The "safety of suppression" is exactly the correct usage of words. As someone who was in rigorous therapy for my C-PTSD for a year, I can completely understand why people choose to sweep their mental health problems under the rug instead of addressing them head on. Processing our traumas is an extremely emotionally draining process and I cannot stress that enough. It jolts us awake and puts us into a completely different world and makes us question everything and compels us to call an ace an ace and see our abuse for what it really was. And then there's also the massive grief which comes from realising that we did not deserve the poisonous environment we were placed in and if only we had had supporting and compassionate adults around us, we would have had a healthy, fulfiling and much better life.
Thank you for speaking about Complex-PTSD. We need more conversation about it. It's too late for me (age 73), but maybe the next generations can conquer it. God bless you.
No it's not too late. I am 70 yrs old and only discovered I have CPTSD last year. There is help out there now, just wish this was all known about 30 yrs ago at least, my life would have been so different, I lost so many opportunities. BUT - I have started working on myself because I owe it to myself and that Inner Child, and I want to know some peace and happiness in my now late years. Watch Irene Lyon on TH-cam. It's not a quick fix but it will help you lead a better quality of life going forward. You are worth it!
PTSD is like the violent memories get stuck on repeat - constant reliving and re-strategizing how to approach the situation when it already happened. What could have been done, what should be done in the future - an obsession and depersonalized presence in the rest of life. Sleepless nights - sometimes entire weeks because the memories just get worse laying down. The anger, holding back from smashing through a wall just from the replaying, forgetting what day and time it is. Looking back at old videos of yourself and not recognizing them anymore.
I thought abuse was normal because it was all I knew. Just in the last three years I learned alot of things weren't right or normal. I learned what a narcissist is. I learned to set boundaries. I learned what acceptable behavior is and what is not acceptable. Now I'm trying to figure out how to heal my trauma.
Start with feelings the emotion. Don't suppress them, however painful n discomforting. TRE, trauma informed yoga and other practices help. Won't happen overnight, but we've got it
I feel very angry at the people who have such a proviledged life free from ptsd. Every moment feels like you’re in immediate danger . People tell me to be grateful for what I have, which feels invalidating to what I am experiencing
People don't get it, they don't give a toss about anyone else but themselves. I know for myself I grieve for the opportunities I could have had without the abuse/ PTSD.
Yup. They truly don't understand. I hope complex trauma becomes a more mainstream topic especially in the medical and psychiatric fields (also CPS/courts) it can save so many lives
Music has always been a safe haven for me to move my emotions into something outside of myself. This has given me the inspiration to build up a new studio and get back at it. It's been years since I sold my studio to focus on nutrition and personal training. In the aftermath of failing the studies due to my chronic health issues and a relationship with another traumatized individual - I learned about narcissism, toxic relationships, abuse, manipulation, and all that follows. The veil was lifted. 2 years later the pieces began to fall into place. My gut and severe health issues are all related to CPTSD, the chronic dysregulated nervous system, stress and inflammation the body has had to carry all these years from unprocessed emotions and experiences. Caused by a lifetime of verbal abuse, bulling, neglect and addictions. So now I am going to get back into it and use it as a vessel to try to heal myself.
Beautiful speech. I looked up "encouragement for CPTSD" on TH-cam and your speech came up. I just started somatic therapy today. I am taking responsibility for my life. I will never give up the fight. So much love to you ❤❤ beautiful soul
You are courageous. Thanks for saying "I had no idea what my human rights were...I had no idea what boundaries were..." Thanks Angel. Praying for healing 4 you...
Omg same let’s hang in here together, whoever you are. I know we’ll never meet but I’m sending you hugs tonight and hopes that one day it won’t be so expensive to care for and about ourselves and not be blamed for everything we’ve been through and not being “better already” when the care we deserve has neglected us even further. You are valid and absolutely loved by a girl named Elizabeth, me:). ✨
Thank you for expressing C-PTSD so eloquently as well as the process of healing. I relate deeply. I'm still in the process of coming out of survival mode. I appreciate you so much for raising awareness of this.
Thank you so much for putting the struggles CPTSD people suffer in a "human" language, Deena. Esp. how you describes the relationship between your own brain/mind with emotions. (Imagine sharing it with non-CPTSD people could look sooo insane!) With 20 years of Cptsd, I found myself in a similar path as Deena before she took off the healing journey led by art and music. And Deena is like telling all of us that YOU CAN ALSO CHANGE!!! (So powerful with her being an icon of "rebel" and fighting against that part in ourselves) Sincerely hope all the best in your future and great progress in fixing our relationship with others. I should devote more time into making arts...... because you don't get to work out the relationship with yourself if you don't even spend abundant time on that.
Im 53. Cptsd self diagnoses, because i know myself and my lived life better than anyone, im my own expert. I picked up the art brushes again after 30 odd yrs and have created some very meaningful work, for me. Very cathartic because i paint with intent to express the pain. Art plus therapy, with exploring psycology, philosophy and close observance of how i react and why, has really set the pathway for the remainder of my life. Probably only 20 yrs left till i kick off so i hope to use it well and explore all possibilities. At least my kids will remember a calmer more present dad after im gone. Peace ❤
From one TEDx Speaker to another who has suffered and still navigating CPTSD, Thank You for sharing your profound words of wisdom, knowledge and experience to help others. Continued success on your journey❤
I have C-PTSD. Writing is my music (organise thoughts), yoga is my performing (re-connecting to body), I'm yet to share my story publicly, but I do feel compelled to share writing about it & 'use my voice'... I'm searching for the courage! Glad I found this Tedx - thank you.
