Heroin and Crystal Meth Addict-Sara
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 13 ต.ค. 2022
- Soft White Underbelly interview and portrait of Sara, a heroin and crystal meth addict in Los Angeles.
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I am a recovering alcoholic. I am from a two parent very financially stable household. This girl and all her delusions of grandeur and embellishment remind me so much of myself before getting sober. I always wanted to seem like I was better than all of the other addicts around me because I was college educated and from a good family. End of day you are an addict on skid row. No one is better than the other.
How did you stop?
Hey Yolanda! I did rehab about ten times. It was a process. I finally just did it on my own. I don’t know what snapped for me and got me sorted. Probably my husband was on the verge of leaving and taking my son with him. He was so understanding for so long and then he just couldn’t take it anymore. I guess I just thought they were worth the effort. Plus I had so many health issues from it. I knew if I didn’t stop my time here was definitely short. I had seizures when I stopped. I did it without detox. I was sick, shaking, vomiting uncontrollably for about two weeks. I knew it was dangerous to do it that way, but I knew I was in a situation where this last time I had to do it on my own. It was hard. Still is some days but as the years go by it gets easier and easier.
@@lauraweldon2391 ❤so happy for you .
@@lauraweldon2391 yessssssss.. Good for you!! You give me hope.
Congratulations. I to suffer from alcohol and pills and have been clean since October 1, 2015 just made seven years I do come from an alcohol family and they are still in denial. I’m the only one who got help it’s one day at a time and your higher power, and a good program under your belt.
The most shocking part of this video for me was when she said she was smashing her mom's head on the tiles and her dad called the police, her comment was that he was always so controlling... What he should have done, let you kill her? That moment hit me real hard
👍🏼 My sibling did almost the exact same thing and expected the exact same reaction. Now diagnosed NPD.
@@j4513 npd?
I wondered if anyone else felt that way. My own daughter is an alcoholic who has physically attacked me on more than one occasion. In her mind, anything I do to protect myself is an outrage. It’s the sickest mindset ever.
Keep in mind, this is on liquor...shes simply a piece of garbage. Still talks to her abuser who has stabbed her and beat her senseless. Smh trash deserves trash.
THIS! Holy fuck. “My dad is a control freak because he called the police when I was trying to kill my mom.”
It’s like listening to a young teenager and looking at a middle aged woman.
I'd love to hear the same story from her parents, her first ex husband and Pete. I have a funny feeling that they would be worlds apart from her story.
you can tell shes leaving out so much of the things she did wrong
This story is hard to follow, it's all over the place, I wonder y??
Yeah, she's full of shit. 6:17 She's 20 years old, moves back in with her parents and she has not missed a day of work in 10 years. So, by that logic, she started working at 10 years old...
Agreed. Something doesn’t sound right here
Haha two sides to every story.
Nothing ends well that starts "we met in rehab"...no, no, no
she reminds me of me... high functioning addict... i used to hang out with people like her when i was homeless in Venice... nobody knew we were homeless addicts, but we're hurting so bad, but can maintain a facade of "normalcy." sending her much love and healing energy... ❤️+ peace.
@@theusefulidiot4202 easy, you're productive and have a job but you don't have a home..
@@theusefulidiot4202 I understood: He by himself wasn't functioning that much like her - even though he appeared that way to people like her and others.
@@theusefulidiot4202 I think they meant being able to maintain a "facade" of normalcy in public even tho they're completely addicted, it's not impossible, I've worked with addicts before and seen some who are able to fool you very well actually, you would never think they're on any substance unless you just "knew". 🤔💯💯
i.e. - a low functioning, high as a kite, addict
@@giftoflife365
Says mikey, the trollish douche-canoe.
"I was never an alcoholic, but I would binge drink and get blackout drunk 3 or 4 times a week." Uh, that's an alcoholic, pal lol
That made me laugh out loud when she said it... The delusion is insane
No, actually, binge drinking is not the same as being an alcoholic. Alcoholics need alch to function. Bingers are just highly irresponsible & dangerous when they choose to drink.
@@aroseinwinter05 Alcohol use disorder then.* Fucking know it all. 🙄
But when its a reocurring habit like 3-4 times a week, and not an infrequent occasional binge, you most certainly can make the argument that shes an alcoholic. ,@aroseinwinter05
This is one long winded story.
She's a person who thrives on chaos. Like a mini tornado causing destruction everywhere she lands. She seems happy about her life choices
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What you're not understanding is that the life of addiction/alcoholism IS CHAOS ITSELF! It wasn't until I got sober did the chaos in my life got lesser. Sure, she could afford to get help (according to her she has a regular source of income, which most addicts/alcoholics do not have to get the help they so desperately need so they continue to live in the chaos that is addiction/alcoholism.) but all the treatment centers in the world aren't gonna help you if you don't want to get sober which clearly she is content/comfortable in her chaos/addiction so I guess it is what it is.
@@hwoods-kg1jf she would be exactly the same with or without addiction.
@@hwoods-kg1jf I once was there to.
@@hwoods-kg1jf
she has enough money to feed her addictions , and she has nothing to hold her back such as a husband threaten to leave her, no incomes , or a children she might desperately want custody for . 😂 and she gets a stable royalty payment each month, she looks content with her current life and I think the only damage drugs are doing to her is might shorten her life significantly. But if she lives in the moment , then it’s not a problem 😅 🎉
It sounds like her dad was trying to help her. It's sad she can't see that. Her parents probably wake up everyday worried about her and are heartbroken to see where her life has led her to. I hope she gets the help she needs.
