but i said no (traumacore - ⚠️trigger warning: mentions of n*d3s⚠️)

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  • @anabrr1123
    @anabrr1123 3 ปีที่แล้ว +807

    This hurts my heart. I didn’t even have the voice or confidence to say no. I feel guilty.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +94

      yea.. sometimes i feel guilty about it too.. i did say no at first but they just pressured me. and it got to the point where i just stopped saying no because i knew it wasn’t going to stop them. and i realise now that i could have just left, since i had the ability to do it at anytime. but the thought didn’t even cross my mind.. and i just feel guilty because of that sometimes

    • @anabrr1123
      @anabrr1123 3 ปีที่แล้ว +60

      @@meliitonin5443 we just have to remember that we were taken advantage of and no matter what.. its not our fault. never has been never will

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +43

      @@anabrr1123 yup! sometimes its hard to believe when you don’t love yourself.. but it’s true.. it was never our fault 💕

    • @桑燦
      @桑燦 3 ปีที่แล้ว +20

      I'm very sorry...

    • @alexcassanova9079
      @alexcassanova9079 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      People like this are nothing but a bunch of assholes who think of themselves and their body count

  • @H1N4_N1NJ4
    @H1N4_N1NJ4 ปีที่แล้ว +283

    I was never a victim of SA but I can imagine how painful it feels and My heart goes out to all of you who had to go through this.

    • @Wurmfortsatz000
      @Wurmfortsatz000 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      I don’t know if i was, I can’t tell it. Im unsure about a few situations

    • @beam5033
      @beam5033 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      ⁠@@Wurmfortsatz000can you tell me what happened (if you!re comfortable, if you’re not that’s COMPLETELY fine, ok?),maybe me or other people can identify if it is or not

    • @cheese7119
      @cheese7119 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      I was 11

    • @em2souls
      @em2souls 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      I wasn't physically sexual assulted but I was sorta groomed by another kid my age back in the past. they took advantage of my hormones during puberty and pressured me into doing things with him which I thought were normal, but actually weren't.. i still feel shame about it to this day.

    • @FrEaKyCheez-It
      @FrEaKyCheez-It 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      Same

  • @ImsoFslurrn
    @ImsoFslurrn 3 ปีที่แล้ว +400

    " stop complaining you liked it "
    " why are you always walking away from me?"
    " why did you hit me? You know you wanted it"
    " stop moving and panicking you wanted this"
    " why are you so paranoid around me? "
    These are the words of my cousin who assaulted me said.....

    • @oyasumiomori01
      @oyasumiomori01 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      oh my god....did you tell anyone about this i-i i hope your recovering donatello hamato hopes you get better

    • @salomeheredia9885
      @salomeheredia9885 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I'm sorry, hope you are better
      He shouldn't havbme done that to you, it's not your fault or something you deserve. Better if someome help you, but if not be sure you can talk to if you need too

    • @ciripagaming
      @ciripagaming ปีที่แล้ว +6

      "you're so pretty. whoever doesnt like you is stupid." while hugging me in a full adult force. i was 10.

    • @LadyVenus125
      @LadyVenus125 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      "Don't tell your grandma I'm doing this... It'll be our secret." I was 4-7.

    • @SkylarThompson-mu1qs
      @SkylarThompson-mu1qs 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@ciripagamingyg

  • @lilmissromantica
    @lilmissromantica 3 ปีที่แล้ว +618

    ackk this is probably one of the most accurate videos. i experienced this but was always shut out. thank you for making this!

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +41

      no problem!! and just know that you didn’t deserve to go through what you experienced.. because no one deserves to be forced to show their body like that.. the people in this world who force others to show their naked bodies are disgusting. they’re sick. and if you’re blaming yourself, then don’t.. because it’s not your fault. and i know that can be hard to believe. sometimes its hard for me to believe that it wasn’t my fault. but trust me, you aren’t the one to blame and you deserve so much better. you deserve to be with good people who won’t traumatise you like that ❤️❤️

    • @Moon_Silky
      @Moon_Silky 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Same here i was only in 6th grade..

    • @mrflockflock
      @mrflockflock 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@meliitonin5443 you make creepy videos but there nice

    • @桑燦
      @桑燦 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I'm sorry...I hope you feel better...

    • @koshoyt3839
      @koshoyt3839 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Same, I have experienced this too.

  • @avalynn.in.chains
    @avalynn.in.chains ปีที่แล้ว +167

    I’m so sorry. I can’t imagine how terrible this feels. Just know, im here for you and you aren’t alone. I hope you recover soon.

    • @kenngwong1705
      @kenngwong1705 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

      So kind of you😊😢

  • @skylarthompson299
    @skylarthompson299 2 ปีที่แล้ว +192

    I’ve never been through this or SA in general but feeling the emotions from this especially when wearing this made me realise that being a victim of something so horrible is like living in a horror show or endless nightmare….
    I’m sorry for everyone who suffered from SA or Peer Pressure of ab*s* or trauma in general….I hope you are all feeling better now and if something is holding you back then please….
    Either talk to them about how they are or cut them out entirely.

