Anyone else come to this one after watching Jack's interview? I had to find Hutch and give it a watch and its was well worth it. The world needs more people like him.
As a service connected operation Iraqi freedom veteran (OIF), I can say that EVERYTHING this dude talks about is spot in. The damage we did over there didn’t hit me until I had my first child in 2013, then my mental health further declined after having my son 4 years ago. And for what? Absolutely nothing. This is the shit we have to live with day in and day out. They say “hate the war, not the warrior” but most days I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I thought I got out of Iraq after my 2nd deployment unscathed, but I am dying on the inside slowly. I absolutely loathed the VA because 99.99% of the people who work there are absolutely oblivious to what we went through, and their only remedy is psychiatric medication which has done more damage to me then anything. The Va has further gone downhill since “covid” because most of the therapy services provided now are all telehealth, so we can’t even have human contact with one another. God bless this dude. He sat there and told most of our stories in 45 minutes
Ross, my husband is a Viet Nam Vet, you do live day to day after being in war. He once told me the military trains you to hate the people you are fighting because that is the only way you can kill. That alone says volumes. He also told me about the time his fellow soldier had his foot blown off next to him, and his first thought was "that lucky guy gets to go home". I cannot even imagine what you remember and how those memories effect your life. Can I say God Bless you and Thank you for sharing your truth because that is the only way we can understand the PTSD you live with.
It is cringe to learn what people are going through after they fought in wars their country started without having been attacked. If you mention nine eleven/w@ar on terr0rr it's obvious you believe American ci vil w@ar was about ending sl@ avery. Which was not just like the att @cks merica have done so far have nothing to do with w@r on t€rr0r. On the contrary, Merica is the bu lly of the world.
I was 82nd Airborne, 11B. Afghanistan 05', Iraq 06', Iraq 07'. When he says that it stays with you everyday he is 100% right. The amazing part is how much your results may vary. Just because a combat vet seems like they are fine on the outside, make no mistake they are dealing with it in some way. Some are addicted to drugs. Some are angry all the time. Some seem fine but they wake up with nightmares . Some of us seek the adrenaline rush and feel empty without it. There are images burned into our brains that will never leave. The image of a human body burned to a crisp. The body stuck in the position they sat in when the EMP hit, frozen in time. Driving down the street past the scene of an IED and seeing body parts on the pavement and at the time acting as if it was just another day. No different than us seeing a dead squirrel on a country road. The images of blood soaked floors of a house you just shot up and slipping on the blood. I can recall the smell of blood on demand. The smell of an Iraqi detainee after we held them captive for 48 hours in a 100 degree room. The smell of fresh Falafel. The smell of a burn pit. And the smell of diesel. Every time I smell a diesel truck I am brought back to Iraq and loading into the hum-vee before a patrol or raid. I'll never forget feeling invincible even though there was death all around me. I feel so blessed to be what most people would see as "normal". Good career, good marriage, 3 healthy kids. Why am I so lucky? The only good thing to come out of war is it granted millions of vets the knowledge and experience to know that war is hell and should not exist. I was about to delete all of this but decided to just hit enter. Mark, thank you for doing this. Keep up the Vet interviews. Watching these vets talk about this stuff helps me.
Thank you for not deleting this. I have seen, smelled, heard, and felt all of these things too. You surely know that you are not alone in these experiences, but I just want to tell you that you aren't alone. And I feel less alone be reading this.
Speaking helps a lot definitely. I was the kid watching all of this happening around me. Running from bombs. I have nightmares too its been 30 + years.
That smell of diesel exhaust takes me back every time. It's been 16 years and every time I smell diesel exhaust I get a jolt through my body. Thank you for sharing this, and thank you Hutch and thank you SWU for these. Semper Fi
I took care of a WW2 vet who told me "we were just boys killing boys" talking about being in france. I'll never forget the look on his face when he said that. He had 2 purple hearts and a silver medal. RIP love
My grandfather told me (he was born 1946ish?) When he was growing up all the teachers and local townsmen were vets and they would just talk about their experience fighting in Europe or in the Pacific and how alien it was compared to how they lived today
You definitely need to do more interviews with veterans. They deserve and need a platform. Americans need to hear these stories….no matter how heartbreaking they are. We need to know and they need to talk.
Agree,100% Can't find the solution to any issues by never mentioning them again and just continuing on the same old way as always and hoping for different result.
I’m a 53 yr old “Blackhawk Down” veteran. This guy gave the greatest explanation of PTSD and “coping” I’ve ever heard. It’s amazing to hear your un vocalized thoughts…..spoken perfectly by a stranger. Spot on bro. Thank you for that validation.
The thing is, what we call smart , is not really smart.. it's actually makes things complicated .self enlightenment is smart.caring n sharing is key...love life and live it
“Tradition has been the death of human discourse” is one of the most profound statements I have ever heard in my 54 years. Hutch, you’re damn right that you are a good person. Thank you for sharing your story.
Yep. People think that tradition and culture and religion and politics justify unimaginable violence. Unthinkable horrors. Stop watching the news, and you quickly realise that most of our narratives are just a kind of "industry" that perpetuate the divides between us for the benefit of a handful of powerful people who don't give a shit about you and the people you love. I lost a friend to military service and his family were genuinely proud, mostly because of ideas they got from watching the news. They actually encouraged him to fight a war they barely understood themselves. If there is a hell, it's made for people like that.
My brother just lost his battle with PTSD and we lost him to suicide. He was Airborne as well. Brooks Proctor. There is so much we don't know as family. We need more people speaking out to help us understand so we know how to love them. Thank you for pulling back the veil on this tough subject. I am trying to share as Veteran's Day approaches. Godbless and Godspeed.
It brought a tear to my eye when you said your son tells you you’re ok if your having a nightmare in the middle of the night. You’re raising a great person.
I spent 2 years flying helicopter gunships in Vietnam 67-68-69. It was very difficult for me to here his story. As I watched him we became one. I felt I’m looking in a mirror and he’s me. I’m 79 years old and you never never forget. Take care Hutch, I understand exactly where your coming from.
I new a good bloke here in australia who was in nam and told me some really horrific stories unforutnatley he took his own life due to ptsd and deppresion.
met this guy at a party a few years ago. spent the evening talking. cool dude. its a trip to see him on here. didn't know half the shit he had been through. great interview hutch!
I was a machine gunner in 2/6 wpns, WIA x 2 in Fallujah on my late 05’ into 06’ tour. This is one of the best veterans interviews I’ve heard. He really nails down a lot of the inner conflict and conversations that my fellow vets and I face
Definitely eloquent, with a good vocabulary, and really really aware. Best of luck to him really, whether he chooses to write or not. (Writing is pretty solitary, and he seems to prefer working with people -- but if the writing bug grabs him, then maybe he can run with it and give us something amazing.)
8 year marine. I hit rock bottom drinking myself to death. I now have a beautiful 4 year old boy and I’m almost 6 years sober. This mans story is courageous and is remarkable in every way.
Love you❤, love you❤, it's sheer joy to hear it dear I am amazed you carried on ah hope God bless me too with the patience he graced you with, as I have realized patience really let you be surprised over and over ,as they say, it's always the darkest before the dawn, and nothing but the patience will let you see the light and laugh, love you Jonathan love you.
This video gave me some insight as to what my husband really felt. Especially, the part about “not finding deep meaning in anything.” That was one of things that he really hated. He struggled and struggled, even going through electroshock therapy after coming home and doing four tours over 12 years as an infantryman. He felt sick over the atrocities he committed and was ashamed to tell people he was a soldier. He knew what he was doing (even though he for those pats on the back too) wasn’t right. He didn’t make it. He spiraled downward until he was gone. You remind me of him, you tell a great story and lay far yourself loudly. Love it!
I’m a Marine corps veteran. One of the best description of what goes on. He’s so thoughtful and good at explaining the struggle day to day. Hang in there brother ❤
I was in rehab with this guy about 10 years ago and I wish him the best! He might not even remember me if we ran acroos each other but u can tell he is a good person! We weren’t close but I recognized him right away when I saw his face! Good luck to u man I wish u the best goin forward!
This gentleman is so well put together given everything he has been through. The way he speaks, his mannerisms, his gestures...this is a highly intelligent individual. Yet, an individual that has seen things no human should see....
My grandmother tells me that when my grandfather return from the war he was never the same... It's like he never returned. War changes you forever. And the ones who are experiencing will never recover. It's sad that humans can't respect each other. I also noticed that he is hurting his own hand with his nail, like scratches and nervous. :( Respect
@@User-54631 I'm sure those came from surviving the prison term he served. He adapted...sadly, he has scars from his survival trial. But he survived...that's all that matters.
I am blown away by the level of introspection this man has, and his ability to put his thoughts into words. Thanks for giving him a platform. (I also came here after Jack‘s interview)
I can feel how happy he was when he talked about his son. I didn't see any smile until at 26:30 he started talking about his son. God bless you and your son, Hutch.
