Challenging 5 Anorexia Food Rules | Eating Disorder Recovery
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- Today I decided to challenge 5 anorexia food rules that still linger in my recovery.
Eating disorders are sneaky and create non-sensical rules that seem incredibly scary to overcome! Although these rules didn't feel like they were destructive and limiting my life, it is VERY important for me to not become complacent and challenge EVERY rule.
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"It just tastes like calories" is just the most relatable sentence i've heard in a while
Jᴀsᴍɪɴ Aɴɢᴇʟᴠᴏɪᴄᴇs I hope you’re doing okay 😊
Yeah same
I hope you're doing ok
SAME WOXNSJSJSJ
i hope an anorexic comment isnt that relatable
“u know when u go to bed and can’t sleep bc u think about food since u were restricting all day” I HAVE NEVER RELATED HARDERRR
hell yeah
I watch mukbangs and fall asleep to them lol
If I restricted all day i wouldn't be able to fall asleep because I would physically feel hungry, but not because I was thinking about food. Do some typical ED rules include when and how you eat? For example, you couldn't just eat a bowl of cereal at night if you hadn't had enough during the day?
Gabriela Berinstein yeah i mean everyone’s ed rules can be different but personally for me whenever i wasn’t recovering my ed wouldn’t let me feel comfortable eating during the day. it only let me eat after 6pm and yeah if i were to have one bowl of cereal i wouldn’t be allowed another.
@@heidiwit6603 Thank you for sharing your answer. I am gaining a lot of insight from watching Rebecca's journey and I admire her and all people battling ED.
I was not diagnosed with anorexia but I still overthink every single decision when it comes to food. And may I say this really helped me think of enjoying food instead of overthinking it. Thank youu
Tala Rushdi how are you doing now?
Same!!
I can completely relate!! I over think everything! All I’d think about was calories calories calories! I would even add up all the calories that I’d eaten that day and sit in the bike until I had burnt them off! Keep going!!!💪🏻💪🏻💪🏻❤️
I am struggling right now i am not diagnosed but whenever i eat i feel fat and ive been eating less and less but i am to scared for help, ive also another kid in my class hasn’t aten lunch in a week and i wanna help her
@@samlusk5648 hiya, PLEASE PLEASE TELL SOMEONE! before it gets worse. it is impossible to once your trapped in the cycle to get out on your own. I've tried and tried but I finally gave in and admitted to my parents there was a problem. although it has been tough since then Im getting better and so much healthier! you just have to have faith, be strong and get the help you need! as I started to stop eating my friend sort of did to. (this is one of the things that lead me to get better). you could try reaching out to them as it is always nice to see someone else who gets what you are going through. let me know how you get on!
the fact that she was so good at faking being happy while eating that burger scares me
She never said she didn't enjoy it, just that it wasn't as good as she wanted it to be.
Same with the pasta
it could be that she's happy because she was overcoming a "rule", though. i mean, when i'm happy with how food tastes i don't eat it while smiling, do you? lmao
@Vasu Sharma i can butt i feel really really bad about it
In september, me and my class went on a two day long and like we always had unhealthy meals everyday 😫😖 we had burgers for dinner one day and chicken with fries one day (but luckily there was rice so I ate that instead of pasta it’s a little better but not much tho) and like pasta for lunch and sandwiches and cereal for breakfast. And that day when we had burgers for dinner they asked us if we wanted cheese and I said no. I didn’t even wanted to eat that burger WITHOUT CHEESE but I had to because everyone was there and my mom too so it would have been really weird if I hadn’t. But I hadn’t ate pizza and burgers for a long time even when my family bought junk food I said I didn’t wanted anything and made something at home. But at that trip I didn’t ate the whole burger tho..
I've never been so proud of someone for eating cheese
nice profile pic
same
Same 💕💕
Me neither. It'was sweet. I've followed the craziests diets, keto\vegetarian leaning on vegan, witch the exepcion of cheese. Your former has been 2 nightmare material 5 me. ... kuddos, for rising and shinning.
Me neither. And I’m a vegan shouting to myself “yeeeeesssss cheese!”.
i think it’s so insane that this video only truly makes sense to someone whose gone through an unhealthy relationship with food and/or an ed. someone whose never struggled with something like that would see this as so miniscual and crazy how someone can’t just put milk in their coffee without it being a whole thing.
this is such an eye opening video for everyone and so helpful to see someone really take charge of their recovery and it’s inspiring so thank you :)
Agree
Thats so true, just realised that i did the exact same today with some yoghurt to add to my porridge. Thats horrible
Its 100% true
I watched one of her videos a few months ago and found her way of thinking extremely exagerated ... but now I am battling Anorexia and trying to recover since I had it and can relate to her so much ... It's so weird
I have similar thoughts even though I don't have anorexia
“Why do I need to live under a fear of drinking” this hit me hard, especially when one of my biggest fears is hot chocolate. You actually make me want to try to have one. Thank you 💛
You go Charlotte, you can do this. The decision is half the battle!
If it helps you could make your own hot chocolate. Use hot water, cocoa, maybe a little skim milk, and however much sugar you feel you can handle. Then, slowly work your way up until you can handle whatever hot chocolate you'd like to reach.
