caucasiancracker7608 :D
@@caucasiancracker7608 hope your babies doing ok
Uhhh...what?
CaucasianCracker Im a month late but congrats! My nephew was a premie and barely weighed a thing and now he’s as chunky as ever so dont let that gets your hopes down people!
Some of these are genuinely horrifying. Currently listening to the 15 year old dude that manipulated the little girls.
Pearl S i am reading the same thing as im reading your comment
Same
I'm not going to condone his activity, however, she touched him first. Whilst he was asleep. That wasn't ok either. They're all fucked up.
@@GloriousVibe 10 year old's know what private parts are generally speaking. Again, it wasn't ok to touch him BUT as I said I don't condone his actions either. There are 10 year old freaks out there. Look at the James Bulger case. He was kidnapped by a 10 & 9 year old! Total little psycho's. It's important to keep in mind that if you can be a victim at any age, gender or ethnicity that a predator can be any of the above too.
@@Rodrigo13Solario 10 year old's also know it's not ok to touch peoples private parts generally speaking.
21:00 - Suicidal ideation is actually really common, because dying seems like a really good idea until you come close to experiencing it.
I've lived with suicidal ideation most of my life and I've also had multiple near death experiences (mostly unrelated, only one early suicide attempt.) I can tell you that in the moment, when you think your life is about to come to an end, you want more than anything to live. The vast majority of people who have attempted suicide and failed have confirmed this. That the last thing you ever experience is regret for actually going through with it.
Imagine plummeting to your death and instead of feeling liberated, as you expected, you only feel regret. Imagine how terrible an end that would be, knowing that there is no way you can reverse the terrible mistake you've just made.
Of course, knowing that doesn't change the fact that I still experience suicidal ideation and probably always will. But at least I know not to try anything stupid now, because the alternative is so much worse than bracing myself and enduring the temporary lows.
As the expression goes, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. And not a very good permanent solution either.
Skippy19812 agreed. Same goes for CQC (close quarters combat). The moment you realize your life could be over in the blink of an eye, it puts a wrench in your gut.
@@deutschlander2004 my best friend shot herself in the head she was only 17...
Thank you.
Im not proud of this, but i have being close to dead more than once, Im not suicidal, but I did some stupid things, every time it happened the same, at the moment I was thinking that that was the most stupid thing that I have ever done and yes, when your mind realizes that you maybe leaving this world soon, you feel a strong impulse to live and a rush of adrenaline. Then I had to meditate about for a good while, shaking and holding myself, making a retrospective in horror, thinking that I could have being dead by then, once I even wanted to send a gift to the person that designed a tool.
I have suicidal ideations frequently too. We have some guns in the house that I think about using. I feel haunted by them sometimes. They sit in our closet waiting for the day. It's less about shame or regret or past trauma and more about longing for something I fear I'll never have that if I ever saw a glimmer of hope for it would make the suicidal thoughts go away.
To the soldier that shot the kid, you did what had to be done. You are not to blame. Those who are to blame are those to blame are those wh6 weaponized a child. Get help from the VA, you have PTSD from the event I have it and meds and therapy helped and I now I have a happy life.
Even without getting to the part of the video where this is described, I agree with everything you said.
When someone has a weapon and can kill you or your buddies, and has the intent, shoot first.
I just listened to the part. I almost broke down...
It's not the boy's fault, it's not the soldier's fault. It's the father's fault. It's our fault, the world we live in.
A world where a 6-8 year old kid is shot after being given a grenade to throw inside a vehicle.
The kids are innocent. Actually tearing up writing this.
The VA sucks balls. They do attempt to help but are grossly underfunded. I do agree with you on everything however.
@Calvin KIRKPATRICK I'm just another keyboard warrior, wish I could actually do something to make the world a better place. Now I'm just passing through, trying not to be a part of the problem. That's the least we can do.
@Calvin KIRKPATRICK ❤️🙏
1:01:11 This one actually made me feel sick to hear
Fax
"i'm incredibly happy-Burnt out and done with all the crap"
Dude...I honestly do think you're depressed.
Has nothing to play on the pc
My life is over
Goodbye
Oh i have a bike that i love to ride?
I'm hella late but same
i was listneing like oh he actually doesnt sound deppresed and then he said that and i was like bestie.....
TL;DR incest, suicidal thoughts
,murder,accidental murder generally messed up stuff
Most of these are just Sweet home Alabama happened.