Omfg your story is mine but I am about a year or two behind in my healing but once I’m strong enough I’m going to scream my story from the rooftops to hopefully help others and inspire change. I have no idea who this woman is but thank you for this talk I needed it right now ❤❤❤
Thank you so much. I have been craving creation since forever but I struggle opening up enough to create. I’m working on it. Just like you, after a certain traumatic event, the last one of a life packed with trauma and abuse, I wasn’t able to hide the pain anymore and I had to let it out. I’m still in the process. Opening up about my trauma helped me to gain interest into art again, because I needed it. To escape the pain and also sometimes to help feeling it, to feel relatable, to feel connected to a community. I’m not at the point where I’m able to make art yet, but I smartly feel the desire to dive into the creations of others and I know that I’m currently starting to inspire myself for future art. Hearing your experience, so relatable to mine, really gives me the support and hope I need to push through and finally, make art. In my case imposter syndrome is still strong, but the fear to lose my life was so strong the last time I experienced trauma, that now I keep telling myself « you didn’t get a second chance at life just to stay in your comfort zone ». Again, thank you SO MUCH for speaking about C-PTSD and for raising awareness about it, and thanks for sharing your beautiful experience with us. Just be sure it does help people in a very solid way. 🩷
Ms Deena Lynch, you don't have to be a professional to hold the room. I ran to music to escape the trauma, it has always been able to take me far, far away. I intend to use my writing and music to make the trauma escape me. I will listen to this several more times, but your statement of art being 'an exchange of healing' was profound. Who can adequately explain this with words? It can't be done, that is why God gifted to us art; and dogs.
I have complex PTSD unfortunately found out after it destroyed everything in my life....to late to start over. But it was beautiful to see someone find a way......and become something really beautiful....its so important thank you for sharing.
It's never late if you still alive even if you're 68 years old always try to fix you, and believe me it will happen in your own time just keep the hope alive so you keep living.( it's like I'm talking to myself i have c-ptsd for 16 years since i was 16, I'm 32 and now i have name for what i always wanted to understand now im ganna fix me hope you do to.) have beautiful life stranger.
My Complex PTSD is due to several childhood traumas managed to program me through the theta phase of my development and the the rest of the traumas from that point on were internalized. When I lost both of my parents within months of each other it started a vicious cycle that completely destroyed my life. The problem when you get much older is you no longer see a path just and end. You realize you cannot rebuild a 30 year career or a start a whole new family, forget owning a home and without a financial means to get help all my help has come from God. The last 7 years have transformed me to who I think I was meant to be. I am highly sensitive, but also very empathetic because of it, I am caring and kind and will go out of my way to help anyone. The problem is I also feel everything and I mean everything so spending time with this world is extremely taxing..but I am willing to do whatever I can. Getting out is however becoming less and less frequent, I cant do any good from here. Thanks for listening and at your age I believe you will overcome your challenges and inspire many others. Stay strong and thank you again....
@@CanadianMapleleaf I am in my late 40’s and have lived with this condition almost all of my life. I’m tired, exhausted, and feel very damaged. Your post felt like it was addressed to me personally. Thank you.
Dear Deena Lynch, thank you soo much for sharing your story! Last year, I started to go through the same transition: c-PTSD->art, and I couldn't be more hopeful. Wishing you much luck on your healing journey! ✨We're one big team of life-long warriors and I'm sure we'll eventually win 💪
I've only just begun to take control of my CPTSD and I've been struggling with starting my art journey at 35. I have ideas and stories already but when I put pen to paper I freeze. I bought a guitar but when I pick it up I freeze. But this helps me to start thawing that ice. Thank you.
I have not been diagnosed with CPTSD but I believe I have it too. I see you and am so happy that music helped you open up the painful childhood wounds inside so you can heal them. During my abuse as a teen, I wrote songs as an outlet to my pain too. I haven written in years. Thanks for inspiring me to get back to it ❤️
So inspirational! You give me hope. I have struggled and been misunderstood my whole life with complex PTSD. And not received the support I wish I had. You touched on all the things. The things that others don't see. I too, believe that the last most recent trauma that I have encountered, was the last straw for me and I am fed up with allowing the world to dominate me! I've had an awakening of passion in me that I have not felt in a long, long time. I joined a community family leadership training and am doing a community project around PTSD and parenting, different types of PTSD, and how to break the cycle of abuse for our children and theirs. My dream is that I will one day be able to be a Ted Talk speaker as well. We definitely need to hear more about it, instead of hiding it, knowing the devastating affects its having on peoples lives. Thank you for sharing!!!
Wow that’s how I feel totally misunderstood and not supported. Relationships been hard to keep, jobs hard to keep, people can be cruel to others like us who suffer from CPTSD
Such a inspiration well done I have hypoxia brain injury I died 26minutes spent weeks months in coma rehab hospital learning talk walk again been a recovery massive discovery never ever give up on yourself many will never yourselves keep going you got this sending luck hugs love from headway Nottingham UK takecare everyone xxx
Phew! I am getting ready to go play a show this evening. I have CPTSD and I love to play and lift my bandmates up, but I also have been feeling increasingly distant from my community as it grows. It's funny that I used a lot of my visual art skills and media skills to lift this world up for me, and now it has a life of it's own and I am having trouble as more and more people take notice and I take more and more of a back seat to it all. LOL. I want to cry because I feel like I'm always here to lift everyone up, and they are just passing through. I want to love myself, because I know that ultimately I don't and no one else can really love me FOR me.
Thank u so much for this it was so inspiring as a fellow performer and composer with cptsd, just seeing the way you carry yourself with your diagnosis blows my mind and gives me hope that some day I´ll be able to sing in front of people enjoying it more than dreading it. Thank u again for your existence you really made my day!
