That feeling in the morning with your heart pounding, cannot sleep, feel like shit, paranoid, have that awful taste in your mouth... So bad... So bad. Quitting coke was the best decision in my life.
Things are cool when your with your friends doing a few lines but you start to feel creepier and creepier when you start doing it by yourself locked in a room with a 8ball
My God Man, year 2024 Just read this, I was doing the same Thing browsing comments section, and every single of them are 100% accurate, don’t know what to say.
Damn, it really does feel creepy. You can’t even look anyone in the eye, you feel like you’re shaking and you’re eyes are darting back and forth like crazy, you can’t keep a good conversation with a stranger. Today was one of those days, I feel awful
@@sublimelove23 my bf, was 4 months sober, on Tuesday when we went home did blow. Messaged me in the am saying he fucked uo and can’t talk… I got 1 msg saying how I make him want to be better and he wants me. But today he deleted me off of everything. Complete 180 from how he is…. Is this the bender? And he doesn’t want me ruining his high??
@@sherylallan534 honestly i can't say for sure since i dont know your guy, but i can say its pretty similar to how I'd behave in my worst benders. Drunk, so high, emotionally spiraling and calling/texting my ex and apologizing and blah blah blah, then that instant wave of "fuck her and fuck everyone" feeling comes up. Coke benders can turn ugly pretty quickly after a few days, and the paranoia you experience is so damn unreal. hope ya'll are doing good now.
@@sublimelove23 LOL nope. He deleted me from snap and my gf found him on tinder… all this after a day he tells me his in love with me. I’m assuming with isn’t blow behaviour? His picture on tinder look so messed up , he just looks broken :(..
I made up a saying in my head that always put me back on the path. "Monday always comes" I used to party hard but that statement would always be in the back of my head, even on Friday night. So I better have my shit in order sunday night because Monday is always alot closer than you think. Hopefully this helps someone.
@@anthonyszarek6905 you were probably asking the other guy but for me it was benzodiazepines, cocaine, ketamine and a few opiates. I do still smoke weed though after a year off I realised it isnt a gateway for me
@@jacobfreeman7427 It isn't for most. I just got off dude about a month clean. Same shit besides coke and Ketamine. Did K once and fuckin never again dude. I went into a k hole and was straight paralyzed for 6 hours. I was awake but couldn't move or anything. Scariest fuckin feeling ever lmao. I was doing 20 perc 30s a day for a year and bars whenever they were around. In Phoenix you can get blues for 5$ a pop if you are good at what u do lol. Its easy to have a drug habit here. Just locked myself in the house for 2 weeks and fought it. Feel normal again love it.
@@anthonyszarek6905 it gets better and better man believe me, more confident than I've ever been. Healthier now than I was at 21. Itll be the best thing you ever did!
Not true. You can still enjoy whatever it was that you were using despite negative consequences but in a way that doesn't produce negative consequences. What you just commented is what a fixed mindset is. If you have enough coping mechanisms under your belt and know how to deal with your own neurology through a growth mindset, you can enjoy practically anything.
@@niknamsantics9565 As much as you say in reality for the majority it just doesn't work but I understand what your saying My partner of 9 years said if I go on one more bender she's walking away as I just can't control it and that's the same for most addicts
I was a meth addict but I can relate. I've been there, pretending to sleep next to my misses, trying to lay still and just waiting for time to pass. That shit is maddening. Also, in the beginning, I would stay up for 4-5 days, and just go about my day, go to work, hang out with friends and family. After a while though, it changes, your mind set changes. When it see that sun coming up, id just be like: oh no, I've done it again. I wouldn't go out because it just feel so down on myself, and going out in public just makes you feel like a junkie piece of shit. So, I'd just do more meth, wander around the house all day and mentally and emotionally beat myself up.
@@LugiThePainDrinker i see you bro! I relapsed last year after 5 years sober. Pulled myself together real quick and got back to square 1! It gets easier with time but it never goes away 😓
Walter J Olsen Haug goes crazy you really learn a lot about yourself or just more you really think about the shit you don’t want to believe about yourself
@Miles Davidson Jeeeeesus no. Lol for someone who's not an addict? Absolutely. Go nuts lol but for an addict, if you have a reservation even one as unlikely as, well, mine was always "if i get hit by a bus, and it separates my top half from my bottom and the only thing keeping me alive is the bus driver making sure it doesn't roll backwards. Wavin at me n shit. Then, THEN, *thennnnnn* surely I can have somebody pour drugs down my foodhole.....right?" And unfortunately your subconscious works it down to where you'll do it for something more likely, and then something that'll probably happen, and then fuck it I might as well just do it. Sadly
Josh Black Yeah, and it's horrible, never dies out completely. Our brains are rewired, and we'll always crave it to some extent sometimes. I liken it to the compulsion to eat sleep or drink water. Just there in the back of your head. If Joey said he didn't miss it, or any addict says that, they're lying or sadly deluding themselves more likely. They want you to believe it so that they can believe it, which is what they want more. *We, want more, rather. : /
Not one Coke high, no matter how good, will ever be worth a coke comedown; that's what I've learned. The comedowns seem to stoop at least as low as you were flying high when you came up and most of the time even lower as you comprehend your shitty choices and the fact that you can't run from them anymore. The inevitability of this feeling ruined Coke for me. Whenever i fantasize about the old days of me doing lines, i sort of mentally fast forward to me laying in my bed in the early morning, covered in a layer of cold sweat and fuzzy, lousy paranoia and listening to the birds. Those fucking birds. Coke is the devil, as Robin Williams said, it's gods way of letting you know you've got too much money.
@@american_alien_1583 damn I'm scared because for me it's the perfect drug. I can limit myself to 4 small lines a day, my golden ratio to not get a comedown. For me it lasts about 45 minutes to an hour though so maybe I'm just lucky. I also only use it to do work cause I like to slack off and do everything in a few hours, and I never got the urge to redose on a comedown because I just feel like even if I do another line I'll just feel like shit in 45 minutes instead of now and I wanna sleep anyways. Is this normal when starting coke?
Hate that moment when you've finished a bag ... it's 5am, you've actually got the bag in your mouth and you're chewing it. Then the realisation that's it's all badly downhill from there. You swear you'll never waste your money on that shit again. Yet two days later you get that exciting tingling again looking forward to the next wrap.
I remember that my friends used to make lines on their phones and lick the screen afterwards, it really just hits different when you see it in person, people really don't know what drugs can do, even weed tbh. Coke is pure trash, and that's what makes it worse, knowing how bad it is and being unable to stop it, powerless and addicted. I profoundly respect anyone that has overcome any addiction, yall don't know how it feels. Good 2021 to everyone, stay safe.
Joey spitting nothing but facts. Alcohol and cocaine held me hostage for a number of years…and what started as an occasional indulgence quickly grew into an obsession. Every bad decision that I made during that 5ish yrs was a direct reflection of my addiction. Became an awful person…and I will never be rid of the shame from those days. Ugly, lonely, low point in life.
I would also like to know how you quit. I'm addicted to videogames (12+ hours a day) and while I know it's not as hard to quit as coke I still feel gripped. I cannot pull away from them and I feel like they are ruining my life. Could you give me some advice?
Getting high was fun but, I always will remember being up at 8am, sun coming up, birds chirping, and you’re all out of the goods. The nightmare begins from there and it really was a nightmare at times.
Maaan it was the nose pains for me, only thing that would keep me up at night cause it stinging, then the nostril side i done the coke on, that whole side starts aching, my gums, my eyes water, by head would ache, brushing my hair back would sting also
What he’s describing is what every self aware addict goes through. It’s at that moment in someone’s life they make the decision to try and stop or ignore it and continue. My battle with blow was a tough one, too. Seriously mad props to anyone who’s been dragged through the trenches by snow and made it through. When he says “if I did it again I’d probably have a heart attack” I couldn’t have related more
One of the worst feelings is quitting and then still having people hit you up for it and you start remembering all the shit you went through. Its crazy how it damages your reputation and what people perceive you as even months and years after being clean
Real shit bro. I tried quitting and selling simultaneously and i couldnt do it. Had to call it quits for good, and just like that i could feel my reputation going away 😭
Never really got into coke like that. I Went through my phase (growing up in Florida where it flows like air) but always hated the come down so much it made me want nothing to do with it. That sick feeling in your body as your watching the sun come up is horrible.