I guess you can just ignore all the poor people that he and his fellow American 'warriors' killed. And what was achieved in Iraq and Afghanistan, Syria and even Vietnam (plus Laos and Cambodia), during and by the American occupations? Absolutely nothing. Grief what about US military aggressions in Korea, Somalia, Yemen, Haiti, Panama, Grenada a long long list ? en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_wars_involving_the_United_States It was a very powerful and sincerely honest talk, for sure, one of the best ever on the channel. But there were no insights, just a plainly told description of the consequences of US military/industrial machine. People obliterated by explosions, kids with their heads shot off. All for what?
You bet. Poor people? Your rhetoric weakens a country. Although there is no such thing as holy war, wars are necessary evil, just like competition is necessary evil. The presence of American military in the overseas stabilizes the world. You have NO idea how evil communism is. My parents are from China. They told me that in China if one speaks against the government, they don’t just kill him, they harvest his organs while he is alive and sell them to the international market. The Chinese communist government has killed over 80 millions of its own people, and it intends to expand to the entire Asia, and then to the entire world since 1949. You don’t hear this in the news. You are like a little kid complaining about the hamburger is not warm enough while millions of people in the world survive on $2 a day and their politicians suck up billions of dollars. Oh, it is so cheap to hide behind a strong nation and enjoy freedom without paying prices. Freedom is not free. You have NO idea how rich this country is in terms of material wealth, freedom, institution, ideology and so on. I do agree that we should not have fought some wars, especially the Second Iraq War, it was a big lie promoted by the Neoconns.
@Grant McNamara I’m not denying anything you’re saying, but what did you honestly expect? He’s telling his individual story, and after all this time, he still can’t even fully make sense of why he was there. I don’t think anyone expected a full critique of American foreign policy going into this lmao.
@@USMCLP I have to agree with you about the US foreign policy needing full critique. This is partially our own fault. We the people are too meek too lazy and perhaps too ignorant to oversee our own government, subsequently letting some idiots running the country for too long. Although our country has flaws and problems, some are huge ones, I still think the US is the best country in the world. We just need to speak out more and act more. About Vets, I don’t have any negative things to say about them. I used to work in defense industry and personally know many military officers and enlisters. Some of them are from wealthy and prominent families, some of them graduated from Ivy league schools. They could have gone to Silicon Valley and Wallstreet to “grab money” but they choose to serve the country. They received half of my salary doing the same job, engineering. I see their choices as nobility as well as personal sacrifice, no matter how disable some of them may be. May God have mercy.
@@wesmanavus You bet. You think Taliban cares about the American children? You think the Chinese communist regime cares about the American children? Why don't you enlist yourself and defend our country. If you are not American, I have no problem you enlisting in your own military. I have no respect for anybody or anything that weakens a nation.
He mentions his vast work and openness to therapy. I'm a veteran with PTSD and I've been on the brink of suicide before starting therapy. I did 2 tours in Afghanistan. I saw carnage and death. Still to this day I'm healing through therapy. But, yes, suicide is a real problem in the veteran community.
I'm a veteran myself, serving both as an enlisted soldier and as an officer in the Field Artillery, but all during peace time, never deployed. Many years later I'm a senior level manger with many employees. One of my employees, also with multiple deployments as a Field Artillery soldier in Iraq and Afghanistan, and a very intelligent and valuable team member, has struggles that I can only describe as emotional. I have not pried to find out the details, I've offered my support, a willing ear, employee assistance services, that I can think of. His normal response is something along the lines of, "Ill be OK, you wouldn't understand it anyway." I agree, I probably wouldn't understand it, or what he's going thru. Listening to Hutch on this interview, I think I'm starting to understand a bit better. Thank you Hutch for sharing.
He's so humble I'm not sure if he realises what an excellent job he did there. No notes, no bravado, no angle just raw, interesting, intelligent and articulate honesty. Well done Sir.
As a disabled Afghanistan veteran who seen my best friend get shot right in front of me this interview hit differently. I was in Afghanistan on outposts for 12 of the 15 months I was there and I’ll never forget those experiences. I’ve been on steady consistent therapy counseling and group therapy since 2013
The pain you exude, Hutch, is exquisite. You radiate immense wisdom and love along with that pain. You look beautiful to me. I felt like I knew you by the end of your story. Your truth is wrapped up in unimaginable brutality and you carry it poetically, like a tragic tale forever to be told. I love your warmth, your honesty and I am grateful to have “met” you. I feel deeply for you. Respect.
Hutch I don’t know you but in many ways I am you. Listening to your interview, has given me an understanding of things in myself I have avoided. I served 1972 to 1974 .
i have learned more in 41 minutes then i have for the last 20 years of therapy. As he said, veterans can learn from each others troubles, even without communicating. Thanks for this.
@@miketython1550nah most therapists are nothing but a person who made it through school and got a degree. You can’t connect with people unless you experienced what they did to a similar extent. A therapist who’s never served in the military, or deployed, or deployed to war during the GWOT in the early 2000s. You must not be smart.
I was in Baghdad Nov ‘07 - Jan ‘09 and when he talked details of the curb EFPs, I knew he wasn’t bullshitting. He was there at the same time I was. He was either 2nd or 3rd brigade. He and I did the same shit for the most part. Keep your head up brother. Excellent interview Mark. Thank you for this one.
Hutch effectively articulated how it feels to be in war and how people kill their own pain. Really appreciated his message! Much love from a fellow veteran❤
The level of emotional intelligence he has is truly impressive. As someone whose step brother didn’t make it out of his homecoming alive, the fact that he is still open to feel this type of love for his son is heartwarming to say the least.
Incredibly articulate and well spoken! He has a calling for Public Speaking. Hutch I hope you realize you have a gift to speak in a way that helps people to understand what it's like to be a Veteran. Very powerful. Please be well. You have a higher calling.
This hit hard. My dad was POW in the Vietnam War. I remember my dad going through PTSD. He didn't see us. When he drank, he didn't hear us. When he was sober, we didn't hear or see him. He tried getting help at the VA, but no one would help him. He was in and out of the VA hospital but never treated it. He ended up getting murdered. The guys who did it basically killed a dead man. Everything this man, I see my dad. Our country really abandons our soldiers, and that cycle does trickle down into families. I am happy that he shared his story and put his son first. I also think it is wonderful that he is sober! That is strength. This is meaning.
It is a shame that your story is often told. They spend millions to train us to go to war. And yet, they spend NOTHING to get us back home. Vietnam war era vet. Son of a Korean war era vet. And sadly...the beat goes on.
I wanted to cry so hard for much of this interview that I had to keep it in so I could finish my activities. The way he sometimes stopped mid-sentence since the start of the interview, it's like the horror he carries inside derails his train of thought.
Combat vet here too. His description of coming to terms with participating in war is so spot on. I found myself shaking my head a lot through this story. I was never injured physically and lucky enough to avoid pain meds. I hope you're able to stay sober brother.
I watcged this again because of what jack just said in his interview...Hutch really is one of those rare people in life that is a blessing to the world. Just listening to his story has affected me deeply. Just an amazing person.
That was one of, if not the best interview I've ever seen. The world needs this voice, this insight. Thanks Hutch, you educated a 56 year old Brit tonight in ways I never expected. Here's hoping you and your boy have a good life together, you deserve it. I look forward to the book/film etc
Seriously one of the best veteran interviews I’ve ever seen, loved the part when he said there is nothing natural about war, how a young man can turn into a monster, and instantly snap back into a young man is astonishing. Thank you for your service and God bless you 🙏🏽🫡🇺🇸
No disrespect do you honestly think veterans give a shit about civilians thanking them for serving especially if they’ve seen some horrific stuff. VA exists but we could be doing so much more for them and we just don’t. They are sent over seas to get fucked up mentally then expect them to come back to normal life and act like it didn’t happen.
@@boredflower Oh no I agree no offense taken at all, words cannot encompass or hold any semblance to whatever horrors veterans are forced to endure day in and day out, I was simply offering my appreciation for the valor this man and other veterans had to sacrifice for.
His service was corrupt and that's why he's suffering you dumb sheep. He should be punished and he knows it. Your stupid country men applause this but can't explain the reasons for the wars. Dumb sheep.
