The least sexy part of an Architect's job
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 9 ก.ค. 2024
- How do architects work with engineers?
This is one of those things that's not really covered in architecture school, but it makes up a pretty big portion of your day to day as an architect. In this video, I will give you a brief description of what each of the consultants do, what your responsibilities are, and how to coordinate with the different engineers.
0:55 - Introduction
1:35 - Overview
2:00 - Structural Engineers
2:32 - Mechanical Engineers
3:16 - Electrical Engineers
4:10 - Architect's responsibilities
6:20 - Coordination during different Phases of an architectural project
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So what do you think about coordination? Still want to be an architect? 😁
I believe this is where you can differentiate a good from a great architect. If you don't want to do the ''unsexy'' work, you're not a great architect.
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I think I still just want to sit at a computer and draw floor plans all day :) But this does sound less scary than I imagined.
@@Robin.Backer Greatness is in the eye of the beholder. I'd say "You're not a fully fledged, legal Architect."
this is absolute GOLD! thanks for the run through.
Hi Dami! An architect student here ^^ Just wanted to say that your videos are really helpful and give lots of insight into the field of architecture. Thank you!!
Aww thank you! 😊
As a wannabe architect/CAD technician at a civil engineering firm I love your content. Very underrated 🙏👍😎
Thank you 😊
As a second year Architecture Student from England, Id like to say how much I love your vids :)
thank you so much! hopefully the videos can help you learn some things that's not covered in school 😊
@@DamiLeeArch they most definitely do!!
As an engineer in Canada, this video is spot on. Coordination among disciplines is a grind sometimes.
Golden!!! Thank you for such a detailed overview , really helps to put a structure of the process in place
I can't thank you enough for starting your YT channel. I recently changed my major from actuarial sciences to architecture. You are a mentor and a leader to me. Thank you so much for all the information and guidance.
Wow thank you so much, I am honoured to hear that! That sounds like a pretty drastic change. I hope you're enjoying architecture!!
You ended this with “it’s a dry video” and I can see why you said that oppose to your other videos but I loved this. I love that you were honest about the process and that it was informative to the reality of your day to day being an architect. Continue making these kind of videos, extremely helpful. Thank you!
No problem!! Good to hear that it was not too boring 😊
Thank you for the important details and I love you
This was a very helpful video, I enjoyed it a lot. It's very hard to come across a clear explanation of the whole process from A to Z without unnecessary and confusing information. I'm a fifth-year architecture student and wanted to understand these last phases of the project more because as you said, these things related to actual implementation and coordination with contractors are not taught in depth in schools so I felt like I was lacking in that aspect. So thank you so much for your video.
Awesome.
Learned a lot.
Thank you.
This is the very best. Description of an Architect l’ve seen anywhere April 28 / 2023
I’m already loving the job. Thanks for the explanation. Can’t wait to get into architecture school.
no problem! I'm excited for you!! it's an exciting journey ^^
Great Stuff!
Thanks DamiLee; I'm a graduated Architecture student and have been very eager to jump into the boring stuff. I too think it's mandane but somewhat fun if you love architecture. Thanks for such a detailed summary video.
No problem! Hey It's s the mundane stuff that gets things built and makes the world turn right? 😁
This is super helpful. Thanks for posting!!
No probs!
I'm a CAD designer and appreciate the clarity of this content more than any other architecture channel on YT
Thank you so much for explaining!
You're very welcome!
Very Informational video! Took a whole page of notes. Thank you
No problem!!
Awesome videos! I really love your works and insights. Hope you continue sending inspiration to young and future architects! :))
Thank you!! Yes if these videos help or inspire future architects in any way, I'm a happy camper ^^
Your videos are so useful for me, thanks for that!!!!
hey margarita, no problem!! glad to hear that!
As a Construction Engineer I must commend you on this video, you give me hope for Architects. Everything was spot on except that list you made of what Structural engineers do lol
Thanks 😁 Did I miss a lot of stuff?
In Romania,few of that list are actually done by architects
This is my favourite channel thank you!!
Aww thank you 😊
I’m a site-civil engineer in the US and much of what you explained was exactly what I do for clients. The only thing that was really different is that my work doesn’t usually involve any massing models but instead involves layout of the site (including building location, parking, some rough grades, and a construction cost estimate) during the concept phase. I wish more engineers and architects would realize how much most of our work can overlap and that each discipline should really take a class or two in the other’s field (I took an architecture and an urban planning class in college). I had initially considered architecture but chose civil engineering.
What drove you to do civil over architecture? Are you currently doing stuff as a civil engineer that you had first envisioned doing as an architect? I'm in a similar predicament where I'm considering architecture but am already working towards a civil degree and am unsure about which direction to take. Thanks!
In my own opinion, you did a pretty good job to explain the process........👍👍👍
I am currently working as a Construction Director for a developer, and my duty is also to coordinate with the Architect and all Consultants on board.
thank you! I tried to keep it relatively short and to the point, but as you probably know, there's an entire course that could be said about the world of coordination. ^^
Hi, im a first year architecture student from the philippines and i really love your vids 🥺i hope you continue posting new content 👉👈
Hey! Thank you 😊 i definitely will be posting more content
D-A-M-I u r awsome w ur contents and a valuable resource for the architecture community
As an architect student this is very useful thank you
Quite informative and yet the most important things for jotting down being in architecture.. Thanks for this amazing content...
no problem 😊 hope it was helpful.
Yes it is 👍👍
Interesting video. My professor went over most of this information in my construction management class.
the thumbnail😆😆 this is some top tier stuff 💯
5:25
That really depends. At least in Denmark most engineering firms are coordinating in programs like Revit or Solibri to avoid any collisions.
This video is great, however I do have two comments based on my 17+ years in architecture (Toronto). I have never submitted for a Building Permit during Design Development (or end of DD) stage. Building Permit is typically submitted in the 90% of Construction Drawing/Document phase. DD starts adding "meat" on the concept bones but it is still in the primary design stage, and the City examiners require more advanced coordination of the building and building system to confirm compliance with Code.
Also, within architecture "Construction administration" term tends to be reserved for the individuals working on construction site on the Contractor side. For Consultants (architects and engineers), the more common term would be "Contract administration" to ensure the tendered documents are met in the built form. We do not oversee construction activities per se, but compliance with contract :)
Interesting and helpful 👍
thank you :)
Architectural technology student soon to be graduate from Scotland I really enjoy your videos !
Thank you! 😊
MEP and Sustainability Engineer here ;-). Glad mechanical engineering is not si-fi and well explained. We love to ask for more plantroom spaces from Architects ;-).
Haha that is true 😂
Well explained! 🙂
thank you.. that means a lot!!!
@@DamiLeeArch And Thank you 🙂
Great video ❤️
Can u do a video in future about Art Deco in architecture I really would like to know more about Art Deco and specially on the architecture side of it
Hm yeah that could be an interesting video. I'll add it to my list!!
I'm a geotechnical engineer, so I was hoping you'd fit us in. The thing is, as you know, you rarely see our work unless things really go wrong. Leaning tower of Pisa? 😉. I have a son interested in architecture, so I enjoy your content and advice to those interested in architecture!
