i was pregnant & had a miscarriage: my recent pregnancy loss experience
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 4 มิ.ย. 2024
- Hi guys. This is probably the most raw and honest video I've put out on my channel and I hate that this has to be the topic its on but here we are. This video shows the last 6 weeks: finding out I'm pregnant, going to my first pregnancy appointment, and then unfortunately losing our baby. I'm sharing this video because it's a very real part of my motherhood journey and as I share every other milestone, it felt right to share this one, in this way, as well. We are absolutely heartbroken and are still recovering physically and emotionally, so I will keep you updated and continue to share if it's helpful. This is all fresh and new (and obviously unexpected), but I'm hoping sharing will not only help others feel not alone in the process but will also help me cope. I'm still grieving, still having symptoms from the procedure (it's 5 days later as I post this), and still experiencing a lot of shock and sadness. More to come as our family's journey continues to unfold. Thank you SO so much for being here, for watching us, and for your support. It means more than you know, especially right now. xoxo
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Hi, I'm Liv! I'm an Ohio girl living in a California world with my two sons, two dogs and husband. I make videos on motherhood, fashion, beauty, lifestyle, and overall health and wellness. Some of my favorite videos to make (that you'll see a lot!) are motherhood videos, clothin and home decor haul videos, family vlogs, try on videos and product reviews, and style/beauty favorites. I LOVE to shop, socialize, hang out at the beach, and focus on raising my boys to be good men. I pride myself on being an optimistic person and believe life is too short to be anything other than your happiest self. Welcome! ♡
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I am so sorry for your loss Olivia, I am crying with you and praying for peace for you and Jordan. Thank you for spreading awareness I know you are helping so many women feel less alone
Yesterday I found out at my first ultrasound that I had a missed miscarriage. I was 6 weeks. I don’t have any female friends that can relate so watching your video gives me a sense of connection and comfort so thank you. This baby would’ve been my 3rd as well. It’s heartbreaking. I believe everything happens for a reason, so stay strong and I’m praying for you and your husbands hearts. 🤎
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Sending prayers! Stay strong mama! I also lost my second at 9 weeks and had a very similar experience with the ultrasound tech to what it sounds like you had. Was terrified to try again but 3 months later I am pregnant again! 16 weeks today with twin boys! After every storm there is a rainbow! It will happen, stay positive!
I’m so sorry ❤️. I had a miscarriage at 12 weeks and got pregnant with my second a few months later. She turns two in two weeks 🌈. Sending you lots of healing vibes and know that you’re not alone.
Olivia, I have followed you for a while now. You and I were pregnant at the same time when you were pregnant with Arlo. My pregnancy was very scary, and we were told our child's life would be best terminated. I would listen to your videos in the bath while watching your monthly updates. So much crying and praying happened in those months. Our baby would always move and wiggle hearing your voice. I found so much comfort in that. April 2020, I had a healthy baby girl who's getting ready to turn 2. This video has my heart broken. I wish I could provide the same comfort as you did for me, unknowingly ❤️ Know that you are in my prayers, and I am sending so much love your way.
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The fact that you shared this so soon after the events is showing how truly strong you are, even if you don’t feel like it right now. I had tears throughout the whole vlog. Praying for your family through these tough times 🤍
I am sorry 😞 for your loss mama I had a miscarriage 11 years old ago and got pregnant 3 months Later with my rainbow 🌈 baby 👶 it's tough God had other plans and he is the only one that nos why this happened
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You are incredibly brave to share this all, and there’s no doubt it will help so many people. Sending all the love to your family 💕
I’m so sorry for your loss. I just wanted to say thank you for sharing your experience. When this happened to me a few years ago, there weren’t many videos and I felt so alone. I’ll be praying for you and your family during this hard time. 💜
I’m so sorry, thank you for sharing this vulnerable experience. You are helping more people then you know who walk this road alone
Stay strong Olivia! This is one of the hardest things you will ever go through. When I experienced miscarriage I had never felt more alone. Then we got pregnant again with our rainbow baby and your videos got me through it. Thinking of you!
