"I'm planning on getting some pet ducks" I don't know why you have to keep that a secret, but it's adorable and I wish you and your new friends the best.
The story where the grandfather harmed the granddaughter and the grandmother is saying forgive and forget. No. No. Mom good on you for protecting your daughter but the memories are extremely likely to resurface when she’s older along with signs of trauma and possible PTSD. Please make sure your daughters in therapy.
To that 14 year old girl - babydoll PLEASE say something to your parents about that neighbor. What he's saying is completely inappropriate and we never know what others are capable of. He has no right to make you feel yucky or sexualized - nobody does but especially adult men and women.
My parents dont know I heard every time my mother broke down at night wailing about nothing mattering anymore and she had nothing left to live for. My classmates from high school dont know that softmore and senior year my mother attempted suicide in front of me.
the worrying about age one got to me.... I fucked my entire life up by believing I wasnt going to make it out of highschool alive as I had such severe depression. I turned down major art schools who wanted me because i didn't want my parents to face that financial burden when I offed myself so I just did nothing. I took AP classes all throughout highschool which would have made me a sophmore in college when I graduated but I didnt want my parents to have to pay for the college credit so I would have to take them over when I got to college. on top of this all the art schools were 2 hours away, which wasn't a lot but I feared if I went and had no one it would just further push me to the edge. Plus my family has all lived together in the same small town since the dawn of time, literally extended family and all. I refused to go and just worked 2 jobs, my mom was so worried about my mental health that she got me an interview at cosmetology school and signed me up that day so I would have something to pull me out of it. Ill admit it did help but 2 years after graduating I realized I hated it and all the money you make goes right back into your booth rent. I practically blew through my savings helping toxic friends out of bad places just to have them turn around and steal from me. at the same time my bf had a HORRIBLE homelife, so we practically couch surfed and lived out of my car. looking back IDK how we ever survived. we built ourselves back up from the ground, we have now been together for 7 years with two BEAUTIFUL little boys. He is a fuel delivery driver for CO-OP and I am a daycare provider. now that life has settled down a bit I have gotten back into my art and people keep commenting that they didn't know how much I loved it or how capable I was and that if they had known they would have pushed me in that direction instead. I lovehow my life is now with my boys, but I SO wish I would have gotten my art degree instead of cosmetology license. I dont think my life would have turned out MUCH different, but at least the 20k in hairschool could have been towards something I actually enjoyed, had more confidence in my art and myself, explored my creativity etc. all cosmetology did was link me up with extremely toxic customers who stressed me out so bad and even threatened me at one point that we almost lost my first son and i had to be on bed rest the rest of the pregnancy. IDK.... I'll never forgive myself for the shit i put myself through
on my reddit account i had no identifying info but on one subreddit i made one 3 word comment about something my sister said and she found it. i found out only because my mom mentioned that she told her that she found it and she was watching it. almost shit my pants cause im a kinky bi™️ but in the closet and i used that account for porn and often commented on lots of different porn subs. i panicked and quickly deleted most comments on porn subs but still have no idea what she found. moral of the story dont assume no one will know just befause you're using a throwaway
When that guy talked about not being sure how his abusive ex shaped his view of women, I thought about myself. I was never abused by a woman physically but I slept with so many women in relationships that Im incapable of trusting a woman in a relationship scenario. As a result Im 39, and single. Im a decent looking man, but haven't been sexually active in a few years because I have no interest in using people or being in a relationship. I dont understand loneliness, just never felt lonely so its not a problem, but Im sure my life would have turned out different if I didn't spent my life up to 30 notching my belt like a teenager.
I'm not doing so well myself. I literally force myself to be happy. And on the days when I can't, and just trying to get along with everybody takes a serious drain on me. I try to be the happy guy, the one who's always there for you, and always try to smile and be positive, but there are days when it's just not possible for me, and those days are becoming more frequent. I'm also a pathological liar, but I don't know how to stop, and I'm really scared of who I am becoming and I don't know how to change that. I feel like a burden to every one, and I try to be helpful, but it feels like I get in everyone's way and piss them off. I have driven my parents marriage to the edge, and I don't know if the person I'm becoming should even be in society. I'm also very needy, and dependable on others, but I try not to be, yet I feel like I'm always coming across that way, even more so when I'm trying really hard not to. I can't ever tell anybody this. It's hard being someone you are not, and it's wearing me down. I feel like I'm not talented in any way. I also feel lonely, and I get really bad anxiety thinking about being left alone, and what would happen if I lost a friend or family member, and that when someone leaves for the day at school, or just from visiting, or just going places, I worry that it's the last time I'll ever see them, and I did something wrong the last time I saw them.
I hope you aren't telling the truth, but if you are , my apologies if I'm downplaying this. It must be terrible to have constant anxiety do to your various reasons, I can't claim to understand what you're dealing with. At most I try to keep a positive attitude, but there are times when I worry about people, not just family but also strangers. I'm sure I've had terrible memories when I was younger that seemed to have been repressed, but I can't for the life of me, remember much except for some songs. I tend to let a positive attitude take over, which helps relieve, due to everything getting caught In a current of ' it's fine '. I'm sorry if you truly do suffer, I don't wish that upon anyone. Please be safe and enjoy your day.