Very good of you!! I hope you do enjoy it and lots of love xx
Oh my God that's one of my biggest fears too. I haven't had pasta in over 3 years either
I eased my way back in with cocoa with oat milk, would recommend!
“Fear of drinking”
I used to enjoy a cup of tea with milk and sugar and also a biscuit with my dad on the sofa almost everyday. I want my happy times back ;(
I understand u cuz i been though the same. I want to tell you that you can enjoy that tea and biscutt again 💕 Go to recovery its worth it. You are worth it💕
Just do it I know it’s hard but just do it you’ll feel guilt but you only line once. Live your life.
I want my happy times back too. My life is highly controlled by my ED. I have multiple anxiety/panic attacks per day and avoid all social situations because food gives me an insurmountable degree of anxiety.
Simona Moscillo food doesn’t make you fat. Trust me I know exactly what you feel. Enjoy your life
This comment literally made me cry, I feel the same way!
Today I'm challenging myself to a full bagel with cream cheese! Wish me luck
how’d it go?
@@sarasadiq6918 It went well! I'm eating one at least once a week now
I’m so proud of you!
You go girl! I love bagels so much! No one should have to be deprived of the joy of bagels!
emily I'm so proud of you keep working hard, good luck on your recovery
I’m challenging myself with eating breakfast lunch and dinner without wanting to throw it up.
Luu 123 if it would be that easy hun..
Luu 123 she’s not doing it because it’s healthy!!!!!
Good luck x
No you don’t have to
IM failing
You're so soft spoken and well versed. I could listen to you talk for hours. Your channel is going to reach so many people soon!! thank you for sharing your stories.
It’s divya!
Pugs Sss hey!
Agreed! I love how soothing and honest her words come off as. Subscribed on the first video!
fancy seeing you here now i know why this video was in my recs
HEEEEEY!
this is the purest and best challenge i’ve seen out there
I 100% agree. Out of all of them, this is the bravest of all time as well. Stuff the cinnamon challenge, the 24 hour challenge. THIS is the most challenging of them all. Respect to her and everyone she has inspired to take part and take that leap of courage to getting that little bit closer to the target of recovery.
"Putting milk into my coffee really changes the reason why I would drink coffee . . . It feels like calories. And it's scary, because I feel like it's unnecessary"
I cried at the end of this sentence. Because that's EXACTLY how I feel about drinks with calories. I've had a wide range of extremely disordered eating habits over the past few years, and I'm definitely recovering, but realizing that this thought was still so deeply ingrained made me realize that, like you, I'm still bound and controlled by these kinds of thoughts and rules.
Thank you so much for this video, for giving me an idea of a way to challenge this and grow more in my recovery. Best of luck to you on your journey! It appears that you are doing well and have a fantastic attitude about it!
It took me...7 years post recovery to finally get over the "no drinks with calories" rule. When I went to Korea and tried some of the unique sodas, juices, and especially the sweet potato lattes that helped me a lot. I kind of separated my rules from my life under the pretense of "study abroad" not being "real life." But even almost 4 years afterwards I'm still ok having drinks with calories sometimes! It's a struggle sometimes but it's nice to have something "unnecessary" sometimes for fun.
Stay strong! Don’t give up and fall back into old habits.
I am recovered from anorexia about 15 years now but I also follow the "no drinks with calories rule" also I never drink anything fizzy not even fizzy water, like you said it just seems unnecessary, never really thought about the fact that i do this until now though. I consider it a healthy habit though.
I cried too, it feels good to be understood I guess
I have never had a full blown eating disorder, but I do struggle with the idea of drinking calories. I found that Almond milk is light and doesn’t have the same feeling for me as regular milk
Me: I want to eat pizza!🤤
ED: No it has calories.
Me: Okay.
This has been me for the past week lol
omg mood
You got a like lMaO, this has been mood.
Everyday mood
Miss Queen Angelica felt that.
I overeat and am overweight. It is so interesting for me to see the struggle on the other end of the spectrum. Thank you for being so brave and honest. You look like you are doing really well. I am so happy for you.
Lara Jernegan You might have binge eating disorder
Maybe try watching supersize vs superskinny. That‘s exactly what they do - put 2 people from different ends of the spectrum and change their eating habits for 2 days with each other and see what they eat in a week :)
when i went through a depression episode i began to overeat and gained 20 pounds in a few months. that sounds like not that much but i’m only 5’1 so the weight was more noticeable. it is still hard to keep control of but i had to learn to eat smaller proportions and to control myself more. it’s always nice to watch people recovering and getting better. i wish you a good happy life and i hope you recover from this ! good luck :)
Lara Jernegan saaaammmmmeeeee
Oof I got like a combo it’s like binge and restrict
I’m not anorexic but I’m realizing how many food rules I have and not due to food allergies just for the fact of not having extra calories ... sad
i’m sorry, get better though. allow yourself freedom to what you eat.
Sophia D you should tell someone and get support, once you fall too deep in the cycle it's almost impossible to stop and recover.