Yes i judged her too harshly in the beginning but only because i am a recovering addict and i saw so muccn of myself in her. Glad i don't have to live that way anymore
“And I was like ‘wow! This guy means business’”. Yeah Sara, he’s a judge.
That's right 🙄
Not all judges are super strict… many will work with people and be more lenient. Just depends.
She doesent seem very smart to begin with.. Entitled yeah,bright,not so much
Lol
How can she say she was never an alcoholic and then proceed to say she would get blackout drunk 3-4 days per week, and then spend days wasted after moving back in with her parents? Her life will not improve until she can be honest with herself.
I've met a few similar drinkers and because theynarent showing the PHYSICAL signs of alcoholism (dts/shaking for the most part) they don't count this as being an alcoholic. I imagine she'd describe herself as a binge drinker??😊
Ah! Lol...just got to the binge drinking bit!!😊
Right... Caught that myself.
Probably because she doesn't like when her mother drinks and according to her also has issues with moderation.
I used to be that way. Did it for years. Never missed a day of work and then just all the sudden decided I didn’t want to do it anymore and quit. Zero ill affects or withdrawl after years of GALLONS of liquor every week. I never know if I’m technically an alcoholic or not.
30 agents stormed into her home, she had 30 unanswered calls on her phone, $30,000 in damage to her home??? Hopefully by 2030 she'll be clean.
lol you’re paying attention hard af
😂😂😂
I know and work with several people like her , she's got a high tolerance and can function in the basic day to day stuff .. anything stressful comes along and then you see the addiction and the addict .
You all know people like this , look closer
Ya, I mean, I wouldn't want to kick it w her. But she's fun
Good point
no, dont look closer, you look closer.
I'm 100% positive I don't know a single person like that.
what is the reason for it, that many addicts (or most, I don't know) can't cope so well with stressful events, in your opinion?
To me, Sara is in complete denial about her current situation and seems almost 'proud' of her drug addiction. Totally agree with other comments stating that Sara would be in a completely different situation if she didn't still have some money coming in. I have watched loads of these videos lately (Amazing work Mark!) as I have recently become very intrigued about mental health/childhood trauma/neurodivergence and the links between these and the different paths this can lead people down. Most of the stories I hear on this channel are absolutely tragic and often bring me to tears. I can totally understand how/why most of the people Mark interviews have wound up in the situations they are in. I am always amazed by how self reflective and humble most people are, and how they try to take ownership over the decisions they have made, despite having all the cards stacked against them from day 1. However, Sara here, seems to want to blame everyone but herself. She had every opportunity in front of her and she threw it all away, yet somehow still acts like an entitled brat and like she is amazingly successful and above everyone around her. I am trying to empathize with her, thinking that perhaps the enormous amount of pressure she both put on herself and felt from her father to be successful, tipped her over the edge. However, I won't lie, it's hard for me to feel bad for this woman. I don't think she will recover until she is willing to accept what she has become.
I don't think your comment is accurate. She specifically stated that her drug use is by her own choice. She does not blame the guy who introduced them to her. She said that her childhood and upbringing were picture perfect, and she had good parents while growing up. Not once did she blame anyone for her use of drugs. I don't know where you get that from? She didn't start using until later in life because he main issue and the reason she went to rehab was because of alcohol. She has money or some sort of income that still comes through for her to live off of, so she is not the typical skid row addict. I don't think she is proud, but for interview purposes was just trying to tell her story truthfully. I also think with other stories you mention being in tears. This leads me to believe that the other stories allow YOU something to be sad for or justify their actions for you. In this interview I don't think she is wanting your pitty. She just gave her perspective about her addiction.So it seems you want something to make yourself feel better about her drug use. I just truly don't understand why you say she is "blaming" anyone. She repeats a couple times, she chose this. She is not super happy but she said she also is not miserable. This is one of those interviews you are just left to say, ok. Many people come to this channel to get some emotional "fix!" That can turn into addiction as well! Sometimes people just want to talk and others to listen. Not to fix anything, justify, make excuses or explain away. Simply to just listen. Just my opinion anyway.
She has a rich daddy
She may have her own “money” but he invested her “money”.
I agree, whilst trying to maintain a positive outlook she is in denial about how bad her situation is. Is a drug addict who at the moment is young enough to manage, but what happened when ill health strikes, or she has a accident, or if the money she uses to buy dries up? what then, crime?
Great response thanks @@marisela7825
Shes a perfect example of what a spoiled child grows up to look like. 41, but the maturity level of a 13 year old. Please don’t hurt your family anymore.
How is she spoiled when it sounds like her parents were emotionally unintelligent, quality communication makes the difference not quantity $. Spoil your children with healthy communication and a respectful connection.
@@Hydrojn I agree so much with what you said. Material things do not make up for someone’s unmet emotional needs, especially when they are children. It’s infinitely more important to have loving parents than it is to have rich ones.
@@NaNa-re3wc u got it,, but not cool her druggy lifestyle enriches the cartels and violence
I concur, my bullimic anorexic, alcoholic ex wife is same.
I appreciate her story and I wish her the best, a lot of people are judging her because she didn't grow up poor and abused. I grew up as an upper middle class over achiever. I also had some overbearing forces in my life, and ended up with an abuser for a bit bc I was too naive and spoiled to see the signs. Continuing to work kept me on track. It's sad bc she could go back to a pampered life but she would feel like she is in prison. We shouldn't be so judgmental.
"My mom acts super goofy when she's drunk like ugh it's so annoying." While she herself becomes literally homicidal while drunk.
She's a narcissist.
