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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 31 ม.ค. 2023
- As I navigate my bipolar disorder diagnosis, I wanted to give an inside look into the mood swings I experience. From hypomania to depression, my initial episodes were dramatically different.
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This footage was taken about 6 months ago, and I’m doing so so much better. I appreciate everyone’s kind words of encouragement, but know I’m doing well now with minimal swings!
That's good to hear Jacy! 😊 Glad you're doing better now.
It's good you're in a more balanced place now.
Great update sis! 😊
You certainly are a trailblazer to people going through similar heart-rending and appalling episodes...
So glad you are doing better! Thank you for being so transparent about your struggles . . . I bet you have helped so many people out there without even knowing it. I had depression over 20 years ago and know firsthand the raw suffering that can occur. I am so thankful that I am living in a day and age where there are life changing medications out there! So glad you found one that is working for you! ❤
The fact that you were able to film during a depressive episode is truly impressive. I don't even know if I could say meaningful sentences to a person in front of me, let alone a camera.
I have been on Lamictal for years (150mg), and while it definitely makes a difference, it's obviously not a cure-all.
While I absolutely hate to know that other people have to feel how I feel, I am grateful that since you do, you are willing to share your experience. It definitely makes me feel less alone.
Omg the making a story in your head before bed, I do that too! Sometimes it's the only way I can fall asleep.
SAME, and here I thought I was the only one who did such a thing!
What a raw and real account of bipolar illness you shared. That took MAJOR lady balls. Cheering for you!
Haha lady balls is such a compliment! Thank you so much for continuing to support me ❤
It's called Vaginacles
Unironically, sometimes, in that state, you can in fact go for a run (if it is safe to do so of course with regards to environment) and after 30-60 minutes you may feel a little more leveled or "turned down" enough to grab 1-4 hours of sleep. At least, this has been my experience. I certainly hope you are becoming accommodated with these changes and I wish you the best of health and success in your life.
This hits a little close to home for me. You remind me so much of myself. I’ve had a long battle of accepting that I’m truly bipolar but this just feels all too familiar for me. You are so beautiful inside and out. The bravery you have of sharing this online is so special. It matters. People like me are out here watching and you’re providing so much community for people struggling with this. Thank you.
You look so gorgeous in that shade of green! 💗I have experienced those lows, they are so awful and I'm so sorry you are having them 🙁I hope your med works for you, but if you feel it isn't, tell your doc even if you haven't taken it as long as the doc says it will take to kick in. Maybe staying at your parent's house would help till you get the right med...I know it helped me when my parents or husband would bring me tea and toast ☺Better days are coming ☺Sending you big big hugs 🤗🤗
Thank you so much Laurie! I’m actually with my parents now, so you nailed it. Medication is helping tremendously, but learning other coping mechanisms like reaching out to loved ones I so so helpful. I am grateful for your kind words ❤
giant pharmaceutical corporations continue to do more great research and soon we'll have the right combination of pills. it will be expensive...but it will be well worth it!
Having a chemical imbalance is so frustrating, but please stay vigilant with the meds & eventually you will find your way back to healthy.
You can do it!❤️❤️❤️
Jacy you are not alone I write movies in my head before bed all the time! I am also writing several self-help audio books that never get past 4 pages for some reason...every week is an adventure to see what interest I'm into....my poor wife ...She is my balance and voice of reason. Never feel like we don't get you what we have is a gift and a curse we have to learn to harness sometimes with medication
Hi Jacy! Just wanted to say thank you for being so vulnerable and sharing your story. Years ago, when I was diagnosed with my depression and PTSD, I suffered from a very bad case of survivors' guilt and went down a very dark path where I was going to do something to myself which would have caused pain to my family and friend's. But with proper medication and changing my mental, physical and Nutrional habits I have been able to manage it. I still sometimes have triggers that might cause a depressive episode, but I know how to properly navigate through them. As one of your OG followers I just want to say that I proud of you and all that you have accomplished with your channel and your platform!!!!🙌
Sam you are so so incredible and one of my dearest followers. I am so sorry you had to go through this and I thank you so much for sharing. You nailed it on the head, not only would we leave loved ones behind, but there are better ways to cope and manage these struggles. It’ll be a lifetime struggle for sure, but we have so many outlets and people to help us along the way ❤
You are so pretty. Don't ever be ashamed of being bipolar. It is your superpower. It means you are a compassionate person. ❤
I love that you're doing this.