    • @Lianna_Is_Me
      @Lianna_Is_Me 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      thank you,
      the only problem is that I'm a minor they are my parents nobody would belive me if I told then I don't don't enough evidence they would flip my story and I would have nowhere else to go after there emotional and pychical abuse.
      and yes I am scared of getting sexually assulted

    • @skylarthompson299
      @skylarthompson299 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      ​@@Lianna_Is_Me I-I'm really sorry...You have your phone or cameras or hidden cameras in the house right?, Maybe you could show or film proof that they're abusing you, idk why they won't do anything but I understand that you got nowhere to go but maybe you could go to a friend's house or a family member's house or somewhere in foster care or child care, I'm sure someone would adopt you as their child/foster chid/child they have to guard (Guardian or parent.) and I hope they're nice. You could raise money for moving out and buying a new home and the basic necessities for either living alone or living with new people on a GoFundMe or commissions (not only for art or just drawing kind of art, but for a hobby you like such as cooking or whatever hobby you like or seem interested in.) (don't do or draw or make anything if you feel uncomfortable doing drawing or making something because it's of a certain thing then you don't have to, and don't let people overwork you or walk all over you or disrespects you or underpay you, they don't deserve your time.) or ask for help whenever it be a friend or a teacher or guidance counsellor or a trusted friend or trusted adult on where to stay either permanently or temporarily until you feel like you want to get on your feet.

    • @skylarthompson299
      @skylarthompson299 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@Lianna_Is_Me Have you told somebody now?….

    • @SkylarThompson-mu1qs
      @SkylarThompson-mu1qs 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@Lianna_Is_MeYg

  • @moonflower4352
    @moonflower4352 3 ปีที่แล้ว +440

    I know what it’s like.
    TW: s3xual @buse
    I was s3xual @bused my cousin when I was younger. I didn’t know it was s3xual @buse until like 4 months ago. I felt sick and gross and I hate him because I looked up to him.
    TW: ends here
    It’s an awful experience and I want no one to go through the same. But I want to let you know that it’s not your fault. They had no right to do that. I’m hoping you are feeling better.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

      thanks 💕💕 i’m doing better now, and i don’t feel the guilt anymore. which i’m glad! because all that blaming was emotionally draining. but yea, it’s a terrible experience.. i’m so sorry that your cousin did that to you.. i hope you’re doing better soon as well 💕💕

    • @howaboutfyou
      @howaboutfyou 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      same...

    • @Inactive_Acc123
      @Inactive_Acc123 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      my dad went to jail for that

    • @weezerriff
      @weezerriff 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      holy shit. this is exactly what happened to me. we were on a vacation, i thought it was normal. he called me his girlfriend and shit.

    • @桑燦
      @桑燦 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Sorry...I feel sorry for all of you who have experienced sexual abuse or any type of sexual trauma...I hope you feel better...

  • @FriendshipandPonies
    @FriendshipandPonies 2 ปีที่แล้ว +73

    God, this took me back to a place back in my teenage years. No matter how often I said no, he would continue.

  • @roachdolly4043
    @roachdolly4043 3 ปีที่แล้ว +155

    Now this is real traumacore.. im so sorry you had to go through this ♥️

  • @sosansational
    @sosansational 3 ปีที่แล้ว +182

    this hits very close to home and nearly brought me to tears as a survivor of sa.
    someone who i had a crush on in high school stalked me to the point of pressuring me into dating them and then would do things to me even after i told them not to and proceeded to stalk me more after i broke up with them

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +18

      i hope you’re doing okay, you never deserved that.. 💕

  • @Angel-o7x6x
    @Angel-o7x6x 3 ปีที่แล้ว +78

    I'm sorry and i can relate
    When i was younger, my classmate was perverted and he sexually assaulted me, i felt dirty and uncomfortable but he didn't stop even after i told him no, my teachers knew and they didn't do anything about him until he stabbed a pencil into my leg

    • @BaronTheBarberTv
      @BaronTheBarberTv 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Oh wow! That must’ve hurt. I’m sorry..😢

  • @manana7
    @manana7 3 ปีที่แล้ว +63

    the voices are so unsettling, it scares me ☹

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      ahh i’m sorry!! it wasn’t my intention to scare anyone!!

    • @DayanaMannaa
      @DayanaMannaa 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      It's supposed to be spooky

  • @nsscore
    @nsscore 3 ปีที่แล้ว +55

    the fact that this is exactly what happened to me when i was 12

    • @sashisnotreal
      @sashisnotreal 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jauntyhornsolo4285 thank you so much for the inspiring video, it really helped me. th-cam.com/video/dQw4w9WgXcQ/w-d-xo.html i would recommend this as well, it actually says to have cured depression.

    • @glasscannon4723
      @glasscannon4723 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@jauntyhornsolo4285lmfaoo

  • @madi_stellar
    @madi_stellar 2 ปีที่แล้ว +39

    I said no to them; they manipulated me in. I still feel awful about being in there and giving in. The things they sent me were absolutely disgusting. What’s even worse was they were 2 years younger, making me do all of this. Now they’re playing the victim card with my “ex friends”

  • @julie-chan9064
    @julie-chan9064 3 ปีที่แล้ว +72

    This brings back so many memories from middle I wish I could forget. And well I hope you guys don't mind I share my story...
    During 7th grade I really liked this guy who was older than me and we were really good friends until one girl I knew had to ruin it all and tell him I had feelings for him. He rejected me and it hurt me so much. And while I was feeling so heartbroken this boy took advantage of me... he kept bugging me asking me if I wanted to be his girlfriend and I was so emotionally exhausted I said yes. At first he seemed nice but the days past and he got really possessive. He would hold my hand super tight to the point it actually hurt. He touched me... everywhere. I could sometimes even feel his touch to this day and I feel like crying because of that. He even asked for... n*d3s. And I did it. And I hate myself for it. My mom found out about everything and well I was grounded for 3 months and he... he didn't get in trouble at all because he has done that before with other girls. For those 3 months I've never felt more disgusted in myself in my life. My friends even thought I was lying about this whole story. But it's been years since this incident and I've healed plenty but it still remember his touch and I feel disgusted by it.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      i’m so sorry this happened to you.. i’m glad that you’re doing better now =)

