Intro: I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin' I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin' I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? What the fuck am I to do? When there's nothin' left... Cause I don't wanna feel shit, someone must've hit a kill switch They don't ask about the problems that I deal with Fuck all of this money you can have it I don't feel rich I keep havin' these flashbacks I hate 'em They remind me of my problems, I can't stand to face 'em I know it's prolly my last to change 'em But even if I do it my past can't erase it They recognize me 'cause they see me on the internet They think I owe 'em somethin' I can't deal with all the disrespect Sick to my stomach, when I feel it I just disconnect My demons tend get the best of me when I get depressed I've been stabbed in the back with a chainsaw But who am I to blame y'all, I'm smokin 'til the pain's gone You see me smilin on the surface tryna stay strong Actin' like I'm happy starts to feel like it's my day job But just as long as there's a purpose to it all I'll keep tourin workin' hard, writin verses to these songs Far from perfect, every person has their flaws And mine is I'm an addict still searchin for a cause I know they judge me for mistakes that I've made Since I've gained all this fame shit just ain't been the same I came in the game to pave a lane for my name And it's painful to say it put's restraints on my brain but I know it's worth it cause I get to tell my story I'm at a point where the industry can't ignore me I never had the main stream media to endorse me I did this all by me and myself and y'all are corny To every kid that's listenin to this song I hope you've found the message I've written within it all If no one's ever there to pick you up when you fall I promise you're not alone, play this shit and just hit the wall 'cause I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons They been hauntin my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin' I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons They keep talkin to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons They been hauntin my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin' I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons They keep talkin to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret I know you listenin' for somethin' to relate to I know the feelin' like the whole world hates you I know you wishin' you could finally have a breakthrough You thought it was a phase so you pretend you're in a great mood I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself 'Cause the person that you see is not like everybody else So you try and you try but it never seems to help So you're questionin' your words 'cause you're so fed up with the guilt But... You're not the only one that's goin' through regret You're not the only one that no one seems to get You're not the only one that's so close to the edge And if you slip it's over for you so you cope with it instead I can promise you that nobody is perfect and you overthink the little shit you're always so concerned with So you lock yourself inside everynight and close the curtains And you're screamin' out loud but it's like no one even heard it I know problems keep pilin' up right in front of you So much anxiety inside you don't know what to do Been lied to so much you that you don't think you even want the truth Fuck it, aww you grew to be used it, it ain't nothin' new I been there too, just hold tight A lot of substance abuse and long nights But next time I see all my demons it's on sight Next time I see all my demons it's on sight yeah.... I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin' I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin' I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
Love when u do tracks like this cause I litterly feel this in my soul I fell it I've been there still sleep with some of my demons but ur music has always helped pull me out of such a dark place
Your a TRUE ICON I relate to you so much that your music is what I turn to when I feel shitty and it always soothes my soul❤💯 Thank you Merk😭I'm truly grateful for your Music
I agree with you that Merk is legit, he's in my top 5 along with Tech, Jelly Roll, Chris Webby & Tom MacDonald, but he's got over a million subs on TH-cam & probably over a million monthly streams on Spotify alone, not counting people like me who have TH-cam Premium & use TH-cam Music over Spotify, dudes far from underrated. I think what you mean is Merk, the others I named & many more that I didn't name deserve to be the mainstream played on the radio. Chris Webby on the other hand, that dude is criminally underrated, cause even though I'm sure his streaming numbers are just as well as any of the others, he has less than 400k subs on TH-cam & he's an OG of the underground lyrical rappers, even though I don't agree with his far left politics, Webby deserves more recognition than that on TH-cam
Have y'all ever herd of ak? Iamtherealak. Hes also extremely crimannly under rated. I listen to all of the rappers you just nammed and no one has herd or ak but he has also over a mil subs but no one knows his true tallent. I started listening to a k and merkules at the same time roughly about four years ago and they are my top two favorite rappers by far dax comes in a close third
Merkules makes me proud to be Canadian, such a talented artist with the skills to send a real message from real experience. This dude is inspirational to a lot of people.
I saw you on Dr. Phil offering your help to a young man, Noah. I'm a Christian snd may not support the Rap music, but I felt your "heart" during the show and wanted to say God bless you and may you continue to excel in your goals and in helping others. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
@@intellectualize6354 if someone follows the teachings of the bible, there isnt much rap music that you can listen to and not disagree with...I'm not a Christian, and most rappers disgust me tbh. I know my opinion doesn't mean shit, but glorifying the bullshit that gets pushed to the top of the billboards is what keeps someone like this nice Christian fella from ever hearing someone like merk. He ain't wrong for pooling all rappers into the "mindless garbage content" category
Another outstanding track!!!! 💯 C-Lance & Aaron Hiltz always killing it on the production, Nato/Terry Tran with the engineering/mastering...and the lyrical content from you Merk...as always it's impeccable! Real thoughts...real feelings, I felt every word of that bro! I'm so happy how things are going for you with everything taking off...hearing all that you've been through and seeing you still make a success of it is incredibly inspirational! You more than deserve it! Here's to another BBBANGERRR! 💥🤯💥💯💥🤯💥
What, so you mean cause i dont like this sad depressing Flow, i need a lesson about real music? Usually love merc but this Kinda beat and Flow and text dont rly mean anything to me
I just lost my brother to an OD angry as hell. Your music is exactly what my soul needs. Keep being as real as you are. Your lyrics are appreciated more then you know bro. Thank you
Me too man I feel this in my soul, I used to do drugs w him but quit tried to get him to quit as well but he got drug back into drugs pissed me off knowing it was someone who knew he was trying to get better than od'd because of feyntanal
Merk.. in my opinion, this is one of the best, if not the best. Everything you spit is fuckin real, i live with severe anxiety, major depressive disorder and PTSD. I was completely addicted to drugs for 10 years, 2 years clean now.. But that by no means makes life much easier.. my self doubt is just as crippling as my mental issues. Sometimes all i can do is throw on some MERK and ill be able to get through one more night. Just knowing there are others who strugge with / have struggled with the same issuess while still living a good life help. Moment, This Again, Goosebumps, Jocelyn Flores rmx, Demons, All Night Long and Reject are at the top in my opinion. The lyrics, the emotion are spot on - Thank you Merk.. your a motherfuckin beast bro
Never think your alone mate when I was 18 my best friend was murdered on my doorstep by a b**th that was thought he was me over fight we had the night before. After I dealt with it I turned to alcohol immediately then spent 4 years on every drug I could find and spent 90% of my time locked away in bedroom. It’s now 3 years after all of that an I’m slowing getting my life back together. I’ve got a full time job, slowing learning to trust people again and spending more an more time outside. Haven’t forgiven myself an don’t think I even deserve it. It’ll never be easy for people who have been threw real shit brother but it does get easier trust me. You just need to never forget the people who care about you deserve the best you you can give them and use that to push threw the dark thoughts and all the bullsh*t that comes with it. P.s please don’t feel sorry for me I don’t deserve it. I only put this out there so he know his not alone.
