Thank you for sharing your story. Sadly we don’t live in a world that is kind to heavier women, but I hope you can ignore the negativity and keep focusing on your happiness and health :) you are so incredibly talented and strong and amazing! I wish you all the best!!
Heavier women tend to have problems with their own bodies. They feel this way because they either have mental issues, health issues or simply because they don't like the way they look. The masses don't care, we only think they do because we judge ourselves the hardest. I pass by overweight people everyday and don't think much of it.
Watch her full Ed journey and you will understand where she is coming from and why she is how she is. Shes not promoting to be big as the norm, but her own circumstances is why she is doing what shes doing.
This comment should be pinned. Too many people have opinions, or take this as an instructional.... This is her life story, which takes guts to talk about. To you, girly, thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you so much for sharing your story! As someone who's obsessed with crossfit and been dealing, not with an ED, but with a very unhealthy relationship with food, those kind of videos are very helpful. Sometimes as we don't "look unhealthy", people tend to believe everything is fine, when it's quite the opposite. Love your channel! ♥
I´m struggling with bulimia and binging for 10 years and have never seen a more relatable video. you´re not alone in this 💕💕 you explain EDs and it´s relation to other mental health issues so well! keep going and all the best for you :)
I’m sorry you’re going through that, but so happy you found this video helpful! Yes it was such a breakthrough when I realised my trauma was triggering my ED. Thank you, you too x
TW: ED I was super morbidity obese and had weight loss surgery back in 2019. I went from the highest of 480 down to the lowest of 295 last year. However I couldn’t focus on the joy of the weight loss because the body dismorphia wouldnt go away. I looked at the mirror and would still see me at 480. I became terrified of regaining weight and developed an ED of bulimia where i would binge, feel bad, purge, eat better and repeat. I would also chew and spit my food whenever possible. This starvation severely messed up my body and i began gaining weight anyway despite all of those efforts. The comments made by certain family made me spiral worse into the ED in desperation to go back. But i still gained weight and went from 295 up to 340. Even going to the gym and doing cardio didnt help. Now I'm trying to work on my ED. Its hard and I still struggle daily. I still slip up and find myself running to the bathroom to purge after a meal or reaching for the trashcan to spit the food back out. I'm now with a personal trainer helping me with the strength and muscle building and coming up with a healthier and safer path with fitness and weight loss. Im still at 340, i still struggle, but im trying to do better and unlearn all of these bad habits and thought patterns that i let take hold of my life for the past 4 years. I have a weight goal yes. But more importantly i have a health goal with my trainer which has helped me focus more on my wellbeing rather than the number on the scale or the image in the mirror. If i could offer anyone any words that is struggling with this i would say It's hard, but it's worth it. You're worth it. Take it one day at a time. You can mess up but the important thing is to get yourself back on track and forgive yourself because you're human. Focus on how your feel rather than what you see. I see that i have more stamina, I can walk more without feeling exhausted. I can lift more now. Focus on those small steps and victories. You’ll get to your goal on your time ❤
I like exercising. I have never been on any diet, because my life has been chaotic. I need to eat food to keep going. Exercise still works even if you are not on any diet.
Well done video! Girls need to not worry so much and they don't need to be rail thin. I am a professional artist and I share my paintings and demos here. So much variety on TH-cam. Cheers!
Hi Beth, 70 year old male CrossFitter here (for 10 years). I sometimes feel we need to make a decision-do we want to be great at CrossFit, or do want to get better at the heavy olympic lifts? Very hard to be good at both, in my experience. That's why the athletes we see competing at the CrossFit games are so elite. Somehow they are able to perform near the highest level at both. If we choose CrossFit, its best to be strong AND fairly lean. If we choose Olympic weightlifting, we need to get stronger AND bigger. Trying to hit that "sweet spot" and succeed at both is nearly impossible for us mere mortals. Love your videos, you rock!
Yes I totally get you! I’m not actually trying to be the best I can possibly be, I just focus on training in a way I enjoy. But it’s definitely worth it to work on something like squat strength for a while to build that leg strength base. You also don’t necessarily have to get bigger to get stronger. Stick to the strength ranges rather than hypertrophy.