About the Consultants engineers ,dos the Architect pick the firms to do the design for the building first and who pays them be four tendering
as a engineering student with the heart to become an architect and who just finished another coursework in uni… what a nice video for a break and for motivation🙌❤️ thank you!!
no problem!! 😊
Work as an engineer. It's a much better better paid area.
Thoughtful, measured, direct.
Thank you 😊
thanks for making the boring stuff interesting! ❤
hahah i'm glad to hear that!! ❤
Fascinating how it takes so many people with such different backgrounds. Orchestrating all of that must make for an awesome life skill in knowing one's own limits and be able to draw (pardon the pun) people in as you need them :) I admire that. I am a software developer in a software company myself (cool M1 video btw 😉) and most of the people I work with are the same as me, which is a little weird, because it leaves you feeling that given the time, you could have done it all on your own. On the one hand that feels empowering, but really it is disempowering, because when finally you are faced with a real problem that requires a multitude of talents, you end up helpless and overwhelmed, trying to do it all on your own, which obviously one can't XD Hehe, anywho, Thank you for the video, it was very inspirational 🙂
The thumbnail goes down in history
hahah thank you.. spent a lot of time on that 😁😭
I am a civil engineer. I saw this video your explanation is very clear and in accordance with what I’m study at my university. But unfortunately at work is not as beautiful as imagined. Because Sometime architects don't want to change the design, the reason they always tell me is “if you change the design, the beauty of the design will be lost” It was a big problem for me as a civil engineer facing an Architect. Because I know the design will not be strong enough to withstand the existing load.
How much does your design need to “withstand the existing load”?
Hi dami
I have a question
If you would include all these consultants into all your designs ,...
How many months do you work averagely on all designs ?
Or better till how many jobs do you do per year
What about plumbing? How much will I need to know? Thanks for the info.
Great work. I just found your channel. Do you think there's an advantage for an architect to study structural engineering? BTW happy new year
Hey Dami, can you please make a video on what are the jobs/professions architecture degree has to offer?
Please!!!❤
Yes absolutely! Great idea.
I’m a project engineer working for a gc in Southern California. I originally wanted to be an architect when I was first going to college, however, after learning about what an architect actually does I switched to construction management. Can you do a video on an architects role in a design build job and how it might differ from your roles here? I was thinking about specifically the cd development phase.
This video may turn off some people from being an architect but it is the truth.
It was a lot of information
And just what I wanted to know
Im a 14 yrs old girl and I wanna be an architect in the future and I’m sure your informations would help me reach my goal 🙂
Hey Carlet, I think it's great that you watched this very practical video about architecture! Start practicing your skills and make time to read about architecture and you'll be well prepared for architecture school 😊
Thanks for the useful video.❤️
The doubt is, Is there no Building Services Engineers?
We civil engineer who do main job of calculating risk involved in projects are neglected 😢
I'm new from the Lao PDR.
The intro looks sick...
Also epic thumbnail...
Thank you 😊
🖤
Dami you are the most beautiful architect I know ❤
You are on the explore category on this app
whoa.... that's insane.
Shes making me rethink the Industrial Design course im on lol. Cuz in ID history i noticed wayback most Industrial designers were Architects... I simply chose ID for the innovation and variety it has. Are modern architects different from the old ones that switch to ID since I suspect modern to be more specialized in buildings? Have you done projects outside buildings? plz dont say Chair/ sofa design 🤣
MASTER🙏🙏🙏
I had to go off 2x at exactly 2:00... holy shit
As a small architect graduate with minimal connection to other engineer talk to a client
C : soo... i need your help to make me a mansion near the cliff with a beach view in this site here. So other than Arch plan what else can you deliver ?
A : Yes..
I think it’s a bit dangerous to suggest that consultants are responsible for making sure that the project is being constructed as per design. It’s rarely possible to inspect all installations past the first mock-up, and some contractors prefer to keep you in the dark about what they’ve built. We should not be primary quality control.
I think when you sign and seal, you're promising to review "to the best of your abilities", meaning you're not expected to uncover things thay are outside of your knowledge or scope or things that are intentionally hidden from you
Can I be an apprentice in your firm?
You are the most beautiful architect that I know.
Im lucky that i found you
one thing for sure, they don't get along very often
I'm not an architect, but I'm working with engineers on this one project (I am the designer and their client).
this is pretty much how things goes every single time.
Me: here's my design blueprint
engineers: No!
Me: here's my revised blueprint
engineers: No!
Me: how me your solution based on my design
engineers: here you go
Me: No!
Hahah 😂
yEeees!! prepared to get depressed just from this video
hahah not my intent!!!
Wtf?! All the engineers came to dislike? Or architecture students who don’t want to hear this? I absolutely love your videos and couldn’t imagine disliking so soon after the video was posted.
oh boy... I hope I didn't piss off any engineers!! 😁
@@DamiLeeArch all the dislikes are gone now...? 😂 so weird
@@neotradnous What the....... that's very strange.... anyways, thanks for being my surveillance hahah 😂
Love u
I am uiux student and don't know why i watch your videos
Don't make me switch 😅
come to the dark side 😈
@@DamiLeeArch haha, got a friend in interior design tho
How do architects work with engineers? They don't.
Yes they do
@@sylvia7891 Do they yes?
