decided to pin that there are two different debates about what causes this cycle of addiction. there's the debate that it's caused by the disordered thinking that comes with having this illness, and there's the debate that picking up drugs CREATES this pattern of thinking due to the way drugs stimulate the reward pathway. I personally have been taught that there are people who react to drugs differently than another group of people, and that some people will feel none of this cycle when trying drugs. I've been taught that someone may use drugs for pleasure over and over, and then become addicted, while people with this illness and disordered way of thinking can pick up once and feel immediately as if they absolutely need more and their life immediately starts to revolve around drugs. in my rehab, some of the doctors lectures even contained brain scans and studies that document the difference between an addict brain and a non-addict brain. Due to this being the knowledge that helped me discover sobriety, it's currently the way I go about repeating the information to others. when i have a doctor on, i plan to ask him all these questions personally. i want to do these occasional videos where i share what i learn in rehab and IOP, but i like to stick more to stories of my own recovery as much as possible since there's so many different studies out there going against one another about how addiction works. Regardless of if this pattern stems from illness or stems from the drugs, it's a very real cycle that people do experience, and is worth understanding if you know that you have a problem with drugs or alcohol yourself. This way, you can pay attention to where you believe you are mentally on this cycle, and try to avoid crossing the line over to where you lose control.
A good friend of mine just died, from heroin overdose, 2 nights ago. I just randomly found your video today, and I just wanted to let you know I really appreciate you posting this. I know you said you aren't 100% perfect at the whole addict thing (I am not either, but luckily, as of now, am a year sober) but this video really did help me process some things in my mind that I have not even been able to think about. Thank you! Love you and I love your videos and I really hope you are able to stay well! You deserve it!!!!! 💜
"there's the debate that it's caused by the disordered thinking that comes with having this illness," False. Enlarged receptors only allow for more deleterious effects, they do not cause the disordered thinking in themselves. Please provide [citations] from primary research articles.
I feel like you've misunderstood. A normal brain vs an addict brain is not "someone whos addicted but doesnt have the addiction 'illness' vs someone who has the addiction illness and is an addict" the brain of someone addicted to drugs will look the same in a scan as anyone else addicted to drugs. this whole "someone who has this cycle of thinking after one drink is an addict" argument is completely unfounded. Do you realize that?
Lmao the people saying “mouthwash can’t be a trigger” don’t know what they are talking about. I work on an inpatient psych unit and see addiction all the time. We can’t have hand sanitizer on the unit because people dealing with withdrawal/addiction would actually drink it
@@sarahwoodward4453 When my bestie went to rehab they took anything and everything with alcohol from peoples luggage, perfume, aftershave, hand sanitizer, so I think it must be a thing if they're that concerned. If that doesn't prove addiction is a real mental illness I don't know what does.
The hate comments are seemingly out to trigger your relapse and downfall. Stay above it. The better you do, the harder they'll come. See it as a sign of your growth. Misery loves company. Congratulations on your success! Xxx
Theres a difference between hate comments, and asking someone to be accountable for their actions first before telling others how to recover, especially when they haven't even been in recovery for a year. The #1 rule in NA as a newcomer is to sit down & shut up, she needs it!
I truly feel like this should be taught in depth like this in schools instead of the DARE program. Personally when I was taught the DARE program I was young and all I remember them telling me that drugs were bad and dont do them.
Same here. I remember being shown the absolute worst case scenarios of what addiction looks like and it was very mean spirited like "look at these mug shots of yucky meth addicts, that's going to be you if you so much as look at drugs of any kind". It was extremely dehumanizing and looking back I feel bad for the people who's photo's were shared, I don't imagine they consented and were real human beings who didn't deserve to be humiliated and shamed like that. I've met a lot of addicts who don't "look like" or "seem like" addicts and are/were so ashamed to ask for help because of the shame and stereotypes associated with addiction that are only perpetuated by the DARE program in schools. I really wish they'd understand that guilt and shame are the fuel to the fire that is addiction, let's teach kindness, compassion and understanding instead and teach some useful knowledge.
Unfortunately they don’t do dare anymore thanks to all the parents complaining , just like they don’t do scared straight programs by taking kids to prisons to scare them. Again why? Thanks to all the parents complaining. It’s a good idea and I agree being sober for almost 10 yrs in October but it won’t happen.Thank u complaining parents. (Being totally sarcastic)
I did outpatient Had to do weekly counseling I refused group meetings because most people were court ordered to go and weren’t trying to be sober and I didn’t want to put myself in that situation of having access because I could smell the heroin on their clothes and perspiration My counselor told me 1 out of 100 addicts will get sober and stay sober 1! Out of 100! That stuck in my mind to help me and I’ve been 14 years sober from all opiates as well as losing my fiancé at the time to addiction had put my life into being important and to actually live and get sober
You’re such a good teacher. This is your purpose in life. To help others who are going through the same thing you went through/are going through. I’m so proud of you Taylor🖤
My mom is a psychologist and she got her PhD specializing in addiction treatment, specifically for heroin use! You’re one of the only influencers she likes, and I agree. You know what you’re talking about, you don’t bullshit, it’s amazing!! So glad you’re putting truths out there, so many influencer “advocates” spread false information and it hurts my soul. I’m cheering for you xx
your story is partly what inspired me to get clean, and now I’m 45 days sober. so please keep making & sharing these type of videos! they really do help people. Ignore the trolls, baby!
that makes me so happy, truly!! it means so much to me to hear that i've been able to help other people struggling by sharing my story, but my story being enough to inspire you to actually get sober??? that's absolutely amazing. don't ever ignore for a fact that even though my story helped inspire it, that it was you who had the strength to say "i've had enough" and get help, that takes absolutely amazing strength from within!! I hope life continues to look up for you, just keep taking it a day at a time and keep fighting for your life and I know it will. :') Thank you again for your support, it means so much.
Congratulations! This comment was 2 months ago, so how are you doing now? I hope you are still sober and getting some help. Praying for the best for you!
I was actually diagnosed with OCD and an anxiety disorder. It's really interesting to see how much they have in common with addiction. You also do an amazing job talking about mental illness
Taylor you are so right. It’s called Substance Abuse Disorder. Not every alcoholic or drug abuser has Substance Abuse Disorder. Like you said SAD is when you are obsessed with getting high/drunk off of pretty much anything. I’m so sorry people are so rude to you and so judgmental and misinformed. It seems like you’re taking it in stride, I’m proud of you. You’re so smart you could be a teacher you explain things so well. Keep up the good work!
Whoever is hating you and saying that you are bragging about being in a “special group” are insane. You went through so much, and finally got help. I don’t know how someone can say those things to someone, knowing or not knowing your story. You are so strong, we are so proud of you!
I know right? I even saw a video (accidentally) that said she is dangerous towards teens especially and commented on that sentence,they really love taking things out of context!
Exactly just think about it this way. They are basically jealous of you bc you were addicted to something and even though they are not clinically insane they clearly got issues so stick to being you girl
Yeah that’s totally ridiculous! I’m apart of a recovery group and it makes a huge difference and it really helps a lot! Anyone against it are just jealous or sick in their own mind!
Me during the intro: *trying to read along to Taylor speaking and realizes she’s not reading, then gets confused again at the freshly sober part then realizes again shes not reading from it* *is lost*
I am a recovering heroin addict of 7 years now, I also smoke weed that's all I do I don't drink now with that being said I would NEVER advise someone who's newly clean ever touch anything including weed, I didn't use anything for my first year about and that's not a guideline I'm just sharing this, I knew I was at a point where I could trust myself and had a support system to watch me very closely. However when I smoked after being freshly clean once it made me obsess to the point of having a panic attack, took a xanx trying to just aviod opiates, blacked out and came to using heroin on my couch. Do not push anything on anyone ever and anyone who has under a year clean is so fragile anything could push them over the edge just don't do it. Anyways I just thought to share this, proud of u taylor keep it up!
I think once you're and addict for one drug or alcohol and have used for a long time you end up becoming addicted to almost everything. I was addicted to heroin back a long time ago but anyway went through withdraws on a 3 day bus ride from Jersey to Texas. I ended up getting a job at a restaurant pretty quickly and started drinking. And I think with heroin when you stop using there is an emptiness inside you, but anyway I became a bartender and dealt with alcohol addiction for 12 years. I've been sober for 6 years now, I wish I could smoke weed without getting paranoid but it's always done that to me. It's funny she is talking about everything I am writing as I'm listening.