Thanks for this. I hit my heaviest weight early this year and it causes double period for me. And it was very painful, and i feared eating for a while and now im still obessesing over weight loss even tho ive lost 4kgs and bmi from 24 (overweight for asian) to bmi 22.5. I wanted to lose more to my previous weight before pandemic when i was still studying in college but its kinda impossible bcs i cant handle being hungry anymore. Even if i starve myself and doesnt feel it mentally, my stomach could get cramping just like period cramps and it hurts real bad.
There’s a lot that I don’t relate to in this video, but as a guy trying very hard to gain weight I find tracking calories to be worse for my health. It’s just not realistic to track every single calorie I put in my body. When I do try to track it precisely, I gravitate more towards prepackaged foods because they make tracking easier. Of course those prepackaged foods tend to be overly processed and a net negative for me. And doing things like weighing every ounce of chicken and rice I’m about to eat is a waste of time, and a bad practice for my mental health.
I hope I will be able to get to the same situation as you right now. I am not sick, my blood tests are perfect. But I am too heavy and my mobility and cardiovascular health are suffering. Similar story as you, I binge following trauma and triggering things. I am really happy to hear that you are doing well, so well that you can actually try to be in a deficit. Can I ask you, which health professionals are you being followed by? Only a nutritionist? How are you creating a deficit while intuitive eating?
I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through that. ❤️ I feel like not many people understand the link between trauma and eating disorders. So yes, I’m only working with a nutritionist, my deficit works with my cycle (more cals during luteal phase) although it would be nice to have more professionals supporting me, that’s not an option there isn’t a lot of support for people with eating disorders especially as a lot of people won’t work with those of us that have had eating disorders that aren’t Ed specialists. It makes it really difficult. I’m not really intuitive eating to be honest. I have rough guidance around what to eat and when. For instance carbs around training. If I’m really craving something I’ll just have it and stay within my cals.
You are dealing with the spirit of gluttony… you need deliverance, and only Jesus can save you 💯 Before I knew this disorder was a thing I was in deep prayer and worship, and God revealed this entity to me, and why my view around food was so unbalanced - I will be talking deeper on the subject all next month, and I am glad that I ran into your channel! If you do not receive deliverance, either by going to Jesus yourself or a deliverance ministry, the entity can start to plan to kill your children 💯 do not take this subject. Lightly gluttony is one of the seven deadliest Sins-😢
Shes not restricting anymore, she’s working on getting to a normal amount. I think Jesus would actually listen to her and realise that instead of ignoring what she said and pretending that this comment will help.
Well yes actually this one didn’t help me at all it made my body dysmorphia a bit worse but it was also very cathartic to make as well. Often talking about the hard stuff can help us work through it and it does for me. I’ve felt like my journey has been such a mess, it was helpful for me to see that that’s ok because recovery isn’t linear but I should be super proud of how far I’ve come.
@@sportybeth Thanks for your reply. I am a fitness professional. I discovered you some time ago, saw your videos and then eventually subscribed. Recently however, your videos took a negative turn for me with the angst. You can put out whatever you like, Anything, in my opinion, but it does not serve you well. I have since unsubscribed. I wish you well, but please return to your fine inspiring videos of the past.
@@sidhayes6168 I don't find these videos to be angst. This is being real. I think only showing the positive all the time isn't healthy for the video maker OR the viewer. Some hard things have to be faced.
I was size UK8 for years not just at 13. But regardless I was super thin. Clothing sizes mean F all. I was also 5ft 9 so my height and size of my actual bones would always make me bigger in clothing sizes. As I said I was also 12 stone which is not light.
