Creative Burnout as a Content Creator
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 6 ก.ย. 2024
- This video is a bit different from my usual content, but I think sharing the crafting fails is important too. The internet is messing up all our brains♥️
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That was a great video essay ! :) Merci !
I do support you on Patreon, but watch your videos on TH-cam. My mom was a seamstress, watching your videos gives me warm feelings.
When you are feeling down (I've had depression on and off for 40 years) watch funny videos to distract yourself and prevent the cycle (feeling down so dwell on things that make you feel worse). With that in mind i recommend "Smack the Pony (1999) 4K AI Remaster" Its piss funny.
A while ago you mentioned a dedicated video about the math to make a corset. Maybe this could be a video to do now where you are not responsible to "troubleshoot" a project when youre feeling uninspired. Recharge creatively, and share your insights and knowledge from practicing your craft. You're so wonderful inside and out 💗 rest and your creativity will return!!!
It's important for you to take care of yourself.
A few things
1. You ARE enough. Your creativity is a joy to witness
2. I suspect that it's the time crunch on elaborate projects that is burning you out.
3. You are lovely without makeup, and I hope you can come to accept yourself more.
4. Creative endeavors are difficult and frustrating. You're doing amazing things, even when they don't turn out how you imagined
I agree on all 4 to also include too much self judgment and criticism. Your creative mind is AMAZING! The stuff you turn out is fantastic. You're willing to try. I believe you're horribly burned out and so many TH-camrs are being pummeled by those stupid algorithms (I've heard other rants). Take a break. Self-care , cut yourself some slack. Beautiful soul that you are, you got this.
you said it better than i could
I'll say - it's not your fault if TH-cam is failing you. The algorithms are broken and ad revenue is in the toilet. I'm so worried about all of my favorite creators because it's getting harder and harder to keep up the grind on this platform. :(
Yeah, I wish there was some other, fairer platform out there that we all could collectively switch to
I keep thinkin that creators on youtube need to form a union. and go on strikes.
@@idunablack2592 Bernadette Banner did speak about another platform some time ago, built up by content creators...
@@julieblet probably, havent been actively following her in a while
@@idunablack2592 There is Nebula...I honestly don't know much about how things work on there.
Everybody SMASH that like for our girl!
Hazzy honey we dont watch you for your looks - and you ARE beautiful. We watch you because your brain comes up with all these wonderful ideas and visions and processes and we love that stuff! That stuff can't get dark bags, or wrinkles, or frizziness and so our love may never wither or die! Because what we love is timeless and lovely and uniquely YOU!
Oh you poor possum🥰 hoping you feel better and don't doubt yourself. I thought the disco skull was fun!
Hit the Like button before I even watch the video! Most Times I wish I could hit it more❤!!!
"if i were more beautiful, i would get more views" ...GIRL. YOU ARE STUNNING. YOU ARE ONE OF *THE* MOST BEAUTIFUL WOMEN ON THE PLANET, LET ALONE ON THE INTERNET. seriously. you are perfect just the way you are. please keep *not* wearing make-up if that helps you relax. i've always worn make-up as my office mask. i've been teleworking since march 2020, but they're wanting us to start going back into the office, and i've been toying with the idea of not wearing make-up if i do have to go back in. let's make a pinky swear to not wear make-up together!
Agree 100 PERCENT. That it is not to say that we all don’t have insecurities. Just take what consolation you can that if you polled your viewers. 99.99 percent of us are in awe of beauty, inside, and outside, and particularly in the beautiful brain of yours. And the other .001 percent think that “Not My Cat” is the most beautiful, but who could compete with her. Hang in there! ❤❤❤
@@aileenbell6750 100%!! ...i've nicknamed the kitty "nacho," as in "nacho cat." but i may be the only one who gets the pun....
Do it! I work in fine dining and have never worn makeup to work. I curl my eyelashes, brush my eyebrows, make sure im clean and presentable but fuck the makeup. It messes with my skin. I have noticed that people react differently to me when I'm wearing makeup, often in a positive way. But I prefer without.
@@uschilou tyvm!! xoxoxoxoxoxo
Not all of them are fails. Some are just UFOs (UnFinished Objects). You are everything you think you're not. We love you!
UFOs I love this idea! I have a big pile of those hanging around
Yep! Quilters call them UFOs and yarn people call them WIPs or Works in Progress. All creative people have multiple projects at one. TH-cam makes it look like projects get started AND finished in one go. So lets encourage UFO/WIP videos. Could we?
I'm a guy and I will never make or wear any of the stuff you do. Ever! If it matters, I watch because I like you. Couldn't care less what you make. Enjoy what you do, Do what you like. People will watch. Love ya.
I haven't a single artistic bone in my body (sis got all of that) but I love to watch & be amazed at what other people do do. Just coming up with an idea is mind boggling😢!!! Guess I'm just a voyeur❤!!!
Artists that are not to serious and have a great sense of humor are my favorites!
If you can't laugh at yourself, people will be afraid of you😂!!!