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I turn to look back.. I am hearing cries.. I look back.. I see two Teddy bears.. One is wearing pink the Other is wearing Blue.. and I hear.. MOMMA.. I want my Momma and cries get louder and louder.. My arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I am looking for YOU.. I heard this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. asking me if this Bear can go to YOU.. as I am walking.. I am walking into a Room.. and I stop.. there is a Square box.. on top of a stand.. and I am looking at the Square Box.. Inside is the Big Heart.. I just can't believe it.. Is this Your Heart.. I want to know if this Big Heart belongs to YOU.. because if this Big Heart is Yours.. I want it.. and can I keep this Big Heart if it belongs to YOU.. I am looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. and I would say.. DO you see that Heart.. It is so Big.. I love when a Heart is this Big.. do you know why.. LOOK at my arms.. My Arms loves to HOLD and Snuggle.. just like this Giant Teddy Bear.. 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I am wondering.. what Have you done to this Giant Teddy Bear.. she is crying for YOU.. like YOU are her Momma.. and I would lay and turn on the side.. closing my eyes.. THIS Giant Teddy Bear keeps on crying.. she keeps on crying for her Momma.. and I open both eyes.. I need some rest.. I need some sleep.. and I turn and I sit UP looking at the Giant Teddy Bear.. what if you are not her Momma.. and the Giant Teddy bear cries and cries.. looking for YOU.. both arms opens to me and says.. YOU are her Momma.. I would wrap my arms around this Giant Teddy Bear.. lift and I would walk off of the room.. going into.. I am not sure where I was going.. am I sleep walking.. or am I walking in the right direction.. and the Giant Teddy Bear leads me to the ROOM.. I have never seen this room before.. so I must be sleeping right.. I must be dreaming or something.. and I see a DOOR opens before me.. and I stop.. my breathe is taken away.. looking at the Square Box.. sitting on top of a Stand.. I see a Big Heart.. I want it.. Now I feel like this Giant Teddy Bear.. I want to Cry with this Bear.. because I do not want to drop this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I do want to Hold that Big Heart.. I want to know.. why is this Big Heart inside a Square Box.. who has put this Big Heart inside.. and why would YOU Leave this Big Heart behind.. it just don't make any sense to Me.. because If I want it.. I want this Heart so Bad.. I want it that I want to walk to this Square Box and Beat It.. what happens if the Square Box starts to rock and it can Hurt this Big Heart.. as I would lower to Put the Giant Teddy Bear on the Floor.. I would raise UP.. and I would walk closer and closer.. I step so close.. placing my hands on the Side of this Square Box.. I can see Your Heart.. It is Your Big Heart.. is this Your Heart.. can YOU hear me because if this Big Heart do Not belongs to YOU.. I don't want it.. I want it because it is Your Heart.. I would pull the Picture from my back pocket and I am looking at You through this Picture and I would say.. I have brought some thing.. but has become some one.. it is the Giant Teddy Bear.. this Bear cries.. and she be saying.. YOU are her Momma.. will you accept her as Your Daughter.. because I can't put her with me any more.. the Giant Teddy Bear.. she tells me she has lost her Momma.. I showed the Giant Teddy Bear a picture of YOU.. and she says YOU are her Momma.. I am not sure how this became to Be.. but.. I came here because of this Giant Teddy Bear.. I guess she belongs with YOU and Not with me.. so I am going to leave this Giant Teddy Bear behind.. but before I go.. I want to see that YOU would accept her.. and I turn to look back and I lower too look at the Giant Teddy Bear.. I see her crying.. wiping the tears with two small hands.. saying She wants her Momma.. misses her Momma.. wondering where YOU at.. and I turn to look at the Square Box.. looking through the Glass.. looking at the Big Heart.. How can YOU leave your Daughter behind.. why would you let her cry like that.. I feel so sad when something like this Happens to a SON or a Daughter.. can YOU not hear this Giant Teddy Bear crying.. I hear MOMMA.. and I hear crying and tear drops.. and I would look at the Square BOX.. I would hold the Picture and I turn to look at YOU through the Picture.. of course I too want to see YOU.. I want to hold YOU IN my arms.. just the way I would hold this Giant Teddy Bear.. but I wish that it be you.. I rather be YOU instead.. but I don't know where YOU are.. I only can see you through this Picture.. but I can't find YOU anywhere else as I would turn.. looking at the Square Box.. I am looking through this Glass and I am looking at the Big Heart.. and I would get closer to the Glass and I would look at the Big Heart.. I do love Your Heart.. I love how beautiful your Heart is.. the shape of your Heart.. I wish that I can take this Square Box.. am I allowed to lift this Square Box.. can I carry it away and go to my room.. will you please let me take this Square Box.. because right when my eyes saw your Big Heart.. something inside of me just froze.. I felt like my feet were glued to the floor and it was very Hard for my feet to move forward.. my Heart just kept on telling me.. to GO.. walk forward.. but my eyes.. when both eyes saw what was inside this Square Box.. it told my feet to stay glued.. for a moment.. I wanted to step back.. not to enter the room.. to turn around and to go back.. but the Giant Teddy Bear kept on crying.. telling me it is MOMMA's Heart.. that is MOMMA and made me realize that I was at the right place.. in the right room.. I just fell in love with the Big Heart because this is the starting point I wish to have.. I can say many wishes on a star.. it may never come true when YOU make too make wishes on a star.. but when I look at this Big Heart.. I know that One day my wish can be a true reality.. means it can really happen.. I came so close.. I can't turn back and cannot walk off.. I am able to look at this Big Heart so Close.. I want it.. really really want it.. but what am I suppose to do now.. I see the Square Box on top of a stand.. I brought the Giant Teddy Bear with me.. I have your picture.. which I am looking at it right Now.. I have come this very far.. but.. I need this Heart.. my finger points and touches the glass.. it does not matter any more because Now I know what I need.. what I want is this.. the Big Heart.. I don't want to steal it.. I just can't carry it off.. but I want this Heart.. this Big Heart.. my finger taps and taps the Glass of the square Box.. this Giant Teddy Bear has lead me here.. why.. if I can't take this Big Heart with me.. if this Square Box is attached to the Stand.. I tried to pull the Square Box off the stand.. the Giant Teddy Bear started to kick and scream crying and looking at me Not to take it.. then what am I suppose to do.. she is crying.. I want the Heart.. I did not come all the way here just to look at the Big Heart.. should I lift the Stand.. maybe this stand can go with me because I want Your Big Heart.. tell me.. why can't I have it.. I want Your Heart.. do I must beg.. I am not a beggar to beg for your Big Heart.. but if I must beg.. I can be a beggar just for YOU.. but please.. tell me.. I want Your Heart.. I want this Big Heart.. I want to hold Your Big Heart in my arms and my head lean on your Heart and I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU.. waiting for this Heart to come to Me.. like my Pillow.. I want to lay my head and sleep on top of your big Heart and say to YOU.. I love YOU.. I would hear steps.. I am thinking.. where is this sound coming from and