As a retired cop, I found this fascinating. Like you, I love exploring old sites and buildings. I have to say that you did some really good police work here; great job!
i do have a question. as long as we don't break anything, we can snoop as long as we want...right? there is a difference i know between staying there and looking around...i know that...
Y'know, it's stories like this that truly make me grateful for how relatively well my life is going. I used to think my life sucked, but seeing so many scenarios like what this man went through slapped some sense into me.
Depends, can't really assume much from this.Could be a drug user, alcoholic, or a combination of things, Maybe even has mental problems. Our lives are ours not others and we can't walk around comparing to one another as our lives are different and everyone has the option to change our lives. We can say our life sucks cause it's our life and sometimes it does. Just be grateful to be living really.
Your tribute to Jeff was touching and tells us a lot about you and your daughter.....Your the type of people we would love to have as neighbors. God Bless you both as you Explore!
I don't know if anyone has mentioned yet, this is an old long distance telephone repeater station. You find a lot of empty ones because they were abandoned 40+ years ago in favor of fiber optic cables that can span much greater distances without the need for a repeater building.
That bag is a bugout bag military style wouldn't surprise me if he had PTSD and left everything he knew to live where no one was because PTSD is very hard to deal with
@@alexandertaves2730PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) makes some people want to be alone no one around so this guy knows probably more than you. It was hard to deal with still is now just not as much
It take a women a short time to recover from a broken heart, but a man it takes a few yrs to pull himself back together when your wife runs off with a fishing buddy. Yup hard to mend a broken heart to the point of trusting a women again..
@@richm7016 Nope not true. Im very sorry that some non caring woman broke your heart & hurt you but im one of those women that dont go around "falling in love " with a guy here & there. I truly loved one guy & had 2 kids with him at a young age & he broke my heart to the point where i never learned to trust much at all after him.I am not arguing or picking a fight & i wish you well..i just wanted to let you know not all women are heartless & vindictive. It really does go boty ways. I hope you find the right one for you & never get hurt again & i hope you are mendig through just fine.take care
I remember the news clip. I live in Arkansas and it hit hard seeing this video. Seeing how he went from someone you normally see walking around, shopping or talk with to this deserted building, alone, sick and probably confused about everything.
Lilyanna Jacobs 'Night terror' and going threw court issues. so it must have been heart breaking for him. At least they notice who he was. And what he was doing. Poor man.
It was very likely due to the ibuprofen. The same thing happened to me, except I lived. The telltale signs are there, particularly his tests showing nothing. I know what he went through - I experienced it. I was in the ER, and in every doctor's office they thought I was either lying or crazy because the tests showed nothing was wrong. It was a GI doctor who knew about nsaids and informed me. I do not wish it on anyone. Advil causes severe chest pain, joint pain and swelling, night sweats, panic attacks, acute gastrointestinal ulceration and bleeding, and horrible depression. You feel like you're dying because you are dying, just not in a way that shows up in a blood test. The tragedy here is that if he would have ceased taking Advil, the bleeding would have stopped in two days, his pain would have disappeared in a week, and his depression would have lifted immediately, and continued lifting for months after. I can't help but have that feeling of wanting to go back in time and rescue him.
Bikewithlove. That's how I feel about alot of people who die. If only I was there... Yesterday a friend of mine said.. his roommate murdered her 5 yr old daughter.. The mother stabbed her to death. And he wished he would have not went fishing that day or else he would have saved the little girl... It's sad... When people feel pain and feel alone they want to escape from it and can't. And end up doing things they normally wouldn't do. I feel you on everything you said. We live in a world where our emotions are set to not show or we have to just suck it up or we are weak. . It's a shame. We all need someone. No matter how much we feel or wanna be alone we need someone to talk to. To heal.
Thank you Vanessa, and I just noticed your handle also is 'with.' It takes one to know one. I wound up isolated too because not unlike the guy who died, my support system failed. We get the people that we get in life, and sometimes, like your friend, we get troubled people on our program and we don't see it coming. What an awful thing your friend went through. I've been there too. They caught up with him in Colorado and he's in prison for life. You never think it will happen on your watch but it does sometimes. I feel very lucky to have the kind of presence of mind that when the going gets weird I hit the books and look for the helpers, and I get out. My friends and family, and the bitter and confused females in my life dropped the ball in many ways but I know how to reach out and communicate, so for me it's you and people like you who help me to stay steady. It doesn't matter whether true thoughtfulness comes from a relative or a TH-cam comment, because it's the human kindness in it that matters, and a little bit goes a long way. I can only hope to be the same for you, just by being genuine. Imagine if everyone really figured it out. I'm convinced though, that the reason humans haven't destroyed themselves by now is that there is always just enough love in the world to keep us alive.
One of my high school teachers said this: "There are 2 times in your life that you are TOTALLY alone- even if there are several people in the room. 1: When you're born and 2: when you die. Those are the two things that you experience TOTALLY by yourself. No one can do anything for you but watch it happen at most."
Thank you for posting this memorial of an obviously hurting man. It's sad he didn't get the help he needed, but it's possible he didn't want it either. Still, thank you.
It's like everyone watching this is blind to what they just watched. There is a device on that table that could give you names, dates, email addresses, phone numbers and calendar appointments. It's called a palm pilot it's sitting on the table under the camera tripod. He even points out the damn things data sync recharger base the pilot uses to charge and sync with a computer.
Taking too much Ibuprophen can aggravate a stomach ulcer and cause one to cough up blood. I have a feeling that That is the source of the blood-stained tissues.
It'll be ibuprofen tablets with codeine, there's no point in just taking large amounts of ibuprofen unless you're trying to you're looking for a horribly painful death. Codeine, for those who don't know, is a opioid pain medication that can be abused (used to get high).
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Explore With Us I hope you have some form of self defense, I myself have a concealed carry permit but I live in Chicago so its an unfortunate necessity.
db bd you can get a permit in Chicago now? I know the courts basically forced the issue, but I thought they made it nearly impossible to do in practice. Outstanding to hear!!
Yep felt it too. Its not built to be a house, no windows, doors or plumbing, odd empty gaps in the bricks, almost had me wondering if people were bricked in there, but thats going to a lot of effort to hide a dead body. The sleeping bag creeped me out, it really looked like someone was in it. I thought that was why the guy holding camera held off for a bit.
