tw ed || what i eat in 3 days ed restriction + exercise

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  • เผยแพร่เมื่อ 11 ส.ค. 2022
  • sorry for everything in my video being so repetitive lolllll my life is boring. I just enjoy making these videos regardless of the lack of variety. thank u for watching though ♡
    edtwt, edblr, & edinsta - @ whimsicalgirlyy (the same as my youtube username)
    songs in the video:
    Tulsa Jesus Freak - Lana Del Rey
    Fade Into You - Mazzy Star
    Cry - Cigarettes After Sex

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  • @Peepeecacaa
    @Peepeecacaa ปีที่แล้ว +635

    I notice I start watching these type of videos whenever I relapse b\p. I purged today, yesterday, and the day before yesterday. But these vids help me restrict and not purge. (Very comforting as well since I can’t tell anyone about my Ed or vent) Idk but when I purge I still feel that all those Cals in me.

    • @loza-A12
      @loza-A12 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      How do you purge? When i try to drink salt water and purge i hardly throw up! :( Tips?

    • @Peepeecacaa
      @Peepeecacaa ปีที่แล้ว +63

      @@loza-A12 I’m sorry but I really can’t give tips, with lots of love tho

    • @1diotclown477
      @1diotclown477 ปีที่แล้ว +48

      @@loza-A12dont try to get into purging by throwing up please, it can cause heart problems later on, you can purge cals by exercising

    • @whokilledangel
      @whokilledangel ปีที่แล้ว

      @@loza-A12 bulimia is fatal. aka purging will kill you.

    • @angelvanillas444
      @angelvanillas444 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@loza-A12 please don't start purging. it's super dangerous!! it's addictive and it throws your electrolytes out of balance which could severely damage your organs. it's more dangerous than just starving.

  • @coff33adict111
    @coff33adict111 ปีที่แล้ว +350

    omg watching ed videos ate so therapeutic for some reason

    • @ghosteii
      @ghosteii ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Same

    • @Happygabby12345
      @Happygabby12345 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +7

      it feels like ur not alone imo

  • @XannaHttps
    @XannaHttps ปีที่แล้ว +151

    watching these types of ed vlog videos honestly make me want to get bad again but ik i won't/shouldn't since i don't have much self control to restrict and i always go over my cal limit (500/600) and ik it can and will get better eventually. I'm trying to lose weight healthily and not by my ed and it's working jus a bit. i still have wants to restrict and i do sometimes but it will get better ! :)

    • @CloeNader
      @CloeNader 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      good luck, you can do it 🤍 The fact that already your intetions are good and healthy its a lot. I cant imagine ever trying to loose weigh withouth ED. So, be proud of yourself, im proud for u too 💗

    • @viviannichols3582
      @viviannichols3582 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

      It’s always better to avoid restricting if you are able to. Restricting does harm to your metabolism.

    • @babayaga3098
      @babayaga3098 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      So proud of you for staying strong, that’s really admirable and so much better in the long run

    • @triplehearts914
      @triplehearts914 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

      600 calories a day isnt you having poor self control, we need more than that to function and think lol
      i used to eat like 400 calories a day and i wanted to die all the time, its just not worth it. Never feel bad about that stuff :( i hope you're doing well now

    • @blyndeaf8503
      @blyndeaf8503 5 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

      I know this is late, but I hope you’re doing well! Every body is different, but I don’t think 600 is good for ANYONE. Hopefully you’re feeling and doing better, but if not, try to slowly increase your caloric intake 200 each day until you reach at least 1200. For sustainable healthy weight loss, 3 things help you feel full: water, fiber and protein. Feeling full will help you not binge and snack less. Protein is important to weight loss as well but is often overlooked. I recommend Greek yogurt, bone broth and cottage cheese as easy addition to meals or snacks. I blend cottage cheese with my baked oatmeal and egg bites, and it also pairs well with fruit. Bone broth is low in calories and high in protein; a good addition to soups and stews. Yogurt is versatile as well. I’m struggling with weight loss as well but it’s a long and hard journey unfortunately, and stagnation is an inevitable part. It took me 7 months to lose 20 pounds 🥲 I have more knowledge and recipes now though, so I’m starting to loss weight faster this month. Good luck ❤