Blake Ingram please know you are not reason for your parents split. They are people with problem just like everyone else and even if your mental issues could’ve started some fights at the end of the day the fights you feel responsible for would of happened one way or another. If you need someone to talk to you please DM me (@EmpressAngelica on everything).
@Adam Nope It was a long time ago, but iirc it says at the end of the video to type that. But yes, love all doggo's! Mine and others (I love my elderly whippet so much
Meanwhile I'm over here telling my kids we're eating peppa pig for dinner. 🤷♀️ They loooove eating peppa pig. Kids should be informed about their food.
A few years ago my boyfriend went to a bachelor party where they got drunk and had a nerf war. He said that’s probably what he’ll do for his bachelor party. I’ll probably spend the day at the water park riding water slides then hit up a bar for some dinner and drinks. Neither of us are into strip clubs.
That I am bi and no matter what relationship I make with people outside my family they end up attracted to me. I have been refusing to make new relationships for almost a decade and live a friendless single life because I cannot trust people or know who is honestly affectionate or just infatuated. Those who don’t seem attracted end up treating me badly or worse. The only people I actually talk to regularly are those behind a cash register and it means way too much to me when those folks make small talk. I guess I would ask that those who bothered to read this treat random customers nicely because it may mean so much to them. More than you know perhaps.
Mamãe, sou cult I don’t think so but everyone tells me I am. My last ex used to call me pretty boy and it bugged me a bit because at first I thought she was teasing. I have read though that people don’t know how attractive they really are just as recordings of our own voices don’t sound right to ourselves. I think my personality is kinda attractive if I had to pick something but mostly I don’t get it. I have wondered many things about it from my skill set to my knowledge and even thought at some point it may be pheromones but I just don’t see what others do is all I can tell.
Mamãe, sou cult Aside from the sad stuff that happened to me growing up with a number of adult women I used to be tricked into kissing girls in elementary with the ol “close your eyes” surprise bit. Girls in late elementary would tell me they liked me and other guys would suddenly not be my friend including my best friend. High school was too full to go into in detail but two notable things was a guy who quickly established himself as a friend and while over to play smash bros he made his intentions very clear and by the end of high school I had a stalker who followed me to college and assaulted me. In college I was called bold and a social magnet. For some reason since high school people would give me lots of dirty magazines. In college I had so many (because I am weird about tossing out gifts even if I don’t want them) I half filled a steamer trunk. At one point when I barely cared anymore a large group of women I knew just came over randomly and hung out while reading the mags. I mean, not even going into everything even I think this all sounds like a lie despite having lived it. At this point in my life I only ever think about one woman who I last saw crying while saying goodbye. I wonder if that was the one because in retrospect I think of her most often. I still don’t understand if I am doing something wrong or just happened to not realize my life is normal and those things happen to a lot of people. I just know the way I feel about it and that I end up with love hate relationships only. Edit: I forgot to mention that it happens when I am in online communities as well regardless of what gender people think I am. I stopped playing games online that are not single player since I already quit three games I liked because of this stuff. People can get pushy and even vindictive I am sure most know about online things.
Yeah you haven’t realized you life is not normal. People being unable to like you unless being sexually attracted to you is usually a sign of a bad personality.
i feel this too. im way way way overly nice to EVERYONE even if they dont deserve it, its just my personality. and for that reason people constantly think im flirting with them or we become friends and they get way too close, OR people HATE me and are extremely mean to me in a way to prove im a "fake" or secrelty a bitch or something idk man its weird i also have a bf of 7 years and i swear the same happens to him as well lmao, maybe everyone deals with this though but doesnt talk about it?
that first one, pro tip, never give more than 2 weeks notice, i gave 2 months notice about leaving for college and for the month after my manager switched me to afternoons even though i'd been working exclusively mornings for over a year, until my morning supervisor got mad and made her switch me back, i lost some speed and she told the manager that if i came back(i didin't) to never put me on afternoons again lol
36:28 The OP in this story might be dealing with maladaptive day dreams, which is an actual disorder and they should probably see a psychologist. I just realized another comment said the same thing.
36:06 That confition has a name. It's called maladaptive daydreaming. There are support groups in the internet for that if anyone reading this needs to know.
I didn’t know this was a thing until I watched Anthony padillas video on it, but I been doing maladaptive day dreaming for the past 16 years. I though everyone was like this with day dreaming but apparently not
2:28 I hope he passed his exams with flying colors! I believe in you OP 4:29 hey I am 25 and I will always love Winnie the Pooh he's just the best always wholesome! also happy early January 18th National Winnie the Pooh day to everyone!)