I found this so incredibly sad. You presented in so well. Bravo for 1) your discovery and bravery 2) the way you told it. As a person with mental illness and who knows exactly what it's like to need to escape from society (I hope I don't ever die as a result, even if it's how I'm feeling at the moment,) you didn't play the blame game. You presented the facts. This is so real. Honest. Thank you.
The plastic foil was burned when you visited the second time. The wheelbarrow and the shovel are also gone. Someone burned the instrumentalities to hush up a crime. Then they burned the cloth to destroy the evidence that Kirkwood was there. The wheelbarrow has been used to transport the dead body of Kirkwood. Bet there was DNA traces inside of the plastic foil - for that reason it got burned down. A wheelbarrow, a shovel and a plastic foil : like a „how to be a murder“ set Why would someone destroy evidence if there was no crime. And where is Kirkwoods car if he had the keys laying there? Whatever happend must happend right after someone got the sausages, because you cant keep these for a long time outside the fridge. We never know, to my mind this is a crime scene and its strange that the police is not investigation. Thanks for the video and your courage stay safe man ! I love watching your videos Greetings from germany
the keys is the ony thing i can explain. I have keys from my previous places of where i used to live. so its not uncommon to have a key that doesn't seem to fit. for the rest, wow good observation.
This is heart wrenching. No one knows what this guy was dealing with. As someone who suffers from mental illness this is both scary and motivational. Thank you for being respectful. Most people wouldn't have been.
thank you for posting legitimate content, and not faking or making things out to be what the aren't in your videos. you deserve some sort of award for camera work and attention to detail. thank you for shedding light on mental illnesses and this mans story.
I really appreciate how respectful and kind you are as you explore this situation. It is obvious you guys are compassionate, concerned, and not just exploiting the situation. Thank you for what y’all do, we love your channel!
Wow!!! It brought tears to my eyes. Thank God that you found something that his wife could at least have of his, you know. I know that it took a lot of praying, soul searching and thought to put this video out there but remember this, you did something fantastic for him. You, and the young lady, preserved his last thoughts, which are priceless to his wife, trust me. God bless the both of you and please be extremely, extremely, extremely careful when searching abandoned houses.
Lacey both do, yes. They have mentioned it in several lives. Both packing legally with CCW. Thank goodness. I still wouldn’t go to some of the places they go.
you guys are so dumb. its obviously some vagabonds camp. it wasn't destroyed, the person either moved on, or had to leave because of people coming around. these types of people aren't like normal people and have to be treated special. delicately. they are in defense mode.
Honestly I am speechless, this video shares so much mystery and emotion. The diary entries made me go cold, something so sinister about the whole situation. Jeff died in 2015, but there was new blood, and other objects after you had been, maybe someone else knew Jeff was there, and stayed there after? I honestly don't have a good theory, but this video and every other from you is absolutely incredible 👍🏻
Interesting you mention that . My best friend is getting screwed by the legal system here in oregon and because of some lies from a woman that went nuts he can't see his daughter , lost his house , his job and is about to lose his mind . He's staying here in my yard in a tent .
@@magapickle01 That is terrible. I know all about being screwed by the court system with my children.I won't go into details but I hate the family court system.. Its even harder when the ex has a father who is a Deputy in a very small town.
This is probably one of the first times where something actually disturbing has been found in one of these abandond buildings. Thumbs up for that, and thank you for good content!
Him suffering the death of a child that wasn't paternally his just goes to show what a kind man he must have been! Really sad that he couldn't see the kindness in somebody else though as they could have helped him!
Wow guys, this is one of the most amazing videos I've ever seen. Poor guy, may he rest in peace. At least now his family knows more about the mystery of his disappearance, thanks to your discovery, and your tenacity in following up on your instincts. ❤️
I feel so sad for that man. He died alone in the middle of nowhere. RIP Jeff Kirkwoid Great job guys- very impressive how you respectfully and with care kept on looking for clues as to whom was living there. This is the first video I’ve seen of yours , I’ll definitely check out more! I don’t know how I got here but glad I did!!!😍
Poor guy. He needed professional help, and no one was there to help him. It was a miracle that he even found this building. Conversion disorder doesn't sound good at all. Did he have a child with him?
I prefer an AR, which I usually keep on my back, but when things get sketchy, I keep it in a low ready. But when I am filming something sketchy I use the 9 mm so I can still hold my camera. 🙂
This is one of the most sad heartbreaking stories i have ever heard. He must of died so lonely & so sad & then to see that picture of the cute lil girl on his facebook....wow! My heart hurts for him so much.Thank you for being so kind to those he need it EWU. Your good people.Im going to watch part 2 now.rest in peace Jeff S. Kirkwood ⭐🌙🌠
I find the glasses strange they look like something a teen or a child would wear. I also find the child paintings on the wall weird. I think the police should have been called to investigate before the scene was destroyed.
Being an abandoned building, they may not be related. It is also possible that children visited the place when he was living there and did not want to tell their parents. Running away and mental illness does not mean that he was a violent man and who knows, he may have welcomed some non judgmental company. To me, the saddest part of the whole story was that his wife disowned him at his time of need. It happens all too often.
I agree. Too coincidental. Those glasses were way too small for him and were definitely designed for children. The paintings sporadicness would also be explained by a child. 3,4,5,6 years old doing it
I think that if you find a place that shows evidence of some one who is reported missing you should call the police. Let the professionals do what they do best. Who knows what went on their. It could have been innocent or it could have been something much worse. I would not want my child going there.
It's not uncommon for people who have lost their mind to draw random stuff on the wall. The glasses look about average size too. I theories that he was likely suffering from extreme dysentery towards the end, which would explain the medicine, vomit bucket and bloody toilet paper. Dysentery leaves you badly dehydrated and delirious, plus he was already very mentally ill. So could explain the weird painting.
I struggle with near suicidal depression every day, it always feels so black and white, so worthless to get out of bed, like a colorless silent movie about the same thing is repeating on a screen in my head and projecting through my eyes. Thank you for this video, I don't understand how or why but on some level it connected in such a human way with me that I can't even describe it.
