Why I don't witness anymore

[@tedhazlett]

Rachel, I hear you witness on every video you posted so far. You have a powerful witness and I am inspired by it. I can discern that you have been transformed, you no longer use the faith of your parents to try to save you… you have your own faith/relationship with Jesus now. God does not need “transformed/holy people” to sell Him. God wants people who admit that they are sinners (like you and me) to trust in Him to the point of being persecuted for their Faith. I pray that you continue to on your quest to be closer to God, but maybe you are right where he wants you to be in this season of your life.

[@iconaclastica]

Thank you so much, Ted. I never thought of the videos that way. I so appreciate your encouragement, insight and support. It truly means the world to me.

[@artzpops]

im a firm beleiver that we aren't any suprise to God and that He loves us and wants us here despite where ever we may be at with him . He sees the big picture. I know I don't have a great relationship (if any) with him, and i worry that I wont make to heaven or catch that rapture when it happens...so i choose to believe that he's sees what i do not and that he forgives me for my constant transgressions in life..

[@iconaclastica]

I really appreciate your transparency! That's one of my biggest hopes with this channel, so I'm glad you felt comfortable to say what you were really thinking.
I was in the same boat as you, where I was thinking my relationship with God isn't really a relationship, and I wasn't content with it staying that way. I have had a lot of ups and downs along the way, but I would really encourage you to use that as starting point of conversation with God to see how he wants to guide you in becoming closer with Him. He can handle your honesty.
I'm also hoping to make more content that speaks to the concerns you mentioned. Don't give up. Regardless of how it looks/feels, He loves you and has good plans for you!

[@artzpops]

@@iconaclastica thanks 😊

[@MatthewVerse515]

You are doing the right thing, a little bit of gold is better than a ton of rocks. It is repeated many times that God is against the false witness. It is also repeated many times that God is a God of Truth. So, by disenfranchising Truth to sell an idea of God, it is counter to what God's will is since God IS Truth - when you abandon Truth you are also abandoning God.
The journey to become closer to God isn't a fast one, its a life-long journey. But the length doesn't matter since it is the journey itself that is to be enjoyed. In the same way how you get lost in a good song instead of focusing on its duration. A short song isnt automatically a good song, enjoying every second of the journey through the song/your relationship growth with God, is where the true meaning and delight is in. This video itself is a good witness because it shows how your love for God has made you overcome hypocrisy and being a false witness, a stumbling block common to many in the church. You are doing great, progress is earned through revelations like these and you become closer to God through every identification of sin/iniquity and the subsequent repentance of that sin/iniquity.

[@iconaclastica]

Thank you for your perspective, Matthew. I really appreciate you sharing!