The Way My Father Touched Me Felt Wrong

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  • เผยแพร่เมื่อ 24 มี.ค. 2023
  • Today on Unfiltered Stories, our guest is Pattie Martins, who shares her story of surviving CSA at the hands of her father. From such a young age, she knew that the way her father touched her was wrong and very inappropriate. Pattie struggled because of this experience and her family being indifferent to what happened to her. Years later, her father's confession on the phone gave her the validation that she needed.
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  • @UnfilteredStoriesYT
    @UnfilteredStoriesYT  ปีที่แล้ว +20

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  • @MaineCoonMama18
    @MaineCoonMama18 ปีที่แล้ว +246

    I'm a rape survivor. I just want to tell all sexual assault & abuse survivors that I don't see your pain as "less than" mine. Each situation is different, but we have all been through the same type of pain and violation. Please never believe that your feelings are any less valid or any less worthy of compassion & empathy.

    • @hashidraws
      @hashidraws ปีที่แล้ว +10

      I'm so sorry you went through something so traumatic but I admire your strength. Keep on moving forward. ❤🌺

    • @sciencenotstigma9534
      @sciencenotstigma9534 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      I absolutely agree. I was trafficked as a teen, but I left home because of abuse I didn’t know was abuse. I was labeled as a delinquent because I kept running away, and when adults asked what was wrong, I didn’t know. It’s terrible that her grandma told her to apologize, if she had any doubt. At one point, I got lucky enough to get into a therapeutic treatment in Dallas, and they understood that if a child says one thing they probably haven’t even scratched the surface. I didn’t think I deserved to be there, though. I thought I was the problem. I tried going back home and it didn’t feel safe, and got turned out when I left. Police didn’t know about commercial child sexual exploitation, back then. They called us teenage prostitutes. I was subjected to a cavity search as a juvenile. I finally met with a woman who ran the first agency helping women off the streets in my area, and she knew about the SA that usually occurs first and asked the right questions. She called a social worker, and it turns out my abuse and neglect were “severe”. I was taken out of the home. If that had never happened, I probably wouldn’t have known how wrong it was. No one grows up with the self-awareness and confidence that they know what’s what, especially not before the internet. Some victims aren’t allowed to access it for that reason. I, too, tried to tell a family member that something was wrong and was punished. That shouldn’t happen to anyone. I am sorry this woman had to go through what she did, as a girl. She was in an environment of persistent abuse, and traumatized. No child needs to hear that they’re wrong to speak up, or be dismissed if there was not penetration. I lot of abusers fear they’ll go to jail if they do that, but do every abusive thing they imagine think they can get away with. It doesn’t make it any less traumatic for the victim. It can be even worse to be told you’re making it up and that, basically, anything else someone wants to do to you is ok. I was raped and told that I asked for it. Denying someone’s trauma is never ok.

    • @YeshuaKingMessiah
      @YeshuaKingMessiah ปีที่แล้ว +4

      TY for this kindness to others sex victims

    • @feliciaperezauthor
      @feliciaperezauthor ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I was molested by my stepfather for 7 years. The things he did were horrific. The damage he caused will be lifelong. Recovery isn’t easy but necessary. My voice was never heard but it is being heard now. One person at a time. I’m strong enough now and want to share my story to continue bringing awareness. Please choose to fight against molestation/ sex abuse WITH ME!, My fight is just getting started. This fight (for me) is no longer about my abuse, it’s about the society that failed me and my determination to bring awareness.
      Stop Sexual Abuse

    • @EmmaGodLovesTruth95
      @EmmaGodLovesTruth95 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      It's not all the same tho... Actually long time sexually abusive relationships with a close family member cause more severe mental illness (cptsd and d.i.d.) than one incident no matter what it was. Good thing you don't think that, because rape is definitely not always the worst, especially if the victim is already an adult. Anything that happens when you are a child causes more damage.

  • @morganjane
    @morganjane ปีที่แล้ว +191

    I went through the exact same situation as a young teenager. It was all verbal flirting, disgusting conversations, staring at me & inappropriate behavior. I felt so uncomfortable in my own home, & it’s absolutely awful. It’s abuse in my eyes.
    My heart goes out to you & thank you for sharing your story. 🖤

  • @cremebanana5000
    @cremebanana5000 ปีที่แล้ว +253

    how could a father look at his own daughter that way? his own flesh and blood? humans are scary

    • @cremebanana5000
      @cremebanana5000 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      i wish i wasn’t a human

    • @EmmaGodLovesTruth95
      @EmmaGodLovesTruth95 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      My dad was kinda like this too .. but when I was way younger, like 3-5. They are predatory criminal minds. Possibly psychopaths and sociopaths, maybe also sexually abused when they were a child and because of that they have paraphilia's: sexual perversities. Human sex drive is very strong especially for men, so if you think about the fact that their main sexual turn on is something perverse, well of course they will act on it.