I'm really loving these addiction/recovery videos, you always seem so passionate about the subject and I enjoy you teaching me about a topic that I don't know much about ❤
the vibe you're throwing out to try and help so many people with the illness of addiction is positive energy that will return to you, those people that really need to send out condescending hateful immature stuff about you...guess what energy will return to them... keep up the videos, i really gain alot from them thank you, bless you :)))))
@@JohnDoe-mv2be okay whether thats right or wrong, that excuses people for being rude and negative towards her for atleast trying to help? that logic is the funniest ish i can witness from people who are bitter
Earthling1984 if she gets back on that then she has to start all over she is doing better not the best but better which is good also were are your sources
Thank you for using your platform to educate people about addiction!! I wish more people would speak out about addiction to end the stigma! I have been clean since June 2nd and rehab saved my life!!
I would so much rather hear this information from someone who has experienced the cycle, like you, than from someone who hasn’t. Experience makes you a better teacher imo. Thank you for spreading the information about this.
Girl you’re going from strength to strength. You got this! (The girl who left her addict fiancée and is living a happier life now cause of the strength and hope you gave me) xxxx
You’re making it easier for me to understand my husband. He just relapsed again and it absolutely broke me. I don’t know what my role is in this, how to help him as his wife. It’s obviously not my job to fix it. But I want to be supportive and not part of the problem pushing him towards relapse. But hearing a lot of this helped me understand it’s not always a choice.
At least you are sober ! Stay sober too that will help! I lost my relationship because we both were addicts and we were co dependent! Just be there for him but do not enable!
@@sassyitalian3157 I ended up leaving him. I caught him smoking fentanyl in the room with our door locked when he was supposed to be watching our kids while I worked. I was the only one working and he couldn’t even look after our kids.
i think everyone has a hole and everyone deals w it differently to make it feel better like shopping or excersizing but some people get other things like drugs and alcohol to numb it which is why i think people hating on addicts is so dumb bc everyone numbs the pain or ignores it one way or another so why would you hate on someone who does it another way than yours?
We all do something in excess. It's hard to do everything in moderation. We want to feel good. We don't want to feel pain or sadness. It's hard to live 100% perfectly.
I've been "sober" (I've been in methadone treatment for 13 months) for 4 months....it took me awhile to stop using opiates completely even when on methadone. Anyways, the "hole" analogy makes so much sense. I have had that since I was in my teens...and the only thing that ever came close to "closing/filling" it was opiates...it's definitely been a huge struggle for me...and the thought of the future when I eventually will need to get off methadone, is terrifying...I just hope that by then I will have the tools I need to stay clean...
I was a heroung addict for almost 8 years and now I've been clean for nearly two, with the help of methadone maintenance. If you are living a healthy lifestyle, going to therapy(because lets face it, ALL addicts can use therapy and treating addiction without treating your mental health leads to failure) and just overall functioning without the old junky nad habits then you're clean in my book. I taper off of the methadone every week, one or two mgs at a time. Do it slowly and you'll get there. Right now I'm at an AMAZING clinic that offers free methadone, and they blind dose you. So, they dont tell you what mg you're at and taper you without letting you know. Genius right? Completely eliminates the whole mental part of tapering off of it. You can do it. I swear that if I was able to, then anyone can. I have faith that people can recover and make better changes.
I never comment on videos but this “series” is amazing, it’s so eye opening and I don’t understand how people can hate on someone who’s only trying to get better and is using their personal experience to help others, which is also extremely brave !!!
Thank u for posting this it’s helped me understand my addiction in the past. I’m 9 months clean from iv heroin. And this video made me realize I still need to get help and support through this. I thought I could do sobriety on my own but I still have my big black hole. Btw you’re doing great! So happy for you that you’re sober. 🖤🖤💜🤘🏻
that makes me so happy to know that you're open to seeking some extra help! my therapist told me that she knows of people who made it sober for even a year before relapsing that didn't receive any help. Basically they were successful until something pushed their "black hole" over the edge and they immediately picked up where they left off a year ago. So that's why it's important to try to get help even if we feel like we're doing ok on our own. It doesn't have to be anything major, just some therapy or even simply going to meetings or something to help you talk about your personal "black hole" and help it get smaller. Regardless, 9 months is absolutely amazing and I hope life continues to look up for you!
i just made it 6 years and just relapsed. i definitely think the fact that i didn’t get help and just used subs for a month with zero therapy or groups ended up being my downfall. i didn’t learn any coping skills, and i was still allowing myself to drink/ do other things because “it wasn’t my DOC” i’m now in an IOP for my regular mental health, and a special program for my substance abuse, along with suboxone therapy. i feel much stronger than i ever have and i’m ready to kick this. having a stable support system is key, even if you don’t think it is. it took me 6 years to understand that. i’m so proud of you both!
Not sure if you’ll ever read this BUT I want to come out here and say THANK YOU for using your platform to educate and spread awareness. Even if people/professionals debate addiction and its causes, you are doing the right thing by removing the taboo from this topic. Keep doing you and know that so many people appreciate you and what you are doing. I have been affected by addiction and I can personally say I am so thankful for what you do and am continually impressed by your relentlessness and passion to educate others. Sending love always!
Taylor, thank you for videos like this. My brother’s an addict and has been most of my life. He’s been in and out of rehab 4 times and i’ve found him overdosing 3 times. It’s probably the most traumatizing thing i’ve ever seen. We’re still working on our relationship and he’s learning how he needs to apologize and take responsibility for what he put us through. It’s been hard to try and understand and take a step back to realize he never did that on purpose. These videos really help understand his brain more and why he does the things he does. It doesn’t excuse any of the manipulation of trauma he put us through but it is at least a bit easier to handle when i can understand his brain a little more. Love you and keep up the great videos 💖❤️
I'm glad that while this can help you in a way begin to understand some of how his brain works, that you still know it doesn't excuse the trauma, because it absolutely doesn't. Once an addict gets better, if they decide to work the steps, one of the 12 steps is making amends to all those you've hurt and wronged during your addiction. It's crucial for an addict to face their wrongs and make them right, or at least acknowledge and apologize for the pain they've caused. You deserve healing, and I hope you can find support systems that can help you discover some peace with that situation. I hope the best for you and your family, thank you for leaving a nice comment and being open to understanding such a sensitive topic in your life!
I love how this is explained in a way for anyone to understand. I hope people won’t try to put u down by saying its not accurate information or that u are not the right person to be explaining that. Thank u so much for the engaging video as always ♥️
Girlll the fact that people are upset about you saying that certain people can do a drug and not become addicted while others do it and will become addicted is wild!! It's a literal fact!! Like when people are prescribed opioids -- for some people, taking it makes them feel sick and they hate it; for some, it doesn't do anything other than treat their pain; and for others, it makes them feel really good, and they crave that euphoria and continue to seek out the drug so they can feel that high again. Drugs literally affect different people differently. People really be out here getting angry at you for sharing facts?? Screw that lmao. Please continue spreading your knowledge! It's so valuable!!
When I was deep in meth I never understood when I'd ask people if they could get on for me if they would say "Oh nah I don't do it anymore", I'd always think 'I didn't ask you to do it, I asked you to get it'. But now that I've stopped I understand it so deeply... You can't get it, because seeing someone else doing it makes you think "I can do it just this time", but you can't. I can't start because I won't stop.
this helped me understand SO MUCH about what i'm going through. thank you so much Taylor. you are so genuine and kind. also you apologize so much and that makes me know you're not trying to offend anyone.. I love your honesty.
Addiction has caused so much hurt in my family and I’ve been exposed to the reality of addicts at a young age. I’m not sure when but I became really interested in the functions of addiction so it helps me emphasize with those in my family that have gone through it, this helps a bunch thank you sm!!
I’ve been watching TH-cam since before I’ve dealt with addiction, but this is the first time I’ve been so excited and happy about watching a channel. I have been somewhat emotionally involved in channels but this is something I relate to so much that i feel like will change my life.
It's absolutely baffling to me that people who claim they're "worried" about addiction and recovering addicts come at one of these recovering addicts with such "sweet" words of criticism and "collaborate" so much for their mental health...