thank you for sharing your story! you are very brave for putting this out there
We love you jacy ❤️
I’m so sorry for what you’re going through 😞❤️ I finally am realizing I might have been struggling with undiagnosed cyclothymia/bipolar for years, so my heart goes out to you
Thank you for being so authentic and real. That’s why we love your channel. ❤️
Jacy, this was just a powerful video. Thank you for sharing your experience. It takes so much courage and strength to be that vulnerable. As a healthcare worker it’s very heartening to see someone taking their diagnosis head on and being open to treatment. Even in your depressive episode you kept great perspective and the hope you managed to hold onto is so impressive and important. Wishing you the best on this journey of finding the right balance for you 💛💜💛
Hi Lacy, thank you so much for this video. It's so hard to explain to some people what it's like to experience hypomania and depression. I recognise a lot in your story and it brings up a lot of emotions and memories. But thankfully those meds helped me a lot too :) It's still there but not nearly like it was before. I'm glad to see you are in a better place too! Good luck and take care!
Jacy Erin forever! You got what it takes to defeat the struggle baby!!!
Appreciate your raw honesty! You may not know me personally, but I want you know that I really appreciate what you're able to share with us! God bless you!
This is really comforting to know that I’m not alone in this journey. Thank you for sharing. That’s was really courageous.
Dear Jacy, thank you again for being so open and vulnerable with us. You have no idea how much your subscribers appreciate your raw honesty and transparency. It takes a lot of courage for you to do this so thank you. Just know that everything is going to be ok, and I hope the medication is making things better. Please know that we are always here for you ❤ Also side note: your sister's earrings are so pretty, I'll have to check them out!
Thank you so much Emilia! You are constantly so supportive, but I especially appreciate your kind words here. I hope to open up more and share my stories in the hopes it’ll help others ❤
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I love your curls! I love the vulnerability of this post…such a true account. I love your insight also.
Better days are coming
I had my first aware hypomanic episode 2 days ago…. Also, people don’t make stories before they fall asleep!!?!? 😅😂❤ I wanted to start making quilts to donate to dog rescues from my aunts clothes who just passed away…. Mind you I have never made quilts… I think if I wasn’t aware this time I would have started but, I FORCED myself to just be chill. 🥲 the brain does not stop.
Sending you hugs through the ether for when you need them.🫂🫂🫂
Bless u, bless u, bless u 🙏🕊💕. Thank u for being so brave, u have helped me more than u know 💕🕊🙏
Hey Jacy long time no see! Looking great! I would never have guessed you were bipolar when I was watching you last year but now that I know I can see it in your messages room no shame Thank you for this video and being transparent hits home for me and would like to see if I resonate bc my doc is treating me for this without def diagnoses
I cried during your depressive episode. It's hard to see what you were going through. I'm going to see a psychiatrist in February and now seeing your ups and downs, I might talk more seriously about the possibility of having Bipolar disorder to my doctor because I see myself in these big moods swings regularly.
I think what your doing is amazing and so strong of you. Giving us a glimpse into this part of your life at a vulnerable state. I'm sure many people will connect with this topic of mental health and bipolar disorders.
I struggle with going out of my comfort zone, I would love to be chatty and confident like you are (I used to be and I still can be) but I'm often alone and after so much time alone I fear the opposite, but also I can go out have a really great time.. and then I won't be able to rest from every that has happened! then wondering if I did good, or hating myself for things I said or didn't say.
I’m so sorry you have to go through this, I imagine it’s tough when that social battery makes you question your decisions. But keep doing you and going out of your comfort zone, and soon you’ll realize it was all worth it ♥️
Keep being strong lil pretty lady . I respect you dearly
Wow that was a gutsy video! I have admitedly very little insight into the struggles people have with mental/emotional disorders, so I appreciate the inside look. It'll certainly help me understand those who suffer in my own circle a bit better.
