SHARE THE OLD FOOTAGE!!! YES WE WOULD WATCH IT!!! Everyone is going through something and it's nice to know we aren't alone! It's also nice to see that there are amazing good moments amongst the hard ones
YES BRING ON THE FOOTAGE PLEASE!!!!!!!Hunny you are number one first of all. Your true fans will be here whenever you are ready and will fully support you. Your mental health falls into health period so you take as long as you need. All we want is for you to be stable and happy and living. We will be here waiting patiently. Lots of love and prayers from this Northern Michigan Momma. ❤️
1. You do not owe us or anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself!! 2. Yes yes yes to any and all footage, we're here to support you no matter what! Keep on keeping on girlie 💞
I was 7 months trying to tweak my meds once...worst time of my life. Cried so much my eyes were absolutely raw. Only slept 2 hrs a night for months. As soon as we got the right med, it was immediately apparent. Even so, it really is a lifelong battle. Your meds don't make your feelings. They just make it easier to process them. This IS a lifelong journey, and your self awareness WILL get you through this. As far as vlogging, we are happy to see and hear from you at any time. And girl, you gotta pay the bills. Do what you need to do to take care of you first. We love you and can't wait to see whatever you post next. Stay wonderful. We love you
Going through similar things, I can tell you that once you and your support team figure things, it gets easier. Hang in there, be good to yourself, laugh when needed, cry when warranted, remember to eat and drink your water! We're so glad you're here, and we'll be here for you. ❤ I haven't posted for months, and I don't have the reach you do... take your time, and please be well!
As someone who goes back years after the fact and watches peoples older videos even though they aren’t up to date, your idea is right up my alley! You’ll definitely have at least 1 view Em! Get well soon! 💗
I'd love to see older footage! I'm always very excited when I see a video of yours pop up, they honestly make my day! And you're such a comfort to me, take care
I have insomnia as well. My mind races when I try to sleep. Something that helps me is I basically write a story or movie in my head. That way I focus on one thing. It may seem odd but it helps me a lot. I can’t watch a movie because I focus on that too much but for some reason making up my own in my head quiets all the other thoughts but doesn’t keep me up from focusing too hard. I hope find your balance! Youve got this girl! Also yes all the footage pleaseeeeeee!
I met you through Rachels channel, who I met through Collens channel. I've been watching your crew for so long and you know what... It is SO refreshing seeing people be real and normal on here. Not overdoing it, not not being themselves. (Although I must admit I am a fan of "Miranda sings" LOL) I love all of your content so much and would enjoy watching your older content. Take care of yourself and I hope you get the sleep you desperately need. My husband suffers from insomnia really bad as well so I understand the struggle. Thank you for being you and staying honest. We will wait for you because we love you. Those who dont, dont deserve to be a part of your channel TBH! Take care of yourself lovely!
Emily, your struggles are completely valid. The hardest part (in my experience also struggling with anxiety and depression) is the frustration of knowing that most people will not understand how detrimental mental illnesses are to our livelihood. Acceptance therapy has actually helped me a lot because it has helped me feel less sorry for myself because I would psycoanalyze everything my brain does and feel so much pity that I have to “live like this” This sh*t affects every aspect our lives, and it sucks that the world is not built to accommodate. Please do not feel guilty or lazy for not keeping up with your promises because your brain is actively fighting against itself which you cannot control. I know there isn’t much anyone can say, but you have helped so many people talking about your experiences, and you have made me feel less alone during the lowest points in my life. P.S. you should look into learning to crochet! A lot of therapists recommend it to keep your mind busy and distract from never ending thoughts. It also helps you feel like you’re being productive and it keeps your hands busy! Last year when I was going through severe depression, I would crochet all day every day and it helped keep my mind at ease and forced me to at least be doing something. Love you and I wish you the best!
I was struggling for years, debilitating anxiety and dark depression. I switched from an SSRI to an SNRI and went up to 150mg and the peace of not having anxiety is something that I never thought I’d get to! Just remember, It will pass soon as hard as it is when you just want feel normal. Valium also helps!!