Good job bro, I'm almost in the exact same shoes. Mental health, PTSD, during my sobriety I lost my father figure and was mad at the world because my blood father wasnt taken instead, blood dad is a p.o.s.. I was addicted to opiates for 10 years, just broke my 2n1/2 years sober. It's never easy but remember man, any bad day sober is better than ANY day being in addiction. I'd rather take real world problems and stress over dealing with withdrawals, stealing, and selling everything I own to get another line. I had one REALLY BAD overdose that kinda set me straight along with breaking away from a relationship with a girl I was gonna marry, we were addicts together in a very toxic relationship that I tried to fix by getting clean for her and she the same for me, but getting clean wasn't the answer because it was still toxic and she relapsed and went to jail 3 years ago and I haven't heard from her since but it's better for the both of us to stay apart and hopefully she's happy and safe. In order for us to both be happy, we had to fall off each other's radar completely. You're not alone my friend. We struggle the same kinda way. Proud of you for the hard work and keep it up my guy. I know you're strong enough to keep going down the right direction. Seriously, regular people don't know how hard it is to stay clean, I'm proud of you for real.
11 years clean. It gets easier but you have to want it, you have to hate who that shit turned you into. You have to stay positive and find you Zen. Music is my therapy, thanks Merk!
@@mrsdevine161 I can't agree more... I was with that girl for 11 years and between that toxic and the opiates, I couldn't look in the mirror. I had this thing where if I saw a reflection of myself I'd get really disgusted or space out with thoughts of self hate. I hated...hated who I was. I miss not being alone, but I want my health more than a relationship. 11 years seems like a lifetime out of addiction. I'm only 1/5 of the way spent out of addiction, that I had spent in addiction. It's scary and learning to do things alone is just as scary but my problems will only get worse if I start snorting pills again. I congratulate you on your 11 years my friend.
The flashbacks, anxiety and PTSD are all real struggles that the "norm" don't understand if they've never had to wrestle it to sleep. There isn't a day i get a break from any of the hell that haunts especially at night...I got this song on repeat bro because not to many rappers really know the deal! Getting ready for another shift and gotta get hyped to get through it & there ain't a better way than bangin out to my favorites! Appreciate the realness yo
I was gonna say something along the same lines.. its crazy I don't even like to drink and I have been lately to stop the constant chest pains from anxiety. I can't even socialize without some sort of opiate/benzo/alcohol its crippling till the point of wanting to crawl out of my skin but I'm restless but also have no energy at the same time and can barely move and my family can't understand why I can't just stay sober and live my life without doing a major fumble.. good luck man
Man you and jelly are two of the best artist in my book y’all have been a huge inspiration for me and I swear on my life while make a track together some day
Hits hard, for sure.. no one to talk to, just me and my thoughts trying to tell my self it gets better. Clean for 5 days cold turkey, hope I continue this path. Much love merk! Love from Ontario,Canada
I got 11 months I had to have open heart surgery last year but I just got accepted to a college you can do it bra if you need to talk hit my fb josh brush you got this homey
💖💪proud of you! Know this fight it though, I'm clean for 2 years now So yeah, I believe you can make it. Now believe in yourself too! You decided to quit , so thats step 1. If you need talk, I'm here, 💖
Keep string my friend I no,it's hard Cold turkey bn there twice....not a nice scene.....drink plenty fluids will help a lil faster my friend flush the system out..... IT NOT GETTING OFF THEM THAT THE PROBLEM IS KEEPING OFF THEM . Take care pal ,T
On Sunday I’m going to detox, and this song hits home... I can’t deal with the demons anymore... your songs have gotten me through so much, and helped me decide that this is what I need to do. Thank you Merk!!
good luck bro, been there, its hell. Find good people with similar goals and surround yourself with them. Drop the dead weight, you dont need that shit.
Good luck man! I been there and it was exactly what I needed. Sober 1 year and a half.:) you can do it! It’ll seem crazy at first but reality isn’t so scary.:)
good luck, i been there and done it so can you. i use ot be addicted to fent and any pain killer around. after a 9 day binge where i should of died i went on a full cold turkey detox. worst week of my life but once u go through the worst you know now to get back to that place
This song hit me really hard. Im struggling in life and with my demons and this song explains everything perfect. Hope to one day find peace with my demons. Keep the great music coming bro.
I found this song in a time I needed to hear it. Been battling drug addiction and mental health issues for years and this is first time I think I've felt like someone not only found the words for it but understood it. Proud of how far this guy has come and the inspiration he has been for myself and many others. Keep speaking for those who still haven't found they're voice Merk 💚💯
Im an addict "amphetamines" continue to control my thoughts action and ultimately my fate ..13 yrs weed addiction and sex. 15 delivered my son nearly losing life. 19 nicotine begins.. Tried meth hated the shit. I thought thankgod. 23 yrs i failed myself my children my family the lords plan for me one year later no amount of lines can cure this pain. Thankyou to artist like you for allowing me to feel at all ... You are loved
I was playing this at my worst three years ago Merk, it really helped me through some tough times along with alot of your other songs 🙏 there's a reason your music resonates with people and all them people are well aware why ✌️
felt this heavy, once upon a time i was heavily involved in gang activity and drug dealing. lost alot of people im an addict in recovery and am only alive for my kids and music like this, im a convicted felon, stabbings, robbery etc , this chorus made me think of all the shit i done in my life and thank god i aint that way no more. love you merk, Love from |London Ont
Merkules I cant tell you how much I appreciate your music. It seems like every time Im going through it, you drop a song that I can relate to almost down to the T. I swear. Thank you man. Keep doing what your doing and keep your head up! 🙏
"Far from perfect every person has there flaws, and mine is I'm an addict still searching for a cause." That shit is deep and for some of us all to true. This man is beyond under rated, I don't think I've ever heard a whack Merk verse. This is amazing, thanks my man. Keep that heat comin. Get Apathy on track please, over a c-lance beat. shit would be murderous.