Why does everyone cry about it? are you a bunch of pussies or what? why is it so hard for you clowna to buy a bottle, buy a gram of decent blow for your friday night. Get some good friends. chill. talk about life. go home. go go bed. what are you retards talking about? Stop fucking snorting shit past 6 hours. youre gonna go fuckinv sideways. all these idiots complaining. So stupid. Like being drunk. I HATR HANGOVERS. SO STOP DRINKING SO MUCH.
@@boostedb18b13 i feel u on that but same time sum people have problems during the week and say fuck it till its addiction kinda same if someone suicidal u know ir doing to much drugs ginna get a problem but so depressed u go hard why its best only have good time and do that type stuff if ur okay in life so just have ur fun and go bed 22 and barely learning this
I used to do this drug sometimes and 9 times out of 10 it was so adulterated that it lost its effect in 15 minutes. I'd do the whole gram in a few hours and get another one for another $50. But with few exceptions the high didn't last long enough. And many times part of the high was spent sitting on the toilet. And the more you do the more the heart starts pounding, the anxiety and paranoia, can't sleep, etc.
Listening to joey is relatable. Hearing him speak gives me hope about staying clean. I've bounced around from substance to substance. Poly-addict if you will... alcohol and blow was and will always be my poison... but hearing him speak about getting clean and staying there is refreshing. I'm happy for those who can get clean no matter how you get there. But joey is candid about the grit and the darkness of addiction. As soon as someone preaches to me about too much positivity... i disassociate and detach from the conversation. I might smile and nod but i check out. Hearing his co stars talk about not being able to relate... its part of why i have a hard time listening to others and talking about it myself. Joey is an inspiration to me in a weird way. I appreciate him being willing to talk and be a vulnerable for a bit.
Never touching that shit again. Finally free from it's chains and I feel so excited to start life again. Sending love to anyone else going through it, just stopped and trying to stop. You got this
Yeah, the come down hearing the birds chirping and the bright sunshine, crazy heart beat, no interest in anything besides getting more. And then you have to talk youself into going to bed because you wasted your whole day.
You gotta love/hate cocaine man. When it’s good it’s fucking sensational. But when it’s bad you’re so fuckin paranoid you’re peeking out your windows, grinding your teeth and mentally questioning why you’re suck a useless piece of shit.
I’m grateful for his honesty;his experience will help others facing depression. I worked as a Paramedic for 10 years. I’ve seen a lot of cocaine withdrawals. It is hard to watch but it’s good knowing there is therapy;a warm bed,medication to help calm down,an IV saline bag to rehydrate,a nutritious meal and someone to talk to and monitor your health.
I luckily had my now wife help me out of that dark place. I took us both through hell and back. But you nailed it when you mentioned someone to talk to. I was very high functioning which made it hard for me to admit I had a serious problem. My wife convinced somehow me to talk a professional and it saved my life. If anyone out there is struggling with addiction, please seek out some professional therapy. And if you don’t vibe with the first therapist, don’t give up. Find someone else. And then someone else. And then someone else, until you find the right fucking person to help you. I promise you’re not beyond help!
I did it cuz i had too to not die honestly I could feel that if i do it a couple more days im done 2019 i was in emergency room 3 times cuz my heart played a weird rhytm cuz of too much cocaine It got to the point where half a gramm already felt like overdosing, my body couldnt handle it anymore But damn i love it so muchxD I had to chose between dying for it, or living without it and i chose live
Quran 45:23 Have you seen ˹O Prophet˺ those who have taken their own desires as their god? ˹And so˺ Allah left them to stray knowingly, sealed their hearing and hearts, and placed a cover on their sight. Who then can guide them after Allah? Will you ˹all˺ not then be mindful?
Too fucking right brother. Where I live it's woodpigeons. That, "coooo-cooooo" sound, followed by the anaemic sunlight and the creeping dread of my infant son waking up.... good God...the shame still cripples me now. Fuck coke and all who sail upon it. I don't subscribe to any religious doctrine, there is no devil to me. There is no blame to be laid at the feet of my parents. It's only when one understands that the rot in one's soul belongs to him and him alone that actual change can foment. Coke will turn you into the biggest piece of shit imaginable. Maybe not objectively, perhaps not in the grand scheme. But you will become the most outrageous rejection of your own, personal morality, regardless of what that may be. No other drug will do this. It is impossible to function on a day to day level with any other drug...you cannot drink a bottle of vodka, shoot up, drop a pill, smoke a joint, do a microdot etc and still act 'normal' to everyone else. The worst thing about coke is how shitty it is as a drug. If it actually did anything of note, no-one would become an addict. And that's the worst part...knowing you are fucking yourself for something so utterly pathetic. It's like being in love with a slut. You hate every second and you know that everyone else will just shake their heads and say, "I told you so".
hey joey, u are comforting me. im coming off a alcohol binge and i was just miserable towards the end of it. and hearing stories about other people fucking up makes me feel better. thank you
Alcohol is almost as bad as coke, the problem is society thinks it’s no big deal. Hope you can find peace and sobriety my friend. It feels amazing. No hangovers, no regrets.
I stopped because it kept interfering with my goals. I only did it occasionally but when I did, I would have no energy and feel like shit for 4 days and do nothing
@@perridicesage6931 maybe, but at what cost? Its starts as all positive and little negative. After a while, it flips to almost all negative and a little positive. It's not sustainable.
I did it off and on usually on weekends but not every weekend... then there was a 4 or 6 month stretch where we did a bit almost every day. Still went to bed and went to work next day but wasn't great. Now I do it maybe 2 times a year. I can easily grab a bit, do it one night and go back to nothing after. Usually because as soon as I get that shit feeling I remember why I hate it. Funny enough I'll still do it again 5 or 6 months later. It's the damnest thing. It's pretty crappy these days though and as I'm getting older I know less and less places to get it so eventually it'll be never. I hope anyone who is under It's control can break free of it one day. It's not easy but mind over matter with that crap.
What this man is saying is 100 percent accurate !!!!! I’m 30 years old and I’ve lived my life like this man for ten years and yes is has got to the point where “ yeah what ever I’m selling people aren’t buying anymore” I’ve done 12 steps following a with mild success and I mean I lived and breathed god and the steps and lived a life of complete honesty and still relapsed But after listening to this man and he’s story being the same as mine I feel after ten years I can do this by myself I’ve reached a point of where what’s the point of it all
Reading the comments is like a therapy in itself, a community talking about there addictions. Love it people. You can quit the shit! Just do it! The gym really helped me keep busy and after 2 weeks that shit was nothing to me nomore
yh man becuase gym releases endophenes and there the same you get from a drug ... but having a few teared muscles is minor compared to wanting to kill ya self on a bad downer
I can listen to joey talk all day..one of the realest and straight up men and says it like it is..proud of u Joey for hitting 12 years..I'm 2 years in my sobriety...pills n blow..miss the party but hated my life...if that makes any sense
I've never thought anyone could comprehend pain and just filthy emptiness of addiction and joey explaining it the way he does here is the first time in 10 years of sobriety hearing people talk about it that I've said to myself this guy fucking understands that's me hes lived my nightmare and hes still here thanks Joey I'm sure this will really hit home with the people that need to hear that raw truth thsts so hard to put into words pathetic pain
the worst part of addiction is at the end of a run you look up and realize you did everything you said you wouldn't do and burned bridges and owe people. the smack in the face sucks but if it don't hit you hard then it's not rock bottom. love to all fellow addicts trying to survive and stay sober
@@InattentiveADHB you sound like a complete idiot trying to be offended that I said hard drug users are losers, so I guess it makes sense since you're obviously emotionally invested in hard drug use and therefore a total loser
Similar shit happens with alcoholism fr. Before i started recovery, my addiction was so bad i found myself in weird bars and clubs at 5am, half conscious, with a bunch of “friends” i had just met in the same night, then i would pass out the entire next day. One time i missed a dinner date with an old friend (ACTUAL friend) visiting my city who I hadn’t seen in years because i was too sick and hungover. Don’t wish addiction on anyone.
