MAISY TAKES HER FIRST STEPS!
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Colleen, I had tickets to the Denver show-and I promise you, anyone who buys tickets to your shows genuinely loves and cares for you. Your vlogs saved me, they got me through my 2020 pregnancy and 2021 postpartum depression that I had to spend isolated at home during covid. You got me through 2 years of my life… I will happily wait 2 months to see you once you have had a chance to heal and rest!! You are incredible.
You're awesome! 😍 I like your way of thinking 😃
I couldn’t agree more. It’s so hard to be isolated. I love having Colleen as a friend I am 33 and on home health and hospice. It’s scary and lonely but I have my babies my husband and her videos! It’s also fun to meet people like you who have had similar experiences. I hope you are in a better place now momma
I second this!
Ps I’m also in Denver, what up fellow Colleen Denver fan 🥰
What up Denver fam!! Totally agree! You got us through so much Colleen!! We are so happy to wait! 💕💕
I love that both times Colleen had a doctors appointment and came home sad, the babies each took their first steps! They were like “no sad mama on our watch” 💜💜💜
Omg yes! I didn’t even notice
Oh my god LITERALLY THIIIIS!!! 🥹🥹🥹🥹🥹😍😍😍😍😭😭😭😭😭😭🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
Yes I was thinking the same thing!
So true! This comment made me cry out of job and happiness for Colleen and seeing how strong she is and how her and Erik are raising such beautiful small people 😍
3:20 Flynn letting Wesley sit on his lap is the cutest thing I’ve ever seen 😭❤️
I put the same time in my comment 3:20 bc that was so cute!
Ikr! ❤😊❤
My voice teacher recovered from a small nodule last year! Her ‘proper’ speaking voice she developed through therapy to protect her voice became what we called her “NPR podcast voice” 😂 She healed so well and I am hoping the same for you. You got this!
Yes!!! And, for me, it doesn’t have to be a favourite song. It doesn’t even have to be in a language I can speak/understand. When I hear opera singers hit really high notes and their voice is so powerful as they sing those notes, it makes me feel like I am being lifted from my seat! Every hair on my body stands up and I simultaneously feel huge amounts of joy while I sob!!!! That’s what the power/magic of music can do for me!
This 🙌🙌
Yeah me too, I’m asd and this is actually a common thing for neurodivergent peeps!
i’m autistic and adhd and can 1000% relate to having a physical reaction to certain music. i’ve never been able to explain it before but you described it perfectly. it’s almost like an extreme form of stimming
Yes!! I was about to say the same thing!
this!! i have adhd and i was dumbfounded listening to her explain it bc i’ve never been able to explain it myself nor have i ever heard anyone else talk ab having this kind of experience!!
yesss. it's such a deep intense feeling, almost every description sounds like an understatement
Yes! I am autistic and have this experience as well and I’m so sad that not everyone gets to experience this feeling.
I just commented something like the same thing. I really do wonder if the reason we have the reactions is because of our adhd/neurodivergences.
Shout out to Maisy for taking her first steps on steps! She’s a rockstar!😊
Lol I though they were steps too at first, but it’s just a rug that is also kind of an optical illusion
Ohhhh okay cool. Tricky
I thought they were steps at first too but then realized it just a rug.
Colleen! I've literally never been able to vocalize how music makes me feel but it's exactly this way. Especially during "my tears ricochet" by Taylor Swift, I simply have no control over my physical being for those 4 minutes 15 seconds. P.S. so proud of Maisy and Wes for hitting these milestones. Get well soon, we love you💜
I feel that way about Right Where You Left Me. I want Colleen to talk more about her swiftie journey, is she still listening to Midnights, is it the same songs as her earlier video or has she connected more with others? Please share Colleen!
@@elizabethcrain242 Omg I feel you on that one! I’d love to hear her talk more about her swiftie journey as well, I hope she listened to more albums to grow her admiration for Taylor.
“my tears ricochet” is in my like top 5 songs that do this for me!! that extreme physical reaction. so cool that we’re finding a community of people who have the same beautiful reaction to certain music
@@sage97m I’m so glad other people can relate!
