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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 28 มี.ค. 2020
- Bipolar Disorder is a mental health condition in which the person suffers from episodes of extreme mood swings, along a spectrum, ranging from mania to depression.
In this episode of My Life With, we follow two people living with BD in New York, to show the realities of living between two extremes.
2:22 What is Bipolar Disorder?
4:40 Bipolar I
6:14 Misdiagnosis
6:45 Recovery
9:58 Stigma
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As someone with bipolar II I’d never in a million years choose to live with this illness than to not. I’ve lost all my friends because of it. I’ve lost great jobs because of it. I lost my car. I went to jail. I went into debt I’m still trying to get out of. And I have parents that still think I’m just mopping around and being lazy.
me too!!!! i cant believe theyd choose to live with it if they had a choice. I would do anything to get rid of it. It ruins my life, my education, my relationships and my time in my early 20s. It steals everything i have!
Have you tried ayahuasca medicine? This was an ultimate cure for me.
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Going down that same road rn. All this had to happen in order for me and others to have more clarity that this is a mental illness issue.
a different mental health journey is a different opinion, not a wrong one.
A lot more people than we realise suffer in silence without being diagnosed.
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@@truAPEeth i do not believe believe this though. The clip is evidence enough
Yea that's for sure. I know I have some kind of mental illness, but I can't get my self together to tell my doctor. I am also diabetic so I speak with him often. Last time he asked if I was feeling lonely or something? And I was just like na man am fine! That's the got damn last thing I am:(
Yes and yews
💯
That dude is a real friend, lots of guys aren’t open but the fact that he checks in on his friends and their mental health proved that man is a good human
Yes you are absolutely right! A lot of people don't care to understand or just can't handle it because we're so destructive sometimes & than we're so depressed & low sometimes & they just truly can't handle the extremes & the inconsistency! But some people are willing to look past all of that & see the real you & know okay that's not her/him that's their mental illness & will actually stick with you through it all! Very few & far between, in my life anyway, so I am truly grateful for anyone who has a friend in your life like him! It feels good to know that someone out there actually sees you, the real you & not just your mental illness & defines you by it!! Thank you for saying something about this because not enough people realize or truly appreciate someone like him in their lives & not all of us have someone like him in our lives either!! Kudos to you for being an amazing human being & friend! You're both lucky to have each other in your life ❣️💯💜💚☯️👋
For real. I wish I had friends.
I agree.
Soccer boring gay and pathetic.
Yes I thought what a kind and thoughtful friend to have not many people are like that.
Once I removed alcohol and 420 from my life, and allowed the meds to do their thing, I have been as even keeled as I have ever been. Sobriety has been the key for me, 392 days and going strong...
Maybe you aren’t bipolar because even when a bipolar person is sober they will still have symptoms of bipolar and difficulty maybe you had substance abuse disorder which was the cause for most of your symptoms considering you saying being sober got rid of your symptoms lol. A lot of ppl get misdiagnosed and their behavior is actually due to their addictions. With bipolar your symptoms don’t go away just because you’re sober that’s the difference. A lot of addicts display behaviors of bipolar or ASPD but once they get sober all of those behaviors and symptoms they had from the drugs or alcohol go away so it’s more linked to drugs and alcohol. Bipolar doesn’t get better just because you’re sober both times i went into psychosis I was sober. Smoking Weed actually helps me avoid mania.
@@user-xs8ou5od6m they’re on bipolar meds, if that’s working then I’d say they’re bipolar and found a good med combo
@@user-xs8ou5od6mmaybe bipolar disorder shows up different in everyone and saying maybe you aren’t is invalidating and apathetic
@@user-xs8ou5od6mbut the OP did mention medications. I assume it’s the combination of being sober and medications that is allowing him an improvement in life
I cut alcohol and smoking a couple months ago, just because I've been noticing patterns of what's been effecting me negatively the most. I get way to into them and drink too much or smoke too much and too frequently, and it's not good. I'm actually getting help for the first time ever cause I've been raised to not feel comfortable with help. This comment section has been insane for me. It's nice not feeling so alone for once
Can’t believe the thumbnail is a handful of Xanax, such a bad way to represent mental illness and benzo addiction
Sam Julia I know.
It might just be me but all the xanax ive seen and took has been white
zombiegunner 3arc there’s different types of
Benzos which is the main ingredient for the high Xanax gives
zombiegunner 3arc the one in the thumbnail is 1mg Xanax
Ptguy0618 actually it’s not, it’s a tranquilizer..
praying for all of us who suffer with these invisible illnesses... feels like I’m invisible at times.
I totally get that.
You're not invisible. I promise.
Something about brain cell membranes they know what's going on now more
I totally feel this I feel extremely lazy or unsuccessful because of my mental health
You aren’t the only one, I really hope you get through it. I’m trying but nothing helps.
Hello nafisha
Psychedelics are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough. It's quite fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety. Saved my life.
Can you help with the reliable source I would really appreciate it. Many people talk about mushrooms and psychedelics but nobody talks about where to get them. Very hard to get a reliable source here in Australia. Really need!
Yes, dr.sporessss I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I wish they were readily available in my place.
Microdosing was my next plan of care for my husband. He is 59 & has so many mental health issues plus probable CTE & a TBI that left him in a coma 8 days. It's too late now I had to get a TPO as he's 6'6 300+ pound homicidal maniac.
He's constantly talking about killing someone.
He's violent. Anyone reading this Familiar w/ BPD know if it is common for an obsession with violence.
Is he on instagram?
Yes he is. dr.sporessss
Can we just appreciate how great of a friend the mechanic is? It makes me want to cry because I’ve never had that pure love from a friend. But it makes me really happy they have each other!
I'm sorry Maar, I only have my ex in my life. I hate when people say they don't have friend's though and they do...when I say I don't have friend's I only have one and it's my ex and I don't really see him as a friend. Sorry you don't have any friend's though that's just an awful feeling no one believe it either.
People don't realize how exhausting it is. You feel like you're stuck. You feel unfixable and incapable of change. You're always going to be running back and forth between two terrifying places
Yes exactly. It’s exhausting
On a Hamster 🐹🐹 Wheel constantly, it just flips and points in a different direction. It's absolutely exhausting
I agree with some of this, but the idea that you’ll always go between two extremes is only partially correct. Study Jung regarding enantiodromia and learn why it affects people. The only way through anything is known as the 3rd thing (transcendent function). Basically what this means is that the mind finds balance in realizing that the truth is a blend of the conscious and unconscious mind. The West has no idea about the unconscious mind and so it is demonized, and the result is mental illness.
@@eyeexaggerate7687 u seem like u mean well, but that's not how mental illness works. Also, I'm not from the west. Literally asian.
@@yeet7043 I’m on the other side of the desk, and had to go from unassembled to assembled to get there. Thanks, I’m 20 years into the study of depth psychology and have been part of research and so on. I haven’t even scratched the surface here about what mental illness is. Good luck to you.
i feel like this disorder isn't taken as seriously because we're not depressed all the time, like there's periods where we are fine and everyone is like see it's not that bad, and then the very next day i could think my life isn't worth living or i could be blowing through my entire bank account. i hate this disorder so much
@@MaZeR98765 stay strong it takes so much time n trials
So when you say blowing through entire bank account does that mean you get the urge to spend money or that you feel like you have to spend money or something bad will happen?
@@deepanshumolasi7151 the urge to spend money sounds like mania. The thoughts that something bad would happen if money isn't spent sounds more like schizophrenia
@@nativechique7589 so when a person in mania spends money does he know he is overspending or wasting the money or does he realise it only after his mania is over?
@@deepanshumolasi7151 that I do not know. When u find out let me know cuz I'll probably forget to ask my dr. And gotta remember there's bipolar 1 and 2. 2 has hypomania. Good questions.
Watching things like this always makes me cry. I was diagnosed with bipolar type 1 last year, at 24. Before that I was so cruel to myself, always thinking that I was weak, crazy, not enough (when I was depressed) or too much (when I was euphoric -which was often). I just wish I could hug my teen version, saying that she wasn’t to blame of anything and things would eventually get better.
Hello mam i hav
I could remember several years ago I was diagnosed with ADHD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Never thought I would be saying this about mushrooms
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source. I'm 64 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Greece. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.raymycology. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
I hate that psilocybin gets grouped with drugs like cocaine and heroin. Mushrooms are a remedy, not a vice! I went on a microdose treatment for a couple of months and within the first week, every sight of a cigarette got me questioning why I was doing all that to myself. It really works.
childhood. It was relentless. I assumed it would ultimately end me somehow. About twelve years ago I randomly accepted the offer from a friend of a few doses of mushrooms. I did them two consecutive nights alone. First night was pretty mild. The second night? Wow. I saw my depression from every angle, realized much. Next day: depression totally gone. Never came back, never coming back. It's like it's a forest far away I can remember, and could probably find again with enough effort, but it has zero impact on anything in my life or mind. They honestly saved my life and improved it immensely. I never did them again, either. I wish there was a good, organized way to administer them to people who would benefit from them.
the biggest mistake i made a lot was pushing myself into a manic state to get things done, fucking everything up, and then ending up in a deep depression with all the regret of what i just did.
man i hear you. life is tough enough without these ailments. GOD bless you ! hang in there.
