I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to cocaine. Spent my whole life fighting cocaine addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
Thank you for keeping it real brother. It’s all fun when you get off from work and start partying Friday night but Sunday morning comes quick and with no sleep and an empty wallet the whole week is absolute torture!
Not 1 week but 2 weeks w/o money, eating eggs a, avocado and tuna going to the pawn shop to pawn my tv and home theater just b/c the night before I blew all my money in a strip club having sex & getting high. I have been doing this for quite a long time & I hit rock bottom. I am 2 days away of getting my paycheck and this time im going to save my money for a trip that i will be doing in 10 days to spend Christmas at my parents house. It has been enough for me.
Best way to describe cocaine is like jim carey putting on the green mask and its party time, and then post nut clarity is laying somewhere you shouldnt be, nose bleeding , heart pounding full of regret and sorrow
I hate going going a month or two clean whether it's alcohol or blow. And then my brain tells me I deserve a drink or two or even a bump. It's truly a struggle every day. Family has really truly helped. I am lucky.
@@josephmartinez4975 definitely not alone. I have to remember that it costs way too much and screws up my health and sleep. For drinking I find having flavored seltzer water cans around sorta helps.
Thank you for sharing. This is what I needed to learn. My ex bf was addicted to coke and I did not know. I found that he was seeking hookers and massage parlours while dating and living with me. Instead of immense anger your confession enables me to have empathy for him and his addiction. His addiction to coke and sex destroyed our relationship. He became a different person.
I can relate, I’ve been 2 months clean but once I get a tiny bit inside me, I’m buying a lump and I’m off to find a hooker, once with the hooker, because I don’t want the party to stop, I end up spending anything from £400-£800 plus more coke. Time of my life when I’m there but once I leave, and look at my bank balance, the reality sets in. It’s like being in a car and there is somebody else driving, they don’t have a seat belt on, don’t know where they are going but have there foot firmly on the accelerator. You are sitting in the back of the car wondering what the F is actually happening. Coke truly takes everything away from you and leaves you broke, suffering menta illness, depression, shame, sometimes you can loose your house, friends, relationships and family. They don’t call it the devils powder for no reason. Stay blessed and stay clean people ❤❤❤
Having to relearn sex in recovery is so real 😭 thank you for talking about this ❤️ I have three months now, here's to another day sober. Just one more day ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Great video..... ive watched many of yours and im living that lifestyle and going through some rough times as well. Been doing this for 20 years and it is really starting to look sad. Time to move on and find out what a sober life is like
That was very honest. I don’t know if I have the humility or self esteem to be that honest with myself let alone others. That’s probably one of the first and most important things necessary for change.
I know you’ve probably heard this before, but consider therapy if you haven’t. I’m not an addict or recovering addict, but I am someone who understands what you’re describing in terms of suppressing difficult life experiences. I honestly think everyone struggles with that to one degree or another, but when it feels almost unbearable, as though it will always haunt you, it’s time to consider talking to someone. It helped me. Not a cure all, but gave me tools to cope after I stopped therapy. I wish you the best. Peace.
@tomd1434 no way!!! Everytime ive gone to a therapist they want to put me on an anti depressant. Which is another drug. Im not depressed. Also put me in danger of be forced to take anti deppresnts. Ive luckily been smart and got my way out of it. Just hecause i have regrets doesnt mean i need therapy. Those were just mistakes i made in my 20s. I find solice in God and prayer.
Same but with amphetamine paste, then I got diagnosed with add and got prescribed pharma grade amphetamine so I got hooked a second time and started taking more than I was recommended. I stopped it all because it ruined every aspect of my life and the medical treatment was not for me. I only take psychedelics occasionally because they help me long term and it is the best high imo, other than that I live sober except alcohol when I am at a club/bar. With stimulants you never get enough and they suck the life out of you when you come off, think about all the nasty body load, sweating, paranoia and all the side effects. We romanticize the experience because of addiction. Stimulants also made me a person I was disgusted about and it took a while to recover mentally.
@oskwi4579 i feel for you 💔 to piggyback off your story my poor cousin. What a sad saga his life has been all due to stupid doctors and their legal drugs. He was a hyper child and was diagnosed with adhd. Which i think mostly is bullshit excuse to put a child on drugs. He took Ritalin as a child then took cocaine as a young man (another stimulant) battled with crack cocaine to this day. Hos brain chemistry has been messed with his whole life ! He doesnt know what normal is :/ . Just because they have DR. In front of theor name dont let them control your body.
