Some of the early signs of my alcoholism/addiction.
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- Hey guys in this video I share some of my personal early signs of my alcoholism!!! I got this video idea from bat country! Go subscribe to him.
Much love guys, stay safe and stay sober.
Looking great bro! Skin is super clear and your face isn’t bloated from the booze. That’s progress. Your body is healing. 40 days sober today!! I too struggled with drinking alone, not knowing when to stop, making people around me worry because of how drunk I would get compared to them. I would always become the drunkest at the parties to the point they no longer wanted me around anymore. Super sad past man but I’m committed to change and healing and bettering myself now
Hey 👋 Dylan thank you my man!!
Also h*ll yea dude!!! That’s what I’m talking about, congratulations on the 40 days don’t look back keep pushing forward like a soldier!
And yes, drinking alone became the norm. Being the drunkest at the parties became the norm till that eventually led to them not even inviting me at all lol and I can’t blame them….. I was a wild dude.
Anyways thanks again Dylan, keep going strong 💪.
I resonate with the majority of these. 8 days sober now, life is better than ever. Keep up the good work man.
Hopefully your still sober. 2 hours after this post. 😊
Congratulations on the 8 days my friend!!!! That is what I’m talking about ✊. Keep going on the path you are on, don’t look back. Much love my friend!
@@popcornboxing369 he is popcorn, come on now haha.
@@Slayer-7373 hopefully a time 🕰️ for a bit of comedy- even regarding these serious situations.
@@Slayer-7373 hopefully a time for a bit of comedy - even regarding this serious situation.
Don't forget....YOU ARE A GOOD GUY!
Awe 🙂 thank you. You are a good person too!! 🙏
Great video, man! Love hearing your honest experiences and it does help others who get tired of the "clinical" types of analysis.
Thanks brother!! I’m glad it helps that makes me really happy 🙏
You are on the right path !!!!~~ you're very young to realize yourself -- & to move forward in the light -- Smart move !!!!~~~ most people aren't that smart -- believe me!@#$%!@ -- we all make mistakes... I relate bc I was just like you --- Was
God bless you Jenn 🙏🖤, thank you!!
That's for sure Jenn. I know ppl who are 60+ years old. It is ridiculous. So glad you recognized the problem at such a young age Slayer.
@@northwoodszilly3036 thanks zilly 🙂
YEAH! Picking the booze over friends and events. That's such a big one. Glad to see you talking about this, this is really useful stuff for people who are worried about how much they're drinking. If you're ditching obligations to drink then you need to take a minute, because you 're on the edge at that point. Thanks man.
Absolutely man, when the bottle starts to become your best friend instead of an actual human… you’re in trouble lol. Thanks for the comment brother and for the inspiration for this video! ✊
Interesting to hear the confidence in your voice as a youngster that just stopped recently . Not complaining just fascinated
I think it’s because I’ve been through so much with it at this point you know? I’ve tried getting sober dozens of times and recently for the first time in my entire life something has felt different. I have an actual desire to stop drinking, I’m absolutely ashamed of it actually nowadays. Maybe for the first time in my life with my drinking I do have some confidence with it.
Thanks for this comment my friend, god bless 🙏
Thanks Slayer for another great video.
Hey 👋 Paul!! Thanks for your awesome comments my friend!
Looking and sounding very well brother - keep it up my friend! We're all here for you. NEVER ALONE..AND ALWAYS IN THE FIGHT!
Extremely awesome comment, thank you my friend and mean that!! We’ve got this 💪!
Looking amazing, you got this!! Alcohol is not our friend! 💪
Awe thanks stepha 🙂, alcohol is indeed not our friend!! It’s our enemy!! ❌🥃❌
Another sign you're becoming an alcoholic is a reduced gag reflex. When it used to take you 10, 12 drinks to throw up, now it takes you 20, 22, etc. Worse yet, is when you throw up MULTIPLE times in the same bender and KEEP going. *That's NOT normal.* Most people throw up once then pass out. If you throw up 2, 3, or 4 times in the same bender...you have a problem.
That’s a great point, also I use to get wasted and go throw up and be horribly sick, give it about 5 minutes and then Jump back into the party as if nothing happened and start drinking again. That’s also a sign of a big problem.