    • @AgnesBalla9602
      @AgnesBalla9602 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Yeah. It is unbelievable to me too. Just unbelievable

    • @infinitewonder305
      @infinitewonder305 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Maybe his own Father look at him the same way , it can all be generational

    • @cremebanana5000
      @cremebanana5000 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      @@infinitewonder305 how horrible that the cycle sometimes repeats itself

  • @rhondaunger1228
    @rhondaunger1228 ปีที่แล้ว +54

    I had my father inappropriately touched me in my preteen age and I know exactly what she is talking about. When you trust and love a parent and they are supposed to keep you safe and they cross the line and break that trust it is an emotional scar and a pain that you cannot explain. I did not tell anyone what happened but my grandmother knew something happened. I remember getting very angry and being very guarded about my personal space permanently. Till this day I do not like people coming up and hugging me, if they have any attraction to me I can feel that sick feeling which makes me very uncomfortable. The emotional trauma that sexual abuse does is as bad or worse as the physical act.

  • @marionfriedenthal7352
    @marionfriedenthal7352 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    Do not spend any time in his presence. And make it clear to your relatives that you never want to hear his name again. Stay strong.

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      💯💯💯💯💯💯💯💯

  • @reneakoons4392
    @reneakoons4392 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    That is so sad her mother failed her,A mother’s duty is to protect a child even if it’s from her own father!This is so horrible!

  • @shellyannkoernke5262
    @shellyannkoernke5262 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

    Your truth is your truth! Do not let ANYONE change your story!

  • @thcsparky
    @thcsparky ปีที่แล้ว +101

    My mom was sexually abused growing up by her brother, and she said the worst thing is that she told her parents it was happening; her brother was going in her room and touching her at night. She said it was so awful because she was not believed, and her parents just acted like nothing was going on. Her brother denied it, of course. They didn't punish her but they didn't believe her either. How awful. I'm sorry you had to grow up that way.

    • @melistasy
      @melistasy 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

      😢 my mom went through the same thing. She was abused by her brother and my grandmother didn't believe her. One day she decided enough was enough and fought him off, and he never did it again. The damage was already done though, and my grandmother treated my mom differently as if she had did something wrong. As a result, my mom was the considered the black sheep in the family because she acted out.
      My mom had a hard life while my uncle went on to think he's better than other people and that his sh$t doesn't stink.
      It really pains me that she went through that and my gma didn't protect her. I don't understand how people can mistreat their children. 😢

    • @ceceprincess4758
      @ceceprincess4758 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      How terrible. My friend went thru the same thing. She told me her brother had sex with her and a teen and she hated him. I don't think mom did anything

  • @cathyvice7135
    @cathyvice7135 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    What a brave woman to tell her story.

    • @feliciaperezauthor
      @feliciaperezauthor ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I was molested by my stepfather for 7 years. The things he did were horrific. The damage he caused will be lifelong. Recovery isn’t easy but necessary. My voice was never heard but it is being heard now. One person at a time. I’m strong enough now and want to share my story to continue bringing awareness. Please choose to fight against molestation/ sex abuse WITH ME!, My fight is just getting started. This fight (for me) is no longer about my abuse, it’s about the society that failed me and my determination to bring awareness.
      Stop Sexual Abuse

  • @A.x3
    @A.x3 ปีที่แล้ว +143

    Way too go mom. You gaslight your daughter so much into thinking she was crazy. You even made her apologize to her abuser.

  • @ramonanetto8718
    @ramonanetto8718 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    I feel so proud of you that you voiced out this terrible perverted actions of this man call Dad. He deserves to be exposed. So many women have stories that are buried and feel embarrassed to come out with it, esp when they were young vulnerable. May they all recover knowing they have all happened without any fault of theirs but the evil one itself May these perverts be answerable to our Lord above.

  • @jasminelee1234
    @jasminelee1234 ปีที่แล้ว +37

    There are evil monsters in this world. Bless this beautiful and brave lady. The trauma she has gone through is heartbreaking.

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      #Absolutely 🎉

  • @AnnaSimmons-uj1ib
    @AnnaSimmons-uj1ib ปีที่แล้ว +34

    I was adopted into a family where the brothers and the father sexually abused me until i was 12. I've cut them completely out of my life. Ive got anger and anxiety issues now but going to therapy to sort myself out. Thanks for sharing, it helps, coz i dont feel so alone by hearing these stories. God bless

    • @shiningstar5919
      @shiningstar5919 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      God bless you

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Soooooo #WONDERFUL , Sister, How r U doing, Now???🎉🎉🎉

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@shiningstar5919AMEN 🎉🎉🎉

    • @AnnaSimmons-uj1ib
      @AnnaSimmons-uj1ib 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      @@KM-oy5yh Hi. Thankyou. Im doing good. Trying to stay positive works for me. I avoid dwelling on the negative intrusive thoughts.

