Please leave your questions for my next Q&A video in the comments or DM me on instagram! I love you guys so much and appreciate your support more than ever. As anxious as opening up about my story makes me, i’m relieved to have gotten this off my chest, as i really do miss being close with you guys. I’ve always shared personal things about my life, and the hardships i go through, and after being so inactive, especially the past year, i wanted to show you guys the truth, as social media can be deceiving, especially i post things of me having fun travelling or shopping. Things aren’t always so glamorous, and i want to start showing that side too, and being more honest and real with you all. Sorry for the times i’ve come across out of touch, and for not showing the true struggles i go through, sometimes i’m just not ready to open up yet. Thank you for being patient with me♥️
India I’m so so sorry that you continue to have to go through these horrible things! If I’ve learned anything in life it is that everything happens for a reason and take everything as a learning lesson because you did learn so much! I will Always support you 🫶🏼
Keep doing TH-cam! You’ll be a great example for our generation especially the girls, how one can bounce back and above in life. Your whole journey can be really inspiring. Keep doing the lifestyle content and taking care of yourself ❤
You literally dropped this whilst I’m hitting rock bottom. I’m literally planning on running away as an adult and escaping my abusive and toxic south Asian family as a brown girl without telling anyone anything 😢
It will get better sis, don't make any irrational decisions and make sure you think everything through before going ahead with plans. I was in your situation once too
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us India! You honestly don’t owe anyone an explanation but I hope your healing journey continues to progress and just know that the present is not permanent and everything WILL be okay ❤️❤️
I’m so glad you’re sharing this about the controlling relationship. As a mom who’s been through this I’m grateful to you for sharing the cycle of abuse as well as your ED. Girls need to hear this. He was breaking you down eroding your sense of self and that ties into the control issues with disordered eating. 💔 You’re incredibly BRAVE and HEALTHY to be able to share this with so match self awareness. Thank you!!! 🙏🏼 Sending so much Love and strength and well wishes your way. 💛💛💛
thank you for your kind words! as anxious as i’ve been to post this i’m glad i can help other girls and raise awareness about topics that i feel like influencers aren’t so open about these days
You’re so welcome! Please keep sharing your insights. You can be one of the rare ones who normalizes challenges that are _normal_so people don’t have to struggle alone or hide in shame. People need people to get through this heavy stuff and the validation you’re offering is POWERFUL. Cuts through the BS veneer of social media perfectionism that NO ONE can or should live up to. You’re a breath of fresh air!! 🦋🙌🏼🌞
The video of your breakdown broke my heart. Thanks for showing us your vulnerable side & the side that life is not always "perfect" as it may seem. That's really brave. And you're really strong. We're proud of you for trying your best to heal and being honest.
Thank you so much for sharing all of this and being so vulnerable, I have had so many issues with food and eating disorders and it’s made me feel so insane, lonely and embarrassed. This video is like a weight off my shoulders, thank you for being so open, honest and raw. You will be helping so many people🫶🏼
I don't normally comment but I just wanted to say that it's so refreshing to see other people who have gone through some of the same things.. sometimes people aren't right for one another and that's okay. I didn't know that this was such a common thing to go through so thanks for spending time to talk. ☺
you’re so so brave for posting this. look beyond the haters and know that you’re comforting so many young girls who look up to you and share the same experiences. i hope you’re able to heal while back at home with the support of those around you, body image is such a serious topic and i can’t imagine how hard it must have been for you, especially with everything else going on. please surround yourself around those who love you for who you are and truly care about you
India I am so proud of you, everything you went through shaped you to be the woman you are and are going to be. Girl you are so strong and courageous from moving to LA at a young age, coming back from that and being honest with yourself and vulnerable with us. India you are the girl that walked into Ford and got signed (they weren't even taking walk throughs), you're the girl that decided to have a relationship with her dad regardless of you being the child. 15 year old me looked up to you and 20 year old me still does but now I appreciate your strength India, you have a beautiful heart and have grown to be an amazing young lady. You taught me confidence and to dream. I want you to know you are loved by your family and by God. Allow yourself grace, be kind to yourself and know that you are That Girl. If you fall 10 times you'll surely get up 11. 💖💕❤️Go easy on yourself and if anything I've learned about you is that your aren't prideful (you went back to England instead of staying in a toxic space, you don't care to be right) and that's beautiful. I am proud of you India ❤️
this comment literally made me cry. wow thank you so much you don’t understand how badly i needed to hear this. i love you so much. i’m so overwhelmed and grateful with all this support thank you so so much for all the love♥️
So sorry you have dealt with this. I deal with the same right now so know that your videos help people and you are really making a change with these videos. This is a very tough thing to post. You are amazing!!!!!!
