DO NOT GIVE UP! Two years ago my daughter finally recovered from psychotic depression. I sat with her for 12 years of absolute hell - suicide attempts, epileptic seizures, the works. I gave my life to her because I believed in her strength. She is married now and I have a beautiful grandson. You can do this. I've watched quite a few of your vlogs and I believe in you. I'm now 70 years old and finally I have happiness. You too will find your space in this world. I'm watching.
@@guadalupelemus2100look im a christain too. If you want to spread the gospel thats amazing! But spreading it the way you are isnt how you should. First you should explain our fallen state and the origin of it. Then you should explain how sin is the reason jesus was sent to die on the cross for us.
James, bro, it takes BALLS to do what you just did in this video! Putting yourself in front of all of us and being totally honest and transparent! That takes some guts, my friend! I am so stoked that you are taking this condition serious and are in therapy. I guarantee you that there are a lot of people watching your videos every day, because they are dealing with similar issues. Those people don't necessarily comment or subscribe or give it a like. They are watching because they are too afraid of doing what you are doing. They watch because they can relate to you and your videos gives them a sense of well-being because they realize that it is not just THEM! You are showing us that we are not alone! Great job, James! Continue to update us. We all love you, bro! We're all in your corner and pulling for you! You will get past this 'season' in your life, I promise! Good things are coming your way!
Yes, James, we're all sending mad love and healing vibes in your direction! I wish more people were brave enough to talk about mental health. It's so important to talk to someone about how we're feeling and how we're doing in life and so many people are scared to because of the stigma. I found my brother, who took his life in 2007, please don't do that to your family. I'm still in therapy for depression and PTSD, from what I experienced that day. Just know that your being on this earth is important, to so many of us! Actually, to anyone who made it this far in my comment, you're loved as well. 🤟 If anyone ever needs someone to talk to about anything, I'm the most non-judgmental person there is. I'm also a member of the alphabet mafia. I know some members of the LGBTQ community feel more comfortable talking to someone who can relate, which is why I mentioned that. PEACE, LOVE, UNITY and RESPECT to you all. 🕊❤👬👫👭
Cheers James, you took the first step in recognizing you have a problem, and realizing you can and will do better in taking good care of yourself, stay close to your love ones that I am sure you have plenty around you. Good luck and continue with your therapy, think positive remember you are very valuable specially to your parents. Big hugs kiddo.
I couldn't do any better than all than second timb's superb comment ! Please please hang in there!! I am much older than you , 59, but the last two or 3 years have been pretty much constant varying levels of depression. Bless you for having the guts to post your vlogs!
The cycle can be overwhelming. I almost unalived myself 11 years ago. It would have been a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Change is difficult. I struggle some days still, but my life is of value. You never know what future you will achieve. A few days after this past Christmas I was driving home after shopping and saw a house on fire. Long story - short: I saved a mans life. I matter. You have so much to offer the world. You have no idea how much good you're bringing others just by your posts here. You matter. Sending positive vibes your way.
Holy cow man, not what I was expecting out of that story. You matter. That’s really amazing that you did that. My mom was saying that yesterday about the “permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’m sorry to hear that you still struggle sometimes, and I hope both of us can overcome this
@@Jwool.mp3 I'm glad those of us that are challenged by our emotions, can connect like this and support one another. Your video content inspires me. Thank you for being you.
I know I’m just a random person on the internet, but it’s gonna be ok. I know you’re not religious, but god is real and theres so much proof. He loves you. There is a god, and he cares. Draw near to him, and he will draw near to you. You’re loved by so many people, and you are worth more than you know. Yes you are just one person, but each and every person has their own story, own way of thinking, and each and every human being could heal someone one day, and in the process, heal themselves🫶🏻
Please don't make any drastic permanent decisions You'll be surprised at how better it gets onwards I really love your channel and i don't want anything bad to happen to you :(
Thank you, I hope it’ll get better soon, and I know that I can get better. I won’t do anything permanent and right now I’m just trying to take care of myself
@@Jwool.mp3Take care of yourself focus on what you like and some stuff you want to achieve you are in a stage when you are lost but you are just a young men a smart one
You should really try to get very social with a lot of people, it is very much healing, you deserve the best and most content people around you! If I could I would want to help you right now!! Take caree
@@MyrtheJenniskens Not everytime i'm sorry, i think he should focus on himself and what he like and don't like, then he wiĺl have the best skills to choose who he wants to hang out, sometimes friends are your best ennemies
@@Jwool.mp3 I also was at a hard point recently. To me it made sense that if I truly dont care for my life anymore... maybe just give it into someone elses hands for the time being. It helped me build my new selfe or rather get back to the good stuff in life! So glad to still be here even tho there where these dark years! I hope you can find yourselfe! Never give up! And if you need to scream and lose your mind to embrace the change. You can organize that. There are people for it.
I'm only 13 years old, and for me the struggle is school and sometimes my parents which leads me sometimes of thinking about running away (which isn't the safest option) even fake friends are worse. I try to tell myself that its probably just a phase and i'm overreacting since i'm just now becoming a teenager, but I don't know. Even though our situations are different I defiantly understand what you're going through and your videos help me cope in some way. Much blessings
Look inside YOU ....are Ů a Nice person, a Good person? Build on your comfort Iin your mind by finding the funny and caring part of your inner Self I love ů ❤
I love your videos. Im very proud of you!! Im an older grandpa that understands what you are going through. I cant tell you enough how your honesty and straight forward approach has given me comfort. Hang in there my friend. A lot of people out there care for you. I wish i could give you a big hug. I think you are awesome. Thank you!@AZ-so2wc
You are not overeating. Mental health issues are often ignored, or overlooked. Often those that you think are your supportive friends, will abandon you when you express your mental difficulties, and coping skills. I have talked about my struggles dealing with the aftermath of effects of seven years of trauma inflicted on me. It is very important that you reach out for help. There are self help online books on depression recovery for starters might help you. You are not alone in this fight. 🙏
I genuinely hope it gets better. What you're going through seems terrifying and I'm so sorry you have to go through this in the first place. We're all here. Mental health issues are fucked up, so, please remind yourself that you're doing the best you can.
Ay thank you man. Yes I just gotta try my best. Even when I’m struggling and my best isn’t what I want it to be, I’m still trying my best and that’s what matters
Suicide is a permanent decision to temporary problems. That is what my grandma told me and ever since I’ve been reflecting on things and I am so happy to be alive. And you will feel that way too someday. I am so happy you are alive and many people are too. You are loved, stay strong bro ❤
My 24 year old nephew unalived himself 2 weeks ago. My heart breaks for the pain he was in BUT he didn't talk to anyone about how bad it was. The pain he was feeling has been magnified and spread to everyone who loved him and even to those that just knew him. Losing him is agony for the family. Keep talking. Do everything you can to make sure you stay here. It will get better. I promise. It will never get better for my nephew and his mother will be in pain until the day she dies. Crying now.
@@medickaisu OMG, I’m so sorry. This pains me to read. “The pain he was feeling has been magnified and SPREAD TO EVERYONE WHO LOVED HIM.” Ugh. Gut punch.
The way you freely share your journey says so much about the kind of person you are, and how hard you’re trying. I think a lot of people on the verge of giving up can learn from you. You’re gonna do great things, keep going.
I cannot offer you advice. But I want to make an observation. I LOVE your level of self awareness and self honesty. And I love that you acknowledge how much you are valued by your parents and your therapist. I am not a religious person, but I am taking time out of my day today and for the next several days to think of your bravery and try to motivate myself by your example.
I’m broken. Watching this makes me realize I’m not the only one that is going through things, including suicidal or depression. This video meant a lot to me and really helped me realize a lot of things.
You just showered up in my recommendations, I don't fit into your age group, but there must be a reason. Perhaps TH-cam wants more eyes on your channel. Unfortunately, I can't help you with your struggles, but I will definitely say you have extreme value as a wonderful person, and I hope you are able to find the value of yourself. I know your family loves you, and your viewers care about you. Take care, friend.
You do helps others. Your story educates me. I am 14years old with complicated family and i feel myself not good because of my family. Yesterday i found out i don't really love myself. I found my old channel where i was making art video being 10-12 years old and i remembered how i was making all the video and the art at that time. And so i understood i wasn't valuing nor me nor my art at all. I was forcing myself to draw untill drawing or animation is perfect but then i always was thinking the art isn't important. I never knew i just don't really love myself. But all those observation i made yesterday made me finally realise for now i still don't love myself fully. Stories like Yours are SO helpfull! I understand myself better thanks to You! Thank you very much. I continue to work with myself. I want to be healthy and live happy.
You hang in there man. You’re not alone. Any honest person knows they’ve experienced similar spells in their life. Your openness and honesty dude is likely helping countless other people with these vids you’re producing. You are making a huge difference and matter in the world. Routing for you. So what you need to do and have a great week!
You ARE helping others! With this TH-cam Channel, you are showing the rest of us to be vulnerable and not afraid to talk about what you are going through. We all need to learn how to talk out our issues. You are leading the way for us. Thank You!
This channel was recommended to me and I have been watching. I don’t know what is happening but if it helps I am cheering you on and hope you know that I am wishing you good thoughts and positive vibes your way. Always remember you are loved by your girlfriend and by your parents since they were readily available when they got called. I even will be happy to do whatever I can to help as well because you are an awesome young man and someone who is going to do awesome things in the future!! Stay strong and be blessed my friend.