    • @Missy12392
      @Missy12392 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      All though I have had a similar problem your story was much worse and I’m so sorry that you had to go throw that.💗

    • @MrCkawair
      @MrCkawair 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I feel so bad but here’s a way if u see him again hold 1 thousand of holy water in front of him and throw it

  • @ActuallyAutistic631
    @ActuallyAutistic631 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    I actually just cried. It hurts especially for me and every other victim of SA. All seriousness aside, this is a very well made video. Thank you for spreading awareness of topics like this and i hope you yourself are feeling better as well.

  • @skylarthompson299
    @skylarthompson299 3 ปีที่แล้ว +367

    Are you okay? The desc makes me concerned and I’m sorry that someone horrible hurt you.
    It’s always must be worse when it’s someone you trusted.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +79

      well, ehh i don’t really know. but it really does hurt.. especially since this person used to be a friend. and then they accuse me of @bus3 and gr00m1ng and after that they act as if they did nothing wrong.

    • @skylarthompson299
      @skylarthompson299 3 ปีที่แล้ว +31

      @@meliitonin5443 But....they did just that....(As shown in the video) They just accused you for exactly what they were doing....God I’m so sorry....And I hope you’re doing better now....
      I hope you’re doing okay

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

      @@skylarthompson299 thanks, you’re so sweet and nice 🥺💕

    • @skylarthompson299
      @skylarthompson299 3 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      @@meliitonin5443 Thank you!

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@skylarthompson299 np!! =)

  • @calmingwisteria3718
    @calmingwisteria3718 3 ปีที่แล้ว +75

    I’m sorry you had to go through that. I hope the pain you experienced has slowly started to go away. Stay strong and don’t let a piece of shit like that destroy you completely, because you’re so much more than you might know. 💕

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      tysm 🥺💕 that was so sweet! i really appreciate it ❤️

  • @jashayharris2959
    @jashayharris2959 3 ปีที่แล้ว +55

    YOU HEARD ME SAY NO!
    YOU HEARD ME
    YOU HEARD ME
    YOU HEARD ME
    YOU DID
    I FEEL SO DIRTY BECAUSE OF YOU!!!
    I SAID NO!!!
    but you did it anyways...

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      i feel you.. i hope you’re doing okay

    • @jashayharris2959
      @jashayharris2959 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      im doing great! everything is doing well :)

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@jashayharris2959 i’m glad you’re okay =)

  • @koalacovers5531
    @koalacovers5531 3 ปีที่แล้ว +30

    omg this is basically what happened to me, my anxiety spiked but now that im in the comments i feel weirdly…comforted? this is weird but i feel better so thank you

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      no problem! i hope you’re doing better now 💕

    • @koalacovers5531
      @koalacovers5531 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      to be honest, it’s still affecting my daily life. im going to therapy and trying my best to get better but nothing really seems to be working. im hoping one day all of this can be one far off disgusting memory.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@koalacovers5531 i get how you feel.. it still affects me today as well.. but hey, give it time. it’s a good thing to get therapy! i think that would help you out! stay strong, you’ll get through it 💕

  • @linagarett
    @linagarett 2 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    This is super accurate. God, not only is the whole set up well done but the progression really tops it off.

  • @zetamewies
    @zetamewies 3 ปีที่แล้ว +25

    reminds me of those dreams i have where i'm stuck in a room or chamber or whatever for eternity.. usually something gross is happening when i'm stuck there... and old random memories flood... i love this, keep it up, real traumacore 💜

  • @movedchannels261
    @movedchannels261 3 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    "how could you do this to me?"
    ME
    M E
    M E
    "I'm sorry"
    sorry
    SORRY
    S O R R Y
    S O R R Y

    • @BaronTheBarberTv
      @BaronTheBarberTv 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      I-I didn’t mean to🥺. But don’t you worry.I’ll make it up to you.I’ll give you a nice big hug.Come here buddy.(hugs and kisses cheek)

    • @icecreal
      @icecreal ปีที่แล้ว

      what

  • @ramune_loves_four
    @ramune_loves_four 3 ปีที่แล้ว +57

    The hello kitty on tv scares me •~•

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Ahh I’m really sorry!! It wasn’t my intention to scare anyone!! >~

    • @ramune_loves_four
      @ramune_loves_four 3 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      @@meliitonin5443 nuu it's ok 🥺

    • @graycamellia7634
      @graycamellia7634 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@meliitonin5443 it scared me too, but the actual topic of the video was way more scary
      What kind of monster would r*** children?? I felt sick while watching the video. I hope you’re doing better right now mentally and physically. Sorry this reply was long :/

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      @@graycamellia7634 nothing physical happened to me. i was s3xu4lly harassed virtually. that's why the red hello kitty is on a tv. but i'm doing better now mentally! but sometimes i still think about them

    • @Im_doing_fine_thank_you
      @Im_doing_fine_thank_you 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@meliitonin5443 I’m so sorry you had to go through that, best luck to you! That person who did this can burn in the pits of hell :)

  • @tr0u6l3m4k3r
    @tr0u6l3m4k3r 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I feel so sick because I never wanted to do it thank you for making this

  • @lonemew3503
    @lonemew3503 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

    "I said no but you made me do it anyway.'' the amount of anger in that wavering text to speed tone. That line alone hit way too close..My heart goes out to anyone who had to suffer this kind of abuse, especially as someone who went through it, this was not your fault and you didn't deserve it

  • @toriwilliams8433
    @toriwilliams8433 3 ปีที่แล้ว +19

    i love saying no to someone older than me over and over and over about sending pictures but staying with them cause they were one of my only "friends", thank you for making this and im truly sorry too all that go through this.

