Mark, thank you so much for allowing me to tell my story. There’s so much more that I left out, but when you get in front of a camera without a script, the memories and flashbacks come at random times, so sometimes things seems a little disjointed, but that’s okay. Also, when you deal with various types of trauma like I did, new memories steadily come to my mind. The man was a crook, a thief, a murderer. He never truly held down a job but somehow, someway, he was able to convince people to help him - like the high-profile defense attorney. Jerry didn’t care about his family and the conditions we lived in. He cared only for himself and did only for himself. Again, Mark AND Noelle, thank you for allowing me to get my story and message out - it’s never too late to change the narrative! Merry Christmas! ❤❤
You did good, Jennifer, i was on the edge of my seat the whole time, and not because i wanted to get up and leave, 😉 I particularly liked the way you would go into side details/events and went right back at the spot you were at in the story. Be proud of yourself for being a survivor and no doubt that your mother would be so proud of you. ❤ Enjoy your Christmas.
Thank you for telling your story. There are many in the same situation and I hope you helped someone. Nobody deserves that treatment. I am so glad you made it through successfully, many do not.
I went to school with Jennifer. I always thought she was one of those girls that had a perfect life. She was always so put together & confident. Just goes to prove that we never really know what goes on behind closed doors.
@@crustinagohard9049 because I have lived through a lot. She's been talked into thinking her dreams and nightmares were reality, and some of it is entirely manufactured memory. It's blatantly obvious.
@@thatguynobodylikes6326 I haven't listened to all of this video yet but I will keep that in mind while watching. I have also lived through alot along with studying human behavior and behavior modification as my major. I'll let you know my opinion on it, as you have let us know you're opinion. You do agree that is your opinion, right? You seemed to make your point after someone who went to school with her commented on how she always seemed so put together and had a perfect life. People can put on very good shows or masks that are 100% believable as coping mechanisms for things they are not proud of or that makes them uncomfortable. From what I've heard so far, living in a 2 bdrm trailer with 6 people is probable not something she dreamed up and certainly not a perfect life, or even comfortable life for that matter. I'm not saying you're incorrect. I'm open minded to your opinion. Going to continue watching now.
"It's never too late to change the narrative." Amen, sister! Your mom would be so proud of you. Thank you for sharing your story. And what a testament to the power of hope and therapy.🎉
The violent step dad with guns, domestic violence, sex abuse, drugs was my life growing up too. The disjointed retelling of her history is characteristic of retelling a traumic past that hasn't been fully processed. 3 years therapy is just barely enough to begin the process of healing. I'm in my 60's w 8 yrs of counseling & still have stuff that's unprocessed. It takes a lifetime to undo this kind of childhood. Best wishes to Jenn & the others who have commented to similar experiences.
Thank you for you comments. You are right - it’s going to take so many more years of counseling. And, yes, the traumatic events sometimes cause disjointed storytelling or conversations. Much love to you!
Her step dad is Jerry Thomas Goad. Found a detailed article online from the Dallas Observer about the arrest of Jerry and the murder of Stacy Jones. Im happy to hear that this lovely lady and her mom made it out alive and safe. Very brave of her to share her story with us and i wish her nothing but the best of life here on out. Merry Christmas everyone ✌️
Proud of you my brave friend. It’s hard to share these stories, but we find peace when the words can’t hold power over of us any longer. My stepfather and Jerry were “business associates”. A childhood of shear terror is what we lived. Too much to even begin to share. Thankfully, both of these monsters died in prison a month apart.
It’s the one thing I don’t like. Not to be confused with interruptions, however, letting her ramble for 30 minutes straight also isn’t good. There is a happy medium, you know?
To anyone complaining about how “hard it is to follow”, do you realize how hard it is to tell a lifetime’s worth of details in an hour? Time jumps in a story are going to occur when there is so much to cover in such little time. Mark seems like a busy guy and has to keep his interviews to a minimum, to appease you religious viewers. Try thinking from another perspective instead of your own. Great story!
You’re right , and she’s going back so far into her childhood and remembering so much of the impacted incidents . It’s a lot and still there’s more . I could listen to her until her heart content .
Exactly and the jumping around told a story in itself .... of the trauma she had experienced and how it affects a human especially a baby human like she was when most of this happened. Her body language also told a powerful story.
Thank you for your comment! Trauma causes your brain to do so many things - things you can’t control. I could have taken up Mark’s whole day with stories, but unfortunately, he didn’t have enough time. Take care!
@@pcamp865thank you for understanding! I have had a few people comment that I am lying or making up these stories. It’s all true, unfortunately, but we keep putting one foot in front of the other - we persevere!
@@jennifersmith3806 That is ridiculous. That stuff falls under "You can't make that shit up!" I could see the truth in your body language. Just as you went to talk about where you are now and Jason you body language changed. You became very vulnerable and then emotional. People do not understand trauma and dissociation. That we can talk about the most traumatic stuff without showing emotion because we had to detach from the emotion to survive it.
Gosh, she should write a book! I wanted to hear more…as sad and traumatic her life was, jenn’s current life just made me cry! She’s an amazing storyteller and therapy you can tell has helped her preserver! What a story!
And you’re a real life internet troll hiding behind a screen from the comfort of your miserable existence. I hope you’re never treated the way you treat others. Maybe you should seek therapy to process your negativity & ignorance towards others who have survived trauma that are BRAVE enough to share their experiences in order to HELP their fellow human. Wishing you well & hope you decide to seek a journey to assist you in finding the source for your lack of empathy.
And you're a real life internet troll hiding behind a screen from the comfort of your miserable disposition. I hope you're never treated the way you treat others. Maybe you should seek therapy to process your negativity & ignorance towards others who have survived trauma that are BRAVE enough to share their experiences in order to HELP their fellow human. Wishing you well & hope you decide to seek a journey to assist you in finding the source for your lack of empathy. Projection is reflection.
As a Gospel man, I love listening to people's pasts before I draw judgement. I think this is a wonderful channel, since it allows you to understand how people end up in the paths they are on. May God's grace just cover these hurting people and may my fellow Christians learn to love them for who they are.
Do t judge even after u hear...as a Gospel man u know that is for God alone. Our job is to accept and love without judgement, with or without knowing their story ..becz u will never know all of it and you .(.like.all of us) ...will understand it only through the filter of your own self.
Yes, I fully agree. It has given me MUCH more empathy and helped me realize how EVERY precious person has their own complex stories to tell and sadly more are tragic than I think any of us could have every imagined. As a believer myself, God is using this channel for myself and many others in so many ways. Russ Taff, Johnny Chang... so many powerful stories were discovered here! Thanks Mark!
This story really touched a place in me. My mother was like her step father. I'm 60 and still struggling with abusive/toxi relationships, my mother is still violating and harming. I'm still trying to heal, but have no support system. But, this gives me hope. Thank you so much for sharing this difficult story with the world!!