45 years on Earth here and I recently unraveled my layers to meet my lovely SHAME 😅 so feeling the feeling has been doing pretty alright and this striking vdo is so much relatable to my journey. Thank you for making, talking and doing such wonderful things. I will look for your channels. Have a great healing ❤️🩹
Thank you. It has had such a grip on me. I’m in so much fear and overwhelm all the time. Dance helps. But when I’m alone I can’t really access my creativity as much. I will keep going.
Ditto what most of the comments have already said. 10 years of untreated CPTSD often appears, to other people who don’t know me, like a meth addiction or severe mental illness of several kinds. By untreated though, I mean medically. Because part of my most severe trauma was due to doctors and hospitals, getting to the doctor isn’t and hasn’t happened in a decade either. I don’t talk about my story. Ultimately, only the lessons and wisdom will matter. Not the catalyst for those lessons. I guess it’s time to force myself to go. Stumbled onto this video by accident, so because in my life I’m often guided this way, I’m sure that I still have a choice but not for long… too many serious health concerns that could be signs of oncoming incurable illness to ignore it anymore. Thanks for your video, I needed it today.
it hits so hard knowing so much real good people are dealing with CPTSD. no one deserves it. and its so beautiful how people heal... wishing all the best to the speaker, thank you for making us visible 🌿🌿🌿
Woah. I had a light bulb moment when you said that stopping abuse includes stopping abusing ourselves. I had never thought of my negative self talk as abuse. Thank you for being so open to sharing.
I could relate so much with you Deena. And I can understand from the place you are speaking this ted, with so much of conviction and gratitude for how it magically helped you. Thank you for sharing this. I truly wish for this video to reach a lot many people.
I relate to this so much. As someone with CPTSD, I went through many years of many forms of abuse. I have found it so hard to open up and express vulnerability, crying, anger, and other emotions. I’m working so hard to remove the mask. I also use music to help with my CPTSD. Music is such a great way to help you express yourself. I’m working on not restricting myself, and not caring what society thinks of me. I do things differently than everybody else, and that’s mainly due to certain disabilities in my life. But I like how I do it, but I know society frowns upon it. Unmasking is so scary, but I believe in myself that I can and will let go of my perfectionism. I can and will let go of wondering what people think of me. I will learn to freely express myself, and love myself when being vulnerable. And not just only love myself when I’m happy and bubbly 24/7.
im a singer & songwriter & i also have complex ptsd. i relate to so much of what you said. thankyou for your words of hope , i think hearing what you said is going to help me allow myself to move more freely in life 💗💗
Ahhh I love this!!! Thanks so much!! I’m currently on the exact same path and am just buzzing with life and excitement for the path I’ve been guided to in my recovery from childhood ptsd. So happy for you that you found you! 💗
I cried. Thank you so much for this. All of it absolutely excruciatingly true. Every word and expression. Very well spoken. Sharing and sending kindness your way.
Thank you for your encouragement I really need to speak my story and truth but I’m not sure where to start or who to even trust, I don’t trust anyone easily. I do feel alone except for my service puppy 🐶
So good!!! This popped up on my homepage and its exactly what i needed to hear!! Been told to create for some time now due to my own battle with Cptsd and healing journey. Now i truly understand why. It just clicked!! She did a great job and i wanna refrain from calling her bunny stance adorable, bc people have also called my nervous ticks and symptoms cute 😅 ive come to accept it. Amazing job Deena!!
Oh i had boospumps on this speech thank you so mutch i reely want to become like you one day i have long journey ahead me but still have hope to not just survive but to thrive and i love music and art so mutch and this inspiring me a lot wish all the best💐💐💝💜💝
Ive started to crochet to help me with my cptsd.....and it helps me get through yhe day mostly while im out in public ... When i have to go out on my own.... Thankyou so much for this.... I hate sleeping due to night terrors and sweats.... But maybe one day ill be okay... My 3 kids also have ptsd also..... :(. Xx
Woooouuuu..I knew about PTSD,but not complex PTSD! Thank you for sharing your journey & spiritual awakening! Your bravery to be honest with yourself & to embrace your vulnerability through "music".. That is extremely powerful & insightful.. Keep going & be a voice for your community,your family & humanity.. Blessings for the healing journey you are going to go through! Be more creative & bold! Use your platform to bring "self awareness",to create self transformation..Light & love for tue rest of your life..🙏💕💠😊💗😘💚🌺
No one seems to have a remedy to fill the void. I'm tired of having to fight through every day just to start over from the bottom again. I had music and art to express myself for years but that dark emptiness is still loomed over me. I've done every type of health and self improvement I could decades before I even knew what complex PTSD was. I'm tending to believe if psilocybin doesn't work I'm going to go with what the first experts I heard say, which was the damage from not having a nurturing parent you can trust is deep and profound and the prognosis of healing that trauma is poor no matter what you do. That's what research says. Unless our brains can be rewired or we can live in some magical stress free dream world only having fun and relaxation...I will accept my life was never meant to be. Tired of fighting for crumbs.
I believe u have cptsd I have been diagnosed with ptsd for years. I have a similar experience. I was in Healthcare for most of my life although I'm naturally a caring person I hated it. I've become a photographer these past couple years. To finally express myself.
Thanks for sharing your story. It gives me hope and power to move on.There are so many silly people told me that my life will be damaged cause of the trauma. Now I know better🎉❤
I have a complicated thing of Pure Ocd and Complex ptsd...I am 42 now...single ..recently underwent a job loss and a connection loss...with an amazing guy due to office politics...I believe i still look young ..and attractive...and I am hopeful about overcoming both through arts..music and writing
@@katejudson8907 I don’t think they meant it that way. Probably something I might’ve even said as a well aware young “woman” myself. It’s just something ppl say. But I agree she’s a grown woman. Wonder when that technically happens let alone emotionally or “scientifically” 🤔😅☠️.