I’m so happy you’re opening up about this, I’ve followed you for a while and I’m going through the same thing Edit: yeah mouthwash can definitely be a trigger- I ended up chugging mouthwash because of that
It definitely can be. I don’t struggle with addiction but I do want to know lots about it. I am a very curious person and I want to be a surgeon. And I know that has nothing to do with anything I knowing how the human brain works is actually really helpful that is why you can’t have mouthwash or hand sanitizer or things like that when in early stages of recovery. Let me know if this is true. I read somewhere that addicts can’t use bubbles bc they will try to drink it
I am so sorry that you have had to deal with that much vile hate and disgusting comments. You have done an amazing thing in getting clean, and that you are now using your knowledge and platform to share more awareness of it addiction is amazing. Proud of you
Taylor it makes me sick that people choose to attack you when you are trying to help others while helping yourself. I have experience with addiction counseling and understand that helping others gives you a sense of purpose. That is why I do it. The major lesson that I learned is that you can't save everyone. I say this because of your haters. Before I accepted that I wasn't personally responsible for other's failures, I was able to help more people. Also people should understand that interventions or treatments are like diets, you have to find the one that works best for you. Love you. Keep your head up
i adore you please keep your head above water and ignore those idiots. you’re ALLOWED to avoid those negative websites. i know how frustrating it is seeing thousands of people twist your words, but honestly it’s not worth justifying yourself to people who won’t listen. your true followers will always be here for you- you don’t owe anything to anyone! keep up the good work love
That is sick that there are people who are saying stuff like that about you. Some people have no idea what addiction TRULY is😩 Love you and proud of you as always 🥳😘
I’m on the same medication you are & it’s so nice to see someone with a platform speaking about it & addiction in general. So many misunderstandings of suboxone & recovery. I love your videos & I hope you continue to make them in the future bc it’s always a pleasure. Always recovering!
I would go to Maine with my parents some weekends and that would be my “dry time” but then I would obsess and look for drugs there. Couldn’t find any and would get high as soon I came home. I did this soooo many times, the cycle is so real.
I watched you for years. I'm so happy to see you smiling, laughing again. You look like you fell in love with life again and I'm proud. I'm personally not an addict but I love learning about addiction. Please don't ever quit trying to raise awareness about mental issues and addiction! I'm sending you soooo much hugs and love as it can be imaginable!
Please please don't stop making these videos, you have been so encouraging and inspiring, I'm recovering myself and it feels so good to see someone making content on these matters. Your amazing girl ❤
This video was extremely helpful as I am a recovering addict.. I never understood why I went back to heroin. This makes so much sense and has opened my eyes. Thank you and I hope you’re doing well!
I have severe OCD and that was a really real reference for me and I got really emotional. It wasn't until now I actually realized why an addict can't put down. I thought I understood but this made me understand as much as I possibly can.. I am so impressed and proud of you for getting clean
Keep doing these videos! I love them, congrats on your sober time. I just celebrated 1 year of sobriety the other day. It's so awesome to see more and more people on TH-cam talking about addiction ❤❤ love you lots and so proud of you!
My best friend had a huge opiate/heroin problem that started from coke sort of similar to you and this video truly made me understand so many aspects of his addiction that i never understood. He overdosed and died about 2 years ago, and i couldnt help but feel guilty about not helping him more, but videos like this are so eye opening and comforting. thank you so much! keep it up, you are so strong beautiful and loved.
for the people that still dont understand: Anyone can become addicted to a substance yes, but not everyone is born with the mental illness of addiction
Isn't that a contradiction? The whole point of someone being addicted to a substance means they have an addictive personality which is a mental thing that someone is born with?
Anyone can develope a drug dependence simply for misusing even a prescribed drug, example my father a veteran was put on a pill for anxiety and PTSD, they discontinued that pill a few months after he began taking them, he has to stop taking them cold turkey which caused his whole body to react and he began to have withdraws, chills, fever, vomiting, dizzynes etc. He has never been a drug addict, he does not look for drugs or feel the want to try them or feel the attraction for it, he takes them because he medically needs them and still he had developed a dependence. That being said, if you do some more digging and read, when I say not everyone is born with this mental illness that is addiction I mean that for example fetal alcohol syndrome, or neonatal abstinence syndrome, these are addictions a baby is born with and are then at higher risk of when they are older having a drug addiction if they ever try any substance, there have been studies that show that there are predisposed hereditary genes that can make a person more likely to be a addict then others, yes both are something caused by chemical changes to the brain, but some people are mentally already born with the nature of becoming dependent of a substance while others are not but develope it WITH use of drugs whether that be prescribed or just "for fun".
I would correct the original statement to say that anyone can become physically dependent on a drug or substance but not everyone will become addicted. Addiction is a process, it has a cycle and there's massive mental aspect to it. Dependence is mostly physical. When you begin using drugs/substances to numb/cope/hide/deal with pain and trauma that is when you step into addiction territory. Using percocet to manage a broken leg isnt an addiction, etc.
As a sister to 2 brothers who battle/battled addiction (we lost our baby brother to an overdose 5yrs ago) I Absolutely love what you are doing. Thank you for sharing your journey as well as your info/advice. Sending Lots of Love & Positivity your way sweetie. Your doing AMAZING things. ❤
thank you for trusting us with your views and experiences on such a sensitive and personal topic. we love you so much, support you so much, and are so excited to see you grow and fllourish. You're a titan, babe.
Im really new congrats on 5 months im also in recovery been clean since 2004 your doing a great job keep the videos coming u are helping so many people
I’m really proud of you for being on this journey and for putting this out there. I wish you never had to go through any of this but it’s amazing and wonderful that you’re turning this into such a positive for everyone, yourself included. I’m here with you on this journey, you are not alone ❤️
As the sister of a brother in recovery I only very recently became “comfortable” enough to actually research and watch videos about how addiction works. I’d feel sick to my stomach when I’d see your notifications pop up on your pet channel after your “the truth about everything” video (I’m a subscriber) bc anything I could correlate in my mind with drugs, recovery, relapse etc made my anxiety sky rocket and I felt instant panic and worry. It’s like even I as a family member felt sick in my own skin. …but now after accepting my brothers diagnosis as a reality I want to thank you for going out of your comfort zone and making videos like this. Even the little details like the funny music tune playing in the background goes a long way for those of us who are afraid to even begin to venture into our research etc. I believe everything happens for a reason and I have told this to my brother -“the best possible outcome you could ask for out of all of this is to help others who are where you once were.” I say the same to you too, Taylor. May God continue to bless you and your gift of educating others about on all things💕
I can’t even put into words just how proud I am of you!! By using your voice and being so open about your experience with addiction you are helping so many people!! Keep on the path of sobriety ✌🏻🤍 you’re amazing💙
You are a natural born educator. I believe greatness comes out of the darkest times in ones life and I believe you had to go through this to help so many others.
I'm not an addict of drugs, alcohol or sex, but I can relate to having the "yuck". Sometimes I get in the mind to try something to ease the thoughts, like the things I just listed. It can get obsessive. Especially when I'm alone and everyone around me does it. But I always stop myself and find a healthier remedy. I'm so lucky to have good people to help with that and that I know I can rely on. I'm glad to hear (as unfortunate as it is) others feel this way too. I'm so happy for you and your process! Stay strong!
The last time I wore a strapless bra it was so awful that it finally pushed me to try bralets and they are now all I wear. I'm now all like, F bras. They're hassle.
@@Boutys_mom well it sort of is. I guess it's a name for a type of bra really. I'd say the definition is that is has a straight elastic band at the bottom, going all the way round & no wire. As opposed to other bras which usually just have the elastic at the back and then are shaped at the front, with cups, often padded, and usually with wires. Bralets are similar to a sports bra but they squash your boobs in less. They are sooo much more comfy than the underwired t-shirt, push up or strapless bras that I used to wear!
Wait wait wait no matter what a drink is a drug period. Drinking is a relapse, smoking is a relapse, using is a relapse. I love you and am so proud of you for continuing on in your journey BUT I’ve been clean 3 + years in NA and your disease is lying to you right now. You haven’t done heroin in 5+ months but that isn’t having 5 months sober in any way. The sooner you get honest with yourself the sooner you can continue to grow and move forward. You’re doing incredible and helping so many others but i can’t not point this out
426ZZZZ I was on suboxone for 5 years before getting off it so I do feel that whatever works for you works for you BUT the terminology of being sober for 5 months means you’ve had continuous sobriety for 5 months straight and that’s not true. She could say 5 months heroin free instead cause I don’t want anyone thinking they can drink in safety because someone else was able to the first time they picked up. The worst thing that can happen is relapse without consequences. I’d rather be safe then sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She literally says people are different and to not shame. If she was able to safely try a drink, while letting people know and without any consequences of setting off her addictive cycle. Then yes I do believe she was sober. In the same way she was talking about people stopping the drug but not getting help being called dry and not sober. Then I believe if she safely tried it once, knew the issues and seaked help to stop going the addictive path and didnt, then she is still sober. She even stated that she did not wish to do it again and doesn't think it is worth the risk, she also stated some people can drink when they have substance addiction. Literally part of the cycle she showed was shame, please don't contribute to that. She is clearly seeking help and going on her own journey. I don't know what you were trying to achieve with your comment, but just because you experienced something, doesn't mean someone else will. Also there is no point shaming someone and telling them to stop lying to themselves
A close family member of mine struggles with alcohol addiction. I really value your inside knowledge of the subject from an addicts brain. It would be amazing if you could talk about how to help an addict that doesn't want help 🙈
Taylor, you really make me want to be sober. you explaining this out, it really puts a lot into perspective for me, like I’m in tears. I keep downplaying my problems with jokes or just by saying I’ll be sober one day, or hey I still have a job, but I’m taking drugs with me to work. So I just don’t know life without it ever since 8th grade when I took my first hit of weed, my brain even obsessed over that, and it just escalated over time, to this day. I’m haunted by multiple substances, even in my dreams when I’m withdrawing. I just don’t know where to begin.