Your music always takes me on a trip. I'm sober now but this music hits my soul and gives me trips 😢❤. Good and bad. All about growth and this music is therapy!
Toronto feels u Merk on your come up, your microphone skills, your writings is making us do a double take and we are all different colours up here. Stay humble and keep making executive stuff like this, its special. Peace
Wow the feels on this song.. I remember listening to "In my heart" for the first time.. I didn't see the twist at the end coming and it really got me.. I'm 2 days in on quitting tobacco and alcohol again, I can relate to the addictions and struggles.. I quit for 2 years but this summer got me back down again.. I've listened to this song 3 times now heh.. It's definitely a new favorite, Thank you for making music
Stay strong great people listen the weak enablers only want company your not alone on the path others should lead by positive examples keep your head up
Dude im breaking free from fentanyl/ fake percs and alcohol and its a daily struggle. It seems like the harder u try the harder the demons try to keep you down. God bless you brother. Keep your faith strong
It’s so refreshing to have a real rapper and lyricist, not bullshit, not just pop for the radio play. But real lyrics, real emotions, real pain. Thank you merk, you da truth
This song hits so close to home for me, it nearly made me cry. All I want to do now is just keep writing and writing. Much love from the 306 Merk. Stay safe, and stay strong in these crazy times we are in everyone.
He's gonna stay independent. Hes put put out alot of songs that get millions of views and nobody signed him. They want that drug addict lil pump type lyrics to get signed or instead of TH-cam he should flood sound cloud cuz that's another way dudes get signed
This song hits hard man, we have all been there and can all relate in one way or the other unfortunately we all have are own demons, but thankyou merk for being human along side the rest of us, much love man.
It’s great to see that Snak directed this video and evil b and merkules have all been loyal to each other thru all hard times and fame. They are a good loyal combo
I've listened to a lot of stuff in all different feelings and moods but this song specifically caught my attention like no other song in the world, I relate to this by far more than anything!! Very powerful and grateful I heard it. Keep it up Merk
“I know you wishing you can finally ever break through You thought it was a phase, so you pretended you were in a great mood I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself cause the person that you see is not like everybody else, So you try and you try But never seems to help So you questioning your worth Cause your so fed up with the guilt” Dammmn
Every single time I listen to this I’m in a place where I need it. Stuck in this motel room every night but just know my time is coming. Thank you for helping me through.
It's 20 years for me but I'm clean right now and on a methadone maintenance script and I am doing alright, some days are easy and others are a mental battle not to pickup again... you know that little devil 😈 and what he says... but he can go fuck himself.i hope you are heading for better days, it's a tough fight but it's one you can win.
You might not even see this but merk but you and jelly are my all time favorite artist! Your guys music keeps me going and is the only music that truly speaks to me. Much love you guys thank you for the inspiration and letting me know I’m not alone in this cold world!
Anyone who don’t like Merkules music is out there mind. Been waiting for him to hit a concert in NY @merkules keep grinding there is not 1 track you have made that I have not liked. He is my top music artist and has been coming out with hits for a while now he’s been next up
I've seen Merk live 5 times, ranging from the first year he toured with 30 people at a nightclub all the way to a sold out show of a couple thousand people, i can safely say he kills his live shows and puts everything he has into every show he performs regardless of who's there. I hope you get the opportunity to see him live, SDK for LIFE
This hit my heart man exactly how im feeling especially my brothers passing its hard for to handle it we was like Batman n Robbins he was helping me cope with my condition cuz he also had Schizophrenia n bi polar 2 disability an anxiety ne I am bi polar 1, have anxiety. N im manic depression disorder, n ocd .We help eachother figure out sum of our triggers also found something to cope with sum of it he taught me how to rap n inspired me to rap n take it from a hobby 2 taking it serious to write in the rest in peace. Jerry (29) love you bro.
I'm sure you herd this many times over, but your music has gotten me through so many dark days. My #1 artist. It's nice seeing people like us aren't alone no matter how alone we feel. Keep doing ur thing big homie. Ct tour needed. Be up B
Bro I've been struggling with alcohol my entire life and drugs my mom had to kick me out at some point when I was 16 cause I was going threw it years before and she tried to keep me away but I found it with my personality and ADHD substance abuse was a serious issue and Evan though I'm older now and early 30s I want you to know merk that music like yours gives people a reason to keep fighting because we know others feel the same way and battle depression and anxiety money and fame will still not hide thatm I respect and love your music man gives me hope and faith that I can still turn it around just always feeling stuck and hopeless feels so destined for failure and than you here somone than can relate say the same thing feels like there I'd hope. 🙂
No one is perfect but GOD is the only one to help us all. Im no bible thumper at all but weather u believe or not he's there to listen if you'll talk to him. I know exactly where you've been from experience and can tell you it does get better. Go to church and ask for help, you will feel better.
Ay young one, make sure you learn the lessons from the tunes you bump and try not to slip into the real problems spoke of, depression, addiction, suicide, all that go hand in hand. Stay real 💯.....you on tha right track
@@clownz1233 i can relate to you, i was diagnosed with all 3 at 13. Be very careful with the medicine they prescribe to you. I have a very neglectful childhood and turned to substances to feel some kind of relief. Its a horrible road to go down. I lost almost 5 years of my life and now I just make music to vent with the pain. And try to help other as much as I can. Keep your chin up and don't ever let ANYONE (family or otherwise) make you feel insignificant. EVER. You are a valuable person with much to offer the world. Every human being is beautiful and perfectly imperfect. Its what you do with the gift of life that matters more than anything. When you grow up theyres things now that might mean so much to you that will be irrelevant in the future. Times now are difficult growing up, always stay positive and use music as your escape. That's what helped me. Much love!
@@Lucid603Official that's what I do I write music i have been through so much as a kid I REFUSE to take medicine it makes me a zombie! So now I use other things to help I don't sleep that's much anymore I don't speak to anyone nobody knows my pain because I opened up to someone and they told everyone in school all my secrets so now I have trust issues and don't tell anyone anything coz I am scared everyone is the same love you man thank you ♥️
When you hit rock bottom, I’m now on my way back to normality. You’ve been helping me years with your lyrics Merk thank you.🙏 Merkules you should check out Jay3uk, I think you’d make a 🔥 track together
This song hits me hard. I feel this song inside... I'm glad to know there's others out there who feel these exact lyrics! Growing up fast will do that to you... times I felt like dying, but knew it wasn't worth it.. I can't listen to those 'Demons', cause they drag me down! Thanks Merk, for your music! 🤙🏼
Hafta say this has come at the perfect time in my life, thank you merkules ❣😊🌷i have been recently diagnosed with a rare terminal illness, the waves of life are hitting me as i face this 😪
“Fuck all this money, you can have it. I don’t feel rich.” Goes to show, money doesn’t buy happiness... Just look at Robin Williams. You can have everything and nothing at the same time.