  • @Calejandre138
    @Calejandre138 ปีที่แล้ว +195

    I am dealing w binging it seems once I start eating in the mornings it triggers me to eat a lot 😭 love to see your safe foods video

    • @allikavh2204
      @allikavh2204 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      this is exactly what happens to me!! sending u love I hope you r doing okk😭

    • @Calejandre138
      @Calejandre138 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@allikavh2204 yes everyday is a battle but I know I can overcome it.

    • @Layyyylaaaa
      @Layyyylaaaa 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

      SAME

    • @mewo0_
      @mewo0_ 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      same 😭 whenever i dont eat in the mornings i either dont eat at all or omad so now im trying to avoid eating in the morning but its hard since i dont have much tea left

    • @kyhuluv28
      @kyhuluv28 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      Samee omg it’s so good to see that i‘m not the only onee

  • @hanaspringg5654
    @hanaspringg5654 ปีที่แล้ว +102

    Kinda unrelated but that is the coolest vending machine ever

  • @mel6497
    @mel6497 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +31

    OMGG I thought I was the only one who loved fiber one and light fit yogurt combo 😭😭

  • @rkiver5819
    @rkiver5819 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +12

    i love this sm + the music makes it perfect

  • @Placebogrl_
    @Placebogrl_ ปีที่แล้ว +43

    Hii I just want you to know that your videos mean a lot to me and really help! I hope you keep on posting and I wish the best for you

  • @cyberdudinha
    @cyberdudinha 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

    loved this video ! it wasn't boring at all !! loved it when you showed the sky (:

  • @viluurt
    @viluurt ปีที่แล้ว +4

    omg you’re so pretty 🥺

  • @aquademoney
    @aquademoney ปีที่แล้ว +3

    ur videos are so pretty omg

  • @Tylerskcalories
    @Tylerskcalories ปีที่แล้ว +2

    I love your videos so much oh my godd 😭❤️

  • @ciri_riannon235
    @ciri_riannon235 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I love the song you chose, Fade into you by Mazzy Star is soooo beautiful ❤

  • @matyldadul2971
    @matyldadul2971 7 วันที่ผ่านมา

    I love your clothes!! These videos give me so much hope tysm bae

  • @stvrryy
    @stvrryy 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    idk why but watching these r helping me recover😭

  • @dianasaaaaa
    @dianasaaaaa 2 วันที่ผ่านมา +2

    Rn I’m going through the worst rough patch dog my ed I can feel my teeth finally get affected 😅I found myself looking for recovery videos and now I’m here I though of watching this to bring me closure one last time before I commit to recovery I’m telling my mom I want therapy if I don’t CHIKEN out!!😭wish me luck guys and I hope y’all find a route to recovery soon

    • @riiiaaa
      @riiiaaa วันที่ผ่านมา

      good luck!!! sending u love 💓

  • @hyfl666bw3
    @hyfl666bw3 ปีที่แล้ว +6

    Omg the spoon is so cute 00:03

  • @merimeliksetyan363
    @merimeliksetyan363 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    your music taste is always elite

  • @sabtiwilson3617
    @sabtiwilson3617 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    i love your videos sm

  • @s3sana191
    @s3sana191 ปีที่แล้ว

    your videos are so good. i hope all is well ❤❤

  • @user-hh1zx8zx5y
    @user-hh1zx8zx5y 16 วันที่ผ่านมา

    This makes me feel not alone in my ed❤

  • @maja-wc8nd
    @maja-wc8nd ปีที่แล้ว +7

    I love lana del rey in background! 🥰

  • @ncttotheworld8819
    @ncttotheworld8819 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    Today I am binging and it sucks so much
    I feel like the most disgusting person on the earth

    • @Peepeecacaa
      @Peepeecacaa ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Same. even if I strict and exercise for 6 days straight. One little cheat day makes me feel guilty and paranoid.