Not to undercut your ennui, but (as a designer) I think all creators go through this. It's like hitting a final boss of a level. You bang your head against a brick wall, looking at a blank canvas, nothing you have ever done is good, why do people like your stuff... all those 'helpful' thoughts. Then one day, you level-up (literally and ffiguratively) and things are good again. It's exhausting and infuriating. You are spectacular. You got this.
I know exactly what you mean. No content creator here, just a photographer. It is - unfortunately - part of the creative process nowadays as everyone is forced to push out creative ideas and work instead of taking their time.
My wife and I would watch 15 minutes a week of you just sitting there talking.
You’re not the first content creator I follow who has put out a video about how the stress of the vagaries of social media is really getting to them, and it breaks my heart that people whose work brings me so much joy suffer so much due to the very nature of the job. You, Rachel Maksy, and Bernadette Banner are massively inspirational to me - I’ve started sewing under your influence, and for the first time in nearly four decades of life have started really exploring my own visual creativity. Please, Ariel, take a break if you need to, but don’t you dare pause Patreon if you do! I will happily offer my meager patronage through any hiatus.
As Alice in Wonderland says, “I give myself very good advice… but very seldom follow it.” 😂
^ That occurred to me too. :)
Please, don’t lose your accent! It’s super charming, and it makes you unique! I just love your content, you’re amazing! ❤️❤️❤️
I spent 4 years getting a degree and the biggest thing I learned was from my fellow classmates: that literally everyone, from the most talented to the most beautiful to the funniest and the most interesting, fails to see themselves as what they truly are. I love your videos because you’re insanely talented and hilarious and so effortlessly gorgeous, and even though your aesthetic is not my aesthetic you’re far too interesting and entertaining for that to make me not want to watch your videos. I’ve loved them all and am usually smiling through the entire thing as I watch. I love that you turned this video about burnout and depression into something beautiful with your encouraging words and patchwork quilt analogy. I know from experience that kind words from others don’t always help to lift depression, because you have to believe it for yourself, but here’s a little bit of evidence for you from a total stranger who has no reason to lie: the truth is, you’re way more than good enough!
Perfectly said! ❤
I’ve had so many people tell me I should do a TH-cam channel, but this is exactly why I don’t. I feel like all of this so much. {{virtual hug}}
I’ve had the same said to me a lot. This year I’m finally trying. I think the beginning is not even that scary I have realized, the audience isn’t there immediately. So why not just try it?
It just goes to show that even the most beautiful people have difficulty seeing their beauty. You're stunning and I wish I looked like you.
Creative burnout and self-doubt come with the curse of creativity. It's all part of the process. It's not linear. It's chaotic and messy.
Do what you need to do to be healthy and happy. Take a vacation, collaborate, find a helper, whatever you need to do to find joy.
Easier said than done, I know!
Also, your English is amazingly fluent, idiomatic and delightful.
Ariel, there are hundreds of makers here on the TH-cams - don't you think we are here for more than just your fantastic work? Spoiler: we here for you! I know that us, creatives want to always be better to one up ourselves. Please take care of yourself, do not run yourself into total burnout. Lots of love!
The skull looked to me like it was finished even without the disco ball. In fact, like this it reminds me of Damien Hirst's "For the Love of God" skull which "consists of a platinum cast of an 18th-century human skull encrusted with 8,601 flawless diamonds" (quoted from Wikipedia but I don't think TH-cam would let me put in a link). And your version seems to give concrete form to your conclusion that "we're all going to die anyway" so we might as well enjoy craft and glitter while we can.
Dear Ariel,
This morning I had a breakdown because a dress I started 3 years ago and made MANY alterations to still didn't fit. I had to make this alterations because I don't have the body shape that allows simply following a sizing chart, so the body image issues are added on top of the "I'm worthless at my craft" issue. Watching this video today of all day really resonates, of course I don't know the struggle you're going through as a business-owner, but as many others have said, we all see ourselves for less than we really are. I love your videos because I love watching what goes through your brain during your creative process. Even if it doesn't work out like you wanted. You remind me a bit of Rachel Maksy in that sense.
You're allowed holidays ! Even more than that, you're allowed respite to heal from burnout. Even if it means 6 months off, your viewers will still be here.
Also, you might want to explore the fact that what used to be your refuge / feel good place is now your source of revenue. As you explained, the change is really drastic and that means you don't have a safe space to unwind from stressors in your life. Finding another hobby that you wouldn't share on the internet but just do for yourself could help ?
I'm sending lots of good vibes to you
First off, I think your fresh face is utterly stunning. I don't see what you see. Regardless of your very real outer beauty, it doesn't compare to the person you share to all of us. We love you! Take breaks, self care, all that stuff. Bisous
Oh Honey! I was crying along with you! It really sounds like you're dealing with burnout. You are an incredibly TALENTED and BEAUTIFUL woman! You are so refreshing to watch, and you help me when I'm stuck in a creative rut. I love how real you are when you are doing a project. You show the true process, and I am so thankful! I even show your videos to my kids sometimes, and I'm so glad that they have someone like you to watch and see the realistic process when it comes to creating. Also, although I don't want to focus on looks, I have to say that I love when you show yourself in everything from no makeup to full on glam in your reveals. You are lovely with and without makeup! In fact, I've often thought that you have one of those "historic beauty" faces that could fit into any era with or without makeup. As a woman in my late 30s who has also experienced extreme burnout this year, I want to thank you for sharing with us while you are in this extremely vulnerable place. It's just another example of how realistic and relatable you are. Thank you!