Thank you, I hope you are getting some help with your depression, it's a very serious condition. If you are feeling suicidal, you need some support. Contact a professional to get some help ASAP. They can help you. You could also make some videos about the issue to help others, and it might help you also deal with it.
CharraTV , hi , read your statement. please find someone you trust and you can talk to. there is a person out there that will love you for you. Charra you are so very special. think about a support group that do things together. you will find that there are ones that will see your pain and cry with you. you find yourself a good friend that accepts you for you. talk is the best medicine. please see that your life is not meaningless. and soon you will see that your calling will most likely be to help others that feel like you. you owe it to all of us to share your pain and teach us how to deal with life's pitfalls. you will overcome and be a angel to many.
Sadly i can understand his desire to b in that place!! 😞 Depression etc slowly kills ur soul n u lay ur body down hiding from reality n ur truths n ... U wait--
Melinda you are so right. Depression guts you from the inside out, you isolate to try to survive and isolation just makes it worse...it is unbearably AWFUL. God bless this poor man.
Not to take away from his pain and story. But I have PTSD and I can stay away from people for as long as possible. It does get lonely but it feels so much better to not question reality. It’s scary. I once stayed at a friends abandoned house... no water, no electric, no food unless they brought me something, dirty dirty house. But I was happy to be alone and comfortable. I hope he is at peace now and we can know more about his last days. Rest In Peace.
Cuphead squatters are people that live in places but aren't meant to be there. You can have house squatters. They stay in houses but are not supposed to be there🙂
I googled the name "Shane cox" and found out that that's the name of a wanted criminal, maybe he made a shelter in the middle of nowhere to hide from the cops i dunno.
The guy who used to live here goes by the name of Jefferey Kirkwood. Look him up. His body was found in 2015.the dude s life took a turn for the worse when all his family members died. Probably went into severe depression.
Wow how that's amazing that you could help his family come to a conclusion with where is was before he passed. Did you ever find if he died from exposure or self afflicted?
@@Kidavulpes probably just part of his skeleton with a few ratty sun bleached clothes around it, obviously no way to determine a cause of death, but yes probably from illness or dehydration, maybe pill overdose
At least you found where he was living before he passed and brought some closure to his family ..but you must start taking gloves with you ,just in case ..Your good people and if I was lost I would hope someone like you cared enough to look 😀
it looks like he didnt want to be found or didnt want any help by the looks of it he went out and got those things but didnt try finding his way back home.. its a sad story! great video!
I'm not talking about my ex gf, I'm talking about my current gf.... it's a joke that makes reference to how untidy she is with hours work.... I think it's a type of comedy called irony if I'm not mistaken.
I was thinking the same thing. But in the part two video I think everything was stolen and burned. I feel like before he uploaded the video he should have told the police. the whole story has been on my mind since I saw this video. I'm also a HUGE animal crossing fan so I was taken off guard when I saw the DS and Game. really crazy and so sad :(
That particular game keeps more personal data than most; it also has a message board, authorities could have found some information on it, including the owner, and the Mac address of the user that registered it.
Jeff Kirkwood's remains were found in this area on Dec 9th 2015. Journal entries stopped around July 27th indicating a possible time of death. These people made a great discovery in the road to closure for his family...this is truly amazing, I hope the EWU guys know that they did a good thing by continuing their investigation.
This poor man. His whole world was taken from him. He had nothing and no one to turn to. He found a place he could go and hide and wait for death. He was a craftsman and he cared for a disabled child. When he became old society threw him away. A disposable man.
One of the creepiest, saddest videos I've seen on TH-cam. I hope Jeff is at peace now. Thanks you guys for discovering this place and putting an end to this mystery. RIP Jeff.
This was less disturbing and more sad. As others have said though, by creating this video you have let the world know that he lived and that he struggled. You handled this very respectfully.
Wow guys..that is an amazing discovery. I feel bad for Mr. Kirkwoods family, but I am glad you were led to possibly his last 'home' if it can be called that. Keep up the searching.
So very true...must have been so very frightened, probably incredibly anxious constantly about sounds and the possibility of harm...it's truly hurts to think about. Here's praying he is able to finally find peace.
As a retired cop, I found this fascinating. Like you, I love exploring old sites and buildings. I have to say that you did some really good police work here; great job!
@Joseph Brown Little pussyboy
Some people just love to blow a cop at any chance don’t forget to swallow
ACAB
i do have a question. as long as we don't break anything, we can snoop as long as we want...right? there is a difference i know between staying there and looking around...i know that...
Joseph Brown stfu
You people should wear gloves ALL TIME as soon as you leave your car.
And a dust mask for your mouth.
What do you mean YOU PEOPLE!!!???
Ya. That oxygen will eat your skin. Seriously tho he should when handling random crap
Good advice...but still..HEY OUT & HELP!
Ok shud up mom
You guys helped him to be known and remembered.. He died alone but now we know about him..thanks
May his soul rest in peace now.
Right!?
Yes ⚰ RIP to my heart 1st nations Forever and forever..
shivagoddess333 what do you mean about he is dead
@@emeralduwu3143 the video in the end implies that he s dead..
Y'know, it's stories like this that truly make me grateful for how relatively well my life is going. I used to think my life sucked, but seeing so many scenarios like what this man went through slapped some sense into me.
I was thinking to live by myself in no where like in this house .
Just me
But it's terrifying idea
...
I agree.
Facts
Depends, can't really assume much from this.Could be a drug user, alcoholic, or a combination of things, Maybe even has mental problems. Our lives are ours not others and we can't walk around comparing to one another as our lives are different and everyone has the option to change our lives. We can say our life sucks cause it's our life and sometimes it does. Just be grateful to be living really.
Your tribute to Jeff was touching and tells us a lot about you and your daughter.....Your the type of people we would love to have as neighbors. God Bless you both as you Explore!
I don't know if anyone has mentioned yet, this is an old long distance telephone repeater station. You find a lot of empty ones because they were abandoned 40+ years ago in favor of fiber optic cables that can span much greater distances without the need for a repeater building.
That’s a really nice building for out in the middle of nowhere. Built to last for a long time. That electrical panel told an interesting story!
Wow. Interesting.
Thank you, I was wondering what this building was used for.