    • @ncttotheworld8819
      @ncttotheworld8819 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@Peepeecacaa yeah same btw how much calories do you take each day?

    • @Peepeecacaa
      @Peepeecacaa ปีที่แล้ว +5

      @@ncttotheworld8819 about 500-700cal I try not to surpass 700. Especially since Weekends are days I see my bf and he always likes to go out and eat. So basically Saturdays or Sundays are cheat days but cals on those days are 1,500

    • @d3lusionalh3art60
      @d3lusionalh3art60 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      When I used to binge i felt so horrible but I am getting better I just eat higher protein to stay fuller and find things to distract me like dancing but I hope you are doing okay🫶🏻

    • @ncttotheworld8819
      @ncttotheworld8819 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@d3lusionalh3art60 thank you so much,I wish all the best in your goals ❤

  • @aquademoney
    @aquademoney ปีที่แล้ว +5

    BRO FROZEN BLUEBERRIES ARE THE BEST PLEEEAASE TRY THEM IF U HAVENT THEY'RE AMAZINGGG

  • @aybukedelrey6823
    @aybukedelrey6823 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Your channel is super cute

  • @c.s.s.1680
    @c.s.s.1680 8 หลายเดือนก่อน

    i love your videos, keep it up

  • @petofiarkwright3236
    @petofiarkwright3236 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I tried following that workout routine too and while it was good I just couldn't keep up, hope you're doing well ♥

  • @allie9661
    @allie9661 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    I’ve been missing school every week because some days I just get so cold and start throwing up 😫 school just started and i’ve already missed four days and left home early twice omg

  • @jasminecole-gc6jr
    @jasminecole-gc6jr 19 วันที่ผ่านมา +5

    wow i’m so glad i’m recovered now 😭😭

  • @cheesecheese6950
    @cheesecheese6950 21 วันที่ผ่านมา +7

    I'm surprised this hasn't been taken down

  • @me4_prez
    @me4_prez 20 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Going to the PW in a few hours probably for my ED so these comfort me.

  • @deliciousexperience689
    @deliciousexperience689 11 หลายเดือนก่อน +4

    Love your videos! They always have such a great atmosphere to them, -are interesting & dream-like and edited in such a watchable way. -The best one's around on the ed topic i think. I really hope you make some more videos soon ;-) Don't give up! Have a lovely day, & all the best. :-)

  • @lil_distress
    @lil_distress 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    Please make a video on your safe foods!!❤

  • @ilyulia_
    @ilyulia_ 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    omllll i hope summer comes soon 😫

  • @haleylynn_
    @haleylynn_ 9 วันที่ผ่านมา

    ur hair is such a pretty color

  • @theinvisiblegirl2501
    @theinvisiblegirl2501 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    ur pretty!

  • @calcutie
    @calcutie ปีที่แล้ว +1

    that vending machine is so fancy

  • @cacabeach527
    @cacabeach527 3 หลายเดือนก่อน

    I LOVEEE LANA AND TJFF

  • @mhm2957
    @mhm2957 4 หลายเดือนก่อน

    cas and mazzy star !

  • @daeliquet
    @daeliquet ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Im fasting today an this is helping smm :)

  • @maya07_11
    @maya07_11 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    i love the vending machine 😭😭😭

  • @babayaga3098
    @babayaga3098 5 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    Why does watching these always make me eat MORE somehow lol

  • @strawbiericecake
    @strawbiericecake ปีที่แล้ว +27

    your vids are so aesthetic and the food you eat looks so healthy!! also how do you motivate yourself to exercise when you feel weak? ive been struggling with that sm..

    • @y0utuberculosis
      @y0utuberculosis ปีที่แล้ว +19

      If you feel weak that's your body telling you you need to eat.