Yesss I get this feeling with Taylor songs and literally when I was at her concert I had a out of body experience 🥹
I’M SO PROUD OF YOU, MAISY JO!!!
Same!😊
Hey Colleen. Long time admirer of you. I got nodes my first year starting a bfa in musical theatre. I spent my entire first semester of college not talking. The hardest part was losing something that was my “thing” for my whole life up to that point. The one thing I was good at and built into my personality I now could not do. It was absolutely heart wrenching for me. I journaled and meditated a lot! A LOT! Therapy obviously. But I just want you to know that my voice therapist said “your lucky you got it so young, usually is happens when people are already established in their careers and it hits them so hard emotionally they can’t handle the weight!”
So I want you to know this happens to ALL of us. You are not worthless because you cannot sing you are much more complex than that!! 🥰
You are an excellent singer and you WILL sing again.
Looking back I realize that what happened to me was necessary to learn going forward in my life. I no longer hold guilt and I wish someone could’ve provided me those words!! So I just want to tell you!! We love you, be easy on yourself! ❤️
I love how Maisy was about to cry a few times when she fell, but the cheers and hugs made her smile instead.
COLLEEN! I have synesthesia and I see full blown masterpieces when I hear music I connect with, colors I've never seen before or can't recreate on a pallet from music that effects my spirit mind and body. Legit full body chills when harmonies hit the right places. As someone who has been singing since I could talk and played music for several years, I can 100% understand the wild and miraculous amazingness that is the music experience you were talking about!
This is so cool! Thank you for sharing 😊
i have it to and i do not expereince anything close to this😁 i see numbers and letters in color and personalities
I have synesthesia too. Some songs almost “hurt” to listen to. I love them but don’t listen often because of the feeling.
Also when I play my flute, some notes have a color. Funny though because that only happens when playing. No colors while listening/singing.
“Hurting” happens in any format.
I have synesthesia too!
I don’t think everybody experiences the physical reaction to music you’re describing….at least I don’t. But some people have that intense innate love for music that can’t be described or explained and that is SO freakin’ cool. The human body constantly blows my mind. Love you Colleen!
It’s ADHD, most neurodivergent brains experience this and it is amazing
I definitely feel that way when I listen to my most favorite songs but it’s rare, it has to be I’m having a good day and it’s the first time I’m listening to the song or if I’m dissociating it will happen way more. But I also get that feeling when I’m talking to the people I love and we both can totally understand what is going on in each others mind. It’s like both of brain waves are on the same frequency. I know so weird but I get that feeling more when taking to the people I love than listing to music. 15:02 I love you so much! And I’m so sorry that your voice is doing bad right now but it’s only 6 weeks of so many more years and six weeks from now your babies will do so many more incredible things! I hope you have a very fast recovery! ❤💕🤟🏼🤙🏼
@@jazmynecrowe441well that makes a lot of sense lol bc i was screaming internally listening to her describe that feeling bc i’ve never heard anyone else put that into words😄😅
@@jazmynecrowe441 I don't think I'm neurodivergent, but I've experienced this (although maybe to a lesser extent)! I especially feel this way when listening to a rock song I really like, like I have this sort of elation that makes me want to run and explode with energy. This is really a great feeling as someone who experiences a lot of numbness in other aspects; it helps me feel alive when I often do not. :)
@@jazmynecrowe441 Yes! It’s also especially an autistic trait :) Lots of people with ADHD don’t even know they’re also autistic but having both is really common. Just a fun fact from an autistic person who also experiences music like this!
Congratulations to Maisie and Wesley for their recent first steps, hope you get well soon Colleen. ❤
I'm not personally a music major but when I hear a song that has a really deep message or a beautiful note I will absolutely bawl my eyes out 😂 no control, no option, I'm crying. It was hard In chorus growing up to fight the urge to cry when I was listening to my classmates solos because I could feel that nervous energy they had and then to know it sounds so beautiful just made me cry so hard.
