I needed to hear that last sentence. It's written overtop of my "reasons you are not allowed to disappear" sheet above my computer screen. Every day, one of the reasons I was forcing myself to live goes away - new anime seasons premiere finally, new music comes out, new books come out and I read them. But that one won't go away no matter how long I wait. And hopefully, we'll all be able to use kinder language to tell ourselves this one day.
Alright so I had some pretty severe depression a few years back, and yes, things like anime, music, games, all that can really get you to the next day, but to fully heal you gotta look past that. After I started therapy I genuinely started loving the stuff I used to hate, like walking the dog, modern art, long lines, parking too far away, and I really just started to see things from a new perspective. I love making my dog smile, I love breaking my brain around a blank canvas, I love the anticipation and that excited buzz feeling, I love getting those extra steps in when I can. I know that just getting to the next day is all it seems like, but trust me, once the wounds really start to close you love EVERYTHING!!! I dont even take drugs!!!!
@@JohnLuke-Uh i think it is wrong for US to prescribe drug for everything. many times people aree suffering cus of the circumstances they are in, the lack of support they have from familiees and friends etc. and they need to love themselves and heal their inner child perhaps to fix the problem. mental illness isnt something can be cured by drug.
Porter really knows how to engage with both himself and the viewers within his songs/visuals. There has never been an instance where Porter feels/shows disinterest in his projects. He is always pouring his heart and soul into them 🥹
My overdose was so peaceful; I sat down with extreme fatigue intending to go to sleep, then laid my head against the wall and died. I felt no pain or anguish, I was finally at peace; but, it wasn't my time. I'm one of the rarest persons alive; I lost the battle to suicide and through the efforts of others was allowed to come back to life. I was dead for nearly 7 minutes. Taking that first breath was like being born again, I immediately started crying and then things slowly came back to me: my name first, then the name of the person that rescued me. By the time I was in the back of the ambulance I could remember the year and who was President at the time. My life both ended and restarted that day, but it left me with an important reminder that the fight is always worth fighting.
you deserve it dude, your Nurture mix (and your other mixes too) are so fucking amazing. ive listened to Nurture and Good Faith mix at least over 50 times each im not joking
It's almost 1 AM now in my country. I just scrolled my youtube and suddenly this video appeared despite the fact that it just uploaded like 10 minutes ago and even though the song sounds so funky but i still cried from the lyrics especially the bridge part and im in my worst state and shape rn and this song just gave me some hopes to continue my life. Thank you.
This album is a chapter from Porter Robinson's diary in song form and it leaves you crying, feeling nostalgic, being kinder to yourself and others, like you need to call your mom and ends with a song that feels like a hug that tells you its going to be okay. That life is hard but you're going to do great things if you don't give up.
I just found out that my cousin killed himself last night. My brother in law attempted on Sunday. I've lost friends, and other family members have attempted. I used to be suicidal a few years ago. I wish I was there to help. I wish I knew they weren't alright. I want to send this song to everyone.
This is awful.... My condoleances!! Be careful about yourself first too please, these events can be triggering even later in life... I wish you and your close ones all the best going through the storm...
hey man my cousin also killed himself about 2 weeks ago. i learned while i was in ireland. it's the worst feeling in the world to wonder what you could've done different to save them, but know you're not alone
I made the mistake of adding this song to my playlist without listening to it first. It came on during my drive to work. At the 2nd verse I was like "what are these lyrics lmao, idk how to feel about new Porter" but I kept listening and focusing on the lyrics. By the time I got to work, I was a sobbing mess, and I still am every time I play this song 🥹 As someone who's been depressed for so long and has made multiple attempts, this song is so powerful. Thank you so much Porter, you're right. I want to live, I don't want to die ❤
I'm a fairly new fan here, everything goes on brought me in, I cried so much listening to that song I was having a difficult time and it helped me heal and this is the second time a Porter Robinson song made me cry, thank you Porter Robinson your music truly hits in a way very few musicians can.
4:38 I wanna kiss my cat one more time That's the greatest impact for me and I started crying when I heard that part. I had a cat when I was in highschool, it was one of the darkest times of my life and every time I feel sad and crying alone, that cat would always come to me and lay in my lap so I would be comforted. She's not the same like other cats who only care about you when feeding time or if you accidentally step on her she would not scratch you she would just cry so that's how sweet that cat is. Years later I had to move from my home in the province to go the city so I can work and send myself to college. I didn't have my own place to keep her so she stayed with my family. I never got a chance to say goodbye to my cat when it died. I never had another cat ever since then. I'm already 32 and until now whenever I play games related to having pet cats like pokemon and monster hunter. I always named it kutingting my cat's name. The little love I felt from my cat stayed with my heart forever. I miss my cat so much. I really wish I could kiss and hug my cat one more time. Thank you Porter for creating such beautiful music
in absolutely miserable post surgery recovery right now, this has been the one thing holding me together all day. thank you thank you thank you so so so so so much
this is gonna get buried but i just want to drop in to say how much this song means to me. i was in a really bad place back in high school and this song just reminds me of all the reasons i decided to stay, and makes me glad that i did. thank you for making your music so meaningful and i hope to keep listening for many years to come
I think my life was just saved...I really thought about it yesterday and this morning. Things are just so hard and the pressure is tough with my mother. But I think I'll go on a bit longer thank you, Porter
I don't usually comment on any piece of media, but I think it's necessary that I do here. Even if you might never read this comment, I need to express my gratitude for this song. I've been going through a really rough month, and I can't help but want to give up. This song gave me some hope amidst all the mess that is my life right now, so thank you. Thank you, Porter, for using your art in a way that gives hope to so many; I've seen a few comments expressing the same sentiment. Thank you. We love you. ♡
I wasn’t sure about this song at first, but every time I listen it it grows on me more and more. It’s working its way up in my head, now it’s one of my favorites 🎵
For the past year and a half I've been really battling with my mental health, including two such lows I considered taking my life. I even cut myself last time, but changed my mind. This song had me bawling. It's so raw and vulnerable and really speaks to me. I'm trying to make changes to my life and pull myself out of this hole and I will see Porter in real life for the Smile Tour and so will hang in there. Love to all who've read this xxx
I was so worried until the halfway mark I’ve lost a loved one to the exact method, though not by the roulette. And…hearing the message at the end had me tearing up . It gets better. But it will never be better if we aren’t around to make it so.
Thank you Porter. Being famous in any capacity is more of a curse than most of us would know, and while I can see you're grateful, you also suffer deeply and it's lonely and every mistake or misstep or even perceived flaw is dissected 1000 ways. Thank you for giving us the music you have, and for processing through this in a way we can all see. I'm sorry you've suffered like this. Always do what you need to do and there will be people who support it. As another aside, thank you for your music tip shorts. They've helped tremendously. Whatever you do from here you've already given us so much. Like you said, it's strange to say we love you or that you love us when our relationship is so parasocial but it's still a kind of love.
Please, make sure your friends know how much you care about them. Not just once or a few times, but every time you see them. Let them know how often you think of them. Let them know the hole in your life they would leave if they were gone. Don't pressure them to stay, show them a space that they belong too without effort. I almost lost the battle myself, but now I can sing along and proudly say, truthfully, "I wanna live, I don’t wanna die". It's hard, and it doesn't always feel that way, but it's progress.