I feel you😉
i worry about this too, constantly. over the years my limits have gotten better, but my family's insistence that i always try harder and push myself more frighten me because im always worried one day it will be too much and i'll push myself too far and lose everything that i've worked so hard for in the process. its a definite struggle.
I've been a manic state the past 4 days and now I'm in the deep dark lows which is worse the mania. But the mania will destroy everything including your life. I was buying strangers food, drinks and giving them money. Now depression has me in it's grips.
LMAOOO same
His friend instantly made me cry.
Its so important to have people like that around you
He’s so cute!l they make each other so happy 😍
Awhh i wasn't the only one I got so sad and cried there friendship made me so happy
Must be demon possessed. Pray.
I’m bipolar and I lost everything. I spent years laying in bed with closed windows all the time, I lost all my friends but two, I lost my job, my parents thought that it was all an act and I was lazy and started to believe me the second time I tried to unalive myself, but even then they didn’t want me to take drugs, and said that I had to “help myself”. I lost all my pleasure in doing the activity that I once loved, and it took 11 years to find the right combination of medications. But in the meantime I gained over 100 pounds, so I hated my face and my body. I didn’t marry, and I haven’t had a meaningful relationship because is almost impossible bear with my mood changes. Would I live without bipolar disorder? Hell yeah.
Don't cheat yourself out of loving someone else. I found a wonderful man and he has dealt with alot of stuff with me, but he loves me and we have been married 26 years. He had never heard of Bi polar disorder but you can bet he knows now. Lol. Please be kind to yourself.
@@christinecrow1410 you’re so sweet!! Thank you for your kind words ☺️ I’m happy for you and I’m sure -😉- your husband loves you dearly. I hope I’ll be as lucky as you are!
@@topo7130 you are very welcome.
I was diagnosed with BPD since my teenage, spent my whole life fighting BPD. Also suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Not until a friend recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. This is something that really need to be use globally to help people with related health challenges.
Congrats on your recovery. Most persons never realizes psilocybin can be used as a miracle medication to save lives. Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death bud, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Greece. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them.
YES very sure of Dr.benfungi. I have the same experience with anxiety, depression, PTSD and addiction and Mushrooms definitely made a huge huge difference to why am clean today.
Ive done shrooms last month in my house. It taught me how severely traumatized I was from alcohol. I healed from many mental traumas from my past and was able to forgive, let go. Shrooms to me is a remedy not a vice. I even felt more refreshed the morning after. So no hangovers. No depression mood for days. No anxiety.I now have a more calm mind
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
This pandemic is exasperating my bipolar so bad. I can't get to therapy and I don't have a schedule. 🙃
Edit: guys I'm doing so much better! I've been doing therapy via zoom and I love my therapist. I've connected with her more than those in the past (probably why I quit.) I have new insight, a new job, and I'm packing for a big move. If you're struggling keep the faith. Good things are right around the corner. I promise.
Same here dude oof
Try to find a therapist that has a virtual option ❤️
I'm sorry to hear that. I think this pandemic has exasperated everyone's anxiety that much more, even created anxiety for people that never had it to begin with. Please be calm, we will get through this. I've found that writing in a diary has helped. Also meditation through music and artwork. I still try to maintain a schedule even though I don't know when I will be going back to work. But it helps me feel that much more sane.
I'm going through something similar. And you're not alone. I'm doing everything in my power to stay sane.
Exacerbating *
As a person with bipolar type 2, being touch with friends is quite difficult. When I’m in a depressive episode, I can’t reply anyone. And when I see people, I’m hypomanic so they think I have no problems. It’s been hard without working or studying. But I hope it will change at some point soon. Sending love to anyone who are suffering with mental disorder.
Manatee J, same here, bipolar 2. with long history of misdiagnosis. finally I know what is it, so I tried almost everything. everybody is different. Finally I feel OK with Trintelix, Diazepam and Pregabalin and if something changes (+ or -) I surch on the net and in my memories and go to see my GP if it is serious and take something for a short period of time. BUT these 3 meds are the basic and for me made miracles after 20 years of useless meds with horrible side effects. I had a long very deep depressive episode so I almost didn't leave the 🏠 max twice a month. I didn't feel the covid 19 lockdowns ( there were 2 here in Ireland). But with those 3 combo I am able to work. but friends. oh God, it was always so difficult to keep m friends. I have only 1 bf ( ms sister) and the others are only a long term performance, I simple studied and watched others' behaviour. So I absolutely understand you.
i’m going to the doctors on the 22nd of next month to hopefully get a diagnosis! at this point i’m hoping i’m bipolar so it gives a reason as to why i act the way i do and so i can finally get the help i need. currently my 2 best friends of over 10 years do not associate with me anymore due to my behavior the last 3 months. and i’ve always found it hard to text people/call people back and i can’t explain why and no one understands why and gets really upset with me for it.
@@ClareSw thank you for the comment. I’m glad you have found the meds that work for you. After 5 years, I’m still trying to find the right meds. I hope your mental health stays stable!
@@marystier6194 keeping friendships is very hard. I hope you find good treatment !
@@GreenAndTheToe Thank you and appreciate your kindness. I'm Ok, like a rollercoaster. On Monday 😅 happy energetic and organize my meet ups with friends but the next day I am deep down so I switch off my phone and hide But try my best, dear. you made my day today :-)
I was diagnosed with BPD and Bipolar disorder. The hardest part for me is when those days come when I have no energy and even a text message is too much. People think I’m lazy and love failing. Imagine waking up in bed and being so drained and terrified at the same time. It’s a miracle I’m still here and accomplished what I have.
Hey CJ I have both too!
I get the text thing . I find it overwhelming too at times . Especially when you try and tell people you’re not too good they know you’ve got bp yet they ask why !
@@sweet2sourr well u don't just stop using oil salt sugar ❤
You’re not alone 💙
Stop making up excuses for your inability to grow up. im sure you are lazy
Having someone that puts their life in yours knowing that you’ll be a problem and yet they’re willing to stand next to you until your mental issue is under control is a beautiful blessing. They’re like friends that don’t say they’ll go to war with you, but are the first ones to walk into it with you.
Hello bro I am from India I am bipolar bro my life is useless my relations with my family and friends and girlfriend r destroy I am broke please can u talk to me I am alone please 🥺🙏
I think we also need to recognize that stumbling upon a dead body would traumatize anyone, not just someone with bipolar disorder. It’s possible to have both PTSD and Bipolar disorder at the same time.
I have bpd and ptsd as well as anxiety and depression
I have bpd and ptsd.. and yea it is tough ride.
@@shawngaming5683 same and it can be a living hell
I think they were inferring that traumatic incidences can set off bipolar in people who otherwise didn't no they had it or hadn't been displaying as many symptoms but they don't really elaborate on that so who knows
Bpd means borderline personality disorder
Bipolar people are the most kind, gentle, fun, generous and emphatic people i meet. You just have to ignore some of the strange things that can happen during episodes, because it is not them. It is the disorder.
Well said! 💗
True. I've been on manic episode the last 4 days. I was giving money to strangers and buying people food and drinks. I was also sleeping outside and now the depression has kicked in. After the mania the lows are the worse.
@@FacelessProphet1 how are you doing buddy? Hope you are doing alright :-)
I really wish the mother of my children understood this
@@roadrunnadon9573 discussion, forward a video, forward a link. Anything to help expose her to knowledge about it.
I just want to encourage people. I was diagnosed with a combination of anxiety and depression many years ago. I went on medication, we tinkered with the dosage and combination, I did talk therapy, then I got introduced into shrooms it worked on myself, and while I would say everything perfect, I have a good life, one which I'm grateful for.
I'm going through mushroom infusion therapy, and I can confirm that it does work real good..
after my trip yesterday, I did understand why mushrooms are praised... you can have some beautiful experiences on them..
Golden teachers has been my go-to mushroom for months, it has helped in my recovery journey
Y'all all talk about the benefits but you don't say where one can grab from...
dr.rinehartshrooms
i have to say this really hit home for me. i have bipolar 1 with schizophrenia. i have tried so many meds that i got to a point that i stopped trying because nothing worked. i am still struggling today i am in a major low. i can’t stop crying and it makes me feel weak and judged. this video made me feel like i’m not alone and that it can get better. maybe not today or tomorrow but one day. thank you for sharing your story.