I love how TH-cam works...I'm glad i found you. I'm glad you started this vlog. You have a beautiful soul and you are making an important impact on other people's lives.
I am so proud of her and how far she has come! I listened to her previous video about recovering and how she goes toIOP and it sounds like she is getting a great amount of help! It takes courage and will power to do that.
I’ve been dealing with really bad anxiety and depression. I’ve never been an addict but these videos somehow help out with my mental state. You inspired me to get help and better myself. I’ve been planning to move back home with my mom, going to college, and am getting a doctor so I can try and fight it! Please keep making video like these to inspire others just like you have with me
You are very blessed Taylor. I’ve been wanting to do a channel like this to explain addiction and talks about my experience but I didn’t have any sort of a following or anything( I know that takes time and hard work that I just don’t have time for) but with your awesome animal channel you were able to transition into this channel and share some amazing things. Maybe this is why you had to go thru heroin addiction, so you are able to teach others about addiction. I used heroin for 5 years and now I work at a rehab and I am going to school to be a counselor(of course because everyone who gets cleans does haha) I just think what you are doing is very cool. Once I understood the pharmacology and physiology behind addiction and how my brain reacts made sooooo much more sense to me. I like how you explained all of this is simple terms. You did great!
You're so right. She did so well at explaining all of this so simply. I too am a recovering addict, I used for nearly 8 years and I'm celebrating 2 yrs clean in February. And you're SO freaking right about recovering then wanting to become a councelor haha I want to help other addicts as well. Taylor is extremely blessed and is using her platform for so much good.
Courtney Pitts congrats on your clean time! That’s amazing! Haha yeah I love working at a rehab not being a counselor and seeing everything that being a counselor entails is aaaalooooot so I’m going thru the motions of school but still deciding if I want to work in a rehab or not.
I’m not an addict, never smoked or drinked, but this is so educational, and you speak very nice and at the same time its very entertaining. Love you Taylor, proud of you!♥️
Taylor, I'm a big believer in things happen for a reason! I swear your vocation now is to help and support addicts and more importantly to educate people of all ages and all walks of life. You are very knowledgeable on the subject, you've been there, done that! You are an amazing public speaker and speak in a way that is easy to understand....seriously this is your vocation. Keep up the good work and stay strong my lovely xx
yes! I thought that term might confuse people that don't go to AA, so I just didn't touch on it to begin with and then completely forgot to ever mention it.
I'm so proud of you Taylor! I've experienced minor addiction problems, but seeing your progress is so awesome! Already you seem so much better and happier!
Is one of those comments ‘wannabe junkie’? Wtf does that even mean. Anyway, you’re not any of those things, you’re a good egg that’s had a hard hard time. And I’ve been there but I’m also a good egg 🥚 great video, stay safe and stay sober ❤️❤️❤️🥚🥚🥚
God this reminds me so much of eating disorders/self harm. We learned about a similar cycle in terms of depression when I was hospitalized and it truly helped me understand so much about why I felt the way I did. I'm really glad to hear you speaking out about what you learned; you dont even know how many people you will help.
I have been through exactly what you've been through I lost EVERYTHING all family members everyone. I made the leap 3 years ago and have been sober every since it was the BEST decision. There's not another person in this world that can even begin to understand what, why, and how. I'm new here seen a video on VICE which brought me here. Your doing an amazing job and are a awesome teacher!
Or that it makes her look like she had a unibrow. I didn't realize it was part of her damn hat until half way through the video. 🤦 I'm very happy it's on her hat lol.
I was confused for too long. I heard her say beanie piercing.. But I still thought it was on her actual face. Didn't know HOW it went on there. LOL. What a silly hat!
My feeling is that your content is so valuable to people who want to learn what you have to offer. Thank you for bearing your soul and sharing your personal story so deeply. you are an inspiration to this mother of an addicted young daughter 6 years on oxy. One day she will want help and be passionate about getting clean like you. Keep going in your recovery; you are worth it!
Straight up didn't even know there were crickets in the background of your video until I read the comments because the ones I use for feeding in my room are SO LOUD
Hey taylor I came across a video of yours on vice and wanted to say I know exactly what you went thru with addiction and how proud you should be of yourself to be clean and I know your strong enough to stay away for good! Long story short I was clean for almost 2 yrs and due to a horrible break up I ended up relapsing and struggled getting clean again. I am back on methadone and getting clean again and one day soon I'll be able to completely enjoy my life with heroin again. I just want to say thanks for making these videos and talking about this subject and letting people know that it's not an easy thing to get thru. Thank you taylor :) stay strong girl!! Btw I love all your pets!!!
Taylor dont apologize for talking too much or giving your opinion this is a very important topic and i know nothing about drugs and addiction and i still watch everything because these are the topics most people never understand and i know there is people who find this so helpful, i proud of you girl ❤️
decided to pin that there are two different debates about what causes this cycle of addiction.
there's the debate that it's caused by the disordered thinking that comes with having this illness, and
there's the debate that picking up drugs CREATES this pattern of thinking due to the way drugs stimulate the reward pathway.
I personally have been taught that there are people who react to drugs differently than another group of people, and that some people will feel none of this cycle when trying drugs.
I've been taught that someone may use drugs for pleasure over and over, and then become addicted, while people with this illness and disordered way of thinking can pick up once and feel immediately as if they absolutely need more and their life immediately starts to revolve around drugs. in my rehab, some of the doctors lectures even contained brain scans and studies that document the difference between an addict brain and a non-addict brain. Due to this being the knowledge that helped me discover sobriety, it's currently the way I go about repeating the information to others.
when i have a doctor on, i plan to ask him all these questions personally.
i want to do these occasional videos where i share what i learn in rehab and IOP, but i like to stick more to stories of my own recovery as much as possible since there's so many different studies out there going against one another about how addiction works.
Regardless of if this pattern stems from illness or stems from the drugs, it's a very real cycle that people do experience, and is worth understanding if you know that you have a problem with drugs or alcohol yourself. This way, you can pay attention to where you believe you are mentally on this cycle, and try to avoid crossing the line over to where you lose control.
Keep it up Taylor! You go girl!
"You have to chase sobriety like you chased addiction" - Jessica Kent
A good friend of mine just died, from heroin overdose, 2 nights ago. I just randomly found your video today, and I just wanted to let you know I really appreciate you posting this. I know you said you aren't 100% perfect at the whole addict thing (I am not either, but luckily, as of now, am a year sober) but this video really did help me process some things in my mind that I have not even been able to think about. Thank you! Love you and I love your videos and I really hope you are able to stay well! You deserve it!!!!! 💜
4:23, would those questions just have to be about drug and alcohol addiction or could they be about self harm addiction?
"there's the debate that it's caused by the disordered thinking that comes with having this illness,"
False. Enlarged receptors only allow for more deleterious effects, they do not cause the disordered thinking in themselves.
Please provide [citations] from primary research articles.
I feel like you've misunderstood. A normal brain vs an addict brain is not "someone whos addicted but doesnt have the addiction 'illness' vs someone who has the addiction illness and is an addict" the brain of someone addicted to drugs will look the same in a scan as anyone else addicted to drugs. this whole "someone who has this cycle of thinking after one drink is an addict" argument is completely unfounded. Do you realize that?
Lmao the people saying “mouthwash can’t be a trigger” don’t know what they are talking about. I work on an inpatient psych unit and see addiction all the time. We can’t have hand sanitizer on the unit because people dealing with withdrawal/addiction would actually drink it
Yep i can confirm this. I work at an in/ outpatient program.
I’ve heard about people drinking PERFUME!