I would LOVE to see your "backup footage". I'm so glad you have new Drs and are working on your mental health! You don't owe anyone anything and please pace yourself. I hope things get better soon! Sending hugs
Thank you for being open. Also, if it’s something you’d enjoy, I wouldn’t mind a podcast or videos like these where you sit down and rant. Definitely made me feel like I’m not alone. ❤
So will watch older videos! As long as it's you being you, I have bipolar and I seriously go through everything you described. Absolutely love you and I hope you find your best cocktail of meds that help you ❤❤
Dearest Em! It's hard not to criticise yourself, trust me, I know! We need to remind ourselves that whatever we're feeling is valid. Personally for me, what works is I keep telling myself "this will pass" thanks to my therapist for that! 😅 day by day it gets a little easier, whereas some days it feels like nothing is going right. We all love and support you through this time. I can't speak for everyone, but I will say that I will continue to watch your videos whilst you grow as an amazing, inspirational woman. ❤️ wish you the best you beautiful soul!!
I am so happy to see your face again! Hello beautiful lady! I would love to see the backup footage! You are so strong. You have been through so much and your feeling are valid. Keep taking care of you cause that is the most important
Yes, I would definitely watch. Gives us a chance to get to know you better! Also, we seem to be the same person. Currently in bed with my head under the covers and was so excited to see your video to take my mind off me. Thank you!
As much as it suck’s to see you struggle, it’s comforting to see something so relatable, and comfort from my depression is so depleted it’s much much appreciated ❤ sending love
It’s nice to see you Emily! Two things, 1. Yes I would totally watch your older vlog footage, I thoroughly enjoy watching you and your content, and 2. This is super weird but whenever I can’t sleep and I try literally everything, and I mean I have had a week long episodes like you were describing, the ONLY thing that works is laying in bed upside down. Meaning put your head where your feet normally go. I know it sounds so dumb, but seriously idk why but it works. And I totally forget about it every time I can’t sleep until it’s been days. Once I remember and do it I knock right out. It makes no sense at all but try it! Ok love you bye ✌️
I related so much to what you said about just being so frustrated with the way your brain works because I’ve been there so many times with anxiety - I’m so sorry you are going through this tough time but thank you for sharing and validating what so many people also struggle with. Hoping you are towards better times and wishing you nothing but the best!! And I would absolutely watch vlogs that are not up to date, your vlogs are so fun to watch I don’t care when they are from! But don’t put too much pressure on posting them if you are not mentally up to it, if you can, I’ll definitely watch, but there is no pressure to. Do whatever is best for you and your health ❤️
Yes yes yes please post the footage! Please take all the time you need and come back to regular posting when you are ready. We all love and support you ❤️❤️
YESSS Emily ❤️💚🩷💙💖. We would love to watch any videos you’ve made. Absolutely! And meanwhile you just keep focusing on your mental and physical health. We care about you. I have suffered depression, anxiety, and debilitating panic attacks for 30 years. I feel ya sister. It is indeed negatively affected by being too hard on self (non-accepting), loss of sleep, and poor self care. Also, the right meds and dose are critical. We are here for you and you’re doing all the right stuff, love.
You’re getting through and that is so impressive! I have been in your shoes and scrambling for answers it’s so overwhelming and even scary. For me, exploring my neurodivergence and getting a team of providers that understood how it affects ALL aspects of my life changed everything for me. I’m on the fewest meds I’ve ever been on (fewest just because I’ve been fortunate to find the right ones) and changed entirely how I went through my day to day life. Learning what my mental capacity actually is and accepting that I can’t do what some of my other friends can on a day to day basis has improved my mental and physical health more than I can explain
I would love watching anything you post! Good to see you are working hard on your health! You are really strong, to be able to fight all,everyday! Really hope you get better soon 😊
If posting the footage will help you by getting you back into a routine. Then yes absolutely! If you’re not ready or not up to it, that’s ok. You’re not obligated to do anything. ❤
One thing I heard a long time ago that always helps me is: If you feel like you’ve hit a wall, maybe it’s not there to stop you, but give you somewhere to lean against while you catch your breath
Hi Emily, I really hope the sleep meds are working. I fully agree that sleep is the most important thing and once you have that figured out it will help make everything else at least a little better. We all care about you and your well being. I know we can't control or understand the way our brains work (I'm struggling so much my second to last semester of my master's program for no reason and its infuriating) but it doesn't speak anything about our worth as people. We love you and support you and if sharing past vlog experiences with us will help in any way, you know we will watch them :) and we'll consider ourselves extremely grateful! We hope you start feeling better soon ❤
I would love the old footage! Seeing your adventures is still fun when you feel like sharing them! 😊 Maybe the process could help you slowly get back into where you’re wanting to work wise as well! p.s. thanks for giving us a Frank moment ❣️
I've been taking Ambien for a few years now and ill tell you without it I would be locked up in loony bin from lack of sleep. It has helped me sooooo much physically and mentally!
