For anyone who needs timestamps for the heavier triggering topics: 4:30 - 4:50 brief mention of (someone else's) unalive attempt 5:20 - 6:43 mentions of unalive attempt. I would skip if you are very sensitive to that theme, but the important gist is that their "friends" turned on them in their time of need. 11:00 - 12:24 this segment discusses intense hate and harassment on the internet from people on a specific website. Details about some of the atrocities that these people have caused (to others, as well as threats made to DissociaDID). I would suggest skipping if you are sensitive to violence and SH My intent is to help, but I have never made one of these before, so if I've done something wrong please let me know so I can fix it!
It hurts to hear what happened to Nadia due to horrible people online. When I saw Nadia I saw a strong person that was like the human version of sunshine. She was so positive and bubbly and was loved by so many in the community.
Nadia was such a beautiful soul. It is devastating and terrible that cruel, evil people drove the happiest person alive to disappear forever. I am disappointed in the world to have such hate and directed at such a lovely person. Nadia will be missed. But the system will survive and grow stronger. 💜. I am sending you all the happy vibes to Kya and the system!
Nadia's split is genuinely one of the most grim things I've heard in my entire life. To hear that such a happy, bright girl who was the humanization of the sun become so eaten up by the negativity thrown at her looks + the s-word of her (ex-?) girlfriend + the ending of so many system relationships is just heartbreaking. Plus, knowing she split off two NON-HUMAN alters just adds to that grimness, considering a Wraith is an embodiment of a soul thats on the verge of death or has passed on, and Seer is something that has ever changing perspectives/is a mist that takes no form. I really and genuinely hope that one day Wraith and Seer can heal from the hurts they received as the person they once were, and I hope that whatever is left of Nadia can be put to rest.
I've read a few places that alters can (sometimes, and probably rarely) be 'revived' from a split and even if they have 'died.' So maybe, just maybe, Nadia may one day return.
@@rosegupton4234 Maybe, but it won't be the same Nadia everyone pre-2020 loved and knew. Once an alter splits into new ones, that original alter cannot come back the same way they once were.
I will never understand why humans feel the need to be MORE traumatizing after learning that someone has already been through trauma. I am SORRY you and your system have been treated this way. I don't care what these people want to say you've done, there is NO excuse to intentionally traumatize another human. Damn, D, I just don't know what else to say. Sending love and strength.
I’m nobody but I don’t believe anyone intentionally traumatizes someone with the intent to traumatize without some sort of self-delusion that it’s deserved or not that bad, etc. I see those folks as victims of their own suffering and through their actions they believe they are doing something “good” - not very helpful to Dissociadid but I think it’s the truth and gives me some insight as to why one would do the things they do. I could be wrong though.
It's the "get some help jesus christ" level of "I'm right and I'll prove it no matter the cost" even if the person is absolutely in the wrong, the site they mentioned seems to have an alarming amount of people like that on it and I truly do worry about the fact that people like that exist out there without any monitoring
I’m a black woman who has D.I.D and I’m so hurt by this video. Validating alters is so important. It doesn’t matter what they look like, it’s important to show love and understanding no matter what. But the internet is SOOO EVIL hun. I’m so sorry 💔😢🌹
from reading their post about it, i believe Nadia had black skin (not associated to anything culturally Black) and was inspired by native american culture because Nadia was created when they were young and reading fiction related to that culture, but has since apologized for ignorantly continuing to use that description.
@@leahpinault1617An alter that was formed when the host was a CHILD caused so much drama? That's just horrible. These days you could identify as a a stapler and people would defend your rights, but God forbid a deeply traumatised child unconsciously created a dark skinned alter that had native American roots and identified as black.
"Sorry" doesn't begin to express my sympathies for your System. Just when I thought I've heard all the horrors you have gone through, they keep coming. You are incredibly strong. Seer, I hope your curiosity brings lots of joy in your heritage research. Wraith, just as the sun-kissed wheat field was Nadia's home, the field of night is _your home. You are home._ The night darkness has its own perspective of clarity. It is no better or worse than the sunlight, they are both unique and valued. Take all the time you need, and even then, you don't ever have to speak to us on camera if you don't want to. 💛🖤 Tangent on names: for most of my life, I hated my name. Kelly. Not only due childhood trauma- the harsh k sound, it's a "simple, basic" name, so many personal reasons... Just the other day, I looked up the origin. I already knew it had Irish roots, but when I saw that it means "warrior," I cried. It was like a sign that, with eveything I've gone through, I am a warrior, a fighter. Of course, my Chinese ma chose "Kelly" based on the phonetic closesness to my Chinese name, and now I have the meaning of both names.
Hi, I’m one of the alters in a system, and your message to Wraith really spoke to me. I am a creature of darkness, which the host has always been scared of. But the darkness is my home, and I am still allowed to be. Thank you.
Honestly shout out to Maeri. It is so hard to just sit down and relax and do something you love to do. I’m so glad you all have someone like that to just tell you “no I don’t want to hear it. We’re getting the kitten. We need her.”
I can totally see Maeri as the older sister who’s like “Nope.” And then when you go “But but bu-“ she’s like “nope. This is going to happen, I am gonna make sure you’re happy and safe and cared for, and you cannot stop me. End of story”
I always felt a connection with Nadia so I am sorry to hear she was made to feel such a way. I hope Seer and Wraith can find more comfort in their existence. Bring some peace to what remains of Nadia's soul.
There are no specific timestamps in the video itself, I'm so sorry. We got very overwhelmed editing this. General trigger warnings for the span of pretty much the entire video: recurring topics of un-aliving themes, and online hate. No details given. Theme and trigger warnings basically continue from part 1. Please be safe ❤️
Y’all might need feel like right know but none of you are alone if anyone in the system wants to talk I know I am here no matter who! I wish I could truly hug all of you and I just wanted to say everyone is amazing just the way you are in your system and don’t ever apologize to anyone that did any of you wrong thank y’all for putting videos out and being strong y’all deserve nothing but the best and y’all system is strong and did survive and y’all are awesome and amazing don’t ever let anyone tell any of you different truly every single one in the system is amazing just the way they are 💕❣️❣️❣️
As others have said, please put yourselves first and stay safe too ♥️ another person in the vid comments said that you don’t owe us anything, which is so true! If these videos or any video that the community asks for is too much for you, that’s okay! ♥️ I would much rather never have another video but know that you’re doing better because of that (though I love the videos so if it’s safe and you want to then please do 😭😂) ♥️♥️
And for everyone in the system I’m sorry if something spelling looks weird I had to speak into my phone and I can only speak for myself but every single one of you are truly loved and that’s for everyone in the system and I can only speak for myself all of you are loved and cared for forever please don’t ever think y’all are not y’all are amazing funny caring strength so many things every single one of you y’all are loved 😇😍💞💞💞❣️🙏
"Please also think of yourself, being a youtuber is hard enough, but also constantly talking about extremely emotional things that impacted you directly must make it even harder.
Hearing this is jogging my memory about the situation with Nadia… it hurts my heart that it got taken that far. 😞 People who don’t have a basic understanding of the brain and trauma really need to stay out of it. Without that understanding, yea it can look bad… but with just an ounce of knowledge you’d know it’s not how it is at all. Nadia will always be loved and I hope her and her descendants (as Seer put it) they were, are, and always will be perfect the way they are. 💖 Sending all of the warmest love to everyone
Oh the part right after bout Wraith hurts 😞 you can tell they formed to kinda hold that energy and trauma from it all. I hope despite it all.. and though it’s now dark rather than sunny.. I hope some beauty can be found in that moon. 🥺
I feel like people don't understand that oftentimes a system doesn't have control of the personal conceptualization of an alter. While I can understand people being personally uncomfortable because of their own identity and culture, that's when you just distance yourself from the creator. An existence like Nadia's or any alter whose inner conceptualization of themselves doesn't match reality is a tragic one. It shouldn't be something that should be scorned.
I cant believe I'm just now getting around to these updates. I am truly sorry to you all for Nadia and all the others that have been lost. I've been following yalls journey since the Anthony Padilla interview and I have grown to love every alter in this system. Nadia will forever be missed.
It’s absolutely mind blowing to me that you can go through all this, and STILL have the strength to come back to the internet - the very thing that hurt you - and be so open and authentic, for the sake of making a difference to others. Your courage and strength are absolutely mind boggling, and I’m so happy people like you exist (speaking of the entire system here). You are what redeems this cruel world, and keeps positive change moving forward. Lots of love and admiration 🖤 stay safe
@@mstubeornottube Well duh. It’s their job and they need money - everyone does - to survive. That doesn’t mean they don’t also want to make a difference. If they only wanted money, there are plenty of things to do online that make much more money much faster and easier than mental health education. Also Chloe never left - people just change. Growth happens. Fusions happen.
She is obviously not genuine, it feels really fake comparing it to other people who have DID. If you do some research about this channel you can find more info about this. If this is really genuine, I am sorry, but the way its presented especially with the new alters seems really fake.
@@RadimArcelios They don't have to tell everything as it is mostly private. And, even if you have this disorder, you don't know everything. Being the whole point of it, not being aware of what happened, nor that you even have a disorder.
@@RadimArcelios I've seen the person who's mostly making fakeclaiming videos about dissociadid, and they demonize personality disorders so there's really no leg to stand on. Besides, every system is different. Just because you know one system's experience it might present differently with another, please be more courteous.
I can’t imagine purposefully making someone feel so bad they literally split themselves apart. The internet never fails to disappoint me due to its brutality. The fact that people you know also made you feel that way, knowing your situation is even more deplorable. I’m sorry you have had to deal with that.
You guys have literally saved our life. I became made aware of a lot of the abuse I had suffered as a kid when I was about 12-14, and I happened to find your channel at about the same time. I was really alone, I had no one, I was scared to speak up about what I found out had happened and petrified to tell people about the abuse I was still expirencing. I had no one, I was isolated, and then I found your channel. It helped me so fricking much. I realized I wasn't alone in my expirences, that I wasn't insane for finding people in my head, and I had somewhere to go when things were hard. I felt safe when I was watching your videos. Even though none of you knew me, I saw Kyle as a kind of father figure and when I felt like I just couldn't do it anymore, his videos stopped me from doing some pretty horrific things to myself. So thank you, DissociaDID. It breaks my heart to hear how people have treated you, but we're so glad you're still here. We're so glad you still going. Thank you so much for everything. Lot of love, Alex
I'm so glad you're still here, and that I could be a bit of a safe & positive paternal figure for you when I was Kyle ❤️ I'm sorry you've been through so much already. You're doing amazing. Lots of love back - Kya ❤️
@@DissociaDID hi kaya!!! How are you doing??, I'm new to your channel I love you so much. DID is so interesting. It's a little confusing but it's very cool
Ever since you publicly apologized for Nadia's skin description I was purely perplexed at how anyone could be offended by an alter in a DID system. I wish I had spoken up then, one comment can't really stop a flood of hate, but it's always something, isn't it? I'm now heartbroken, knowing what happened to Nadia, and to the system as a whole. It's so nice to have you back making videos, even if you talk about difficult subjects. You somehow have a very comforting, calming presence. I also find the descriptions of your inner world fascinating! I wish you all the best
“Þæs ofereode, þisses swa mæg.” It’s from an Old English poem called ‘Deor’ and means “That was overcome, so may this be.” I had to share it since Seer has an interest in Old English and I think the quote is very applicable to you. You are absolutely incredible, never forget it. The internet is a scary place but know there are also many people out here that care about you.