I used to love art. The constant abuse and neglect and ridicule and shame and fear caused me to lose interest and joy in it. I literally wake up, go to my blue collar job because I couldn't make it through school, come home and self-medicate with alcohol and food and distractions.
What an inspiration to me because I to suffer from complex PTSD I just found out about a couple years ago that I have this but just getting on the path of my healing journey since I've broke away from my toxic family I am also an intuitive in path and I a creative in many ways music art maybe comedy I don't know but I see myself in this lady and this is inspirational to see that there is a light down the dark tunnel after all God bless you for your message keep on creating and becoming your higher self peace and blessings namaste
6:46 so she bought her first guitar and started to overcome her c-ptsd already at the age of just 18 years old? I find it hard to understand how you can already deal with your childhood traumas and then work with them while you are still a teenager? I suffer from c-ptsd, and I have learned that most people only remember their childhood traumas in their 20's or later. The teenage-brain is not developed enough to cope and handle with those traumatic experiences in the childhood. Am I missing something? Or am I just wrong? I really don't want to question her story, so please don't misunderstanding my intentions. I'm just curious
That confused me to because it sounded at the start like she didn't start doing the art and processing the c-ptsd until after graduating college and working in a business/math field
I was diagnosed with severe CPTSD but I always knew I had it. I feel like I’m just living and waiting to die on an island on my own. The more I try to form connections the more I get abused. I used to paint, sketch everything with art starting at age 5. I lost the desire to do anything involving my talents. The only pleasure I have now is food and eating. It has added another disorder, binge eating disorder. I’m done there’s no way to overcome this. I don’t know why this woman claims art can help with it, NOTHING WORKS.
Finding something I'm passionate about recently is working for me. Not just something I like, something that gets me super excited. Part of it being using all the pain and trauma I've endured, to give others strength and hope who feel the same. I know exactly how you feel about trying to connect and getting abused. It is extremely important for me to step out of my comfort zone and not hide, or I just beat myself up more for allowing my dreams to die. I'm willing to talk to you more if you want, you are not alone. I have attracted lots of trauma in my life unintentionally and I'm still going. It took me until 41years old btw to find a real true passion that is working for my complex ptsd. Definitely been a journey. Also, I'm doing my medical intake this morning for Ketamine therapy!!!! Its only in Colorado and Texas currently, but they are bragging about its effectiveness at treating PTSD depression, medication resistant depression, chronic pain, addiction!!!! Keep in touch and I'll let you know how effective the treatment is. Look it up.......Klarisana. If you don't want to connect, God bless you hun, I hope that you don't give up. Self-destruction, and self-sabotage is a symptom of CPTSD (not who you really are) and you have to fight that with self-love.
I know how you feel and am similarly struggling with direction and motivation. I doubt you can honestly admit you have tried EVERYTHING? It's a personal journey we're on and you're only at that point on your path where it FEELS like nothing works. The point being, is that until you have tried EVERYTHING for yourself - you still have your life purpose ahead - to find the right fuel to light your flame within - there are many ways, you just need to find yours, even if it's started with just a shift in perspective and attitude - keeping an open, curious and engaged mind, by reading or absorbing... philosophical, psychological, historical, spiritual, cosmic or scientific perspectives. Everything helps!... Sam Harris's videos helped a lot for me! I found the further away from myself I enquired, cosmically speaking, the better my understanding, and the bigger the shift in acceptance and gratitude for just being alive in this mysterious universe of ours, where our purpose, I feel, is to evolve, survive and thrive - as simple as that! Good Luck from Melbourne Australia! 🇦🇺🌏❤🍀
I've been an artist (a real one) my entire life and art hasn't helped me at all. All it has done is give me a way to avoid things and shut out the world.
The "safety of suppression" is exactly the correct usage of words. As someone who was in rigorous therapy for my C-PTSD for a year, I can completely understand why people choose to sweep their mental health problems under the rug instead of addressing them head on. Processing our traumas is an extremely emotionally draining process and I cannot stress that enough. It jolts us awake and puts us into a completely different world and makes us question everything and compels us to call an ace an ace and see our abuse for what it really was. And then there's also the massive grief which comes from realising that we did not deserve the poisonous environment we were placed in and if only we had had supporting and compassionate adults around us, we would have had a healthy, fulfiling and much better life.
Did it work?
Totally relate. Thank you for your comment 💛
Perfectly said 💯 absolutely agree
I feel this!!! The work to wake up is so hard, but so worth it! ❤️
What treatment did you undertake for complex PTSD?
Thank you for speaking about Complex-PTSD. We need more conversation about it. It's too late for me (age 73), but maybe the next generations can conquer it. God bless you.
What you have left is as valuable as the years you have lived. Nobody is guaranteed tomorrow.
It's never too late x
It's not too late!
No it's not too late. I am 70 yrs old and only discovered I have CPTSD last year. There is help out there now, just wish this was all known about 30 yrs ago at least, my life would have been so different, I lost so many opportunities. BUT - I have started working on myself because I owe it to myself and that Inner Child, and I want to know some peace and happiness in my now late years. Watch Irene Lyon on TH-cam. It's not a quick fix but it will help you lead a better quality of life going forward. You are worth it!
@@cabbagedavidge exactly! Good for you.
I feel like I just met her in the bathroom at a party and she helped me stop crying and gave me a hug
🤣🤣good one mate
100 percent
PTSD is like the violent memories get stuck on repeat - constant reliving and re-strategizing how to approach the situation when it already happened. What could have been done, what should be done in the future - an obsession and depersonalized presence in the rest of life. Sleepless nights - sometimes entire weeks because the memories just get worse laying down. The anger, holding back from smashing through a wall just from the replaying, forgetting what day and time it is. Looking back at old videos of yourself and not recognizing them anymore.