    • @anqelsx4028
      @anqelsx4028 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      If you feel weak eat something that has energy, eat yogurt with fruits or even a full meal

    • @jelllybeanxo
      @jelllybeanxo 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      that food is not healthy, neither is the amount she ate.

    • @toastcoast
      @toastcoast หลายเดือนก่อน +4

      The aesthetic of the video is disguising the fact that she is lowkey romanticizing her ED. The food she’s eating is also not “healthy,” but rather the illusion of health. All these foods are either full of sugar or nutritionally lacking as they are or in the amount she eats. Please do not work out to burn calories if you’re feeling physically weak, that’s the best was to have a fainting spell and or hurt yourself while working out. Nothing, literally nothing, that this person is vlogging about is something that you should admire or try to replicate. There are other ways to help treat an ED before ever giving into it.

  • @maisywillis54
    @maisywillis54 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    me watching you watch ed vids

  • @meghnasrivastava1229
    @meghnasrivastava1229 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    Damn I love Mazzy star too 😭

  • @judaline
    @judaline 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Omgg you have so much food at home I wish I had money to buy all of these >.

  • @teresasvk2443
    @teresasvk2443 ปีที่แล้ว

    Is your video demonitized because of lana del rey song?
    And btw. What video editor do u use, please? Thx

  • @888lvs
    @888lvs ปีที่แล้ว +2

    hope you are doing welll darling.

  • @tziporah852
    @tziporah852 ปีที่แล้ว

    5:01 i love that show

  • @AlexanderDavis-be1be
    @AlexanderDavis-be1be 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

    How do you keep being able to afford Diet Coke? Do you work?

  • @starshsped
    @starshsped 20 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

    wow it's so hard for me to eat under 1k cal.. i wish i could find more protein bars near me

  • @L3ttucePr3y
    @L3ttucePr3y 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Get gamersupps, it’s 0 cals and tastes great

  • @indigomarroquin
    @indigomarroquin 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +25

    its not worth it, there's safer ways to lose weight that will actually last and will still allow you to be in control. no binges, no guilt, life is enjoyable and can still stay thin AND be nutritionally healthy and feel like you have energy.

    • @myaaaaa4114
      @myaaaaa4114 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      bro, this comment won’t cure an ed. just cause you don’t think it’s worth it doesn’t mean it’ll stop. even doctors can’t save these people sometimes. it’s sad, but a youtube comment won’t cure them.

  • @sentafuofo0
    @sentafuofo0 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    In the video I can't see your face very well but I only half see that you are very pretty girl🥰 I loved the video, very comforting and the music made the video even better

  • @deepfried8758
    @deepfried8758 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

    i don’t promote but let me show you step by step

  • @neda-et8yq
    @neda-et8yq หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    Guys please give me low cal breakfast ideas preferably under 100 cals!!

    • @cigarettesafterhours
      @cigarettesafterhours หลายเดือนก่อน

      1/2 cup egg whites - 67 cal + 1/8 avocado - 30 cal pretty filling

    • @shashasha6385
      @shashasha6385 29 วันที่ผ่านมา

      Egg white + spinach or a slice of toast

    • @CitizenRobespierre.
      @CitizenRobespierre. 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

      1) 1 boiled egg
      2) Berry fruit salad
      3) 1 low-cal whole wheat toast with a small slab of jam

  • @lex-vx3fd
    @lex-vx3fd 2 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    How do u avoid binges?

    • @Birdee110
      @Birdee110 2 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Drink A LOT of water thats what i do or eat a carrot if u have any in your fridge hope that helps 🎀

    • @sarahmarie4760
      @sarahmarie4760 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      water, gum, tea, coffee, brushing your teeth, keeping yourself busy etc.

    • @angelvanillas444
      @angelvanillas444 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      drink lots of water and try to distract yourself!! go on a walk, watch a show/movie, take a nap, etc. try to avoid the kitchen as much as possible.