Sonic23 Black devil everybody just forgot about the dude with the voices in his head?Um... ok.
lol
How do fuck up a school shooting
Yoshi24 more like a single extra voice
@@jysgaming2934 they clearly didn't play enough video games
Geez ~ so much incest. Why?!?!?! ~ I thought these would be funny secrets but they are just shocking.
Guessing you don't like wincest
Statistically, incest is common human behavior.
@@mirzaahmed6589 more so in arab countries
Dont knock it until you try it
because, for several reasons, it'll get a lot of upvotes on Reddit. I'm not saying that's why all these people did it. I'm saying that's why so many people claim to have done it. And a few of them probably have. But most of them? Don't believe everything you see on the internet.
5:41
*With any luck, you were probably stirring some poor shmoe's porridge from last night*
op: he didn’t want to play and i pressured him to do it
also op: i am slightly to blame for the months of pain he endured
Actually watched the entire video, worth it.
And they said Infinity war was the biggest mashup
(32:20 min) to the guy that has in-laws who are demanding that you support them financially.
find a job in a nearby country (or online). Say you're going on holiday (makeup were you are going) and give them a gold necklace (fake) to pay for anything while you are away. Then just leave (with wife). Once you make enough money, move back to America.
It doesn't matter where you end up. You just have to get out of there!!
They can't follow you because they don't know where you are nor will they have the money to travel there.
you do know that the guy is not gonna see this bc they are two different websites right
@Vixen Feline how will she die by moving to america? also the culture difference does not make it right
I am in the same situation, I am probably going to break up with her because we are both still young. But my heart breaks everytime I think of that. The big part of it is missing friends and family and everything I've know just for this girl which I love very much. I've been away from the US for almost three years and have only seen my family for a couple weeks out of the years. And everytime I come back I want to stay more because they need my help financially as do my (in laws) not married yet but almost. But I can only support one family. I don't know what to do because either way my heart is being broken.
@Vixen Feline actually she would rather die more because she will be leaving her VERY dependent parents behind who are relying on her and her "husband" by extension to care for them. Such a mentality is deeply instilled into children and by guilt tripping them they stay in line. I have it similarly here but I want to take care of them by choice, maybe she has similarly. Either case, one of them is doomed to shatter
I would try to work out some sort of arrangement. Perhaps put the parents on an allowance that I could afford instead of just letting them ask for stuff over and over again. It also lets the parents budget themselves. After a while, move back to the US and offer to take the wife with me. Still maintain the allowance and promise to visit as often as possible. This could work, but it requires honest communication.
You can’t imagine how happy I am to see people well into adulthood who still have imaginary friends/relatives too 😭😂
Listening to all these story's makes me think I'm not such a bad person after all
Im on my wife's phone, but truth be told "GLENN BROWN" is me, LONG STORY SHORT one day me an my Muslim friend was walking an when we got to this bridge about to cross it there was this guy he was high an crazy all at the same time, so as we are about to walk pass this guy i look an on the ground was this phone so i picked it up an the guy was so high that he couldn't even focus so i grabbed the phone an kept walking, an my MUSLIM friend said why u taking his phone an i laff an kept it moving...that phone is charging up as i type this, i feel bad but hey life in Chicago...
BLESS U AN YOURS!
same bro
HIS NAME IS LITERALLY "SIBLINGF**KER" HAHAHAHAHAHA
Burner names man... Lol
Oh my God, I need to bleach my brain after reading about the brother who had sex with his drunk sister. Why, God?!?!?!?!?!
*Banjo plays in the distance*
SWEET
really? THAT'S what did it for you and not the sick and twisted abuse or the kid smeared under the car?
S W E E T H O M E A L A B A M A
blinKX10 boi calm downnnnnn some people have different triggers
The sweet pea story gave me chills. The universe creating weird coincidences like that have always fascinated me because like what are the odds?
2:57 my father lied about graduating from the university of Delaware for at least 38 years! He passed away a few weeks and he thinks everyone believed him but I know the truth! Rip daddy 💕
Hmm I have never waited for something to premiere
Cool
First time actually watching a video over an hour in one sitting. Good job and congratulations on 100k
Anni Z damn I remember hitting that milestone lmao.