I am almost speechless. First I want to say.... I think you're an amazing, insightful, empathetic, beautiful human being. I wish I could just hug the memories away. I want to say thank you.... But for sharing your story. I won't thank you for the service...but I will say I love you for your sacrifice and willingness to share your experience with us....and I respect the choices you've made along your journey. Your desire to have a better future than the environment you came from is impressive. Your desire to express yourself and not repeat the same patterns of your upbringing is so respectable. I'm so very happy for you that your son came to you and gave you the courage and purpose to keep fighting.... But this time for your own freedom and security. Acknowledging the pain and shifting to be the best parent you can be for your son...is the most beautiful thing. It shows your heart and character. I'm a Marine MOM. The constant rollercoaster of emotions I feel with my first born volunteering to serve is unreal. I'm scared, impressed, sad, proud, hopeful, fearful, prideful, amazed. The range of feelings I have for the military, government, war, the people involved can be overwhelming as a mom. I'm the proudest Anti-war Marine MOM you'll meet. A constant internal battle of emotions. War is Racket. Sometimes it's necessary. And maintaining world peace is also important for the progress of the species. We are all part of that. The cycle... Is progress. If we step back and look at human progress.... We are part of that. Your journey is meaningful. You have offered yourself in service... both in and out of the army. I'm so proud of you and I don't even know you. I wish I could hug you. You deserve so much love and peace. Thank you for telling your story. Much love to you and yours good sir. You're a perfect example of a person that was born to break generational curses. A fire fighter. 🔥 "FAMILY DYSFUNCTION ROLLS DOWN FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION, LIKE A FIRE IN THE WOODS, TAKING DOWN EVERYTHING IN ITS PATH UNTIL ONE PERSON IN ONE GENERATION HAS THE COURAGE TO TURN AND FACE THE FLAMES. THAT PERSON BRINGS PEACE TO THEIR ANCESTORS AND SPARES THE CHILDREN THAT FOLLOW." - T REAL
I did convoy security in Iraq in 2008 as well. I lost my mind for awhile over there. The only thing I can say is “I did my job” I feel everything this man said.
Wow being a USMC vet that was the 1st to hit Fallujah. This Man needs to get his (CAC) Certified addiction counselor degree. He could help so many people. Not only vets. His just being present is so powerful... Thanks. All a vet needs to hear is Thanks...❤
the only comfort is that the moment someone passes from this world, they're in glory. experiencing a realm of love that most of us will never know here on earth. and unless i watched countless near death experience stories, i wouldn't know that, and there is no way i'd be free.
This young man is so articulate and I could really hear his heart. I have a son who is a Marine Corps combat Veteran who toured in Afghanistan. I’ve watched him be tormented by his own memories. He has recently gotten help, and is sober. I pray he continues to get help and is able to stay sober. Thank you to Hutch for sharing your story; It’s hard, but you tell it well. You are going to help people!
Riveting interview. He is sensitive, articulate, and intelligent. I think he is right that working with and helping others will bring meaning to his life. His son is fortunate to have this man as his father, and vice versa. Wishing him all the best!!
Love this guy, massive respect. Need more interviews like this. Especially when the war is happening right now. He is hurting and so honest, so broken. I loved this interview Mark
This one hit me hard. As an '05 and '07 Iraq war veteran, every single thing Hutch said and every point he made stuck a chord with me. I was brought to tears several times. His reflection, insight, poise, and articulation were all stunning. I wish I could meet this man in person. We would surely have a lot to talk about.
I hope Hutch sees this - you're a very great speaker, always remember that. It could (and probably has been) be a great tool for you and others. I can't even begin to comment, comprehend or truly understand the weight of the horrible things you talked about, but I hope you can continue to heal yourself. You're very thoughtful and have a very relatable demeanor, this was fantastic, thank you for sharing.
It's wild hearing you describe yourself being 'just a photographer' when you see breakthroughs people have during your interviews. You see things through many lenses and only a few of those are within your camera. You made something click with why he couldn't keep a job for an extended period. I hope the perspective you lended him helps him down his path in life. You're both men with tremendous amounts of heart.
I was in combat photo. Autopsies were the worst. Accident scenes did not affect me after awhile. Saw it all, then cross trained to avionics. They thought i was nuts when i had to repair a battle damaged aircraft with blood everywhere. You learned to block things out. Family life suffered alot. Ptsd is a bitch
Hutch, you are a phenomenal man. Listening to Jack's video yesterday made me want to find out who you are, and he left no crumbs explaining. I can see how you've made such a positive impact. Keep inspiring and changing lives, King!
@@zazasnruntz7505 What is your problem? Maybe find something better to do with your time besides making idiotic comments about things you know nothing about
Well articulated and spot on. We did the same mission; convoy security on MSR Tampa, Route Irish, Route Bronze and MSR Mobile in Al Anbar. Brutal days in 2005. This was tough to listen to because it brought forth so many memories from my past...but I couldn't stop listening. I felt I owed it to him to hear his story all the way through. I am praying for his peace and his struggle in this life.
What an incredible interview. He's so thoughtful and the way he talks just hits me. I could listen to him for hours. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you all the best, Hutch!
Thank you for your service. As a woman, I don't think I would have been capable. I pray this can all be something you can move past. I cannot imagine seeing what you saw. God Bless you Hutch!!!
@@jacknhutchEMOEVO I served in the Navy for 21 years, but never came close to the experiences you had. God bless you Hutch; sending you love my brother.
@@jacknhutchEMOEVO Keep well buddy. I'm in a similar situation, I was a British infantryman who went to Afghanistan at the age of 18 left army at 22 and have been drinking and on drugs ever since, not as bad as I was throughout my 20s but still there at 34 years old. Hope to have things under control by the time I'm in my 40s it's a nightmare. Wish you all the best mate.
This man is a good soul polluted by the worst of humanity im sure it took so much for him to become this positive after all hes been through, I wish nothing but the best for him and his son!
Absolutely. You can sense his underlying genuine soul, but it has most definitely been tainted by his mind trying to justify someone else's bidding. The fruits of war are not for those who fight them.
I was at 21:52 of quietly watching this video when I decided to read a couple comments and read “worst of humanity” in this comment exactly as the veteran guy said “worst of humanity” and it tripped me out so I’m just commenting about it cause everyone else at my house is asleep…
He reminds me so much of my dad. My dad went to Vietnam. He never talks about it, only when he drinks. I over heard him say once "Us catholic boys prayed with the dying men, we wanted them to have a prayer before they met Jesus " " no matter their religion, or what side they were on."
@@QueenEvil504 my young Uncle fought in Vietnam & I remember the stories that we were probably too young to hear about. That was at family cookouts when everyone was drinking,back in the 70’s. He was never the same when he came over home.
You know what, Mark? You channel is healing. I believe a lot of people may watch your interviews, brilliantly done interviews, tho, just because of that. We see the real people, we feel the real minds, we understand their pain and problems. We are with them. We are united here on your channel. Thanks a lot dude for uniting same-mind thinking people. Thank you for just for that possibility, man.
As a fellow vet, this made me tear up. I can completely understand what he means. PTSD is not a joke. I always tell people that i had a "latency period" after I got out. Everything was fine, I was getting ready for school and getting ready to make something of myself. Then out of nowhere, it hit me. All that trauma I experienced took shape in the form of PTSD, anxiety, depression, etc. It took me a long time to admit that I was messed up. I always say I am fucked up to people that won't be able to understand me. I also abused alcohol so that I could cope with my trauma. All it did was make me feel good mentally, but externally, people could tell that I was struggling. For most of us vets, we just want acceptance and compassion from those who are close to us. It is not about understanding us, it is about showing us that you care and being there when we may need someone to talk to.
I served in the navy for 6 years & after hearing this HERO tell his story, I’m kind of ashamed to say i served in the navy for 6 years. All i can come up with is thank you for your REAL service to this country we live in. I appreciate your honesty & your ability to keep it real. God Bless You Brother.
The points this man makes about the social order, about government as gangsters is so insightful, simple and right. If we continue to allow narcissists, sociopaths, and even psychopaths to design the systems of civilisation and then control and operate those systems we will all continue to suffer the increasing horrors of living within a psychopathic society. I'm really grateful that this man shared his story.
I shared my story and its to seemingly intangible and heinous its surreal that either nobody knows how to respond or they can't process the dialogue to offer an unbiased exchange.
What I wonder is how you can protect society from psychopaths etc in power from without, even if that society isn't run by the same from within? It's like tech, if you aren't keeping up you'll get bulldozed. And playing the game may corrupt even the sturdier and nobler people, given power.
This interview is absolutely bone chilling, the way he is able to describe and articulate the things he experienced is incredibly eye opening, Thank you Hutch for not only your service, but also your insight sharing your experience with us.
The way your son wakes you up tore me up man. That's a love that only us fathers can understand. God bless you dude. I relate in so many aspects. I'm on a 2 year clean run myself. I'm going to keep on 🏃♂️
This gives me chills. I've heard so many descriptions of war, but when he said how a a guy can go from being a young man one minute into a monster and then back into a young man just as quick... that really got me. Hutch is the type of person war comes down to: good people with good hearts that get sucked into the vortex of violence and forced to perpetuate it. I know it's more complicated than that, but this is what we don't see underneath it all.