I'm so pleased for you that you're working on getting your power back, choosing your behaviors. It's actually a big deal to be getting control of your life. I understand about symptoms showing back up, but it's about the progress, not getting it perfect. I hope you can remember that you deserve to live well, and you're learning, just like everybody else. Keep going and don't worry. Aim at your goals, but don't give yourself a hard time for not being perfect. I've had a lot of experience with this crap. I'm a 77 year old grandmother who is a recovering alcoholic. I'm happy to be someone who can help have your back. If we can circle around you and help you get back from the edge, I can't think of anything happier. Good luck, dear boy!
Hey kiddo, I came upon your channel by chance tonight. Let me say that I would love to give you a huge loving hug! I can only hope that you realize that you are immensely loved & that you have a lot of choices when it comes to talking to someone. Give us all a chance if you need help. PEACE OUT MY BRO!
I wasn't sure why TH-cam recommended your channel and videos to me, but I'm glad they did. I don't know your full story or what's going on in your life, but I am putting you on my prayer list for sure. I've seen a few of your videos, and I have to tell you how BRAVE you are. There is such a stigma around mental health and there shouldn't be. If you break your arm, you go to the doctor. If something isn't right, get help. Sometimes that looks like seeing a therapist, talking to a trusted friend, writing everything in a journal, all of those things and more. I am glad you are seeing a therapist. I am glad you are making these videos and sharing your journey and your struggles. I am subscribing to you because I want to hear more from you tomorrow. and the next day. and the next.... I hope today is a good day for you.
I really needed to see this dude. I’ve been struggling with depression and “stuff” for a very long time. I’ve isolated myself from my friends, locked myself in my room, stopped talking to my family and just disconnecting from everyone and everything around me for the most part. I’ve tried to get better and kind of have but there’ll be times where I’ll fall into depression and try to make things better again and it just sort of repeats over and over again, kind of like the cycle you mentioned. I’m not exactly sure how I’m going to truly get better, but I know that I’m going to try my hardest, especially because of this video, so thank you for that.
I'm glad you said something, and realize you need help.. That says you really don't want to harm yourself when you actually think about it. Remember that and think about it when those thoughts enter your head!!! Hit the pause button and think about it!!!! As you said, it's only temporary.. But you got this.. keep reaching out to people and if the thoughts get bad, don't allow yourself to be alone. !!!! YOU GOT THIS!!!!!
I've been to some very dark places but i was too stupid to talk to anyone about it. Smart move to tell your parents and get their support. Hoping this will go away soo for you.
Hey, bro I found your channel the other day and can relate quite a bit. It used to be way worse for me and things still aren't great, however I realized we all go through it, some worse than others absolutely! Personally I started to understand I must accept the things I can't change and to figure out what I can then just focus on that. Your journal may very well be a great thing to start with. The fact you're even seeking help is great too. I also came across this quote one day that says "Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it to the ones you love and remains." I won't sit here and sound too cliche bc I sure know how much I hate that. I did want to leave a comment for what it's worth though and I hope you stay strong and don't give up yet.
Hey, Ive had a bit of experience with going to a psych hospital for depression, and a drug detox for addiction about five years ago. This all resulted from the sudden death of my boyfriend, and two months later losing my apartment when they doubled the rent and I could not afford the first/last month + security deposit on a new place. I felt I had no future, couldnt cope. Its not a cure, but it can help get you on a better path, find other resources, maybe tweak your meds. But pay attention to what your needs are even if you cant keep up with them right now, you know yourself best. And I enjoy your stories, piano playing, and vlog if thats what this is! Youre smart and sensitive and you deserve to live - not in chronic pain. It wasnt scary where I went, the biggest thing was getting the attention I needed. After I got out I was off drugs, got help finding a place, etc I am glad I didnt succeed at a sui**de attempt, and I am alive to honor my partner and read and listen to music and have good friends! I sincerely hope you get what you need and many of us here really do care. 🤗🐕
James, I’m glad you’re talking to us. Somewhere, there is a issue and you know what it is. Always talk with your parents, they love you more than you can imagine. Talking to us, if you feel comfortable, then keep talking because we are listening and care.
I am so sorry to hear that you aren't getting any better, just remember you are loved by everyone that is important to you especially your subscribers. I know how hard it can be, just a couple months ago I felt so alone when I had a lot of good friends that thought I was fine but I wasn't. Lastly, know that I am here to listen to your struggles and hope that you get better soon. Lots of love
Hey man just wanted do hop in and say you're loved. Don't give up. I've been through similar things and I just want you to know that, and trust me when I say this, it really really gets better man... I believe in you, please, don't ever give up ❤❤
I completely understand your cycle brother. I have been through it too. You are strong and you WILL get through this. Those who love you are counting on you to stay strong ❤️. Love you brother
ty for posting these videos. it makes me feel less alone and i relate so much with having no one my age to talk to. u can get through this. life is tough but you are tougher. good luck with everything and you are here for a reason and u are loved by so many people :)
Navigating hard times as a young teen can be incredibly challenging. Reaching out for support and sharing your thoughts and feelings are such a great thing to do. Staying connected is important and setting smalls goals like you’re doing is also great. Accomplishing small goals can build your confidence and help you feel in more control. Hard times are often temporary. With time, support, and effort, things can improve. You are definitely of value to this world and sharing your experiences will definitely help you and others. Keep up the good work.
I applaud your courage and grit dearest young man. My granddaughter's friend unalived the day before the last day of school. You may also be super sensitive to the entire condition of humanity's condition - which effects those of us who battle with depression and other forms of states of being that require vigilant self observation, mindfulness and care. As a grandmother, I'm SO PROUD OF YOU and I'm rooting for you totally. Your brave video update here is saving lives that you'll never meet - but know that. You're amazing. I embrace you with great love dear soul.
Jwool, you said you made this channel to help others...........you don't think that is happening? Do you have any idea how brave and strong you are by getting on these videos and revealing your most personal thoughts and experiences! There are thousands of us who have or are experiencing the same issues but have kept it in. You are telling the world it is okay to let it out and to be truthful and I am sure you have saved many lives. I would never have the nerve to do what you just did. You are a hero to me and this video really hit home with me and I plan to do some of the things you are doing to dig out of my hole. I love you and you and you have my utmost admiration for being so strong. Please keep making the videos because I need you.
Hey buddy. Don't give up- you are going thru this, you're not staying in it! You have a lot to look forward to in college, the biggest thing there is the new friends you'll make and the satisfaction you'll find in being the best friend to others, the fun times and the binding times! Already you've made me grateful for every one in my life- including you here on youtube! So, relax and look for ways to beca blessing to others! And, I'll be gossiping to God about you- He'll listen because He knows all about it anyways! Keep on posting here... and thanks!
Young man, young man, I'm 48 and I see myself in you, have faith and never give up, I fuckin promise you shit gets better, you are intelligent, handsome, and the world is at your fingertips, we got this
Hi there. I just recently came across your channel the first video of you that I saw was when you said you told your parents about how you are suicidal or think about it and seeing this video makes me want to sort of cry I would’ve been your friend if I known you. But I don’t and stranger danger. But all I got to say is that it will get better. I’m sorry to hear you struggle so much. You aren’t alone in these Mental illness or mental challenges. It takes GUTS and such Bravery and Courage to share how you feel online like you did I also saw your video that said crying doesn’t make a man weak and I Agree! If you need me, reply to this comment. All of these people saw this video and saw you struggling and want to help, Your feelings and thoughts matter and your Mind too!!
You can do this!!! I’m 19, also thinking starting college is scary asf thinking abt it- I rarely went to school due to Covid in first years, and being in treatment in later years, so school just scares me- I don’t have the confidence, but I’m working on it in therapy. I told myself, and my close friends that I wanted to live, but dude is still hard asf fighting it, but I know I can do it. it has gotten so much better, like I feel more alive now- I’m more self aware of my feelings, and that self awareness you have right now will keep you alive. Knowing what ur feeling, and that you truly need the help means improvement. If you end up in the psychiatric unit that doesn’t take away what you have done to get better, so never beat yourself up if that happens; sometimes life just gets tough, and you’re gonna need the extra help.
man, i can relate to this a lot. i used to feel this way and honestly i can only say that it WILL stop. what i learned is that it will stop eventually, and i think thats the most bittersweet thing to experience. knowing that youre going to feel better some day, just not when. but the important thing is the fact that its gonna happen, and not the uncertainty. i can tell you that i feel a lot better nowadays, and its only been 1-2 years. dark points or dead ends in life, do still happen, and they will always happen, and its hard to keep a positive mindset throughout. all i can say is - you dont have to always have a happy mindset, especially not in these extremely low points. but thats okay. its okay, because youre not supposed to be perfect, youre your own person. you ecperience good things, and bad things, and you will feel happy - and sad. thats life. what helps me keep an uplifting mindset now is the thought: "man, im so glad i didnt unalive myself back then". "im so glad i didnt do it", whenever i have a good moment. it doesnt have to be something crazy. just waking up on a sunny summer day, being greeted by my purring cat and eating my favorite food. man, im so so proud of myself for never going through with it. take it easy on yourself. you dont have to force yourself to be happy, or ask yourself: "shit, why does everyone seem to be able to cope with this but me?". just do what brings you happiness, or peace. watch sunsets, if you like them. go to mcdonalds, take yourself out for some dinner or a soda. and in these moments, remember that its your strenght and your braveness that brought you there. you can be grateful for yourself because nobody else but you made it possible that youre able to enjoy this nice moment for yourself. this isnt supposed to be crazy good advice, i just hope that i can share what helps me enjoy life, instead of fearing it. cause ive been there. and i promise, youll get out of it. hoping and wishing the best for you man. i usually dont write comments and i hope this doesnt come off as corny or anything. just wanted to share what maybe wouldve helped 13-18 year old me.
