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Fellow dreamscape. I thank you.
Hey brudda, just wanted to ask if I could use this beat for a song bro? Please let me know what the conditions would be 🙏🏽appreciate you fam
@Darkkub much love bro keep moving and trying to connect with people ❤️
What is this genre called?
matthew 11 28
now i can imagine sitting on a rooftop under the stars with the person i'm in love with, holding hands, listening to each other's breathing. thank you
Like that's ever gonna happen : /
@@OnlyMisery Was that necessary? Don't be a prick
@@Shakera... you didn't get that Shrek reference .
@@OnlyMisery Oh my bad, out of context it sounds horrible tho so don't blame me😅
I wish I could imagine it :(
It’s interesting to see everyone’s different moods while listening to this, it’s also interesting to see how many of us young ppl are so depressed and tired but hide it everyday
Literally I’m going through this comments and crying because when are we gonna be able to be happy again ? .
I think the music just makes me think about depressing things that don’t really bother me until I listen to frequencies like this one that target certain parts of the brain, but I go to sleep to this it does make me feel less alone in a way it’s crazy who ever made this knew what they were doing
@@xomnipresent8913 ye its interesting i agree with how it makes you feel less alone
@@jamalmhmd8292 we'll be okay.
@@jamalmhmd8292 We are here for you man. :)
This reminds me how much I hate getting close to people because it’s so euphoric at first and then it’s temporary. Like everything that once gave you light disappears eventually.
I get that feeling especially if you love and care harder than others. You’ll find that person eventually, who you can have forever and open up to.
felt this :/
@@ASE_Avenue that has happened to me so many times.
Been going through that feeling after I thought I met the one hopefully she thinks of me 😞💔
@@ASE_Avenue I'm that dumb dude who love too much. The girl i was with broke up with me ( as a lot already did) on July 4. I wish we could still be together ; i loved her so much and i'd never felt that good with someone.
I know i should move on; but i cant. I love that girl too much and i just cant stop not loving her. I cant forget her and i cant stop loving her. I Hope i could either find a girl that could love me the same as i love her; or either stop loving that much, not being too sad 'cause of the end of our relation. I cant.
I just lost my dad on 2022-07-25. No one wants to loose their dad on the age of 22. I am devastated. This song calms my body and my mind.
I am afraid of that day, but I have to be ready to lose my parents cause they just can't live forever(
Much encouragement from my side of the world, I sincerely hope that you are feeling better. 💗
Im sorry my guy * hugs u *
I am very sorry for your loss. I am glad on your behalf, that you've found some comfort through this music. I hope comfort will continue to surround you. Much love to you.
I lost my dad at the age of 6 but i didnt even know that he was my father at that time
I lost my parents within a year of each other when I was 15 and I don't have any other family. I don't connect well with people and I'm not a very interesting person. I love music like this because it sounds like how I feel on the inside. Just kind of soft, empty, echoey. The whispered "I can fix that" is so dark yet comforting to me.
Edit 6 months after original posting: Hi everyone, I'm super appreciative of all your beautiful messages. I would just like to point out I'm not in any danger of self harming. I'm 25 now, I have a great career, I'm happy and have coped with these losses. Thanks so much for all of your concern, makes me believe there are still kind people in the world.
keep going, ganbatte!
What you think makes you uninteresting may be the thing that makes you interesting to someone else. I'm sorry for what happened. Keep your head up, and be strong, let time heal. Much LUVV!
i'm sorry you had to go through loss too. it hurts. i lost both my bsf (1 of them at least) and my father in a span of 2 months. i thought this would be a good summer, but ig not. now i feel lonely, but i am glad there are other ppl who knows what if feels like (not saying that i'm glad that you lost loved ones, just glad that i can relate). my family is getting tiring. i cant wait for school because i feel like that's the only way i can get away from all of this. um yeah sorry for ranting, prolly shouldn't have ranted, i hope you're doing okay, drinking enough water, eating enough food, and doing whatever else makes you feel happy! :D keep going
Oh no ! Always here to listen to you. If you want to talk/vent ! I'm here ❤️
You ARE an interesting person.
Don’t you hate it, when you can’t even remember what the problem was? That in itself makes me even more depressed
yeah.. the worst feeling. not understanding whats wrong. but you'll find out whats wrong when it happens
bruh.. this comment slapped my soul rn
@@yunngromeo6107 same bro . we'll be okay .. i know it ..
Try writing it. Writing your thoughts somewhere until you finish. After some time when you start to feel better and ready to confront it, to try and solve it, then you read it. I've been doing it.
most of ur problems are just misunderstandings thru time.
i just feel so alone. i can be in a room with 40 ppl and still feel isolated i never felt this way before
u okay bro ?
I honestly understand how you feel. I just feel nobody understands me and that’s why I isolate myself from everyone
@@myabrook2426 same bro I just want everything to be over
Same yo I can't even sit in a room of 3 ppl around me and still feel the same
I used to feel like that but then I got to know god
I lost my mom around 3-4 months ago at the age of 16. We fought constantly because she was severely and untreatably mentally ill. This lead to her ending her life, and I had to hold her hand while she went. I hadn't come to peace with how I felt with her and I don't feel like I ever got to apologize properly. Now, I lay here in bed and cry to this song, thinking about how I will never get to see my mom again and she will not get to see me grow up. I wish that I got the time to make things right, to apologize. I wish I didn't fight with her all the time and that we could've been happier. This music helps me bring shape to my emotions and for that I truly thank you. To everyone who reads this, make sure that you're happy with how you end every encounter with a person, because you never know if that's going to be the last time you ever see them. I love you all and thank you for reading my pain.
Damn you maid me cry when i dont cry no more damn
I lost my mom when I was 6, around 8 to 9 years ago and I still miss her to this day.
❤❤❤❤
I love my mom so much and I don't know what I'd do without her. She's the light of my life. So is my dad. Without them, idk what I'd do. I terribly love them. I can never imagine losing either of them. And honestly, when we argue I'm really annoyed. But after a while I realise that I should always keep loving them, I should always let them know how much I actually love them. I always regret after arguing.
I hope you're all doing great, and I'm sure your mums would be proud of how you've all grown! She must be happy that you came over all these hard times, and have grown into a great child. You deserve all the love ♥️
I hope you're okay :') And if you're not, I hope you hold on until it gets better
It's 4am and i'm laying in bed trying to fall back asleep. This is calming me down and reading the comments is making me realize i'm not the only person in the world who feels lonely all the time. Glad i found this.
Hope you are doing better 8months later, life's a rollercoaster..