I’m absolutely the same way
Hi colleen, the way you describe how music affects you is the same feeling I get when i talk about my special interest like books for example. I have adhd and have a hyper fixation on books. I feel like my body can’t handle the love and admiration I have for authors/characters or book in general. I don’t get that way about music but I think it’s common for typically neurodivergent people to feel this way about something they love so dearly they just can’t contain their joy and excitement.
I hope this comment gets more votes bc this definitely seems like a special interest thing !! 💕💕
It’s okay that you can’t do the shows Colleen! Just focus on your health! We love you!
Yes this ❤
I love watching maisy and Wesley hitting their milestones it’s the cutest thing💕
The snoop dog voice over gets me every time! It’s doesn’t surprise me that in the awful time she is going through she still finds ways to make us laugh. I love her so much!😘
Colleen you are more than your voice🤗 No one wants you to hurt your voice permanently. 6 weeks seems like a line time but it’s actually a blink of an eye in macro view of your career❤
I know that EXACT feeling you are talking about around 13-14 mins in... I feel that way with certain music/songs too and for me it is especially intense with Florence and the Machine. I have never been able to explain or describe that feeling to anyone before and hearing you talk about it is so comforting to me to know someone else gets it too!!!! ❤ Thank you Colleen! Hoping for all the best for you and your voice!
Yes Florence ! Heaven is Here??? Get outttt.
@bizzle88 yesssss!!! 😍😍😍 earth shattering. Heart shattering in the most amazing way. 💖
The last way you described music making you feel. Yes. Yes to all of that. It's so hard to describe and it's such a beautiful feeling. I love music and love experiencing new songs and listening to them for the first and for the 100th time. I love that it can evoke emotions in me that I haven't explored but need to. 💜
Missy has come so far and is such a strong brave little girl. She gets it from her mom. Wesley is such a loving and sweet little boy. He acts just like his dad I think. Flynn is also such a smart and kind guy. He loves his siblings so much
The way you describe how artists perfectly convey feelings through lyrics is how I feel when you talk about ADHD and motherhood accept I get the feeling of understanding the mothers side from a daughter’s perspective.
I’m not much of a commenter, but I just want to say that you’re not being dramatic and you’re honestly taking this whole ordeal so so well. Singing is my whole life (although it’s not my career; I’m a stay at home mom/ part time behavioral health care worker) but it definitely is my passion. Especially in college and high school it was my whole world. But junior year of high school I completely lost my 3.5 octave range to just a couple of middle notes for about 6 weeks. It was terrifying and I was incredibly depressed. I had always been a very high soprano and did all my school’s competitions and was planning on going for state that year. I cried about it A LOT and my livelihood didn’t even depend on it like yours does! Anyway, I went and saw a laryngologist and thankfully I didn’t have nodes but even though I’m a cis woman, I had a voice change. And my voice dropped to an alto. So I had to completely relearn how to sing, and redefine my identity. Anyway, this was super long and likely you won’t see it, but I just want to validate and empathize that I really understand how devastating this is, and you’re doing amazing.
I agree! A very similar thing happened to me, except i did have nodes and I was SOOO sad i'd never be able to sing again. (&it was just church choir and i was the female lead for the youth kids) I never had to try to hit a note it just happened. Then i had to re-learn how to sing with it and vocal exercises like shes doing now. Im still kinda sad about it, cuz i cant hit the high notes i used to, BUT i can hit lower notes that i wasnt able to before! :) Its about staying positive, and adapting.
Same with my voice. I have a high soprano & dropped to an alto between like 7th & 9th grade. It was after an illness that included laryngitis & maybe hormones too, idk because I never saw a Dr or anything but I was soooo sad & ended up dropping choir because I lost confidence in my singing
Music does the same thing to me Colleen. It wasn’t until I was a teenager that I realized music affected me more strongly than most people. I think I was the only 1st grader that brought Chopin’s prelude in C minor to show and tell and getting really upset that kids were talking through it. Music dances around my whole body than shoots right out of my head…I love that I’m this way.
