Life Story of Sexual Abuse, Self-Harm, Suicide -- Garret Rapp of The Color Morale
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 14 ธ.ค. 2014
- Garret Rapp of the Color Morale shares his story. A past that involved sexual abuse, abandonment, bullying, bulimia, and self-harm. His goal in life now is helping others find hope and healing through his music and conversations beyond the merch table.
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"While there are many that have it way worse than us, there are also those who have it the exact same as us." Man this dude speaks real talk. Respect,.
I was sexually abused when I was 13 which led to self harm, depression, etc, but i dont self harm anymore, i've been clean for 6 years now
Same here I was sexually abyss to at 13 and I started to self harm and starve myself or eat a lot I mist school a lot and I became suicidal and I was almost two months clean but I had to ruin that last night I am 16 niw
@Jessica Suzanne I'm sorry to hear you were hurt and struggled with the pain they left behind. I too was sexually abused from 2 to 16. I flip back n forth from various kinds of self harm to managing back to self harm. I commend you for staying so strong and finding other ways to deal with your pain. I will go a month sometimes 2 and then it hurts so bad and I need a quick relief from it that I only get from cutting. Then the shame for giving in to it.. I hope one day I can be like you and have years between me and my last self harm. Thank you for sharing
I met him the other night, and honesty he was the nicest person. I told him about how his music stopped me from making stupid decisions and saved me from depression and he looked at me in the eye and said "Thank you, that means the world to us." He then asked me what my favorite band was and when I went "you guys" he looked taken aback and smiled from ear to ear. He's such a genuine person, I'm glad to have him as a role model:-)
Awh! I hope I can meet him some day!
+Joseph Perry Them, as well as Whitechapel, will be on Warped Tour this year!
I met him too actually, not even with the band. He was just chilling with a tent and he was just having a normal conversation with me, and a guy went "he's in that cd" and I looked at it because I al sways listened todo them but never payed attention to the members and I told him I loved his band and he was so excited and genuinely happy and so sweet!! He signed it for me and he was the nicest guy ever.
I'm so glad I found this. I've been a fan of The Color Morale for years, but I didn't realize the extent of what Garret has battled. I can relate to a lot of what he brought up- I fight demons and depression everyday, but thanks to him I know hope. I really respect him and am so proud of him and what he's chosen to do. This band has helped me grow and heal. Forever in debt to them.
He's a brave guy to be so open and honest. Very inspirational.
This man is very brave and courageous and most of all an inspiration
I don't know if he was having a rough night, but I got the chance to talk to him for a few minutes after a set once a couple of years ago. I didn't have any money, but I waited my turn in line, and asked if I could shake his hand. I told him TCM never "saved my life", but their lyrics helped me to articulate and to process a lot of difficult emotions, and that I was thankful. He shook my hand, took a poster off of the table, signed, and wrote on it, "Thank you for saving my life."
I think the reason I connect with TCM is because it's mutual. I feel like I mean as much to Garrett as he does to me. Whether or not that is actually true is irrelevant, because that connection was made that day. I'll be a fan of TCM for life.
Garret is someone i want to meet one day.
he's fucking brave and open with everything. I love him.
I'm grateful you shared so openly your pain. It's not easy. I to was abandoned over and over sexually abused from 2 to 16. And many other forms of abuse. We are taught at an early age to lie. We cant tell we have to wear a mask and pretend we are kids. The shame that weighs you down with abuse and lying thru fake smiles I respect you at a very deep level for holding your pain in a truthful way but not letting it defeat you. I'm struggling now with letting go n catching the bus. I flip back n forth thru out my life with various forms of self harm and eating issues. First suicide attempt was at 9. I have flashbacks n complex PTSD issues. Yet everyone expects me to push it all aside n like when I was a child wear a mask do what's expected of me now as an adult n pretend the pain isnt there. I dont really want to die. I just wish I had a different life. That I wasnt me. The pain gets suffocating and I just want it to stop. The trolls out there that like to cyberbully make it worse. I have no family or friends for support and struggle now if catching the bus just is just really for the best. Then theres no more pain. No more struggling with fake smiles to give everyone what they want and need. I appreciate your truth. I wish I had that strength that you're showing. It's not easy. You n anyone else abused most of their life will understand... truth isnt second nature.. not when you had to lie your whole life and it wasnt even your choice.. you grow up feeling like you're one big lie. Because that's what you had to do to survive. Especially if your abuser said they would kill you if you told. My heart goes out to you for everything you've been thru and that you've found a way to be your true self and not let the pain crush you.
To take all the horrible experiences that Garrett has gone through, and turn that into positive motivation to help others......man that takes a lot courage and strength to do that, a lot of people would buckle under all that pressure. I think that's why I'm such a fan of The Color Morale. It's in the dark times where we truly see people for who they are, and Garrett is one of the shining lights of hope at the end of the tunnel, guiding you to be the person you can truly be.