I used to watch your channel religiously years ago, this just came up on my suggested because I’m subbed. sending so much love, I know how hard Ed’s are but you are so deserving of a life freed from that hell, I promise. ❤
sending love 🥰 it kinda broke me to see you break down but i think its so admirable that you’re being real about not being okay so people feel less alone about feeling sad xx
This video suddenly appears in the perfect time I’m struggling a lot with my ED too, I’m trying to recover on my own but tbh it’s so hard and I just kept relapsing , i feel exhausted 😩
I rarely comment on yt videos but I can’t thank you enough for having the courage to be so honest, and for that, you are so much stronger than you know. I relate to you in so so so many ways and it’s amazing to know that I’m not alone through my struggles. I want you to know that it will get better. I know we don’t know each other but it’s amazing how much you can connect to one person through social media. Keep your head up girl, you will move mountains ❤️
i’ve been following you since we were both maybe 13 or 14 and have gone through a lot of the same shit. i’m so sorry you had to deal with this stuff and i really hope life keeps looking up for you ❤️
girl you are so beautiful and strong! I am so proud of your ability to pull through this and to even share this online! sending lots of love your way xx
I’m nearly 28 and only came across this video randomly, but wow you are such a brave young lady for sharing this. I hope you are finding yourself and continuing to work on your overall health ❣️
this actually helped me a lot. it’s a great reminder that you are still YOU when your dreams come true, so if you don’t work through your bs now, it’s going to severely interfere with your new life. the life of your dreams requires you to be the you of your dreams. not just externally like I focus a lot on, but internally as well. I am so proud of you India. you’re going to come back into your dream life and you’re going to be your most secure and powerful self when you do
India, firstly I am so sorry you went through all of this and that at times you felt so alone. But thank you so much for sharing this, because doing so you are helping people feel less alone. Sending love and positive energy to you. Onwards and upwards 💕
i just want to say that ur channel is so comforting i've been watching for so many years so thank you for sharing this with us and being real with us ❤️
I’ve been a subscriber since you were fifteen. I love you how you finally feel comfortable to talk about things that matter because it can make a lot of people relate ❤️
I haven't seen your videos in a while however, I am really glad you talked about this angel ◡̈ we are all here for you and are proud of you! everything will be alright and I am always here if you need to talk sweetie. also there is nothing to be ashamed of, it takes a lot of courage to open up and realize you're struggling. were all fighting our battles, you're on the right path of healingg ◡̈
I just turned 30 a few months ago and the best advice I could ever give someone is *follow the path less traveled* When I was growing up I was not close with my family, I graduated 450 out of 900 people in my class and I was not expected to do much of anything with my life. 13 years later and I have my undergraduate and masters degree and I live in Okinawa Japan (I am from the US) I am returning to the states next year but I have a good start on life and where its heading, on top of that I am married to an amazing wife and have wonderful dog and a great life. My point is, is that if you follow the path less traveled and do things others wouldnt do then it will take you places.
thank you!! we’re in this together. going home doesn’t mean we’re going backwards in life! sometimes a little break is necessary for us to reflect and grow.
Hey india, first of all i’am very thankful that you are being so honest with us and i hope that you will find a way to deal with issues without binge eating and throwing up afterwards…this time must been so terrifying for you… My Question for the Q&A: Do you still go to a therapist? Because i truely believe this is the best ways to find a way for a healthy dealing with issues and have high chances to not getting trapped in negative behavior patterns again…
I know it’s not all about views.. but if you are looking for views keep being raw and open, this was more helpful and comforting than you know. You are so brave, I am 21 still at home and very lost as well, everything will work out 🧘♀️
You are so strong and I appreciate you so much for sharing such a vulnerable part of your life that could also help others realise they are not alone, I do relate with your experience to an extend and I'm so sorry for what happened, I'm so proud of you for getting out of that state, send you love ! ♥
im so proud of you for being able to open up about this, currently im going through issues with disordered eating (different to yours) and i’ve told no one about it because of how shameful it feels but also because of the toxic mindset about it and not wanting to get better, so i know how hard it is to even admit it to yourself that what you’re doing to yourself isn’t okay let alone admit this to youtube. you’re such an inspiring youtuber to me & im so proud of you for being so open and honest on this channel. sending hugs and love ❤
Aw India this was heartbreaking to watch! as a long time viewer (since 2017 I think??) I've grown up with you and it's been really cool to see everything you've done. this was a hard video to watch, but just know that we are all here to support you no matter what. I think a lot of your followers notice how much happier you are in England so it's definitely a relief knowing you're back there with your family. I really appreciate you opening up too, as I can't imagine how hard that must've been. we are so proud of you!
I just want to tell you, I’ve been watching you for years and one thing I can truly say, is we all have things that make us run away, whether it’s for real or running from ourselves. For several months I hit rock bottom when I didn’t know I even did. A lot of it stemmed from career and school goals and I have struggled with an ED it’s super hard to tell ourselves that we can ask for help or even vent. I have a hard time speaking up and expressing myself. I love that you have been able to speak for yourself and vent and express how you have been feeling. I love you dearly India 💕💕 I’m so sorry that you dealt with all of this. I wish you the best of luck in your journey with everything. (I’m really bad with words I’m sorry lol) 💕
Oh baby girl my heart breaks for you, I just wanna hug you so tight and not let go, your okay, your going to be okay regardless of how long it will take, you have so many people ready to be there with you
we all hit rock bottom at some point… adult life can bring stress, anxiety, responsibilities, work problems, money problems, relationships, family problems etc. At 18, I thought that I would never get my college degree. I was in constant stress, but I did it. I got that degree. At 21, after so much anxiety and being scared of driving- I finally got my drivers license. I thought I couldn’t do it, I failed multiple times, I hated being so incapable of something. But at the end, I got that drivers license, took me a while to start driving by myself, alone - but at the end - I did it. I said fuck it, my car turned off multiple times. I turned it back on and continued. I learned. At 20 , i thought I couldn’t get a job, but I did . That same office job, that I was dying to get, brought me money- but so much fucking stress. Not the job itself, just the people surrounding me. People who want to bring you down, make you feel bad about yourself, Question yourself. This issue still exists. I haven’t gotten over it…. But I’ve learned that everything always works out at the end. You will suffer, you will fall down, you will be broke, have your heart broken, you will lose yourself, hate yourself. Life wouldn’t be interesting if everything was easy. We think some people have it easy, they have everything, but trust me, they do not. No one is perfect. We’re not supposed to be perfect. Things will go downhill, but you will always find a way to get through it. And you will get through it. You will make it. Everything always works out at the end.