Chloe Lee tysm for the advice, I told my parents today🥺
@@sophiad1620 omg im so proud of you 💕
Sophia D woah so proud of you Girl!🥺💖 How is ist going? I Hope you feeling at least a little better 💖💖
"I ate the cheese. WOOoOooOooOOO."
SO relatable.
It is hard to truly celebrate breaking a food rule because on one hand, you did it! But on the other hand, you did IT.
Wow, this is by far the best ED recovery-related video I have ever seen. *This* is what self-care is, what taking charge of your mental and physical health is, what being a badass is.
I think you could be a really important voice on TH-cam. Keep it up! ❤️
And this, Ladys and Gentlemen is how you successfully recover from a mental illness.
Step by step, always pushing yourself a little further, staying focused and challenging yourself every single day, but most importantly TALKING about it! Thank you Rebecca! Wishing you all the best!
That is the good honest truth!
@Life as we know it It's not really like that though, she's helping people and herself. Good on her if she can get money from getting better, I wish I could. I would feel more interested in recovery for so many things
Thank you Rebecca I am going to do this
1. Drink a soda with a meal
2. Eat banana instead of low cal fruits
3. Latte😬
4. Carbs or eggs for breakfast (right now I only eat half a grapefruit and I am getting enough calories throughout the day but I don’t want to live with this restriction)
5. Dessert after a meal
I'm going to start drinking soda with a meal too! I don't really have an ed but I have a hard time eating enough calories as my stomach gets very easily upset.
Maik Kiehlmann having a stomach ache is nothing like having an ed!! That's honestly a stupid comparison
@@gracekelly3 I never said it's like an ed. I was just saying that I have a hard time eating enough calories which is why some ed recovery tips are very helpful to me.
good luck! remember that your ed is not factual xx
Those are good. I just made myself eat a banana instead of berries a few days ago! And I've started eating carbs for breakfast (although carbs at any meal has been scary) but spoiler alert: I ate the carbs and the banana and nothing terrible happened.
I've never seen a video of you nor do I know you, but I just wanna say that I'm really proud of your recovery. You are a beautiful young woman and you are doing awesome! keep on going!
After I got out of the hospital the first time I ate mac and cheese again I cried cause IT WAS SO GOOD AND I WAS SO SCARED FOR SO LONG I FORGOT HOW MUCH I LOVED IT
Amanda Tabeling *YESSS GIRL,EAT YOUR MAC AND CHEESE!!!*
Fav food sis🙌🏾
My goodness, I am in awe. You're such a stunning young lady inside and out and clearly very intelligent. You're aware of your disorder and you're beating it. You will come out victorious in the end, I feel it so deep in my soul. You give off such positive vibes and I cannot wait to see where you go in life
Kristin Harritt I love your comment
What a lovely comment x
OML it took me so long to get over liquid calories. I used to cry when forced to drink calorie drinks, and oh my god ensure made me want to die. It was probably the last food rule i striped myself of.
I really applaud you! I’m a therapist who works with people with eating disorders. We need more role models like you. I know you are making it seem easier than it must have been for you. Keep moving forward with your recovery!! You are doing great.
"Who doesn't put cheese on their burger"
Me: *Cries in lactose intolerance*
Hard cheese is free from lacotse
Oh Humanity yes! Basically, if you can slice it, it should be. Like swiss, gouda, cheddar etc! Maybe worth looking up if you might be able to enjoy some cheese :) sure you are not allergic to the milk protein?
i feel you honey i put avocado instead it works hehwhwhwhe😊😊😊
Same :/
@@johannahallin1896 I'm not sure of anything..
This video would seem so simple to anyone who has never faced this kind of challenge, but seeing you push yourself and be kind to yourself is so inspiring. Thank you for feeling the strength to be honest and to put your recovery first, and share your journey with others
I’ve been recovered from anorexia for about 7 years. But, this made me realize I still do have some food rules. Especially... milkshakes. I eat ice cream all the time but, I still never allow myself to get a milkshake because I feel like it’s so many extra calories. Idk. Disordered thoughts never make sense. I am going to enjoy a milkshake tonight. Xoxo. Thanks babe for this video. Praying for you ❤️
What did you do to become anorexic? Like what did you start doing first
How are you?
This is so true.
In the past I would eat 700-800 calories a day and drink a lot of water so I wouldn't gain weight.
At the moment I'm doing 1200 calories and feeling pretty proud of myself.
But the thoughts are still there.
I can't eat anything that has oil or that has been fried, because I know how just one spoon of oil has 100+ calories.
And the same for any other food, I can calculate how many calories food has.
Just a cookie makes me feel bad, it's like 10 seconds of eating and 5 minutes of push ups.
Update: I ate fried chicken with bread today!! It was really good! Also deleted MyFitnessPal and throwed away the notebook where I wrote down all the calories for my mum's recipes. I'm happier 😊
here comes a thought if this isn’t me I don’t know what is.
here comes a thought I absolutely hate it when restaurants don’t put their calories
Sofía Reyes lucky all I do is eat my fat af
Sofía Reyes last year I was in a really bad mental state and I was so depressed I limited myself to 100 calories maybe 200 and it was not good I got to 60 pounds but idk what happened but the end of last year I started eating and I felt great and now I way 106 and I fell pretty good about it yes it’s a lot for a 13 year old!