I hear the steps.. walking steps and the sound is coming from the Back.. and I would turn to look back.. and I see the Giant Teddy Bear crying and crying.. and I am wondering.. it must be YOU.. because when the steps stopped.. YOU lowered yourself and the Giant Teddy Bear stops crying.. arms would stretch out and I hear the word MOMMA.. and I see you wrapping your arms around the Giant Teddy Bear.. as I see YOU lift up the Giant Teddy Bear.. my Heart starts to beat.. I am wondering.. where is this Sound coming from.. Is it my Heart and I turn around.. LOOKING at the Square Box.. through the Glass.. I see your Big Heart.. and I am not sure.. I am hearing the beating of a Heart.. I would get close to the Square Box.. putting my ear on the side of the glass of the Square Box.. But I do not hear any sound.. and I would turn too look at YOU.. I see the Giant Teddy Bear smiling.. arms wrapping around YOU and snuggling.. I want that too.. I want to be held by YOU like the way YOU be holding that Giant Teddy Bear.. maybe we can switch places for a Day.. I want to be the Giant Teddy Bear.. and she can be me switching shoes.. I want your Heart.. I want your BIG HEART.. but Now I want to be held by YOU.. can I
Please be a little Boy.. I want your arms around me.. and holding me tight and I get to snuggle in your arms.. Please.. YOU know how much I want Your Love.. to be loved by YOU because I love YOU.. I can't believe that YOU are gone.. You told me that YOU will be back.. I have found a Note and it was placed by the front door.. I came home late and I saw the Note before I came in.. I read the note telling me that YOU are leaving some where and telling me you wanted time and space.. and taking a trip where I can't find YOU.. I would be waiting for YOU.. but will you come soon.. because YOU have not tell me when YOU will be back.. I would open the Back door and I would be standing at the back yard.. I would be looking at the table.. I would turn back.. we both would sit here at the Back yard.. pulling out the cold Beer.. and I would give YOU one.. after I would pop the Can open.. I just loved your Smile.. whenever I would stare and look into your eyes.. I would see YOU smile.. I would stand here all alone.. I turn to look at the table.. you would sit.. and I would stand.. You would be asking me if I had the cold Beer and of course.. I would go into the house.. grabbing the two cold cans and I bring it out to the back yard.. I would see you smile as I give you the cold can of beer.. I would be asking you about your days of work.. You would tell me that YOU love to work.. Of course I would share and tell you that I do also love to work.. always busy at work.. running all day through the night and seems like I am never tired.. when I come home and YOU call me on the Phone.. YOU would ask me if YOU can come over.. and as I am standing here by myself.. I am missing YOU.. I keep on looking over.. looking at the table.. I would watch you take a sip of the Can of cold Beer.. Now I don't see YOU.. after reading the Note that YOU went on a far away trip.. I wonder why did YOU not invited me.. YOU know that I would love to go with YOU.. joining you some where far and some where fun.. I just love watching YOU smile.. but at this Point of the Night.. I don't see you smile.. it hurts Me deep inside that YOU are not here this very night.. you would always call me on this day and asking me if YOU can come over.. if I had the Can of Cold Beer.. I would keep on looking at this table.. just remembering your presence which Now I miss you the Most.. WHY do I keep on missing YOU.. what did you do to my Heart.. is it the Cold Beer.. Is it when I pop the Can Open giving you the Can of the Cold Beer.. is it when YOU asked me.. if YOU can drink the Cold can of Beer.. or before YOU come over.. it can be your call on the phone.. I be looking at the Phone.. it remains silent.. there is NO text messaging on the Other side.. I don't hear any ringing on the Phone.. but I would look at this table.. and I turn to look at the Phone.. which I don't hear any noise.. as I turn too look Up the sky.. I have the cold can of beer with me.. being alone.. and standing here alone.. I would press the Button on the Phone.. I would see your Picture in the screen of the Phone.. It is when YOU sat by this Table.. and the first picture if you holding the Can of cold beer with a big smile.. my finger slides and it flips.. the Next Picture is YOU just sitting with a smile.. and I would look at it.. I would be looking at YOU.. and I would walk back.. and I would ask.. can YOU please look at me and I do remember you sitting there and YOU turn to look.. and I would show YOU.. look at this Phone for me please.. can YOU please smile for me.. I want a picture of YOU please.. can I take a picture of YOU and add it on the Phone Please and YOU would put the Can of the Cold Beer on the table and YOU would smile and I am trying to get the right angle and I would focus on your Beautiful face and I would say.. YOU are so Pretty.. do YOU know that YOU are the Most Prettiest when YOU smile the Most.. can I take the Picture of YOU and I click and the Phone takes the picture and I would walk and show you the Picture of YOU on the Phone screen and YOU would look at the Picture.. I guess YOU did not like this One.. and I do remember you picking UP the Can of the Cold Beer and asking for another picture.. I would walk back.. looking at the Phone screen.. I would ask YOU to smile once More and I see you smile.. and press to click on the Phone.. I would walk closer to you and show you the Other Picture of YOU on the Phone screen.. and YOU would look at it.. and this time gave me a big smile.. that YOU like it and I look at you.. I like it too.. Not just like it but I love it.. I love when YOU smile.. please smile More for me.. because it tickles my Heart when I see you smile.. makes me smile too from the inside out.. as I am looking at the Picture.. my finger slides for the screen to turn.. I am missing YOU.. because I know that when YOU are here.. YOU make me smile.. I feel more alive when YOU are so close to Me.. that I can feel you breathe and can hear your Heart beat.. I just need YOU.. I just need to feel you close to me.. why did YOU have to go on this long trip.. when are YOU coming back to the state so that I can see you again.. as I am looking on the Phone.. I hear the phone ringing.. and I just can't believe it.. it is YOU who is calling me.. is it really YOU calling.. I see your Name and the Number.. and I would answer the Phone.. and I can hear your voice on the Other side.. and I would smile and I would say to YOU on the Phone.. guess what I am doing right Now.. and of course YOU knows me.. and I would say.. YOU are right.. BINGO.. I am standing out in the back yard.. I have in my hand Your favorite cold can of Beer.. I am standing by the table.. and I would turn too look at where YOU sat and just started to miss YOU.. and I would be looking on the Phone.. looking at the screen and into the two pictures I have taken of YOU.. started to look.. I wanted to smile but How.. YOU are not even here so I started to miss YOU more and more as I would start to sip more on this Cold can of Beer.. I just keep on missing YOU.. I was waiting for YOU to call me because I did not want to disturb YOU on this far trip.. I am looking at the Moon.. YOU know that it is Night here so standing out here alone.. I miss you more.. we would both out here in the back yard.. do YOU remember that I would point UP to the sky.. telling YOU that there is The MOON.. I would say.. this Moon knows that I love YOU.. this Moon tells me that One night.. to bring YOU here so that this MOON can see who I be talking about.. I know that YOU do not show UP often because YOU are