I’m so sorry, Olivia. We had a loss three years ago and it’s still something that really hurts today even after having a successful pregnancy/birth later. Every emotion you have is valid and you deserve time and grace. Best of wishes and love for healing❤️
I had the same experience, also at 9 weeks. I am so sorry for your loss, my heart ached for you when I saw the title of this vlog. Sending big hugs ❤️
Thank you for being so REAL with us always even when it’s hard💜 Love you and praying for your family!!
I’m so sorry for your loss and thank you for being so strong to share your journey. Many women including me relate to this. Sending you a lot of love! ❤️
I found your channel when I found out I was pregnant on 2020 and you helped me navigate lots of things that were new to me in motherhood. I always find you so positive yet so real and I am deeply sorry for your loss.
I'm so sorry you had to go through this--praying for physical and emotional healing, and for you to have a healthy pregnancy soon ❤️
Such a raw sad, beautiful, heartbreaking, real video. Thank you for sharing Olivia. Im sure it wasn’t easy and am praying for you. May God comfort you and wrap his arms around you during your grieving time 💙
I'm crying just to see you guys hugging and being so happy to know you're pregnant. That scene looked very real, sincere, extremely loving. I don't even want to watch the rest of it but I will. Sending you tons of love and hope
I am so sorry for your loss, Olivia. Thank you for sharing. I recently had a miscarriage at 8 weeks after a round of IVF. It was soul crushing and incredibly isolating. Watching your video has made me feel less alone. I am sending you hugs, love and light ❤️
Your strength and courage are immeasurable. My heart breaks for the pain you guys have been feeling. Thank you for spreading awareness. Your transparency is invaluable to the real life experiences moms and families as a whole go through and I appreciate you so much for it.
I’m so sorry for your family’s loss. So much respect for sharing your story - especially showing clips from early on and how happy you were, which you may not have wanted to share. Love to you all.
Oh Olivia, I’m so sorry, crying for your loss. You and your husband are in my thoughts. I want you to know that you are helping so many people with videos about pregnancy and motherhood. I found your channel recently as a first time pregnant woman, and you’ve already made a huge difference in my life. I’m grateful for you and I look up to you.
So sorry to hear. Went through this last year and it’s a rollercoaster of emotions and heart ache. The part where you said you wanted to tell Christian, cos you went through this thing and your best friend doesn’t know, was the sweetest thing I ever heard and I know exactly what you mean. I first followed you when I got pregnant with my son and you were there with me all along the way through motherhood. I experienced this negative side to pregnancy before you did, and am sending you my support from afar. Take care and keep strong. Hopefully next time we will both have a better experience and give a sibling to our boys xxx
Try to remember to be kind to yourself during the grieving process, you’re so strong. We are all here for you ❤️
I’m so sorry this happened to you guys 💔 thank you for being so open about it. Praying for your healing 🤍🤍
You’re an amazing person for sharing this experience with us. I went through this last year and I was 16 weeks when I miscarried, I had already told my other kids and we were so exited and delivering the sad news was one of the hardest things I’ve had to do. I really didn’t talk to anyone about it, I wish I would’ve because I can see hearing someone else’s experience makes you feel like you’re not alone or the only one that happens to. I truly do believe we don’t talk about this subject as much as we should. Love to you dear, you’re amazing and thanks for sharing.
My heart goes out to you and Jordan. My husband and I recently went through loss as well and it's such a tender experience. Sending you hugs
I’m so sorry girl. A loss is never ever easy or even expected. Hoping your doing good mentally and things are ok ❤️ sending lots of love your way!!
I am so sorry for your loss, Olivia. I have been here since your pregnancy with Christian and you are family to me. I love and am praying for you❤️✨
We are here as your strength girl. Thank you for sharing your story and I am so sorry for what you are going through. Sending you all the love!!!
Thank you for sharing this with us. I’m deeply sorry for your loss. I too recently went through a miscarriage with my second son and the grief and heartbreak are excruciating. My love goes out to you and your family, Olivia ♥️
Thank you for being so open and vulnerable, I know how incredibly hard that was!! Sending you all the love and positive vibes 💜💜
Sending all the positive vibes. I’m so incredibly sorry, thanks for being so vulnerable (like always) and opening up a wound so we can relate.