14:33 This is kind of funny to me for a few reasons... 1. My mom admitted to me back when I was in middle school that she actually likes watching My Little pony/Littlest Pet Shop/Strawberry Shortcake (the animated version where they all look like anime characters/dolls) and 2. My mom is *_OBSESSED_* with Micky Mouse she claims that it's only because she likes to mess with me and my brother but judging from her actions and how many other kids shows she likes I'm pretty sure she's not being completely honest...
i'm probably arospec and only one of my close friends knows, i can't tell my parents, they were totally okay with me being bi, then gay, but i know that if i tell them that i think i'm arospec they won't understand and will say that "you just haven't met the right person yet", and i'm petrified about what my other friends will think, because a lot of them followed this awkward not-a-relationship-but thing i had with another friend, who i no longer speak to, and i think they'd get mad at me for "leading her on."
My secret is that every day, before getting out of bed, I make sure to think of a reason, any at all, to not just call it quits and kill myself. And recently it's taken longer and longer to come up with one.
10:38 holy shit that's exactly what happened to me? a few months ago me and my friends fell out, i'm all alone all the time so now i just stay at home playing games by myself and stuff.
See,this thing of divorce where the wife walks away with everything,is why I always say install surveillance and for fucks sake sign a bloody prenuptial contract
For the artist yujiko. Its fine. Thats what the software is for. I do the same sometimes or what im starting to do is draw guidelines on the figure then draw them out using the guidelines as a reference. Thats a pretty good way to work on anatomy. But TH-cam has different ways i suggest going there too and looking up ways to improve more. ^^ good luck!❤
I think the thing I never told people is that I feel very lonely in social situations, because of my social anxiety and that I know most normal functioning people wouldn’t understand why I am the way I am. About my past I been told to “let it go” but you can’t let CPTSD go just like that. I have barely worked on my traumatised mind, only this past year and a half of sobriety have i worked on my mental health. I used to just be a pushover that drank my life away, and let people guide how I should feel. It’s been 9 years but it still feels like yesterday, the trauma is hauntingly always there in my mind. I don’t think I will ever be socially normal. I have only ever know people in psych wards, special schools, psychiatric boarding schools, and relationships with men have only been sexual, since I got so weirdly obsessed with sex after being assaulted at age 13. I don’t even think I’m a real person, I’m not normal, it’s all an act to fit in. The mask I wear to please other people is so incredibly tiring, I’m so fucking broken. I’m only starting to heal now 2022, my trauma started 9 years ago. Tho I will say i was always the odd one out of everyone, in my friend group. I’m finally starting to be a person I want to be, not a person controlled by the people around me, or the person extreme emotions caused by my alcohol and drug abuse. That people keep telling me wasn’t that bad, acting normal is easy when everyone is fucked on alcohol. I’m single and ready to heal from the past, but it’s not just an easy fix and I know that. I kept putting it away in a box to deal with later, don’t put it in a box for later when you are breaking apart every single day, it ain’t healthy is something I would tell my younger self.
also that one about the daughter being molest jesus christ..... 1. why would the grandma, wife of the monster, stay with him and think its no big deal? he can obviously reoffend again 2. makes me wonder if she allowed it to happen to her own children and the one daughter just also doesnt remember
Annisa Mohammed Sell them on rhinos, those guys are great. Or pandas are good too! Personally I am quite partial to the passively deadly pangolins. Just avoid the gross animals which seem nice at first like armadillos who carry leprosy or hedgehogs who routinely cover themselves in their own waste. A friend of mine once had a chinchilla... he wasn’t aware that they shot urine like a squirt gun when startled or annoyed... which is only slightly better than bearded dragons who shoot blood from their eyes at you.
Ive told a few people this, but literally everyone ive ever had a relationship with (friends, partners etc) hate me, or wont speak to me, I have no idea why hinestly, but i think its my fault, except maybe the first few, i spent most of my child hood around emotionless abusive friends and i guess i have no idea how to navigate any kind of friendship so i always fuck it up, i made some new friends recently and im utterly terrified theyll hate me or find out that everyone ive ever known hates me :///
I relate to this story waaaay too much and I don’t know if it’s normal or not and I end up feeling bad that I don’t keep up with people like I should 32:21
15 years left! Try 5 - 6, and almost all from cancer including both parents and both grandmothers. One grandfather died in an accident and the other from a heart attack (when he was 5 years younger than I am now). My father and his mother died from pancreas cancer; oddly enough, so did my father-in-law. Please send any extra, good karma my way. Thanks!
I've only ever (recently and in complete detail) told my younger brother about this back when he started getting on my case for being distant from/practically disowning my father but I literally have no positive memories of my father. Even the more recent "bonding times" I don't really look at in a positive or negative light since I usually only participated because I was at my godbrother's house and he's really annoying (he's probably at least 9-10 now and he's matured a lot but back then he acted like a two year old despite being maybe 5-6 if not older thanks to some kind of (I'm assuming) mental disorder) so I would always choose to hang out with my father since it was the only way to avoid said god brother. But why is this the case? Well, a few days before my fifth birthday my parents found out that I had been being sexually assaulted for at least a year if not more...(I've actually managed to get over this by now mostly thanks to this next part) at first everything was fine but shortly after this revelation my dad practically abandoned us and I was so traumatized that I started taking it out on my grandmother (we had to move in with her) until my mom told me that my grandmother was innocent. Fast forward a few years and my father came back because he had lost his job/house and had no where to go. According to my mom I was really excited to see him again and wanted a relationship with him (I have no memory of this--although I do remember the negatives clearly) but my father started verbally abusing me for anything I did that he didn't like, even if it was just that I didn't answer him and would just nod my head, but he never really punished my brother even if he did the same thing. I became so terrified that I ended up developing an even more severe case of androphobia (fear of men) than I already had thanks to my previous PTSD and actually forced myself to forget how much I had loved my father prior to him abandoning/abusing me because it hurt me too much to remember...he's actually started to be a better father but I still can't bring myself to interact with him because of just how traumatized I was...