The amount of yurucamp in this video makes it extremely cozy: 0:31 Shima Rin appears 0:46 Shima Rin pretends she doesn't like the song 2:24 Shima RIn tries her best 2:32 Shima Rin hides in a forest of characters 3:22 Shima Rin is still in a forest 4:28 Shima Rin is looking for phone 5:04 Shima Rin wants to live 5:22 Shima Rin thinks about death 5:27 Shima Rin decides life's still better
I think... This song was a breaking point for me. I don't come from the same background as Porter (I make Team Fortress 2 videos!!! At least, I used to, once upon a time), but the very first time I heard Shelter, something clicked. I didn't even want to follow Porter all that much, quite frankly I didn't really care, but _something_ about Shelter was just so captivating to me. Things have been really confusing for me. In spite of all of my greatest accomplishments, I hated myself. This is something... That I just couldn't ever think about, so I've decided to lock this dreaded thought away into a tight little lockbox and try to make others feel good to make myself feel better. I think deep down, I'm a prideful person, you bet my ass I'm proud of all the things I did. Off the top of my head, I: 1. Type with two fingers and reach 110+ WPM 2. Self-taught myself 3D animation with Source Filmmaker 3. Won the Team Fortress 2 Saxxy Awards on multiple occasions 4. Got multiple taunt animations into Team Fortress 2 5. Learned to draw fairly decently by watching a few tutorials 6. Got a two-year degree despite my abysmal prioritization skills 7. You know what? Let's not clutter the list. The point is, Porter saved my life. Most artists I've listened to just never understood me as much as him (Honorable mentions: Vylet Pony, YonKaGor, and Kennyoung). I just didn't _get_ some of the songs in these albums (Nurture and Smile :D specifically), I saw it as quite happy/bittersweet actually. I never knew what I was actually feeling, because I just thought Porter was talking about his girlfriend or something (I was SOOOO wrong, sorry, Porter! If you ever read this!). Most, if not all of these songs are Porter's inner thoughts, it's a message of self-love! Porter is a truly kind person. While I'm not as famous as Porter, I've always been seen as the kid with a bright future ahead of him, with my brothers being the slackers. This messed me up so much, my brothers did not deserve that. In short: A Child Prodigy. I remember being in elementary school and was confused by everything, falling asleep in class, punished by harsh methods when I didn't do well, sent to the English Second Language (ESL) class despite English being my first language. All my school experiences pointed to me being a dumb kid, so I believed it, and I've been masking what I've been feeling inside this whole time. I've gone all these years bottling up my feelings and I thought I was quite healthy; my blood tests say that I am. But I think back at who I used to be. I used to be so full of energy, I wanted to play in the snow, I wanted to hug my mom and dad before sleeping every day in the same room as my brothers, I wanted to hop into the Skype call and chat 24/7, I wanted to share my light with the world. I wanted everyone to just... not worry. It's been this way for 5 years, when Covid began in 2019, I didn't want to go to school because I didn't want to catch Covid. I think I was just lying to myself because I reeeeally didn't want to go back to school. This was always weird to me, because there is one thing I remembered, "You know, Jordan, you could be a very bright kid if you just applied yourself," says my high school junior year 11th grade physics teacher, Mr. O'Dell. That really stuck with me, but I didn't believe him. I went this whole time being passively suicidal, and I, for the life of me, did not know it. I wanted to disappear peacefully, but I didn't want to take that step, someone else has to do it for me. That is such a crazy thought, what the hell was I thinking XDDD??? It's hilarious just how far off I was. It was clearly a cry for help. I don't remember much of Fairly Oddparents, but one episode had Timmy wishing he were never born to see how much worse everything was for his loved ones. Much to his surprise, everyone was better off without him. I was kind of jealous. That's when I realized something was off. I've learned a lot about myself. I'm a people pleaser, I barely cared for myself, and it was often that I wanted to make others comfortable that I'd take steps to improve. So, when everyone is so unhappy when they're around me, something just feels wrong. In my head, I know they are my friends, I know they wouldn't pass judgement towards me. So why couldn't I do it? It's because I judged myself. I've been projecting for so long, just criticizing the things I saw in myself in other people. I am a melting pot of my loved ones, and like Porter says, the clichés are true. There was a time my brother and I didn't get along, because he pushed me away as he hung out with his friends, so I pushed him away because he didn't want anything to do with me. When he tried to make amends, I wanted nothing to do with him either. He got so fed up with my behavior because he was willing to change, but I wasn't. One day, my brother just straight up tells me, "Just don't kill yourself someday, okay?" I was like, "haha, okay but I'm not suicidal." That robot voice in Russian Roulette hit me so hard. Was I really that bitter of a child? Do you know what the weirdest part is? I didn't feel much after he said that to me. I think I subconsciously agreed with him, and since then, my body has been trying its best to protect itself. Despite that, it had a huge impact on me as a person. After that day, I took the steps to repair the relationship me and my brother once had when we were young and learned to never hold grudges. We get along super well today. I am under no delusion; I know I am important to my friends and family, and they would be devastated if I were to disappear. Fortunately, they are also very important to me, which pushes me to keep going forward, in spite of my darkest thoughts. I have a lot going on for myself: I have a family that cares for me, my friends are some of the sweetest people I know, I live in a nice house, comfy bed, and I've been able to achieve great things. So why do I feel so empty? When Get Your Wish came out, I listened to that on repeat over and over, and I thought, since I wasn't famous, I can't really relate. What? Who cares about fame? You are going through the exact same thing... The pressure has been weighing on you since you were a child, you do not see yourself the same way, you simply just listen and understand. This thought process is just so weird, and I didn't actually get it. I made a very big discovery, I 100% have ADHD. My brother was diagnosed with it, my cousin was diagnosed with it, my mom definitely has it, and my other cousin no doubt in my mind also has it. As I've learned more and more about the subject, things have just kinda been clicking into place. When I was a kid, I didn't want to believe I had ADHD, but all of the signs were there. Media has convinced me that people with neurodivergence was lazy, and I hated seeing myself that way, so I convinced myself that I was someone that I was not. ADHD does not mean you're lazy, you just can't turn what you feel in your heart into action. I've done so many impressive things, how can I call myself lazy? It was a paradox! This whole time I was just analyzing what other people do and tried to follow suit! It's amazing what the brain can do! I understand why people say to protect the children. Why protect the children? I'd love to have my life end early, that would be awesome! Or so I thought. Now that I see the truth, I can understand why children are prioritized in a life-threatening situation. When you end a child's life, you rob them of the opportunity to grow as a person and experience new things. It just FEELS SO GOOD TO CARE, I FINALLY FEEL ALIIIIIIVE!!!!!! P.S. I ʟᴇᴀʀɴᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪs ғʀᴏᴍ Aᴛᴛᴀᴄᴋ Oɴ Tɪᴛᴀɴ, ɪᴛ's ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀɴ ᴀɴɪᴍᴇ, ɪᴛ's PIECK!!!! I can finally say that I'm happy. I know who I am, and I know what I feel. I respect myself now. I can now let myself laugh at jokes even if no one else finds it funny, I can yap to my mom, I can forget things and just say, "no big deal, it'll come to you." It has been such a liberating and humbling experience. I have Porter to thank for planting the seed, this has been a long time coming. Everyone deserves to love themselves; we are all special in our own way, just take your time! 😛
incredibly inspirational story. thank you so much for sharing, sincerely :D. i kinda feel motivated and happy. I'm in the dark mindset where u were too... so glad porter has influenced in that positive way for you
This is the first time I've gotten to listen in earnest to a Porter Robinson song I haven't heard before while not driving and actually paying attention to the lyrics-- I sobbed, hugged my partner, told them I love them, and sobbed some more while listening to it with them. Instant favourite and classic. Thank you🙏✨
I picked up smoking during a time of my life when I really didn't care if it killed me. I won't say this song is what singlehandedly caused me to quit, but it definitely wasn't nothing. I don't wanna die.