I'm so sorry. My mother wasn't over the top, but she was controlling, and manipulating. She used the guilt trips to get her way. (That and a belt.) And dad was an alcoholic. I can only tell you that there's no shame in cutting out your mother from your life. I also had relatives who were liars and backstabbers when I was young. If you didn't bow down to them, they did things and gossiped about you. They were very manipulating narcissistic people! When I was their focus, they went out of their way to make me miserable. Completely cutting them from my life was very freeing. It wasn't a hateful deed. In fact, I was really apathetic. I wished them well; I just didn't want them in my life. One thing that has really helped me get over a lifetime of insecurity and fear was learning the ways of the stoics. I listen to the Daily Stoic on TH-cam and read books on the stoics and their beliefs. At 63, I'm finally at a place that I'm truly happy and feel in control of my life. I'm no longer afraid to take crap from people and feel fine saying "no". I wish you well on your healing journey. I'm sure there's a support group somewhere near you with people who have been through abuse. Maybe ask a therapy facility if they know of any. My best friend lost her son in a car accident. She was in such a deep depression! Luckily, she found a group called Compassionate Friends. Everyone in the group has lost a child. Everyone understands, listens, and supports each other. Hopefully, God will guide you to your bees. (A reference to Blind Melon's "No Rain".) God bless you! You'll find your peace. :)
You can find healing in forgiveness, and love from God. I was able to be freed through forgiving. Not because they deserve it, but because i needed to be set free.
"it's never too late to change the narrative". I work in a treatment center and I am going to use that. Very insightful. A master class in overcoming adverse situations and coming out the other end unbroken. Thank you so much for your story.
Wow! I escaped one man who was like your stepfather. When I found out he was killed by his new girlfriend while checking on a protection order I was elated but then guilted myself for this reaction. This man hurt children so I praised God for doing what I thought someone should do. You are a hero and those of us who have been through it know what it takes. I checked into EMDR but haven't done it. Would love to talk to you about your recovery from the residual PTSD and how you were able to trust enough to marry and have children. I still struggle. Thank you and thank Mark!
I am so proud of you for telling your story. I can attest, I was one of those friends who had no clue. Jen and her Mama were always so silly and fun to hang out with at her pool parties and even at the apartment before our Senior prom. I love you and I will always pray for your happiness sister.
@@jennifersmith3806 looking back and reading about him, your timeline of events are spot on. I remember Jennifer C. would make comments about Jerry when I would stay at her house but she would not elaborate because she would not ever break any confidences y'all had.
@@jennifersmith3806Yeesch, Jen I’m really sorry to hear that. Oh do I ever believe you-Woman, we’ve lived how many lives in one lifetime, eh? Apparently some people have charmed lives but we didn’t so we know what it’s like. How many of us would have loved to have had a “normal” life?! But we didn’t -and we didn’t emulate our terrifying “parents” either by becoming addicts, criminals etc. No one is interested in performing research studies on us, the ones who went on to have successful lives. I guess we’re just not salacious enough and didn’t follow the “script” that states we all become abusers/drug addicts/domestic terrorists ourselves.
Mark is so amazing at reading people and knowing how to present his work. He has these amazing interviews but then he has videos like this where he just lets them pour out themselves in such a beautiful way that helps them take control of their story, uninterrupted. Thank you for all you do, Mark. To Jenn, you are so incredibly strong and an example of somebody who's gone through hell, and walked out with the flame in your hand. God bless you 💙
@@XxShadowGTxX Yeah, understood but to be honest, Mark is a great guy but he really never has any good insight or he is hesitant to give his opinion on things. The guests and stories make this channel, obviously. Mark does a good job of caring enough and being empathetic enough to let these voices be heard.
@@XxShadowGTxX not hating by the way just giving my opinion on your comment that I happened to see immediately after watching. I understand where your coming from though.
@@Theworstchannelposting I'm sorry if I took it the wrong way, I get you now. As far as Mark not providing much insight, I think that's one of the qualities I appreciate about his format. He's in the pocket of listening without advice or attempting to problem solve or give his opinion. I think it's why so many find him easy to talk to. As good as somebody's intentions are, many people are very quick to try and interject their own experience or some advice and for some it can turn them off from expressing. I think he's found a very healthy middle ground how he interacts in the interviews.
Oh Jenn, thank you so much for sharing your story! Your fear, pain, and fearlessness is palpable! I’m so proud of the woman you’ve become and the life you’ve created! Thank you for sharing your story of survival!! I wish you a happily ever after with your children and sweetheart! Sending love and a huge hug! Your mama is sooo damn proud of you! I hope one day you can feel that from her! ❤
As someone who has recently began addressing childhood trauma, I can relate to the seemingly disjointed narrative in this interview. Its extremely difficult to convey a timeline of trauma and events. In fact, when discussing my past with those close to me, i generally start the conversation saying, i am going to be jumping around a lot, if something doesnt make sense please ask.. i think that its a matter of still processing the details and emotions. Thanks for sharing your story Jen. ❤.
She really does need to write a book! I can also see a movie based on her story!! I was hooked on every word she spoke!! I'm so glad she found her bio dad and the man who treats her like a woman deserves to be treated!! God Bless you Jenn!!
So much of your story is very similar to my own life. I’m 51 now. Ty so much for sharing this. Jennifer you are so strong and have given me so much hope. It’s truly NEVER too late. And you are living proof that you can survive, you can and will get thru! ❤️❤️❤️
I live in Dallas. Kinda cool to watch SWU and hear Dallas streets and highways. - It only took 1/2 a century, but I’m glad she’s found peace, love, and happiness. 🙏🏾
Thankfully she survived and is doing well. Sadly, this is not the case for most who have traumatic and abusive backgrounds. Jenn is one in a million. Bless her.
Jennifer Smith, you are a brave woman. I am so sorry you lost your Mom. I am sorry that you experienced the worst that life has to offer. I pray that you find peace in your heart.
It's insane the lives so many of us go through before we become adults. Watching all these kinds of videos makes me feel like I'm not the only one with a fked up childhood. Thanks for sharing as im sure it's not an easy thing to do especially online. Love from Melbourne Australia ❤
The best interview in a while. My mother left my father for a man that was connected to one of the NY crime families in the 80's. It was nothing compared to Jennifer however there were some overlaps. My heart broke knowing that Jennifer had to live like that for the first 20 years of her life. Glad she found happiness!
Jenn...you are an amazing, strong woman! Your mom really is with you. She's watching over you. She'll whisper in your ear and keep you from bad guys. But they're gone from your life now. Enjoy your happy life Jason and all your children! You deserve it and don't think for one minute that you don't deserve it! Best wishes. I hope Mark does an update on how your life has been this next year. I know youll keep raising the bar for yourself! xo
We can see that from an outside point of view but it's harder to tell when it's someone you love. and even though she's an adult now those memories were still made when she was a child and still have those child-like emotions attached. i agree with you, she was objectively a bad parent, but i'm not shocked that this woman has rose colored glasses about it
Walk a mile in my shoes and then we can sit and talk. I understand where you are coming from - I truly do. I have so much else to say. I have thought about starting my own channel so people can hear the whole story. Thanks for watching
Sorry Mark, sometimes I’m so blown away by some stories I forget to hit the like button.This beautiful woman’s life and her mom went thru such crazy fearful awkwardness in her life then into adulthood is so sad. Sweetheart I hope you find peace and love and freedom.We are the same age and I think to my self 50 years of this insanity is too long for anybody. God bless.