Sounds like her dad is too
Mark,shes 1 of 1000 addicts youve intervied that still has a smile and figure,but shes using charm and cheerleading cheer skills to mask her misery.She has the ability to recovery and create a life but daily drug use keeps you in the snake pit.
That’s exactly what it is…a snake pit. Addiction is an abyss where people may be able to sit or stand up straight but are living life in the trenches of hell. I pray for every man, woman and child to receive the same gift of desperation I received years ago that led me on the path of recovery and restoration. Thank you Mark for this amazing channel and God bless you all.❤
@@sharonwexler9648 Townes Van Zandt calls it The Hole. Look up that song here on TH-cam.
This is what I love about SWU. This can happen to anyone. One wrong turn can completely change your path. One right turn can also change your path.
I love what you said here …
Yea…but also there are plenty of chances in life to go “hey, what I’m doing is wrong and I need to stop this”
@@tamarah2274 yea, they act like she got drunk and killed someone and was put in jail for life
👍🏻👍🏻anyone.....
this is the truest thing ever said
Never seen such a high class addict, what a video thank you so much. Her not understanding of why other addicts are so fucked up is incredible to me.
Maybe you haven't encountered a skid row addict that was as coherent as she is.
I guarantee that you've seen droves of much "higher class" (what a horrible term) addicts than our subject, Sara.
They don't tend to advertise, and many are able to maintain high pressure careers for long periods.
It's amazing what a company/university/hospital/government entity will do to cover for a money maker with a substance abuse problem.
Addicts are all around you, my friend.
@@artfuldodger96 compared to some of the ones on here she is a high class addict. I knew what he was talking about and so did you. Don’t like the description? Nobody cares.
Cuz she from best city Buffalo NY 🦬
@@artfuldodger96 yup. I was one that u describe
Yikes. HaPpy for my 4 years sober thnx good comment
@@mac227booms What an insightful addition to the conversation. It's almost like you paraphrased exactly what I said.. for 6th graders.
In that spirit, I believe the standard "I'm rubber, you're glue" rule should apply.
The phrase " I was never an alcoholic, I was a binge drinker" is a perfect example of sincere delusion. What you were was an addict who just managed to hold on for periods of time and remained functional. Blacking out a few days a week is not normal. Then gradually you lost it as it progressed. (An alcoholic is just an addict whose drug of choice is alcohol). When I stripped away all my excuses and accepted I could not use "normally" is when I had a chance at living. Accepting abstinence was the key.
I was her at certain points in my life, before sobriety. Grandiose, entitled, self-deluded. I had to take a reality check before I sorted myself out, and realise I was a nobody with nothing. Then I had to start from scratch... Nearly 10 years later, things are much better.
I hate hearing, speaking, or reading from those who are on recovery because it convicts the hell out of me. Of course your dead on. I loved hearing her say, ..." I wasn't an alcoholic I just binge drank..." When she said that I thought, Yeah, thats me. No Mike, your an alcoholic snd an addict. If it feels good and changes the way I feel then i pursue it. Thank you for your comment.
I strongly disagree.
Did you count the days you were sober then reward yourself by taking a drink?
There is a lot more going on with her than she is telling.
Sadly, yes. Like, how did her mother's alcoholism affect her childhood? Sara said her mom's embarrassing when she drinks.😢
Exactly.
👍🏻👍🏻
Cool story bro.
Probably lying about how great her life was before and how rich she was. Addicts lie about EVERYTHING, often with a heavy dose of main character syndrome where they try to convince you they come from a wealthy background or are "good with finances" even though they're absolute wrecks with nobody who trusts them in life anymore
My sense is that this woman has spent very little time, if any, examining her life and what internal problems brought her to this point. Her binge drinking and violence towards her mother when she was young didn't come out of nowhere. She describes her father as controlling but doesn't make the connection between that controlling relationship and the ones that followed. She starts sleeping with a guy in rehab, leaves the program before she's well and convinces 'Pete' to check out with her, marrying him shortly after. No one deserves to be trapped in such a dreadful life but my take is that she's never going to be free of it until she gets some serious, professional help digging into herself and taking a hard look at the source of her pain and why she's dealing with it like this. I wish her luck because she's got a lot going for herself.
I completely agree
❤🙏🏽
Sadly this women hasn't hit rock bottom yet. Just hearing her talk reminds me of a place in my own addiction where I thought I could still function as an addict and would never sink the lows I saw other people going to around me. But trust me it happens to everyone eventually. Just the fact that you are already seeing how terrible people can be is a good sign you yourself will become that. Someone had told me that before I hit rock bottom and it didn't register. It is true though you become a reflection of the people you surround yourself with.
Yes already homeless its coming
Yep..not even close to rock bottom. Homeless yes but she still has money coming in regularly
I hear ya. I was fully functioning. My nearest and dearest could never tell if I had drank anything or not. All they ever thought was that I was in a good mood. I did it because of HORRIBLE anxiety problems. I wouldn’t feel steady in my heels and free to chit chat with strangers without a couple glasses of wine. I had quit cold turkey for five years. My mother left a bottle of grey goose under the kitchen sink. I was in a lot of pain from an old car accident injury to my neck. I had no weed. In that 1 weak moment of pain I fell off and eventually my old ways.
That still wasn’t rock bottom.
Rock Bottom came when the puking up blood arrived. It wouldn’t stop even after surgery. I spent a week in a coma and 5 weeks total in the hospital. I’m like Johnny Depp. “The only person I have ever hurt is myself.”
In that coma, I begged Jesus for help ~ and he did.
