My Story: Anorexia & Binge Purge Disorder
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- Hey Everyone! This is an overview of my battle with Anorexia & Binge Purge Disorder and how I recovered. I believe there is so much stigma surrounding mental health and I think these issues need to be spoken about more frequently. Watching TH-cam videos about real stories was something which helped me recover. I promised myself that if I ever recovered I would make a video to give someone else hope. This is my story!
If you are suffering from an eating disorder I highly recommend contacting The Butterfly Foundation (www.thebutterflyfoundation.org.au) and Eating Disorders Outreach Service (EDOS) (www.nedc.com.au) as these were the two organisations that helped me. Recovery isn't easy but it is definitely possible, it just takes dedication and persistence.
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i'm almost 4 days purge free. That's my best streak since quarantine started.. kinda sad but i feel quite hopeful after a long time tbh
How are you doing now?
@@shenandoah1322 surprisingly good 😁 i actually relapsed a couple of times since i commented this but when December started i had a huge mental breakdown that shook me quite a bit.. So now I’m officially purge free since Dec 9.
I still binge tho... Yesterday I had a huge one but at least I managed to keep it down.
I think what is working for me is the fact that I realised how bloated my face gets everytime I purge (my face is one of my biggest insecurities).
I don’t know how I hadn’t made the connection earlier.
I then read in a lot of forums that their face got back to normal only after they stopped the b/p cycle completely.
I still have a lot of work to do cause obv i binge. But at least I replaced purging with starving myself or doing extreme work out sessions, which are a little healthier i guess lol
@@sel8779 I'm so proud of you, I hope you keep getting better 💕
@@raquelberger7909 tysm 🥺💕💕
That's not sad darling, that's amazing. I'm so proud of you
I thought I was the only one who lied about going for a shower and studying but use that time to vomit... Eating disorders are so relatable... Every time I doubt if I really have a disorder or I’m simply making this up, I look up for ED stories and realize this things are so real and insane.
It's so strange how people with the same mental health disorder have similar thoughts!
Me too I hope we can recover ❤
I don't completely agree with the stance that it's a temporary mental health issue. There isn't a cure. You recover, but you continue to combat and control those demons.
Carnella Bobbie but you must keep in mind that every persons recovery is different
Carnella Bobbie Well if you keep the mindset that you’ll never fully recover from your ED, what’s the point? Pretty hopeless to think like that. I’ve been pretty much fully recovered from bulimia since 2016
I agree. You can recover from the harmful behaviors and actions but the actual thoughts and relationship with food don't ever really go away.
@@Hannah-on3wj I personally have completely recovered from negative thoughts. I honestly believe it is possible to completely recover if you allow it.
Mental health issues are not temporary for everyone. I believe that if you have struggled with one mental health condition, you are susceptible to other mental health issues (like anxiety and depression). I personally have suffered with anxiety outside of my eating disorder. However, I now am completely recovered from my eating disorder and i know others in the same boat. It takes time but eventually the demons become a distant memory. I do think it can be temporary for some people.
Thank you so much for this. I had no idea you could rupture your stomach purging, you may have just saved my life. I love you for that!
I didn't know for so long but I think this helped me in the long-term too! I became too scared of purging all the time. Hopefully you are on a great pathway to recovery xx
Yea same I don’t want to die yet I didn’t even binge today and I purged
Seing her saying these things while all I can think about is how I'd die to look like her, and for being naturally skinny.. Its a whole anther story when youre obese and you develop these eating disorders.
People start to congratulatte you for every pound lost.
Exactly!!!! They don’t realize the unhealthy ways you may be losing weight just because your not underweight. I’ve had the same thing happen when I was dropping weight like crazy by not eating and everyone was so happy for me because I was “getting skinny” and “looking better”. It made me want to keep losing weight and also made me terrified of gaining weight because everyone was focusing on my weight a lot so they would notice.
Over eating, under eating, its the same horrific illness, just with different symptoms. That, and the 'dkinny' people with an eating disorder don't feel any happier than someone who is bigger does. Whatever your wrgjt, you hate yourself. You want to be smaller. Doesn't matter your size, you still hate yourself. I promise you, if your eating disorder resulted in you being very underweight, you won't feel any better about yourself. The biggest killer from eating disorders isn't starving to death, but suicide.
It might seem counterintuitive, but generally speaking, skinny people don’t have faster metabolisms than people who weigh more. In fact, the bigger your body, the more calories you burn.
Thanks for sharing. OMG the peanut butter binges!
Recovering from my ED was one of the best things I ever did. It's truly an accomplishment.
Did your stomach hurt when you didn’t throw up
Thanks for sharing your story. I’m glad you got help. I’ve seen that photo of the girl that died from throwing up so sad
Thanks so much for sharing. You truely are an inspiration Nic.
Aww thanks lovely, really appreciate it xx
Hi love I beginning to share my journey if you were interested in watching:)
Thanks for sharing. I've never suffered with an ed but I think these types of stories are really important and can help others.
Wow Nic, I had no idea... really inspiring. Similar to my journey with food with food guilt and restriction. How amazing does it feel to be free. Proud of you xxxxx
So amazing! I had no idea about you! So glad we've both found a healthy relationship with food. xx
Listening to your story, the reason that I’ve developed an ed was actually due to my best friend who was going on a “healthy diet” too. And I actually told my mom the same thing coming home🫠 I can relate to this a lot. Thank you for sharing your story!