I agree somewhat. It’s definitely a last resort, and there is one “good” one that my therapist recommends. I don’t think it’s a punishment, although it is very scary to think about. At the end of the day, everyone just wants what’s best for me
My friends and I have been to almost a point of being in a mental hospital, but I’ve gotten people back up on their feet and they’ve and I’m so glad I didn’t have to go to a mental hospital and I hope that you don’t either brother
Don't go to a mental hospital. Especially in america it doesnt work. You need good anit depressants. Dont give up until you find the ones that work for you. It can take 2 weeks for them to start working.@@Jwool.mp3
Sitting in your room without a phone seems like a path to more depression. You need to distract yourself until you are able let go of what is bothering you. Everything seems really important when you are a teen, even things that aren't.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please stay strong. I know it is extremely tough. Life will get better. Please stay strong, you are a amazing person❤❤❤❤
This is the first video of yours that I've found. Very moving as you share about your struggles. It seems that by opening up, many people are supporting you which I am sure is an encouragement to you. Keeping holding on to the hope that is found in your family and friends. May this remind you that you are not alone and that people love you and care for you. As a Christian, I am moved to assure you of my prayer support and to help you in any other way. Keep on believing and don't give up. I'll be thinking of you. God bless you, Michael Sainsbery.
im not good at helping people, but you say how we r helping you (your veiwers) it makes me feel better. i hope things get better for you. life happens and bad things happen to good people and it shouldnt be that way.
Wow, you are in a tough spot. Feeling for you man. I've been there twice in my life. Backpacking and bike touring have always been a game changer for my mental health. You are strong. You are powerful. You are wanted. You are loved.
I know this is probably what you have been hearing for months now through your comments but you are not alone, even when it feels like it. I have been struggling with these same feelings, they can be hard to put into words especially when there isn’t a main cause to it. For example something I would always think is, I am so lucky to have this life and nothing is going wrong why am I so sad? My thoughts used to be way worse than how they are today, but it is a constant battle just know it will and does get better and the thoughts might still revisit you here and there but you just have to stay strong. Life is so so special and you make it so special for many people. I wish I could reach through the screen and just hug you right now. Thank you for being brave enough to document your journey, it has helped me and I know many others who are going through this difficult and exhausting time. 💙
Wow.. it takes a lot of guts to share such experiences. Truly inspirational. You are lucky to be surrounded by people that love and care about you. Jesus loves you. He is watching you closely. You got a new chance of life after the selfharm.. You are a blessing. Proud of you 👏👏👏
Very brave to you too make this video Having a social network is important. Every thing you have listed is on the rail to recovery. Keep moving forward, the clouds will clear eventually. I’m a survivor of suicide and depression. I hear you loud and clear.
You'll probably don't see this comment. But i follow you since the very beginning and i appreciate your videos so much. Im struggling since im 11 with mental health and stuff like that. Its refreshing listening to you and i can relate to many of your thoughts. Im so glad i founds your channel a few time ago and wish you all the best. We will go through this, over and over and over. Send you love from germany 🩵
Wow, dude! We're pulling for you. It's amazing you can speak so freely about your situation. Hang in there. At some point, hopefully soon, your truth will be revealed, and it will be okay. Give it time. Try to be at peace. Breath, for us.
Saw the comments about hospitalization and not sure I agree. It took the courage or maybe desperation for me to admit myself to an outpatient program to put me on the road to recovery. Wish things like that program and even videos like yours had been available when I was young. Life might have been a whole lot easier and a lot more fun. I don't regret admitting myself to that outpatient program in any way. It gave me the courage, support, and resources to move forward. You are not alone. They are many of us walking aside you.
I am so so sorry it’s getting so hard for you, self harm is self harm. I really hope you are doing well, I really understand how challenging it can be sometimes. I also understand how it may be annoying that you don’t have privacy, even if you didn’t mention that it can still be quite annoying. I’m glad that you’re speaking this out and you’re seeking help, I’m so so proud of you❤ I really hope you have a good week, you deserve it. You are so so strong, alright? Never give up. You are worth it.
I am no expert, but being an EMT on a very busy Rescue Squad for over 30 years, I have responded to many medical calls, trauma related incidents, and other very difficult events. Brotha, you dont want all that extra challenge in your life, or for those who love you. So, believe me when I say, take it one hour at a time, then when that feels comfortable take it one day at a time, etc... From what I can tell from your video comments, you have a very caring & loving family and quite the competent therapist. Listen to her, trust her, and also feel brave enough [like you did in this video] to speak freely to your mom/dad, don't feel the need to hide your feelings whether they are negative or positive thoughts. You note that you want to live a long life, which is awesome, but to do so you must work at it even as hard as it can get. Your support systems are there, sooo take advantage of them, don't neglect them or yourself. You have a very important purpose on this Earth, it may not be 100% clear quite yet, but at the right time it will be!! Be patient. But, look closely at what you have done to date; you have brought together so many people of various backgrounds, ages, experiences to teach them how to cope, find help, and try so very hard at things that are very difficult. You are an example to others, please know this!! I know you don't know me from Adam, or possible care to even listen to me, but I rarely comment on most folks' TH-cam videos, but you have encouraged me to send this note tonight. That says something about you to encourage this old medical tired responder to sit down and say "good on you" and that you are worthy of a happy life. Yes, it is tough, but nothing in life as important as this is easy youngman. Make your mark, own it, and continue sharing your life & experiences with your TH-cam family. We are here to hear you, encourage you, praise you, and just listen to you. Thank you for being you; and never ever forget your worth to yourself, those around you, and us your virtual friends. Write anytime you feel you need to be heard, I am always here to hear you out!!! Be present always...😊🎉
ok u have to listen to me your an amazing person and very brave to tell people this you did the right thing, now no matter what u go through dont give up God made struggles in this world for u to over come it, do not hurt yourself and focus all about positivity stuff God Bless You never hurt yourself again you are my spiritual brother and your the goat and your him because me plus all your fans you have a bright futures God is telling me this do not feel depressed and always know God is with u even if u dont think he is if hes not answering your Prayers right away doesnt mean he will never im subscribing and your the best
Yo dude, just got this vid recommended to me. I've struggled with mental health my entire life, and I can relate to a lot of what you're saying here. I just wanted to say, keep pushing man. No matter what, just keep pushing. I'm not going to sugarcoat things and say "Oh life will become fantastic and you will never feel this way again!" or tell you any fantasies, but I will say that your darkest moments will pass with time. I always view my struggles as being stuck at the bottom of a well. When you're at the deepest part of the well, it's completely dark, and it genuinely feels like you're never going to see the light again. But somehow, time after time, by just pushing through life, you end up climbing to a point in that well where you can see the light again. You might not be completely out of the well, but just seeing that light, that hope, is enough to keep going. I just keep pushing out of spite at this point. There's so much in life that upsets me, or triggers my mental health, that just me continuing to live each day is my way of saying "Fuck you" to the things that trouble me. That thought also helps me. Maybe some of this can help you, maybe you can relate to some of it. Just want to let you know you're not alone, and I know things will get better for you man! Just keep pushing through it, I believe in you! P.S.: Oh also, keep at the journaling! Writing my thoughts down helps me tremendously. If you have time as well, look into meditation! It's a very hard skill to master, but it has really helped me maintain my mental health. There are lots of guided meditations on TH-cam and that's what I use!
Extremely proud of ya young lad! It’s the worst and getting worser(world),, ( Want Truth always ! ) Be The Strong Lion! Can we be both be Frank! I’m Almost 40, ( your 20 amount of emotional, physical, sexual, spiritual, etc abuse .. keep strong dear lad! ( your in a bag mix) only encourage more of what you do to keep strong! Hope it’s ok, involve others in your life! I did anything I could too counter change the abuse, too helping others, ( would it be, helping out ( volunteering with younger kids, sports etc) helping your elders,,, when your alone and Totally frustrated! I pick up garbage off the street,, and seeing the difference afterwards, made me cry with happiness.. the more I thought less of myself, and put my energy into All of us.. it definitely helped me one day at a time! Trying to throw my bad things into beautiful things, also like poetry,, or finding a harmonica and or sing,, .. trust me! Be strong! Truth can hurt! Love can hurt! But seriously; in the end like Simba( the lion King) strong almighty and they will see you, ! And will want to pay it forward like you in tuff times! Hope I’ve been any stray string lion agape of help! Your already strong than you think!, Show them,, I rarely even have to do Truman show,, You have to start with your small area! Actions, talk is amazing, and we’ll building,, but you have to start very small.. your already there! .. I’m a A.D.H.D, words are hopefully meaning ,, .. Hope you take a slice, of my retarded mind. Many continue 98%,! Unfortunately being a loser, One day you’ll hopefully realise! (Chicken dinner 21).. Much love to strong message, ( both of Us! ) Lions Sorry. People will take my stupid words and not understand,, .. wish I wasn’t a retardant.. And FUK cancer again.. grow a bloody sunflower
Reading this I realise that there are people like me who have experienced the same but still willing to pass on their real experience. It really is life affirming just knowing good people are here❤
Hey man, I don't usually comment on TH-cam videos but your video reminds me how I was at the beginning of this year, and still fight with this sometimes, but around February I hit my rock bottom, was extremely depressed, and had unmedicated OCD, which is a anxiety disorder, around the end of February I told my parents on how I was feeling, and after, one of the things they told me was do you need to be sent to a mental hospital, and honestly man, at the time I probably did need to but I told them no because I wanted that to be a last resort, so I took the time that I had to recover, Going to the gym is a good start, just keep working at it and building consistency but what I recommend is walking, listing to music outside, getting your thoughts straight, and just have that time by yourself while not being in your room, I hope this helps and take one day at a time, be patient with this process, and I wish you the best of luck man.
