How a Monkey Caused my Hypomanic Episode (ft. Depression)
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 3 ต.ค. 2024
- I get hypomanic episodes as part of my schizoaffective disorder (bipolar type) and as a result I also get depressive episodes too. So today, I want to talk about what caused my recent episode (specifically the hypomanic part and how it was more intense than usual), from my very self aware viewpoint. I am actively in depression during this video, but sometimes I explain things better when I’m depressed. Depression always does make me rethink my life a lot, and I’m a little more contemplative and less anxious, so maybe that’s why.
Anyways, this was all a monkey’s fault, and once you see this video, you too might think f u Dexter, f u.
Ah science, what a weird field to work in, and weird places too.
Finally, my meds work, my treatments work. I had a rather severe case of schizoaffective disorder before got treatment for it. So this is my normal and it's okay. These things happen and they're manageable. I wouldn't be able to film it otherwise. And yes I smile I yes I laugh but I've been depressed on and off since I was 14. I have ways to cope, and smiling helps. Even if it's forced, it helps. At the end of the day, I live a wonderful life, even with these little mini episodes :)
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A great poet once said, "Why can't you do it? Why can't you set your monkey free? Always thinking through it, but it"s not the herp it's the OCD !"
I find OCD to be torturous. Really is the worst. It kicks my arse.
It’s so awful! 😢
Your ocd triggers are so similer to mine. “what if” spirals that convince me that i am going to die of a disease or that i have cancer are so distressing. I once thought because i pet this street cat it actually licked my finger, i used that finger to strach my nose, the snot coming from my nose dripped down to my mouth and i licked it therefore i was exposed to rabies, actually dying. even thought i had four shots of the vaccine earlier that year because of a different scare.
so yea i didn’t compulsively get vaccinated because there was no need and didn’t die
Exposure therapy is a godsend.
YES THIS!!!! Exposure therapy has probably saved my life at this point, thank you for sharing this, we ain’t alone.
Hey SchizoKitzo, you seem so flat, at least compared to your last video! One can really see the way you are in a slump now, having watched that and this video. It's great that despite your experiences with schizoaffective disorder and OCD that you are able to continue to record your experiences for others. I hope you are able to feel better soon, but like you said, it's inevitable that you will exit the sadness! P.S. As someone who also suffers from OCD and a psychotic disorder (I'm sure there are others like me who have both) I believe it could be therapeutic to viewers to hear how OCD manifests in and around the conditions created by schizoaffective disorder... I definitely related to your story about continually obsessing over a health scare, but I wondered what your compulsions were! No problems if you don't want to share, though, we are all grateful so much for your channel and everything you have created already! Be well!
Thanks so much for this! Super helpful ^_^
As a first-time viewer and a fellow OCD sufferer, I was impressed and validated hearing your struggle and wanted to express gratitude for your vulnerability and for speaking your truth. Prayers for your ongoing healing and recovery. (and damm that monkey)
Yeah… that monkey will forever make me mad lol, and welcome to the channel!
Yes please talk about OCD!
Hi! I also have OCD, take care we love You! ❤
OMG DEXTER 😱 HOW DARE
Thank you so much for sharing another look at the reality of depression for you, and for the update on your hypomanic episode. I feel like the water leak plus the upcoming con would have been stressful enough on their own, but when you throw in the whole monkey-related health scare aspect too... oof. It's no wonder that kicked off an episode.
I also really appreciated your explanation of OCD and how you experience it. The reality is definitely different from the common perception of it, and it was great that you could shed some light on that.
I love how you ended by saying that you know things will get better, and I hope that happens soon. :)
Thanks so much GC! Much better now thank goodness, and yeah DEXTER DANG YOUUUUU
This makes so much sense and thank you for putting this clarification out there! I lost so much sleep this week with a little health scare myself this week and the incredible nature of own brain to convince us we're going to die is wild. Only once the doctor told me to stop worrying that I did. Hang in there, you're not along!
Losing sleep because of health scares is the worst, I hope you’re okay now! It’s very wild. Glad the doctor helped, and thanks for commenting!
I’m glad you didn’t get ick from the monkey water, your dad sounds smart a good father, we all have ups and downs I’m sure he’s proud your his daughter, when spring is close I go for walks to help my mind cause the temp is hotter
OCD can be hell sometimes. I was once convinced that if I sat down on the train it would crash.
Thanks for sharing!
Yes it will get better. 💪
What a wild chain of events you've had. The health scares and depression is very relatable, personally I feel like bodybuilding has saved me. Stay strong and be good to yourself❤
I’m amazed that you can work at all with your condition. I have bad depression and ocd and haven’t worked in years. You are strong
It’s different for everyone and trust me, I consider myself very lucky.
If talking about your relationship with your OCD feels safe for you, I’d really appreciate hearing your story. I’ve been recently diagnosed and it’s helpful to know I’m not alone. But if it’s not accessible for you, thank you for being honest about that ❤
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@@SchizoKitzo bird, bird, bird,
bird is the word 🐦⬛😝
I am sorry you are depressed again but I am glad you saw it coming. I hope you improve soon. 🙏❤️
I really appreciate your videos. I have OCD and I think people can hear my thoughts, so it’s great to have someone I can relate to.
i am sad that you said you'll get back to being yourself. you are yourself, even now. i am depressive. i kind of wish i had the hyper part too, that sounds like a good side to balance. but depression is just there for me. to me it's this big stone couch that doesn't really move. it's just part of mt life. knowing it is 'defeating' it. just like i know the sun is there and there are bright shiny days my eyes don't like, i know that depression is there and by understanding it doesn't have to be eliminated to be dealt with. you seem to have a level of understanding of your life, the things in your life, and you are able to realize when these things affect you. thank you for sharing. thank you for inspiring others. the world needs more people like you.