30 months clean and sober 😊 this time I have it worse
I’m legally deaf
I have: edema
Neuropathy
Anemia
Insomnia
Bad short term
Memory Loss so I am permanently
disabled from this
I Should be dead..~ but I’m not. 🤷♀️
@@iiipurrrsentkitty4676 God is good. He saved me also. I still remember the moment I broke down to knees begging for help and it was a long road but I got there. You are blessed to be in recovery now. Keep up the good work 👏
@@iiipurrrsentkitty4676 sorry about this.
She reminds me of an ex-friend of mine...chaos and drama always follow her. She is a great story-teller and very charming, which has gotten her this far in life...but she is definitely not as happy and well adjusted as she let's on. I feel like deep inside she is a mess and totally miserable. Her way of dealing with her problems and depression is to tell great stories (which I feel are extremely embellished).
My step mom was a functioning addict just like her. Three months ago I got a call that she over dosed, I wish you find your happiness.
Exactly, People can SAY they arent going to be THAT ONE....I've buried a lot of those people.I helped create some of them,sadly enough. Don't judge addicts.If you don't KNOW,you can't possibly KNOW what a sexually abused 3rd grader is going to lean on. Maybe pay more attention to the 3rd graders around you.Just saying.
She tried to kill her mom by slamming her head into the tile for acting super “goofy”…..sounds normal…..NOT
The only goofy one I see is her.
"I tried to kill my mom and my dad called the police. He's such a control freak. 🙄" sorry wut
Watched it a second time and boy have my opinions changed. She’s a profound addict, loves, creates and embellishes the drama and chaos. She’s lucky she has income, and she should be thankful to that same daddy that she rags on so much. Without the $$ this would be a far different story.
Yep
True story
Judging by how high functioning she is, if her royalties were cut off, she would be inconvenienced by having a proper job, but would likely be able to support herself and habit. I could never understand how people are able to do that but she's def that type, or she'd be way far down considering the continuous cash flow and how long she's been doing it for.
@@delleh9972 learned helplessness is a very real thing.
@@MrsTessWren Yes, I def agree, but being that she's high functioning she doesn't seem to be the "typical" addict.
She has the gift of story telling. I was mesmerized. I wish her all the best❤
many drug addicts do, if you haven’t noticed
That's because she has told the same story so many times, and will continue to do so for anyone who is willing to listen to her. She is trying to justify all the wrong turns she has made and is trying to make herself look better, in her mind! Life is hard!!
Drug addicts are great storytellers because they are lairs. Will say anything to get their fix.
If you actually believe anything she said then I’ve got a pot of gold I found at the end of a rainbow to sell you. If you can’t clearly see that she is lying about almost everything then boy, whatever manipulator finds their way into your life is going to have a ball.
I really enjoyed this one 2
Sounds like the dude that wanted her to sign a prenup was a smart man
Absolutely!
“We seldom think of what we have, but always of what we lack.” - Arthur Schopenhauer
Agreed 💯
I find it interesting that she says Pete's family came to "kidnap" him and took him back to Michigan. Then she says she is living in a parking lot. Wasn't that her home?
She is the problem. Very manipulative and spins stories. And to say she doesn't look like an addict is simply untrue. As they spoke about it, the camera spans her body, and it shows from her hair to her toes. She is being placated.
I truly hope she gets help, especially mental health, because she is omitting the real reason why she fell into alcoholism and drugs. If it isn't trauma, I get the sense she might be bipolar or borderline personality. Leaning towards the latter.
A bit old to be wearing that outfit. Looking like her life style is catching up to her.
@@CH-ih6ov she is a bit old to be where she is in life especially if what she is saying about her past is true. Doesn’t add up at all.
I think she looks great 🤷🏼♀️
@@90youngjuliayeah, no..
@@90youngjulia HONKEY.
This woman is a great storyteller.
Lol great at not telling the truth.
@@deeznuts3145 Her story is so parallel to your life you cant even fathom it so it comes off as a lie. You're so small minded its going to cost you so much in life. You'll see later buddy, I promise
@@johnsoens5185 Its not for you to belive. I'm sure your life is so sheltered that you couldn't even imagine half of the situations she has described so automatically you're in disbelief.
@@johnsoens5185 you should really get out more
I would say great tits
She's okay with her situation, and apparently is even proud of it. Everyone sees how sad this is except for her.
She doesn't understand that her lifestyle is being funded entirely by her parents and believes she's paving her own way. It's pathetic, but her parents have no option but fund her because she will turn to prostitution.
Because she had a nice life, a rich dude and doesn’t look like a typical sewer rat the comment section turns cold hearted lemming and show her no empathy.
The people in the comment section are hypocritical lemmings that don’t mean what they say when they are so empathetic to others. The comments are nothing but hypocrites not empathetic. Not every addicts story is the same regarding backstory but the demon of addiction is still a monstrous miserable beast. Cut her some slack.
Being sad "for" someone else is the real mental illness. You're not sad "for" her, you're scared that you're no different.
She's just not ready 🤷🏻♀️
How do you know that she is “okay with her situation”?
Maybe…she’s just stuck? There are people like that. I would know.
Sad how someone with so much potential got on this path! Wishing her the best
Addiction takes anybody regardless
It never ceases to amaze me how people will tell these crazy and tragic stories and then when Mark asks what their biggest regret is they say they have none. Are they lying to themselves or is it just a lack of wisdom? I'm not suggesting anyone should beat themselves up over their mistakes but wouldn't you have to be a complete fool to not have any regrets? I don't get it
@@_JellyDonut_ she sounds content with her life 😅
@@_JellyDonut_ EXACTLY
being organized in all aspects of life is the key to thriving in life
I enjoyed reading the comments. It is really helpful to hear what others have to say regarding the addiction.