Drchala1 from west Africa who I find here on TH-cam channel I’m Convinced he can help you with this .
You can do it! I’ll pray for your success.
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤ ❤
I've come acrossed that clozapine is helpful for schizophrenics to stop voices and help with addictions. Also, ketogenic diet along with NAC, vit D3 (to reduce inflammation in the body ie brain) Omega 3, B vitamins etc can help. I'd get my son to do this but he won't listen.
I know that bi polar is scary when it happens, just remember to breath and understand that not everything that we think is correct sometimes our negative thoughts are so powerful that we let them control us. I think that understanding that living your life knowing that emotions come and go, it can actually reduce the constant overwhelming thoughts that come into our minds.
i get the whole "my illness is part of who i am" mindset but as someone who has repeatedly destroyed their life being bipolar, and is just now reaching stability.. i would without a doubt chose to live without it, like that really shocked me they both said no..
yeah like my mentality is that its cool that its part of my past that has forged me into who I am today... but it doesnt need to forge me into who i am tomorrow. i already learned what i needed to learn and grew from it- the rest is just suffering lol. also like, yeah it made me stronger but also its emotionally difficult and at times traumatic for friends and family to watch you go through something so painful, not knowing if you'll be ok. if i could remove that pain and worry for them, i would.
@@Asbestoslover666 Heard! i agree 100%
I Celebrate your stability!! Yeah I agree, the medication, though it keeps me very stable, lowers my quality of life pretty heavily. Since that’s not possible, I truly hope in can inspire others suffering that they can make it. God will restored seven fold what the enemy has robbed (paraphrased, I’m a Christian)
Interesting. So much of personality is me being bipolar, I wouldn't have anything unique about me if it was suppressed.
Jesus came to set the captives free. He can set you free. Your past does not have to define your future. There is alot God has planned for you that the devil does not want you to accomplish Ephesians 2:10
This quote explained my mania so succinctly:
"I'm only laughing on the outside, my smile is skin deep. But, if you look inside I'm crying, and you might join me for a weep."
This hurts me so much. I haven't been diagnosed but I feel like some days I have to constantly reach out for attention, make people laugh, let out all my intrusive thoughts, etc. everyone thinks I'm happy all the time but deep inside I'm always hurting and when the depression kicks in I realize how bad I'm destroying my body and social standards w what I consume and what I say.
Psychedelic are just an exceptional mental health breakthrough.it's fascinating how effective they are against depression and anxiety..it saved my life
When you've experienced psilocybin,the visions,the feeling that others feel become relatable and real,but when you haven't they could sound weird
Please does anyone know where I can get them? I put so much on my plate and it really affects my stress and anxiety level .I would love to try to shrooms.
@@tessymitchYes, myco_louiis
@@hazeemakhan5301reat! how do I find him?
Is he on inSta?
I'm glad myco_louiis is mentioned... I've been having severe depression for years now but I had to hit him up and got some of his product..they work like magic.
The thing about having a family with a lot of ignored mental illnesses and then being the first one to actually try to deal with it and fight... So real. I think about it all the time. This happens to me too.
Bike rides have helped me so much just going fast on bicycle makes you feel like your getting away from everything
same
skull top if I don’t ride my bike everyday I get withdrawals
I feel the same, nice to know others feel like that too ^^
HOLY shit you too?? you go on really fast bike rides????
That’s so therapeutic
His friend is the type of man I need to date. That level of compassion is unbelievably rare.
Not entirely true, we're out there
Anyone that has any type of mental health problems has been through it is generally like that. I used to be arrogant asf about it too. Then life stood up and backhand bitch slapped me for 4 years straight. Developed a slight case of general anxiety due to extreme stress, extreme sleep deprivation and insane caffeine drinking. There were signs, but I ignored it. Well the anxiety has persisted. Now I have issue with being in anything enclosed with tons of people. Planes, gyms etc....I dont even know why. My condition may be small but I'll just say this...people that fight a debilitating mental health disease that they need to be medicated for are fuckin warriors. Stronger than I ever could be.
CountChocula30 ORRRRR not and I can learn from it since I’m self-aware, something you seem to lack. Good luck though! ☺️🤍
I would love to have both of them as friends. Such kind souls. It's really hard to find such connections. I'm so lucky to have a similar friend, it really is worth more than anything in this world.
Not really. You just prefer to date assholes.
The bro friendship the two dudes have is so so beautiful I wish that for everyone 💪🏽🙏🏼
After years of being treated like "just a kid with anxiety" today a psychiatrist read me like a book. Not only he knew exactly every little symptom I had, he knew every symptom my mother had. I was diagnosed with bipolar type two... and I never felt so shocked and yet... so relieved. I can finally get the treatment I need an, maybe, my mom too if she listens to me for a change
Yes man i can understand.Having your mom bipolar and that too unmedicated is so damaging to one's mental health
Honestly kinda lit 🔥
Yes! My diagnosis had me crying tears of joy and relief. It’s so good to know that, first: you are not alone, you have something with a name and a community who goes through the same thing; and, second: there’s a treatment, maybe the results doesn’t not show as quickly as we would want to, but we will definitely get better and stabilized.
Roughly about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL ! I've had this for more than 25 years now. At first I went to the usual therapy sessions and medications just like you. But then the problem kept coming back - meaning the treatment addressed only the EFFECTS and not the CAUSE. So I researched this meticulously myself and found the ROOT CAUSE - SPIRITS. Once I knew the REAL reason, I was set FREE ! Since then I've been meds free for the last 16 years now. I'm OK now and live a normal life. The spirits hardly bother me now. The Truth will set you FREE.
Our physical and spirit world exists in parallel dimensions - separated by force fields. The spirits can see/hear us, while we can't see/hear them .. NORMALLY. But anything that seriously WEAKENS your body, embitters your soul, and affects your FAITH in God, also WEAKENS your spiritual aura/force field and allows the evil spirits to communicate with you. You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, rejection, death of a loved one or near-death experience. Any Traumatic Psychological Event. You can pick RANDOM evil spirits from morgue, cemeteries, hospitals, asylums, jails, dungeons, and abandoned houses and forests. Places of Torment and Death.
Evil spirits are like BULLIES - they choose their victims well ! They can smell fear, bitterness and doubt - key soul weaknesses. Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you socially. You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. Resist them, Dont give up .. or you're really gonna end up crazy. Remember this, its NOT you but THEM (spirits) thats causing this. Fight them.
If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs (via earphones) helps block the voices, even drives them away ! BTW this is NOT a substitute for NOT taking your meds. Take them if you need them. Good luck, Stay Safe and God Bless.
@@napoleonaquino9347 nope, not in the right comment section. This is dissinformation. I'm reporting you and hoping youtube does something
"My bipolar disorder cheated me out of a better life" - Unknown ....... Seems like just running in circles or jogging in the same place it's exhausting
Tyler Z The True Cause of Bipolar Disorder
A common theory for an answer for bipolar disorder is a chemical imbalance in the brain. The truth is, however, that it is impossible for the body to naturally disrupt its own chemicals and cause an imbalance when there are no outside factors. There is an actual tangible substance that is disrupting the brain and its mental functioning. The answer is toxic heavy metals.
Research and medicine stay away from the discussion on toxic heavy metals. There is little to no conversation about them in medical communities, let alone in relation to how they cause mental disorders. There is so much controversy surrounding heavy metals that scientists do their best to neglect them altogether. As a result, medical communities are completely unaware of just how many illnesses toxic heavy metals play a role in. Toxic heavy metals are present in petroleum, plastics, antibiotics, and countless other drugs so it is no wonder science and research ignore them. The idea that the very things doctors are prescribing for healing and managing diseases contain ingredients which are harmful would be damaging to the pharmaceutical industry. Toxic heavy metals are also in our water supply, falling out of the sky, and found in a multitude of other places.
If you could examine the heavy metals in the brains of those who have bipolar disorder, you would begin to see why this disease manifests itself so differently in each individual. Heavy metals of all kinds, including copper, mercury, lead, and aluminum, find their way into the body either at conception, during pregnancy, at birth, or afterwards. People can also get heavy metals later in life from pesticides, which contain heavy metals, the metals in kitchenware, old copper pipes, and many other sources. Heavy metals are passed down generationally, which is one reason why children can have heavy metals in their systems when they are so young. This truth is still unknown to medical communities and science and research. It’s critical to understand how these toxic heavy metals can impact you and your loved ones and be contributing to chronic illnesses.
From the Medical Medium book series.