    • @PrincessAfrica3
      @PrincessAfrica3 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      Oh my dear i am so sorry 😢 I pray Jesus Christ will heal and comfort you like He has done for me

  • @jess78281
    @jess78281 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    I am sorry that you went through something so horrible being so young and vulnerable. You should have been protected. You suffered and you did not deserve any of that. You are amazing and strong.

  • @human151
    @human151 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I can’t believe grandma just left. If nothing else, she could have called
    The police.

  • @rhondaunger1228
    @rhondaunger1228 ปีที่แล้ว +17

    Another thing that she brought out which is very common whenever you confront the situation to family the family will dysfunctionally react and blame the victim. This happens way too often. It brings further shame on the victim.

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      AMEN AMEN AMEN 🎉

  • @marjoriegoodwin2993
    @marjoriegoodwin2993 ปีที่แล้ว +47

    Children need to be taught to defend their boundaries. My son and daughter-in law have talked endlessly to their 3 children about this matter. Unfortunately many people are just discovering that this topic needs to be spoken openly about to children, more than once, and seriously. All this for the emotional health of our most important citizens; our children.

    • @turtleturtle4209
      @turtleturtle4209 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I talk with my boys and my door is ALWAYS open to them & any others who need a safe person to confide in. My oldest is 15 & there's not one conversation I hush him with & he's learned more about protection from pregnancy, Stv's, & predators from me than anyone else in his life. My 4 yr old gets the talks about good touch/bad touch & to never be scared to tell a safe adult.

    • @a.bquiroz914
      @a.bquiroz914 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      My God I talk to my children as well I always reassure my children won't be in trouble and I won kill the people harming them (usually a relative) so they won't be scared to talk.

    • @thatonekidsshow262
      @thatonekidsshow262 ปีที่แล้ว

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    • @thatonekidsshow262
      @thatonekidsshow262 ปีที่แล้ว

      M

  • @marieslabbert6009
    @marieslabbert6009 ปีที่แล้ว +51

    I am glad you got your voice back. Even a very small child knows when he/she is touched inappropriately. I am so glad your grandmother was there for you, but blame your mother for not protecting you. I know the feeling you had as I was also made to feel like I was in the wrong when I was 7 and was lured into a room by a boy more than twice my age.
    I was molested by our next door neighbour when I was not yet 3 years old. It was incredibly painful and changed my life forever. I was molested by another 3 boys growing up. The last time, hopefully, was when my best friend's husband put a date rape drug in my coffee and raped me. I "woke up" during this, but could not move. These things never leave you. I was never able to form a healthy intimate relationship with a man in spite of going for counselling so many times.
    Never allow your family or anybody else ever again to make you feel guilty for something you did not do. I wish you much joy, love and peace in your life.

  • @lellabellab144
    @lellabellab144 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    I am so angry at your mother but so very proud of you. I wish you all the best in life.

    • @mihstieghboggs7821
      @mihstieghboggs7821 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am angry at the sperm donor- Dad is too precious a word to Grace the abuser with.
      Sometimes silent and disbelieving moms are being gaslit and abused as a different branch of the same tree. She should have done more, but please go harder on the anger at the abuser. Detracting to her, lets him off the hook in a way

  • @QUESNSLDN
    @QUESNSLDN 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Thank you so much for validating the voices of us who have been sexually abused as a child without penetration 😢

  • @sumenmathew4230
    @sumenmathew4230 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    An animal like that needs to be locked up and if he can't tell the difference between a daughter and mother or another innocent child. You have nothing to be ashamed of because you are brave and courageous and you should be proud of yourself for standing up and fighting this. You are a strong and smart woman and you deserve better and God loves you. You will be ok.

  • @BiomedicalDesigns
    @BiomedicalDesigns 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    The abuser is "dark" - they are filled with dark entities, demons. It takes great, great courage to tell your story. Do whatever you have to do to completely heal.