  • @chipmunkalvin1million
    @chipmunkalvin1million 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    I’m so sorry. You should’ve never had to go through this. I’m so sorry that that person hurt you.

  • @Aiden492
    @Aiden492 ปีที่แล้ว +27

    This is why relationships are over rated.

  • @bottombarrelbudgetfilms1854
    @bottombarrelbudgetfilms1854 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I was told at the age of 12 "you're a boy, you should relax and enjoy it" and told my whole life "you're lucky" and "I wouldn't complain if it was me" etc etc etc

  • @foxu7380
    @foxu7380 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    I'm so sorry this happened to you. you're not alone, don't worry. I went through the same thing growing up, I wish I knew it was abuse at that time. But just like the rest of us, you didn't deserve any of it. It wasn't your fault. None of it was. *Hugs*

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      tysm! honestly, at the time this was posted, i really needed to hear that. i felt like it was my fault for what had happened, and honestly it was a terrible feeling

    • @foxu7380
      @foxu7380 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@meliitonin5443 you're very much welcome 💜 and yeah, it is a terrible feeling, especially when these sort of things stick with you for a long time. But it doesn't make you any less of a person. they forced you and it wasn't right, especially when they knew better. Your well being matters more than what they want. I know we barely know each other, but I know you are an amazing person, and you deserve so much better. I hope everything has been at least a bit better for you since then 💗

  • @gloria3019
    @gloria3019 3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    i’m so sorry that happened to you. i hope you’re feeling better. i can r3lat3

  • @shabrinaazemaf970
    @shabrinaazemaf970 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    this is very scary. i thought this was just a traumacore image or something but this is VERY scary. and im sorry if you have to went through this.

  • @ArtfulCosumDust
    @ArtfulCosumDust 3 ปีที่แล้ว +10

    I can relate to this. I never sent nudes to my predator thankfully, but he did make me pose fetish pics for him which I was unaware of. It also went like this.

  • @EuropaAndGanymedesApologist
    @EuropaAndGanymedesApologist ปีที่แล้ว +2

    This scares me so much. I am so sorry if you've been through this. I feel so bad my heart and head hurts.

  • @Lianna_Is_Me
    @Lianna_Is_Me 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    i have not been sexually assaulted or harassed but seeing everyone else has is heartbreaking I wish nobody would have to go throught that or feel pressured to do something there not comfortable with. CONSENT DOES MATTER PEOPLE TEACH YOUR KIDS THIS BEFORE ITS TOO LATE IF UR A PARENT WATCHING THIS COMMENT. I have a fear of intamacy abandonment issues emotional and some pychical abuse but I am constantly scared of getting sexually harrassed/assulted/abused in some way someday with my partner and I feel if I say no they won't like me or won't stay with me/pressure me into it and call me insults. I'm scared of getting lost again and never finding my way out into happiness again.
    the saddest part is that it's happening everyday yet so many people don't realize it.
    also sorry about venting about myself and others at the same time it's just if I don't I might snap!
    I havent felt myself or done anything in months I used to feel the need to please mom and be the golden child but now upon realizing she never loved me fills me with emptiness it's the same everyday. wasting my life away hoping someone online might help or at least relate to me. it's a daily fight I tell you and it makes you feel alone even if your not.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      i get that.. feeling alone can really bring an awful feeling of emptiness.. a lot of the times i feel unlovable and alone.. its awful.. i’m sorry about what you’re going through at the moment.. i hope it gets better

    • @Lianna_Is_Me
      @Lianna_Is_Me 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 thanks I wish you the same

  • @lilmisskristy5467
    @lilmisskristy5467 3 ปีที่แล้ว +55

    I went through something very very similar I'll say, in here for you if you ever need someone to talk to!

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      thanks!! you can also come here or to any of my other videos to vent if you feel the need to do so!! ❤️✨

    • @lilmisskristy5467
      @lilmisskristy5467 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@meliitonin5443 it's no problem! And thank you friend! And do have a good day!:0

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@lilmisskristy5467 aww!! you too have a good day/night!! 💕

  • @wiklu
    @wiklu ปีที่แล้ว +5

    Remember kids, never, NEVER have a relationship on internet with a person you don't know in real life.
    Because there's the chance of this to happen. It happened to me when I was 10 and it's kind of traumatic on your life (It is still haunting me nowadays and he was a grown man, that was disgusting luckly I think he never saw my face)

  • @Julia-wh1rp
    @Julia-wh1rp ปีที่แล้ว +5

    reading the comments I'm feeling really lucky, since it never happened to me, but somehow I managed to understand, I don't know, maybe from the sentences or the way they are written? i'm so sorry and I really feel very bad for all of you, you didn't deserve all this , you were probably just innocent children, i'm really sorry so much, i hope things like this never happen again, but I highly doubt it, I wish you all the best, because you deserve much better.