    • @BagelCat99
      @BagelCat99 10 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

      It could be emotional cravings, try sprinkling some salt on ur toung and drink water

  • @qq.mew.
    @qq.mew. 21 วันที่ผ่านมา

    omg that guy who yelled at you is so messed up I’m sorry that happened

  • @cryola787
    @cryola787 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    I'm sorry you got cat-called :(

  • @wattpadluver1574
    @wattpadluver1574 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    7:14 the ads lmao

  • @paranoidbpd
    @paranoidbpd ปีที่แล้ว +2

    u seem so nice

  • @Myluvxox777
    @Myluvxox777 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +1

    U need to upload moreeee

  • @yay5714
    @yay5714 ปีที่แล้ว

    music you use?

    • @aytonwalper1346
      @aytonwalper1346 ปีที่แล้ว

      It’s in the description

    • @yay5714
      @yay5714 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@aytonwalper1346 thx im dumb

  • @not.m.e.
    @not.m.e. 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +2

    I lost my period again for my ed...

    • @Mispickles
      @Mispickles หลายเดือนก่อน

      Me too❤

    • @neda-et8yq
      @neda-et8yq หลายเดือนก่อน

      Aw I'm so sorry. It'll get better I promise you. Please, take care of yourself. Your body is a temple. I have an ed too but it'll get better soon

    • @not.m.e.
      @not.m.e. หลายเดือนก่อน

      @@neda-et8yq i hope so❤️
      You seem to be such a nice person ❤️❤️

    • @neda-et8yq
      @neda-et8yq หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@not.m.e. tysm and I try to be one

  • @valentinacamouflage5555
    @valentinacamouflage5555 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

    stop it no

  • @astonic343
    @astonic343 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +33

    You are underestimating how many calories you are putting into your body. The bad part is that you are eating crap that has no nutritional value and exercising at the same time. This means that your body is burning more calories than what you eat in a day. This deprives your body of what it needs and you will eventually become physically sick as your body begins eating itself. If you are trying to lose weight at least eat food that is good for you. I promise you there are ways to lose weight without making yourself physically sick.

    • @neda-et8yq
      @neda-et8yq หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      That's called a calorie deficit btw

    • @toastcoast
      @toastcoast หลายเดือนก่อน +10

      @@neda-et8yq Calorie deficit?? Bro, that’s what trained bodybuilders do to burn fat and keep muscle at a steady and healthy pace, but this person, and anyone else with an ED, doesn’t care if they loose fat or muscle, they just care about the weight on the scale, and they often achieve this in very unhealthy, nutritionally-lacking ways. A calorie deficit is meant to eat certain food in certain amounts, not restrict yourself to the point you’re losing body and mind. Stop spreading the idea that this is anything other than unhealthy.

    • @seaKittten
      @seaKittten 16 วันที่ผ่านมา

      you are watching a video that a disordered person made. disordered.

  • @nou7583
    @nou7583 ปีที่แล้ว +31

    ur underestimating cals it's hard to watch 😭😭

    • @mewkioxd
      @mewkioxd 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +9

      that’s what i was thinking as well, because all of that ranch nd it was still 70?? crazy

  • @mya8169
    @mya8169 2 หลายเดือนก่อน +17

    you do promote ed though

    • @neda-et8yq
      @neda-et8yq หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      No, this video is just documenting her experience.

    • @mya8169
      @mya8169 หลายเดือนก่อน +5

      @@neda-et8yqyeah sure

    • @neda-et8yq
      @neda-et8yq หลายเดือนก่อน +1

      @@mya8169 but it is?

    • @AlienGutz597
      @AlienGutz597 24 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      @@neda-et8yqbut why is she writing the calories? That’s triggering. She can just say she calorie counted without showing the caloreis

    • @neda-et8yq
      @neda-et8yq 23 วันที่ผ่านมา +1

      @@AlienGutz597 she literally put a trigger warning.