Not my first time,
One word
*shane*
The imaginary friend one was wholesome. Really happy for the guy
All of the characters I’ve created are my imaginary friends. It’s the only way I can develop them into true people and write them into my story. Understanding them like people in my real world and true friends to me has helped me develop unique personalities for each and every character. Everyone has their own birthday, their own likes/dislikes, and their own experiences. It’s kinda fun
Oh my God, so I'm not crazy...? THANK YOU SO MUCH!
One year late to this comment but idc. You have no idea how much this comment helped me. I thought I was crazy because I do the exact same thing and basically create imaginary people and personalities. It makes me happy to know I’m not alone. Thank you
I'm 16 and I do the same thing. All day I'm constantly talking to myself cuz I'm talking to all the characters in my head. I always think, am I gonna be this way forever? Is it normal for an adult to have imaginary friends? I get so anxious thinking about it cuz I think I'm weird, but I've read comments of people being in the same situation and it really helps me a lot. Maybe I'm not as strange as I think I am. :)
That's what I've done all my life. People tell me just how good and realistic I write characters . That and mental breakdowns. I've never had a breakdown the way I wrote. I've never seen it.
Apparently my imagination is good enough to portray things like that.
I've lived as characters I made for up to a week before. No one noticed because I didn't act too differently.
I automatically convert almost any situation into a scenario for my characters. It's weird, ill be at dinner and my family are now the characters and I'm putting things together in a video style. (I can't see it, it's in my head. They don't actually change for me)
Am I ok?
@@shadow_shine3578 Hey, I do the same thing. Not the break down part, I mean I'll be interacting with everyone normally but in my head I'm putting all these characters into the same scenario that I'm in. Maybe that just means we have a bigger imagination or something. 🤷
I love how the mentioned "The Community."
That kinda was the theme of that beautiful show
I was molested when I was a kid. It went on for 7 years. he convinced me that god made a mistake, and that i was supposed to be a girl. He would dress me in his sister's clothes; by the time I was 13, believing that I was a girl, I was dressing up as one, in private, every day. As an adult, I'm now a crossdresser. But I'm actually only attracted to women. No woman wants a crossdresser for a husband. So I've been alone for a very long time. Life is ruined whether I tell or not, I just couldn't stand the ridicule if it ever became public knowledge that I only feel normal in girl's clothing. People tell me I should try being gay; they don't understand that unless you are, you can't be. We don't get to choose our sexuality, OR our gender identity.
Drag exists and is pretty widely accepted in most of the West US, North-East US.
i'm sorry to hear about your past and i hope you're able to find a girl out there who's attracted to you despite cross dressing. as a lesbian i can't personally give input but i'm sure somebody out there won't mind. as the first response displays, some girls think it's cool.
wishing you best of luck and i hope you're doing well x
I mean, I'm a bisexual woman and I would be open to dating a cross dresser. Why not? Who am I to judge another person's identity? I just wouldn't let you wear my clothes because you might stretch them out lol
dil bert sure...
I am not a 'pretty' crossdresser. I'm built like a linebacker, and to most, I just look ridiculous dressed in the female clothes that I feel like I should be wearing. Other crossdressers tell me I should wear 'age' or 'figure' appropriate women's clothing, but that stuff doesn't feel any more normal than men's clothing does. So I'm stuck.
50 minutes in and i just realise that its 1am + i have an early start of school tomorrow + exams + didnt do my essay + monday + i didnt know people were in worse situations
"I'm sorry miss! You were very nice." XD
About that one at 18:00- I really wish people would know that apathy is a form of depression too.
Yuuuuup. Lethargy and Apathy sometimes kind of go hand in hand, I assume any ways, because I have a hard time caring about people around me, (including my own sister) My mom and like, two people, legit, are the only 3 people I have any real emotional connection too.
Yeah, but that's different. It's definitely sociopathy. Sociopaths are made, not born. And they're dangerous.
Mikey Menthol plz get help
YES!!
@@sakuraogami6885 that's highly debatable. New studies are being done all the time with differing results. Certain gene's can make you prone to it in addition to a traumatic event and it's not necessarily dangerous. In fact it makes you able to disassociate your emotions in difficult situations. They make great lawyers and CEO's for example because they're not emotionally invested, they just do their job. Not having empathy means they don't get bogged down with other people's drama, they don't get emotional, they just keep on going. The know the difference between right and wrong at the end of the day. They still have morals. Sociopaths are notorious for caring for pets but not for people, as strange as that sounds.