Lost two I know to suicide. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You were created. You are a good idea. Realize it and move forward with your arms wide open and embrace others and allow them to embrace you.
Keep it together buddy! Admitting you have issues is a massive event for anyone. Please keep the fight going. Life is so tough. I just found out that my cancer has spread to my lymph nodes. The battle continues. Keep your battle going too. Love and support from Alberta Canada.
There are so many wonderful, beautiful and amazing things that you will experience in your life. Stay strong and keep forging ahead. You will get through this.
You absolutely are helping other people simply by speaking about this as openly and honestly as you are doing. So many other people your age or younger can look to you as a source for understanding when they're at their lowest and loneliest. Thank you for being as brave as you are, and I literally mean that, as brave as you are for sharing like this. My personal stuff started out around 17 and I'm a lot older than that now and I can honestly say that looking back, I am so glad that I didn't actually go through with something. Please, please, please stay here with us. We all need you. Believe me, we need each other, and we need you.
There is much I'd like to say, but I think your therapist should be the one saying the important things here. All I would note is that you are obviously very likeable, very sincere, and very smart, and you have a great deal to offer others. What you do for others--others on here, your friends, your family, others in need, even your dogs--makes this world better for them. I've known several people who were badly depressed at your age, some without any apparent reason, and they went on to lead happy and productive lives. Remain confident that you will too. The real positive here is that you are willing to do the things that your therapist is requesting of you. That means you want to get better, and, wow, is that ever the key to recovery. I truly wish you all the best, Jwool.
Ive been to that dark place multiple times before and I've never had anyone to connect with. It's like "I don't need coping skills or cute clichés no thoughts and prayers or time and space I need someone to prove I'm worth the pain I don't need I've been there comparisons a saftey plan with medicine I need someone to see my worst and stay" It feels like you're running out of hope. I'll admit the mental health system still isn't fully right. I know from experience mental hospitals are horrible places. I used to deal with "self deletion" tendencies I have scars on my arm that I would always regret and I've had aborted attempts at it. I went through absolute hell during my time as a pre teen and even a teen. It didn't stop until I was 19. Before it's in stone before it's too late hold on. We control where the road through hell can lead. The monsters in your mind are mountains you can climb. There's only one you every single person in the world is one of a kind and having these ideas doesn't mean you're "crazy" it means you're more advanced than a standard person like you're A B C and D and the standard person is just A. People who have struggled the most can emerge to be the strongest souls. Remember what doesn't end you is what builds your throne. Hope you feel better.
Man, I’m 20, but if I’ve learned something while here is that in life all you need is the ones that are by your side when things get harder, and that’s the best thing to have, the others are simply not worthy of your company (once a friend, a friend always, or so I believe). And, by the way, even if I barely know you, I really appreciate your openness to all of this. You are a fighter and you as a person made me wish I could help you in that fight; I hope this words bright your day at the very least (even if they come as far away as from Portugal). Really looking forward to seeing you get better, thank you for sharing!
I've been there, like a month ago. Depression is a vicious ducking batch. [autocorrect] I'm seeing seeing a therapist too, and I'm on Zoloft. The Zoloft has helped tremendously, but you may not be in a hood age range for it. People's reactions to antidepressants vary widely, so it's up to your physician or psychiatrist. I think trying to connect maybe even be friends with your roommate could be a great idea. My best friend has also truly been through it, so we can support each other really well. And I'm sure your parents love you so much and their support is important. The plan sounds like a good one. Please stay. The world needs you and believe me, your life will get brighter. [fierce bear hugs] It will get better.
I hope you can find the help you need. Talking about your problems is a good way to get the help you need. It has worked for me these past few months hopefully it helps you too.we’re always here for you Hang in there
Wishing you all the best. Thank you for being here at this moment. It means a lot to hear you even during these times. Life isn't just roses, but has moments of thorns. ✌️
to anyone readin this (INCLUDING YOU JWOOL) im proud of you. youve done so much. so much that you havent been recognized or thanked for. i see it, and thank you. you're doing so well. just keep going. it wont be better without you. people need you. you will find purpose and you will get better. jwool, it wont be better without you. thank you man
I've been surfing through some of your videos for the past few days, and I just want to say that you talking about this is really f*ckin brave, and I promise it's gonna help people who are going through similar stuff. I wish I would have seen this kinda thing a year or two ago when I felt exactly the same. I also want to say that self harm can be super tricky, but it's really great that you're family knows and wants to help. After my family found out, nobody cared and now I've been doing it for years. If you can stop it early you'll probably be much better off. Wishing you the best of luck man. It gets better, just keep taking it one day at a time.
Brave. That's the adjective that comes to my mind. I have no platitudes. Can only add from personal experience that is a slow experience moving towards a more positive life viewpoint and expectations. Grab on to what works for you and the support from family and friends. Know that your bravery will help someone who sees your video know they are not alone and will find the courage to walk alongside of you. You are not alone.
Hey, I found your post by accident, or maybe it wasn't an accident. I have lost two very close friends to ending their lives. Please remember how much pain survivors will go through. Be strong and lean on close friends, family, and strangers who care about you.
man you dont know how hard this video hit me, like a landmine, ive also been struggling with self-harm depression and suicide, currently have 18 suicide attempts and i am 3 weeks clean and i just wanna say i aspire to you my parents dont even know about any of my illnesses and they just tell be to "cop on" and i wanna say that im so proud of you and i want you to know that you are amazing and deserve everything in the entire world, dont give up, you are doing so well and i hope you get well soon
You're a lovely, sweet guy. Never blame yourself for anything, keep being positive, lean on your support system as heavily as you want, you're precious, lots of people love you.
Oh Buddy, don't focus on the angst of your youth. When I was 19 the best friend I ever had killed himself and a few years before another best friend did the same. I was totally alone after that and tried to kill myself passively several times. I struggled like HELL to get past that and today I am 59 and a survivor who has spent the majority of my life trying to help young men to see that there is a future and happiness is not an illusion. In North Carolina where I live I have worked with many counties mental health systems to help. I have a degree in Psychology. I just constantly think what would by best friends lives have been like had they not committed suicide. It even makes me sad to this day to even think about. No matter what, no matter how sad you get never forget the ones who love you. I love you and pray for you since I found this page. Be strong!!
hey I know you may feel like you’re alone but your not! i haven’t fully been through this but I know what it’s like and I really really hope for the best for you because you seem like the nicest person, don’t give up, you can do this. ❤
You can make it brother. I know it in my bones. I understand what you're going through. Just know, it doesn't last forever. All of us love your and we're all here for you.
Just wanted to say, the fact that you made this video and posted it on here, that's a huge positive sign in and of itself!!! Don't give up - you are doing the right thing getting help for yourself. Keep asking for help, and keep going after help that actually helps you. Everything in your videos shows that you are connecting to your own thoughts and feelings really well. Don't underestimate how valuable that is! (Also, like others have said, there's an understandable stigma surrounding mental hospitals. But oftentimes, even just a brief stay in such a place can really be the right thing at a given time and lead to a positive change, both for yourself and for the people who care about you.)
Hang in there! You matter a lot. We help each other out. I'm dealing with depression too so can relate. And your video on crying is epic. Should be required watching in schools.
DO NOT GIVE UP!
Two years ago my daughter finally recovered from psychotic depression.
I sat with her for 12 years of absolute hell - suicide attempts, epileptic seizures, the works.
I gave my life to her because I believed in her strength.
She is married now and I have a beautiful grandson.
You can do this. I've watched quite a few of your vlogs and I believe in you.
I'm now 70 years old and finally I have happiness.
You too will find your space in this world.
I'm watching.
That's precious. Thank you for being there for her.
WOW mad respect I hope you're doing well
you sound like a great dad. makes me happy to know you stuck with her.
You're an angel.
I struggle with psychotic depression. I take it month by month. It's better now--or coming back, I don't know. But I'm here.
Remember guy, you are not alone.
GOS BLESS PLEASE TURN FROM YOUR SINS AND BELIEVE IN THE GOSPEL AND BELIEVE THAT JESUS DIED ON THE CROSS FOR ALL OF ARE SINS HE LOVES YOU ❤️🙏✝️❤️
Bots on this type of video is so crazy and disrespectfull@@guadalupelemus2100
@@guadalupelemus2100look im a christain too. If you want to spread the gospel thats amazing! But spreading it the way you are isnt how you should. First you should explain our fallen state and the origin of it. Then you should explain how sin is the reason jesus was sent to die on the cross for us.
James, bro, it takes BALLS to do what you just did in this video! Putting yourself in front of all of us and being totally honest and transparent! That takes some guts, my friend! I am so stoked that you are taking this condition serious and are in therapy. I guarantee you that there are a lot of people watching your videos every day, because they are dealing with similar issues. Those people don't necessarily comment or subscribe or give it a like. They are watching because they are too afraid of doing what you are doing. They watch because they can relate to you and your videos gives them a sense of well-being because they realize that it is not just THEM! You are showing us that we are not alone! Great job, James! Continue to update us. We all love you, bro! We're all in your corner and pulling for you! You will get past this 'season' in your life, I promise! Good things are coming your way!
I really like how you expressed your viewpoint on this. Yes, James was indeed courageous to share his experiences. Thank you for supporting James.