Addiction is no joke. Most people don't have the slightest clue of all the other worlds that are out there. Praise God the Father that he sent us his only begotten Son. There is a great life after addiction, and it can be had, I promise!!!
Thank you my friend and god bless you for sharing your experience....I wish you the best in life and to stay sober....You ware the perfect hat for yourself, as you are a warrior....Love from Toronto Canada....
I do appreciate this bro. I am in a hole now. But I think we need to sympathise with women too. The ones who are also doing this with us, they get dragged into it even further because they can sell their bodies where we can’t really. This delays rock bottom, which any recovering addict knows is essential to recovery. That aside love your videos brother
I was told to try it in rehab. I didn't. Haven't done stupid stuff for many years. Weed nearly 8 years. Still have a beer every 2 weeks. Now I have new addiction, the internet. Coupled with the reoccurring gambling slots habit (which I have learned is like cocaine to the brain) I am broke and stay up all night watching videos. Its not booze and drugs so I have let it slide. I feel foolish because something that I could control has gotten past my defences. I can't let it go. I'm some kind of crazy person that gets a glimpse of himself through the reaction of others. I miss what I threw away. You don't get it back.
He's gay. Straight guys don't screw men because there high. Just like men who have sex with men in prison. They're gay because if they were straight they wouldn't become aroused by a man. Heterosexual men are only horny for females
I quit doing Cokke in 1995. Was a shorter like yourself and had similar carnal desires. Then I started using IV cokke. OH. MY GOD. I went from an insane mindset to full tilt insane violent psychopath. I couldn't be near any living thing. If anything made the slightest noise, I was convinced it was out to get me. I'd sit for up to 2 days on a binge, in the middle of the floor doing it every 5 minutes until I either ran out, or I'd flush it in the toilet because I thought I was going to die. There was no 'putting it away' if it was there I was going to do it all, even if it cost my life. I was so scared of noise or sounds, I'd turn off anything that made noise, including the AC and unplug the phones. It was the craziest time of my life. I haven't touched it even once since 1995. I don't know how I quit. It just happened one day I had bought some and was about to do some. I made up 20 syringes and put them on the table. I got distracted by s Then about 30 minutes passed and I had forgotten about it and noticed it sitting there
The darkest of days when I was all the things you described. Nothing I’ve ever experienced in this life is worse than the sun coming up in the morning, the birds chirping, and the promise of a new day while I’m layered in a crust of film on my body coming down, and full of disappointments. God delivered me from it and I’ve been set free ever since. Whom the son sets free, will be free indeed - John 8:36
That is the thing, you think you are having some cool, on the edge life but it is just an illusion that shatters very very fast and all that is left is ruin: of your life, your relationships, your character...
True story, Best friend was going to get a car in another state, I just happened to be with em, an when he went to cash the check his parents gave him to go purchase the car to sell, on the note as the bank said they required something before they would cash it, he put "Hookers & Blow".
Funny stuff man. Keep it coming! Also, what do you recommend for someone like me who is looking into become a coke dealer? Where should I start? Thanks.
I lived the opposite life I guess, only been with 1 woman my wife for 37 years and now im 56. I only did coke a handful of times at parties, but i really liked the taste and feeling of it. It was scary how much i liked it because i could see myself doing that drug a lot I could drink all night on that. I guess I was lucky because i never had a real dealer just did it when it was around. sometimes I think about what it would be like to sleep with lots of other women and doing coke and partying all night. I know it would be the wrong thing and after watching this I am sure it would be, I just need to get rid of the thoughts. I also downloaded tiktok a month ago and had to delete it. It was almost as addicting as coke. Anyway Thank you for posting this to help me realize I am not missing anything, and I am sure you are helping a lot of people.
It's weird because when people have good/better sex is actually because electricity in all guys dicks # apparently someone stepped on ants bums and went in the ocean and now he has only got 1 leg because the shark took his leg off is crazy
There is always one question that I have for recovering addicts. When you look over your life and evaluate ALL the experiences that you had with drugs (the awesome, the good, the bad and the ugly)...If you could go back in time to that very "first" moment when decided you use drugs, the moment you opened the door that changed your life, would you make that exact same choice again? And is there any part of you that still "in love" with the drug experience/ life ?