Girlfriend, I know this is rough. But you are getting through it and you are a fighter. You have helped me through severe anxiety and depression and you are my rock. Please know that I’m supporting you! You’re in my thoughts every day! Sending love and hugs from Seattle! ❤ So proud of you Maisy Joan!!
colleen! i'm so glad you spoke about your reaction to music. i have several types of synesthesia and some of them cause physical reactions to sound. loud noises cause flashes of color, i associate different songs with colors, etc. there are even some songs that i can physically feel in my neck or my teeth. auditory-tactile synesthesia is wild! it might not be exactly what you experience but it still made me happy that someone else experiences music the way i do:)
I experience exactly what you do! I’ve never told anyone because I thought it was just a me thing. I’m elated to see someone else experienced the exact same thing! 😊
110% can relate to the feeling that music brings you. It’s indescribable for me as well. I love that you know exactly what it feels like, especially when its because of lyrics
I danced my whole life, and I get visceral reactions when I hear music or see others dance, even when I’m in a public space and try to control my body, I still twitch!!! I feel exactly the same way and I’m so happy another artist feels the same way but has a different reaction! Art is so beautiful and healing and speaks to every human soul without barrier. Thank you for sharing Colleen ❤️
Also, snoop dog is my favourite voice over so far, 10/10
I relate to the twitching so much 😭its like my body gets so excited to hear music that I almost have an out of body experience
I'm always grooving around even in public if I hear a song I luv 😭😭
As a fellow dancer, SAME!!!
@@ttllyt as a former fellow dancer, I feel exactly the same. 😊
I couldn’t be happier for sweet Maisy!! Those little first steps made me cry, she has come so far and I am so proud of her!🤍
I remember when my son 41 years ago,ouch,, took his first steps it was so incredible to see this it melted my heart. Now I've watched both my granddaughters do the same thing,and love watching them grow. My granddaughters made me watch ,,haters back off,,and now at 62 I'm a big fan of Maranda Sings.
I just love watching these kiddos grow and watching Colleen grow as a mom with them, despite going through the hard times she is right now. I also can’t believe I’ve been watching the blogs for as long as I have, it’s so cool having memories of the times before the kids as well and knowing that I’ve been able to watch through everything.
Oh Dang!! I have wanted to comment on something for FOREVER!!! Then I forget. So even though I haven’t watched the whole video yet, I’ve paused it. The rug in the Miranda room FREAK ME OUT!! I see Maisy walking towards it holding on the Daddy’s fingers. Then Daddy let’s go and I have a heart attack. On camera, those stripes look like stairs. Very believable stairs. Can you please get a different rug so my heart can relax? Lol. I know it’s an optical illusion. But it’s very convincing. Lol
I didn’t realize I was comment under someone else’s comment. Lol. It was supposed to be a comment all on its own.
MUSIC DOES THAT TO ME TOO! I’m so happy to hear your voice again. You inspire me so much and I’m so proud of the work you’re putting into getting better. Thank you for being my daily joy. Love you Colleen.
The way you feel about music is the way I feel about performances. To watch someone live out their dream whether it be concerts, comedy shows, theatre/plays I LOVE it. I can’t sit still I am in awe. I’m crying. I’m proud of ppl o never met. It’s a feeling I don’t get anywhere else really.
So sorry to hear that you got disappointing news from the doctor 😢 What a gift to see Maisy take her first steps!! ❤ Sending you healing wishes! Although you can’t sing right now, you’re still bringing music to the kids through the ukulele ❤❤❤
I TOTALLY agree with you when it’s come to a physical reaction while listening to music!! You explained it perfectly. Specifically the opening number of a musical… im sobbing or silent and in absolute awe.
Hey Colleen! this is only a minor setback for a big comeback. I know you'll be able to get back to performing in no time; As hard as it may feel right now, I just want to say thank you for continuing to make videos for us even though you don't have to. ❤❤
I don’t have that feeling with music but I started wrestling 2 years ago and that indescribable feeling you were explaining about music is the same feeling I get when I’m wrestling. It’s just and overwhelming joy and excitement that I wish I could share with everyone!
everyone understands that your vocal rest is absolutely more important right now. also, totally started crying genuine tears when maisy took those strides. happy for you guys, take care
I feel deep empathy as to how painful this situation is for you, but at the same time, I really wish you would take the summer off touring to heal and watch your babies walk, and ensure no further damage. 💚
Okay I didn't expect to sob when Maisy walks but I did. After everything you guys went thru with her and she's so strong and amazing. My baby was in the NICU at a very similar time to the twins and specifically Maisy and she just stood independently for the first time this week and it just makes you go wow. From moments we thought we might not even get to keep you, and look at you now!