@@Slayer-7373I be yackin then goin right back to the liquor store/smoke shops and doin it again all alone and I’m problably never gonna change. just don’t get started in the first place. I was addicted to kratom throwing up all over the place like that is not normal and I’m probably brain dead because of it and all the psyc meds they had me doped up on in the hospital 😂
It's so helpful to hear this from someone your age who's been through this shit. It doesn't hit the same from a therapist or person of authority. Much love :)
Exactly Anna, we need people we can relate to and understand what we’ve been through. Not some college graduate who has never dipped their toes into that realm. :) thanks for this awesome comment, much love to you as well! ☀️
Stay strong brother. You’re lookin sharp!
Thanks brother as always!!! One day at a time. 😁
@@Slayer-7373 Do not beat yourself up too much. You are in your own head a lot. Work out more. Go to uni to be a therapist / counselor for addicts.
@@mjwmjw3864 I’m definitely in my head too much mj, it a real problem of mine!
Good video
Thanks man!!! Much love as always popcorn! 🙏
Solid video brother. Keep up the good work (inside and outside of youtube) !
Thanks brother 😁, you leave some awesome comments man and I appreciate that. Be easy 💯
Sounds just like me. Could never accept the night was over. I was seen as the party guy. It was a badge of honour.
Absolutely popcorn, was a lot of fun till it wasn’t anymore….
Slayer. Hello. Your channel is growing!!! You’re doing a wonderful thing here! I’m proud of you 👍🏻. Great video 🎉💚👏🏻
Hey 👋 Mona!! What’s up?? It is growing and it’s so beautiful to watch and be part of. You’ve been here for a while and that is very much appreciated. Thank you!!! Much love 🙏
What up Slayer, back with another banger🤙 glad you know to take the time you need for yourself.
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I remember the first time I tried hard liquor (vodka) the first shot was the most vile disgusting mouth feel experience I ever had. But as SOON as that warm tingly hit my stomach I no longer cared. I forced down a couple more while gagging and drooling.
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The first time I got access to a whole fifth to myself (which I had shop lifted) I drank almost the whole thing, came to in the morning in my room with no clothes on wrapped in towels proped up on a bean bag with a note from my girlfriend who had thankfully been there with me saying that I had begun convulsing and vomiting and that she had made sure I didn't choke and cleaned me up and gone home. I was 15. I then proceeded to shrug my shoulders and stumble off to school still completely hammered. She probably saved my life.
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Another thing was taking small amounts of all the different liquor from her parents cabinet and mixing it together in one container to chug down, not caring what it tasted like of course.
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As soon as I learned to drive and had a provisional licence my folks let me take the car out. Later that evening I got pulled over drunk with 3 other hooligans in the car and open 40s that we had shoulder tapped some hobos for. The cop allowed my folks to come get me and didnt even give me a DUI but charged me for violating the provisional period, but in my mind it was total bs and I resented it for years.
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I was a raging alcoholic from the moment it touched my body.
Im thankful to still be here to share these horror stories.
“A raging alcoholic from the moment you started drinking”. Yup it was bad from the get go! Sometimes I try to convince myself that I was so much better when I first started drinking but….. really I wasn’t. I’ve always been out of control with my drinking, I become an absolute WILD man.
I’m glad we are both still ALIVE, it’s something we’ve gotta be thankful for. Making this channel has been extremely eye opening for me. Much love brother!!! 💯
A big thing for me was when I'd have a live show to go to I used to be like "Awesome, I'm seeing a cool band tonight and I can have some drinks too." That soon changed to "Awesome, I get to be wasted at an event and listen to music at the same time". The alcohol became the central thing I would look forward to. The same thing with holidays. Instead of being excited about being a tourist, fun food, shopping, seeing the sights I was more excited that I could drink as much and as long as I wanted without having to sober up because I didn't have to go to work.
This comment right here. I can relate so much
100% josh, it becomes your soul purpose for everything! It literally becomes your God. Before you know it you’re so wrapped up in it you don’t know what to do anymore and feel lost without. A very dangerous path to go down! Thanks brother as always, hope you are doing well my friend! 🙏
@@jeff67788 me as well Jeff!
I feel this comment SO much. I felt like I needed alcohol to accentuate already awesome things, and then I'd be too inebriated to enjoy the things or be present
@@amandaflaherty7528 Yes! Like I'd remember the first half of the show then completely forget any songs played after it, or remember bits and flashes of it. Such a waste of money to not even be present. Contrast this with when I was 18/19/20 I would go to gigs completely sober because I wanted to remember it and THEN I would drink after the show. I would never have done that in my late 20's/throughout my 30's.