@@wetdjq for real! 😭 ty
My parents are practically disowning me. I'm thinking of going to The Marines since I see no feminity or values of knowing what it is to be sane
@@kaecake9575 Ur not alone , we love u even tho idk u , ur just loved fr
@@hadSkii thank you:)
it makes me happy but sad that theres so many ppl in the comments that feel the same way as me.
Yeah :/
Whenever you’re listening to this song, someone in the world is also at the same time.
yup
i love you
@@lawof1 i love you too
2 :48 AM, empty streets, orange... warm neon lights all around you, maybe some purple, you’re there, feeling lonely while knowing you caused that loneliness, numbness... peace? it’s raining, not too much, you feel comfortable, you lay down, there’s no fear, there’s no freedom either. feelings, too many of them, you’re confusing them with no feelings at all right? but the tear falling down your cheek doesn’t lie, tears never lie, the pressure on your chest finally releases, letting you get a storm out out of your eyes, go ahead, cry, trust me, no one will judge you, you’re not weak...
thank you, for staying here a little more, keep crying, cry until your eyes hurt or until there are no tears left, letting out a part of that ocean inside of you can ease the waves you know?
@@user-1-800-Nobody sometimes sadness feels like home, you feel like you’re one with the sadness because it’s the only one that understands you, it’s part of you, sometimes you’re one with the sadness... you gotta stop fighting with yourself yknow? don’t be so rough with that feeling... that one part that became part of you, the only part that’s always hugging you
Thank you
This is beautiful
deam bro, i really feel this shit, thank you 👌
that was painfully beautiful
The worst part about living in the place you grew up at is it’s very hard to just forget the past, especially when everywhere you go is a place where you made memories with someone you care about but those people dont care about you anymore. Nothing hurts worse than looking at a field by a school and seeing memories like ghost in the field…. Aight imma head out
And this is why it is good to leave your home town. I'm glad I didn't grow up in an awesome place because then that place would be off-limits for me now.
I get PTSD going by my old highschool. Forgotten by the majority. I always am
My hometown is mostly populated by those I've sworn to destroy if I ever see them again. So, my feelings are rather different
You get used to it in the end, I did
It's crazy how much music effects the human body in ways that most things in life wouldn't, genuinely blows my mind
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@@ok-hello ????
Thats Because that is all there really is frequency and vibration we are all just on a wave of frequency. Music is in our D.N.A. pure energy nothing more. Best thing on the planet period. Great music of any sort that takes you there. Up, down, inside out. Round and round. Music is me
@@whited5009 he's salty someone else is happy ig lmao
And it’s something we created, which adds to it even more imo
There's something about this that brings me comfort
Same! I've fallen asleep to this song many times. Kind of sad to see that it gives depressing vibes to many others here
Not sad or depressed.Just that this type of music gives me a sense of vivd imagination that i had when i was just a kid.
Wishing you all the best
That's a great explanation.
Same wish to you
Its help me to calm my anxiety
Я согласна с тобой..
don't wish me shit kid
There is so much emotion in this.
"You look lonely"
This sounds almost like a normal conversation, but there's also sympathy.
"I can fix that"
There's much love and in this, it sounds emotional.
Trying to give someone who lost all hope, hope, a reason.
The music
Sounds chill, relaxing, a bit eerie even, but not scary.
And although it is a pattern in repeat, i don't find it boring.
Instead it helps me focus on ... nothing.
It’s a pretty song. Wherever you are dude, keep going. You’re gonna make it
It sounds sensual
It’s from blade runner 2049
"I feel close with people in moments, but it disappears when I return home."
Im saving this thank you, whered it come from?
@quack thank u, you got your humor in there too cause that needed some working on
@@dandramontes5932 He has it in quotations so he's quoting someone, maybe from a movie or book.
this is exactly what I feel
Where is this from?
To the person who read this,
It’s been hard for you, I know, and it makes me sad that you don’t see yourself in the way I see you. Sometimes they are things in life that cause us to loose ourselves, and the way you have is so unimaginable painful. I miss your smile, the way your eyes light up the whole room just by the sound of your laughter. I miss the way you accepted the way you look in the mirror without cursing yourself out about how ugly you look. I miss the way you didn’t think of yourself as a failure because everyone makes mistakes, we all have flaws and we all aren’t perfect. It’s painful to see that no one around you seems to see the pain trough your eyes, but, stranger, I do, I see how heavy your heart is and how comforting the sadness for you might be, how afraid your heart is of happiness because it disappears in the end, right? You don’t know how much impact you have in this world and it’s sad to see that your demons fight against you and want to take over you. Because you do make change, it’s something so simple and little that brightens up someone’s whole world, it can be a small smile from your lips, the way you look at things you’re passionate about, the way you make yourself eat even though it’s been hard for you lately, the way you zoom out and go in your own world, you brighten up my world by reading this, it means a lot to me that you’re here, existing, but I don’t want you to just exist, you deserve to feel alive. You deserve to get up in the morning and feel good about yourself. You deserve to feel something- to feel every damn second alive in this lifetime. It’s heartbreaking that you think you’re not capable of being loved, because you are, I love you trough all my words and I hope you let it happen in your heart. Love is scary, I know, maybe you heart had been broken once and since then you wanted to be rather numb than feel ever again, it hurts me how you punish yourself, does it not deserve love? Because YOU DO deserve love, please forgive yourself, it’s not your fault that the demons want to take over your beautiful heart. You’re not a bad person for distancing yourself from others, but you deserve someone to talk to, you deserve someone to listen. I am listening, you can tell me what’s wrong. It’s everything, isn’t it? There’s something pulling your heartstrings on the ground and no one seems to understand how misunderstood you feel, it’s heartbreaking to know that I am behind the screen and can’t give you a hug, that’s why I will give you a big warm virtual hug and send you lots of love :). You matter. You are worthy. You are loved. You deserve good things. You deserve someone to listen. You deserve to eat and drink. You deserve to feel good and alive. You deserve to smile. You deserve a hug. You deserve to be all the things you want to be, because you deserve to have and feel good things happening to you and have a fulfilled life. I know I might not know you personally but I care about you so much, I write this because I want you to stay here with me, I want you to hold on a little longer because you matter so much to me, because I will not let you give up on yourself. I want you to see that you should not give up on yourself because you DESERVE GOOD THINGS. I want you to look back on the time when you were a kid, you didn’t give up when you tried to swim for the first time, you didn’t give up when you tired to walk for the first time and fell, you never gave up on yourself, you always kept on pushing forwards, so why can’t you now? I know it’s tiring, your mentally tired, but dont your younger self deserve good things? look back at your eyes