This is one of the coolest music videos I have ever seen, I love this concept. The notes of the instrumental riff are a nice touch, and I really love the images speeding up during the bridge.
This lyric video is so creatively stunning and conceptually interesting. I really love the vibes of the new album and cannot wait until we have the whole thing so I can’t sit with your message from start to finish.
This song made me realise I lost my dad to attempted suicide 20 years ago. Afterwards he attempted 3 more times. He’s still alive today but he is not the same. I am 31 now. I wish I could thank him for giving me life and being my dad during my early childhood but he is not the dad I once knew, and I cannot thank him due to his continued depression. He does not smile and struggles to feel anything at all. I was able to put distance between him and myself by moving to the other side of the world, since then we speak multiple times per week. We just saw each other after 2 years apart and vacationed together, it was a nightmare as he has the emotional mind of a 6 year old. I said goodbye to him today at the airport, who knows when we will see each other again. I hope it is not the last time, but as I wrote, the part of him who I loved is already gone. I am so happy I have a beautiful baby daughter, a powerful and lovely woman by my side, the best doggy, successful career and a great bunch of in-laws. Thank you for this song. Hours of deep feelings.
Your art, your echos, are synchronized with my inspirations and dreams. I can't express enough how much they have affected me, how much they mean to me too. Thank you Porter Robinson.
“I want to thank my dad one more time” hits me hard. RiP Dad 11/27/1949 - 11/20/2017 #ColonCancerSucks Life is short. Make sure you tell the people you love how much you love them. You may not have tomorrow. Sometimes “later” becomes “too late”.
The more I think about it, I realize that Smile is an album dedicated to the fans, both supporting and opposing his music. The comments here fit both of those boxes, but in it I feel that Porter realizes his true strength is grounded in his art, his family, and the people that decided to give his music a chance. Thank you Porter, I hope one day I can make music that can help you as well.
Your music always seems to find me at the right time and say the right things in the right way. I can't explain what a relief I felt after "maybe this time I won't be alright" and "I wanna try to change one more time" set something right in my head that just wasn't connecting on its own, like there's now a point in moving forward instead of just throwing my life away because I've fucked it all up. Bringing yourself so close to ending everything that you forget why you've come to this point and realize how much good is left that you can't just let go of. Maybe this time I will be alright.
This lyric video reminds me of a japanese artist called *Luna, who every year makes a new version of her song "Someday in that Summer" -or "If Summer is calling us" this year- and that video always has a lot of short videos from people who listen to her across the world, always living the last day of summer to the fullest and giving a glipse of it in the video. I really like this type of video where the song mix with the life of the people who hear it, thank you for it Porter Robinson!
I was at the concert in NC a few days ago. This song was so impactful for me, and the concert as a whole was amazing. I am so glad I was able to make it, and take my brother with me. Thank you for making music.
Something about Porter Robinson just speaks to me. These new releases are hitting very different this time. I had a stroke and massive seizure at the beginning of this year. One moment I was talking to my now ex on the couch.The next I was waking up on the ground surrounded by paramedics and my boyfriend trying to tell me what was going on. It felt like my chest was going to explode and I remember feeling terrified. I couldn't talk, I couldn't stand, I didn't know where I was, what day it was, or what my name was, and I kept fading in and out of conciousness. It wasn't until a few days later I fully understood that I had in fact died. My partner didn't know what to do when I seized so I choked to death on my own spit. Allegidly the paramedics said that if they didn't arrive when they did I would have been too far gone to be saved. I didn't know, I didn't feel a thing. I just was on the couch and everything dissapeared. Ironically last year i attempted suicide but failed. By some miracle when I actually did die, I was revived. Not by choice, but it gave me a new perspective on life. Learning how to walk and talk again properly plus the permanant damage I have because of how long I went without oxygen in a weird way makes me happy to be alive. My words don't flow as easily as they used to. My brain doesn't work as well as it did. My motor skills are lacking but at the end of the day I was given another chance to be the uncle, brother, and son that I know I can be. Over this last year I lost my home, my partner of 7 years, my will to live, and then my life. I really thought things would be better if they ended but clearly there's a reason I'm still here. In some way, this music really speaks to me. My sister first showed me Porter Robinson back in 2015 and his music has had a profound impact on me that I really can't explain. Every song has an odd feeling of nostolgia, pain, and hope that really makes things feel better. It feels like someone knows exactly how to make me feel calm and confident. Thank you Porter. I don't know if this will ever actually be read by you but from a fan of nearly 10 years, what you do matters. You have such an incredibly positive impact on the lives of your fans and mine. You have at least one fan for life right here, sitting in the shadows I know you still see me - CD❤
Hey Porter, I'm from Indonesia. I fell in love with your 'Nurture' album and this song. Thank you. You always make my day, Porter. Thank you for sending this song. I'm waiting your next song again. Love from Indonesia 🇮🇩🇮🇩
I was driving back home to Chicago from a Detroit work trip and I was so tired from working the day before then I stumbled on this video. I cried my eyes out on the highway while the sun was rising. There’s a lot of darkness in this life and this world but Porter always seems to remind me that there’s just as much beauty and hope. Life is beautiful in all its pains. Keep pushing through the bad and you will find purpose and meaning to this existence
My brother suffered from depression and had a lot of medical issues. Ultimately, I think his body eventually gave up on his spirit. This song makes me think of what my brother still wanted to do with his life. There was so much he wanted to inprove once he left the hospital. But he spent nearly six months in hospital. Only going home for a couple days. Im just glad that me and my mom got to say goodbye. As heartbreaking and sudden it was because he seemed to be getting so much better. I miss you brother.
This song has had such a weird effect on me. I loved it from the start, then around the third time I heard it I got emotional at the end. Then the next few listens I started crying towards the end, and now I'm crying at the beginning of the song. Something about this song makes me so emotional, the sincerity, the fun, joy and sadness. I think this is one of the best Porter Robinson songs we will ever get, I love this so much!