I've been in love with my boyfriend for 5 years, and we're coming up on our 1 year anniversary. I know he's the one for me. I've wanted to marry him since before we started dating. I've literally had dreams about us at the altar, fantasies of being able to dance with him in my wedding dress, what I want our kids to be named someday. I've already had a name for a daughter for years because I found it so pretty. I want him for my whole life and absolutely not a single other person. He is the only one who I find attractive, the only one I love, the only crush I've ever had, the only one I feel everything over. I just really hope he feels all of that too. He's my soulmate l, and he says I'm his. The only one who knows about my wedding fantasies is my mom. I just want him in my life with me.
So like, I have the same issue as the person with the "other world," and it's not the greatest, I mean, I love my inner world and all, but I can sometime confuse my daydreams with reality, but I also whisper to myself when I do it, so I'm pretty sure I've strain my tongue and/or my jaw, because I'm almost constantly whispering to myself, like I've done it since I was like 8 or 9 and it's just starting to cause problems
Not one person not even Chef Ramsey couldn’t hold enough knife to any part of my body for me to give up some tailpipe behind a dumpster. I can do enough damage after a neck wound for CSI to know it was definitely an altercation turned deadly at least.
I too have lived in my head. but I was vary young and told I couldn't do anything right. I was lead to bereave I couldn't even feal pain properly. instead of a fantasy world it was a continuation of my failings. also if I did something well it was still a disappointment. and would only increase the abuse. it has messed me up for years. I am still struggling from it. what I have learn. is how useless it is to take anger out on people and things. it only destroys what we seek.
Leon Art i hope it clears up soon..you deserve it. there is a wonderful quote i like to remember, “even when the rain stops, when the clouds go away, i stand here...just the same”
I can't full fill my parents wishes. It isn't much. They want me to be happy and healthy. I failed them and I'd give my life right now to trade for their awful memories and 10 years happy and healthy. I'd drop dead and make any deal with any god or demon to get them what they deserve in my opinion on what they tried their best.
@thetracerartistonredditbecauseidonthavereddit instead of tracing, just practice with an anatomy reference. Not immediately. Just here and there in your art.
That’s wrong to say that to your adult child to forget if he molested your grandchildren to forget what the hell. That’s like someone raping you and saying just forget. Pervert should have gone to jail. And so should she
I’m annoyed by the bliss ignorance of most older people when it comes to stuff like this . I can’t believe how many girls he might have hurt and her stupid as probably
"I'm planning on getting some pet ducks"
I don't know why you have to keep that a secret, but it's adorable and I wish you and your new friends the best.
James
We need to talk about the ducks
@@riti184 lmaooo imagine knowing the person who is getting the ducks and just talking to them bout it
@@riti184 pfft
@@riti184 is hym
The story where the grandfather harmed the granddaughter and the grandmother is saying forgive and forget. No. No. Mom good on you for protecting your daughter but the memories are extremely likely to resurface when she’s older along with signs of trauma and possible PTSD. Please make sure your daughters in therapy.
To that 14 year old girl - babydoll PLEASE say something to your parents about that neighbor. What he's saying is completely inappropriate and we never know what others are capable of. He has no right to make you feel yucky or sexualized - nobody does but especially adult men and women.
The only people who say money can't buy happiness are the ones who actually have money
My parents dont know I heard every time my mother broke down at night wailing about nothing mattering anymore and she had nothing left to live for. My classmates from high school dont know that softmore and senior year my mother attempted suicide in front of me.
the worrying about age one got to me....