Currently dealing with after a year of an Ed I can’t stop binging and now I’m bigger than I’ve ever been :( stopped me associating with anyone or going out. I feel disgusted.
girl i relate so hard. things do get better i promise. i know exactly how it feels. no one can change anything but yourself. you will be happy one day. it’s almost like a switch, one day you’ll have the willpower to get through it without binging… and one day will turn into two days… and two into three. slip ups are bound to happen here and there but i promise life gets better. i still struggle. it feels so shameful and scary but you’re not alone. you are SO loved!!
@@indiagrace5818 respected you so much opening up, which couldn’t of been easy. I resonated SO much with all the topics you discussed & this video couldn’t have came at a better time for me, almost like a sign. I’ve watched you on and off, I’m a couple years older than you, work in not the same field but in events which can be hard being around “models” and people who are paid to look good. All I can say is don’t be so hard on yourself, I’ve only just been living on my own at 23/24, ( not by choice). You’re far ahead of a lot of people so please be kind to yourself. I’m glad you’re doing better and taking the time to heal, I obviously don’t know you personally but you have always seemed like a really sweet person. Wishing you all the best 🫶🏻✨
i have so much love for you india and i’m extremely proud of you! so sorry you went through all of that, you definitely don’t deserve it at all but like you said it’s good to take away the life lessons and learn from everything we go through. you are such a ray of sunshine and i have been watching your videos pretty much since the beginning and i have so much hope for you in this next chapter of your life. you are radiating joy in this healing journey and i can’t wait to see what happens next in your life 🥰🤍✨
Thank you for sharing with us everything India❤ I really love how mature and honest you are. You are already doing very well in many aspects! Hope you build a good relationship with food soon and heal well!
I have been a subscriber since you were 14/15 (?) and I was 12/13- I truly grew up with you. I feel like this video has been a long time coming, and I'm so happy you felt comfortable enough to share it with us❤️🩹
OG watcher here. Thank you for sharing your story, I know it must have been not easy but you are so brave for doing it. Proud of you, and glad to have you back❤ keep being true to yourself because when you do that, that’s when things will come back into place.
for the Q&A: Could you share your current workout/fitness routine now that you are healthy and happier, not restricting. Also you are so strong for sharing this. I know you touched many people and made them feel less alone.
Love you so much India ❤ Glad that you’re doing better and so happy you’re back on youtube im watching you sience you were 14 and your videos are such an nostalgic thing to me and always kinda motivates me
As a person whose life is also falling apart, but I have it “too good” to “have a right” to feel bad about it & especially leave - THANK YOU! Not only this video deeply resonated with me, there’s something so bittersweet about knowing you’re not alone in your struggles, but also I absolutely admire your bravery to be vulnerable ❤️🩹 I always went to the camera, but it’s so hard for me to open up to the internet. But I’ve definitely started my journey this October. Seeing people like you, who are not afraid (or at least don’t let that fear stop them) to share the most vulnerable, darkest & sometimes even embarrassing parts of their life, and to be aware & accountable - is extremely inspiring and somewhat even therapeutic. I’m so proud of you for keeping your resilience even after moments of weakness, shame & failure. I’m so proud of you for making the best decision for yourself & sticking to it. I’m so proud of your progress! I truly wish you the best ❤ To heal & reconnect with the right people & re-enter the life of your dreams once you’re in a healthier state 🤍🪽 It’s people like you who help me to (re)claim my story & get on my journey 💗
I’m 21 and still live at home, I work overtime 5 days a week, mum pays majority of groceries and I buy the things I like most and pay £40 a month as rent. I feel like a bum but my mum reassures me it’s fine because my job is across the road. Plus I’m saving up for driving lessons and a car so I can go travelling and live in my car to do my photography.