that used to be full of hope, look back on those dreams. Don’t let yourself fall, you deserve better. We will both fight, I will fight for you. I won’t let those demons get to you. You can hold on to me, I won’t let you down :). Whenever you feel lonely, then look at the sky, I always look at it and think about you. Yes, you, because it makes me happy that there’s someone looking right back, maybe we can’t see each other but I can feel your presence here with me and that’s enough for me, because I am glad your heart is beating and you’re still fighting. You’re so much stronger thank you think, you didn’t leave your spot on this earth even if you wanted to, you belong here, even though it doesn’t feel like it, when you don’t feel like belonging than build your own home here, put all your love in it and dreams. Think of you as a star when you feel alone, you shine because your heart is good, no matter what mistake you made, no matter about the past you had, you’re one of the stars that shine bright in the universe because you’re heart is beautiful, that’s why the demons in your mind wants to have it. As one of the stars you see others stars, maybe they have felt the same way as you do at some point in there life, but they lighten up the universe with each other’s presence. You’re a star for me, maybe you don’t see it yourself but I can see it, you’re beautiful from inside and out, your body is beautiful the way it is. You make me happy by reading this, you make me feel something by your presence and when you can make me feel that way than you also make other people feel that way about you too. I hope you stay for yourself and don’t let your story get written by others but by yourself, it’s your story not theirs. As you can see, I say a lot of “I hope” because I have hope for you even if you don’t have it for yourself, I see hope in you even though you might want to give up. That’s why I hope you won’t see the world in darkness and will see it colorful again, I hope I will give you a glimpse of hope and make the world you see a bit colorful for today. My favorite color is yellow, and I hope the next time you see the color yellow you will think about my words. If someone left you than don’t blame yourself, don’t think you weren’t enough, don’t lower yourself for someone who couldn’t see the awesomeness in you. If you lost someone I am so sorry for your loss, they want you happy, I hope you don’t feel guilty or regret because you were there, you spend enough time with them, they want you to be happy. They are in a good and safe place now. If someone broke your heart than I am so sorry that they couldn’t see the way you look so beautiful because of the heart you have. Anyone who gets to be with you, doesn’t know how fucking lucky he/ she/ they is :). If you aren’t accepted at home or in general than I am so sorry that you have to deal with someone/ something you shouldn’t be ashamed of, I accept you and support you, I accept you as a human being no matter what race, religion, nationality, skin color, or sexuality you have. You’re safe here with me :). You’re not useless, you’re not a burden to anyone. You’re not a problem, you’re human and your feelings are valid. You’re not being dramatic. Please don’t starve yourself, you deserve food and to drink, I know it’s hard. It hurts to see that you’re in so much pain :( you deserve so much man, don’t let your emotions control you. Don’t let them get the best of you. I am sorry no one is noticing, I wish /hope I could take your pain away for today or even for a moment while you’re reading this. If no one told you, I am so proud of you, you’re reading this and it’s enough for me to be proud of you because you’re here and that’s all that matters to me. If it’s night for you, go to sleep, I know it’s hard to fall asleep right now but you deserve a good sleep. If you have nightmares, please, don’t let them fight you. If it’s day for you, don’t start it by such sad music, I know it’s impossible to have a good day with such mindset but take baby steps, start by drinking two cups of water everyday in the morning and so on.. You will start building little healthy habits. If it’s evening for you, you’re probably overwhelmed and stressed, I want you to know it’s okay to feel the way you feel. You don’t need to be scared, of course you’re overwhelmed or stressed, I mean who wouldn’t? But it’s important to know that when you feel that way you should do a little self care, such as taking a bath for example? You deserve to feel at ease and relaxed.
And if you are somewhere in between I hope you know that you’re so strong for breathing despite the pain, I know you will make it :) I believe in you. All I want for you is to stay here, I really mean all my words, even if there is a lot of unsaid things I want to tell u and my text is getting longer and longer,I want you here.
I hope one day your smile will become a genuine one where you don’t need to fake it anymore, because I can’t say this enough, you deserve a good smile and to feel alive. You’re worth more than every fucking cent in this world.
You can let go for today, I got you, you can cry your heart out as much as you want, but don’t let it tear you down and let your emotions control you by giving up. Crying is not weakness. If you still feel alone I dedicate you a song as your friend.
“Dusk till Dawn- Zayn feat. Sia (I prefer the slow version)” I hope you can think of me and will remind yourself of my words, I will for sure think of you.
In case no one told you and you’re unsure yourself, you’re a good person and I am so happy you’re here.
I hope this is enough to stay today, tomorrow will be a new day, a new start, let go now. Enough with beating yourself up for today, okay?
Life for those who couldn’t, smile for those who forgot what a genuine smile is, love like there’s no other, hug like its your last one.
If you read all of it, until tomorrow my friend :)
have a good day and great years.
I love you so much and am so proud of you, I hope you will remember my words- becho, the stranger that cares more about you than anything :)
holy shit this made my day
i needed this. thank you so much.
I actually read all that-
I'm bursting out a bunch of tears right now.. I'm actually happy because I know that there's someone out there that says that my sexuality is ok.. thank you for sending that comment.. I needed it..
you literally made me cry
Thank you
i can’t keep venting out to people who don’t even know me. but i hate venting to people who do.
I know exactly what you mean, I was thinking the same thing a while ago. Whether you're venting to people you do know or don't know, the most important thing is still the fact that you are venting in some sort of a healthy way, it's far better than not trying at all.
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same
@@SidewalkSurferPhotography people use things against u.
I remember when insomnia used to get the best of me and i lived in a nice neighborhood at the time so I’d go on 3-4 AM walks listening to music looking at the lights, the ghostly streets. It was nice.
Even though she isn’t talking to me directly, I enjoy listening to the beginning over and over again. “You look lonely.. I can fix that”. That Is what I’ve always wanted to hear someone say to me. Until then, I’ll let this song play while I drift away to sleep.
Same here, this song just makes me feel less alone.
Hope your doing okay, sending you a hug 🤗
We are the dead.
My Dad just died. This is helping me distract myself and not accept the reality that he is gone. Thank you, please keep sharing.
don’t run from reality. it always catches you. the more you run the harder it hits you when it inevitably catches up
when my mother passed i always thought: i want to skip a year to when the pain has numbed down. 3 years have passed since then and its better now. hang in there and take all your time, running away for some times is normal after trauma like this. one day, in a few years, look back and fully digest it. as i said: hang in there.