I fucked my entire life up by believing I wasnt going to make it out of highschool alive as I had such severe depression. I turned down major art schools who wanted me because i didn't want my parents to face that financial burden when I offed myself so I just did nothing. I took AP classes all throughout highschool which would have made me a sophmore in college when I graduated but I didnt want my parents to have to pay for the college credit so I would have to take them over when I got to college. on top of this all the art schools were 2 hours away, which wasn't a lot but I feared if I went and had no one it would just further push me to the edge. Plus my family has all lived together in the same small town since the dawn of time, literally extended family and all. I refused to go and just worked 2 jobs, my mom was so worried about my mental health that she got me an interview at cosmetology school and signed me up that day so I would have something to pull me out of it. Ill admit it did help but 2 years after graduating I realized I hated it and all the money you make goes right back into your booth rent. I practically blew through my savings helping toxic friends out of bad places just to have them turn around and steal from me. at the same time my bf had a HORRIBLE homelife, so we practically couch surfed and lived out of my car. looking back IDK how we ever survived. we built ourselves back up from the ground, we have now been together for 7 years with two BEAUTIFUL little boys. He is a fuel delivery driver for CO-OP and I am a daycare provider. now that life has settled down a bit I have gotten back into my art and people keep commenting that they didn't know how much I loved it or how capable I was and that if they had known they would have pushed me in that direction instead. I lovehow my life is now with my boys, but I SO wish I would have gotten my art degree instead of cosmetology license. I dont think my life would have turned out MUCH different, but at least the 20k in hairschool could have been towards something I actually enjoyed, had more confidence in my art and myself, explored my creativity etc. all cosmetology did was link me up with extremely toxic customers who stressed me out so bad and even threatened me at one point that we almost lost my first son and i had to be on bed rest the rest of the pregnancy. IDK.... I'll never forgive myself for the shit i put myself through
*What if the people you hide the secret find this post?*
Most of them use throwaways so they'll only be able to find out who it is if they're too specific
They don’t know who posted it
on my reddit account i had no identifying info but on one subreddit i made one 3 word comment about something my sister said and she found it. i found out only because my mom mentioned that she told her that she found it and she was watching it.
almost shit my pants cause im a kinky bi™️ but in the closet and i used that account for porn and often commented on lots of different porn subs. i panicked and quickly deleted most comments on porn subs but still have no idea what she found.
moral of the story dont assume no one will know just befause you're using a throwaway
When that guy talked about not being sure how his abusive ex shaped his view of women, I thought about myself. I was never abused by a woman physically but I slept with so many women in relationships that Im incapable of trusting a woman in a relationship scenario. As a result Im 39, and single. Im a decent looking man, but haven't been sexually active in a few years because I have no interest in using people or being in a relationship. I dont understand loneliness, just never felt lonely so its not a problem, but Im sure my life would have turned out different if I didn't spent my life up to 30 notching my belt like a teenager.
I feel so bad about some of these, but some warm my heart, so much
I'm not doing so well myself. I literally force myself to be happy. And on the days when I can't, and just trying to get along with everybody takes a serious drain on me. I try to be the happy guy, the one who's always there for you, and always try to smile and be positive, but there are days when it's just not possible for me, and those days are becoming more frequent. I'm also a pathological liar, but I don't know how to stop, and I'm really scared of who I am becoming and I don't know how to change that. I feel like a burden to every one, and I try to be helpful, but it feels like I get in everyone's way and piss them off. I have driven my parents marriage to the edge, and I don't know if the person I'm becoming should even be in society. I'm also very needy, and dependable on others, but I try not to be, yet I feel like I'm always coming across that way, even more so when I'm trying really hard not to. I can't ever tell anybody this. It's hard being someone you are not, and it's wearing me down. I feel like I'm not talented in any way. I also feel lonely, and I get really bad anxiety thinking about being left alone, and what would happen if I lost a friend or family member, and that when someone leaves for the day at school, or just from visiting, or just going places, I worry that it's the last time I'll ever see them, and I did something wrong the last time I saw them.
I hope you aren't telling the truth, but if you are , my apologies if I'm downplaying this. It must be terrible to have constant anxiety do to your various reasons, I can't claim to understand what you're dealing with. At most I try to keep a positive attitude, but there are times when I worry about people, not just family but also strangers. I'm sure I've had terrible memories when I was younger that seemed to have been repressed, but I can't for the life of me, remember much except for some songs. I tend to let a positive attitude take over, which helps relieve, due to everything getting caught In a current of ' it's fine '. I'm sorry if you truly do suffer, I don't wish that upon anyone. Please be safe and enjoy your day.
Blake Ingram please know you are not reason for your parents split. They are people with problem just like everyone else and even if your mental issues could’ve started some fights at the end of the day the fights you feel responsible for would of happened one way or another. If you need someone to talk to you please DM me (@EmpressAngelica on everything).
Love is magic! Love you Doggo!!
@Adam Nope It was a long time ago, but iirc it says at the end of the video to type that.
But yes, love all doggo's! Mine and others (I love my elderly whippet so much
*dramatic music playing* "The kind of chicken we eat is the kind raised on a farm"
Meanwhile I'm over here telling my kids we're eating peppa pig for dinner. 🤷♀️ They loooove eating peppa pig. Kids should be informed about their food.
A few years ago my boyfriend went to a bachelor party where they got drunk and had a nerf war. He said that’s probably what he’ll do for his bachelor party. I’ll probably spend the day at the water park riding water slides then hit up a bar for some dinner and drinks. Neither of us are into strip clubs.
Dude bro..
Awesome
That I am bi and no matter what relationship I make with people outside my family they end up attracted to me. I have been refusing to make new relationships for almost a decade and live a friendless single life because I cannot trust people or know who is honestly affectionate or just infatuated. Those who don’t seem attracted end up treating me badly or worse. The only people I actually talk to regularly are those behind a cash register and it means way too much to me when those folks make small talk. I guess I would ask that those who bothered to read this treat random customers nicely because it may mean so much to them. More than you know perhaps.