Yes I'll gladly watch that. Girl I feel you I'm in a bad place in life right now and the anxiety and depression is real. I'm so sorry you feel like crap. I hope we can mend together ❤️
Your health and well being is always first! we love you and will always be her to watch anything you post and support you :) we all care so much you never owe us anything but if it help you or is best for you thanks for being so open about your journey and hope everything you are doing help and if it doesn’t that’s ok as long as you keep going just try not to give up :) ❤
Yes Yes Yes.. I will watch old footage. You are one of my comfort TH-camrs and I will watch anything and everything you post! Thank you for the video today, it made me feel less alone with my spirals and vicious cycles💕
YES. YES. YES. YES PLEASEEE POST YOUR OLD VLOG FOOTAGE. I'd love to watch it and I've been missing you and your vlogs girl ❤ Also am happy for you to be starting a new chapter with your mental health journey 😇
I'm so happy you're doing what you need to do for you. The other day I was beginning to wonder what happened to you. I'd love to see older footage. If you've vlogged an adventure, I want to see it. I'm proud of you of how far you've come already.
Also I love how vulnerable you are because it’s so relatable and something people don’t talk about often enough. I’ve wanted to be a mom my entire life and my life felt so empty without a child. I always said “when I’m a mom I’m going to have my life together because I’ll do anything to make sure my kid has a mentally stable mom with a stable life” well I got pregnant, had a baby, hormones took the best of me. I was MORE critical of myself because I’m like “you have a baby who relies on you, this is all you’ve ever wanted, why aren’t you stable you’re a piece of shit mom” then I got on MUCH needed medication and expected that to fix my whole life and I just didn’t. I’ve adapted the phrase “you can put a bandaid on a bullet hole but eventually you’ll need stitches” stitches being therapy and hardcore internal work. Sorry for the long story long. Love you
I will watch literally anything you post it’s always entertaining and brings me happiness! I hope that things start looking up for you soon ❤ I have been looking out for a video from you and have been worried
Allow yourself the emotions, the hours of crying, the days on the couch. Life's hard. You'll get through it! You're a fantastic young, inspirational woman!
You’ve made a lot of MAJOR changes in a very short time. Give yourself time and grace Whatever decision you make is the right one. This path your on IS THE RIGHT ONE. It’s the one that is making you. I promise. It feels like it’s too much. And never going to get better and I swear. It will. You are making the right decisions. Every single one. You’re growing and mature and brilliant. I’m so proud of every second of this journey you have made. I’ve been here through a lot of it. Like 2 years I think. You got this kid. It’s a lot. But you got this.
I usually don't comment on videos but had to make an exception for this one. Emily know that you are so strong for dealing with what you are when it comes to your mental health and so brave for sharing with us, your community (as I tend to mask around 95% of those who I encounter at work and family). I aspire to be more like you as I personally think you are one of the coolest people and an amazing person! I also want to thank you for so clearly putting into words what I have struggled to articulate to myself or to my support system since my mental health (anxiety and depression too) has also gotten worse. Sending you strength, healing, and positive vibes and energy ❤❤ PS. Anything you opted to put out content-wise, I would definitely watch as I am always excited when I get to have a glimpse into your world.
OMG you had me so worried! I am so happy you are taking care of yourself🥺 I would watch all your vlogs in a heartbeat! You owe nobody an explanation! Mental health comes first!!🥰
Lovely to see you back Em 💜 Sounds like you've got plans in place to help you start feeling better, one step at a time 💜 Yes, please post the backup footage love watching your videos whether there old of new 💜 Most importantly Take care if yourself x💜x
Please post the older stuff!!! Especially Ireland (I'm going for the first time in June!), the dog trip, ALL the things!! happy that you're taking the time to work on you ❤
I totally understand. I have really bad anxiety and depression and panic attacks totally get it. If you need some time, take care of yourself, we understand.❤
YES TO THE FOOTAGE!!! I love it all, and will watch it all!!! Also, as someone who also struggles immensely with my mental health, this explanation resonated so much with me and I appreciated you talking about it so much ❤️
See this is why I love you… you struck me instantly as a genuine person when you started out with Rachel. You are.. I also divorced few yrs ago. It’s a lot.. I think the trauma throws off our chemistry. I’ve been in this EXACT PLACE VERBATIM since! I want to just give you a huge hug. Thank you for being so real and descriptive about what mental illness feels like. The fucking struggle! You are amazing, strong, powerful, resilient! You got this girl! Glad you are paying attention and taking your needs seriously! Thanks for sharing.. l feel less alone. 💋❤️🏳️🌈
Something that is helpful for me when I need to set goals for myself (like trying to exercise daily, or drink a glass of water), but keep failing to meet them, is to set the goal as minimal as possible (like doing one set of 5 squats each day, or drinking one sip of water each day). It's not a lot, it may not make a huge difference to your actual physical help, but its better for my mental checklist, it helps me avoid feeling too much pressure from that checklist, and it's easier to keep the momentum once I've started small (I've done one set, I could do another. I've had one sip, I could finish the glass). Best wishes 🥰 Eta: you owe us nothing and I'd watch the back dated vlogs!