I don't usually comment on music-focused TH-cam videos, but I HAD to make an exception for this one - such a creative take on the typical lyric video! My only regret is the lack of varied typefaces across the vid - but that may be my old head from a more ancient Internet talking... maybe an assessment of how the Internet became more centralised (and sanitised?) as time went on? Kudos to Darcy Milne for pulling this off! This made my evening =)
I’m not gonna lie, Porter. I listened to Worlds constantly for like months in 2015, didn’t listen to Nurture at all when it came out, and was too drunk to appreciate it during Secret Sky even though it was the best show I’d ever been to (VR beat IRL EZ clap). Then when I heard Perfect Pinterest Garden early in October, I was like ‘who am I even listening to, wtf happened.’? Fast forward, I completely forgot I had ordered tickets to your Portland Halloween show in like April, and had a guaranteed shitty work day on Nov 1st. I almost didn’t go and was miserable until you got on stage. Then you got on stage. You have come so far dude. Your shows feel personal and special, and I’ll never forget that experience. I respect you so much more now as an artist. I went back through your discography and I realized how much I can relate to some of your experiences. I want to thank you for doing what you do. You changed my perspective on a lot of things, and I want to share your music with others. Never forget that you help others.
I loved this lyric video!! It was almost like a fan edit!! the references were fun to pick out! Its like life is coming full loop in the musical world of porter!
Just got back home from the Pittssburgh show and I'm just so happy i went. I've been a fan since I heard Language forever ago but I've never had a chance to make it to a live show. So many different versions of me have been fans of Porter and a whole bunch of them never thought I'd be standing here today. Maybe the things that are eating at me today will feel better in the future too. Sincerely, thank you for your music. I don't know you but you've certainly done a lot for me.
Didn't come out in time for my friend to see it but what a banger indeed, keep it up dude. Listened to Look at the Sky a million times when you first showed it in an online show during quarantine and it helped me get through tough times
spending the whole song in this constant negativity, praising death like it's some sort of escape that is too commonly accepted as a solution for everything... just to slowly realize that maybe you DO want to live after all.. it's beautiful
I have always been a person who adapts to life. However, it has been a hard year. I lost my kitten and my dog, I face lawsuits for meaningless family lawsuits, I haven't seen my mother for 20 years, she died and my father and I are struggling to get ahead. However, it has been very heavy and I have wanted to give up. But 12 days ago on 10/11/24 in Los Angeles I fulfilled my dream of being at a Porter Robinson concert, I am from Mexico and for years I have wanted to see him live, I traveled to achieve that goal. When I was there I knew it was all worth it. Thank you Porter. Then I close my eyes Gamble with my life trying not to smile Maybe this time I won't be alright Maybe this time . I wanna see my mom one more time I wanna play my songs one more time I wanna lose my phone one more time I wanna play in the snow one more time I wanna kiss my cat one more time I wanna thank my dad one more time I wanna marry her one more time I wanna live i don't want die I wanna try to change one more time I wanna live i don't wanna die I wanna live i don't wanna die I wanna live
“SMILE! :D” is out now !! porterrobinson.co/SMILE
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Might be weird to say cause I'm just a fan, but proud of how far you've come. Thank you for all the great music 😆
Best album of the year 💋✨👑❣️
Chronically online porter discord members currently pausing on every beat of the song to see if they made it into the video
bro I’m talking about gooning at 0:30 😭😭
I totally would, didn't know there was a discord though :v
@@localjazz HAHAHAHAHA
Never know Porter has a Discord server.
@@WindyFitrian I think it’s linked to the Reddit as well, not sure
Bro casually dropped the greatest lyric video of all time on a random Thursday
Feliz jueves
He really did frfr
are you in this vid ?
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0:32 THAT'S ME THAT'S ME THAT'S ME (Chloe)
THANK YOU PORTER 🥺🥺
My life is on russian roulette now
hey i wanna be in the next one!
I needed to hear that last sentence. It's written overtop of my "reasons you are not allowed to disappear" sheet above my computer screen. Every day, one of the reasons I was forcing myself to live goes away - new anime seasons premiere finally, new music comes out, new books come out and I read them. But that one won't go away no matter how long I wait. And hopefully, we'll all be able to use kinder language to tell ourselves this one day.
i need to post from porter robinson writes out 'reasons you are not allowed to disappear'
Alright so I had some pretty severe depression a few years back, and yes, things like anime, music, games, all that can really get you to the next day, but to fully heal you gotta look past that. After I started therapy I genuinely started loving the stuff I used to hate, like walking the dog, modern art, long lines, parking too far away, and I really just started to see things from a new perspective. I love making my dog smile, I love breaking my brain around a blank canvas, I love the anticipation and that excited buzz feeling, I love getting those extra steps in when I can. I know that just getting to the next day is all it seems like, but trust me, once the wounds really start to close you love EVERYTHING!!! I dont even take drugs!!!!
@@JohnLuke-Uh i think it is wrong for US to prescribe drug for everything. many times people aree suffering cus of the circumstances they are in, the lack of support they have from familiees and friends etc. and they need to love themselves and heal their inner child perhaps to fix the problem. mental illness isnt something can be cured by drug.
This might be the most interesting and unique lyric video I’ve ever seen
this is true
unique? probably not
but I like it
@@parafuegosarchive How is this not unique?
It’s pretty creative, you need to have a lot of material to pull from, especially since at least half of the words are taken from his youtube comments
It's absolutely genius.
"crying in the party rave" type shit and i love every second of it. thanks for this Porter 🖤✨
Best way to describe this. Cryin in the clubbb
I love how he still includes some of his Worlds visuals
Nurture too! Its cool how he references himself
He's so Julia
@@Greybell charli and porter collab would go so hard
Remember where you came from
@@kowal2486omg yes
サムネが「自分を殺すなよ、馬鹿だな」なの本当にポーターからの愛を感じる、どこまでも寄り添ってくれる、どこまでも優しくていちばん近くて遠い人、本当に美しい曲
Why are Porter Robinson visuals always just so effortlessly captivating?
most of them aren't effortless, certainly not this one either
Dude's a freaking genius. I'm more amazed at how he conceives the ideas than the execution itself. Just brilliant
Porter really knows how to engage with both himself and the viewers within his songs/visuals. There has never been an instance where Porter feels/shows disinterest in his projects. He is always pouring his heart and soul into them 🥹
they're so good!! nurture tour visuals were insaneee
I love his art direction!!
I'm both ready and not ready to sing "I wanna live, I don't wanna die" at the top of my lungs with y'all at a live show.
Bro right I'm sure it's going to be a moment
Its actually going to be life changing
My eyes will for sure be sweating.
Oh the tears will be flowin
This was me August 31st, NYC! getting the chance to scream the lyrics to this song along with the crowd will always be one of my core memories 💖
My overdose was so peaceful; I sat down with extreme fatigue intending to go to sleep, then laid my head against the wall and died. I felt no pain or anguish, I was finally at peace; but, it wasn't my time. I'm one of the rarest persons alive; I lost the battle to suicide and through the efforts of others was allowed to come back to life. I was dead for nearly 7 minutes. Taking that first breath was like being born again, I immediately started crying and then things slowly came back to me: my name first, then the name of the person that rescued me. By the time I was in the back of the ambulance I could remember the year and who was President at the time. My life both ended and restarted that day, but it left me with an important reminder that the fight is always worth fighting.
I’m so glad you made it 💜
im so so happy youre still here
thank you for sharing
I'm so happy you made it! Much love
This is just too much, in the best way possible, I WANNA LIVE, I DONT WANT TO DIE
0:44 PORTER
2:38 I HAVE NO WORDS
PORTERRRRRRRRRRRRRR
you deserve it dude, your Nurture mix (and your other mixes too) are so fucking amazing. ive listened to Nurture and Good Faith mix at least over 50 times each im not joking
DISTANTSTAR IN PORTER MUSIC VIDEO LETS GOOOOOOOOOO 🎉🥳🥳‼️‼️‼️🗣️
YESSSSS LETS GOOOO
We love to see it
Man you totally deserve it, Happy for you!