It’s great that your healthier now but you’re overweight and obese you might be fine now but over the decades this will take a toll on your health you had an eating disorder then and have it now on the opposite end of the spectrum this is not healthy it’s not good to tell people being obese is ok blood tests aren’t the whole story not trying to be offensive just giving you a reality check hope you will become healthier soon and will see you need to make a change 😊
@@sportybethsorry if I offended you I know exactly how eating disorders work I’m glad that your healthier than you were back then but it is still not healthy to be overweight I’m telling you what you need to hear not what you want to hear
Yes, I love this! Now you can eat chocolate and drink soda without feeling bad !!! Awesome, come on guys just tell everyone you are going to be the strongest woman on earth and you finally get away with your sugar addiction. This is great thank you AND healthy of course!
Eating disorder? Love, you're just eating dis order of pizza. 😂 245lbs and bullemic? An eating disorder ends with a beautiful corpse or livng a lifetime of struggle. Did you miss the part about how you are supposed to vomit after eating? Anyone with a real E.D. will find this video sad or hilarious.
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Thank you for sharing your story. Sadly we don’t live in a world that is kind to heavier women, but I hope you can ignore the negativity and keep focusing on your happiness and health :) you are so incredibly talented and strong and amazing! I wish you all the best!!
Heavier women tend to have problems with their own bodies. They feel this way because they either have mental issues, health issues or simply because they don't like the way they look.
The masses don't care, we only think they do because we judge ourselves the hardest. I pass by overweight people everyday and don't think much of it.
Watch her full Ed journey and you will understand where she is coming from and why she is how she is. Shes not promoting to be big as the norm, but her own circumstances is why she is doing what shes doing.
You get it ❤️❤️❤️
This comment should be pinned.
Too many people have opinions, or take this as an instructional....
This is her life story, which takes guts to talk about.
To you, girly, thanks for sharing your story.
Thank you so much for sharing your story! As someone who's obsessed with crossfit and been dealing, not with an ED, but with a very unhealthy relationship with food, those kind of videos are very helpful. Sometimes as we don't "look unhealthy", people tend to believe everything is fine, when it's quite the opposite. Love your channel! ♥
I´m struggling with bulimia and binging for 10 years and have never seen a more relatable video. you´re not alone in this 💕💕 you explain EDs and it´s relation to other mental health issues so well! keep going and all the best for you :)
I’m sorry you’re going through that, but so happy you found this video helpful! Yes it was such a breakthrough when I realised my trauma was triggering my ED. Thank you, you too x
Seeing the care and acceptance in your relationship is lovely. Thank you so much for sharing your journey. You help me and so many others.
TW: ED
I was super morbidity obese and had weight loss surgery back in 2019. I went from the highest of 480 down to the lowest of 295 last year. However I couldn’t focus on the joy of the weight loss because the body dismorphia wouldnt go away.
I looked at the mirror and would still see me at 480. I became terrified of regaining weight and developed an ED of bulimia where i would binge, feel bad, purge, eat better and repeat. I would also chew and spit my food whenever possible. This starvation severely messed up my body and i began gaining weight anyway despite all of those efforts. The comments made by certain family made me spiral worse into the ED in desperation to go back. But i still gained weight and went from 295 up to 340. Even going to the gym and doing cardio didnt help.
Now I'm trying to work on my ED. Its hard and I still struggle daily. I still slip up and find myself running to the bathroom to purge after a meal or reaching for the trashcan to spit the food back out. I'm now with a personal trainer helping me with the strength and muscle building and coming up with a healthier and safer path with fitness and weight loss. Im still at 340, i still struggle, but im trying to do better and unlearn all of these bad habits and thought patterns that i let take hold of my life for the past 4 years.
I have a weight goal yes. But more importantly i have a health goal with my trainer which has helped me focus more on my wellbeing rather than the number on the scale or the image in the mirror.
If i could offer anyone any words that is struggling with this i would say It's hard, but it's worth it. You're worth it. Take it one day at a time. You can mess up but the important thing is to get yourself back on track and forgive yourself because you're human. Focus on how your feel rather than what you see. I see that i have more stamina, I can walk more without feeling exhausted. I can lift more now. Focus on those small steps and victories. You’ll get to your goal on your time ❤
Thank you for sharing your story! Such strength you have and a great example to others. Stay strong, healthy looks good on you!