@@emmascribner5963 no its not! You are doing great lovely!!! By the time you are 13, you have hit puberty, and you are gaining all of your adult body weight. its okay to weigh as much as you do and its even better if you weigh more!! eat more and enjoy it and lifee too!! much love xoxo
Me: im hungry
Me: *goes and gets a piece of bread and takes a bite*
ED: spit it out.
Me: what why?
ED: SPIT. IT. OUT.
Me*spits it out and goes do 100 crunches*
Omg
😭😭😭😭
Biggest mood ever
Same but without the crunches because I'm too depressed 😎
It’s really sad tho! I feel ya
the coffee thing really got me too because Ive done the same thing with my coffee and tea. I like milk in my tea but I've conditioned myself to just drink it black because those extra 6 calories of milk are calories wasted in the day and that just sounds so ridiculous to hear out loud. I don't know it just struck a chord with me. I'm so proud of you in your recovery and this video, I know how scary it must have been. Keep pushing forward, you've gained one new subscriber and affected one more life xx
Can I get 200 subs with no content for no reason how are you doing now?
It is ridiculous, but it makes since. As a long-time anorexic, I know 1 or 2 calories makes all the difference
I needed this so badly. Every food is basically a fear for me right now. I have not reached recovery, but I am striving/struggling daily. Thank you for being so brave and open. much love to you
Hope you've made progress since :3
Hope you are better, God bless you 💕💕
Praying for you! :)
I think this is by far one of the most impactful videos I've watched. You are truly remarkable, thank you
The strength radiating from this video > 🙌🏼
I appreciate seeing people take hold of their future and recovery instead of being a victim. No you stood up to your eating disorder and slapped it silly with its nonsense! Good for you!!!
For everyone who’s recovering, or dealing with it.
I know it sounds stupid, but it’ll be fine. You’ll be fine. I know it sounds stupid to say that you’re beautiful. But believe me. You’re precious
"I'm doing 5 challenges in one day." Wow that sounds impossible and exhausting coming from someone who has an eating disorder. Good job!
i'm stunned by the amount of courage and "thoughts-battling" this video must have cost you!! as someone in recovery i know too well how easily we betray ourselves and say "i'm not bound to my illness" and STILL do certain patterns. keep fighting, you're doing such a great job. not only at getting better but also at motivating people. :)
I’m studying to be a mental health nurse and never full understood eating disorders. Thank you for opening your world to us, you’re so honest and beautiful and I can’t wait to continue this journey with you. Keep up the amazing work, 💕Mara (Sydney, Australia)
Funny that I run into your comment, I'm still in school but I also want to study mental health nursing in Aus! Can I ask you what it's like?? I've done so much research online about it but never seem to fully get a good answer I guess - that is if you don't mind, it's not a problem if you don't want to or can't, I'm just really curious about it so I figured why not 🙈
I’m from Sydney as well, hello neighbour
“Funny that you eat more and then you suddenly want to socialize” .... why come for me like this
Every time I watch this kind of content I always realize I’m anorexic ... I was never diagnosed, but the more I see people ... I’m just like “shit I think I have a eating disorder “ and I’m scared of it. I don’t want to ,but at the same time I’m scared of calories ,eating after 6pm and gaining to much weight ... But you motivate me to overcome my fears and to challenge myself to fight against my (not diagnosed) eating disorder ... To everyone who struggles as well ... I wish you all you’re able to fight and to overcome it ...
Thank you!!! I was never diagnosed too but i can relate to everything in this video! I hope u r recovering well or u hopefully recovered!❤
I ate my first serving of cheese
maggie leblanc good job!!!
maggie leblanc yay congrats 🤩
Thank you so so much for not saying numbers!!
I want to try to go a day without forcing myself to throw up today 😁
Summer Reed I hope you did it
Hope it went well 🥰🥰
That's my goal too xx
I was where you are. You can beat this. Don't give up!!
Same
I understand what you saw about restrictions. I don't have anorexia, I have OCD and even though I am in a much better place that when I started, I still have problems with certain stuff. I have to make a mental list in my head that today I will touch x amount of door nobs, clean my hand less than x amount of times or touch a thing that I find disgustingly dirty (which must probably is not -.- aka. water outside of my OWN the sink, somebody's cellphone) and wait to wash my hands in anyway shape of form for x amount of minutes. Even thought we have different disorders I understand and applaud you for doing what you are doing. It is hard and sometimes it makes you want to cry, but like you said, "tomorrow it will be a thing of the past" and then it will be less scary.
I was watching this thinking the same thing! I have OCD too and I totally get knowing something doesn't make any sense but not being able to stop believing it anyway.
The tics are to try to combat the intrusive thoughts, so I got really good early on at not doing any of them so I could look "normal" in public, but I still catch myself following dumb rules from time to time. I'm on meds now - most antidepressants at a double dose work to combat OCD (the violent intrusive thoughts)
Daniela P I relate to this so much. I always have to take an even number of steps, wash my hands a certain amount because I’m scared of bacteria. If I but something on a shelf I have to do it twice or with both hands because it is even, it is so restricting on every day life. It gets better when I’m less stressed but I am more stressed right now and I’m doing the same pattern again and again. I want to prevent stuff that’s out of my control even though I know its impossible.