It's almost 1 AM now in my country. I just scrolled my youtube and suddenly this video appeared despite the fact that it just uploaded like 10 minutes ago and even though the song sounds so funky but i still cried from the lyrics especially the bridge part and im in my worst state and shape rn and this song just gave me some hopes to continue my life. Thank you.
Pardon my poor English
Don't give up. The future always holds the unknown.
Are you perhaps living near 114.25° longitude?
Maybe china, russia or indonesia
@@s.a.t4779 yep, it's indonesia. Why do you ask?
This album is a chapter from Porter Robinson's diary in song form and it leaves you crying, feeling nostalgic, being kinder to yourself and others, like you need to call your mom and ends with a song that feels like a hug that tells you its going to be okay. That life is hard but you're going to do great things if you don't give up.
Love how much _Trying to Feel Alive_ shows up here--easily one of Porter's best songs, if not his absolute best.
Facts
yes this is just so perfect
Yeah Trying to Feel Alive is definitely a good one. But this one, wow. Very mid.
That song is definitely great. But it's also definitely not in his top 5 songs though (beat by Something Comforting, Shelter, Get Your Wish, etc)
I just found out that my cousin killed himself last night. My brother in law attempted on Sunday. I've lost friends, and other family members have attempted. I used to be suicidal a few years ago. I wish I was there to help. I wish I knew they weren't alright. I want to send this song to everyone.
This is awful.... My condoleances!! Be careful about yourself first too please, these events can be triggering even later in life... I wish you and your close ones all the best going through the storm...
my condolences, stay safe and strong and let music like this guide you. much love
best wishes
hey man my cousin also killed himself about 2 weeks ago. i learned while i was in ireland. it's the worst feeling in the world to wonder what you could've done different to save them, but know you're not alone
Womp womp 😂
2:18 "who is this lesbian? oh it's Porter Robinson"😂😂
I PAUSED RIGHT ON IT AFTER READING YOUR COMMENT LMAOO!!🤣
A Lebanon?
Lmfaooooooooooooi love the selections he/his team made hahaha
lmaoo
2:34
Absolutely insane editing. The planning and execution that went into this should not be overlooked. Respect
it's so fking good
i love how for every single lyric video porter has a different distinctive style that’s captivating in all the best ways
I made the mistake of adding this song to my playlist without listening to it first. It came on during my drive to work. At the 2nd verse I was like "what are these lyrics lmao, idk how to feel about new Porter" but I kept listening and focusing on the lyrics. By the time I got to work, I was a sobbing mess, and I still am every time I play this song 🥹
As someone who's been depressed for so long and has made multiple attempts, this song is so powerful. Thank you so much Porter, you're right. I want to live, I don't want to die ❤
Funny monkey
I'm a fairly new fan here, everything goes on brought me in, I cried so much listening to that song I was having a difficult time and it helped me heal and this is the second time a Porter Robinson song made me cry, thank you Porter Robinson your music truly hits in a way very few musicians can.
4:38 I wanna kiss my cat one more time
That's the greatest impact for me and I started crying when I heard that part.
I had a cat when I was in highschool, it was one of the darkest times of my life and every time I feel sad and crying alone, that cat would always come to me and lay in my lap so I would be comforted. She's not the same like other cats who only care about you when feeding time or if you accidentally step on her she would not scratch you she would just cry so that's how sweet that cat is. Years later I had to move from my home in the province to go the city so I can work and send myself to college. I didn't have my own place to keep her so she stayed with my family. I never got a chance to say goodbye to my cat when it died. I never had another cat ever since then.
I'm already 32 and until now whenever I play games related to having pet cats like pokemon and monster hunter. I always named it kutingting my cat's name. The little love I felt from my cat stayed with my heart forever. I miss my cat so much. I really wish I could kiss and hug my cat one more time.
Thank you Porter for creating such beautiful music
Me too I love my cat ✋ 😭
Kiss your gf
Good
I kiss my gf
either am i
天才すぎる
インターネットの孤独を癒すような映像と歌詞
本当にありがとう
Thank you!
that last part got me, I'm not ready to cry, you saved another life right here, thanks man appreciated.
in absolutely miserable post surgery recovery right now, this has been the one thing holding me together all day. thank you thank you thank you so so so so so much
Oof, been there! I hope you have a smooth recovery
wishing you the best
Best of luck🍀Listening to this music, you can have the premium version: Port surgery recovery
ちょくちょく日本語が散りばめられていて、日本人として凄く嬉しい
this is gonna get buried but i just want to drop in to say how much this song means to me. i was in a really bad place back in high school and this song just reminds me of all the reasons i decided to stay, and makes me glad that i did. thank you for making your music so meaningful and i hope to keep listening for many years to come
ありがとう
ポーター、あなたが生きたいように生きていけていますように
MY FRIENDS ARE IN THIS VIDEO YIPPEE!!!
actually the coolest lyric video of all time omg i love this
Hello! 0:34
Sati Akura Squad here
Squad?
Yyeeeyyy
👍
СЛОНИХА
Porter fans are really eating good this year
A whole buffet
i cant wait for :D concert
A 10 course meal 😂❤
“A bad guy just died, they’re making memes about it.”
That insurance CEO’s body wasn’t even cold yet this week and people were making jokes.
I think my life was just saved...I really thought about it yesterday and this morning. Things are just so hard and the pressure is tough with my mother.
But I think I'll go on a bit longer
thank you, Porter
You've got this, keep going, keep going
It'll all be okay in the end :]
Hang in there… -Zack Faire
hang in thereee ! it gets better
Like this song say at the end "don't k1ll yourself you 1diot
Seek help please, esp with your mother!! This is your life, you gotta fight for it 😢 Find people who want to listen to you!!
I don't usually comment on any piece of media, but I think it's necessary that I do here. Even if you might never read this comment, I need to express my gratitude for this song.
I've been going through a really rough month, and I can't help but want to give up.
This song gave me some hope amidst all the mess that is my life right now, so thank you.
Thank you, Porter, for using your art in a way that gives hope to so many; I've seen a few comments expressing the same sentiment.
Thank you. We love you. ♡
I wasn’t sure about this song at first, but every time I listen it it grows on me more and more. It’s working its way up in my head, now it’s one of my favorites 🎵
agree reminds me of this is the song I made from fat pies ridicules BBC.
4:13 mannn i always get this lump in my throat everytime i listen to this song and it gets to this part 🥹
4:52 IM THERE LIKE HALF CUT OFF LMAO
THERE I AM GARY, THERE I AM
Same 😭
songs
Where
not me sobbing into a box at work, happy we're all still here. we're not alone
This is probably the best lyric video I've ever seen. My GOD. So inventive and creative.
This could be the most reWATCHED Porter's MV/LV. Every frame of it is an easter egg
Honestly we need the whole team on this right now
For the past year and a half I've been really battling with my mental health, including two such lows I considered taking my life. I even cut myself last time, but changed my mind.