I appreciate it! Glad to hear those may not experience these struggles can also learn from it ♥️
Thank you so much for sharing. My therapist hesitates to put a label on my condition and won't say bipolar disorder, but I recognize myself in a lot of what you went through. It helps to know I am not alone.
Wow! Thanks for showing your life to world. That was very brave! But this will help people who have the same experiences
God bless you 🙏
Ps you deserve an award for that footage
you're amazing Jacy :) wishing you all the best on your journey through this all.
I appreciate it Ben ❤❤
Jacey I’m so sorry :( I’ve been watching you for a long time. I truly commend you for uploading this video. Ik it was probably hard to post but it truly shows how strong and amazing you are. Thank you for using your platform for this as well
Thank you so much, hoping it helps some people out there!
Hi again thanks for sharing, and it's crazy that im going through the same symptoms. But you've encourage me to seek help and hopefully i can make it better.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this, but so glad my story is able to shed some light on this illness. It’ll be a struggle working through the symptoms, but so incredible when you get the help you need to cope. Wishing you the best ❤
Hey girl, I admire you so much for having the bravery to be so open and vulnerable with us. I can relate heavily with the depression and it does help me feel not so alone, especially with a youtuber that I can look up to in a big sister way. I've been following you for a while now, so I once thought you didn't really experience depression because (like you said) you doll yourself up and crack jokes, but I appreciate you showing us some the layers to who you are. I'm truly glad you're doing much better now❤
Btw I'm more of a silent follower but know I'm always here to support you🤗
I appreciate it so much Autumn, and I’m glad I can be that big sister for you ♥️ you’re not alone in the struggle, and I wish you the best in coping with it
❤❤🙏🙏 Thank you for sharing. The struggles are real. I think in the end, all of us just want to be Healthy, Happy and Safe. Please continue to post whatever you want. A lot of people appreciate you in the comments.
Thank you so much Janice! Trying to balance the silly stories with the real ones, and so your words are so appreciated ❤
Wow❤ very powerful video! I know you are helping people doing this! I had no idea those thoughts were bad… 🤔 when your in it ,it just feels like …oh well…
Exactly, and you don’t realize how bad the thoughts were until later. Hoping it helps others!
I call it harnessing my superpowers, when i have that up energy ...i lost my mom 6 months ago , and it has kicked in , the highs and lows really bad...so i know ..its OK
I am so sorry for your loss, but I also love this outlook on it!! Gotta switch up my mindset for sure ❤
Love and admire you so much!
You’re the best ❤
Dear Jacy, I received my “official” bipolar diagnosis two days ago. In a way, I've known that I was bipolar for many years, I think I somehow didn't want to "admit" it to myself. I always thought, "Oh, come on, you're not feeling THAT bad. Don't push yourself into the foreground. Bipolar definitely looks completely different." and I didn't seek help for a long time because I didn't want to take up so much space. and meanwhile I felt so bad. I lost so much money during my hypomanic episodes, and the depression came on so suddenly afterwards, I just couldn't understand how it was possible. The problem was, I had no comparison, I didn't know what bipolar looked like "in real life", in other people. I didn't know anyone who felt the same way as me, with these inexplicable ups and downs in constant and rapid change. and I just found your video and immediately had to cry because it was so healing to know that there is someone out there, on the other side of the world, who knows exactly what I mean. This is helping me so much to accept my illness and to have more compassion for myself. Thank you so so much for all your courage and for showing yourself so vulnerable. You’re Not alone ❤ We’re not alone. I'm sending you a big big hug from Germany! Pia
So here I am wondering what to do at 2:28 am and so I am watching your video lol. This past week I have not wanted to go to sleep at all. Thank you for sharing this
I’m just starting lamictal and this is giving me so much hope❤️
I've been on it for years. It will help!
I've never an hypomanic episode, but I 've been diagnosed bopolar 2. Severely depressed for four years. I aM very isolated, have almost no support, no real Friends and do not xork. Worst of all, I live in a tiny town I hate very much... I hope Moving out and working will hflp rhe symptoms. ..