  • @primadonna2819
    @primadonna2819 ปีที่แล้ว +28

    This was so genuine and powerful. Thank you for sharing this horrific story. I hope with time this pain dies away. 💔

    • @feliciaperezauthor
      @feliciaperezauthor ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I was molested by my stepfather for 7 years. The things he did were horrific. The damage he caused will be lifelong. Recovery isn’t easy but necessary. My voice was never heard but it is being heard now. One person at a time. I’m strong enough now and want to share my story to continue bringing awareness. Please choose to fight against molestation/ sex abuse WITH ME!, My fight is just getting started. This fight (for me) is no longer about my abuse, it’s about the society that failed me and my determination to bring awareness.
      Stop Sexual Abuse

  • @feliciaperezauthor
    @feliciaperezauthor ปีที่แล้ว +29

    I was molested by my stepfather for 7 years. The things he did were horrific. The damage he caused will be lifelong. Recovery isn’t easy but necessary. My voice was never heard but it is being heard now. One person at a time. I’m strong enough now and want to share my story to continue bringing awareness. Please choose to fight against molestation/ sex abuse WITH ME!, My fight is just getting started. This fight (for me) is no longer about my abuse, it’s about the society that failed me and my determination to bring awareness.
    Stop Sexual Abuse

  • @nanceehildenbrand7632
    @nanceehildenbrand7632 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    I'm EXTREMELY PROUD of you ❤️. Keep your head up and NEVER give up ❤️❤️🙏🙏.

  • @kerilaurene248
    @kerilaurene248 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    I am so extremely sorry that happened to you. You are seen, you are valid, and you should never have had to endure such excruciating psychological torture at the hands of your father and your complicit mother. I can't even begin to imagine how hard it's been for you, and I'm so glad he finally said it out loud for you to hear. As disgusting as it is, that was what you needed to know that he truly was sexually assaulting you, as well as psychologically abusing you. You are so strong, and courageous, and I am so happy that you are still here and that you are learning to love yourself and learning to live your best life! All of the love and biggest of hugs to you! ❤

  • @LisaGonzales-lv5tu
    @LisaGonzales-lv5tu ปีที่แล้ว +7

    Abuse with a capital A!!! Well said!!! I've struggled immensely with using the word abuse.....thank you for having the courage to relate your experience!!!!!❤

  • @crypton_8l87
    @crypton_8l87 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The worst thing is the wives being subconsciously jealous of their daughters that they'd rather suggest it was the daughters fault in some way.

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      AMEN AMEN AMEN 🎉

  • @carolineb7796
    @carolineb7796 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    I have been raped on a number of occasions in my life, by different men, and if I had to choose, I think what I went thru was less awful than what you experienced. It must have been incredibly traumatising to be in a house with someone that made you feel so unsafe, so uncomfortable - and for that person to be ur father.. That threat of more happening ever looming, I can only imagine the constant sense of dread. Thank you for ur bravery in sharing your story, you are incredible❤

    • @PrincessAfrica3
      @PrincessAfrica3 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      My dear i am so sorry 😢

  • @homebody6353
    @homebody6353 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    There is absolutely nothing worse than having to apologize to your abuser. I’m so sorry this happened to you Patti ❤ I’m sending love to you from Louisville, Kentucky in the U.S. I was molested by my older half-brother when I was 8 he was in his twenties. It messed me up really bad. Both of my parents looked me in my face and apologized and said they believed me but they didn’t do anything. I remember having heath class in school where we learned about physical touch and abuse. I couldn’t focus in school after that. I started acting out and just raising hell. My dad always told me to be nice to my half-brother and my mom said something to the effect of, yeah thats what your brother does. They kept letting him be around me and he was the emergency-contact we had to put down in school. It’s like I couldn’t get away and always had to be nice to him. I almost don’t wanna have kids now just so no one can ever hurt my children 😔

  • @isabellrc
    @isabellrc ปีที่แล้ว +11

    This upsets me, as does everyone’s story who suffers through SA in anyway.
    I’m saddened to hear what you endured; never did you deserve this cruelty. I’m sorry family members, especially your Mom, as she needed to STOP him!
    You’re courageous!

  • @SeekerPersimmon
    @SeekerPersimmon ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Telling your story will save lives. Thank you.

  • @sharonvega8623
    @sharonvega8623 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    ❤ something I’ve learned from other peoples stories and my own is that the adult I am today, is who I needed protecting me as a child.
    The healing journey is never easy, but when you begin to break free, it’s empowering.
    I believe in you❤

  • @AnneLien1987
    @AnneLien1987 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Both your parents failed you enormeously. I'm sorry pattie, so so so sorry. Your mother should have protected you from that monster.

  • @BlackNoiseCat
    @BlackNoiseCat ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Thank you for sharing your story. My daughters great grandfather (who’s not blood related) made very inappropriate comments about her. My husband told him and his grandmother that it was wrong and they really treated us like we are crazy and that my husband is a crazy alcoholic (because he drinks). Im glad we are not the only ones that see it this way and not letting her be put into such an awful position like you were.