Yes, James, we're all sending mad love and healing vibes in your direction! I wish more people were brave enough to talk about mental health. It's so important to talk to someone about how we're feeling and how we're doing in life and so many people are scared to because of the stigma. I found my brother, who took his life in 2007, please don't do that to your family. I'm still in therapy for depression and PTSD, from what I experienced that day. Just know that your being on this earth is important, to so many of us! Actually, to anyone who made it this far in my comment, you're loved as well. 🤟 If anyone ever needs someone to talk to about anything, I'm the most non-judgmental person there is. I'm also a member of the alphabet mafia. I know some members of the LGBTQ community feel more comfortable talking to someone who can relate, which is why I mentioned that. PEACE, LOVE, UNITY and RESPECT to you all. 🕊❤👬👫👭
Cheers James, you took the first step in recognizing you have a problem, and realizing you can and will do better in taking good care of yourself, stay close to your love ones that I am sure you have plenty around you. Good luck and continue with your therapy, think positive remember you are very valuable specially to your parents. Big hugs kiddo.
Such beautiful encouragement ❤
I couldn't do any better than all than second timb's superb comment ! Please please hang in there!!
I am much older than you , 59, but the last two or 3 years have been pretty much constant varying levels of depression.
Bless you for having the guts to post your vlogs!
I lost my best friend in high school around your age 42 years ago. Nobody knew that he had a problem. Talk to whoever whenever you need to.
I am so sorry for your loss, seriously one of the worst things that could happen 😢😢😢
People don’t want to hear it when it’s chronic.
@@ezdboy A best friend . . . That is a soul-sucking loss. 😔 hugs to you
The cycle can be overwhelming. I almost unalived myself 11 years ago. It would have been a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Change is difficult. I struggle some days still, but my life is of value. You never know what future you will achieve. A few days after this past Christmas I was driving home after shopping and saw a house on fire. Long story - short: I saved a mans life. I matter.
You have so much to offer the world. You have no idea how much good you're bringing others just by your posts here. You matter.
Sending positive vibes your way.
Holy cow man, not what I was expecting out of that story. You matter. That’s really amazing that you did that. My mom was saying that yesterday about the “permanent solution to a temporary problem”. I’m sorry to hear that you still struggle sometimes, and I hope both of us can overcome this
@@Jwool.mp3 do you want to meet up with me and Lainey Wilson tomorrow
Wow dude that's very amazing and inspiring
@@Jwool.mp3 I'm glad those of us that are challenged by our emotions, can connect like this and support one another. Your video content inspires me. Thank you for being you.
I know I’m just a random person on the internet, but it’s gonna be ok. I know you’re not religious, but god is real and theres so much proof. He loves you. There is a god, and he cares. Draw near to him, and he will draw near to you. You’re loved by so many people, and you are worth more than you know. Yes you are just one person, but each and every person has their own story, own way of thinking, and each and every human being could heal someone one day, and in the process, heal themselves🫶🏻
Please don't make any drastic permanent decisions
You'll be surprised at how better it gets onwards
I really love your channel and i don't want anything bad to happen to you :(
Thank you, I hope it’ll get better soon, and I know that I can get better. I won’t do anything permanent and right now I’m just trying to take care of myself
@@Jwool.mp3Take care of yourself focus on what you like and some stuff you want to achieve you are in a stage when you are lost but you are just a young men a smart one
You should really try to get very social with a lot of people, it is very much healing, you deserve the best and most content people around you! If I could I would want to help you right now!! Take caree
@@MyrtheJenniskens Not everytime i'm sorry, i think he should focus on himself and what he like and don't like, then he wiĺl have the best skills to choose who he wants to hang out, sometimes friends are your best ennemies
The stigma of mental hospitals has prevented people from getting the help they need. Take all options to heart for your mental health. 🤞
Agreed. I may not like them but I am open to whatever option will help me
@@Jwool.mp3I wish I was nearby to help. I'm so sorry you're going through this!
@@Jwool.mp3 theres an animation channel that made a video about mental hospitals I recommend you watch that video
@@Jwool.mp3 I also was at a hard point recently. To me it made sense that if I truly dont care for my life anymore... maybe just give it into someone elses hands for the time being. It helped me build my new selfe or rather get back to the good stuff in life! So glad to still be here even tho there where these dark years! I hope you can find yourselfe! Never give up! And if you need to scream and lose your mind to embrace the change. You can organize that. There are people for it.
I'm only 13 years old, and for me the struggle is school and sometimes my parents which leads me sometimes of thinking about running away (which isn't the safest option) even fake friends are worse. I try to tell myself that its probably just a phase and i'm overreacting since i'm just now becoming a teenager, but I don't know. Even though our situations are different I defiantly understand what you're going through and your videos help me cope in some way. Much blessings
Look inside YOU ....are Ů a Nice person, a Good person?
Build on your comfort Iin your mind by finding the funny and caring part of your inner Self
I love ů ❤
@@AZ-so2wc thank u
I love your videos. Im very proud of you!! Im an older grandpa that understands what you are going through. I cant tell you enough how your honesty and straight forward approach has given me comfort. Hang in there my friend. A lot of people out there care for you. I wish i could give you a big hug. I think you are awesome. Thank you!@AZ-so2wc
You are not overeating. Mental health issues are often ignored, or overlooked. Often those that you think are your supportive friends, will abandon you when you express your mental difficulties, and coping skills. I have talked about my struggles dealing with the aftermath of effects of seven years of trauma inflicted on me. It is very important that you reach out for help. There are self help online books on depression recovery for starters might help you. You are not alone in this fight. 🙏
I relate to this so much, and I hope you’re doing okay
I wish all us depressed people could get together and be friends
Preach
I know, same!
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I genuinely hope it gets better. What you're going through seems terrifying and I'm so sorry you have to go through this in the first place. We're all here. Mental health issues are fucked up, so, please remind yourself that you're doing the best you can.
Ay thank you man. Yes I just gotta try my best. Even when I’m struggling and my best isn’t what I want it to be, I’m still trying my best and that’s what matters
That's a great message man
@@Jwool.mp3that's right 👍
Suicide is a permanent decision to temporary problems. That is what my grandma told me and ever since I’ve been reflecting on things and I am so happy to be alive. And you will feel that way too someday. I am so happy you are alive and many people are too. You are loved, stay strong bro ❤
....Grama was right ...
That doesn’t work for everyone and is said a lot, that never helped me and also when you’re suicidal you can’t see the perspective
it is NOT always a temporary problem.
@@Jason-fx6pbNot as permanent as death.
“Permanent decision to temporary problems” is trite and unhelpful. Perhaps you should read up on what not to say in situations such as this.
My 24 year old nephew unalived himself 2 weeks ago. My heart breaks for the pain he was in BUT he didn't talk to anyone about how bad it was. The pain he was feeling has been magnified and spread to everyone who loved him and even to those that just knew him. Losing him is agony for the family. Keep talking. Do everything you can to make sure you stay here. It will get better. I promise. It will never get better for my nephew and his mother will be in pain until the day she dies. Crying now.
Sorry to hear this. And yes you're right, you must talk about your troubles.
People will celebrate when I’m gone.
@@melissawessels4666 yeah same i just hope my end come soon.
@@medickaisu OMG, I’m so sorry. This pains me to read. “The pain he was feeling has been magnified and SPREAD TO EVERYONE WHO LOVED HIM.” Ugh. Gut punch.
im so sorry. that brought tears to my eyes and heart. im sure you were an amazing Auntie to him.
The way you freely share your journey says so much about the kind of person you are, and how hard you’re trying. I think a lot of people on the verge of giving up can learn from you. You’re gonna do great things, keep going.
I cannot offer you advice. But I want to make an observation. I LOVE your level of self awareness and self honesty. And I love that you acknowledge how much you are valued by your parents and your therapist.
I am not a religious person, but I am taking time out of my day today and for the next several days to think of your bravery and try to motivate myself by your example.
Awwww my guy! Hang in there and take it one day at a time. I'm always here and I love you my man!
We support you, we love you!!!
Thank you, I really appreciate it and I really appreciate all the support :)
I’m broken. Watching this makes me realize I’m not the only one that is going through things, including suicidal or depression. This video meant a lot to me and really helped me realize a lot of things.
You just showered up in my recommendations, I don't fit into your age group, but there must be a reason. Perhaps TH-cam wants more eyes on your channel.
Unfortunately, I can't help you with your struggles, but I will definitely say you have extreme value as a wonderful person, and I hope you are able to find the value of yourself. I know your family loves you, and your viewers care about you. Take care, friend.
You do helps others. Your story educates me. I am 14years old with complicated family and i feel myself not good because of my family. Yesterday i found out i don't really love myself. I found my old channel where i was making art video being 10-12 years old and i remembered how i was making all the video and the art at that time. And so i understood i wasn't valuing nor me nor my art at all. I was forcing myself to draw untill drawing or animation is perfect but then i always was thinking the art isn't important. I never knew i just don't really love myself. But all those observation i made yesterday made me finally realise for now i still don't love myself fully. Stories like Yours are SO helpfull! I understand myself better thanks to You! Thank you very much. I continue to work with myself. I want to be healthy and live happy.
your videos have helped me so much and I’m sure it’s helped so many other people show that they are not alone, stay strong man 💪🏼 you got this
You hang in there man. You’re not alone. Any honest person knows they’ve experienced similar spells in their life. Your openness and honesty dude is likely helping countless other people with these vids you’re producing. You are making a huge difference and matter in the world. Routing for you. So what you need to do and have a great week!
You ARE helping others! With this TH-cam Channel, you are showing the rest of us to be vulnerable and not afraid to talk about what you are going through. We all need to learn how to talk out our issues. You are leading the way for us. Thank You!
This channel was recommended to me and I have been watching.
I don’t know what is happening but if it helps I am cheering you on and hope you know that I am wishing you good thoughts and positive vibes your way. Always remember you are loved by your girlfriend and by your parents since they were readily available when they got called. I even will be happy to do whatever I can to help as well because you are an awesome young man and someone who is going to do awesome things in the future!! Stay strong and be blessed my friend.