I'm bipoc and been following for almost 4 years. Never seen Nadie saying or doing anything offensive. Just wanted to say that. She was the most sweetest, kind, beautiful girl I've seen making TH-cam in a while. I loved her. She didn't deserve all that.
This is so horrifying. I'm so sorry your system had to go through all of this. It's so sad that Nadia felt so terribly about her own existence and I'm upset anyone made her feel that way. For people you trusted to turn on your system as well and make you feel weak, they were so wrong. You don't need them. It's horrifying to hear there's actually a website out there to scare people and drive them into death. 😭💔
Only at minute five. Please send Seer and Wraith my love. I am so sorry that Nadia felt the way she felt and I hope that in Seer and Wraith she (they) can find healing
I always remembered Nadia when she was introduced in "Meet the girl alters" video "__is really close to the camera__ Hello my name is Nadia it's nice to meet you" xD. It's sad to see that that bubbly, energetic personality that I could only dream of having, would cause her to split like that.
People destroy too easily beautiful persons. You need to build yourself a heavy shield to block and your personality is definitely toned down from this. 😟
Timestamps for anyone looking for more specific trigger warnings: mentions of self-unaliving attempts: 4:30 - 4:52 and 5:17 - 5:27 online hate, esp. unaliving someone threats and doxxing: 10:44 - 12:55 mentions of threats irl: 17:28 - 18:00 (but they went to the police and that's getting sorted) Let me know if I forgot anything :)
Man, throughout all the public drama that you had to deal with back in 2020, all I could think was that people were being super unreasonable in expecting someone so deeply traumatized to respond perfectly to being dogpiled by the whole internet. Only learning now the full extent of how horrible that time was, all I can say is that I'm glad you survived. You're very strong❤
Despite the absolute horrible times you’ve had the last couple of years, your system seems so so so much stronger. Your resilience is unmatched. Your were able to describe things so eloquently, despite how triggering. You are strong, you’re getting stronger. And I’m so grateful to be able to watch you, learn from you, and see your growth. Thank you for your bravery. ❤
People don't say this to people who have experienced trauma and hate enough: you did NOT deserve it. It can be one of the hardest things to remember, especially when you've been told you deserve it before, but you did not deserve to be treated like that. Thank you so much for doing what you do. The strength you have in pushing forward after all that's happened is amazing. Your entire system is amazing, and I'm so, so sorry for all you've been through. What people on the Internet have done to you is not okay. I know it's not exactly the same, but there are so many people who love you and care what happens to you, because the light you bring to the world--whether that be from your videos, TikToks, or streams--is irreplaceable. Stay strong, and we're here for you ❤
I hope you all know how brave you all are for this. I'm so happy that there are people like you guys who are strong enough and willing to destigmatize mental health, especially disorders that are seen as "evil" or have negative connotations
I can't help but think of Wraith and Seer as these two pillers here to initiate you into the world of the old magiks. In my family's practice there are two entities that follow us on our path, sometimes they are hounds, birds, felines, or even humanoid, ect. But they each have distinctive roles on our journey, one watches the moon and looks within- It is our connection to our internal and emotional world and workings. And the other watches the sun and looks without- It is our connection to our external and intellectual world and workings. I think many cultures have myths about such parts of ourselves, in some form or another. And although it is so hard to hear about Nadia's unbecoming, it is in its own way so beautiful to see these two new parts emerge from her, like a gift born out of her pain. I hope your life, the life of the entire system is enriched by this gift 💜
There’s absolutely NO excuse for what you’ve had to go through recently. Y’all have CLEARLY been through more than enough and to hear what happened to Nadia is just so sad. I hope this never happens again and that you’re safe and able to heal whatever needs healing. Remember to take care of yourselves and that you’re worth the world.
Even though we don't know each other, I thought about you often when you stopped posting on TH-cam and I always hoped you were okay. I just wanted to say I'm so glad you're still here and that no matter what happens there will always be people who care about you! ❤️
same! I checked in a couple times to see if any new videos popped up. (I don't have very many social media other than yt so I didn't know all that happend. still don't other than what I have seen here) I still thought of this system and the lessons I learned here :)
Yes! I too never gave up on you. You are so inspiring and seeing your strength kept me hopeful that I would get through my own traumas. Thank you for being you!
as a poc, i am just appalled that there's so many people who seem to expect perfection from others, of any minority group. this expectation and pressure to be the "perfect representation" is pervasive, unfair and it makes our spaces less safe, which is the opposite of what people are trying to achieve by being vulnerable and opening up. i really wish nadia didnt have to go through that for just being who she is. i think there needs to be a trust protocol among friends and strangers, of handling education of this kind. it is hard because we all have been through really specific traumas and sometimes it is hard to see that one size does not fit all...so it is disappointing that our solidarity can be broken so easily.
@@raerae5663 there are older videos, not sure if they’re up still. Nadia was described as having dark skin, and dark curly hair. She was leaning heavily into spirituality and witchcraft, and really brought joy into Chloe’s life. Nin was accused of racism and cultural appropriation bc the body is Caucasian, but Nadia was poc. She was effectively harassed out of the system :(
I'm a brown POC and I don't understand this whole thing against non-white alters in white bodies. It's absurd to me. Like, how alters look in the inner world is not something the system can control. The alters just are. They don't choose to look the way they do either, they don't even choose to exist, the mind creates them. To accuse a system of cultural appropriation is silly to me, particularly one that fights for social justice of all marginalized and oppressed peoples. Nadia didn't even behave in a stereotypical way, I just don't understand why people fixated on her skin tone.
@@andiehernandez1995 - I think that just goes to show how lack of proper education on DID can lead to misunderstandings and being so much harm , which is why I'm so happy that Kya has chosen to continue making videos and expanding education despite everything she's been through.
The fact that so many people and "friends" waited to throw their stones at a time where you couldn't defend yourself was beyond cowardly. Especially from fellow DID systems and the DID community itself that should know better. The whole ordeal was disgusting. But I'm glad that you were the system that made it through and still continues to make content. Sending you strength, support, and healing ❤️ 💙
Wrathe- I hope beyond hope that the cool moonlight soothes you. But remember, grief is all the love you had left to give. I saw my first fireflies the other night. I hope you do too
I just wish to go back and tell Nadia that she mattered. Just by the feeling of not wanting to hurt people, that means she cared. She was at least a someone who deeply loved others outside of the system. At least that’s what I gathered about her. As I will always put after my comments to y’all. Love you lots. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
That terrible website just went down an hour ago! Regardless, Im so sorry for everything you've suffered, Kya and Co. Lots of love and hope you continue to heal.
I will put a trigger warning here, I'm not gonna share the site but a place you can get some information. The content can be triggering so please take good care of yourself!!! VangelinaSkov made quite a few viedos on this cest pool of *******...also covered the stuff that has been going on on '20 and '21...it is biased content so beware.
I've been here since Chloe was the host, and I'll continue to be here for many more years because I believe [in] you. No words can be put to explain how I feel about your story... I believe [in] you.
After anything that has happened, I feel at loss to find the exact words that would communicate my wishes for you to achieve comfort and safety and people you can trust. I can’t quite find the words for any of it. So instead I’m going to donate to your fundraiser and share it, because this is such an immensely unjust mistreatment for you all. I hope at least that having support to defend yourself legally and definitively can buy you some much needed and deserved peace in the future.
I’m glad that your feeling well enough to be able to talk about this. We are the ones here supporting you and I wish you the best for whatever great things you do in the future 💖
As soon as you said nadia I knew I wasn't gonna get through it without crying, I instantly connected to nadia and she was such a bright light, so sad that she went through all that. Been with you guys since chloe and unboxings, love you all and here for you all xxx
I have a question, I could have asked the creator but I'm super curious. Are kya and chloe the same person, or are both of them separate people? Bc it says kya is host, but chloe was born in the body, and Google says that kya is just a online name for chloe. Did chloe split into kya and someone else??
@@ladylovelylocks Chloe was the host, but she and Nina (their sexual protector) fused to make Nin, and Nin and Kyle (their primary protector) fused to make Kya, the current host. Kya is their own person now, but Chloe, Nina, Nin, and Kyle all live on in Kya because Kya still has memories and personality traits from each. Hope this helps!
@@ellahou5872 To add: Chloe is the body's name. A lot of times the host will use the body's name, but in this case the host has fused so many times they're a completely different person. So, legally, DissociaDID is Chloe, but none of the alters use that name anymore.
Hearing the things revolving around what happened to Nadia and to the whole system, I don't know how to verbalize how that hurts. Nadia was really sweet, I wish I could have given her help, that goes for you too Kya. You didn't deserve any of that monstrous hate but I am so glad and proud that you survived, you and your system deserve so much love and support :) You're awesome
It breaks my heart to hear about everything you’ve had to survive to get to this point. I’ve been following you since 2019 and you have always been in my thoughts through everything. I don’t understand how some people can be so horrible to literally anyone, let alone someone as sweet and kind as you who has already been through enough. I’m not religious, but I’m praying that you can find some peace soon. Remember, you don’t owe us any explanation or videos, but we are always here for you.
Hey I’d just be cautious mentioning that you’re praying for people, both in relation to them and other people because I know they have religious trauma because they’ve talked about it before but other people here could too. This is meant very respectfully. ❤️
@@ameliathomas5575 prayer simply means to trust. Has nothing to do with religion at it's core. Prayer is the highest form of trust. Prayer and faith. You can be atheist and still have faith in the universe, or simply with oneself, that all will be okay. It doesn't require some deity.
I had one of the worst years of my life last year. I was betrayed by nearly everyone I know, I lost nearly my entire support system, and I lost myself for a long time there as well. I can't imagine going through all that, on top of the amount of hate you received (so disgusting I literally have no words), and bouncing back as strong as you have. Now when I'm anxious about something I can always thinking of how strong I must be to have survived what I have, and that helps me not only get through tough times but also learn to appreciate and love myself. I'm glad you know how strong you are and I hope you continue to carry that with you.
When I first found out I was a system, it was Chloe who helped me feel like I wasn't alone, that I could survive with these other people I share a body with, that I could still be happy even with all I've gone through. And that continued from Nin now to even you, Kya. You are the system that through so many years have been an inspiration and someone I could relate to heavily. I appreciate all you have done as you have deeply impacted my life and how I deal with my own system. It pains me so much all the shit that you've been put through and I'm so incredibly sorry. I wish I could change what has happened, but you guys are so strong, and remind me to be strong too. Thank you for being my support and helping me. It means the world. Even if it doesn't mean much and you don't know me personally, know you have changed my life for the better. Thank you
Damn…the strength of this system. I’m in awe. My husband, who I have been with for 15 years (since I was 15, I’m 30 now) left me two months ago, and hearing how you have persevered through some of the most heinous shit I have ever heard…it gives me hope. If you can do it, I can do it. Thank you Kya and the rest of the system. I’m so sorry for what you’ve had to go through, but just know, your strength and example is carrying so many of us.
