We have an alter who is a shadow. For awhile we never noticed her in the innerworld because our innerworld is dark and she blended in. We believe she may have formed because of emotional neglect we experienced, leaving us feeling unseen and like a shadow.
This breaks my heart, my Son has attempted suicide but has survived and is 40 this year. He was bullied at school because of severe dyslexia. Wishing all alters every blessing for a secure future
I've attempted so many times and 2 times at least last year I tried the hardest I have ever tried to end it all, but I can't even do it and I feel worse because of it. I want it all to end right now but I can't do it
@@theonionsystem7779 please do not give up!! You’re life is worth living! You’ll be so happy and accomplish so many things, you have a brilliant life ahead!! Stay strong, one second at time. Sending you so much love
We've commented this before on the original video and it still stands; Thank you from the bottom of our heart for making this video Omega. One of our littles has a very similar role/experience and seeing this video meant the world to them. They now have been telling our partner about their "super cool gost friend" who is " just like me"
I thought DID was more rare. It breaks my heart knowing this is so common, especially considering how this disorder comes to be. I had a really difficult childhood, but my personality didn’t split, so I can’t imagine how much worse it would’ve had to be for this to occur. I send genuine blessings and positive energy to you all. I hope you find peace. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
i once heard a good metaphor for ptsd (content warning, it mentions drowning): whether you drown in three feet of water or three thousand feet, it doesn't change the fact that you're drowning. trauma is subjective, and what some people can escape relatively intact can severely effect someone else. it's just that everyone is different! so there's nothing saying your experiences weren't "as bad." your brain just coped differently.
@@kvothekingkiller9097 I completely agree! Trauma can be as simple as you tripped weird and in that moment it felt like you were gonna die. That's enough for some brains to get a trauma response disorder. What I was able to withstand may kill others and for others not leave a scratch.
It is still rare, it's just that even 1-2% of the world's population is still a lot of people. For DID to form you have to not only experience repeated trauma before the age of 7, but you also have to lack emotional connection with the primary caregiver(s) AND your mind has to be predisposed to it. Even if two children experience the same trauma, some brains are just incapable of splitting. It's actually more common for children to exposed to such trauma to be feral. As far as I'm aware, it's believed there's a genetic component involved, but it's not fully understood why people with extremely similar experiences to those with DID don't have it.
@@kvothekingkiller9097 I have heard someone wise say, don't compare your trauma to others because it may seem like others trauma means more but it means a lot in your life. (Or something along those lines I don't remember the exact wording.
Omega seems so sweet. Not sure if she is still in the system but if she is I hope her experiences are more positive these days. She seems like a really calming presence.
@@somethingtwice2297 it's not always like that, alters can integrate or go dormant. It's been a while since DissociDID was able to make content and we don't know how their system has changed. We could assume Omega is still active in system, but we can't really be sure
@@somethingtwice2297 the system has had many merges and integrations since last year. Even nin is no longer in the system as Nin but as kya now. DID never stays the same and alters are forever changing and merging. The comment was referencing the possibility that Omega may have merged or fused with another alter
@@elliottcomber5002 Oh, yeah, I misinterpreted the comment. It sounded like they were implying whether an alter could *die* as opposed to integrating or going dormant. My bad.
Our system has a few ghost headmates. They were co-con while we were watching this, our headmates felt like Omega was speaking to them. It was very helpful seeing this. Thank you.
I don't see how anyone could view Omega as scary, they have such a sweet, smooth and soothing voice. Thank you for sharing this information on trauma and trauma holders and what the mind has to go through. Thank you for the education
This is so brave of Omega to front and talk about such a traumatic and horrible event, they are so strong and have endured a lot of pain for the others.
As someone in a romantic relationship with someone with DID I appreciate so much being able to learn and try to better understand her experience and life. No two people are the same obviously but I appreciate you teaching the world.
We have an alter who is a combination of bird and ghost who is a trauma holder. This video really spoke to Casper, and I’m so grateful we could see it and show it to him Edit: yes, he can talk in headspace and fly. his body is that of a human and bird combined, so the ghost part is of a human but the wings are fully developed. his human parts are see-through, his wings are not.
I don't have DID, but I have C-PTSD and I swear to God I literally went zombie status and almost felt like I believe switching would feel watching this several times... It's so raw and I can remember feeling these things and going "zombie" a lot throughout my childhood. This is so heartbreaking yet so beautiful and educational all at once. Just thank you so much
@@transmaniandevil it's so true and it's such a weird feeling.... I never even knew these two were at ALL intertwined before watching these videos, but even without having DID they really do bring a lot of insight.
@@cancelthis3891 What you're describing sounds like dissociation. When DissociaDID switches she usually dissociates briefly, and of course dissociation is in the name of the disorder. But it's not the only disorder that involves dissociation, and CPTSD often includes it too.
ok this was 2 years ago but would u b able to give more info about cptsd cuz I'm still trying to find out whats happening with me. I have zombie like moments as well but I don't want to self diagnose but I would like to learn more
Hi, I'm Bennett and I'm 14. I've been watching your channel for a while now, and I just wanted to thank you guys. I have learned soo much about DID through you guys sharing your difficult and traumatic experience(s). And, even though I don't have DID, I think I can kinda, maybe understand everything. And I don't mean that I'll ever know what having DID or being in a system is like, but I think that it's cool that you guys have made a way to put in perspective. I hope you all the best and brightest this world has to offer. Also, I know I don't know you guys, but you're really cool people and never forget that. :)
Dear Omega, as much as I would like to call you extremely brave and strong, I will not because I know that your system had no choice but to endure all of this trauma that resulted in your creation naturally. Instead, I will call you real and honest. Thank you for telling us about your experience. It was super informative.
I'm in grad school and we learned about child maltreatment this week and in 2010 in the US 3.3 million reports were made to CPS. There are probably way more cases that dont get reported. I cant imagine how many kids go through trauma each year around the world.