I'm so pleased for you that you're working on getting your power back, choosing your behaviors. It's actually a big deal to be getting control of your life. I understand about symptoms showing back up, but it's about the progress, not getting it perfect. I hope you can remember that you deserve to live well, and you're learning, just like everybody else. Keep going and don't worry. Aim at your goals, but don't give yourself a hard time for not being perfect. I've had a lot of experience with this crap. I'm a 77 year old grandmother who is a recovering alcoholic. I'm happy to be someone who can help have your back. If we can circle around you and help you get back from the edge, I can't think of anything happier. Good luck, dear boy!
Hey kiddo, I came upon your channel by chance tonight. Let me say that I would love to give you a huge loving hug! I can only hope that you realize that you are immensely loved & that you have a lot of choices when it comes to talking to someone. Give us all a chance if you need help. PEACE OUT MY BRO!
I wasn't sure why TH-cam recommended your channel and videos to me, but I'm glad they did. I don't know your full story or what's going on in your life, but I am putting you on my prayer list for sure. I've seen a few of your videos, and I have to tell you how BRAVE you are. There is such a stigma around mental health and there shouldn't be. If you break your arm, you go to the doctor. If something isn't right, get help. Sometimes that looks like seeing a therapist, talking to a trusted friend, writing everything in a journal, all of those things and more. I am glad you are seeing a therapist. I am glad you are making these videos and sharing your journey and your struggles. I am subscribing to you because I want to hear more from you tomorrow. and the next day. and the next.... I hope today is a good day for you.
I really needed to see this dude. I’ve been struggling with depression and “stuff” for a very long time. I’ve isolated myself from my friends, locked myself in my room, stopped talking to my family and just disconnecting from everyone and everything around me for the most part. I’ve tried to get better and kind of have but there’ll be times where I’ll fall into depression and try to make things better again and it just sort of repeats over and over again, kind of like the cycle you mentioned. I’m not exactly sure how I’m going to truly get better, but I know that I’m going to try my hardest, especially because of this video, so thank you for that.
Don't forget, everything gets better...Gotta believe it bro!🙏🌞
Not always... it can be about management. Be realistic, not idealistic about it. Learn strategies, find support, take what you need to...
I'm glad you said something, and realize you need help.. That says you really don't want to harm yourself when you actually think about it. Remember that and think about it when those thoughts enter your head!!! Hit the pause button and think about it!!!! As you said, it's only temporary.. But you got this.. keep reaching out to people and if the thoughts get bad, don't allow yourself to be alone. !!!!
YOU GOT THIS!!!!!
Yes I won’t allow myself to be isolated. I truly do want to live a long and healthy life yk? It’s very hard but I know we can make it
I've been to some very dark places but i was too stupid to talk to anyone about it. Smart move to tell your parents and get their support. Hoping this will go away soo for you.
Ima pray for you man you got this 🙏❤
Hey, bro I found your channel the other day and can relate quite a bit. It used to be way worse for me and things still aren't great, however I realized we all go through it, some worse than others absolutely! Personally I started to understand I must accept the things I can't change and to figure out what I can then just focus on that. Your journal may very well be a great thing to start with. The fact you're even seeking help is great too. I also came across this quote one day that says "Suicide doesn't end the pain, it passes it to the ones you love and remains." I won't sit here and sound too cliche bc I sure know how much I hate that. I did want to leave a comment for what it's worth though and I hope you stay strong and don't give up yet.
Hey, Ive had a bit of experience with going to a psych hospital for depression, and a drug detox for addiction about five years ago. This all resulted from the sudden death of my boyfriend, and two months later losing my apartment when they doubled the rent and I could not afford the first/last month + security deposit on a new place. I felt I had no future, couldnt cope. Its not a cure, but it can help get you on a better path, find other resources, maybe tweak your meds. But pay attention to what your needs are even if you cant keep up with them right now, you know yourself best. And I enjoy your stories, piano playing, and vlog if thats what this is! Youre smart and sensitive and you deserve to live - not in chronic pain. It wasnt scary where I went, the biggest thing was getting the attention I needed. After I got out I was off drugs, got help finding a place, etc I am glad I didnt succeed at a sui**de attempt, and I am alive to honor my partner and read and listen to music and have good friends! I sincerely hope you get what you need and many of us here really do care. 🤗🐕
what you need is friends that would listen
James, I’m glad you’re talking to us. Somewhere, there is a issue and you know what it is. Always talk with your parents, they love you more than you can imagine. Talking to us, if you feel comfortable, then keep talking because we are listening and care.
Yeah I do feel a bit more comfortable on here, but my parents are aware of my situation and whatnot. I appreciate the comment, thank you 🙏
props to you for continuing to try and be better even when it’s hard. proud of you.
I am so sorry to hear that you aren't getting any better, just remember you are loved by everyone that is important to you especially your subscribers. I know how hard it can be, just a couple months ago I felt so alone when I had a lot of good friends that thought I was fine but I wasn't. Lastly, know that I am here to listen to your struggles and hope that you get better soon. Lots of love
I don't feel loved either
Hey man just wanted do hop in and say you're loved. Don't give up. I've been through similar things and I just want you to know that, and trust me when I say this, it really really gets better man... I believe in you, please, don't ever give up ❤❤
I completely understand your cycle brother. I have been through it too. You are strong and you WILL get through this. Those who love you are counting on you to stay strong ❤️. Love you brother
It is very brave of you to share, my thoughts are with you in your journey.
ty for posting these videos. it makes me feel less alone and i relate so much with having no one my age to talk to. u can get through this. life is tough but you are tougher. good luck with everything and you are here for a reason and u are loved by so many people :)
Navigating hard times as a young teen can be incredibly challenging. Reaching out for support and sharing your thoughts and feelings are such a great thing to do. Staying connected is important and setting smalls goals like you’re doing is also great. Accomplishing small goals can build your confidence and help you feel in more control. Hard times are often temporary. With time, support, and effort, things can improve. You are definitely of value to this world and sharing your experiences will definitely help you and others. Keep up the good work.
I applaud your courage and grit dearest young man. My granddaughter's friend unalived the day before the last day of school. You may also be super sensitive to the entire condition of humanity's condition - which effects those of us who battle with depression and other forms of states of being that require vigilant self observation, mindfulness and care. As a grandmother, I'm SO PROUD OF YOU and I'm rooting for you totally. Your brave video update here is saving lives that you'll never meet - but know that. You're amazing. I embrace you with great love dear soul.
Jwool, you said you made this channel to help others...........you don't think that is happening? Do you have any idea how brave and strong you are by getting on these videos and revealing your most personal thoughts and experiences! There are thousands of us who have or are experiencing the same issues but have kept it in. You are telling the world it is okay to let it out and to be truthful and I am sure you have saved many lives. I would never have the nerve to do what you just did. You are a hero to me and this video really hit home with me and I plan to do some of the things you are doing to dig out of my hole. I love you and you and you have my utmost admiration for being so strong. Please keep making the videos because I need you.
Hey buddy. Don't give up- you are going thru this, you're not staying in it! You have a lot to look forward to in college, the biggest thing there is the new friends you'll make and the satisfaction you'll find in being the best friend to others, the fun times and the binding times!
Already you've made me grateful for every one in my life- including you here on youtube!
So, relax and look for ways to beca blessing to others!
And, I'll be gossiping to God about you- He'll listen because He knows all about it anyways!
Keep on posting here... and thanks!
you got this man i believe in you and you can do this you are the strongest mf out there for being open and actually fighting it
Young man, young man, I'm 48 and I see myself in you, have faith and never give up, I fuckin promise you shit gets better, you are intelligent, handsome, and the world is at your fingertips, we got this
Hi there. I just recently came across your channel the first video of you that I saw was when you said you told your parents about how you are suicidal or think about it and seeing this video makes me want to sort of cry I would’ve been your friend if I known you. But I don’t and stranger danger. But all I got to say is that it will get better. I’m sorry to hear you struggle so much. You aren’t alone in these Mental illness or mental challenges. It takes GUTS and such Bravery and Courage to share how you feel online like you did I also saw your video that said crying doesn’t make a man weak and I Agree! If you need me, reply to this comment. All of these people saw this video and saw you struggling and want to help, Your feelings and thoughts matter and your Mind too!!
You can do this!!! I’m 19, also thinking starting college is scary asf thinking abt it- I rarely went to school due to Covid in first years, and being in treatment in later years, so school just scares me- I don’t have the confidence, but I’m working on it in therapy. I told myself, and my close friends that I wanted to live, but dude is still hard asf fighting it, but I know I can do it. it has gotten so much better, like I feel more alive now- I’m more self aware of my feelings, and that self awareness you have right now will keep you alive. Knowing what ur feeling, and that you truly need the help means improvement. If you end up in the psychiatric unit that doesn’t take away what you have done to get better, so never beat yourself up if that happens; sometimes life just gets tough, and you’re gonna need the extra help.
man, i can relate to this a lot. i used to feel this way and honestly i can only say that it WILL stop. what i learned is that it will stop eventually, and i think thats the most bittersweet thing to experience. knowing that youre going to feel better some day, just not when. but the important thing is the fact that its gonna happen, and not the uncertainty.
i can tell you that i feel a lot better nowadays, and its only been 1-2 years. dark points or dead ends in life, do still happen, and they will always happen, and its hard to keep a positive mindset throughout. all i can say is - you dont have to always have a happy mindset, especially not in these extremely low points. but thats okay. its okay, because youre not supposed to be perfect, youre your own person. you ecperience good things, and bad things, and you will feel happy - and sad. thats life.
what helps me keep an uplifting mindset now is the thought: "man, im so glad i didnt unalive myself back then". "im so glad i didnt do it", whenever i have a good moment. it doesnt have to be something crazy. just waking up on a sunny summer day, being greeted by my purring cat and eating my favorite food. man, im so so proud of myself for never going through with it.
take it easy on yourself. you dont have to force yourself to be happy, or ask yourself: "shit, why does everyone seem to be able to cope with this but me?". just do what brings you happiness, or peace. watch sunsets, if you like them. go to mcdonalds, take yourself out for some dinner or a soda. and in these moments, remember that its your strenght and your braveness that brought you there. you can be grateful for yourself because nobody else but you made it possible that youre able to enjoy this nice moment for yourself.
this isnt supposed to be crazy good advice, i just hope that i can share what helps me enjoy life, instead of fearing it. cause ive been there. and i promise, youll get out of it.
hoping and wishing the best for you man. i usually dont write comments and i hope this doesnt come off as corny or anything. just wanted to share what maybe wouldve helped 13-18 year old me.