Enjoy the little things stop every once in a while look up look at the world around you enjoy the quiet enjoy the noise city folk and people in the wild stay safe
Its funny how peeps.r always wishing to find happiness n dont realize they keep wasting all those wishes because shit only they can make themselves happy
money just makes people bad it goes to their head and distorts their values and listening to Merkules makes me feel less alone in the struggles I go through in my life
I'm 6 yrs clean off drugs and this song speaks to me more than just the words!!! If that makes sense!!! Much love from Kentucky❣ Just One Day At A Time!!! Fan for life because your songs have the truth in them!!! I SLEEP WITH MY DEMONS!!!!! Yes I do!!! Demons never stop. I'm going through something and my demons not only scream but are sweet as iced tea when they are trying to pull you back in. Thank you for just being you!❣ and speaking your truth!!!!
Fire🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥👌I can relate coming from a Artist & Recovering From my past Demons in Addiction but I'm going on Ten years Clean real talk 🤗Ayoo this Dopeness Bruh🤘💚🤞🖤💯
listen merkules, ive been listening too you for about a year and a half now. you honestly surprise me with every song. You are no doubt one of the most versitle artists in your genre. I felt this shit in my heart, brought a tear to my eye. your an inspiration, keep this kinda stuff up.
Jelly pointed out some real shit, but listen to every bar. Merk killed this shit. Goosebumps every line. Reminded me of how i felt when jelly dropped addiction kills. Much love to both of yall, and everyone who truly FEELS this
I felt this in my soul- when he said “a lot of substance abuse and long nights “ I felt that- So happy for you Merk- this song is incredible
The Canadian twin tour jelly 💋😂
Jelly Roll for sure!!!
Hey jelly!! Big fan of yours aswell stay safe bro
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Whoop Whoop Jelly!
Intro:
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
When there's nothin' left...
Cause I don't wanna feel shit, someone must've hit a kill switch
They don't ask about the problems that I deal with
Fuck all of this money you can have it I don't feel rich
I keep havin' these flashbacks I hate 'em
They remind me of my problems, I can't stand to face 'em
I know it's prolly my last to change 'em
But even if I do it my past can't erase it
They recognize me 'cause they see me on the internet
They think I owe 'em somethin' I can't deal with all the disrespect
Sick to my stomach, when I feel it I just disconnect
My demons tend get the best of me when I get depressed
I've been stabbed in the back with a chainsaw
But who am I to blame y'all, I'm smokin 'til the pain's gone
You see me smilin on the surface tryna stay strong
Actin' like I'm happy starts to feel like it's my day job
But just as long as there's a purpose to it all
I'll keep tourin workin' hard, writin verses to these songs
Far from perfect, every person has their flaws
And mine is I'm an addict still searchin for a cause
I know they judge me for mistakes that I've made
Since I've gained all this fame shit just ain't been the same
I came in the game to pave a lane for my name
And it's painful to say it put's restraints on my brain but
I know it's worth it cause I get to tell my story
I'm at a point where the industry can't ignore me
I never had the main stream media to endorse me
I did this all by me and myself and y'all are corny
To every kid that's listenin to this song
I hope you've found the message I've written within it all
If no one's ever there to pick you up when you fall
I promise you're not alone, play this shit and just hit the wall 'cause
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I know you listenin' for somethin' to relate to
I know the feelin' like the whole world hates you
I know you wishin' you could finally have a breakthrough
You thought it was a phase so you pretend you're in a great mood
I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself
'Cause the person that you see is not like everybody else
So you try and you try but it never seems to help
So you're questionin' your words 'cause you're so fed up with the guilt
But...
You're not the only one that's goin' through regret
You're not the only one that no one seems to get
You're not the only one that's so close to the edge
And if you slip it's over for you so you cope with it instead
I can promise you that nobody is perfect and you overthink the little shit you're always so concerned with
So you lock yourself inside everynight and close the curtains
And you're screamin' out loud but it's like no one even heard it
I know problems keep pilin' up right in front of you
So much anxiety inside you don't know what to do
Been lied to so much you that you don't think you even want the truth
Fuck it, aww you grew to be used it, it ain't nothin' new
I been there too, just hold tight
A lot of substance abuse and long nights
But next time I see all my demons it's on sight
Next time I see all my demons it's on sight yeah....
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They been hauntin' my dreams and I can't think straight 'cause they won't stop screamin'
I've been fallin' asleep with, all of my demons
They keep talkin' to me but I can't tell 'em shit 'cause they can't keep a secret
Love when u do tracks like this cause I litterly feel this in my soul I fell it I've been there still sleep with some of my demons but ur music has always helped pull me out of such a dark place
Congrats on trending!
Thank you MERC for that . 🔥🔥🔥
Your a TRUE ICON I relate to you so much that your music is what I turn to when I feel shitty and it always soothes my soul❤💯 Thank you Merk😭I'm truly grateful for your Music
The equally beautiful and ugly minds we share.. Thanks for this Merk 🙏🤘
When he said "acting happy starts feeling like a day job" I got instant goose bumps. That's how you know this shit hits on a whole new level
Same
Real music real content 👌
true man .... it can get physically tiring at some point ... but it's a burden we decide to live with .....
Same thing I feel to man. His music is perfect
Some people don't understand
When a man can see & speak to you and you've never even met. What a legend.
SPL Splice 🏆🏆🏆🏆
Here's the lyric video
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He is real and he shares his pain we just happened to feel it
@@tonythompson7472 this man is on another level than the rest. Not just Canadian rappers. I'm talking the globe.