This song had me bawling. It's so raw and vulnerable and really speaks to me.
I'm trying to make changes to my life and pull myself out of this hole and I will see Porter in real life for the Smile Tour and so will hang in there.
Love to all who've read this xxx
Love to you too ❤
Everything will be alright
❤ :)
There are many difficult times, but your music and live shows are what keep me going. I'll be waiting for you in Japan. ありがとう
This lyric video is so unique, creatively talented!!! Big massive props for the amount of patience and effort into making it a video sensation!!
I was so worried until the halfway mark
I’ve lost a loved one to the exact method, though not by the roulette. And…hearing the message at the end had me tearing up .
It gets better. But it will never be better if we aren’t around to make it so.
Thank you Porter. Being famous in any capacity is more of a curse than most of us would know, and while I can see you're grateful, you also suffer deeply and it's lonely and every mistake or misstep or even perceived flaw is dissected 1000 ways. Thank you for giving us the music you have, and for processing through this in a way we can all see. I'm sorry you've suffered like this. Always do what you need to do and there will be people who support it.
As another aside, thank you for your music tip shorts. They've helped tremendously. Whatever you do from here you've already given us so much.
Like you said, it's strange to say we love you or that you love us when our relationship is so parasocial but it's still a kind of love.
Please, make sure your friends know how much you care about them. Not just once or a few times, but every time you see them. Let them know how often you think of them. Let them know the hole in your life they would leave if they were gone. Don't pressure them to stay, show them a space that they belong too without effort.
I almost lost the battle myself, but now I can sing along and proudly say, truthfully, "I wanna live, I don’t wanna die". It's hard, and it doesn't always feel that way, but it's progress.
2:07 "When you're happy, you enjoy the music. When you're sad, you understand the lyrics."
pitchfork Jet - Shine On review
The amount of yurucamp in this video makes it extremely cozy:
0:31 Shima Rin appears
0:46 Shima Rin pretends she doesn't like the song
2:24 Shima RIn tries her best
2:32 Shima Rin hides in a forest of characters
3:22 Shima Rin is still in a forest
4:28 Shima Rin is looking for phone
5:04 Shima Rin wants to live
5:22 Shima Rin thinks about death
5:27 Shima Rin decides life's still better
no way
@@alefouau this is the way
Can you translate what you said into not chronically online plz I don’t understand
@@krusher181just someone with a Yuru Camp profile pic in the video
Thank you for representing Yuru Camp
Man, I see stuff like this, and I always wonder how people can be so creative. This is such a cool lyric video
5:39 love this part, makes me wanna do the rock and roll pose, hands in the air while headbanging like a madman
I think... This song was a breaking point for me. I don't come from the same background as Porter (I make Team Fortress 2 videos!!! At least, I used to, once upon a time), but the very first time I heard Shelter, something clicked. I didn't even want to follow Porter all that much, quite frankly I didn't really care, but _something_ about Shelter was just so captivating to me. Things have been really confusing for me. In spite of all of my greatest accomplishments, I hated myself. This is something... That I just couldn't ever think about, so I've decided to lock this dreaded thought away into a tight little lockbox and try to make others feel good to make myself feel better. I think deep down, I'm a prideful person, you bet my ass I'm proud of all the things I did. Off the top of my head, I:
1. Type with two fingers and reach 110+ WPM
2. Self-taught myself 3D animation with Source Filmmaker
3. Won the Team Fortress 2 Saxxy Awards on multiple occasions
4. Got multiple taunt animations into Team Fortress 2
5. Learned to draw fairly decently by watching a few tutorials
6. Got a two-year degree despite my abysmal prioritization skills
7. You know what? Let's not clutter the list.
The point is, Porter saved my life. Most artists I've listened to just never understood me as much as him (Honorable mentions: Vylet Pony, YonKaGor, and Kennyoung). I just didn't _get_ some of the songs in these albums (Nurture and Smile :D specifically), I saw it as quite happy/bittersweet actually. I never knew what I was actually feeling, because I just thought Porter was talking about his girlfriend or something (I was SOOOO wrong, sorry, Porter! If you ever read this!). Most, if not all of these songs are Porter's inner thoughts, it's a message of self-love! Porter is a truly kind person.
While I'm not as famous as Porter, I've always been seen as the kid with a bright future ahead of him, with my brothers being the slackers. This messed me up so much, my brothers did not deserve that. In short: A Child Prodigy. I remember being in elementary school and was confused by everything, falling asleep in class, punished by harsh methods when I didn't do well, sent to the English Second Language (ESL) class despite English being my first language. All my school experiences pointed to me being a dumb kid, so I believed it, and I've been masking what I've been feeling inside this whole time.
I've gone all these years bottling up my feelings and I thought I was quite healthy; my blood tests say that I am. But I think back at who I used to be. I used to be so full of energy, I wanted to play in the snow, I wanted to hug my mom and dad before sleeping every day in the same room as my brothers, I wanted to hop into the Skype call and chat 24/7, I wanted to share my light with the world. I wanted everyone to just... not worry. It's been this way for 5 years, when Covid began in 2019, I didn't want to go to school because I didn't want to catch Covid. I think I was just lying to myself because I reeeeally didn't want to go back to school. This was always weird to me, because there is one thing I remembered, "You know, Jordan, you could be a very bright kid if you just applied yourself," says my high school junior year 11th grade physics teacher, Mr. O'Dell. That really stuck with me, but I didn't believe him.
I went this whole time being passively suicidal, and I, for the life of me, did not know it. I wanted to disappear peacefully, but I didn't want to take that step, someone else has to do it for me. That is such a crazy thought, what the hell was I thinking XDDD??? It's hilarious just how far off I was. It was clearly a cry for help. I don't remember much of Fairly Oddparents, but one episode had Timmy wishing he were never born to see how much worse everything was for his loved ones. Much to his surprise, everyone was better off without him. I was kind of jealous. That's when I realized something was off.
I've learned a lot about myself. I'm a people pleaser, I barely cared for myself, and it was often that I wanted to make others comfortable that I'd take steps to improve. So, when everyone is so unhappy when they're around me, something just feels wrong. In my head, I know they are my friends, I know they wouldn't pass judgement towards me. So why couldn't I do it? It's because I judged myself. I've been projecting for so long, just criticizing the things I saw in myself in other people. I am a melting pot of my loved ones, and like Porter says, the clichés are true.
There was a time my brother and I didn't get along, because he pushed me away as he hung out with his friends, so I pushed him away because he didn't want anything to do with me. When he tried to make amends, I wanted nothing to do with him either. He got so fed up with my behavior because he was willing to change, but I wasn't. One day, my brother just straight up tells me, "Just don't kill yourself someday, okay?" I was like, "haha, okay but I'm not suicidal." That robot voice in Russian Roulette hit me so hard. Was I really that bitter of a child?
Do you know what the weirdest part is? I didn't feel much after he said that to me. I think I subconsciously agreed with him, and since then, my body has been trying its best to protect itself. Despite that, it had a huge impact on me as a person. After that day, I took the steps to repair the relationship me and my brother once had when we were young and learned to never hold grudges. We get along super well today. I am under no delusion; I know I am important to my friends and family, and they would be devastated if I were to disappear. Fortunately, they are also very important to me, which pushes me to keep going forward, in spite of my darkest thoughts.