*edited to add that as an English language tutor to students studying English as a foreign language, I have to tell you that your English is wonderful! So please don't feel self-conscious about your accent! Being able to speak more than one language is impressive, and putting out content in a second language is such an accomplishment! Also, if you ever don't feel like speaking English in your videos, I know I speak for a lot of your watchers in saying that I don't have any problem with reading subtitles. Have a lovely day, and I hope that you are encouraged by all the love people have for you in this comment section!
one hundred per cent to everything you said here. Classic beauty. Talented. Creative. Intelligent. Accomplished. Brave. Bi-lingual (or more maybe?). Real human. Humble. Many more positive adjectives could be added. Definitely needs someone to be her videographer and editor to free her up because that is SO hard and I am so amazed at how much she is able to do! She is amazing.
Oh I feel your pain, artistic burnout is the worst. But we can heal, don't push yourself too much. Have a break
I appreciate that you talked about this aspect of being a single person small business owner. You wear ALL the hats and not all of them are fun or comfortable. 😝 You are doing great! And we both need to come up with a way to make the marketing and admin side more “fun.”😜 I love your accent and your excellent English. 💗
Unless you tried being a content creator and editing your stuff for hours upon hours while being insecure about your appearance, you don't truly understand how hard it can be for your mental health. I literally started crying with you. I'm so sorry you feel that way about yourself. You're beautiful inside AND out! You have such a unique look and mind and you shouldn't try to fit in. Everyone here loves you. We love your authenticity and your content! 😊
Stay safe bestie, and take care ❤️
I have no interest in sewing, dressmaking, fashion, or design. I watch you and your channel because I like your creativity, your style, your quirky take on life, your humour (more impressive in a second language), and your beauty. Self confidence is something I have struggled with all my life, even though I have objectively great skills in a small area of creativity, so I totally empathise with you. Burnout and self-doubt is what led me to take early retirement, and for me, it worked - reducing pressure to perform has helped me take a step back and start really enjoying life again. Perhaps you are feeling overwhelmed by your massive projects, but I know that if you need a break, your fans will be there waiting. Ariel, there are only 2-3 TH-cam creators who I really enjoy watching live content from, and even just watching you unpack a load of gifted bits of cloth means so much to me. Your personality shines through, and I can feel the love and admiration pouring through the screen from the commenters in your community. You mean a lot to many, many people, and I hope you read through the comments under this video and start to believe it yourself. Much love. xx
Feeding the algorithm with my comment: But also I will happily watch whatever you are happy to share, because yeah, cool things are cool and all, but it is you, with your accent, english that is perfectly fine, and honesty, that make me watch. Make up, or no.
So I'm here for shiny skulls that exist just cause, cupboard doorhandles, misshapen pumpkins, and the occasional cat cameo. Or just you sitting and talking.
You are enough as you are.
Your channel needs to work for you-you come first, always! I’m sure you will find a way to rebalance. If you need a break, please take one. We’ll still be here. 💕
3:34 I disagree.
I always look forward to seeing you and your projects. Regardless of how they turned out, like your giant pumpkin 🎃 costume.
I actually liked how it looked in the reveal.
That golden 💀 is wow
💛 it
Take all the break you need! We’re all here because we enjoy your work, and we’ll be here whenever you choose to come back ❤
Tu es hyper jolie, j'adore ton petit grain de folie et tout ce que tu fais ( sans oublier " pas ton chat)
J'ai eu les larmes aux yeux quand tu as pleuré, l'univers d'internet en demande trop!
Plus tu donnes et plus ils en veulent.
Faut être " trendy", faire des projets de dingue bla bla bla etc etc etc...
Bah non !!!! Fais ce qu'il te plaît au rythme que tu peux et basta. 😊
Je fais des créas depuis plys de 20 ans et c'est bien à cause de tout ce que tu endures que je refuse de faire des vidéos, tutoriels etc.
Ça te bouffe tout ton temps et toute ton énergie et comme déjà dit plus haut, les gens en demandent toujours plus.
Prends soin de toi, repose toi et reviens nous quand tu iras mieux. ❤😊
On sera là quoiqu'il en soit❤❤❤
You are enough. Let's reframe that sentiment for everyone. I am enough and so is everyone else.
It takes a lot of courage to show your vulnerability, especially on social media. But on doing so you give great comfort to anyone who struggles. I like your videos, the things you make and I find you very authentic, a characteristic that I very rarely see on social media.