I’m secretly a light sleeper. Whenever someone tries to wake me up I let them say my name a few times before I “wake up”.
I do that like so much I am ashamed.. I wait a few minutes for them to stop calling then either they will say something which I listen or they start to move at which time I call them acting sleepy..
The one about the 30 year old with a imaginary friend reminds me of my favorite movie when I was a kid called Drop Dead Fred . If you haven’t seen it get your life.
Nature seriously needs to pick up the pace on a new plague.
Lucian Judge I don’t know why I laughed at this, but I did
@@cutliss I'm pleased.
I haven't even watched the video because my screen is still buffering. Now I am curious what prompted this remark. Lol
@@BurgundyandBlue1111 Sorry this is my second account so I didn't get the reply, but I hope you figured it out lol.
Done
Sincere congratulations bro! Hope I can get there one day.
So weird how men will get stuck on that ONE girl in middle school and be like I can’t trust women anymore
Happens with some women too. We’re emotionally vulnerable creatures too. All our early experiences affect us.
@@alexc2265 I'm a woman with an issue like that. Your first relationship is a special one. To have it fucked with to the extent that other kids will push it to will ruin your relationships for the rest of your life
It's even more weirder when that "one girl" almost kills you in a state of extreme hatred....
That dude at 43:18 who was tricked isn't alone. I saw a lot of girls around that age try and mess with guys like that. It's some kind of sick game they play. It feels like a 'shit test' because when they tried something on me during a lunch period I told them Ms Imaginary could come and say hi or deal with the fact nothing would happen, take it or leave it. It seemed that rebuking it so casually improved how the girls saw me, hence thinking it's some unintentional shit test. Later when talking to other guys I found out they'd been doing that lame stuff on-and-off for the past couple of weeks. The other dudes in my class thought it was just them getting trolled, but it was happening everywhere. The girls went through several grades with it eventually.
I moved schools and saw it again on the other side of my country. Was surreal. Talked to older boys when hanging out and they knew exactly what I was talking about. The younger girls seemed to work through the grades they were in and once they reached a certain age the older boys had seen it all before and teased the behaviour out of them. That seemed to consistently be what stopped it. Older boys calling them out as lame ducks.
I think of all those girls who sockpuppet or Facebook con guys and I guess they scam money with the same sort of plays when they get older. I really think people should start dropping the hammer on that garbage behaviour.
The one secret that could ruin my life? I have a secret that could ruin someone else's life if I ever told it.
But me? I'm bisexual.
1:17:02
*Henry VIII has entered the chat*
oh my fucking god this is the best comment on this video
Disasterpiece lmaooooo
I remember in like 3rd-4th grade my best friend (Girl, i am male, We'd "Dated" before on and off and I still thought of her like that) came out as bi. She basically said she had a crush on her female friend and I was just shocked. I couldn't talk to her for a few days, did reflection on the play ground, I really hate how I acted and really wish i was more accepting, I'd never really encountered an LGBTQ person before and added with the fact that i like-liked her, It really broke me. fast-forward a few years and now we're dating, set up by a friend who has since moved away, and i still feel so dirty about all the times I've mistreated her earlier on, as she's such a great friend and I love her so much. Sorry for the book, thanks for reading.
Confront her about it, let her know how much it's bothered you and offer your apologies. I'm sure she will understand as you were just kids.
That dude with the voices.... creeped the shit out of me.He obviously has a problem, but they sound like they keep him in line, so creepy.
Yoshi24 same with the guy with the imaginary friend. That’s something you grow out of early in life but he’s a 30 year old man talking to a cartoon character that isn’t there.
Calub_Wendex 123 most of these stories are pretty creepy....
when you logically deduce that life is not worth living, you get into the strange position of being a content and happy suicidal person.
weird how that works isn't it?
Lol ikr? You go from hating everything to just not giving a shit. I feel like if someone bullied me again, I'd beat them to a pulp or bleach their eyes. I wouldn't even give a shit about going to prison, just knowing that justice has been served to someone who's made people's lives shit.
I like these types of videos but they are a growing epidemic and they take no effort.
StrawberryBleach Spot on mate.
It's not that we hate them. We hate knowing that they're low-effort yet mindlessly entertaining.
We also hate that, for some reason, we don't just set up channels for ourselves and do the same.
Yea, I have encountered feelings about that.