  • @kendrah8365
    @kendrah8365 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Thank you for your bravery and vulnerability. I celebrate your courage and this journey you are on speaking truth. Your truth deserves to be heard and you deserve to have people in your life who validate your truth. I’m so sorry your mom didn’t give that to you as a child 🥺 May you have a community that loves you and supports you walk with you on your path ahead as a survivor of SA! 💜 May you receive what you need!!

  • @mlliana
    @mlliana ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This made me think of my father . Who is the polar opposite of this. Who is everything good. I’m the oldest of 6 all girls and he spoiled all of us , never told me no in my life, yet I had immense respect for him. I don’t remember ever being upset with him . He passed in 2020 from covid. Not all dads are good and I appreciate mine. And feel so much compassion for her . Only compassion.

    • @Anonymousey44
      @Anonymousey44 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      You are extremely lucky

  • @joykigenrob3498
    @joykigenrob3498 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    The mother was the icing on the cake! This was so sad to listen to! I am so sorry she experienced this.

  • @nusagrace
    @nusagrace 7 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    This is what my dad is doing to me since puberty. Thank you for opening up, you helped me realise that I have a right to feel what I feel.

    • @travay6328
      @travay6328 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      How are you doing now? Can you please report him? Not to anyone else but call 911
      I was molested by my dad as well, if you don't do it you might regret it, you might also need therapy. If you don't mind me asking how old are you?

  • @09artgirl
    @09artgirl ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I'm amazed at how often women/our moms "mean well" but they are SOOOO wrong in their decision-making and completely contribute to their own children's damage and trauma. Mothers!!!... get a grip on this concept BEFORE you bring children into the world! Sadly in these times, most men and boys (family or friends or neighbors) cannot be relied on to be "providers and protectors", and instead are usually the "perverts and predators" of their own children or step-children or female friends. In this day and age IT'S A MOTHER'S JOB TO KNOW THIS and WATCH OUT FOR IT!!!!!

    • @YeshuaKingMessiah
      @YeshuaKingMessiah ปีที่แล้ว

      No most men are not perverts and predators
      That is a skewed view
      Many woman also abuse and participate willingly in SRA if children; they are no more protectors than a guy in a group of pervs.
      This group of humans that are sick predators that should not be tolerated in any manner, exist. But don’t go saying most or all men are this. They are not.

    • @astrohitter1791
      @astrohitter1791 ปีที่แล้ว

      Father's aren't to be trusted? Or do women need to start talking about aborting males altogether?

    • @09artgirl
      @09artgirl ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@astrohitter1791 I'm pretty sure I said nothing about aborting males.

  • @yeahdallas
    @yeahdallas ปีที่แล้ว +8

    Bless you! I am so sorry what you had to deal with this. It was scary! You made it through chronic fears and gaslighting! You have empathy for other survivors and understanding that can help others! That man was sick!

  • @advancedinsight246
    @advancedinsight246 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    This video made me cry... This video is a clear extreme case of how she was gaslight (the playing with her reality)... Such a horrible case of abuse... Her Dad is just not right... She is beautiful inside and out, a lovely heart... What happened to the lady is unconsamated incest! 'Informative Video'!

  • @doramatthewswhorley1585
    @doramatthewswhorley1585 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Absolutely abuse. God bless you.

  • @13donstalos
    @13donstalos ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Abuse takes many forms. They are all unacceptable.

  • @JNB520
    @JNB520 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Why are these stories so normal. . Parents touching their kids,.... Very brave woman. !!!

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      They are #NOT..Normal, It's #WICKED n #PERVERTED 🎉

  • @shannon6708
    @shannon6708 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thank You. I went through this as a teenager too it's so uncomfortable to be in that situation with no one to turn to. It turned into verbal abuse for me because I rejected My dad because I could see how awkward he was towards me. It made me hate him and want to pull further away. It's so weird and creepy. The head games never stopped. I haven't seen My father in over 16 years. It really does a number on Your head. It was Not your fault Your father didn't know how to deal with his inappropriate feelings toward his own daughter. It made me hate myself for being female.

  • @Kittiesdawn
    @Kittiesdawn 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Your story really moved me. What a terrible, insidious nightmare you had to cope with. I pray that you find peace….you are a very brave woman….don’t let him make you a tortured soul any longer x

  • @h.s.l6875
    @h.s.l6875 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Thr gaslighting she endured is so scary

  • @turtleturtle4209
    @turtleturtle4209 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Tysvm for sharing this. I honestly know exactly what you're talking about, and you're the first person I've ever heard tell a story like this on this level.