Exactly you’re so right and I know when I read this that the person writing this must have C-PTSD! Please listen to Johanna Draconis
I thought abuse was normal because it was all I knew. Just in the last three years I learned alot of things weren't right or normal. I learned what a narcissist is. I learned to set boundaries. I learned what acceptable behavior is and what is not acceptable. Now I'm trying to figure out how to heal my trauma.
Start with feelings the emotion. Don't suppress them, however painful n discomforting. TRE, trauma informed yoga and other practices help. Won't happen overnight, but we've got it
Same
Knowing chronic trauma's role helps us to be kinder and cut ourselves slack but healing is the problem. I wish you well.
I feel very angry at the people who have such a proviledged life free from ptsd. Every moment feels like you’re in immediate danger . People tell me to be grateful for what I have, which feels invalidating to what I am experiencing
People don't get it, they don't give a toss about anyone else but themselves. I know for myself I grieve for the opportunities I could have had without the abuse/ PTSD.
Yup. They truly don't understand. I hope complex trauma becomes a more mainstream topic especially in the medical and psychiatric fields (also CPS/courts) it can save so many lives
It pretty much has ruined my entire life. I'm 68 now and I isolate with my two dogs. But I do still have my music which is my soul.
Music has always been a safe haven for me to move my emotions into something outside of myself. This has given me the inspiration to build up a new studio and get back at it.
It's been years since I sold my studio to focus on nutrition and personal training. In the aftermath of failing the studies due to my chronic health issues and a relationship with another traumatized individual - I learned about narcissism, toxic relationships, abuse, manipulation, and all that follows. The veil was lifted. 2 years later the pieces began to fall into place. My gut and severe health issues are all related to CPTSD, the chronic dysregulated nervous system, stress and inflammation the body has had to carry all these years from unprocessed emotions and experiences. Caused by a lifetime of verbal abuse, bulling, neglect and addictions. So now I am going to get back into it and use it as a vessel to try to heal myself.
I could relate to so much of what you said. I wish the best for you and your studio.
@@bianca_ninax 🙋🏻♂️Do you make music or play instruments too?
That reminds me of when I made music secretly for myself. Shouldn't have stopped
Beautiful speech. I looked up "encouragement for CPTSD" on TH-cam and your speech came up. I just started somatic therapy today. I am taking responsibility for my life. I will never give up the fight. So much love to you ❤❤ beautiful soul
You are courageous. Thanks for saying "I had no idea what my human rights were...I had no idea what boundaries were..." Thanks Angel. Praying for healing 4 you...
Thank you. I am also a broken person and I appreciated this so much
this made me realize that art has been a form of dealing with my cptsd this whole time. thank you for putting it into words in such a beautiful way.
i cried so much ive been struggling to afford therapy which is why I am back to creating art, journaling, and fitness.
Omg same let’s hang in here together, whoever you are. I know we’ll never meet but I’m sending you hugs tonight and hopes that one day it won’t be so expensive to care for and about ourselves and not be blamed for everything we’ve been through and not being “better already” when the care we deserve has neglected us even further.
You are valid and absolutely loved by a girl named Elizabeth, me:). ✨
Thank you for expressing C-PTSD so eloquently as well as the process of healing. I relate deeply. I'm still in the process of coming out of survival mode.
I appreciate you so much for raising awareness of this.
Thank you so much for putting the struggles CPTSD people suffer in a "human" language, Deena. Esp. how you describes the relationship between your own brain/mind with emotions. (Imagine sharing it with non-CPTSD people could look sooo insane!) With 20 years of Cptsd, I found myself in a similar path as Deena before she took off the healing journey led by art and music. And Deena is like telling all of us that YOU CAN ALSO CHANGE!!! (So powerful with her being an icon of "rebel" and fighting against that part in ourselves) Sincerely hope all the best in your future and great progress in fixing our relationship with others. I should devote more time into making arts...... because you don't get to work out the relationship with yourself if you don't even spend abundant time on that.
Im 53. Cptsd self diagnoses, because i know myself and my lived life better than anyone, im my own expert. I picked up the art brushes again after 30 odd yrs and have created some very meaningful work, for me. Very cathartic because i paint with intent to express the pain. Art plus therapy, with exploring psycology, philosophy and close observance of how i react and why, has really set the pathway for the remainder of my life. Probably only 20 yrs left till i kick off so i hope to use it well and explore all possibilities. At least my kids will remember a calmer more present dad after im gone. Peace ❤
From one TEDx Speaker to another who has suffered and still navigating CPTSD, Thank You for sharing your profound words of wisdom, knowledge and experience to help others. Continued success on your journey❤
I have C-PTSD. Writing is my music (organise thoughts), yoga is my performing (re-connecting to body), I'm yet to share my story publicly, but I do feel compelled to share writing about it & 'use my voice'... I'm searching for the courage! Glad I found this Tedx - thank you.
Same
As an artist, healing by CPTSD, this really hit home for me
Omfg your story is mine but I am about a year or two behind in my healing but once I’m strong enough I’m going to scream my story from the rooftops to hopefully help others and inspire change. I have no idea who this woman is but thank you for this talk I needed it right now ❤❤❤
Please try not to scream too loud. Loud noise punches my amygdala in the you know where 😂
This is the most relatable unrelatable video ever. I wish I could find some kind of path to some kind of happiness.