Oh man spot on
I was bored and watching this and just realized I finished it... Woah
I feel like I should stop watching these because there are not good for my mental health
I hear multiples of my own voice in my head, they overlap sometimes, and they all have differing ideas
You could have DID
@@BrookLyn-qb6zp ive heard DID is the new term for split personality disorder, is that accurate?
@@hithere7080 yes it's the new more accurate name for multiple personality disorder.
@@BrookLyn-qb6zp thx for the information
Why are so many people doing incest???
It happens sometimes my dude
Alabama
Holes is holes
I mean...
It’s an unspoken reality of our world
I started bawling after hearing about that 4 year old boy under the car.
I've cried every time I hear it.
Time stamp??
17:54
I find the concept of non-existence so comforting. I read somewhere a long time ago, can't remember where either, that maybe it's just like before you're born. Everything else still keeps going and exists it just does so without you. I have no concept of before my birth as I didn't exist, and I'm comforted by hoping it's the same after I'm gone too. Relieves a lot of pressure and makes life feel more fleeting, which is good and bad depending on what mood you catch me in.
That video is off the charts intense. Obsene and horrifying.
Just imagine being bullied for years and years, and then you being the one who is arrested
The world is really sad
It's kinda uplifting (in a twisted way) knowing that his bullies probably got rightfully scarred for life knowing that they were probably seconds away from getting killed.
Is this about the school shootings one
I might sound insensitive, but i'm kinda glad my life is not a fraction as bad as most of these posts.
After watching this, I suddenly realize I'm not that weird.
For the story about being Schizo. You'd be surprised how many people pass it off as other less severe disorders before they find out or you tell them about it. Many people are surprisingly nice about it. I've had multiple relationships from a young age to 17. My last relationship I was 21 when I left. Now currently in a new relationship after 8 months of recovering from the heart break. He knew from day one and has learned to be apart of my treatment. He gets me medication when i'm in a bad spot and don't think to get them or can't even get out of bed or move because the hallucinations can be terrifying. He's cried trying to get my meds as fast as he could. He's felt like he couldn't do enough to help me. All he really has to do is help me sometimes and support me, help me make it to appointments and so on. You are not weird. Your brain is just wired different. You may have odd habits or odd behaviors but there is someone out there that will love you for you enough so that they want nothing but the best and to be apart of your recovery and stability. It took me 4 years to except that I'm Schizo. I denied it only because I didn't want to be crazy. But I just am sometimes. Nothing's wrong with that. You don't need to be afraid. We live in a much more accepting country (US). Times have changed. The only one's that use it against you are the one's I tend to think are much worse off then I am. I even find myself saying "I thought I was crazy.." A LOT.
This is my first time making it to a Premiere .. weird stories but the chat was great :).
You deserve all your subscribers. Keep up the good work!
12:42 i do too, im 13 and i used to be sad all the time and i begged my parents to take me to therapy but my older 22 y/o brother is more important than me to them, the past few weeks ive been seeing,hearing,and have been interacting with people that arent in my room and they make me feel happy. My real family ignores me constantly but Dianna and Conan talk to me and make me feel so much better than before but i dont eat because of them, i dont eat for 3 days straight and then i just eat a few chips if im hungry. They talk to me 24/7 and i don't leave my room (thats why i don't eat). I cry myself to sleep because i can't hear them anymore, i only sleep 1-2 hours a night and wake up at 3am on the dot for some reason and i dont know why, i have sleep paralysis when i do sleep. Sorry if this was long but i needed to vent ;-;
That one about the kid that was only a head and dying with his body crushed under the car really got to me
Holy frick. How did I not realize how long this was until I reached the end. Nice video. 😃
I can imagine Jake from Brooklyn nine nine in cargo shorts walking towards the table.
That one about financial stability in college and the girl turning to prostitution really fucking got to me. I’ve barely started college, I don’t have a job but my parents pay for everything even though we aren’t well off. College terrifies me, I didn’t want to leave my home, I have friends but I don’t see them often and it’s very hard for me to get close to people. I come home every weekend and it’s the best part of my week. That person reassuring that nothing is worth damaging yourself emotionally makes me feel a lot better about my failing of some classes, no matter how bad it gets, I’ll always have my family to fall back on and second chances in the future. Even if it’s really small and something most people will probably go through, new college experience is really stressful.
i just saw a person saying that the fear of nonexistence is stopping them from killing themselves... i think that if i did not believe in eventual nonexistence i would be depressed/criminally insane.
tossed_away_1900 is most likely a sociopath, lmao. Poor dude.