Dear Olivia, I’m so very sorry to hear you went through this. I went through the same thing few months ago. I cried so much. I felt so alone. It’s the most unexplainable lonely feeling i ever went through. We had to explain this to our 4 and a half years old daughter. Anyway, we tried again right away because of my age and got pregnant right after the miscarriage. Right now I’m 29 weeks pregnant with my second baby❤️ I’m sending you all the good vibes. I know exactly how you feel. You will get through this. Many blessings!!
I’m so sorry for your loss. I just wanna say your loss matters, your baby matters 💕 I lost 2 babies last year so I truly empathize with you. Sending you all the healing vibes.
I’m so sorry mama. You are so strong for sharing your story. I pray you heal emotionally, physically and spiritually. ❤️
Im so sorry for your loss. I hope you know how strong you are and how many women you are helping by talking about it, being real and bringing awareness. Sending so much love to you and your beautiful family ❤️
Olivia,
You are so incredibly brave to share your journey and I thank you. So many woman go through this and suffer in silence. I’m glad you were able to tell your story. Sending you so much love from one Cleveland girl to to another! 🌈
Olivia I am so very sorry. It’s a heartbreak like none I’ve ever known 😞 Hearing others stories really helped me so thank you for sharing. That is something good from this. I hope being with your family now comforts you. Sending so many compassionate and healing vibes to you.
My heart breaks for you and Jordan💔 You are one of my favorite people to follow. I have loved seeing your family grow and truly do appreciate how you make everyone feel like they are apart of your life. You are so open, honest and authentic. You always keep real life on perspective.
I am so sorry for your loss. I absolutely cannot imagine going through this. I wish the best for you and your family. Stay strong!
I’m so sorry for your loss Olivia. Thank you for sharing your story with us ❤️. Sending prayers 🙏🏽
Thanks for sharing. You are helping other Mommas feel less alone in there season of loss. We experienced a loss with our 2nd baby at 15 weeks. Praying for our rainbow baby now! 🙏 and praying for yours as well.
I’m so sorry Olivia! My heart is with you! I felt so emotional watching you share you experience with us. I will keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. I wish you peace❤️
Aw Olivia 💔 You are such a pure soul. Hang in there, best wishes to you and your family!
When you said it’s like you’re going through something alone because your best friend doesn’t know… 💔 I felt that. I also have 2 boys same age as yours and we lost our 3rd July of last year. You are not alone mamma big hugs xx🤍
So sorry to hear this girl I'm praying you guys are strong an the fact you shared this right away shows that you are really strong
So sorry for your loss. Sending healing prayers to you and Jordan. Thank you for being so raw and normalizing these hard situations that unfortunately many people go though and don't talk about. 💕
I’m so sorry for your loss, I know this pain all too well. Have grace with yourself and hug on those boys of yours! Sending love and hugs your way ❤️
I’m so sorry for your loss, Olivia. Thanks for sharing your experience. You will have your rainbow baby soon! Just trust in the timing of things.🙏❤️
I am so sorry for your loss! You are so strong! I appreciate your openness over something so difficult. Keeping you & the boys in my thoughts 💗
I just went through something so similar. The emotions. The up’s and downs. The waiting for answers. I can relate to it all. I’m so sorry you have to go through this. But like you said, just a notch in the family story.. And there WILL be another pregnancy 💕 praying for you liv
I am so sorry for your loss Olivia, I’ve also experience a missed miscarriage, nothing can quite prepare you. We are all with you.
When you said your going threw something but your best friend doesn’t know that completely tore me up because I would feel the same way. Take your time there’s no right way ♥️
I'm so sorry Olivia. I'm going through the same thing right now and I'm sending you all the good vibes.