  • @machinegunkitty-
    @machinegunkitty- 19 วันที่ผ่านมา

    bro why do people actually eat during the day lmao

  • @fatoumabrush
    @fatoumabrush ปีที่แล้ว +12

    How much you lost

    • @ruririi7573
      @ruririi7573 ปีที่แล้ว

      why r u even asking? It's none of ur business, this is a video ab her ED it's a pretty shitty thing to say

  • @SL-il9oo
    @SL-il9oo ปีที่แล้ว +20

    Ur underestimating but cute vid

    • @random_chaneleats
      @random_chaneleats 4 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

      imagine commenting that on a ed vid bruh

  • @bella-hh2wi
    @bella-hh2wi 2 ปีที่แล้ว

  • @rebeccaxx
    @rebeccaxx ปีที่แล้ว +1

    this makes me to order a burger lol

  • @Analimic
    @Analimic 9 หลายเดือนก่อน +8

    Hii I love this video and I hate to tell u this but salad dressing is usually v high in calories. The one ur using is 120 cals:( so ur salads are most likely not 70 cals. I’m sorry

    • @cheesecake7274
      @cheesecake7274 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +10

      Oh my god why would you tell her this?

    • @AesthethicBubbles
      @AesthethicBubbles 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +14

      Bruh she is struggling with and ed and you are worsing it. Sometimes we should just stay in silence

    • @lovetolovetoloveme
      @lovetolovetoloveme 2 หลายเดือนก่อน

      ​@@cheesecake7274....because she's underestimating.

    • @AlienGutz597
      @AlienGutz597 24 วันที่ผ่านมา

      @@lovetolovetolovemeLET HER

    • @CitizenRobespierre.
      @CitizenRobespierre. 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

      And this is why I hate salad dressing.

  • @y0utuberculosis
    @y0utuberculosis ปีที่แล้ว +26

    You should really take this video down. 170 calories is NOT a meal, food is fuel and you are unwell, and influencing others to be unwell- just look at your comments. I know you don't mean to but if you're still eating like this, you need treatment. You are literally eating a third of what your body needs in a day and trying to exercise off that little bit you did eat.

    • @Stained_Sin
      @Stained_Sin ปีที่แล้ว +20

      It literally said ED in the title twice^^ please don't comment such useless and rude things^^ what off they are making these videos as a coping mechanism? If you are triggered, just don't watch it^^ that simple

    • @mariam.zmnnnnn
      @mariam.zmnnnnn ปีที่แล้ว +9

      don’t watch it then

    • @lusmas99
      @lusmas99 8 หลายเดือนก่อน +15

      @@Stained_Sin If an alcoholic or drug addict (both are diseases consisting of physical and mental components) was making videos, doing harm to themselves, your advice would be Do not watch, rather than to advise them to seek treatment. I think your comments are more useless and rude and downright harmful by encouraging this behavior. I wish this young lady all the best and hope she lives a long, healthy and happy life.

    • @angelinatedesco112
      @angelinatedesco112 6 หลายเดือนก่อน +3

      @@lusmas99you’re so real for commenting this.

    • @cheesecake7274
      @cheesecake7274 3 หลายเดือนก่อน +6

      ​​@@Stained_Sin as someone who is truly recovered and horrified by this content, the only part of you that is using this to cope is the ED part of you. Your healthy self is slipping as you watch it. This should be forbidden. The truth is, before full recovery, I would have agreed with you, that it comforts, helps, soothes. Guess who it is soothing? Not the healthy version of you.

  • @ToasterLad_
    @ToasterLad_ 10 วันที่ผ่านมา

    eat a sandwich bruh

  • @dianasaaaaa
    @dianasaaaaa 2 วันที่ผ่านมา

    Rn I’m going through the worst rough patch dog my ed I can feel my teeth finally get affected 😅I found myself looking for recovery videos and now I’m here I though of watching this to bring me closure one last time before I commit to recovery I’m telling my mom I want therapy if I don’t CHIKEN out!!😭wish me luck guys and I hope y’all find a route to recovery soon