Tyler Z actually it’s like running a race a million times and winning every single time. Until the one time you dont. The one time you dint win will send you into the deepest depression, and it will take some people days, weeks, months, to stop being down. The manic episodes are the best, cause I can get A LOT OF STUFF DONE.
I feel like God nerfed me because I would have become too powerful
@@kennyg5235 "there is no research or evidence of heavy metals so here's my take on why it's dangerous"
Christoffer Skoog People that choose to be ignorant do not heal from mental illness.
tearing up listening to allister and gian talk about their friendship and how they support each other
seriously the sweetest thing
Friend goals. :)
Thank you guys for being strong enough to let people document the struggle of this disorder.
Thank you for having interviewed someone with Bipolar Type II. It's honestly not a diagnosis that gets talked about very much, but it can be just as detrimental as Type I though in different ways. It makes a difference when little known issues are shined a light on, in order to help foster understanding between people.
My mom struggles with this ,im a only child ,she’s a single parent I have to deal with it and help her cuz I’m 15
Been there, good luck!
Do you need any help? (Am genuinely asking)
You are a good kid. Be proud of what you are doing for your mother. Good luck.
Might i suggest talking to the school counselor about seeking advice or more support or help? My nephew is 13 and he has a school counselor who greatly helps him.
Same bruh same age nd all
As someone with type 2, thank you so much for representing both! We never hear about 2 usually.
It's the other way around for me. I've only ever heard of type 2 and I didn't even know type 1 existed until my psychiatrist brought it up.
bipolar 2 representttt
💯
Yes i dont find much people with 2 type... I have it, i think iam handed it okay, i have 2-3 months of mania and like 5-7 months of depression and other time that is left i am okay.
it’s really cathartic to hear people relaying their experiences and identifying with what they talk about. I feel so alone and trapped in myself fighting this invisible battle when things get dark..I would never wish any mental health problems on anybody but it feels good, it feels comforting to know that there are people who go through the same struggles, that I’m not alone. I love people and I love the world but the bars of this mental prison distort my perception so much that I feel disconnected from everything and everyone. I just want to feel whole again
Wow he has a really great friend. That’s a true blessing, I appreciate and acknowledge his selflessness to help out someone who suffers with such a delicate diagnosis. My sis is Bipolar and it hurts to see her go through it and it’s also exhausting...
It's all trauma related not an illness to begin with, thats unfortunately the medication. Long term use is early death but the DSM will tell the opposite because it's biased by design in a medical model.
My sister also was recently diagnosed.
@@skii7602 I'm sorry to hear that things got to a point that she ended up with a label. It's incredible just how easy it can be to treat trauma but not want to talk about what really happened in her life to the degree that a well informed psychotherapist dose. Please have a look into eCPR it's becoming worldwide and helps many to share their experiences without diagnostic labels. it's proven to help.
Chris bipolar is real and isn’t always odd trauma
@@oozly9291 trust me every disorder is made up. There is no scientific evidence
Watch the origins of the DSM and how pathologizing people has got out of hand.
th-cam.com/video/6JPgpasgueQ/w-d-xo.html
Without trying to tell you for hrs on end you'll have to explore the real truth. Start from the beginning.
Also no one is known to have any predisposition, it all fabricated.
I was misdiagnosed when I was 13 with Panic Disorder and MDD. I always remember starting multiple projects and being scolded for not finishing any of them and losing my motivation. In high school, I began to get random bursts of energy and an urge to run. When I was 21, I was diagnosed with Bipolar 2. I felt like I was going insane and my suicidal thoughts and plans were messing with me. I went to college in NYC (I actually went to Fordham as well like Andrea), I remember wanting to run from W 59th St all the way to Wall Street running. Much respect for Andrea and Allister. Keep fighting. Mental health is so important.
Fordham LC Alumni here. I’ve had so many friends including myself dealing with mental illness. Everyone graduated is at a good place rn. We got this.
I would also run for miles at night. So blessed that I’ve been stable for years, hope you are too. ❤️🙏
you might have adhd as well, it is very possible
I was misdiagnosed bipolar disorder type 2..It was a sleep disorder UARS due to mouth breathing and retractive orthodontics in childhood.
@Smirks how stupid and worthless...but this arrived early...yesterday... its good that i don't have a baseball bat.
I have bipolar disorder and I'm currently dealing with the horrendous guilt for taking time away from work. I'm currently on week three. I have worked in my company for sixteen years but recently moved in to a new role. A huge trigger for me is dealing with the dynamics of new people, and with the stress of a new job and dealing with the 'people politics' I went into a hypomanic phase to the point where the voices and thoughts in my head were going so fast that I literally imploded. I have had my bipolar diagnosis for years now and manage it with exercise and diet. I obviously take meds but I don't think people realize how important training is for me. I'm currently worried how people will perceive me as I'm off work, I'm scared they think I'm lazy or crazy or I'm just taking the piss.
That must have been hard for you. I’m sorry to hear that.
Roughly about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL ! I've had this for more than 25 years now. At first I went to the usual therapy sessions and medications just like you. But then the problem kept coming back - meaning the treatment addressed only the EFFECTS and not the CAUSE. So I researched this meticulously myself and found the ROOT CAUSE - SPIRITS. Once I knew the REAL reason, I was set FREE ! Since then I've been meds free for the last 16 years now. I'm OK now and live a normal life. The spirits hardly bother me now. The Truth will set you FREE.
Our physical and spirit world exists in parallel dimensions - separated by force fields. The spirits can see/hear us, while we can't see/hear them .. NORMALLY. But anything that seriously WEAKENS your body, embitters your soul, and affects your FAITH in God, also WEAKENS your spiritual aura/force field and allows the evil spirits to communicate with you. You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, rejection, death of a loved one or near-death experience. Any Traumatic Psychological Event. You can pick RANDOM evil spirits from morgue, cemeteries, hospitals, asylums, jails, dungeons, and abandoned houses and forests. Places of Torment and Death.
Evil spirits are like BULLIES - they choose their victims well ! They can smell fear, bitterness and doubt - key soul weaknesses. Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you socially. You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. Resist them, Dont give up .. or you're really gonna end up crazy. Remember this, its NOT you but THEM (spirits) thats causing this. Fight them.
If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs (via earphones) helps block the voices, even drives them away ! BTW this is NOT a substitute for NOT taking your meds. Take them if you need them. Good luck, Stay Safe and God Bless.
Having found someone who understands you with your disease is a bliss. I have lost almost everyone to this disease. I wish people would understand.
people come and go. Some people walk with you only a part of the way on the walk of life, some longer than others. Then there are maybe even some people that will go all the way with you
If they don’t love and understand you for the person you are or only like one version of you they’re simply not worth spending your time with anymore. It was okay to walk with them for a certain time and it maybe were really fun times but sometimes it’s necessary for you to let them go when you notice that they’re not good for you anymore.
You’ll always meet new people that will go with you, that understand and love you♥️ focus on that and the few people that you currently have in your life rather than on what is in the past, cut all toxic people from your life and it will make you realize your self worth, that you are worth it being understood and loved just like anybody else and that it doesn’t have to be different for you and that you don’t need to be happier with less just because you have a disease
have a nice day❤
So nicely said @mrsfahrenheit.
It’s just that, there are certain periods, when you are left with no one. Absolutely no one… whom you can trust. That’s what makes it tough.
Same
Mental health is important.
Im 14 and this is deep
Winter Texan lives matter
Renae it’s a meme and reddit dumbass
Health. mind and body are connected as one. feel good you think good. breath to movement sequences will accomplish anything.
@@TA-vr5gx just make sure if you suffer from BPD that pills aren't your only solution! Absolute last resort in my opinion! I've been prescribed meds that have destroyed my life!
Helping others is honestly the greatest feeling of accomplishment. Especially in a time like this.
Vante 92 if that aint the truth. It helps relieve stress to help others
Sometimes it backfires tho. You feel good doing it but if you help too many people and get stretched thin, or care more for others than u do yourself, or get hurt because u would kill or die for someone who wouldn't give u a sodapop, then your just consumed with pain and overwhelmed, as well as feeling helpless, without a sense of purpose or feeling like u can't do anything right. But yes I agree with you, it feels so good in that moment to help other's, especially if u did it in private, but other times it also feels great when they give u credit in public. Bipolar Disorder is so unpredictable and confusing and draining in every way and I wouldn't wish it on anyone.
Watched this video as a dear friend of mine has Bipolar 2. This helps to understand what she goes through and hearing the guy in this video share his experiences I can see some similarities with my friend. She's a great person and friend living with this illness and I just want to understand more of what she goes through and continue supporting and being there for her as much as possible.