She's cool as hell.
If someone has a pitiful presence, people here always speak highly of the person.
Just because she doesn't present pathetically doesn't mean she's not in pain. No one happy & content just abuses drugs to add it to their resume
I agree man. This woman speaks better than most sober folks with a home 😂
She calls committing insurance fraud an investment. Clearly is lying throughout her story. Parsing accountability at all times. Yeah... Tom Segura would definitely say she's cool. If you like this you should definitely watch "your mom's house" on TH-cam
@@mikekotlarich3287 LOL.
Agreed, she's my favorite of all the people I've seen on this channel.
@@rutherfordmaplethorpe5083 definitely far more charismatic peolle and at the same time, being less shallow. She was privilaged, and that is very evident. She just decided to rebel against her parents. Something tells me you have a fair few videos to watch on this channel. Either that or you're a poor judge of character. She might be fun, but she wouldn't piss on you if you were on fire. Not the sort of person I'd want to have around me.
I will never understand why someone gets beat once and then stays with that person to just continually get abused. My ex-husband tried to kill me once that was the first and last shot he ever got. Never stay with someone who abuses you get rid of them or leave yourself.
It's cause she's lying and over exaggerating
Its the drugs. He showed her how to and where to get it connections.
@@vonderloo3184 yes, i think so. Plus low self-worth.
Good for you. That’s not how most abusive relationships go. They are very similar to the cycle of addiction. I just don’t think she has enough humility or self reflection etc to acknowledge things from another perspective
@@lalathebenificent1335 low self worth is right… she talks constantly about material things… her first house with the two car garage, etc… when she talks about her California experience, she can’t just say she went to rehab in LA… she calls it the luxury rehab in Malibu, the seven million house was the shitty house… and before that she talks about the perfect credit score of 820… She’s very materialistic…
"They tried to make me to go to rehab... but I said no, no, no"
Had a girlfriend like this. She was always taking medication. I didn’t see it at first but it always comes out. People can’t hide who they are for long. Also nothing is their fault. It’s always somebody else’s fault for the problems that are destroying their lives. Always the victim.
This woman didn't blame anyone for her addiction. She said these were her choices and she was not miserable. Does not come off as trying to play victim, I don't understand where you get that from?
You know I think this is the first SWU video I've ever seen in which I have no sympathy whatsoever for the guest speaker
She’s very easy to get along with. She reminds me of addicts I used to hangout with. Coming from the higher end side of the fence. Like when you grow up around money and are successful as an adult then get into drugs later in life. You are like a higher end addict. To be honest it looks a lot better then normal stereo typical addict that we see 98% of the time. So Sarah if you do read this I’m glad you’re still beautiful and put together and free from the stress of life. I really hope you can get away from the drugs cause I think you could bounce right back into be successful and be able to do it in a stress free way :) I don’t want you wasting your wonderful spirt in a parking garage. Peace & Love ✌🏽
she's so weak in my eyes.. I can't explain it to you.. it's like I come from a completely different reality.... And please I've been there and I am definitely not judging .. if you haven't grown up and been born from poverty , the hustle of addiction is so completely different.. maybe not for some folks but we all have a different reality.. I wish her the best..
When you're a recovering addict listening to other active addicts you can really call their bullshit. Hope she will turn her life around one day and realize that using drugs is no life for anyone.
Haven't touched anything in close to 25 years but we can spot one another real quick.
Ikr i was shocked at the people saying she doesn't look like an addict but then i thought "maybe it takes one to know one" 🤷♀️
Meth makes you think you are a mad genius story teller dropping truth, wisdom, and witty humour.
Haha brilliant
While trying to make her parents mad she destroyed her own life. Her life could have been so different if she did the rehab her Dad offered in the early days.
Addiction doesn't make sense though. It's not always so straight forward is my point
@@JB-wy8fc she hadn't touched drugs up to that point. She might have had a chance back then.
@@lisasheridan5482 she was an alcoholic. Addiction is addiction regardless of substance. If it want drugs it would have been the booze. There’s no reason why she should have gone where her dad wanted. She was an adult that can make her own decisions/accommodation
We never stood in her shoes so .....
Emotional unavailability in parents can harm kids alot
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This woman is one in a billion. Holy Moses the charisma. Hardly anyone seeing her in public would have a clue
You can see it totally. I can tell right off the bat . Work in healthcare and you can see it a mile away.
She has a strong mind like her dad and strong pride like both parents. She's got respect and smarts. She will stay away from being a statistic, I think, but where she is going is hard to say. Best of luck to her while she decides on her real retirement life. Thank you, Mark
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Oh, so you KNOW her parents????
@@domdicenso1656 she discussed her parents with Mark! Of course, I don't know them personally, wtf's up?
She seems really fond of her current predicament.
She thinks it makes her special
I'm having a hard time finding any redeeming qualities about Sara. She's good at telling a story?
Ouch!! I'm only two minutes in!!
Physically attacking your mother is horrible.
I get that she's got mental issues clearly which she was self medicating with alcohol and now drugs,, but she's about as likeable as bedbugs.
She's also a nice looking woman with style. I find it hard that she is so romanticizing her past life, or present Maybe, and taking so little responsibility
You’re kidding right? How about the fact she’s hilarious. Did you listen to the part where she started talking about renter’s insurance?
Yep she's a total loser
I wouldn't believe a word she says. I dread to think how many lives she has gaslit. It's horrifying to know that so many people are like this but keep it hidden until it's too late. She's a great advert for lengthy friendship before romance.