Dissciadid you bring spirits of light and healing together ❤ ive overcame a crazy couple years as well including several nde i suffer from addiction and fight every day for my life and I am agoraphobic and your videos give me a sense of connection and community
it hurts me so much to hear about nadia because I saw some of the discussion about her (and the problem people had with her) and how incredible stupid it was of those people to hold nadia, the system, the host or whoever accountable for what they thaught was wrong...it just hurts how those people were so much in their bubble, thinking they had a right to judge the situation without realizing what they do and what they expect from nadia...and it hurts more that they won over her. She will be deeply missed and I hope that Wraith and Seer can find peace in their existence. I wish them (and all of the system) best of luck. and lots of love and joy.
ok after watching the video I just have to say how incredible sorry I am that all of this happened to you. and how incredible strong you are. I wish you all the best and hope recovery will go well for you.
@@meghanchang7026 Nadia was based (if I remember right) on a stereotype (I think) of a native American girl. There was some issue with the language used to introduce herself as the body is white and it's a topic that is very back and forth amongst the did community about whether to say "I present as xyz" or if you can just say "I am (in this case) native american". Some people took it too far from what it sounds like but it's just a discourse over what the proper way to go about it is especially since (again I could be wrong) I think Nadia was a fictive of a child's book native American which I'm sure you can see where that is stereotype wise
@@silvershadow108 how i saw it they basically blamed a childs mind for forming nadia the way she was...and thats just bullshit. You can discuss about wording but blamind nadia how she presented in the inner world or how she saw herself when the image was created by a childs mind trying to protect herself and calling that racist was just so sad to watch. However I think it might not be good to continue the discussion here. I originally didn't want to sepcify it on purpose...
That is so unfair what they did to Nadia. I am so sorry. I understand to a specific extent what that's like and it's gut wrenching. Our love to all of you 💜🍼 -Casper
@@swiftly_produced2694 It's kinda an inside joke but long story short everyone would call me mama and say they wanted milk to I spammed the milk bottle so it's stuck as 💜🍼 for my trademark jtjsbfkja. Also I try and hold onto as much childhood as I can
I think I just wanted to say since nobody is talking about this: congratulations on the progress with Demon. Although we know little about them, I'm happy to hear that a part of the system is beginning to open up.....also it may be odd. But I don't think I'll ever forget the feeling of seeing Darks art in the alters draw video. Not only does it show so much emotion, but it was honestly beautiful. I hope that things improve for both of them, and that there may be a day where they can connect with the others more. I also hope that the alter that demon has been hiding ig....finds a place of piece and comfort that she chooses.
Ever since I accidentally came across one of your videos, I have been consuming your content despite the fact that I don't have DID or anyone in my environment with DID. You are such a strong person, surviving so much and still finding the strength to keep going. Never forget that you are an inspiration, because your character, strength, and kindness shine through no matter the makeup, the alter fronting, or the content of the video. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to have your channel and your community, you deserve to enjoy every wonder of this world!
"We can survive it." Chills. I'm so proud of how far you and your system have come. Everyone deserves to feel safe and secure. I hope that in the future, hopefully soon, you can find something or someone to make that stability a reality. You've been doing so good, we're proud of you, keep going. You can get through this; it will be hard, but it will be worth it. You will make it.
You are THE most incredible persons that I’ve ever heard of. Just don’t ever forget that! You guys give sooo much strength to so many of us here in this violent and viscous world. It hurts to see you in pain. Especially since you take so much of mine away from me in every single video. If there’s anything that I can do for you, just DM me. I promise to do my best.
I've been here since 2019. I haven't ever stopped thinking about you. Even when you weren't posting videos I would check your community page. You're amazing. You've given me hope when I had none and inspired me to heal. I hope you find healing, you deserve it ❤️❤️❤️
Wanted to comment the same thing ❤️ I hope they are able to rebuild trust that there are people who genuinely care and would not want any harm to come to their system, it’s so difficult but I just want them all to be safe and happy
💜TIMESTAMPS & TW 💜 ( @DissociaDID ; dont worry fam, I gotchu) 0:00 - Intro 2:26 - Nadia's Split ⚠ TW; 4:29 - 6:40 (mentions unaliving attempts, online harassment & being silenced. No details.) 7:15 - Seer & Wraith 9:53 - Mara & Doll ( & Mara ) ⚠ TW; 11:02 - 12:06 (Mentions severe online harassment and unaliving until 11:23 where there's a bit more detail. Not graphic in any way, but please proceed with caution.) 14:01 - Maeri 15:01: Demon, Dark & The Subsystem 16:28: Recently discovered Unnamed Alter 18:02: Wind Down & Outro
This is really wild. This is so much at once for anyone to handle and go through. I'm amazed and have a lot of respect for your courage and resilience. Not diminishing how hard it's been, we don't even really know how hard it's been, we can only have an idea based on what you shared. And something is telling me that it was worse than what we can imagine. Thank you for still doing this with us. People can be shitty but that's a whole new level here... Glad to hear you say "we're doing better" and I only wish you to keep going forward
I did find it odd that the people who brought out "expose videos" about the system all seemed to do it while you were all offline and silent. Times like that always feel targetted and planned. Actual concerns would clearly be when you are active, right? Thats the whole point of wanting someone to stop something, but if you've already stopped at that time why would it come out then? Not the moment you dissappear and cant speak up. It always felt a bit... hmm. Stories didn't add up.
It was beyond cowardly of all the people and systems who waited until DissociaDID was offline to throw them under the bus. I'm just beyond disappointed and disgusted with everyone who chose then to lash out.
yeah i have no clue why someone would debase others, not to mention themselves, like that just for some 'social media number go up' clout. some people are just sociopathic in the worst way
I honestly think money and fame were big motivators for those "exposé" videos. If you compare the videos on their channels you'll see that the fakeclaims against DissociaDID got them the most views by FAR. People were still searching for DissociaDID content during that quiet time and the other creators knew that TH-cam's algorithms would deliver.
I started watching this video and was kind of confused because I didn't quite remember Nadia, just the name. So I went back on the channel to find something of her. I was like "if people thought of her that way, she must have been a persecutor, non-human alter, something of that kind, right?" - not that I agree, but that's what I've come to expect of people. But no. She was just a girl (17 at the time of the video), bubbly and hyperactive, she seemed like so much fun... I really don't get what happened and I'm so mad at people for being like this... I'm so sad she of all people had to experience the worst of this world and I hope Seer finds the magic world to be as fascinating as I do, and that Wraith someday finds comfort and peace in their own terms. I'll be putting Nadia (all of you too, of course, but I'll do a little something in her honor) in my prayers. Hope the gods protect all of you from this type of sh*t in the future...
I hope Seer will find joy in researching old English and Irish culture. As a history major I know it makes me extremely happy. I wish it's the same for her as well♡
I don’t normally comment on videos, but I felt I needed to in order to thank you for everything you’ve done for this community. I’m a second year medical student in the states and watching your videos and showing them to my classmates has been very helpful and enlightening into DID and what it means to live with it. I am so sorry that for all the trauma you had to endure at such a young age, but I am so grateful for you and your education. From the bottom of my heart I wish you and the entire system the healing and happiness you need and deserve ❤️
it is devastating that nadia’s last memories are people hating her so much that she split. she brought nothing but joy and light to the world and the world betrayed her like that. i wish she knew how loved she was. im proud of you guys for getting through this hellhole, i hope everything goes better day by day.
It really hurts to know that there are people online who says things to hurt other people for no apparent reasons. I am so so sorry that Nadia and yall have to go through this. Just know that we love yall for who yall are. Kya and everyone in the system, yall matter so so much to us. We see you and we care about yall. Yall are very strong for sharing this with us so thank you. Sending all the love and strength to yall as well as hugs (if yall are comfortable with it). 💙💙💙
“If you take me down we’re gonna take you down with us” I’m so proud of this strength that you’ve found. It may have always been there and only just come out, but either way, be proud of being a strong-ass system! The work you’re doing here is gonna help systems everywhere understand who they are. Keep making videos, because the world needs to see you
I'm not a long time viewer, but I am so thankful you're still alive. I was doing a lot of reading on C-PTSD in 2019, which is how I got to your channel. I'm the third generation in my family to be diagnosed with PTSD, and learning about C-PTSD, OSDD, and DID has helped me understand my family better. I am so, so sorry that there was so much you have had to survive these past few years. You are so brave for coming back to TH-cam, and I appreciate all that you do.
Nadia provided so much positivity, and always made me smile watching her. I'm so sad that she dealt with all that hatred. I hope Seer and Wraith can both heal and maybe we will get to know them in a meet the alters one day. You guys are so brave, don't forget how strong you are to be back and still making videos and doing what you love after all of the hate. You continue to be a light and an inspiration. Sending love and healing vibes! ❤️
A few years back I had always wanted to be a friend of Chloe and later of Nin but I was always unsure how to reach them and thought that I’d be a bother for them. Especially because I thought they’d get messaged so often, they didn’t need anyone else. Knowing what happened saddens me so much :( Maybe I could have helped. For what it’s worth: I never believed any of the online stuff that was being said and I do hope the system is starting to feel better. Kya (and the rest of the system too ofc), you deserve the world and I deeply hope you’ll make a lot of friends along the way. I have trouble trusting people too, so I understand where you’re coming from. But if you ever need someone pls know that a lot of people (including me) are there for you. You’re amazing. Thank you so much for teaching me so much about DID!
The only reason my spouse of 8 years got their diagnosis was because we had found your videos. They gave us an understanding of everything, that made the realization and acceptance so much smoother. I’m heartbroken hearing about all the shit your past few years held. We got his diagnosis January 2021, and I though of your system every step of the way. I am so happy you are surviving, and I could never convey the extent of the role your system played for us. Not only that, but we have personally crossed paths with four other systems, some who we were able to pass your knowledge onto. I can see first hand the hardships, and wish you the most positive vibes and support.
As a Pagan myself I cannot express how interested I am in hearing about Seer, and what she knows/is learning. I know that is not the topic of the channel but I fully hope she is able to find peace and relaxation in her journey!
It hurts so much knowing that Kya and the system has been so continously traumatized by people they considered friends. For very different reasons and experiences, I also struggle with having friends/people I can rely on. With therapy, I try to remind myself that there are good people out there who will genuinely care, but it's hard to be hopeful. At the very least, I know that I'M a geniune, kind person. So there has to be others. I hope we both find them, Kya and co!
if not for you, I never would have known what DID is. I would never have learned that I am a system, would have never gotten a diagnosis, and would have spent the rest of my life feeling "crazy". from the bottom of my heart, thank you for all that you've done and continue to do
I still cant accept the fact I am asystem but I am aware of it. Again, like you, thanks to this channel. For a bit I just said I was quarky and different and not like the other girls but after some time I realised what happened and it makes sense but I sm still very warry of it. It doesnt seem big when I look back at it but I cant remember much so ofc I would think that. I am happy to find mote people like me and I think I still need time and hopefully my system gives me that time but I will try my darn bestest to just not give up despitr how hopeless things seem sometimes.
@@galileodirectio denial is a very common experience of newly discovered systems!! It's a part of the dissociation, and that it's the trauma, that your brain is trying to hide from you. Denial and depersonalization/derealization is *normal.* It's alright. :)
I'm honestly so moved by how strong you by speaking about this and opening up. I want to say that you are so important and have helped so many people. I've been watching since 2018 and seeing your journey and growth has so powerful. I can honestly say, I would be so sad to hear of any negative things happen to you. I wish you all the best and want the system to know that everyone is important and have done wonderful, amazing work💜
Sorry if I’m late to commenting but on the slight chance that you see this I just want to let all of you know that you are incredibly, incomprehensibly strong for being able to go through all of this. You are all amazing.