I have recently started coloring to relax from a very stressful job. I don't think of myself as an artist, I'm just playing with color and enjoying the process. Today, I went to a craft store and someone started talking to me about their quilting projects. She showed me pictures of amazing creations and asked to see pictures of things I've colored. I was embarrassed, but I showed her. She gave me so much praise and kindness that it inspired me to continue doing what I've been doing. She said that we should lift each other up and support each other as creatives. As I watched this video, I got the very same feeling. With every mistake, we learn something new. Each time we try something and it doesn't work out, that is something we may not try again. The point is that you keep trying and keep doing what you love. You're doing amazing things, don't be afraid to fail. We all fail and we are all here to support you and inspire you to try again.
As a fellow content creator, I really appreciate your transparency. It’s a struggle to feel creative, productive, and like you have your shit together when you are panicking on the inside. Thank you so much for sharing the struggle with being creative and beating yourself up when it doesn’t work out. I think a lot of us can relate to this. I’ve had to take a step back before just to collect myself and work on my mental health a little. Sending love from the southern part of the “states”.
Please don't let the Internet tell you that you have to change! You are good the way you are, that's why we are following you ❤ I actually enjoy it most when you do something just for yourself and take us with you on that journey.
And remember: Mistakes are something to learn from. (says me who is a teacher)
I love the accent by the way. I used to have a colleague from France you always remember me of her. There is something about your energy... is there such a thing as a French energy? I really enjoy it, it makes me happy
What a way to end the video: "we're all gonna die anyway. Subscribe! 🎉" 😂 Ariel, I love your projects. Hang in there. Do what you have to do to stay sane. We'll support you no matter what.
J'adore vos vidéos : créativité, folie, enthousiasme, doutes, réussites et talent! j'ai hâte de revoir l'extraordinaire crâne à facettes (la revanche du disco sur les crânes de cristal?) 🪩 ✨
I love the skull. Darling we all get really tired when we work at even a job we love. Keep on going, slow down a bit, we will still come back for your quirky fun way of doing things. Love from Tokyo!!
Here is someone telling you you are doing something right>
You make awesome, entertaining videos!
Oh my goodness, Hazariel! You're so beautiful! You're so talented!
I'm reading now a book of Julia Cameron, who is the most famous because her 'The Artist's way' book. So, she said she wrote 40 books (!!) and she doubts in herself what if she can't write anything else. Her works are very encouraging for the artists❤
I'm very proud of you for making this video and I am glad that process has helped you as well. I got burnt out on doing woodworking four years ago, and I'm not even trying to be a content creator. But yes, finding and keeping a hold on the joy in the creative process is key. Please do take the time to do what it is you need to do, and many of us will be here cheering you on the entire time. Take care.
Can I say that I LOVE seeing you without makeup! You are gorgeous and it makes me feel more confident. I’ve been enjoying you more than ever lately!
Sometimes it's so hard being a creative person! I love watching your videos because it helps inspire me and it helps me feel like I have a crafty internet buddy! Love your honesty in this video! ❤❤❤
I think the internet ows you a very big apology for making you feel like a failure, when it is talented, original and honest people like yourself this world needs most right know . . . and defenitly over the perfect Instagram that is far from perfect behind the scenes. That is actually something that I miss most about viewing content . . . the struggle to get their, and not always getting their despite it. People who do say loud and clear "I am not 100% happy with it" but do find enjoyment in the process nontheless. So pleas keep doing that, because I do really think the people that stick to your channel love the way are and do things. And I for one love the skull. All you really have to do is putting him on a sunny window sill and let the sun do its magic. I have a small discoball on my bedroom window sill for years and love the sunbeams all over the room while reading . . . 😉🌄😘
I honestly love videos where things go wrong, it relaxes me to see that it's not just me that struggles sometimes but really REALLY skilled people also mess things up from time to time ❤
Ah well, who only got 9 days to finish a thesis because she registered too early and then did not have an outline until last month? Moi, but Haraziel you cheered me up, while writing
What gets me out of fatigue is looking at other's art/work which makes me motivated to be better or I focus on bettering one of my worst aspects of the project (which for me is painting and sizing) 😅
As someone who hopes you make my own contest, it is nice to see others talk about the burnout and help me with keeping myself going rather than make a thing than take a break thag lasts forever
Oh, the life of an artist... for every finished project there are at least ten unfinished and "failed" projects stuffed so far into the depths of the closet that they have now become part of the monster living in there.. add the pressure of an audience to that and I cant even imagine the stress of it all!
For whatever it is worth, you are not alone in the feeling of failure and self-image issues. That voice screaming at you inside your head has visited every artist imaginable since the birth of humanity. And I'm sorry it is hurting you! But you seem to have figured out that the smallest things done, are still things done. They still count, and are still art. So allow yourself some time with the smaller stuff, because I imagine we as viewers are here for the experience more than the final product!
And for the love of all that is art, PLEASE allow yourself to take a break every now and then
I vote:
1. Take a vacation (it helped me get out of a stuck rut, didn’t fix everything but reminded me that life is fun and beautiful)
2. Drag your projects out into multiple videos.
I love all the tips and tricks you share and literally everything about your videos.
I know I’m not alone when I say I would be excited seeing the steps for a project and eager to see what’s next in the process and not at all be upset it wasn’t start to finish in x amount of time and all in one video.