I agree- how could we know if we are not physically involved in it? It (war) is heartless and evil- the men who plan and wage wars do not go to see or fight in those same wars' -to sacrifice our young strong valuable men and women to destroy whole countries of men women and children-to take territory! Power, wealth . How could any good person survive that without pain- nightmares, bad nerves and p.ts.d. We need to more for our vets- much more.
best of luck mate - hope it works out for you - let us know either way - knowledge is power, as this veteran so wisely, and eruditely, demonstrates! Cheers!
Your story touched me immensely. I am so sad for your pain & memories. I'm proud you are getting help. It's the best investment into yourself and your healing❤️ Blessings to you beautiful human❤️ Thank you for sharing your story.
We need a lot more interviews like this one. As an OIF Vet myself, this not only hits home for myself but all combat Vets. Thank you for telling the world your story. Pure honesty and realism in what war does to the psyche of young men. Unless you have been, done, seen and gone through the terrors of war, you will only understand .01% the feeling, emotions or self judgement vets walk with everyday. Keep being a great dad and stay safe brother!
I never talk about it…it’s the only time a perfect stranger acts like they care but they can’t mask their morbid curiosity about wanting to say they know someone who killed. It always amazes me how people feel and think they can ask “did you kill someone?” I no longer answer that question as it is no one’s business unless you are a vet yourself. That’s for us unless we share it unprovoked. When you say yes they say “your sick man your fucked up” when you say no “oh, so you didn’t see anything or you didn’t do your job” fuck you. I protected my brothers but I’m not proud of any of it. They see us as heroes sometimes but we’re just people that got a another shot at life after a seeing the ugliness of mankind. This version of life we now live is weighed down with a darkness tinged with the knowledge that we are strong enough to be loved, forgiven and can tell the next group of young men eager for war that it is not the way. Hug your family, love your community, make the world a better place and live each day for those who you served with that are still their. This life is a beautiful gift.
I'm from the UK, I guess that folks from the USA and the world over, like me, are in despair at the motivation of and type of people/politicians we have making decisions about all our life's . I think I'd much rather have a man like Hutch making decisions for me and my community than most of them! Honest, insightful and reflective. I wish you well Hutch.
Amazing, profound interview. This is a man that has seen some shit and has learned more than most of us will ever know. I wish him and his son all the best of luck and a long happy healthy life together.
Has there been something set up that I can find out there to give some help to this man and his son yet?
gfm: help Hutch and Chance . That will take you to the place that gives direct support for this unique disabled veteran.
@@nicole1796 Thank you Nicole.
Noble cause
I would like that too.
Get help for your grammar first lol
Anyone else come to this one after watching Jack's interview? I had to find Hutch and give it a watch and its was well worth it. The world needs more people like him.
@haseeb2167 it doesn't silly, it already has plenty 🤣
@haseeb2167 mine too 🤣
@haseeb2167 yes because the world does need more people like Hutch. You're not very smart 🤣
@haseeb2167 that's a lot of words just to say you got the point I was making. Good job 🤣
@haseeb2167 but you proved that you didn't misinterpret it. You just wanted to be a smug, condescending 💩head... and you succeeded. Congrats! 🤣
As a service connected operation Iraqi freedom veteran (OIF), I can say that EVERYTHING this dude talks about is spot in. The damage we did over there didn’t hit me until I had my first child in 2013, then my mental health further declined after having my son 4 years ago. And for what? Absolutely nothing. This is the shit we have to live with day in and day out. They say “hate the war, not the warrior” but most days I can’t even look at myself in the mirror. I thought I got out of Iraq after my 2nd deployment unscathed, but I am dying on the inside slowly. I absolutely loathed the VA because 99.99% of the people who work there are absolutely oblivious to what we went through, and their only remedy is psychiatric medication which has done more damage to me then anything. The Va has further gone downhill since “covid” because most of the therapy services provided now are all telehealth, so we can’t even have human contact with one another. God bless this dude. He sat there and told most of our stories in 45 minutes
God bless you sir🌹
Ross, my husband is a Viet Nam Vet, you do live day to day after being in war. He once told me the military trains you to hate the people you are fighting because that is the only way you can kill. That alone says volumes. He also told me about the time his fellow soldier had his foot blown off next to him, and his first thought was "that lucky guy gets to go home". I cannot even imagine what you remember and how those memories effect your life. Can I say God Bless you and Thank you for sharing your truth because that is the only way we can understand the PTSD you live with.
This was one of my favorite interviews that I was really able to process mentally. Thank you for the update.
It is cringe to learn what people are going through after they fought in wars their country started without having been attacked. If you mention nine eleven/w@ar on terr0rr it's obvious you believe American ci vil w@ar was about ending sl@ avery. Which was not just like the att @cks merica have done so far have nothing to do with w@r on t€rr0r. On the contrary, Merica is the bu lly of the world.
Hooah💜
I watched this just after the interview with Jack. Jack talked incredibly warmly & movingly about this man & how much he helped him.
That would s the same reason I'm watching it now.
Me too!!! Same!
same here.
Same
Me too 😊
So pleased to hear a single parent who says there is no need to speak poorly of the absent parent. The child will know! Thank you!!
One of the best veteran interviews I have seen. Very thoughtful.
Good to see you here sir. Love your channel.
Agreed. He's really so impressive and insightful. A very strong character.
I've been subbed to your channel for years now too!
I agree.
“And, that’s all I got to say.”😂
"War is unnatural." A wise man, thank you Hutch and Mark for the presentation.
I was 82nd Airborne, 11B. Afghanistan 05', Iraq 06', Iraq 07'. When he says that it stays with you everyday he is 100% right. The amazing part is how much your results may vary. Just because a combat vet seems like they are fine on the outside, make no mistake they are dealing with it in some way. Some are addicted to drugs. Some are angry all the time. Some seem fine but they wake up with nightmares . Some of us seek the adrenaline rush and feel empty without it. There are images burned into our brains that will never leave. The image of a human body burned to a crisp. The body stuck in the position they sat in when the EMP hit, frozen in time. Driving down the street past the scene of an IED and seeing body parts on the pavement and at the time acting as if it was just another day. No different than us seeing a dead squirrel on a country road. The images of blood soaked floors of a house you just shot up and slipping on the blood. I can recall the smell of blood on demand. The smell of an Iraqi detainee after we held them captive for 48 hours in a 100 degree room. The smell of fresh Falafel. The smell of a burn pit. And the smell of diesel. Every time I smell a diesel truck I am brought back to Iraq and loading into the hum-vee before a patrol or raid. I'll never forget feeling invincible even though there was death all around me. I feel so blessed to be what most people would see as "normal". Good career, good marriage, 3 healthy kids. Why am I so lucky? The only good thing to come out of war is it granted millions of vets the knowledge and experience to know that war is hell and should not exist. I was about to delete all of this but decided to just hit enter.
Mark, thank you for doing this. Keep up the Vet interviews. Watching these vets talk about this stuff helps me.
Thank you for not deleting this. I have seen, smelled, heard, and felt all of these things too. You surely know that you are not alone in these experiences, but I just want to tell you that you aren't alone. And I feel less alone be reading this.
Speaking helps a lot definitely. I was the kid watching all of this happening around me. Running from bombs. I have nightmares too its been 30 + years.
Thank you for your write up and service. Wishing you all the best
That smell of diesel exhaust takes me back every time. It's been 16 years and every time I smell diesel exhaust I get a jolt through my body. Thank you for sharing this, and thank you Hutch and thank you SWU for these. Semper Fi
What unit were you in? Sounds like you were in 1-325.
I took care of a WW2 vet who told me "we were just boys killing boys" talking about being in france. I'll never forget the look on his face when he said that. He had 2 purple hearts and a silver medal. RIP love
My grandfather told me (he was born 1946ish?) When he was growing up all the teachers and local townsmen were vets and they would just talk about their experience fighting in Europe or in the Pacific and how alien it was compared to how they lived today
"My son is happy to be my son, and I am happy to be his dad"
Man, that was powerful
I was bawling. No amount of money in the world could ever buy something more important than that bond.
💯
I'm very happy for him, edit, both of them.
You definitely need to do more interviews with veterans. They deserve and need a platform. Americans need to hear these stories….no matter how heartbreaking they are. We need to know and they need to talk.
I hit the thumb up on your comment in support of what you said.
Yuitb
Ty Ty
@@champstar9669 you can be a friend for a couple yyyyhours yif yyour yif yyurko you are going y mmm
Yup I agree but they need to be vetted before uploading because as we know there are fakes out there. I love hearing from real vets
Agree,100% Can't find the solution to any issues by never mentioning them again and just continuing on the same old way as always and hoping for different result.
I’m a 53 yr old “Blackhawk Down” veteran. This guy gave the greatest explanation of PTSD and “coping” I’ve ever heard. It’s amazing to hear your un vocalized thoughts…..spoken perfectly by a stranger. Spot on bro. Thank you for that validation.