Wow, so inspired by the effort you're putting into positive change. Keep going, you're doing great!
Autistic Fedora I know, it sucks and I hate those times when you are doing so well and then BOOM... 2 steps back. I am on a backward trend right now as well and I hate how much you need to resist something that will make you feel at peace for just one second. Someone told me that if you don't want to get worse you need to keep trying and trying and trying. That person regressed really bad and was mad at themselves. I don't want to do what they did and I don't want to get worse. I will take my 2 steps back, but I will damn right take 1 step forward. I am rooting with all of my heart for you to do the same. Life sucks but hey, "everything is just right in OCD camp."
I had stuffed pasta with parmesan this week at a restaurant and I am going to have pizza next week on my best friend‘s birthday dinner and I‘m so excited!! Let‘s kick anorexia‘s ass!
So proud of you💓
Galilea hernandez Thank you!! ❤️
I'm soooo proud!
Yes girl do ittttttttttttt
Kim DeBoer thanks😍❤️
While I don’t have an eating disorder, I do have obsessive compulsive disorder and I can understand rules your brain makes that when your doing better make no sense. I’m so proud of you for breaking the rules you’ve made and moving forward in your recovery.
i'm in the same boat as you... when i was watching i just thought "wow, she goes through some of the same thought processes that i go through with some of my obsessions"
relatable!!!
its so crazy looking back on my thought patterns/habits when I come out of a really bad OCD episode
This was so inspiring to see someone who went through the struggles i'm going through and seeing her becoming more free. Thank you
You seem so smart
Rebecca Leung did you fainted sometimes if you got up to fast when you was anorexic. Bc I faint now 3 times a day and i was wondering if i was the only one or if its "common"
Madelief Girl it’s very common it’s the body who is into the starvation mode and it stops for a few seconds to get energy
Mia anorexic people are so. so. fucking genius. Google it.
Nope
Alina Aziz yup
you’re right... eating pasta is so scary to me it feels so different from eating just other regular carbs I think it is just calorie dense.. i don’t know but I relate !
Ella Jae pasta has iron and other nutrients! 🤗
Samee
I ate my first hamburger yesterday.
congrats
Zachary Oliver ❤️
Happy for you💗 You can do anything you want, and you’re worth it! Wishing you the best💗
Nice! Did you like it?
Meat causes cancer. Be careful
I ate rice ahhh it tastes so good yet made me feel so bad but its a progress right
yess! i‘m so proud of you!!
@@saraingk467 awh thank u i just saw it was 11 months ago and now i eat whatever i want :")
@@dinaghafari9024 that is so amazing! I saw that the comment was from a while back but i figured i'd still leave a nice comment :) Am so glad that you're doing better now and hope to reach that one day too
Dina Ghafari Omg yay we are all so proud of you!
Dina Ghafari , ah yes you’re doing great! So proud of you :3
I usually don't watch videos about anorexia or bulimia (so I have no idea how this video ended up in my homepage, but really glad it did) as I kind of have the opposite problem and those things usually depress me, but you girl... SO STRONG; KEEP GOING! You really are trying to improve and to beat your weaknesses, and doing it well! Thank you so much for sharing it, you are an example for anyone with any type of eating disorder, so glad I watched your video. Again, THANK YOU AND BE STRONG!
same
@@anonymusperson157 me too! This is the first video I watched all the way! She gave it a go! She didn't get here over night, she won't get back over night, but damn.. she's doing it!!! I love it!
I'm so proud of you. For someone who trains for me to have that cake randomly would be a huge thing infact I can't remeber the last time id let myself eat s cake or put milk in a drink, again I wouldn't have had that pasta dish unless it was a cheat day. For you to do this as someone who is in recovery you're amazing
sunsbookishgamesx i don’t know if you’ve ever dealt with an ed or if you’re recovering but i do have ed and you should really try to break those food rules bc if you don’t have ed they can get you into that mindset
If you make rules regarding food and eating, as you have with not letting yourself eat whatever and needing a particular set day to "cheat", - you must have a problematic relationship with food of some kind. At least that's my thoughts. It's so easy blaming your food habits (or the lack of it) on fitness and working out, but I really can't see a healthy reason for being that restricted. Unless you're having medical issues related to being overweight, which you obviously aren't. It's great being healthy and choosing healthy foods, - but damn.. Not even milk? I don't get it, that shit's not even unhealthy, and if you're afraid of lactose just get lactose-free.
your recovery is inspiring. thanks for being amazing. keep strong rebbeca❤️
No one will read this but I just wanna say I'm proud of you, you deserve better and you're a beautiful human. LOVE ya❤️
Back at ya
needed this, thank you
Read it, and love it that you took the time to say that... because people definitely need to be told that they are worth it!👏
milkshake is my ultimate "when im recovered food"......one day man
Kit Watson omg i thought no one else had “when im recovered foods”
Oh my god milkshake was one of my first fear foods, to this day I can’t bring myself near a milkshake
denise salar I have them too! I practically daydream about them sometimes but I just can't bring myself to eat them...