This was exactly me in the beginning. I ignored the feeling, but I think I also knew that it was going to become a problem. Never wanted the party to end and never went to sleep. Only passed out. And suddenly, I'm in my mid twenties and have no desire to do anything that doesn't involve alcohol. Thank God I can say with confidence that I'm done with that chapter of my life. Thank you for always being so candid and for sharing the hard truth. I hope that these kinds of videos help people avoid the pain that many of us here have been through and the medical turmoil that can come with the disease. I hope that you and everyone in this community have a wonderful weekend!! ❤❤❤
Hey Amanda 👋, awesome comment as always. It seems like the people who have struggled with booze always have very similar stories. It’s a real plague and it affects every single one of us almost the same way. Always starts off fun, then turns into a nightmare.
I hope these help people as well Amanda, that’s my goal. Also to wake up people on the hard truths about alcohol. It’s one of the hardest drugs on earth yet it’s glorified it’s just insane.
Anyways thanks again Amanda, much love 🙏🖤
@@Slayer-7373much love always, Slayer!! I hope you've had a wonderful week so far. I'm so glad you're taking care of yourself and taking time for yourself!! ❤
@@amandaflaherty7528 I hope you have as well Amanda! 🙂
👍 much love slayer !
🙏much love back to ya Jeff!
Alcohol sneaks into your life. Then it becomes your life. Then it steals your life. All the good things go away..... you're then left with nothing but your regrets and an empty booze bottle. In the spiritual realm our enemy comes to steal kill and destroy.....what my friend does the alcohol do??? Answer ...all of the above. Stay strong Slayer. Take care. See ya next time.....
Brilliant way of putting it jerome, thanks brother as always. 🙏see ya soon my friend.
Definitely watching cans and bottles pile up and feeling like I needing a drink in the morning was my first indication I think. That and pissing my family off and not remembering a few things that had happened. Great video. You have a good one too, Slayer.
I’m going to have to make a part two for this video and include that man that’s a great point. Once you start drinking in the morning it’s OVER. Thanks as always shades, I always appreciate your comments brother.
@@Slayer-7373 You are genetically predisposed to addiction, but you are also very introspective and spiritual.
Find something positive and become addicted to THAT: stock option trading with Prosper Trading Academy, meditation with the Gateway Experience, practicing a musical instrument, furthering your edu, distance running, MMA or more martial arts again, etc.
@@mjwmjw3864 thanks mj 🙏, beautiful advice!!!
@@Slayer-7373 I appreciate it. I just rented "Leaving Las Vegas" and watched it on TH-cam the other night. The first time I watched it was before I was an alcoholic and couldn't relate to his intake or what was going on. I made a short about it. He's shaking in the morning in one scene, I believe and after becoming an alcoholic I could totally relate of shaking really bad and taking that drink.
@@ShadesOClarity oh man, that is a POWERFUL movie man. It makes me emotional especially in certain scenes. I can relate and feel that characters pain I’m sure the same way you can. Thanks shades ✌️
You do what you need to do Slay
Always appreciate your comments Kristen, thank you 🙏
Jim Morrison from The Doors was my guy! My dad too. My dad died so young. I’m almost older than he was and I’m DEFINITELY older than Jim Morrison.
Jim Morrison was big for me too brother.
This is super super relatable. Thank you for sharing. This video is a good reminder to keep myself aware of all these things because I was in denial for so long. 150 days sober today 😊
Hey thank you!!! I’m glad you could relate 🙂. Also whaaat that’s awesome!!! 👏 congratulations on the 150 days!!! Keep doing what you’re doing because it’s clearly working! Don’t look back.
@@Slayer-7373 you too brother I’m proud of you ❤️
WOOHOO!!! 5 months!! 🎉❤🎊You should be so proud of yourself!!! Wishing you only the best, keep up the good work 😊❤
I think the thing that changed it for me the most was "hair of the dog". Once you start doing that you don't really get to come back from it
Yup exactly, once you need it, once you start drinking in the morning especially it’s OVER. Might as well start to try how to get sober and never drink again 😂
Bro, I knew it was the beginning of the end when I realized my whole life, all my happiness revolves around whether or not alcohol was going to be part of that day's festivities! That's when I knew alcohol controlled me! This June will be 5 years sober! It hasn't been easy but as you said in one of your videos I knew I was literally going to drink myself to death! I hope you are doing well Slayer!