I recently rediscovered this channel and watched the female alters introductions video from 4 years ago now and being updated with this video… I am so proud you all have come so far. So strong. Keep powering through you beautiful beings 🫶
My heart is absolutely broken over Nadia. She was such a positive shining light and didn't deserve any of that hate she got. She connected to her version of her heritage just like any other alter but we have become so obsessed with this idea of cultural appropriation we have lost the ability to say "if it's not hurting anyone, it's not anyone's business" She just wanted to love and be loved and spread joy. 😭 I hope you all are finding healing and comfort wherever you can. You are doing amazing with the crappy hand you were dealt. Sending you so much love
This video was even more heartbreaking to hear about than the first and I can't properly express how sorry I am for all that you went through. Thank you for continuing to make videos and help people because even though I don't have DID, I have generalized anxiety disorder and the way you always affirm people's feelings and say that you are strong enough to survive whatever you are going through really does give me come comfort and feel like I can make it through my hardships. I love watching your videos and I hope all of you know that you truly are doing good in this world. I love you all and I hope that you continue to grow and be happy and healthy!
Kya, you and your system are so strong, overcoming and brave. You give hope and understanding to everyone who watches your videos. I am in awe of you, you are light and you are good. Don’t ever forget how special and loved you are. We may not know you but you make our day better whenever we see your videos. Think about everyone you have helped and the positivity you have shared. Don’t focus on the negativity, it will always be there. This world can be a cruel place, but its made better by people like you and your system 🥰
You all are incredible people for withstanding this much hate and trauma in your life. All of you deserve the world for still making these videos dedicated to educating people about DID and OSDD. You have helped so many people including me with your educational videos and I think you guys can do and have done amazing things with your life. Personally, you helped me in learning about this disorder for future events in my life, with some of my friends having forms of OSDD. Keep being strong, and I hope that you all are seeking and getting the help you need from a therapist or other system members. Sending love, me
I don't have DID, but I have been watching your content for as long as you've been making content. And I just want to say that you all are so brave being here, on the internet, overcoming your fears, and talking about these things, to help others. THIS is who you are, brave, kind, loving and empathetic. I wish that I knew you personally, so that I could tell you guys that every day. Because THAT is what you all deserve to hear everyday. You have helped me through things, taught me valuable lessons, made me laugh, made me cry and made me FEEL, when I thought I could not feel anything anymore. I think that ya'll are the definition of a .. to put it simply BOSS! And seeing the smile on your face when you talk about how ya'll are overcoming this mountain, and standing up after being pushed so far down this black hole, is beautiful. I will for as long as you are here making content, be here to learn, and to support your cause. And I am thankful for all you guys do.
14:56 that look you got on your face for a second right after you said this was like a gut punch. I could see you really feel the weight of that statement, I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. While the circumstances of her arrival were not good, I'm glad the system has Maeri ♥
Just finished the first part or these and now the second. I’m crying. You’ve had so much done to you in your life and to still be as positive as you are, is truly amazing. I strive to be as strong as you, and I’m so happy to see you back and making videos. I hope you’re doing well and look forward to watching more videos from you!
I don't care who allegedly did what and who may have made mistakes ... NOBODY deserves to be treated this way. It hurts to see someone being hurt like this, but at the same time seing you survive and even grow is really inspiring. You are strong in a way very few people are! I wish it wasn't in such a cynical way (and I hope you'll re-learn to trust people, hard as it may seem right now), but for now I'm just glad you're still here and have not given up! May you heal and grow even stronger - you deserve it, every single one of you!
You are the strongest people I know. And one of the sweetest. I hope the next years will be much kinder to you because you deserve it! Sending love from Hungary❤
It's simply awful, and inexcusable, what these people did to you. I'm glad to hear you've managed to get some fight back. You do whatever you need to do to start to feel safe once again. No matter what anybody says, or does, or how many people try to take it away, you have the right to live and be happy. May those who attacked you never know peace until they see the error of their ways and stop trying to take away the peace of others.
I’ve come to this channel just now after watching Anthony Padilla’s interview. I’m learning so much that I didn’t know. I think it’s incredible how you speak about everything. I hope you are doing well and continue to reach out when necessary. I’m hoping everyone who comes here can be as supportive as possible because I think what your doing is incredibly important. If nothing else, thanks for helping to educate me ❤
I’d like you to know I found this channel about 4 years ago when my best friend told me they had DID and they were so relieved when I was like “alright, what does that mean?” And they explained it to me and I was like “holy shit that makes so much sense now!?” And I specifically wanted to try to understand what was happening. I still do watch occasionally when I have the time. I’d like to really thank the system for always being willing to explain things even though you don’t have to. I know it’s hard and rough. The internet is shit. I’m so glad the system is still with us and I’m so terribly sorry for everything you’ve been put through. I can not begin to imagine the pain and suffering you’d experienced. I hope you guys keep healing at your own pace and take care of yourselves.💛💛
That's so messed up, I just don't understand how people can do anything like this, DissosiaDID just wants to help people by spreading awareness and positivity and love and people do this to them. I really hope that those people from that site get found and wrecked, or go to jail or anything like that. That was just awful... It feels like everyone targets them and that just isn't fair. To Kya and co. you guys have been through so much and while it doesn't mean much, I'm so so sorry you guys went through that, it's disgusting what people will do to others. Stay strong guys 💪❤
I really wish that one day you'll be able to live as yourselves, free of fear... but until that time comes just know that you have a lot of people who still appreciate, love, and support you. Please stay safe. Especially on the internet. And thank you for always giving me the strength and reminders to keep being kind to myself, especially when my own illnesses and mental health feels like they're taking their toll.
for what it's worth from a random stranger, I'm glad y'all are still here. you've been through all sorts of shit, and I'm proud of y'all. you're still here and you wont be going anywhere anytime soon, go kick trauma's ass folks.
I don't often comment and am new to this channel but felt like I had to after watching this. I'm so sorry for what you've gone through, both recently and in the past. Nadia made me smile and that's one of the best things someone can do for someone else. Her zooming in on the camera during the 'Meet the alters' episode was hilarious and I could feel her positive energy rubbing off on me instantly! I hope she finds peace and that the others can find a way to come to terms with her transition. Speaking as someone who struggles with mental health, I think what you're doing for community is incredible. I've only watched a few videos so far and have already gained so much knowledge about DID. I hope the actions of a few bad actors don't define your experience on the platform. To anyone struggling: I know it feels indescribably painful right now but it does get better. I have come out the other side of my own struggles twice now and am living a happy life. People DO care about you and someone will ALWAYS listen. There is no shame in talking about it, you'll be surprised how common it is and how receptive others are. Stay safe and stay healthy ❤
Hello, I'm new to this channel. What you do on this channel is incredibly important. Thank you and all the other alters for a chance to better understand how DID works. (recently I started feeling that I may meet someone with this condition somewhere in the future) I'm also terribly sorry you had to go through all the things you talked about here. Some humans are truly vile. But please, remember how strong, amazing and valid all of you are. I hope life has started treating you at least a little better now. I'm sending your system best wishes and lots of love 💜🌻
You are so incredibly strong. All of you. Face harassment like this, that I didn't even know existed, which makes me feel such a cold anger, fight the worst in humanity, go through the changes... I wish I could hold this trauma, this hurt, this struggle for you, but I know you'll leave this behind stronger and wiser. I'm sorry for all you losses, but I rejoice with the progress made, and I want you to know you are not alone, and you have our support and unconditional love. Breath in, breath out, one step at a time and this storm shall pass. Please, take care 💙
I'm so heartbroken to hear how deeply these past years have affected all of you, but i am equally or more proud and happy to see the positive changes or how well you've adapted despite the trauma. I deeply respect this system.
It just makes me sad to see people still defending the ultimate act of dehumanization online that is cancel culture, when this video shows so clearly that it's a form of vigilantism & punishment for someone and has lasting effects. Everyone that thinks you deserved to go through all of that for some human mistakes you might've made, that (to my knowledge) were all problems one can learn from or rehabilitate from, needs some professional help for the hatred within them. I'm glad you're healing and seeing most of it happen I thought to myself a lot that things weren't adding up with both the timing and claimed severity of actions without seeing your pov. Also as someone who had Agoraphobia in the past I'm praying you'll heal from it. It's truly such a bad thing to go through on top of any kind of trauma and recovery.
You are so strong... This is something which shows incredible strength even if you feel weak. I wish from the bottom of my heart that you'll heal and become stronger and stronger by the time. What you are achieving right now, in court and in the system, is incredibly inspiring. It shows how through all the struggle, you don't let yourselves to be pushed around, and still come here and share, because you know it can help so many people to push through. You are a huge rolemodel for a lot of people, I hope you know that. And I truly hope that someday, you'll be at a place where the positive comments and love reaches and fills your heart so overwhelmingly, that it won't leave space for the hate and hurt that you had to deal with for so long.
For anyone who needs timestamps for the heavier triggering topics:
4:30 - 4:50 brief mention of (someone else's) unalive attempt
5:20 - 6:43 mentions of unalive attempt. I would skip if you are very sensitive to that theme, but the important gist is that their "friends" turned on them in their time of need.
11:00 - 12:24 this segment discusses intense hate and harassment on the internet from people on a specific website. Details about some of the atrocities that these people have caused (to others, as well as threats made to DissociaDID). I would suggest skipping if you are sensitive to violence and SH
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It hurts to hear what happened to Nadia due to horrible people online. When I saw Nadia I saw a strong person that was like the human version of sunshine. She was so positive and bubbly and was loved by so many in the community.
It really does. I cant believe that people are so rude.
She was genuinely one of the happiest people I'd ever seen and I feel so bad that she had to go through that
I don’t understand who could have been upset with Nadia
Nadia was such a beautiful soul. It is devastating and terrible that cruel, evil people drove the happiest person alive to disappear forever. I am disappointed in the world to have such hate and directed at such a lovely person. Nadia will be missed. But the system will survive and grow stronger. 💜. I am sending you all the happy vibes to Kya and the system!
I’m so sad. She was so sweet
Nadia's split is genuinely one of the most grim things I've heard in my entire life. To hear that such a happy, bright girl who was the humanization of the sun become so eaten up by the negativity thrown at her looks + the s-word of her (ex-?) girlfriend + the ending of so many system relationships is just heartbreaking. Plus, knowing she split off two NON-HUMAN alters just adds to that grimness, considering a Wraith is an embodiment of a soul thats on the verge of death or has passed on, and Seer is something that has ever changing perspectives/is a mist that takes no form.
I really and genuinely hope that one day Wraith and Seer can heal from the hurts they received as the person they once were, and I hope that whatever is left of Nadia can be put to rest.
So much this 💔 she was such a bubbly cute little person and the fact that she was broken so incredibly bad is literally heartbreaking
I've read a few places that alters can (sometimes, and probably rarely) be 'revived' from a split and even if they have 'died.' So maybe, just maybe, Nadia may one day return.
@@rosegupton4234 Maybe, but it won't be the same Nadia everyone pre-2020 loved and knew. Once an alter splits into new ones, that original alter cannot come back the same way they once were.
Why were people harrasing this channel ?
@@haveaniceday3952why else? people can be such horrible monsters
I will never understand why humans feel the need to be MORE traumatizing after learning that someone has already been through trauma. I am SORRY you and your system have been treated this way. I don't care what these people want to say you've done, there is NO excuse to intentionally traumatize another human. Damn, D, I just don't know what else to say. Sending love and strength.