  • @tanjir0sxmp72
    @tanjir0sxmp72 3 ปีที่แล้ว +26

    ⚠️TW⚠️
    I remember a stranger asked me for N00dz
    And I was a minor (like 10-11)
    I knew it was wrong so I told them no
    They kept asking
    I blocked them and screen recorded the conversation and exposed them
    They deleted their account
    And I was going out with my mom to play arcade games or somth and this guy gave off MAJOR kidnapper vibes
    He stared at me as I went into the cafe/arcade
    And he came in 5 mins later
    I never took my eyes off of him
    I was afraid he was gonna snatch a kid
    I don’t know what I planned to do if that happened
    But I was gonna do something
    And I had a very close friend come over to my house and they told me to do- things, and I didn’t know it was bad (my dad says I was like- 3-4 when it happened)
    So now I have trust issues
    And an old guy at a restaurant was looking at me and my friends, he looked like he was imagining bad things about our bodies,
    But what I learned from this is not that everyone is out to get me, or that I’m just a toy,
    I’ve learned that I’m strong enough to get through this all on my own
    And I’m learning how to fight to protect myself just Incase
    I’m turning my trauma into Motivation to keep going and help others
    So I’m here if anybody needs a crying shoulder 🌸🐝✨
    Edit: thank you all for the support, I wanna cry (´༎ຶོu༎ຶོ`)

    • @mychemical_sunshine5879
      @mychemical_sunshine5879 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Aww I'm sorry, I. Know you can get through it!

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      you’re really strong and you seem like a kind person! i hope you’re doing well 💕

    • @mychemical_sunshine5879
      @mychemical_sunshine5879 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@meliitonin5443 are you okay, don't let that happen to you again, try and learn boundaries. It will be hard to say no when someone is so demanding but you can do it. They didnt seem like a good friend anyways hope your doing well!💕

    • @tanjir0sxmp72
      @tanjir0sxmp72 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 thank you, I’m doing better
      I hope you do well too

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@mychemical_sunshine5879 yea, i’m doing better! although i still think about them and even miss them sometimes. but i’m not planning on talking to them anytime soon

  • @unngjerde5064
    @unngjerde5064 26 วันที่ผ่านมา

    This is a very good video. It pretty accurately portrays years of manipulation in a short video. The aesthetic also fits with the theme of "this person makes everything wrong" you get when you're being abused.

  • @lemonaidvolts9479
    @lemonaidvolts9479 3 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    This whole thing gives off, a very familiar, bad vibe.
    The way it's paced
    ...

  • @mx.g1tchkrillindisguise989
    @mx.g1tchkrillindisguise989 3 ปีที่แล้ว +23

    Omg I hope you are still ok. If this actually happend to you I wish you the best ♥️

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      yea, it actually happened.. but i'm doing better now! thanks 💕💕

    • @mx.g1tchkrillindisguise989
      @mx.g1tchkrillindisguise989 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@meliitonin5443 that's good to hear

  • @Harrow567
    @Harrow567 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    That is so heartbreaking that that happened to you, and the fact that it happens to people in general it’s so sad

  • @starrydayz1436
    @starrydayz1436 2 ปีที่แล้ว +7

    my parents have always shelterd me too much, ive never been allowed to even have a boy look at me ANY BOYS/MEN ANY my mom was @bused at only 3 years old by her step grandfather (sick fucking lunaticc, by the way hes dead now, heart randomly stopped, and he was perfectly healthy...GODS REAL YALL) anyway yeah, most people my age have already hade at LEAST 7 diffrent boyfriends, when ive never hade any, never kissed anyone, never "did it" with anyone, also i have rules for clothing
    1. no shirts that are above my butt( they have to be long and cover my butt)
    2. no shorts above my knees if i must wear shorts
    3. dont even mention croptops never ever gonna happen
    4.not dresses without thick leggings and the dress must be below my knees
    my social rules
    1. no talking online( yet here we are :} also dont call me a bad daughter i have too do this too keep my sanity, im homeschooled, and hardly ever leave home, i have no friends, i have too talk to people i just HAVE TOO

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      hey, don’t worry, you’re not a bad daughter. you need to socialise somehow.. i’m sorry about your situation..

    • @starrydayz1436
      @starrydayz1436 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      aw ty

    • @MrCkawair
      @MrCkawair 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      So here’s my rules:1.do NOT voice chat if u do leave the game IMMEDIATELY step 2,if u see a person looking at ur *beep* body parts ask ur parents to leave but if u don’t have parents leave immediately but if ur in a restaurant eat fast and pay ur food faster step 3.NEVER ask to date anyone online cuz they’re prob BAS

  • @youcanbemycarelesswhisper
    @youcanbemycarelesswhisper 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    No means no
    No means negative
    No means I don't want to
    Its okay to say no
    Its okay not to feel comfortable
    Its okay to be uncomfortable
    Its okay to not be okay
    Its not okay to pressure someone
    Thats not going to be okay
    Its not okay to victimblame
    That's not going to be okay
    Its not okay to hurt someone
    That's not okay

    • @jauntyhornsolo4285
      @jauntyhornsolo4285 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I’ll keep that in mind next time I get arrested for sexual assault I didn’t realise you could just tell the police no lol

  • @howfishismade
    @howfishismade 3 ปีที่แล้ว +68

    this gives me bad memories good video though excited to see more in thw future❤️🧡💛💚💙💜🖤🤍🤎