The worst thing about coke is, at some point in the morning, your "buzz" is done. I don't care who You are, how much money You got or how much Coke you got......... your buzz is gone, but you keep chasing at it. The next day/night you tell yourself you'll never chase it again. But you do.......... Until you walk away from the lady in white like Joey D did........................
I hate feeling like a fiend on it, like when you run out at 5am and your trying to get hold of your guy to get more but everyone is asleep and its almost morning and you hear birds chirping outside
The fuckin birds... and then you have to get up and go to work! Beyond grateful I kicked that addiction to the curb 6 months ago. Life is so much better this way.
It's crazy. Cocaine will make you feel the highest of highs but then the lowest of the lows. Now I always think of the lows before I make my decision....
Grateful for Joey sharing the way he does, watching this has made me realise I’m a binge addict. Literally taken the last 2 weeks off work sick cause I can’t sleep cause I’ve been banging coke up my nose. Probably going to lose my job when I go back so at an all time low right now which makes me wanna pick up another 8ball, vicious cycle!
Damm these feelings are the reason u wake up depressed not wanting to do it again until a Good Friday comes around a couple drinks down the hatch and all the sudden a couple key shots and rails don’t seam to bad . But the pretending you’re asleep part hit me . Heart pounding.
imagine being kidnapped and held captive against your will for years.. Joe is counting his days sober not because he misses the coke, but because he is free from it...
Or cuz he has made up a number of time he wants to lay off it so he can do it again 🤪 like a kid counting the days to christmas Lets be honest, coke is the thing that makes grown up feel like kids christmas more than anything Since i am over 19, no woman ever made me feel like coke could again, no payday, the only thing that comes close was winning a fistfight, but that only lasts for 1-2 hours maybe and you cant fight every 2 hours
@@fiightergoat i really dont want too, i have seen a lot of people say that exact thing that you say, "dmt, shrooms, the toude(or how its spelled)" They all say the same thing how it chaned theyr mentality, even my brother did But honestly, none of them changed into a way where they are ahead of me in anything( no offense) Maybe it did help a lot of people, but joe rogan for example, before he was on shrooms, dmt, the "toude" his mind was in a much better place, his critical thinking skills was 10000000000× better than after he did it Joe rogan hasnt really questioned anything since he went that psychedelic route, since then he literally became a shill of himself Before that he knew the moolanding was fake, afterwards he went back to believing it was real From my observation those shrooms and psychedelics mainly feed your imagination skills, your "naivity" if you want, and maybe your creativity( which comes from the better imagination skills probably) I have never seen a person that got better in critical thinking from any of these things (No offense) My brother the same, after he went the shroom route his mind was not able to think critical anymore, his Imagination and naivity got better, and he was more "calm" But his mind really didnt improve from that, neither did joe rogans He always say how it made him go of the ego, nonsense mate He is shilling for the mainstream narratives more than ever, to protect his wealth
The worst thing that happened to me on blow is I used to fight with my younger brothers. Still hate myself for that, it really brings the worst out of you sometimes
Really sad that this was me at one point during my lowest times. Smoking, snorting and eating meth. Coke whenever I could find it. I thought people were staring at me through my window. I legit heard and saw them. It still creeps me out to this day. I wonder if I saw some lower dimensional spirits
I think what saved me from getting addicted to coke was sheer awareness and knowledge. I could tell that after a bump or line: i would want one again right away after it would wear off and that was a red flag to me. I saw the vicious cycle early and i'm blessed for it.
What he says at the end, i did that so many times. The most fuckd up thing is: you know youre gonna screw it up, the moment you have it in ur system, the morals go out of the window.
Everything you say is so true.watching this video hits hard.thanks for telling the truth.even in 2021 people need to hear this.i need to hear this.thank you.
Wrote this whilst in London a decade ago whilst trying to beat the demon of coke addiction: From fun to a hobby, then a habit to a crave It now oils the free fall as you speed to your grave And a hand wont be offered, the one you bit whilst it fed, And tore at their wrist and drank while they bled Mistakes there were plenty, regrets many more And with ten you'll take to your earthen bed floor On your last breath you choke, your eyes bleed as they close You finally concede defeat to the powder that now falls from your nose.. ...
Man I used do that shit, around 5 gs a day, only for about 5 years but that made me feel like I was loosing touch with reality, I was so so paranoid, seeing things hearing things, hated the person I was turning in to. I thought I was going to die of a Hart attack or have a stroke. Used to always feel like I needed it to be able to do anything...work socialise or just sat at home on my own, and I loved that! sad as fuck! Glad it's not part of my life anymore.
When you burn yourself out doing coke for a weekend so you decide to do more coke to help motivate you through the week only to find yourself rocked out in your room alone. Wide awake, paranoid, unproductive, snot and blood blowing out your nostrils. It’s a creepy feeling.
Same except with meth. To this day, I have no fucking clue what my reasoning was for skipping a whole midterm exam in college that I was already prepared for. Instead, I spent those 2-3 days just getting high and fucking, but I remember that in the moment I thought my reasoning for just skipping the exam was airtight. Luckily I still passed and graduated but what the fuck
This is some real shit. The deeper my addiction went, the more I avoided people and just wanted to do my drugs alone by myself so that it was all mine and nothing was getting between me and the drugs.
Once I got clean off smoking fentanyl I really couldn’t even recognize myself or my actions. People still hate me & I face repercussions about all the problems I’ve created . Joey helped me get clean in a way with these videos fr , knows how too articulate a addicts thoughts
listen I was a full.on druggie big time but I beat it I took along time but I did it ... yet 8 years later I still have family who won't speak to me and what makes it worse is the fact they've dont much worse but fuck them b4 they fuck you
I really struggle with having to live with those things I've done on drugs. I don't blame people for hating me after that, but i feel I don't get enough outside support and recognition because of it. It's a daily struggle and sometimes realizing it took everything and all I've got left is myself is demoralizing. I'm all I'm supposed to need I get that, but I miss the things I destroyed and sometimes feel that i might as well go back to drugs I've already thrown everything away. But I know there's always more to destroy
@@Nickunder0925 Your doing well. You stopped the poison. Regrets will always be there but you will feel some pride in overcoming the poison. I feel your message, though. Virtual hug from the Emerald Isle 💚
I’ve been clean for 8 years but I still think about it and feel the desire for a line. Joey is really right on about how the addiction persists and even grows even when you’re sober
Same. I'm 11 years clean & still fantasize about using. Wtf man. 2 beautiful children, wife & a good job etc. But that's why addiction is an illness & it lives in the fucking mind. Never goes away!!! Sometimes I even start plotting my relapse & who I will call. 8 ball, porn, whiskey - wanking for days. Crazy fucking shit man. That coke is the devil's dandruff. Get to a meeting & pray! Life or death stuff for someone like me. 🙏🏻
Man, I was never an addict but that creepy feeling is spot on. I remember my psychiatrist over-prescribing me adderall when I was 12 and the same thing happened. Up all night over thinking deadlines and never getting them done, going to school the next day with dark circles under my eyes yet having the energy to call out, making people cringe with unfunny jokes, constant over sharing without reading the room etc. Towards the end of that year I was crashing, got bullied a lot because people thought I was obnoxious, got in trouble for perverted jokes to teachers to make people laugh while pretending to be an expert in what we were learning, random questions about the lesson that had zero connection for the sake of talking. God, what a terrible year that was.