For me, being sent to a mental hospital kinda feels like a punishment bc in their eyes you're not "normal" and need to be fixed
Glad I'm not the only one that feels that way
I agree somewhat. It’s definitely a last resort, and there is one “good” one that my therapist recommends. I don’t think it’s a punishment, although it is very scary to think about. At the end of the day, everyone just wants what’s best for me
@@Jwool.mp3I hope you feel better soon !stay strong 💪 I’ve been through something similar
My friends and I have been to almost a point of being in a mental hospital, but I’ve gotten people back up on their feet and they’ve and I’m so glad I didn’t have to go to a mental hospital and I hope that you don’t either brother
Don't go to a mental hospital. Especially in america it doesnt work. You need good anit depressants. Dont give up until you find the ones that work for you. It can take 2 weeks for them to start working.@@Jwool.mp3
Sitting in your room without a phone seems like a path to more depression. You need to distract yourself until you are able let go of what is bothering you. Everything seems really important when you are a teen, even things that aren't.
I’m so sorry you’re going through this. Please stay strong. I know it is extremely tough. Life will get better. Please stay strong, you are a amazing person❤❤❤❤
This is the first video of yours that I've found. Very moving as you share about your struggles. It seems that by opening up, many people are supporting you which I am sure is an encouragement to you. Keeping holding on to the hope that is found in your family and friends. May this remind you that you are not alone and that people love you and care for you. As a Christian, I am moved to assure you of my prayer support and to help you in any other way. Keep on believing and don't give up. I'll be thinking of you. God bless you, Michael Sainsbery.
im not good at helping people, but you say how we r helping you (your veiwers) it makes me feel better. i hope things get better for you. life happens and bad things happen to good people and it shouldnt be that way.
Wow, you are in a tough spot. Feeling for you man. I've been there twice in my life. Backpacking and bike touring have always been a game changer for my mental health. You are strong. You are powerful. You are wanted. You are loved.
I know this is probably what you have been hearing for months now through your comments but you are not alone, even when it feels like it. I have been struggling with these same feelings, they can be hard to put into words especially when there isn’t a main cause to it. For example something I would always think is, I am so lucky to have this life and nothing is going wrong why am I so sad? My thoughts used to be way worse than how they are today, but it is a constant battle just know it will and does get better and the thoughts might still revisit you here and there but you just have to stay strong. Life is so so special and you make it so special for many people. I wish I could reach through the screen and just hug you right now. Thank you for being brave enough to document your journey, it has helped me and I know many others who are going through this difficult and exhausting time. 💙
Wow.. it takes a lot of guts to share such experiences. Truly inspirational. You are lucky to be surrounded by people that love and care about you. Jesus loves you. He is watching you closely. You got a new chance of life after the selfharm.. You are a blessing. Proud of you 👏👏👏
Very brave to you too make this video Having a social network is important. Every thing you have listed is on the rail to recovery. Keep moving forward, the clouds will clear eventually. I’m a survivor of suicide and depression. I hear you loud and clear.
You'll probably don't see this comment. But i follow you since the very beginning and i appreciate your videos so much. Im struggling since im 11 with mental health and stuff like that. Its refreshing listening to you and i can relate to many of your thoughts. Im so glad i founds your channel a few time ago and wish you all the best. We will go through this, over and over and over. Send you love from germany 🩵
Btw I wish we could communicate, I'm around your age and would love to talk to you
Wow, dude! We're pulling for you. It's amazing you can speak so freely about your situation. Hang in there. At some point, hopefully soon, your truth will be revealed, and it will be okay. Give it time. Try to be at peace. Breath, for us.
Hang in there Jwool !!! You are a great guy !! Keep an open door with your family and girlfriend !!! They will help you !!!
Saw the comments about hospitalization and not sure I agree. It took the courage or maybe desperation for me to admit myself to an outpatient program to put me on the road to recovery. Wish things like that program and even videos like yours had been available when I was young. Life might have been a whole lot easier and a lot more fun. I don't regret admitting myself to that outpatient program in any way. It gave me the courage, support, and resources to move forward. You are not alone. They are many of us walking aside you.
Virtual hug you so tight and not let go until you are all better!
I’m also going through the exact same thing right now, so I’ll be praying for you to find relief from your suffering.
The world is better with you in it, even if you don't feel it.
I am so so sorry it’s getting so hard for you, self harm is self harm. I really hope you are doing well, I really understand how challenging it can be sometimes. I also understand how it may be annoying that you don’t have privacy, even if you didn’t mention that it can still be quite annoying. I’m glad that you’re speaking this out and you’re seeking help, I’m so so proud of you❤ I really hope you have a good week, you deserve it. You are so so strong, alright? Never give up. You are worth it.
I am no expert, but being an EMT on a very busy Rescue Squad for over 30 years, I have responded to many medical calls, trauma related incidents, and other very difficult events. Brotha, you dont want all that extra challenge in your life, or for those who love you.
So, believe me when I say, take it one hour at a time, then when that feels comfortable take it one day at a time, etc... From what I can tell from your video comments, you have a very caring & loving family and quite the competent therapist. Listen to her, trust her, and also feel brave enough [like you did in this video] to speak freely to your mom/dad, don't feel the need to hide your feelings whether they are negative or positive thoughts. You note that you want to live a long life, which is awesome, but to do so you must work at it even as hard as it can get. Your support systems are there, sooo take advantage of them, don't neglect them or yourself.
You have a very important purpose on this Earth, it may not be 100% clear quite yet, but at the right time it will be!! Be patient. But, look closely at what you have done to date; you have brought together so many people of various backgrounds, ages, experiences to teach them how to cope, find help, and try so very hard at things that are very difficult. You are an example to others, please know this!!
I know you don't know me from Adam, or possible care to even listen to me, but I rarely comment on most folks' TH-cam videos, but you have encouraged me to send this note tonight. That says something about you to encourage this old medical tired responder to sit down and say "good on you" and that you are worthy of a happy life. Yes, it is tough, but nothing in life as important as this is easy youngman.
Make your mark, own it, and continue sharing your life & experiences with your TH-cam family. We are here to hear you, encourage you, praise you, and just listen to you.
Thank you for being you; and never ever forget your worth to yourself, those around you, and us your virtual friends.
Write anytime you feel you need to be heard, I am always here to hear you out!!! Be present always...😊🎉
Brilliantly said ❤
@@Mercury88-b7k thank you, but maybe not to James. 🤷🏻♂️
ok u have to listen to me your an amazing person and very brave to tell people this you did the right thing, now no matter what u go through dont give up God made struggles in this world for u to over come it, do not hurt yourself and focus all about positivity stuff God Bless You never hurt yourself again you are my spiritual brother and your the goat and your him because me plus all your fans you have a bright futures God is telling me this do not feel depressed and always know God is with u even if u dont think he is if hes not answering your Prayers right away doesnt mean he will never im subscribing and your the best
Yo dude, just got this vid recommended to me. I've struggled with mental health my entire life, and I can relate to a lot of what you're saying here.
I just wanted to say, keep pushing man. No matter what, just keep pushing. I'm not going to sugarcoat things and say "Oh life will become fantastic and you will never feel this way again!" or tell you any fantasies, but I will say that your darkest moments will pass with time.
I always view my struggles as being stuck at the bottom of a well. When you're at the deepest part of the well, it's completely dark, and it genuinely feels like you're never going to see the light again. But somehow, time after time, by just pushing through life, you end up climbing to a point in that well where you can see the light again. You might not be completely out of the well, but just seeing that light, that hope, is enough to keep going.
I just keep pushing out of spite at this point. There's so much in life that upsets me, or triggers my mental health, that just me continuing to live each day is my way of saying "Fuck you" to the things that trouble me. That thought also helps me.
Maybe some of this can help you, maybe you can relate to some of it. Just want to let you know you're not alone, and I know things will get better for you man! Just keep pushing through it, I believe in you!
P.S.: Oh also, keep at the journaling! Writing my thoughts down helps me tremendously. If you have time as well, look into meditation! It's a very hard skill to master, but it has really helped me maintain my mental health. There are lots of guided meditations on TH-cam and that's what I use!
You are so brave and because of that you will succeed in life
Extremely proud of ya young lad! It’s the worst and getting worser(world),, ( Want Truth always ! ) Be The Strong Lion! Can we be both be Frank! I’m Almost 40, ( your 20 amount of emotional, physical, sexual, spiritual, etc abuse .. keep strong dear lad! ( your in a bag mix) only encourage more of what you do to keep strong!