The four agreements
People are horrible
Feel the same.
I’m nobody but I don’t believe anyone intentionally traumatizes someone with the intent to traumatize without some sort of self-delusion that it’s deserved or not that bad, etc. I see those folks as victims of their own suffering and through their actions they believe they are doing something “good” - not very helpful to Dissociadid but I think it’s the truth and gives me some insight as to why one would do the things they do. I could be wrong though.
It's the "get some help jesus christ" level of "I'm right and I'll prove it no matter the cost" even if the person is absolutely in the wrong, the site they mentioned seems to have an alarming amount of people like that on it and I truly do worry about the fact that people like that exist out there without any monitoring
I’m a black woman who has D.I.D and I’m so hurt by this video. Validating alters is so important. It doesn’t matter what they look like, it’s important to show love and understanding no matter what. But the internet is SOOO EVIL hun. I’m so sorry 💔😢🌹
@@brutalhonesty8134 if i remember correctly Nadia was Black in the system and she got for it because body is white
@@Reachel16 she was native American from what I've seen but had used black to describe herself once
from reading their post about it, i believe Nadia had black skin (not associated to anything culturally Black) and was inspired by native american culture because Nadia was created when they were young and reading fiction related to that culture, but has since apologized for ignorantly continuing to use that description.
@@leahpinault1617An alter that was formed when the host was a CHILD caused so much drama? That's just horrible. These days you could identify as a a stapler and people would defend your rights, but God forbid a deeply traumatised child unconsciously created a dark skinned alter that had native American roots and identified as black.
"Sorry" doesn't begin to express my sympathies for your System. Just when I thought I've heard all the horrors you have gone through, they keep coming. You are incredibly strong.
Seer, I hope your curiosity brings lots of joy in your heritage research.
Wraith, just as the sun-kissed wheat field was Nadia's home, the field of night is _your home. You are home._ The night darkness has its own perspective of clarity. It is no better or worse than the sunlight, they are both unique and valued. Take all the time you need, and even then, you don't ever have to speak to us on camera if you don't want to.
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Tangent on names: for most of my life, I hated my name. Kelly. Not only due childhood trauma- the harsh k sound, it's a "simple, basic" name, so many personal reasons... Just the other day, I looked up the origin. I already knew it had Irish roots, but when I saw that it means "warrior," I cried. It was like a sign that, with eveything I've gone through, I am a warrior, a fighter. Of course, my Chinese ma chose "Kelly" based on the phonetic closesness to my Chinese name, and now I have the meaning of both names.
Hi, I’m one of the alters in a system, and your message to Wraith really spoke to me. I am a creature of darkness, which the host has always been scared of. But the darkness is my home, and I am still allowed to be. Thank you.
@@Miu_Iruma96 Read before you comment. They said they’re an alter in a system, not the DissociaDID system
Honestly shout out to Maeri. It is so hard to just sit down and relax and do something you love to do. I’m so glad you all have someone like that to just tell you “no I don’t want to hear it. We’re getting the kitten. We need her.”
I can totally see Maeri as the older sister who’s like “Nope.” And then when you go “But but bu-“ she’s like “nope. This is going to happen, I am gonna make sure you’re happy and safe and cared for, and you cannot stop me. End of story”
After I watched that video I named my pet after her
I always felt a connection with Nadia so I am sorry to hear she was made to feel such a way. I hope Seer and Wraith can find more comfort in their existence. Bring some peace to what remains of Nadia's soul.
That‘s such a beautiful thing to say.🥰💫
perfectly said and 100% agreed.
There are no specific timestamps in the video itself, I'm so sorry. We got very overwhelmed editing this. General trigger warnings for the span of pretty much the entire video: recurring topics of un-aliving themes, and online hate. No details given. Theme and trigger warnings basically continue from part 1. Please be safe ❤️
you guys stay safe too, it must've been hard to make this and then rewatch it again for editing purposes. wishing you all the best♥️
Y’all might need feel like right know but none of you are alone if anyone in the system wants to talk I know I am here no matter who! I wish I could truly hug all of you and I just wanted to say everyone is amazing just the way you are in your system and don’t ever apologize to anyone that did any of you wrong thank y’all for putting videos out and being strong y’all deserve nothing but the best and y’all system is strong and did survive and y’all are awesome and amazing don’t ever let anyone tell any of you different truly every single one in the system is amazing just the way they are 💕❣️❣️❣️
As others have said, please put yourselves first and stay safe too ♥️ another person in the vid comments said that you don’t owe us anything, which is so true! If these videos or any video that the community asks for is too much for you, that’s okay! ♥️ I would much rather never have another video but know that you’re doing better because of that (though I love the videos so if it’s safe and you want to then please do 😭😂) ♥️♥️
And for everyone in the system I’m sorry if something spelling looks weird I had to speak into my phone and I can only speak for myself but every single one of you are truly loved and that’s for everyone in the system and I can only speak for myself all of you are loved and cared for forever please don’t ever think y’all are not y’all are amazing funny caring strength so many things every single one of you y’all are loved 😇😍💞💞💞❣️🙏
"Please also think of yourself, being a youtuber is hard enough, but also constantly talking about extremely emotional things that impacted you directly must make it even harder.
Hearing this is jogging my memory about the situation with Nadia… it hurts my heart that it got taken that far. 😞 People who don’t have a basic understanding of the brain and trauma really need to stay out of it. Without that understanding, yea it can look bad… but with just an ounce of knowledge you’d know it’s not how it is at all.
Nadia will always be loved and I hope her and her descendants (as Seer put it) they were, are, and always will be perfect the way they are. 💖
Sending all of the warmest love to everyone
Oh the part right after bout Wraith hurts 😞 you can tell they formed to kinda hold that energy and trauma from it all. I hope despite it all.. and though it’s now dark rather than sunny.. I hope some beauty can be found in that moon. 🥺
I feel like people don't understand that oftentimes a system doesn't have control of the personal conceptualization of an alter. While I can understand people being personally uncomfortable because of their own identity and culture, that's when you just distance yourself from the creator. An existence like Nadia's or any alter whose inner conceptualization of themselves doesn't match reality is a tragic one. It shouldn't be something that should be scorned.
I cant believe I'm just now getting around to these updates. I am truly sorry to you all for Nadia and all the others that have been lost. I've been following yalls journey since the Anthony Padilla interview and I have grown to love every alter in this system. Nadia will forever be missed.
It’s absolutely mind blowing to me that you can go through all this, and STILL have the strength to come back to the internet - the very thing that hurt you - and be so open and authentic, for the sake of making a difference to others. Your courage and strength are absolutely mind boggling, and I’m so happy people like you exist (speaking of the entire system here). You are what redeems this cruel world, and keeps positive change moving forward. Lots of love and admiration 🖤 stay safe
@@mstubeornottube chloe is now a part of Kya and they most definitely did not come back just for the money.
@@mstubeornottube Well duh. It’s their job and they need money - everyone does - to survive. That doesn’t mean they don’t also want to make a difference. If they only wanted money, there are plenty of things to do online that make much more money much faster and easier than mental health education. Also Chloe never left - people just change. Growth happens. Fusions happen.
She is obviously not genuine, it feels really fake comparing it to other people who have DID. If you do some research about this channel you can find more info about this. If this is really genuine, I am sorry, but the way its presented especially with the new alters seems really fake.
@@RadimArcelios They don't have to tell everything as it is mostly private. And, even if you have this disorder, you don't know everything. Being the whole point of it, not being aware of what happened, nor that you even have a disorder.
@@RadimArcelios I've seen the person who's mostly making fakeclaiming videos about dissociadid, and they demonize personality disorders so there's really no leg to stand on.
Besides, every system is different. Just because you know one system's experience it might present differently with another, please be more courteous.
I can’t imagine purposefully making someone feel so bad they literally split themselves apart. The internet never fails to disappoint me due to its brutality. The fact that people you know also made you feel that way, knowing your situation is even more deplorable. I’m sorry you have had to deal with that.
i have found some accounts like that in youtube too. by blameing and mocking others. Why youtube do nothing?
@@goawayfxxxpeople bc TH-cam doesn’t care about any of us
Just want to remind your system that you don't owe anything to us, or anybody. But you're incredibly brave for sharing it anyways.
Yes, agree.
You guys have literally saved our life. I became made aware of a lot of the abuse I had suffered as a kid when I was about 12-14, and I happened to find your channel at about the same time. I was really alone, I had no one, I was scared to speak up about what I found out had happened and petrified to tell people about the abuse I was still expirencing. I had no one, I was isolated, and then I found your channel. It helped me so fricking much. I realized I wasn't alone in my expirences, that I wasn't insane for finding people in my head, and I had somewhere to go when things were hard. I felt safe when I was watching your videos. Even though none of you knew me, I saw Kyle as a kind of father figure and when I felt like I just couldn't do it anymore, his videos stopped me from doing some pretty horrific things to myself. So thank you, DissociaDID. It breaks my heart to hear how people have treated you, but we're so glad you're still here. We're so glad you still going. Thank you so much for everything.
Lot of love, Alex
I'm so glad you're still here, and that I could be a bit of a safe & positive paternal figure for you when I was Kyle ❤️ I'm sorry you've been through so much already. You're doing amazing. Lots of love back - Kya ❤️
Alex!!!!!! I found youuuuu. Hihi. It's Rebecca!!!!!!!!!!!
@@DissociaDID hi kaya!!! How are you doing??, I'm new to your channel I love you so much. DID is so interesting. It's a little confusing but it's very cool
Ever since you publicly apologized for Nadia's skin description I was purely perplexed at how anyone could be offended by an alter in a DID system. I wish I had spoken up then, one comment can't really stop a flood of hate, but it's always something, isn't it? I'm now heartbroken, knowing what happened to Nadia, and to the system as a whole. It's so nice to have you back making videos, even if you talk about difficult subjects. You somehow have a very comforting, calming presence. I also find the descriptions of your inner world fascinating! I wish you all the best
“Þæs ofereode, þisses swa mæg.” It’s from an Old English poem called ‘Deor’ and means “That was overcome, so may this be.” I had to share it since Seer has an interest in Old English and I think the quote is very applicable to you. You are absolutely incredible, never forget it. The internet is a scary place but know there are also many people out here that care about you.
I'm bipoc and been following for almost 4 years. Never seen Nadie saying or doing anything offensive. Just wanted to say that. She was the most sweetest, kind, beautiful girl I've seen making TH-cam in a while. I loved her. She didn't deserve all that.
i saw nadia in the meet the alters female alters video and she was such a ball of sunshine and i loved her. it's really sad what happened. tears man.
Me too. Nadia's personality made me wanna hug her and never let go. Just "protect the sunshine at all costs"
I cried for her too when she split off
This is so horrifying. I'm so sorry your system had to go through all of this. It's so sad that Nadia felt so terribly about her own existence and I'm upset anyone made her feel that way. For people you trusted to turn on your system as well and make you feel weak, they were so wrong. You don't need them.
It's horrifying to hear there's actually a website out there to scare people and drive them into death. 😭💔
Only at minute five. Please send Seer and Wraith my love. I am so sorry that Nadia felt the way she felt and I hope that in Seer and Wraith she (they) can find healing
I always remembered Nadia when she was introduced in "Meet the girl alters" video "__is really close to the camera__ Hello my name is Nadia it's nice to meet you" xD. It's sad to see that that bubbly, energetic personality that I could only dream of having, would cause her to split like that.