I'm so sorry... Sending you my support and love, you'll get through this, although this must hurt like hell. Keep holding on, please
Lonely, but not alone. the cover art is dark, but the streetlights are still illuminating. sorry you lost your dad. Best of luck and keep your head up, Guardian.
sorry for your loss, my turtle speedy died this morning and reading how bad everyone else's lives are makes me feel better thanks again!
Every time I listen to this song I just imagine myself alone, sitting on top of a construction crane in the middle of the night, feet dangling in the empty air below me. Listening to the cars in the distances and watching the city at night as time passes.
i wish we could do it together :)
:)
Let me join ya
yeah, after everything I have to do I’d like to join ya as well
It must be a very calm and beautiful moment my friend ❤️
“I used to think the worst thing in life was to end up all alone. It's not. The worst thing in life is ending up with people who make you feel all alone.” - Robin Williams
Dude that has to be the deepest comment I ever read. Holy Sh*t
@@saltymopho9413 I know my man, makes you think about how we take our loved ones for granted and vice versa.
Arruma um trampo pra me aí nós EUA kkkkk🇧🇷
This gives off heavy “somewhere I’d rather be” vibes
i'm not exactly sad when i listen to this. it's more of a "yearning to do something" feeling. i imagined walking on the sidewalk of a city i've never truly experienced. wandering around the hospital building or driving to see the skyline, the radio towers bunched up somewhere near.
and yet, i'm still here. in the middle of nowhere, sitting in front of a computer and looking at images from the internet.
Fight brother, nearly everything Can happend, it only need you and faith
this is exactly how i feel
i feel like time and my life is just slipping away and all i can do is watch
@@tysonlennard2213 same. it's tiring.
This is really weird because you explained this in a way I just couldn’t and I relate. Thanks.
Do you ever feel so lonely that you wanna open up to someone but no ones there to listen to you or interested, and you can't do anything, you feel like slowly freezing and think that you just have to hide your emotions since no one cares. Honestly, i just need a single hug, it would help me so much:(
I understand exactly how you feel.
* hug *
A lil tip: ur not alone ^^
@@ash3te tysm
just trust meh you not alone you just have to think about everyone else hiding there problems too there just good at it don't worry you're not alone we in this world together :)
Here's a virtual hug ♡ \(•-•)/ ♡
I can somewhat relate to this. Whenever I do get a hug, it needs to be one that means something. A genuine hug, that holds true love and care behind it
You know whats the worst? Being constantly surrounded by people, yet still feeling that loneliness;
Like everyone knows you, but nobody really understands you ,you know? :/
I know exactly what you mean. I'm 55 and I have this feeling my whole life. I think I should bring it to an end someday.
@@a.w.1906dude if you're thinking of giving up you've lived 55 years don't stop know see this through and maybe just maybe you'll find something that stops you feeling like this
Same.
@@a.w.1906dont do that. Live, endure, forgive and do your best to smile. You may not get what you want, but your life is necessary and there is someone who needs you.
@@huepocalypsenow8672Thank you so much. 😢
But look around, there will be war. The Muslims worldwide call for war against all Jews and their supporting Countrys.. Tomorrow after the Friday prayer it shall start.
It's really strange how you can miss a person that you loved so much and in one day it's all gone, when you thought that you will be forever together.
And after 2 years you're lying in your bed, listening to this music and and thinking about her the whole night. Imagining how your life would be if she was still around. How happy we both could be...
And then you wake up to the sad reality, wanting to go back in that fantasy world.
Waiting till the night is gonna hit again so you could listen to this kinda of music and thinking about her again...
Man, don’t give up! You are awesome. Maybe it’s god’s will and you will find somebody else who waits you around the corner.
@@lilhelmis93 🤦🏽♂️ don't bring religion into this it just ruins it 😐
@@lilhelmis93 yeah bro. I believe it as well that somewhere someone is waiting for me but thx for the support man!
I appreciate and sorry for a late response
@@i.am.ronin. don't worry bro. For me myself I don't know what to believe if there's a God or not.
Sometimes you feel better if you think that it's God's will.
i'm currently like this.... never though i'd be so heartbroken.... one day is all it took to lose something that was meant to be forever.... i hope we all get better soon.... look back at these moments and laugh... like always
it takes videos like these to realize that you’re not the only one that feels this way. thinking that you’re one step ahead, thinking that life around you just gets better and worst at the same time, overthinking every possibility, every outcome, every way you can imagine to avoid your past mistakes, but still try to live in the past because back then things probably weren’t as complicated as they are now. All these comments i read it just goes to show that this world is so big that many times people like us don’t get much recognition, hence why we feel alone, but that’s only part of the reason, until we see a movie, hear music, or listen to a speech to get us back on track. Truly it’s nice to know we’re not really alone in this train, i like to think of it as we’re born to be in between life, knowing right and wrong, but even so, we decide to stay in between, we’ve probably hurt people unintentionally in the past, so we learn to be careful with what we say and do. People that got too cozy with us but in the end we got backstabbed and took our feelings and just crushed them has taught us to be careful with who we’re with, and what we share to them. It’s good to meet others, establish relationships, have friends, share with families, be polite, and actually care, but there’ll always be something or someone that will take what’s good from us. I’m sure you all know by now that this world isn’t fair, and that it probably won’t change, and won’t go back to the way it used to be, all we can do is move forward, keep our thoughts to ourselves, or share them with a true friend, and just be in between life, everyone is unique in their own way, and as humans we’re all the same, but for us…i think we’re just special. Thank you for reading through all of this, and your time, and don’t forget your not really alone, don’t see death as a solution, it’s just another problem really, stay strong, we’ll get through this, stay safe out there.
🙏
Life consists of two things, pain and memories. The pain is what lingers and the happiness is what fades into memories. this song does a good job bringing both into the picture.
Wow the depth of realisation in this comment, thanks for sharing
And, there are no happy endings
There’s more to life ❤
I listen to this while I do my shopping, travel to work, doing my studies, while I'm taking care of my skin in the bathroom & even while I sleep. This song, snowfall & after dark have seemed to become the background soundtrack to my life. Shows you how many people I interact with really, doesn't it. Gotta keep going, can't give up.
Can we all meet some day? All the lonely people at one place with a beautiful taste in music, what a day it would be when we would rejoice together, when we would find each other.
Isn't it ironic? You can easily find every lonelly man or woman in this planet by just logging in the internet, it seems that would just take two lonelly people and make them meet togheter to stop the pain, fully mutual beneficial with little to no cost, but somehow that does not happen. I begin to think that loners are like so because they are broken, faulty or self-loathing, and not because they need someone else
@@Red-qz4lx Everyone's broken faulty and self loathing, no one really 'needs' someone, no one can fix anyone, it's just us.