  • @jnaldospencer7178
    @jnaldospencer7178 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    My name is Ricketa from the Bahamas and I too have suffered rape before in my life not by a relative but by a stranger but as it relates to the end of your story about screaming to the top of your ungs for the truth to be heard understood recognized and admonished for what it is, is so relieving for me to get that revelation from you considering I had become a victim of domestic dispute with my family because of an altercation that occured that involved my mum my grandmother and myself and we were at a party of one of our cousin's some weeks back I was on liquor and so was my mum and after leaving the party we ended in a fight the three of us because out of the influence of the rum and feeling bullied by my grandmother I began revealing family secrets but my grandmother took great offense to it and I lashed back so I was told by cursing at her and she sneaked me from behind started the fight but my mum jumped in to help her instead of me with me telling them both in the process of trying defend myself that they both know they can't stand each other an speak about each other so badly every chance they get yet they come together to fight me after which only me had bruises to show including the bite marks on my legs where my 68 yr old grandmother bit me .the next day I was being bombarded with relatives coming to me raining insults over a drunken matter when I know I was innocent but my mum n grandma wanted to blame their actions on my drunkenness and I remember full well what I did verses what they did and for the longest while everyone tried to make me look like the bad guy when I was innocent there was only one witness that could of helped the truth it was my youngest sister and she didn't even defend me out of fear that they would treat her the same way they are treating me so she sided with them instead an all I could do was sit in sadness disbelief an wanted to just runaway from everything including my husband an kids to go and do away with myself. But I said all of that to say in families of today and random people collectively we don't respect truth for what it is anymore we see each other as monsters when you want to reveal things that people try to ignore for years and because you are brave enough to expose things you become the most hated all because they want to silence the truth that you aren't afraid of and it is a stigma all around the world but I am so thankful ma'am to hear you say saying how you feel about something when you know it is not right is ok and telling the truth for what it is and not allowing anyone not even family make you silence your truth is ok and that you are still somebody an somebody special at that you are an amazing warrior to have passed through that mental state of being And still be sane because all of what you had passed through was sent your way to make you become a mentally ill person but you made it to happiness and succes and live to tell the tale because you made all of the right choices though you were faced with adversaries within your own household all your life and that tells me that even though I am dealing with the same thing where they want to silence me I am not afraid to speak truth on anything and that means that I will make it through this safely and I will experience complete happiness after all

    • @patriciaburton5279
      @patriciaburton5279 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Yes, you will find Peace 🙏👍❤️

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN,,Sooooooo #True, Sister..#EVERYTHING u said, I #CAN Relate 🎉

  • @teacherteacake
    @teacherteacake ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You're so brave! And it was so so wrong of course! Let go of the "but I wasn't raped" idea because really, the damage is the same. Thanks for your story.

  • @tracycraft2971
    @tracycraft2971 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Thank you for this!! You are a beautiful strong woman!! You give us all strength! You saved my life tonight!

  • @EstherFavorr
    @EstherFavorr ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I went through similar situation except it was my brother and EVERY NIGHT since 8yrs old this man would sneak in my room and Rvpe me while my sister was sleeping next to me! It ruined me. Broke me… I still have Ptcd

    • @feliciaperezauthor
      @feliciaperezauthor ปีที่แล้ว

      I was molested by my stepfather for 7 years. The things he did were horrific. The damage he caused will be lifelong. Recovery isn’t easy but necessary. My voice was never heard but it is being heard now. One person at a time. I’m strong enough now and want to share my story to continue bringing awareness. Please choose to fight against molestation/ sex abuse WITH ME!, My fight is just getting started. This fight (for me) is no longer about my abuse, it’s about the society that failed me and my determination to bring awareness.
      Stop Sexual Abuse

    • @cela9852
      @cela9852 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      I'm so sorry to hear that. Have you ever spoken out or told your family members

  • @skyej8074
    @skyej8074 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    When i hear stories like this I imagine myself in that role. Like that of the grandmother. I would be in jail because you would’ve been back in Portugal with us. The thought of leaving after hearing what was happening to you is unimaginable

  • @sheilafogarty977
    @sheilafogarty977 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    It was betrayal. I'm glad you have your voice back.

  • @karimawatford269
    @karimawatford269 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Go head Queen👑 I'm so glad u have found ur voice n took ur power back 💪🏾bc it was indeed ABUSE! It's all different types of it but all of it feels uncomfortable, degrading, scary to the point where we feel powerless. I'm so sorry it happened to you, thank you for sharing 🙏🏽 I can relate as well unfortunately but ur so inspiring to so many of us, to know we're not alone, to blame or crazy. It's teaching other survivors how to get their voice back so they can be heard bc its extremely important. Stay Blessed n keep thriving🙌🏾🏆

  • @AngelaSeifried-lr1hj
    @AngelaSeifried-lr1hj 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Thank you beautiful for sharing painful memories so many others like me as well can get it out no more hush hush but hard truth.

