Recovering Drug Addict and Sex Worker-Izzy
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 11 ส.ค. 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Izzy, a recovering drug addict and sex worker in Los Angeles.
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Mark, please do a follow-up on Izzy one day! She's fascinating, and we're rooting for her.
.... i remember this girl... she didnt have these tats 3yrs ago. she was high asf...she approached me near DTLA with some gibberish about wanting to " licking my eyebrows" .
I was confused.... i asked her if she needed any help etc.... she was visibly dirty, high, etc... she started to trying to get the attention of random strangers saying " hey hey! This guy right here.... good looking guy huh" ....
I eventually walked into my destination.... she wandered off....
@@NAT-turners-Revenge that’s crazy. Small world. What are the odds
@@ClayMastah344 She dated my ex, brought him to Las Vegas from his home (Cape Cod) drugged and left him there and he now suffers from PTSD, Psychosis, Depression And Anxiety because of this female..
@@Kate-bu5or wow! He must have been with her for a while
Just follow her on Instagram she's a pornstar
This is some impressive self-awareness. She’s clearly a very intelligent woman. I hope you find some genuine love in your life Izzy.
I thought the same. Her introspection is impressive.
No man with self with will ever give her a chance unfortunately lol what she has done to her body
What’s this lol shit about?
Did your ego need it?
@@CapnWack she’s not interested in your type. 🤣 go get stuffed
She's interested in loser felons
When Izzy says that forgiveness has been the most important lesson in her life, she sounds like she is well on her way to a spiritual awakening.
and recovery is then possible ❤
wtf
I love that 4 her ❤
I went to school with Izzy! I'm so sad to see what's happened but so happy to see you've made it out ❤ I'm so sorry you didn't get the help you needed when you needed it but please know your story is helping potentially hundreds of not thousands or millions of children and women
no u didn't
Wow, I was friends with her in Salem as a preteen/teen. I would've never guessed any of this was happening.. my heart is both broken and rejuvenated. I always wondered why she fell off the earth around 16. We're all rooting for you Izzy, thank god you've found some peace of mind
Everyone has the odd people that end up junkies from school days
@@sydneyfc7769 no surprise you are like an insufferable incel who gets zero women. This is likely how you cope with your sad pathetic life. I guess wishing away your own pain won’t help. You need to find people you think are below you. Nope! Still way above you virgin.
You are too stupid to get a woman naturally and have to watch anime to get out your anger, and other men telling you how you are a loser who needs help mating, the most basic and obvious thing even animals can do…
@@sydneyfc7769 those same people were hiding their struggles insensitive bitch while you were handed everything
You could reach out. 🤷🏾♂️
@@kensredemption And do or say what ?
She lit up when she said "I love people". She shines like no other! She knows there's no one to preach to, no one to fix, nothing you have to do. She sees the light in others without looking. I Love you back 4 thousand times.
This chicks demon possessed, you actually believe her bs. It’s obvious chicks like this are toxic and just play the victim
she lit up the who room forsure when she admitted to sexually molesting a dog.... then she trolled mark for an hour with a fictional story for attention and your really believing this.. damn the world is crazier then I every thought it cud be.. 🤣😭🤣😆
And now you’re gonna sit there and hope she comes running into your arms, aren’t you? This is the biggest simp I’ve seen in quite some time, my friend. And ive seen plenty of simping ..
That part was actually really creepy to me….
@@apeyb5606 a dog has a hard enough time finding the pussy to put his junk in... like yeah its creepy as hell and so shallow...and on top of that she mocked women who really have been raped but she really blamed a dog?!?! How are people not seeing thru this fictional teenage dillusion teller... she is disgusting foreal... smh
As someone with many years in recovery, I can't stress enough the importance of you being kind and gentle with yourself as your brain heals. Your brain has been taking a beating, it's time for self-compassion and patience. You got this, kiddo.
Y'know, it's weird... You hear all the time, "stop beating yourself up, just love yourself, you're beautiful", etc... But the way you put your words here reached me a little! Thank you for that! All my love! ❤
I feel the same way as Christine. Your words spoke to me. Well said. Thank you for that!
Great job, young lady.
Stay focused and keep grinding.🙏
Your awesome you will do great things.
❤❤❤If u r still into SEX then become a FANS ONLY MODEL .. Then u can make good money and buy a house and then get into your clothes making and helping other drug addicts 🤔🤩xx
I had my last drink when I was 23. I am 63 now. Sobriety is not for those that need or deserve it. It is for those that want it - even if they don't fully understand they want it. I never try to guess who will stay sober and who will not. Ones I wouldn't have given a chance often make it and level-headed decent people with all the right talk often do not. I wish Izzy well. There is no problem or difficulty in life that a drink or drug cannot make worse.
Love this comment, so true people can shock you.
Amazing to hear!
I also got sober at 23. I got pregnant with twins. I'm about to be 37. I couldn't be more grateful that I have my sobriety and that my children were born healthy and don't have an alcoholic mother. ❤
@@denise8791 sincerely wishing you well from the UK.
Yep. A guy I know who is developmentally disabled as well as struggling with mental illness just took 15 years.
Over those 15 years, I watched people with everything going for them (on the outside, at least) that could not stay sober.
More than a few lost everything. or went insane and many died.
Addiction is a monster and kills many people.
@@budte I appreciate that so much! I wish you all the best as well!
When Mark doesn't or barely speaks you know its going to be a good interview. Yet another video showing proof on someones childhood being the most important part in anyone's life. 🙏
yes, and furthermore in any adult's life.
@@liointhesun amen to that 🙏
Exactly what I was going to comment!
@ Diego Membreno • I think Mark edited this interview so that his questions weren't heard because she had so much to say.
So true
This young woman is hands down one of the most intuitive, articulate, and admirable interviews I have had the pleasure of watching on Marks’ channel besides Bethany (New York)!!!! I’m a 52 year old gay man, and I could learn so many things from this precious treasure of a human being. I’ve been lost in addiction, depression, and childhood trauma for decades as well and Izzy has opened my eyes about how recovery from all of it is possible. I sincerely would welcome the opportunity to one day meet this astonishing individual to say thank you and I love you.