I'm crying with you. In January I went for my 8 week appointment only to find out I miscarried and didn't even know it. I am glad in some ways I didn't see a baby because I can't imagine that pain. But it still hurts either way. Stay strong and I am glad you shared
I’m so very sorry for your loss Olivia 😔. Iv gone through 3 losses before having my son & daughter so I know the awful pain your going through. Thank you for sharing & staying strong. Your rainbow 🌈 is just around the corner ❤️
I’m so so sorry that you’ve gone through this. Thank you for sharing and it’s completely ok to let us see your heartbreak, because it is heartbreaking. Real life sucks sometimes and you don’t have to hide it. Sending love and hugs. Try to enjoy Arlo’s bday.
I am so sorry for your loss Olivia. I am crying with you and praying for you and jorden. Thank you for having the strength and sharing your journey with us at this difficult time.
I am sending you so much love, Olivia. I have had three before and it’s one of the most difficult things I have ever gone through. You are so strong. I am so sorry for your loss.
Im so sorry for your loss Olivia. But I appreciate you sharing these as hard as it is. Thank you
So sorry for your loss Olivia. This happened to me in January. I was 8 weeks 4 days and the baby’s heart beat just stopped beating. It was one of the hardest things I have gone through. The overwhelming sadness you feel is something thats hard to understand for anyone that’s never been in that situation. Times does heal your pain, your angel will always be in your heart! Praying for your family and sending you lots of healing ❤️❤️❤️
I am so sorry for your loss Olivia. Thank you for sharing your story and being a strong, brave person! I appreciate you and all that you share with this community. Sending lots of love and hugs to you and your fam ♥️
I am so sorry for your loss💔 I went through 3 losses last year and it was devastating. Nothing prepares you for the way you feel with this type of loss. Right now it won’t feel ok and that’s ok, take time to grieve and give yourself grace as you heal going forward. Nothing was your fault, it’s so easy to think there’s something that could of been done but you did nothing wrong. Thank you for being brave and sharing your story💕 praying for you guys!
I’m so sorry for your loss my dear. I had a similar experience with my very first pregnancy. Sending you positive vibes and tons of love. Another baby is coming. Your rainbow baby! ❤️
I just want to say that this was a beautiful video. I am so so sorry for your loss and I will be praying for you and your family. You did an amazing job explaining your emotions and I know so many people who will benefit from this. Thank you for sharing this and bringing awareness and normalizing the loss that happens to so many. Much love 💕
You are so strong mama. This is amazing and so brave of you to share your experience. Sending love to you and your family!
First, do not apologize for the tears. I bawled the entire way through. I just want to compliment you for your strength. Thank you for sharing your experience. I am praying and wishing you and your family the best.💕
I'm so sorry for your loss. I can fully relate to how you feel as we have gone through several miscarriages during our journey to parenthood. It's beyond difficult to comprehend how these things happen. It's nothing you did to cause what happened. I now have a 21 month old son and am currently 31 weeks pregnant so it is possible to conceive after a loss and you will! Give yourself grace over the next few months and take care of you. Be well.
Sorry for your loss. It's really heartbreaking. Praying for strength and peace for you and family.
I’m so sorry for your loss 🤍 I haven’t gone through this but I have 2 kids and I can imagine what that heartbreak would feel like. You’re a great mom and I know you’ll have a healthy pregnancy soon.
I am so sorry Olivia. Thank you for being so open and honest.
We faced a miscarriage February 4th and we are still struggling emotionally. Your video gave me so much comfort to watch. I am so sorry you’re going through this. Sending love and thoughts to your family 🤍
Went through the same thing 💔 doesn’t take your pain away, but you’re not alone. Your rainbow baby is coming, sending so much love 💕
I am so sorry for your loss Olivia. I am currently 21 weeks pregnant and found your YT on accident, but I think I have watched almost all of your videos. You have such a beautiful way about you, and although I don't know you, I feel like I trust your judgments and what you say about certain must haves and products etcetera. I know this must be an extremely difficult time for you and your husband, but when it is meant to be, it will be. Thank you for your openness and realness throughout your pregnancies and now this. It means the world to us watching :)
Takes a lot of strength to share this. I am so sorry for your loss.