People destroy too easily beautiful persons. You need to build yourself a heavy shield to block and your personality is definitely toned down from this. 😟
Timestamps for anyone looking for more specific trigger warnings:
mentions of self-unaliving attempts: 4:30 - 4:52 and 5:17 - 5:27
online hate, esp. unaliving someone threats and doxxing: 10:44 - 12:55
mentions of threats irl: 17:28 - 18:00 (but they went to the police and that's getting sorted)
Let me know if I forgot anything :)
Just replying to get this boosted up a bit :)
Time stamp boost
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Boost!
thank you!! that was very helpful
Man, throughout all the public drama that you had to deal with back in 2020, all I could think was that people were being super unreasonable in expecting someone so deeply traumatized to respond perfectly to being dogpiled by the whole internet. Only learning now the full extent of how horrible that time was, all I can say is that I'm glad you survived. You're very strong❤
Despite the absolute horrible times you’ve had the last couple of years, your system seems so so so much stronger. Your resilience is unmatched. Your were able to describe things so eloquently, despite how triggering. You are strong, you’re getting stronger. And I’m so grateful to be able to watch you, learn from you, and see your growth. Thank you for your bravery. ❤
People don't say this to people who have experienced trauma and hate enough: you did NOT deserve it. It can be one of the hardest things to remember, especially when you've been told you deserve it before, but you did not deserve to be treated like that. Thank you so much for doing what you do. The strength you have in pushing forward after all that's happened is amazing. Your entire system is amazing, and I'm so, so sorry for all you've been through. What people on the Internet have done to you is not okay. I know it's not exactly the same, but there are so many people who love you and care what happens to you, because the light you bring to the world--whether that be from your videos, TikToks, or streams--is irreplaceable. Stay strong, and we're here for you ❤
I truly wish the "new" alters get to experience happy and fun moments, they deserve it no matter what
I hope you all know how brave you all are for this. I'm so happy that there are people like you guys who are strong enough and willing to destigmatize mental health, especially disorders that are seen as "evil" or have negative connotations
This!
I can't help but think of Wraith and Seer as these two pillers here to initiate you into the world of the old magiks. In my family's practice there are two entities that follow us on our path, sometimes they are hounds, birds, felines, or even humanoid, ect. But they each have distinctive roles on our journey, one watches the moon and looks within- It is our connection to our internal and emotional world and workings. And the other watches the sun and looks without- It is our connection to our external and intellectual world and workings. I think many cultures have myths about such parts of ourselves, in some form or another. And although it is so hard to hear about Nadia's unbecoming, it is in its own way so beautiful to see these two new parts emerge from her, like a gift born out of her pain. I hope your life, the life of the entire system is enriched by this gift 💜
There’s absolutely NO excuse for what you’ve had to go through recently. Y’all have CLEARLY been through more than enough and to hear what happened to Nadia is just so sad. I hope this never happens again and that you’re safe and able to heal whatever needs healing. Remember to take care of yourselves and that you’re worth the world.
Even though we don't know each other, I thought about you often when you stopped posting on TH-cam and I always hoped you were okay. I just wanted to say I'm so glad you're still here and that no matter what happens there will always be people who care about you! ❤️
same! I checked in a couple times to see if any new videos popped up. (I don't have very many social media other than yt so I didn't know all that happend. still don't other than what I have seen here) I still thought of this system and the lessons I learned here :)
Yes! I too never gave up on you. You are so inspiring and seeing your strength kept me hopeful that I would get through my own traumas. Thank you for being you!
Yes
as a poc, i am just appalled that there's so many people who seem to expect perfection from others, of any minority group. this expectation and pressure to be the "perfect representation" is pervasive, unfair and it makes our spaces less safe, which is the opposite of what people are trying to achieve by being vulnerable and opening up. i really wish nadia didnt have to go through that for just being who she is. i think there needs to be a trust protocol among friends and strangers, of handling education of this kind. it is hard because we all have been through really specific traumas and sometimes it is hard to see that one size does not fit all...so it is disappointing that our solidarity can be broken so easily.
Nadia was a poc right? I can’t remember but I assumed what people were saying about her was racial. It’s so sad because she didn’t deserve that.
@@raerae5663 i think the system has written more about it in the description of this video
@@raerae5663 there are older videos, not sure if they’re up still. Nadia was described as having dark skin, and dark curly hair. She was leaning heavily into spirituality and witchcraft, and really brought joy into Chloe’s life. Nin was accused of racism and cultural appropriation bc the body is Caucasian, but Nadia was poc. She was effectively harassed out of the system :(
I'm a brown POC and I don't understand this whole thing against non-white alters in white bodies. It's absurd to me. Like, how alters look in the inner world is not something the system can control. The alters just are. They don't choose to look the way they do either, they don't even choose to exist, the mind creates them. To accuse a system of cultural appropriation is silly to me, particularly one that fights for social justice of all marginalized and oppressed peoples. Nadia didn't even behave in a stereotypical way, I just don't understand why people fixated on her skin tone.
@@andiehernandez1995 - I think that just goes to show how lack of proper education on DID can lead to misunderstandings and being so much harm , which is why I'm so happy that Kya has chosen to continue making videos and expanding education despite everything she's been through.
The fact that so many people and "friends" waited to throw their stones at a time where you couldn't defend yourself was beyond cowardly. Especially from fellow DID systems and the DID community itself that should know better. The whole ordeal was disgusting. But I'm glad that you were the system that made it through and still continues to make content.
Sending you strength, support, and healing ❤️ 💙
Wrathe- I hope beyond hope that the cool moonlight soothes you. But remember, grief is all the love you had left to give. I saw my first fireflies the other night. I hope you do too
I just wish to go back and tell Nadia that she mattered. Just by the feeling of not wanting to hurt people, that means she cared. She was at least a someone who deeply loved others outside of the system. At least that’s what I gathered about her. As I will always put after my comments to y’all. Love you lots. ❤️❤️❤️❤️
That terrible website just went down an hour ago! Regardless, Im so sorry for everything you've suffered, Kya and Co. Lots of love and hope you continue to heal.
What was the site called?
What was the site's name, out of pure curiosity? I wanna see if there's any more info on it
Here to know too
glad that cloudflare finally did something about them. They were trying to get keffals killed. Genuinely terrible people.
I will put a trigger warning here, I'm not gonna share the site but a place you can get some information. The content can be triggering so please take good care of yourself!!!
VangelinaSkov made quite a few viedos on this cest pool of *******...also covered the stuff that has been going on on '20 and '21...it is biased content so beware.
I've been here since Chloe was the host, and I'll continue to be here for many more years because I believe [in] you. No words can be put to explain how I feel about your story...
I believe [in] you.
I'm new. And I don't understand anything y'all are saying. Cam you elaborate the cloe host and this and that.
After anything that has happened, I feel at loss to find the exact words that would communicate my wishes for you to achieve comfort and safety and people you can trust. I can’t quite find the words for any of it. So instead I’m going to donate to your fundraiser and share it, because this is such an immensely unjust mistreatment for you all. I hope at least that having support to defend yourself legally and definitively can buy you some much needed and deserved peace in the future.
It absolutely breaks my heart to hear what happened with Nadia... I was so impressed by her and I'm so proud of all of you.
I’m glad that your feeling well enough to be able to talk about this. We are the ones here supporting you and I wish you the best for whatever great things you do in the future 💖
As soon as you said nadia I knew I wasn't gonna get through it without crying, I instantly connected to nadia and she was such a bright light, so sad that she went through all that. Been with you guys since chloe and unboxings, love you all and here for you all xxx
I have a question, I could have asked the creator but I'm super curious. Are kya and chloe the same person, or are both of them separate people? Bc it says kya is host, but chloe was born in the body, and Google says that kya is just a online name for chloe. Did chloe split into kya and someone else??
@@ladylovelylocks Chloe was the host, but she and Nina (their sexual protector) fused to make Nin, and Nin and Kyle (their primary protector) fused to make Kya, the current host. Kya is their own person now, but Chloe, Nina, Nin, and Kyle all live on in Kya because Kya still has memories and personality traits from each. Hope this helps!
@@ellahou5872 To add: Chloe is the body's name. A lot of times the host will use the body's name, but in this case the host has fused so many times they're a completely different person. So, legally, DissociaDID is Chloe, but none of the alters use that name anymore.
@@ruralmetalhead Yes, exactly!
@@ruralmetalhead woah, i know this can happen in did, but I didn't know it can be that complicated
Hearing the things revolving around what happened to Nadia and to the whole system, I don't know how to verbalize how that hurts. Nadia was really sweet, I wish I could have given her help, that goes for you too Kya. You didn't deserve any of that monstrous hate but I am so glad and proud that you survived, you and your system deserve so much love and support :) You're awesome
It breaks my heart to hear about everything you’ve had to survive to get to this point. I’ve been following you since 2019 and you have always been in my thoughts through everything. I don’t understand how some people can be so horrible to literally anyone, let alone someone as sweet and kind as you who has already been through enough. I’m not religious, but I’m praying that you can find some peace soon. Remember, you don’t owe us any explanation or videos, but we are always here for you.
Hey I’d just be cautious mentioning that you’re praying for people, both in relation to them and other people because I know they have religious trauma because they’ve talked about it before but other people here could too. This is meant very respectfully. ❤️
@@ameliathomas5575 prayer simply means to trust. Has nothing to do with religion at it's core.
Prayer is the highest form of trust. Prayer and faith. You can be atheist and still have faith in the universe, or simply with oneself, that all will be okay. It doesn't require some deity.
I had one of the worst years of my life last year. I was betrayed by nearly everyone I know, I lost nearly my entire support system, and I lost myself for a long time there as well. I can't imagine going through all that, on top of the amount of hate you received (so disgusting I literally have no words), and bouncing back as strong as you have. Now when I'm anxious about something I can always thinking of how strong I must be to have survived what I have, and that helps me not only get through tough times but also learn to appreciate and love myself. I'm glad you know how strong you are and I hope you continue to carry that with you.
When I first found out I was a system, it was Chloe who helped me feel like I wasn't alone, that I could survive with these other people I share a body with, that I could still be happy even with all I've gone through. And that continued from Nin now to even you, Kya. You are the system that through so many years have been an inspiration and someone I could relate to heavily. I appreciate all you have done as you have deeply impacted my life and how I deal with my own system. It pains me so much all the shit that you've been put through and I'm so incredibly sorry. I wish I could change what has happened, but you guys are so strong, and remind me to be strong too. Thank you for being my support and helping me. It means the world. Even if it doesn't mean much and you don't know me personally, know you have changed my life for the better. Thank you
Damn…the strength of this system. I’m in awe. My husband, who I have been with for 15 years (since I was 15, I’m 30 now) left me two months ago, and hearing how you have persevered through some of the most heinous shit I have ever heard…it gives me hope. If you can do it, I can do it. Thank you Kya and the rest of the system. I’m so sorry for what you’ve had to go through, but just know, your strength and example is carrying so many of us.
I may be a stranger on the Internet, but I believe you can and will build a wonderful life for yourself!