Omgoodness! You are such a beautiful soul! I adore your light! Wow this humility that kept your heart open to see others beauty is astonishing and soul-soothing! Thank you for being you! 💙
@Over Educated sp I appreciate your feedback! The lady is mind-blowingly beautiful inside-out and I hope she will shine brightly and fulfill her mission and the fire in her wonderful heart as long as possible! But I was referring to the guy who was inspired by her story by my comment! 🤩
@Over Educated sp awww you're such a likable person, my friend! And you also proved how humble you are through your action not merely bragging! That's integrity and I applaud you!!! ☺️🌈💎 So glad for your daughter's happy ending! If I may add something here, I'd say: I'm no expert but I was pushed by life (I'm a suicide survivor who was graciously granted a re-birth opportunity through an out-of-body experience) to understand human behavior and the most dangerous personality disorders on others' sanity: the Cluster B DSM-5 group whose core part is the narcissism trait. It seems to me that schizophenia along with other mental disorders (bipolarity, anxiety, depression, etc...) may be harmful but people suffering from them never mean to! Unlike narcissists and co. who do know what they're doing when abusing and manipulating, the other groups are oblivious to what they're inflicting to others unintentionally; they simply don't control their minds, sadly enough...🥺
What a beautiful comment. “This precious treasure of a human being” ❤️❤️
Love bombing is cringy in the comments.
I'm so sad that she can't remember what caused her to be addicted to porn at 6! No 6 year old even knows what porn is unless someone introduced it to them. They don't perform sexual acts on other unless they had an example. I understand from experience. I really hope she gets help to wrap her head around the trauma in her past so that it doesn't continue to haunt her life. 🙏🏼💗
Ya…. And what 5 year old isn’t being watched for so long they can see that let alone have an addiction. Sounds like she was failed by multiple people at a young age.
She can remember
Yeah, that's suss. Clear neglect here.
Hyper sexuality can stem from multiple things and I pray it wasn’t of abuse.I remember myself being addicted to porn by 9
@@yungyungmepay how were you left alone that long at 9? With internet too? Or did I just have a helicopter parent.
This poor girl, I feel so sorry for her she is beautiful and I hope she realizes one day that she DOES deserve happiness as much as anyone else in this world. We need an update Mark!
Poor girl??😂😂😂 she lies all the time. She is full of b/s. You do not feel sorry lets be real, you are attracted to her and she knows it and she will using it always
Hwy thats your opinion! I choose empathy here lol@SashaGutya
It was no surprise to me when she said toward the end that she is her happiest now having zero money and working on her art. She obviously has an artists soul. I hope she continues to immerse herself in creativity. That’s where she truly belongs.
@@CasperInkyMagoo don’t be dense, this comment did nothing to imply she should stay broke forever. It just said she’d be happier focusing on art. Calm tf down
@@CasperInkyMagoo the porn industry obviously didn't offer that
Yeah im sure shel be able to pay her bills with her artists soul
Smart girl …I hope and pray for you!
@@joshdeveaux6936
So judgemental why so nasty?
This woman’s voice is so alluring and captivating. She has a story to tell, and not just the one of her life. I think she has a future story, and I think it’s going to be an amazing and groundbreaking discovery for her. I wish her all the best. I’m praying for her!
Her story....
So I started sxck8ng dxck for money..
Yeah sucha cool story
Letting herself get fxcked by dogs
U buggin
Smh
Amen!
@@MADOUT_VPS fo reals yo 🙄
been a couple of days and i can’t stop thinking about the part w the dog. absolutely broke my heart that someone could do something like that to a kid. and that he assumedly got to live a regular life after that incident. wow. hoping that she is as at peace as she can be
Yes. So disturbing!!! I wish the person would be exposed. Imagine how many times he has done this to girls!!! Horrifying.
Believe me there's even worst shit going on in the word. Just be glad you don't know about em.
Yeah… I’m sure he didn’t give a second thought of what he did to her. She probably wasn’t the first he did that to. More than likely, he gives them an amount of money, make video of it, then sell to a porn company.
@@johnnyblaze5549
Makes you indeed wonder, all the worse unfounded stuff going on in the world.
Especially when the use of money is used as a tool advantage.
When she told that story, it felt like what you only see in a movie. smh
@@johnnyblaze5549 so messed up..hurts to know that stuff like that happens behind closed doors constantly and the world is none the wiser
the fact he barely asked questions makes it ever better cuz she explains so well
The beginning monologue was gorgeous. Brought me to tears. I’ve been falling back into a dark place again and her words were exactly what I needed to hear. I hope she finds the peace her soul so rightfully deserves.
I hear you. I've also been falling back into old habits. I haven't returned to drugs, but my mindset has been slowly slipping back to how I thought during those years. There's just something about Izzy that makes you listen and sympathize with her. People say the words she says, but when she says it, it has a different impact. Despite her current situation, she seems intelligent and has a good head on her shoulders. She's completely aware of everything going on around her and everything that has happened to her, and she has great insight to it all. I really hope Izzy can find peace one day, and I hope you do, too.
Keep your head up girl
I hear u
If you need a non-judgmental friend hmu on FB or Msgnr. I speak from experience. I'll have 5yrs.heroin free this November.
She speaks Like a poem or spoken word. It’s lovely :)
The fact tht she takes accountability for where she has ended up is the biggest thing for me and not blaming anyone else… i hope she makes it through…she actually has a beautiful, addicting soul.. I can hear her talk all day..I feel like she should be telling her stories through poems at the local poet spots…
Addicting might not be the best choice of words for her personality
@@HURT108 to me it is that’s your opinion.. I chose the right word
Stories about fxck8ng dogs in a cage on a meth bender. So poetic
It's not her taking accountability, it's her sharing with us the experience and from this video, it's obvious she blocked out that she was SA at a very young age possibly before even 5 years old. So definitely Not her fault with a mom whom was a sex worker then married her trick as she says. It's what her "Normal" was. Very sad.