I think it’s nice how you said “If anyone is here come out and we won’t hurt you and we’ll leave.” I just think that’s nice of you.
DuhItzMeEllie •_• your sweet:)
Stefan you're*
Chemical apostrophes are for pussies.
Stefan Neither of you differ from each other
The Unexpected Meme Lord, thanks.
That bag is a bugout bag military style wouldn't surprise me if he had PTSD and left everything he knew to live where no one was because PTSD is very hard to deal with
Very insightful. A vet living out in boonies like back then
@@alexandertaves2730PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) makes some people want to be alone no one around so this guy knows probably more than you. It was hard to deal with still is now just not as much
I think you can buy those from Big 5
@Shawn Stafford I may not understand from experience but I get its hard to explain your feelings I wish you good health (mental and physical)
@Shawn Stafford Big 5 Sporting Goods store.
*he opens door and scary music comes*
Me: I am going to hide in the comments....
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Aliearia Starr please the more the better...
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Sounds like a man struggling with a broken heart. Been there, It's very hard to recover when everything you've work for your entire life falls apart.
It take a women a short time to recover from a broken heart, but a man it takes a few yrs to pull himself back together when your wife runs off with a fishing buddy. Yup hard to mend a broken heart to the point of trusting a women again..
@@richm7016 Nope not true. Im very sorry that some non caring woman broke your heart & hurt you but im one of those women that dont go around "falling in love " with a guy here & there. I truly loved one guy & had 2 kids with him at a young age & he broke my heart to the point where i never learned to trust much at all after him.I am not arguing or picking a fight & i wish you well..i just wanted to let you know not all women are heartless & vindictive. It really does go boty ways. I hope you find the right one for you & never get hurt again & i hope you are mendig through just fine.take care
Andrea Howser so I can set you two up together
@@mistastealyabooks5422 lmao...no I'm ok. Thank you for the concern but I stay pretty busy I'm not lonely I just have trust issues. Take care
.....mmmmmm, sounds like a man struggling with stress, depression, anxiety, and other mental heath issues, not a broken heart
I remember the news clip. I live in Arkansas and it hit hard seeing this video. Seeing how he went from someone you normally see walking around, shopping or talk with to this deserted building, alone, sick and probably confused about everything.
Lilyanna Jacobs 'Night terror' and going threw court issues. so it must have been heart breaking for him. At least they notice who he was. And what he was doing. Poor man.
It was very likely due to the ibuprofen. The same thing happened to me, except I lived. The telltale signs are there, particularly his tests showing nothing. I know what he went through - I experienced it. I was in the ER, and in every doctor's office they thought I was either lying or crazy because the tests showed nothing was wrong. It was a GI doctor who knew about nsaids and informed me. I do not wish it on anyone. Advil causes severe chest pain, joint pain and swelling, night sweats, panic attacks, acute gastrointestinal ulceration and bleeding, and horrible depression. You feel like you're dying because you are dying, just not in a way that shows up in a blood test. The tragedy here is that if he would have ceased taking Advil, the bleeding would have stopped in two days, his pain would have disappeared in a week, and his depression would have lifted immediately, and continued lifting for months after. I can't help but have that feeling of wanting to go back in time and rescue him.
Bikewithlove. That's how I feel about alot of people who die. If only I was there... Yesterday a friend of mine said.. his roommate murdered her 5 yr old daughter.. The mother stabbed her to death. And he wished he would have not went fishing that day or else he would have saved the little girl... It's sad... When people feel pain and feel alone they want to escape from it and can't. And end up doing things they normally wouldn't do. I feel you on everything you said. We live in a world where our emotions are set to not show or we have to just suck it up or we are weak. . It's a shame. We all need someone. No matter how much we feel or wanna be alone we need someone to talk to. To heal.
Thank you Vanessa, and I just noticed your handle also is 'with.' It takes one to know one. I wound up isolated too because not unlike the guy who died, my support system failed. We get the people that we get in life, and sometimes, like your friend, we get troubled people on our program and we don't see it coming. What an awful thing your friend went through. I've been there too. They caught up with him in Colorado and he's in prison for life. You never think it will happen on your watch but it does sometimes. I feel very lucky to have the kind of presence of mind that when the going gets weird I hit the books and look for the helpers, and I get out. My friends and family, and the bitter and confused females in my life dropped the ball in many ways but I know how to reach out and communicate, so for me it's you and people like you who help me to stay steady. It doesn't matter whether true thoughtfulness comes from a relative or a TH-cam comment, because it's the human kindness in it that matters, and a little bit goes a long way. I can only hope to be the same for you, just by being genuine. Imagine if everyone really figured it out. I'm convinced though, that the reason humans haven't destroyed themselves by now is that there is always just enough love in the world to keep us alive.
vanessa withheart I'm so sorry😰😰
May this lonely sick broken man be at peace now.
My heart hurts for him. He died alone.
Angel Stokes I don’t want to die like that
twisted wolf legacy That’s the plan
Angel Stokes and very sick. Physically and mentally.
Everyone dies alone
One of my high school teachers said this: "There are 2 times in your life that you are TOTALLY alone- even if there are several people in the room. 1: When you're born and 2: when you die. Those are the two things that you experience TOTALLY by yourself. No one can do anything for you but watch it happen at most."
Thank you for posting this memorial of an obviously hurting man. It's sad he didn't get the help he needed, but it's possible he didn't want it either. Still, thank you.
Thank you Elly Baerman.
This was not clickbait. Nice here is my like.
It's amazing the depths you went through to solve a mystery about a missing man so he can finally be remembered and may rest in peace.
God bless you Luigi
It's like everyone watching this is blind to what they just watched. There is a device on that table that could give you names, dates, email addresses, phone numbers and calendar appointments. It's called a palm pilot it's sitting on the table under the camera tripod. He even points out the damn things data sync recharger base the pilot uses to charge and sync with a computer.
@@KoolBreeze420 kids nowadays, SMH 😅
"Any one here"
"Yeah give me a couple minutes i'll be right out"
Lol
Fascinating, usually the titles are misleading, sensationalized; But this was dead on! You're a good detective.
j.d. di giusto no this wasn't.