Do dead or Ghost alters ever forget that the body needs to eat, drink, sleep, etc when they are outside and need to be reminded by other alters or people, or does that not happen?
none of us (that i know of) are dead but we do have a lot of nonhumans who do experience that, or even can't eat when prompted because they just cannot register food as food
We have a alter and it’s name is Mod, at first we didn’t know who they were. It’s a protector it’s able confront people/bullies verbally. It’s the most mean alter we have, even to other alters in our system (other then littles). I’ve been told by my therapist it could have been formed because of past intense bullying. It has the memories of us being bullied (Mod goes by It/It’s). your videos have been very helpful for us to have a better understanding. We have OSDD, in the beginning we had no idea what it was or the roles of a alter ect and our higher up Ash started watching your videos and since she is a higher up it helped her sort everyone into the roles that she thought would be good for that alter. And the system overall. And she’s gone a amazing job.
i was looking for this video not so long ago, im so glad its back :) i find DID verry intreresting and its allso ineresting to see my own brain react to seeing different alters, like even though its allways the bodys face, the brain learns to ignore that and only see the alter themselves, i think thats pretty neat. i hope you and everyone else is doing ok
I know this is a reuploaded video, but I just want to say that Omega was very brave for filming this. Thanks to all of you for being so vulnerable and honest to educate us about DID. You look beautiful with and without makeup, and I especially love your hair in this video. I wish the whole system the best and I'm glad you are getting these reuploaded despite the awful circumstances. Thank you guys so much!
That must have been horrible. It would be bad enough to have one near death experience, but to have to relive it over and over again. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
our friend accidentally triggers me out and I dont realise if he does it on purpose but it's very scary and this video represented or explained how i was formed really well- elixr
Thank you Omega and the entire system for being brave enough to make this video and tell your story/ stories. I truly hope the future holds a better life for you all because you all deserve it and so much more.
Omega is so sweet and sad and it kills me she seems so scared and anxious... Every single one of you deserves to be happy and I hope, no I know, you'll find it one day ❤ so much love to you all from a long time follower and I'm so happy to see these resurfacing!
For all the years that ive watched your videos im am really genuinely happy with the way your system works as a whole. All your alters are so helpful, informative and ready to take a stand as the host of a youtube video for the sake of knowledge and widening it. Thank you DissociaDID system for all the time and effort you put in all your youtube videos, i appreciate and respect what you do. Only love and respect. Keep safe. This really struck my heart on how she said that, "we're not dangerous, we're just trying to survive. we all just wanna be okay". Oof, my heart.
How does Omega know so much about DID? Did Chloe have to tell her everything after she was created, or did she have already have access to that knowledge because she split away from Chloe and all her memories and knowledge about how the system works? Even though it must have been so difficult to film, thank you for making such an insightful video that helps people like me without did understand you more 😊
Omega is a trauma holder, meaning they hold all the trauma that's happened to the body, the system and the host. I think that's who Omega is or their roll
@@theonionsystem7779 They have many trauma holders, not just Omega. She mainly holds that suicide attempt, and she said she got some other stuff too which she didn't go into. Jade's video about herself and gatekeepers in general explained about this kind of thing, but basically different alters hold different trauma. Being a trauma holder just means that they hold some trauma, as some alters don't carry any. Jade said she has some trauma of her own, but mainly her job is controlling what different alters remember/hold and holding back memories if necessary (if the alter can't cope with them). Ruby is a big trauma holder for the system - I think she carries a lot. Nina was the sexual protector and she held sexual trauma. She integrated with Chloe the host to make Nin, who holds most of Nina's memories although Jade (in the video referenced above) mentioned holding some memories back from her. Nin has integrated again now, and I don't know what Kya remembers/holds. So in summary, their trauma holders include Ruby, Omega, somewhat Jade, and Nina/Nin/now Kya. They've also talked vaguely about having several persecutors, and I believe persecutors are always trauma holders. One they've named is Demon. They also don't share information on their littles, but I think they've mentioned that some of them are trauma holders although I don't remember where. Maybe in the video about why they don't talk about their littles.
im pretty sure they all go to therapy, so the therapist comes in contact if not with all but with most alters and basically explains what everyones role is and how they can do it correctly in order to help the body, so most of the alters in systems are aware of what,how and why is happening.
we have ODSS but we don’t know if we are gunna tell anyone :/ We have had a lot of trauma and fit all the criteria for D.I.D. But we have less amnesia and usually are codependent, but we’ve been around for a couple months weirdly enough and like right now I’m Laila but Ash is also here so it isn’t really D.I.D. And honestly could just be me having an overactive imagination even tho but still it’s really scary and we don’t know what to do…
I hope Omega is doing alright. I remember when this video first came out I just wanted to hug her. She seems so sweet and smart and the way she kinda rocks and lifts around makes me view her as floating. She seems pretty cool
I dont think i have DID because I was bullied quite badly between ages 17-18 (lil too old). But for those 2 years my parents describe me as if I changed personality or lost my personality. Recently, my mom told me that I am “finally back”, after 5 years. It might just be a coping mechanism. I was such a positive and cheerful child growing up and became completely soft-spoken and apologetic for 2 years. Even after a year being removed from that situation, one small trigger can send me bawling and trembling in front of a wall, which was scary to me after I recovered from crying for 15min straight almost like disassociating myself from what just happened. I dont think I have forgotten the period between 17-18, but I did realise in recent months (doing so much better now) that I start to remember excruciating details that Ive forgotten. I always tried not to “unbox” the memories as much as possible because my dad will say that I am just holding onto the past and becoming pitiful (typical Asian father, he is a good dad but don’t really understand mental wellness) so i always try to push it down, but because i felt stronger recently I did try talk about it to my sis but sadly, it still proves to be too much. I am angry that I still have anger. I am at such a better place now and I have achieve so much more than what those people said I can only mount to. I dont know what to do. I guess I can live on but I really hate those episodes where I crumble especially when something triggers it and I am brought back to the ages of 17 and 18. But that happens maybe once every 3-4 months now. I didn’t know I will write this much haha Idk just felt like this channel will understand and validate these thoughts…because i know compared to a lot of ppl it isnt a big deal, i had a great childhood but because I chose to enter a highly competitive field to follow my dreams, i entered a playing field that is beyond my natural capabilities. I guess my biggest fear for myself is coming to a conclusion again that it is my fault that all these happened to me and that one day someone will convince me again that this is all in my head.