@@Paradise-cq1gx but just cause you come from a Bck ground don’t mean you have to go this route.. she’s a grown woman.. and she did take accountability.. you don’t have to be a product of the streets just cause you seen your mom do it.. I get it tht was probably the reason cause Thts what she seen but don’t mean you have to blame others for your own grown up actions.. Thts not an excuse.. this is my opinion and Thts yours..all through this video she took accountability for her Fck ups bottom line… my mom was also a product of the streets (drug dealer) just cause I seen it don’t mean I have to do what she did, I wanted to be better so I did better then her..some people are not so strong and just get put in situations but don’t mean you have to stay there.. and a lot of people do blame their parents and other people for their actions and I’m acknowledging she knows her wrong doings in her life and is not fully blaming her mom and other people. It’s a mature thing.. so her growth shows
She has the rigorous honesty for her recovery. The hardest part can sometimes be finding out you are also addicted to the chaos. Hope she makes it.
U interview some of the most open, transparent, truthful n unique people in this crazy world we live in, thank u!
“Trying not to future trip too much.” She sounds like a spoken word poet. The cadence is soothing. Sending peace and light.
Loved When she said!
“Future Trip”
Such an old soul..
Lmfao yall tripping. Thats is actually stupid
@@thatdude3977 you know what else is stupid? Typing “ya’ll” and “that’s” without an apostrophe and then adding “is” after “that’s*”… Oh and then not adding a period after your sentence. Just saying.
@@AJ-wo7qh not as stupid as the girl getting fxcked by dogs for meth. 😄 ✌
@@thatdude3977 says the Cuck
I literally tell people medicine doesn't work for me I have depression and anxiety and I realized it wasn't my brain that needed help it was my situation, circumstance, and environment. I have never heard anybody else say this except her and I'm happy I'm not the only one that feels this way!
I too feel the same. Its nice to not feel alone.
💯
Yes its baffling that it's so plainly obvious that external factors can directly influence your mental state and health but it's often treated as though it's entirely an internal issue...
All those things ur feeling is just feelings and feelings can change without medication
Circumstantial depression is real but so are other forms and bipolar which often presents depressive... Medications, natural remedies, life style changes... They DO work. But you have to trial and error until you figure out which things help most
The thing with the dog broke me .. Girl you are absolutely a force of power , you are definitely in the right way to recovery , god bless you
yea that dog stuff was f'd up. i just wonder what her reaction will be to line of set backs and people try to tear her down for her past?
Dont worry, she made that up. She’s a massive liar lol
why would you say that@@pisswizard
@@easyboyeasy3918 because I have seen her dads instagram and he has been posting pictures of them hanging out since she was like 14.
@@easyboyeasy3918 because I saw her dads Instagram and she’s been hanging out with him since she was about 14 on it.
This is one of the most valuable videos I have ever seen on TH-cam. I needed to hear this.
I don't usually comment but I love her so much. She is absolutely killing recovery. The insight she has on herself is something to admire. She's truly inspiring. One day at a time. Izzy you've got this.
I feel the same way. I love her so much
Same here❤
Looks very high during the interview.
🤣🤣🤣SHES HIGH AS A KITE, AND YALL TRULY BELIEVE SHE GOT RAPED.. BY.. A.. DOG..? WHAT ARE YOU GUYS HIGH ON? SHES JUST WANTS ATTENTION AND HAS DUPED ALL OF YALL...BORDERLINE/NARSISTIC PERSONALITY IS A HELLA DRUG LMAOOOOO
She doesn't seem sober tbh
You can hear the pain in her voice.
I hope she pushes on. She has a strong soul.
Not really if you think about it
@@iancatt5915 I have.
I disagree.
@@fredricksmith-something.2125 eeh it's not hard to get a job, chose to be a sex worker. My mother raised 3 kids alone after dad died and never degraded herself in the process
@@iancatt5915 Lmao.
One thing has nothing to do with the other.
Your assumption is that she had a support system and, no other underlying issues.
Stop assuming that everyone has the same path.
I had an amazing upbringing. I also had an addiction problem that lasted just over 1 year. You know what started it?
A prescription for pain pills for a bladder infection.
It's easy to fall off. The country is witnessing it now across ALL socioeconomic lines.
People get sick and do sad things. It's not new. Just telling someone to GET UP AND WORK is not always the answer.
So your mother never had another partner after your father died?
What is the difference?
@@fredricksmith-something.2125 ya that's alot of excuses I had 2 nose surgeries I got addicted to pain killers too. As soon as I felt the need for them I said that's not good. If people sat and reflected on their decisions life gets easier. And no she never remarried or dated she didn't want to bring strangers around her kids. And if she can work as a sex worker she can work a regular job like most "normal" people.
Omg I love her! She is so sweet, so beautiful inside and out, very intelligent, and deserves only good things. I hope she is happy and is pursuing work in addiction. I just want to give her a huge hug! If you ever go back to CO, I'm here for you. I hope Mark does a follow up with her.
This is so sad, I hope she is still doing okay. Rooting for her.
This has been my most favorite video by far. Shes such a great story teller and her voice is so calming. Despite all the things shes been through she still can smile and say she wants to help girls out. Love her, please do a follow up video!!!
Mine too
Ur weird af, there’s been so much better videos than a tattoed hoe who fucked a dog and thinks sex workers make the most money
SHE IS A GOOD STORYTELLER. ANOTHER AWESOME INTERVIEW IS FRENCHIE. GREAT STORYTELLER AND HER LIFE COULD BE A MOVIE
Same i love her interview! Except when she talks about the dog r@ping her that was odd...idk how a dog would even do that to a human or do it right.. but idk about that story sounds a bit off and sorta like a lie...but everything else seemed legit
@rick flair a lot of former drug addicts have residual qualities from the drugs, it affects their personality’s. They talk and act a lot like they’re high when they’re not
The extent of human depravity Izzy has been subjected to and to still be as articulate engaging strong and resilient as she is is a testament to the human spirit . I cannot believe how she is still functioning …. Mark your channel remains a revelation and is a force for change in a persons mindset … how can this channel not change a person and their prejudices… it’s the only channel on TH-cam worth keeping and following
When you have no choice but to be strong or die most people are stronger then they think
The human spirit can be a beautiful thing. There are no limits.