Taking too much Ibuprophen can aggravate a stomach ulcer and cause one to cough up blood. I have a feeling that That is the source of the blood-stained tissues.
Amber Hayes well recognized
Amber Hayes *beer and ibuprofen is probably why he died
Amber Hayes at 7.30 you can see a blue magnetic flashlight on the stove which is currently sold at hardware stores, so id say not vacant for long
It'll be ibuprofen tablets with codeine, there's no point in just taking large amounts of ibuprofen unless you're trying to you're looking for a horribly painful death. Codeine, for those who don't know, is a opioid pain medication that can be abused (used to get high).
lisa ILuVmYcatz You'd be surprised. Blood when mized with saliva can look a LOT more than it is
So sad that people live like this .I am lucky to have a home
Always something to be thankful for.
Most likely he chose that lifestyle
I use to be so poor I didn't own a pair of shoes... I pray God gives everyone peace and joy in whatever circumstance we live
no you are not, if you work to have a home, guess what...you will have a home, and if you wanna wander around, you should be able to wander around.
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Explore With Us pilot thing is for a wifi hot spot.
do you carry a gun or a knife at least to protect you and the girl sorry don't know her name
Explore With Us I hope you have some form of self defense, I myself have a concealed carry permit but I live in Chicago so its an unfortunate necessity.
db bd you can get a permit in Chicago now? I know the courts basically forced the issue, but I thought they made it nearly impossible to do in practice. Outstanding to hear!!
Explore With Us Did y'all find out ther cause of death?
Even though this was just a video, I got the feeling of deep sorrow and a sense of evil. Did anyone else sense it too?
summer rose yes. Completely.
Nah, you're just trying to make yourself feel it
Yes, the music kills me
Yep felt it too. Its not built to be a house, no windows, doors or plumbing, odd empty gaps in the bricks, almost had me wondering if people were bricked in there, but thats going to a lot of effort to hide a dead body. The sleeping bag creeped me out, it really looked like someone was in it. I thought that was why the guy holding camera held off for a bit.
summer rose 🌹
I found this so incredibly sad. You presented in so well. Bravo for 1) your discovery and bravery 2) the way you told it. As a person with mental illness and who knows exactly what it's like to need to escape from society (I hope I don't ever die as a result, even if it's how I'm feeling at the moment,) you didn't play the blame game. You presented the facts. This is so real. Honest. Thank you.
Sometimes what seems like the solution to our peace and understanding only takes us further down the rabbit hole.
Yeap is Shurley is iv ben fighting this illness for years.!! No one seems to understand or wants too.😢😢😢
Very well said! This story, in particular, really saddened me. I hope he is a better place where he is happy.
I hope this man finds peace, remember to always check on your friends and family - life is too short & precious!
he died. He has never found peace.
@@rezopolis He did once he entered Heaven.🙂
@@charitysghost1207 Ohh, that place of the abrahamic mythology, right? Sry, I'm more into greek mythology, Olimpus was such a cool concept
@@rezopolis we really don’t care what you are into
I feel horrible for his family, losing him that way. I'm glad you guys were able to at least let them know that you'd found a place he had been.
Sarah Raigner sounds like his family were pieces of shit and didn't care about him to me.
xXDeadSilenceXx I agree. He needs the feelings.
My heart broke he was really struggling
Mental illness does not discriminate, however, often it can be managed. I pray Jeff is at peace.
Valerie Foster Same here.
Are you hiding in the comments get out their soldier
Nah I’m good
Ok
u caught me bro
Thank you guys for 80 likes
Ricky Perez you caught me awe nuts!
nevada is just a bunch of nowhere.
xican 88 i can confirm
Pretty much. It's a bunch of nowhere until you get to either Carson City, Reno or Las Vegas lol.
xican 88 I'm in Reno right now
Jake Thompson idk why but I loved Reno
i got that madness reference
This is literally the saddest exploration video I've ever watched.
Pray for the family.
@@nickypass861There's always family, whether by blood or not. Someone cared about him.
@@freedomlover9560 no some people like myself have no family at all and my pets are the closest to it I've got 😔
@@anonymiss495 Pets ARE family.
@@anonymiss495 pets are family
@@anonymiss495 Hope youre ok Heidi : ) & your pets. I kniw the feeling as i am in same situation.
Chin up, sweetie !
xoxo
Is anyone in here? Hello?
“Hey! Yeah I’m in the kitchen want a sandwich?”
Noah Herrmann hahahahaha
NO ,BUT ILL TAKE ONE OF THOSE HILLSHIERE FARMS SAUSAGES, WITH ALL THE STUFF THEY PUT IN THEM THERE MIGHT STILL BE GOOD. YUMMY
Noah Herrmann yeah a peanut butter one only peanutbutter
Noah Herrmann lol
XD... "if that's the case, I want your Playboy magazine."
This is a heartbreaking story. RIP Mr. Kirkwood.
The plastic foil was burned when you visited the second time.
The wheelbarrow and the shovel are also gone.
Someone burned the instrumentalities to hush up a crime.
Then they burned the cloth to destroy the evidence that Kirkwood was there.
The wheelbarrow has been used to transport the dead body of Kirkwood. Bet there was DNA traces inside of the plastic foil - for that reason it got burned down.
A wheelbarrow, a shovel and a plastic foil : like a „how to be a murder“ set
Why would someone destroy evidence if there was no crime.
And where is Kirkwoods car if he had the keys laying there?
Whatever happend must happend right after someone got the sausages, because you cant keep these for a long time outside the fridge.
We never know, to my mind this is a crime scene and its strange that the police is not investigation.
Thanks for the video and your courage stay safe man !
I love watching your videos
Greetings from germany
Juri Esser much of exactly what I thought
Also all of that blood... What could that be from? Hmm
Juri Esser wouldn’t they inform the police about the site and they could have tested that blood (dna) and compared if they found the man dead?
the keys is the ony thing i can explain. I have keys from my previous places of where i used to live. so its not uncommon to have a key that doesn't seem to fit. for the rest, wow good observation.
I'm not sure what you mean. Could you link the parts before/after
This is heart wrenching. No one knows what this guy was dealing with. As someone who suffers from mental illness this is both scary and motivational. Thank you for being respectful. Most people wouldn't have been.