I do too! You got this, kind human! Don't give up on building up a new life and finding new happiness for yourself :)
Thank you so much guys 🥹 Dissociadid has the kindest and best community ever ♥️
Dissciadid you bring spirits of light and healing together ❤ ive overcame a crazy couple years as well including several nde i suffer from addiction and fight every day for my life and I am agoraphobic and your videos give me a sense of connection and community
it hurts me so much to hear about nadia because I saw some of the discussion about her (and the problem people had with her) and how incredible stupid it was of those people to hold nadia, the system, the host or whoever accountable for what they thaught was wrong...it just hurts how those people were so much in their bubble, thinking they had a right to judge the situation without realizing what they do and what they expect from nadia...and it hurts more that they won over her. She will be deeply missed and I hope that Wraith and Seer can find peace in their existence. I wish them (and all of the system) best of luck. and lots of love and joy.
ok after watching the video I just have to say how incredible sorry I am that all of this happened to you. and how incredible strong you are. I wish you all the best and hope recovery will go well for you.
Wait what were people saying about Nadia?
@@meghanchang7026 Nadia was based (if I remember right) on a stereotype (I think) of a native American girl. There was some issue with the language used to introduce herself as the body is white and it's a topic that is very back and forth amongst the did community about whether to say "I present as xyz" or if you can just say "I am (in this case) native american". Some people took it too far from what it sounds like but it's just a discourse over what the proper way to go about it is especially since (again I could be wrong) I think Nadia was a fictive of a child's book native American which I'm sure you can see where that is stereotype wise
@@meghanchang7026 on the reddit server kya mentioned
@@silvershadow108 how i saw it they basically blamed a childs mind for forming nadia the way she was...and thats just bullshit. You can discuss about wording but blamind nadia how she presented in the inner world or how she saw herself when the image was created by a childs mind trying to protect herself and calling that racist was just so sad to watch. However I think it might not be good to continue the discussion here. I originally didn't want to sepcify it on purpose...
That is so unfair what they did to Nadia. I am so sorry. I understand to a specific extent what that's like and it's gut wrenching. Our love to all of you 💜🍼 -Casper
Hey, not to be offensive or mean. But why is there a baby bottle emoji? I'm just trying to understand and learn more, ya know!
@@swiftly_produced2694 That's my sign-off. Like my signature of sorts
@@casperrossler1351 dang, that's cool. Why the bottle tho? (If you want to tell of course)
@@swiftly_produced2694 It's kinda an inside joke but long story short everyone would call me mama and say they wanted milk to I spammed the milk bottle so it's stuck as 💜🍼 for my trademark jtjsbfkja. Also I try and hold onto as much childhood as I can
@@casperrossler1351 that's super sweet! NOW GIVE ME MILK
I think I just wanted to say since nobody is talking about this: congratulations on the progress with Demon. Although we know little about them, I'm happy to hear that a part of the system is beginning to open up.....also it may be odd. But I don't think I'll ever forget the feeling of seeing Darks art in the alters draw video. Not only does it show so much emotion, but it was honestly beautiful. I hope that things improve for both of them, and that there may be a day where they can connect with the others more.
I also hope that the alter that demon has been hiding ig....finds a place of piece and comfort that she chooses.
Ever since I accidentally came across one of your videos, I have been consuming your content despite the fact that I don't have DID or anyone in my environment with DID. You are such a strong person, surviving so much and still finding the strength to keep going. Never forget that you are an inspiration, because your character, strength, and kindness shine through no matter the makeup, the alter fronting, or the content of the video. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to have your channel and your community, you deserve to enjoy every wonder of this world!
"We can survive it." Chills. I'm so proud of how far you and your system have come. Everyone deserves to feel safe and secure. I hope that in the future, hopefully soon, you can find something or someone to make that stability a reality. You've been doing so good, we're proud of you, keep going. You can get through this; it will be hard, but it will be worth it. You will make it.
You are THE most incredible persons that I’ve ever heard of. Just don’t ever forget that! You guys give sooo much strength to so many of us here in this violent and viscous world. It hurts to see you in pain. Especially since you take so much of mine away from me in every single video. If there’s anything that I can do for you, just DM me. I promise to do my best.
I've been here since 2019. I haven't ever stopped thinking about you. Even when you weren't posting videos I would check your community page.
You're amazing. You've given me hope when I had none and inspired me to heal. I hope you find healing, you deserve it ❤️❤️❤️
I did the same thing, and joined Patreon. I care so much about your system and wanted to know you were ok.
Same! I was like: "please, I need an update, I need to know they are okay". I was so worried.
Wanted to comment the same thing ❤️ I hope they are able to rebuild trust that there are people who genuinely care and would not want any harm to come to their system, it’s so difficult but I just want them all to be safe and happy
Same here.
💜TIMESTAMPS & TW 💜
( @DissociaDID ; dont worry fam, I gotchu)
0:00 - Intro
2:26 - Nadia's Split
⚠ TW; 4:29 - 6:40 (mentions unaliving attempts, online harassment & being silenced. No details.)
7:15 - Seer & Wraith
9:53 - Mara & Doll ( & Mara )
⚠ TW; 11:02 - 12:06 (Mentions severe online harassment and unaliving until 11:23 where there's a bit more detail. Not graphic in any way, but please proceed with caution.)
14:01 - Maeri
15:01: Demon, Dark & The Subsystem
16:28: Recently discovered Unnamed Alter
18:02: Wind Down & Outro
Thank you so much!
@@yuna._.72 No problem fam!
This is really wild. This is so much at once for anyone to handle and go through. I'm amazed and have a lot of respect for your courage and resilience. Not diminishing how hard it's been, we don't even really know how hard it's been, we can only have an idea based on what you shared. And something is telling me that it was worse than what we can imagine. Thank you for still doing this with us. People can be shitty but that's a whole new level here... Glad to hear you say "we're doing better" and I only wish you to keep going forward
I did find it odd that the people who brought out "expose videos" about the system all seemed to do it while you were all offline and silent. Times like that always feel targetted and planned. Actual concerns would clearly be when you are active, right? Thats the whole point of wanting someone to stop something, but if you've already stopped at that time why would it come out then? Not the moment you dissappear and cant speak up. It always felt a bit... hmm. Stories didn't add up.
Exactly and their "proof" was always so silly... I didn't believe any of them.
It was beyond cowardly of all the people and systems who waited until DissociaDID was offline to throw them under the bus. I'm just beyond disappointed and disgusted with everyone who chose then to lash out.
yeah i have no clue why someone would debase others, not to mention themselves, like that just for some 'social media number go up' clout. some people are just sociopathic in the worst way
I honestly think money and fame were big motivators for those "exposé" videos. If you compare the videos on their channels you'll see that the fakeclaims against DissociaDID got them the most views by FAR. People were still searching for DissociaDID content during that quiet time and the other creators knew that TH-cam's algorithms would deliver.
Those people were always feeding on the system for views. Completely compassionless
I started watching this video and was kind of confused because I didn't quite remember Nadia, just the name. So I went back on the channel to find something of her. I was like "if people thought of her that way, she must have been a persecutor, non-human alter, something of that kind, right?" - not that I agree, but that's what I've come to expect of people.
But no. She was just a girl (17 at the time of the video), bubbly and hyperactive, she seemed like so much fun... I really don't get what happened and I'm so mad at people for being like this... I'm so sad she of all people had to experience the worst of this world and I hope Seer finds the magic world to be as fascinating as I do, and that Wraith someday finds comfort and peace in their own terms. I'll be putting Nadia (all of you too, of course, but I'll do a little something in her honor) in my prayers. Hope the gods protect all of you from this type of sh*t in the future...
I hope Seer will find joy in researching old English and Irish culture. As a history major I know it makes me extremely happy. I wish it's the same for her as well♡
"Thank you" seems like just not enough to explain how grateful i am for you staying here and telling your story. It means alot.
I don’t normally comment on videos, but I felt I needed to in order to thank you for everything you’ve done for this community. I’m a second year medical student in the states and watching your videos and showing them to my classmates has been very helpful and enlightening into DID and what it means to live with it. I am so sorry that for all the trauma you had to endure at such a young age, but I am so grateful for you and your education. From the bottom of my heart I wish you and the entire system the healing and happiness you need and deserve ❤️
it is devastating that nadia’s last memories are people hating her so much that she split. she brought nothing but joy and light to the world and the world betrayed her like that. i wish she knew how loved she was. im proud of you guys for getting through this hellhole, i hope everything goes better day by day.
It really hurts to know that there are people online who says things to hurt other people for no apparent reasons. I am so so sorry that Nadia and yall have to go through this. Just know that we love yall for who yall are. Kya and everyone in the system, yall matter so so much to us. We see you and we care about yall. Yall are very strong for sharing this with us so thank you. Sending all the love and strength to yall as well as hugs (if yall are comfortable with it). 💙💙💙
Looking forward to meeting everyone, sending you all love and support. 💚
“If you take me down we’re gonna take you down with us”
I’m so proud of this strength that you’ve found. It may have always been there and only just come out, but either way, be proud of being a strong-ass system! The work you’re doing here is gonna help systems everywhere understand who they are. Keep making videos, because the world needs to see you
I'm not a long time viewer, but I am so thankful you're still alive. I was doing a lot of reading on C-PTSD in 2019, which is how I got to your channel. I'm the third generation in my family to be diagnosed with PTSD, and learning about C-PTSD, OSDD, and DID has helped me understand my family better.
I am so, so sorry that there was so much you have had to survive these past few years. You are so brave for coming back to TH-cam, and I appreciate all that you do.
I’m glad you’re talking about this. The hate and harassment against you was very wrong.
Nadia provided so much positivity, and always made me smile watching her. I'm so sad that she dealt with all that hatred. I hope Seer and Wraith can both heal and maybe we will get to know them in a meet the alters one day. You guys are so brave, don't forget how strong you are to be back and still making videos and doing what you love after all of the hate. You continue to be a light and an inspiration. Sending love and healing vibes! ❤️
A few years back I had always wanted to be a friend of Chloe and later of Nin but I was always unsure how to reach them and thought that I’d be a bother for them. Especially because I thought they’d get messaged so often, they didn’t need anyone else. Knowing what happened saddens me so much :( Maybe I could have helped. For what it’s worth: I never believed any of the online stuff that was being said and I do hope the system is starting to feel better. Kya (and the rest of the system too ofc), you deserve the world and I deeply hope you’ll make a lot of friends along the way. I have trouble trusting people too, so I understand where you’re coming from. But if you ever need someone pls know that a lot of people (including me) are there for you. You’re amazing. Thank you so much for teaching me so much about DID!
The only reason my spouse of 8 years got their diagnosis was because we had found your videos. They gave us an understanding of everything, that made the realization and acceptance so much smoother. I’m heartbroken hearing about all the shit your past few years held. We got his diagnosis January 2021, and I though of your system every step of the way. I am so happy you are surviving, and I could never convey the extent of the role your system played for us. Not only that, but we have personally crossed paths with four other systems, some who we were able to pass your knowledge onto. I can see first hand the hardships, and wish you the most positive vibes and support.
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As a Pagan myself I cannot express how interested I am in hearing about Seer, and what she knows/is learning. I know that is not the topic of the channel but I fully hope she is able to find peace and relaxation in her journey!
I agree, I would love to hear from Seer! She sounds so interesting!