so busy at work.. I would stand here out in the back yard like this Very Night.. and I would turn to LOOK at the sky.. and when the MOON appears before me.. I would walk up to show myself before the MOON and I would tell the Moon.. I have been thinking about YOU for a long time.. YOU have been going across my mind for a while now.. But for some reason I just could not tell YOU face to face because I don't want to ruin the friendship we built together for a long time.. and I remember looking at this MOON.. I would tell the MOON.. I don't want to tell YOU anything because what if it goes wrong.. what if YOU do not accept my Heart.. and would reject my Heart and YOU would tell me that YOU did not feel comfortable around me any more.. if I hear those words out of your lips.. you know that I be getting a Heart attack.. I might even feel like I should of never told you in the first place if it is going to ruin our friendship.. and I would be coming to the back yard.. looking UP to the MOON.. and I would say.. what If it does Not work out.. what if YOU don't accept my Heart.. if YOU tell me Not to Love YOU.. then what is going to happen of all these years.. Of me trying to build this friendship.. I don't want it to go down as a waste or the drain.. I just wanted to tell you that I love YOU more than just friends.. I remember I told the MOON the Night before YOU came to this House.. I am going to show the MOON who you are by letting YOU come to the back Yard of this house.. YOU called me that night and I invited YOU.. YOU followed me to the back yard and I brought the Cold can of beer.. YOU sat down by the table.. and I would show YOU.. I wanted to show you something.. YOU have never met before and I would look at you.. can YOU Please look up.. look to that sky and something is waiting for YOU.. I remember you got up from sitting and came with Me.. and I would lead you and we both stopped and my finger pointed.. and the MOON was standing High above and I would tell you.. LOOK at that Moon.. do you see the Moon I am pointing at and YOU would tell me YOU see that MOON.. and I would say.. for a long time.. I would come to the back of this yard.. and many times my words cannot come out to YOU.. because what if YOU do not want to listen and to accept the words I say to YOU.. so I would be standing out here alone.. I would open my Heart and I would speak to that Moon.. that My words just can't come out.. because I don't want to lose YOU.. I don't want to lose anything from YOU.. even just you being here means everything to me.. your presences.. your smile.. hearing your voice.. asking me for the Can of cold Beer.. just your friendship that I love the Most.. but My Heart wants More.. I want more than just your presence.. I want more than your friendship.. I want YOU.. I need YOU.. I want to love YOU and I need YOU to tell me that I can love YOU more.. and I would tell that MOON.. what am I suppose to do when I feel this way.. the More I see YOU the More I want.. the want becomes a need which it comes from my Heart.. and My Heart wants to love YOU.. More and More I
Want to love YOU and tell these words of mine to YOU.. I been keeping it inside for a long time because losing YOU would crush my world.. without YOU.. I know I just can't go on.. I just can't see you and so I would be turning to that Moon.. How am I suppose to go on if I lose YOU but.. I know that Love comes with a risk.. if I lose YOU.. it means we were never meant to Be.. but if I am able to love YOU.. it is something new can start.. something that I wanted for a long time.. I have the courage to tell YOU this because I know that I love YOU.. I would stand next to YOU as I would tell you these words and YOU would look at me.. and turn to look UP to that Moon.. that Moon has heard my plea of cries because NO ONE wants to be rejected.. No one wants to lose someone you love.. NO ONE wants to be strangers when we are now friends.. but I want more than friends.. I want more than friendship.. I just want YOU so that I can start loving YOU more and more.. over and over I can keep on loving YOU because I know that deep in my heart I love YOU.. close wrapped around IN my arms... I want to feel YOU close and want to feel your warmth and even... I want to hear Your Heart Beats... I want to feel Your Heart Beats and Hear Your Heart Beats... just want to hear the sound of the Beatings of Your Heart... I want to say to Your ears.. and tell YOU how Much I love You... I want to say these three words to YOUR ears... I Love You.. wants to put me Ear on your Chest and Heart the Beatings of your Heart... I open me two ears in the morning... I see you here... I close my two eyes before going to sleep... I see you there... I wake UP in the middle of the night to use the restroom.. trying to go back to sleep... I see you hear... sometimes I am able to escape your presence and goes to sleep.. but there are days when I cannot because I see you here.. so close so near... I am dying and craving for Your Love... I breathe in.. INHALE and exhale.. breathe Out because My heart cannot handle... YOU are so Beautiful... YOU are so Beautiful... YOU are so Lovely but so Beautiful... You are so Beautiful... takes my breathe away... I can't speak anything but only LOVE to You.. YOU are so Beautiful.. YOU are so Delicate.. You are So lovely.. and YOU are So Beautiful.. You take My breathe Away.. Where is My Breathe be going.. I am looking at YOUR Picture.. and It stops ME from Breathing.. I hit my Chest few Times.. It stops me from Breathing.. I am looking at Your Picture.. WHY do YOU have to Be this beautiful.. WHY can't YOU be Ugly.. WHY can't I be blind and Not see YOU.. The More I look at the picture.. The Photo.. I just want to Stop Breathing.. I keep On looking at the Picture of YOU.. I wish that I can Burn Your Picture because WHAT I FEEL inside.. I feel something HALLOW.. It is Your Picture.. It is Your Picture.. How YOU are so Beautiful.. SO beautiful that I can't get YOU off MY head.. I look down.. I can't believe It.. I am looking at the Floor.. MY HEART is laying on the Floor.. HE does Not want to Move.. I bend to lower to take a LOOK at MY HEART.. I ask Him.. WHAT IS happening to MY Heart.. What Have YOU done to MY Heart.. Is it because of Me.. Is it because I have taken a Look at Your Photo.. Your Picture and It HIT MY HEART because YOU are so Lovely.. SO Beautiful.. I can't Breathe Now.. I can't stop myself BUT is it really Love.. I ask my Heart.. What is Wrong with YOU.. WHY are you laying Down on the Floor like YOU are dying Inside.. What is Wrong with YOU MY Heart.. I stop breathing.. I can't feel the beating of My Heart any more but feels so hallow Inside.. WHY don't YOU come inside MY CHEST.. where YOU suppose to be at.. SO that I can breathe.. and Can feel THE BEATING of MY HEART.. WHAT IS wrong with YOU.. PLEASE TELL ME.. the HEART turns around and LOOKS at me.. He says.. IT IS YOUR HEART.. NOT just the Picture but YOUR HEART.. I want Your Heart.. Give it to ME.. I want Want YOUR HEART.. so I can Love Your heart.. Without Your Heart.. I am going to lay Down here and just want to Cry.. I want Your Heart.. I need Your Heart.. I miss YOUR HEART.. let me please Love Your Heart.. that is the Only way YOU can come Close to me.. let me Love.. I want to Love YOUR HEART.. so I want it.. Give it to me.. GIVE ME YOUR HEART.. I need Your Heart Please.. SO that I can tell YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I am looking at my heart.. THE heart looks at me.. I need the heart.. I look down.. I can't believe it.. I am watching Blood flowing Out of My Heart.. I think My heart is Dying.. But How is it that YOU are dying.. I get UP.. and I look at the Door.. I walk over.. Me hand Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Please Answer the Door.. I need YOU to open this door for me.. I want to ask YOU for something.. My heart is sick.. My heart is dying.. and makes me want to cry right Now.. HAND HITS.