Merkules is criminally underrated I haven't heard a bad song
Much agreed
I agree with you that Merk is legit, he's in my top 5 along with Tech, Jelly Roll, Chris Webby & Tom MacDonald, but he's got over a million subs on TH-cam & probably over a million monthly streams on Spotify alone, not counting people like me who have TH-cam Premium & use TH-cam Music over Spotify, dudes far from underrated. I think what you mean is Merk, the others I named & many more that I didn't name deserve to be the mainstream played on the radio. Chris Webby on the other hand, that dude is criminally underrated, cause even though I'm sure his streaming numbers are just as well as any of the others, he has less than 400k subs on TH-cam & he's an OG of the underground lyrical rappers, even though I don't agree with his far left politics, Webby deserves more recognition than that on TH-cam
Have y'all ever herd of ak? Iamtherealak. Hes also extremely crimannly under rated. I listen to all of the rappers you just nammed and no one has herd or ak but he has also over a mil subs but no one knows his true tallent. I started listening to a k and merkules at the same time roughly about four years ago and they are my top two favorite rappers by far dax comes in a close third
Ps TH-cam premium Rocks. Also my app for music
He works hard.
Merkules makes me proud to be Canadian, such a talented artist with the skills to send a real message from real experience. This dude is inspirational to a lot of people.
"Far from perfect every person has their flaws, mine is I'm just an addict still looking for a cause"
Dude I'm on my front porch right now in f****** tears. Thank you brother you have written my anthem.
Love u guys ❤
I saw you on Dr. Phil offering your help to a young man, Noah. I'm a Christian snd may not support the Rap music, but I felt your "heart" during the show and wanted to say God bless you and may you continue to excel in your goals and in helping others. 👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽👏🏽
Christians can enjoy rap!
What's wrong with rap according to your version of christianity?
@@intellectualize6354 She watches "dr." phil that basically says it all.
@@intellectualize6354 if someone follows the teachings of the bible, there isnt much rap music that you can listen to and not disagree with...I'm not a Christian, and most rappers disgust me tbh. I know my opinion doesn't mean shit, but glorifying the bullshit that gets pushed to the top of the billboards is what keeps someone like this nice Christian fella from ever hearing someone like merk. He ain't wrong for pooling all rappers into the "mindless garbage content" category
Another outstanding track!!!! 💯 C-Lance & Aaron Hiltz always killing it on the production, Nato/Terry Tran with the engineering/mastering...and the lyrical content from you Merk...as always it's impeccable!
Real thoughts...real feelings, I felt every word of that bro! I'm so happy how things are going for you with everything taking off...hearing all that you've been through and seeing you still make a success of it is incredibly inspirational! You more than deserve it! Here's to another BBBANGERRR! 💥🤯💥💯💥🤯💥
Whoever doesn’t like this song or understand the talent this guy has needs to learn a lesson about real music
facts!
What, so you mean cause i dont like this sad depressing Flow, i need a lesson about real music? Usually love merc but this Kinda beat and Flow and text dont rly mean anything to me
And you know what actual music is???
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This is the farthest thing from real music you will ever hear
I just lost my brother to an OD angry as hell. Your music is exactly what my soul needs. Keep being as real as you are. Your lyrics are appreciated more then you know bro. Thank you
Me too man I feel this in my soul, I used to do drugs w him but quit tried to get him to quit as well but he got drug back into drugs pissed me off knowing it was someone who knew he was trying to get better than od'd because of feyntanal
Unfortunately to TRUE THAN WORDS
Agree 💯
Im sorry for your families loss
#keepyaheadup
@@braydenjones6293 iloveyou bro I hope your life brings you success and happiness
Sorry for ur loss my man. RIP to ur brother.
Found out my uncle passed in his sleep this morning and this song is hitting where it counts. Thanks for the escape merk keep up the work brother!
I hope God watches over you homie 🙏
Sorry for your loss bud, chin up from a Cape Bretoner to you....
@@doreenchiasson2878 I feel ya, death is the only thin promised in life, my nephew would like this r.i.p
RIP
My thoughts go out to u and ur uncle homie
Merk.. in my opinion, this is one of the best, if not the best. Everything you spit is fuckin real, i live with severe anxiety, major depressive disorder and PTSD. I was completely addicted to drugs for 10 years, 2 years clean now..
But that by no means makes life much easier.. my self doubt is just as crippling as my mental issues. Sometimes all i can do is throw on some MERK and ill be able to get through one more night.
Just knowing there are others who strugge with / have struggled with the same issuess while still living a good life help.
Moment, This Again, Goosebumps, Jocelyn Flores rmx, Demons, All Night Long and Reject are at the top in my opinion. The lyrics, the emotion are spot on - Thank you Merk.. your a motherfuckin beast bro
Merk man jeez! I have a lot of love for you bro I feel you. You keep gojng your self man we are are here for support dawg 🙏🏼
Never think your alone mate when I was 18 my best friend was murdered on my doorstep by a b**th that was thought he was me over fight we had the night before. After I dealt with it I turned to alcohol immediately then spent 4 years on every drug I could find and spent 90% of my time locked away in bedroom. It’s now 3 years after all of that an I’m slowing getting my life back together. I’ve got a full time job, slowing learning to trust people again and spending more an more time outside. Haven’t forgiven myself an don’t think I even deserve it.
It’ll never be easy for people who have been threw real shit brother but it does get easier trust me. You just need to never forget the people who care about you deserve the best you you can give them and use that to push threw the dark thoughts and all the bullsh*t that comes with it.
P.s please don’t feel sorry for me I don’t deserve it. I only put this out there so he know his not alone.
Good job bro, I'm almost in the exact same shoes. Mental health, PTSD, during my sobriety I lost my father figure and was mad at the world because my blood father wasnt taken instead, blood dad is a p.o.s..
I was addicted to opiates for 10 years, just broke my 2n1/2 years sober. It's never easy but remember man, any bad day sober is better than ANY day being in addiction. I'd rather take real world problems and stress over dealing with withdrawals, stealing, and selling everything I own to get another line.
I had one REALLY BAD overdose that kinda set me straight along with breaking away from a relationship with a girl I was gonna marry, we were addicts together in a very toxic relationship that I tried to fix by getting clean for her and she the same for me, but getting clean wasn't the answer because it was still toxic and she relapsed and went to jail 3 years ago and I haven't heard from her since but it's better for the both of us to stay apart and hopefully she's happy and safe. In order for us to both be happy, we had to fall off each other's radar completely.
You're not alone my friend. We struggle the same kinda way.
Proud of you for the hard work and keep it up my guy. I know you're strong enough to keep going down the right direction.
Seriously, regular people don't know how hard it is to stay clean, I'm proud of you for real.
11 years clean. It gets easier but you have to want it, you have to hate who that shit turned you into. You have to stay positive and find you Zen. Music is my therapy, thanks Merk!