Inspiring story, with some real villains and awesome heroes. Thanks for sharing, and you did a great job! You did well honoring your mother and showing how we can do right for ourselves at all times despite the circumstances.
I was 47 when i FINALLY told my mom that her baby brother had molested me more than once at about 6 or 7....he trapped me in front of people until i could escape with nobody noticing. It was a horrid shameful game i couldnt understand until well into adulthood. Turns out it wasnt just me...he got my older cousin too, but her mom told her keep it quiet, your dad will kill him, ill keep him away from you...its just astonishing how much these childhood traumas can affect your ENTIRE life without you really understanding whats happening
This was such in incredibly (heart wrenching) story, but I was so very engulfed in it! Thanks for sharing your very private details! People need to see these things are be hyper vigilant and aware! There are some very aweful people in our world! You’re so strong and brave and I know your mama was the exact same! I’m glad you had her to help you through a difficult childhood. My mom is from Dallas as well. She grew up in oak cliff she was one of eight kids in a 2 bd house no bathroom (they had an outhouse) it was a difficult and traumatic childhood for her. I’m just thankful you were able to share some dark times and show others to start being more aware of what’s going on around you. Be careful. Be safe and always keep your eyes open. You’re an incredible woman, Jenn! ❤❤
If you would want to do a second part to your story I believe we would all love to be here to hear it. Don't worry about it being scattered. Your sharing and it is impressive how well you did. 🌈 💜 🌈
Listening to Jenn it’s helping me cope with the day, I’m so grateful & thankful she’s even been able to speak thankyou 4 this it’s Xmas day here in Australia & I was woken by thieves stealing my car my wallet my phone, cops found phone in the gutter, I’ve lost everything we just gone thru the biggest flood in Australian history I deferred my car insurance to buy Xmas presents 4 my grandkids & now it’s all been taken away, I’ve lived the lives of so many of your guests & I don’t no anyone where I live as it’s a new location 4 me but now I’m totally alone everything taken from me
@jax993, You’re truly going through a horrible time. It absolutely sucks and it feels like the weight of the world is on you alone. Why would you *not* feel as you do? It’s scary, lonely, uncertain (which humans hate) and bleak. Once upon a time, you didn’t have *any* of this stuff, right? But somehow over time you managed to accumulate all of it. Was it easy? Ohhellno. Will it be easy this time? Ohhellno. You don’t have to do a damn thing right now this minute. You don’t have to have answers. Try to just focus on the here and now. The there and then is over-so yeah, grieve! One breath, one step at a time. Even a few minutes of time is long enough to just blank it out. The future is unknown to all of us so that hasn’t changed a bit from when you had all your stuff. Above all, you still have you and it’s the most steadfast being of your life, with or without your stuff. Just one heartbeat at a time {{{jax993}}} That’s all.
@@tundrawomansays694 wow thank you 🙏🏼 police found my car today after it was invoked in another break & enter forensic have it 4 a few days, the thieves trashed the inside with black paint alover the interior but I’m grateful I got it back, we’ve had 64 cars stolen here in 3 weeks! These kids don’t care they’re caught locked up let out because of indigenous rights & they just go do it again, my place was targeted again y/day, as soon as I get my car back I’m outta here, thought this was my new start bid shock no, anyway thank you so much 4 your words believe me they meant a lot 🙏🏼
@AlbertasFinest sort of getting there cops found my car today after they’d used it for another break & enter on a family home, my cars been used for around 6 or so break ins since Xmas day, grateful for people I don’t no supporting me but at the same time this new start to life o think I’ll move back to where I came ftt try on ❤️🙏🏼
Such a gripping account of a childhood traumatic existence. Bravo for surviving it and for realizing you are worth more and were sabotaging your life being with abusive men as an adult. Happy for you finding your true love that you truly deserve. ❤
What's with these single moms bringing strangers into the home? Reckless, selfish behavior that puts children in great jeopardy!! Shame on the women who put their own kids at risk in this way.
I needed to hear this right now at this very moment. Thank you for sharing your story. You just gave me hope again. My life was a mess before and I've changed drastically since my past. but the cycle of thinking patterns and beliefs are a work In progress still. Learning to love myself and believe that life still has something out there for me. Thank you
Girl you are lucky to be alive. Continue on your jpyrney of healing and also living your life the best you can for all you’ve been through. You deserve happiness, sweetie.
You're truly an inspiration... from the rest of us who are treading water with dangerous men; THANK YOU FOR TESTIFYING TO US THAT THERE IS LIGHT at the end of the tunnel, if you play the cards right and are careful. Thank you very much, especially for sharing right before Christmas🎄
wow she told her story so well and truly is a survivor. Thank you for sharing your story it was very moving and very inspiring all that you have over came.
Thank you for sharing your incredible story Jennifer. I pray for continued healing in your life and with the loss of your Mom still heavy on your heart. Sometime you will be reunited with her in heaven where there is no more pain, suffering and death for eternity. God bless you!!
Wow this really resonated with me. I was in a relationship from the age of 15 to 30 with a man that who often did unimaginable things. I could literally feel the terror and feeling of fright trying to get away as the story unfolded. I’m so thankful I finally got away and wish I had done so sooner. These relationships will damage you and can even cause your health to physically deteriorate. If I could talk to my younger self I would say “leave and don’t ever look back”
Wow Mark this is why what you do is so special. I needed to hear her story. I am just a bit older than Jenn and I was starting to give up on finding someone different than my pattern and finding some career success etc. after another big crash. This gave me the hope to believe that is in my near future.
When we see the patterns we can correct them and through recognition (the first step) you’re on your way! Best wishes for the holidays and new year. It’s never too late to get a life rather than a Life Sentence. (And Imma antique!)
You are ABSOLUTELY correct in saying " YOU CAN CHANGE THE NARRATIVE"! I was an Hells Angels ole lady for 13 yrs, and In discovering my man, the father of two amazing children;was an RCMP ( Royal Canadian Mounted Police) informant, and in trying to let the brothers know to not being believed and beat down continually as I couldn't provide proof. As back in the 80's & 90's, we didn't have cell phones and definitely wasn't about to pull out a Polaroid camera. And with things I'd seen, one doesn't get out graciously after all that, but I did. Willing to take a bullet cause I just wanted out one way or another. I was released and HAVE changed the narrative. From stripping in clubs and handing my money over, to becoming red seal welder with the Pipefitter union hall and making a honest living. I'm actually writing an autobiography about it as you should! Our story is so similar in so many ways, yet different circumstances. Coming from someone that has turned it around, I'm very proud of you. Your mother IS looking down on you, and know that NOW she truly IS resting in peace. Love & Respect to you! Stay Strong ❤
I’m so proud of you for allowing your heart to open up for the right man! I feel your pain in many ways, when you are abused emotionally and physically it seems so natural to attract those same evil people into your life. I still haven’t gotten to the point of trusting anyone in due to the narcissists that I always seem to attract. You however have overcome a great deal and have accepted love from a “normal “ man Praying your life has many more blessings!💕
Thank you Jennifer for sharing your story. What came through to me is what a great human being you are. Your strength, integrity, compassion and honesty, wow! I'm glad that you met Father and your partner and are finding peace and happiness, and long may that last and grow. Bask in the sunshine of your future, you deserve.
