PLEASE READ!!! TraumaCore is **NOT** an aesthetic, I do not know who or what made this up, but like what the end of the video said, it's only for traumatized people who are COPING, it doesn't deal style, aesthetic, etc. This is only for people to cope with.
@@ratwithcrayons I know this video is a year old, but I just want to say that I appreciate you advising people not to use sanrio tags for traumacore images. I mean it doesn't bother me personally but some people are insensitive about tagging serious topics so it's nice to see 👍🏻
My stepbrother, ironically enough, did it to me. It’s a cycle because his own mother had her brothers do the same thing to her. It caused DID. He’d tell me he loved playing games with me, things would be normal, and that layered over my trauma for a while. How can someone who was supposed to love me use me??? My mother let it happen, my older brother didn’t say anything…
i didn't get sexually assaulted, but i did get verbally abused via bullying + my mother. it's so upsetting. traumacore helps me put it out, and not feel like i'm a whiny brat who complains about everything. i wish i could make traumacore music, but i have no talent for music. i wanna draw my pain outta me, though, and i often do. i hope those edits, and also people and things who make you happy help you in this journey to overcome trauma.
I feel the same way sometimes I feel as if I'm just being self centered about everything despite it being hell living here I understand that weither its physical or sexual etc; it's still important but with emotional/verbal abuse you feel as if you're probably overreacting and being sensitive.
I think the beauty of traumacore is that it doesn't have to be perfect or the creation of Van Gogh! It just needs to emulate what your trauma feels like, it doesn't have to be a masterpiece, it just needs to make you feel good via venting. Trust me, I made some traumacore art too (but like sketches) and they aren't perfect or beautiful or exhibit-worthy but I felt good making them because they picture what my trauma feels like. So yes! Make some art and don't worry about them looking pretty! It's your coping mechanism and you get to choose what they look like!
I only owend a couple but I was obsessed with the MLP show and the fandom as a kid, sometimes I wish I could go back to just watching those shows and vibing in the fnaf community back in 2014 that would make me feel at home :)
I remember having the 3.5 salon without the ponies but that means I could have possibly owned them since they do make me feel a little nostalgia thought I mostly remember growing up with gen 4.
the ending of this video made me very happy c: i hope everyone is doing well, and staying safe in these hard times i know you're all trying, and we're doing fantastic, little by little
"hey im sorry for whatever i did wrong." "What did i do?" I thought we were friends. Why are you ignoring me? Why do you hate me? Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry Im sorry I cant stop thinking about you Why do i miss people who hurt me?
hey i just wanted to say, i’m so proud of everyone here, remember that what happened to u does not define you, u are amazing and beautiful, u are not broken, u are not unlovable. u are perfect the way u are and i promise things will eventually get better, it hasn’t even for me but i’m hoping at some point it will. anyways please don’t give up yet ily and ur doing great!
Sometimes i really HATE when someone grab any part of mi arm (more specifically the wrist) Because when someone do it, i feel too anxious and too much fear
Ah yes hello, a non binary, pansexual here, something similar happened to me, and I'm very traumatized about it. It made me uncomfortable with my body, and traumacore helps me deal with it. Hope you have a nice day :3
Same but it was retailed with suicide so I was abused at 6 and seen fights at 3 4 5 and have still been geting abused so I was geting hit and I was starting to feel scared around my mother this one fight made me feel suicidal and almost comited suicide I have it in my head fully and wish I died and make my mother feel guilty for her actions her friends dont see what's really going on she calls me a demon and her friends think nothing bad is going at home when they're really is-
@@davikannan9116 I don’t know how life is for you now, but I’m so sorry that’s happening. You never deserved it, I’m happy you’re still here. I hope you have a wonderful day, nice meeting you
i feel so guilty reading these comments and finding comfort in traumacore when i havent experienced much major trauma. is that fine? im genuinely asking because this is such a heavy topic. )o:
This is made to bring healing and comfort to everyone, never feel guilty for finding comfort in something. Don't deny what you feel for the sake of others
Try not to feel guilty, it's not a suffering competition even if we play into that sometimes. I dont WANT anyone to be able to relate to trauma-core but I'm glad that it helps us that have been through trauma
rember people! traumacore isnt a real aesthetic anyone can use like cottage core/dark academia/royalcore/etc., its a coping mechanism for those with trauma, so be respectful and dont make it a fun quirky aesthetic u use for fun
i had some events in my life that i never thought of as bad or unusual until i was older. traumacore has helped me so much because instead of sounding like an attention seeker to people who dont really care, im able to vocalize it through either these images or the music.
traumacore is quite creative in expressing pain In my opinion, when I see the images, I feel chills and a lot of sadness. but it's not that I don't like it weirdcore is a way to make you feel weird with distorted and liminal places in my opinion it is quite creative when it comes to making you feel weird and a bit scared And finally Dreamcore is amazing at making you feel like you've already been there. In my opinion, these places, more than scaring me, make me want to go because I feel that they are more colorful and look more...... fun than our real world thanks for reading!