My fellow ND Queen! Music is healing and energy and a life force for me and many in my family.
One of the biggest challenges I experienced when I started working remotely 100% was the loss of my long commute and the time I had to sing without holding back. I don’t sing like that at home and I should. I should show and share that joy with my kids and husband. Darn ego. Especially because everyone in my family also loves music and turns to it to help quiet their minds or to distract when stressed. It really is a part of our self care.
When I am truly experiencing music, my brain quiets, even if I’m dancing and jumping and scream singing, it fills me and it’s glorious.
You deserve this Drs care and you will overcome this health setback. You are taking care of yourself and it’s an amazing example to your family and all of us. Thank you for sharing your vulnerability and truth.
Yes, I feel that same way about music (especially my son's music). I worked in theater for many years and there is nothing like literally feeling the vibrations in the air of the music and absorbing the energy of the performers. Tap dancing does that to me too, I have actually gotten so emotional watching a master tap that I cried. It's ART, that's what art is meant to do - to send your soul out of your body into a realm of wonderment.
Colleen I feel the EXACT same way about music. When a specific chord or lyric or instrumental moment hits a certain way, I rise from my seat and run around and yell. It tingles every part of my brain and I feel like no one else has that experience. Music is magic gurl!!
I’m praying for you Colleen, not just for your physical recovery but also for your mental well-being ❤ love you
You’re not dramatic, your feelings are valid and you’re allowed to feel these things! I’m sending you, Flynn, the twins and Erik the biggest, warmest, coziest and most comforting hugs. We all love you and believe in you 🤍 and MAISY WALKING 🥹
Colleen I don’t understand why are you pushing yourself, cancel all the shows refund everyone and give yourself time to heal as much as it needed. When fully healed arrange new shows. Do not put pressure on yourself, why?
All 3 of these beautiful kiddos just make my heart burst. Flynn saying he ate all his strawberries, Maisy taking her first steps & Wesley loving the mochi ❤
The way Erik was so loving and supportive after the doctors appointment ❤
I would LOVE to know what song made you feel that way Colleen because I am exactly the same 😄
Hi Colleen, I am so devastated for you. As an opera singer, I know exactly how horrendous any kind of vocal injury can be. It’s so frustrating and demoralising not to be able to sing for any length of time. I feel so awful for you! Just know that this is not permanent. Your vocal chords will thank you for this period of rest, and I guarantee your voice will come back stronger than ever! Any sort of straw exercises will really help (as I’m sure you already know) & the semi occluded vocal tract exercises that I’m sure you also know about. Also when your voice is coming back, singing through everything in that semi occluded position (through a straw or blowing through pursed lips) should really get everything to work again! SOVT stuff helped me so much last summer when I was singing with little to no speaking voice and on steroids and antibiotics… I could actually sing! It was like magic. I’m sure your coaches will help you with all of this, and also you probably already know a lot of it. Much love and solidarity. ❤
Awe seeing maisy walk is so wonderful!!! Your kids r perfect in every way! ❤ When Flynn was holding wes in the chair that was precious 💕
I feel music in a visceral way, too. My heartbeat syncs up with the rhythm of the song, and I feel like I’m going to explode out of my skin. I feel it move in my veins and I feel such sublime joy
I think that is why going to concerts is the best feeling ever... its like being in a room where thousands of people share the same feelings as you for the same songs ❤ praying for your recovery and it feels real good to hear your voice again
Yes- I love that feeling at concerts - the collective joy!
Colleen, I’m so sorry that you had to cancel the shows, but we want you to put yourself and your health first, we’ll still be here supporting you and ready for your rescheduled shows. Also, congrats to Maisy and Wesley for starting to walk!!! Much love from Denver💜
14:58 YYEESSSS!!!!