That’s actually a super good question and a super hard one for me to answer. Would I like to go the all of the trauma pain heartbreak and loss I’ve been through absolutely not! But without my addiction I wouldn’t have had to push to work on myself as much as I did. If I wasn’t an addict I dont think I would have touched any of the inner work I have done on myself. At the end of the day I feel stronger but I had to go through so much pain in order to get here…..
I'd easily have said no if I could go back in time. Created a 20 year long addiction to various substances. Suboxone saved me from painkillers eventually. Coke and alcohol and benzos were different. I also lied to people, wasted close to $500,000 at least. Got arrested, lost 2 jobs early on but managed to make a lot of money to the point I should be rich but was always on the breadline due to addiction. At the start I used hookers and a ton of Viagra and drank in bars. After getting married I never cheated but used to be much more isolated. Sit in the driveway on my own in the car telling her it was an important business call. It has highs but extreme lows and id trade it all. I hear now they're putting fent in everything and anything so I'd probably end up dead. Thank god I was born 30 years earlier or I'd be a statistic.
what i'm not seeing being commented a lot is that it's worth it to experience though lol. if u can get up the next day and be like whoa that was intense and not have it take over your life.. its a hell of a time
I wanted to come back to this and say.. tho you do resemble Brian from family guy off drugs I did listen to your experiences and it’s impressive how honest you are. There are people out there who probably are going through what you did. As someone who hasn’t been there wow.
Absolutely 100% correct. I used to be a “working girl” in my addiction and it’s absolutely true,but 99% it’s the man that gets horny…most of the girls I knew and myself just wanted to smoke the crack, and do as least as possible sexually…..facts..
Before I was arrested and had to quit, I was addicted to weed and hookers. I would get high all day on marijuana and have sex with Asian prostitutes at massage parlors even though I wasn’t on cocaine, I know what the struggle feels like to be addicted to a drug. I would smoke pot every single day and have sex with prostitutes at massage parlors until I got arrested, and I was forced to clean my act up I haven’t smoked weed in nearly 2 years and I’m actually doing pretty good not getting high but I’m not saying I don’t miss it. It’s just that there comes a time when too much is too much
Wouldn't a... perhaps smarter person realise that there are just some things in life that you just ultimately have to say no to? If things are not going well in your life why do something that is ultimately only going to make it worse... ummm, choices people. All you want to do is 'party'? Oh ff sakes. Grow up people. You are not 8 years old anymore.
The only problem with that is that one beer will lower your inhibitions just enough to say you can have a second beer, and then after two beers your inhibitions are even lower which tells me you can have a third and a fourth and then that's how it snowballs. I've heard of it happening Time after Time after Time again from alcoholics. If anything you should just do some kratom or some marijuana
@@seekingfreedom9020 thanks for replying to my comment. well no 1 has ever been killed by one beer or one joint i wud say... its safer to enjoy your life rather than get stressed and depressed and be at risk from suicide, heck you can ever have a line every now and then to keep yourself happy rather than fall into a place of despair, everything in moderation including sadness. i just worry about this dude if hes sad.
Im 21 I paint road lines. The only way I know how to differentiate paint flakes and snow flakes in my carpet is the snow smears and shines rather than chip and sparkle. Gonna figure out a way to come up with $400 in the next 5 days to pay rent because I blew my check on this shit so I know I’ve let it get too far already. How the hell did you make $50-$60k in a month? I just about get by.
I started doing drugs years ago as a teenage, got addicted to cocaine. Spent my whole life fighting cocaine addiction. I suffered severe depression and mental disorder. Got diagnosed with cptsd. Not until my mom recommended me to psilocybin mushrooms treatment. Psilocybin treatment saved my life honestly. 8 years totally clean. Much respect to mother nature the great magic shrooms.
I love hearing great life changing stories like this. I want to become a mycologist because honestly mushrooms are the best form of medicine (most especially the psychedelic ones) There are so many people today used magic mushrooms to ween off of SSRI medication- its amazing! Years back i wrote an entire essay about psychedelics. they saved you from death buddy, lets be honest here.