I was just thinking about how much damage someone can do to another human and it's just heart breaking. Seeing her surviving is so uplifting
A lot of times people with trauma submerge themselves in music, books, movies, documentaries. Learning about anything and everything. Anything to escape the torment in the mind. One of my best friends who died of an OD was extremely into poetry and other literature. Anyway, so speaking well is pretty common from addicts. Most are very very passionate about all forms of art. I mean, look at her tattoos.
You mean the extent of ANIMAL depravity...... it's offensive and sick you people believe this hipster slept on a park bench for 1 night... GOT RAPED BY A DOG!?!.. THIS IS BORDER LINE PERSONALLY DISORDER/ NARSISTIC AT ITS BEST... PEOPLE BELIEVE ANYTHING NOW A DAYS... ARE YOU WATCHING THE SAME SOFT WHITE UNDERBELLY CHANNEL AS EVERYONE ELSE?!? YOU REALLY CANT SEE THE DIFFERENCE BETWEEN THE OTHER 99% OF PEOPLE INTERVIWED ON HERE WHO "REALLLLYY LIVED THE LIFE, BEEN THRU THE RINGER" PEOPLE GET TRICKED BECAUSE LIKE YOU SAID SHES A GOOD STORY TELLER... GREAT TO KNO PEOPLE TRULY BELIEVE THIS NONSENCE.. THIS IS WHAT COOL NOW A DAYS?!... SMH BET IF SHE TOLD YOU "HEY I CAN TURN YOUR $500 INTO $5000, UD DO IT SO FAST LMAOOO.. I GUESS ITS COOL NOW A DAYS TO MOCK PEOPLE WHO TRULY
HAVE HAD A TOUGH ROUGH MESSED UP LIFE...
By reveling the humiliating things done to her she has opened the way for other woman that are too embarrassed or ashamed to be honest with themselves or therapists. I believe Izzy put herself out there for exactly that reason. Bigger balls then any man I know. What a fuckin G. Mad respect
This is probably one of my favorite interviews, I am so rooting for you! You got this, babygirl!
I definitely think there is child sexual abuse in her early childhood. Her mother was a sex worker, and brought these men into her home. I know she said there wasn't any early sex abuse, but it's very likely that this is buried trauma. She gets physically uncomfortable denying it, and having been so hypersexual at such a young age is indicative of VERY early sex abuse. I hope she can get the therapy needed to unpack this deeper abuse. Most sex work and sex addictions are linked to extremely early sex abuse, and this includes the visual exposure her mother subjected her to of her own sexual behavior at a young age. I really hope she gets the support she needs to walk away from that lifestyle. It's dangerous and degrading. She is worth so much more than that. Keep moving up Izzy. Don't stop.❤️
Definitely. A 6 year old doesn't know about p0rn unless it's introduced. That, in itself, is sexual abuse.
Yeah you can definitely tell there was some abuse going on, especially around the guys her mom brought around her. She always says I don’t recall but she doesn’t say that as she is certain. I think that is something very traumatizing to her and she doesn’t like to bring it up
Yep. I was thinking the same thing. Definitely sounds like repressed memories
As a therapist who specializes in trauma I agree
Also have traits of someone with Borderline PD.
It’s unfortunate that she didn’t have the proper support and parental guidance. She’s beautiful I can see so much potential within her.
Yea future looks bright lol. Wake ip
🤣🤣🤣🤣 WTF ....... OK YODA
What, because she’s “beautiful” she’s got potential? Nah bro, she’s gone.
stop lying to yourself
Yes, I was going to say the same thing. she’s also so intuitive with herself and sexuality. I believe her.
I love Izzy's honesty in her struggle of life, she's so much more truthful than most sober goodie goodies I've ever known and possesses more values that the average person.
So' if you read this Izzy, thank you from a fellow addict. Your story helped me understand my story.
Izzy, I'm so happy for you and how well you're life is coming to life! I do all that you mentioned for treatment, but I haven't been this happy in the last six months because i got clean, so keep on going and don't give up! You are worth it and you are loved! Thank you so much for your story...
She should have her own channel or doing something with her voice. Her voice is so soothing. You can tell she has a beautiful soul. I hope she gets everything she deserves out of life.
Are you serious?? She went out had sex with a dog and then went home to her boyfriend, yyyeeeah beautiful soul 🥴
Agreed 100%
She should -I could listen to her stories for hours -def should get her own channel or podcast
Maybe some ASMR videos. I think she would really be good at that.
She’s a porn star named Genevieve sin. It’s her Diabla tattoo
"I felt safe on meth and you can do anything to me and I was good" that hit me hard. Izzy your story blew my mind. I'm proud of your sobriety ❤️
Mel Rose ur beautiful.. I know its none of my business but ur enchanting.. My name is Vusi
Yes. So sad. She wanted a parent so bad to help her, she is/was in such pain. It bothered me to hear her say the meth allowed her to tolerate the degrading acts that were done to her. She deserved so much better.
This women is so highly intelligent! Sending all the good healing vibes that her life only gets better from here. I really think she could be an amazing advocate and therapist possibly for people in her previous situations!!
And she said she just never went to school much...she is so well spoken and insightful. Love the way she talked.
As a dad to 2 daughters, this made cry. I just want to give her a hug and say everything will be fine.
don't do that she would fall in love with you. did you not hear what she said lol
💛
I hear your heart but she needs boundaries brother, seriously.
Only when youre a dad of 2 daughters, if you werent then you wouldnt give a ish.
@@ARS-fn6px
What a very odd comment.
Anyway l hope life is treating you well.
Her mom treating her so poorly is completely heartbreaking to me, a mother of all girls. Girls need their mommies on deep, genuine levels. No matter what.
Yes, girls need their mom's, but society does not think boys need their fathers. 80% of men in jail grow up without a Dad in the home. Let's just sweep it back under the rug.
We wish. I thank you for being a good mother.