No worries ❤️
I'm hating how big I am now but started exercising and hope to get back to a healthy weight. Your journey I can sympathize with
Over eating is just as much a problem!
I like exercising. I have never been on any diet, because my life has been chaotic. I need to eat food to keep going. Exercise still works even if you are not on any diet.
Absolutely! Dieting mostly isn’t a health focused activity but exercise is!
Well done video! Girls need to not worry so much and they don't need to be rail thin. I am a professional artist and I share my paintings and demos here. So much variety on TH-cam. Cheers!
You are so strong and such an inspiration ❤ this puts so many hateful comments into perspective
Hi Beth, 70 year old male CrossFitter here (for 10 years). I sometimes feel we need to make a decision-do we want to be great at CrossFit, or do want to get better at the heavy olympic lifts? Very hard to be good at both, in my experience. That's why the athletes we see competing at the CrossFit games are so elite. Somehow they are able to perform near the highest level at both. If we choose CrossFit, its best to be strong AND fairly lean. If we choose Olympic weightlifting, we need to get stronger AND bigger. Trying to hit that "sweet spot" and succeed at both is nearly impossible for us mere mortals. Love your videos, you rock!
Yes I totally get you! I’m not actually trying to be the best I can possibly be, I just focus on training in a way I enjoy. But it’s definitely worth it to work on something like squat strength for a while to build that leg strength base.
You also don’t necessarily have to get bigger to get stronger. Stick to the strength ranges rather than hypertrophy.
Wow! This video is amazing 👏🏽 😍 🙌🏽 so proud of youuu!! What an exciting accomplishment
Thanks for this. I hit my heaviest weight early this year and it causes double period for me. And it was very painful, and i feared eating for a while and now im still obessesing over weight loss even tho ive lost 4kgs and bmi from 24 (overweight for asian) to bmi 22.5.
I wanted to lose more to my previous weight before pandemic when i was still studying in college but its kinda impossible bcs i cant handle being hungry anymore. Even if i starve myself and doesnt feel it mentally, my stomach could get cramping just like period cramps and it hurts real bad.
I'm glad you're healthier now
Wow this actually changed my mind about some things. Thank you for all the details
I’m so glad. Thank you for taking the time to listen ❤️
So much respect to you. You're so strong, great job.
I'm so glad you for you that you feel much healthier now!
So much wisdom here. Thank you for your story!
Your story has been really intriguing to me and thank you for sharing it 😊
Rooting for you. Thanks for sharing.
Oof. I really needed to see this.
I’m so glad I came across this channel.
So glad you found it helpful ❤️❤️
Appreciate you
Waist size is also from bone structure. I have a small natural waist. I will never have a thigh gap.
Thank you for sharing
Thank you for sharing your story ❤️
Amazing! where can i get this test ? if you dont mind me asking xx
Omg this is like my story. ❤️
Love your videos! Could you do some vlogs? Just love listening to you talk ❤
Wow. Thank you so much for sharing your story
No worries 🥰
There’s a lot that I don’t relate to in this video, but as a guy trying very hard to gain weight I find tracking calories to be worse for my health. It’s just not realistic to track every single calorie I put in my body. When I do try to track it precisely, I gravitate more towards prepackaged foods because they make tracking easier. Of course those prepackaged foods tend to be overly processed and a net negative for me. And doing things like weighing every ounce of chicken and rice I’m about to eat is a waste of time, and a bad practice for my mental health.
I hope I will be able to get to the same situation as you right now. I am not sick, my blood tests are perfect. But I am too heavy and my mobility and cardiovascular health are suffering. Similar story as you, I binge following trauma and triggering things.
I am really happy to hear that you are doing well, so well that you can actually try to be in a deficit. Can I ask you, which health professionals are you being followed by? Only a nutritionist?
How are you creating a deficit while intuitive eating?
I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through that. ❤️ I feel like not many people understand the link between trauma and eating disorders.