Can you help me with the reliable source 🙏. I'm 56 and have suffered for years with addiction, anxiety and severe ptsd, I got my panic attacks under control myself years ago and they have come back with a vengeance, I'm constantly trying to take full breaths but can't get the full satisfying breath out, it's absolutely crippling me, i live in Germany. I don't know much about these mushrooms. Really need a reliable source!! Can't wait to get them
YES very sure of mycologist Predroavaro. This treatment worked for me. Helped me got rid of my life long depression and BPD.
Thanks for sharing your story. That's rough I sympathize. Save your health save your mind. Life is better without heroin, cocaine, alcohol and cigarettes. And you have more money in your pocket. God bless everyone who has rejected the devils intentions to be addicted to alcohol and cigarettes etc which can cause so much damage to health. I will pray for you all.
How do I reach out to him? Is he on insta
Thank you for keeping it real brother. It’s all fun when you get off from work and start partying Friday night but Sunday morning comes quick and with no sleep and an empty wallet the whole week is absolute torture!
Not 1 week but 2 weeks w/o money, eating eggs a, avocado and tuna going to the pawn shop to pawn my tv and home theater just b/c the night before I blew all my money in a strip club having sex & getting high. I have been doing this for quite a long time & I hit rock bottom. I am 2 days away of getting my paycheck and this time im going to save my money for a trip that i will be doing in 10 days to spend Christmas at my parents house. It has been enough for me.
@@mluna9cr but you got high right?
Best way to describe cocaine is like jim carey putting on the green mask and its party time, and then post nut clarity is laying somewhere you shouldnt be, nose bleeding , heart pounding full of regret and sorrow
Thank you for not glamorizing this life.
You are the voice I need to hear right now.
I hate going going a month or two clean whether it's alcohol or blow. And then my brain tells me I deserve a drink or two or even a bump. It's truly a struggle every day. Family has really truly helped. I am lucky.
Yeah I'm dealing with that at the moment myself
Me too . 30 days sober and want to drink and do booger sugar but I know it leads to a brutal hangover
@@tailer1933 glad I’m not alone
@@cooliobroski3008 so glad I, not alone at feeling this way
@@josephmartinez4975 definitely not alone. I have to remember that it costs way too much and screws up my health and sleep. For drinking I find having flavored seltzer water cans around sorta helps.
Thank you for sharing. This is what I needed to learn. My ex bf was addicted to coke and I did not know. I found that he was seeking hookers and massage parlours while dating and living with me. Instead of immense anger your confession enables me to have empathy for him and his addiction. His addiction to coke and sex destroyed our relationship. He became a different person.
I can relate, I’ve been 2 months clean but once I get a tiny bit inside me, I’m buying a lump and I’m off to find a hooker, once with the hooker, because I don’t want the party to stop, I end up spending anything from £400-£800 plus more coke. Time of my life when I’m there but once I leave, and look at my bank balance, the reality sets in.
It’s like being in a car and there is somebody else driving, they don’t have a seat belt on, don’t know where they are going but have there foot firmly on the accelerator. You are sitting in the back of the car wondering what the F is actually happening.
Coke truly takes everything away from you and leaves you broke, suffering menta illness, depression, shame, sometimes you can loose your house, friends, relationships and family.
They don’t call it the devils powder for no reason.
Stay blessed and stay clean people
❤❤❤
These experiences are empty. You have done the deep inner healing, very impressive. Thank you for educating others.
I am struggling right now and your videos are helping me. Thank you.
Having to relearn sex in recovery is so real 😭 thank you for talking about this ❤️ I have three months now, here's to another day sober. Just one more day ❤️❤️❤️❤️
Great video..... ive watched many of yours and im living that lifestyle and going through some rough times as well. Been doing this for 20 years and it is really starting to look sad. Time to move on and find out what a sober life is like
That was very honest. I don’t know if I have the humility or self esteem to be that honest with myself let alone others. That’s probably one of the first and most important things necessary for change.
Every time i think of my coke days i get a sick feeling in my gut and i do my best to supress all the awful things I did and how I humiliated myself.
I know you’ve probably heard this before, but consider therapy if you haven’t. I’m not an addict or recovering addict, but I am someone who understands what you’re describing in terms of suppressing difficult life experiences. I honestly think everyone struggles with that to one degree or another, but when it feels almost unbearable, as though it will always haunt you, it’s time to consider talking to someone. It helped me. Not a cure all, but gave me tools to cope after I stopped therapy. I wish you the best. Peace.