Thank you so much. I have been craving creation since forever but I struggle opening up enough to create. I’m working on it. Just like you, after a certain traumatic event, the last one of a life packed with trauma and abuse, I wasn’t able to hide the pain anymore and I had to let it out. I’m still in the process. Opening up about my trauma helped me to gain interest into art again, because I needed it. To escape the pain and also sometimes to help feeling it, to feel relatable, to feel connected to a community. I’m not at the point where I’m able to make art yet, but I smartly feel the desire to dive into the creations of others and I know that I’m currently starting to inspire myself for future art. Hearing your experience, so relatable to mine, really gives me the support and hope I need to push through and finally, make art. In my case imposter syndrome is still strong, but the fear to lose my life was so strong the last time I experienced trauma, that now I keep telling myself « you didn’t get a second chance at life just to stay in your comfort zone ». Again, thank you SO MUCH for speaking about C-PTSD and for raising awareness about it, and thanks for sharing your beautiful experience with us. Just be sure it does help people in a very solid way. 🩷
Ms Deena Lynch, you don't have to be a professional to hold the room. I ran to music to escape the trauma, it has always been able to take me far, far away. I intend to use my writing and music to make the trauma escape me. I will listen to this several more times, but your statement of art being 'an exchange of healing' was profound. Who can adequately explain this with words? It can't be done, that is why God gifted to us art; and dogs.
I was crying.. Thank you. thank you. I needed it.
I have complex PTSD unfortunately found out after it destroyed everything in my life....to late to start over. But it was beautiful to see someone find a way......and become something really beautiful....its so important thank you for sharing.
It's never late if you still alive even if you're 68 years old always try to fix you, and believe me it will happen in your own time just keep the hope alive so you keep living.( it's like I'm talking to myself i have c-ptsd for 16 years since i was 16, I'm 32 and now i have name for what i always wanted to understand now im ganna fix me hope you do to.) have beautiful life stranger.
My Complex PTSD is due to several childhood traumas managed to program me through the theta phase of my development and the the rest of the traumas from that point on were internalized. When I lost both of my parents within months of each other it started a vicious cycle that completely destroyed my life. The problem when you get much older is you no longer see a path just and end. You realize you cannot rebuild a 30 year career or a start a whole new family, forget owning a home and without a financial means to get help all my help has come from God. The last 7 years have transformed me to who I think I was meant to be. I am highly sensitive, but also very empathetic because of it, I am caring and kind and will go out of my way to help anyone. The problem is I also feel everything and I mean everything so spending time with this world is extremely taxing..but I am willing to do whatever I can. Getting out is however becoming less and less frequent, I cant do any good from here. Thanks for listening and at your age I believe you will overcome your challenges and inspire many others. Stay strong and thank you again....
@@ms-ij8lq Thank you.
@@CanadianMapleleaf I am in my late 40’s and have lived with this condition almost all of my life. I’m tired, exhausted, and feel very damaged. Your post felt like it was addressed to me personally. Thank you.
@@bandlehars Praying for you Craig, with all I have.
Dear Deena Lynch, thank you soo much for sharing your story! Last year, I started to go through the same transition: c-PTSD->art, and I couldn't be more hopeful. Wishing you much luck on your healing journey! ✨We're one big team of life-long warriors and I'm sure we'll eventually win 💪
I've only just begun to take control of my CPTSD and I've been struggling with starting my art journey at 35. I have ideas and stories already but when I put pen to paper I freeze. I bought a guitar but when I pick it up I freeze. But this helps me to start thawing that ice. Thank you.
Love it. Ive had severe cptsd for 20 years. I have started today being creative singing expression all because of your words thanku
I have not been diagnosed with CPTSD but I believe I have it too. I see you and am so happy that music helped you open up the painful childhood wounds inside so you can heal them. During my abuse as a teen, I wrote songs as an outlet to my pain too. I haven written in years. Thanks for inspiring me to get back to it ❤️
So inspirational! You give me hope. I have struggled and been misunderstood my whole life with complex PTSD. And not received the support I wish I had. You touched on all the things. The things that others don't see. I too, believe that the last most recent trauma that I have encountered, was the last straw for me and I am fed up with allowing the world to dominate me! I've had an awakening of passion in me that I have not felt in a long, long time. I joined a community family leadership training and am doing a community project around PTSD and parenting, different types of PTSD, and how to break the cycle of abuse for our children and theirs. My dream is that I will one day be able to be a Ted Talk speaker as well. We definitely need to hear more about it, instead of hiding it, knowing the devastating affects its having on peoples lives. Thank you for sharing!!!
Wow that’s how I feel totally misunderstood and not supported. Relationships been hard to keep, jobs hard to keep, people can be cruel to others like us who suffer from CPTSD
Such a inspiration well done I have hypoxia brain injury I died 26minutes spent weeks months in coma rehab hospital learning talk walk again been a recovery massive discovery never ever give up on yourself many will never yourselves keep going you got this sending luck hugs love from headway Nottingham UK takecare everyone xxx
Phew! I am getting ready to go play a show this evening. I have CPTSD and I love to play and lift my bandmates up, but I also have been feeling increasingly distant from my community as it grows. It's funny that I used a lot of my visual art skills and media skills to lift this world up for me, and now it has a life of it's own and I am having trouble as more and more people take notice and I take more and more of a back seat to it all. LOL. I want to cry because I feel like I'm always here to lift everyone up, and they are just passing through. I want to love myself, because I know that ultimately I don't and no one else can really love me FOR me.
Thank u so much for this it was so inspiring as a fellow performer and composer with cptsd, just seeing the way you carry yourself with your diagnosis blows my mind and gives me hope that some day I´ll be able to sing in front of people enjoying it more than dreading it. Thank u again for your existence you really made my day!
45 years on Earth here and I recently unraveled my layers to meet my lovely SHAME 😅 so feeling the feeling has been doing pretty alright and this striking vdo is so much relatable to my journey. Thank you for making, talking and doing such wonderful things. I will look for your channels. Have a great healing ❤️🩹
Thank you. It has had such a grip on me. I’m in so much fear and overwhelm all the time.
Dance helps.
But when I’m alone I can’t really access my creativity as much.