DrewPeacock69 TrippyDrew69 I know
I thought you were going to find a dead body
World of tanks_ 13 😂😂😂😂😂
I thought he was going to pull a Logan Paul too
You don't wanna see dead body cause I have seen when I was like10 years old it will stay with you forever about 4 bodies at the young age it's sad
Same
Guys so did y’all see those glasses on the table? Those are the same glasses Jeffery is wearing in that pic
@ᏔHY SO SEᎡIOUS !!! uhhhh the guy in the vid that is missing
@@HarryHilton123 Why so stupid would of been a better name huh
That "happy birthday to me" thing kinda made me sad.
Me too when I first heard it.
DapperDragon Everyone forgot about me on my birthday last Saturday March 4th
Kelpo gaming I know the feeling.
Kelpo gaming my birthday is on the 24th and I always have crappy birthdays
Mary Wise - I do too... I pray yours if awesome this year tho❤️
Safe in the comments
yeeh
I literally had to pause the video before I scrolled down to the comments
Nani Sunami v
Yea yea 😱😱
If I passed by that I wouldn’t explode just be like kewl place in middle of nowhere
thank you for posting legitimate content, and not faking or making things out to be what the aren't in your videos. you deserve some sort of award for camera work and attention to detail. thank you for shedding light on mental illnesses and this mans story.
Him : dried up tea bags. Ye-
Me : he was there . they said he was british so he was there.
The background music makes me get scared omg. Am I the only one hiding in the comments ?
lol Ok no I am hiding too
Nope
lol Ok same
lol Ok nope
I am tooo
I really appreciate how respectful and kind you are as you explore this situation. It is obvious you guys are compassionate, concerned, and not just exploiting the situation. Thank you for what y’all do, we love your channel!
Hello
@Christel Thomas very well said 🙂
I concur 💯
✌️💙✨
Very respectful illegal entry indeed
Very respectful looking inside the shitter💩
Wow!!! It brought tears to my eyes. Thank God that you found something that his wife could at least have of his, you know. I know that it took a lot of praying, soul searching and thought to put this video out there but remember this, you did something fantastic for him. You, and the young lady, preserved his last thoughts, which are priceless to his wife, trust me.
God bless the both of you and please be extremely, extremely, extremely careful when searching abandoned houses.
His wife had a restraining order against him...
Vivian Lee I had no idea about this but hopefully in his writings it may explain why he was the way he was.
Katherine Monroe I'm so confused what is going on
Vivian Lee
It's easy for a woman to get Restraining Order
Vivian Lee i have two restraining orders against me LOL
Not click bait. Thank you. Very interesting and you were sensitive to the person.
When encountering a place like that, it's usually best not to be leaving finger prints behind. Just saying.
Curtis Duperron except he has video evidence
EatMoreWaffles if this was a crime scene it would’ve sucked if by touching stuff they messed up prior prints.
Do you guys bring some type of weapons for defense just in case you never know what you could walk into...
Lacey both do, yes. They have mentioned it in several lives. Both packing legally with CCW. Thank goodness. I still wouldn’t go to some of the places they go.
Lacey yeah I always think some Hillbilly is going to pop out of nowhere with a shotgun and blow their heads off 😂
B.K same
Ur pretty 😍❤️😍
Chris D. 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮
the blood stains could be a sign someone had tuberculosis, it s no worthy exploring abandoned buildings , there is a huge risk of infection
Illumininja Confirmed he wasn't wearing gloves most of the time tho
TB can last for months in dried up spittle...it is super contagious...you better wear more than a mask
anime equals douchebag saliva? Grow up.
anime equals douchebag “Spittle, Noun, Saliva, especially as ejected from the mouth.” -Merriam Webster
He's in town with his bro getting supplys
How heartbreaking! This poor man. RIP Jeff.
when he opened the door i thought there was gonna be a jump scare
nop
Same
Jadyn Thiessen me to
thıs ain’t fnaf my dude
Jadyn Thiessen same!!
What a very sad story! Really nice of you to make this into kind of a tribute video for him! Sleep Tight jeff, Hopefully now you've found peace!
danza88?
The guy who was sleeping in the abandoned building was dead, they found out after doing some research.
Leave a camera in Horton mine for 24 hrs . Like if u want it too .
horton mine is barred up now
I’m in Arkansas and this is the first I’ve heard of this. So glad to see his story told. So sad how his life ended.
Hello neighbor😁
This could easily be a TV documentary. RIP Jeff Kirkwood.
Dude this video was deadass like a movie, amazing. R.I.P
Orange Production Thank you.
you guys are so dumb. its obviously some vagabonds camp. it wasn't destroyed, the person either moved on, or had to leave because of people coming around. these types of people aren't like normal people and have to be treated special. delicately. they are in defense mode.
Bo Huggabee why so hostile mr TH-cam badass?
Orange Production rip 💔
PTB OC y
Honestly I am speechless, this video shares so much mystery and emotion. The diary entries made me go cold, something so sinister about the whole situation. Jeff died in 2015, but there was new blood, and other objects after you had been, maybe someone else knew Jeff was there, and stayed there after? I honestly don't have a good theory, but this video and every other from you is absolutely incredible 👍🏻
Who's jeff
Holly Elizabeth yeah, who's this Jeff?
gabyelnuevo I am Jeff
Dat Boi aja? dang
My name is Jeff?
Killed by the family court system. Lost his daughter and broke down.
Interesting you mention that . My best friend is getting screwed by the legal system here in oregon and because of some lies from a woman that went nuts he can't see his daughter , lost his house , his job and is about to lose his mind . He's staying here in my yard in a tent .
@@magapickle01 That is terrible. I know all about being screwed by the court system with my children.I won't go into details but I hate the family court system.. Its even harder when the ex has a father who is a Deputy in a very small town.
His daughter died, wasn't taken away by "the family court system".
His child died and he was driven crazy by grief. That's not the same thing at all.
@@thefinewino Yeah I am aware of what happened and why do you gotta jump to kids being taking away. You don't know me or wtf I was talking about!!
This is probably one of the first times where something actually disturbing has been found in one of these abandond buildings. Thumbs up for that, and thank you for good content!