Misdiagnosed for more than 20 years. Wrong meds. Suicide attempts. Fights. Finally diagnosed as bipolar. I don't take a lot of meds, but I isolate almost all the time. Prozac and Gabapentin do pretty good for me now. Still have some episodes of anger or sleeping a lot. But this is the best I've been in 60 years.
His friend, the owner of the automotive repair shop, is amazing! Its rare to find a friend so understanding, compassionate and supportive 💜
I m going through this all I need a friend like this who understand it feels like going through hell but I try keep going
Thats a solid friend for sho
love that they mention type 1 and type 2. it's the same illness but the amount and intensity of mania and depression makes it a whole different experience not only for the mentally ill person, but for those around them
No, i will never choose to live with it. Its like living in a infinite roller coaster. When I'm on the mania state I'm dangerous for others (and I mean, I crushed my car 2 times going at 130km/h on urban roads because I thinked I was in a rally before doing the medication) and when I'm in the lows state I'm dangerous for myself, I escaped my house multiple times when I had discussion with my parents, I wanted to make a car accident against a camion but I had my survival instinct kicking in the last second. I also consider that this is part of myself and some of the greatest thing I've done is because of it. I did a lot of crazy things in the last years, I have plenty of storyes to tell and this illness makes you live your life sometimes and not just make yourself victim of a pointless existence
I feel the same way too. Going through a depressive episode for a week now, so yesterday my doctor raised the dosage for my mood stabilizer. I'm happy to see videos like this because I know I'm not the only one going through this.
Roughly about 10% of the worlds population have a third eye/ear - meaning they can see and/or hear spirits. To those who can hear/see spirits - you are NOT crazy, your brain is NOT acting up, the spirits are REAL ! I've had this for more than 25 years now. At first I went to the usual therapy sessions and medications just like you. But then the problem kept coming back - meaning the treatment addressed only the EFFECTS and not the CAUSE. So I researched this meticulously myself and found the ROOT CAUSE - SPIRITS. Once I knew the REAL reason, I was set FREE ! Since then I've been meds free for the last 16 years now. I'm OK now and live a normal life. The spirits hardly bother me now. The Truth will set you FREE.
Our physical and spirit world exists in parallel dimensions - separated by force fields. The spirits can see/hear us, while we can't see/hear them .. NORMALLY. But anything that seriously WEAKENS your body, embitters your soul, and affects your FAITH in God, also WEAKENS your spiritual aura/force field and allows the evil spirits to communicate with you. You can get schizophrenia from various reasons like a serious head injury, use of illegal drugs, practice of black magic, or by experiencing traumatic events like rape, bullying, rejection, death of a loved one or near-death experience. Any Traumatic Psychological Event. You can pick RANDOM evil spirits from morgue, cemeteries, hospitals, asylums, jails, dungeons, and abandoned houses and forests. Places of Torment and Death.
Evil spirits are like BULLIES - they choose their victims well ! They can smell fear, bitterness and doubt - key soul weaknesses. Spirits communicate by telepathy - mind to mind, that's why ONLY you can see or hear them. Spirits can also DISTORT speech. For example if your friend is talking to you nicely as usual, you'll instead hear him/her MOCKING you, so you'll get ANGRY. That's how spirits make you paranoid & anti-social. They want to isolate you socially. You're their TOY !!
Spirits can also SHAPE SHIFT - appear in ANY form (animal or people) they desire. They can IMITATE other peoples LOOKS and/or VOICES and pretend like real people. Spirits can also produce SOUNDS like knocking on doors, footsteps, crying or screaming people, scratching on walls, police sirens, barking dogs etc. Their plan is to ISOLATE you socially .. for themselves. Make people think you're CRAZY .. even if you re NOT. Resist them, Dont give up .. or you're really gonna end up crazy. Remember this, its NOT you but THEM (spirits) thats causing this. Fight them.
If the problem is spiritual, the solution is also spiritual ! Get close to GOD. I also found out listening to Worship Praise Songs (via earphones) helps block the voices, even drives them away ! BTW this is NOT a substitute for NOT taking your meds. Take them if you need them. Good luck, Stay Safe and God Bless.
I got learning disabilities and several language. It's sucks, yet I've overcome the obstacles. I wish everyone safe health and stay mentally strong.
Same for you bro. Stay safe and healthy.
@J C did you just spell atleast @least ?
I no longer have the will to go on, please tell my loved ones that I am sorry. Good bye forever cruel world!
You got excuses
Being mentally strong is not a delusion, and you’re not screwed. Idk what happened to that other guy to make him think that, but he’s wrong. You can overcome anything if you keep pushing forward, which it sounds like you know already. You’re awesome and we’re all so glad you’re here!!!
'Shut up and get through it' Still being told to me from my parents in 2019-2020
Bad MoFo
😢Limit contact with your parents unfortunately. These attitudes just makes you feel worse.
That's horrible. If you need someone to talk to I'd be glad to help.
That was my experience and I distanced myself from them. I’m much healthier now.
I hope things have gotten better for you and things with your parents have changed. You're not alone. Feel free to reach out, I talk to many people about mental health, mine and theirs, it's a win win. ♥️🌹
😂
My mom has been diagnosed bi-polar and borderline schizophrenic for the last 30 years. I think the worst time was her dealing with all of that and also going through menopause. My heart hurts for her but medication helps a lot if she stays on it. Hang in there guys and gals, and stay on your meds.
Thank you to everyone who has shared their journey and experiences. Mental Illness runs deep in my family, and while this isn't my path (Neurodivergent here, ADHD with subs of anxiety and depression), I know several that are on that road. I hope this video can help someone, whether it be learning about BP beyond the stereotypes or finding support and not feeling alone.
Drchala1 from west Africa who I find here on TH-cam channel I’m Convinced he can help you with this ….
Avoid oil salt sugar ❤completely
Question: have you found a med combo that works for you? My teen has the same thing as you.
@@allisonb.8492 I take off brands of Effexor, Intuniv, and Abilify. For anxiety (as needed) Inderal. They work well for me, but I also have to balance hormones. Everyone is differwnt
My Dad was severely bipolar, had some extended bouts of extreme depression and manic episodes when I was younger. Very hard to go through, people on the outside looking in just don’t understand at all.
I feel this. My mom has severe bipolar as well, her manic episodes being the worst. It’s hard dealing with it as a bystander, I’m sorry you have to go through the struggles as well.
its rough to be witness your father submitting to full on depression episode.
@@harietam3194 Yes, being a bystander must be hard... but then again being the actual one with the illness🙄 Your a bystander that can't leave
Seek jesus christ
This is why im not considering having a kid 😭
I'm diagnosed with Bipolar 1 and this kind of scenario scares me..
I have bipolar 2 as well. It means a lot to see videos that educate others about what this disorder actually is because there's a lot of negative stigma towards mental illnesses and taking medication, which makes people who are suffering experience a lot of shame. If I didn't have my medications (antidepressant, antipsychotic, mood stabilizer) I wouldn't be here anymore and wouldn't be able to live a normal productive life. I encourage everyone to take the time to learn about mental illnesses so we can end the stigma, because I don't want the only thing that people know about my illness to be what kanye does... LOL
@collide One of the contributors to this being a life threatening illness is that on top of the immense suffering, the person often does realize that they have in fact hurt so many people that actually cared about them. Surely this contributes to the high suicide rate amongst those inflicted with the illness.
@collide well, like everyone else, I'm always trying to be a better person and be good to those around me. A big part of why I sought treatment in the first place was to take the burden off of others. A hard realization everyone has to go through is that the only person responsible for your wellbeing is you. Also, @collide, comments like yours are why people with mental illness feel too ashamed to seek help. Would you say the same to someone with a physical illness? Bipolar disorder is a serious medical condition and you don't get to choose if you have or not, and you're stuck with it for life.
Sarah Shaw - my family and myself are pretty sure my little brother suffers from bipolar 2 but he refuses to see a doctor and get treatment. It’s breaks my heart because I have depression/anxiety and struggle with addiction so I know how hopeless and lost he must feel but I also know how much treatment can help
The fact that you are on medications shows me that you
are proactive. Don't give a shite what others say. You are doing things for yourself and your own mental health. I know many people who are supposedly normal, but should be locked in a
rubber room! Take care.
I am bi polar as well. If people have a problem with it I honestly just have no time for them. If someone criticizes how I do work, if I lose something, or if I have a ton of energy and have to pace I just tell them it's to damn bad and they aren't telling me how to function. Can't help it anyways. Just get rid of the normies. I honestly don't want their understanding. I want them gone. Gone as in away from me! I take meds but that's for my own comfort. The swings are very intense. I also have to take welbutrin cause I start getting a bit schizo and it helps make my thoughts less strange and anxious.