Thank you for sharing, we’re the same age and I started watching you when I was 15. It’s amazing watching you grow and thanks for reassuring it’s normal at our age to make stupid decisions or get ourself into toxic relationships with boys, blow all our money on clothes and most importantly not have our life 100% planned out yet. I’m 20, in uni and no clue what I even wanna do when I graduate or who I fully am yet, but that’s alright I guess xx:) sending hugs Xo
My forever favourite TH-camr! I love you and ur honesty. I struggled similarly with food. We got this girl💪❤️. Thanks for being so open and telling ur story it really helps
I know you know this, but I really believe you need to slow down and live like someone your age. Go out and have fun, live with your mom and don’t worry about expenses. When you’ve been working for so long sometimes you forget how to be a kid again. Your dreams will always be there but your youth won’t. Enjoy it for now :)
i used to struggle with bulimia which later turned into anorexia. It is definitely a slippery slope but I’m so proud of you for being so open about this 🩷
Q&A questions: 1. Are you still in contact with your ex? 2. Was he ever violent or narcissistic 3. Did modelling contribute to the ED? 4. Are you ever planning to go back to modelling? 5. When did he (ex) start behaving badly like this 6. Have you ever had past experiences with EDs before July 2022? 7. Do you want to live a “normal” life for someone your age and go to uni, so you can heal from having to grow up so fast and having lived like an adult so early?
the video at 17:16 made me feel n India I got teary eyed. The hating yourself I could relate and I pray u have a beautiful journey to love urself truly no rush. I live la ma if u ever visit again I would love to get some matcha with pretty
Love u. Sending love to u my fellow sagit. Feel you and support you. We are all in the process of getting real and honest with ourselves and start taking good care of selves. Be blessed xx
Girl....that guy was probably a Narcissist. And you are as me...we often attract this type of people. So we must recover OURSELVES. Because if we.dont we will all over again meet the same toxic men in different bodies! I also have ED but we must WORK ON IT. trust me you can be 45 still at the same place and it's so miserable life, we don't want it.
Hi, I would be really glad just for you to noticing my comment. I watch you for so long. Today I have relly my bad day, I also steuggle with ed (the same as your) for 5 years. I was thinking about all that, That I will never overcome that. I really want just hear your voice becouse you are my inspiration, we are the same age. You mean so much. I was just about watch some old videos of yours and wow this came out. That s sign I belive that I have to seen this. Thank you so much. It s amazing how weird it is like this video was made for me
thank you for supporting me for so long. it’s so heartbreaking to hear you’ve been going through these struggles too, as i know how hard it is. you are so loved and you are not alone, and as sad as i am to know you’re going through it too, honestly it’s nice to know i’m not alone as well. we are so strong and will get through this♥️
Tbh can’t blame your mom for feeling that way bc she’s always been the one who’s there yet ur dad who couldn’t care less for 18 yrs of ur life suddenly gets the attention
Omg I feel so bad for you! You are loved! Please don’t settle for abusive relationships to feel like you have family. Can’t you model in London? Live by your mum etc Why does it have to be LA?
You’re mum sounds so wonderful. She picked up the slack your dad left. He’s failed as a father to not look after you more and give you money. A mother would never do that. Kudos to your mum for raising a beautiful young girl like yourself
Do you mind me asking how your binging got better? Down from everyday to 2 times a month? I am struggling at the moment and just can’t even imagine only binging two times a month and would love any help you can offer xx
It's L.A. Honestly I am wondering how people survive that place... I'll would go kuku real quick. I hope you will reach calmer waters soon. Cross fingers
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Please leave your questions for my next Q&A video in the comments or DM me on instagram! I love you guys so much and appreciate your support more than ever. As anxious as opening up about my story makes me, i’m relieved to have gotten this off my chest, as i really do miss being close with you guys. I’ve always shared personal things about my life, and the hardships i go through, and after being so inactive, especially the past year, i wanted to show you guys the truth, as social media can be deceiving, especially i post things of me having fun travelling or shopping. Things aren’t always so glamorous, and i want to start showing that side too, and being more honest and real with you all. Sorry for the times i’ve come across out of touch, and for not showing the true struggles i go through, sometimes i’m just not ready to open up yet. Thank you for being patient with me♥️
India I’m so so sorry that you continue to have to go through these horrible things! If I’ve learned anything in life it is that everything happens for a reason and take everything as a learning lesson because you did learn so much! I will Always support you 🫶🏼
Keep doing TH-cam! You’ll be a great example for our generation especially the girls, how one can bounce back and above in life. Your whole journey can be really inspiring. Keep doing the lifestyle content and taking care of yourself ❤
Been here since you were 14/15 and am so proud of who you’ve grown into
thank you so much for your support♥️
You literally dropped this whilst I’m hitting rock bottom. I’m literally planning on running away as an adult and escaping my abusive and toxic south Asian family as a brown girl without telling anyone anything 😢
Omg girl, litteraly same. Currently working my ass off to be financially independent to leave everything behind and start new life. Stay strong🙏❤
i wish you luck and pray things get better! i promise everything works out ♥️
@@indiagrace5818 it’s so hard but I’m happy you have your mom and she’s taking care of you India !
@@itsfed9324 it’s so tough especially because I’m a student but I’m determined 😡
It will get better sis, don't make any irrational decisions and make sure you think everything through before going ahead with plans. I was in your situation once too
Thank you for being so vulnerable with us India! You honestly don’t owe anyone an explanation but I hope your healing journey continues to progress and just know that the present is not permanent and everything WILL be okay ❤️❤️
I’m 34 and struggle with anxiety and depression. It’s super hard. We just have to keep our heads up and fight each day
we got this!!