You're absolutely not scary! You are probably the strongest alter (I don't know everyone yet), because you had to experience the trauma over and over again. Respect to you
I find this description of the development of DID by Omega by far the most understandable and relatable from your videos that I have seen so far, for me as a person without DID. Great job. Thank you! 🙂 🧡
This is such an incredible channel! Also, there’s no need to apologise for not wearing makeup, do whatever you want! You guys look gorgeous without it all
Thank you for being so brave and making this! It really helped us understand our own dead alter and her situation, and from the bottom of our heart, thank you for still being here.
Everyone in the DissociaDID system is so brave and strong and such an inspiration. Huge thanks to omega for sharing her experience and please tell her and all the alters, in whatever way they present themselves, they are adored and supported by all of us. Lots of love and support to the system💜
i cant even express how much this video means to me... im so happy its back up thank you for this video for putting it up and for omega's making it it made me feel seen for the very first time
I have been watching the various DissociaDID videos for a while now. I do not have DID nor do I know anyone who does, but I am interested in the disorder and am learning so much. I am also just finding myself really caring for the alters of this system as I see them, and never more so than with Omega. I want to thank you Omega, for being so brave as to share the things that you did here. I'm very sorry that you have to carry the trauma's that you do, but also understand that you carry them so that other alters don't have to. As you said that trauma therapy is able to help, I hope that you have been able to find some healing and relief. My love to all of you. 🤗
I don't know how I got here, I was surfacing a whole different category prior but I am very happy to have found this channel. There's so much about DID that I never knew about and seeing the different alters honestly very heartwarming and fascinating at the same time. I'm definitely sticking around, new sub!
I'm so excited that this video is back! Omega is so strong and when I think of your channel this video always stands out in my mind. I think this is really inspiring.
It's just interesting to me how everyone who's experienced some trauma in the past is just so calm and polite feeling. As weird as it is, I think I'd like to get to know Omega (if they are still around, I know this is a reupload). I just want to give (her?) a big huge hug.
I have a best friend who I have been helping deal with all her trauma for a very long time and we just found out that she/they have DID . I am very thankful for these videos. I have learned so much about the disorder and the terminology. Thank you.
I've watched almost all of your videos because I am interested in learning about DID, and this is the first video I've watched that has made me want to cry and give you a hug and tell you things are going to be okay. I know a lot of people have probably already said this, but I'll just add one more person by saying, there are people who care about you. I don't really know you, but I've watched your journey on TH-cam and your struggles and I wish only the best for you and I care. You are very strong and I hope you succeed in everything you do.🙏💖🤗
I'm not an alter, but I had a very cathardic trauma related dream where I was a ghost watching my own death (which I interpret as a representation of childhood trauma) after I watched this video when it was first uploaded. So this one holds a special place in my heart and so does Omega 🖤. Hope everyone in DissociaDID is doing well 💫
Thankyou so much for putting these videos up again, - i can see that some if not all of this would be hard for you, and i really appreciate what you are doing- it helps me/us alot.
I love hearing from Omega. She seems very sweet and soft spoken and shaped like a friend :) I hope that she is having a good time and doing well these days. I wish for her to experience the feeling of a warm and gentle hug.
Honestly, thank you so much Omega for sharing this and helping people with and without DID (like myself) learn more about these experiences and these things that happen inside people with this disorder. It really does help people like myself learn so much more about this topic and makes people, like myself, want to educate others on this issue. I love this channel so much and I love you all and you guys are great when it comes to learn about DID. Wishing you all the best!
I wanna say omega (sorry if spelled wrong) is a very strong alter for someone who holds such trauma. Like the fact she did a whole video seems so brave especially sense she is a ghost altar and it must be uncomfortable feeling a real form body.
Thank you for sharing this Omega. Never feel your existence is a curse, you chose to share your experience and you've given something positive to the world with that choice. You may not be the one who smiles, and you didn't ask for this role, but you've turned your pain into a support for others. Very courageous and kind of you.
My friend has an alter who is a fictive of a will-o-wisp from Brave (the movie with the princess Merida) and they're nonverbal but they're so gentle, they like hugs and succulents and Celtic history! (Everyone calls it an "it" or use they/them sooo you can use whichever as they've never seemed upset by it!) It has no name but we occasionally call it Will! Super cool being! (Being is used as they're sentient but not human nor animal)
I've gotten consent to share why they exist! Its because when host (Aisia) was younger she felt as if people just used her to get to where they need to be and leave (like stepping stones in a river) and if you watch brave they lead her to the witches house! So yeah, also note from Asia ; ALSO WILL LIKES HARD ROCK MUSIC, IRONIC RIGHT! n e wayz BIYYYY (BYEEE)
I was hoping to see this one again! Especially since the other video with Omega in it was... less than great for them to put it lightly. I'm really hoping to see the "alters draw themselves" video make a return, but no worries if not. I'm just glad you guys are getting all these videos back!
I just want to say that you are incredibly brave Omega. You all are. Thank you for being here with us, you deserve everything good and beautiful in the world 💜
If Omega ever sees this, I hope they know that they are in fact not scary at all, and I think they seem very sweet! Keep doing what you are doing, its helping so many people 💛
omega is literally one of my favorite alters (no offense to the others). her grace and tact as well as her strength just radiates positivity and empowerment.