I just want to say that Allister has so much potential in life. When you lose a loved one, especially so young it can be difficult to move forward. You don't want to let go of the past-the person. But it can be difficult to know how to move forward. I lost my brother, while I haven't been diagnosed with bipolar, it's been hard for me to navigate my life since then. So, Allister, if you're readying this 2 years later...Please know that you can move forward. Please be encouraged and know that other people can see the love you have for your father. How much he meant to you and that he sounded like a special person. Truly.
This disorder took to much away from me. I almost ended up living on the streets. its taken a huge negative toll on my life. I became aware of what was wrong with me when i was 32. By that time i had ruined a lot of relationships, jobs, walked away from college when i had high grades and was close to graduating, i racked up 30,000 in debt because of it. I had fallen into a deep depression and didnt realize why, i thought it was just who i was. Now im 40, ive surrounded myself with a great support group, ive talked with my wife about what i go through, she now listens and works with me. Cannabis has also helped me a lot.... I know its not for everyone, but its helped more than the pills that were prescribed... i used to be anti marijuana until i discovered the effects it has on the brain, life has gotten way better. to anyone reading this, hang in there... there are better days ahead
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Wow I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder and this is much more relatable than I expected it. This makes me feel so much more human and makes me accept myself a little bit more
🌻☀️
I lived my whole 34 years with the racing thoughts and roller coaster of impulsive behavior and depression. Not to mention self medicating with opiates. I was just diagnosed with Bipolar type 2 and just the diagnosis gave me the missing puzzle piece I always was trying to find. I take my meds and go-to a therapist and my life has been going great. Much love to everyone struggling with this ailment.
We r on the same boat and I want out
does medication work well? can uh tell me the name of the medication?
How r u doing with the opiates?
The beauty of such videos and commentary that follows is that it has turned to be my special support group as people are real and almost everything expressed is either what I went through or are actually going through - from the doing it my way to been superman, to the I don't want to talk to anybody to been in the darkest cave. Blessed are you who share your innermost feelings our disorder and even those who don't share but tune in to just be comforted...
Drchala1 from west Africa who I find here on TH-cam channel I’m Convinced he can help you with this .
You can even have friends that work in the mental health field and still feel so incredibly alone with this disorder. Thank you for sharing..
The women I loved the most in my life was BiPolar. She wasn’t taking her meds. It was a battle trying to have her get the help she needed. It drained me of my soul. It hurts to know somebody is suffering. I had to let her go. The hardest decision Iv ever had to make. I still wish her the best and I still love her.
What did you love about her? And we're those things apparent regardless of mood ?
Should’ve tried acceptance of her instead
@@TheLemon420 Bipolar is hard for both people. Acceptance only goes so far if the other person isn’t accepting their condition.
God bless you I have it and it’s not easy
28, I've dealt with mental illness for many years now. I have to hide it the best I can as I have no support structure at home. Parents that just can't understand it, and when trying to talk to them about it I'm told nothing is wrong, and to just put on my big boy pants and get over it. It has been hell. I don't know how I've even made it this far.
It's rare to have family support
It’s hard I have struggled with mental illness for years now as well and have lots of family who don’t “believe” in mental illness and have a really bad mindset about it so when struggling it’s hard because the support isn’t there but there are so many great places to find it because as much as you want them to be there you know they won’t and it’s hard and saddening but you can’t change them and all you can do is focus on you and you know yourself better than anyone so don’t feel like you need their validation on your feelings and health. You matter and you are important and you deserve to get any help you need. I hope this helps and I hope you get whatever help and support you need!!
@@hopemccubbin8661 It shouldn't be
I literally just told my BFF the same thing. I sent him and others this video. I want them to understand but maybe our Families aren't the ones to talk to.... unfortunately. I'm sorry that you have experienced this Friend. I pray for you and all others and myself that we find the proper outlets and support. 🙏🏾🧡
Ouch that’s the worst when parents don’t get it. My mom didn’t realize the importance of medication and tried to send me to a rehab that would force me to go without (and I didn’t even have a drug problem!!) but thank God my dad did get it. Praying you get good support and understanding from somewhere
I was diagnosed with bipolar disorder type one when I turned 18 even though I had been having symptoms since I was 13…The place I go for treatment said that I had to be 18 for a diagnosis …Since getting diagnosed I’ve finally found my perfect cocktail of medication to treat it… I had been wrongly diagnosed with major depressive disorder, and they said the mood swings I had was just a part of that.. not only does it take finding the right medication, but also finding the right psychiatrist for you who listens to you and respects your opinion
I never thought I had anything before i thought I would just get mood swings and be sad until I was told I can take medicine to be better and as of right now I’m getting better, at least trying to, I’m trusting the process but i don’t feel better yet, so to anyone out there just keep going you are needed in this world, you got this ♥️♥️♥️
I was misdiangnosed with BIpolar because I was using drugs and homeless, once I got sober it turns out I just had issues I needed to deal with. Its always important to be honest with your doctor and tell them if you don't think the meds you are taking are doing anything
Thanks for sharing. I have seen many people who are misdiagnosed as bipolar and it was actually drug use or a personality disorder.
I agree with you, I wish Dr's weren't so quick to put everyone on meds. Deal with the trauma first then see if they still need to be on meds? I am not a Dr, I just don't like those psych meds
@@katherinequesada7382 meds are an extremely important tool in the psychiatry toolbox, but should never be used without other treatment approaches. The reason that doctors go to them fairly quickly is because they are low risk compared to going untreated. If you can get off them that’s obviously the ideal, but they are very important to a lot of people.
Thank you for sharing this.
I fear nowadays that im bipolar. Maybe i just need a lover
We see this very commonly in the local homeless outreach clinic. It's hard enough to manage existing psychiatric disorders, and throwing drugs into the mix just complicates the matter for all involved, and makes it even more difficult for people to get the help and treatment they need. I hope you are doing better now.
Bp2 here and my depression manifests as anger. Omg I feel like just screaming n breaking everything. Too many side effects from meds so I've found that cannabis helps me feel normal 💯❤🌱It's a struggle but I found that plants n gardening help me chill out n stay calm
Im happy to hear you found something that’s helps you 🙏🏽
I get this too. Only within the last year. I think I’m so angry with myself. It sucks
Cannabis induces psychosis for me so I stay away from cannabis and alcohol and take my medications.
Same❤
Yes hello I have it to what medications do you take if I may ask I'm taking Xanax 2 mg but I don't think it's for that
I have an appointment next Monday to try and get this diagnosed. I’ve been dismissed numerous times and being on anti depressants sent me into a 2 year spiral that led to a loss of friends and family. I’m blessed I’ve maintained my job, but I’ve been spiraling and im so sick of this. I either feel normal, or like I can’t sit still in my own skin, or can’t get out of bed. It’s crazy how I can go from 3-4 days 12-14 hours of sleep to no sleep and doing so much. I appreciate all of you.
I see so many of the stories I've experienced myself in these posts. Bi-polar II. PTSD. I have had high level jobs where I managed for 2-3 years, but in all relationships and employment I've had (even on meds) nothing ever lasts. I sometimes scream at the sky wtf was I even born? Again...I'm on meds. Losing my fiance to suicide a decade ago sent me into a spiral I've never been able to fully come out of. It sucks, and the stigma that comes with it doesn't help. Generally anywhere I've lived my medication gets messed with, and my neighbors and pretty much anyone in a 100 mile radius knows when I'm off my meds. This is not an easy life despite not wearing my illness like a broken leg or arm. I'm broken on the inside, and that is harder for people to understand.
My sister has bipolar disorder. It was hard to see her sometimes and as her bestfriend/lil sis, I would be the one explaining to our "friends" why she was that way all of a sudden so different. We both lost friends due to it but looking back they weren't friends to walk away from something that was not understood by them and most importantly her.
Here we are years after her diagnosis and I am so proud of her. Becoming a nurse and a role model as she was for me as her younger sister again 💙 I love my sister
If someone feels uncomfortable they should go away or confront. Either situation has pros and cons.
I hope everyone watching this is ok right now with what's going on in the world. I know it is really effecting me but I'm trying to do my self care, take my meds, and just not taking too much on. Sending love to you all. We will get thru this.
doll parts amen. Thank you. We will get through this !
The app headspace , helps alot
@@unpluckables yes we will! Stay safe and lots of self care. Sending you love and healing in this scary time. 🙏💪💚
@@z3ro7o yes it does! Good call! I also LOVE the app "Insight Timer." It's free for most of the meditations. And they have a 7 day free trial to unlock all courses right now which I'm trying. My favourite mindfulness/meditation app so far! Thank you and hope you are staying safe and healthy! 💪🙏💚
doll parts thank you. I didn’t know about that app. I gonna download it right away , stay save love from amsterdam 🥰
I'm crying watching this I've never feel this much understandable and relatable since I'm dealing with it reading comments makes me feel people are literally explaing me...!