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Ever since I looked at Your Picture.. I think you gave a heart Ache.. My heart is in so much Pain.. of Needing YOU.. Of wanting YOU.. of waiting for YOU.. to Love YOU.. Please Open this Door FOR ME.. MY HEART is bleeding and Needs YOUR Attention.. Needs you to Open so that YOU can see My heart.. I need to see YOUR HEART as well.. Please Open the DOOR.. Hand Grabs the DOOR KNOB.. I turn to twist.. But Can't Open the DOOR.. I would Bump My Body.. and RUN into the DOOR.. THUMP THUMP.. CHAM.. this door does NOT want to still Open.. Me Hand Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Can you please Open the DOOR.. MY HEART.. I turn and LOOK DOWN.. my Heart.. both hands stretch.. AND I LOOK.. I Miss YOU.. I miss YOU SO bad.. I miss YOU for Love Love.. I MISS YOU SO MUCH I want to tell YOU I want Your Love.. I am looking.. HE is sick.. He is dying.. My heart truly needs YOU.. I hear the words.. I miss YOU.. I turn to the DOOR.. me hand Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I need YOU right Now.. My heart Misses YOU.. My Heart is dying because he is in pain of Missing YOU.. heart Ache.. Heart attack.. Heart ache.. I MISS YOU.. ME HAND Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. Please Open the Door.. My heart is asking FOR YOUR HEART.. because I Miss YOU.. I want to tell Your HEART SOMETHING.. ME hand Hits.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I love YOU.. after I saw Your Picture.. I think I have made a mistake because MY HEART can't take it anymore.. YOU are so Beautiful.. Taking MY breathe away.. My Heart jumped OFF OF ME.. Now.. I need YOU.. I want YOU.. IF you can Only Open the DOOR and SHOW ME YOUR HEART.. I want to see Your Heart.. IF YOU do not want to show Up.. At least open the DOOR and GIVE ME YOUR HEART.. I will take Your Heart and PUT IT beside MY HEART.. I think a Miracle will Happen.. I turn around and to LOOK DOWN.. My heart is sitting Down looking at ME.. and HE says.. GIVE ME YOUR HEART.. I only need Your Heart.. I can hold YOUR HEART.. wrap my arms around YOUR HEART.. and KISS YOUR HEART.. Let me tell YOUR HEART.. How much I missed YOU and How much I truly Love YOU.. Only show me and GIVE ME your heart.. I turn to look at the Door.. DID YOU hear what MY HEART wants.. I want it.. I want Your Heart.. give it to ME.. give me YOUR HEART.. ME HAND grabs the DOOR KNOB.. turns and twist.. It is Locked.. I begin to grab the Knob.. turning around to the left.. to the right.. moving it side to side.. CHAM.. the DOOR still is Locked.. Does not Open.. CHAM.. I need YOU to Open this DOOR.. Please Open the DOOR FOR ME.. MY HEART is waiting FOR you.. waiting for you to Open the DOOR.. I need YOUR HEART.. Because I am missing Your Heart.. I miss Your heart so Bad.. I want it.. I want Your Heart.. why can't YOU understand.. Why can't YOU believe me.. WHY can't YOU open.. ever since I saw Your Picture.. I was blown to pieces.. MY MIND went full circle.. and gave me this Longing.. this Craving.. Only if I can have YOUR HEART.. Only if I can tell YOUR HEART.. only if you can trust me.. I can speak to YOUR HEART.. I will tell Your heart.. One hundred times.. HOW MUCH I LOVE You.. if you need more words.. I can make it UP to One thousand times a DAY to tell YOU How much I love YOU.. BUT if you don't open this DOOR.. HOW can you hear these words of MINE telling YOUR HEART.. HOW MUCH I love you.. How much I miss YOU.. ME HAND HITS... DOK DOK DOK DOK.. PLEASE open the door.. hand grab the Knob twist around.. LOCKED.. ME HAND HITS.. DOK DOK DOK DOK.. I want IT.. I want it Now.. GIVE it to me.. YOUR HEART.. I need YOUR WHOLE HEART.. I turn around and I walk off.. I bent to lower.. I don't think MY love is going to open the door right now.. I am looking at my heart and He lays down.. OH MOE WHY.. and He looks.. I am sick.. I am so sick because I want Love.. I am getting more sick because I want LOVE.. I want Your Love.. I am dying inside.. Like I am dying really bad.. can't YOU SEE that I am bleeding inside.. LOOK at me.. LOOK AT ME
I am dying and bleeding.. and next to MY HEART is the Picture.. I grab to LOOK.. OH GOSH.. OH WOW WHY?? WHY DO you have to be this Beautiful.. TELL ME WHY you have to get me SICK.. TELL ME WHY because I am so Long.. longing for Your presence.. I am missing YOU SO MUCH.. I am missing YOU SO MUCH because I hate to miss YOU.. WHY.. I love YOU.. It is because I love YOU.. I take a look at the picture.. HITTING MY CHEST.. YOU are so Lovely.. YOU are so lovely.. SO beautiful.. BUT WHY.. I am looking down at me heart.. MY HEART starts to Cry.. I want to cry SO more.. and tells me.. Leave me alone.. I want to be alone because YOU can't even ask to OPEN the door.. door would NOT OPEN.. I look over.. a bottle is waiting for ME.. and I am thinking.. Should I drink this Bottle.. or should I turn it down.. BUT I am hurting.. I am in so much pain of missing YOU.. in a pain of me heart because I want Your Love.. Give me Your Heart.. I want it.. I want Your Heart so Give it to me... I want it so GIVE me your heart.. all I am asking for is YOUR HEART.. I turn around looking at the DOOR.. Please Open the DOOR.. I need YOUR HEART.. SO that I can love Your heart and tell YOUR HEART.. HOW MUCH I LOVE You.. I LOVE You.. WHY?? I don't know why I love YOU.. BUT I JUST DO.. SO give me Your heart and Open this door.. I turn.. I begin to cry with MY HEART.. BOTH OF US are mourning for YOUR LOVE.. I need YOUR LOVE.. why can't I be with YOU.. why can't we be together.. forever and ever.. why can't we love each Other.. I love YOU.. Hold that Heart.. can I wrap My both arms around that Big Heart.. Put my lips and Kiss the Heart.. I want to Hold that Heart.. Feel this Heart.. I want to HOLD it.. I want the Heart.. How can I get to that Heart.. Will you please Answer this Question.. I want the Heart.. Tell Me.. How can I get to that Heart.. And Looks at me.. Me finger points and Touch the Glass Jar.. Pointing to YOUR Heart.. I am Not sure How.. But what I do know for Sure.. I am going to get YOUR heart.. Does Not matter how Long the Time it will take me.. BUT I want Your Heart.. I want your heart.. I turn to Look at Me Heart.. Can you go and try to Find the Key.. I am sure there must Be a key laying around because IF there is a Lock.. Must be a Key to that Lock.. I turn and Looking.. Finger points and touches the glass Jar.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I have been waiting for YOU for a Long Time.. I have been waiting and waiting.. Still be waiting for Your Heart.. Your Heart looks so Good.. Your Heart looks so beautiful.. WHY is YOUR heart so Beautiful.. yes.. I want to hold Your Heart into my Hands.. I want to press My ear to Hear.. TO Hear the beating.. the beating of Your Heart.. Only way for me to hear your heart Beat and to Touch and to Feel your heart and to HOLD YOUR HEART.. Tell me.. where is the Key.. if you can please answer this One question.. It is the Word Key.. Only if I can unlock and Open the door.. I know for sure I can hold your Heart into My Hands.. I will be very very very very gentle.. and No.. I will tell YOU.. I miss YOU.. I truly miss YOU because I love YOU.. I have been holding inside for a Long time.. and I believe that the TIME is right for tell YOU.. I miss YOU.. and I want YOU close in my life.. SO that I can hold YOU.. and kiss YOU.. and tell YOU.. whisper that I love YOU in your ears.. BUT before I can tell YOU all these things.. I need Your Heart first.. I will Promise I will Not hurt Your Heart.. TELL me where are the key.. why is it so hard to find this