hospital scenes fuck me up bc our family's "abuser" was nature in the form of my mother's terminal cystic fibrosis, and id come home from school never knowing if she would be a.) at the hospital again or b.) gone. my dad wrestled with the sudden devestating notion of mortality, made harder by his untreated bipolar. he drank within the confines of a normal person during the week, but he had to pound a flask when he took my mom to a respiratory clinic because of how many miserable and dying kids he saw languish about, but he always did his best for both of us. the particular disturbia/uncanny valley effect of seeing my mom whisked away by nurses, hooked up to aggressive and loud medical equipment, flailing and moaning from side effects of her medication that made her skin crawl, sometimes her chest was so congested i could hear it rattling over the phone. having to grasp the concept of death by age 8 because the reality of them not telling me and her passing away was too likely, and preparing me at a young age was the lesser of two evils. and now my father has prostate cancer. the most compassionate and un-abusive parents I know, and they're fucking leveled by compromising illnesses they didn't ask for, leaving us all just as shellshocked, fragmented, horrified. im prepared to lose them by the time im in my 30s, and because cystic fibrosis effects a woman's fertility, the possibility of siblings was out of the question. so by that time, it'll just be me... starting from a young age i would actually rehearse my mother's death in my head and mentally play out various scenarios, so that when it really happened, i wouldn't go totally ballistic. the closer we get with this pandemic, that notion is growing more and more naive by the day... tl;dr: my parents were wonderful and never did me wrong, but genetic disease and medical trauma have left all 3 of us mentally frayed beyond the breaking point and there's no cure
I love watching this when it's midnight it makes me feel safe. Yet so dark but I still love it all alone in the dark quietly watching sitting in a corner.
When I was 11 and she was 12, an older friend of mine was in an argument in the group chat and threatened suicide. I called 911 in a panic, told them as much as I knew, and spent the rest of the night on edge. She thankfully survived, but she blamed me. She told me I was in the wrong for scaring her family. "What was I supposed to do, leave you to die? You were about to kys." "No, I would have been fine." For the next few months, I completely shut down. I don't remember anything but crying in my room and in math class, and listening to nightcore. I discovered this community (I refuse to call something like this an aesthetic) a short while afterwards, and for the past year or two, it's helped me cope. I hope videos like these will pop into recommendations of someone who needs it, just as it happened to me so long ago.
hi.... i was sexually assaulted by my neighbor when I was around 6 or 7 years old and i never told no one though because when i was younger i thought it was normal but when I got in to the 6th grade I notice it wasn't, and at that time i was realizing my mother + grandfather had been physically and mentally abusing me so i always keep things to myself. i never really thought about it until recently when i discover trama core & weird core, ..... mostly the only reason I'm typing this on here is bc I'm afraid to tell someone i know and on here I'm completely anonymous?? i think but I've been using this to cope with my trauma ... sorry if my grammar is off its technically 1:48 AM and i need to get some sleep.
Hey, sorry I‘m 3 months late, but I wanted to tell you a few things. First of all, I‘m so sorry, you are such a strong person and I‘m proud of you for being around!! What I would do, if you feel comfy enough, is to maybe tell your Dad(I’m not sure if you only live with your mom) a friend or even a teacher if you are in a good relationship. You dont deserve being treated like that because youre a wonderful human being and deserve to br loved and appreciated!!!
@@capturedbyalyssa Thank you so much! And its okay lolol, but I recently told my friends or so called friends what had happened too me but they laugh at me... But its okay I'll thug it out Lol.
I just want to say that I watch these videos to become more aware of people who experienced things like this, so I can understand my mother’s hard childhood due to her mother having schizophrenia and divorcing her father, leaving poor conditions for my mother to grow up in. I have experienced things like verbal abuse from an old girlfriend, calling me a lesbian freak, but not to this extent. I hope everybody watching this to cope is feeling better, and other people can help bring you up. Have a great day!
I feel like I wasn’t abused because my abuser was the same age as me and it was mental abuse not physical,,, just so many threats, gaslighting and manipulation ): even though my therapists agree it was abuse, I feel like it could just be called bullying or friendship issues but ik it’s more than that ahhh and I can’t stop dreaming about being sexually assaulted and tortured even though I’ve never been Lol we love 7 diagnosis I just want them all to go away
@@melanie4132 You might have trauma. It can suppress itself. I had so much that I literally didn’t know my age at some point because the years were so blurry, but I functioned well and was a “normal kid.”
As far as I'm concerned I've never experienced serious trauma, but sometime in 2020 my friend threatened suicide multiple times. I had never dealt with it before so I didn't know how to help. Even now I still don't, all I know is the suicide hotline. They still mention self harm and have been talking about experiencing transphobic abuse because she is transgender. (She/her) I have no idea what to do, I want to help but idk how and it hurts. Although I love her, I had never had any of my friends talk to me about that stuff and you should be careful of who you talk to about that stuff, because it caused me to get depressed for months. Contact the suicide hotline, not a inexperienced, impressionable minor. It's okay to get help from friends, but talk to people you know can help.
i know how you feel, ive been through something very similar. i came out of it a completely different person. one thing i learned though is that setting boundaries is VERY IMPORTANT, if you're uncomfortable or cant take something, you should voice that. its always important to think abt urself too. whats also good is taking time to relax and focus on ur own wellbeing, i had one of my other friends help my suicidal friend while i was taking time for myself. i still have reactions to triggers bcuz of the fact that it traumatized me, but i still get by because ive taken care of myself. and please remember that its ALWAYS a good idea to vent. venting is so healthy. tho id suggest venting into an empty discord channel, or a google doc. singing loudly to the point of practically screaming is also very helpful
Imagine being suspended for being sexually used and manipulated... definitely couldn't be me. I know it's not technically my fault because I was young but at the same time I still feel guilty for letting it happen. I enjoyed it at the time because I didn't realise he was using me. Why does he get to be free with no repercussions??? Why is he not arrested? I wasn't even the legal age of consent. I regret ever meeting him. I WANNA TEAR HIM TO SHREDS. >:(
I always knew I was different somehow. There must have been something really special about me when I was 3. My biological father must’ve really seen it in me because he sure liked my body a lot! I also seemed to be quite smart. I knew about good touch and bad touch before my whole kindergarten class! My adult friend I tell my feelings to taught me so much about the things my father shouldn’t do to special kids like me.