Ugh, same here. I just can’t bring myself around any “junk food” right now. Like I’ll even panic with ice cream...ICE CREAM! 🤦🏼♀️
Milkshake is safe food for me
I've noticed that calorie counting becomes less of a problem when you cook your own food. For example as for homemade cake or pasta I don't even bother looking at the calories or carbs unless to get a overview of what's going inside my body if you know you have made something that is healthy and from scratch it can truly help you appreciate food and enjoy it. Hopefully someone else finds this tip as helpful as I once did.
The thing is that many people fear eating food prepared by someone else. Because they don't know what went in it and they don't know how many calories are in it. For me, I rejected baked goods that I didn't make because I'd tweak the recipes so that there would be a few calories as possible. So eating out and eating something prepared by someone else is a good way to challenge the ed voice.
I agree 100%. Doing that helped with my recovery. I knew what I was making and it helped a lot.
yeah but for me... i have type 1 diabetes so i HAVE to alwaaaayyys count carbs no matter what for the rest of my life. counting carbs religiously also makes me count calories and so uh what now lol
I really love your personality! Your energy is so positive and it’s great to see you pushing yourself to recover :))
Damn never resonated with that coffee thing more...before an ED, when i first began university, my friends and I would order frapaccinos from starbucks like every other day. When i began developing an ED, i began only drinking black coffee and unsweetened tea. I always felt like "uni got more intense so my caffeine habits became more intense" but really, i probably trained myself into liking black coffee because it was always the lowest calorie thing to drink when grabbing coffee. I even, several times, debated between iced coffee or iced americano because some cafes listed a 3-5 calorie difference between them...
Oh my God! The fact, I can relate to your last sentence is so funny and scary at the same time! I hope you are doing better. We deserve a life without any diet rule
My stomach was doing summersaults watching this. I felt like crying. You are so so brave.
Thanks for really eating it hah. There is nothing more boring when ppl trying to pretend they actually eat the stuff they film their first bite of! They are making a fool of themselves because they think we are that stupid and believe it hah!
Love your video, thanks! :)
Now haha! Continue, I think I can speak for the majority of people that it's not boring, the faster speed after editing is perfect! And you include it in meaningful conversation!
@rebeccaleung I sent you a message via insta, so happy if you read it! Love, Vic ❥
Viktoria Stoeckl omg who did that spill the tea
신수미 haha yh
I didn't even see this video until 8:30 at night, but I broke a "rule" today as well: eating peanut butter with a bagel. I never allowed myself both of them in the same day since they're both higher in calories, but I had it today! and guess what--I'm still alive to tell about it.
Proud of you!!
Okay but why am I so proud of someone i've never seen in my life. I just can't stop smiling. Seeing someone challenging himself and just growing mentally makes me so happy
Yayyy eat more food..more food means more fuel to do more great things in life and have energy
TH-cam addict depends on what food you eat.
I'm drinking my coffee...and it's with milk.For a moment I thought if it's worth it...and guess what?I AM drinking it. Because I AM worth it!❤
I randomly found this video and I never knew how badly I needed this. This is an amazing idea! I'm new here, but I can hoenstly say I am so proud of you. It's the small things like this that gives me the courage to try and beat my own eating disorder. Xo
Vada Barnes hello! Why thank you, I’m glad you liked the video. I’ll keep doing the small things so that you will too ;)
it’s so crazy how i’m trying to do the exact opposite of you
Same. It's not great to say or admit either. Do you watch these things to show yourself what to restrict? That sounds awful because it's on a recovery video with someone really fing brave taking that extra step to recover. I'm with you though.
Willow i’m actually trying to lose weight to become healthy because i’m overweight. i lost 30 pounds already and i would hope to girls trying to lose weight to do it in a healthy way and try to get to a healthy weight and not have to worry about being “skinny” and i wish that girls who watch these videos are trying to recover from eating disorders and not take it the wrong way ❤️
@Mia Murphy you're gonna get trough this, in the end, just don't treat yourself too harshly. You should be happy with the way you look in the end, but not lose your happiness while trying to achieve that goal. Try to eat healthier, not less. See what the recommended number of calories is for your gender, age, height and weight and try sticking to that. I know it's been two months, but i hope you're doing well on your journey!
@@nataliecampbell1907 keep fighting! You're gonna see results, just don't give up and treat your body with the kindness it deserves.
I know how you feel I’m trying to restrict so many things, some days I eat so much and I just feel like a whale. I feel like my scale is wrong because it says I’m 100 lbs but I feel like I’m over that. I just want to be at most 95 lbs
I'm so impressed and proud of you! Knowing what it is like living with this annoying voice in your head that can really pull you down after eating some "scary foods" or eating at all, I really admire you and I wish you best good luck on your recovery!
I struggled with anorexia from the time I was twelve years old. I am in recovery as well and have been for quite some time. Kudos to you for breaking your food rules! 🙌 Five victories in one day is quite an accomplishment. Keep up the fantastic work.