Relax, have fun and let yourself flow at your own speed.
You have a community of strangers that love you, even when you’re feeling trapped in darkness.
I also know from experience we can tell you you’re beautiful as much as we want but it doesn’t magically help you to see it yourself (lost my butt length hair to cancer and haven’t felt beautiful since, it’s almost annoying when people try to force their opinion of how I look into me).
That being said, I hope you (and I) get to feel as beautiful as others see, and I hope it happens very soon ☀️✨
100% absolutely this
The vacation/ break is SO REAL. Very important to get out of your usual place and get some distance. It's my number one go-to when I'm burnt out.
A big yes to multiple videos for one project. And failures are ok too. We're here for the creator not the creation.
Yes, progress vlogs would be so fun!
Once I heard a thing that really stuck with me and that I try to remind myself of when I get annoyed at myself because things don't work:
Don't think of it as fail. Think of it as
First
Attempt
In
Learning
Talking about “if you were more beautiful you’d get more views.” GURL!!!!!!! You. Are. GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!! And you have an amazingly beautiful accent!!!!!!! You are awesome!!!!!!!!! Please don’t let the algorithm make you feel less. Nobody is perfect but you are amazing.
- You are enough
- Make what makes you happy
- Do it in your time, I will continue to watch
- take a break if you need it
- be yourself and I’m glad you shared this with your subscribers
WE LOVE YOU 🥰
Courage 💪 tu es drôle, pleine d’idées loufoques, hors des sentiers battus
You are good enought
J’adore ce que tu nous montre en tout cas
If it's any consolation, I think you're really pretty. You are enough and I enjoy watching your videos ❤
Dear Hazariel, I am not here because you make perfect projects. I’m here because I love your attitude and your voice and your energy! I loved how (early on) you were bold and made BIG projects. And from you I learned that big projects take time to do properly. You inspired me to learn how to sew!!! You demonstrated the power of project management!!
Get a part time job! I hope someday your hobby can bring you joy again. ❤❤❤
You are AWESOME
AND BEAUTIFUL
And FABULOUS
and FUNNY
and SO FRICKING CREATIVE
And BRAVE!!!!!
And I love your videos! I love getting to spend time with the recordings of your voice as you narrate your projects.
In conclusion:
Don’t give up you lovely little croissant! ♥️♥️♥️🥐🥐🥐
Right before you mentioned feeling insecure about your looks, I was literally admiring how beautiful you looked just then. I really love the subdued and sort of mature, relaxed (and a bit bohemian) style of the no make-up with the shirt and the hair.
Glitz and glamour is fun and all, but there is nothing more beautiful than seeing the everyday beauty in people.💛
Thanks for sharing
A content creator (hate that phrase), that I used to follow, Zach Herberholz said once that, "the algorithm is a terrible boss," and he's right. Every content creator I've followed over the years has gone through this and it's all the result of making "making" your career. You have to put content out everywhere - TH-cam, Facebook, Instagram, Tik-tok(barf), and you have to do it all relentlessly to stay relevant. The more subscribers and revenue you generate, it seems the harder you have to work to keep your content relevant and keep the ad revenue coming in. I don't know what to tell you beyond the fact that my wife and I love watching your videos and you're honestly one of our favorite people to follow on TH-cam. The way you approach projects with whimsy and getting to see all the technical skill you bring to bear makes us want to use our sewing machines more. Keep doing what you're doing. We'll keep watching.
As a freelance designer and content creator myself and as someone who has been through 2 burnouts and many years of therapy, I want to give you some advice. You don't have to prove your worth, neither to others, nor to yourself. You are good enough. You are talented, you are skilled, you are beautiful, you are hardworking. And you also deserve a break. Treat yourself with something nice. Be gentle to yourself. Do more of what makes you happy. You don't have to work everyday. Allow yourself to live. To rest. Don't tell yourself "That day was crap because I didn't do anything productive". Change your perspective. Tell yourself instead "That was a good day, because I allowed myself to rest, to recharge my batteries, to watch a fun movie, to read a good book or whatever". Don't stress yourself, slow down. You don't have to finish everything today. Tomorrow is another day. It's okay.
Just last week I was thinking, "She's so beautiful and so dang CHARming, I can see why she was instinctively drawn to be a content creator- she's so fun to watch, and look how talented she is, doing those projects! Especially skilled at sewing- she can make her creative dreams come to life! I wish she would release another new video so I could watch more!"
It doesn't surprise me that you've fallen ill with YT-itis, like they all do. But just remember that how you see yourself and your attributes is distorted by close proximity. Who can see their own worth clearly? You have an excellent image, a fun creativity and an artistic ability to match, PLUS a wonderful personality for us to watch and enjoy.
I don't know if you'll take it to heart, since its just my opinion, but I hope you do hear me and believe me, and I hope you keep creating content for us. ❤
Honestly, I love watching you because you are so wonderfully human - you get frustrated, you make errors, and you have great big hair like me that gets excited no matter what, and you do it all in a language foreign to you, while doing inspiring projects.You have inspired me to do more craft projects again, because making things is fun! But if you need to recharge, reset and return in a little while, we will be here. I wish you all the best as you sort things out, and will watch all your videos.