yes do want the old footage but also I have complex trauma and all my 49 years of life I have had insomnia, I am on and off sleepers but I also hate the thought of addiction so will go off them for a month then only take when desperate, I am only sharing this as there is one thing I do you didnt mention but its my number 1 helpful thing.. my biggest issue is my brain not stopping/relaxing.. I read my ipad in the dark, it has to be dark backlit and then dimmed to the lowest, I read a book I love and have read many times in my sleep position and when I feel I am "in the book" and not my head , I put it down and close eyes.. if brain starts up, rinse and repeat... everyone is different but it works for me best .
Of course we'd watch it, we have missed you and worried where you were. I thought of you yesterday! I had a breakdown recently and rage quit my job....took 6 weeks to just look after myself/sleep (also because having to look after my Mum)....finally got up this morning and thought abut a few things for interviews etc!. It exhausted me just doing that 1/2 hour, but i'm living in the "do one thing today" mentality..... Seeing you post this is so brave, and you did so well to open yourself up even more to us. EmilyGang!
Absolutely I would watch it. And thank you for speaking your truth. I’ve been struggling with depression, anxiety, panic and anxiety attacks for the past 3 years. Nothing seems to be working. Thank you for making me feel seen and not alone.
I’d love to see your oldish footage! I hope you find the right combination of treatment and medicine that makes you feel like the person you want to be.
Girl I wanna see whatever vlog footage you have! I struggle with insomnia myself and I literally would watch your videos for hours when I can't sleep because your hilarious and so relatable❤ Please post them! Love you! I hope you get your meds adjusted to where they're good for you & feeling better ASAP😘
SHARE THE OLD FOOTAGE!!! YES WE WOULD WATCH IT!!! Everyone is going through something and it's nice to know we aren't alone! It's also nice to see that there are amazing good moments amongst the hard ones
So glad you’re on the mend. Your health is the most important thing. And yes, we will watch anything you post! 🤣
I would 100% watch it girl. Feel better. You are loved, no worries! ❤
Post ALL THE FOOTAGE!!!! I'll watch it all. I love your content. Keep it up cutie!
YES BRING ON THE FOOTAGE PLEASE!!!!!!!Hunny you are number one first of all. Your true fans will be here whenever you are ready and will fully support you. Your mental health falls into health period so you take as long as you need. All we want is for you to be stable and happy and living. We will be here waiting patiently. Lots of love and prayers from this Northern Michigan Momma. ❤️
1. You do not owe us or anyone an explanation for taking care of yourself!!
2. Yes yes yes to any and all footage, we're here to support you no matter what! Keep on keeping on girlie 💞
I was 7 months trying to tweak my meds once...worst time of my life. Cried so much my eyes were absolutely raw. Only slept 2 hrs a night for months. As soon as we got the right med, it was immediately apparent. Even so, it really is a lifelong battle. Your meds don't make your feelings. They just make it easier to process them. This IS a lifelong journey, and your self awareness WILL get you through this.
As far as vlogging, we are happy to see and hear from you at any time. And girl, you gotta pay the bills. Do what you need to do to take care of you first. We love you and can't wait to see whatever you post next. Stay wonderful. We love you
It really is a JOURNEY! Thank you for sharing :)
I’m so thankful you’re getting the help you need! You are so pure for sharing your life ❤ pleaseeeee post all the old content!!
Post the old stuff. Its always fun to see what people do.
Going through similar things, I can tell you that once you and your support team figure things, it gets easier. Hang in there, be good to yourself, laugh when needed, cry when warranted, remember to eat and drink your water! We're so glad you're here, and we'll be here for you. ❤ I haven't posted for months, and I don't have the reach you do... take your time, and please be well!