I have a lot going on for myself: I have a family that cares for me, my friends are some of the sweetest people I know, I live in a nice house, comfy bed, and I've been able to achieve great things. So why do I feel so empty? When Get Your Wish came out, I listened to that on repeat over and over, and I thought, since I wasn't famous, I can't really relate. What? Who cares about fame? You are going through the exact same thing... The pressure has been weighing on you since you were a child, you do not see yourself the same way, you simply just listen and understand. This thought process is just so weird, and I didn't actually get it. I made a very big discovery, I 100% have ADHD. My brother was diagnosed with it, my cousin was diagnosed with it, my mom definitely has it, and my other cousin no doubt in my mind also has it. As I've learned more and more about the subject, things have just kinda been clicking into place.
When I was a kid, I didn't want to believe I had ADHD, but all of the signs were there. Media has convinced me that people with neurodivergence was lazy, and I hated seeing myself that way, so I convinced myself that I was someone that I was not. ADHD does not mean you're lazy, you just can't turn what you feel in your heart into action. I've done so many impressive things, how can I call myself lazy? It was a paradox! This whole time I was just analyzing what other people do and tried to follow suit! It's amazing what the brain can do!
I understand why people say to protect the children. Why protect the children? I'd love to have my life end early, that would be awesome! Or so I thought. Now that I see the truth, I can understand why children are prioritized in a life-threatening situation. When you end a child's life, you rob them of the opportunity to grow as a person and experience new things. It just FEELS SO GOOD TO CARE, I FINALLY FEEL ALIIIIIIVE!!!!!!
P.S. I ʟᴇᴀʀɴᴇᴅ ᴛʜɪs ғʀᴏᴍ Aᴛᴛᴀᴄᴋ Oɴ Tɪᴛᴀɴ, ɪᴛ's ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀɴ ᴀɴɪᴍᴇ, ɪᴛ's PIECK!!!!
I can finally say that I'm happy. I know who I am, and I know what I feel. I respect myself now. I can now let myself laugh at jokes even if no one else finds it funny, I can yap to my mom, I can forget things and just say, "no big deal, it'll come to you." It has been such a liberating and humbling experience. I have Porter to thank for planting the seed, this has been a long time coming. Everyone deserves to love themselves; we are all special in our own way, just take your time! 😛
incredibly inspirational story. thank you so much for sharing, sincerely :D. i kinda feel motivated and happy. I'm in the dark mindset where u were too... so glad porter has influenced in that positive way for you
I'm impressed at how fantastically edited this is and how clever the idea is, never mind how well it ties into the thematics of the song.
This is the first time I've gotten to listen in earnest to a Porter Robinson song I haven't heard before while not driving and actually paying attention to the lyrics-- I sobbed, hugged my partner, told them I love them, and sobbed some more while listening to it with them.
Instant favourite and classic. Thank you🙏✨
This thumbnail may have saved me tonight. Thank you thank you thank you
You can't just drop this banger of a song on a random day, then a week later drop the most banging music video for it ever?
PORTER YOU'VE BLESSED US
I picked up smoking during a time of my life when I really didn't care if it killed me. I won't say this song is what singlehandedly caused me to quit, but it definitely wasn't nothing. I don't wanna die.
0:59 is me :> Thanks porter and thank you to the editor, I feel like I'm a part of history now
This is one of the coolest music videos I have ever seen, I love this concept. The notes of the instrumental riff are a nice touch, and I really love the images speeding up during the bridge.
0:41 seeing this tweet after all those years made me cry
Skrillex😭
2:28 woooooow thanks Porter, that’s my “Least Streamed to *Most* Streamed” video on you, craaazy ❤️❤️
This lyric video is so creatively stunning and conceptually interesting. I really love the vibes of the new album and cannot wait until we have the whole thing so I can’t sit with your message from start to finish.
This song made me realise I lost my dad to attempted suicide 20 years ago. Afterwards he attempted 3 more times. He’s still alive today but he is not the same. I am 31 now. I wish I could thank him for giving me life and being my dad during my early childhood but he is not the dad I once knew, and I cannot thank him due to his continued depression. He does not smile and struggles to feel anything at all.
I was able to put distance between him and myself by moving to the other side of the world, since then we speak multiple times per week. We just saw each other after 2 years apart and vacationed together, it was a nightmare as he has the emotional mind of a 6 year old.
I said goodbye to him today at the airport, who knows when we will see each other again. I hope it is not the last time, but as I wrote, the part of him who I loved is already gone.
I am so happy I have a beautiful baby daughter, a powerful and lovely woman by my side, the best doggy, successful career and a great bunch of in-laws.
Thank you for this song. Hours of deep feelings.
4:11 losing my mom recently has been the hardest thing ever and hearing this live has helped me through a lot
Thanks Porter 🖤🖤
Your art, your echos, are synchronized with my inspirations and dreams.
I can't express enough how much they have affected me, how much they mean to me too.
Thank you Porter Robinson.
“I want to thank my dad one more time” hits me hard. RiP Dad 11/27/1949 - 11/20/2017 #ColonCancerSucks
Life is short. Make sure you tell the people you love how much you love them. You may not have tomorrow. Sometimes “later” becomes “too late”.
The more I think about it, I realize that Smile is an album dedicated to the fans, both supporting and opposing his music. The comments here fit both of those boxes, but in it I feel that Porter realizes his true strength is grounded in his art, his family, and the people that decided to give his music a chance. Thank you Porter, I hope one day I can make music that can help you as well.
Your music always seems to find me at the right time and say the right things in the right way. I can't explain what a relief I felt after "maybe this time I won't be alright" and "I wanna try to change one more time" set something right in my head that just wasn't connecting on its own, like there's now a point in moving forward instead of just throwing my life away because I've fucked it all up. Bringing yourself so close to ending everything that you forget why you've come to this point and realize how much good is left that you can't just let go of. Maybe this time I will be alright.
Amen.
the Chorus is so beautifully done.
this concert single-handedly restored my will to live. Thank you for reminding there is joy in this world :,)
This lyric video reminds me of a japanese artist called *Luna, who every year makes a new version of her song "Someday in that Summer" -or "If Summer is calling us" this year- and that video always has a lot of short videos from people who listen to her across the world, always living the last day of summer to the fullest and giving a glipse of it in the video.
I really like this type of video where the song mix with the life of the people who hear it, thank you for it Porter Robinson!
I was at the concert in NC a few days ago. This song was so impactful for me, and the concert as a whole was amazing. I am so glad I was able to make it, and take my brother with me. Thank you for making music.
Something about Porter Robinson just speaks to me. These new releases are hitting very different this time. I had a stroke and massive seizure at the beginning of this year. One moment I was talking to my now ex on the couch.The next I was waking up on the ground surrounded by paramedics and my boyfriend trying to tell me what was going on. It felt like my chest was going to explode and I remember feeling terrified.
I couldn't talk, I couldn't stand, I didn't know where I was, what day it was, or what my name was, and I kept fading in and out of conciousness. It wasn't until a few days later I fully understood that I had in fact died. My partner didn't know what to do when I seized so I choked to death on my own spit. Allegidly the paramedics said that if they didn't arrive when they did I would have been too far gone to be saved.