She definitely ain’t staying out of trouble, she loves trouble. Best of luck to you none the less and I hope you find your peace
Doesn't like her mom drinking but she sat at her parents house and binge drank wine for days on end.
She's a narcissist
i think she actually said she didn't like the way her mom ACTED when she drank
If she looks that good despite having issues with drugs, imagine how pretty she would be if she didn't have them. I can't be the only one who thinks she is super pretty, right?!
She is gorgeous, I agree.
She's super sexy. More than pretty. Looks and sounds wild. That's what attracted the guys in her life..
Perfect example on how being an addict doesnt discriminate.
Never judge, never know when your "normal" life throws you a curve ball
Blessed to all who struggle. Its very real
As I have been blessed to be in recovery for 25 years from drugs and alcohol, number one thing that keeps people from getting clean and staying clean is humility or lack thereof. Man without getting humble that Pride it's going to keep us right where we're at. Sarah honestly hope that you are able to overcome your pride and see how the choices you've made have let you where you are. Sorry hard to believe you have no regrets that makes you almost less than human.... everyone has regrets people at the top and people at the bottom. Best of luck to you on your journey
She has deceived herself. She believes her own lies. Look at the part again where she claims to have no regrets. Her facial expression clearly gives her away.
I don't know why people are so averse to having or vocalizing regrets. There's kind of a weird movement lately where people think they are empowered by this mentality. Learning to live with regrets is so much more valuable than learning to convince yourself you have none.
I agree sort of , not sure if it’s her pride or intellect. I’m not taking a jab at her, I think she’s a super cool chick. At this stage in her addiction she’s too smart for her own good. I actually like her quite a bit, she’s very articulate and subtly funny. Hopefully by the Grace of God she’ll pull through it. Peace!
I feel like you’re projecting your story to her … it’s a whole bunch of complicated emotional experiences that she is going through, unsorted, blurry life experiences suppressed that influence her without knowing & and she didn’t talk enough about her for us to have a full sense of it. She is not absolutely miserable, she never talked about wanting help or needing it, she is not causing problems to anyone, independent - who are we to declare what constitutes a valid life.
No... Addicts give up pride, self-respect, give up everything... What keeps them stuck is not having luxory of rehab/help/ detox.. so many would give anything for that chance
Uhhh...your talking to Pete AGAIN???? That's pretty smart.
An extremely sneaky,smug, and conniving woman. I could not be around her for even a minute.
Look at her hands. That swollen purple, reddish hands syndrome doesn't go away. My daughter has the same thing.
I actually got annoyed for her Dad when she said he’s “a super controlling wack job”… She’s the one on drugs and her father seems to have his life together and refuses to accept her absolute bullshit. I’m team parents on this one. This lady deserves her position in life right now and she seems okay with that. So am I.
I’m certain how she was raised played a massive role in her ending up how she is now. It is so for everyone. Just because someone is wealthy, or even just has a roof over their head and a job, does not mean they are a healthy or even an okay person. A child’s emotional needs being unmet can cause a lifetime of suffering and various mental health issues. Food and shelter simply aren’t enough for someone to grow up to be a well adjusted, healthy adult. Unconditional love and support can’t be overlooked or substituted for even all of the material shit in the world. And who are you to say what another person deserves in life? How arrogant and callous of you.
Narcissists usually can't stand to hear when even another narcissist is called out for their BS... nice outing yourself 👌
@@NaNa-re3wc a choice is a choice. All the other shit you put in there is an excuse not to better one’s self because you’re sulking in “how bad/traumatic your childhood was”. News flash,get some therapy and get the fuck over it. She and you deserve exactly where you are in life. Fucking geek.
He could be a super controlling whack job with the best of intentions. Unfortunately good intentions can be overshadowed by other dysfunctional behaviors.
@@NaNa-re3wcif you listened to the very start of the interview, every part of her childhood was described as picture perfect! She had a good school experience, went to college, traveled, and her parents are actually still married. These are all signs of heathy up bringing. She made a choice to use drugs late in life.
Best story I've heard yet. She's been incredibly blessed in life on every level, and still ended up addicted. I'd say her choice of men is horrible.
They all want Chad
I don't think the men she chooses had any affect on what she ultimately is.
Best story you've heard yet? Really? How many have you watched? Like 2 or 3?
@@wesleyalan9179 😂😂😂👍
@@Frank75288 please tell me you're just joking..
I love how financially literate she is. She hits a little too close to home. Some of us addicts are very capable of financial literacy. How do you think we afford our addictions?
Silver spoon?
@J Corn say that again for all the people in the BACK 👏 ❣️❣️❣️
@@JC111WPB only child here. Not quite silver spoon, both parents grew up very poor and married poor. So learning how to make a dollar stretch was simply part of my childhood. Applied the same mentality in my addiction. But, speaking for myself with "only child syndrome" (not silver spoon/ trust fund baby) can admit there are small benefits of
security at play.
She’s not financially literate look at her outfit she’s a broke junkie lying her ass off. Addicts with money don’t hang out on skid row ilmao
Wow, all I can say is, wow. She's like that "friend", you can only take in doses, but is still your friend. She makes me feel like a hypocrite because of her "high function", addiction. She's a heartbreaker... I still have love for ya.
She wonders how people around her are 'so fucked up", and all I can think about is....just wait.
I thought the same
My thoughts exactly, When her money runs out, is the universe going to help her? NOPE! Man she don't even realize what's waiting for her. SAD
Biggest regret? She says she doesn't have one. Tells it all. There have always been people who like to get drunk..high etc and put that first and foremost in their life. So sad .