Beautiful woman with a beautiful story . Seeming like I listened to a movie whole time she brought up each scene, I love the thought process of how she breaks it down , not chronological order but broken down enough for good story telling , I to as well lost my mom as she did, heart goes out you and ur family, may God continue to bless u !! Much love
The similarities of her childhood experience with her stepdad and mine are soo similar with the arson and insurance fraud. Him being an informant and having a grandiose sense of self like an espionage badass. The animal cruelty in front of me. One difference though is my stepdad didn’t like me… like at all. I loved listening to her story. Feels like validation that someone experienced a childhood similar to mine.
I know that she said her mom was her savior but her mother allowed a lot of traumatic experiences to take place by not removing herself and her kids from Jerry
Her mother was absolutely 100% responsible for any of her trauma. If you get to the core of it, why was a step father ever even involved?. . mom allowed it.
@@Lunabella1222 so her fear is to blame for her daughters life then. The mothers feelings , not reality is the core of the problem. An emotion is to blame. Think about it. And the fact that now this woman has to accept and deal with her mother before she can even address her trauma is only a guarantee that this women is beyond saving.
This was the best way to spend my Christmas eve. I am about to start EMDR. Sis you are so inspiring. Your mom can definetely see you, its always clear in heaven. Rest assured Sis Jerry is rotting in the pits of hell.
To have been able to hear what her Mom had to say about her life with this man would have been incredible!!!!! Imagine all the stuff that Jenn has no idea about!
Oh Jenn, there's immense beauty in your story, even though it was a wild ride for you. The intense bond you had (&still have) with your mom is a beautiful part for me. She was strong for you, stood by you and allowed herself to be there for you I have a painful relationship with my mother and the pain is like no other. Yet I feel happy that you got to experience a mother who was beautiful in and outside. To hear you describe the bond is very encouraging for me, to know that it wasn't my fault my mother was like that - your mother chose to prove that. She was a cheer leader, and made time for you. I have to admit, I'm envious too, but in a good way. I don't know why, but your story felt really healing to that particular aspect of my life. Much love from kenya 🇰🇪💚💞
Mom was NOT a savior. She kept her child in that enviroment with that monster. Oh my god I can hardly believe this story but I do and can because I have met people like Jerry.
Wow Jennifer thank you for sharing this tragic life that you had. My heart hurts so much for you but I see how poised you are and how hard you have faught for the life you have today. May God give you the life that you deserve, filled with so much love and your mom will live forever in your heart and I know how proud she is of you 🙏🙏🙏
I absolutely loved her story. She and her mother are strong women. Very strong. Getting through horrible circumstances beyond all adversity. She’s a true inspiration! I am so happy to hear that she is happy now. What a wonderful woman! Her mother is absolutely looking down from heaven upon her 😊
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Mark, thank you so much for allowing me to tell my story. There’s so much more that I left out, but when you get in front of a camera without a script, the memories and flashbacks come at random times, so sometimes things seems a little disjointed, but that’s okay. Also, when you deal with various types of trauma like I did, new memories steadily come to my mind. The man was a crook, a thief, a murderer. He never truly held down a job but somehow, someway, he was able to convince people to help him - like the high-profile defense attorney. Jerry didn’t care about his family and the conditions we lived in. He cared only for himself and did only for himself. Again, Mark AND Noelle, thank you for allowing me to get my story and message out - it’s never too late to change the narrative! Merry Christmas! ❤❤
Thank you for sharing your story. It takes a truly strong person to open up so much.
You did good, Jennifer, i was on the edge of my seat the whole time, and not because i wanted to get up and leave, 😉
I particularly liked the way you would go into side details/events and went right back at the spot you were at in the story. Be proud of yourself for being a survivor and no doubt that your mother would be so proud of you. ❤
Enjoy your Christmas.
Wow do I relate! We are same I had a stepdad like this too. The insanity! Thanks for sharing.
Thank you for telling your story. There are many in the same situation and I hope you helped someone. Nobody deserves that treatment. I am so glad you made it through successfully, many do not.
Sad that you said your mom was your savior. She's worse than Jerry. WOW
I went to school with Jennifer. I always thought she was one of those girls that had a perfect life. She was always so put together & confident. Just goes to prove that we never really know what goes on behind closed doors.
@@thatguynobodylikes6326why do you say that?
@@crustinagohard9049 because I have lived through a lot. She's been talked into thinking her dreams and nightmares were reality, and some of it is entirely manufactured memory. It's blatantly obvious.
@@thatguynobodylikes6326 I haven't listened to all of this video yet but I will keep that in mind while watching. I have also lived through alot along with studying human behavior and behavior modification as my major. I'll let you know my opinion on it, as you have let us know you're opinion. You do agree that is your opinion, right? You seemed to make your point after someone who went to school with her commented on how she always seemed so put together and had a perfect life. People can put on very good shows or masks that are 100% believable as coping mechanisms for things they are not proud of or that makes them uncomfortable. From what I've heard so far, living in a 2 bdrm trailer with 6 people is probable not something she dreamed up and certainly not a perfect life, or even comfortable life for that matter. I'm not saying you're incorrect. I'm open minded to your opinion. Going to continue watching now.
@@crustinagohard9049 I couldn't possibly care less what your opinion is.
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"It's never too late to change the narrative."
Amen, sister!
Your mom would be so proud of you. Thank you for sharing your story.
And what a testament to the power of hope and therapy.🎉
The violent step dad with guns, domestic violence, sex abuse, drugs was my life growing up too. The disjointed retelling of her history is characteristic of retelling a traumic past that hasn't been fully processed. 3 years therapy is just barely enough to begin the process of healing. I'm in my 60's w 8 yrs of counseling & still have stuff that's unprocessed. It takes a lifetime to undo this kind of childhood. Best wishes to Jenn & the others who have commented to similar experiences.
Thank you for you comments. You are right - it’s going to take so many more years of counseling. And, yes, the traumatic events sometimes cause disjointed storytelling or conversations. Much love to you!
@@jennifersmith3806I am almost to 70 and haven't figured my ordeal out,yet.
Godspeed.🙏
@@themysticmuse thank you!
Thank you so much for sharing your story. You are a beautiful woman
Her step dad is Jerry Thomas Goad. Found a detailed article online from the Dallas Observer about the arrest of Jerry and the murder of Stacy Jones.
Im happy to hear that this lovely lady and her mom made it out alive and safe. Very brave of her to share her story with us and i wish her nothing but the best of life here on out.
Merry Christmas everyone ✌️
Thank you. I needed this!! So hard to understand
His name should be Jerry Dumbass
@@brandypou7590 your welcome. Glad to help🙂
Does the story name her as his child or her mother ?