I will keep going.
Check out The Artist's Way, a journaling and meditative practice to fire up your creative juices. Self healing is the way to go, keep going
Ditto what most of the comments have already said.
10 years of untreated CPTSD often appears, to other people who don’t know me, like a meth addiction or severe mental illness of several kinds.
By untreated though, I mean medically. Because part of my most severe trauma was due to doctors and hospitals, getting to the doctor isn’t and hasn’t happened in a decade either.
I don’t talk about my story. Ultimately, only the lessons and wisdom will matter. Not the catalyst for those lessons.
I guess it’s time to force myself to go. Stumbled onto this video by accident, so because in my life I’m often guided this way, I’m sure that I still have a choice but not for long… too many serious health concerns that could be signs of oncoming incurable illness to ignore it anymore.
Thanks for your video, I needed it today.
it hits so hard knowing so much real good people are dealing with CPTSD. no one deserves it. and its so beautiful how people heal... wishing all the best to the speaker, thank you for making us visible 🌿🌿🌿
Woah. I had a light bulb moment when you said that stopping abuse includes stopping abusing ourselves. I had never thought of my negative self talk as abuse. Thank you for being so open to sharing.
THIS IS THE VOICE IVE BEEN WAITING FOR.
I could relate so much with you Deena. And I can understand from the place you are speaking this ted, with so much of conviction and gratitude for how it magically helped you. Thank you for sharing this. I truly wish for this video to reach a lot many people.
I relate to this so much. As someone with CPTSD, I went through many years of many forms of abuse. I have found it so hard to open up and express vulnerability, crying, anger, and other emotions. I’m working so hard to remove the mask. I also use music to help with my CPTSD. Music is such a great way to help you express yourself. I’m working on not restricting myself, and not caring what society thinks of me. I do things differently than everybody else, and that’s mainly due to certain disabilities in my life. But I like how I do it, but I know society frowns upon it. Unmasking is so scary, but I believe in myself that I can and will let go of my perfectionism. I can and will let go of wondering what people think of me. I will learn to freely express myself, and love myself when being vulnerable. And not just only love myself when I’m happy and bubbly 24/7.
I have CPTSD and I am going through the same as the first example that you gave.
im a singer & songwriter & i also have complex ptsd. i relate to so much of what you said. thankyou for your words of hope , i think hearing what you said is going to help me allow myself to move more freely in life 💗💗
Ahhh I love this!!! Thanks so much!!
I’m currently on the exact same path and am just buzzing with life and excitement for the path I’ve been guided to in my recovery from childhood ptsd. So happy for you that you found you! 💗
I cried. Thank you so much for this.
All of it absolutely excruciatingly true.
Every word and expression. Very well spoken. Sharing and sending kindness your way.
Thank you for the validation.
Thank you for your encouragement I really need to speak my story and truth but I’m not sure where to start or who to even trust, I don’t trust anyone easily.
I do feel alone except for my service puppy 🐶
Drawing as a seance with my own ghost :O I didn't realize what a wonderful tool drawing can be to understand yourself.
So good!!! This popped up on my homepage and its exactly what i needed to hear!! Been told to create for some time now due to my own battle with Cptsd and healing journey. Now i truly understand why. It just clicked!! She did a great job and i wanna refrain from calling her bunny stance adorable, bc people have also called my nervous ticks and symptoms cute 😅 ive come to accept it. Amazing job Deena!!
Oh i had boospumps on this speech thank you so mutch i reely want to become like you one day i have long journey ahead me but still have hope to not just survive but to thrive and i love music and art so mutch and this inspiring me a lot wish all the best💐💐💝💜💝
Ive started to crochet to help me with my cptsd.....and it helps me get through yhe day mostly while im out in public ... When i have to go out on my own.... Thankyou so much for this.... I hate sleeping due to night terrors and sweats.... But maybe one day ill be okay... My 3 kids also have ptsd also..... :(. Xx
Woooouuuu..I knew about PTSD,but not complex PTSD!
Thank you for sharing your journey & spiritual awakening! Your bravery to be honest with yourself & to embrace your vulnerability through "music"..
That is extremely powerful & insightful..
Keep going & be a voice for your community,your family & humanity.. Blessings for the healing journey you are going to go through! Be more creative & bold! Use your platform to bring "self awareness",to create self transformation..Light & love for tue rest of your life..🙏💕💠😊💗😘💚🌺
No one seems to have a remedy to fill the void. I'm tired of having to fight through every day just to start over from the bottom again. I had music and art to express myself for years but that dark emptiness is still loomed over me. I've done every type of health and self improvement I could decades before I even knew what complex PTSD was. I'm tending to believe if psilocybin doesn't work I'm going to go with what the first experts I heard say, which was the damage from not having a nurturing parent you can trust is deep and profound and the prognosis of healing that trauma is poor no matter what you do. That's what research says. Unless our brains can be rewired or we can live in some magical stress free dream world only having fun and relaxation...I will accept my life was never meant to be. Tired of fighting for crumbs.
I believe u have cptsd I have been diagnosed with ptsd for years. I have a similar experience. I was in Healthcare for most of my life although I'm naturally a caring person I hated it. I've become a photographer these past couple years. To finally express myself.
Thanks for sharing your story.
It gives me hope and power to move on.There are so many silly people told me that my life will be damaged cause of the trauma.
Now I know better🎉❤
I just finished with my c- ptsd last year. I’m happy to find this talk.
Finished? Tell me your ways 😅
@@elizabethpettigrew4382😂
Beautifully said.
She Killed it! What an awesome performance!!!!!
I have a complicated thing of Pure Ocd and Complex ptsd...I am 42 now...single ..recently underwent a job loss and a connection loss...with an amazing guy due to office politics...I believe i still look young ..and attractive...and I am hopeful about overcoming both through arts..music and writing
Thank you, Deena!