Mamãe, sou cult
I don’t think so but everyone tells me I am. My last ex used to call me pretty boy and it bugged me a bit because at first I thought she was teasing. I have read though that people don’t know how attractive they really are just as recordings of our own voices don’t sound right to ourselves. I think my personality is kinda attractive if I had to pick something but mostly I don’t get it. I have wondered many things about it from my skill set to my knowledge and even thought at some point it may be pheromones but I just don’t see what others do is all I can tell.
Mamãe, sou cult
Aside from the sad stuff that happened to me growing up with a number of adult women I used to be tricked into kissing girls in elementary with the ol “close your eyes” surprise bit. Girls in late elementary would tell me they liked me and other guys would suddenly not be my friend including my best friend. High school was too full to go into in detail but two notable things was a guy who quickly established himself as a friend and while over to play smash bros he made his intentions very clear and by the end of high school I had a stalker who followed me to college and assaulted me. In college I was called bold and a social magnet. For some reason since high school people would give me lots of dirty magazines. In college I had so many (because I am weird about tossing out gifts even if I don’t want them) I half filled a steamer trunk. At one point when I barely cared anymore a large group of women I knew just came over randomly and hung out while reading the mags. I mean, not even going into everything even I think this all sounds like a lie despite having lived it. At this point in my life I only ever think about one woman who I last saw crying while saying goodbye. I wonder if that was the one because in retrospect I think of her most often. I still don’t understand if I am doing something wrong or just happened to not realize my life is normal and those things happen to a lot of people. I just know the way I feel about it and that I end up with love hate relationships only.
Edit: I forgot to mention that it happens when I am in online communities as well regardless of what gender people think I am. I stopped playing games online that are not single player since I already quit three games I liked because of this stuff. People can get pushy and even vindictive I am sure most know about online things.
Yeah you haven’t realized you life is not normal. People being unable to like you unless being sexually attracted to you is usually a sign of a bad personality.
Lord Shaki
Although I haven’t had just one or the other. Some never approached me in a physical way while others seemed solely physical.
i feel this too. im way way way overly nice to EVERYONE even if they dont deserve it, its just my personality. and for that reason people constantly think im flirting with them or we become friends and they get way too close, OR people HATE me and are extremely mean to me in a way to prove im a "fake" or secrelty a bitch or something idk man its weird i also have a bf of 7 years and i swear the same happens to him as well lmao, maybe everyone deals with this though but doesnt talk about it?
that first one, pro tip, never give more than 2 weeks notice, i gave 2 months notice about leaving for college and for the month after my manager switched me to afternoons even though i'd been working exclusively mornings for over a year, until my morning supervisor got mad and made her switch me back, i lost some speed and she told the manager that if i came back(i didin't) to never put me on afternoons again lol
I'm a grown man and I love Winnie the Pooh. Welcome to the club.
57:42 (don’t mind this, it is for personal use)
Bro, she took all the hearts... that's absolutely savage.
Is it bad that I think that's awesome?
I'm very curious about her side of the story.
36:28 The OP in this story might be dealing with maladaptive day dreams, which is an actual disorder and they should probably see a psychologist.
I just realized another comment said the same thing.
47:45 I'd make a homestuck reference but I don't want people to fight me
12:30
Damn that somehow hit home HARD.... I'm not an artist, but that feeling....
"I spend all my time at work on reddit"
Yeeeeep same here, got nothin else to do when we have no customers (small place).
I listen to these while I work
36:06 That confition has a name. It's called maladaptive daydreaming. There are support groups in the internet for that if anyone reading this needs to know.
I didn’t know this was a thing until I watched Anthony padillas video on it, but I been doing maladaptive day dreaming for the past 16 years. I though everyone was like this with day dreaming but apparently not
2:28 I hope he passed his exams with flying colors! I believe in you OP
4:29 hey I am 25 and I will always love Winnie the Pooh he's just the best always wholesome! also happy early January 18th National Winnie the Pooh day to everyone!)
Anybody have the link for the film from 50:18?
man i tried
Good video I like it
41:30. They beat the crap out of each other and were back to being friends minutes later. That's the most guy thing ever.
Babies born from IVF aren't twins. They are two separate eggs.
14:33
This is kind of funny to me for a few reasons...
1. My mom admitted to me back when I was in middle school that she actually likes watching My Little pony/Littlest Pet Shop/Strawberry Shortcake (the animated version where they all look like anime characters/dolls) and 2. My mom is *_OBSESSED_* with Micky Mouse she claims that it's only because she likes to mess with me and my brother but judging from her actions and how many other kids shows she likes I'm pretty sure she's not being completely honest...
This wasn't what I expected from untold secrets
i'm probably arospec and only one of my close friends knows, i can't tell my parents, they were totally okay with me being bi, then gay, but i know that if i tell them that i think i'm arospec they won't understand and will say that "you just haven't met the right person yet", and i'm petrified about what my other friends will think, because a lot of them followed this awkward not-a-relationship-but thing i had with another friend, who i no longer speak to, and i think they'd get mad at me for "leading her on."