@@bonkers4953 thank you very much! I’ve been doing a little better now that my antidepressants are working as expected. Therapy helps too especially with me being able to talk about this and other things I’m going through. Although, I still get random anxiety attacks for some reason. But I’m sure that can be figured out soon. Thank you for your concern and nice comment!
I have no idea if this even counts but When I was younger I used to tell "lies" to my dad,even though I was mostly telling the truth.He always took me to public places to talk to me so it just made me more nervous.When I "lied" he would get so mad.I would always cry when he yelled and it was in public.I don't even wanna think about it.He made me scared of him.He made me scared of crying infront of people.And now he wants to try and have a relationship with me again.
This is very much helping me with the large pain of realizing and remembering what had happened to me, may they be pseudomemories or things we do not..remember fully. As a trauma holder of the system, I thank this for helping me, and a few others in the system. -Charlie
Another system! I agree this can be helpful but its also interesting for us as its one of those things thats a pos trigger for some and neg for others. -blended
I remember my cousin who was twice my age at the time SA-ed me. We were in a closet while all the other kids were outside playing. And he trapped me in there and forced me to do things. All I can remember is my bruised knees and my sore throat. It hurt. It hurt more because he would say that all the cool kids did it and if I did it I'd be cool too. But said if I didn't, they'd hate me :(
im sorry. i know how this feels except it was my ex boyfriend.. i just want you to know that you don’t know me but i wanna tell you, don’t let it get the best of you im here even if I’m 1000 miles away it’ll get better ❤️🩹 have a good day/night
I was SA, and im too scared to tell anyone but i did tell my friends when i was molested at a younger age. Also traumacore, weirdcore, and dreamcore is a really really helpful coping mechanism. To help with trauma with sa, and abuse from Friends and parents.
I feel like the biggest lie I've ever been constantly told in my life is that "things will get better". Caving into the pressure of toxic positivity that kept being pushed on me has only psychologically fucked me up beyond help. I've passively let them abuse my mind and body for years after being punished for every attempt I've made to defend myself. Somehow it was always my fault for being an object or target for years. Its nearly been 25 years now and I can no longer function properly in a public space or work without breaking down. A lot of my long term paranoias and fears were comfirmed and now it's hard to open up or trust anybody. Constantly seeing what's going on with this world hasn't helped, I honestly want to dissapear, I don't want to function anymore. I'm tired of pretending I'm okay.
I got sexually assaulted by my cousin when i was 5 but my parents don’t know that and they wouldn’t believe me bc when i told them that a family friend of ours touched me in weird ways, they said that it wasn’t true and that i was overreacting
The traumacore comforts me although I haven't had any trauma, I don't know if my dad's death is considered a trauma but I also have anxiety since I was 8 years old and I've never told anyone about it. Reading the comments I feel guilty and that I exaggerate. (Use traslator because it is not my main language)
As a person who went through some trauma in there childhood and slowly forgetting it sadly, I can see these as vents not romanticizing anything there is a clear call for help or true sadness, sometimes in only words but also images too.. I do think there should be trigger wranings and people should probably not repost these unless the creator doesn’t mind but yeah not that bad at all just venting.
I hate how I ruthlessly try to justify that she was either clueless or too drunk to understand what she was doing when she was forcing herself unto me. I hate how I continually victim blame myself for 'not doing more' whilst it was happening. I hate being a victim, I hate that writing&talking about it makes it real; I hate (but understand 2:18) that I need to acknowledge it. I hate that I can't trust people.
My cousin sexually abuses me, but shes female. I was called a liar and attention-seeker when i came out about it to my friends when they asked me why i had been upset lately. She still does it, so traumacore is a big way i cope, although i never do it publicly. I hope that everyone who is in a bad situation stays safe, and that you know that you are loved, and your experiences don’t define who you are.
skip telling your friends. tell your parents and if they don't believe you tell the police directly. put your phone under your bed so it records the sounds just PLEASE do anything. you will not be the only one she does this to.
I haven’t suffered any trauma but I just wanted to let you all know you’re worthy of being loved. I can’t possibly know how it feels but I really hope that one day you will get better. Just know that it wasn’t your fault and you’re enough and worth being loved and that you’re beautiful ❤️ stay safe :]
This helps me cope from my trauma i had a friend who made me do horrible things online and when my mom found out i belived it wasnt a big deal but i realize it was wrong im coping slowly but i still feel scared about it
0:17 this exact thing happened to me. As someone who tends to downplay my experience this hit hard, to whoever made this I hope we both can feel okay someday
TW Ok I’ve been keeping this for a bit but I want to say that I have been verbally and psychologically abused by my family for years and they all call me useless when I mess up and call me the r slur ( I have adhd and anxiety ) and they are racist and homophobic and say if I was ever gay / trans then they would take away my phone forever and never talk to my friends again and some family members hit me if I am “not polite” and they are forcing me into their religion and claim that they are not homophobic and they tell everyone that our family is perfect. I can’t do anything without getting their approval and I’m literally almost 15 years old. I don’t know how to escape this hell Someone help
I’ve never been harassed or assaulted but the verbal abuse from my brother it hurts it’s always hurt and I don’t know why I just want to know why I want to know why to everything but what I mostly want to know is why does he hate me
TW: suicide and grooming When I was 8 I was gr00med and bullied almost to su1c1d3, I'm better now but I have an extremely irrational fear of people being behind me because the people who mentally tormented me were taller that me and sat behind me (they also hit me from behind) and that's all I want to say
Hey i don't mean this in mean way but saying just "trigger warning" doesn't really help because nobody can Tell what kind of triggers you're talking about, it'd be better if you put for example "TW suicide, grooming"! Also im very sorry for you I hope that you're fine now💜
hi so i’m late ik but i’m being mentally abused by my mom, she yells at me constantly for how i look ,, i’m scared to come out i’m a man , not a woman. this helps me cope and be safe but yah know - she doesn’t like what i do she want me to be just like her
Something similar happened to my friend and I would suggest if u don’t feel safe I would maybe plan to go stay with a friend after just so your not alone with her after if she doesn’t accept you but I hope it goes well if u do come out good luck ^^
I have not seen an image like this that hit me as much as 0:15 , it almost perfectly represents what happened to me. I was eleven, it only lasted around 20-60 seconds say most, so I'm not really sure if I can actually feel bad about it. Seeing as it's nowhere near what happened to some people. I had a dream similar to it recently, and only a while ago I started thinking that it could be trauma.