I be meating my meat all night until 5 am and then i could not sleep all day until like 8 pm, its the worst feeling but when your high on coke you be feeling like a king and when the high goes away you be feeling like the lowest of the lowest. I have tried to quit that drug many times over the last 10 years and just now i have been sober for about a year but i had to let go of alcohol because that was my trigger. God bless you brothers and sisters the grass is greener on the other side dont let drugs and alcohol tell you otherwise
Yeah, trapping yourself inside, just doing blow or basing for 3 days straight with no sleep, is scary. A good friend of mine, that I even did coke with occasionally; became this way, and his heart finally gave out, at only 30 years old.
I’ve done it maybe 6-7 times and still get that heady craving feeling at the THOUGHT of it, especially after a few beers. Far from addiction haven’t touched it in 2 years, but your brain remembers shit.
It sticks around for along time have been on and off for a few years now even when I'd manage to take a few months of I'd still be unconsciously thinking about it.
Cocaine is like winning the lottery and then losing the ticket.
This comment is so underrated
This comment is genius best description of cocaine i've ever read in my life.
Got a flash of that feeling for an instant reading this 😂
Lol yep pretty much
this comment is amazing. stealing this for sure.
That feeling in the morning with your heart pounding, cannot sleep, feel like shit, paranoid, have that awful taste in your mouth... So bad... So bad. Quitting coke was the best decision in my life.
And work in 2 hours
With a pounding head ache , hungry w no appetite . Not worth it
Wish i could have that feeling
I feel that so hard haha and when the birds start to chirp things get even worse
The birds in the morning lol.... loser birds we called them
worst feeling is blowing 90% of your pay in one night and having to go to bed after calling in sick to work . Dont miss that feeling AT ALL
😂😂 for real
😂😂😂 Word.
So true
Real talk
That shit is pure despair..
Pretending to sleep while your heart is pounding faster than the speed of light is the most accurate way to put it into prospective.
Things are cool when your with your friends doing a few lines but you start to feel creepier and creepier when you start doing it by yourself locked in a room with a 8ball
We all know someone like that 😂
@Mark Mckeown you need new friends if you dont care about their opinions on coke or not
WestsideDre sounds like your on coke
Na coke fuckin sucks. Anyone who does coke is a worthless scum bag and only lives selfishly. Fuckin nobodies who arent worth a nickel.
Real talk you ain't lying
It's funny how this comment session is 200% relatable to any coke user
Every single one of em. Regardless of gender, race, and age. Rip old me.🙏
A random support group for real
My God Man, year 2024 Just read this, I was doing the same
Thing browsing comments section, and every single of them are 100% accurate, don’t know what to say.
The feeling of doing a bunch of coke then not going to bed was AWFUL. Joey describing it as feeling "creepy" is insanely accurate.
shit i know the sad thing is ive been missing that feeling smh 6 months no coke tho
Damn, it really does feel creepy. You can’t even look anyone in the eye, you feel like you’re shaking and you’re eyes are darting back and forth like crazy, you can’t keep a good conversation with a stranger. Today was one of those days, I feel awful
@@sublimelove23 my bf, was 4 months sober, on Tuesday when we went home did blow. Messaged me in the am saying he fucked uo and can’t talk… I got 1 msg saying how I make him want to be better and he wants me. But today he deleted me off of everything. Complete 180 from how he is…. Is this the bender? And he doesn’t want me ruining his high??
@@sherylallan534 honestly i can't say for sure since i dont know your guy, but i can say its pretty similar to how I'd behave in my worst benders. Drunk, so high, emotionally spiraling and calling/texting my ex and apologizing and blah blah blah, then that instant wave of "fuck her and fuck everyone" feeling comes up. Coke benders can turn ugly pretty quickly after a few days, and the paranoia you experience is so damn unreal. hope ya'll are doing good now.
@@sublimelove23 LOL nope. He deleted me from snap and my gf found him on tinder… all this after a day he tells me his in love with me. I’m assuming with isn’t blow behaviour? His picture on tinder look so messed up , he just looks broken :(..
It’s all fun and games until Monday rolls up and your bank balance is zero.
Well maybe you should have made more money??
im there rn
I made up a saying in my head that always put me back on the path. "Monday always comes" I used to party hard but that statement would always be in the back of my head, even on Friday night. So I better have my shit in order sunday night because Monday is always alot closer than you think. Hopefully this helps someone.
Damn straight 🙂
@@Guitarist166 I fuckin love that.
I miss doing drugs, but I don't miss how they made me feel after
U still didnt learn anything. So sad.
@@josippranjic9845 What's the essential lesson here?
@@josippranjic9845 ?
Josip Pranjić stfu
@@josippranjic9845 Bullshit. When you have been addicted you will crave for the rest of your life.
i'm 11 months clean
Well done mate not far behind you
From what?
@@anthonyszarek6905 you were probably asking the other guy but for me it was benzodiazepines, cocaine, ketamine and a few opiates. I do still smoke weed though after a year off I realised it isnt a gateway for me
@@jacobfreeman7427 It isn't for most. I just got off dude about a month clean. Same shit besides coke and Ketamine. Did K once and fuckin never again dude. I went into a k hole and was straight paralyzed for 6 hours. I was awake but couldn't move or anything. Scariest fuckin feeling ever lmao. I was doing 20 perc 30s a day for a year and bars whenever they were around. In Phoenix you can get blues for 5$ a pop if you are good at what u do lol. Its easy to have a drug habit here. Just locked myself in the house for 2 weeks and fought it. Feel normal again love it.
@@anthonyszarek6905 it gets better and better man believe me, more confident than I've ever been. Healthier now than I was at 21. Itll be the best thing you ever did!
The thing that sucks about being addicted to something is you'll never really get to enjoy it again because every time you do it it's just a relapse.
Never thought of this so true
👌
And it’s never worth it
Not true. You can still enjoy whatever it was that you were using despite negative consequences but in a way that doesn't produce negative consequences. What you just commented is what a fixed mindset is. If you have enough coping mechanisms under your belt and know how to deal with your own neurology through a growth mindset, you can enjoy practically anything.
@@niknamsantics9565 As much as you say in reality for the majority it just doesn't work but I understand what your saying
My partner of 9 years said if I go on one more bender she's walking away as I just can't control it and that's the same for most addicts
I was a meth addict but I can relate. I've been there, pretending to sleep next to my misses, trying to lay still and just waiting for time to pass. That shit is maddening.
Also, in the beginning, I would stay up for 4-5 days, and just go about my day, go to work, hang out with friends and family. After a while though, it changes, your mind set changes. When it see that sun coming up, id just be like: oh no, I've done it again. I wouldn't go out because it just feel so down on myself, and going out in public just makes you feel like a junkie piece of shit. So, I'd just do more meth, wander around the house all day and mentally and emotionally beat myself up.
@J S spot on, I'm so glad I'm out of that hell now
Truth. Its soul crushing
@J S how?
Goddamn. Everyone's journey is different, thanks for sharing
@@LugiThePainDrinker i see you bro! I relapsed last year after 5 years sober. Pulled myself together real quick and got back to square 1! It gets easier with time but it never goes away 😓
Ego Booster, soul crusher
Well put. How about Lsd?
Walter J Olsen Haug Soul booster, problem solver, ego crusher.
Now ima do lsd lol
Devils dandruff.
Walter J Olsen Haug goes crazy you really learn a lot about yourself or just more you really think about the shit you don’t want to believe about yourself
Joey misses coke that much he counts his sobriety to the second.
@Miles Davidson
Jeeeeesus no. Lol for someone who's not an addict? Absolutely. Go nuts lol but for an addict, if you have a reservation even one as unlikely as, well, mine was always "if i get hit by a bus, and it separates my top half from my bottom and the only thing keeping me alive is the bus driver making sure it doesn't roll backwards. Wavin at me n shit. Then, THEN, *thennnnnn* surely I can have somebody pour drugs down my foodhole.....right?" And unfortunately your subconscious works it down to where you'll do it for something more likely, and then something that'll probably happen, and then fuck it I might as well just do it. Sadly
Josh Black Yeah, and it's horrible, never dies out completely. Our brains are rewired, and we'll always crave it to some extent sometimes. I liken it to the compulsion to eat sleep or drink water. Just there in the back of your head. If Joey said he didn't miss it, or any addict says that, they're lying or sadly deluding themselves more likely. They want you to believe it so that they can believe it, which is what they want more. *We, want more, rather. : /
@@jl9641 Shit jokes.