I was a concert/jazz musician all through middle school and highschool. Band and jazz band saved me and brought me so much joy. No matter how depressed I was it literally gave me chills. Made me so excited. And I have SO much passion and love towards playing an instrument, and just the rehearsals. Learning a new piece of music. It’s my whole life. I sadly don’t play anymore since im going the healthcare route but maybe one day lol.
11:46 - 15:56 I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND U! I’m like that with my music too! one of my all time favorite songs in Taylor Swift’s All Too Well (Ten Minute Version). I will scream those lyrics and cry to it! I don’t relate to it much but I love the lyrics and the story behind it. Another Love is another favorite song of mine and that one makes me sob so much! I FEEL YOU! feel better colleen! you are so strong 💜
What youre describing is true passion. People have it for music , stunning flowers , a great food , a beautiful moonlight…ALL kind of things that touch the soul deeply
You say you cry a lot , but I cry ALOT. Everyday , several times a day tears can roll down my face . My grand daughter is about to be born and when I just think about seeing her face for the first time the tears just flow . Now to talk about music and songs .. songs are memories happy and sad and just hearing something can take you back in time to that special moment . Music and memories go hand in hand . When I see a musical I’m a ball of emotion from beginning to end .
You’re not dramatic, you’re passionate ❤️ you love what you do and the thought of it being at risk is understandably upsetting
It's so exciting that now both of the twins are starting to walk
@@pearlboyscasette I know it's so exciting but also so sad
First- way to go Maisy!! The twins give me such a great boost of serotonin. Second - music. I don’t have a visceral reaction but what I do do is see “music videos” in my head and not the song’s video - like my own. Humans are weird - wonderfully weird.
i never actually comment on videos but hearing you talk about how music affects you made me really giddy and happy cause i’m the exact way! like i genuinely can’t express how much some songs can affect me not just mentally but physically like i feel like i want the music flowing through me and like i can’t help jt. it just sounds so good and like affects me so much i can’t express but, i have met multiple people where they have told me that this is not something they feel and i’ve always been confused cause it’s so normal that my whole family fees this way about certain songs and pets of songs. anywyas you’re not alone in that feeling because i can speak form personal experience hahahha
The description of your full body reaction to music at the end fits really well with neurodivergence and increased sensitivity to various vibrations and sounds. This shows up with both ADHD and the Autism spectrum, and can be expressed through different areas for different people. It really shows the spectrum of neurodivergence for humans and I love all of the variation! This is a big part of what makes the human body so fascinating to me.
Seriously, ! take the doctors advice!
Sending prayers. God bless.
Yes. When a piece of music touches your soul, brings tears to your eyes, and it feels like it's tearing you down and building you up at the same time. That the world is a better place for that 3 minutes and everything is alright at this moment.
That's what music can do.
Go Maisy Jo! GO! So proud of you.
Actually started sobbing after watching the clip of the physic saying the babies are healers because it's so true!! I grew up as the third eldest of 11 kids and so growing up there was always a baby to take care of which I loved. Now that I'm grown I spend a lot of time working from home (which I'm so grateful for) alone in our studio. Watching your vids brings me so much comfort and it occurred to me that part of it is that my soul is missing my family and the way I grew up. I'm so grateful that you share your life and beautiful family with us
Totally feel you here on the effects of music. Especially musical theater. If been into musicals since I was little, following all the actors along their musical journeys. Just went to nyc and saw 5 shows in 4 days and they left me breathless. Like I fall in love with the shows and the actors in them. It’s just a beautiful thing to see your theater idols ya know. Keep your deep feelings going girl! And get well soon!
Colleen and Eric's faces when Maisy walked were priceless.
I am so sorry about your voice! You need to know that this six weeks will be very hard for you and provide you the space and time you will need to transform, grow and come out the other side. These trying times contain your medicine.....what you will need to develop further as a performer and person. Trust this, Colleen! You got this! Accept it and know that there are so many pearls to come out of this. Introspection and silence helps us to grow!!!! I am proud of you! I am rooting for you! Embrace the path!
