Delusional at the psych ward - Schizoaffective Disorder
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 1 พ.ย. 2024
- In 2021 I was sectioned under the mental health act in Derby Royal Hospital on the Radbourne Unit. I was assessed over 28 days and then discharged without medication. Prior to and during my section I had stopped eating for 2 weeks after poisoning myself with peppermint oil.
I had initially started taking it because I had tooth ache and trouble eating. It allowed me to eat again, but how ironic in that it made me stop eating further down the line. Not to mention it made me very un well. Unable to walk almost. I was using crutches to get up and down the stairs. I was in a bad way. Before I was discharged I was given Fortijuice, a high calorie protein milkshake. And slowly I began to eat food again.
A month later I was re admitted to the same hospital to be assessed again.
As I had lost it at a neighbour for smoking through my window and making me very ill. And arguing with my mother.
I was under strict observation, even though I was out of hospital. And the slightest wrong move could end me back up in there.
I was struggling with physical illness, pain and my mental health was deteriorating.
I had stumbled upon and was taking a food grade peppermint oil just before being admitted into hospital the first time around. Had I not found it, I may have died. It saved me. And so did the doctors? I was taking it to relieve the symptoms of stomach pain, being unable to eat, an irritating skin condition (which may have been picked up in hospital the first time round. Or from using a toxic peppermint oil prior to the food grade one) and also to make my eyesight better.
The last one was a delusional belief that I held so strongly, I thought that any anti psychotic would stop me from improving my eyesight.
I need glasses, and was not wearing them for this period of my life.
Did I really need the anti psychotics?
I needed the doctors to understand I needed the food grade peppermint oil along, to counteract the toxic stuff I’d been taking and it’s effects it had on me. I chose to keep taking it a secret the first time around. As I thought they may have got concerned and confiscated it. My life depended on taking it.
Was it too little too late?
If I’d have taken the food grade peppermint oil in the first place would I have been sectioned?
Who knows.
But I was seriously unwell and against taking anti psychotics at this time.
They eventually administered antipsychotics by depot injection.
And I was better within 6 months.
Or was I?
Although, I still needed the peppermint oil.
Like I said, another main reason I had to take it in secret the first time I was sectioned in 2021. Was because it was in a glass bottle and glass is prohibited on the ward. I needed to take it that often as and when required. I needed it in my pocket at all times.
Also, my mum had told them I had been taking essential oils to remedy my illnesses and thought I was poisoning myself.
Which I was to a degree, by taking the wrong stuff initially.
However, they didn’t know that what I was taking now was actually reversing all that toxicity and damage I had done. It was working. I needed it. Like nothing else.
I also used it to get rid of severe tooth ache and ear ache.
Yes, I put it in my ears and it worked!
Do not ingest any old essential oil as it is very dangerous as I have since learned!
Should we really trust the doctors and take their advice?
There are many valid points in this recording.
But, as you may be able to tell.
I was very agitated, upset and un well.
In ways which the doctors did not understand.
Was it too late to rely on the food grade peppermint alone?
When would they realise?