Congratulations on the 5 years my friend!! That is incredible. I hope to be there someday myself my friend, much love.
Thumbs Up 👍 and shared out there Everywhere!!♥️ Great Video Slayer! Take good care of you!!😎💯💞
Hey 👋 thanks Cindy 🙂, good to hear from you!!! Hope all is well. Much love.
@@Slayer-7373 Good Morning Slayer! And Happy Sunday!! I just got out of the hospital! I had to have emergency surgery two days ago. I literally almost died last week! I kept drinking by myself every single night alone and I got sicker and sicker every single day. 1 week ago I told myself This is Enough!!! I must stop Now! I sat the alcohol down- went and jumped in the shower. Hurting like crazy and sick in agony and detoxing- I drove myself to the ER!!! I was about to die! I had to have emergency surgery a couple of days later. Then I was released from hospital the very next day. Believe it or not. I’m at home now and I’m hurting really really bad but I haven’t touched a drop in six days! I’m pouring out everything in my home. I shall Not touch that garbage Today! It doesn’t solve anything and it only creates extremely worse problems!!! Please keep me in your thoughts and prayers for healing. I’m not well yet but I’m fighting like a Pissed Off Tiger!! Smiles!💯💞
@@CMoore8539 thank god Cindy!!! 🙏 we were extremely worried about you!!!! Prayers out to you and love! Please keep us updated!!! 🙏
I knew I was an alcoholic 10+ years before it really became bad. I drank so much more than everyone around me. They are falling asleep as I am smashing double vodkas and wondering why they were so soft. When you abuse alcohol, your body starts using it as an energy source so it becomes a stimulant for you. God bless you bro, stay sober, stay happy.
@@Knightcommander69 trust me my friend I know exactly what you mean.
God bless you as well 🙏
It takes courage to be that honest. Excellent video.
🙂awe thanks grace, I appreciate you being here.
Every time I quit drinking, things seem to normalize for about 30 days, but then everything goes back to how it used to be. It starts with wanting to have a party, leading to drinking, blacking out, and then regretting it all. The cycle of paranoia and regret kicks in, and I find myself going to the shop to buy beers-four cans at first. The next day, it's wine. The day after that, more wine. Eventually, it escalates to vodka, then Jack Daniels, and so on. I end up waking up in severe pain with withdrawal symptoms and deep regret, all because I couldn’t stop feeling anxious.
I’m only 21 years old, but I’ve been drinking since I was 13 or 14. The first time I got drunk was from my family’s bar at home. By the age of 15, I had drunk everything in that bar. I started going to parties and entering relationships where I’d always end up drinking heavily. At 16 or 17, girls seemed to be attracted to my wild behavior, and I ended up with the most beautiful girl in school. Initially, we both drank together, but for her, it was just casual drinking. For me, it became a habit where I’d come home and start drinking vodka alone in my room, feeling sad about things that didn’t even happen.
Insane how much I can relate to your comment, it’s a VICOUS cycle. You are very young, if I could go back to being 21 and get my sh*t together I would in a second!! Even the fact that you’re commenting shows a ton of maturity, it also shows you have a desire to quit. Don’t ever stop trying to put it down, do whatever it takes and reclaim your life again. Thanks for this comment!!! Keep me updated 🙏
Hey!! You have a whole life waiting for you around the corner!! Keep reaching out for change and you'll have your whole life ahead of you!! You've got this!! ❤❤
Man I remember going through similar in my beginning stages and I really didn’t realize I was messing up until I was the first to wake up after the party and drink the leftovers and pretend it was all gone the night before….
I’ve done the same thing my friend too many times to count….. one day it hits you like, this is not normal!!
Thanks for the comment brother, much love 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I swear man it really does, and when it does hit you you just kind of find yourself sitting there like man I can’t believe I’m doing this!
You’re welcome man!! Much love too brother! I’m almost a day sober!!
Omg I've been here. Somehow forgot about this but absolutely have done the same thing!!