God bless you
Going to call “Don Shipley” what’s your name “the wandering”?
How was it in somalia?
What unit were you in?
@tim30006 What's your last name Timmy?
“My son helped me rebuild my soul.”This is a beautiful story. Great interview Mark
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Jack the guy from Mass sent me here to listen to Hutch
@@caribcarib4337me too!
💔 sons 😑 🐾
@@farrah9748 sons...
I met Hutch 6 years ago , he helped me. Ive been clean & sober for 6 years now.
Congrats. I've got 5 years
respect
His last spoken line is a heart stopper: "The smarter we get, the more dangerous we become"
And I believe we have educated ourselves into stupidity.
@@Marinemom75 not quite
@@Marinemom75 Eh... not really. The general population is actually getting dumber and certainly more vacuous.
The thing is, what we call smart , is not really smart.. it's actually makes things complicated .self enlightenment is smart.caring n sharing is key...love life and live it
elon musk warned us many times about the artificial inteligence...
“Tradition has been the death of human discourse” is one of the most profound statements I have ever heard in my 54 years. Hutch, you’re damn right that you are a good person. Thank you for sharing your story.
Yep. People think that tradition and culture and religion and politics justify unimaginable violence. Unthinkable horrors.
Stop watching the news, and you quickly realise that most of our narratives are just a kind of "industry" that perpetuate the divides between us for the benefit of a handful of powerful people who don't give a shit about you and the people you love.
I lost a friend to military service and his family were genuinely proud, mostly because of ideas they got from watching the news. They actually encouraged him to fight a war they barely understood themselves. If there is a hell, it's made for people like that.
Yeah that was spot on, this guy is on the ball hey!
well put.
In a sense, yes; but all things have their place. Not all things are all bad, nor are all things all good. But you know this...
If tradition is the death, than materialism is the bullet.
My brother just lost his battle with PTSD and we lost him to suicide. He was Airborne as well. Brooks Proctor. There is so much we don't know as family. We need more people speaking out to help us understand so we know how to love them. Thank you for pulling back the veil on this tough subject. I am trying to share as Veteran's Day approaches. Godbless and Godspeed.
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I’m so sorry for you and your family’s loss.
It brought a tear to my eye when you said your son tells you you’re ok if your having a nightmare in the middle of the night. You’re raising a great person.
I spent 2 years flying helicopter gunships in Vietnam 67-68-69. It was very difficult for me to here his story. As I watched him we became one. I felt I’m looking in a mirror and he’s me. I’m 79 years old and you never never forget. Take care Hutch, I understand exactly where your coming from.
hear ya brother.. Baker co 1/506 INF Iraq 2004_2005
Thank you for your service
@@wrmorris2 Thank you for your service
Thanks for your sacrifice!! May all of you find peace!!!
I new a good bloke here in australia who was in nam and told me some really horrific stories unforutnatley he took his own life due to ptsd and deppresion.
I was in rehab with Hutch in 2016 he took everyone to cook places and camping trips everyone thought he was cool and he was. Fun to be around
That’s awesome!
We're you at CRLA?! Hutch is the best. Known him since 2011. In 2016 we were working at CRLA! His gf Nicole is my best friend to this dat
My husband was in Iraq 2006-2007. His nightmares are constant. Thank you Hutch for your courage then and now.
This guy should write a book, he is so good at expressing his emotions and his thoughts.
At LEAST a book. Lectures, events, outreach!!!
Completely agree…wow…
Very articulate
You are eloquent, Hutch!
THIS!!!
met this guy at a party a few years ago. spent the evening talking. cool dude. its a trip to see him on here. didn't know half the shit he had been through. great interview hutch!
You from cali?
@@gregmorgan9989 yup
@Malcolm Caden thank you for your service
@@edwardbedrosian2272 my chance you grow up in Glendale
@@gregmorgan9989 no but I could see how my last name would indicate that 🤣
I was a machine gunner in 2/6 wpns, WIA x 2 in Fallujah on my late 05’ into 06’ tour. This is one of the best veterans interviews I’ve heard. He really nails down a lot of the inner conflict and conversations that my fellow vets and I face
This man needs to write. He has a gift of putting into words what most people, especially vets, know in their heart.
I thought exactly the same thing, Val. He has a gift with words.
I would buy his book in a heartbeat.
Definitely eloquent, with a good vocabulary, and really really aware. Best of luck to him really, whether he chooses to write or not. (Writing is pretty solitary, and he seems to prefer working with people -- but if the writing bug grabs him, then maybe he can run with it and give us something amazing.)
💯
8 year marine. I hit rock bottom drinking myself to death. I now have a beautiful 4 year old boy and I’m almost 6 years sober. This mans story is courageous and is remarkable in every way.
Thank you for protecting us!
@@a.w.3772 They were protecting the corrupt system. Many vets are aware of this. All respect to the man who served, but lets be real aye.
Love you❤, love you❤, it's sheer joy to hear it dear I am amazed you carried on ah hope God bless me too with the patience he graced you with, as I have realized patience really let you be surprised over and over ,as they say, it's always the darkest before the dawn, and nothing but the patience will let you see the light and laugh, love you Jonathan love you.
@@a.w.3772 thank you for your service would be more appropriate, especially considering most of what those guys do isn’t “protecting us”
@@malachistice8111 He didn't understand
This guy is so intelligent, introspective, and an excellent communicator. Raw, unfiltered, heartfelt, real, transparent, humble, brilliant.
This video gave me some insight as to what my husband really felt. Especially, the part about “not finding deep meaning in anything.” That was one of things that he really hated. He struggled and struggled, even going through electroshock therapy after coming home and doing four tours over 12 years as an infantryman. He felt sick over the atrocities he committed and was ashamed to tell people he was a soldier. He knew what he was doing (even though he for those pats on the back too) wasn’t right. He didn’t make it. He spiraled downward until he was gone.
You remind me of him, you tell a great story and lay far yourself loudly. Love it!
I’m a Marine corps veteran. One of the best description of what goes on. He’s so thoughtful and good at explaining the struggle day to day. Hang in there brother ❤
I was in rehab with this guy about 10 years ago and I wish him the best! He might not even remember me if we ran acroos each other but u can tell he is a good person! We weren’t close but I recognized him right away when I saw his face! Good luck to u man I wish u the best goin forward!
Aw he's the best right? Were you at CRLA ?!
How are you?
What does that mean? Are you insinuating he isnt a good person?@brookehenderson5762
This gentleman is so well put together given everything he has been through. The way he speaks, his mannerisms, his gestures...this is a highly intelligent individual.
Yet, an individual that has seen things no human should see....
My grandmother tells me that when my grandfather return from the war he was never the same... It's like he never returned. War changes you forever. And the ones who are experiencing will never recover.
It's sad that humans can't respect each other.
I also noticed that he is hurting his own hand with his nail, like scratches and nervous. :(
Respect
100% agree! Amazingly articulate man and insight on things.
Minus the good decision making skills of getting the face tattoos
@@User-54631 Wow, that was deep.
@@User-54631 I'm sure those came from surviving the prison term he served. He adapted...sadly, he has scars from his survival trial. But he survived...that's all that matters.
I am blown away by the level of introspection this man has, and his ability to put his thoughts into words. Thanks for giving him a platform.
(I also came here after Jack‘s interview)
I can feel how happy he was when he talked about his son. I didn't see any smile until at 26:30 he started talking about his son. God bless you and your son, Hutch.
I guess you can just ignore all the poor people that he and his fellow American 'warriors' killed.
And what was achieved in Iraq and Afghanistan, Syria and even Vietnam (plus Laos and Cambodia), during and by the American occupations? Absolutely nothing. Grief what about US military aggressions in Korea, Somalia, Yemen, Haiti, Panama, Grenada a long long list ? en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_wars_involving_the_United_States
It was a very powerful and sincerely honest talk, for sure, one of the best ever on the channel. But there were no insights, just a plainly told description of the consequences of US military/industrial machine. People obliterated by explosions, kids with their heads shot off. All for what?
You bet. Poor people? Your rhetoric weakens a country. Although there is no such thing as holy war, wars are necessary evil, just like competition is necessary evil. The presence of American military in the overseas stabilizes the world. You have NO idea how evil communism is. My parents are from China. They told me that in China if one speaks against the government, they don’t just kill him, they harvest his organs while he is alive and sell them to the international market. The Chinese communist government has killed over 80 millions of its own people, and it intends to expand to the entire Asia, and then to the entire world since 1949. You don’t hear this in the news. You are like a little kid complaining about the hamburger is not warm enough while millions of people in the world survive on $2 a day and their politicians suck up billions of dollars. Oh, it is so cheap to hide behind a strong nation and enjoy freedom without paying prices. Freedom is not free. You have NO idea how rich this country is in terms of material wealth, freedom, institution, ideology and so on. I do agree that we should not have fought some wars, especially the Second Iraq War, it was a big lie promoted by the Neoconns.