@@mrsdevine161 I can't agree more... I was with that girl for 11 years and between that toxic and the opiates, I couldn't look in the mirror. I had this thing where if I saw a reflection of myself I'd get really disgusted or space out with thoughts of self hate.
I hated...hated who I was.
I miss not being alone, but I want my health more than a relationship.
11 years seems like a lifetime out of addiction. I'm only 1/5 of the way spent out of addiction, that I had spent in addiction.
It's scary and learning to do things alone is just as scary but my problems will only get worse if I start snorting pills again.
I congratulate you on your 11 years my friend.
This song punched me in the chest man. Keep making songs talking about the real struggles we go through man.
The flashbacks, anxiety and PTSD are all real struggles that the "norm" don't understand if they've never had to wrestle it to sleep. There isn't a day i get a break from any of the hell that haunts especially at night...I got this song on repeat bro because not to many rappers really know the deal! Getting ready for another shift and gotta get hyped to get through it & there ain't a better way than bangin out to my favorites! Appreciate the realness yo
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I was gonna say something along the same lines.. its crazy I don't even like to drink and I have been lately to stop the constant chest pains from anxiety. I can't even socialize without some sort of opiate/benzo/alcohol its crippling till the point of wanting to crawl out of my skin but I'm restless but also have no energy at the same time and can barely move and my family can't understand why I can't just stay sober and live my life without doing a major fumble.. good luck man
Man you and jelly are two of the best artist in my book y’all have been a huge inspiration for me and I swear on my life while make a track together some day
Thank you for writing this, so raw, so real. Love this song
Hits hard, for sure.. no one to talk to, just me and my thoughts trying to tell my self it gets better. Clean for 5 days cold turkey, hope I continue this path. Much love merk! Love from Ontario,Canada
Don't give up man you're stronger than you think !
I got 11 months I had to have open heart surgery last year but I just got accepted to a college you can do it bra if you need to talk hit my fb josh brush you got this homey
💖💪proud of you! Know this fight it though, I'm clean for 2 years now
So yeah, I believe you can make it.
Now believe in yourself too!
You decided to quit , so thats step 1.
If you need talk, I'm here, 💖
Keep string my friend I no,it's hard Cold turkey bn there twice....not a nice scene.....drink plenty fluids will help a lil faster my friend flush the system out.....
IT NOT GETTING OFF THEM THAT THE PROBLEM
IS KEEPING OFF THEM .
Take care pal ,T
U got this man don't give up
Just heading home from a 14 hour work day, this is definitely a great way to end it 😎
Same bro
Same I work 12s and this exactly the shit I needed to hear 🔥
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Jesus Gonzalez get a job
@Jesus Gonzalez nah man, I build Custom Furniture for a living 😂
I don't think there is a song you have put out where I don't get chill bumps. This really hits the soul. Keep it up. Ur amazing.
On Sunday I’m going to detox, and this song hits home... I can’t deal with the demons anymore... your songs have gotten me through so much, and helped me decide that this is what I need to do. Thank you Merk!!
good luck bro, been there, its hell. Find good people with similar goals and surround yourself with them. Drop the dead weight, you dont need that shit.
Good luck man! I been there and it was exactly what I needed. Sober 1 year and a half.:) you can do it! It’ll seem crazy at first but reality isn’t so scary.:)
good luck, i been there and done it so can you. i use ot be addicted to fent and any pain killer around. after a 9 day binge where i should of died i went on a full cold turkey detox. worst week of my life but once u go through the worst you know now to get back to that place
Hope you find Jesus Christ brother
Keep your head up, people places and things homid
Merk never fails! This hit at the perfect time for everyone I swear!
This song hit me really hard. Im struggling in life and with my demons and this song explains everything perfect. Hope to one day find peace with my demons. Keep the great music coming bro.
Same man.
MERK, this is one of the realest song I've ever heard much love and respect!
Everyone's been here at least once. If you say you haven't--you're lying. The guitar w/the voice + lyrics made this powerful. Good job.
Z a
I found this song in a time I needed to hear it. Been battling drug addiction and mental health issues for years and this is first time I think I've felt like someone not only found the words for it but understood it. Proud of how far this guy has come and the inspiration he has been for myself and many others. Keep speaking for those who still haven't found they're voice Merk 💚💯
Relate... Even after getting clean it doesn't leave your head.
Im an addict "amphetamines" continue to control my thoughts action and ultimately my fate ..13 yrs weed addiction and sex. 15 delivered my son nearly losing life. 19 nicotine begins.. Tried meth hated the shit. I thought thankgod. 23 yrs i failed myself my children my family the lords plan for me one year later no amount of lines can cure this pain. Thankyou to artist like you for allowing me to feel at all ... You are loved
You said it going thru some things it gets hard to fight the temptation
I was playing this at my worst three years ago Merk, it really helped me through some tough times along with alot of your other songs 🙏 there's a reason your music resonates with people and all them people are well aware why ✌️
Merkules owns this
😅been there
felt this heavy, once upon a time i was heavily involved in gang activity and drug dealing. lost alot of people im an addict in recovery and am only alive for my kids and music like this, im a convicted felon, stabbings, robbery etc , this chorus made me think of all the shit i done in my life and thank god i aint that way no more. love you merk, Love from |London Ont
Idk you man but I’m proud of you! Stay strong bro!!
Stay strong buddy. Not far from you just in windsor! God bless
Every time he drop something its fire 🔥🔥
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This explains my life... Demon's everyday.. still fighting, standing tall.
Merk isn't one to put out songs just to be out there. Like Jelly Roll, his music deserves to be really listened to and absorbed.
Merkules I cant tell you how much I appreciate your music. It seems like every time Im going through it, you drop a song that I can relate to almost down to the T. I swear. Thank you man. Keep doing what your doing and keep your head up! 🙏
"Far from perfect every person has there flaws, and mine is I'm an addict still searching for a cause." That shit is deep and for some of us all to true. This man is beyond under rated, I don't think I've ever heard a whack Merk verse. This is amazing, thanks my man. Keep that heat comin. Get Apathy on track please, over a c-lance beat. shit would be murderous.
Your music always takes me on a trip. I'm sober now but this music hits my soul and gives me trips 😢❤. Good and bad. All about growth and this music is therapy!
Can we just all stop for a minute and pay respects to Merk? Incredible message bro💯💯 Stay strong homie, we've got your back.