@@amandaflaherty7528 it’s unreal how alcohol causes us to do things we normally wouldn’t do and then we continue to make the same mistakes and not remember
@@Reggaechild exactly! Emphasis on the things we normally wouldn't do portion. Addiction slowly pushes our boundaries for acceptable behavior ❤️❤️
Great to hear from you. Another brilliant video! ❤
Thank you so much Jennifer!!! 🙏🖤
Hey slayer - I can totally relate to drinking some nasty crap in my initial drinking days MD 20/20 that’s some nasty sweet crap. I remember the taste 🤮 and being slumped over regretting that decision but finding myself right back. That was a long time ago. I had so many “friends” and initially it’s what you described we were a bunch of young adults having fun. Some of us got full time jobs and college etc it was time to get serious well that’s what eventually brought me to drinking again to deal with stress or celebrations which then fast forward found myself drinking for any reason. What you described was one of my really good friends as she was overdoing it all the time. I had to eventually pull away as it was getting dangerous. Unfortunately, after not speaking to her for over 12 years I have seen that she has multiple arrest for drinking. It makes me sad as we used to throw back 40 size beer together watching the sunrise on the beach. Your depiction was spot on of her and me on the other end picking her up and bailing her out. I had to save myself from the chaos as she kept putting me in scary situations. The irony is that it doesn’t take much to abuse alcohol. One day a week becomes 2, and so on. One bottle leads to two, it was fun until it’s not. Thank you for sharing slayer really reinforces the reason I need to stay away from it. Hey 7 days today without it again, congrats on your continued success. You look stronger and healthier. Keep enjoying the beautiful days even the rainy ones as life is a gift and you have so much to give. 💜
Micru!!! What’s up?? Also I know right? The things that we drink just to feel a temporary buzz is insane! Some of the nastiest crap ever.
Also awe 😕 I’m sorry about your friend. I can relate a lot to her, it got like that with my friends. People got scared of being around me because they never knew what crazy thing might happen. Nobody wanted to drive with me which was completely understandable. It gets like that for some of us when the addiction fully takes hold and you no longer have control. Very sad to watch and also experience.
Thanks as always micru and I mean that!!! You are a big part of this channel, been here for a long time and you are always showing love!!! I really consider you a friend. Have a fantastic day, much love 🖤🙏
@@Slayer-7373 nothing but love back at ya! I know it definitely takes over. What’s crazy is that back then I didn’t think it was a disease, none of us did, it just was considered drinking too much smdh. As I listened to your story of early signs it took me back to that place. It definitely was so much more than that. We all have to figure out our own way out of this and no one can do it for us. I hope she finds her way back too 😔. Well it’s now early Thursday morning hope you have a fantastic day today my friend.
@@Micru866 🖤🙏 I believe she will micru, like you said we all get there at our own time. Much love, hope you have a great day as well!
On the funnier side, another sign you're an alcoholic, is finding yourself in ABSURD situations 😂 When drinking, you kind of let alcohol take the steering wheel and see where it takes you. One time, I was drinking with a bunch of homeless people. Another time, I was passed out under a bridge in 105 degree heat. And another time, I was drunk and coked out going for a run at 3AM. And almost always, it finally hits you... *"WTF am I doing?? And where am I??"* 😂
Yup absolutely 😂 it does all eventually catch up to your brain lol, like you said in the moment all that crazy sh^t seems normal but once you start to come down you look around and start to question like “what in the actual f%#k am I doing with my life? Why am I passed out in the middle of a field while it’s raining on me?” 😂. I’ll have to make a part two to this video and include this! Great point my friend.
Hey Slayer. It's been a while, since I've been here. Hope all is well. Take care. You are educating so many. My sister was diagnosed with cirrhosis, that's why I'm here, just to learn. I don't drink. I pray you continue your journey. My husband had a binge drinking problem, but has been doing great now for 5 months. My husband was like you. He drank alone, he drank as long as there was beer around. It is rough on a relationship. I know ppl that drink Natural Ice. 🤮🤮🤮🤮
Hey zilly!! It’s good to hear from you! 🙏 hope you are doing well. I’m sorry to hear about your sister, that really sucks 😓.
Congratulations to your husband tho!! That is incredible!!!! I hope he stays on that path I wish him nothing but the best.
And yea don’t even get me started on natural ice 🤢🤢. Thanks zilly have a great day!
Yo bro I’m 72 hours couldn’t fall asleep in withdrawals what to do
Try taking a warm shower my friend, turn the lights off and just sit in your shower. It always helped me sleep while In withdrawal. Also melatonin can help. Try to avoid caffeine, drink TONS of water and eat healthy! Get some B vitamins they are crucial for withdrawal. You are hopefully on the tail end of it my friend so please keep hanging in there!!! You’ve got this! 🙏
Hey User-gn! I hope you're feeling better than yesterday...I'm sending you tons if prayers and warm thoughts. You've got this! Know that you have friends who are thinking about you!! ❤
@@amandaflaherty7528 yo Broski,did well,detoxed at home with good food lots of water and hours in hot shower,was just nightmares Ofc,rn feeling much much better dude,gf coming to visit me so that’s really makes me feel even better, thank you for asking :)
Great video!