My mother totally neglected me and my siblings. I never felt loved or wanted. She never took care of us in any way. She never washed our clothes or bedding, we had to get ourselves up for school and ready. We were all truant at one time or another. Both my parents had to go to court for us not going to school. Even the day they went to court we didn't go to school. I remember that day as clear as can be, it was in the winter, freezing and snowing and us kids waited in the car for like 2 hours with no heat! I can remember being about 7 years old and my little brother 5, the principal had us both in the office interrogating us as to why my big sister hadn't been to school in weeks. I can remember walking to school in the middle of winter with a dress on, bare legs with just knee socks and buckle shoes and it was absolutely freezing out with like 2 ft of snow. I froze so badly that I broke out in hives all over my body. Another time walking to school in the winter with a huge hole in my dress and the kids all laughing at me. I broke down and my teacher just held me while I sobbed and I can remember how good it felt to be held and cared for, if just for that short period of time. I am now in my 5th decade on earth and I still carry this pain and anger with me. My siblings and I all lost our teeth because we were never taught to take care of them, brush them, never taken to a dentist, only when one would become abscessed and need to be pulled out. We were out on the streets from morning til night in the summers and ate and drank whatever we wanted, mostly just pop and candy. O.K....another time I was about 8 yrs old and we were making these 'May baskets" at school which we constructed that day, flowers in a basket made from colored paper. The teacher told us to set it by our door and knock and hide when we got home. I was so excited and couldn't wait to do this for my mom. Well I set it by the door, knocked and hid close by. She opened the door and was angry, then she sees it, she said in a raised and angry voice "What the HELL is this?? That literally broke my heart! She had no love for me whatsoever. She only become tolerable towards us when we got older, in our teens. Later on in my early 20's I moved out of state with a boyfriend, I convinced my older sister to come about a year later. We always partied with beer in our teens and 20's. I don't when it happened or how it happened but my sister became addicted to pain medication. I remember she kept having all kinds of medical issues and as I look back I think a lot of the issues were just to keep getting the medication. One thing I didn't mention, my parents never worked much or held jobs for long so we pretty much were always on welfare and food stamps. Moving out of state I felt a reprieve of sorts to be far away from my past, I wanted nothing to do with it and rarely ever spoke to anyone about it. All I knew was that I was never going to be like my parents, I would work hard and hold a job no matter what and I did just that. My sister got married and had a baby and she was still addicted to drugs. I know that she felt the same way I did about our childhood and our past so I was flabbergasted when she begged our parents to move to where we were!! I look back on it and I know it was because she didn't want the responsibility of her kids all the time. She wanted my parents to move where we were and to live with her family so my mother could babysit while she was at work. I don't know how my sister's husband didn't have a problem with it! Anyway, my mom always acted like our bad childhoods never happened and would even mention on occasion that she was a good mother!!! My sister ended up having my mother lived with her family for like 20 years!!! Oh and she would talk about my mother behind her back all the time and how she would get on her nerves, etc...Crap, you're the one who wanted her here! That's what happens when you're wasted and feeling good, you make bad decisions that you regret later! Fast forward 30 something years and both of my parents are gone now but sister is still heavily medicated. She had a 6 hour back surgery 20 yrs ago and I don't have a clue WHY! She never injured her back, she said she had scoliosis but she was never diagnosed with that when she was checked at school, I was! Sorry I have written a short story here, didn't mean for it to be this long. I will never understand why people have children that cannot and will not take responsibility financially to care for them, let along nurture, care for, and love! I did my best with my 2 kids, I always worked and provided for them and most importantly made damn sure they were shown love and they were cared for in every way. Love for your children comes naturally, wanting to provide them with the best life comes naturally, so I will never understand my mother. I'm still carrying all this with me.
@@ladybug4408 I don’t want to offend you but want to share my beliefs. The only way to find healing is through Jesus Christ. He is the redeemer and Prince of Peace. I hope you can find the strength to forgive those who neglected and hurt you, as not forgiving will bear bitterness in your heart. Through Christ you can be renewed and restored. It’s never too late. I hope for peace in your life and comfort, and more importantly unconditional love. You are worthy of good things. I’m so sorry you were hurt so badly, and I hope the last half of your life is full of joy, good memories, and wholesome relationships with yourself and others. Thank you for sharing a piece of your story.
Guess what it’s heartbreaking to me too and I don’t even have a kid of my own. Mothers don’t have the monopoly empathy. #pronatalist bs
Izzy, you have walked the Crooked Path and come through the Storm to a place of transcendent self-awareness and you’ve done it without succumbing to self-pity and bitterness. To my mind, that’s heroic. I applaud you.
Wow, one of the BEST interviews I've seen on this channel in a long time. I hope this girl doesn't ever go back to any of the bad stuff from her past. She is a beautiful and amazing human being with very high intelligence.
There's no teacher like trauma. If it doesn't kill ya first.
Id love to have her around. As my friend. I have a good life and my mom wasnrat up by my dad. Id just like to help her if I could, mark. Obviously younger than me. Maybe you would be willing to invest in my troubled teen business? Former marine here and have some extra cash and could use your help
Maddest stuff i ever seen.
There's money in her beastiality shit i have a pit who would tap that
@#PrisonForJohnnyDepp guess DRUGS.
The whole internet is cheering you on Izzy. You are a special soul. Also, side note, PLEASE read audiobooks! I could listen to your voice for hours and hours
I thought the same thing her voice is perfect for audio books
Yessss! Her voice is so tranquil ❤
@prisonforjohnnydepp5298it’s theater, all scripted, bread and circuses for the masses.
I noticed how soft her voice is too
@prisonforjohnnydepp5298 ....do you have the parts where she was to blame for losing his finger or shitting on his bed. Jail for Ambe r Turd. BTW you lost
Hi Mark,
The people that you offer speakingtime really open up their hearts, that is so impressive. Their stories make me soft, it touches the inner me.
Somehow you have the skills to get them to be able to do that. You provide a peaceful place i suppose. Full of... Comfort, trust, being honoust... Along those lines, it seems.
Bravo.
This was such a good interview. She was very well spoken and transparent. Did not even feel like a 30 minute interview. I hope the best for her.
What a stunning, intelligent, deep, articulate, fascinating, strong, stylish, captivating woman. And what a crazy story. So much trauma. I’d love to hear more of Izzy’s extraordinary story. She’s a very special human being. Wishing her every good thing possible.
Turn her story into a movie for sure
Keep it in your pants lil guy
Stunning 🤦🏼♂️
Captivating? 🤦
Stylish 🤦🏼♂️
The dog story straight traumatizing AF. I pray she recovers and finds a way out.
