TW Vent(?) Is it weird that I have used cats my whole life to cope with my mom yelling at me? I feel much better when taking care of my cats no matter the circumstances. The idea of taking care of a cute fuzzy animal just makes me happy.
nah thats not weird i do it to except its my dad that yells and my older brother takes care of them for me its js the idea of holding a fuzzy and cute animal or evn toy then listening to tv at full volume/blast and pretending my life isnt falling apart and evrythings going to be okay evn tho my life is slowly getting better thanks to my bff anna i still feel like its falling apart no ik its still falling apart bc i still feel the empty void of sadness in my heart that idk how to fill/fix and but i've nvr actually hugged smth nd have it actually hug back and actually love me tho and i probably nvr will except for afew occasions but they all eventually left and they nvr actually cared bout my feelings js pretending to the only person that has actually hugged me back and meant it was/is my bff anna
0:53 TW (vent maybe) That one hit hard. When i was SA’d I had no idea what was going on. I was so small. I felt so gross and dirty like no matter how much i showered or bathed, i wouldnt be clean ever again. I still feel that way from time to time though.
I'm so sorry that had to happen to you. I don't think anyone deserves to be SA'd, it sounds so traumatic. I hope you're doing better now even after that. 🤍
basically me and my trauma when I just- yeah because this hurts me and makes me wanna sleep but the trauma says oh but this a good way to feel better- and being in a consistent loop of *I'm reliving by hurting to avoid hurt*
"I am getting dumber and dumber everyday and I don't know how to stop it" literally gave me chill for a moment You know, I was a "prodigy" At some point I still am But everyday I feel like I am not enough, I am dumber than before, I should not exist In other words, quoting this video, "haunted by a ghost of a girl I used to be" Life sucks Anyway, sorry for bad English, it's not my native language
1:14 relates so much to me, my ex boyfriend did some awful things to me which I'll never forgive him or forget what he tried to do to me that are all now scars inside me that won't heal... Edit (a month later): I would vent about it but... Here goes the context.. Back in December 16th, 2023, me and him were chilling in my bed watching a movie.. but, up till the time he went back home, he texted me on disc0rd and said that intimacy is something he wanted to do... (Did I consent to it? No I did not btw) I then mentally told myself, "he's... He's not the same guy I had dated for those months....". I cried myself to sleep afterwards, took a nap while in tears, emotionally hurt and scarred and disgusted with his desires...
1:18 This is my life right now. I keep trying to get better, through journaling and breathwork and such... but something comes up and I fall again. I'm getting worse over the years. I see no way to at least maintain *some* progress. How can you repair a broken thing if some of the pieces got lost along the way?
Tw! Vent? (Maybe) I always have the thought of something watching me. My cat died the other day and I feel it’s all my fault. I don’t know what to do without my cat, she made me feel safe and loved when I didn’t feel so. I feel horrible that she didn’t live longer. I grew up with her and it doesn’t feel right to not have a cat. I feel my world is absolutely shattered. I miss her and I want her back.
Tw! (Mentions of suicide) It happened when i was twelve had an identity crisis don't know how to fix it or stop the pain other than relying on apathy i also had a falling out with my best friend found out about the gossips my classmates had been making behind my back had a miscommunication with a girl that made me believe that my best friend actually hated me (which is kinda true) i got really depressed also had nightmares about the betrayal and also nightmares about getting bullied for the next weeks suicidal thoughts had been raising higher than the usual it feels like i m just thinking about them to past the time since i knew my best friend hated me i feel like i have nothing to hold onto anymore I've already thinked off planning my own suicide attempt at this point but i made another attempt to get some of my shit together at least (if it fails then I'll proceed with the suicide attempt) turns out i got some of my shit together somehow didn't attempt and have been feeling slightly better ever since Now back to the present i realize i still feel like shit after bottling it up for months unknowingly, the memory still haunts me i should probably get help because there's no way I'll be able to study in the future if i m like this but the pain feels a little nice no? Anyways i don't know how I'll be doing after high school i probably should get help i m having my next exams that is computer science and i can't understand shit like seriously i m an 8th grader i should know how to do it by now anyways my future is probably cooked to perfection some miracle happens bye
1:18 idk what is that thing but looking at this picture makes me want ot vomit (good job with the arrangements ) 1:27 what do those cats represent? And lastly 1:49-1:56 this part 9f the music gives me comfort and it hits so hard thank you for the video!!!