Repeating the same story to ourselves because we've been in it for too long we don't want to leave the story. Change is the unknown.
It feels good to share the journey of the unknown with someone not because you need them but because that'll give us both strenght to push forward rather than stay in our old stories.
Once we *decide* we're "ready" for change that's when it all changes.
We ought to start a group: "Introverts Anonymous"
Rules are we all wear masks to provide anonymity and only bring people in from comment sections and other digital spaces like this.
Oh wait, nobody would show up lol 🤣
This made me smile
You would keep to yourselves. Lonely people love to talk of socializing, and never do it.
Whoever made this I love you forever🥺
Last night, i was almost blackout drunk alone sittin in a bench on a empty park, this song begin to play as i took the last sip of beer and for a moment i felt truly at peace
Where you at now man
@@aguy9893 nothing has changed much, thankfully my compulsive drinking has subsided. ive had some ups and downs, in the end its all about what you do with your time here, i no longer feel bad for being lonely, its all about enjoying the little things in life
@@cryinghuman2964 what would you say is your generally happiest moment now
@@cryinghuman2964 like what makes you happy that you do on a regular
Dang I kinda want to get black out drunk on a bench too lol
I'm completely spiralling out of control while listening to this. I've been completely bawling my eyes out for an hour.
Tears are a teacher. I'm happy for you; it meant those tears needed to come. Maybe there was a lesson, regardless of whether it seemed like there was a lesson.
There is hope my friend. Jesus is a living solution to our brokenheartedness today. “Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” - I speak from experience, there is NO peace like the peace our saviour gives you!
careful sharing your emotions on the internet without some trolls calling you "soft" or "pussy"
@@AjitTheUndefeatabledefinitely correct!
You're welcome.
:)
:D
*your
@@dracomalfoy1627 lol, it’s you’re (you are)
♥️
This piece gives me a really odd feeling especially during the summer, when it's not too hot but just warm and I lie down on the floor by an open, sunny window. The feeling of the cool air mingling with warm skin is just... ethereal. And then the sky looks like dark cherry juice at the bottom of a cup that hasn't mixed in with the orange juice above. It's strange. It makes me feel like the world is going to end but I'll still be here afterwards.
Why does it hurt whenever I see people being in a relationship? I hear so many fun stories from my friends, talking about their partners and their silly little quirks. The days they spend together, how happy they all look when talking about their lives.
I know I should be happy for them, but I can’t help but feel jealous. Living in a household where a loved one is slowly losing her memory; only to be yelled at by my father. Most I can do is lie in my bed and just wish that I could just leave. But I can’t.
I want to feel happy again; I want to feel that love that my friends feel about their partners. I want to be free. But I just feel so alone, stuck pretending that everything is okay when I just want to cry.
sorry, duck! I feel You (pleadingfaceemoji)
i felt the same a time ago but now i live like something has died inside me
I feel that, I can't help but hate hearing my friends talk about the girls they hook up with and how much fun they have every weekend going to out to bars. Meanwhile Im too afraid to go out with them because I'm afraid of standing out and I hate the way I look. I'm slowly drifting apart with the 2 friends I have. I feel like once my parents pass away there's really nothing else for me here.
I miss my homies, every since Covid hit and since we all graduated we all been busy working or doing college, I hardly see them anymore and I just feel like we are losing connection with each other and that shit breaks me, I feel alone and it sucks.
Welcome to life homie where everyone leaves you in the end.
🙁
Covid rlly did effect our friendships and effects on homies:/ I feel you..
bro same, ion even have friends anymore. I feel you
@@zpdx all I ask for is someone to be by my side no matter the situation..
The mix from the music and the comments it's what makes us have hope
How is this so depressing and relaxing at the same time?
"you can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness"
"Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest."
Matthew 11:28
Amen 🙌
Amen to that brother🙏🏼
Amen
I recently started realizing the feeling of loneliness I've been living since my childhood
İt hits hard makes me even more insecure about myself makes me hopeless
And tryin to socialize with people doesn't help especially people my age can be rude and cruel or neglectful
People might not see/ understand what others go through and that's fine because no one really knows what's going on others minds
Some people feel the same things and that makes them bond
But I'm starting to lose my hope of finding that person or friend group in my life
This background. . . The thick fog and a winters walk to school at 4-5 AM in the morning gives me nostalgia.
I’ve only been listening to the same few songs on repeat, got tired of them but i couldn’t stop listening... finally... i found a new song to add to that collection.
Every time I listen to this track I can’t stop reading the comments.. I can’t understand how ppl here are so close.. We’re strangers but we’re friends,family and partners here .. We’ve got our familia here .. World isn’t good enough but we’re.
I feel... empty. What's wrong with me? I don't recognize myself anymore.. I used to be different. Hell I don't even remember how I was before.. everything. Gray. That's all I see around me. There's no light, no colors, no life. Where am I? How am I? Who am I? Is this truly who i am? Or is this just a consequence of my past?
People keep asking us: "how are you?" This daily question has become so common that people don't give it much thought, even though they really don't care how you're doing, they're just waiting for you to ask them so they can brag about their egoistic selves. So when they do ask you, what do you answer?
I'm in the middle of the society. I look around. It's too fast.. I can't keep up. Then I look up, at the night sky. The only place where it seems like time stops completely. I'm stuck. I don't want to go back down. I want to be lost. Lost in the mysteriously beautiful black infinite. Alone...
No matter what you do or say, life won’t always be interesting. And you may think death will sooth you. But it will not. You may or may not have friends. You may or may not have a family who loves you, but bro. I love you, even if your across the fucken world, even if your some random stranger, know I’m proud of you for breathing my guy, your getting through it, so keep going bro.
@@rumrummy thanks man, that was real heart warming, hope you're living the life as you want and keep it up, love ya too bro
Learn what you are , you are not your story, your not the story you tell yourself, the one that plays on repeat of your past mistakes, regrets, misery and confusion , you are here now and you should be content as you are, but your mind is plagued - detach from who you think you are and and be mindful of where your mind wanders. Move with your inner compass guiding you , your capable of introspection, your capable of loving yourself, being kind to yourself , allowing yourself to feel and fully understand yourself, people are kind and and everyone’s situation unique. See the good in yourself and it will allow you to see it in others to break that shell and open up
-idk who would need to hear this but, this is apart of my journey and I’ve just come out of dark times that started since i can remember, your not alone 🙏❤️
That's how I feel my therapist has no idea what that feeling is never will I understand. I think it's part of growing up it may hit people at an early age. I'm very into the old ways some of the things I compare to the old days to now is sad because there was something love and comfortable that the old generation had. If you look at the current generation. We have no values or something to keep like family orchard or teach to communities. Generation Y and Z lost their purpose of being a human.
i can feel myself losing. losing the trust and hope of others and i hate it
I hate myself for it
I can feel myself losing the battle of life at a certain point in every long war you forget what your fighting for. I feel like I’ve lost mine. My purpose to keep on keeping on.