@@MariselaR.da1daOnly th-cam.com/video/CT9yU0ER6LQs/w-d-xo.htmlq The Dallas Observer story.
Proud of you my brave friend. It’s hard to share these stories, but we find peace when the words can’t hold power over of us any longer. My stepfather and Jerry were “business associates”. A childhood of shear terror is what we lived. Too much to even begin to share. Thankfully, both of these monsters died in prison a month apart.
I love you, Renee! We have definitely persevered!
Bless you Renee. I am so sorry that POS reign terror on your children. I pray that you find 'goodness' in this world.
I love how Mark just sits back and let's people tell their story without interrupting I almost forget he's there lol Merry Christmas everyone 🎄☃️🎄
It’s the one thing I don’t like. Not to be confused with interruptions, however, letting her ramble for 30 minutes straight also isn’t good. There is a happy medium, you know?
To anyone complaining about how “hard it is to follow”, do you realize how hard it is to tell a lifetime’s worth of details in an hour? Time jumps in a story are going to occur when there is so much to cover in such little time. Mark seems like a busy guy and has to keep his interviews to a minimum, to appease you religious viewers. Try thinking from another perspective instead of your own. Great story!
You’re right , and she’s going back so far into her childhood and remembering so much of the impacted incidents . It’s a lot and still there’s more . I could listen to her until her heart content .
Exactly and the jumping around told a story in itself .... of the trauma she had experienced and how it affects a human especially a baby human like she was when most of this happened. Her body language also told a powerful story.
Thank you for your comment! Trauma causes your brain to do so many things - things you can’t control. I could have taken up Mark’s whole day with stories, but unfortunately, he didn’t have enough time. Take care!
@@pcamp865thank you for understanding! I have had a few people comment that I am lying or making up these stories. It’s all true, unfortunately, but we keep putting one foot in front of the other - we persevere!
@@jennifersmith3806 That is ridiculous. That stuff falls under "You can't make that shit up!" I could see the truth in your body language. Just as you went to talk about where you are now and Jason you body language changed. You became very vulnerable and then emotional. People do not understand trauma and dissociation. That we can talk about the most traumatic stuff without showing emotion because we had to detach from the emotion to survive it.
Gosh, she should write a book! I wanted to hear more…as sad and traumatic her life was, jenn’s current life just made me cry! She’s an amazing storyteller and therapy you can tell has helped her preserver! What a story!
A work of fiction.
And you’re a real life internet troll hiding behind a screen from the comfort of your miserable existence.
I hope you’re never treated the way you treat others.
Maybe you should seek therapy to process your negativity & ignorance towards others who have survived trauma that are BRAVE enough to share their experiences in order to HELP their fellow human.
Wishing you well & hope you decide to seek a journey to assist you in finding the source for your lack of empathy.
And you're a real life internet troll hiding behind a screen from the comfort of your miserable disposition.
I hope you're never treated the way you treat others.
Maybe you should seek therapy to process your negativity & ignorance towards others who have survived trauma that are BRAVE enough to share their experiences in order to HELP their fellow human.
Wishing you well & hope you decide to seek a journey to assist you in finding the source for your lack of empathy.
Projection is reflection.
As a Gospel man, I love listening to people's pasts before I draw judgement. I think this is a wonderful channel, since it allows you to understand how people end up in the paths they are on. May God's grace just cover these hurting people and may my fellow Christians learn to love them for who they are.
That's the definition of empathy
Do t judge even after u hear...as a Gospel man u know that is for God alone. Our job is to accept and love without judgement, with or without knowing their story ..becz u will never know all of it and you .(.like.all of us) ...will understand it only through the filter of your own self.
Yes, I fully agree. It has given me MUCH more empathy and helped me realize how EVERY precious person has their own complex stories to tell and sadly more are tragic than I think any of us could have every imagined. As a believer myself, God is using this channel for myself and many others in so many ways. Russ Taff, Johnny Chang... so many powerful stories were discovered here! Thanks Mark!
This story really touched a place in me. My mother was like her step father. I'm 60 and still struggling with abusive/toxi relationships, my mother is still violating and harming. I'm still trying to heal, but have no support system. But, this gives me hope. Thank you so much for sharing this difficult story with the world!!
I'm so sorry. My mother wasn't over the top, but she was controlling, and manipulating. She used the guilt trips to get her way. (That and a belt.) And dad was an alcoholic. I can only tell you that there's no shame in cutting out your mother from your life.
I also had relatives who were liars and backstabbers when I was young. If you didn't bow down to them, they did things and gossiped about you. They were very manipulating narcissistic people! When I was their focus, they went out of their way to make me miserable. Completely cutting them from my life was very freeing. It wasn't a hateful deed. In fact, I was really apathetic. I wished them well; I just didn't want them in my life.
One thing that has really helped me get over a lifetime of insecurity and fear was learning the ways of the stoics. I listen to the Daily Stoic on TH-cam and read books on the stoics and their beliefs. At 63, I'm finally at a place that I'm truly happy and feel in control of my life. I'm no longer afraid to take crap from people and feel fine saying "no".
I wish you well on your healing journey. I'm sure there's a support group somewhere near you with people who have been through abuse. Maybe ask a therapy facility if they know of any. My best friend lost her son in a car accident. She was in such a deep depression! Luckily, she found a group called Compassionate Friends. Everyone in the group has lost a child. Everyone understands, listens, and supports each other. Hopefully, God will guide you to your bees. (A reference to Blind Melon's "No Rain".)
God bless you! You'll find your peace. :)
Sorry to hear that. What happened with your mother ?
You can find healing in forgiveness, and love from God. I was able to be freed through forgiving. Not because they deserve it, but because i needed to be set free.
You’re a great storyteller Jenn! Didn’t feel like an hour, I was so engaged. Your mom is proud. Thank you for telling your story.
Proud of what?.. Exposing her daughter to a life time of trauma.
Jenn you are a Hero💛
@@sonnyv.3947 her mother should have leave jerry..i dont get mothers at all like this
I would be alone with my kids then be with a bad man!
"it's never too late to change the narrative". I work in a treatment center and I am going to use that. Very insightful.
A master class in overcoming adverse situations and coming out the other end unbroken.
Thank you so much for your story.
There's definitely a narrative or two here.
Wow! I escaped one man who was like your stepfather. When I found out he was killed by his new girlfriend while checking on a protection order I was elated but then guilted myself for this reaction. This man hurt children so I praised God for doing what I thought someone should do.
You are a hero and those of us who have been through it know what it takes. I checked into EMDR but haven't done it. Would love to talk to you about your recovery from the residual PTSD and how you were able to trust enough to marry and have children. I still struggle.
Thank you and thank Mark!
EMDR is life changing.
When my moms dad died I jumped for joy and I still do, I have never felt bad about it.. it's between him and God
I can't imagine living in an environment of pure fear and emotional dysfunction ! Thank you for sharing your story. Many blessings to you.
I lived in trauma thru my childhood. No sexual abuse but so much violence. PTSD for sure
Painful stories. Jenn has persevered and done so well. More power to her.