It's better than hurting myself. But wait I hurts to live.. anymore. Literally no friend of mine can feel that I'm dead inside. Do they care.. I don't know.
! tw ! I don’t know whether I’m struggling or not. If I’m just victimizing myself or there’s actually something wrong. I dont feel alive anymore. My brain is dead. People are tired of me. I’m tired of myself. The pain feels good. It distracts me. I deserve it. Why am I like this. My mind is too loud. When will I learn nobody cares..
Frrr except it goes “ running through the parking lot he chased me and he wouldn’t stop tag your it tag tag you’re it grabbed my hand pushed me down took the words right out my mouth tag you’re it tag tag you’re it. Can anybody hear me when I’m hidden underground?”
This brings me so much comfort to know that I'm not the only one that feels this way...
Same.
Same
Same
I actually almost cried when looking at some of the pictures.
TW Vent(?)
Is it weird that I have used cats my whole life to cope with my mom yelling at me? I feel much better when taking care of my cats no matter the circumstances. The idea of taking care of a cute fuzzy animal just makes me happy.
nah thats not weird i do it to except its my dad that yells and my older brother takes care of them for me its js the idea of holding a fuzzy and cute animal or evn toy then listening to tv at full volume/blast and pretending my life isnt falling apart and evrythings going to be okay evn tho my life is slowly getting better thanks to my bff anna i still feel like its falling apart no ik its still falling apart bc i still feel the empty void of sadness in my heart that idk how to fill/fix and but i've nvr actually hugged smth nd have it actually hug back and actually love me tho and i probably nvr will except for afew occasions but they all eventually left and they nvr actually cared bout my feelings js pretending to the only person that has actually hugged me back and meant it was/is my bff anna
Cats are awesome
the first one. when I saw them in the dream (nightmare) I started hyperventilating and crying in it
0:53 TW (vent maybe)
That one hit hard. When i was SA’d I had no idea what was going on. I was so small. I felt so gross and dirty like no matter how much i showered or bathed, i wouldnt be clean ever again. I still feel that way from time to time though.
I'm so sorry that had to happen to you. I don't think anyone deserves to be SA'd, it sounds so traumatic. I hope you're doing better now even after that. 🤍
@ I am doing better, thank you
idk why but I feel these pictures like home
Holy frick this hits so hard 🥀🥀🥀
Ikr it made me cry
basically me and my trauma when I just- yeah because this hurts me and makes me wanna sleep but the trauma says oh but this a good way to feel better- and being in a consistent loop of *I'm reliving by hurting to avoid hurt*
"I am getting dumber and dumber everyday and I don't know how to stop it" literally gave me chill for a moment
You know, I was a "prodigy"
At some point I still am
But everyday I feel like I am not enough, I am dumber than before, I should not exist
In other words, quoting this video, "haunted by a ghost of a girl I used to be"
Life sucks
Anyway, sorry for bad English, it's not my native language
You are not defined by obstacles 🫂❤️🩹
@@VicMeep thank you 🫂♥️
''why are you the way you are?!''
-my mom
0:12 I always did that or tried to draw little things.
1:14 relates so much to me, my ex boyfriend did some awful things to me which I'll never forgive him or forget what he tried to do to me that are all now scars inside me that won't heal...
Edit (a month later): I would vent about it but... Here goes the context..
Back in December 16th, 2023, me and him were chilling in my bed watching a movie.. but, up till the time he went back home, he texted me on disc0rd and said that intimacy is something he wanted to do... (Did I consent to it? No I did not btw) I then mentally told myself, "he's... He's not the same guy I had dated for those months....". I cried myself to sleep afterwards, took a nap while in tears, emotionally hurt and scarred and disgusted with his desires...
1:18 This is my life right now. I keep trying to get better, through journaling and breathwork and such... but something comes up and I fall again. I'm getting worse over the years. I see no way to at least maintain *some* progress.
How can you repair a broken thing if some of the pieces got lost along the way?