@Grant McNamara I’m not denying anything you’re saying, but what did you honestly expect? He’s telling his individual story, and after all this time, he still can’t even fully make sense of why he was there.
I don’t think anyone expected a full critique of American foreign policy going into this lmao.
@@USMCLP I have to agree with you about the US foreign policy needing full critique. This is partially our own fault. We the people are too meek too lazy and perhaps too ignorant to oversee our own government, subsequently letting some idiots running the country for too long. Although our country has flaws and problems, some are huge ones, I still think the US is the best country in the world. We just need to speak out more and act more. About Vets, I don’t have any negative things to say about them. I used to work in defense industry and personally know many military officers and enlisters. Some of them are from wealthy and prominent families, some of them graduated from Ivy league schools. They could have gone to Silicon Valley and Wallstreet to “grab money” but they choose to serve the country. They received half of my salary doing the same job, engineering. I see their choices as nobility as well as personal sacrifice, no matter how disable some of them may be. May God have mercy.
@@wesmanavus You bet. You think Taliban cares about the American children? You think the Chinese communist regime cares about the American children? Why don't you enlist yourself and defend our country. If you are not American, I have no problem you enlisting in your own military. I have no respect for anybody or anything that weakens a nation.
Mark, easily one of the best interviews you've done. Hutch - one day at a time, brother. I hope your son sees this one day. He'll be so proud of you.
I respect his honesty and openness to speak. Most veterans are completely silent or commit suicide before they will talk about what they went through
He mentions his vast work and openness to therapy. I'm a veteran with PTSD and I've been on the brink of suicide before starting therapy. I did 2 tours in Afghanistan. I saw carnage and death. Still to this day I'm healing through therapy. But, yes, suicide is a real problem in the veteran community.
I hope anyone thinking about joining the military watches this first.
@@PBESCO the suicide stat isnt all that linked to combat tho. Most of the vets that commit suicide are non combat vets.
@@iraniansuperhacker4382 could you possibly point me in the right direction for these stats and reliable sources, please? I'd appreciate it.
@@PBESCO I'm sorry for your suffering. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself with therapy.❤️
He has more insight into the world then most and his son is fortunate to have this man for a dad.
I'm a veteran myself, serving both as an enlisted soldier and as an officer in the Field Artillery, but all during peace time, never deployed. Many years later I'm a senior level manger with many employees. One of my employees, also with multiple deployments as a Field Artillery soldier in Iraq and Afghanistan, and a very intelligent and valuable team member, has struggles that I can only describe as emotional. I have not pried to find out the details, I've offered my support, a willing ear, employee assistance services, that I can think of. His normal response is something along the lines of, "Ill be OK, you wouldn't understand it anyway." I agree, I probably wouldn't understand it, or what he's going thru. Listening to Hutch on this interview, I think I'm starting to understand a bit better. Thank you Hutch for sharing.
He's so humble I'm not sure if he realises what an excellent job he did there. No notes, no bravado, no angle just raw, interesting, intelligent and articulate honesty. Well done Sir.
Please do more veteran interviews. This is amazing to hear the reality of war and what it does to people. These people's stories need to be heard.
How about the stories of the families of the innocents they slaughtered in Iraq, Afghanistan, pick a country ...
@@Nautilus1972 How about the people who didn’t protest when the old men who sent them were campaigning to go in there. Pick a villain.
@@Nautilus1972 During times of war the sacrifices of both (or all) sides must be respected.
@@jakebroz9116 that's an honorable way of thinking. Unfortunately, there's not much honor among the youth these days.
I agree. A series on war vets would be so damn informative. I think victims of gun violence would also be effective.
Wish I could find your first interview Hutch. As an old man listening to this interview, I know the world is in a good place with men like you.
As a disabled Afghanistan veteran who seen my best friend get shot right in front of me this interview hit differently. I was in Afghanistan on outposts for 12 of the 15 months I was there and I’ll never forget those experiences. I’ve been on steady consistent therapy counseling and group therapy since 2013
Ditto brudda
You’re not alone
Stay strong
I'm sorry for your suffering. I'm glad you're taking care of yourself by being involved in therapy.❤️
@@4everhumbl36 ❤️
Sorry our dumb government made you go through that crap.
@@zippydodahquirk9039 The US military is an all volunteer force.
I identify on so many levels. Iraq veteran, recovering drug addict, and fatherhood gave me purpose. Big love, my brother.
The pain you exude, Hutch, is exquisite. You radiate immense wisdom and love along with that pain. You look beautiful to me. I felt like I knew you by the end of your story. Your truth is wrapped up in unimaginable brutality and you carry it poetically, like a tragic tale forever to be told. I love your warmth, your honesty and I am grateful to have “met” you. I feel deeply for you. Respect.
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Very well written, Jane!
The way he described that dream and the young boy growing older with him, absolutely broke my heart. You could hear the pain in his voice.
Hutch I don’t know you but in many ways I am you. Listening to your interview, has given me an understanding of things in myself I have avoided. I served 1972 to 1974 .
i have learned more in 41 minutes then i have for the last 20 years of therapy. As he said, veterans can learn from each others troubles, even without communicating. Thanks for this.
Get a different therapist bro
@@miketython1550 yeah lol
you should try group therapy with other veterans!
@@miketython1550nah most therapists are nothing but a person who made it through school and got a degree. You can’t connect with people unless you experienced what they did to a similar extent.
A therapist who’s never served in the military, or deployed, or deployed to war during the GWOT in the early 2000s.
You must not be smart.
I was in Baghdad Nov ‘07 - Jan ‘09 and when he talked details of the curb EFPs, I knew he wasn’t bullshitting. He was there at the same time I was. He was either 2nd or 3rd brigade. He and I did the same shit for the most part. Keep your head up brother. Excellent interview Mark. Thank you for this one.
I was in Al Asad around the same time. And the EFPs were decimating us. Those gave me the most potent anxiety every mission.
The Munroe Effect is a bitch
Thank you for your service.. I wish you the best
Do you regret it?
The great injuries of PTSD are the inability to connect with and relate to others, the loss of all innocence, the inability to ever feel safe again.
Hutch effectively articulated how it feels to be in war and how people kill their own pain. Really appreciated his message! Much love from a fellow veteran❤
He was very insightful.
I hope you're doing well.❤️
The level of emotional intelligence he has is truly impressive. As someone whose step brother didn’t make it out of his homecoming alive, the fact that he is still open to feel this type of love for his son is heartwarming to say the least.
Incredibly articulate and well spoken! He has a calling for Public Speaking. Hutch I hope you realize you have a gift to speak in a way that helps people to understand what it's like to be a Veteran. Very powerful. Please be well. You have a higher calling.
Agree and thought the same thing.a blessed speaker
He gave a good interview of "his" story, I wouldn't go as far to say he should be a public speaker.
@@jeep19 lmao are you the gatekeeper of public speaking then ?
@@jeep19 I'm genuinely curious as to why you felt the need to share your negative opinion. What does that do for anyone?
@@jeep19 he’s able to explain and relate to people who have no experience with war.. I’d say that’s a public speaking talent
Im rewatching this after Jacks interview. Anyone else
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link?
Me too 😊
Saw Jack’s, just now seeing Hutch. I remember how Jack spoke of Hutch, so, of course, I had to see him.
@@sunshine3914who’s jack? Can u link
This hit hard. My dad was POW in the Vietnam War. I remember my dad going through PTSD. He didn't see us. When he drank, he didn't hear us. When he was sober, we didn't hear or see him. He tried getting help at the VA, but no one would help him. He was in and out of the VA hospital but never treated it. He ended up getting murdered. The guys who did it basically killed a dead man. Everything this man, I see my dad. Our country really abandons our soldiers, and that cycle does trickle down into families. I am happy that he shared his story and put his son first. I also think it is wonderful that he is sober! That is strength. This is meaning.
It is a shame that your story is often told. They spend millions to train us to go to war. And yet, they spend NOTHING to get us back home.
Vietnam war era vet.
Son of a Korean war era vet. And sadly...the beat goes on.
our country is a war loving nation. That’s the problem .
This man needs a TED talk for trauma and healing. Amazing interview and peace to this man.
I started crying when he said his son had to wake him up and tell him, “ you’re ok, Dad.” 😭🙏🏼
I wanted to cry so hard for much of this interview that I had to keep it in so I could finish my activities. The way he sometimes stopped mid-sentence since the start of the interview, it's like the horror he carries inside derails his train of thought.
Oh same.
Same man
Please Mark, do more veteran interviews. These men and women need a good platform like yours.