I am so proud of you for telling your story. I can attest, I was one of those friends who had no clue. Jen and her Mama were always so silly and fun to hang out with at her pool parties and even at the apartment before our Senior prom. I love you and I will always pray for your happiness sister.
Thank you, Amanda! I actually have some sloths on here thinking my story is false! I have told them to feel free to research!
@@jennifersmith3806 looking back and reading about him, your timeline of events are spot on. I remember Jennifer C. would make comments about Jerry when I would stay at her house but she would not elaborate because she would not ever break any confidences y'all had.
@@jennifersmith3806Yeesch, Jen I’m really sorry to hear that. Oh do I ever believe you-Woman, we’ve lived how many lives in one lifetime, eh? Apparently some people have charmed lives but we didn’t so we know what it’s like. How many of us would have loved to have had a “normal” life?! But we didn’t -and we didn’t emulate our terrifying “parents” either by becoming addicts, criminals etc. No one is interested in performing research studies on us, the ones who went on to have successful lives. I guess we’re just not salacious enough and didn’t follow the “script” that states we all become abusers/drug addicts/domestic terrorists ourselves.
You had no clue because she is remembering dreams not reality.
@@thatguynobodylikes6326🧐
I'm so happy to see you have overcome this tragic childhood. You should be extremely proud of yourself.
Mark is so amazing at reading people and knowing how to present his work. He has these amazing interviews but then he has videos like this where he just lets them pour out themselves in such a beautiful way that helps them take control of their story, uninterrupted.
Thank you for all you do, Mark.
To Jenn, you are so incredibly strong and an example of somebody who's gone through hell, and walked out with the flame in your hand. God bless you 💙
Give credit to her for knowing how to speak and not being some kind of con or drug addict, that can't speak without guidance to begin with.
@@Theworstchannelposting If you bothered to both read and comprehend my comment you'd see I gave credit to both.
@@XxShadowGTxX Yeah, understood but to be honest, Mark is a great guy but he really never has any good insight or he is hesitant to give his opinion on things. The guests and stories make this channel, obviously. Mark does a good job of caring enough and being empathetic enough to let these voices be heard.
@@XxShadowGTxX not hating by the way just giving my opinion on your comment that I happened to see immediately after watching. I understand where your coming from though.
@@Theworstchannelposting I'm sorry if I took it the wrong way, I get you now.
As far as Mark not providing much insight, I think that's one of the qualities I appreciate about his format. He's in the pocket of listening without advice or attempting to problem solve or give his opinion. I think it's why so many find him easy to talk to. As good as somebody's intentions are, many people are very quick to try and interject their own experience or some advice and for some it can turn them off from expressing. I think he's found a very healthy middle ground how he interacts in the interviews.
Oh Jenn, thank you so much for sharing your story! Your fear, pain, and fearlessness is palpable! I’m so proud of the woman you’ve become and the life you’ve created! Thank you for sharing your story of survival!! I wish you a happily ever after with your children and sweetheart! Sending love and a huge hug! Your mama is sooo damn proud of you! I hope one day you can feel that from her! ❤
As someone who has recently began addressing childhood trauma, I can relate to the seemingly disjointed narrative in this interview. Its extremely difficult to convey a timeline of trauma and events. In fact, when discussing my past with those close to me, i generally start the conversation saying, i am going to be jumping around a lot, if something doesnt make sense please ask.. i think that its a matter of still processing the details and emotions. Thanks for sharing your story Jen. ❤.
Unbelievable the way the police and social services knew the kind of man he was and left a freaking 4-year-old child in his custody. Multiple times!
It is nauseating, isn’t it!
@@katiekane5247 that’s so sad.
I am so sorry you had to go through that!! Love to you!
Police and social services are corrupt and broken
I agree...and it happens in human services departme ts all the time !!!
She really does need to write a book! I can also see a movie based on her story!! I was hooked on every word she spoke!! I'm so glad she found her bio dad and the man who treats her like a woman deserves to be treated!! God Bless you Jenn!!
So much of your story is very similar to my own life. I’m 51 now. Ty so much for sharing this. Jennifer you are so strong and have given me so much hope. It’s truly NEVER too late. And you are living proof that you can survive, you can and will get thru! ❤️❤️❤️
I live in Dallas. Kinda cool to watch SWU and hear Dallas streets and highways. - It only took 1/2 a century, but I’m glad she’s found peace, love, and happiness. 🙏🏾
Big D😉
I loved Jennifer’s story. Thanks mark for helping her share it!
Thankfully she survived and is doing well. Sadly, this is not the case for most who have traumatic and abusive backgrounds. Jenn is one in a million. Bless her.
Jennifer Smith, you are a brave woman. I am so sorry you lost your Mom. I am sorry that you experienced the worst that life has to offer. I pray that you find peace in your heart.
“It’s never too late to change the narrative.” I love this, thank you Jenn.
Strong women doesn’t begin to describe her. Thanks for the interview.
I saw how long this was going to be and thought I would never see the ending. Wow was I wrong. God bless this woman and her life story.
And may the future bring her happiness that she deserves after suffering as much as she has. Merry Christmas to all.
It's insane the lives so many of us go through before we become adults. Watching all these kinds of videos makes me feel like I'm not the only one with a fked up childhood.
Thanks for sharing as im sure it's not an easy thing to do especially online.
Love from Melbourne Australia ❤
Jenn you are amazingly strong. You changed the narrative!!!
You’re so well put together talking through all of these memories. The way you speak is so strong.
She has so much more to tell. Please do another interview with Jen.
Jenn, you are amazing. It took a while but God is now looking after you. Thank you for sharing your story.😍
The best interview in a while. My mother left my father for a man that was connected to one of the NY crime families in the 80's. It was nothing compared to Jennifer however there were some overlaps. My heart broke knowing that Jennifer had to live like that for the first 20 years of her life. Glad she found happiness!
Your story is amazing and you told it well. Your a strong and beautiful woman. I’m glad you found your happiness! Bless you 💜
Jenn...you are an amazing, strong woman! Your mom really is with you. She's watching over you. She'll whisper in your ear and keep you from bad guys. But they're gone from your life now.
Enjoy your happy life Jason and all your children! You deserve it and don't think for one minute that you don't deserve it!
Best wishes. I hope Mark does an update on how your life has been this next year. I know youll keep raising the bar for yourself! xo
I love the beauty of redemption. I'm so grateful to hear this story today. Thank you Jenn!
Bless her and her mother for all they went thru and came out the other side brighter
“My mother always protected me”. What?????? She left you in every dangerous situation possible!!!!
We can see that from an outside point of view but it's harder to tell when it's someone you love. and even though she's an adult now those memories were still made when she was a child and still have those child-like emotions attached. i agree with you, she was objectively a bad parent, but i'm not shocked that this woman has rose colored glasses about it
Also her bio Dad stay disappeared from his responsibilities. She really needs to be the person who loves her the most
It's Stockholm Syndrome
Walk a mile in my shoes and then we can sit and talk. I understand where you are coming from - I truly do. I have so much else to say. I have thought about starting my own channel so people can hear the whole story. Thanks for watching
As you can see from her story, leaving him posed a great threat to both their lives. She DID have her daughter in her mind.