It hurts so much knowing that Kya and the system has been so continously traumatized by people they considered friends. For very different reasons and experiences, I also struggle with having friends/people I can rely on. With therapy, I try to remind myself that there are good people out there who will genuinely care, but it's hard to be hopeful. At the very least, I know that I'M a geniune, kind person. So there has to be others. I hope we both find them, Kya and co!
Lovely message. I'm there with you. I hope you find what you are looking for :)
@@sparkstudies1675 Thank you, you too!
if not for you, I never would have known what DID is. I would never have learned that I am a system, would have never gotten a diagnosis, and would have spent the rest of my life feeling "crazy". from the bottom of my heart, thank you for all that you've done and continue to do
Hello! I hope you and your system are well. Or at least, adjusting to the new reality you're living in. My heart goes to you!♡
@@Nuvolenny this is so sweet, thank you! we are much happier now that we know 💛 take care!!
BIG SAME. I didn't know that I was a system until I found DissociaDID,,, they've helped me so much.
I still cant accept the fact I am asystem but I am aware of it. Again, like you, thanks to this channel. For a bit I just said I was quarky and different and not like the other girls but after some time I realised what happened and it makes sense but I sm still very warry of it. It doesnt seem big when I look back at it but I cant remember much so ofc I would think that. I am happy to find mote people like me and I think I still need time and hopefully my system gives me that time but I will try my darn bestest to just not give up despitr how hopeless things seem sometimes.
@@galileodirectio denial is a very common experience of newly discovered systems!! It's a part of the dissociation, and that it's the trauma, that your brain is trying to hide from you.
Denial and depersonalization/derealization is *normal.* It's alright. :)
I'm honestly so moved by how strong you by speaking about this and opening up. I want to say that you are so important and have helped so many people. I've been watching since 2018 and seeing your journey and growth has so powerful. I can honestly say, I would be so sad to hear of any negative things happen to you. I wish you all the best and want the system to know that everyone is important and have done wonderful, amazing work💜
This ☝️💛
Sorry if I’m late to commenting but on the slight chance that you see this I just want to let all of you know that you are incredibly, incomprehensibly strong for being able to go through all of this. You are all amazing.
I recently rediscovered this channel and watched the female alters introductions video from 4 years ago now and being updated with this video… I am so proud you all have come so far. So strong. Keep powering through you beautiful beings 🫶
My heart is absolutely broken over Nadia. She was such a positive shining light and didn't deserve any of that hate she got. She connected to her version of her heritage just like any other alter but we have become so obsessed with this idea of cultural appropriation we have lost the ability to say "if it's not hurting anyone, it's not anyone's business" She just wanted to love and be loved and spread joy. 😭 I hope you all are finding healing and comfort wherever you can. You are doing amazing with the crappy hand you were dealt. Sending you so much love
This video was even more heartbreaking to hear about than the first and I can't properly express how sorry I am for all that you went through. Thank you for continuing to make videos and help people because even though I don't have DID, I have generalized anxiety disorder and the way you always affirm people's feelings and say that you are strong enough to survive whatever you are going through really does give me come comfort and feel like I can make it through my hardships. I love watching your videos and I hope all of you know that you truly are doing good in this world. I love you all and I hope that you continue to grow and be happy and healthy!
Kya, you and your system are so strong, overcoming and brave. You give hope and understanding to everyone who watches your videos. I am in awe of you, you are light and you are good. Don’t ever forget how special and loved you are. We may not know you but you make our day better whenever we see your videos. Think about everyone you have helped and the positivity you have shared. Don’t focus on the negativity, it will always be there. This world can be a cruel place, but its made better by people like you and your system 🥰
Well said!
You all are incredible people for withstanding this much hate and trauma in your life. All of you deserve the world for still making these videos dedicated to educating people about DID and OSDD. You have helped so many people including me with your educational videos and I think you guys can do and have done amazing things with your life. Personally, you helped me in learning about this disorder for future events in my life, with some of my friends having forms of OSDD. Keep being strong, and I hope that you all are seeking and getting the help you need from a therapist or other system members. Sending love, me
I don't have DID, but I have been watching your content for as long as you've been making content. And I just want to say that you all are so brave being here, on the internet, overcoming your fears, and talking about these things, to help others.
THIS is who you are, brave, kind, loving and empathetic. I wish that I knew you personally, so that I could tell you guys that every day. Because THAT is what you all deserve to hear everyday.
You have helped me through things, taught me valuable lessons, made me laugh, made me cry and made me FEEL, when I thought I could not feel anything anymore.
I think that ya'll are the definition of a .. to put it simply BOSS! And seeing the smile on your face when you talk about how ya'll are overcoming this mountain, and standing up after being pushed so far down this black hole, is beautiful.
I will for as long as you are here making content, be here to learn, and to support your cause. And I am thankful for all you guys do.
14:56 that look you got on your face for a second right after you said this was like a gut punch. I could see you really feel the weight of that statement, I'm so sorry for everything you've been through. While the circumstances of her arrival were not good, I'm glad the system has Maeri ♥
so much love to the whole system, y’all are so strong and i love you! thank you for everything you do to educate and help us ❤️❤️
you’ve helped me get through so much this past year so thank you for that as well ❤️ you’re all incredible!
Thank you for trusting us to share this difficult information and vulnerable content 💖 hope you're all staying safe and looking after yourselves
Just finished the first part or these and now the second. I’m crying. You’ve had so much done to you in your life and to still be as positive as you are, is truly amazing. I strive to be as strong as you, and I’m so happy to see you back and making videos. I hope you’re doing well and look forward to watching more videos from you!
I don't care who allegedly did what and who may have made mistakes ... NOBODY deserves to be treated this way.
It hurts to see someone being hurt like this, but at the same time seing you survive and even grow is really inspiring. You are strong in a way very few people are!
I wish it wasn't in such a cynical way (and I hope you'll re-learn to trust people, hard as it may seem right now), but for now I'm just glad you're still here and have not given up! May you heal and grow even stronger - you deserve it, every single one of you!
You are the strongest people I know. And one of the sweetest. I hope the next years will be much kinder to you because you deserve it! Sending love from Hungary❤
It's simply awful, and inexcusable, what these people did to you. I'm glad to hear you've managed to get some fight back. You do whatever you need to do to start to feel safe once again. No matter what anybody says, or does, or how many people try to take it away, you have the right to live and be happy. May those who attacked you never know peace until they see the error of their ways and stop trying to take away the peace of others.
Thank you for these updates and sharing your experience. Lots of love ❤️
I’ve come to this channel just now after watching Anthony Padilla’s interview. I’m learning so much that I didn’t know. I think it’s incredible how you speak about everything. I hope you are doing well and continue to reach out when necessary. I’m hoping everyone who comes here can be as supportive as possible because I think what your doing is incredibly important. If nothing else, thanks for helping to educate me ❤
I’d like you to know I found this channel about 4 years ago when my best friend told me they had DID and they were so relieved when I was like “alright, what does that mean?” And they explained it to me and I was like “holy shit that makes so much sense now!?” And I specifically wanted to try to understand what was happening. I still do watch occasionally when I have the time. I’d like to really thank the system for always being willing to explain things even though you don’t have to. I know it’s hard and rough. The internet is shit. I’m so glad the system is still with us and I’m so terribly sorry for everything you’ve been put through. I can not begin to imagine the pain and suffering you’d experienced. I hope you guys keep healing at your own pace and take care of yourselves.💛💛
That's so messed up, I just don't understand how people can do anything like this, DissosiaDID just wants to help people by spreading awareness and positivity and love and people do this to them. I really hope that those people from that site get found and wrecked, or go to jail or anything like that. That was just awful... It feels like everyone targets them and that just isn't fair. To Kya and co. you guys have been through so much and while it doesn't mean much, I'm so so sorry you guys went through that, it's disgusting what people will do to others. Stay strong guys 💪❤
I really wish that one day you'll be able to live as yourselves, free of fear... but until that time comes just know that you have a lot of people who still appreciate, love, and support you.
Please stay safe. Especially on the internet. And thank you for always giving me the strength and reminders to keep being kind to myself, especially when my own illnesses and mental health feels like they're taking their toll.
for what it's worth from a random stranger, I'm glad y'all are still here. you've been through all sorts of shit, and I'm proud of y'all. you're still here and you wont be going anywhere anytime soon, go kick trauma's ass folks.
I don't often comment and am new to this channel but felt like I had to after watching this. I'm so sorry for what you've gone through, both recently and in the past. Nadia made me smile and that's one of the best things someone can do for someone else. Her zooming in on the camera during the 'Meet the alters' episode was hilarious and I could feel her positive energy rubbing off on me instantly! I hope she finds peace and that the others can find a way to come to terms with her transition.
Speaking as someone who struggles with mental health, I think what you're doing for community is incredible. I've only watched a few videos so far and have already gained so much knowledge about DID. I hope the actions of a few bad actors don't define your experience on the platform.
To anyone struggling: I know it feels indescribably painful right now but it does get better. I have come out the other side of my own struggles twice now and am living a happy life. People DO care about you and someone will ALWAYS listen. There is no shame in talking about it, you'll be surprised how common it is and how receptive others are. Stay safe and stay healthy ❤
Hello, I'm new to this channel. What you do on this channel is incredibly important. Thank you and all the other alters for a chance to better understand how DID works. (recently I started feeling that I may meet someone with this condition somewhere in the future) I'm also terribly sorry you had to go through all the things you talked about here. Some humans are truly vile. But please, remember how strong, amazing and valid all of you are. I hope life has started treating you at least a little better now.
I'm sending your system best wishes and lots of love 💜🌻
You are so incredibly strong. All of you. Face harassment like this, that I didn't even know existed, which makes me feel such a cold anger, fight the worst in humanity, go through the changes... I wish I could hold this trauma, this hurt, this struggle for you, but I know you'll leave this behind stronger and wiser. I'm sorry for all you losses, but I rejoice with the progress made, and I want you to know you are not alone, and you have our support and unconditional love. Breath in, breath out, one step at a time and this storm shall pass. Please, take care 💙
You (Kya) and The System are so very, VERY strong and are loved. I'm very sorry for your loss(es). 🖤
I'm so heartbroken to hear how deeply these past years have affected all of you, but i am equally or more proud and happy to see the positive changes or how well you've adapted despite the trauma.
I deeply respect this system.
It just makes me sad to see people still defending the ultimate act of dehumanization online that is cancel culture, when this video shows so clearly that it's a form of vigilantism & punishment for someone and has lasting effects. Everyone that thinks you deserved to go through all of that for some human mistakes you might've made, that (to my knowledge) were all problems one can learn from or rehabilitate from, needs some professional help for the hatred within them. I'm glad you're healing and seeing most of it happen I thought to myself a lot that things weren't adding up with both the timing and claimed severity of actions without seeing your pov.
Also as someone who had Agoraphobia in the past I'm praying you'll heal from it. It's truly such a bad thing to go through on top of any kind of trauma and recovery.
You are so strong... This is something which shows incredible strength even if you feel weak. I wish from the bottom of my heart that you'll heal and become stronger and stronger by the time. What you are achieving right now, in court and in the system, is incredibly inspiring. It shows how through all the struggle, you don't let yourselves to be pushed around, and still come here and share, because you know it can help so many people to push through.
You are a huge rolemodel for a lot of people, I hope you know that.
And I truly hope that someday, you'll be at a place where the positive comments and love reaches and fills your heart so overwhelmingly, that it won't leave space for the hate and hurt that you had to deal with for so long.