Woke up one day and didn't feel anger and regret anymore. Thought I forgave him fir it because why else wouldn't I feel like shit for what happened? I still don't know exactly what I feel. I've been pretty empty and out of reality since then. Thinking about ending his life because I'm more of a "I hate all of you" than a "I hate myself" type of person.
i dont even remember ever being like INTENTIONALLY abused but my parents and my home had a lot of..issues and it kind of rubbed off on me. one time my dad stepped on a pack of staples and there was blood everywhere for weeks because no one cleaned it up and one time cps came to our house a
PLEASE READ!!!
TraumaCore is **NOT** an aesthetic, I do not know who or what made this up, but like what the end of the video said,
it's only for traumatized people who are COPING, it doesn't deal style, aesthetic, etc. This is only for people to cope with.
THANK YOU. I have gotten a couple of hate comments because they didn't understand
very true im new into this all but so much things speak out what i cant tell in such music
@@ratwithcrayons I know this video is a year old, but I just want to say that I appreciate you advising people not to use sanrio tags for traumacore images. I mean it doesn't bother me personally but some people are insensitive about tagging serious topics so it's nice to see 👍🏻
@@errortryagainlater4240 I try my best to be a good person :D
it isn’t?
When I was really young my adopted elder brother had assaulted me... it hurt a lot more because he would tell me that he did it cause I was special.
Oh my gosh!
I'm so sorry for you :(
Hope you're doing better now :3
Have a good day/night/afternoon!
I hope you feel better since that happened
Sometimes murder is ok
My stepbrother, ironically enough, did it to me. It’s a cycle because his own mother had her brothers do the same thing to her.
It caused DID. He’d tell me he loved playing games with me, things would be normal, and that layered over my trauma for a while.
How can someone who was supposed to love me use me??? My mother let it happen, my older brother didn’t say anything…
i didn't get sexually assaulted, but i did get verbally abused via bullying + my mother. it's so upsetting. traumacore helps me put it out, and not feel like i'm a whiny brat who complains about everything. i wish i could make traumacore music, but i have no talent for music. i wanna draw my pain outta me, though, and i often do. i hope those edits, and also people and things who make you happy help you in this journey to overcome trauma.
I feel the same way sometimes I feel as if I'm just being self centered about everything despite it being hell living here I understand that weither its physical or sexual etc; it's still important but with emotional/verbal abuse you feel as if you're probably overreacting and being sensitive.
I think the beauty of traumacore is that it doesn't have to be perfect or the creation of Van Gogh!
It just needs to emulate what your trauma feels like, it doesn't have to be a masterpiece, it just needs to make you feel good via venting.
Trust me, I made some traumacore art too (but like sketches) and they aren't perfect or beautiful or exhibit-worthy but I felt good making them because they picture what my trauma feels like.
So yes! Make some art and don't worry about them looking pretty! It's your coping mechanism and you get to choose what they look like!
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Same and I get shamed by what I watch and my mom said I will never learn, I can’t remember anything.
>man assaulted by feminists his entire life listens to feminist song, likes it
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1:08 holy fuck.. that.. hit deep.. I had those EXACT ponies when I was little.. I actually still have them.. damn.. brings a lot of memories..
Me too, I’m sure they’re buried in my closet this very second.
I only owend a couple but I was obsessed with the MLP show and the fandom as a kid, sometimes I wish I could go back to just watching those shows and vibing in the fnaf community back in 2014 that would make me feel at home :)
Whoa me too
same, they are in the basement-
I remember having the 3.5 salon without the ponies but that means I could have possibly owned them since they do make me feel a little nostalgia thought I mostly remember growing up with gen 4.
So far you've survived 100% of you worst days! Congratulations amazing person! 💖💞💗🌸🌺🌹💮🌈🌟💫✨🌙🐱🐶🦄🐤🍓🍉🍥🍡🍭🍧🍨🍩🍫🍪🍰🎂
Tysm ❤
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2:22 off topic but i'm ngl the kitten is too cute oh god;_;
Ikr
Imagine that kitten hugging your face
@@redcircle7921 i wld love to doe;^;
@@55685 meow
@@redcircle7921 meow
the ending of this video made me very happy c:
i hope everyone is doing well, and staying safe in these hard times
i know you're all trying, and we're doing fantastic, little by little
"hey im sorry for whatever i did wrong."
"What did i do?"
I thought we were friends.
Why are you ignoring me?
Why do you hate me?
Im sorry
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I cant stop thinking about you
Why do i miss people who hurt me?
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I don't know, its a strange feeling to miss the people who hurt you
I'm happy that these are more gender neutral, that way everyone has a way to cope, including me! thankyouthankyou c:
hey i just wanted to say, i’m so proud of everyone here, remember that what happened to u does not define you, u are amazing and beautiful, u are not broken, u are not unlovable. u are perfect the way u are and i promise things will eventually get better, it hasn’t even for me but i’m hoping at some point it will. anyways please don’t give up yet ily and ur doing great!