Jerry Springer needs to join the chat..
@KC do you know what incoherence is?
Not one Coke high, no matter how good, will ever be worth a coke comedown; that's what I've learned. The comedowns seem to stoop at least as low as you were flying high when you came up and most of the time even lower as you comprehend your shitty choices and the fact that you can't run from them anymore. The inevitability of this feeling ruined Coke for me. Whenever i fantasize about the old days of me doing lines, i sort of mentally fast forward to me laying in my bed in the early morning, covered in a layer of cold sweat and fuzzy, lousy paranoia and listening to the birds. Those fucking birds. Coke is the devil, as Robin Williams said, it's gods way of letting you know you've got too much money.
God damn those fucking birds. They fucked me up so bad every time.
A coke down from using how much?
I always said. 5 Minutes of pleasure, 5 hours of hell. Shittiest drug I've ever had.
@Be REAL ok...maybe 15-20 mins, then its dragon chasing time
@@american_alien_1583 damn I'm scared because for me it's the perfect drug. I can limit myself to 4 small lines a day, my golden ratio to not get a comedown. For me it lasts about 45 minutes to an hour though so maybe I'm just lucky. I also only use it to do work cause I like to slack off and do everything in a few hours, and I never got the urge to redose on a comedown because I just feel like even if I do another line I'll just feel like shit in 45 minutes instead of now and I wanna sleep anyways. Is this normal when starting coke?
Hate that moment when you've finished a bag ... it's 5am, you've actually got the bag in your mouth and you're chewing it. Then the realisation that's it's all badly downhill from there. You swear you'll never waste your money on that shit again. Yet two days later you get that exciting tingling again looking forward to the next wrap.
So accurate
Only thing worse is opiod withdrawl
I remember that my friends used to make lines on their phones and lick the screen afterwards, it really just hits different when you see it in person, people really don't know what drugs can do, even weed tbh.
Coke is pure trash, and that's what makes it worse, knowing how bad it is and being unable to stop it, powerless and addicted.
I profoundly respect anyone that has overcome any addiction, yall don't know how it feels. Good 2021 to everyone, stay safe.
@@jaobyeden4143 the fear from alcohol withdrawal is probably just as bad or worse than both of them.
Hell
Joey spitting nothing but facts. Alcohol and cocaine held me hostage for a number of years…and what started as an occasional indulgence quickly grew into an obsession. Every bad decision that I made during that 5ish yrs was a direct reflection of my addiction. Became an awful person…and I will never be rid of the shame from those days. Ugly, lonely, low point in life.
How did you end the cycle?
I would also like to know how you quit. I'm addicted to videogames (12+ hours a day) and while I know it's not as hard to quit as coke I still feel gripped. I cannot pull away from them and I feel like they are ruining my life. Could you give me some advice?
WOOO
it takes great strength to overcome ut. Don't hold onto the shame and keep moving forward
@@cryptobungus5778 simple, get a fkn job
Getting high was fun but, I always will remember being up at 8am, sun coming up, birds chirping, and you’re all out of the goods. The nightmare begins from there and it really was a nightmare at times.
A nightmare indeed
The worst!!! As soon as you hear the first birds chirp its like "oh no"😱😢🤯
Maaan it was the nose pains for me, only thing that would keep me up at night cause it stinging, then the nostril side i done the coke on, that whole side starts aching, my gums, my eyes water, by head would ache, brushing my hair back would sting also
What he’s describing is what every self aware addict goes through. It’s at that moment in someone’s life they make the decision to try and stop or ignore it and continue. My battle with blow was a tough one, too. Seriously mad props to anyone who’s been dragged through the trenches by snow and made it through. When he says “if I did it again I’d probably have a heart attack” I couldn’t have related more
aye trentcast love your music
One of the worst feelings is quitting and then still having people hit you up for it and you start remembering all the shit you went through. Its crazy how it damages your reputation and what people perceive you as even months and years after being clean
Real shit bro. I tried quitting and selling simultaneously and i couldnt do it. Had to call it quits for good, and just like that i could feel my reputation going away 😭
Wait, people don’t like me cause I’m the life of the party? I just had drugs all the time??😂 been there bro
Yes it is yet that can be stimulus to stay clean. The problem is when you are clean you hate those people more than when you are using.
Omg yeah. . Or always reminding u about it .
@@TheJoker-dj4yqman what a fucking piece of shit comment to leave lmaooo
Never really got into coke like that. I Went through my phase (growing up in Florida where it flows like air) but always hated the come down so much it made me want nothing to do with it. That sick feeling in your body as your watching the sun come up is horrible.
Why does everyone cry about it? are you a bunch of pussies or what? why is it so hard for you clowna to buy a bottle, buy a gram of decent blow for your friday night. Get some good friends. chill. talk about life. go home. go go bed.
what are you retards talking about? Stop fucking snorting shit past 6 hours. youre gonna go fuckinv sideways. all these idiots complaining. So stupid. Like being drunk. I HATR HANGOVERS. SO STOP DRINKING SO MUCH.
@@boostedb18b13 i feel u on that but same time sum people have problems during the week and say fuck it till its addiction kinda same if someone suicidal u know ir doing to much drugs ginna get a problem but so depressed u go hard why its best only have good time and do that type stuff if ur okay in life so just have ur fun and go bed 22 and barely learning this
@@boostedb18b13shitty coke 😂😂
I used to do this drug sometimes and 9 times out of 10 it was so adulterated that it lost its effect in 15 minutes. I'd do the whole gram in a few hours and get another one for another $50. But with few exceptions the high didn't last long enough. And many times part of the high was spent sitting on the toilet. And the more you do the more the heart starts pounding, the anxiety and paranoia, can't sleep, etc.
@@damienholland8103 $50 for a gram? In Australia it’s $350-$400 a gram. If you have 3 kilos you will become an overnight millionaire. 💵 💵💵
The 8am bag call, seeing people walk to work/school, hearing the birds and your at a kitchen table in some flat/house going through every number 😮💨
Ahhh yes , the buyers remorse drug. Had a lot of that when morning rolled around.
My dealer made the most money between 4am and 10 am 🤦🏻🤣
Nothing worse! The thought brings on instant anxiety.
You can tell he misses it but you cant live that way forever
Listening to joey is relatable. Hearing him speak gives me hope about staying clean. I've bounced around from substance to substance. Poly-addict if you will... alcohol and blow was and will always be my poison... but hearing him speak about getting clean and staying there is refreshing. I'm happy for those who can get clean no matter how you get there. But joey is candid about the grit and the darkness of addiction. As soon as someone preaches to me about too much positivity... i disassociate and detach from the conversation. I might smile and nod but i check out. Hearing his co stars talk about not being able to relate... its part of why i have a hard time listening to others and talking about it myself. Joey is an inspiration to me in a weird way. I appreciate him being willing to talk and be a vulnerable for a bit.
Most podcasts have guests to talk about them. Joey has guests to tell them stories 😂
Trust me when I say that you want Pablo Francisco to talk as little as possible.
i love that
@@madisonbrownlee6971 its why we watch 😂
@@madisonbrownlee6971 ll
that’s cool tho ngl
Never touching that shit again. Finally free from it's chains and I feel so excited to start life again. Sending love to anyone else going through it, just stopped and trying to stop. You got this
Strong wise words. Anyone struggling with addiction needs to listen to this man
Drugs aren’t the devil, but they are definitely the easiest way to meet the devil. He lives in all of us
You guys need Jesus then
Facts
@@mattmoves5920 he’s got a point
Dang straight!