Im really glad this video is back up, it helped me come to terms with my own ghostly existence way back when i saw it the first time and its one i missed being able to come back and rewatch 😅 thankyou sincerely for sharing, we hope youre all doing ok -Kiara👻
I didn't realise how common DID was. I don't have it myself (as far as I'm aware) however I do have an anxiety disorder which has caused me to dissociate at times when it has gotten really difficult to handle. It's not something that happens often, as I tend to avoid putting myself into situations that may trigger it, so I wouldn't say that I have a dissociation related disorder, but I think it's interesting the amount of people who probably experience similar things don't realise what it is. From my own experience, it tends to be more of the 'watching myself doing something from outside of my body', which can be scary. This channel and other information has helped me to understand dissociation in general a lot more, so thank you.
I was didn't watch the video until this re-upload. I loved Omegas story and I hope they fell safe enough to come on the channel more. Love ur videos please don't stop.
I didn't think DID was that common so I went and searched up how common other disorders are and DID is as common as schizophrenia, OCD, etc. Then I searched up how common narcolepsy is, which is the sleep disorder I was diagnosed with, and it's estimated to affect 0.4% of people worldwide, which is staggering to me. My doctor told me I'm "like a unicorn", which I was like okay well I'm sure it's not THAT rare. I NEVER expected it to be even slightly more rare than DID. That being said though, if you have DID, my heart goes out to you and your system. I hope that you are learning ways to communicate with your alters and cope with your disorder as I am learning to cope with mine. Much love
Great video! Off-topic question, might've been answered before but I just discovered this channel. Does each identity/alter have a different room where they keep their personal stuff and do their own things?
As I understand it, every alter in this system has their own place/room in the inner world but I don't know if they each have their own room in the physical world
It is highly unlikely they each have their own rooms in the physical world. I know it was mentioned in the interview with Anthony, I'm not sure if it is mentioned on this channel, but they have around 22 alters in their system. They would need a full on Mansion to do that. However I know of a few systems that try to either make individual spaces, or they collaborate to make common spaces where several if not all alters can feel safe in. An example of what I mean, I know some systems will make a corner or cubby space full of stuffed animals and toys for the littles in their system, this is just like a corner of the bedroom or living room so that they can have a safe space when they front. Or if many members of the system are particularly into art, they might make an artist space/room so that many members are able to use it while fronting. I hope this helps! I don't have DID but this is some information I have learned from watching a few different channels for a while. In a smaller system it may be possible to have individual rooms, but I think most just try to optimize the space they have ☺️
Depends, each system is different and has different inner worlds, I think DissociaDID’s is a big house and I think there’s a forest too and some alters live in the forest like Omega I believe so it’s not strictly like each alter has its own room or anything, I think it’s just how the brain believes it best for the system to be safe at the time and most of it revolves around that, such as keeping trauma hidden away until it’s ready to be processed and stuff like that.
dear dissociaDID, you all are so brave. i can relate to the feelings chole felt. i’ve had a similar experience. i’m so thankful you all survived from this. these videos you all created has been more than helpful. i’ve been with you guys for about 5 years i believe. i can’t believe all you have been through because of your attempts to educate people. i regress due to personal trauma and i remember specifically one of your guy’s unboxing video where a little fronted due to a sparkly stuffie. my little self was so happy lol cause i thought “frend frend”. just thank everyone for making these videos. thank you kya for being strong. i miss nin, kyle, and chole, but i’m thrilled to welcome you kya. i hope you all have a wonderful year, with more to come. all my love, emma
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We have an alter who is a shadow. For awhile we never noticed her in the innerworld because our innerworld is dark and she blended in. We believe she may have formed because of emotional neglect we experienced, leaving us feeling unseen and like a shadow.
I hope you're okay now
@@rene3682 you can't really "cure" from DID, but i'm not sure if that's what you meant :] /srs
@@chemicallycalm5878 i think he means if you are handling that trauma better
@@djibouti2136 ah, i see.
I think the DissociaDID system also has a similar one, called 'dark' iirc
This breaks my heart, my Son has attempted suicide but has survived and is 40 this year. He was bullied at school because of severe dyslexia. Wishing all alters every blessing for a secure future
I've attempted so many times and 2 times at least last year I tried the hardest I have ever tried to end it all, but I can't even do it and I feel worse because of it. I want it all to end right now but I can't do it
@@theonionsystem7779 please do not give up!! You’re life is worth living! You’ll be so happy and accomplish so many things, you have a brilliant life ahead!! Stay strong, one second at time. Sending you so much love
I'm glad there's so many supportive people
as a dyslexic person who has SH before this rly resonated with me. I'm so glad he is still here!!
We've commented this before on the original video and it still stands;
Thank you from the bottom of our heart for making this video Omega. One of our littles has a very similar role/experience and seeing this video meant the world to them.
They now have been telling our partner about their "super cool gost friend" who is " just like me"
That’s so sweet of them!
that is a sweet thing, and i think its great for the little you talk about
That's really sweet!
That's so sweet!
that's so so sweet i can't
I thought DID was more rare. It breaks my heart knowing this is so common, especially considering how this disorder comes to be. I had a really difficult childhood, but my personality didn’t split, so I can’t imagine how much worse it would’ve had to be for this to occur. I send genuine blessings and positive energy to you all. I hope you find peace. Thank you for sharing your experiences.
i once heard a good metaphor for ptsd (content warning, it mentions drowning): whether you drown in three feet of water or three thousand feet, it doesn't change the fact that you're drowning. trauma is subjective, and what some people can escape relatively intact can severely effect someone else. it's just that everyone is different! so there's nothing saying your experiences weren't "as bad." your brain just coped differently.
@@kvothekingkiller9097 I completely agree! Trauma can be as simple as you tripped weird and in that moment it felt like you were gonna die. That's enough for some brains to get a trauma response disorder. What I was able to withstand may kill others and for others not leave a scratch.
It is still rare, it's just that even 1-2% of the world's population is still a lot of people. For DID to form you have to not only experience repeated trauma before the age of 7, but you also have to lack emotional connection with the primary caregiver(s) AND your mind has to be predisposed to it. Even if two children experience the same trauma, some brains are just incapable of splitting. It's actually more common for children to exposed to such trauma to be feral. As far as I'm aware, it's believed there's a genetic component involved, but it's not fully understood why people with extremely similar experiences to those with DID don't have it.
i'm not sure how much is the percentage, but we're talking about 8 billion people. it's basically 156 MILLION people with it.