Very sad but I can’t feel bad for those who choose to live life how they want. I feel bad for their families though
@@tamarah2274 ..I agree...learned my lesson..won't deal with chem dep people in any way
Yes, I agree.
Because she had a nice life, a rich dude and doesn’t look like a typical sewer rat the comment section turns cold hearted lemming and show her no empathy.
The people in the comment section are hypocritical lemmings that don’t mean what they say when they are so empathetic to others. The comments are nothing but hypocrites not empathetic. Not every addicts story is the same regarding backstory but the demon of addiction is still a monstrous miserable beast. Cut her some slack.
@@tamarah2274 Because she had a nice life, a rich dude and doesn’t look like a typical sewer rat the comment section turns cold hearted lemming and show her no empathy.
The people in the comment section are hypocritical lemmings that don’t mean what they say when they are so empathetic to others. The comments are nothing but hypocrites not empathetic. Not every addicts story is the same regarding backstory but the demon of addiction is still a monstrous miserable beast. Cut her some slack.
I have extreme empathy for 99% of marks guests.. she is not one of those people..
She appears to be such an intelligent woman and really has made abrupt decisions when it came to life changes. Her first attempt with heroine and meth makes me wonder with her addictive behaviors and why she’s made bad choices. I’m so shocked on how her life has intertwined and failed to recover from her addictions.
@@paulcrawford2542 I've known some very intelligent, well educated & successful ppl who are alcoholic-addicts. I imagine you have too, right? 🤔
She's not completely gone yet, but intelligent is a stretch.
From “I had a great childhood” to smashing moms face on the floor. Something is missing 🤔
She’ll never live a truly happy life as long as she continues romanticizing her past and present. She finds her own life story so entertaining. It’s pitiful.
I totally agree and I think every time her mouth opens, she lies
I think there´s way deeper issues going on that may be too painful for her to address. But you don´t try to kill your mother (in her own words) because she was "acting goofy when drunk". That´s some deep-rooted resentment, absolutely nothing normal about that action. I hope she gets help - and the family too to break the dysfunction
No matter what her mom told her, it does not justify her slammung her head against the floor. I think that Sara has the ability to put her life back together, but she needs to be honest with herself and some therapy will probably help. It will hurt A LOT on the shortrun, but, trust me, it will be all worth it. You will finally gain the peace of mind.
People can never run away from themselves, no matter how hard they try. Your feeling will always come crashing back at you. The only right way to go about it is to face and to process them.
Her dad did the right thing by calling the police when she was beating on her mom. Growing up, where did she get the notion it was ok to attack her mom? What kind of hell did her mother live in? Emotional abuse is worse than physical abuse.
I’m not attracted to dudes who kick the shit out of me. BUT I posted his bail after he beat me up. STOP.
Clean and sober addict here many years. i have heard many stories like this at NA and AA Sara is at the woe is me stage all this happened to her, not owning up to were addiction has taken her. i hope you find the rooms of NA or AA. it has worked for countless people. there is only 2 outcomes for addiction being sober or being dead/living a miserable short life. start by cleaning out the crap people in your life. You lay with dogs you get fleas. Get your ass to the rooms and stop feeling sorry for yourself and blaming other people. you need some tough love!
The difference between her and the ones that seem so much worse, is mostly money. A person can hide almost anything with money.
No redeeming features. A bit of self awareness would help. Well done Mark - you were so nice to her..
I disagree. She’s very engaging and forthright and humorous
Because she had a nice life, a rich dude and doesn’t look like a typical sewer rat the comment section turns cold hearted lemming and show her no empathy.
The people in the comment section are hypocritical lemmings that don’t mean what they say when they are so empathetic to others. The comments are nothing but hypocrites not empathetic. Not every addicts story is the same regarding backstory but the demon of addiction is still a monstrous miserable beast. Cut her some slack.
Thanks for sharing your story Sara. You have a beautiful life ahead of you. Hope you can seek help and joy again.
Yes my the Lord bless you and your family 👪
And here is me, sitting with a glass of vino in the UK over looking the sea after a hard days work. I would never swap my life for chaos/ crisis. Peace for me.
I appreciate her story and I wish her the best, a lot of people are judging her because she didn't grow up poor and abused. I grew up as an upper middle class over achiever. I also had some overbearing forces in my life, and ended up with an abuser for a bit bc I was too naive and spoiled to see the signs. Continuing to work kept me on track. It's sad bc she could go back to a pampered life but she would feel like she is in prison. We shouldn't be so judgmental.
She's 41 years old. The only one who can change the narrative is her.
Physical age and mental age are vastly different for each person.
Some people in their 40’s may seem 65 years old OR seem like teens. Not everyone is the same.
@@Whoamidontknow17707 Exactly, I was extremely sheltered spent my late teens/early 20s on college campuses and went straight to working on a compound/base after graduate school for 15 years. I went from one sheltered environment to the next. I am married, travel read etc. yet my friends who have known me since childhood swear I haven't changed. I still play games and watch cartoons despite a serious job in my 30s. Some people just don't age the same mentally, just like some are not resilient to lifes negative forces.
Yes you are right i am just older than her and i do not want her to end up like me
“Im not an alcoholic but i (describes alcoholism)”
Father was a control freak with money, mother was a low-key drunk and lost... she had no figure to rely for emotional support basically. When no matter what you do is not right, you become somebody's else dream. Misery loves misery.
If you're blackout drunk 3-4 times a week, you're an alcoholic
“I’ve gone years without seeing him…well I actually just saw him recently “
she actually said well i just started talking to him again...