@@mattmoves5920 he's in you as well, regardless of what you ignore. you're human
Why do nights on coke always go so fast too. One second things are just getting started next it’s 5am
Maybe time is all in the mind.
time flies when your having fun, until the fun stops...
For me it was cause the alcohol. I’d brown out for half the night and sober up at home. Alone. No more coke. The quiet lonely comedown…
@@Chuckschwartz that is the absolute worse. I have to chug some liquor and smash a few beers to avoid that
@@Josh-fz9rh Jep, and then the liquor is als finished. The terror starts to sink in.
That feeling of “creepy” sketched/coked out feeling makes me shiver thinking about it..... worst feeling
Yeah I'm getting like PTSD from listening to this
Awful memories of that !!
Yeah bro its all eery empty feeling..... Fuck snizz
Yeah, the come down hearing the birds chirping and the bright sunshine, crazy heart beat, no interest in anything besides getting more. And then you have to talk youself into going to bed because you wasted your whole day.
You gotta love/hate cocaine man. When it’s good it’s fucking sensational. But when it’s bad you’re so fuckin paranoid you’re peeking out your windows, grinding your teeth and mentally questioning why you’re suck a useless piece of shit.
I’m a few minutes away from 6 hours sober
What about now
and now?
Fucking quit. Now.
Still sober bro??
What about now?
I haven't done any class As for about 10 years and Joe's description of a drugs binge with the mentality sent a shiver up my spine.
"Whatever I'm selling, nobody's buying".
Hell i felt that as a person man.
I Lift Things Up And Put Them Down -It hit me hard aswell man
@thenotoriouskmcg not relating to it.
@thenotoriouskmcg you asked how else you could feel about it.. you could feel apathetic to it
@thenotoriouskmcg l0l ur right
Just like being addicted to alcohol
I’m grateful for his honesty;his experience will help others facing depression.
I worked as a Paramedic for 10 years. I’ve seen a lot of cocaine withdrawals. It is hard to watch but it’s good knowing there is therapy;a warm bed,medication to help calm down,an IV saline bag to rehydrate,a nutritious meal and someone to talk to and monitor your health.
Someone to talk to who actually cares is the best medication you could have
I luckily had my now wife help me out of that dark place. I took us both through hell and back. But you nailed it when you mentioned someone to talk to. I was very high functioning which made it hard for me to admit I had a serious problem. My wife convinced somehow me to talk a professional and it saved my life. If anyone out there is struggling with addiction, please seek out some professional therapy. And if you don’t vibe with the first therapist, don’t give up. Find someone else. And then someone else. And then someone else, until you find the right fucking person to help you. I promise you’re not beyond help!
Cocaine withdrawal is a cakewalk. At least relative to opiates / benzos / alcohol
Hit the nail right on the head with the creepy feeling. Good job to all the fellas who put the shit down and walked away
I did it cuz i had too to not die honestly
I could feel that if i do it a couple more days im done
2019 i was in emergency room 3 times cuz my heart played a weird rhytm cuz of too much cocaine
It got to the point where half a gramm already felt like overdosing, my body couldnt handle it anymore
But damn i love it so muchxD
I had to chose between dying for it, or living without it and i chose live
Quran 45:23
Have you seen ˹O Prophet˺ those who have taken their own desires as their god? ˹And so˺ Allah left them to stray knowingly, sealed their hearing and hearts, and placed a cover on their sight. Who then can guide them after Allah? Will you ˹all˺ not then be mindful?
shit im never drinking coke again, just water for me now
🤣
You can still have Dr Pepper. It’s healthy coz a doctor makes it.
😂😂😂
Soda is very unhealthy. But coke is in reference to cocaine.
High fructose corn syrup is a bitch
Best friend of 10 years started doing coke and started treating me like a nobody. Shits fucking sad to see
Damn uncle Joey hit the nail on the head. I relate to everything he says.
Amazing how the sweet sound of birds chirping can be so horrible to hear under the right circumstances
Too fucking right brother. Where I live it's woodpigeons. That, "coooo-cooooo" sound, followed by the anaemic sunlight and the creeping dread of my infant son waking up.... good God...the shame still cripples me now.
Fuck coke and all who sail upon it. I don't subscribe to any religious doctrine, there is no devil to me. There is no blame to be laid at the feet of my parents. It's only when one understands that the rot in one's soul belongs to him and him alone that actual change can foment.
Coke will turn you into the biggest piece of shit imaginable. Maybe not objectively, perhaps not in the grand scheme. But you will become the most outrageous rejection of your own, personal morality, regardless of what that may be. No other drug will do this. It is impossible to function on a day to day level with any other drug...you cannot drink a bottle of vodka, shoot up, drop a pill, smoke a joint, do a microdot etc and still act 'normal' to everyone else. The worst thing about coke is how shitty it is as a drug.
If it actually did anything of note, no-one would become an addict. And that's the worst part...knowing you are fucking yourself for something so utterly pathetic. It's like being in love with a slut. You hate every second and you know that everyone else will just shake their heads and say, "I told you so".
I always hate bird sounds, that shit is just too fucking early. 😂
Yeees, that sound would always trigger me on those nights
hey joey, u are comforting me. im coming off a alcohol binge and i was just miserable towards the end of it. and hearing stories about other people fucking up makes me feel better. thank you
Alcohol is almost as bad as coke, the problem is society thinks it’s no big deal. Hope you can find peace and sobriety my friend. It feels amazing. No hangovers, no regrets.
I stopped because it kept interfering with my goals. I only did it occasionally but when I did, I would have no energy and feel like shit for 4 days and do nothing
But don't you get tons done and organized and deeply thought moments 🤔🤔🤔 or just me? 1.3 months sober
@@perridicesage6931 maybe, but at what cost? Its starts as all positive and little negative. After a while, it flips to almost all negative and a little positive. It's not sustainable.
1.6 years* Sober haha and I totally do agree, I just wish there was a balance haha
I did it off and on usually on weekends but not every weekend... then there was a 4 or 6 month stretch where we did a bit almost every day. Still went to bed and went to work next day but wasn't great. Now I do it maybe 2 times a year. I can easily grab a bit, do it one night and go back to nothing after. Usually because as soon as I get that shit feeling I remember why I hate it. Funny enough I'll still do it again 5 or 6 months later. It's the damnest thing. It's pretty crappy these days though and as I'm getting older I know less and less places to get it so eventually it'll be never. I hope anyone who is under It's control can break free of it one day. It's not easy but mind over matter with that crap.
i believe him because he describes it exactly how it is.Hard to know those feelings without experiencing them
Yep. I never say shit like this, but seriously hearing some of the lines he said made me freeze up
Why would he lie about having been a junkie for decades? Lol
@@nekitamol1k242 lmao. Right?
The part where he says he would pretend to sleep and get that relief when they left the house for work, I know that exact feeling far too well
It’s nice to hear honesty come from addicts. Love you Joey
the worst feeling is doing something terrible while high, coming down, feeling guilty, so to feel better you get high again.
“On cocaine she looks like a victim” 🤣🤣🤣
What this man is saying is 100 percent accurate !!!!!
I’m 30 years old and I’ve lived my life like this man for ten years and yes is has got to the point where “ yeah what ever I’m selling people aren’t buying anymore”
I’ve done 12 steps following a with mild success and I mean I lived and breathed god and the steps and lived a life of complete honesty and still relapsed
But after listening to this man and he’s story being the same as mine
I feel after ten years I can do this by myself I’ve reached a point of where what’s the point of it all
Reading the comments is like a therapy in itself, a community talking about there addictions. Love it people. You can quit the shit! Just do it! The gym really helped me keep busy and after 2 weeks that shit was nothing to me nomore
I have that same feeling. The opposite of addiction isn’t sobriety. It’s connection. I love you and I hope you’re feeling great.