  • @carja09
    @carja09 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This is really gaslighting. Best wishes to you to find and be truly loved throughout the rest of your life.

  • @GoodWillPrevail
    @GoodWillPrevail ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I am so sorry for what you've gone through. It was a profound betrayal. I hope you continue to find healing and peace. You were abused, no doubt!

  • @natashavandekamp145
    @natashavandekamp145 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I can’t understand how mothers don’t take this seriously or how men can look at their CHILDREN in sexual ways!!!!

  • @Rain-uh4us
    @Rain-uh4us ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Sexual abuse is sexual abuse painful horrific to every one of us take care beautiful girl and don’t ever think your suffering is any less it isn’t we will be heard and we will stand up to this evil every survivor stronger ❤

  • @lizzponce
    @lizzponce ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I am so sorry you had to go through this. Not only his disgusting passes but that you essentially didn't have a father. I love my dad and I couldn't imagine growing up without him. So not only did you experience unwelcomed inappropriate passes, he took away you having a dad, a real dad relationship. And for that I'm sorry. Side note I love your big round ring where did you get it?

  • @advancedassessment6974
    @advancedassessment6974 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    You are absolutely beautiful, brave and courageous to go through all that and sharing your story. This is so much common that we are made to believe. Abusers have to be exposed.

  • @readit704
    @readit704 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    100% believe in your intuition and trust yourself.

  • @jennyjones3978
    @jennyjones3978 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This so damn sad. Not even safe around your own family. 💔

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      #Absolutely...#NOT, SISTER 🎉

  • @wildyouthct
    @wildyouthct 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I love her portuguese/british accent, but this poor beautiful woman. i’m so sorry this happened to her

  • @fatoufrancescambow5876
    @fatoufrancescambow5876 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    🧡🌻⭐️ Thank you for trusting yourself . And thank you for your grandmother when you were little

  • @sigrunandersen9570
    @sigrunandersen9570 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    thank you for sharing your story. it is important that violating sexual is just as wrong as other sexual abuse. Theese abusers think they can get away with it, but more ppl are aware that this also can happend and is abusive. wish you mutch happiness in the future - you deserve it. love from norway

  • @nataliekelley2627
    @nataliekelley2627 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Same i felt crazy for years. Yours is the first story that i felt some wlse understood what happended not only with my main abuser but with my family. That but they have not done this so stop making a big deal out of it.

  • @safina2022
    @safina2022 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Abuse is abuse. Do whatever you need to not allow others ignorant behaviour control your future. Stay strong because you deserve to have your life of meaning and purpose. Everything will be alright... Bless you!

  • @MindYours-bh7zl
    @MindYours-bh7zl ปีที่แล้ว +4

    🙏🏽you are amazingly beautiful soul! They couldn’t break your soul or your spirit.❤️❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽

  • @workin2
    @workin2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Why don’t we tell? Because we’re taking the chance that they won’t believe us and then we are marked and alone.

  • @robertdouglas4130
    @robertdouglas4130 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    So sorry my heart goes out to you , so glad you are on your way to healing. So glad you are speaking out!

  • @rmwilson4287
    @rmwilson4287 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    You were sexually, emotionally and mentally abused by a perverted sick man who was your father. And you were not protected by your family who shared in the emotional and mental abuse of you. I am so sorry you experienced such trauma and I'm glad you are finding healing. Much love from a fellow survivor.

  • @user-vp1zd3ri8i
    @user-vp1zd3ri8i ปีที่แล้ว

    Your so brave for speaking forward. You are helping others to do so . Never forget that. God is with you always. God Bless.🙏❤️🙏

  • @margaretgarana911
    @margaretgarana911 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    You’re so strong and amazing for keep telling

  • @kaydearborn7913
    @kaydearborn7913 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm so happy that you found your voice!!! Good for you!!!! ❤❤❤

  • @virginiawaters3220
    @virginiawaters3220 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    As a child my brown neighbor would try to hug me and he would pull me close to his body. I knew 100% that that was not a normal hug. No one should ever disbelieve a child or young woman who experiences this. We know absolutely the difference between sweet, loving physical touch and inappropriate touch.

  • @timothycorby7659
    @timothycorby7659 ปีที่แล้ว

    You are a very strong woman telling your story, you've been through a lot remain strong and God bless.

  • @helenbye8
    @helenbye8 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You are so brave. i hope the rest of your life is full of joy. God bless you

  • @rollingthunder7258
    @rollingthunder7258 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    My Mom used to say this too problems needed to be corrected or solved before they happen.
    My Dad was a great Dad and my Mami too, they had 15 children together I'm the second last child.
    When they had me they were in their 40's with a good knowledge on how to be better Parents but with the first children they struggled a bit but I think they did good because they put US boundaries inside and out of the house.