Your UFO’s truly help your viewers realize that no one is perfect, even professionals. If you do not fail you will never improve. Failure is definitely a part of success. Keep creating, keep trying, we are sharing all with you💋❤️💋
I'm not a content creator, but this is very relatable as I do crafts and have been a cosplayer for many years. At the beginning everything was fun and happy but then I started having the "I'm not pretty enough" problem when retouching my photos, feeling that my craft is not well designed, and so on. I assure that you're doing a brilliant job with your humour (I really love your reveals!) and your genuine attitude, and above all you are beautiful and your creations are stunning and fun! It's the fault of all those media platforms which place unnecessary stress on creators😢
I absolutely love when you or any content creators perform with AND without make-up. In fancy clothes and in pyjama pants and hoodies. It makes me feel more like I'm on your level, it feels sympathetic and cozy. I hate that algorithms can punish you for looking like a normal person during a normal day instead of a distant god you have to look upwards.
Yes, yes, yes. Do a rework of a veeery old project, where you KNOW you can do it better. This always cheerd me up when I, as an artist struggelt with nothing wanted to work out, or when I lost my fun in drawing
As someone who watches a lot of DIY/maker channels of all kinds of materials (costumes, wood working, machining, fibre arts, etc.), I cannot tell you how much I appreciate when people show their failures and mistakes. As soothing as those silent lathing videos are, nothing ever goes wrong! It always looks so precise & perfect! Then when I actually get into my shop and it's difficult, stressful, and sometimes takes 5 times to get it right, I am like... wait I thought this was supposed to be easy?! So I prefer watching creators that break down their process & show how they failed along the way.
I love that you made this video, and also full of good advice that I don't take myself 🙃as someone who also worked through depression a few years back, it will take time, and be as easy as you can on yourself as you're on this journey. You're amazing and I've been enjoying watching your channel grow over the past couple of years! Take all the time you need.
You mentioned it kind of as a passing comment but I think it's a really good idea: remake really old things you made a long time ago!
It's always a fantastic boost for my confidence when I do it for myself because what you make WILL look so much better than it did back then and you already have the idea ready so you don't even have the pressure of coming up with a new one. It's basically a guaranteed win!
Plus you get cool before and after comparisons that are always so interesting to see.
Best of luck ✌️
Miss, I hope this does not come off as contrite, which can be difficult over textual forums and even worse online, but thank you for sharing all the projects you have completed and all of those you have started! Your comment in a live chat about not being afraid to start using a sewing machine has given me the nerve to actually pull out the machine I have tucked in a corner and use it. I'm not making anything as amazing as your work and likely never will, but I have a new hobby and am part of a new community because of you. I can only imagine the stress and pressure you are under, and while I would miss you and your channel dearly if you decided not to keep making content, I hope you are able to walk away if and when you want to without feeling like you let anyone down or did not succeed. You have achieved so much already and it is natural for people to change course throughout life. I'm rambling, but thank you for sharing your spark with us and do what you need to to feel better again.
After 20 years of online content creation, I feel this soooo much! The admin is the WORST.
I've just got to come here and say that I'm so happy I found your channel. I've been watching your channel for a couple years I think (first video of yours I watched I think was one of the Rococo dress ones) and you always astound me with your talent, your creativity, and your resourcefulness. Not to mention, you are so cute and delightful and have a fun personality. I love that you do projects that make you happy and not necessarily follow trends. That's what I come here to see. A little bit of weird, a little bit of whimsical, often outlandish, but that's why it's fun!
As someone who kind of hates their own voice (especially when I have to record and listen back on it), I totally understand the insecurities. But I think you have such a cute voice and accent. Your "Bonjour!" at the beginning of each video always makes me happy. I love when you can't find the words in English so you just start mumbling in French and then translate it the best you can. And the little comedy bits of "cliche French things" like the accordion music with the croissant shoes, just hits my particular kind of humor 😆But seriously, I don't understand the perception that non-native English speakers should have perfect English just to suit their audience. Of course you're not going to have perfect English; that's more than okay and should be embraced. That's part of you uniquely, as a creator!
One of the other creators I love watching is Kathleen Illustrated, who has a very calming demeanor and style and videos; she just put out a video on burnout. I recommend giving it a watch and I hope you take some time for yourself to get some rest. Also, I'm sure I'm not the only one who would be perfectly happy with seeing your videos every other week than every week so that you give yourself time to rest in between projects. Or to just see WIP videos instead of full finished projects. Just some food for thought!
Sending you a huge hug sweet Ariel ❤️❤️❤️❤️ You are more than good enough: you are YOU!
You inspire me every time with how you tackle your craft and also for not wearing makeup in videos!!
I think all the projects you showed here look interesting and if you want to finish them I would love to see it 🫶❤️❤️
Oh and also, I like your accent and applaud you for making content for the internet in another language!!! 👏👏👏
Vous n'êtes pas insuffisant ! Vous êtes magnifique et oui, vous avez besoin de vacances !
Don't give up, Just rest.