I'd love to see your backup footage, it'd feel like catching up and that sounds nice. ❤
I'm glad you're back, remember that you are strong and you have a good, support system, hang in there.
As someone who goes back years after the fact and watches peoples older videos even though they aren’t up to date, your idea is right up my alley! You’ll definitely have at least 1 view Em! Get well soon! 💗
I'd love to see older footage! I'm always very excited when I see a video of yours pop up, they honestly make my day! And you're such a comfort to me, take care
I have insomnia as well. My mind races when I try to sleep. Something that helps me is I basically write a story or movie in my head. That way I focus on one thing. It may seem odd but it helps me a lot. I can’t watch a movie because I focus on that too much but for some reason making up my own in my head quiets all the other thoughts but doesn’t keep me up from focusing too hard.
I hope find your balance! Youve got this girl!
Also yes all the footage pleaseeeeeee!
Emily bring on the vlogs I would watch them. From one struggler to another take time to heal and take each day at a time and remember you are loved xx
I met you through Rachels channel, who I met through Collens channel. I've been watching your crew for so long and you know what... It is SO refreshing seeing people be real and normal on here. Not overdoing it, not not being themselves. (Although I must admit I am a fan of "Miranda sings" LOL) I love all of your content so much and would enjoy watching your older content. Take care of yourself and I hope you get the sleep you desperately need. My husband suffers from insomnia really bad as well so I understand the struggle. Thank you for being you and staying honest. We will wait for you because we love you. Those who dont, dont deserve to be a part of your channel TBH! Take care of yourself lovely!
Good luck on your mental health journey. I know it's tough! I would absolutely love to watch your older content!!!
I would totally watch your older footage!
Take all the time you need. ❤️ We'll be here when you are ready.
Emily, your struggles are completely valid. The hardest part (in my experience also struggling with anxiety and depression) is the frustration of knowing that most people will not understand how detrimental mental illnesses are to our livelihood. Acceptance therapy has actually helped me a lot because it has helped me feel less sorry for myself because I would psycoanalyze everything my brain does and feel so much pity that I have to “live like this” This sh*t affects every aspect our lives, and it sucks that the world is not built to accommodate. Please do not feel guilty or lazy for not keeping up with your promises because your brain is actively fighting against itself which you cannot control. I know there isn’t much anyone can say, but you have helped so many people talking about your experiences, and you have made me feel less alone during the lowest points in my life. P.S. you should look into learning to crochet! A lot of therapists recommend it to keep your mind busy and distract from never ending thoughts. It also helps you feel like you’re being productive and it keeps your hands busy! Last year when I was going through severe depression, I would crochet all day every day and it helped keep my mind at ease and forced me to at least be doing something. Love you and I wish you the best!
I’m glad you’re feeling better. I’d say post the backup footage. I’m totally gonna watch it!
YESSS post them and make it a series called “The Em Diaries” 🥰
I was struggling for years, debilitating anxiety and dark depression. I switched from an SSRI to an SNRI and went up to 150mg and the peace of not having anxiety is something that I never thought I’d get to! Just remember, It will pass soon as hard as it is when you just want feel normal. Valium also helps!!
I would LOVE to see your "backup footage". I'm so glad you have new Drs and are working on your mental health! You don't owe anyone anything and please pace yourself. I hope things get better soon! Sending hugs
Yes! I'd love to see the older content! Please share! ❤ Also, hang in there. Big hugs! ❤
Thank you for being open. Also, if it’s something you’d enjoy, I wouldn’t mind a podcast or videos like these where you sit down and rant. Definitely made me feel like I’m not alone. ❤
Emily you are not alone. I have a space at my workplace where I have panic attacks. Thank you for sharing your experience ❤
I would watch any content you put up! You take care of you please put them up
Emily, please please always remember that we don't care about posting times or "kept promises".
We care about YOU
I’m glad your taking time to get better
So will watch older videos! As long as it's you being you, I have bipolar and I seriously go through everything you described. Absolutely love you and I hope you find your best cocktail of meds that help you ❤❤
Dearest Em! It's hard not to criticise yourself, trust me, I know! We need to remind ourselves that whatever we're feeling is valid. Personally for me, what works is I keep telling myself "this will pass" thanks to my therapist for that! 😅 day by day it gets a little easier, whereas some days it feels like nothing is going right. We all love and support you through this time. I can't speak for everyone, but I will say that I will continue to watch your videos whilst you grow as an amazing, inspirational woman. ❤️ wish you the best you beautiful soul!!