I kept searching this
oh wow thanks
Tw! Vent? (Maybe)
I always have the thought of something watching me. My cat died the other day and I feel it’s all my fault. I don’t know what to do without my cat, she made me feel safe and loved when I didn’t feel so. I feel horrible that she didn’t live longer. I grew up with her and it doesn’t feel right to not have a cat. I feel my world is absolutely shattered. I miss her and I want her back.
0:18 I’m so confused isn’t that tag your it by Melanie Martinez my favorite song ever? Why did they change the lyrics?😭
Tw!
(Mentions of suicide)
It happened when i was twelve had an identity crisis don't know how to fix it or stop the pain other than relying on apathy i also had a falling out with my best friend found out about the gossips my classmates had been making behind my back had a miscommunication with a girl that made me believe that my best friend actually hated me (which is kinda true) i got really depressed also had nightmares about the betrayal and also nightmares about getting bullied for the next weeks suicidal thoughts had been raising higher than the usual it feels like i m just thinking about them to past the time since i knew my best friend hated me i feel like i have nothing to hold onto anymore I've already thinked off planning my own suicide attempt at this point but i made another attempt to get some of my shit together at least (if it fails then I'll proceed with the suicide attempt) turns out i got some of my shit together somehow didn't attempt and have been feeling slightly better ever since
Now back to the present i realize i still feel like shit after bottling it up for months unknowingly, the memory still haunts me i should probably get help because there's no way I'll be able to study in the future if i m like this but the pain feels a little nice no? Anyways i don't know how I'll be doing after high school i probably should get help i m having my next exams that is computer science and i can't understand shit like seriously i m an 8th grader i should know how to do it by now anyways my future is probably cooked to perfection some miracle happens bye
0:18 someone made a Melanie Martinez reference
0:58 and 1:03 (I was mentally abused by my “friends”)
Correct me if I’m wrong but that’s manipulation not abuse (ik I wasn’t there but I just wanted to make sure that you weren’t mixed up)
1:29
yeah that image kinda made me sad once i put it in the video
@@Anz__ it made me remember heartbreaking things.
@@biscuitski same
Holy fuck this hit HARD
0:12 crying because of that
Note for my future self: Don’t make the same mistakes I did…
1:18 idk what is that thing but looking at this picture makes me want ot vomit (good job with the arrangements ) 1:27 what do those cats represent? And lastly 1:49-1:56 this part 9f the music gives me comfort and it hits so hard thank you for the video!!!
It's better than hurting myself. But wait I hurts to live.. anymore. Literally no friend of mine can feel that I'm dead inside. Do they care.. I don't know.
Sometimes i feel at home at my school more than my actual home....
Luv these.
I just realized this is an undertale song but music box version
I mean I made one and sometimes when I look at someone eles traumacore vid is actually sad
1:18
Relatable
I’m gonna cry……
How I can stop it ?
! tw !
I don’t know whether I’m struggling or not. If I’m just victimizing myself or there’s actually something wrong. I dont feel alive anymore. My brain is dead. People are tired of me. I’m tired of myself. The pain feels good. It distracts me. I deserve it. Why am I like this. My mind is too loud. When will I learn nobody cares..
Real.
ahhhhhhhhhHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
hsywisiosnjsmdniz.kx
you okay
Owksks
Who eats lucky charms with a fork?
Wow
0:19 wtf thats literally a Mel song💀💀
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Frrr except it goes “ running through the parking lot he chased me and he wouldn’t stop tag your it tag tag you’re it grabbed my hand pushed me down took the words right out my mouth tag you’re it tag tag you’re it. Can anybody hear me when I’m hidden underground?”
Cute.
duh
Unfortunately this doesn’t make it any better. I feel more sad.😔😔😔😔😔😔😔🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺
0:58 hahahahahahahahahahahahahaha
relatable. :,)
I have a question what's the song called?
Its raining somewhere else, music box vers.
@@Anz__ oh ok thank you!
@@AlienFromOuptagoop your welcome!
What is ventcore
It's like a way people cope with problems and trauma in their life. It's not supposed to be used as a real aesthetic
Ventcore is the Obama's last name.
2:13 I’m trying to forget myself
:(
:(
Hi
hello
@@Anz__ have a nice day or night
😔
0:22