Thank you so much for sharing
Hi Jacy, thanks so very much for showing this to everyone. It does a lot of good. Can I ask how long it was between the first Hypo clip and the depressive clip. Thanks from the uk x
WE love you I know I got your back
Hey, thanks so much for sharing these vulnerable moments. I'm Bipolar II and I'm going through such a bad depressive episode right now.
Do you have a large support system when you're depressed?
I'm a mental health professional and work with folx all the time who struggles with all sorts of challenges. I appreciate you and I'm a New subscriber supporting my fellow content creators.
That is how I write poem cycles and fragments.
Be very careful reading the responses…not all are to be trusted.. and also depending on your mood you may be too vulnarable ❤
did you ever get to writing that book? while coming up with ideas can get manic I find the actual writing process quite soothing and grounding 🤓
I use lamotrigene too!!
I get triggered by financial trauma, which I handled by cooking. I am now waiting for my lemon-lime concoction to cool down and will be changing into my pajamas so I can work on squeezing the rinds in the morning after a good sleep. I tell myself not to stress about debt payments, but to instead pay for essentials and take each income opportunity that comes around while also going through paperwork and shredding.. Hopefully, the next open-air market here will not get canceled and I can sell some of my books.
I’m on a SSRI but i pretty sure im bipolar 2 just awaiting a diagnoses did the mood Stabiliser help you with brain fog, motivation, concentration, social interactions and happiness ?
Motivation and happiness for sure! When the medication started kicking in, I truly felt like “is this how everyone wakes up? Just feeling normal?” It was great. I do still have some brain fog and concentration issues, so hoping to overcome those soon. Wishing you the best ❤
The characters and the stories 🙋🏾♀️🥴
I always do that to before sleeping, since I was a little kid though 😂I wonder if it it’s actually a manic thing?
With all your heart your strengthen your soul
Breathe through your nose fast and pray to God
🕊️ Have a nice day 🕊️ahead 🕊️
🙏God Bless
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In Colorado a fourteener is a mountain. Lol
Cyclothymia, Hypomania, Bi-polar disorder...in my final year at University I did a module in psychiatry. I am a firm believer that certain spiritual practices like Meditation, Yoga and prayers can elicit Spiritual Transformative Experiences ultimately leading to holistic healing...
Bi polar make so much sense after all your vids. So on brand
I slso experienced what you call hypomanic state i get activatd little more energy over all better sexualy more active .But rhe problm is that this state will come to depressive mood
YOU ARE MORE GORGEOUS WITHOUTH MAKEUP
That's normal what your going through. The problem is most people don't follow through. You need goals. Organization. A schedule. And take melatonin to fall asleep. If I was there when you can't sleep we'd work off some of that energy.
If you think that’s normal, maybe, just maybe you need to talk to a psychiatrist
first off you are really pretty, second i made a video very similar to this one. it an interview so if you can take your time to watch it i would appreciate it. same for the viewers on here.
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Mood disorders is ~whatever because you can’t tell what’s good for something.
I wonder if you was to fall in love with a another mixed person would that help you out with such stuff!
You don't need medication. You need me cupcake ♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️🤪
Cut some light on all the time
The problem is your soul requires you to bring forth life. There's a special baby girl inside of you wanting to come out and meet you. Someone we can take to ballet and you two can have tea parties after church
Dude you need help
Honey go volunteer. Get out of that house. Stop thinking. Just do. Get great goals through yourself into them like the rest of us. But don't go overboard. Every woman and some men go through what your going through. Your problem is your trying to fix yourself and you can't. God gave you man to lead you back to him(god) no man no direction. Then in comes confusion in comes the devil. Go to a good church every Sunday and bible study on Thurs night. How do you expect to have a good life after you made the mistake of shaking up since you were a child. The way a woman should live is in the word of god. Not therapy. Read the bible get a pastor don't let him flirt with you. That's the devil in the pulpit.
If you truly believe this is "normal", maybe go talk to a doctor. "Every woman and some men"? dude what
I think she needs a man to understand her,help her love her make her feel wanted, i think having a person to hold helps.i deal with bad mania and depression myself. I feel aloneness. I wish I knew you