@@sarahwoodward4453 yep. Its so sad
@@sarahwoodward4453 When my bestie went to rehab they took anything and everything with alcohol from peoples luggage, perfume, aftershave, hand sanitizer, so I think it must be a thing if they're that concerned. If that doesn't prove addiction is a real mental illness I don't know what does.
yes mouthwash can be a trigger my friend works in mailibu i forget what its called but its way expensive
The hate comments are seemingly out to trigger your relapse and downfall. Stay above it. The better you do, the harder they'll come. See it as a sign of your growth. Misery loves company. Congratulations on your success! Xxx
D F this comment is important
Just remember how great the drugs make you feel.
@@henryhunt5846 Your parents must be so proud of having bred something like you.
Anna jensen I’m sure her parent are proud of making some shooting up junkie too.
Theres a difference between hate comments, and asking someone to be accountable for their actions first before telling others how to recover, especially when they haven't even been in recovery for a year. The #1 rule in NA as a newcomer is to sit down & shut up, she needs it!
Awwww I’m so glad you’re doing this girlfriend ❤️🖤
Christina Randall you are such a great supportive person, Grandma ❤️
I am glad you are here supporting another great youtuber love you Grandma Christina♥️♥️
So supportive I love your videos ily grandma❤💛💚
Taylor and Christina???? My two favorites
Love you guys! You guys should collab
I love how when she messed up on the stick figure instead of erasing it she turned it into a snow man. An adaptable queen.
I truly feel like this should be taught in depth like this in schools instead of the DARE program. Personally when I was taught the DARE program I was young and all I remember them telling me that drugs were bad and dont do them.
Same here. I remember being shown the absolute worst case scenarios of what addiction looks like and it was very mean spirited like "look at these mug shots of yucky meth addicts, that's going to be you if you so much as look at drugs of any kind". It was extremely dehumanizing and looking back I feel bad for the people who's photo's were shared, I don't imagine they consented and were real human beings who didn't deserve to be humiliated and shamed like that. I've met a lot of addicts who don't "look like" or "seem like" addicts and are/were so ashamed to ask for help because of the shame and stereotypes associated with addiction that are only perpetuated by the DARE program in schools. I really wish they'd understand that guilt and shame are the fuel to the fire that is addiction, let's teach kindness, compassion and understanding instead and teach some useful knowledge.
Same here, except my program was called CHAMPS
Unfortunately they don’t do dare anymore thanks to all the parents complaining , just like they don’t do scared straight programs by taking kids to prisons to scare them. Again why? Thanks to all the parents complaining. It’s a good idea and I agree being sober for almost 10 yrs in October but it won’t happen.Thank u complaining parents. (Being totally sarcastic)
I did outpatient
Had to do weekly counseling
I refused group meetings because most people were court ordered to go and weren’t trying to be sober and I didn’t want to put myself in that situation of having access because I could smell the heroin on their clothes and perspiration
My counselor told me 1 out of 100 addicts will get sober and stay sober
1! Out of 100!
That stuck in my mind to help me and I’ve been 14 years sober from all opiates as well as losing my fiancé at the time to addiction had put my life into being important and to actually live and get sober
You’re such a good teacher. This is your purpose in life. To help others who are going through the same thing you went through/are going through. I’m so proud of you Taylor🖤
Lea Danelle thank you so much angel 🥺 this is my first video trying to come from an educational stance on all of this so this means so much to me ❤️
@@taylordeanvlogs7088 incredible video! Excellent work, TY! ❤️
Lea Danelle agree 100%
Taylor Dean Vlogs you're the teach everyone needs in their lifes , sensei no jutsu 👍🐢🐱🐝👏👍❤️💜😂💙💚❤️💝❣️💛💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
You know most of the things presented as 'fact' in this video are false right? This is not how addiction works.
My mom is a psychologist and she got her PhD specializing in addiction treatment, specifically for heroin use! You’re one of the only influencers she likes, and I agree. You know what you’re talking about, you don’t bullshit, it’s amazing!! So glad you’re putting truths out there, so many influencer “advocates” spread false information and it hurts my soul.
I’m cheering for you xx
Octavia F. You and your mum are exceptional human beings. Much love to you both.
Nice to know that I'm not the only one who uses the magnet as an eraser when there wasn't one.
your story is partly what inspired me to get clean, and now I’m 45 days sober. so please keep making & sharing these type of videos! they really do help people. Ignore the trolls, baby!
that makes me so happy, truly!! it means so much to me to hear that i've been able to help other people struggling by sharing my story,
but my story being enough to inspire you to actually get sober??? that's absolutely amazing.
don't ever ignore for a fact that even though my story helped inspire it, that it was you who had the strength to say "i've had enough" and get help, that takes absolutely amazing strength from within!!
I hope life continues to look up for you, just keep taking it a day at a time and keep fighting for your life and I know it will. :')
Thank you again for your support, it means so much.
Congratulations! This comment was 2 months ago, so how are you doing now? I hope you are still sober and getting some help. Praying for the best for you!
Hey Kayla, how are you? Much love to you
I was actually diagnosed with OCD and an anxiety disorder. It's really interesting to see how much they have in common with addiction. You also do an amazing job talking about mental illness
I’m watching this right now and absorbing every bit of information like a sponge
Thank u for listening 🥺🥺❤️
my crickets heard your crickets and-
well, guess what happened
Isa _ your icon is freddie mercury... i love you and respect you ❤️🥺
I thought it was a child sound...but crickets make more sense!
Lol
Taylor you are so right. It’s called Substance Abuse Disorder. Not every alcoholic or drug abuser has Substance Abuse Disorder. Like you said SAD is when you are obsessed with getting high/drunk off of pretty much anything. I’m so sorry people are so rude to you and so judgmental and misinformed. It seems like you’re taking it in stride, I’m proud of you. You’re so smart you could be a teacher you explain things so well. Keep up the good work!
Whoever is hating you and saying that you are bragging about being in a “special group” are insane. You went through so much, and finally got help. I don’t know how someone can say those things to someone, knowing or not knowing your story. You are so strong, we are so proud of you!
I know right? I even saw a video (accidentally) that said she is dangerous towards teens especially and commented on that sentence,they really love taking things out of context!
Exactly just think about it this way. They are basically jealous of you bc you were addicted to something and even though they are not clinically insane they clearly got issues so stick to being you girl
Yeah that’s totally ridiculous! I’m apart of a recovery group and it makes a huge difference and it really helps a lot! Anyone against it are just jealous or sick in their own mind!
I have had people say the same thing but I own it
Yes I am special I chose to save myself!!
Me during the intro:
*trying to read along to Taylor speaking and realizes she’s not reading, then gets confused again at the freshly sober part then realizes again shes not reading from it*
*is lost*
I am a recovering heroin addict of 7 years now, I also smoke weed that's all I do I don't drink now with that being said I would NEVER advise someone who's newly clean ever touch anything including weed, I didn't use anything for my first year about and that's not a guideline I'm just sharing this, I knew I was at a point where I could trust myself and had a support system to watch me very closely. However when I smoked after being freshly clean once it made me obsess to the point of having a panic attack, took a xanx trying to just aviod opiates, blacked out and came to using heroin on my couch. Do not push anything on anyone ever and anyone who has under a year clean is so fragile anything could push them over the edge just don't do it. Anyways I just thought to share this, proud of u taylor keep it up!
I think once you're and addict for one drug or alcohol and have used for a long time you end up becoming addicted to almost everything. I was addicted to heroin back a long time ago but anyway went through withdraws on a 3 day bus ride from Jersey to Texas. I ended up getting a job at a restaurant pretty quickly and started drinking. And I think with heroin when you stop using there is an emptiness inside you, but anyway I became a bartender and dealt with alcohol addiction for 12 years. I've been sober for 6 years now, I wish I could smoke weed without getting paranoid but it's always done that to me. It's funny she is talking about everything I am writing as I'm listening.
I'm really loving these addiction/recovery videos, you always seem so passionate about the subject and I enjoy you teaching me about a topic that I don't know much about ❤
I have learned lots as well in case I ever decide to go into counseling.
the vibe you're throwing out to try and help so many people with the illness of addiction is positive energy that will return to you, those people that really need to send out condescending hateful immature stuff about you...guess what energy will return to them... keep up the videos, i really gain alot from them thank you, bless you :)))))
Amén!
@@JohnDoe-mv2be okay whether thats right or wrong, that excuses people for being rude and negative towards her for atleast trying to help? that logic is the funniest ish i can witness from people who are bitter
@@JohnDoe-mv2be what has she said that is leading anyone astray????
I was so worried because you didnt post for a while im happy you posted
Same I was worried too, I'm so glad she uploaded!!