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      thanks!! i’m really sorry if i triggered you in any way tho.. i hope you’re feeling alright ❤️

  • @yarnsabahsaat8deintiharede977
    @yarnsabahsaat8deintiharede977 3 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    Thank you for this

  • @Muqurbert
    @Muqurbert ปีที่แล้ว +2

    The Hello Kitty lore is insane

  • @nutterbutter865
    @nutterbutter865 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I was molested by my best friend in middle school. She just wouldn’t take no for an answer and threatened me if I didn’t say yes. She made me feel like it was all my fault. I’m older now and I’ve done a lot of reflecting. At first I didn’t realize it was sexual abuse but as the years passed I realized I never consented to any of that. I was a victim, and she took something that wasn’t hers. I hope everyone watching this is okay ❤️ you are safe now

    • @cassygore
      @cassygore ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am so sorry that you had to deal with that "best friend."
      Best friends should NEVER do something like that, let alone not take no for an answer.
      I seriously hope that you are okay now.

  • @braydenshorey8188
    @braydenshorey8188 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    I wish this trend didn't die.

  • @AsherBeHappy
    @AsherBeHappy 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I feel sorry. I could never say no to my abusive bf, he tried asking these things. Until i was always stronger then him. And fought back. Dont be afraid to do these things.

  • @doggiefame
    @doggiefame 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Remember: You’re not dirty if this happens to you, it’s not your fault 😍

  • @rayandavii
    @rayandavii 11 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I am truly sorry for whoever has experienced this. This hurts my heart and reminds me of the society we live in. I hope everybody’s safe ❤

  • @haytham2301
    @haytham2301 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    i experienced no abuse or anything at all. i just wanted to see this perspective of things. its weirding me out a bit but thats probably because i havent experienced anything. i feel sincerely bad for all of you and just know all good things come to an end as well as all bad things come to an end.

  • @AREEJHANNAHBINTIMOHAMEDHARMIDI
    @AREEJHANNAHBINTIMOHAMEDHARMIDI 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I have never been SAed before but i can imagine how painful and scary that is like its true they won’t take no as an answer also this hurt my heart….

  • @WHYAMIHERE428
    @WHYAMIHERE428 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    My biggest fears as a child cuz this happens a lot to kids

  • @lambheart_666
    @lambheart_666 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    1:27 to 1:30 hits different for me.
    I was sexually abused/raped by my cousin (who is 7 years older than me) for as long as I can remember, I don't remember the true beginning of his abuse, but the vague memories I have are sometimes close to 3 years old. I was ok with it, I allowed him to do whatever he wanted with me until I entered puberty.
    I already felt uncomfortable with him, but he started sexually harassing me and trying to get me into the same situation.
    "You were ok with it."
    It feels unreal, very unreal. Especially when he involved his friends, trying to get them to touch me too, or for me to touch them, or when I ended up getting into other similar situations with other people because I normalized it so much.
    I was okay with it.
    And I hate myself everyday for the same reason.

  • @dino-duck
    @dino-duck 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I'm sorry
    I'm sorry

  • @cesartorres1532
    @cesartorres1532 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    The memories i wanted to forget come back..

  • @xjshaol
    @xjshaol ปีที่แล้ว +6

    ''give me n*d3s 👿'' i cant stop laughing

    • @WilliamAfton.exe_
      @WilliamAfton.exe_ ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Good it means you're sane, these bishes be trippin fr

    • @yours_truly302
      @yours_truly302 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      why was this video funny to me

  • @itzeymengie2186
    @itzeymengie2186 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This is something I always watch when I experienced the same thing

  • @Arlesmon
    @Arlesmon 10 หลายเดือนก่อน

    This really makes my blood boil, to know that a person would do this to someone they appreciate and ruin them by being so evil.
    Im sorry it happened to you, and i do hope that you get better or are getting better
    And it's a good example of how grooming and then SA can really mess up with someone

  • @queenharley1678
    @queenharley1678 3 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    This is not easy to see for me, but I have to lose my fears...I have to be strong.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      if the video makes you uncomfortable, then don’t worry! you don’t have to watch it, unless you want to. hope you feel better soon 💕💕

    • @queenharley1678
      @queenharley1678 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@meliitonin5443 Thank you for the message, but I dont want and I won't to be a coward nevermore and I will still loving the traumacore. It doesn't matters if I feel bad, its enough for me.

  • @t4thuntlow
    @t4thuntlow 2 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    i have trauma,not sensual trauma,but verbal abuse as a trauma,can i still cope with traumacore

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      yes! there’s no need to ask! just because your trauma isn’t the same as someone else’s, it doesn’t mean that yours in invalid. most of my trauma is actually verbal and emotional too

    • @t4thuntlow
      @t4thuntlow 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 oh thank you!ive been struggling to cope,and this seems nice,thank u ^^

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  2 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@t4thuntlow no problem

  • @R3y1sg4yl0l
    @R3y1sg4yl0l ปีที่แล้ว +2

    As someone who was s3xu4lly abused by my father, sa’d by my stepbrother, sa’d by my ex stepfather, r4p3d by my own father, this hits too close to home.

    • @glasscannon4723
      @glasscannon4723 ปีที่แล้ว

      Just seek therapy and youll get through it

    • @R3y1sg4yl0l
      @R3y1sg4yl0l ปีที่แล้ว +3

      @@glasscannon4723 Like I don’t already go to therapy. It doesn’t work.