@tomd1434 no way!!! Everytime ive gone to a therapist they want to put me on an anti depressant. Which is another drug. Im not depressed. Also put me in danger of be forced to take anti deppresnts. Ive luckily been smart and got my way out of it. Just hecause i have regrets doesnt mean i need therapy. Those were just mistakes i made in my 20s. I find solice in God and prayer.
@@lovetodaylisa3967
I didn’t say you needed it, just to consider it. If you don’t want to then don’t.
Same but with amphetamine paste, then I got diagnosed with add and got prescribed pharma grade amphetamine so I got hooked a second time and started taking more than I was recommended. I stopped it all because it ruined every aspect of my life and the medical treatment was not for me. I only take psychedelics occasionally because they help me long term and it is the best high imo, other than that I live sober except alcohol when I am at a club/bar. With stimulants you never get enough and they suck the life out of you when you come off, think about all the nasty body load, sweating, paranoia and all the side effects. We romanticize the experience because of addiction. Stimulants also made me a person I was disgusted about and it took a while to recover mentally.
@oskwi4579 i feel for you 💔 to piggyback off your story my poor cousin. What a sad saga his life has been all due to stupid doctors and their legal drugs. He was a hyper child and was diagnosed with adhd. Which i think mostly is bullshit excuse to put a child on drugs. He took Ritalin as a child then took cocaine as a young man (another stimulant) battled with crack cocaine to this day. Hos brain chemistry has been messed with his whole life ! He doesnt know what normal is :/ . Just because they have DR. In front of theor name dont let them control your body.
props for saying this publicly - thats some serious courage
Addiction is no joke. Most people don't have the slightest clue of all the other worlds that are out there. Praise God the Father that he sent us his only begotten Son. There is a great life after addiction, and it can be had, I promise!!!
thank you for uploading these to share and save lives
He’s doing this for money
Thank u for sharing
“When you are a Coke addict”… proceeds to grab nose. I know how it is, brother. I get it.
Thank you my friend and god bless you for sharing your experience....I wish you the best in life and to stay sober....You ware the perfect hat for yourself, as you are a warrior....Love from Toronto Canada....
I do appreciate this bro. I am in a hole now. But I think we need to sympathise with women too. The ones who are also doing this with us, they get dragged into it even further because they can sell their bodies where we can’t really. This delays rock bottom, which any recovering addict knows is essential to recovery. That aside love your videos brother
I was told to try it in rehab. I didn't. Haven't done stupid stuff for many years. Weed nearly 8 years. Still have a beer every 2 weeks. Now I have new addiction, the internet. Coupled with the reoccurring gambling slots habit (which I have learned is like cocaine to the brain) I am broke and stay up all night watching videos. Its not booze and drugs so I have let it slide. I feel foolish because something that I could control has gotten past my defences. I can't let it go. I'm some kind of crazy person that gets a glimpse of himself through the reaction of others. I miss what I threw away. You don't get it back.
Everything you said i could relate to great for short while then you start to loathe yourself..
Meaning??
Thank you for sharing your story. It is quite helpful for me to hear this.
Great videos buddy!
I’ve only been offered coke once and I’m glad I turned it down
But you know what I didn’t turn down? Testosterone mufkr 😎💪🏾
thanks for the vid Eric! 💯
My buddy started hooking up w guys, stoped all the drugs and was like wtf have I been doing.
Naw thats weird
He's gay. Straight guys don't screw men because there high. Just like men who have sex with men in prison. They're gay because if they were straight they wouldn't become aroused by a man. Heterosexual men are only horny for females
He's gay then. He's just in denial
You a hero bro !
Thank you!!
Been there done that playing times and that’s a party!!
I quit doing Cokke in 1995. Was a shorter like yourself and had similar carnal desires. Then I started using IV cokke. OH. MY GOD. I went from an insane mindset to full tilt insane violent psychopath. I couldn't be near any living thing. If anything made the slightest noise, I was convinced it was out to get me. I'd sit for up to 2 days on a binge, in the middle of the floor doing it every 5 minutes until I either ran out, or I'd flush it in the toilet because I thought I was going to die. There was no 'putting it away' if it was there I was going to do it all, even if it cost my life. I was so scared of noise or sounds, I'd turn off anything that made noise, including the AC and unplug the phones. It was the craziest time of my life. I haven't touched it even once since 1995.