I am so happy to see your face again! Hello beautiful lady! I would love to see the backup footage!
You are so strong. You have been through so much and your feeling are valid. Keep taking care of you cause that is the most important
Yes, I would definitely watch. Gives us a chance to get to know you better! Also, we seem to be the same person. Currently in bed with my head under the covers and was so excited to see your video to take my mind off me. Thank you!
As much as it suck’s to see you struggle, it’s comforting to see something so relatable, and comfort from my depression is so depleted it’s much much appreciated ❤ sending love
Thank you for letting us know how your doing. So sorry about everything. You take care of you but would watch whatever you put out there.
It’s nice to see you Emily! Two things, 1. Yes I would totally watch your older vlog footage, I thoroughly enjoy watching you and your content, and 2. This is super weird but whenever I can’t sleep and I try literally everything, and I mean I have had a week long episodes like you were describing, the ONLY thing that works is laying in bed upside down. Meaning put your head where your feet normally go. I know it sounds so dumb, but seriously idk why but it works. And I totally forget about it every time I can’t sleep until it’s been days. Once I remember and do it I knock right out. It makes no sense at all but try it! Ok love you bye ✌️
Yes post it all! We're here to support you and would love to see all the footage u put ur time into to take
I'm proud of you! I would happily watch backup vlogs.❤
YES!!! I would totally watch older footage of your quality content. Sending good vibes hope you start feeling better soon. ❤
Yes. I would watch. I was diagnosed with bipolar over 30 years ago so I know some of what you're going through. Try to be kind to yourself.💜💜💜
Happy to watch the old stuff. Just love your content no matter what it is. Thanks for being real with us. Hope you feel better soon! 🤗
I related so much to what you said about just being so frustrated with the way your brain works because I’ve been there so many times with anxiety - I’m so sorry you are going through this tough time but thank you for sharing and validating what so many people also struggle with. Hoping you are towards better times and wishing you nothing but the best!! And I would absolutely watch vlogs that are not up to date, your vlogs are so fun to watch I don’t care when they are from! But don’t put too much pressure on posting them if you are not mentally up to it, if you can, I’ll definitely watch, but there is no pressure to. Do whatever is best for you and your health ❤️
Yes yes yes please post the footage!
Please take all the time you need and come back to regular posting when you are ready. We all love and support you ❤️❤️
YESSS Emily ❤️💚🩷💙💖. We would love to watch any videos you’ve made. Absolutely! And meanwhile you just keep focusing on your mental and physical health. We care about you. I have suffered depression, anxiety, and debilitating panic attacks for 30 years. I feel ya sister. It is indeed negatively affected by being too hard on self (non-accepting), loss of sleep, and poor self care. Also, the right meds and dose are critical. We are here for you and you’re doing all the right stuff, love.
You’re getting through and that is so impressive! I have been in your shoes and scrambling for answers it’s so overwhelming and even scary. For me, exploring my neurodivergence and getting a team of providers that understood how it affects ALL aspects of my life changed everything for me. I’m on the fewest meds I’ve ever been on (fewest just because I’ve been fortunate to find the right ones) and changed entirely how I went through my day to day life. Learning what my mental capacity actually is and accepting that I can’t do what some of my other friends can on a day to day basis has improved my mental and physical health more than I can explain
So glad to see you post again! Hope the health(mental and physical) journey gets better soon! I say post the older stuff, I will watch.
I would love watching anything you post! Good to see you are working hard on your health! You are really strong, to be able to fight all,everyday! Really hope you get better soon 😊
Post it!! We will watch! Mental health is so important and we will be here watching no matter what! ❤❤
Self care is important for mental health. Sleeping plays a huge part on getting back on track.
Would love to see your back up videos.
If posting the footage will help you by getting you back into a routine. Then yes absolutely! If you’re not ready or not up to it, that’s ok. You’re not obligated to do anything. ❤
Glad you are here. Keep working on your health. We all have shit we are getting through. Would love to see old vlogs. Post it and I'll watch it!!
I will watch whatever you post, whenever you post, no pressure or expectation here💞 take any and all the time you need!
Sending thoughts of peace and comfort. I'm sorry to hear that you're struggling. Be gentle with yourself. This too will pass. Xoxo
We follow you for you. Whether the content isn’t current or not we’ll watch!!