@@downfall199 same thing
My advice to Sarah- cut off your past, forget your family, and as unintuitive as it is with your resources dwindling, start helping people. If you lend your strengths to help other people, you will find answers to your own problems.
Mark is a good example- he helps people by doing these videos because a lot of times people are in pain or lonely and want someone to listen to their story. He has found a way to give people that when before no one would.
I bet initially that wasn't his idea. It was probably to help by creating awareness of skid row and then people could donate money or come offer their help, but then he found that it actually helps many people directly (not all, but many) just to do the intereview and feel heard. So he adapted to help facilitate that, developing very inoffensive questions and a non-judgemental interview method.
He also monetizes these videos, it seems probably at a loss because he says it all goes back into the project, he already made enough money from his past. I believe him, but just to make a point- even if he did pay himself, he is still focusing his energy on helping people instead of doing something more selfish. He could retire and relax, or make more with his skills shooting for entertainment, probably what he did. But instead of figuring out how to shoot the best angles of a model for designer clothes, his mind is occupied with doing this to help people. So it's not like you have to offer help in the form of pure selflessness or giving away money. Just finding a way you are able to do something and putting your energy into that is what works.
Does she hear herself!!! What a hypocrite!
She seems 💯% FULL of 💩‼️
Hypocritical how?
Haha
She is a hypocrite because she's a narcissist.
She such a great storyteller. She is really funny. She makes light of serious situations. I hope she gets clean.
Gosh. Great interviewee. Thanks, Mark. Please interview her parents; ideally together!
Yah, rt. Like that's going to happen with a dad she describes as a control freak.
😂
“I just recently started talking to him (Pete) …” Sara and her mom are alcoholics… it runs in families. Sara has an addictive personality so her addictions will get worse. “I just never have to worry …” She is comparing herself to the skid row junkies and feeling pretty good about herself. Everyone is “f***d up” but her. She has no regrets so have a great life, Sara. Hope she can get real wth herself and stay away from Pete. After that first beating, she should have been long gone but she stayed. She is the least self aware of any of the addicts Mark has interviewed. May God bless her. ❤️🇨🇦
Oh I can't watch this anymore!! This is by far the worst video she talks too much!!
The narcissism is strong with this one.
Spoiled rich brat
Yes
I like the had my chefs outfit on and looked really cute and professional
For sure she is into herself
Perfectly put! I'm thinking the wisdom is strong with you.
It’s crazy how when you are high you can come up with the most insane entertaining stories
“How are you so f**ked up, and I’m not?” That was the hardest part of this story to hear.
I was 20 ....and I hadn't missed a day of work in 10 yrs. I'm 8 minutes in and I think she deserves her situation. Definitely a main character.
I think she said 28, but I get your point.
No one deserves to struggle with mental health or substance abuse issues. It’s not as simple as, “you did it to yourself and therefore you deserve to suffer”. All of us deal with the bullshit the generations before us in our family didn’t before having us, no one is starting from a clean slate. Some just have more bullshit on their slate than others, but no one “deserves” that.
@@NaNa-re3wc bro stop. How is Google letting punks train their bots on their servers. It's polluting the web. You trying to teain an emotionally intelligent automated reply so you can troll and cat fish people.
I'd love to hear Pete's version of these stories. She's overplaying the "everyone does terrible things to me" card. Willing to bet her mom and dad have very different versions of the same stories as well.
I think some women are drawn to this type of man. That first time he beat her up so bad, I'd have been gone.
Yes the ones who play the victim can often be the most violent.
The way she handles trauma is like an out of body experience. She logically deals with problems but she has a wall up for her emotions. She’s so strong and it’s probably for the best that she processes situations and her emotions this way. She’s so smart.
She's not smart, smart people address their addiction. She comes across as smart, there's a big difference.
are you serious?????
she is SICK as hell.
She is not strong … she had a good life and is now an addict - it’s only a matter of time before she is on skid row.
She is not telling the truth. Everything she has said is hard to listen to. I feel like she making up what she's going to say on the spot? Pathological liar.
Started working for her dad at 19 after 3.5 years of college. Typical tweeker bs.
Didn't she say she got married the first time at 25? Then how is it possible that she met this older guy at age 20?? And about her so called loan she got from the bank, it takes longer then a day to process it. Her story is 100% BS
Tweeking has a way of twisting a story.
Yeah, pretty sure she is feeling it...
As a photographer, her b&w photo is the one that stood out the most to me-I really love that image. I think she would benefit more from refuge recovery. Hope she gets clean before it completely ruins her. Would love to see an update!
Pete doing all this and I can’t even get a text back...
I've seen throughout my life that the most beautiful women attract the most toxic men. The Narcissist wants the woman who lights up the room.
This woman is just as toxic and narcissistic
Everyone wants the woman who lights up the room. Duh
@@tamarah2274 maybe so but the average guy usually doesn't approach the most beautiful woman in the room. Takes someone with balls and the Narcissist gladly steps up to the plate.
@@Poochiepoochie54321 whatever you say. I say there are tons of mismatched relationships. Always have been, always will be
@@tamarah2274 there is a certain type of guy who wants a "trophy" wife/ girlfriend.
I watched the Abraham's and Sara's interviews one after the other. How difficult could interviewing coherent people instead. Active addicts recounting individual accounts come off as 'embellished' and close to unwatchable. Your efforts to give these troubled individuals a stage and educating the people is both necessary and commendable. To reach an audience and gain more production value would get these lives a bigger audience and proposals and better social policies and thereby better solutions.
I hung on every word. Thanks Mark and best of luck Sara
The comments are even better than the interview, you people are ALL awesome and I wish you ALL the best ,