My secret is that every day, before getting out of bed, I make sure to think of a reason, any at all, to not just call it quits and kill myself. And recently it's taken longer and longer to come up with one.
10:38 holy shit that's exactly what happened to me? a few months ago me and my friends fell out, i'm all alone all the time so now i just stay at home playing games by myself and stuff.
7:38 i understand your struggles man i know how you feel.
Pee_Poo_Poo i hope you’re doing ok, internet stranger :)
26:10 reminds me of the book: Kat’s fall by Shelley Hrdlitschka
See,this thing of divorce where the wife walks away with everything,is why I always say install surveillance and for fucks sake sign a bloody prenuptial contract
For the artist yujiko. Its fine. Thats what the software is for. I do the same sometimes or what im starting to do is draw guidelines on the figure then draw them out using the guidelines as a reference. Thats a pretty good way to work on anatomy. But TH-cam has different ways i suggest going there too and looking up ways to improve more. ^^ good luck!❤
5:30
Same but I'm only 16 and no one knows
I think the thing I never told people is that I feel very lonely in social situations, because of my social anxiety and that I know most normal functioning people wouldn’t understand why I am the way I am. About my past I been told to “let it go” but you can’t let CPTSD go just like that. I have barely worked on my traumatised mind, only this past year and a half of sobriety have i worked on my mental health. I used to just be a pushover that drank my life away, and let people guide how I should feel. It’s been 9 years but it still feels like yesterday, the trauma is hauntingly always there in my mind. I don’t think I will ever be socially normal. I have only ever know people in psych wards, special schools, psychiatric boarding schools, and relationships with men have only been sexual, since I got so weirdly obsessed with sex after being assaulted at age 13. I don’t even think I’m a real person, I’m not normal, it’s all an act to fit in. The mask I wear to please other people is so incredibly tiring, I’m so fucking broken. I’m only starting to heal now 2022, my trauma started 9 years ago. Tho I will say i was always the odd one out of everyone, in my friend group. I’m finally starting to be a person I want to be, not a person controlled by the people around me, or the person extreme emotions caused by my alcohol and drug abuse. That people keep telling me wasn’t that bad, acting normal is easy when everyone is fucked on alcohol.
I’m single and ready to heal from the past, but it’s not just an easy fix and I know that. I kept putting it away in a box to deal with later, don’t put it in a box for later when you are breaking apart every single day, it ain’t healthy is something I would tell my younger self.
also that one about the daughter being molest jesus christ.....
1. why would the grandma, wife of the monster, stay with him and think its no big deal? he can obviously reoffend again
2. makes me wonder if she allowed it to happen to her own children and the one daughter just also doesnt remember
What's the song that plays around 21:56
*I know how we can save harambe* *[GUN CLICKS]*
Ohhh no First the Gorillas a d now us Hippos
Hippsthehippo
Hippos are terrible creatures. They eat people as well as eachother. Hippos are cannibals.
@@AFantasticCat now I have to tell my kid to stop loving hippos
Annisa Mohammed
Sell them on rhinos, those guys are great. Or pandas are good too! Personally I am quite partial to the passively deadly pangolins. Just avoid the gross animals which seem nice at first like armadillos who carry leprosy or hedgehogs who routinely cover themselves in their own waste. A friend of mine once had a chinchilla... he wasn’t aware that they shot urine like a squirt gun when startled or annoyed... which is only slightly better than bearded dragons who shoot blood from their eyes at you.
Oof the second one about being a burden and lonely hit hard and close to home
Anyone knows what music is playing around 16 minute mark? (And 17:30)
could be th-cam.com/video/PyxujwLLJW0/w-d-xo.html if i remember correctly
7:23 This made me feel incredibly sad about that dysfunctional relationship. But great they're optimistic
Ive told a few people this, but literally everyone ive ever had a relationship with (friends, partners etc) hate me, or wont speak to me, I have no idea why hinestly, but i think its my fault, except maybe the first few, i spent most of my child hood around emotionless abusive friends and i guess i have no idea how to navigate any kind of friendship so i always fuck it up, i made some new friends recently and im utterly terrified theyll hate me or find out that everyone ive ever known hates me :///
I relate to this story waaaay too much and I don’t know if it’s normal or not and I end up feeling bad that I don’t keep up with people like I should 32:21
Love is magic
15 years left! Try 5 - 6, and almost all from cancer including both parents and both grandmothers. One grandfather died in an accident and the other from a heart attack (when he was 5 years younger than I am now). My father and his mother died from pancreas cancer; oddly enough, so did my father-in-law. Please send any extra, good karma my way. Thanks!