@@kvothekingkiller9097 I have heard someone wise say, don't compare your trauma to others because it may seem like others trauma means more but it means a lot in your life. (Or something along those lines I don't remember the exact wording.
Omega's bravery for sharing this trauma touches my heart every time. I just wanna cuddle up and pet their hair till they fall asleep safe and warm ♥️
Omega seems so sweet. Not sure if she is still in the system but if she is I hope her experiences are more positive these days. She seems like a really calming presence.
Omega will always be in the system.
@@somethingtwice2297 it's not always like that, alters can integrate or go dormant. It's been a while since DissociDID was able to make content and we don't know how their system has changed. We could assume Omega is still active in system, but we can't really be sure
@@somethingtwice2297 the system has had many merges and integrations since last year. Even nin is no longer in the system as Nin but as kya now. DID never stays the same and alters are forever changing and merging. The comment was referencing the possibility that Omega may have merged or fused with another alter
@@elliottcomber5002 Oh, yeah, I misinterpreted the comment. It sounded like they were implying whether an alter could *die* as opposed to integrating or going dormant. My bad.
I think Omega will always be here as the role they play is one of the most important
Our system has a few ghost headmates. They were co-con while we were watching this, our headmates felt like Omega was speaking to them. It was very helpful seeing this. Thank you.
What is a headmate if you don’t mind me asking?
@@CowboyWizardsInc i think that's another term for alters
Yeah it is, some systems don’t like how medical it sounds
I don't see how anyone could view Omega as scary, they have such a sweet, smooth and soothing voice. Thank you for sharing this information on trauma and trauma holders and what the mind has to go through. Thank you for the education
This is so brave of Omega to front and talk about such a traumatic and horrible event, they are so strong and have endured a lot of pain for the others.
Hello Omega. My name is Reily and I’m a ghost too. I think you are very brave. Lots of love from Reilly (Denmark 🇩🇰)
Omega's voice is so soothing and soft-spoken, gives me ASMR vibes
As someone in a romantic relationship with someone with DID I appreciate so much being able to learn and try to better understand her experience and life. No two people are the same obviously but I appreciate you teaching the world.
We have an alter who is a combination of bird and ghost who is a trauma holder. This video really spoke to Casper, and I’m so grateful we could see it and show it to him
Edit: yes, he can talk in headspace and fly. his body is that of a human and bird combined, so the ghost part is of a human but the wings are fully developed. his human parts are see-through, his wings are not.
This may be personal and you don't have to answer but how does a bird work as an alter? Can they talk or fly while in the head space?
How exactly does he look like a bird and ghost? I like visuals, is he the ghost of a bird, or like feathery? Wings?
Simply commenting so I can get the notification when you answer the questions, I want to learn ^_^
@@creaturenamedalistair same
@@creaturenamedalistair same
Not wearing make up is not a problem, don´t worry about that :´D
And thank you for the info!! I understood it perfectly
Exactly! They’re beautiful without it anyway so there’s no need to enhance that at all!
I don't have DID, but I have C-PTSD and I swear to God I literally went zombie status and almost felt like I believe switching would feel watching this several times... It's so raw and I can remember feeling these things and going "zombie" a lot throughout my childhood. This is so heartbreaking yet so beautiful and educational all at once.
Just thank you so much
I don't have DID but I also have CPTSD and I get these zombie states too and am currently in one because you just try to numb out the trauma
@@transmaniandevil it's so true and it's such a weird feeling.... I never even knew these two were at ALL intertwined before watching these videos, but even without having DID they really do bring a lot of insight.
@@cancelthis3891 What you're describing sounds like dissociation. When DissociaDID switches she usually dissociates briefly, and of course dissociation is in the name of the disorder. But it's not the only disorder that involves dissociation, and CPTSD often includes it too.
ok this was 2 years ago but would u b able to give more info about cptsd cuz I'm still trying to find out whats happening with me. I have zombie like moments as well but I don't want to self diagnose but I would like to learn more
I am so happy the videos are coming back.
This was one of my favorites.
Hi, I'm Bennett and I'm 14. I've been watching your channel for a while now, and I just wanted to thank you guys. I have learned soo much about DID through you guys sharing your difficult and traumatic experience(s). And, even though I don't have DID, I think I can kinda, maybe understand everything. And I don't mean that I'll ever know what having DID or being in a system is like, but I think that it's cool that you guys have made a way to put in perspective. I hope you all the best and brightest this world has to offer.
Also, I know I don't know you guys, but you're really cool people and never forget that. :)
Dear Omega, as much as I would like to call you extremely brave and strong, I will not because I know that your system had no choice but to endure all of this trauma that resulted in your creation naturally. Instead, I will call you real and honest. Thank you for telling us about your experience. It was super informative.
omega seems very sweet and is great at explaining. I learned a lot.
It warms my heart to hear Omega speak. Omega is so unique and brave for opening up. Thank you for sharing your experience with the world
I'm in grad school and we learned about child maltreatment this week and in 2010 in the US 3.3 million reports were made to CPS. There are probably way more cases that dont get reported. I cant imagine how many kids go through trauma each year around the world.
Omega was so brave while making this video. I hope she is doing well and is taking care of herself. We love you Omega ❤️
Do dead or Ghost alters ever forget that the body needs to eat, drink, sleep, etc when they are outside and need to be reminded by other alters or people, or does that not happen?
