I Chose To Love You And What Did You Choose?

Magically, you pulled me into your world and I couldn’t run away from you.
I fell for you hard. The only things I saw were your eyes and your contagious smile.
I wasn’t ready to love. I had just gone through a breakup, so I made a promise to myself that I would dedicate some time to healing.
“It was time to put me as a priority.” (At least, that’s what I said.)
You seemed different from all the other guys. There was something special in your eyes that made me feel calm when I looked at them.
They were like a lullaby for my heart and my soul.
When I was with you, everything felt at peace. I felt like I was in a safe harbor where no one else was allowed to be.
You didn’t choose to be serious with me either. Instead, you chose to play with my feelings and let me think that no one would ever truly love me.
I was just a game that you would put aside when you got bored.
You didn’t choose to help me rebuild myself from pieces that others had left behind. Instead, you chose to ruin me even more.
After you, I felt like a million-piece-puzzle that no one would ever be able to assemble.
No one had ever hurt me like you. It’s like you pulled every piece of hope out of me and you let me drown in my sadness.
You walked away like I was an object that you accidentally broke and hid under the table.
There were no consequences for you, as I was just a casualty.
All those sweet words of, “I love you,” and all those hugs that put life back into me were just a part of your plan.
They were never real. You used them to manipulate me, and then you disappeared.
All those plans you had for our future…
How could you pretend that they were honest? They sounded so genuine.
So, you made sure to give me all of that to win my heart.
Once you achieved it, I wasn’t good enough anymore so you simply walked away, like I never meant anything to you.
I chose to love you and you chose to hurt me. You made the scars on my heart deeper than they were before and you casually moved on with your life.
But then I realized that I was the one who gave you love while you were the one who gave me pain.
Nothing was my fault (except the fact that I trusted you).
Everything else was caused by you - the pain, the suffering, and the sadness. I blame it all on you!
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Timestamps ⏰
0:00 Intro
0:40 I chose to fall for you
1:40 Good things don't last forever
2:30 You chose to hurt me
3:58 You knew what I needed the most
4:43 Was it my fault?