I suggest checking out The Shawn Ryan Show
Combat vet here too. His description of coming to terms with participating in war is so spot on. I found myself shaking my head a lot through this story. I was never injured physically and lucky enough to avoid pain meds. I hope you're able to stay sober brother.
As an Afghanistan Veteran myself, this touched my soul.
Thank you for your story Hutch, hope all is well brother.
I watcged this again because of what jack just said in his interview...Hutch really is one of those rare people in life that is a blessing to the world. Just listening to his story has affected me deeply. Just an amazing person.
That was one of, if not the best interview I've ever seen. The world needs this voice, this insight. Thanks Hutch, you educated a 56 year old Brit tonight in ways I never expected. Here's hoping you and your boy have a good life together, you deserve it. I look forward to the book/film etc
Best interview ever so heartfelt and he could bring a suicidal person back to earth/ reality!
I know hutch personally the kid spoke his truth he is truly a stand up dude god blesse you brother
May, i ask how, you know him?
He sure seems down to earth.
@@drooshmaroosh8261 I think it’s a she cause pink M logo
@@unnamedchannel1237 🤣🤣you gotta be joking
@@BUKWulfSh0t I am also a recovering addicted with 3 years sober I live in LA for 6 years or so I use to work with him
Seriously one of the best veteran interviews I’ve ever seen, loved the part when he said there is nothing natural about war, how a young man can turn into a monster, and instantly snap back into a young man is astonishing. Thank you for your service and God bless you 🙏🏽🫡🇺🇸
Boot licker
No disrespect do you honestly think veterans give a shit about civilians thanking them for serving especially if they’ve seen some horrific stuff. VA exists but we could be doing so much more for them and we just don’t. They are sent over seas to get fucked up mentally then expect them to come back to normal life and act like it didn’t happen.
@@boredflower Oh no I agree no offense taken at all, words cannot encompass or hold any semblance to whatever horrors veterans are forced to endure day in and day out, I was simply offering my appreciation for the valor this man and other veterans had to sacrifice for.
Fun facts: US military war fatalities:
WW1: 116 000
WW2: 405 400
Korea war: 38 680
Vietnam war: 58 220
Afghanistan war: 2370
Iraq war: 4500
His service was corrupt and that's why he's suffering you dumb sheep. He should be punished and he knows it. Your stupid country men applause this but can't explain the reasons for the wars. Dumb sheep.
I am almost speechless.
First I want to say.... I think you're an amazing, insightful, empathetic, beautiful human being.
I wish I could just hug the memories away.
I want to say thank you.... But for sharing your story.
I won't thank you for the service...but I will say I love you for your sacrifice and willingness to share your experience with us....and I respect the choices you've made along your journey.
Your desire to have a better future than the environment you came from is impressive.
Your desire to express yourself and not repeat the same patterns of your upbringing is so respectable.
I'm so very happy for you that your son came to you and gave you the courage and purpose to keep fighting.... But this time for your own freedom and security.
Acknowledging the pain and shifting to be the best parent you can be for your son...is the most beautiful thing. It shows your heart and character.
I'm a Marine MOM.
The constant rollercoaster of emotions I feel with my first born volunteering to serve is unreal.
I'm scared, impressed, sad, proud, hopeful, fearful, prideful, amazed.
The range of feelings I have for the military, government, war, the people involved can be overwhelming as a mom.
I'm the proudest Anti-war Marine MOM you'll meet. A constant internal battle of emotions.
War is Racket. Sometimes it's necessary. And maintaining world peace is also important for the progress of the species.
We are all part of that.
The cycle... Is progress.
If we step back and look at human progress.... We are part of that.
Your journey is meaningful. You have offered yourself in service... both in and out of the army.
I'm so proud of you and I don't even know you. I wish I could hug you.
You deserve so much love and peace.
Thank you for telling your story. Much love to you and yours good sir.
You're a perfect example of a person that was born to break generational curses.
A fire fighter. 🔥
"FAMILY DYSFUNCTION ROLLS DOWN FROM GENERATION TO GENERATION, LIKE A FIRE IN THE WOODS, TAKING DOWN EVERYTHING IN ITS PATH UNTIL ONE PERSON IN ONE GENERATION HAS THE COURAGE TO TURN AND FACE THE FLAMES. THAT PERSON BRINGS PEACE TO THEIR ANCESTORS AND SPARES THE CHILDREN THAT FOLLOW." - T REAL
His genuinity is refreshing. I see what Jack was talking about. I cannot imagine anyone NOT liking him! Be blessed.
I did convoy security in Iraq in 2008 as well. I lost my mind for awhile over there. The only thing I can say is “I did my job” I feel everything this man said.
I'm so sorry our country has treated you so horribly, both in the military and as a veteran. And that so little is being done about it
No shame brother no shame
Wow being a USMC vet that was the 1st to hit Fallujah. This Man needs to get his (CAC) Certified addiction counselor degree. He could help so many people. Not only vets. His just being present is so powerful... Thanks. All a vet needs to hear is Thanks...❤
Thank you for your service! Heard about Fallujah! My cousin was a Marine! Semper Fi
“Tradition has been the death of human discourse.”
“The smarter we get, the more dangerous we become.”
2 eloquently stated, terrifying truths.
Tradition is culture. Culture is everything.
@@joshslawyer1876
Agreed.
the only comfort is that the moment someone passes from this world, they're in glory. experiencing a realm of love that most of us will never know here on earth. and unless i watched countless near death experience stories, i wouldn't know that, and there is no way i'd be free.
This young man is so articulate and I could really hear his heart. I have a son who is a Marine Corps combat Veteran who toured in Afghanistan. I’ve watched him be tormented by his own memories. He has recently gotten help, and is sober. I pray he continues to get help and is able to stay sober. Thank you to Hutch for sharing your story; It’s hard, but you tell it well. You are going to help people!
Praying for you, your son and loved ones. 🙏❤️
@@marylougeorge9890 Thank you so very much!
@@pattycorm ❤️
Riveting interview. He is sensitive, articulate, and intelligent. I think he is right that working with and helping others will bring meaning to his life. His son is fortunate to have this man as his father, and vice versa. Wishing him all the best!!
Well said! I was trying to think of a word (there are many)...yet riveting nails it. Rooting for you, Hutch💛
He’s very well spoken and I think he says a lot of profound things without realizing it. It was an awesome interview.
Especially on 2 x speed lol
Love this guy, massive respect.
Need more interviews like this. Especially when the war is happening right now.
He is hurting and so honest, so broken.
I loved this interview Mark
This one hit me hard. As an '05 and '07 Iraq war veteran, every single thing Hutch said and every point he made stuck a chord with me. I was brought to tears several times. His reflection, insight, poise, and articulation were all stunning. I wish I could meet this man in person. We would surely have a lot to talk about.
I hope Hutch sees this - you're a very great speaker, always remember that. It could (and probably has been) be a great tool for you and others. I can't even begin to comment, comprehend or truly understand the weight of the horrible things you talked about, but I hope you can continue to heal yourself. You're very thoughtful and have a very relatable demeanor, this was fantastic, thank you for sharing.
It's wild hearing you describe yourself being 'just a photographer' when you see breakthroughs people have during your interviews. You see things through many lenses and only a few of those are within your camera. You made something click with why he couldn't keep a job for an extended period. I hope the perspective you lended him helps him down his path in life. You're both men with tremendous amounts of heart.
I was in combat photo. Autopsies were the worst. Accident scenes did not affect me after awhile. Saw it all, then cross trained to avionics. They thought i was nuts when i had to repair a battle damaged aircraft with blood everywhere. You learned to block things out. Family life suffered alot. Ptsd is a bitch
Hutch, you are a phenomenal man. Listening to Jack's video yesterday made me want to find out who you are, and he left no crumbs explaining. I can see how you've made such a positive impact. Keep inspiring and changing lives, King!
Hutch, you have a gift when it comes to communicating. I listened to your interview in it's entirety and appreciated every second
Your joking right? This guy is high that’s why he’s talking so much
@@zazasnruntz7505 What is your problem? Maybe find something better to do with your time besides making idiotic comments about things you know nothing about
Well articulated and spot on. We did the same mission; convoy security on MSR Tampa, Route Irish, Route Bronze and MSR Mobile in Al Anbar. Brutal days in 2005. This was tough to listen to because it brought forth so many memories from my past...but I couldn't stop listening. I felt I owed it to him to hear his story all the way through. I am praying for his peace and his struggle in this life.
@Amtrakn Metalhead do u guys have any stories? I would love to read
MSR Tampa was very dangerous
I had a good friend lose his life there in '04. Glad you made it back. Thanks for your service.
OIF III, convoys out of Speicher
Those were the routes we ran in 04...3/2 SBCT out of Ft. Lewis. Glad you made it.
What an incredible interview. He's so thoughtful and the way he talks just hits me. I could listen to him for hours. From the bottom of my heart, I wish you all the best, Hutch!