Hope it’s ok, involve others in your life! I did anything I could too counter change the abuse, too helping others, ( would it be, helping out ( volunteering with younger kids, sports etc) helping your elders,,, when your alone and Totally frustrated! I pick up garbage off the street,, and seeing the difference afterwards, made me cry with happiness.. the more I thought less of myself, and put my energy into All of us.. it definitely helped me one day at a time!
Trying to throw my bad things into beautiful things, also like poetry,, or finding a harmonica and or sing,, .. trust me! Be strong! Truth can hurt! Love can hurt! But seriously; in the end like Simba( the lion King) strong almighty and they will see you, ! And will want to pay it forward like you in tuff times! Hope I’ve been any stray string lion agape of help!
Your already strong than you think!, Show them,, I rarely even have to do Truman show,, You have to start with your small area!
Actions, talk is amazing, and we’ll building,, but you have to start very small..
your already there! ..
I’m a A.D.H.D, words are hopefully meaning ,, .. Hope you take a slice, of my retarded mind.
Many continue 98%,! Unfortunately being a loser, One day you’ll hopefully realise! (Chicken dinner 21)..
Much love to strong message, ( both of Us! ) Lions
Sorry. People will take my stupid words and not understand,, .. wish I wasn’t a retardant..
And FUK cancer again.. grow a bloody sunflower
Reading this I realise that there are people like me who have experienced the same but still willing to pass on their real experience. It really is life affirming just knowing good people are here❤
Hey man, I don't usually comment on TH-cam videos but your video reminds me how I was at the beginning of this year, and still fight with this sometimes, but around February I hit my rock bottom, was extremely depressed, and had unmedicated OCD, which is a anxiety disorder, around the end of February I told my parents on how I was feeling, and after, one of the things they told me was do you need to be sent to a mental hospital, and honestly man, at the time I probably did need to but I told them no because I wanted that to be a last resort, so I took the time that I had to recover, Going to the gym is a good start, just keep working at it and building consistency but what I recommend is walking, listing to music outside, getting your thoughts straight, and just have that time by yourself while not being in your room, I hope this helps and take one day at a time, be patient with this process, and I wish you the best of luck man.
Lost two I know to suicide. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You were created. You are a good idea. Realize it and move forward with your arms wide open and embrace others and allow them to embrace you.
Wounderful words . Very true buddy.
Keep it together buddy! Admitting you have issues is a massive event for anyone. Please keep the fight going. Life is so tough. I just found out that my cancer has spread to my lymph nodes. The battle continues. Keep your battle going too. Love and support from Alberta Canada.
There are so many wonderful, beautiful and amazing things that you will experience in your life. Stay strong and keep forging ahead. You will get through this.
You absolutely are helping other people simply by speaking about this as openly and honestly as you are doing. So many other people your age or younger can look to you as a source for understanding when they're at their lowest and loneliest. Thank you for being as brave as you are, and I literally mean that, as brave as you are for sharing like this.
My personal stuff started out around 17 and I'm a lot older than that now and I can honestly say that looking back, I am so glad that I didn't actually go through with something. Please, please, please stay here with us. We all need you. Believe me, we need each other, and we need you.
There is much I'd like to say, but I think your therapist should be the one saying the important things here. All I would note is that you are obviously very likeable, very sincere, and very smart, and you have a great deal to offer others. What you do for others--others on here, your friends, your family, others in need, even your dogs--makes this world better for them.
I've known several people who were badly depressed at your age, some without any apparent reason, and they went on to lead happy and productive lives. Remain confident that you will too. The real positive here is that you are willing to do the things that your therapist is requesting of you. That means you want to get better, and, wow, is that ever the key to recovery. I truly wish you all the best, Jwool.
Thanks!
Thank you John!!
You got this man, recording yourself and telling this to the world takes strength. I believe in you.
Ive been to that dark place multiple times before and I've never had anyone to connect with. It's like
"I don't need coping skills or cute clichés no thoughts and prayers or time and space I need someone to prove I'm worth the pain I don't need I've been there comparisons a saftey plan with medicine I need someone to see my worst and stay"
It feels like you're running out of hope. I'll admit the mental health system still isn't fully right. I know from experience mental hospitals are horrible places.
I used to deal with "self deletion" tendencies I have scars on my arm that I would always regret and I've had aborted attempts at it. I went through absolute hell during my time as a pre teen and even a teen. It didn't stop until I was 19.
Before it's in stone before it's too late hold on. We control where the road through hell can lead. The monsters in your mind are mountains you can climb. There's only one you every single person in the world is one of a kind and having these ideas doesn't mean you're "crazy" it means you're more advanced than a standard person like you're A B C and D and the standard person is just A. People who have struggled the most can emerge to be the strongest souls. Remember what doesn't end you is what builds your throne.
Hope you feel better.
Man, I’m 20, but if I’ve learned something while here is that in life all you need is the ones that are by your side when things get harder, and that’s the best thing to have, the others are simply not worthy of your company (once a friend, a friend always, or so I believe). And, by the way, even if I barely know you, I really appreciate your openness to all of this. You are a fighter and you as a person made me wish I could help you in that fight; I hope this words bright your day at the very least (even if they come as far away as from Portugal). Really looking forward to seeing you get better, thank you for sharing!
I've been there, like a month ago. Depression is a vicious ducking batch. [autocorrect] I'm seeing seeing a therapist too, and I'm on Zoloft. The Zoloft has helped tremendously, but you may not be in a hood age range for it. People's reactions to antidepressants vary widely, so it's up to your physician or psychiatrist. I think trying to connect maybe even be friends with your roommate could be a great idea. My best friend has also truly been through it, so we can support each other really well. And I'm sure your parents love you so much and their support is important. The plan sounds like a good one. Please stay. The world needs you and believe me, your life will get brighter. [fierce bear hugs] It will get better.
I hope you can find the help you need. Talking about your problems is a good way to get the help you need. It has worked for me these past few months hopefully it helps you too.we’re always here for you Hang in there
Wishing you all the best. Thank you for being here at this moment. It means a lot to hear you even during these times. Life isn't just roses, but has moments of thorns. ✌️
Just remember that God is with you!🙏🕊 I'm praying for you!❤
to anyone readin this (INCLUDING YOU JWOOL) im proud of you. youve done so much. so much that you havent been recognized or thanked for. i see it, and thank you. you're doing so well. just keep going. it wont be better without you. people need you. you will find purpose and you will get better. jwool, it wont be better without you. thank you man
“S***ide doesn’t take the pain away, it passes it onto someone else.”
I hope you're gonna find your path and your happiness! Just do not give up!
I've been surfing through some of your videos for the past few days, and I just want to say that you talking about this is really f*ckin brave, and I promise it's gonna help people who are going through similar stuff. I wish I would have seen this kinda thing a year or two ago when I felt exactly the same. I also want to say that self harm can be super tricky, but it's really great that you're family knows and wants to help. After my family found out, nobody cared and now I've been doing it for years. If you can stop it early you'll probably be much better off.
Wishing you the best of luck man. It gets better, just keep taking it one day at a time.
Brave. That's the adjective that comes to my mind. I have no platitudes. Can only add from personal experience that is a slow experience moving towards a more positive life viewpoint and expectations. Grab on to what works for you and the support from family and friends. Know that your bravery will help someone who sees your video know they are not alone and will find the courage to walk alongside of you. You are not alone.
Hey, I found your post by accident, or maybe it wasn't an accident. I have lost two very close friends to ending their lives. Please remember how much pain survivors will go through. Be strong and lean on close friends, family, and strangers who care about you.
man you dont know how hard this video hit me, like a landmine, ive also been struggling with self-harm depression and suicide, currently have 18 suicide attempts and i am 3 weeks clean and i just wanna say i aspire to you my parents dont even know about any of my illnesses and they just tell be to "cop on" and i wanna say that im so proud of you and i want you to know that you are amazing and deserve everything in the entire world, dont give up, you are doing so well and i hope you get well soon
You're a lovely, sweet guy. Never blame yourself for anything, keep being positive, lean on your support system as heavily as you want, you're precious, lots of people love you.
Oh Buddy, don't focus on the angst of your youth. When I was 19 the best friend I ever had killed himself and a few years before another best friend did the same. I was totally alone after that and tried to kill myself passively several times. I struggled like HELL to get past that and today I am 59 and a survivor who has spent the majority of my life trying to help young men to see that there is a future and happiness is not an illusion. In North Carolina where I live I have worked with many counties mental health systems to help. I have a degree in Psychology. I just constantly think what would by best friends lives have been like had they not committed suicide. It even makes me sad to this day to even think about. No matter what, no matter how sad you get never forget the ones who love you. I love you and pray for you since I found this page. Be strong!!
hey I know you may feel like you’re alone but your not! i haven’t fully been through this but I know what it’s like and I really really hope for the best for you because you seem like the nicest person, don’t give up, you can do this. ❤
I'm very sorry about everything you're going through, and i really do hope it gets better
You can make it brother. I know it in my bones. I understand what you're going through. Just know, it doesn't last forever. All of us love your and we're all here for you.
Just wanted to say, the fact that you made this video and posted it on here, that's a huge positive sign in and of itself!!!
Don't give up - you are doing the right thing getting help for yourself. Keep asking for help, and keep going after help that actually helps you. Everything in your videos shows that you are connecting to your own thoughts and feelings really well. Don't underestimate how valuable that is!
(Also, like others have said, there's an understandable stigma surrounding mental hospitals. But oftentimes, even just a brief stay in such a place can really be the right thing at a given time and lead to a positive change, both for yourself and for the people who care about you.)
Hang in there! You matter a lot. We help each other out. I'm dealing with depression too so can relate. And your video on crying is epic. Should be required watching in schools.