One key.. that One key which is the way to OPEN.. for my hands to hold Your Heart.. I want to Hold your Heart so that I can tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. how many times DO I need to tell YOU this.. Only to Your Heart.. I want to tell YOUR Heart.. I love You.. I love you so much that there are nights.. I just want to cry.. holding my pillow.. arms wrap around it.. I am squeezing it tight.. thinking that It is YOU.. Balling like a baby.. waterfall tear drops showers.. I am holding me Pillow tight.. Just wishing.. I am wishing so much these days because YOU drive me crazy.. I feel like.. am I becoming a Zombie.. or am I okay or Not.. I would lay down.. Me heart keeps ON knocking.. I hear my chest be banging Hard.. And I hit My Chest to tell MY Heart to settle Down.. GO back to Sleep because I am tired.. Arms wrap around me Pillow.. I close my eyes.. opens and tears would fled down.. I wonder.. What is wrong with me.. what is UP with these tears.. But MY Chest burns.. I feel like heart burn.. sun burn.. what ever this burn is.. Holding my pillow.. thinking of YOU.. and saying to MY pillow.. I love you and snap comes Out.. back to the reality.. squeezing the Pillow thinking of YOU.. and When I look that it is NOT you but only a Pillow.. I would cry because I am wishing that IT is YOU.. I would close my eyes.. and say.. I miss YOU.. I miss YOU so much.. I only want you here close to me.. I miss YOU.. Now I am sitting.. Looking at Your Heart in the Glass jar.. Me Heart sits next to me.. OH moe.. I can't find No key.. but I did find something.. a Picture and a Bottle.. Do you want to see the Picture First or do YOU want the bottle First.. Tell me Tell me.. I turn to Look.. Me Heart opens the TOP of bottle starts to Drink.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG and gives it to me.. I look at MY Heart.. as the Heart looks at Your Picture.. I feel so FUZZY inside.. like a Butterfly hitting me Head.. Looks at the Picture.. WHY DO I keep on falling in Love with YOU.. WHY are you doing this to me Heart heart.. WHY are you so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful Flower.. WHY DO you keep on Hurting me.. aching me.. a Pinch.. like a Punch in my stomache.. OH it hurts to see YOU this Beautiful.. I rather get hit by a Fist in my face.. Instead because this is SO much Pain of Missing YOU.. only Loving YOU by myself.. WHY.. tell me why are YOU so Beautiful.. I grab the Picture and I take a Look at Your Picture.. I turn to LOOK at your Heart.. YOU are so Lovely and so Beautiful.. But I still want Your Heart.. What good is this Picture with Out your heart.. Tell me.. can I have your heart.. WILL you let me have Your Heart.. can I please Hold Your heart.. I want to Hold with both hands.. I want to hold it.. grab it.. feel it.. wrap my arms around it.. I want to love Your heart.. I grab me the Bottle.. Open me Mouth wide and CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. and I turn to Look at me heart.. How do YOU feel.. and me heart looks.. I feel a Heart ache.. and It burns inside of me each time I look at the picture but when I look at Your heart.. I want it.. I want the heart so bad.. I want it.. so please give me YOUR HEART.. the Heart looks at me.. Tell me how do YOU feel.. And I turn to LOOK at the Glass jar.. Open me Mouth wide.. the Bottle.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. I want that Heart.. finger points and touch the Glass jar.. I want that heart.. I want to feel it.. I want to touch that Heart.. I want to tell YOUR Heart.. I miss YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I love YOU.. without the key.. How can I unlock and tell YOUR heart.. I miss YOU and that I love YOU.. I turn to Look at My Heart.. WHY did you bring the Picture and the Bottle for.. it is all useless without the Key.. it is only Hurting YOU and ME.. but I first want Your Heart.. tell me How can I get to Your Heart.. I open My Mouth and the Bottle.. CHUG CHUG CHUG CHUG.. Put the bottle Down.. ME heart keeps on looking at Your Picture.. I want to see YOU.. I want to see YOU close.. why do YOU have to be so Far.. why can't you be close.. I want you near so I can see YOU.. I want to smell YOU.. I want to hold YOU.. I want to Kiss YOU too and tell YOU I love YOU.. WHY can't I tell you all these things being so Far.. I am sitting there.. Let me see the picture.. I grab the Picture.. MY Heart starts to cry.. He begins to SOB loud.. and wipes the tears from his Eyes.. OH WHY!! I miss YOU so much right Now.. Your picture does not help me in anyway.. but leaves this heart of missing only.. Just missing YOU.. why can't I be close to YOU so that I can Love YOU.. how can I love you when YOU are so far.. AS I take a Look at your Picture.. I can feel something inside of me.. I wish that I can't breathe any more.. I wish that I can sit by a grave and wait for my turn.. Loving YOU is Hard.. But missing YOU seems even harder these days.. Missing YOU because I want to hold YOU.. Missing YOU because I want to be with YOU.. I put the picture down.. wiping my tears.. CHAM CHAM.. Hitting my Chest with me hand.. CHAM CHAM.. I want it.. and I look at the glass jar.. Only IF I can get Your Heart.. I am looking at this Glass Jar.. How can I get to Your Heart.. it is just right There.. This Glass Jar.. WHAT SHOULD I DO.. It is this Heart.. YOUR HEART is right in front of me.. I want it.. Give it to Me.. That Heart.. This Heart.. YOUR HEART.. I want it.. I want this Heart.. I want want your heart.. I would get UP two legs.. the Glass Jar is so Big.. taller than me.. CHAM.. Me Two hands on the Glass jar.. I would Push..
Two Arms Pushes the Glass jar.. Looking at Your Heart.. I want Your Heart.. I want it.. I would PUSH.. two arms pushes.. the Glass jar does not Move.. CHAM.. I want it.. I really really want it.. ME Body leans and tries to PUSH it.. but it still don't Move.. Me Heart stands UP.. OH MOE.. is that ALL you can give.. Push Harder.. PUSH it.. I look at this Glass Jar.. I am going to FLIP this GLASS JAR.. maybe the glass can break and I can get YOUR HEART.. I want it.. I want it.. I want Your Heart.. tell me How to get To your heart.. I want Your heart right Now.. tell me how do I get to YOUR heart.. so I can Love your heart.. I can tell Your heart How much I love YOU.. I want to tell Your Heart.. I want to be With you forever and ever and Forever I will love YOU.. Me heart looks at me.. I look at HIM.. COME and Help me.. let us Both Push it together.. COME NOW.. CHARGE!!! I love you.. Do I grab me heart and just leave it by the door and walk off.. But I just can't.. I take a look at your Picture.. I sit on the floor next to Me Heart Heart.. YOU are so Beautiful.. I want whisper into your ear and say.. YOU are so Beautiful.. the Most Beautiful In the world.. the most Prettiest and most adorable.. who drives me crazy every time.. leaves me speech less and takes my breathe away every time I take a look at YOU.. YOU are the most beautiful.. I hope that this MOON.. on the Night he sees YOU.. the MOON is able to tell YOU the Message I have sent to HIM.. that One day.. some day soon.. I will see YOU and will love YOU for the rest of my life.. for ever I shall love YOU...Looking so Good too.. you look young and always Beautiful in my eyes.. Do you want to see WHO is inside this Basket.. has a Covering over.. I cannot show YOU until YOU answer the First question.. Don't break My Heart.. the second is.. CAN I please have YOUR HEART.. I want Your Heart.. I want to take YOUR HEART with me so that MY HEART can be together with YOURS and be happy forever.. But let me see Your Heart.. I am looking at YOU.. YOU are holding an Empty Glass Jar.. WHY don't you put Your Heart inside that Glass Jar.. and I can PUT your Heart inside this Basket.. I