One thing I heard a long time ago that always helps me is: If you feel like you’ve hit a wall, maybe it’s not there to stop you, but give you somewhere to lean against while you catch your breath
Hi Emily, I really hope the sleep meds are working. I fully agree that sleep is the most important thing and once you have that figured out it will help make everything else at least a little better. We all care about you and your well being. I know we can't control or understand the way our brains work (I'm struggling so much my second to last semester of my master's program for no reason and its infuriating) but it doesn't speak anything about our worth as people. We love you and support you and if sharing past vlog experiences with us will help in any way, you know we will watch them :) and we'll consider ourselves extremely grateful! We hope you start feeling better soon ❤
I would love the old footage! Seeing your adventures is still fun when you feel like sharing them! 😊 Maybe the process could help you slowly get back into where you’re wanting to work wise as well! p.s. thanks for giving us a Frank moment ❣️
I've been taking Ambien for a few years now and ill tell you without it I would be locked up in loony bin from lack of sleep. It has helped me sooooo much physically and mentally!
Yes I'll gladly watch that. Girl I feel you I'm in a bad place in life right now and the anxiety and depression is real. I'm so sorry you feel like crap. I hope we can mend together ❤️
Your health and well being is always first! we love you and will always be her to watch anything you post and support you :) we all care so much you never owe us anything but if it help you or is best for you thanks for being so open about your journey and hope everything you are doing help and if it doesn’t that’s ok as long as you keep going just try not to give up :) ❤
Yes Yes Yes.. I will watch old footage. You are one of my comfort TH-camrs and I will watch anything and everything you post! Thank you for the video today, it made me feel less alone with my spirals and vicious cycles💕
YES. YES. YES. YES PLEASEEE POST YOUR OLD VLOG FOOTAGE. I'd love to watch it and I've been missing you and your vlogs girl ❤ Also am happy for you to be starting a new chapter with your mental health journey 😇
I'm so happy you're doing what you need to do for you. The other day I was beginning to wonder what happened to you. I'd love to see older footage. If you've vlogged an adventure, I want to see it. I'm proud of you of how far you've come already.
Also I love how vulnerable you are because it’s so relatable and something people don’t talk about often enough. I’ve wanted to be a mom my entire life and my life felt so empty without a child. I always said “when I’m a mom I’m going to have my life together because I’ll do anything to make sure my kid has a mentally stable mom with a stable life” well I got pregnant, had a baby, hormones took the best of me. I was MORE critical of myself because I’m like “you have a baby who relies on you, this is all you’ve ever wanted, why aren’t you stable you’re a piece of shit mom” then I got on MUCH needed medication and expected that to fix my whole life and I just didn’t. I’ve adapted the phrase “you can put a bandaid on a bullet hole but eventually you’ll need stitches” stitches being therapy and hardcore internal work. Sorry for the long story long. Love you
I 100% noticed you weren’t posting. You’re so fun to listen to and watch, post it all!
I will watch literally anything you post it’s always entertaining and brings me happiness! I hope that things start looking up for you soon ❤ I have been looking out for a video from you and have been worried
Always post what you can!! We're here to support you and that means what it means. Thanks for being so open!! You're helping me find strength myself.
Yes!! Post!! It'll also help you to "do something" which in turn can help your mental health! We love you!!
Allow yourself the emotions, the hours of crying, the days on the couch. Life's hard. You'll get through it! You're a fantastic young, inspirational woman!
You’ve made a lot of MAJOR changes in a very short time. Give yourself time and grace Whatever decision you make is the right one. This path your on IS THE RIGHT ONE. It’s the one that is making you. I promise. It feels like it’s too much. And never going to get better and I swear. It will. You are making the right decisions. Every single one. You’re growing and mature and brilliant. I’m so proud of every second of this journey you have made. I’ve been here through a lot of it. Like 2 years I think. You got this kid. It’s a lot. But you got this.
I would watch!
I usually don't comment on videos but had to make an exception for this one. Emily know that you are so strong for dealing with what you are when it comes to your mental health and so brave for sharing with us, your community (as I tend to mask around 95% of those who I encounter at work and family). I aspire to be more like you as I personally think you are one of the coolest people and an amazing person!
I also want to thank you for so clearly putting into words what I have struggled to articulate to myself or to my support system since my mental health (anxiety and depression too) has also gotten worse.
Sending you strength, healing, and positive vibes and energy ❤❤
PS. Anything you opted to put out content-wise, I would definitely watch as I am always excited when I get to have a glimpse into your world.
OMG you had me so worried! I am so happy you are taking care of yourself🥺 I would watch all your vlogs in a heartbeat! You owe nobody an explanation! Mental health comes first!!🥰
Yes. Please upload the backup footage and take your time your mind and body needs
YES of course we WANT to watch you! Upload the footage! Upload the footage!