Oh Maisey Jo, you have made the whole Miranda world happy!!!! We love you and your family so much! Colleen, continue vocal rest and recover as long as you need.
Yesss music has that effect on me too! It's actually really common in neurodivergent people! When you enjoy something so much that you can't contain yourself and have to express your enjoyment in physical ways is called stimming. Stimming can happen in many ways and for some it's more intensive than others. It's really cool! Love you!
i’m so sorry about your voice. i’m praying it will heal quickly. just know you are not being dramatic at all, this is your career and you’re allowed to be scared/cautious. i love watching your vloggs so much, you’re such a positive light. sending all the love.💜
I love that we've been able to watch these NICU babies grow into such amazing little kiddos! Thanks for sharing your life with us! It brings so much joy ❤
I have had a huggeeeeee connection to music my whole life (as well as ADHD, which i feel like has to be involved in some way 😂) and I experienced music very much in the way you were describing. I’ve always compared the feeling (weirdly) to grief just because of the similarities between how they feel in the body. It just resonates so intensely that you feel the need for some kind of energy release. Totally. Haven’t known many people like this. My dad is too. 14:35
Omg, the "grief" feeling is so relatable, but I was never able to put it into words. For me, it almost feels like someone's wringing out my heart, and it hurts in a good way that makes me want to explode. Thank you for articulating this!
Colleen, our experiences are so incredibly similar. I am an equestrian who sustained a spine injury and I didn’t take it seriously until I caused nerve damage. I was filled with fear, anxiety, and sadness that i’d have to quit something that my world revolves around and i have been training my whole life for. I had panic attacks around me not being the best horse mom/owner i could be and so much more. It’s been 3 years and i’ve fully recovered and have a new emotional outlook on life. Our bodies are amazing…. look at the 3 lives you created.. that’s wild!! We will heal. Just remember to take extra good care of your mental health during this time as well as physical. Take care💝💝💝💘💘
This deep bone shaking love and need for music doesn’t happen with everyone. I was in mother’s womb while she sang and recorded albums, my Dad and sisters sing, Uncles, Aunts, cousins and so on. It is literally in my bones. My husband is the same but he’s a musician and I’m a singer. I knew how to harmonise before ever being taught. Singing from a child and never stopped. I always say if you break my bones open my literal bone marrow is music but specially Gospel music as I was raised and taught singing in the church.
I wouldn’t be able to function the same without it.
I feel you sis ❤
You got this! You did an amazing job during Covid. Helped so many of us while going through some of the worse times. It may seem disappointing to have to cancel shows. Don't beat yourself up. Your health is more important than making your fans happy, which I know is hard for you😊 You have such a huge heart. ❤
I am a huge musical theater person! I TOTALLY get it when you say you want to turn inside out over certain songs. It’s like I want to put the music and lyrics into action like I would on a stage. I have no control, it takes my whole self not to jump out of my seat at plays! I want to scream, I want to dance, I want to flip, I want to do all the things. Music is incredible!!!!
As someone who also has ADHD I 100% relate to what you were saying about music. When I listen to some of my favorite songs, I feel like I'm melting but at the same time my soul wants to come out of my body. I especially have these strong reactions when I listen to Half Moon Run, Bon Iver and Kaleo! Its sad that not everyone have these experiences.
I ONE HUNDRED PERCENT understand how you feel Colleen!! I love music so much! It’s so therapeutic!
I’M SO PROUD OF YOU MAISY WE LOVE YOU!!! Also... GET BETTER COLLEEN!
I hope you get better Colleen and I'm so proud of Maisy 💕😁
So true about your kids being healers. I literally watch you guys to feel better and happier when I’m feeling down ❤️
The Talking Heads- “This Must BeThe Place” is one of those songs that makes me feel like that! Prayers for your vocal health! And yayyyy Maisy! ❤
Hey Colleen, be gentle on yourself about not being able to do your concerts for now. You are doing what you need to do to care for your voice. sending you so much ❤️and healing vibes, you are such a warrior.