Will always respect this guy
He looks so broken. I'm crying.
His honesty is heroic. And to have the strength to push forward makes him a badass.
Made me cry so much that he opened up. One day I would love to meet him and tell him thank you for everything. He truly is an inspiration. :')
How could anybody dislike this video, truly inspiring
Garrett is one of the best people I've ever met. Such an honest genuine guy. Talking to him has inspired me so much to just live my life to the fullest and push past what the demons I've dealt with throughout my life.
ive never taken a listen to the color morale, but this made me cry; i really do feel for this man. i really hope he is happy and better now; he really deserves it 💜
this man continues to be my hero. thank you garret
Garret Rapp is a guardian angel.
Garret you're a hero man. Thank you for being who you are.
cannot WAIT for TCM 2024!!! i remember watching the vid when I was 14 and going through some abuse and gosh he was like an anchor. still hits the same 6 years on
I respect him more then anyone
its so good to hear somebody else going through some of the things youve gone through. strong as fuck of him to lay it all out like that.
I had the pleasure of meeting him and he couldn't be more lovely. This brought tears to my eyes but my god, thank you garret. Also what is the song playing at the beginning, sounds so beautiful
Hi :) The song is "The Ones Forgotten by the One Forgetting", on the Color Morale's new album Hold On Pain Ends. Hope that helps. it's an awesome song, my favorite :)
This video has helped me beyond belief. It feels good to know that someone understands. I fully support the color morale and Garrett and everyone else in need.
+Garrett rapp thank you so much for this! It hits home pretty hard.. So thank you.
You have been a huge part of my battle with depression, etc. you are an awesome person too. So again thank you for this and thank you for everything you do.
Also shout out to +heart support for all these videos and everything else you guys do
Sexual abuse in my life started at the age of 6.My father molested me and told me he did it bc he loved me..this effected me my whole life..not knowing who I was as a person or feeling constant dirtiness..never clean enough..I was always told I was ugly and fat and I would never amount to anything..this also came from family members but now I have the Lord in my life..he took all my shame..anger and emptiness away..don't get me wrong I still struggle on a daily basis with who I am and what I'm about...god sais he would never leave us or give us too much we can't handle...I just lost a friend yesterday and my mind has been bad..thoughts of not belonging or people laughing at me..but you know what..music and my strength with god has gotten me real far in life..my friends stabbed me in the back and left and some stayed all bc I have changed for the better..I don't understand that if they truly cared..they would support me but God said..take up the cross and follow me no matter what and I will give you salvation and all you ask for in my name.My Lord gave me the kingdom to inherit and to bring his elect together to share the word of peace and hope..There will always be someone out there with negativity but we were once slaves bound by our own selves..following the worldly things...I am no longer of this world..for I am a new being of light..I walk with those who have purpous...may God use this to heal or touch someone going through the same things in Jesus name.
Holy cow, Uriel, this is incredible. Thank you so much for sharing your story -- I am in awe of how much you have overcome. I'm so sorry that you faced those things in your past, and I'm so thankful that God has brought and is continuing to bring healing to the broken place inside of you. I pray that He'd continue to restore you -- He promises that because He foreknew you, He also predestined you to be conformed to the image of Christ....His purity, His righteousness, His joy, His union with the Father, His light, His love, His ease, His delight....how amazing that we have these promises to hold on to even when our past tells us that we will be nothing, that we are disgusting and are too far gone....so grateful for the transformation in your life and the inspiration that's coming from it!
@@HeartSupport thank you for your kind and thoughtful words..truly I say if it wasn't for the Lord I wouldn't be here today..but knowing god is fighting our every battle..that alone gets me through the day and as of being a single parent with grandkids I am talking with my kids about the dangers and signs of things such as the stuff we had went through..as a mother I'm very protective and I pray constantly to keep my family safe bc there is so much affliction and sickness within lots of people..I just hope and pray that the Lord will heal and change those who are hurting even the ones who have hurt us...my father I have forgiven him and now he is a paster...amen..people look at me and think..how could you forgive like that...I say bc god has forgiven me of all my sins as well and gave his only son for me..died in my place to have a second chance..I believe he can give all a second glance..godbless you and may the peace of God cover you and your family.
This man is one of my idols
Garrett is such an inspiration and there music helps with some much I would love to meet him but I think I would cry
Love him so much!
I remember him with long hair
This one hit home way to hard especially the sexual abuse i was also molested 5-12 Alot of this made me think i don't feel as lonely
I've met him at warped tour Connecticut
Oh wow. I never knew this. Crazy shit, people can fuck children up like that.
Song in the intro?
Dat Myrono The Ones Forgotten by The Ones Forgetting
Nice Meme Thanks