Yes I would watch❤❤
sending you so much love, Emily! I’ll watch whatever you post 😭❤️
You do you... Anything you want to post, I'll watch. I hope you feel better soon. Don't worry, better days are coming soon!
I would definitely watch it! I've missed you so much!! We love you Emily!! Take all the time you need❤
And yes please.... let us see all the footage you have... sounds amazing. Would LOVE to watch :)
Prayers for you Emily, I would see it.
Lovely to see you back Em 💜 Sounds like you've got plans in place to help you start feeling better, one step at a time 💜 Yes, please post the backup footage love watching your videos whether there old of new 💜 Most importantly Take care if yourself x💜x
Please post the older stuff!!! Especially Ireland (I'm going for the first time in June!), the dog trip, ALL the things!! happy that you're taking the time to work on you ❤
Thank you for posting this. I was worried! Work through it girlie! And i will watch all the content.
I totally understand. I have really bad anxiety and depression and panic attacks totally get it. If you need some time, take care of yourself, we understand.❤
Yes! Would love to watch old footage. 😊
YES TO THE FOOTAGE!!! I love it all, and will watch it all!!! Also, as someone who also struggles immensely with my mental health, this explanation resonated so much with me and I appreciated you talking about it so much ❤️
See this is why I love you… you struck me instantly as a genuine person when you started out with Rachel. You are.. I also divorced few yrs ago. It’s a lot.. I think the trauma throws off our chemistry. I’ve been in this EXACT PLACE VERBATIM since! I want to just give you a huge hug. Thank you for being so real and descriptive about what mental illness feels like. The fucking struggle! You are amazing, strong, powerful, resilient! You got this girl! Glad you are paying attention and taking your needs seriously! Thanks for sharing.. l feel less alone. 💋❤️🏳️🌈
Something that is helpful for me when I need to set goals for myself (like trying to exercise daily, or drink a glass of water), but keep failing to meet them, is to set the goal as minimal as possible (like doing one set of 5 squats each day, or drinking one sip of water each day). It's not a lot, it may not make a huge difference to your actual physical help, but its better for my mental checklist, it helps me avoid feeling too much pressure from that checklist, and it's easier to keep the momentum once I've started small (I've done one set, I could do another. I've had one sip, I could finish the glass).
Best wishes 🥰
Eta: you owe us nothing and I'd watch the back dated vlogs!
Personally I’d love to watch the old footage. Your videos make me so happy.
yes do want the old footage but also I have complex trauma and all my 49 years of life I have had insomnia, I am on and off sleepers but I also hate the thought of addiction so will go off them for a month then only take when desperate, I am only sharing this as there is one thing I do you didnt mention but its my number 1 helpful thing.. my biggest issue is my brain not stopping/relaxing.. I read my ipad in the dark, it has to be dark backlit and then dimmed to the lowest, I read a book I love and have read many times in my sleep position and when I feel I am "in the book" and not my head , I put it down and close eyes.. if brain starts up, rinse and repeat... everyone is different but it works for me best .
Post it! Yes I'd love to see it! We rewatch old videoes all the time!!
Of course we'd watch it, we have missed you and worried where you were. I thought of you yesterday!
I had a breakdown recently and rage quit my job....took 6 weeks to just look after myself/sleep (also because having to look after my Mum)....finally got up this morning and thought abut a few things for interviews etc!. It exhausted me just doing that 1/2 hour, but i'm living in the "do one thing today" mentality.....
Seeing you post this is so brave, and you did so well to open yourself up even more to us.
EmilyGang!
I can relate with what you are saying. I love watching your videos. You make my day when I see your videos.
Yes that would be great hope you feel better soon
Trust me I understand what you're going through ❤❤❤❤
Absolutely I would watch it. And thank you for speaking your truth. I’ve been struggling with depression, anxiety, panic and anxiety attacks for the past 3 years. Nothing seems to be working. Thank you for making me feel seen and not alone.
I’d love to see your oldish footage! I hope you find the right combination of treatment and medicine that makes you feel like the person you want to be.
Girl I wanna see whatever vlog footage you have! I struggle with insomnia myself and I literally would watch your videos for hours when I can't sleep because your hilarious and so relatable❤ Please post them! Love you! I hope you get your meds adjusted to where they're good for you & feeling better ASAP😘
Yessss please post all the older stuff! All your aventures, even if older, look so cool