Thank you for what you do. You are definitely helping many people out there to feel more comfortable with their mental health disorder the way you talk so gracefully about your diagnosis and medication and issues you deal with on a regular. Keep up the good work. I appreciate all you are doing. I am not sure if I am just mentally ill or given a spiritual message as a warning of what's to come. But it's my daily battle of when is the rapture coming and how to be okay on a daily basis. Your videos have been helpful. Thank you again.
I’m so grateful that I can help people with my experience with this awful illness. Thank you for this comment
I recently found your channel, & really like it. It's been interesting & very educational learning about your journey. I don't have schizophrenia. But i have had depression all my life that started when i had my 1st seizure at 14 (i'm now 50). While i've been seizure-free (no clue why) for 10 yrs, the many seizures i had in life have caused memory issues & strange/out-of-my-body feelings, along with many issues in general life.
I've dealt with ptsd, nightmares, & anxiety, as well. So in a sense, i get a few of the things you talk about. It makes me feel like i'm not alone. Thank you🤗🦋🐾
I wouldn't call that an OCD reaction, that monkey thing, I'd be legit scared myself. Anyway, I'm glad you're fine and I hope you get un-depressed soon (if you haven't already) :)
Thanks Kinzhe!
Keep fighting to get better. Hopefully this video will help you realize you're not alone. "Beren Olivia - Almost"
I've had similar experiences with fear of HIV. Its not because I'm very promiscuous, but because the thought of infecting someone you want to love is so horrible. Its almost enough to cause an episode. A easy thing to do is just get tested. Never heard of a monkey herpes virus, but it sounds like you have a great job at the lab there. Hope things are safe for you. ( :
Yeah I know it was all stress working up to diagnosis and dealing with this disorder. Although stress can be immediate or latent you need to have coping outlets.
Being scared when you think you're going to die has a positive side. I'm almost always suicidal and when I think I'm really about to die it's very relaxing. It's done. I don't need to deal with life anymore. But it never happened. A few weeks ago a guy pulled a knife on me to rob me. I turned my back to him and told him to go ahead. He walked away.
i love you schitzokitzo
I can relate a ton of this it sucks I hope you feel better soon can you dive deeper into ocd i kinda wanna know more about it ❤❤❤
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One of my neighbors claimed that I have "disorganized OCD" but it's really like the blind men and the elephant. Everyone sees something different. That's the problem with abnormal psychology. They see what they know (or think they know), what they've been conditioned to see. Once you've been diagnosed with something, everything you do is perceived through that diagnosis without question, and the more people believe something, the more it is perceived to be true. It's sort of like gossip or politics. It's referred to as "confirmation bias."
Can 100,000 people hallucinate at the same time? How else do you explain history?
Ngl, 4:17 a legit reason to be freaked out by lol.. I would do the same
The low always comes
Every. Single. Time.
The monkey virus sounds like a legit concern. I'd have got myself tested quickly (although fortunately i don't have OCD so i wouldn't have assumed i have it. Didn't you march straight up to the monkey lab and get them to test you?
lol nah it’s like…. If it was a serious thing, a real thing-which it wasn’t-I’d have to get tested every week for months. I don’t even know how to get to the lab 😂
I’m manic but over longer period of times like few months I feel great other months depressed and suicidal my ex has bpd which is more hell
Hey you ❤ i hope everything going well but it’s can be hard some time’s, I have bipolar and depression and high and lows.. but I’m feeling like you saying in your videos.
That if I getting stress my life turns upside down 😢 what do you think 💭 about this??
when I am in my highs then I’m say Yes too things and now when I am low,I am realiz thinkings that I have done. Ex: I'm now a cat sitter and yes I said yes to it, but don’t have the power for it ❤ love animals..
take care of you/ regards// J 🇸🇪
Meds rock.
They do!
Do you have both manic and hypomanic episodes? I'm surprised to hear someone with SZA talk about hypomanic episodes. Live your videos; I just found them this week. ♥️ ;
I do! As part of the bipolar type I automatically get manic episodes but I still get shorter hypomanic ones on episodes thanks to meds tuning down the mania. At least thats my running theory, that instead of mania I just get hypomania. Ever since I went on antipsychotics I haven’t had mania which is nice. Glad you like the videos and hopefully this answers your question!
Lol
Dad probably used Yahoo instead of Google (Yahoo hasn't been poisoned by Ai slop yet).
Your dad rules!
He’s pretty awesome yeah!
Bad dexter, bad 🐒
Grrrrrrrrrr
I tell the truth, but nobody listens. In space, no one can hear you scream.
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️Kitzocd.
HA THANKS MOM
But you have a degree in Biology? Or premed? No?
Great video! hope you feel better soon
Thanks!
What do you think of the perspective that depressed people are self-inundated with narratives -- too many stories they believe?