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Sometimes i really HATE when someone grab any part of mi arm (more specifically the wrist)
Because when someone do it, i feel too anxious and too much fear
everybody I hangout with makes me feel bad for joking about my trauma but its the only way I know how to cope with it
If joking about it makes you feel better /help u cope with it don’t let them stop u doing it ^^
Its fine. I joke about my trauma a shit ton as well. Youre not the only one
This coping mechanism really helps me but I feel like people would make fun of me for it idk what to do :(
I made some of these
well done, they look really good!
@@salty26700 ty
@Kaed3 Kinda
@@ratwithcrayons they look amazing. Also fellow rat lol
@@M801-c6o rats are wonderful animals 🐀
Ah yes hello, a non binary, pansexual here, something similar happened to me, and I'm very traumatized about it. It made me uncomfortable with my body, and traumacore helps me deal with it. Hope you have a nice day :3
I hope you have a good day also and may the rest of them be fluffy and soft
💗💛💙. 💛🤍💜🖤
Same but it was retailed with suicide so I was abused at 6 and seen fights at 3 4 5 and have still been geting abused so I was geting hit and I was starting to feel scared around my mother this one fight made me feel suicidal and almost comited suicide I have it in my head fully and wish I died and make my mother feel guilty for her actions her friends dont see what's really going on she calls me a demon and her friends think nothing bad is going at home when they're really is-
Same with me but I was abused
@@davikannan9116 I don’t know how life is for you now, but I’m so sorry that’s happening.
You never deserved it, I’m happy you’re still here.
I hope you have a wonderful day, nice meeting you
i feel so guilty reading these comments and finding comfort in traumacore when i havent experienced much major trauma. is that fine? im genuinely asking because this is such a heavy topic. )o:
If traumacore helps you cope than dont feel guilty
@@ratwithcrayons okay tysm for clarification! (o:
This is made to bring healing and comfort to everyone, never feel guilty for finding comfort in something. Don't deny what you feel for the sake of others
@@funonabun2970 thank you (:
Try not to feel guilty, it's not a suffering competition even if we play into that sometimes. I dont WANT anyone to be able to relate to trauma-core but I'm glad that it helps us that have been through trauma
rember people!
traumacore isnt a real aesthetic anyone can use like cottage core/dark academia/royalcore/etc., its a coping mechanism for those with trauma, so be respectful and dont make it a fun quirky aesthetic u use for fun
"Where did my childhood go? Why can’t I remember?" That is so relatable.
Self harm and suicide I can really relate to I used to hurt myself all the time even at one point burning my arm...
Sometimes I scratch my arm til it bleeds, but I’m hoping it’s at least better than cutting
@@squidballs don't please! Have u tried using a red pen or colouring pen? U can even use red make up.
2:13 ..shit, that one got real personal with me.
i had some events in my life that i never thought of as bad or unusual until i was older. traumacore has helped me so much because instead of sounding like an attention seeker to people who dont really care, im able to vocalize it through either these images or the music.
"Stop crying" my mom said that exact same thing to me
I kept crying...
I USED TO THINK “Stop crying before I give you a reason to cry” WAS NORMAL UNTIL I SAW A BUNCH OF TRAUMACORE SAYING ITS NOT
When you only had four years of childhood ;)
traumacore is quite creative in expressing pain
In my opinion, when I see the images, I feel chills and a lot of sadness.
but it's not that I don't like it
weirdcore is a way to make you feel weird with distorted and liminal places
in my opinion it is quite creative when it comes to making you feel weird and a bit scared
And finally
Dreamcore is amazing at making you feel like you've already been there.
In my opinion, these places, more than scaring me, make me want to go because I feel that they are more colorful and look more...... fun than our real world
thanks for reading!
1:53 hit spot on.
hospital scenes fuck me up bc our family's "abuser" was nature in the form of my mother's terminal cystic fibrosis, and id come home from school never knowing if she would be a.) at the hospital again or b.) gone. my dad wrestled with the sudden devestating notion of mortality, made harder by his untreated bipolar. he drank within the confines of a normal person during the week, but he had to pound a flask when he took my mom to a respiratory clinic because of how many miserable and dying kids he saw languish about, but he always did his best for both of us. the particular disturbia/uncanny valley effect of seeing my mom whisked away by nurses, hooked up to aggressive and loud medical equipment, flailing and moaning from side effects of her medication that made her skin crawl, sometimes her chest was so congested i could hear it rattling over the phone. having to grasp the concept of death by age 8 because the reality of them not telling me and her passing away was too likely, and preparing me at a young age was the lesser of two evils. and now my father has prostate cancer. the most compassionate and un-abusive parents I know, and they're fucking leveled by compromising illnesses they didn't ask for, leaving us all just as shellshocked, fragmented, horrified. im prepared to lose them by the time im in my 30s, and because cystic fibrosis effects a woman's fertility, the possibility of siblings was out of the question. so by that time, it'll just be me...
starting from a young age i would actually rehearse my mother's death in my head and mentally play out various scenarios, so that when it really happened, i wouldn't go totally ballistic. the closer we get with this pandemic, that notion is growing more and more naive by the day...
tl;dr: my parents were wonderful and never did me wrong, but genetic disease and medical trauma have left all 3 of us mentally frayed beyond the breaking point and there's no cure
Holy shit my heart is broken for you. That is just awful.
I honestly don't think I have any kind of trauma, I can't remember anything bad from my childhood, just the "good" parts
Hospital Beds are more Comfy than my own Bed
I love watching this when it's midnight it makes me feel safe. Yet so dark but I still love it all alone in the dark quietly watching sitting in a corner.
When I was 11 and she was 12, an older friend of mine was in an argument in the group chat and threatened suicide.