I don't know how I quit. It just happened one day I had bought some and was about to do some. I made up 20 syringes and put them on the table. I got distracted by s Then about 30 minutes passed and I had forgotten about it and noticed it sitting there
And I decided to flush it in the toilet. Never had the slightest desire to do since that day
I'm happy for you 😅 it feels great to read positive comments that uplift. Bless you🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈
Im currently struglling, on a 3 Day bender and i dont know why. It sucks.
The darkest of days when I was all the things you described. Nothing I’ve ever experienced in this life is worse than the sun coming up in the morning, the birds chirping, and the promise of a new day while I’m layered in a crust of film on my body coming down, and full of disappointments. God delivered me from it and I’ve been set free ever since. Whom the son sets free, will be free indeed - John 8:36
That is the thing, you think you are having some cool, on the edge life but it is just an illusion that shatters very very fast and all that is left is ruin: of your life, your relationships, your character...
Do you still use? You were moving a mile a minute just checking in! Hope it’s all going well
You know nothing about addiction making that comment. Wow
The illustration was provoking his history.
He has adhd...be kind.
This guy is legit
He’s telling the truth
At the speed your talking you sound coked up. Can only imagine when you are 😂
True story, Best friend was going to get a car in another state, I just happened to be with em, an when he went to cash the check his parents gave him to go purchase the car to sell, on the note as the bank said they required something before they would cash it, he put "Hookers & Blow".
Another good video
Beautiful video man!
my experience on psychedelic has been a great benefit while breaking through one ought to take the right dosage, below usually where l get mine
He's also accessible through Instagram
@novatripps
You are so right 100%%
Are you on adhd meds currently?
I could find coke but where do you find hookers after the ban on the websites several years ago?
Anytime you on a dating app and see a girl advertise her ig or snap chat is a good sign
Honestly never had that problem, I was in my 20’s so probably why
Funny stuff man. Keep it coming! Also, what do you recommend for someone like me who is looking into become a coke dealer? Where should I start? Thanks.
YOUR A NUTTER 💯😡
The real wolf of wallstreet
I lived the opposite life I guess, only been with 1 woman my wife for 37 years and now im 56. I only did coke a handful of times at parties, but i really liked the taste and feeling of it. It was scary how much i liked it because i could see myself doing that drug a lot I could drink all night on that. I guess I was lucky because i never had a real dealer just did it when it was around. sometimes I think about what it would be like to sleep with lots of other women and doing coke and partying all night. I know it would be the wrong thing and after watching this I am sure it would be, I just need to get rid of the thoughts. I also downloaded tiktok a month ago and had to delete it. It was almost as addicting as coke. Anyway Thank you for posting this to help me realize I am not missing anything, and I am sure you are helping a lot of people.
It's weird because when people have good/better sex is actually because electricity in all guys dicks # apparently someone stepped on ants bums and went in the ocean and now he has only got 1 leg because the shark took his leg off is crazy
Is it possible to have a consultation with you? 30 minutes no more not looking for a therapist just a person that can relate and maybe give advice.
Thank you
There is always one question that I have for recovering addicts.
When you look over your life and evaluate ALL the experiences that you had with drugs (the awesome, the good, the bad and the ugly)...If you could go back in time to that very "first" moment when decided you use drugs, the moment you opened the door that changed your life, would you make that exact same choice again? And is there any part of you that still "in love" with the drug experience/ life ?
Following . Great questions 👏
YES IS PURE HELL, BUT FUN HELL DURING THAT MOMENT.
That’s actually a super good question and a super hard one for me to answer. Would I like to go the all of the trauma pain heartbreak and loss I’ve been through absolutely not! But without my addiction I wouldn’t have had to push to work on myself as much as I did. If I wasn’t an addict I dont think I would have touched any of the inner work I have done on myself. At the end of the day I feel stronger but I had to go through so much pain in order to get here…..
I'd easily have said no if I could go back in time. Created a 20 year long addiction to various substances. Suboxone saved me from painkillers eventually. Coke and alcohol and benzos were different. I also lied to people, wasted close to $500,000 at least. Got arrested, lost 2 jobs early on but managed to make a lot of money to the point I should be rich but was always on the breadline due to addiction. At the start I used hookers and a ton of Viagra and drank in bars. After getting married I never cheated but used to be much more isolated. Sit in the driveway on my own in the car telling her it was an important business call. It has highs but extreme lows and id trade it all. I hear now they're putting fent in everything and anything so I'd probably end up dead. Thank god I was born 30 years earlier or I'd be a statistic.