Like wise ... I'm Knightowl
Not only did merk go deep, Stuey Kubrick killed it with this one, holy shit!
Toronto feels u Merk on your come up, your microphone skills, your writings is making us do a double take and we are all different colours up here. Stay humble and keep making executive stuff like this, its special. Peace
Thank you Merkules, the lyrics of this song are just amazing. They help put a perspective view on my life when I’m struggling with my inner demons.
Wow the feels on this song.. I remember listening to "In my heart" for the first time.. I didn't see the twist at the end coming and it really got me..
I'm 2 days in on quitting tobacco and alcohol again, I can relate to the addictions and struggles.. I quit for 2 years but this summer got me back down again..
I've listened to this song 3 times now heh.. It's definitely a new favorite, Thank you for making music
I get Spitz seeds.. Idk, truly helps me. 💜
Stay strong great people listen the weak enablers only want company your not alone on the path others should lead by positive examples keep your head up
In my heart is greatness......keep your head up fam.....been there myself ✊🏻
You got this
Dude im breaking free from fentanyl/ fake percs and alcohol and its a daily struggle. It seems like the harder u try the harder the demons try to keep you down. God bless you brother. Keep your faith strong
It’s so refreshing to have a real rapper and lyricist, not bullshit, not just pop for the radio play. But real lyrics, real emotions, real pain. Thank you merk, you da truth
who else has replayed this more than twice today?? 🔥🔥
Dude, its on replay since ive heard it, such a strong song
I'm on replay 7 this morning.
Hells ya 💙
On replay every day !!
#no1song
Just like jelly roll said, I felt this in my soul... I struggle with my demons on the daily and I will be rocking this incredible song a lot
This song hits so close to home for me, it nearly made me cry.
All I want to do now is just keep writing and writing.
Much love from the 306 Merk.
Stay safe, and stay strong in these crazy times we are in everyone.
Who's Here Before This Blows Up 👌
He's gonna stay independent. Hes put put out alot of songs that get millions of views and nobody signed him. They want that drug addict lil pump type lyrics to get signed or instead of TH-cam he should flood sound cloud cuz that's another way dudes get signed
The lyrics had a Reject feel too it. Love it man Merk for life.
This is some of the rawist I have heard in awhile...this a jelly rolls yall keep it poppin
This song hits hard man, we have all been there and can all relate in one way or the other unfortunately we all have are own demons, but thankyou merk for being human along side the rest of us, much love man.
This song hit close to home it helped me at my lowest much love bro
It’s great to see that Snak directed this video and evil b and merkules have all been loyal to each other thru all hard times and fame. They are a good loyal combo
I've listened to a lot of stuff in all different feelings and moods but this song specifically caught my attention like no other song in the world, I relate to this by far more than anything!! Very powerful and grateful I heard it. Keep it up Merk
“I know you wishing you can finally ever break through
You thought it was a phase, so you pretended you were in a great mood
I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself cause the person that you see is not like everybody else,
So you try and you try
But never seems to help
So you questioning your worth
Cause your so fed up with the guilt”
Dammmn
Every single time I listen to this I’m in a place where I need it. Stuck in this motel room every night but just know my time is coming. Thank you for helping me through.
I love everything I have seen with you . I can sympathize with alot of your lyrics and your music motivates and gets me moving everyday thank you
This track is absolutely incredible
Your music helps me clear my head when days are shit. Keep it up man much love for you and your music.
Legit just making music so much better thank you. I felt this down to my toes 💯🔥
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"Acting happy like it's my day job" And I was hooked it feels like this whole song he was speaking about me
I relate so much to the second half of this song, I'm not an addict, but I struggle with PTSD, depression and anxiety on a daily basis. 😞💯
I really respect Merkules’ music. He’s very inspiring and has deep meaning in his message.
Ikr it's hard to find those kind of rappers now adays
after 14yrs of addiction , i feel this so deep, much love Merkules....
It's 20 years for me but I'm clean right now and on a methadone maintenance script and I am doing alright, some days are easy and others are a mental battle not to pickup again... you know that little devil 😈 and what he says... but he can go fuck himself.i hope you are heading for better days, it's a tough fight but it's one you can win.
Seek Jesus Christ
I love you merk.
Mirror like lives, i swear bro.
You have a talent to spit truth with a melody.
how many effects do you want merk?
Yes
This guys is honestly a legend helped me though some hard times 🙏🙏🙏
I felt this "acting happy is starting tp feel like my day job" in my soul man
Your the realist artist out. Mad respect
Had this song on repeat all night , smooth and relaxing just meditate and stay strong homies...
Thankyou mate, I really needed this today.
I genuinely tear up when I listen to this song but I cant help but bop to it
I love this song! All of Merkules songs are amazing! Best part 3:33.
You might not even see this but merk but you and jelly are my all time favorite artist! Your guys music keeps me going and is the only music that truly speaks to me. Much love you guys thank you for the inspiration and letting me know I’m not alone in this cold world!
This hits me hard... my best friend committed suicide last week I lost a best friend and a place to live that day. My demons are very real.
Reach out for help my friend, don't suffer in silence, sorry for your loss
Much love. Keep that chin up i cant imagine your pain but I hope you find peace. 420 toke one for the homie.
Sorry for your loss stay positive and live your legacy
I'm so sorry. Talk it out man
You got the community with you bro, we all here to listen to you and help man. We are all one and feel together. We got you
This hits home big time give us strength to power forward on our own paths real talk 💯 🤙
real talk bro facts respect ya haha lol
This song has me in tears, and I don't cry much. But this song pulls every insecurity, heart string, and my soul to my sleeve where I wear it.
Keep your head up man even in doubt and shame ! One day at a time
Hope that's the album cover shits sick
Anyone who don’t like Merkules music is out there mind. Been waiting for him to hit a concert in NY @merkules keep grinding there is not 1 track you have made that I have not liked. He is my top music artist and has been coming out with hits for a while now he’s been next up
I've seen Merk live 5 times, ranging from the first year he toured with 30 people at a nightclub all the way to a sold out show of a couple thousand people, i can safely say he kills his live shows and puts everything he has into every show he performs regardless of who's there. I hope you get the opportunity to see him live,
SDK for LIFE
Acting happy is starting to feel like my day job...good God that hit home 💔
This hit my heart man exactly how im feeling especially my brothers passing its hard for to handle it we was like Batman n Robbins he was helping me cope with my condition cuz he also had Schizophrenia n bi polar 2 disability an anxiety ne I am bi polar 1, have anxiety. N im manic depression disorder, n ocd .We help eachother figure out sum of our triggers also found something to cope with sum of it he taught me how to rap n inspired me to rap n take it from a hobby 2 taking it serious to write in the rest in peace. Jerry (29) love you bro.