You're an artificial person. You don't have a heart.
I second that! Couldn't of said that better.
Yes!👍👏👏👏
Thank you for your service. As a woman, I don't think I would have been capable. I pray this can all be something you can move past. I cannot imagine seeing what you saw. God Bless you Hutch!!!
This is truly one of the best ever. What a thoughtful man. God bless him his son and their family.
Just in case anyone doesn’t believe him, i severed with him during Iraq and Afghanistan! Salute Daniel Hutchison 🫡🫡 keep up the good fight
Love you homie just trying to raise some awareness.
@@jacknhutchEMOEVO thank you for your service, keep fighting the good fight . Best of luck to you
@@jacknhutchEMOEVO I served in the Navy for 21 years, but never came close to the experiences you had. God bless you Hutch; sending you love my brother.
Thank you quavo.. welcome home brother🙏🏽👊🏽🙌🏾🏁💙
@@jacknhutchEMOEVO Keep well buddy. I'm in a similar situation, I was a British infantryman who went to Afghanistan at the age of 18 left army at 22 and have been drinking and on drugs ever since, not as bad as I was throughout my 20s but still there at 34 years old. Hope to have things under control by the time I'm in my 40s it's a nightmare.
Wish you all the best mate.
This man is a good soul polluted by the worst of humanity im sure it took so much for him to become this positive after all hes been through, I wish nothing but the best for him and his son!
Absolutely. You can sense his underlying genuine soul, but it has most definitely been tainted by his mind trying to justify someone else's bidding. The fruits of war are not for those who fight them.
@@acmctheworld2107 Agreed. This guy has a golden soul. He should congratulate himself.
I was at 21:52 of quietly watching this video when I decided to read a couple comments and read “worst of humanity” in this comment exactly as the veteran guy said “worst of humanity” and it tripped me out so I’m just commenting about it cause everyone else at my house is asleep…
a sociedade produz seus próprios monstros
He reminds me so much of my dad. My dad went to Vietnam. He never talks about it, only when he drinks. I over heard him say once "Us catholic boys prayed with the dying men, we wanted them to have a prayer before they met Jesus " " no matter their religion, or what side they were on."
Horrific.
I would love to have a drink with your pops, i enjoy war stories
@@BUKWulfSh0t the war really messed him up. So he only tells them when he's drank 💙💙. Thank you for saying that.
@@QueenEvil504 my young Uncle fought in Vietnam & I remember the stories that we were probably too young to hear about. That was at family cookouts when everyone was drinking,back in the 70’s. He was never the same when he came over home.
@@QueenEvil504 Praying with all the dying...what a heart your dad has.❤️
This guy touched my heart. Thank you so much for this message. ❤
I could listen to this man talk for a week straight! he's a very intelligent, wise man.
I agree he should have a podcast hosting other veterans
You know what, Mark? You channel is healing. I believe a lot of people may watch your interviews, brilliantly done interviews, tho, just because of that. We see the real people, we feel the real minds, we understand their pain and problems. We are with them. We are united here on your channel. Thanks a lot dude for uniting same-mind thinking people. Thank you for just for that possibility, man.
As a fellow vet, this made me tear up. I can completely understand what he means. PTSD is not a joke. I always tell people that i had a "latency period" after I got out. Everything was fine, I was getting ready for school and getting ready to make something of myself. Then out of nowhere, it hit me. All that trauma I experienced took shape in the form of PTSD, anxiety, depression, etc.
It took me a long time to admit that I was messed up. I always say I am fucked up to people that won't be able to understand me. I also abused alcohol so that I could cope with my trauma. All it did was make me feel good mentally, but externally, people could tell that I was struggling. For most of us vets, we just want acceptance and compassion from those who are close to us. It is not about understanding us, it is about showing us that you care and being there when we may need someone to talk to.
Thank u for ur service
Nice profile picture!
I once knew a guy who
Your our brother, our family. Sleep tight. His the kids and listen to every word from them. They are medicine to the heart ❤️ .
@@jamsforyams same to you!
I served in the navy for 6 years & after hearing this HERO tell his story, I’m kind of ashamed to say i served in the navy for 6 years. All i can come up with is thank you for your REAL service to this country we live in. I appreciate your honesty & your ability to keep it real. God Bless You Brother.
The points this man makes about the social order, about government as gangsters is so insightful, simple and right. If we continue to allow narcissists, sociopaths, and even psychopaths to design the systems of civilisation and then control and operate those systems we will all continue to suffer the increasing horrors of living within a psychopathic society. I'm really grateful that this man shared his story.
I shared my story and its to seemingly intangible and heinous its surreal that either nobody knows how to respond or they can't process the dialogue to offer an unbiased exchange.
What I wonder is how you can protect society from psychopaths etc in power from without, even if that society isn't run by the same from within?
It's like tech, if you aren't keeping up you'll get bulldozed. And playing the game may corrupt even the sturdier and nobler people, given power.
real talk
What about nra ? This org is evil
@@tr7b410 yes climate change may even end our species its not fiction anymore
This interview is absolutely bone chilling, the way he is able to describe and articulate the things he experienced is incredibly eye opening, Thank you Hutch for not only your service, but also your insight sharing your experience with us.
This man just made me realize, when we say, "thank you for your service" we have no idea what we're talking about 😔
Yes!
I was just thinking about that exact statement..
Stop saying it.
It's an unoriginal thing the sheep are expected to bleet out to a veteran.
I've replied, "when I realized that my service was more to banks than humanity, I quit renenlisting."
This young man is so insightful.
His philosophy is inspiring.
Many many blessings to you Hutch and family.
The way your son wakes you up tore me up man. That's a love that only us fathers can understand. God bless you dude. I relate in so many aspects. I'm on a 2 year clean run myself. I'm going to keep on 🏃♂️
Amen
This gives me chills. I've heard so many descriptions of war, but when he said how a a guy can go from being a young man one minute into a monster and then back into a young man just as quick... that really got me. Hutch is the type of person war comes down to: good people with good hearts that get sucked into the vortex of violence and forced to perpetuate it. I know it's more complicated than that, but this is what we don't see underneath it all.
I agree- how could we know if we are not physically involved in it? It (war) is heartless and evil- the men who plan and wage wars do not go to see or fight in those same wars'
-to sacrifice our young strong valuable men and women to destroy whole countries of men women and children-to take territory! Power, wealth . How could any good person survive that without pain- nightmares, bad nerves and p.ts.d. We need to more for our vets- much more.
This guy is amazing. I'm going to rehab on Tuesday and this is encouraging for me.
@Robert Arnold Dude that's terrible advice.
@Robert Arnold If it didn't matter then you wouldn't have wasted your time commenting. My original comment still stands, terrible advice.
Good luck, man. Find strength in anything and everything you can.
Sending u healing fam
best of luck mate - hope it works out for you - let us know either way - knowledge is power, as this veteran so wisely, and eruditely, demonstrates! Cheers!
Your story touched me immensely. I am so sad for your pain & memories. I'm proud you are getting help. It's the best investment into yourself and your healing❤️ Blessings to you beautiful human❤️ Thank you for sharing your story.
We need a lot more interviews like this one. As an OIF Vet myself, this not only hits home for myself but all combat Vets. Thank you for telling the world your story. Pure honesty and realism in what war does to the psyche of young men. Unless you have been, done, seen and gone through the terrors of war, you will only understand .01% the feeling, emotions or self judgement vets walk with everyday. Keep being a great dad and stay safe brother!
I cant begin to feel how it would be to fight in a war that had nothing to do with yourself, must be horrifying.
Thank u for ur service
I never talk about it…it’s the only time a perfect stranger acts like they care but they can’t mask their morbid curiosity about wanting to say they know someone who killed. It always amazes me how people feel and think they can ask “did you kill someone?” I no longer answer that question as it is no one’s business unless you are a vet yourself. That’s for us unless we share it unprovoked. When you say yes they say “your sick man your fucked up” when you say no “oh, so you didn’t see anything or you didn’t do your job” fuck you. I protected my brothers but I’m not proud of any of it. They see us as heroes sometimes but we’re just people that got a another shot at life after a seeing the ugliness of mankind. This version of life we now live is weighed down with a darkness tinged with the knowledge that we are strong enough to be loved, forgiven and can tell the next group of young men eager for war that it is not the way. Hug your family, love your community, make the world a better place and live each day for those who you served with that are still their. This life is a beautiful gift.
Well said brother
I'm from the UK, I guess that folks from the USA and the world over, like me, are in despair at the motivation of and type of people/politicians we have making decisions about all our life's . I think I'd much rather have a man like Hutch making decisions for me and my community than most of them! Honest, insightful and reflective. I wish you well Hutch.
Amazing, profound interview. This is a man that has seen some shit and has learned more than most of us will ever know. I wish him and his son all the best of luck and a long happy healthy life together.