I almost scrolled away, that was horrific! But she had to live through it, we only had to listen. Holding space for her. She's a warrior goddess!
I wouldn't have put that story out in the public
He did that to her. Not like she asked for it. Plus, she was out of her mind due to the meth.
If you can't listen to it, maybe this is not the channel for you.
@@pattygravs6354 what is wrong with you. She was abused. A 16 year old kid. Abused by an adult. She needs to put this out there to expose the disgusting shit out there and deter other young girls. To shame her is absolutely wrong. Shame on You
The Guy who did that to her was a member of the illuminati!!!
Love this Girl hope things turn around for you! You have been through so much trauma and tragedy. And you deserve the world.
Izzy, the way you talk makes me think you can write prose and poetry. You come through as someone who has a ton of creativity, previously misdirected… good luck! Looking forward to hearing about your success!
At first I saw the markings on her body and face … 5 minutes in her life story I no longer saw it … this young lady is stunning and intelligent. Rooting that she gets to use her experience, knowledge helping others. Great interview session . Stay strong Izzy !!
If that's what you call stunning and intelligent you are stupid
she's tragic and poetic. everything about her. but amazing that she managed to crawl out of that deep dark hole.
She’s like the female version of the Joker, says everything with a smile. So sad 😭
Psycosis changes everything
@@lisa-hq1np All it takes is one bad day...
.... when she said the dog raped her repeatedly, everything else came into question people obviously CANT tell the difference between a good story teller and the real people on SWUB who you can CLEARLY see who Are/have suffered way more then this teenage hipster🤣🤣🤣 man the world will believe the person a good "story teller" and not the person who looks/acts like they've been in a WAR.. if u can't tell oh well.. it's just offensive as he'll to the real ones out there... smh
She is poetry
U see Her cover photo & she looks hard and tough but then when u hear her talk and her behavior She's so very soft & soft spoken it's very heartbreaking she deserve so much support and love 💯🤍
My life has been nothing like hers, but I felt every word to my core.
The self reflection and the honesty she shows makes a person incredibly vulnerable. At the same time, wildly powerful.
My soul lit up like a Christmas tree listening to her.
I love how soft-spoken she is. She seems like such a gentle soul despite the horrific circumstances of her childhood. We’re all rooting for you, Izzy! ❤️❤️❤️
.... yeah we're all rooting for her to stop making up these dillusions and fabricated lies and just go back to her house... people now a days get fooled by a good speaker and forget about the real ones who truly live In hell.... THIS IS BPD/NARSISTIC, ATTENTION SEEKING AT ITS BEST.. the real ones out there know whats up.. "I got raped by a dog.... best lie I've ever heard the rest was history... smh
@@kwp973 Exactly..
@@willieyoung4818 SHE REALLY ADMITTED TO SEXUALLY ASSULTING A DOG 🐕 😭 ... THE REAL VICTIM IS THE DOG.. MARK IS MAD HE JUST GOT TROLLED BY IZZY LMAOOOO
Seems like it...... But idk..It has been said that a wise man will not believe words that he only hears,, and only half of what he actually sees. This principle is invaluable for one to adhere to. js
@@kwp973 agree… kinda scary how easily so many people are seemingly fooled by these psychopaths/sociopaths/narcissists….
Izzy has a really profound understanding of herself. Well done Izzy.
Yes! I love her deep understanding about working in the sex industry. There’s not something automatically wrong with anyone who willingly does work in it. Also, no one should ever HAVE to work in it, because they can’t support themselves another way, or be forced or pressured. Sex differentiates it from other jobs, in that consent is important…every time. If you don’t genuinely want to participate, expect for pressing financial concerns, it’s not consent. If you do, it is. A woman who called an agency I worked with ran into that problem with a Nevada human services worker saying she didn’t qualify because she didn’t accept brothel work. I have heard that has been ironed out. But it’s not “sex negative” to want to help girls who don’t feel happy or safe in the life. That’s beautiful.
She aloud a dog rape her and she has an understanding of herself? If you believe that your just as lost as her smh
She has obviously spoken about her life extensively. I'm thinking lots of therapy. She's amazingly strong and deserves immense respect. She is such a beautifully delicate person with a gentle innocence and you can still hear and see her love for people and her voice and in her eyes.
She is a psyco... bout 10% of her talking is real.. 90% bullshit
Deep soul
I’m only one minute in and this is already one of my FAVORITE interviews you’ve done. This may actually be my favorite by the time I’m done with it. The amount of self awareness she has is insane! You can tell she is such a deep and introspective thinker. She is very articulate and well spoken, as well. Her voice is calming and I agree with one of the other comments, she should definitely read audiobooks. Or someone who talks people through mindful meditation.
The part about the “pet play” is insane especially with the dog violating her. We have free will to do what we want and it blows my mind some of the things that people do.
I had to play back that part several times because I could not believe what I was hearing. It’s terrible to see how abusive, callous and inhumane people can be to other humans.
Is that even possible? Not that I don’t believe her but….
I have to be a very fucked up individual because of all the shit I hear about that disturbed me the most.
@@kassi3538I thought the same thing
@@kassi3538 Yeah, exactly.
I Uber’ed her once. She’s polite, & not weird. It was a “pool”. She almost got out at the wrong stop. Glad to hear she’s doing better.
Wdym by "pool"?
@@callikrueger9641 more than just her in the car (carpool)
@@callikrueger9641it's a shared ride with other passagers to save extra money
you paid for it - Yikes!
She’s a beautiful soul. She has a beautiful heart. So happy she’s in a much better place in her life. Proud
Izzy, my love you are such an amazing woman! Recovery is not for the faint of heart. I’ve been in recovery for 15 years. You will do big things my girl. You will help so many women and girls if you choose to continue on this path. If no one has told you lately, I AM SO FUCKING PROUD of you!!! Addiction is the opposite of connection. Once you find your path of recovery all those connections you crave are possible 🖤 Keep on being a beautiful bright light, Izzy!
Spoken wisdom. Amen
She can connect with her dog. 🐕
Gullible.