Hugs from Germany❤
That actually hit hard for me. I was just lying on my couch and crying about some maybe missed opportunities in my life, not feeling successful, creative and beautiful enough and there you are, my cosplay-creative-inspirational and stunningly beautiful internet goddess, struggling with the same feelings and insecurities as me.
Seeing your pain and vulnerability and crying alongside you was so relieving. I just wanna let you know, that what you do, what you share is more meaningful than you realize. It certainly is for me.
So on that note I've just created a patreon account to be able to support someone I really hope will go on to inspire me in future.
So coming from my heart: Thank you so much for sharing!
As a fellow creative with depression I understand you completely. You are wonderful, charismatic, artistic, and beautiful, no matter what the nasty voices in your head try to tell you.
Ariel, I discovered your channel during the "panini"(!!), and I love your passion. I don't love everything that you do, (not everything falls within my areas of interest), but I DO love the fact that you do lots of stuff, and I "like" every piece of content that you post. Please know that you ARE appreciated within the broader "creative" community. You ARE loved, you ARE worthy, you ARE supported. Keep doing what you're doing, and we will keep watching and "liking"!!
You want to talk about failure during a project? Nerdforge cut off her pinky finger. You’re a beautiful talented woman. I hope you are feeling better soon. :)
I really appreciate when creators show their failures. It gives me confidence to try things in not comfortable doing. Thanks for sharing all of this.
eh... plus ça change... I was a "self-employed artist" for about 10 years after finishing art school... I am no longer an artist (or, rather, I still create, but I keep it all for myself)... However, I CAN tell you that it is still essentially the same situation, even though social media is new: back in the day, you had to market yourself to galleries, sell yourself to clients, you had to produce works that satisified the client and so found yourself either following a recognisable "style" so that clients could boast owning an immediately identifiable work by "xyz" artist, or else, you had to give up your style or your interests in order to do what was more marketable to clients... AND, like with social media, you only saw the successful artworks of other artists, not their struggles or their creative process. So, what I'm saying is that - in my opinion - it's not about content creating, or social media... it's about the system of producing and selling art as a living. It's always going to be a struggle (especially because I think many creatives are also by nature introverts, so the process of dealing with the public/clients is traumatic)... Your video was interesting to me, because I have often thought that if I had started my "artist career" in the age of social media, where I could have sold my work on the internet and bypassed the galleries and clients, I would have found it more palatable. But I see it is ultimately the same old story! as I said, plus ça change... I hope you manage to find a solution that suits you. Courage! k
Wow! Thank you for opening up and being so honest. I have a few thoughts on this video:
1. You are amazing! We love you for your personality, honesty and transparency, and personally I could watch you talk about the mating habits of ants for an hour and not get bored.
2. In the world of crafting, I don't believe in the word 'failure'. It's just a project that you haven't quite developed the skill set for yet.
3. PLEASE, for the love of god, re-do your Mars Attack costume! That would be AMAZING!
4. If you'd like a nice easy content idea, I'd love a video just on the story of your "not my cat" with extra floofy-cat content!
5. Disco skull is AWESOME!
Sweetie, you are beautiful! My husband and I will watch anything you want to make! The skull looks like a finished project to me, just a wonderful knick knack! Please take care of yourself, we want to watch so much more of all of your imaginative works!
I'm sending you a virtual hug, my friend. Thank you for saying out loud all the things that have been bothering me as well, but I could not put into words. It helped a lot. Merci! 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰
You're a creative genius. No matter what a person's job is, there will be burnout. You are being shown that it is time to take a break, time to relax, and just be. 🤗💗
A, you're beautiful. B, sharing your gift is most generous and we thank you. C, Every artist gets stuck from time to time. Thank you for sharing your journey!
Thank you for your vulnerability and honesty, I think it's important to share these ups and downs with your audience who loves and adores you. I look forward to your videos regardless of what they are because you are just such a joy to watch. Your meticulousness (if that's a word, see English is my first language and even I struggle) and precision for even the silliest projects is so inspiring. I also appreciate your realness and that you don't overdo the "aesthetic" thing, you're just yourself, which is more than enough. I know you didn't make this video looking for pity or a pep talk, but I do hope that you are feeling the love from your audience and that you can find your joy again. The only way to go from here is up.
PS: I think your accent is adorable and you should not be ashamed of it!
Cannot upvote this enough
if you can learn from failure then you are already ahead of the game, she's a great teacher, sure she can cause CRUSHING anxiety and depression, but once you get past that part, BAM you'll knock it out of the park.... we all have faith in you and even if the thing you are creating is just a conversation about fatigue and anxiety and depression you still created something without knowing it
Hello, Ariel. Thank you for this video! I must have taken a lot of courage to make yourself vulnerable like that. It is good to know that we are not alone in our battles. Yes, I am that person who is full of good advice and struggle to take it on board. Some time ago I felt a pressure to go make up free. You know, this dialogue that us women are fake because we wear make up? So I did, and I honestly felt so washed out, not myself. I started thinking "why should I feel guilty for wanting to look good, and feminine and colorful and pretty?" Why should we feel guilty for wanting to express ourselves?! So I went back to wearing make up, even when I am home alone! It makes me feel good and happy. And if someone has a problem with it, well, it is their problem and their insecurities coming to the surface. In saying that, you are really pretty and I am jealous of you gorgeous hair! And above all, you are incredibly talented, your creativity always amazes me, and the quality of your project is top notch! I love your channel and (what logically follows) you! Lots of love!
on behalf of all of us, thank you for all the invisible work you do, moving the tiny sliders 0.6 seconds forward in premiere for that perfect punchline cut-off. It is deeply appreciated.