Your so strong girl thank you for inspiring me for recovery💓💓
Lovely Brit *you’re
This must have been so monumental for you.
I remember when my GP gave me a certain amount of time to start re- gaining weight after a relapse, and if I didn't hit that target, I was going to have to go back to the ED Unit for what would have been the 6th time, and that scared me more than anything. Spending another year in hospital and missing out on college again, I couldn't face it....and at was first just little things: Semi-skimmed milk on my cereal instead of milk or water.....White flour ( which was one of the hardest things but I remember the elation after eating a scone with jam) quitting weighing everything I ate .... challenging those things felt like such a big "win"....and somewhere along the way, happiness& normality started to creep back in.
I don't know you, but I was so proud of you for this video, and for taking back your life xx
I can't relate to what you're going through, but your openness about your recovery is so enlightening. I love watching every one of your videos, keep up the great work!
This was really bold of you. I struggle with my “restrictions” I’ve made up in my head, and watching this made me realize how I have grown either an acquired taste because I actually do like how I eat/drink it or it’s because I’ve just told myself I don’t need the extras... Thank you for posting this :) anyone in recovery needs to be aware of all aspects of getting better and what it truly means, and this is one of them !!
This broke my heart in a way, but I'm proud you challenged yourself even though I don't know you or necessarily watch your videos. I can't imagine having an eating disorder, but I can imagine that it would be one of the worst things to go through. I hope you and everyone else that has an eating disorder continues to progress. And, please know, that this too shall pass and there's always a new day tomorrow. :)
I think it can be really good for people that you posted this video. It shows a new perspective because we see your actual life, still having issues with eating and trying to overcome it. I feel like people usually post about eating disorders when they have overcome it. This gave me and probably other people a more realistic look into eating disorders regarding everyday life.❤️
For me it’d be to NOT eat those things. That’d be a good challenge
Edit: Just noticed some comments. I was just saying something that I was thinking at the moment while watching this video. Everyone has their own problems. She can’t eat certain things that others eat excessively. It’s not a huge deal to some and to others it is. I can’t relate to her but it’s great to see the different points of views of others on food. That way one can get to understand them more. Be more empathetic for others on any level.
I watched this video since it was in my recommended.
Jeditard That’s great! I started this Thursday and I weighed 150 at my beginning. Now today (Saturday) I weighed myself and I weigh 146. Exercise of about 10 minutes and watching what I eat is helping :)
@@dianar6600 I don't believe that. It's extremely hard to lose that much pounds in only a few days, probably impossible! It usually takes about 30 days to lose a few pounds.
Eli Jenner Levine It was only 4 pounds.... I’m still young so I’ll obviously lose water weight first
@@dianar6600 me too, I'm young still too but it's crazy that you lost 4 pounds in only a few days. 1 pound is already so much to lose.
Eli Jenner Levine Well it’s because my regular weight where I maintain it is 145-148 and around that time I was eating as much as I could and had little control over what I was eating. So when I was controlling again then I went back to the weight that I usually had.
From one recoverer to another, you freaking rock! I had to retry so many things because I had conditioned myself for so long to think the worst in food and who I was that I gained a new appreciation for food. Love this! Each bite was one step further towards a happier and healthier you. ❤️❤️❤️
holy fuck i was meant 2 find this video!! i didnt even realize i still held myself by food rules?? thank you so much for making this video
ilovecupcakes329 exactly the same I have Ben recovered for years!! But there has been so many things I don’t do. I am now considered overweight haha but still weird things I don’t do
This is honestly so relatable. I've been recovering from anorexia for a couple of months how and have been setting challenges along the way like having a milkshake, eating a pizza, eating in a restaurant, having an extra snack. All my hard work has played off and I'm now a healthy weight for height. I'm so proud! Everyone can fight because even though it's the hardest thing you'll have to face it's definitely worth it in the end! I believe in you xxxxx😊
I wish i could do this and not feel guilty afterwards. When i start eating unhealthy food i can’t seem to stop. It’s like “dang it, i already had a bite” kind of mentality. Then i stop when i’m too full that my stomach feels like exploding. I feel extremely guilty afterwards so i starve myself the next day. I hope i could learn to just take control and not allow food to take over. This is really inspiring tho :) thank you for sharing.
YG STAN this is so relatable
It’s been a year since I’ve pretty much fully recovered and I cannot stress how helpful this is. It felt like you were in my head, but in a good way. I love this sm.
I am so proud of you!! I've been in recovery since January myself and I relate so much to these STUPID food rules! Like they really won't help at all yet I feel as if it makes the biggest difference in the world. But it doesn't! It only makes me choose the crappy untasteful version of everything. And I don't feel any better. I'm so much happy when I eat what I crave. You are so relatable and inspiring. Thank you so much for making these videos. And I wish you all the strength in the world!
You know what's crazy? I've had an ED for 3 yrs and it was only 3 months ago that someone at my school found out because she had an ED when she was younger too. So now I'm recovering and it feels kind of strange that my parents and friends will probably never even know I had such a crazy battle.
Yes girl, I can relate with the no cheese rule! Seeing you challenge it makes me want to go and do the same thing! You’re beautiful inside and out !