I’m so glad you’re sharing this about the controlling relationship. As a mom who’s been through this I’m grateful to you for sharing the cycle of abuse as well as your ED. Girls need to hear this. He was breaking you down eroding your sense of self and that ties into the control issues with disordered eating. 💔
You’re incredibly BRAVE and HEALTHY to be able to share this with so match self awareness. Thank you!!! 🙏🏼 Sending so much Love and strength and well wishes your way. 💛💛💛
thank you for your kind words! as anxious as i’ve been to post this i’m glad i can help other girls and raise awareness about topics that i feel like influencers aren’t so open about these days
You’re so welcome! Please keep sharing your insights. You can be one of the rare ones who normalizes challenges that are _normal_so people don’t have to struggle alone or hide in shame. People need people to get through this heavy stuff and the validation you’re offering is POWERFUL. Cuts through the BS veneer of social media perfectionism that NO ONE can or should live up to. You’re a breath of fresh air!! 🦋🙌🏼🌞
istg i have hit rock bottom & everything has fallen apart and you dropped this you're the strongest. thank you sm india ily
i promise it gets better ♥️
@@indiagrace5818 omg i can’t believe you replied, im sure it will all of us together will grow into our best versions ever.
ily india 💗
The video of your breakdown broke my heart. Thanks for showing us your vulnerable side & the side that life is not always "perfect" as it may seem. That's really brave. And you're really strong. We're proud of you for trying your best to heal and being honest.
thank you so much your comment has helped me feel less anxious about being so vulnerable!
so relatable and not many TH-camrs talk about divorced parents! thanks for sharing x
Thank you so much for sharing all of this and being so vulnerable, I have had so many issues with food and eating disorders and it’s made me feel so insane, lonely and embarrassed. This video is like a weight off my shoulders, thank you for being so open, honest and raw. You will be helping so many people🫶🏼
thank you for your comment, i promise you’re not alone. it’s so scary and embarrassing to talk about but i’m glad i can help others♥️
I don't normally comment but I just wanted to say that it's so refreshing to see other people who have gone through some of the same things.. sometimes people aren't right for one another and that's okay. I didn't know that this was such a common thing to go through so thanks for spending time to talk. ☺
you’re so so brave for posting this. look beyond the haters and know that you’re comforting so many young girls who look up to you and share the same experiences. i hope you’re able to heal while back at home with the support of those around you, body image is such a serious topic and i can’t imagine how hard it must have been for you, especially with everything else going on. please surround yourself around those who love you for who you are and truly care about you
thank you so much for your care and support it means more than you know x
India I am so proud of you, everything you went through shaped you to be the woman you are and are going to be. Girl you are so strong and courageous from moving to LA at a young age, coming back from that and being honest with yourself and vulnerable with us. India you are the girl that walked into Ford and got signed (they weren't even taking walk throughs), you're the girl that decided to have a relationship with her dad regardless of you being the child. 15 year old me looked up to you and 20 year old me still does but now I appreciate your strength India, you have a beautiful heart and have grown to be an amazing young lady. You taught me confidence and to dream. I want you to know you are loved by your family and by God. Allow yourself grace, be kind to yourself and know that you are That Girl. If you fall 10 times you'll surely get up 11. 💖💕❤️Go easy on yourself and if anything I've learned about you is that your aren't prideful (you went back to England instead of staying in a toxic space, you don't care to be right) and that's beautiful. I am proud of you India ❤️
this comment literally made me cry. wow thank you so much you don’t understand how badly i needed to hear this. i love you so much. i’m so overwhelmed and grateful with all this support thank you so so much for all the love♥️
So sorry you have dealt with this. I deal with the same right now so know that your videos help people and you are really making a change with these videos. This is a very tough thing to post. You are amazing!!!!!!
I used to watch your channel religiously years ago, this just came up on my suggested because I’m subbed. sending so much love, I know how hard Ed’s are but you are so deserving of a life freed from that hell, I promise. ❤
sending love 🥰 it kinda broke me to see you break down but i think its so admirable that you’re being real about not being okay so people feel less alone about feeling sad xx
This video suddenly appears in the perfect time I’m struggling a lot with my ED too, I’m trying to recover on my own but tbh it’s so hard and I just kept relapsing , i feel exhausted 😩
I rarely comment on yt videos but I can’t thank you enough for having the courage to be so honest, and for that, you are so much stronger than you know. I relate to you in so so so many ways and it’s amazing to know that I’m not alone through my struggles. I want you to know that it will get better. I know we don’t know each other but it’s amazing how much you can connect to one person through social media. Keep your head up girl, you will move mountains ❤️
i’ve been following you since we were both maybe 13 or 14 and have gone through a lot of the same shit. i’m so sorry you had to deal with this stuff and i really hope life keeps looking up for you ❤️
this was very raw and brave of you to do, this was very genuine, God bless you xx
girl you are so beautiful and strong! I am so proud of your ability to pull through this and to even share this online! sending lots of love your way xx
I’m nearly 28 and only came across this video randomly, but wow you are such a brave young lady for sharing this. I hope you are finding yourself and continuing to work on your overall health ❣️
Thank you, you helped me understand my niece more. She also struggles with ED after her parents divorced. Wish you well❤
this actually helped me a lot. it’s a great reminder that you are still YOU when your dreams come true, so if you don’t work through your bs now, it’s going to severely interfere with your new life. the life of your dreams requires you to be the you of your dreams. not just externally like I focus a lot on, but internally as well. I am so proud of you India. you’re going to come back into your dream life and you’re going to be your most secure and powerful self when you do
India, firstly I am so sorry you went through all of this and that at times you felt so alone. But thank you so much for sharing this, because doing so you are helping people feel less alone. Sending love and positive energy to you. Onwards and upwards 💕
thank you♥️
i just want to say that ur channel is so comforting i've been watching for so many years so thank you for sharing this with us and being real with us ❤️
I’ve been a subscriber since you were fifteen. I love you how you finally feel comfortable to talk about things that matter because it can make a lot of people relate ❤️
I haven't seen your videos in a while however, I am really glad you talked about this angel ◡̈ we are all here for you and are proud of you! everything will be alright and I am always here if you need to talk sweetie.