Your mom can see you. And God bless you for doing her proud by working hard and getting to where you are. Godspeed!
Its called HYPERVIGILANCE. Caused by childhood trauma.
Sorry Mark, sometimes I’m so blown away by some stories I forget to hit the like button.This beautiful woman’s life and her mom went thru such crazy fearful awkwardness in her life then into adulthood is so sad. Sweetheart I hope you find peace and love and freedom.We are the same age and I think to my self 50 years of this insanity is too long for anybody. God bless.
With all that this woman has been through I admirer her courage and fortitude. Hope she stays the course!
Inspiring story, with some real villains and awesome heroes. Thanks for sharing, and you did a great job! You did well honoring your mother and showing how we can do right for ourselves at all times despite the circumstances.
Tks for having Miss Jenn sharing her story. Hope you have her back soon?
I so admire this woman and very happy to hear she has found true love. She has overcome so much.
She seems somewhat normal and resilient for seeing and going through the trauma
I was 47 when i FINALLY told my mom that her baby brother had molested me more than once at about 6 or 7....he trapped me in front of people until i could escape with nobody noticing. It was a horrid shameful game i couldnt understand until well into adulthood. Turns out it wasnt just me...he got my older cousin too, but her mom told her keep it quiet, your dad will kill him, ill keep him away from you...its just astonishing how much these childhood traumas can affect your ENTIRE life without you really understanding whats happening
On a side note, I love your hair Heather ❤ looks so cute!
@Raina-bk1yv awww...thank you so much. I went purple for awhile, but I'm back to pink again
What did your mom say when you told her
@@ZLink0692 she said she didn't really wanna take a road trip to Florida to see him anyway
This was such in incredibly (heart wrenching) story, but I was so very engulfed in it! Thanks for sharing your very private details! People need to see these things are be hyper vigilant and aware! There are some very aweful people in our world! You’re so strong and brave and I know your mama was the exact same! I’m glad you had her to help you through a difficult childhood. My mom is from Dallas as well. She grew up in oak cliff she was one of eight kids in a 2 bd house no bathroom (they had an outhouse) it was a difficult and traumatic childhood for her. I’m just thankful you were able to share some dark times and show others to start being more aware of what’s going on around you. Be careful. Be safe and always keep your eyes open. You’re an incredible woman, Jenn! ❤❤
Thank you so much!
You must live under a rock
@@user-bh6wg8qf3h to whom are you speaking?
The best interviewers just let people talk, tell their story. bravo Mark.
If you would want to do a second part to your story I believe we would all love to be here to hear it.
Don't worry about it being scattered.
Your sharing and it is impressive how well you did.
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This describes more dads than people know. My father n law was just like this, down to a tee. Unfortunately, my husband couldn't outrun this past.
Incredible interview,..incredible woman..my advice to her ..hold your mother close to your heart,..honor her by being in your good life…
Listening to Jenn it’s helping me cope with the day, I’m so grateful & thankful she’s even been able to speak thankyou 4 this it’s Xmas day here in Australia & I was woken by thieves stealing my car my wallet my phone, cops found phone in the gutter, I’ve lost everything we just gone thru the biggest flood in Australian history I deferred my car insurance to buy Xmas presents 4 my grandkids & now it’s all been taken away, I’ve lived the lives of so many of your guests & I don’t no anyone where I live as it’s a new location 4 me but now I’m totally alone everything taken from me
@jax993, You’re truly going through a horrible time. It absolutely sucks and it feels like the weight of the world is on you alone. Why would you *not* feel as you do? It’s scary, lonely, uncertain (which humans hate) and bleak.
Once upon a time, you didn’t have *any* of this stuff, right? But somehow over time you managed to accumulate all of it. Was it easy? Ohhellno. Will it be easy this time? Ohhellno. You don’t have to do a damn thing right now this minute. You don’t have to have answers. Try to just focus on the here and now. The there and then is over-so yeah, grieve! One breath, one step at a time. Even a few minutes of time is long enough to just blank it out. The future is unknown to all of us so that hasn’t changed a bit from when you had all your stuff. Above all, you still have you and it’s the most steadfast being of your life, with or without your stuff. Just one heartbeat at a time {{{jax993}}} That’s all.
@@tundrawomansays694 wow thank you 🙏🏼 police found my car today after it was invoked in another break & enter forensic have it 4 a few days, the thieves trashed the inside with black paint alover the interior but I’m grateful I got it back, we’ve had 64 cars stolen here in 3 weeks! These kids don’t care they’re caught locked up let out because of indigenous rights & they just go do it again, my place was targeted again y/day, as soon as I get my car back I’m outta here, thought this was my new start bid shock no, anyway thank you so much 4 your words believe me they meant a lot 🙏🏼
@AlbertasFinest sort of getting there cops found my car today after they’d used it for another break & enter on a family home, my cars been used for around 6 or so break ins since Xmas day, grateful for people I don’t no supporting me but at the same time this new start to life o think I’ll move back to where I came ftt try on ❤️🙏🏼
thank you for the kind words they"er very comforting thank you so much appreciated 🤍@@tundrawomansays694
Such a gripping account of a childhood traumatic existence. Bravo for surviving it and for realizing you are worth more and were sabotaging your life being with abusive men as an adult. Happy for you finding your true love that you truly deserve. ❤
What's with these single moms bringing strangers into the home? Reckless, selfish behavior that puts children in great jeopardy!! Shame on the women who put their own kids at risk in this way.
I needed to hear this right now at this very moment. Thank you for sharing your story. You just gave me hope again. My life was a mess before and I've changed drastically since my past. but the cycle of thinking patterns and beliefs are a work In progress still. Learning to love myself and believe that life still has something out there for me. Thank you
Girl you are lucky to be alive. Continue on your jpyrney of healing and also living your life the best you can for all you’ve been through. You deserve happiness, sweetie.
Thank you!
The absolute best interview/story on this channel!!!
Thank you so much!!
You're truly an inspiration... from the rest of us who are treading water with dangerous men; THANK YOU FOR TESTIFYING TO US THAT THERE IS LIGHT at the end of the tunnel, if you play the cards right and are careful. Thank you very much, especially for sharing right before Christmas🎄
What a hell of a story! Thanks for sharing Jenn!
Such a compelling story! So glad that she survived it and is thriving!!!
Your mother may not be in front of you but I'm sure she's right beside you, thank you for sharing your story.
wow she told her story so well and truly is a survivor. Thank you for sharing your story it was very moving and very inspiring all that you have over came.
Thank you for sharing your incredible story Jennifer. I pray for continued healing in your life and with the loss of your Mom still heavy on your heart. Sometime you will be reunited with her in heaven where there is no more pain, suffering and death for eternity. God bless you!!