Thanks for sharing your story. I also suffered a loss in Nov 2021, I had an ectopic pregnancy. I also needed emergency surgery. I can relate so much to you in this video. You’re strong momma, allow yourself to recover and feel all the emotions! Wishing you baby dust and your rainbow baby!
I’m so sorry for your loss! You are not alone sending prayers and love your way !
Olivia, I’m so sorry you went through this 😢😢. My heart is breaking for you. I appreciate that you talked about the loss of a pregnancy, because it can be a very lonely experience. 7 months after you posted this video, I went through a ruptured ectopic pregnancy. It was painful experience, both physically and also emotionally. I am so grateful for your honest discussion about miscarriages. I also have hope for a rainbow baby after I recover from this. 🌈🌈
Oh Olivia, I am incredibly sorry for your loss. This is a pain that is unimaginable. The same exact thing happened to me too. I’m so, so sorry. All of your feelings are valid. Every single one. You are in my thoughts, mama. You are so strong and beautiful. This too shall pass. Your family is beautiful and strong, you, and your husband, and your boys. I am so sorry. This is the part of expecting that sucks so badly. I’m so sorry. 😞❤️
I am so very sorry for your loss. You are so brave to share this very personal and intimate piece of your life. I had a miscarriage/vanishing twin syndrome and it was devastating. We saw a heart beat of both babies and the next ultra sound one baby had no heart beat and had stopped growing at 9 weeks. My thoughts and prayers are with you as you continue to heal.
I’m sorry for your loss. Thank you for sharing your feelings and thoughts with us ❤️
I went through the same experience last March - found out we were pregnant and surprised my husband on Valentine’s Day - had my first appt in March supposed to be 8 weeks and found the baby measuring at 6 weeks 1 day- had to wait that agonizing week to see if baby had grown. This had never happened to be before, I know your exact feelings right now- we question ourselves, like what did I do wrong. As you said something wasn’t right and it was nothing you did. I feel for you mama I know your pain. ❤️ you’re so strong and resilient
I am so sorry for your loss. Sending you love! Thank you for being real. ❤️
I’m so sorry for your and your family’s loss. Sending you all prayers to help heal your hearts. Know we are here for you, stay strong mama.
I’m so sorry Olivia. You’re so incredibly strong and your baby will be remembered ❤️
I’m so sorry to hear this Olivia. I’ve been following you for the longest time and it hurts so much to see you like this❤️😞 I’m sending you the biggest hug and so so much love.
I’m blown away by your strength, mama!!!!
Sobbing with you. Praying for you.
I am so sorry Olivia! I know that feeling and it is truly the worst. Sending you so much love and healing thoughts.
I just had a similar experience within the last couple of weeks. Lost my babe around 6 weeks, didn’t find out until 8. I’m so sorry for the loss of your little babe, I pray that you are feeling alright now through the highs and lows of grief and loss 💓
I'm so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers.
I’m so so sorry for you and Jordan, Olivia. You didn’t do anything to deserve or cause this, and I know you know this but when we experienced our loss, it helped so much to hear this from other people too. Please know you sharing your story is touching so many people and helping others feel less alone. Thinking of you 💕
Sending you lots of love! I’m sorry mama… I’ve been following you for so long and I love how positive you are despite your hurdles. Thank you for being so inspiring and such a beautiful soul. I wish you luck on your journey❤️
So sorry for your loss Liv ❤️❤️ sending prayers for you and your family. Thank you for sharing... I also had a pregnancy loss with my first child at 28 weeks. Sending love- we are here for you
So sorry for your loss Olivia. I’ll be keeping you and your family in my prayers. ❤️
This made me cry so much. My eyes were full of tears 😭💜 you’re so wonderful
I'm so sorry for your loss! I can't even imagine.
I'm so sorry for your loss Olivia. I lost my first pregnancy at 23 weeks and even though I have a healthy child now and am pregnant again, I'm always terrified of having another loss. You are so strong for sharing this. You are not alone.
I am so sorry Liv. Prayers to you and Jordan. This was an incredibly helpful video.
I am so sorry to hear guys! Sending all the love! ❤️