Thanks angel 😄, glad you enjoyed it 🙏
Hey Slayer 👋🏻 good to see you ! Was looking forward to your video.. great information! Slayer you are so right about lying on your stomach and not leaning backwards? My husband works in surgery at the hospital he has told me about some of the lumbar cases that he has done ✅ to remove a full lung 🫁 or partial lung. Some from drug addiction and or alcohol… crazy stuff!!! Great information 🙏❤️🩹 thanks again Slayer
Thanks so much Jackie!!! 🙏 also what?? That is crazy, but it doesn’t surprise me. The more I look into alcohol the more I realize that it’s just bad for every single part of your body. Even parts you wouldn’t think it would affect it does!! Just not worth rolling the dice we our health like that.
@@Slayer-7373 most from passing out & 🤮 vomiting while sleeping. Especially if they don’t wake up? They aspirate goes into their lungs 🫁
@@user-dp1gz1vo2j wow… what a horrible way to go.
You can do it, you are capable! One day you’ll look back at how far you’ve come and be proud of yourself!
Thank you Khadija 🙂, I needed to hear this 🙏
What I was going through was madness with my network and my CPU but I’m back. You’re looking good, man. Fucking hackers, man.
The road is crazy isn’t it? 😅
I was just like you at 3:29. That never wore off. Enough was NEVER enough.
Shit, and Natty Ice? Yup. Been there.
Drinking alone: i thought i was sensible, not some wreckless party animal drinker, but i could spend the day (pandemic especially) nursing a whole jug of booze,by myself,talking on the phone (the worst!), and then wondering where'd the whole jug go?
Very relatable Craig, I was doing the same around the pandemic… it was not pretty. I’m glad we are both doing better my friend.
Thank you for your channel! I think if you grow up around addicted people, you just don't have the aversion to it that so called normal people do. Some of my favorite people are former or current addicts. Good people, they just lost their way for awhile.
Hey angela 👋 thank you for the comment!! Also I 100% agree with that. I’ve met some truly amazing people in the rooms of recovery and even on this channel, it’s beautiful.
ye, man really relate to what your saying about being alone, if you said to me you can be high as a kite in a room by yourself with music, how long till you get bored? if i got the right drugs then never until the crash
Yup exactly, drugs and alcohol make boring stuff super fun. Definitely leaves you feeling content with less. Good to hear from you brother, hope all is well! 🙏
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1 month sober and just broke it right now but 1 month was a long journey for me and its hard to stay clean I hope yall are doing okay out there
Hey a month is amazing my friend!! It shows you can do it!! Try for two months this time, never stop trying!!! Good luck and keep me updated! 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 yeah for sure. Appreciate your videos. 1 month felt a lot better than in the depths of hell daily
@@sneakysquirrel4253 thanks 😁, it’s awesome that these videos are helping people, making them help me as well. Also yea 100% it’s so much better!!! A lot of the times you don’t realize that life ain’t so bad till you do relapse and everything gets super bad, then you look back and you’re like “wtf was I thinking?!” It’s never worth it but our alcoholic brains always somehow convince us it is. That’s why we are out here trying to break the cycle, much love!! Take care 🙏 💯
Hi Slayer, it's me again, I'm on day 2 :) I'm not going back. I know I'm gonna make it. I've surrendered to God cause I want to live after what I told you happen and I can't take this opportunity of STILL being alive after at death in my eyes, I cant take this chance for granted. I would've been gone a long 2 years ago. Death made peace with life in my situation and it gave me a chance to actually be grateful to listening to your videos. I can't wait for how much better I feel after the next day and the next and I focus on delerium tremens and the terrible seizure I had that almost ended me and by the grace of God I was sober for 4 days that one time but something felt off, is like an aura or déjà vu which is weird explain, it was like I had been there before but how would I know if that had never happened before. Is hard to explain all I remember I felt weird but I didn't know exactly what, just some sort of electrical noise in my brain and my left arm had been going numb on and off and I have had that happen before from pure stress (this was when I would rarely drink about 6 years ago) i called someone and they brought to the ER cause I needed fluids in me with vitamins and in the waiting room after 2 hours I remember seeing flashing lights like lightnings going on and off, like a camara shooting every nano second then it all went black. I don't want to even know had I not been taken to the ER or DRIVEN myself I probably wouldn't be here. God is great! If anyone reads this, LISTEN to your body cause more than likely if the case is that you're an alcoholic there probably is something wrong about to happe. I pray for you all. Thanks again slay. You're strong and I'm happy that you're here to make these videos. And for all the people atruggling with this, even if you don't have someone to care for you and having to battle this on my own, you have people like slay ;) God bless you all.