56:20 listen to this one if you’re curious how a monster sounds
7:20 nearly made me cry at the end there. Not to be all dramatic but I've actually been very depressed lately and reading that actually helped me feel something good in a long while. Thank you whoever put this together! You made my night.
it's so annoying to hear that "always remember some one loves you" one because even tho i'm not suicidal i know nobody loves me and it always makes me feel like ass
Even if you can't see it at the time, there is always somebody out there who loves you. You just have to be able to pick up the signs. I don't know your situation obviously but I do know I've been in a similar situation, the truth is you honestly just have to be able to express your feelings. They can't care if they don't understand what's going on.
I thought I was like 10-20 minutes in, when suddenly the video ended :P Thanks for the upload
I feel bad for almost every single person in this video, this is depressing
God of the Cripples key word: a l m o s t
Wanted__Fun /DaDdY/ I mean the cat earlobes one..
The love of my life killed himself less than 5 feet in front of me. His last words were “Its loaded. I’m gonna do it. I love you, I can’t live without you... see you in hell.” It’s fucked me up ever since. I’m now dating a close friend of mine of over 10 years. He adores me, but I just can’t feel or give love anymore. I feel so empty, & often regret not having ended mine right afterwards. I miss him so much & it hurts to know I’ll never bring myself to love anyone again.
1:02:28 😭😭😭Omg i cracked up at the comment, because that was me!💀
holy mega videoo keep up the work Upddot the ids are amazing
"Herpes ruined my life" honestly sounds like satire. I know it probably isn't, but that's too funny
These are like my podcasts. I listen to these while cooking, cleaning, showering, walking to the bus stop- etc
21:20 ish, that spoke to me. The wishing for death part. Im lonely, I'm tired, and I'm bored. Only thing keeping me alive is the knowledge of what suicide does to those around you.
There was this one movie where the protagonist walks in on a Robbery.. or maybe it happened while he was in the checkout, he begged the robber to pull the trigger, even put the barrel of the shotgun in his mouth. He then disarmed the guy. Can't remember the rest. But I can't forget that scene.
You're not alone man. I want to die so fucking badly but I know it'll fuck up my family who all think I'm living a happy life. I feel like the only way I can satisfy both is if I die saving someone's life, going out as a hero.
That Community reference was awesome and epic
Wow, im less than a month later, you gained 62k subs. Really cool.
the sweetpea story was one of the only things on youtube thats gotten me near tears, im so glad hes doing welll now
I can't stop watching (or making) these types of videos.
I too, am scared of just.... Being non existent. I am happy, everythings fine, its just.... Scary... As hell
This is the human condition. If anyone has no fear of nonexistence then they are disconnected from reality. I occasionally have thoughts day to day " Why am I here? Why do I exist just to fade away?" The way I deal with this is using this logic and it calms me "Everyone will die, Every one will be afraid when the time comes, everyone with experience pain, and nobody asked to be here. I will be ok, the pain of dying will not last forever, it will come for me and the only option is to face it with your head held high." Then I move on with what I'm doing.
Watching this really shows how much better I got it
Love all these Ara Ara stories. :’) Brings a tear to my eye.
awwww the one about the blind brother made me sad because they just left him and watched him get anxiety
Thus whole thread was very, very dark. So many troubled people in the world.
Define troubled....
@@piotrexyzerthefrumentarius7472 people with mental illnesses.
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I have this one blouster that's the length of my body and I would pretend that it's my imaginary boyfriend and would have stories in my mind about a lot of different scenarios and would fall asleep snuggling into his chest while rubbing his abs lol Also often I get angsty because mt blouster boyfriend cheated on me and I would sleep against it (the blouster is on my back, I pretend that he hugged me from behind calming and comforting my imaginary angst) then switched back and kissed the blouster lol omg I'm so embarrased.
watched the whole video in a day lmao.great vid
God daaaaamn, that hidden bunker one. The very first one, lmao
Diddly dang darn I'm very very very late but I got through the whole vid and it's great
i listened to this video while playing the Sims 4 then Minecraft.
I love watching your videos especially during my painting sessions :D
Interesting choice
Indeed
I listen to one of these every morning just to hear someone tell me "have a great day magnificent people"