Also, feel you big time on staring at your own face all day, it's a special hell, but as an objective observer you're a 10/10 hottie and I love the no-makeup Hazariel.
Your job is nuts and I don't know how you do it but we're pathetically grateful.
oh also totally cracked up at 'we're all gonna die anyway' because I have a black sense of humour and also IT'S TRUE in seven billion years, the sun will explode and crisp the earth so who cares 🎉🎉🎉
Editing alone is EASILY half of my workload, probably more, even before other admin stuff 🤡 Truly I'm so glad to be on this path, and I knew what I was signing up for, but it's impossible to overstate the years it takes to actually figure out how to build a sustainable, long-term career like this. For me, the massive time sink of editing just means that there's SUCH a big gap between when I craft something, and when I actually post about it. That feels like my number one thing I'm still working on improving. Love your stuff and sending LOTS of support to you figuring out your own balances!! 💜
I feel you completely... Maybe one day we will have a healthy way to do things, one day! (Love your stuff too)
We watch because we like YOU, watching you make things that give you excitement and joy.
We (the audience, but probably not the algorithm) would be happy with less frequent but detailed videos or several videos with each part of a project, whatever gives you the freedom to get back into creating joyfully.
You are absolutely enough! There is no way you cannot be.
You always look lovely (joy and excitement radiate, they cannot be bought and applied) and please remember, it's not normal for someone to be studying themselves like a separate person - before cameras, we would only ever see a live, in the moment, reflection of ourselves in a mirror - editing photos or videos from the past is a real mind trip.
Please hug 'Not My Cat' and get some much needed rest, we adore you
Thank you for your honesty. I know it’s REALLY hard to be that vulnerable and raw. I hope it helped you gain some perspective and put things back into a more manageable scale for yourself. I completely agree with a previous comment that talked about the cycle of creativity/creative spirits and that sometimes you just hit a brick wall, usually just before finding a deeper well of skill/determination/creative juice. I struggle with exactly the same sorts of frustrations, esp. now that I’ve hit menopause. (Where exactly did my brain go?! Did I sweat it out??!) I hope your mental gremlins will get out of the way enough to hear this next part: You really are a lovely person, both creatively and aesthetically. Please take care of yourself and rest if you need it, or break stuff if you need it, or … whatever it is that you need to recharge and move forward with a positive outlook.
We love you as you are.❤
"It doesn't matter, we're all going to die anyways!" Surprisingly inspiring statement😂😅
Oh and one of my favourite things is people speaking English when it isn't their first language. Not because I want people speaking my native language rather than their own, but because it is FLIPPING ADORABLE to hear their accents!! It is seriously difficult to speak in a 2nd or 3rd language so you are incredible xx
I completely agree with all of your points. Social media is so unkind to crafters. The constant urgent need for content to share is just not sustainable long term. It's so unfortunate. I feel like it forces every crafter to eventually reach a level of burnout where they start to doubt their talent, their interest, their online presence, and even the more personal stuff like their personality, voice, face, etc. I wish social media didn't suck so bad 😮💨
Hi, just thought you’d like to know that just this week your work was mentioned in a Twitter thread. It was in response to the same reference you used for the pencil outfit. Someone posted that picture, and I wasn’t even the first to bring you up.
And one thing’s for sure, you are good enough, beautiful enough and certainly one of the TH-camrs i religiously watch as soon as you upload.
Not meant as pressure, obviously, but reaffirmation and appreciation.
You are not a failure! You are so talented and so gorgeous with and without make up. It's just your mind playing tricks on you, don't listen to it 😊
I can't speak for anyone else but I really like watching the process of crafting videos. I don't actually care that much about "instagram" worthy finished items. I think I have watched the video about cloud dying old curtains to make a dress about 10 times! Yes the end dress is beautiful but watching the process was so calming.
Gosh I feel you Ariel… Believe the outside perspective, you’re not a merde 😂 yes social media are getting extremely toxic for artists: seeing amazing work you feel you’ll never get to, or bad one that people seem to admire for no reason. I don’t know what to say but do a project you dream to do, and do it, film it, but without thinking “it’s not gonna work”. Just do it. I love your channel, I’m amazed by your creativity, work on yourself, it’s all gonna be fine!
Thank you for sharing the less fabulous side of crafting.
Too often we only see the perfect end result and when we start out less than perfect ourselves, we get discouraged and give up.
Knowing and seeing fantastic creators like yourself go through the same things we do helps keep me motivated to continue making weird and not quite perfect things