Only you can stay strong. Keep that fire burning within you, no matter who or what tries to put it out.
Fck other’s, focus on yourself
It’s such a horrible feeling because it’s reality.
Hi sorry for Interrupting your scrolling to anyone who has suicidal thoughts this year,
thank you from the bottom of my heart for sticking around. I know things have been hard.
They may be still hard. But I'm so proud of you and I'm so glad you're still here🥺❤
Thank you. It is really comforting.
I listened to this song on repeat when my depression started, and now this song has an odd comfort to it. It makes me incredibly sad, but it also makes me so happy and weirdly nostalgic
Don't promise me something too good to be true, at the very least you could just sit next to me while we look up at the stars, dreadfully knowing that neither you or me will make it up there but its still something that exists, somewhere id rather be, than here.
bad moments go away to your mind end everything go to be fine again. the moon is beautiful is it?
@@feartalws9128 it always has been :,)
@@jessicahow poor jess, i think you have happy memories but don't remember well. but, i'm here for you
This song gives me the vibes of the process of finding yourself when you are lost
not really
@@himik0xo355 keyword "me" not "you"
100%. I lost myself because of her. Things get better but it broke something inside me deeply. Right now i feel like on the first day. everything hurts.
If you knew how much I needed this. 🥺😀
If anyone of you read this right now, just know I’m sending only good things your way. Keep your head up, you got this. Much love to you all❤️
I lost someone very special to me a month ago ever since she has been gone i have felt lonely especialy during night time when i go to bed and she is not laying next to me. I miss her so much every day 💔. RIP my love.
Idk, since my childhood I was diagnosticated with severe depression, anxiety, panic syndrom and bipolarity, so I never felt the real meaning of happiness... This playist make me feel a bit confortable but not happy at all, anyway, thank you for bring me this feeling
If you're listening to this, my heart goes out to you.
and mine to u
Why?
That would be great if I had a heart.
@@kaecake9575 he said his heart not yours
@@scottf5791 and I'm saying what's the point of sympathy its useless, since life goes.
I used to go through the comment sections of videos and think that most people who post might be seeking attention. A lot of it would be real personal stuff that you’d think someone would be more comfortable sharing with a loved one, friend. It wasn’t until I told someone who I thought I could confide in that I was thinking about self deletion and their response was “well everyone feels like that you’ll be ok” is when I realized why someone would feel more comfortable sharing with strangers. Strangers can’t let you down like a loved one can.
Believe me, there are people who have lost all their loved ones. Talking to a stranger may understand you more than a relative. Some of them have the same feelings as you. Some of them have overcome the sadness that you feel. I lost my parents, my brother, and the love of my life. I wish to see them again, but when I see people they say beautiful and encouraging words. They helped me a lot. Happily, at a time when I wanted to cry and could not
Walk in a deap dark night, headphones in my ears, alone in the street and listening to this song.
That's a way to go out of my life
U good ?
Glorious solitude
isn't it weird that everyone here has a different story and memories, you are the main character in your life, but you don't even exist in my story , my life , i know nothing about you, but i still feel a weird connection between us, i love you sososo much, i don't know why but i suddenly feel so much love, what a weird feeling, i want to hug every one of you, and if you made mistakes in your past, learn from them and don't let them ruin your future , the past is already over , leave everything bad behind and keep going forward,,, i won't see you again, i love you, goodbye -from belgium (i hate it)
Love you too, stranger (from Russia)
Love ya too
you know it’s starting to get bad when you just have the feeling to cry out of nowhere.
Id rather cry than hurt myself but that's not possible
maybe like not be sad?
@@kennith7591 🤡
That`s called depression. There is something deep that needs healing for me at least it was reading about something called "Original sin". I like that narrative whether its literally true or not it makes sense to me.
You ever feel so sad that you try to cry but can't even summon the energy?
So you just stare dumbly into space, so empty and lifeless, like a husk.
I see a lot of comments of people in despair. I am not here for that reason. I send my friend these one once in a while to fall asleep to and it brings me great comfort. Today we didn't talk much and we both have to wake up fairly early and we can't spend the night away conversing as we often do. So I see this sort of as a way to communicate with eachother even while we sleep. My friend is everything to me.
I'm currently writing and this music helps me get in the feels. Thank you!
I feel myself slowing drifting farther from reality. I’m creating this world that will never ever be true. A world where I’m actually happy, where someone loves me, where I love me. Ha to think that. No it could never happen. I hate myself so much. I hate people so much to the point where I really don’t give a fuck about hurting them. I’m a failure in school, in relationships, and In my own eyes. Looking in the mirror hurts. Having someone call me beautiful feels like a Stab in the heart. Because I know it’s not true. Just please stop. Get out of my life. You don’t love me! No! YOU NEVER CARED. IM NOT A GOOD PERSON AND NOT BEAUTIFUL AND IM NOT WORTH IT. STOP LYING TO ME! Just please. Leave me. I can’t believe I ever thought I was worth it. I hate myself to the point where I take other people’s personality’s and make it mine. I’m slowing drifting away. Always from the truth. The truth...
THE TRUTH IS..? THE TRUTH IS THAT I HATE MYSELF. OKAY? I CANT STAND LOOKING IN THE MIRROR I CANT WATCH A VIDEO WITHOUT TRYING TO ACT THE SAME WAY AS THAT PERSON BECAUSE ID RATHER BE ANYONE ELSE. I AM A LIAR I LIE TO MY FRIENDS MY PARENTS AND YOU KNOW WHAT THE WORST PART IS? I. DONT. CARE. I DONT CARE IF I HURT YOU YOU PROBABLY DESERVE IT ANYWAY. IM A FUCKING MONSTER. SO DONT TELL ME YOU LOVE ME. DONT.
Just leave. Get out of my life. I’m done. I’m done trying
This...is how I really feel too when U feel like u wanna be on a world we’re no one hurts me by lying abuse emotionally and physically and we’re no one manipulates me nor yell at me over stupid stuff
I feel the same, people say it'll get better and tbh those are the people that make me hate myself the most. if people could just stop promising things they cant guarentee that would be nice or when People say your not alone. just because I'm not the only one that cuts myself dosen't mean i feel happy now yk, cause I still feel pretty damn alone just knowing there are others out there makes me feel pathetic because they say how they're getting help and getting better when I'm her stuck in the same ass problems over and over and over non of this shit people tell me is getting better I feel like there is someone out there who is going to fix me but I dont think that they'll make it in time
@@ve9291 yes most definitely
@@user-1-800-Nobody I couldn’t have explained it better. I’m some what comforted that you feel the same, I wish you the best.