People are so quick to judge go look in the mirror and work on yourself before u point criticize n judge other ppl whom u don’t know beyond the video n things she chose to share with the world. Recovery is possible for anyone who really wants it I have been on the top n rock bottom I’ve come full circle I would NEVER EVER judge another human after having been on both ends of the spectrum myself. 3 years clean from multiple addictions and I’m now the best me possible I’m a daily work in progress I know I will have too work hard rest of my life to remain sober but that’s a cake walk compared to living the life of addiction which leads nowhere but a box or jail or the hospital.
@Aitutakikuuipo nobody cares
I closed my eyes completely and I just listened to her voice! and it put me completely at ease. absolutely beautiful and magical. I can't explain it.
Kudos to her! I can’t think of a more difficult thing to do than staying clean from such a serious drug addiction..and still has such a beautiful soul. I hope she stays on the path..and god bless her!❤
She is fascinating,like a piece of art. Her voice, her manners, you listen to her and you feel the soft feeling in her voice. I think she is in the path of spiritual awakening. It is never too late.
Psychopaths, narcissists and sociopaths are often very charming and persuading……
@@apeyb5606 Yeah,i imagine that's the reason most of the people are shallow, cruel, not empathetic to others ...they are thougt that charming and emphaty in others is a sign of narcissist behaviours and that's bad. . But, when it is going to be "safe " the behavior of others,i wonder. Prejudice and missconcption is exactly what is keeping us apart from becoming more humans.
I can't believe what you are saying. This person is demonized. A great manipulator and socially dangerous person :( May God help her
@@cccc-dw1tf And you sound like a prejudice person. May God help you.
@@apeyb5606 exactly the vibe she gave off.
"Most important lesson you've learned" forgiveness. Unbelievable, Mark. I love this channel. Thx for the content. They should give you a Nobel prize or at least an Emmy.
nah
Nah it's a business move for him
100% he deserves an award for showcases the beautiful side to our broken world
@@okgotit4103 even if it is(doubt it), he’s still taking care of, listening to, and helping these people through their low points. Bro deserves all the respect
Kidding, right? 😂
This is the most heartbreaking one I've heard 😭😭 Such a sweet soul, so full of love and had to grow up in such a horrendous way. I wish for the absolute best for your future!!!! ❤
I find this woman fascinating. I’m drawn to her! I can identify with her in many ways. Her ability to fall in love with everyone she meets, wanting that unconditional love and looking for it in all the wrong places; being let down or letting those people down. Running. Always running from something, not sure why but just wanting to disappear and out there you can be WHOEVER you want to be, recreate yourself over and over again. You can see she’s learned a lot even with the running and inconsistencies in her life. She seems brilliantly vocal, raw and real. I have THE UPMOST FAITH in human beings like her and I know she’s capable of fulfilling a purpose in this world. That brain hasn’t been put to the use it could be and I guarantee she’s got skills and talent that haven’t been explored yet and I hope she gets to experiment and physically see the potential she has, but you can see her potential. I give people like her credit bc she’s choosing better for herself even after all the time of being alone, or aloof. Even if she chose to be on her own, that shows her character, her resilience and independence..even if she’s relied on people along the way to get by it takes extreme drive to survive the way she has and I PRAY this woman finds serenity somewhere someday. She has so much to offer other young struggling kids and or addicts. I had to be forced to get clean. I needed lawyers, judges, district attorneys, and friends and family alike to cut me off, throw away the keys type of shit in order for me to get sober and I look back 19 years now and wonder if I’d be alive had I not been saved by the court/law system. Idk. I wish her luck; she’s embarking on one of the most magical journeys she’ll ever be on, GETTING CLEAN and the joy being clean has brought me is something I never dreamt about even in my good days high, they’ll never light a match next to my bad days sober.
She is so soft spoken yet has such a loud and commanding presence…please please please have Izzy on again…Iots of love to you Izzy, you got this!
Her dad should have stepped up and raised her. She has been used and abused by so many people and her mother failed her. She's so charming and so full of potential if she reaches sobriety and healing. She's very likeable. Wishing her all the best
Her dad may not have been any better 🤷🏾♀️
I mean it can't be worse than how she feels now.
I wish she was still a worker. I’d hit her up every other day. She fine as hell and is definitely down for anything
He was a coward though unfortunately she didn't have anyone 😔
the tatts on her face are her downfall, you cant take people like that seriously....come on we need to wake up as a society
Izzy, I wish you all the best now and always. Thanks for bravely and thoughtfully sharing your story.
We couldn't be any more different if we tried, but we have the desire to continue our clean & sober journey. I hope you are still kicking ass and taking names One Day At A Time. You know why I feel like you are going to be ok? You speak unselfishly about the desire to help others! You are a power of example Izzy. Keep on keepin' on.
She's a great story teller, very articulate, able to hold onto her story despite all the details in between and the emotion that would go with it. She has a drive to succeed and she's accomplishing that. A very inspiring, strong, brave woman. I hope she sees all the love in these comments some day. Mark, please do another interview to see how Izzy progresses
I just want to give her the biggest hug ever. She seems like such a genuine person that was thrown in a terrible situation. I’m definitely sending vibes out for that girl
Right
Her story breaks my heart. I’m a mother and couldn’t imagine treating my child like that. I’m so proud of this young lady for making changes. God bless you!
Izzy, I am so proud of you for making it out and seeking peace of mind! So much love from Switzerland
Very smart & aware of herself. She's spent a lot of time in her own head I see... I hope she's able to figure it all out & reach a point of peace.
I was thinking the same thing about being in her own head. Kind of wondering if some of this is her own imagination. Something is off about her.
Smart??? Whith this face?
She dumb as fuck doing that to herself
@@vasarelly37 what’s wrong with u
I would give her some advice, stop passing out at kindergartens, and kids won't use markers to draw on your face
Amazing story . I have been in recovery for 16 years and I know you can do it. You go girl!
Yassss! 16 years is incredible. Congratulations. 🥳👌🏻❤️
I’m 7 years, I still have to pinch myself.
I’m looking forward to hearing Izzy’s story.
12 yrs here, congrats to our clean time. It can be done.
Almost 9 years here & the gifts of sobriety never stop coming…..ex-sex worker too & I’m happy to say there’s a life (a great one!) after that as well. Keep up all the hard work Izzy……it pays off, I promise you!