Children are such joy during some of our hardest moments in life. My brother in law passed away December of 2021 so suddenly and at the funeral, we had my daughter and nephew there (6 months and 7 months respectively). Even though the day was hard for us all, just having them to hold, smile with and love on, made it easier to handle the day.
So exciting seeing Maisy taking her first steps! I cried with y'all in those moments. ❤❤❤
OMG your rug looks like stairs, and I was like “Um, great, but I don’t think making Maisy go down stairs her first time walking is a good idea.” Hahaha
Anyway, congrats little one!
Lol glad I wasn't the only one@
Oh my gosh I literally came to the comments because I saw the same thing. Optical illusion!
Colleen! The way you described how music makes you feel sounds to me, from a spiritual perspective, like music opens your throat, heart, and sacral chakras! These energy centers being aligned and opened could totally be described as an explosion of passion and emotion from the inside out! 💙💚💛✨
Sometimes, sickness is a blessing. It has kept you home to see these first steps with your babies.
Our vocal cords are quite literally as thin as pieces of printer paper. They are so delicate like you said!! So many environmental factors affect our singing voices too. You will get through this!!! I’m a singer and voice teacher/coach as well so on the off chance you’d ever need advice or help I would be more than happy to chat about strategies to improve overall vocal production (speaking included). Love you always Colleen and we all can’t wait to hear your gorgeous singing voice again ❤️❤️❤️
the way you described how you feel when listening to music is PERFECT!!!! i’ve never been able to express that feeling with words! i literally need an exorcism to get my energy out when listening to awesome music
Yes! Music is so powerful! I feel the same way! So excited about the babies walking!! Hang in there❤
Aww Colleen ❤ I clicked on this so fast hoping for good news. Please look after yourself. You'll be back to performing before you know it. Sending positive vibes for a fast recovery!
I’m proud of you Maisy!! Can’t believe it!!! I get what your saying about your insides coming out or you just want to scream when you hear a song or a good meaningful lyric. I get that way too! Or even sometimes I get chills and my hair stands up when I listen to a meaningful song or a song that has good and meaningful lyrics too. I love you videos Colleen! And this troubling time that your going through will just make you stronger in the end!! Love you!!❤️🥰❤️🥰 sending prayers and love that your vocal cords will heal quickly!!
Music reaches me in the same way. I'm a singer, and I completely feel you! About five years ago, I was caught in the wildfire that burned down 95% of my town. That trauma led to me not singing, listening to much music, or even identifying musically. I was more depressed than I have ever been. Sleep wasn't happening. Normal wasn't happening. But with therapy and time, I was able to sing again, listen to music with joy and that inside-out need. Now I had some issues with intubation from a surgery to remove cancer (I'm all clear!) and I can't sing, but want to. It is so hard! But I know that time will hopefully heal it. Because of you, I'm scheduling an appointment to see a doctor about this. So thank you. And no, you are not alone when it comes to experiencing music on a very deep level, where even your toes get involved.
I totally have that reaction to music as well. When I hear a good song, I feel it deep in my soul, and it craves more. Whether it's the melody, the lyrics, the harmony, I feel it intensely. I love instrumental music, specifically movie scores. I cannot describe how I feel when instrumental music gives me goosebumps because of how it swells into its crescendo or makes me feel something like sadness or anticipation so immensely. I once read a quote that said "If art is how we decorate space, music is how we decorate time." I think that's so beautiful and true!
Yay Maisy!!! I always think that carpet is steps. It gives an optical illusion and I freak because I think the kids are going to fall down the stairs. 😂
WAY TO GO MAISY!!!!
Colleen, I'm sure you know this but sometimes the most meaningful nuggets of happiness can come in the roughest of times. I'm sure that Maisy's first steps was a huge boost for you---like in the psychic reading, they'll be there for you when you're down.
We're all rooting for you and your family
I totally feel what you're feeling with music!
❤🎵🎶🎵❤
I feel like that when I listen to music too Colleen! I’m autistic and always flap my hands when listening to it- it helps me experience the music more deeply.
I’M SO PROUD OF YOU MAISY!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