  • @Leug
    @Leug 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Ow man this is sad get trough theses things, hope u are better

  • @unholytoastses9598
    @unholytoastses9598 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    This video reminds me a lot about an online friend that i recently cut off, he was my boyfriends friend at that time and we first met a year ago and stopped talking for months afterwards. About a month ago, we started talking again and got pretty "close", he said he liked me but since he was pretty nice, i felt bad to stop being friends with him. After a couple of days, he started to get really controlling, toxic and mean, for example; when i told him to stop doing something he would always pressure me and threaten to stop being friends with me if i didn't do what he wanted. He would tell me to break up with my boyfriend and send n-des to him, asking for s-x and kept talking about things friends shouldn't be. I got tired of playing nice and blocked him on everything, I feel comfortable now.
    By the way I can't even tell this to my boyfriend because I'm in a long distant relationship and I haven't heard from him in a month, I hope he comes back soon...

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      i’m so sorry that you had to go through that.. you did the right thing and blocked him. friends shouldn’t do that to each other. you decided to stay with your boyfriend and not go along with his friend, i think that was pretty loyal of you. i hope you’re doing okay and i wish you the best 💕💕

    • @unholytoastses9598
      @unholytoastses9598 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 thank you so much :)

  • @Cheeseballchan69
    @Cheeseballchan69 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Aw I’m so sorry this happened I hope your doing ok❤

  • @MeowOnTheInternet
    @MeowOnTheInternet 2 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Im a grooming victim,And i really feel this

    • @BaronTheBarberTv
      @BaronTheBarberTv ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Remember that it’s great to hang out with your friends, but if someone touches you in a place or way that makes you uncomfortable, that’s no good! It’s your body. No one should touch you if you don’t want them to. So first off you say no then you get the heck out of there. And after that make sure that you tell an adult like your parents, teacher or even your principal and they’ll all help you out.
      (Just a little Sonic says reference for ya)

    • @MeowOnTheInternet
      @MeowOnTheInternet ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@BaronTheBarberTv Yeah, thank you, i learned that a little too late.

  • @Prettybloodywitch15
    @Prettybloodywitch15 2 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    I remember about my ex-guy friend i was so stupid why the fuck was I annoying him?! I was literally clingy he's the only person he had in my life hes like a God that I'll never stop worshipping, everyday, afternoon and nights.... I would bug him and when i feel scared i talk to him he gave me comfort and love and affection that is when he would always tell me to piss of everytime I tried to talk to him.. Hell he broke up with me multiple times in short I was the one who started it but it's because I wasn't feeling comfortable with him my gut was telling me to not trust him if only I did listened to it.....
    Afterwards months and repeating cycles of him blocking me and unblocking me.... He would always threaten to block me if I do something wrong even on small occasions
    That quote broke me the most is...
    "she said I was the only one for her just... MAY JUST GET A THERAPIST"
    AND? WHAT DOES THAT FUCKING MEAN IF I HAVE ONE? I'D STILL BE THE CLINGY ASS WHORE WHO WILL NOT STOP UNTIL YOU DIE
    AND THEN THIS MF KEPT ON COMING BACK TO ME AND SAYING SORRY JUST FOR ME TO BE USED AGAIN...
    What's worse so that he'd force me to do things..... And he would threaten to tell my mom I was drping with him....

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      oh god im so sorry.. honestly, i understand how you feel.. i get those feelings of attachment too. you really didn’t deserve that..

    • @Prettybloodywitch15
      @Prettybloodywitch15 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 hehe thx

  • @eg-draw
    @eg-draw 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I keep thinking about that day
    Over and over and over and over and over again
    I keep trying to remember every single detail but I can't. Or maybe I don't want to.
    I don't want to think about it. I just want this to stop.

  • @BaronTheBarberTv
    @BaronTheBarberTv 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    The only way I can relate is if I feel lonely in my room and I wish someone can hug me.

  • @THE_END.ヽ
    @THE_END.ヽ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Man, I really didn't thought about this until I saw this video but...
    Now I do.
    I was in school (I was like 6 or 7, I don't really know), I had a classmate by my side since we were put in pairs due to the tables being designed for two students. He suddenly asked me to take my clothes off (I wanna clear out we were on the bottom of the classroom so nobody was watching). I need to say that at that times I had a very low self steem so I couldn't say no... so I started to take my pants off, it was just a bit, but my underwear was kinda visible, then he asked me to take it off too, this time I was brave enough to say "no", but he told me again to do it, this time he was a bit angry, and I guess I did it, just a bit too (I say I guess because this was so many years ago that I don't remember very well what happened).
    I don't remember what happened next, but I remember that was a HORRIBLE experience. It still haunts me sometimes. Also sorry for my bad English, I'm a spanish person.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      i’m so sorry that happened.. you didn’t deserve that.. also, don’t worry about your english! i can understand it perfectly and i know spanish too!

    • @THE_END.ヽ
      @THE_END.ヽ 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 oh lol, if I knew that I would have written that in spanish but anyway...
      The worst part is that that's not the only bad thing that happened to me. My whole family (except my mom) are hypocrites that really don't care about me and sometimes they say despective things about me...
      Sorry, I know nobody asked but I really had to vent.

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@THE_END.ヽ no don’t worry! you can vent all you want, this is a safe place for venting! and i’m so sorry about your family.. they shouldn’t treat you like that..