I'm crying too 😢
I want to thank vice news for uploading this. I've been with my husband for almost 10 years and we've been fighting every day with his bipolar. Lots of therapists have said leave him he won't be able to handle it but I've never given up and I never will.
I've been in a depressive state for nearly 4 months now. I don't even exercise. I finally figured out that I don't exercise because I feel like I don't deserve to like my body or feel comfortable in my own body. It's so unsettling to know so much about yourself but not have the motivation to do anything about it.
Was like that for a big chunk of my life. I just had to force myself to exercise and soon I found myself relying on the endorphin release after working out everyday. Feel good everyday first. It's pivotal for improving mental health in the long run and gaining self confidence too. Your mind doesn't like the body at a vegetative state so naturally sends strong impulses manifesting as self esteem issues, in my experience atleast. Third party factors do exist obviously (like entitled mouth breathers who judge you) but atleast you'll have a stable mind to deal with unforseen situations and keep your wits about you, since you start loving yourself and managing expectations with social interaction.
I know what you're going through. My depression was drug induced. It wasn't until I got on new meds and got sober that I started enjoying life and being somewhat content. I still struggle with relapses, but I don't want to die anymore. I encourage you to ask for help. Easier said than done, of course. But I asked for help, got sent to 2 rehabs, went to 5 outpatients, hundreds of meetings - it took a FUCK TON of work to get to this place. Sadly, nothing will change if nothing changes.
Same i was suffering from and lost 4 jobs ..My age is 26 and i am suffering through this cycles since last 9 yrs ..
But one thing i have observed if we stop workout is get worse
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STEM Scientist me 2. I haven’t been out since December.
I suffer from this as well. It's a real struggle......
@Renee Speece I'm sorry Renee I didn't attack you.
@Renee Speece stop putting your frustration onto him and bipolar people, they didn't do shit, that specific person did. You're not helping anybody and definitely not helping yourself.
@Renee Speece I'm not bipolar but I know bipolar people and they haven't attacked anybody, you're not dealing with your frustration well. That person who attacked you is to blame not me or anybody else. You're clearly in pain and I'm sorry for that but don't cause even more pain lashing out to people who haven't done anything to you.
ROME RUSH Have you ever tried calling out God, accepting JESUS CHRIST in your life & seeking HIM for help?? I mean what do you have to lose? Nothing...to gain Mental freedom & Eternal life! Give it a try. God bless
I know all those atheists at vice are gonna hate to see my comment btw😂😂
I have bipolar I and it has pretty much ruined my life twice, both times I fell into psychosis and the last time I got so manic I ended up spending two months in jail for vandalism and barely had a clue what I had done wrong my delusions were so bad.
This hits hard. I’ve known something has been happening but not sure my own mind was my enemy. Such a dark place to not be in charge. The highs and lows can add to the pressure not knowing when the fun ends and the storm of regrets and disappointment loneliness no self worth thoughts of doom and waiting for some getting bad to happen that confirms your fears. Losing friends money relationships but saddest of all losing yourself when you’re only known for the fun loving thrill seeker and no one understands the black hole that you fall into with no hope. At 40 years old diagnosed with Bipolar and PTSD I’m not relieved I’m ashamed that I cannot fix this part of myself. I want to crawl out of my head into an average person the peace I’d find in regular thinking. Knowing this now is embarrassing I have been known as a strong relentlessly good hearted person but I can’t even be good to myself. Being viewed as stable when there’s a war inside my mind. I lost my oldest sibling to suicide recently Bipolar diagnosed as well with hallucinations auditory and visual I fear for my future.
As someone who suffers from this, I just want to say this is beautiful. Thank you Vice! Please push out more content like this!
Chuck Norris
The True Cause of Bipolar Disorder
A common theory for an answer for bipolar disorder is a chemical imbalance in the brain. The truth is, however, that it is impossible for the body to naturally disrupt its own chemicals and cause an imbalance when there are no outside factors. There is an actual tangible substance that is disrupting the brain and its mental functioning. The answer is toxic heavy metals.
Research and medicine stay away from the discussion on toxic heavy metals. There is little to no conversation about them in medical communities, let alone in relation to how they cause mental disorders. There is so much controversy surrounding heavy metals that scientists do their best to neglect them altogether. As a result, medical communities are completely unaware of just how many illnesses toxic heavy metals play a role in. Toxic heavy metals are present in petroleum, plastics, antibiotics, and countless other drugs so it is no wonder science and research ignore them. The idea that the very things doctors are prescribing for healing and managing diseases contain ingredients which are harmful would be damaging to the pharmaceutical industry. Toxic heavy metals are also in our water supply, falling out of the sky, and found in a multitude of other places.
If you could examine the heavy metals in the brains of those who have bipolar disorder, you would begin to see why this disease manifests itself so differently in each individual. Heavy metals of all kinds, including copper, mercury, lead, and aluminum, find their way into the body either at conception, during pregnancy, at birth, or afterwards. People can also get heavy metals later in life from pesticides, which contain heavy metals, the metals in kitchenware, old copper pipes, and many other sources. Heavy metals are passed down generationally, which is one reason why children can have heavy metals in their systems when they are so young. This truth is still unknown to medical communities and science and research. It’s critical to understand how these toxic heavy metals can impact you and your loved ones and be contributing to chronic illnesses. The good news is you can heal this condition with the right information.
From the Medical Medium book series.
I have bipolar type II and this upset me. I was over medicated for years, until I changed my psychiatrist. I went from being on six medications, to taking one. I take 200 mg of Lamictal every morning. They didn’t even mention therapy. Once I accepted the help, I got better. There are programs to help you. You just need to be honest and accept you’re not going to be given drugs you think you need. I’ve been stable for 7 years and live a normal life. Judge me as you want. I’m just giving a different perspective. It’s not cheating you out in life, much less defines you. I wish this stigma would stop.
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i never comment on videos or anything but i loved reading this because i’m only 16 and i’ve been on 50mg of lamatical for about 2 months or so and ofc i’m young so i really don’t think i need much more medication. my psychiatrist has mentioned therapy and she says that i should probably go but when i went before i was officially diagnosed correctly i hated it. i was on sertraline for about a month and it had complete reverse effects because my psychiatrist diagnosed me as depression until i started having fits of rage that we’re so bad i had basically no control no matter how hard i tried and it rly takes a toll on me. especially as a 16 year old girl it’s difficult to explain or understand because i’ve only been showing symptoms i guess for about a year i guess and i still have so many questions that are left unanswered by my doctors and parents (who really i expect to know just as much as i do bc all they know is wat the drs say)
juliette s wait did you say you don’t like having a therapist?
I love how they all talk about the medication "dance" and how we all struggle to find our right "cocktail" of drugs. I've been stable for years and I fear one of my meds will stop working. It took over 10 years to find the right combo for my BP 1. Seroquel, Wellbutrin, Xanax, Klonopin, Clonidine, and Hydroxyzine. I've been on dozens of psychotropic drugs as I also suffer from ADHD, Social Anxiety Disorder, and Opioid Use Disorder. I've been sober from opioids since 2015 after almost dying of an overdose. I was on Suboxone for six years then Sublocade for another year and a half. I had my last shot in Septemeber and I'm trying to just taper off.
Since finding the right combo I've been able to get off SSDI, go back to college and finish my Associates degree and reenter the workforce. A lot of hard work and suffering went into finding this stability. I also was the first born and my mother was 19 when I was born. My parents divorced when I was little and my parents soon remarried. My stepdad committed suicide when I was 12 and my father married a psychopath. I've been hospitalized at least half a dozen times. Growing up my father did not believe in medication, my mental health struggles were a disciplinary issue in his mind, not the result of serious mental disorders.
You should look into niacin ie plain ol' vitamin B3. No prescription needed, low-cost and available everywhere. 1000 mg three times a day _could_ help control your BPD! Internet about it!
@@amazingdany Yeah no thanks! I trust my Doctor who has been practicing Psychiatry for over 30 years and went to medical school over a bunch of internet strangers. Maybe if I weren't stable on my current meds and have been for over five years then I might consider it. But thank you for the thought!
@@incandesantlite 🤝
Has anyone tested you for neurotoxins?
I.E., heavy metals (lead, mercury,...etc), mold mycotoxins, organics (...pesticides)???
I am virtually symptom-free and pharmaceutical/nutraceutical-free after being treated for the toxins.
Btw, the Niacin and B-vitamins are usually part of detox protocols. Of course the methylated B-vitamins (i.em, methylfolate) are usually required since many people who accumulate toxins are weak at methylation (i.e., MTHFR gene)
Your docs prescribe you benzodiazepine’s knowing you take opioids? The addict in me is saying that’s lit af. The self-care part of me is saying tsk tsk tsk
I know several people with bipolar disorder and this was very helpful in terms of better understanding the condition and how it affects people. Well done and thank you all.