Spooky Spooky I know right im glad she is staying sober
Earthling1984 i meant heroine
Earthling1984 if she gets back on that then she has to start all over she is doing better not the best but better which is good also were are your sources
Earthling1984 hmm I checked it....i dont see anything do you have a date?
Thank you for using your platform to educate people about addiction!! I wish more people would speak out about addiction to end the stigma! I have been clean since June 2nd and rehab saved my life!!
This really helped me understand my mom’s alcohol addiction. Thank you
So sorry to hear your mother has that issue. I pray and hope she can get help and reover well.
I would so much rather hear this information from someone who has experienced the cycle, like you, than from someone who hasn’t. Experience makes you a better teacher imo. Thank you for spreading the information about this.
Empathy far outweighs the sympathy in this instance. Empathetic people usually do make the best teachers in life
Girl you’re going from strength to strength. You got this! (The girl who left her addict fiancée and is living a happier life now cause of the strength and hope you gave me) xxxx
You’re making it easier for me to understand my husband. He just relapsed again and it absolutely broke me. I don’t know what my role is in this, how to help him as his wife. It’s obviously not my job to fix it. But I want to be supportive and not part of the problem pushing him towards relapse. But hearing a lot of this helped me understand it’s not always a choice.
At least you are sober ! Stay sober too that will help! I lost my relationship because we both were addicts and we were co dependent! Just be there for him but do not enable!
@@sassyitalian3157 I ended up leaving him. I caught him smoking fentanyl in the room with our door locked when he was supposed to be watching our kids while I worked. I was the only one working and he couldn’t even look after our kids.
i think everyone has a hole and everyone deals w it differently to make it feel better like shopping or excersizing but some people get other things like drugs and alcohol to numb it which is why i think people hating on addicts is so dumb bc everyone numbs the pain or ignores it one way or another so why would you hate on someone who does it another way than yours?
We all do something in excess. It's hard to do everything in moderation. We want to feel good. We don't want to feel pain or sadness. It's hard to live 100% perfectly.
Her point was that for some of us, it’s an allergy
I think too some people might have a small hole whereas addicts have a bigger hold
“Shame doesn’t help” ooh girl that applies to sooo much in life 🙌
I've been "sober" (I've been in methadone treatment for 13 months) for 4 months....it took me awhile to stop using opiates completely even when on methadone. Anyways, the "hole" analogy makes so much sense. I have had that since I was in my teens...and the only thing that ever came close to "closing/filling" it was opiates...it's definitely been a huge struggle for me...and the thought of the future when I eventually will need to get off methadone, is terrifying...I just hope that by then I will have the tools I need to stay clean...
I was a heroung addict for almost 8 years and now I've been clean for nearly two, with the help of methadone maintenance. If you are living a healthy lifestyle, going to therapy(because lets face it, ALL addicts can use therapy and treating addiction without treating your mental health leads to failure) and just overall functioning without the old junky nad habits then you're clean in my book. I taper off of the methadone every week, one or two mgs at a time. Do it slowly and you'll get there. Right now I'm at an AMAZING clinic that offers free methadone, and they blind dose you. So, they dont tell you what mg you're at and taper you without letting you know. Genius right? Completely eliminates the whole mental part of tapering off of it. You can do it. I swear that if I was able to, then anyone can. I have faith that people can recover and make better changes.
I never comment on videos but this “series” is amazing, it’s so eye opening and I don’t understand how people can hate on someone who’s only trying to get better and is using their personal experience to help others, which is also extremely brave !!!
Thank u for posting this it’s helped me understand my addiction in the past. I’m 9 months clean from iv heroin. And this video made me realize I still need to get help and support through this. I thought I could do sobriety on my own but I still have my big black hole. Btw you’re doing great! So happy for you that you’re sober. 🖤🖤💜🤘🏻
that makes me so happy to know that you're open to seeking some extra help!
my therapist told me that she knows of people who made it sober for even a year before relapsing that didn't receive any help. Basically they were successful until something pushed their "black hole" over the edge and they immediately picked up where they left off a year ago. So that's why it's important to try to get help even if we feel like we're doing ok on our own. It doesn't have to be anything major, just some therapy or even simply going to meetings or something to help you talk about your personal "black hole" and help it get smaller.
Regardless, 9 months is absolutely amazing and I hope life continues to look up for you!
Taylor Dean Vlogs 💜😊😊
i just made it 6 years and just relapsed. i definitely think the fact that i didn’t get help and just used subs for a month with zero therapy or groups ended up being my downfall. i didn’t learn any coping skills, and i was still allowing myself to drink/ do other things because “it wasn’t my DOC”
i’m now in an IOP for my regular mental health, and a special program for my substance abuse, along with suboxone therapy. i feel much stronger than i ever have and i’m ready to kick this. having a stable support system is key, even if you don’t think it is. it took me 6 years to understand that. i’m so proud of you both!
Crickets are like the trolls of the pet youtuber world. lol
Not sure if you’ll ever read this BUT I want to come out here and say THANK YOU for using your platform to educate and spread awareness. Even if people/professionals debate addiction and its causes, you are doing the right thing by removing the taboo from this topic. Keep doing you and know that so many people appreciate you and what you are doing. I have been affected by addiction and I can personally say I am so thankful for what you do and am continually impressed by your relentlessness and passion to educate others. Sending love always!
Wow this is such a great explanation. I'm a therapist and am sober myself. This is a really great perspective and so brave of you to share.
Taylor, thank you for videos like this. My brother’s an addict and has been most of my life. He’s been in and out of rehab 4 times and i’ve found him overdosing 3 times. It’s probably the most traumatizing thing i’ve ever seen. We’re still working on our relationship and he’s learning how he needs to apologize and take responsibility for what he put us through. It’s been hard to try and understand and take a step back to realize he never did that on purpose. These videos really help understand his brain more and why he does the things he does. It doesn’t excuse any of the manipulation of trauma he put us through but it is at least a bit easier to handle when i can understand his brain a little more. Love you and keep up the great videos 💖❤️
I'm glad that while this can help you in a way begin to understand some of how his brain works, that you still know it doesn't excuse the trauma, because it absolutely doesn't. Once an addict gets better, if they decide to work the steps, one of the 12 steps is making amends to all those you've hurt and wronged during your addiction. It's crucial for an addict to face their wrongs and make them right, or at least acknowledge and apologize for the pain they've caused. You deserve healing, and I hope you can find support systems that can help you discover some peace with that situation. I hope the best for you and your family, thank you for leaving a nice comment and being open to understanding such a sensitive topic in your life!
I love how this is explained in a way for anyone to understand.
I hope people won’t try to put u down by saying its not accurate information or that u are not the right person to be explaining that.
Thank u so much for the engaging video as always ♥️
If anything she is the perfect person do share this info bc it was professionally taught to her AND she had her own experience
Girlll the fact that people are upset about you saying that certain people can do a drug and not become addicted while others do it and will become addicted is wild!! It's a literal fact!! Like when people are prescribed opioids -- for some people, taking it makes them feel sick and they hate it; for some, it doesn't do anything other than treat their pain; and for others, it makes them feel really good, and they crave that euphoria and continue to seek out the drug so they can feel that high again. Drugs literally affect different people differently. People really be out here getting angry at you for sharing facts?? Screw that lmao. Please continue spreading your knowledge! It's so valuable!!
When I was deep in meth I never understood when I'd ask people if they could get on for me if they would say "Oh nah I don't do it anymore", I'd always think 'I didn't ask you to do it, I asked you to get it'. But now that I've stopped I understand it so deeply... You can't get it, because seeing someone else doing it makes you think "I can do it just this time", but you can't. I can't start because I won't stop.
this helped me understand SO MUCH about what i'm going through. thank you so much Taylor. you are so genuine and kind. also you apologize so much and that makes me know you're not trying to offend anyone.. I love your honesty.
Addiction has caused so much hurt in my family and I’ve been exposed to the reality of addicts at a young age. I’m not sure when but I became really interested in the functions of addiction so it helps me emphasize with those in my family that have gone through it, this helps a bunch thank you sm!!
I’ve been watching TH-cam since before I’ve dealt with addiction, but this is the first time I’ve been so excited and happy about watching a channel. I have been somewhat emotionally involved in channels but this is something I relate to so much that i feel like will change my life.
It's absolutely baffling to me that people who claim they're "worried" about addiction and recovering addicts come at one of these recovering addicts with such "sweet" words of criticism and "collaborate" so much for their mental health...
So happy that you’re over 5 months strong with fighting your addiction♥️♥️♥️ I’m always sending my love and thinking about you‼️‼️
I’m so happy you’re opening up about this, I’ve followed you for a while and I’m going through the same thing
Edit: yeah mouthwash can definitely be a trigger- I ended up chugging mouthwash because of that
cat lathram stay strong, friend. you can do it, I believe in you! 💕
I pray you remain strong and that you have a full recovery!