also there is nothing to be ashamed of, it takes a lot of courage to open up and realize you're struggling.
were all fighting our battles, you're on the right path of healingg ◡̈
I just turned 30 a few months ago and the best advice I could ever give someone is *follow the path less traveled* When I was growing up I was not close with my family, I graduated 450 out of 900 people in my class and I was not expected to do much of anything with my life. 13 years later and I have my undergraduate and masters degree and I live in Okinawa Japan (I am from the US) I am returning to the states next year but I have a good start on life and where its heading, on top of that I am married to an amazing wife and have wonderful dog and a great life. My point is, is that if you follow the path less traveled and do things others wouldnt do then it will take you places.
ive never seen anything more relatable than the divorced parents family drama omg youre so real
hi india. you're not alone.
thank you!! we’re in this together. going home doesn’t mean we’re going backwards in life! sometimes a little break is necessary for us to reflect and grow.
India I’ve been watching u since I was 13 I’m 19 now I’m so so so proud of u. Thank you for your honesty xxx
Thank you for making this video and sharing your story it helps to know that I'm not alone with eating issues.
I’m recovering from an ed so I understand completely. anyone else who is struggling to: LIFE IS WORTH LIVING. ❤
Hey india, first of all i’am very thankful that you are being so honest with us and i hope that you will find a way to deal with issues without binge eating and throwing up afterwards…this time must been so terrifying for you… My Question for the Q&A: Do you still go to a therapist? Because i truely believe this is the best ways to find a way for a healthy dealing with issues and have high chances to not getting trapped in negative behavior patterns again…
I know it’s not all about views.. but if you are looking for views keep being raw and open, this was more helpful and comforting than you know. You are so brave, I am 21 still at home and very lost as well, everything will work out 🧘♀️
You are so strong and I appreciate you so much for sharing such a vulnerable part of your life that could also help others realise they are not alone, I do relate with your experience to an extend and I'm so sorry for what happened, I'm so proud of you for getting out of that state, send you love ! ♥
im so proud of you for being able to open up about this, currently im going through issues with disordered eating (different to yours) and i’ve told no one about it because of how shameful it feels but also because of the toxic mindset about it and not wanting to get better, so i know how hard it is to even admit it to yourself that what you’re doing to yourself isn’t okay let alone admit this to youtube. you’re such an inspiring youtuber to me & im so proud of you for being so open and honest on this channel. sending hugs and love ❤
Aw India this was heartbreaking to watch! as a long time viewer (since 2017 I think??) I've grown up with you and it's been really cool to see everything you've done. this was a hard video to watch, but just know that we are all here to support you no matter what. I think a lot of your followers notice how much happier you are in England so it's definitely a relief knowing you're back there with your family. I really appreciate you opening up too, as I can't imagine how hard that must've been. we are so proud of you!
Thank you for sharing, I have been watching you for years and know it isn't easy to share hard parts of life, so proud of you. ❤
I just want to tell you, I’ve been watching you for years and one thing I can truly say, is we all have things that make us run away, whether it’s for real or running from ourselves. For several months I hit rock bottom when I didn’t know I even did. A lot of it stemmed from career and school goals and I have struggled with an ED it’s super hard to tell ourselves that we can ask for help or even vent. I have a hard time speaking up and expressing myself. I love that you have been able to speak for yourself and vent and express how you have been feeling. I love you dearly India 💕💕 I’m so sorry that you dealt with all of this. I wish you the best of luck in your journey with everything. (I’m really bad with words I’m sorry lol) 💕
Oh baby girl my heart breaks for you, I just wanna hug you so tight and not let go, your okay, your going to be okay regardless of how long it will take, you have so many people ready to be there with you
we all hit rock bottom at some point… adult life can bring stress, anxiety, responsibilities, work problems, money problems, relationships, family problems etc.
At 18, I thought that I would never get my college degree. I was in constant stress, but I did it. I got that degree.
At 21, after so much anxiety and being scared of driving- I finally got my drivers license. I thought I couldn’t do it, I failed multiple times, I
hated being so incapable of something.
But at the end, I got that drivers license, took me a while to start driving by myself, alone - but at the end - I did it. I said fuck it, my car turned off multiple times. I turned it back on and continued. I learned.