The fact that he has someone like you in his life is amazing.
My bro has schizophrenia. Hes got a huge heart though. Gotta look after family. Feel for these people. At same time glad to see people shedding light on this and the different support systems from the families.
slimunique84 he has toxic metal poisoning. Look into medical medium books for healthy truth.
I’m sorry to hear that ! They always have the biggest hearts. It broke my heart witnessing my brother go through scary episodes. To me it seems like a living night terror. These memories still affect me every single day. I hope to one day we can cure it. Stay strong 💪
@@kennyg5235 Don't make comments of such ignorance about serious organic illnesses - it's disrespectful to the sufferer and trivializes the disease. You clearly know little about this. Schizophrenia is a very serious illness. To think that a simple detox would reverse a complicated neurological disorder is laughable. So his brother should just do a detox with some vitamins and maybe a Lavender bath too to calm his anxiety. Then the schizophrenia would surely dissipate. This is so laughable. Alot of that holistic medicine bullshit is great for a good strong placebo effect for people who are basically healthy and lacking any serious illness. I have Bi Polar II
John Kostadinov Mercury poisoning.
@@kennyg5235 I feel bad for you. To have all the sources to get more knowledge yet ignoring all that and cancelling a whole ass disease- I hope you can get from under your rock one day.
I've always been curious to understand how other people with a mental illness say they wouldn't change their life if they could, I suffer horribly with anxiety and episodes of depression. I would LOVE to never feel either ever again. There's also the saying that i se2e everywhere that "your mental illness doesn't define you" yet people say that's what makes them, them.
Shyla Saunders I think that quote is more toward bipolar individuals because many of them like the way they feel when they are manic (feel like they are on top of the world.) feeling like depression or panic defines you is really disheartening and unproductive so I wouldn’t expect someone to embrace their anxiety/depression, but rather accept that it is a passenger that will show up in their Uber of life every once in a while, then leave 😊
Manic might be ok when you are young but as you age and have other health issues it would be horrible
It, may even lead to early on set diseases and other things of that nature.
me too! medication is expensive and i honestly dont wanna take meds for the rest of my life! but i cant ! id go crazy! this mental illness have taken almost everything i had and ruin my life! i refused to say its part of me because it isnt. Im not that toxic its my mental illness that makes me acting like one and i hate it!
@@ValentineWan I don't think anyone means it when they say they wouldn't change it. I think it's just something people say because they know they can't change it.
I mean i think when we talk about disorders like bipolar, its a chronic condition that usually people are dealing with for their whole life. It kindve is a part of them in a sense, but depression and anxiety can be more short term acute issues rather than a core part of someone. Or for example a personality disorder is quite literally a part of someone’s personality and it very much defines them. Personally i have cptsd and i would never choose it, but it is also a part of my history and made me how i am today, even if i didnt want it to define me in some ways or another it does.
I'm bipolar. My symptoms have changed drastically over the years. At first it was ADHD like symptoms, then it turned to outbursts of rage, then it was Manic/Depressive cycles. Now it's suicidal ideation, intrusive thoughts and hearing voices. Lately I struggle a lot with paranoia and persecutory delusions
I live this, I have BPII. I am also on Effexor but take Seroquel, Zyprexa was making me gain too much weight. Im starting TMS soon hopefully it helps. I also have rapid cycles. Thank you Allister for sharing and being so vulnerable to show the world what we live with. Also, your friend I think you said his name is Jason? is also the best friend ever! Id give anything to have a friend like him. This video means so much to me.
It's shameful how we still treat those with mental illness today.
Best username ever,☝️
We treat them well?
Rebecca A we do not
Washington County Oregon has more severely psychotic patients in the county jail than in the local hospitals. Mental illness is treated as a crime, and the county mental health, who calls the police on them, police, attorneys , DAs and judges are having to keep hiring to keep up with the arrests and convictions. They are even asking for more public safety money in the election to keep this torture going.
yeah or how some people deny there even is any.
Having a friend like Gian can literally save your life, as someone with the works Anxiety disorder, MDD, BD 2 two years ago I was going through the worst episode of my life. I literally gave up, stopped eating, became a recluse, and just spiraled out of control I was just waiting for the day to come. Thanks to closest my friends and family I got out of that space. I owe my life to those people because they will rearrange their lives just so that I am comfortable
one thing I noticed is that for both of these people the triggering events were things that would be hard for most people to handle, like seeing a dead body or the death of a father as a boy. Those are major incidents!
Just diagnosed bpd less than a month ago, now they're even talking bpd/schizo😢 explains a lot though. I'm 41. I have the lowest of low 24/7 though. I don't talk to anyone go out i panic when the phone rings i panic getting a text even. Have a feeling this will be a long process in not ready for😢 i have TONS of planners, that i don't use😂but i want to. I'm just not that type of person ig. Awh i love John he seems so genuine! Everyone needs a friend like that💚 I fully agree about the Healthcare, i haven't been able to get the help i need or meds bc i can't keep a job anymore either due to my physical pain or the last 3 i lost was mainly due to my mental state. If i wasn't in a relationship rn i would be homeless. Well no i wouldn't. I couldn't handle being homeless going through this at this age with 4 dogs that i would harm for. They're like my kids, i only had one kid bc ig something some where thinks meth heads child abusers would be better than me in my prone having the baby girl I've wanted since i was 4😢 but he grown and ill prob never meet my granddaughter bc they haven't realized he got mental problems as bad if not worse than mine now that I've been learning about this and other disorders. Fml
i‘ve been through the depths and highs of bipolar disorder for over half of my life. from psychosis to hypomania, from depression to normality, joy and bliss back to being suicidal in the blink of a moment. i gained and lost so many relationships, jobs, friendships. i went through artistic highs (i’m a musician) and total connection within to total disconnect. i‘ve struggled with drug and alcohol abuse to cope. the hypomanic state feels like bliss sometimes while the paranoia, sleep paralysis and depression showed me hell. i am so grateful to have reached out and found help. to anyone out there struggling. even though sometimes it don’t seem like it. there is hope. a good support system, supportive friends, therapy and medication can really help. but most of all as in my experience. it‘s your own strenght having lived through all this that makes you a wonderful spirit. you can find peace within, it just takes work and patience and most importantly. hope. if you read this. if you have been through this or if you are struggling. i wish you happiness and peace.
Hi, thank you for this. I needed to read something like this. Salamat.
People have a lot of courage sharing there stories. While the battle rages on, taking the time to share their journey helps educate people who only see the headlines of famous people. Their stories helps humanize this disease and thus remove the stigma associated with mental illness. I thank them again for their vulnerability and strength to continue to live full productivity lives.
These are 2 wonderful young people. So great that they are sharing their stories. Thank you both!
Thank you. I cannot express this to my loved ones. This video is a real tool to me.
Brave people showing the struggle and exposing their truths. 🙏. I was diagnosed years ago but never followed through with treatment. Running in my 20’s turned to chain smoking in my 40’s. I’m hooked on the manic rush. The lows are getting worse with age. I’m afraid it will stifle my creativity if I 💊. I also don’t want to reveal I’m not okay. Thank you Vice.
Jerm Indy Gent. Have you tried any marijuana?
Natasha T
Thank u for asking.
Right before the quarantine I was for a few months (off the street so I never new the strain) . It did help but I kept increasing my use . I stopped last week. Just because like everyone else I’m not working(cosmetologist). My appetite just came back and I lost a lot of weight. Idk addictive nature.
My wife and 1 dr. knows. The last medication sucked.
It's a real struggle. When I was in my teens and twenties, I never understood why people did themselves when they were almost done at age 60 or 70. I get it now. It doesnt stop. It beats you down over the years.
@@hansmueller3029 let that sink in
the pills have so many side-effects for me, worse than any mania for me. I'm old and just smoke weed now.
Same weed just puts me one mood always used that
The antipsychotic meds make u wop loads of weight on !!
Same. I took lexapro ONE TIME..
I sat in my mirror touching my face then the mirror like I couldn't grasp I was me. My husband was so scared. After that I tried trazodone to sleep days later. I had a pain in my brain. Like deep in it for days. I said fuck this. Went back to smoking weed heavily an I paint to release my anger, anxiety and stress. Fuck some meds.
Side effects can be bad but it's important to add that weed can trigger mania and psychosis for a large amount of people with bipolar so it's important to know what works for you personally
bruh this is true. Smoking regularly sent me into a full psychotic episode
Excellent video, one of the most down to earth profiles on the illness that I’ve seen. Nicely done.