Forget It, It was kinda answered(is this How you spell It?) at the end of the video
@@PauloRoberto-sq2gt old comment but yes, that’s how you spell answered
none of us (that i know of) are dead but we do have a lot of nonhumans who do experience that, or even can't eat when prompted because they just cannot register food as food
@@twinstarssystem2857 oh dear...that's so horrible.../gen
We have a alter and it’s name is Mod, at first we didn’t know who they were. It’s a protector it’s able confront people/bullies verbally. It’s the most mean alter we have, even to other alters in our system (other then littles). I’ve been told by my therapist it could have been formed because of past intense bullying. It has the memories of us being bullied (Mod goes by It/It’s). your videos have been very helpful for us to have a better understanding. We have OSDD, in the beginning we had no idea what it was or the roles of a alter ect and our higher up Ash started watching your videos and since she is a higher up it helped her sort everyone into the roles that she thought would be good for that alter. And the system overall. And she’s gone a amazing job.
i was looking for this video not so long ago, im so glad its back :) i find DID verry intreresting and its allso ineresting to see my own brain react to seeing different alters, like even though its allways the bodys face, the brain learns to ignore that and only see the alter themselves, i think thats pretty neat. i hope you and everyone else is doing ok
Thanks Omega. You helped my supernatural alter as well as the alters that survived NDEs from torture and combat as an adult.
I just found you today after I ended a mental health program. You are brave I respect you
I am so happy to see all of your content coming backup!
Omega is actually so sweet, this was very informative, thank you!
I know this is a reuploaded video, but I just want to say that Omega was very brave for filming this. Thanks to all of you for being so vulnerable and honest to educate us about DID. You look beautiful with and without makeup, and I especially love your hair in this video. I wish the whole system the best and I'm glad you are getting these reuploaded despite the awful circumstances. Thank you guys so much!
That must have been horrible. It would be bad enough to have one near death experience, but to have to relive it over and over again. I'm sorry you had to go through that.
I was looking for this video about twenty minutes ago! So glad it's reuploaded
Omega moves as if she’s floating up and down, also love this hair color and style 🥰
Thank you Omega for telling us about non human alters and how they are formed and how you came to be.
Such a shame they got taken down but I’m glad they’re back ❤️
our friend accidentally triggers me out and I dont realise if he does it on purpose but it's very scary and this video represented or explained how i was formed really well-
elixr
Thank you Omega and the entire system for being brave enough to make this video and tell your story/ stories. I truly hope the future holds a better life for you all because you all deserve it and so much more.
We’ve missed you Omega! 🤍
Omega is so sweet and sad and it kills me she seems so scared and anxious... Every single one of you deserves to be happy and I hope, no I know, you'll find it one day ❤ so much love to you all from a long time follower and I'm so happy to see these resurfacing!
For all the years that ive watched your videos im am really genuinely happy with the way your system works as a whole. All your alters are so helpful, informative and ready to take a stand as the host of a youtube video for the sake of knowledge and widening it. Thank you DissociaDID system for all the time and effort you put in all your youtube videos, i appreciate and respect what you do. Only love and respect. Keep safe.
This really struck my heart on how she said that, "we're not dangerous, we're just trying to survive. we all just wanna be okay". Oof, my heart.
I've never thought about this in this way thank you for educating
To mention something that you brought up at the beginning, I love the no makeup look. Absolutely stunning. :)
thank you omega for protecting your system and being so important. you and the other alters deserve all the praise in the world
How does Omega know so much about DID? Did Chloe have to tell her everything after she was created, or did she have already have access to that knowledge because she split away from Chloe and all her memories and knowledge about how the system works?
Even though it must have been so difficult to film, thank you for making such an insightful video that helps people like me without did understand you more 😊
Well she said she spit off in 2016, so I imagine they've all learned a lot since then.
Omega is a trauma holder, meaning they hold all the trauma that's happened to the body, the system and the host. I think that's who Omega is or their roll
@@theonionsystem7779 They have many trauma holders, not just Omega. She mainly holds that suicide attempt, and she said she got some other stuff too which she didn't go into. Jade's video about herself and gatekeepers in general explained about this kind of thing, but basically different alters hold different trauma. Being a trauma holder just means that they hold some trauma, as some alters don't carry any. Jade said she has some trauma of her own, but mainly her job is controlling what different alters remember/hold and holding back memories if necessary (if the alter can't cope with them). Ruby is a big trauma holder for the system - I think she carries a lot. Nina was the sexual protector and she held sexual trauma. She integrated with Chloe the host to make Nin, who holds most of Nina's memories although Jade (in the video referenced above) mentioned holding some memories back from her. Nin has integrated again now, and I don't know what Kya remembers/holds. So in summary, their trauma holders include Ruby, Omega, somewhat Jade, and Nina/Nin/now Kya. They've also talked vaguely about having several persecutors, and I believe persecutors are always trauma holders. One they've named is Demon. They also don't share information on their littles, but I think they've mentioned that some of them are trauma holders although I don't remember where. Maybe in the video about why they don't talk about their littles.
im pretty sure they all go to therapy, so the therapist comes in contact if not with all but with most alters and basically explains what everyones role is and how they can do it correctly in order to help the body, so most of the alters in systems are aware of what,how and why is happening.
@@conlon4332 it was mentioned in one of the video's (don't know which one anymore) that some of the littles hold trauma too
we have ODSS but we don’t know if we are gunna tell anyone :/ We have had a lot of trauma and fit all the criteria for D.I.D. But we have less amnesia and usually are codependent, but we’ve been around for a couple months weirdly enough and like right now I’m Laila but Ash is also here so it isn’t really D.I.D. And honestly could just be me having an overactive imagination even tho but still it’s really scary and we don’t know what to do…
I hope Omega is doing alright. I remember when this video first came out I just wanted to hug her. She seems so sweet and smart and the way she kinda rocks and lifts around makes me view her as floating. She seems pretty cool
I dont think i have DID because I was bullied quite badly between ages 17-18 (lil too old). But for those 2 years my parents describe me as if I changed personality or lost my personality. Recently, my mom told me that I am “finally back”, after 5 years. It might just be a coping mechanism. I was such a positive and cheerful child growing up and became completely soft-spoken and apologetic for 2 years. Even after a year being removed from that situation, one small trigger can send me bawling and trembling in front of a wall, which was scary to me after I recovered from crying for 15min straight almost like disassociating myself from what just happened. I dont think I have forgotten the period between 17-18, but I did realise in recent months (doing so much better now) that I start to remember excruciating details that Ive forgotten. I always tried not to “unbox” the memories as much as possible because my dad will say that I am just holding onto the past and becoming pitiful (typical Asian father, he is a good dad but don’t really understand mental wellness) so i always try to push it down, but because i felt stronger recently I did try talk about it to my sis but sadly, it still proves to be too much. I am angry that I still have anger. I am at such a better place now and I have achieve so much more than what those people said I can only mount to. I dont know what to do. I guess I can live on but I really hate those episodes where I crumble especially when something triggers it and I am brought back to the ages of 17 and 18. But that happens maybe once every 3-4 months now. I didn’t know I will write this much haha Idk just felt like this channel will understand and validate these thoughts…because i know compared to a lot of ppl it isnt a big deal, i had a great childhood but because I chose to enter a highly competitive field to follow my dreams, i entered a playing field that is beyond my natural capabilities. I guess my biggest fear for myself is coming to a conclusion again that it is my fault that all these happened to me and that one day someone will convince me again that this is all in my head.