Absolutely amazing Ted talk. This was so Needed in my life thank you I feel very seen
Amazing woman thank you x
"I gave myself permission...to come out of hiding!"
Thank you.
“Including the abuse you inflict upon yourself”
Ooof... this. My trauma caused me to be dysfunctional enought to create more trauma! Yay! /s
your amazing!!!! thank you for helping lead the way for us!!!!💜💜💜
AURORA has been healing my cPTSD/Inner child for years now. I thank her for that. Maybe one day I'll make my own too. 6:20
How wonderful. I needed this today.
Proud of you all keep going doing amazing things stay strong stay positive we are survivors sending hugs luck love from headway Nottingham UK xx
❤❤😘ahhh such inspirational hope...no more hiding in the shame
Much needed to hear this tonight.
what a strong girl, wish her the best
Girl? She is not a child.
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I don’t think they meant it that way. Probably something I might’ve even said as a well aware young “woman” myself. It’s just something ppl say. But I agree she’s a grown woman. Wonder when that technically happens let alone emotionally or “scientifically” 🤔😅☠️.
I used to love art. The constant abuse and neglect and ridicule and shame and fear caused me to lose interest and joy in it. I literally wake up, go to my blue collar job because I couldn't make it through school, come home and self-medicate with alcohol and food and distractions.
What an inspiration to me because I to suffer from complex PTSD I just found out about a couple years ago that I have this but just getting on the path of my healing journey since I've broke away from my toxic family I am also an intuitive in path and I a creative in many ways music art maybe comedy I don't know but I see myself in this lady and this is inspirational to see that there is a light down the dark tunnel after all God bless you for your message keep on creating and becoming your higher self peace and blessings namaste
Life changing! Thank you
wow I really needed this.. thank you so much
She is So COOL!
Such a valuable speech, great great thanks
So deeply moving ❤
This was exactly what I needed to be reminded of. Thank you.
6:46 so she bought her first guitar and started to overcome her c-ptsd already at the age of just 18 years old?
I find it hard to understand how you can already deal with your childhood traumas and then work with them while you are still a teenager?
I suffer from c-ptsd, and I have learned that most people only remember their childhood traumas in their 20's or later.
The teenage-brain is not developed enough to cope and handle with those traumatic experiences in the childhood.
Am I missing something? Or am I just wrong?
I really don't want to question her story, so please don't misunderstanding my intentions. I'm just curious
That confused me to because it sounded at the start like she didn't start doing the art and processing the c-ptsd until after graduating college and working in a business/math field
Thank you for this; sharing it as a resource for students.
Hope they found it helpful!
Damn. This was 100%
Ah man! You're an inspiration! I'm going to start making music again!
This vid is magic! Thanks
Beautiful.
I was diagnosed with severe CPTSD but I always knew I had it. I feel like I’m just living and waiting to die on an island on my own. The more I try to form connections the more I get abused. I used to paint, sketch everything with art starting at age 5. I lost the desire to do anything involving my talents. The only pleasure I have now is food and eating. It has added another disorder, binge eating disorder. I’m done there’s no way to overcome this. I don’t know why this woman claims art can help with it, NOTHING WORKS.
Finding something I'm passionate about recently is working for me. Not just something I like, something that gets me super excited. Part of it being using all the pain and trauma I've endured, to give others strength and hope who feel the same. I know exactly how you feel about trying to connect and getting abused. It is extremely important for me to step out of my comfort zone and not hide, or I just beat myself up more for allowing my dreams to die. I'm willing to talk to you more if you want, you are not alone. I have attracted lots of trauma in my life unintentionally and I'm still going. It took me until 41years old btw to find a real true passion that is working for my complex ptsd. Definitely been a journey. Also, I'm doing my medical intake this morning for Ketamine therapy!!!! Its only in Colorado and Texas currently, but they are bragging about its effectiveness at treating PTSD depression, medication resistant depression, chronic pain, addiction!!!! Keep in touch and I'll let you know how effective the treatment is. Look it up.......Klarisana. If you don't want to connect, God bless you hun, I hope that you don't give up. Self-destruction, and self-sabotage is a symptom of CPTSD (not who you really are) and you have to fight that with self-love.
I know how you feel and am similarly struggling with direction and motivation. I doubt you can honestly admit you have tried EVERYTHING? It's a personal journey we're on and you're only at that point on your path where it FEELS like nothing works. The point being, is that until you have tried EVERYTHING for yourself - you still have your life purpose ahead - to find the right fuel to light your flame within - there are many ways, you just need to find yours, even if it's started with just a shift in perspective and attitude - keeping an open, curious and engaged mind, by reading or absorbing... philosophical, psychological, historical, spiritual, cosmic or scientific perspectives. Everything helps!... Sam Harris's videos helped a lot for me! I found the further away from myself I enquired, cosmically speaking, the better my understanding, and the bigger the shift in acceptance and gratitude for just being alive in this mysterious universe of ours, where our purpose, I feel, is to evolve, survive and thrive - as simple as that! Good Luck from Melbourne Australia! 🇦🇺🌏❤🍀
How do you even know for sure? Speaks volumes of how little you actually know and how little self confidence you have for yourself.
Overeaters anonymous
this is actually really accurate.
Really liked your talk and agree that music and art help me with ptsd
This was so inspiring for me!!!
I've been an artist (a real one) my entire life and art hasn't helped me at all. All it has done is give me a way to avoid things and shut out the world.
EMDR can quickly transform you - relatively speaking - based on the individual.
The way she explains things and even her mannerisms are eerily similar to mine 😳
LOVE!
Great💯
Great video!!!
Bravo
Wow. Well done x
Totally relate! Very well said.
loved you!