I called 911 in a panic, told them as much as I knew, and spent the rest of the night on edge.
She thankfully survived, but she blamed me. She told me I was in the wrong for scaring her family.
"What was I supposed to do, leave you to die? You were about to kys."
"No, I would have been fine."
For the next few months, I completely shut down. I don't remember anything but crying in my room and in math class, and listening to nightcore.
I discovered this community (I refuse to call something like this an aesthetic) a short while afterwards, and for the past year or two, it's helped me cope. I hope videos like these will pop into recommendations of someone who needs it, just as it happened to me so long ago.
hi.... i was sexually assaulted by my neighbor when I was around 6 or 7 years old and i never told no one though because when i was younger i thought it was normal but when I got in to the 6th grade I notice it wasn't, and at that time i was realizing my mother + grandfather had been physically and mentally abusing me so i always keep things to myself. i never really thought about it until recently when i discover trama core & weird core, ..... mostly the only reason I'm typing this on here is bc I'm afraid to tell someone i know and on here I'm completely anonymous?? i think but I've been using this to cope with my trauma ... sorry if my grammar is off its technically 1:48 AM and i need to get some sleep.
Its Good you told someone about it even if your anonymous
Hey, sorry I‘m 3 months late, but I wanted to tell you a few things. First of all, I‘m so sorry, you are such a strong person and I‘m proud of you for being around!! What I would do, if you feel comfy enough, is to maybe tell your Dad(I’m not sure if you only live with your mom) a friend or even a teacher if you are in a good relationship. You dont deserve being treated like that because youre a wonderful human being and deserve to br loved and appreciated!!!
@@capturedbyalyssa Thank you so much! And its okay lolol,
but I recently told my friends or so called friends what had happened too me but they laugh at me... But its okay I'll thug it out Lol.
@@blosom8633 Hi, are you ok now?
@@blosom8633 Yea those are terrible people in general I’m glad they’re not your friends anymore.-
Traumacore helps everyone cope with depression and trauma.
The ending was a nice addition. I think that traumacore creators should add those more often in case someone is in a bad place♡
You aren't alone in this, we can fix everything together
@winterprincess 2005 you're welcome darling, I'm always here if you wanna talk :]
@winterprincess 2005 yuh!
Your profile pic and name actually made me giggle when I was feeling sad :)
TAKE ME OUT OF THSI WORLD! I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE!
I appreciate the lil info cards at the end about traumacore. I hope you're doing well ❤
I just want to say that I watch these videos to become more aware of people who experienced things like this, so I can understand my mother’s hard childhood due to her mother having schizophrenia and divorcing her father, leaving poor conditions for my mother to grow up in. I have experienced things like verbal abuse from an old girlfriend, calling me a lesbian freak, but not to this extent. I hope everybody watching this to cope is feeling better, and other people can help bring you up. Have a great day!
Every traumacore i can pay Attention, but this one, i can't, i Just vibe to the music T~T
1:09 why did you recite my feelings right back at me 😭😭😭
I feel like I wasn’t abused because my abuser was the same age as me and it was mental abuse not physical,,, just so many threats, gaslighting and manipulation ): even though my therapists agree it was abuse, I feel like it could just be called bullying or friendship issues but ik it’s more than that ahhh and I can’t stop dreaming about being sexually assaulted and tortured even though I’ve never been
Lol we love 7 diagnosis I just want them all to go away
hello, despite being 11 years old and not having any trauma, I hope that people abused in any way get out of that hell they live in
I carry my trauma with me everyday I will never for get but I can't change it but I can change my future
Am I the only one who feels like some things about my childhood just dont add up?
@kaz the rat literally same like I can only remember some small things and the rest I just cant seem to remember it's so strange.
@@melanie4132 You might have trauma. It can suppress itself. I had so much that I literally didn’t know my age at some point because the years were so blurry, but I functioned well and was a “normal kid.”
As far as I'm concerned I've never experienced serious trauma, but sometime in 2020 my friend threatened suicide multiple times. I had never dealt with it before so I didn't know how to help. Even now I still don't, all I know is the suicide hotline. They still mention self harm and have been talking about experiencing transphobic abuse because she is transgender. (She/her) I have no idea what to do, I want to help but idk how and it hurts. Although I love her, I had never had any of my friends talk to me about that stuff and you should be careful of who you talk to about that stuff, because it caused me to get depressed for months. Contact the suicide hotline, not a inexperienced, impressionable minor. It's okay to get help from friends, but talk to people you know can help.
i know how you feel, ive been through something very similar. i came out of it a completely different person. one thing i learned though is that setting boundaries is VERY IMPORTANT, if you're uncomfortable or cant take something, you should voice that. its always important to think abt urself too. whats also good is taking time to relax and focus on ur own wellbeing, i had one of my other friends help my suicidal friend while i was taking time for myself. i still have reactions to triggers bcuz of the fact that it traumatized me, but i still get by because ive taken care of myself. and please remember that its ALWAYS a good idea to vent. venting is so healthy. tho id suggest venting into an empty discord channel, or a google doc. singing loudly to the point of practically screaming is also very helpful
Imagine being suspended for being sexually used and manipulated... definitely couldn't be me. I know it's not technically my fault because I was young but at the same time I still feel guilty for letting it happen. I enjoyed it at the time because I didn't realise he was using me. Why does he get to be free with no repercussions??? Why is he not arrested? I wasn't even the legal age of consent. I regret ever meeting him. I WANNA TEAR HIM TO SHREDS. >:(
I never got r@p3d or @bus3d but I like the idea of having a cope aesthetic ahead of time
I always knew I was different somehow. There must have been something really special about me when I was 3. My biological father must’ve really seen it in me because he sure liked my body a lot!