I've only ever (recently and in complete detail) told my younger brother about this back when he started getting on my case for being distant from/practically disowning my father but I literally have no positive memories of my father. Even the more recent "bonding times" I don't really look at in a positive or negative light since I usually only participated because I was at my godbrother's house and he's really annoying (he's probably at least 9-10 now and he's matured a lot but back then he acted like a two year old despite being maybe 5-6 if not older thanks to some kind of (I'm assuming) mental disorder) so I would always choose to hang out with my father since it was the only way to avoid said god brother. But why is this the case? Well, a few days before my fifth birthday my parents found out that I had been being sexually assaulted for at least a year if not more...(I've actually managed to get over this by now mostly thanks to this next part) at first everything was fine but shortly after this revelation my dad practically abandoned us and I was so traumatized that I started taking it out on my grandmother (we had to move in with her) until my mom told me that my grandmother was innocent. Fast forward a few years and my father came back because he had lost his job/house and had no where to go. According to my mom I was really excited to see him again and wanted a relationship with him (I have no memory of this--although I do remember the negatives clearly) but my father started verbally abusing me for anything I did that he didn't like, even if it was just that I didn't answer him and would just nod my head, but he never really punished my brother even if he did the same thing. I became so terrified that I ended up developing an even more severe case of androphobia (fear of men) than I already had thanks to my previous PTSD and actually forced myself to forget how much I had loved my father prior to him abandoning/abusing me because it hurt me too much to remember...he's actually started to be a better father but I still can't bring myself to interact with him because of just how traumatized I was...
I've been in love with my boyfriend for 5 years, and we're coming up on our 1 year anniversary. I know he's the one for me. I've wanted to marry him since before we started dating. I've literally had dreams about us at the altar, fantasies of being able to dance with him in my wedding dress, what I want our kids to be named someday. I've already had a name for a daughter for years because I found it so pretty. I want him for my whole life and absolutely not a single other person. He is the only one who I find attractive, the only one I love, the only crush I've ever had, the only one I feel everything over.
I just really hope he feels all of that too. He's my soulmate l, and he says I'm his. The only one who knows about my wedding fantasies is my mom.
I just want him in my life with me.
at 12:00 hes not a tracer lol. its just reference, theres no need for him to be so scared
So like, I have the same issue as the person with the "other world," and it's not the greatest, I mean, I love my inner world and all, but I can sometime confuse my daydreams with reality, but I also whisper to myself when I do it, so I'm pretty sure I've strain my tongue and/or my jaw, because I'm almost constantly whispering to myself, like I've done it since I was like 8 or 9 and it's just starting to cause problems
Anyone else creeped out by the website bar?
Not one person not even Chef Ramsey couldn’t hold enough knife to any part of my body for me to give up some tailpipe behind a dumpster. I can do enough damage after a neck wound for CSI to know it was definitely an altercation turned deadly at least.
The story around 37:30.. same. Ugh. It sucks. So tired of working my ass off & still being broke.
He didn't forget about the black eye. He was playing dumb.
Well this just strengthens my resolve to stay single
Hey hey heyyyy
i like to fall asleep to these vids but the creepy music in the middle of this threw everything off
47:34 What kind of psychopath is that fucking petty
DA 1ST BACHELOR PARTY STORY IS FUCKIN FAHILIRIOUS😜😵🔥🔥🔥🔥😂😂😂
It’s ok if daddy makes money selling cannabis!!!
Anyone found that ex girlfriend wearing blue dress
EPIC username mate
I too have lived in my head. but I was vary young and told I couldn't do anything right. I was lead to bereave I couldn't even feal pain properly. instead of a fantasy world it was a continuation of my failings. also if I did something well it was still a disappointment. and would only increase the abuse. it has messed me up for years. I am still struggling from it.
what I have learn. is how useless it is to take anger out on people and things. it only destroys what we seek.
34:30 wtf dude
I operate heavy machinery all day while listening to tts as well 😂
I drive a semi every night. I listen to redditt or audiobooks all night.
Yeah if I came at someone's birthday party I wouldn't be surprised if the mom just like me either
0:28
This cuts me deep
Leon Art i hope it clears up soon..you deserve it. there is a wonderful quote i like to remember, “even when the rain stops, when the clouds go away, i stand here...just the same”
*_Somebody is cutting onions in the comments!_*
I can't full fill my parents wishes. It isn't much. They want me to be happy and healthy. I failed them and I'd give my life right now to trade for their awful memories and 10 years happy and healthy.
I'd drop dead and make any deal with any god or demon to get them what they deserve in my opinion on what they tried their best.
That I like... Nickelback
g a s p
You know what
You are valid!
@thetracerartistonredditbecauseidonthavereddit instead of tracing, just practice with an anatomy reference. Not immediately. Just here and there in your art.
That’s wrong to say that to your adult child to forget if he molested your grandchildren to forget what the hell. That’s like someone raping you and saying just forget. Pervert should have gone to jail. And so should she
I’m annoyed by the bliss ignorance of most older people when it comes to stuff like this . I can’t believe how many girls he might have hurt and her stupid as probably
Know what happens
3:08 SAME
Since I'm a lesbian, if I do get married, my bachelorette party will most likely have strippers for both my wife and I.
How're u gonna get there?
Frick the guy at 38:11
Will I ever find HIM and i
That my real name is Nick Gurr.
Jesus Christ why is there so many incest stories
Hehehe
Thumbs down from me bc of that horrible back ground "music" that is destroying the whole video!
Love is magic
love is magic
Love is magic