@@ax1590 love you too :)
yh man becuase gym releases endophenes and there the same you get from a drug ... but having a few teared muscles is minor compared to wanting to kill ya self on a bad downer
I can listen to joey talk all day..one of the realest and straight up men and says it like it is..proud of u Joey for hitting 12 years..I'm 2 years in my sobriety...pills n blow..miss the party but hated my life...if that makes any sense
I've never thought anyone could comprehend pain and just filthy emptiness of addiction and joey explaining it the way he does here is the first time in 10 years of sobriety hearing people talk about it that I've said to myself this guy fucking understands that's me hes lived my nightmare and hes still here thanks Joey I'm sure this will really hit home with the people that need to hear that raw truth thsts so hard to put into words pathetic pain
I need to stop. This helps Joey. Thanks.
You’re sexy
JORDANXXX right with you
You can do it!
no it doesn’t help, lol you took a bump while typing that
You can do it
I like how he actually lets his guests talk without cutting them off
the worst part of addiction is at the end of a run you look up and realize you did everything you said you wouldn't do and burned bridges and owe people. the smack in the face sucks but if it don't hit you hard then it's not rock bottom. love to all fellow addicts trying to survive and stay sober
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Facts. I feel so ashamed after a night out and blew my paycheck on shitty coke and liqour. Always wake up feeling like shit. Mentally and physically.
I was thinking of dabbling tonight but this clip changed my mind.. Thanks Uncle Joey! I think I’ll keep my soul tonight lol
Buck Rogers Buck up boy u dont become addicted from a few lines Its not even that much fun unless ur drunk
Buck Rogers coke really does turn people into demons.
@Egor Holy shit, man.
I guess you won Egor. Hope your mate is ok now
Smoke some fuckn refer,ya mook!
To anybody who thinks: “just smoke weed”
Has never had a serious comedown.
Yes, because We're not dopefiends
@@ricardo5622 Being a dope fiend is redundant.
Pretending to know what you’re talking about without the experience is the point here.
@@InattentiveADHB um, no. smoking weed is harmless, smoking crack is not. having experience using hard drugs makes you a loser, not wise.
@@ricardo5622 The only loser here right now is you, Ricardo, by assuming things about people you have no idea of.
@@InattentiveADHB you sound like a complete idiot trying to be offended that I said hard drug users are losers, so I guess it makes sense since you're obviously emotionally invested in hard drug use and therefore a total loser
Similar shit happens with alcoholism fr. Before i started recovery, my addiction was so bad i found myself in weird bars and clubs at 5am, half conscious, with a bunch of “friends” i had just met in the same night, then i would pass out the entire next day. One time i missed a dinner date with an old friend (ACTUAL friend) visiting my city who I hadn’t seen in years because i was too sick and hungover. Don’t wish addiction on anyone.
The worst thing about coke is, at some point in the morning, your "buzz" is done. I don't care who You are, how much money You got or how much Coke you got......... your buzz is gone, but you keep chasing at it.
The next day/night you tell yourself you'll never chase it again. But you do.......... Until you walk away from the lady in white like Joey D did........................
I hate feeling like a fiend on it, like when you run out at 5am and your trying to get hold of your guy to get more but everyone is asleep and its almost morning and you hear birds chirping outside
Good lord you just brought back memories it's disgusting thinking about it
The fuckin birds... and then you have to get up and go to work! Beyond grateful I kicked that addiction to the curb 6 months ago. Life is so much better this way.
Forreal been there so many times hated it glad I’m just a pot smoker now
Did you ever retrace all your steps where you did it looking for small pieces that may have fell on floor or edge of table??
It's crazy. Cocaine will make you feel the highest of highs but then the lowest of the lows. Now I always think of the lows before I make my decision....
Grateful for Joey sharing the way he does, watching this has made me realise I’m a binge addict. Literally taken the last 2 weeks off work sick cause I can’t sleep cause I’ve been banging coke up my nose. Probably going to lose my job when I go back so at an all time low right now which makes me wanna pick up another 8ball, vicious cycle!
Hope you're okay bro
Same here, wont lose my job but getting nowhere, fast
Rehab is for quitters
Same here, make the decision and say no!
We can make it! 💪
Damm these feelings are the reason u wake up depressed not wanting to do it again until a Good Friday comes around a couple drinks down the hatch and all the sudden a couple key shots and rails don’t seam to bad
. But the pretending you’re asleep part hit me . Heart pounding.
I’ve never seen a more mature comment section kudos to everyone sharing there experiences
The pretending you’re asleep with your beard pounding until you’re gf leaves so you can rub one more out. Lmao that hit home
Lmfao that was me last night
I was going at it for like an hour drenched in sweat hahaha
imagine being kidnapped and held captive against your will for years..
Joe is counting his days sober not because he misses the coke, but because he is free from it...
Or cuz he has made up a number of time he wants to lay off it so he can do it again 🤪 like a kid counting the days to christmas
Lets be honest, coke is the thing that makes grown up feel like kids christmas more than anything
Since i am over 19, no woman ever made me feel like coke could again, no payday, the only thing that comes close was winning a fistfight, but that only lasts for 1-2 hours maybe and you cant fight every 2 hours
@@backbone93 you ever get into spiritual stuff? psychedelics?
@@backbone93 try shrooms.. your perspective will changer
@@sc4rlotte456 weed is my psychedelic :)
@@fiightergoat i really dont want too, i have seen a lot of people say that exact thing that you say, "dmt, shrooms, the toude(or how its spelled)"
They all say the same thing how it chaned theyr mentality, even my brother did
But honestly, none of them changed into a way where they are ahead of me in anything( no offense)
Maybe it did help a lot of people, but joe rogan for example, before he was on shrooms, dmt, the "toude" his mind was in a much better place, his critical thinking skills was 10000000000× better than after he did it
Joe rogan hasnt really questioned anything since he went that psychedelic route, since then he literally became a shill of himself
Before that he knew the moolanding was fake, afterwards he went back to believing it was real
From my observation those shrooms and psychedelics mainly feed your imagination skills, your "naivity" if you want, and maybe your creativity( which comes from the better imagination skills probably)
I have never seen a person that got better in critical thinking from any of these things
(No offense)
My brother the same, after he went the shroom route his mind was not able to think critical anymore, his Imagination and naivity got better, and he was more "calm"
But his mind really didnt improve from that, neither did joe rogans
He always say how it made him go of the ego, nonsense mate
He is shilling for the mainstream narratives more than ever, to protect his wealth
Psychosis is the worst part of coke
how long does the psychosis last? how do you end the trip?
@@fantasy8833 xanax
The first 20.mins to an hour is enjoyable, it's the hours and days after that you suffer, once it's in with me I can't stop.
The worst thing that happened to me on blow is I used to fight with my younger brothers. Still hate myself for that, it really brings the worst out of you sometimes
When the gears gone and the sun is up and the birds are chirping... That shit is fucked up
Kind of strange how i never noticed the chirping birds until i was strung out on coke.
Holding your breath at 3am so you can hear the fictional intruder in your backyard .....
So true.
🤣
Really sad that this was me at one point during my lowest times. Smoking, snorting and eating meth. Coke whenever I could find it. I thought people were staring at me through my window. I legit heard and saw them. It still creeps me out to this day. I wonder if I saw some lower dimensional spirits
@@mysticdragon111 are you sure your not still at it
@@mysticdragon111 that's what I think it is when you see shit ike that up for days, interdementinal shit, seriously but I'm not sure.
Love seeing all the turnaround stories in the comments....anything is possible and its NEVER too late
Coke will make you do things you deff didn't want to do
Can you elaborate?? were listening...
@@timberger212 Ha
Hello horatino.
Go on...tell us about your fellatio stories.... up dem stories
Marijuana is not a drug I use to suck dick for cocaine now that's an addiction. -- Half Baked
I think what saved me from getting addicted to coke was sheer awareness and knowledge.
I could tell that after a bump or line: i would want one again right away after it would wear off and that was a red flag to me.
I saw the vicious cycle early and i'm blessed for it.