I also seemed to be quite smart. I knew about good touch and bad touch before my whole kindergarten class! My adult friend I tell my feelings to taught me so much about the things my father shouldn’t do to special kids like me.
I’m sorry this happened to you I hope you’re feeling better you are strong and amazing
@@bonkers4953 thank you very much! I’ve been doing a little better now that my antidepressants are working as expected. Therapy helps too especially with me being able to talk about this and other things I’m going through. Although, I still get random anxiety attacks for some reason. But I’m sure that can be figured out soon. Thank you for your concern and nice comment!
I have no idea if this even counts but
When I was younger I used to tell "lies" to my dad,even though I was mostly telling the truth.He always took me to public places to talk to me so it just made me more nervous.When I "lied" he would get so mad.I would always cry when he yelled and it was in public.I don't even wanna think about it.He made me scared of him.He made me scared of crying infront of people.And now he wants to try and have a relationship with me again.
Same bruh 😪
i hope you are okay, if you need to vent more, its fine, i will be listening 🧸
Sorry if i dont respond to all your comments
Hay um can I be friends I love this and I love how you try to I do the same so please?
@@Lilly-gh8fl sure:)
What song is this? It has an interesting story
@@linagarett rät
@@ratwithcrayons thank you so much!
This is very much helping me with the large pain of realizing and remembering what had happened to me, may they be pseudomemories or things we do not..remember fully. As a trauma holder of the system, I thank this for helping me, and a few others in the system.
-Charlie
Another system! I agree this can be helpful but its also interesting for us as its one of those things thats a pos trigger for some and neg for others.
-blended
@@jumbledcollective121 Yea, it's both nice and..not so fun. Helps some, hurts others. It happens :(
@@dr.noblesix5576 Yeah, hope y'alls be feeling the better tho🦀
Dont know.why we put a crab
@@jumbledcollective121 A lot of us do feel good while watching these videos
@@dr.noblesix5576 thats good! I watched one of these and got pulled into a section of the innerworld I wasnt supposed to be in apparently
Thank you for making this. I have grown so fond of this form of artistic expression and how cathartic it is
I remember my cousin who was twice my age at the time SA-ed me. We were in a closet while all the other kids were outside playing. And he trapped me in there and forced me to do things. All I can remember is my bruised knees and my sore throat. It hurt.
It hurt more because he would say that all the cool kids did it and if I did it I'd be cool too. But said if I didn't, they'd hate me :(
im sorry.
i know how this feels except it was my ex boyfriend..
i just want you to know that you don’t know me but i wanna tell you, don’t let it get the best of you im here even if I’m 1000 miles away
it’ll get better ❤️🩹 have a good day/night
@@angel-h8r4v thank you, stranger. Oddly enough, this brings me a lot of comfort
Have a great life
I was SA, and im too scared to tell anyone but i did tell my friends when i was molested at a younger age.
Also traumacore, weirdcore, and dreamcore is a really really helpful coping mechanism. To help with trauma with sa, and abuse from Friends and parents.
I feel like the biggest lie I've ever been constantly told in my life is that "things will get better". Caving into the pressure of toxic positivity that kept being pushed on me has only psychologically fucked me up beyond help. I've passively let them abuse my mind and body for years after being punished for every attempt I've made to defend myself. Somehow it was always my fault for being an object or target for years. Its nearly been 25 years now and I can no longer function properly in a public space or work without breaking down.
A lot of my long term paranoias and fears were comfirmed and now it's hard to open up or trust anybody. Constantly seeing what's going on with this world hasn't helped, I honestly want to dissapear, I don't want to function anymore. I'm tired of pretending I'm okay.
I got sexually assaulted by my cousin when i was 5 but my parents don’t know that and they wouldn’t believe me bc when i told them that a family friend of ours touched me in weird ways, they said that it wasn’t true and that i was overreacting
I'm so sorry that happened :(
I don't understand why parents always think everything is a lie, why can't they just have a little understanding? I'm so sorry for you.
I'm going through a lot but this is TOO aggressive!
After 5 years new skink cells replace the old ones leaving you with skin untouched isn't that neat? I hope that helps someone
Thank you. It does.
This feels like people are venting for me since I'm never strong enough to vent myself.
The traumacore comforts me although I haven't had any trauma, I don't know if my dad's death is considered a trauma but I also have anxiety since I was 8 years old and I've never told anyone about it. Reading the comments I feel guilty and that I exaggerate.
(Use traslator because it is not my main language)
Death is definitely trauma and ur trauma is still valid even if u don't think it is :(
I’m suicidal too. We gotta hang in here together sometimes
im sorry
and me too
I hope you have a good fluffy life
I relate to all this, but I still need to bottle it.
2:41 YES IVE SEEN TOO MANY PEOPLE WHO MAKE IT UNHEALTHY PLS STOP THX
As someone who didn't have a pure childhood, this is calming whenever I remember it.😞
omnisexual here.
I have quite a few bad days.
These help me cope.
Thank you very much.
omni- _WHAT_
This doesnt exist
As a person who went through some trauma in there childhood and slowly forgetting it sadly, I can see these as vents not romanticizing anything there is a clear call for help or true sadness, sometimes in only words but also images too.. I do think there should be trigger wranings and people should probably not repost these unless the creator doesn’t mind but yeah not that bad at all just venting.
Thank you for understanding
I hope all of you are doing alright, you guys are really strong have a crown 👑👑👑👑
Thanks for making the end a bit bright :), and thanks for the edit, I've been assaulted and it's a really hard thing to get over :(
its a coincidence how im a huge fan of hello kitty and a victim of traumacore.