I was addicted to the lifestyle as horrific as it was..that was the hardest part after of course kicking the dope….
This guy should move to the projects .....anywhere in the USA
what i'm not seeing being commented a lot is that it's worth it to experience though lol. if u can get up the next day and be like whoa that was intense and not have it take over your life.. its a hell of a time
l'll refer this mycologist who helped me treat my depression and anxiety, check him out he also guide newbies on proper trips moments.
He's also accessible through Instagram
@novatripps
I like it when my vision moves n looking at girls
Jesus is the answer to everything!!!!!
Jesus would be doing lines with me bro
Amen God Bless Jesus is the answer
Amen praise the king Jesus
LoL
Huuuhn
Brian from family guy finally cleaning up his life 🙌
I wanted to come back to this and say.. tho you do resemble Brian from family guy off drugs I did listen to your experiences and it’s impressive how honest you are. There are people out there who probably are going through what you did. As someone who hasn’t been there wow.
peanut butter and jelly
He enjoyed it at the time is what he meant
Absolutely 100% correct. I used to be a “working girl” in my addiction and it’s absolutely true,but 99% it’s the man that gets horny…most of the girls I knew and myself just wanted to smoke the crack, and do as least as possible sexually…..facts..
How long have you been away from crack?
@@basedabdu8653 15 years
Glad you're out of that life
@@navajorezathlete1202 thank you..I am a living miracle fr fr….
Coffee and love making
Before I was arrested and had to quit, I was addicted to weed and hookers. I would get high all day on marijuana and have sex with Asian prostitutes at massage parlors even though I wasn’t on cocaine, I know what the struggle feels like to be addicted to a drug. I would smoke pot every single day and have sex with prostitutes at massage parlors until I got arrested, and I was forced to clean my act up I haven’t smoked weed in nearly 2 years and I’m actually doing pretty good not getting high but I’m not saying I don’t miss it. It’s just that there comes a time when too much is too much
What’d you get arrested for ?
@@aleboo8816 swatting calls
Wouldn't a... perhaps smarter person realise that there are just some things in life that you just ultimately have to say no to?
If things are not going well in your life why do something that is ultimately only going to make it worse... ummm, choices people.
All you want to do is 'party'? Oh ff sakes. Grow up people. You are not 8 years old anymore.
Lmfoa the dangers of life
Crack only get me high for 5 seconds so wtf
Crack is more potent tho
Relapse will not occur 🤔
good video
his pupils and nose rubs say he's still using.
😂😂😂 I’ve noticed this as well
Thought the same thing
Could be adhd meds
@@JoeJoeRojo does he snort adhd meds?
His pupils are small. Coke and stimulants make them larger, not smaller. They look perfectly normal
God hates a quitter! Now get back in there and do some blow son! Then relax with a nice cold one or glass of cabernet.
How often were you visiting escorts btw?
Hi Eric, great video 🙂 you should have a cold beer as a treat, occasionally its fine. don't put too much pressure on yourself dude.
The only problem with that is that one beer will lower your inhibitions just enough to say you can have a second beer, and then after two beers your inhibitions are even lower which tells me you can have a third and a fourth and then that's how it snowballs. I've heard of it happening Time after Time after Time again from alcoholics. If anything you should just do some kratom or some marijuana
Wow well that's a shitty advice!!
@@seekingfreedom9020 thanks for replying to my comment. well no 1 has ever been killed by one beer or one joint i wud say... its safer to enjoy your life rather than get stressed and depressed and be at risk from suicide, heck you can ever have a line every now and then to keep yourself happy rather than fall into a place of despair, everything in moderation including sadness. i just worry about this dude if hes sad.
😂 THAT is your response to this video?!
@@noodlemaker4719 sorry what. explain??
This guy seems at times to almost be bragging about his past.
sounds like he’s just talking about what happened in the past.
Sorry but you are talking way too fast.
Im 21 I paint road lines. The only way I know how to differentiate paint flakes and snow flakes in my carpet is the snow smears and shines rather than chip and sparkle. Gonna figure out a way to come up with $400 in the next 5 days to pay rent because I blew my check on this shit so I know I’ve let it get too far already. How the hell did you make $50-$60k in a month? I just about get by.
Cocaine no thank you bro