  • @leannethur5597
    @leannethur5597 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Me too. I think the invalidating and mothers knowing about what their husband's are doing is even the harder to accept than the actual abuse. I had fantasies of killing and torturing her my entire life. Mother's like this should go to prison for many years.

  • @delrawilliams7512
    @delrawilliams7512 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    🎉❤❤I celebrate youabuse is physical yes but it is also mental and verbal. Each is just bad,neither should be ignored. Congratulations on speaking out it truly is part of your healing.

  • @pursueliving
    @pursueliving ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Keep screaming, girlfriend. You're right on. God Bless you.

  • @jbb2650
    @jbb2650 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    My heart breaks for what you went through. God bless your heart and I am so sorry for what happened to you. I don’t blame you for not wanting to speak to your dad. I hate when anyone tells anyone to just get over it. You don’t, you just learn to live with it and you are so brave to talk about it.

  • @tarasgarden
    @tarasgarden ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I understand what you are describing. My father, uncle, a male teacher, and a married male youth group leader all did things like this with me when I was a teenager. I am much older than you and have had more time to reflect on all of it, but I am so happy for you that you have owned the truth of your experience. You knew it felt wrong and it was wrong. Your family had no business pushing you to greet your father especially when they did not force him to admit the truth and apologize to you.

  • @kymm46
    @kymm46 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This kind of thing happened to me too!!

    • @feliciaperezauthor
      @feliciaperezauthor ปีที่แล้ว

      I was molested by my stepfather for 7 years. The things he did were horrific. The damage he caused will be lifelong. Recovery isn’t easy but necessary. My voice was never heard but it is being heard now. One person at a time. I’m strong enough now and want to share my story to continue bringing awareness. Please choose to fight against molestation/ sex abuse WITH ME!, My fight is just getting started. This fight (for me) is no longer about my abuse, it’s about the society that failed me and my determination to bring awareness.
      Stop Sexual Abuse

  • @priscillal4321
    @priscillal4321 5 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Pain has purpose. Your story is real, and your voice has been heard. A broken world with broken people. You don't need to do a movie or a documentary. Your story, like others, is uniquely told, and it touches the deepest part of our humanity. Thank you for putting an amplifier to your experience and letting your pain find a voice. I hear you, and it has had an impact and resonates. You are bringing healing to many. Thank you for your courage. .

  • @cassie2910
    @cassie2910 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    So proud of you. Thank you.

  • @justt9507
    @justt9507 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    THANK YOU FOR SHARING! Your story will help so many children know they are not at fault and they can be strong too. 💪 ❤

  • @nikrae3925
    @nikrae3925 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you, I cried with you. Felt real close to your story.

  • @ComplicatedCupcake
    @ComplicatedCupcake 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Brave woman. Speak it out.

  • @fionamorritt5962
    @fionamorritt5962 6 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Wow. You are SO BRAVE. Thankyou xx

  • @JA-jm8bk
    @JA-jm8bk 7 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I wish her the very best. What a terrible experience: to be betrayed by a figure so pivotal in one's life.

  • @ravendluna369jasso8
    @ravendluna369jasso8 ปีที่แล้ว

    Strength, love and light your way sister 🫂💖🫂

  • @ashleylively9194
    @ashleylively9194 ปีที่แล้ว

    Thank you for sharing

  • @juliapark5133
    @juliapark5133 ปีที่แล้ว

    So so brave, I hope you life will be happy and prosperous. Much love and respect to you.

  • @fawziaanker
    @fawziaanker ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Same here...'It wasn't rape, but....This is my story too...but I was saved by my grandma...I asked her not to tell my mom, I was in a loyalty conflict...She said she wouldn't, but her phonecall was faster than my bicycle...My mom asked me if they should get divorced, but that was not my intention. So they are still married...for 61 years now. I always hoped him not to be my father, cause he was blaming my mom having affaires...After all he turned out to be the one with the affaires...and abuse! My dad told me not so long ago he was in love with me and I looked like my mom, and I was the perfect woman...what an excuse...!! Not so long ago he told my cousin the same thing...wanting to have an affaire with her, because my mom can't give him sex anymore...I hate the man...

    • @KM-oy5yh
      @KM-oy5yh 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      Lord Have Mercy, #SMH, #DISGUSTING, #NASTY..#PURE WICKEDNESS 🎉

  • @gerardcasey8373
    @gerardcasey8373 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    You are one brave and inspiring woman and none of this is in anyway your fault.