Wow this really resonated with me. I was in a relationship from the age of 15 to 30 with a man that who often did unimaginable things. I could literally feel the terror and feeling of fright trying to get away as the story unfolded. I’m so thankful I finally got away and wish I had done so sooner. These relationships will damage you and can even cause your health to physically deteriorate. If I could talk to my younger self I would say “leave and don’t ever look back”
Happy you survived and is safe now 🙏🏽
@@Ventingthetruth777 Thank you. I appreciate it
Yes! Same here. So glad we both survived. Now we must seek out help to thrive! I’m taking steps to do so. Take care. ❤️
@@motomaiden Yes, I’m getting there! Same to you. ❤️
Wow Mark this is why what you do is so special. I needed to hear her story. I am just a bit older than Jenn and I was starting to give up on finding someone different than my pattern and finding some career success etc. after another big crash. This gave me the hope to believe that is in my near future.
When we see the patterns we can correct them and through recognition (the first step) you’re on your way! Best wishes for the holidays and new year. It’s never too late to get a life rather than a Life Sentence. (And Imma antique!)
You are ABSOLUTELY correct in saying " YOU CAN CHANGE THE NARRATIVE"! I was an Hells Angels ole lady for 13 yrs, and In discovering my man, the father of two amazing children;was an RCMP ( Royal Canadian Mounted Police) informant, and in trying to let the brothers know to not being believed and beat down continually as I couldn't provide proof. As back in the 80's & 90's, we didn't have cell phones and definitely wasn't about to pull out a Polaroid camera. And with things I'd seen, one doesn't get out graciously after all that, but I did. Willing to take a bullet cause I just wanted out one way or another. I was released and HAVE changed the narrative. From stripping in clubs and handing my money over, to becoming red seal welder with the Pipefitter union hall and making a honest living. I'm actually writing an autobiography about it as you should! Our story is so similar in so many ways, yet different circumstances. Coming from someone that has turned it around, I'm very proud of you. Your mother IS looking down on you, and know that NOW she truly IS resting in peace. Love & Respect to you! Stay Strong ❤
Wow I would love to read that!!! How can I find out about it when it becomes available for purchase?
I’m so proud of you for allowing your heart to open up for the right man! I feel your pain in many ways, when you are abused emotionally and physically it seems so natural to attract those same evil people into your life. I still haven’t gotten to the point of trusting anyone in due to the narcissists that I always seem to attract. You however have overcome a great deal and have accepted love from a “normal “ man
Praying your life has many more blessings!💕
Thank you Jennifer for sharing your story. What came through to me is what a great human being you are. Your strength, integrity, compassion and honesty, wow! I'm glad that you met Father and your partner and are finding peace and happiness, and long may that last and grow. Bask in the sunshine of your future, you deserve.
Jenn you are such a strong woman, you deserve the best in this life!
So proud of you for sharing your story. Hi Five. You changed the narrative. It's never too late.
Beautiful woman with a beautiful story . Seeming like I listened to a movie whole time she brought up each scene, I love the thought process of how she breaks it down , not chronological order but broken down enough for good story telling , I to as well lost my mom as she did, heart goes out you and ur family, may God continue to bless u !! Much love
What a beautiful, bright hard working human to share this story.
Kudos, love and we'll done xx
The similarities of her childhood experience with her stepdad and mine are soo similar with the arson and insurance fraud. Him being an informant and having a grandiose sense of self like an espionage badass. The animal cruelty in front of me. One difference though is my stepdad didn’t like me… like at all. I loved listening to her story. Feels like validation that someone experienced a childhood similar to mine.
I know that she said her mom was her savior but her mother allowed a lot of traumatic experiences to take place by not removing herself and her kids from Jerry
It’s easy to say that when you’re not in that situation.
Her mother was absolutely 100% responsible for any of her trauma. If you get to the core of it, why was a step father ever even involved?. . mom allowed it.
Yes. But mom was clearly in an abusive marriage, feared he’d kill them if they left, etc.
Yes it’s very common
@@Lunabella1222 so her fear is to blame for her daughters life then. The mothers feelings , not reality is the core of the problem. An emotion is to blame. Think about it. And the fact that now this woman has to accept and deal with her mother before she can even address her trauma is only a guarantee that this women is beyond saving.
This was so good!! Sis, I’m so proud of you ❤
Thank you!
Jenn, thank you so much for sharing your story. I wish you all the happiness in the world, you’re a beautiful, strong, amazing woman!
Your story meant something to me, Jenn.
It didn't mean shit to me. I hate Texas
Creepy clown
This made me cry. Pulled up a lot of emotions I have deep inside.
I am sorry! I hope 2024 is a good year for you. Be blessed!
Prayers 🙏
@@derkscabinetdoor5370 thank you!
This was the best way to spend my Christmas eve. I am about to start EMDR. Sis you are so inspiring. Your mom can definetely see you, its always clear in heaven. Rest assured Sis Jerry is rotting in the pits of hell.
One of my favorite episodes to date. Such a wild story, thank you for sharing Jennifer.
To have been able to hear what her Mom had to say about her life with this man would have been incredible!!!!! Imagine all the stuff that Jenn has no idea about!
Oh Jenn, there's immense beauty in your story, even though it was a wild ride for you. The intense bond you had (&still have) with your mom is a beautiful part for me. She was strong for you, stood by you and allowed herself to be there for you I have a painful relationship with my mother and the pain is like no other.
Yet I feel happy that you got to experience a mother who was beautiful in and outside. To hear you describe the bond is very encouraging for me, to know that it wasn't my fault my mother was like that - your mother chose to prove that. She was a cheer leader, and made time for you. I have to admit, I'm envious too, but in a good way. I don't know why, but your story felt really healing to that particular aspect of my life.
Much love from kenya 🇰🇪💚💞
what an incredible story teller
Thank you for that BEAUTIFUL TESTIMONY of how you turned a hard childhood into a SUCCESS STORY❤️. I am SO PROUD of You!🙋♀️ 🥰❤️🕊️🕊️
Mom was NOT a savior. She kept her child in that enviroment with that monster. Oh my god I can hardly believe this story but I do and can because I have met people like Jerry.
Wow Jennifer thank you for sharing this tragic life that you had. My heart hurts so much for you but I see how poised you are and how hard you have faught for the life you have today. May God give you the life that you deserve, filled with so much love and your mom will live forever in your heart and I know how proud she is of you 🙏🙏🙏
That was such an amazing story. Her will and determination are a testament to how it can help get you through and then past.
Thankful for your share. Finally. I cannot believe how exactly the same our experiences are. Unbelievable but it brought me so much peace.
Merry Christmas Jen, you are an amazing woman, thank you for your honesty, please write your story 🩷
I absolutely loved her story. She and her mother are strong women. Very strong. Getting through horrible circumstances beyond all adversity. She’s a true inspiration! I am so happy to hear that she is happy now. What a wonderful woman! Her mother is absolutely looking down from heaven upon her 😊
What a horrifying experience. I'm so glad she made it through!!!!!
This is one of the best interviews ever! Such a strong lady. It is so nice to hear she is finally safe and happy.
What a great story thanks for shareing Mark keep them vedios
coming
I absolutely love this story. Jen ur story is a story of strength, resilience and love. Thank u for sharing it. 🩷
Thank you for sharing your story Jen. You were so open and vulnerable and that takes so much courage. ❤