    • @MrCkawair
      @MrCkawair 2 ปีที่แล้ว

      So my school teaches me how to stay away from them u have to talk to everyone in ur family tree if they don’t believe u go on to another family member

  • @usaguicaridubs9702
    @usaguicaridubs9702 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I remember something like this happened to me...I was 15, the guy was like 26...when I refused to do it, he sent me my location and threatened to come look for me...
    I had to do it...and I felt bad about myself.
    It is something that haunts me to this day. I'm sorry to say that I never knew more about the guy, when he had what he wanted he disappeared and I'm not sure what he did with what I gave...sometimes I wonder if he's still there, doing the same with more girls. What if he went to more extremes? It terrifies me to think about it and it gives me so much impotence because I didn't do anything at the time, I could have reported it... but I chickened out...

  • @BritishEngineer
    @BritishEngineer ปีที่แล้ว

    So much for the vast majority enduring this once, I had to experience this two or three times since the age of 11, by age 13 I had learnt that the internet is not the place for an unbeknownst 13 y.o. and built caution against this.

  • @nolongeractive5865
    @nolongeractive5865 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This scars me, I was older then most people at 18 just out of high school and I just need to feel something for once all I feel is regret

  • @Soviet66666
    @Soviet66666 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    As a survivor of SA i can relate this so much

  • @INSOMNIAACX
    @INSOMNIAACX 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Goddamit this happened to be once, I blocked them in time though, I’m so sorry u had to go through this, i wish u the best ❤️!

  • @IMSOSPARKLEY27
    @IMSOSPARKLEY27 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    this gave me a shiver down my spine.

  • @moe8666
    @moe8666 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sorry you had to go through that :(

  • @marush2566
    @marush2566 3 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Frist of all,let me ask: You're okay? Do you need some help? Even if it's just talk,we're here for you 💖
    And by the other part...
    tw// Sexual harrasment,manipulation
    I lived something similar (??) when I was a kid. I had a horrible circle of friends and one of them did things to me,she usted to do it in front of EVERYONE and no one did ANYTHING. They maked me think that it was normal (the most scary part was that they actually thougt that it was) so I didn't realized that it was sexual harrasment until YEARS later when my other friends told me a LOT of times and still I'm afraid to tell this to an adult because i'm ashamed (+ beacause sometimes Instill believe it was my fault) . My final messeage is that if you're passing trough something similar and you know it,don't be like me,please,tell somebody,ok? It wasn't your fault,it will never be. I love you and you will be okay

    • @meliitonin5443
      @meliitonin5443  3 ปีที่แล้ว

      tysm

    • @marush2566
      @marush2566 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@meliitonin5443 Thank you,I really needed it

  • @br4ttycl0wn
    @br4ttycl0wn 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Roses are Pink,
    Cacti are prickly,
    Sweet Sanrio, that escalated quickly

  • @elizabethyang7694
    @elizabethyang7694 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    Now my childhood is like:😬

  • @sillygameronline
    @sillygameronline 3 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    The slow voices scare me update: watch this without audio

  • @vapourousshades6349
    @vapourousshades6349 ปีที่แล้ว

    thanks and I' m sorry for you I hope you heal and are happy now

  • @FnafGamerGirl
    @FnafGamerGirl ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I don’t like ppl like that 💔

  • @m4rk046
    @m4rk046 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    OMGGG IT'S MY MELODY!!!!

  • @Rilly_Bunny
    @Rilly_Bunny ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I didn't know hello kitty was lesbea XD

  • @CH3RRY_900
    @CH3RRY_900 ปีที่แล้ว

    IM SORRY BUT THIS IS SO FUNNY TO ME FOR SOME REASON IK ITS ABOUT A SERIOUS TOPIC BUT I CANT STOP LAUGHING😭😭

  • @ThatCharmingirl
    @ThatCharmingirl ปีที่แล้ว +1

    i was influenced to do it. i didn’t want to do it. seriously, i spend very long nights crying about it, felling rotten and gross

  • @larlzdearz
    @larlzdearz 3 ปีที่แล้ว

    the voices are so unsettling p, but I do hope you have gotten better. stay strong.

  • @yeonsdiscovery
    @yeonsdiscovery 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I was s@d by my brother. This hurts

  • @Decayedxdust
    @Decayedxdust 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    Reminds me of the time some person the same age kept tryna get me to play with myself on a vc with him I didn't do it I kept declining but he wouldn't listen until I got someone involved it still makes me feel gross two years later despite me not doing it-

  • @glacyice
    @glacyice 3 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    One of my ocs have
    Went to this trauma but I've not (since my family take good care of me in my childhood)

  • @Milinda_Franks
    @Milinda_Franks 2 ปีที่แล้ว

    I’m sorry I also heard the real story and I am so very sorry for you 😭

  • @BackroomsWater
    @BackroomsWater 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I wish I would have spoke up when it happened.
    I should have said no. But I didn’t. I gave him what he wanted and all i got in return was being told I was lying. All I was told is that it was my fault. Why didn’t I listen to my instincts? He told me it was ok. It wasn’t ok. It wasn’t my fault. But everyone said it was. Why didn’t anyone listen to me.

  • @titanspeakerman633
    @titanspeakerman633 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Bone marrow,*, 1:23 we love qwq is cutee

  • @crypticshadows
    @crypticshadows 3 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    this …. Makes me remember some stuff

  • @Plantplantplantplaant
    @Plantplantplantplaant 2 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I can't be a survivor
    because to be one
    I have to be _Alive_