You're absolutely not scary! You are probably the strongest alter (I don't know everyone yet), because you had to experience the trauma over and over again. Respect to you
All my love to omega!!! 💜
I noticed Omega moves in a very “floaty” way which is really interesting given that she’s a ghost
I MISSED OMEGA’S VIDEO SO MUCH
I find this description of the development of DID by Omega by far the most understandable and relatable from your videos that I have seen so far, for me as a person without DID. Great job. Thank you! 🙂 🧡
This is such an incredible channel!
Also, there’s no need to apologise for not wearing makeup, do whatever you want! You guys look gorgeous without it all
Thank you for being so brave and making this! It really helped us understand our own dead alter and her situation, and from the bottom of our heart, thank you for still being here.
Everyone in the DissociaDID system is so brave and strong and such an inspiration. Huge thanks to omega for sharing her experience and please tell her and all the alters, in whatever way they present themselves, they are adored and supported by all of us. Lots of love and support to the system💜
Omega, wow. You have a tough job. Good thing the others found you! Thank you for your explanations. You explained the topic very good.
i cant even express how much this video means to me... im so happy its back up thank you for this video for putting it up and for omega's making it it made me feel seen for the very first time
I have been watching the various DissociaDID videos for a while now. I do not have DID nor do I know anyone who does, but I am interested in the disorder and am learning so much. I am also just finding myself really caring for the alters of this system as I see them, and never more so than with Omega. I want to thank you Omega, for being so brave as to share the things that you did here. I'm very sorry that you have to carry the trauma's that you do, but also understand that you carry them so that other alters don't have to. As you said that trauma therapy is able to help, I hope that you have been able to find some healing and relief. My love to all of you. 🤗
I don't know how I got here, I was surfacing a whole different category prior but I am very happy to have found this channel. There's so much about DID that I never knew about and seeing the different alters honestly very heartwarming and fascinating at the same time. I'm definitely sticking around, new sub!
I'm so excited that this video is back! Omega is so strong and when I think of your channel this video always stands out in my mind. I think this is really inspiring.
maybe that guy was a blessing in disguise bc i feel like these videos will get even more attention that it deserves
It's just interesting to me how everyone who's experienced some trauma in the past is just so calm and polite feeling. As weird as it is, I think I'd like to get to know Omega (if they are still around, I know this is a reupload). I just want to give (her?) a big huge hug.
I have a best friend who I have been helping deal with all her trauma for a very long time and we just found out that she/they have DID . I am very thankful for these videos. I have learned so much about the disorder and the terminology. Thank you.
I missed this one the first time round. Very glad it’s been reuploaded
You look a little bit like Auri from The Kingkiller Chronicles
im so glad this video is back, i relate to omega so much 🥺
I've watched almost all of your videos because I am interested in learning about DID, and this is the first video I've watched that has made me want to cry and give you a hug and tell you things are going to be okay. I know a lot of people have probably already said this, but I'll just add one more person by saying, there are people who care about you. I don't really know you, but I've watched your journey on TH-cam and your struggles and I wish only the best for you and I care. You are very strong and I hope you succeed in everything you do.🙏💖🤗
Omega is so incredibly brave and wise. Truly inspirational. And I really did miss these videos and I’m so happy to see all the videos back💕
I'm not an alter, but I had a very cathardic trauma related dream where I was a ghost watching my own death (which I interpret as a representation of childhood trauma) after I watched this video when it was first uploaded. So this one holds a special place in my heart and so does Omega 🖤. Hope everyone in DissociaDID is doing well 💫
YES! We needed this one!!! Thank you!
-Julieta
Sweet little Omega. I hope you are doing well!
Thankyou so much for putting these videos up again, - i can see that some if not all of this would be hard for you, and i really appreciate what you are doing- it helps me/us alot.
I was almost in tears and wanted to hug Omega, so brave. I feel for the system and am greatful to be able to learn from their videos.
I love hearing from Omega. She seems very sweet and soft spoken and shaped like a friend :) I hope that she is having a good time and doing well these days. I wish for her to experience the feeling of a warm and gentle hug.
Honestly, thank you so much Omega for sharing this and helping people with and without DID (like myself) learn more about these experiences and these things that happen inside people with this disorder. It really does help people like myself learn so much more about this topic and makes people, like myself, want to educate others on this issue. I love this channel so much and I love you all and you guys are great when it comes to learn about DID. Wishing you all the best!
hearing that some people think they are demonic just makes me incredibly sad!
I wanna say omega (sorry if spelled wrong) is a very strong alter for someone who holds such trauma. Like the fact she did a whole video seems so brave especially sense she is a ghost altar and it must be uncomfortable feeling a real form body.
I don't have DID but watching your videos helped me learn about my own traumas.
Omega you're so sweet and gentle! Anyone who views you as different is just silly, bless your heart.
Thank you for sharing this Omega. Never feel your existence is a curse, you chose to share your experience and you've given something positive to the world with that choice. You may not be the one who smiles, and you didn't ask for this role, but you've turned your pain into a support for others. Very courageous and kind of you.