Thank you for the support JtsTheDane. :-)
Explore With Us and your family
JtsTheDane nope omar gosh found a dead body in prison
8:12 The keys on the table really freak me out for some reason
6:43 the lotion on the side of the bed 💀
Metal Never Ends inbvb
you going to hell💀this man dead
Flight Team oops 😂
💀
Metal Never Ends It gets lonely out there 😂
Him suffering the death of a child that wasn't paternally his just goes to show what a kind man he must have been! Really sad that he couldn't see the kindness in somebody else though as they could have helped him!
I would be scared shitless if I went in there! You're a brave man
SCREEN KING what did he find
Alzxo idk maybe watch the video
iMatt - Short Videos i did and he said it was real in the title he said found dead body but its not
SCREEN KING same I get scared in a empty room in the dark
Moving in to my new place was hard
This is that type of shit you find on Netflix, damn
Jack Sokol favorite song from humanz? ;)
Once he opened that door I IMMEDIATELY scrolled through the comments 😂 so I won't see it
Sophia Borges omg same
Sophia Borges saaaaaaaammmmeee
Sophia Borges Sam dam
Same
Sophia Borges too true
Wow guys, this is one of the most amazing videos I've ever seen.
Poor guy, may he rest in peace. At least now his family knows more about the mystery of his disappearance, thanks to your discovery, and your tenacity in following up on your instincts. ❤️
I kept feeling like I was watching a fallout gameplay video exploring an abandoned place.
GET A JOOOOBBBB
Say no way say no wayyyyyya no wayeyayyy na na why don't you get a job????.....I love that song too bro.
I was obviously joking *eye roll* ever heard of my friend satire.
i love exploring abandoneds for that reason
bunch of pussied u r
It's odd most of the building was empty and he seemed to just live in that tiny section.
Makes you feel safer
@@honey_bee65 yep, exactly what I expected
Easier keep one area warmer and well lit that trying to live in the whole house.
It’s probably to keep warm at night
at 3:45 there's a super deep growl that I don't think you heard. like so he can see the comment
patrick panchell i heard it too
patrick panchell good capture
patrick panchell i secretly want to go back and listen but is to much of a chicken and its 3:35 am 😂
patrick panchell yeah me to ... Creepy
I think the growl is a part of the creepy music
I miss these videos of you and your daughter exploring
I don't know how I got here but damn, great video.
Robert Pirlot same with me
same same :)
I came from people climbing cranes and running from police...
me 2
hahaah
Drummerb0y4tune yeah haha
Great job on the video . Also great job with our investigation skills .
Thank you Reel Fun, I appreciate it! :-)
Explore With Us please check the save game files for Jeffrey's name
Damn man. It's good you're not like some of these other explorer's and you care about what you're doing. Rip Mr Kirkwood
Thank you Patch, I appreciate it! :-)
I feel so sad for that man. He died alone in the middle of nowhere. RIP Jeff Kirkwoid
Great job guys- very impressive how you respectfully and with care kept on looking for clues as to whom was living there. This is the first video I’ve seen of yours , I’ll definitely check out more! I don’t know how I got here but glad I did!!!😍
I'm surprised you don't have more subs. But in all honesty these videos are great and they make my mind wonder. Keep it up.
Thank you for the support iWow. :-)
Poor guy. He needed professional help, and no one was there to help him. It was a miracle that he even found this building. Conversion disorder doesn't sound good at all. Did he have a child with him?
Whenever I Explore, I Carry A Fully Loaded Military-Issued M9 Sidearm.
I prefer an AR, which I usually keep on my back, but when things get sketchy, I keep it in a low ready. But when I am filming something sketchy I use the 9 mm so I can still hold my camera. 🙂
Explore With Us wow so cool
shouldve gotten a different 9mm handgun. m9s blow
I carry a 12 round airsoft BB gun, I use bbs that are heavy and do damage, makes me feel comfortable. It's based off a 911 responder
Hot Ch33se , I cant, it's not built for metal ones, I'm planning to get one that can, hopefully I can get one that's semi auto
This is one of the most sad heartbreaking stories i have ever heard. He must of died so lonely & so sad & then to see that picture of the cute lil girl on his facebook....wow! My heart hurts for him so much.Thank you for being so kind to those he need it EWU. Your good people.Im going to watch part 2 now.rest in peace Jeff S. Kirkwood ⭐🌙🌠
Who is Jeff s Kirkwood
@@connormacleod7010 tge man that stayed there......doh!
I find the glasses strange they look like something a teen or a child would wear. I also find the child paintings on the wall weird. I think the police should have been called to investigate before the scene was destroyed.
Being an abandoned building, they may not be related. It is also possible that children visited the place when he was living there and did not want to tell their parents. Running away and mental illness does not mean that he was a violent man and who knows, he may have welcomed some non judgmental company. To me, the saddest part of the whole story was that his wife disowned him at his time of need. It happens all too often.
I agree. Too coincidental. Those glasses were way too small for him and were definitely designed for children. The paintings sporadicness would also be explained by a child. 3,4,5,6 years old doing it
I think that if you find a place that shows evidence of some one who is reported missing you should call the police. Let the professionals do what they do best. Who knows what went on their. It could have been innocent or it could have been something much worse. I would not want my child going there.
no they were not
It's not uncommon for people who have lost their mind to draw random stuff on the wall. The glasses look about average size too.
I theories that he was likely suffering from extreme dysentery towards the end, which would explain the medicine, vomit bucket and bloody toilet paper. Dysentery leaves you badly dehydrated and delirious, plus he was already very mentally ill. So could explain the weird painting.
I struggle with near suicidal depression every day, it always feels so black and white, so worthless to get out of bed, like a colorless silent movie about the same thing is repeating on a screen in my head and projecting through my eyes.
Thank you for this video, I don't understand how or why but on some level it connected in such a human way with me that I can't even describe it.
Thank you, I hope you are getting some help with your depression, it's a very serious condition. If you are feeling suicidal, you need some support. Contact a professional to get some help ASAP. They can help you. You could also make some videos about the issue to help others, and it might help you also deal with it.