I didn't know, I didn't feel a thing. I just was on the couch and everything dissapeared. Ironically last year i attempted suicide but failed. By some miracle when I actually did die, I was revived. Not by choice, but it gave me a new perspective on life. Learning how to walk and talk again properly plus the permanant damage I have because of how long I went without oxygen in a weird way makes me happy to be alive. My words don't flow as easily as they used to. My brain doesn't work as well as it did. My motor skills are lacking but at the end of the day I was given another chance to be the uncle, brother, and son that I know I can be.
Over this last year I lost my home, my partner of 7 years, my will to live, and then my life. I really thought things would be better if they ended but clearly there's a reason I'm still here. In some way, this music really speaks to me. My sister first showed me Porter Robinson back in 2015 and his music has had a profound impact on me that I really can't explain. Every song has an odd feeling of nostolgia, pain, and hope that really makes things feel better. It feels like someone knows exactly how to make me feel calm and confident.
Thank you Porter. I don't know if this will ever actually be read by you but from a fan of nearly 10 years, what you do matters. You have such an incredibly positive impact on the lives of your fans and mine. You have at least one fan for life right here, sitting in the shadows I know you still see me - CD❤
LITERALLY TEARS ON MY EYES, THANKS AGAIN PORTER ROBINSON FOR CHANGING MY LIFE
4:40 let's kiss dude
- porter 2014
lmao and still owning it
Him and Dillon must have explored their bodies
Bring back Spoon Ü
do you think you're gonna remix any of his new songs? your musician remix was one of my favorite songs of last year after I discovered it
@@randomalyzer4055 thank you so much!! yea I will eventually remix one of his new tracks
Thank you for reminding me why I want to be here, Porter.
Hey Porter, I'm from Indonesia. I fell in love with your 'Nurture' album and this song. Thank you. You always make my day, Porter. Thank you for sending this song. I'm waiting your next song again. Love from Indonesia 🇮🇩🇮🇩
I was driving back home to Chicago from a Detroit work trip and I was so tired from working the day before then I stumbled on this video. I cried my eyes out on the highway while the sun was rising. There’s a lot of darkness in this life and this world but Porter always seems to remind me that there’s just as much beauty and hope. Life is beautiful in all its pains. Keep pushing through the bad and you will find purpose and meaning to this existence
Thanks man. Didn't know that I needed to hear this till you made it. It's beautiful, like lots of things you make.
I think this is the most original lyrics video i've seen in a really long time. Thanks, Porter, for this, and for everything.
My brother suffered from depression and had a lot of medical issues. Ultimately, I think his body eventually gave up on his spirit. This song makes me think of what my brother still wanted to do with his life. There was so much he wanted to inprove once he left the hospital. But he spent nearly six months in hospital. Only going home for a couple days.
Im just glad that me and my mom got to say goodbye. As heartbreaking and sudden it was because he seemed to be getting so much better.
I miss you brother.
This song has had such a weird effect on me. I loved it from the start, then around the third time I heard it I got emotional at the end. Then the next few listens I started crying towards the end, and now I'm crying at the beginning of the song. Something about this song makes me so emotional, the sincerity, the fun, joy and sadness. I think this is one of the best Porter Robinson songs we will ever get, I love this so much!
Huge W for Darcy for making this video! Crazy effort put into this!
Too good, Porter is always like "I am fulfilling your dreams, come reach me!" and man its inspiring, idk if he knows how many people he has inspired.
'Come reach me' makes me emotional :')
5:56 I can't believe Porter did a featuring with Radiohead's "Fitter, Happier" voice
im so honored to be apart of this lmao 2:22
I don't usually comment on music-focused TH-cam videos, but I HAD to make an exception for this one - such a creative take on the typical lyric video!
My only regret is the lack of varied typefaces across the vid - but that may be my old head from a more ancient Internet talking... maybe an assessment of how the Internet became more centralised (and sanitised?) as time went on?
Kudos to Darcy Milne for pulling this off! This made my evening =)
I am so obsessed of how this lyrics video turns out. The song was incredible too, I love the creativity, it's playful and magical 👏
I’m not gonna lie, Porter.
I listened to Worlds constantly for like months in 2015, didn’t listen to Nurture at all when it came out, and was too drunk to appreciate it during Secret Sky even though it was the best show I’d ever been to (VR beat IRL EZ clap).
Then when I heard Perfect Pinterest Garden early in October, I was like ‘who am I even listening to, wtf happened.’?
Fast forward, I completely forgot I had ordered tickets to your Portland Halloween show in like April, and had a guaranteed shitty work day on Nov 1st. I almost didn’t go and was miserable until you got on stage. Then you got on stage.
You have come so far dude. Your shows feel personal and special, and I’ll never forget that experience. I respect you so much more now as an artist. I went back through your discography and I realized how much I can relate to some of your experiences.
I want to thank you for doing what you do. You changed my perspective on a lot of things, and I want to share your music with others. Never forget that you help others.
You’re also now a furry for wearing that tail bruh
I loved this lyric video!! It was almost like a fan edit!! the references were fun to pick out! Its like life is coming full loop in the musical world of porter!
Just got back home from the Pittssburgh show and I'm just so happy i went. I've been a fan since I heard Language forever ago but I've never had a chance to make it to a live show. So many different versions of me have been fans of Porter and a whole bunch of them never thought I'd be standing here today. Maybe the things that are eating at me today will feel better in the future too.
Sincerely, thank you for your music. I don't know you but you've certainly done a lot for me.
i love listen to porter robinson songs when everything's so fckd up around me. or maybe i'm fcked up
Didn't come out in time for my friend to see it but what a banger indeed, keep it up dude. Listened to Look at the Sky a million times when you first showed it in an online show during quarantine and it helped me get through tough times
This video uses all of our virtual selves.
spending the whole song in this constant negativity, praising death like it's some sort of escape that is too commonly accepted as a solution for everything... just to slowly realize that maybe you DO want to live after all.. it's beautiful
I have always been a person who adapts to life. However, it has been a hard year. I lost my kitten and my dog, I face lawsuits for meaningless family lawsuits, I haven't seen my mother for 20 years, she died and my father and I are struggling to get ahead. However, it has been very heavy and I have wanted to give up. But 12 days ago on 10/11/24 in Los Angeles I fulfilled my dream of being at a Porter Robinson concert, I am from Mexico and for years I have wanted to see him live, I traveled to achieve that goal.
When I was there I knew it was all worth it.
Thank you Porter.
Then I close my eyes
Gamble with my life
trying not to smile
Maybe this time I won't be alright
Maybe this time .
I wanna see my mom one more time
I wanna play my songs one more time
I wanna lose my phone one more time
I wanna play in the snow one more time
I wanna kiss my cat one more time
I wanna thank my dad one more time
I wanna marry her one more time
I wanna live i don't want die
I wanna try to change one more time
I wanna live i don't wanna die
I wanna live i don't wanna die
I wanna live
This is actually a really cool video man, great song too! Keep it up Porter
This video arrived like a bullet at the moment I've been going through lately. Thank you, Porter 💝
I've seen plenty of stuff about irony poisoning, but this is like... irony antivenom. The unabashed sincerity of it is so refreshing.
This is the most creative lyrical music video I've ever seen