Sorry bout your brother. Find me on Instagram and I'll send you my number pimpin. You can call me whenever. @stonerbob is my ig
Lol shut up!!! You can’t help everyone
Love you Merk. Feel every word.
Your lyrics play in my head all the time.
I'm sure you herd this many times over, but your music has gotten me through so many dark days. My #1 artist. It's nice seeing people like us aren't alone no matter how alone we feel. Keep doing ur thing big homie. Ct tour needed. Be up B
Bro I've been struggling with alcohol my entire life and drugs my mom had to kick me out at some point when I was 16 cause I was going threw it years before and she tried to keep me away but I found it with my personality and ADHD substance abuse was a serious issue and Evan though I'm older now and early 30s I want you to know merk that music like yours gives people a reason to keep fighting because we know others feel the same way and battle depression and anxiety money and fame will still not hide thatm I respect and love your music man gives me hope and faith that I can still turn it around just always feeling stuck and hopeless feels so destined for failure and than you here somone than can relate say the same thing feels like there I'd hope. 🙂
Seek Jesus Christ only He can save you
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Amen
No one is perfect but GOD is the only one to help us all. Im no bible thumper at all but weather u believe or not he's there to listen if you'll talk to him. I know exactly where you've been from experience and can tell you it does get better. Go to church and ask for help, you will feel better.
Woods Monkey guranteed
exactly how i feel with everything personally going on in my life right now from last year to now so relatable Merk
Keep ya head up brother
I love this whole song and video. Its amazing, perfect beat, great hook, Kubrick killed this video. Merk bodies this track. It hits you in the feelz.
I listened to this with my dad and you started to sing the part about kids and I am 11 I am back in my room coz I almost cried this is a great song
Ay young one, make sure you learn the lessons from the tunes you bump and try not to slip into the real problems spoke of, depression, addiction, suicide, all that go hand in hand. Stay real 💯.....you on tha right track
@@dannyingram1831 I am already in some of that depression,anxiety and ADHD it's hard but thank you this helped me
@@clownz1233 i can relate to you, i was diagnosed with all 3 at 13. Be very careful with the medicine they prescribe to you. I have a very neglectful childhood and turned to substances to feel some kind of relief. Its a horrible road to go down. I lost almost 5 years of my life and now I just make music to vent with the pain. And try to help other as much as I can. Keep your chin up and don't ever let ANYONE (family or otherwise) make you feel insignificant. EVER. You are a valuable person with much to offer the world. Every human being is beautiful and perfectly imperfect. Its what you do with the gift of life that matters more than anything. When you grow up theyres things now that might mean so much to you that will be irrelevant in the future. Times now are difficult growing up, always stay positive and use music as your escape. That's what helped me. Much love!
My goodness why would you be watching this nonsense?
Research JESUS CHRIST! He alone can save you.
@@Lucid603Official that's what I do I write music i have been through so much as a kid I REFUSE to take medicine it makes me a zombie! So now I use other things to help I don't sleep that's much anymore I don't speak to anyone nobody knows my pain because I opened up to someone and they told everyone in school all my secrets so now I have trust issues and don't tell anyone anything coz I am scared everyone is the same love you man thank you ♥️
When you hit rock bottom, I’m now on my way back to normality. You’ve been helping me years with your lyrics Merk thank you.🙏
Merkules you should check out Jay3uk, I think you’d make a 🔥 track together
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Merkules really is an underrated artist, keep your head high m8
True fan here just wanted to shout out and ty for keeping this s#it real. Love what your doing bro. ✌️🧡💜🙏
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Hands down my favorite love his passion this shit has so much soul I feel it in my chest
This song hits me hard.
I feel this song inside...
I'm glad to know there's others out there who feel these exact lyrics!
Growing up fast will do that to you... times I felt like dying, but knew it wasn't worth it.. I can't listen to those 'Demons', cause they drag me down!
Thanks Merk, for your music! 🤙🏼
My demons keep me awake, thank the plug for the wedding cake.
been stabbed in the back, life's been rippin like a heart attack
Great tune Merk!
This track is like a long lost brother
Hafta say this has come at the perfect time in my life, thank you merkules ❣😊🌷i have been recently diagnosed with a rare terminal illness, the waves of life are hitting me as i face this 😪
“Fuck all this money, you can have it. I don’t feel rich.”
Goes to show, money doesn’t buy happiness... Just look at Robin Williams. You can have everything and nothing at the same time.
FACT. I've had it all and lost it twice, money is nothing.
Enjoy the little things stop every once in a while look up look at the world around you enjoy the quiet enjoy the noise city folk and people in the wild stay safe
Its funny how peeps.r always wishing to find happiness n dont realize they keep wasting all those wishes because shit only they can make themselves happy
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money just makes people bad it goes to their head and distorts their values and listening to Merkules makes me feel less alone in the struggles I go through in my life
Legend💯
I'm 6 yrs clean off drugs and this song speaks to me more than just the words!!! If that makes sense!!! Much love from Kentucky❣ Just One Day At A Time!!! Fan for life because your songs have the truth in them!!! I SLEEP WITH MY DEMONS!!!!! Yes I do!!! Demons never stop. I'm going through something and my demons not only scream but are sweet as iced tea when they are trying to pull you back in. Thank you for just being you!❣ and speaking your truth!!!!
Who’s playing this back to back to back 🤘🏻
Chase Liss JESUS DIED & ROSE AGAIN TO FREE U FROM SIN ACCEPT HIS GIFT✝️✝️✝️
Fire🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥👌I can relate coming from a Artist & Recovering From my past Demons in Addiction but I'm going on Ten years Clean real talk 🤗Ayoo this Dopeness Bruh🤘💚🤞🖤💯
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listen merkules, ive been listening too you for about a year and a half now. you honestly surprise me with every song. You are no doubt one of the most versitle artists in your genre. I felt this shit in my heart, brought a tear to my eye. your an inspiration, keep this kinda stuff up.
Jelly pointed out some real shit, but listen to every bar. Merk killed this shit. Goosebumps every line. Reminded me of how i felt when jelly dropped addiction kills. Much love to both of yall, and everyone who truly FEELS this