32 years here. Congrats to all of us!
You guys are incredible, always remember that you have done something that the vast majority of people would never be able to do, that is some superhero level personal inner strength! You have no idea how much I admire people like yourselves, you represent real inspiration to me.
My heart breaks for this woman what a strong badass warrior 😢❤ I just imagine a little child who must have felt so unloved. I’m glad she’s in treatment!
How can we expect someone who has gone through these kinds of odds in her early years to even turn into an adult who is even just sane ? I was shocked a horrified by all she said and yet….she did it ! She got clean ! My God, you are an inspiration, Izzy. I wish you well in life ♥️❤️💋🎁🩷💕♥️
Did she really get "clean" though? She looks high here and is still doing the escort/porn thing.
She is incredible and her understanding of her experience is astounding. Rooting for you Izzy
It's crazy when your initial opinion of somebody begins to change once you take time to genuinely listen to them and begin to see the potential that shines through
Stay strong Izzy! You are an incredible woman ❤ you are a survivor & I believe you have the gift to help other who are going through similar situations. Stay strong!
Such a sweet, lovable person you are, Izzy. You can help others in big ways that very few can.
Thank you Izzy for sharing your story and making yourself so vulnerable. You have gone through a lot and I'm sorry that you got abused the way you did. I feel like you are a exceptional creativ, authentic and strong person and you should be freaking proud of yourself where you are in life right now. It takes courage to start to heal ä, to be able to forgive the way you do, to accept and to want to get better. I wish you all the love (especially selflove) and peace in the world. Also your style rocks ♥️
You're welcome, lady. I'm doing big things!
devil's brood
I love how open and honest she was in this interview. She kept me glued to her story from beginning to end. I really hope that she stays on the right track. She defiantly had a rough past but you can see that fighting so darn hard to be better. You got this Izzy! 💕 Please have a follow-up with her soon.
Very captivating by her soft-spoken voice; I'm glad she is at peace w/herself_ ... Self harm is no joke and trying every way to get out of her own skin & still being on this earth is very short lived; shes grown to realize that time is the essence she needed to help fully understand_ & recognize all the knowledge she possesses. .. Very special lady... You rock Izzy. & There is love for you...
She is special. Unbelievably intelligent, insightful, and just mesmerizing. I pray she will do things as great as I know she can. This is powerful, and I am pulling for her. Would love to see a follow-up.
You really think it was intelligent to put these tattoos all over her body? That looks really stupid to me.
none of her choices seem intelligent @@gibbogle
Imagine if her dad would've tried to get custody of her, wonder if her life would've turned out different. she seems like a sweet person just with bad circumstances.
Her fate was set in stone the second her mother decided to give birth to her. Women need to stop procreating with men they barely know, especially men that they meet in the strip club.
@@antpage4106 I'd still hit it
there dads arent worried about there children ? they dont care if someone is molesting there child !! there worried usuaslly about themselfs only !!
@@bksalkrook9348 is English your second language?
@@bksalkrook9348 Kiss my ass, I'm the one who busts my ass so my daughter can have a good life regardless of only having one parent, ME. I'm the one who stepped up for her. Just because you've had a bad experience doesn't mean all dads are shit.
i watched this episode in one go. there is something about this young woman that is captivating . i mean going through so much shit and then staying so positive, i am amazed and feel love for her . It is hard to become a balanced human being when you have not experienced a stable childhood. I see her working on that and i feel inspired by her , so thank you Izzy !
I feel the same. I deeply love her, her heart is still so pure. She's so candid, so eloquent. May she be blessed, always 💜
Same! She’s a star for sure
Mark got trolled for an hour by a girl who raped and sexually assulted a innocent DOG 🐕 AND YOUR INSPIRED!!! AHAHAHAHA WHEN IS IT COOL TO GET ON SOFT WHITE UNDERBELLY AND SEEK ATTENTION WHEN THERES REAL PEOPLE ON HERE REALLY LIVING THRU HELL.... OHHH MANN WHAT IS GOING ON HEREEE! LMAOOOOO 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
I can’t believe we’re the same age. All the power and love to Izzy, she’s already on her way to healing.
Do we have an update from/about IZZY? She's so articulate and self aware. . . 😢 I pray she makes it out ❤
Izzy is incredibly captivating in this interview, she’s so well spoken and has the kindest voice. I hope she is well and would love to hear an update 🤍
She is beautiful inside and out. She has the soft soul of a spoken poet and deserves to have the chance to let that shine. She radiates love that is just yearning to push through all that grief.
I absolutely love this interview. If she started a channel or podcast I would definitely support them. I pray she keeps her found happiness and fulfills all her dreams
I feel you on this and i hope she sees this cOmment 💯🙏🏽
I'm so sad, and touched by her story, I hope she gets better, she deserves it ! Life can be so hard... Hope there will be a follow up !
I love her mindset and her angelic voice. She has such a wonderful, softed voice. Every time I heard her voice, I felt like it had such a wonderful potential to soothe your souls. I hope she gets clean and lives the wonderful life that she is dreaming of.
Amazing. Izzy is the poster child of someone who needs to be at the forefront helping others in similar situations (e.g., her comment on wanting to help girls in these positions: she needs support and backing!). It's a rare gift to be able to articulate these issues with such clarity and from such depth and credibility.
That’s what she’s doing now. She’s incredible. She’s doing extremely well.
This also struck me… with all that abuse and not going to school… how in the world is she able to articulate sensitive matter grown adults with years in recovery and age wise could? Amazing Soul, thank you for sharing intimate parts of your pain and past that not many would… or could. Thank you!🙌🏽🕊️🤍🕊️
Her light shines bright in spite of horrific events. Amazing
She’s beautiful and has a lot of hard work ahead of her. She has the potential to grow up and really find herself. It will require the right kind of guidance and years. I have hope for her.
Seems like she has repressed memories; such highly sexualized behavior and not much recollection; too painful to think of. Some memories are hidden even if one tries to recall and cannot. Bless her!
Her mother used to beat her, was a prostitute and didn't love her. What more do you need.
I'm kinda glad some memories are hidden
It could just be wanted to feel wanted or good