I meant to say I don't focus on delirium tremens or the hallucinations or the grand mal epileptic attack. Not sure why phone wont let me edit. The brain IS powerful, concentrate on the good, ths positive, say a prayer when the urges come or take a walk, dip your face in cold water AND be GREATFUL we're still here.
This is amazing congrats on your sober journey. I’m glad you are here with us 🙂 slayer is a really cool guy
@@jeff67788how are you doing? I hope you're well on your journey as well, we're all here for support. It does help. And congratulations to YOU as well and be proud.
Nidia!!!!! 🙏🖤 I’m so proud of you!!!! You are doing the absolute best thing for yourself. You are taking your life back!!!! Also I’ve had something almost identical happen to me. I thought I was having a stroke!!! The doctors told me I was completely malnourished. Alcohol is not only dangerous mentally/spiritually, it’s also extremely physically dangerous as well. We are much better off away from that poison!!!!! You are doing amazing, keep me updated please and be safe!!! Much love. 🙏
I will for sure let you know, I'll wait for your next video and look at you, you almost have 1k subacribers, that's awesome! Don't forget about us when you make it ever further 😊
Your a sigma man!!!! Strong
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Thank you my friend.
I had an empty 40 of natural ice one time in my fridge along with other half drinking beer cans and poured the cans into that bottle, and i do have to agree natty ice is nasty, and i heard somewhere that it has formaldehyde in it
I believe it lol.
I’m starting to feel like I do have a drinking problem. I’m talking 3-4 day binges and I have it worse it’s not just a normal hangover. My face gets so red and I get some form of roscea, face tight and red, hives, can’t sleep. I had a panic attack last night And I know I’m better than that I know I’m 100% responsible for my actions but I definitely need to stay away from certain ppl and environments. I even lost my job but I’m starting somewhere new soon. It’s always when I go back to my hometown. I never have a drinking problem at my new residence.
Hey Paris it almost sounds like it’s one of those old places=old habits type of thing. Now that it’s not just a hangover that means you’ve entered the withdrawal territory. Please be safe, eat healthy, drink plenty of water and slowly start to cut alcohol out of your life because TRUST me it comes back around.
Much love, please keep me updated 🙏🖤
Going to be another friday without binge for me.
Absolutely epic my friend, congratulations. I personally know how hard it is to even cut back, you are reclaiming your life again. Keep it up ! 💪
Amazing job, Rarest!! 🎉🎊❤ You've got this and you should be so proud of yourself!!! Have a great weekend ❤
I need someone sober to talk to so bad
I’m here to talk, what’s going on??
@@Slayer-7373 thank you so much....him only 4 days sober and it's so hard..... especially now my daughter is getting ready to have a new baby and my son graduates high school today....me and my kids have always so close but today my son told me he was proud of me for trying to quit but that he was still upset with me and wont let me go to his graduation because of the fact that he can't trust me to quit yet.....im devastated over it....this is his last milestone and in not able to be there.....
Im devastated....im only 4 days sober and my youngest son graduates today and he said he doesn't want me to go......just devastated
Where are you going Mary??
What do you mean?
@@maryangel2701 you said your son said he doesn’t want you to go, where is he going I’m sorry ?
His high school graduation....and then e2 months he leaves for the military
@@maryangel2701 oh :( I’m sorry to hear that. I’d spend the most time that you can with him, stay sober for him!! 🙏
How’d you become chill like that?
Bro I’ve been taking notes from you, you just never knew it. ;) 💯 thanks man.
What happened to your previous video?
Will be up today 🙏
Did your kidneys ever hurt for days ?
Liver, kidneys and other organs would sometimes hurt for days. If it continues I’d definitely go see a doctor my friend. 🙏
@@Slayer-7373 I did everything seems fine how many days did it hurt for ?
@@WyzszaKalibracjaPerspektyw the longest ever was probably a week.
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