I enjoyed the music a lot a too. Thanks for this
I hate how I ruthlessly try to justify that she was either clueless or too drunk to understand what she was doing when she was forcing herself unto me. I hate how I continually victim blame myself for 'not doing more' whilst it was happening. I hate being a victim, I hate that writing&talking about it makes it real; I hate (but understand 2:18) that I need to acknowledge it. I hate that I can't trust people.
this shouldn't be comforting to me, but thanks to all my family has done, it is.
My cousin sexually abuses me, but shes female. I was called a liar and attention-seeker when i came out about it to my friends when they asked me why i had been upset lately. She still does it, so traumacore is a big way i cope, although i never do it publicly. I hope that everyone who is in a bad situation stays safe, and that you know that you are loved, and your experiences don’t define who you are.
You need to tell absolutely anybody that you possibly can. Not just your friends. Tell your parents, teachers, a counselor, anyone.
Hey, it's been seven months. Are you ok?
I hope you’re okay now.
skip telling your friends. tell your parents and if they don't believe you tell the police directly. put your phone under your bed so it records the sounds just PLEASE do anything. you will not be the only one she does this to.
this hit wayyyy too hard
I haven’t suffered any trauma but I just wanted to let you all know you’re worthy of being loved. I can’t possibly know how it feels but I really hope that one day you will get better. Just know that it wasn’t your fault and you’re enough and worth being loved and that you’re beautiful ❤️ stay safe :]
This helps me cope from my trauma i had a friend who made me do horrible things online and when my mom found out i belived it wasnt a big deal but i realize it was wrong im coping slowly but i still feel scared about it
I was verbally and physically abused by most my family
I use traumacore and age regression to cope with depression and trauma. I find it very calming.
0:17 this exact thing happened to me. As someone who tends to downplay my experience this hit hard, to whoever made this I hope we both can feel okay someday
Yeah but I was 6 or 7 I hope we can both get through this 🥺❤️
TW
Ok I’ve been keeping this for a bit but I want to say that I have been verbally and psychologically abused by my family for years and they all call me useless when I mess up and call me the r slur ( I have adhd and anxiety ) and they are racist and homophobic and say if I was ever gay / trans then they would take away my phone forever and never talk to my friends again and some family members hit me if I am “not polite” and they are forcing me into their religion and claim that they are not homophobic and they tell everyone that our family is perfect. I can’t do anything without getting their approval and I’m literally almost 15 years old. I don’t know how to escape this hell
Someone help
I can help
Cps childline and police
I get verbally abused everywhere I go and I also vomit a lot and I’m very underweight
I’ve never been harassed or assaulted but the verbal abuse from my brother it hurts it’s always hurt and I don’t know why I just want to know why I want to know why to everything but what I mostly want to know is why does he hate me
TW: suicide and grooming
When I was 8 I was gr00med and bullied almost to su1c1d3, I'm better now but I have an extremely irrational fear of people being behind me because the people who mentally tormented me were taller that me and sat behind me (they also hit me from behind) and that's all I want to say
Hey i don't mean this in mean way but saying just "trigger warning" doesn't really help because nobody can Tell what kind of triggers you're talking about, it'd be better if you put for example "TW suicide, grooming"! Also im very sorry for you I hope that you're fine now💜
@@nataliastrzelczyk9059 thanks I'll edit it
This made me extremely happy!!💗☺
Hey stranger have a nice day :)
hi so i’m late ik but
i’m being mentally abused by my mom, she yells at me constantly for how i look ,, i’m scared to come out i’m a man , not a woman. this helps me cope and be safe but yah know - she doesn’t like what i do she want me to be just like her
Something similar happened to my friend and I would suggest if u don’t feel safe I would maybe plan to go stay with a friend after just so your not alone with her after if she doesn’t accept you but I hope it goes well if u do come out good luck ^^
@@primmummy7795 thank you so much :)
im not human, im nothing. i wanna fly away to the moon so i can escape from this horrible place.
How do I respond to my trauma if most of the time I refuse to believe it happened to me
It was my father’s friend, i was 4. I trusted him because i knew him. I feel so stupid and dirty..
I have not seen an image like this that hit me as much as 0:15 , it almost perfectly represents what happened to me. I was eleven, it only lasted around 20-60 seconds say most, so I'm not really sure if I can actually feel bad about it. Seeing as it's nowhere near what happened to some people. I had a dream similar to it recently, and only a while ago I started thinking that it could be trauma.
Well I mean it was still assault so it could count as trauma
Sometimes your entire world can be completely turned upside down forever in the span of 30 seconds. I'm so sorry
I can't tell anyone even years after it happened because they won't believe me they wouldn't have believed me even then
I can't really remember my childhood. But this seems familiar.
2:27 this really sits with me
My mom hit me, abuse me and left red marks on me..
I kept begging her to stop..
She ignore me..
My legs hurt..💔
Why?..
0:50 "I Loved you I loved you I loved you it's true."
I wish my best friend could come back.😭
Woke up one day and didn't feel anger and regret anymore. Thought I forgave him fir it because why else wouldn't I feel like shit for what happened? I still don't know exactly what I feel. I've been pretty empty and out of reality since then. Thinking about ending his life because I'm more of a "I hate all of you" than a "I hate myself" type of person.
keep making great videos! ❤🧡💛💚💙💜🤍♥
0:18 it's very true
Hello kitty is still my fave ❤ I like the daily tips and I’m gona go do them.
i dont even remember ever being like INTENTIONALLY abused but my parents and my home had a lot of..issues and it kind of rubbed off on me. one time my dad stepped on a pack of staples and there was blood everywhere for weeks because no one cleaned it up and one time cps came to our house a
Great compilation thank you💖💖
💌Hope y'all are doing ok with whatever your going through^_^