It definitely can be. I don’t struggle with addiction but I do want to know lots about it. I am a very curious person and I want to be a surgeon. And I know that has nothing to do with anything I knowing how the human brain works is actually really helpful that is why you can’t have mouthwash or hand sanitizer or things like that when in early stages of recovery. Let me know if this is true. I read somewhere that addicts can’t use bubbles bc they will try to drink it
I am so sorry that you have had to deal with that much vile hate and disgusting comments.
You have done an amazing thing in getting clean, and that you are now using your knowledge and platform to share more awareness of it addiction is amazing.
Proud of you
the queen uploaded, I have no choice but to stan
Taylor it makes me sick that people choose to attack you when you are trying to help others while helping yourself. I have experience with addiction counseling and understand that helping others gives you a sense of purpose. That is why I do it. The major lesson that I learned is that you can't save everyone. I say this because of your haters. Before I accepted that I wasn't personally responsible for other's failures, I was able to help more people. Also people should understand that interventions or treatments are like diets, you have to find the one that works best for you. Love you. Keep your head up
My sister talked about Dr. Boone a lot after she went to La Ha, really looking forward to him being on your channel if y'all can work it out.
he seemed to have so much wisdom! I'm excited to get this planned out :)
i adore you please keep your head above water and ignore those idiots. you’re ALLOWED to avoid those negative websites. i know how frustrating it is seeing thousands of people twist your words, but honestly it’s not worth justifying yourself to people who won’t listen. your true followers will always be here for you- you don’t owe anything to anyone! keep up the good work love
That is sick that there are people who are saying stuff like that about you. Some people have no idea what addiction TRULY is😩 Love you and proud of you as always 🥳😘
I’m on the same medication you are & it’s so nice to see someone with a platform speaking about it & addiction in general.
So many misunderstandings of suboxone & recovery.
I love your videos & I hope you continue to make them in the future bc it’s always a pleasure.
Always recovering!
I would go to Maine with my parents some weekends and that would be my “dry time” but then I would obsess and look for drugs there. Couldn’t find any and would get high as soon I came home. I did this soooo many times, the cycle is so real.
I watched you for years. I'm so happy to see you smiling, laughing again. You look like you fell in love with life again and I'm proud. I'm personally not an addict but I love learning about addiction.
Please don't ever quit trying to raise awareness about mental issues and addiction!
I'm sending you soooo much hugs and love as it can be imaginable!
"i guess some cocktails have straws we idk we stan a fancy alcoholic" i- lmaooo
Please please don't stop making these videos, you have been so encouraging and inspiring, I'm recovering myself and it feels so good to see someone making content on these matters. Your amazing girl ❤
I’m so glad you made this. I used it as a way to explain addiction to my boyfriend and when though I’m sober i want it
This video was extremely helpful as I am a recovering addict.. I never understood why I went back to heroin. This makes so much sense and has opened my eyes. Thank you and I hope you’re doing well!
Love the light you've brought on the subject of addiction. It's so important that people learn
I have severe OCD and that was a really real reference for me and I got really emotional. It wasn't until now I actually realized why an addict can't put down. I thought I understood but this made me understand as much as I possibly can.. I am so impressed and proud of you for getting clean
Keep doing these videos! I love them, congrats on your sober time. I just celebrated 1 year of sobriety the other day. It's so awesome to see more and more people on TH-cam talking about addiction ❤❤ love you lots and so proud of you!
one year is so amazing!
thank you so much, keep taking it one day at a time. I'm so happy when I hear success stories, you all inspire me so much :')
My best friend had a huge opiate/heroin problem that started from coke sort of similar to you and this video truly made me understand so many aspects of his addiction that i never understood. He overdosed and died about 2 years ago, and i couldnt help but feel guilty about not helping him more, but videos like this are so eye opening and comforting. thank you so much! keep it up, you are so strong beautiful and loved.
for the people that still dont understand:
Anyone can become addicted to a substance yes, but not everyone is born with the mental illness of addiction
Uhhh no that's not how it works
@@AnnaPlaysViolin how so?
Isn't that a contradiction? The whole point of someone being addicted to a substance means they have an addictive personality which is a mental thing that someone is born with?
Anyone can develope a drug dependence simply for misusing even a prescribed drug, example my father a veteran was put on a pill for anxiety and PTSD, they discontinued that pill a few months after he began taking them, he has to stop taking them cold turkey which caused his whole body to react and he began to have withdraws, chills, fever, vomiting, dizzynes etc. He has never been a drug addict, he does not look for drugs or feel the want to try them or feel the attraction for it, he takes them because he medically needs them and still he had developed a dependence. That being said, if you do some more digging and read, when I say not everyone is born with this mental illness that is addiction I mean that for example fetal alcohol syndrome, or neonatal abstinence syndrome, these are addictions a baby is born with and are then at higher risk of when they are older having a drug addiction if they ever try any substance, there have been studies that show that there are predisposed hereditary genes that can make a person more likely to be a addict then others, yes both are something caused by chemical changes to the brain, but some people are mentally already born with the nature of becoming dependent of a substance while others are not but develope it WITH use of drugs whether that be prescribed or just "for fun".
I would correct the original statement to say that anyone can become physically dependent on a drug or substance but not everyone will become addicted. Addiction is a process, it has a cycle and there's massive mental aspect to it. Dependence is mostly physical. When you begin using drugs/substances to numb/cope/hide/deal with pain and trauma that is when you step into addiction territory. Using percocet to manage a broken leg isnt an addiction, etc.
As a sister to 2 brothers who battle/battled addiction (we lost our baby brother to an overdose 5yrs ago) I Absolutely love what you are doing. Thank you for sharing your journey as well as your info/advice. Sending Lots of Love & Positivity your way sweetie. Your doing AMAZING things. ❤
thank you for trusting us with your views and experiences on such a sensitive and personal topic. we love you so much, support you so much, and are so excited to see you grow and fllourish. You're a titan, babe.
Im really new congrats on 5 months im also in recovery been clean since 2004 your doing a great job keep the videos coming u are helping so many people
Thank you for talking on this❤
Im currently 4 years clean off of morphine and other opiates❤ im so proud of you and your recovery!
How did they finally get you off all the opiate pain meds? Did they just ween you off, or did they replace it with other medications?
I’m really proud of you for being on this journey and for putting this out there. I wish you never had to go through any of this but it’s amazing and wonderful that you’re turning this into such a positive for everyone, yourself included. I’m here with you on this journey, you are not alone ❤️
Ah! I’ve been waiting on these kinds of videos. I’ve been so interested and i’m super glad you’re opening up !!❤️
As the sister of a brother in recovery I only very recently became “comfortable” enough to actually research and watch videos about how addiction works. I’d feel sick to my stomach when I’d see your notifications pop up on your pet channel after your “the truth about everything” video (I’m a subscriber) bc anything I could correlate in my mind with drugs, recovery, relapse etc made my anxiety sky rocket and I felt instant panic and worry. It’s like even I as a family member felt sick in my own skin. …but now after accepting my brothers diagnosis as a reality I want to thank you for going out of your comfort zone and making videos like this. Even the little details like the funny music tune playing in the background goes a long way for those of us who are afraid to even begin to venture into our research etc. I believe everything happens for a reason and I have told this to my brother -“the best possible outcome you could ask for out of all of this is to help others who are where you once were.” I say the same to you too, Taylor. May God continue to bless you and your gift of educating others about on all things💕
I can’t even put into words just how proud I am of you!! By using your voice and being so open about your experience with addiction you are helping so many people!! Keep on the path of sobriety ✌🏻🤍 you’re amazing💙
You are a natural born educator. I believe greatness comes out of the darkest times in ones life and I believe you had to go through this to help so many others.
I'm not an addict of drugs, alcohol or sex, but I can relate to having the "yuck". Sometimes I get in the mind to try something to ease the thoughts, like the things I just listed. It can get obsessive. Especially when I'm alone and everyone around me does it. But I always stop myself and find a healthier remedy. I'm so lucky to have good people to help with that and that I know I can rely on. I'm glad to hear (as unfortunate as it is) others feel this way too. I'm so happy for you and your process! Stay strong!
The last time I wore a strapless bra it was so awful that it finally pushed me to try bralets and they are now all I wear. I'm now all like, F bras. They're hassle.
Strapless bras are the devil
But bralets also aren't strapless?
Kim Wheeler S A M E
What is a bralet? I Googled it but it looks like a ....bra.