My friend has an alter who is a fictive of a will-o-wisp from Brave (the movie with the princess Merida) and they're nonverbal but they're so gentle, they like hugs and succulents and Celtic history! (Everyone calls it an "it" or use they/them sooo you can use whichever as they've never seemed upset by it!) It has no name but we occasionally call it Will! Super cool being! (Being is used as they're sentient but not human nor animal)
I've gotten consent to share why they exist! Its because when host (Aisia) was younger she felt as if people just used her to get to where they need to be and leave (like stepping stones in a river) and if you watch brave they lead her to the witches house! So yeah, also note from Asia ; ALSO WILL LIKES HARD ROCK MUSIC, IRONIC RIGHT! n e wayz BIYYYY (BYEEE)
I really don't know if this dissorder is really exist.
I'm still speechless right now. Completely mindblowed.
I was hoping to see this one again! Especially since the other video with Omega in it was... less than great for them to put it lightly.
I'm really hoping to see the "alters draw themselves" video make a return, but no worries if not. I'm just glad you guys are getting all these videos back!
I just want to say that you are incredibly brave Omega. You all are. Thank you for being here with us, you deserve everything good and beautiful in the world 💜
If Omega ever sees this, I hope they know that they are in fact not scary at all, and I think they seem very sweet! Keep doing what you are doing, its helping so many people 💛
omega is literally one of my favorite alters (no offense to the others). her grace and tact as well as her strength just radiates positivity and empowerment.
OMEGA IS SO CUTE! i hope they recovered from the "letter" incident
Im really glad this video is back up, it helped me come to terms with my own ghostly existence way back when i saw it the first time and its one i missed being able to come back and rewatch 😅
thankyou sincerely for sharing, we hope youre all doing ok -Kiara👻
Omega I don't know if your going to read this but you are the sweetest lil' spook around and we all love you 💗
I didn't realise how common DID was. I don't have it myself (as far as I'm aware) however I do have an anxiety disorder which has caused me to dissociate at times when it has gotten really difficult to handle. It's not something that happens often, as I tend to avoid putting myself into situations that may trigger it, so I wouldn't say that I have a dissociation related disorder, but I think it's interesting the amount of people who probably experience similar things don't realise what it is. From my own experience, it tends to be more of the 'watching myself doing something from outside of my body', which can be scary. This channel and other information has helped me to understand dissociation in general a lot more, so thank you.
All my love and support goes out to you and your system, I hope you all are doing well : )
I was didn't watch the video until this re-upload. I loved Omegas story and I hope they fell safe enough to come on the channel more. Love ur videos please don't stop.
Thank you Omega for coming forward and educate us! You're beautiful!
I didn't think DID was that common so I went and searched up how common other disorders are and DID is as common as schizophrenia, OCD, etc. Then I searched up how common narcolepsy is, which is the sleep disorder I was diagnosed with, and it's estimated to affect 0.4% of people worldwide, which is staggering to me. My doctor told me I'm "like a unicorn", which I was like okay well I'm sure it's not THAT rare. I NEVER expected it to be even slightly more rare than DID. That being said though, if you have DID, my heart goes out to you and your system. I hope that you are learning ways to communicate with your alters and cope with your disorder as I am learning to cope with mine. Much love
We love you Omega, thank you for making this video 💜!
Side note, I love your hair, the color is very beautiful
I was just looking for this video the other day. Omega, you are beautiful and fascinating. Thanks for reposting!
I salute Omega for your courage in speaking up on your situation. I am very much proud to all of you! God bless your content. Applause 👏
seeing all these vids come back is amazing, I'm so happy to see them popping up again!
Great video! Off-topic question, might've been answered before but I just discovered this channel. Does each identity/alter have a different room where they keep their personal stuff and do their own things?
Most of them. Not everyone. At least in this system. I'm not them but i knew the answer from a video that was on previously
As I understand it, every alter in this system has their own place/room in the inner world but I don't know if they each have their own room in the physical world
@@chris5415 yeah, I've heard them talk about their house in the inner world, but I'm really wondering what it's like in the physical world.
It is highly unlikely they each have their own rooms in the physical world. I know it was mentioned in the interview with Anthony, I'm not sure if it is mentioned on this channel, but they have around 22 alters in their system. They would need a full on Mansion to do that. However I know of a few systems that try to either make individual spaces, or they collaborate to make common spaces where several if not all alters can feel safe in.
An example of what I mean, I know some systems will make a corner or cubby space full of stuffed animals and toys for the littles in their system, this is just like a corner of the bedroom or living room so that they can have a safe space when they front. Or if many members of the system are particularly into art, they might make an artist space/room so that many members are able to use it while fronting.
I hope this helps! I don't have DID but this is some information I have learned from watching a few different channels for a while. In a smaller system it may be possible to have individual rooms, but I think most just try to optimize the space they have ☺️
Depends, each system is different and has different inner worlds, I think DissociaDID’s is a big house and I think there’s a forest too and some alters live in the forest like Omega I believe so it’s not strictly like each alter has its own room or anything, I think it’s just how the brain believes it best for the system to be safe at the time and most of it revolves around that, such as keeping trauma hidden away until it’s ready to be processed and stuff like that.
dear dissociaDID,
you all are so brave. i can relate to the feelings chole felt. i’ve had a similar experience. i’m so thankful you all survived from this. these videos you all created has been more than helpful. i’ve been with you guys for about 5 years i believe. i can’t believe all you have been through because of your attempts to educate people. i regress due to personal trauma and i remember specifically one of your guy’s unboxing video where a little fronted due to a sparkly stuffie. my little self was so happy lol cause i thought “frend frend”. just thank everyone for making these videos. thank you kya for being strong. i miss nin, kyle, and chole, but i’m thrilled to welcome you kya. i hope you all have a wonderful year, with more to come.
all my love,
emma
this video will always be extremely powerful, Omega is incredibly brave and smart, i hope they’re doing alright