I feel sorry for you
CharraTV , hi , read your statement. please find someone you trust and you can talk to. there is a person out there that will love you for you. Charra you are so very special. think about a support group that do things together. you will find that there are ones that will see your pain and cry with you. you find yourself a good friend that accepts you for you. talk is the best medicine. please see that your life is not meaningless. and soon you will see that your calling will most likely be to help others that feel like you. you owe it to all of us to share your pain and teach us how to deal with life's pitfalls. you will overcome and be a angel to many.
As another depressed person, I can sort of understand what Jeff Kirkwood's final days may have been like. Maybe you're picking up on the same thing.
Just think if you are at rock bottom there's no way that it could get worse,so every little thing will make you fell happy, fell amazing
6:42 theirs deadass a bottle of lotion next to his mattress lmaoooo
i saw that too. why are we the only 2 people noticing that? LOL . i have a sick mind i guess lmfao
I saw it immediatly but don't have the courage to comment.
First Last well you go ahead and believe that but yaehh no deffinitly not for that
Was about to say the same thing lmao
First Last maybe he was trying to keep his scrotum healthy XD
Sadly i can understand his desire to b in that place!! 😞 Depression etc slowly kills ur soul n u lay ur body down hiding from reality n ur truths n ... U wait--
😔😔
Melinda you are so right. Depression guts you from the inside out, you isolate to try to survive and isolation just makes it worse...it is unbearably AWFUL. God bless this poor man.
Not to take away from his pain and story. But I have PTSD and I can stay away from people for as long as possible. It does get lonely but it feels so much better to not question reality. It’s scary. I once stayed at a friends abandoned house... no water, no electric, no food unless they brought me something, dirty dirty house. But I was happy to be alone and comfortable. I hope he is at peace now and we can know more about his last days. Rest In Peace.
@@nodz365 sending love and hugs❤️❤️
Yes, sad but happy in depressed situations to be left alone and not bothered. Some of us do not like social and society.
Do you ever run into any dangerous squatters? And have you ever found any dead bodies?
Garry Price What are squatters?
Squatters are people that claim unclaimed/unused land, google it for me info
Cuphead squatters are people that live in places but aren't meant to be there. You can have house squatters. They stay in houses but are not supposed to be there🙂
Garry Price
ThatPomegranate Girl uh yea
I googled the name "Shane cox" and found out that that's the name of a wanted criminal, maybe he made a shelter in the middle of nowhere to hide from the cops i dunno.
cocks
Cocks is actually his middle name name. Ucker is last name. Maybe that'll help.
Onecomplicated M'fer major is his given first name
Spanky
The guy who used to live here goes by the name of Jefferey Kirkwood. Look him up. His body was found in 2015.the dude s life took a turn for the worse when all his family members died. Probably went into severe depression.
Wow how that's amazing that you could help his family come to a conclusion with where is was before he passed. Did you ever find if he died from exposure or self afflicted?
Perfect amount of likes
@@andrew.feeser not anymore. Sorry, not sorry!
Lol jk!
Overdosed on pills
@@Kidavulpes The official report said that his body had perished too much from "the wilderness" to be able to determine any cause of death.
@@Kidavulpes probably just part of his skeleton with a few ratty sun bleached clothes around it, obviously no way to determine a cause of death, but yes probably from illness or dehydration, maybe pill overdose
At least you found where he was living before he passed and brought some closure to his family ..but you must start taking gloves with you ,just in case ..Your good people and if I was lost I would hope someone like you cared enough to look 😀
it looks like he didnt want to be found or didnt want any help by the looks of it he went out and got those things but didnt try finding his way back home.. its a sad story! great video!
Thank you megan mitchell! :-)
Looks like my gf has been living there tbh
Rei anne
Rei anne 9
I'm not talking about my ex gf, I'm talking about my current gf.... it's a joke that makes reference to how untidy she is with hours work.... I think it's a type of comedy called irony if I'm not mistaken.
mitch mclean WOW.......COOL?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
mitch mclean lol
When you found the Nintendo DS the game Animal Crossing. If you find a DS charger, the animal crossing game should say the persons name
I was thinking the same thing. But in the part two video I think everything was stolen and burned. I feel like before he uploaded the video he should have told the police. the whole story has been on my mind since I saw this video. I'm also a HUGE animal crossing fan so I was taken off guard when I saw the DS and Game. really crazy and so sad :(
That particular game keeps more personal data than most; it also has a message board, authorities could have found some information on it, including the owner, and the Mac address of the user that registered it.
I love animal crossing
Sydney Lane oh my god, yea! Genius!
Save that ds
Jeff Kirkwood's remains were found in this area on Dec 9th 2015. Journal entries stopped around July 27th indicating a possible time of death. These people made a great discovery in the road to closure for his family...this is truly amazing, I hope the EWU guys know that they did a good thing by continuing their investigation.
This poor man. His whole world was taken from him. He had nothing and no one to turn to. He found a place he could go and hide and wait for death. He was a craftsman and he cared for a disabled child. When he became old society threw him away. A disposable man.
The children's drawing on the wall looks too high to be drawn by a child?
I thought the same thing
It could’ve been drawn by Jeff and confirms his mental illness
this is sad ..he looks like a good person from his photo ..
I want to thank you for taking the time to research and solve his disappearance.
R.I.P. Jeffrey.
One of the creepiest, saddest videos I've seen on TH-cam. I hope Jeff is at peace now. Thanks you guys for discovering this place and putting an end to this mystery. RIP Jeff.
You just earned a sub.
The Million Dollar Duck, Thank you for the support. :-)
The Million Dollar Duck can it be a tuna sub
Damir Seay No, the tuna sub is mine.
The Million Dollar Duck lolllll
There was a lot of glasses in that house and in the picture he was wearing glasses
Search again
This was less disturbing and more sad. As others have said though, by creating this video you have let the world know that he lived and that he struggled. You handled this very respectfully.
this house is a mix silent hill, blair witch and MYST
Pablo Garcia I was thinking the same thing!
Wow guys..that is an amazing discovery. I feel bad for Mr. Kirkwoods family, but I am glad you were led to possibly his last 'home' if it can be called that.
Keep up the searching.
So sad that he died all alone by himself in the middle of nowhere.
So very true...must have been so very frightened, probably incredibly anxious constantly about sounds and the possibility of harm...it's truly hurts to think about. Here's praying he is able to finally find peace.