will walk away.. Only too tell YOUR HEART I can breathe again and can Live with a Smile.. I want to ask YOU THIS.. do YOU love Me.. Because I want to love YOU.. then Please Show me YOUR HEART.. I lifted UP the Basket.. grabbing the Cover Sheet and I would remove off and I see YOU walk closer and YOU look inside the basket.. And I look at YOU.. Look at what YOU have Done.. Do you see that Heart.. It is Me Heart.. Do you see that MY HEART is sick.. Told me that HE has caught a Flu.. and Tells me that HE is sick right Now.. Do you know WHY MY HEART is sick.. because of Loving YOU TOO MUCH.. Loving you for a Long time.. and Missing YOU every day.. My Heart wants to Die.. because HE is Not healthy.. I feel so SICK TOO.. because I want Your Love.. I want Your Love and Your Heart.. I told YOU.. WHY Did you break this Heart.. this Heart tells me HE IS SICK and DYING.. wants me to PUT IN the Basket.. I would hear HIM asking me For Your Heart.. telling me.. GO and ask HER for HER HEART.. we can lay together because we belong together.. MY HEART told me to tell YOU.. I love YOU.. I love you when I am sick.. I love you when there is a distance between US and I can't see YOU.. I love you because I want to see Your Heart.. I love you because I miss YOU.. I love you that MY HEART got Sick of just loving YOU and I got sick of watching MY Heart sick.. getting sicker because ALL MY HEART does is call for YOU.. I would ask.. WHY DO YOU KEEP ON calling for YOU.. My Heart tells me.. can I write Your name on This Heart.. SO that I don't feel so sick anymore.. that I am able to get back UP to love you More.. I would PUT MY HEART.. He Was laying on my pillow.. and I be looking at HIM.. as I would show MY HEART MY TEARS.. HE tells me.. why are YOU crying.. WHY do you show so much Emotions and keep on crying.. STOP Crying.. I would be wiping my Tears.. If you keep on laying ON this Pillow and YOU be telling me that YOU are Sick.. HOW can I not cry over YOU and for YOU.. YOU know how much I love YOU.. IF you can sit UP and just Be a stronger Heart.. then I do not have to show you these tears anymore.. My Heart looks at me.. I am so Sick.. I feel so ill.. I love YOU.. I want to sit UP but I feel so weak because of Loving YOU.. I look.. tears and drops flowing Down.. WHY DO I have to feel this way TOO MUCH.. and My Heart tells me.. IF YOU want me to be stronger Heart.. more healthier Heart.. Please PUT me inside the basket and TAKE me to Her.. when I see Her.. which is YOU.. I know I can feel better.. will live and beat Once again.. Please.. put me inside the Basket and I will ask Her for Her Heart.. YOUR HEART.. I grab Me Heart.. I put HIM inside the basket.. and here I have come.. and I look.. My Heart would sit UP and Looks at YOU.. My Heart says.. As I see YOU looking at My Heart.. HE looks UP.. DO you know How much I love YOU.. wanting to tell YOU this for a Long time.. that I want YOU to ask YOUR HEART.. Can YOUR HEART please stay with me.. I will be YOUR HEART's best friend.. I will Not let anyone ever hurt YOU but to tell YOU.. HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.. I love you where I am able to walk at Night.. Looking at the stars and the Moon.. and even though I do not see YOU around.. I am able to close both of my Eyes and say to the Moon.. I am sure YOU are on the Other side.. Looking at the same Moon.. I know you can hear me.. YOU can try to ignore me but I know you can't.. because MY LOVE is so much stronger.. that It can go through the MOON and goes straight to YOUR HEART.. YOU can close your eyes.. Put your hands over your ears and say.. I don't hear YOU.. but MY WORDS which Has Love in my Heart.. my Words are stronger because I love YOU and I miss YOU.. I want to be with YOU.. will you let me be a part of your Life.. it does not matter where YOU are or what YOU Doing.. I am still in love with YOU.. as YOU are looking at My Heart.. MY HEART shows his arms.. WILL you let Your Heart come on over.. Tell YOUR HEART that I am a friend.. and I can protect Your Heart because I will always Love YOU.. will always love YOUR HEART.. Please.. pretty pretty Please.. tell YOUR HEART.. ask YOUR HEART.. come over to this basket so that I can really love YOU.. why don't YOU tell YOUR HEART.. what is that IN your Hands.. it is Empty.. I see a empty glass jar.. So are YOU asking MY HEART to go over to that Empty Glass Jar.. What are you going to do with MY HEART if He goes Over.. WILL YOU LOVE MY HEART the way I love YOU.. WILL you speak to MY HEART and TELL MY HEART how much YOU love HIM.. Misses HIM.. then Why did YOU bring that Empty glass jar for.. IS it to put YOUR HEART inside and give it to someone else who can't Love YOU.. why waste the TIME if I am the One you really really want and truly need.. I am a Friend but also a Great Lover too.. I can Love you where YOU can skip around a race track.. I can love YOU where your Confidence boost like a Rocket going to the sky. I can love YOU the way a real Man can Love YOU.. I can love YOU where you will say I don't need any love from someone else.. WHY DID YOU bring that Empty Glass Jar.. IF you can Love MY HEART and don't break MY HEART.. I can Put my Heart inside that GLASS JAR and YOU can walk away.. BUT IF you can't.. Please.. MY HEART can Love Your Heart.. can warm UP your Heart.. kiss YOUR HEART and tell YOUR HEART how much I love YOU.. I am sure Your Heart can beat again.. the beating that brings JOY and Music to YOUR HEART.. I want to love YOU.. WILL you let me Love YOU.. I want to love YOU.. so Please.. I am holding this Basket.. Let my heart be the One to love Your Heart.. COME so that MY HEART will not feel lonely anymore but have someone to Love.. I want to Love.. I really really want to Love.. LET ME LOVE YOU because I am ready to give you this Love of MINE to your Heart.. I look at MY Heart.. I guess.. SHE.. YOU are not ready yet.. I look at you.. I see you walking few steps back.. and I am wondering.. am I just moving too fast.. Am I suppose to walk few steps closer.. what Am I suppose to do.. Are you letting me know that It is NO.. or is it Yes.. because I want Your Answer to be a YES.. NOT to break my Heart by rejecting or pushing or going the Other way.. Please Don't go.. Please don't leave Now.. I will be waiting for YOU if I am scaring YOU.. I am not trying to scare you.. but just offering that I can love YOU.. will you Not step Back.. Please.. come closer.. so that I can see YOU.. I am looking at Your Picture.. Not sure why I keep on looking at It.. of course.. Now Matter how much I would take a Look at your Picture.. I just wish that I am able to speak to YOU.. if the
Ha a woman architect
There's lots of good woman architects 😊
lol, stop doing that with your hands. its sooooooo distracting
Didn't distract me. She conveys the info very well.
Hey Dami, thanks for the helpful information. I found myself loving architectural designs recently as may have been in this industry already. I started with geotechnical engineering and civil engineering in my undergraduate and postgraduate degrees. then I found a job as a drafts person in a residential design and building company then became a foreman then become a project manager and now even working as the company accountant :D. Now I'm getting my builder licence very soon and just found architecture is so charming to me. I think I may start my architectural career through another path that developing and building houses with my own designs. Also if possible could you give more advice about how to start systematically learning residential architecture by self not from university. It could be more about how to develop personal tastes, finding original sources, how to find classical or trending products etc. instead of how to hand-make models or using softwares. Thanks!