What he says at the end, i did that so many times. The most fuckd up thing is: you know youre gonna screw it up, the moment you have it in ur system, the morals go out of the window.
Everything you say is so true.watching this video hits hard.thanks for telling the truth.even in 2021 people need to hear this.i need to hear this.thank you.
Wrote this whilst in London a decade ago whilst trying to beat the demon of coke addiction:
From fun to a hobby, then a habit to a crave
It now oils the free fall as you speed to your grave
And a hand wont be offered, the one you bit whilst it fed,
And tore at their wrist and drank while they bled
Mistakes there were plenty, regrets many more
And with ten you'll take to your earthen bed floor
On your last breath you choke, your eyes bleed as they close
You finally concede defeat to the powder that now falls from your nose.. ...
Damn. I felt the pain
Awesome poem
Tama Te Kiwi damn..
Creepy bro.
Very good I can relate
Man I used do that shit, around 5 gs a day, only for about 5 years but that made me feel like I was loosing touch with reality, I was so so paranoid, seeing things hearing things, hated the person I was turning in to. I thought I was going to die of a Hart attack or have a stroke. Used to always feel like I needed it to be able to do anything...work socialise or just sat at home on my own, and I loved that! sad as fuck! Glad it's not part of my life anymore.
When you burn yourself out doing coke for a weekend so you decide to do more coke to help motivate you through the week only to find yourself rocked out in your room alone. Wide awake, paranoid, unproductive, snot and blood blowing out your nostrils. It’s a creepy feeling.
What kind of paranoid?
@@carloscontreras3633 like the world is out to get you and your life is falling apart
Fuck, this is absolutely spot on. Unbelievable.
I’m 28 days sober Monday. Coke is one mad drug. Wish I can carry on.
you can do it buddy just believe in GOD
Keep it up man!!
Keep it up, 30 days for myself.
Hope you're getting on well bro
When i was doing coke id call into work saying the dumbest things thinking it was actually believable. Was a sad time lol
André Ranch same as me with drink
Same except with meth. To this day, I have no fucking clue what my reasoning was for skipping a whole midterm exam in college that I was already prepared for. Instead, I spent those 2-3 days just getting high and fucking, but I remember that in the moment I thought my reasoning for just skipping the exam was airtight. Luckily I still passed and graduated but what the fuck
@@lilmane1070 thsts the creepiy part i can only talk about coke but after a level u took it eats u and u think its cooll continue for 2-3.
Same bro..same lol
Why tf did you call in on coke I could handle any shift on coke it’s x that’s makes it IMPOSSIBLE to work for me
Just always be positive no matter what
This is some real shit. The deeper my addiction went, the more I avoided people and just wanted to do my drugs alone by myself so that it was all mine and nothing was getting between me and the drugs.
The accuracy of your comment. Makes me wanna cry cause I hurt so many people and pushed so many people away for 6 years straight. It changed me.
@@michaelholguin142 Don't blame yourself blame the drug.
Once I got clean off smoking fentanyl I really couldn’t even recognize myself or my actions. People still hate me & I face repercussions about all the problems I’ve created . Joey helped me get clean in a way with these videos fr , knows how too articulate a addicts thoughts
listen I was a full.on druggie big time but I beat it I took along time but I did it ... yet 8 years later I still have family who won't speak to me and what makes it worse is the fact they've dont much worse but fuck them b4 they fuck you
🔵🔵🔵no bueno
@@gabrielmcguire213 what? reallly bueno
I really struggle with having to live with those things I've done on drugs. I don't blame people for hating me after that, but i feel I don't get enough outside support and recognition because of it. It's a daily struggle and sometimes realizing it took everything and all I've got left is myself is demoralizing. I'm all I'm supposed to need I get that, but I miss the things I destroyed and sometimes feel that i might as well go back to drugs I've already thrown everything away. But I know there's always more to destroy
@@Nickunder0925 Your doing well. You stopped the poison. Regrets will always be there but you will feel some pride in overcoming the poison. I feel your message, though. Virtual hug from the Emerald Isle 💚
I’ve been clean for 8 years but I still think about it and feel the desire for a line. Joey is really right on about how the addiction persists and even grows even when you’re sober
Same. I'm 11 years clean & still fantasize about using. Wtf man. 2 beautiful children, wife & a good job etc. But that's why addiction is an illness & it lives in the fucking mind. Never goes away!!! Sometimes I even start plotting my relapse & who I will call. 8 ball, porn, whiskey - wanking for days. Crazy fucking shit man. That coke is the devil's dandruff. Get to a meeting & pray! Life or death stuff for someone like me. 🙏🏻
@@SuperR160 Yea! The chemicals change your brain forever!
@@eneveasi yes bro. It's absolutely crazy but thankfully we don't need to use one day at a time.
@@SuperR160 oh thank god.
Listening to this while reading the comments is giving me anxiety. Stay strong fellas
Im glad alot of people support not doing and or quitting coke 💯
Man, I was never an addict but that creepy feeling is spot on. I remember my psychiatrist over-prescribing me adderall when I was 12 and the same thing happened. Up all night over thinking deadlines and never getting them done, going to school the next day with dark circles under my eyes yet having the energy to call out, making people cringe with unfunny jokes, constant over sharing without reading the room etc. Towards the end of that year I was crashing, got bullied a lot because people thought I was obnoxious, got in trouble for perverted jokes to teachers to make people laugh while pretending to be an expert in what we were learning, random questions about the lesson that had zero connection for the sake of talking. God, what a terrible year that was.
Adderall fucked me up too
sneako could relate
Get over it my guy you’re not that person anyway you’re Were a kid
I was like that too but did no drugs
Maybe jerking off was the drug that led to that effect
Joey is spitting straight facts
Being strung out on coke is worse than death 💀
@blake Landon Death is a blessing
try coming down from meth
How do you know? Have you died?
There’s what real honesty looks like
After a coke binge comes a porn binge. Breaks the best of us!
Molly
I be meating my meat all night until 5 am and then i could not sleep all day until like 8 pm, its the worst feeling but when your high on coke you be feeling like a king and when the high goes away you be feeling like the lowest of the lowest. I have tried to quit that drug many times over the last 10 years and just now i have been sober for about a year but i had to let go of alcohol because that was my trigger. God bless you brothers and sisters the grass is greener on the other side dont let drugs and alcohol tell you otherwise
This was such a great explanation of how addiction really is
Yeah, trapping yourself inside, just doing blow or basing for 3 days straight with no sleep, is scary. A good friend of mine, that I even did coke with occasionally; became this way, and his heart finally gave out, at only 30 years old.
Scaring me bro
So relatable man. My brain still chases a number of substances because there all a call away and life is hard.standing strong
STOP. Trust me.
I can’t do coke without feel an overwhelming sensation of shame and guilt
lol not for you then mate
I usually feel that the next day lol
i am thankful for that feeling tho
@@TLPSh0ckW4ve right , who knows where id be if i never felt those feelings
@@stephenbutler6819 😂
I’ve done it maybe 6-7 times and still get that heady craving feeling at the THOUGHT of it, especially after a few beers. Far from addiction haven’t touched it in 2 years, but your brain remembers shit.
I’ve done it about that many times as well. Your brain does remember it
That’s nothing, don’t trip!
relate i felt the same
It sticks around for along time have been on and off for a few years now even when I'd manage to take a few months of I'd still be unconsciously thinking about it.
You don't take drugs, drugs take you.
That's a great saying,
In Soviet Russia...
I'll stick to my pot and light beer. I know it's best not to have a crutch, but it's damage limitation.
He’s a lucky man so many stayed by his side all the years he treated people like a door mat.
Is it me, or is Joey perpetually 2 weeks away from a coke anniversary😂
I loved coke but hated myself. Had to get help to quit. The party can't last forever.
I read the title out loud while trippin on acid and I just couldn’t contain myself 😭😭
We all been there bro let us pray we overcome or don’t go back and if we do may we have strength to keep going on