@@Boutys_mom well it sort of is. I guess it's a name for a type of bra really.
I'd say the definition is that is has a straight elastic band at the bottom, going all the way round & no wire. As opposed to other bras which usually just have the elastic at the back and then are shaped at the front, with cups, often padded, and usually with wires.
Bralets are similar to a sports bra but they squash your boobs in less. They are sooo much more comfy than the underwired t-shirt, push up or strapless bras that I used to wear!
Wait wait wait no matter what a drink is a drug period. Drinking is a relapse, smoking is a relapse, using is a relapse. I love you and am so proud of you for continuing on in your journey BUT I’ve been clean 3 + years in NA and your disease is lying to you right now. You haven’t done heroin in 5+ months but that isn’t having 5 months sober in any way. The sooner you get honest with yourself the sooner you can continue to grow and move forward. You’re doing incredible and helping so many others but i can’t not point this out
426ZZZZ I was on suboxone for 5 years before getting off it so I do feel that whatever works for you works for you BUT the terminology of being sober for 5 months means you’ve had continuous sobriety for 5 months straight and that’s not true. She could say 5 months heroin free instead cause I don’t want anyone thinking they can drink in safety because someone else was able to the first time they picked up. The worst thing that can happen is relapse without consequences. I’d rather be safe then sorry!!!!!!!!!!!!!
She literally says people are different and to not shame. If she was able to safely try a drink, while letting people know and without any consequences of setting off her addictive cycle. Then yes I do believe she was sober. In the same way she was talking about people stopping the drug but not getting help being called dry and not sober. Then I believe if she safely tried it once, knew the issues and seaked help to stop going the addictive path and didnt, then she is still sober. She even stated that she did not wish to do it again and doesn't think it is worth the risk, she also stated some people can drink when they have substance addiction. Literally part of the cycle she showed was shame, please don't contribute to that. She is clearly seeking help and going on her own journey. I don't know what you were trying to achieve with your comment, but just because you experienced something, doesn't mean someone else will. Also there is no point shaming someone and telling them to stop lying to themselves
I genuinely learn so much from these videos and you seem so passionate about it. I'm really proud of you
A close family member of mine struggles with alcohol addiction. I really value your inside knowledge of the subject from an addicts brain. It would be amazing if you could talk about how to help an addict that doesn't want help 🙈
Taylor, you really make me want to be sober. you explaining this out, it really puts a lot into perspective for me, like I’m in tears. I keep downplaying my problems with jokes or just by saying I’ll be sober one day, or hey I still have a job, but I’m taking drugs with me to work. So I just don’t know life without it ever since 8th grade when I took my first hit of weed, my brain even obsessed over that, and it just escalated over time, to this day. I’m haunted by multiple substances, even in my dreams when I’m withdrawing. I just don’t know where to begin.
the depression comparison really helped me to better understand, thank you
I love how TH-cam works...I'm glad i found you. I'm glad you started this vlog. You have a beautiful soul and you are making an important impact on other people's lives.
Am I the only one that is really proud of her? 😭
I am so proud of her and how far she has come! I listened to her previous video about recovering and how she goes toIOP and it sounds like she is getting a great amount of help! It takes courage and will power to do that.
Definitely not
I am soo proud of her
I’ve been dealing with really bad anxiety and depression. I’ve never been an addict but these videos somehow help out with my mental state. You inspired me to get help and better myself. I’ve been planning to move back home with my mom, going to college, and am getting a doctor so I can try and fight it! Please keep making video like these to inspire others just like you have with me
You are very blessed Taylor. I’ve been wanting to do a channel like this to explain addiction and talks about my experience but I didn’t have any sort of a following or anything( I know that takes time and hard work that I just don’t have time for) but with your awesome animal channel you were able to transition into this channel and share some amazing things. Maybe this is why you had to go thru heroin addiction, so you are able to teach others about addiction. I used heroin for 5 years and now I work at a rehab and I am going to school to be a counselor(of course because everyone who gets cleans does haha)
I just think what you are doing is very cool.
Once I understood the pharmacology and physiology behind addiction and how my brain reacts made sooooo much more sense to me. I like how you explained all of this is simple terms. You did great!
You're so right. She did so well at explaining all of this so simply. I too am a recovering addict, I used for nearly 8 years and I'm celebrating 2 yrs clean in February. And you're SO freaking right about recovering then wanting to become a councelor haha I want to help other addicts as well. Taylor is extremely blessed and is using her platform for so much good.
Courtney Pitts congrats on your clean time! That’s amazing!
Haha yeah I love working at a rehab not being a counselor and seeing everything that being a counselor entails is aaaalooooot so I’m going thru the motions of school but still deciding if I want to work in a rehab or not.
I’m not an addict, never smoked or drinked, but this is so educational, and you speak very nice and at the same time its very entertaining. Love you Taylor, proud of you!♥️
Addiction can be anything! Sex, food, gambling, exercise, cleaning ,caffeine like everything!! I’m sure we all are addicts to something!
I’m also a heroin addict. Please keep making these videos.
Taylor, I'm a big believer in things happen for a reason! I swear your vocation now is to help and support addicts and more importantly to educate people of all ages and all walks of life. You are very knowledgeable on the subject, you've been there, done that! You are an amazing public speaker and speak in a way that is easy to understand....seriously this is your vocation. Keep up the good work and stay strong my lovely xx
The “yuck” is considered “Spiritual Malady”
yes! I thought that term might confuse people that don't go to AA, so I just didn't touch on it to begin with and then completely forgot to ever mention it.
Taylor Dean Vlogs you is so smart. Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise
I'm so proud of you Taylor! I've experienced minor addiction problems, but seeing your progress is so awesome! Already you seem so much better and happier!
Is one of those comments ‘wannabe junkie’? Wtf does that even mean. Anyway, you’re not any of those things, you’re a good egg that’s had a hard hard time. And I’ve been there but I’m also a good egg 🥚 great video, stay safe and stay sober ❤️❤️❤️🥚🥚🥚
God this reminds me so much of eating disorders/self harm. We learned about a similar cycle in terms of depression when I was hospitalized and it truly helped me understand so much about why I felt the way I did. I'm really glad to hear you speaking out about what you learned; you dont even know how many people you will help.
this is an amazing video Taylor. really insightful. people are always gonna try and twist your words just keep going 🖤
I have been through exactly what you've been through I lost EVERYTHING all family members everyone. I made the leap 3 years ago and have been sober every since it was the BEST decision. There's not another person in this world that can even begin to understand what, why, and how. I'm new here seen a video on VICE which brought me here. Your doing an amazing job and are a awesome teacher!
My mom was one of the first people to ever study suboxone
Wow that is really cool
That's amazing!
So happy your in a better place, this process isnt easy and you've done so well to get to where you are. Keep it up
It bothers me that your beanie piercing isn’t centered😭😭
Or that it makes her look like she had a unibrow. I didn't realize it was part of her damn hat until half way through the video. 🤦 I'm very happy it's on her hat lol.
Oh lawd... LOL
I was confused for too long. I heard her say beanie piercing.. But I still thought it was on her actual face. Didn't know HOW it went on there. LOL. What a silly hat!
I don’t really think it is supposed to be bc whenever she wears that beanie it isnt
Plus I like it like that
My feeling is that your content is so valuable to people who want to learn what you have to offer. Thank you for bearing your soul and sharing your personal story so deeply. you are an inspiration to this mother of an addicted young daughter 6 years on oxy. One day she will want help and be passionate about getting clean like you. Keep going in your recovery; you are worth it!
Straight up didn't even know there were crickets in the background of your video until I read the comments because the ones I use for feeding in my room are SO LOUD
Hey taylor I came across a video of yours on vice and wanted to say I know exactly what you went thru with addiction and how proud you should be of yourself to be clean and I know your strong enough to stay away for good! Long story short I was clean for almost 2 yrs and due to a horrible break up I ended up relapsing and struggled getting clean again. I am back on methadone and getting clean again and one day soon I'll be able to completely enjoy my life with heroin again. I just want to say thanks for making these videos and talking about this subject and letting people know that it's not an easy thing to get thru. Thank you taylor :) stay strong girl!! Btw I love all your pets!!!
You seem like you’d be an amazing sponsor to someone one day. ❤️
Taylor dont apologize for talking too much or giving your opinion this is a very important topic and i know nothing about drugs and addiction and i still watch everything because these are the topics most people never understand and i know there is people who find this so helpful, i proud of you girl ❤️
I'm so grateful for what you are doing! 🌟🌟🌟🌟🌟 Thank you for sharing your experience, strength and hope! ❤️