You look so radiant and glowy! Sending good vibes to your recovery ❤️ I’m recovering too and bought myself a dark chocolate bar yesterday and it was also underwhelming but I felt like I was taking a step in the right direction !
Rebecca Leung thank you so much! There’s always another day to look forward to new food
Oh God you are precious!! You are so soft spoken, funny, real and beautiful - and you speak the truth in a very calming way. I wish you all the best, you are so strong 🙏🏻✨ Lots of love from Denmark!!
tænkte det præcis samme !!
After my looong recovery of an ED I can finally eat what I want without worrying. Even though an ED never truly leaves you, it gets better and better with work, love and happiness. I just wish everyone who struggled or struggles with an ED to feel the same way I do now . Keep fighting :)
Well done! And thank you. I know I can be free one day. It's been a lifelong battle for me, but I haven't lost it yet. I will win. :)
This is the first video of yours that I've watched but I'm hooked. You're so relatable and yet so inspiring. Going through a rough time but this makes me want to take control of my life too. So thank you! :) subscribed!
I’ve struggled/struggle with Ed. And it’s a silent struggle! Although, yes having a small cup of coffee with creamer or having a bite of cake to someone who hasn’t experienced ED seems distorted but the anxiety that can be created due to that ONE bite or sip is overwhelming. It’s a very underrated disorder, and I’m so proud of this young lady! For not only promoting a healthy way of combating an ED, but for also taking that one step closer to having it be a thing of the past. I had to learn that it is ok to enjoy yourself. We were given food and taste buds for a reason, food doesn’t need to be scary..food doesn’t need to be a distant friend. It’s a beautiful gift we were given to enjoy. I truly hope everyone who suffers with an Ed and those who struggle in silence with an ED are able to combate it, it is a bumpy road I will not lie. BUT I PROMISE YOU IT IS THE MOST PRECIOUS GEM YOU COULD GIVE TO YOURSELF!!! You CAN and WILL kick it’s butt!!!! Eds do NOT control you, YOU control IT!!! Xoxo much love from a fellow person who has kicked her EDs butt!!!!❤️❤️❤️ I know I don’t know any of you, but I love y’all! You got this!!
That’s been on of my greatest fears too!! I’m scared of pouring milk into my coffee!! But seeing you show ED who’s boss and adding milk to it shows me that it’s possible. I adore you ♥️♥️
Why put no milk ??
Jessica Arias One word: Calories 🤦🏼♀️
Anahi Meza it’s great. even if you’re afraid of the calories, they’re so trivial. very little calories will not do anything besides fuel you. and it’s good protein!
Yeah I can eat loads of food. But drinks having any calories freaks me out so much
PierceTheSkye _ We’ll overcome our fears soon; slowly but surely ♥️
i wanna try this but i’m way to scared of getting fat
i’m in recovery doe
no One day of junk food couldn't possibly make you "fat" . You must think logically . Good luck ! :)
I eat a box of cookies eveyday and im still not fat, but dont worry u will recover, believe in yourself and enjoy life
You can do it! Don't force too much at once, but challenge yourself a bit every day :3
If you stay healthy and do exercise you can eat whatever you want
you can do it!
I feel you on the pasta! Idk why, because I eat toast almost every day. I think it's been demonized as empty carbs...and I find myself wanting to make sure that if I eat it, it's "worth it" in the sense that it better be the best pasta I've ever eaten or it's a waste. Of course that's flawed because how can I judge the best pasta I've ever eaten if I never eat it. Ha. Anyway, thanks for this video...you're inspiring me in my recovery!!
I️ really think this is the best video on the internet. I️ have no words you’re an inspiration!!! Thank you for making this video and I️m so proud of how far you have come ❤️
Hei 😊 just wanted to say that you are a huge inspiration for me and I admire you for what you’ve already achieved. ❤️ You are stronger, healthier and happier! Keep on the good work and enjoy life! You are beautiful and genuine! Thank you❣️
That bit about being able to sleep because you're not thinking about food stood out to me SO MUCH. I often can't sleep because I want to eat but I think it's too late at night/ I ate too much already today/ etc. when in reality I should just eat because I'm hungry instead of laying in bed, awake, thinking about getting to eat in the morning. I've been "recovered" for several years so it's frustrating when those nasty thoughts creep into your mind despite all I've done.
i'm so proud of you! This must have been really hard. i look up to you now, because not a lot of people would do that. Once again, im very proud.
You have really put yourself through some challenging tasks, and I absolutely admire that about this video. I too come from a similar place and can promise you that freedom is at the end of all of these challenges. A tip that worked for me, is to counteract every unhealthy thought with an equally healthy thought. Even fake it until you make it if you have to. Keep going girl!!!
Oh you smashed it! What people dont realise is ED is forever. It doesnt simply slip away in the night and leave, and never come back. Its a conscious decision to be on track, and healthy every single day. PS I still dont have cheese on my burgers because its rubbery most of the times, BUT i frigen love cheese!
ur saving my life, i love u so much. God blessed me by allowing me to find this video and ur channel. Ty for doing this, its seriously helping me and so many other people. All the feelings you described I relate to 100%