So yes, I’m only working with a nutritionist, my deficit works with my cycle (more cals during luteal phase) although it would be nice to have more professionals supporting me, that’s not an option there isn’t a lot of support for people with eating disorders especially as a lot of people won’t work with those of us that have had eating disorders that aren’t Ed specialists. It makes it really difficult.
I’m not really intuitive eating to be honest. I have rough guidance around what to eat and when. For instance carbs around training. If I’m really craving something I’ll just have it and stay within my cals.
First :)
Thank you for sharing your experience.
Have you ever checked your thyroid?
no, its nothing to do with my thyroid
Very strong 💪
Thank you 🥰
You are living proof that you cannot out train a bad diet.
It's not about being happy.
It's about engaging in your food addiction.
You are dealing with the spirit of gluttony… you need deliverance, and only Jesus can save you 💯
Before I knew this disorder was a thing I was in deep prayer and worship, and God revealed this entity to me, and why my view around food was so unbalanced - I will be talking deeper on the subject all next month, and I am glad that I ran into your channel! If you do not receive deliverance, either by going to Jesus yourself or a deliverance ministry, the entity can start to plan to kill your children 💯 do not take this subject. Lightly gluttony is one of the seven deadliest Sins-😢
Shes not restricting anymore, she’s working on getting to a normal amount. I think Jesus would actually listen to her and realise that instead of ignoring what she said and pretending that this comment will help.
Do you ever think what putting these videos out might trigger in you ?
Well yes actually this one didn’t help me at all it made my body dysmorphia a bit worse but it was also very cathartic to make as well. Often talking about the hard stuff can help us work through it and it does for me. I’ve felt like my journey has been such a mess, it was helpful for me to see that that’s ok because recovery isn’t linear but I should be super proud of how far I’ve come.
@@sportybeth Thanks for your reply. I am a fitness professional. I discovered you some time ago, saw your videos and then eventually subscribed. Recently however, your videos took a negative turn for me with the angst. You can put out whatever you like, Anything, in my opinion, but it does not serve you well. I have since unsubscribed. I wish you well, but please return to your fine inspiring videos of the past.
@@sidhayes6168 I don't find these videos to be angst. This is being real. I think only showing the positive all the time isn't healthy for the video maker OR the viewer. Some hard things have to be faced.
If she trains so much but isn't skinny it means she's consuming more calories than she's using.
You could do even better if you actually used correct form, cheers.
size 8 at 13 is not super thin wtaf??
I was size UK8 for years not just at 13. But regardless I was super thin. Clothing sizes mean F all. I was also 5ft 9 so my height and size of my actual bones would always make me bigger in clothing sizes. As I said I was also 12 stone which is not light.
UK size 8 = US size 0 (for reference)
It’s great that your healthier now but you’re overweight and obese you might be fine now but over the decades this will take a toll on your health you had an eating disorder then and have it now on the opposite end of the spectrum this is not healthy it’s not good to tell people being obese is ok blood tests aren’t the whole story not trying to be offensive just giving you a reality check hope you will become healthier soon and will see you need to make a change 😊
Unhelpful, uncalled for and insensitive. With clear lack of understanding of eating disorders.
@@sportybethsorry if I offended you I know exactly how eating disorders work I’m glad that your healthier than you were back then but it is still not healthy to be overweight I’m telling you what you need to hear not what you want to hear
Can you literally stop
@@jessicabrady5693 Stop what? Telling the truth in the most polite and understanding way?
@@jessicabrady5693 no why Karen
Yes, I love this! Now you can eat chocolate and drink soda without feeling bad !!! Awesome, come on guys just tell everyone you are going to be the strongest woman on earth and you finally get away with your sugar addiction. This is great thank you AND healthy of course!
Eating disorder? Love, you're just eating dis order of pizza. 😂 245lbs and bullemic? An eating disorder ends with a beautiful corpse or livng a lifetime of struggle. Did you miss the part about how you are supposed to vomit after eating? Anyone with a real E.D. will find this video sad or hilarious.
How about being at a healthy weight without bulimia.
What kind of show does this? Starvation? Really?
You're not healthier...
Just say you don’t know how to eat well
YESSSS thank you so much for sharing your story!