@@ve9291 I agree.
The voice of the woman is from the Bladerunner 2049 movie. Recommended for all those who feel lonely... to feel more lonely
Thanks for this
It’s funny cause I bet 90% of people here don’t even know where that line is even from lmao
@@LucasTrask its from a movie called Blade runner 2049
@@LucasTrask exactly!
Life can change in a blink of an eye. One moment your friends then your partners, then your strangers all over again... You can do so much for one person, save their life from several suicide attempts try to help them get over addictions you name it, You throw away your self in attempts to make someone else whole and in the end you get thrown away like you never existed in the first place. Its a strange feeling knowing at any moment that person can leave this earth and you can't do anything about it but sit by and pray for the best. You give them your all, and you leave yourself feeling empty and void of everything. Now you sit here alone, staring into the darkness of your own room left with nothing but your thoughts and memories of the good times and you fall apart all over again.
This music feels like it's a barrier, like it's protecting me from even myself. It's sad when you have to listen to music to distract your brain from overthinking. Overthinking just makes you more depressed because you get sad over things you've never even thought about but this helps. I can always fall asleep to this thank you.
Today the guy I like walked with me on one of our class hikes. I felt happy and at peace, until I had to leave school. All the doubts I have about myself came rushing to my head, I wanted to cry. He’s already told me he doesn’t like me in that way. I feel like anyone I wanna be with just leaves me alone and numb.
I used to feel just like you. There were some girls that would catch my interest here and there, and it'd never work out for me. It sucks, but eventually I decided to stop catching feelings, and work on myself. Workout, hop off social media. And just grow, eventually girls would start showing interest in me, and I realized I felt so much better just knowing how much work I put into myself. Focus on growing as a person and let God handle the rest. He's not a genie, but he's someone you can find comfort and strength in when you're at your lowest.
yeah.. i know the feeling. honestly you'll find someone one day, who wont play with your feelings and who will cherish every moment they spend with you
I don’t believe in love anymore but what I do know it that you must love yourself first! 🤍
@@ericvazquez2225 beautiful advice
honestly, I'm happy rn after 11 months of literally the saddest,loneliest time that I had experienced in my 14 years of my life. I'm not depressed it's more on having literally no friends,and just struggling and thinking about school n money.!
I know it's gonna happen again someday but I'm glad that I'm happy again not being mad and crying about everything and hating to the people that i lived with and honestly i can somehow control myself more than back in march 2021 that I tried to hurt myself and yell and get mad to everyone that i see!
i just sleep for literally 80% of the day I'm just sleeping,not eating breakfast and lunch.
Just go outside by yourself in the morning and walk until you're tired and go to the beach alone bc it's more fun and relaxing!
plssss! Taking ur own life isn't worth it bc there's still so many good things that can happen to u and U are worth it.!
🙌🏼 happy to hear you ve improved 😇 just know it gets better . I also feel Lonely I have like no friends at it kills me ... because it’s depressing AF. I feel different / ostracized from the world 🌎
Love is always the answer no matter how much this world beats you down, love triumphs it all. Keep fighting against the invisible barriers they put and just love each other. If everyone dropped the ego and focused on loving on another like real humans we’d be thriving as one. Love is the answer
but i enjoy being alone, really enjoy it. it feels so peaceful.
me too, it puts your mind into a different sort of state where there's nobody to judge you so you stop caring about everyone and everything other than yourself, its so calming and neutral its a different kind of perfection or satisfaction that you would only get from being alone.
Me too. Its crazy with bills but yeah peaceful.
You can have friends but if you dont have the right person in your life, you will always feel lonely.
I never had friends in 40 years. You adapt, or not.
@@mywifesboyfriend5558 you got used to feeling bad basicaly
@@mywifesboyfriend5558 40 year old memer. I agree. Pandemic really did teach me to adapt to the loneliness I've felt for 7 years. The abandonment issues have been overrided by apathy. I just don't care anymore
You're right, I have a lot of friends now and some may consider me "popular" but in all honesty I've never felt so alone my whole life
i lost the right person that i have been friends with for 3 years.
now my heart cant even control emotions properly.i just miss him.
Это именно тот канал, который я искал. Под эту музыку можно просто идти по улице и наслаждаться. Благодарю вас за это)
Согласен, канал достоен уважения
my dad died in 2018 when i was 10 and since then life has felt pointless, he was my everything. Recently i feel like i cant remember his face of how his voice sounded and our memories together are starting to fade, i would give anything in the world to have him back. People say it gets easier but i feel like its getting worse. I miss him so much. This song makes me feel calm and i can remember our time togther easier.
don't you just wanna go back to the past sometimes, when we were younger? where things were easier and better?
Yes, definitely
Me all the time
When I was a kid I always looked forward to being a grown up, now I wish I could go back
Yes but in order to advance we must let go of the past. Even if its painful.
All the time
It's times like these when I just sit alone and think to myself and truly realise how much I just don't want to be here anymore
Bro, it’s okay. Life’s a struggle. It’ll be a pain in the ass, but sometimes you can find people to make it better for you. Because bro, sadness won’t last forever. Just enjoy your life and do what makes you happy. Family, friends aren’t always everything because Betrayal is a word for a reason. So Bro Do what makes you happy. Don’t give into the thoughts, the pain, the voices none of that. Keep living until you hit those triple digits. And Heh man, I love you and I’m very very very proud of you, keep going.
Wow...i feel really lonely now..
Its like..All my problems are gone now...
Im in another world...
I- i just wanna cry alone...
Because those music are so beautiful...💙☁️
why would you stutter in a sentence
cry is the best medicine
I want to be able to cry.. :)
@@ellasenergy7395 it’s a way of expressing emotion through text. Leave them be.
My depression journey isn’t even over after many, many, years. Though from someone who’s dealt and still sometimes deals with,
Self harm, self hate, anxiety, and suicidal thoughts and actions. I can tell you that it does get better. Remember when having an depressive episode, it feels like everything caves into itself and feels like the world is ending. But remember that those episodes do not last forever. And that you can take a breath and breathe. Because you are here and alive and I’m so proud of you for that
This song is so comforting, I feel less alone.