At 20 , i thought I couldn’t get a job, but I did . That same office job, that I was dying to get, brought me money- but so much fucking stress. Not the job itself, just the people surrounding me. People who want to bring you down, make you feel bad about yourself, Question yourself.
This issue still exists. I haven’t gotten over it…. But I’ve learned that everything always works out at the end.
You will suffer, you will fall down, you will be broke, have your heart broken,
you will lose yourself, hate yourself.
Life wouldn’t be interesting if everything was easy.
We think some people have it easy, they have everything, but trust me, they do not.
No one is perfect. We’re not supposed to be perfect. Things will go downhill, but you will always find a way to get through it. And you will get through it. You will make it.
Everything always works out at the end.
Currently dealing with after a year of an Ed I can’t stop binging and now I’m bigger than I’ve ever been :( stopped me associating with anyone or going out. I feel disgusted.
girl i relate so hard. things do get better i promise. i know exactly how it feels. no one can change anything but yourself. you will be happy one day. it’s almost like a switch, one day you’ll have the willpower to get through it without binging… and one day will turn into two days… and two into three. slip ups are bound to happen here and there but i promise life gets better. i still struggle. it feels so shameful and scary but you’re not alone. you are SO loved!!
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respected you so much opening up, which couldn’t of been easy. I resonated SO much with all the topics you discussed & this video couldn’t have came at a better time for me, almost like a sign. I’ve watched you on and off, I’m a couple years older than you, work in not the same field but in events which can be hard being around “models” and people who are paid to look good.
All I can say is don’t be so hard on yourself, I’ve only just been living on my own at 23/24, ( not by choice). You’re far ahead of a lot of people so please be kind to yourself. I’m glad you’re doing better and taking the time to heal, I obviously don’t know you personally but you have always seemed like a really sweet person.
Wishing you all the best 🫶🏻✨
i have so much love for you india and i’m extremely proud of you! so sorry you went through all of that, you definitely don’t deserve it at all but like you said it’s good to take away the life lessons and learn from everything we go through. you are such a ray of sunshine and i have been watching your videos pretty much since the beginning and i have so much hope for you in this next chapter of your life. you are radiating joy in this healing journey and i can’t wait to see what happens next in your life 🥰🤍✨
thank you so much for your lovely comment and support💕 really means the world
omg this is so vulnerable ❤
Thank you for sharing with us everything India❤ I really love how mature and honest you are. You are already doing very well in many aspects! Hope you build a good relationship with food soon and heal well!
I have been a subscriber since you were 14/15 (?) and I was 12/13- I truly grew up with you. I feel like this video has been a long time coming, and I'm so happy you felt comfortable enough to share it with us❤️🩹
thank you so much for listening and being here with me through out everything♥️
OG watcher here. Thank you for sharing your story, I know it must have been not easy but you are so brave for doing it. Proud of you, and glad to have you back❤ keep being true to yourself because when you do that, that’s when things will come back into place.
so proud of u xxx ur channel is my comfort truly
Been struggling myself and same things but I'm happy to hear you're doing better .. I want to do too. You gave me hope ❤
for the Q&A: Could you share your current workout/fitness routine now that you are healthy and happier, not restricting.
Also you are so strong for sharing this. I know you touched many people and made them feel less alone.
We love you india. I have been here since your name was “princess” and that faceless phase. Love you so so so much from Malaysia
I’m so proud of you India ❤️❤️ur so strong and inspiring I love you !
Love you so much India ❤
Glad that you’re doing better and so happy you’re back on youtube im watching you sience you were 14 and your videos are such an nostalgic thing to me and always kinda motivates me
As a person whose life is also falling apart, but I have it “too good” to “have a right” to feel bad about it & especially leave - THANK YOU!
Not only this video deeply resonated with me, there’s something so bittersweet about knowing you’re not alone in your struggles, but also I absolutely admire your bravery to be vulnerable ❤️🩹
I always went to the camera, but it’s so hard for me to open up to the internet. But I’ve definitely started my journey this October.
Seeing people like you, who are not afraid (or at least don’t let that fear stop them) to share the most vulnerable, darkest & sometimes even embarrassing parts of their life, and to be aware & accountable - is extremely inspiring and somewhat even therapeutic.
I’m so proud of you for keeping your resilience even after moments of weakness, shame & failure. I’m so proud of you for making the best decision for yourself & sticking to it. I’m so proud of your progress!
I truly wish you the best ❤ To heal & reconnect with the right people & re-enter the life of your dreams once you’re in a healthier state 🤍🪽
It’s people like you who help me to (re)claim my story & get on my journey 💗
thank you so much for this comment and your support. we are so strong ♥️
I’m 21 and still live at home, I work overtime 5 days a week, mum pays majority of groceries and I buy the things I like most and pay £40 a month as rent.
I feel like a bum but my mum reassures me it’s fine because my job is across the road. Plus I’m saving up for driving lessons and a car so I can go travelling and live in my car to do my photography.
Please never get involved with a person who is controlling
So incredibly proud of you
sending u so much love
thank you so much for your support♥️
Thank you for sharing, we’re the same age and I started watching you when I was 15. It’s amazing watching you grow and thanks for reassuring it’s normal at our age to make stupid decisions or get ourself into toxic relationships with boys, blow all our money on clothes and most importantly not have our life 100% planned out yet. I’m 20, in uni and no clue what I even wanna do when I graduate or who I fully am yet, but that’s alright I guess xx:) sending hugs Xo
You are doing so so much better than you think. Sending you lots of love 🤍☁️✨
My forever favourite TH-camr! I love you and ur honesty. I struggled similarly with food. We got this girl💪❤️. Thanks for being so open and telling ur story it really helps
thank you soo much for your support♥️
love this. ty for ur honesty
Thank you for sharing this, you are so genuine and amazing. God bless you always
pleaaase reload your old videos!!!! i loved them
Genuinely so vulnerable, also you should definitely take a Nyc trip ahaha always happy when you go there
yesss!!! i miss new york those vlogs were the best
I am so proud of you for posting this ❤
I know you know this, but I really believe you need to slow down and live like someone your age. Go out and have fun, live with your mom and don’t worry about expenses. When you’ve been working for so long sometimes you forget how to be a kid again. Your dreams will always be there but your youth won’t. Enjoy it for now :)
thank you! i think i’m starting to just understand this and i fully agree
u r so strong, loveu and im happy you r better now!
So proud of you India 🖤
I’ve always liked you and your videos 🥰 happy that you are healing
That man was SCARY...glad she's okay .. Jesus 😲
I am SO SO SOOO PROUD OF YOU❤❤
Sending so much love to you India ❤️
I cried when I watched you and I'm looking forward for the videos in the future
So proud of you 👏!
i used to struggle with bulimia which later turned into anorexia. It is definitely a slippery slope but I’m so proud of you for being so open about this 🩷
it’s so hard but we’re so strong ♥️ i hope you’re doing better now!!
Thank you for sharing ❤️ wish you all the best, you deserve all the best ❤️
One day at a time ♡, you are strong and brave 💫
proud of u !!
Keep on being positive India were all love you very much
I can’t understand how young people think drinking and then throwing up is a fun
Q&A questions:
1. Are you still in contact with your ex?
2. Was he ever violent or narcissistic
3. Did modelling contribute to the ED?
4. Are you ever planning to go back to modelling?
5. When did he (ex) start behaving badly like this
6. Have you ever had past experiences with EDs before July 2022?
7. Do you want to live a “normal” life for someone your age and go to uni, so you can heal from having to grow up so fast and having lived like an adult so early?
the video at 17:16 made me feel n India I got teary eyed. The hating yourself I could relate and I pray u have a beautiful journey to love urself truly no rush. I live la ma if u ever visit again I would love to get some matcha with pretty
Take time to heal and come back when you are ready❤️Sending you lots of virtual Hugs and kisses your way India💝💝
thank you♥️
Love u. Sending love to u my fellow sagit. Feel you and support you. We are all in the process of getting real and honest with ourselves and start taking good care of selves. Be blessed xx
The TH-cam channel isn’t doing too badly. That’s something to be happy about.
haha honestly i’m shocked with the amount of love and support i’ve been getting.. so overwhelmed with emotions and grateful!
such a beautiful video, thank you.
You are so beautiful inside out. i love how real u are. Love you
Girl....that guy was probably a Narcissist. And you are as me...we often attract this type of people. So we must recover OURSELVES. Because if we.dont we will all over again meet the same toxic men in different bodies! I also have ED but we must WORK ON IT. trust me you can be 45 still at the same place and it's so miserable life, we don't want it.
Him asking her to be his gf after 2 weeks was the first red flag
Lots of love from Istanbul!!! love u🩷
Hi, I would be really glad just for you to noticing my comment. I watch you for so long. Today I have relly my bad day, I also steuggle with ed (the same as your) for 5 years. I was thinking about all that, That I will never overcome that. I really want just hear your voice becouse you are my inspiration, we are the same age. You mean so much. I was just about watch some old videos of yours and wow this came out. That s sign I belive that I have to seen this. Thank you so much. It s amazing how weird it is like this video was made for me
thank you for supporting me for so long. it’s so heartbreaking to hear you’ve been going through these struggles too, as i know how hard it is. you are so loved and you are not alone, and as sad as i am to know you’re going through it too, honestly it’s nice to know i’m not alone as well. we are so strong and will get through this♥️
Tbh can’t blame your mom for feeling that way bc she’s always been the one who’s there yet ur dad who couldn’t care less for 18 yrs of ur life suddenly gets the attention
thank you for sharing
sending love from Japan!
Be strong and never forget that thighs get better!
Omg I feel so bad for you! You are loved! Please don’t settle for abusive relationships to feel like you have family. Can’t you model in London? Live by your mum etc Why does it have to be LA?
You’re mum sounds so wonderful. She picked up the slack your dad left. He’s failed as a father to not look after you more and give you money. A mother would never do that. Kudos to your mum for raising a beautiful young girl like yourself
Do you mind me asking how your binging got better? Down from everyday to 2 times a month? I am struggling at the moment and just can’t even imagine only binging two times a month and would love any help you can offer xx
It's L.A. Honestly I am wondering how people survive that place... I'll would go kuku real quick. I hope you will reach calmer waters soon. Cross fingers