You're never ever alone! You're one with the Universe, there is no separation! We are ONE🤗🙏❤
Same here...
love how none of us searched for this but we found it..and yet we have yet to find the help that we’ve longed for
real
That's because most lonely people don't want help, unless it's from a possible romantic interest or a good looking person.
has anyone else ever felt like the future just isn't what its made out to be?
Yup
It rarely is.
I think that’s the beauty of it, you never know where life will bring you. Just be ready and love yourself.
Yes🙁
I absolutely dread my future
This track...... it invokes these feelings and deep memories that ive long forgotten. Actions, places, sounds and smells that have been buried deep in my mind. The nostalgia is intoxicating to the point where it feels as if the past is manifesting in my mind, its wonderful really.
I hate him, but I also love him, always will. He wasn't good for me, and soon after I wasn't good for him either, I let him go because I knew he never could. I did it for us. I did it for me so that I can live and hopefully, he will too. It hurts, but staying in that hole with him, was more painful and exhausting. Goodbye may we both heal from each others' mistakes.
Stay steady sailors, and ride the waves of life, for if you chose to go against her, she'll drag you to her depths.
this makes me re think everything that I have done
Such an horrible feeling..
One of the struggles of life in the internet age, we are more connected than ever before yet we feel even more isolated and alone. Anyone reading this, keep your head up, youre here for a reason, and you got this 👍
this song makes me feel like I’m drowning in my own life
Yep, for sure! Cost of living is growing while wages are remaining the same, housing/rent is dumbass expensive, middle class is dying and MORE taxes being pushed by that dementia patient in the white house. 😔😔
Right 😅 it makes you feel lonely 😶
@@222HelloGoodMorning lonely is only the start...
Well you probably are
Take me with you
This song perfectly describes that feeling of loneliness that you feel, despite being in a crowded room.
When the visual and audible stimulants take away the one thing that kept you company: your own thoughts.
this made my day
And my night..)
I guess we can relate on something then :)
felt so lonely in my teenage years, thinking i'd never have anyone, but then you came along and made that feeling finally go away and no longer exist. but its back again, and it just feels like its been amplified by like 10x since you're not here anymore
ever sense corona got announced i lost myself i feel like my heart is empty i cry every single night and no one can help me , one time my dad walked in on me crying he didn’t see me tho but i enstantly stopped crying i hate people to see me cry. they think i’m to young to understand, my mom and dad used to argue a lot it got much better. idk what happend but. ily
Don't cry 😢💕
To anyone out there: things will get better if you just wait it out. I know it feels like forever but it will.
The things you said are just hollow words of comfort, but right now, they are the things I wanted to hear the most. Words that are convenient for me, words that are said to make me happy :) thank you
@@motherearthy I mean it though! Things will work out in due time
Yes 🙌🏼
no they fucking wont, you have to take action.
Oh I know it will, because I will die. Eventually, whether we want it or not, we will return to the void and find peace once more.
This song is just perfect. I just wanna go cry overnight in my teddy bear.
Never forget to love yourself first. This life is yours, nobody else’s. Focus on your mental and physical health please, some never realize how important this is till it’s too late. I wish I could hug who ever’s down and reading through these comments. I want to let you know everything’s gonna be okay.. I need healing sometimes too, but I love healing others so much it makes me feel so warm inside. Take care of yourself man..
hey, thank you, that truly means alot, its hard to love myself, I made mistakes causing me to lose the things that have made me the happiest ive ever been, I dont hate myself but I dont love myself either, its so hard, im stil ltrying to push through it all even though it sucks, somedays I just cant help but give in and cry, your comment is so sweet, thank you for it, take care of yourself too, you seem like an amazing person
we sit here thinking the negatives about ourselves. we see nothing good in ourselves. even while we sit here trying everyday to get better, it’s never good enough. life was meant to be happy we though, but no. we were all wrong. we sit in bed morning though night, sleeping. some of us go days without eating. keep in mind we try so hard but it is never good enough in others eyes. the amount of thought you start to think of when you need to get up. you stand up, beginning to feel dizzy already from being in bed since the day before. you sit back down, wondering where you went so wrong. you miss yourself, you miss the person who was happy and laughing all the time. you begin to cry. nothing good, no no no. not again you think. you know how much you’ve been trying. one word you wish to hear from anybody. it’s the nine words, “i’m proud of how far you’ve tried to come”. you’ve looked around you’re room now. you think, i can do this. i can get even better. you know you’ll try but it wouldn’t be good enough. you cry even more, now laying in bed. your now curled up. your head fills with hateful things you’ve heard. the worse one of all. “you’ve not even tried anything to help yourself”.
you wish people would realize life isn’t perfect. you want to go back. you beg and you beg. you wish you’re silent crying would stop. you than stop knowing, you made it so far already. you slowly begin to normal breathing and stop crying. you slightly smile.
life will become better. im proud of you darling. keep trying your hardest. much love xoxo
I haven’t had any friends for about three years now. I went to a very small high school and I have really terrible social anxiety so it was challenging to initiate and maintain any kind of relationship. It’s gotten much worse over the pandemic, Ive gone months without any kind of contact from anyone other than my parents occasionally. I’ve never felt so detached and alienated. If you’re experiencing something similar, know that you at least aren't alone in this feeling, and you will be ok, and this does not determine your worth as a person. Nothing/ nobody can do that except you, please believe that.
This playlist describes exactly how I fell about day to day life.
I was in a long distance relationship full of lies and manipulation for over a year. Even though she was genuinely a mentally unstable person, she lied over and over and she knew it, all because of her abusive surroundings, it was kind of a never ending cycle with her. Things would be good one minute and then I would get ghosted the next and that left me hurt, and feeling alone all wjile still "being" with her...and that is one of the most heart wrenching feelings imaginable. No matter how our relationship turned out I will never forgot how she helped me grow as a person. Not too long ago we talked, reminisced, and relived some of those moments. She moved in with her mom and is out of the absusive household with her father. and as hard as it was not to fall back into that lovey depressive state hearing her voice, im still here today, pushing on, in a happy relationship of 1 year and 6 months doing better than I ever could be. However I will never forgot into the type of person it shaped me into being.
Sometime I miss being addicted to sadness, there is a certain level of comfort that it brings oddly enough. But Sidni, if youre out there, I want you to know that I forgive you and I hope you are doing well, wherever you end up.
Sometimes I try to look back on the days in which I was happy. But it just makes me more sad, I think that being sad isn’t a bad thing. In fact I think it’s the best thing to be sad because then you know that you understand and appreciate happiness more than people who are happy.
"Be happy it happened, not sad it went away"...i didn't even get to make a memory like that...all alome