It's so important that you posted this, you are such an intelligent, charismatic beautiful gal and it's amazing to see how far you have come x
Thanks so much lovely xx
Just found this today and basically needed to tell you I sobbed by 2 minutes in and it terrified the hell out of me. Why? Because although I have never purged I have restricted for years and years and had no idea of what it could be doing inside. I don’t know how to begin to change now and feel like the walls are closing in. You are incredibly brave
Thanks for this comment lovely - so brave of you to post. I hope you are on your own recovery journey. Understanding what starvation and purging does to your body is hard to swallow but it is a very important step in recovery xx
Nice to find this video, and thank yoy for bwikg so honest. Makes me feela little less ashamed. Totally me, except iv never binged more than twice in a day. I ended up in hospital beginning of the year with arythmia and severe hypokalemia which have me a fright at the time and I'm a lot better now but still binging at night after doing so well all day!!!!! And nobody knows I'm still stuck 😫😫
Hi love I beginning to share my journey if you were interested in watching:)
I know the photo you're talking about. It's heart breaking. I'm so so glad you're still here 💓
Wow, this is the real raw video I needed to see.. I saw the one w the girl that ruptured her stomach and yes, very startling. Anyway, your behaviors were very very similar to mine for years! Thought I was the only Anorexic that did this. Thennn like you, it all caught up w me. Severely. So scary. Lived in hospital. Glad you took care of it, I unfortunately still struggle w that (not necessarily binging though). Take care 💜
Thank you for this video; I recently deferred my university program in order to focus on my bulimia recovery. I have been feeling very guilty/ashamed and as though I've made the wrong decision to take time off school. Your video really helped me feel more positive and confident in my decision. :)
It’s great to know we’re not alone❤️
So proud of you beauty! I can relate with so many of the things you discussed. I also struggled with anorexia & bulimia for 7 years. Seeing how radiant & happy you are now is absolutely amazing. Keep inspiring xx
I don’t have a ED
It's so brave of you to post this! I know it sounds cliche but you have come so far and are a huge inspiration. This is especially cool because you live in my hometown and its nice to know there are people like you in the community who have grown and become amazing examples of how to change a life for the better. Love your insta stories too btw! I really want to try nuttiboost but my digestion issues won't allow it :( but i wish you all the best with it! i might buy some for my mama :)
holy shit this is so similar to me.
the restricting, eating a bunch of stuff and vomiting, the trying to eat small portions at dinner and failing then binging then purging. I've went through the exact same stuff. I'm glad you were able to recover! and luckily I was able to pull myself out of this cycle a month ago.
the first few days were one of the hardest things I've done in my 18 years of life lol. i did relapse A LOT but I'm still trying, at least it's not daily anymore.
to anyone else struggling remember you can make it through this if you're determined enough
Thanks for this very honest and vulnerable video. Relate to it all and glad to see you have come through it. Good luck with continued health. I'm still trapped in the cycle and it's awful xx
Thats okay - I hope you see the light and find a path that's right for you. It takes time but the rewards is so worth it. Stay strong! x
I would love to see a video on what you ate / or your diet you spoke of in the video that you followed coming out of anorexia
How did your body react to the food in the beginnning I’d recover because you were purging less or nothing at all? And how many calories do you recommenced to eat if your underweight also?
Such a good video Nicola!!
THank you Jemima xx hope you are well
I just posted a video speaking about my binge eating disorder. Took me a lot of guts to make it my first TH-cam video
Eh I can’t even purge it doesn’t come up... my gag reflexes are on point.
wow you may of just saved my life.
did your body gain weight, during your binge purge disorder than from anorexia/restrictive eating?, bc my binge/purge ED has gotten so bad to the point where a family member commented on me looking 'healthy', when i was supposed to be in recovery, but has changed into a more dangerous ED:(
I have a question: why do you refer to it as "binge purge disorder" and not bulimia?
Just googled it, bulimia is categorized by binge purging cycles so its the same in this sense. There is just “purging disorder” which is similar but a separate eating disorder which does not include binging food. Hope that explains it for ya
I've suffered from this for the past 35 years and feel so low in mood 🙄😢😭😭
i’m so scared, i haven’t eaten a meal in 4 days and my stomach is so small, but i can’t stop not eating i feel in control
go eat a meal babe, I promise it’ll be worth it
@@chelseacook1864 i was forced to eat a few mexi fries bc i had to take my meds but i only had three small fries
hey, i notice that when i watch a video like this, it triggers me so much. i am 16 and a little overweight so i can lose a bit weight but when but when i’m going to exercise and eat healthy, it quickly becomes an obsession and i just think about it. do you have any tips or anything because i am afraid that it becomes an obsession but i want to lose some weight.
Please just trust me that this isn't the way to go. Eat healthy and exercise in a healthy way and you WILL get the results you want. But if you do this you'll ruin your life. I'm anorexic and it stole nearly everything from me. Please don't do this to yourself.
1:05 I'm 55 and have suffered from the age of 13 with my EDs. It is NOT a temporary disorder for all of us. You are very naive to believe so.
Yup, just like an alcoholic is never fully recovered.
However, EDs are more difficult because we can't avoid food completely (like an alcoholic can avoid alcohol 100%).
Every time we eat, the temptation is there 😔.
Love you x
xxx Love you girl
Did you stomach hurt when you started eating more without throwing up
Really brave of you to make this x also what’s the song in the background?
Music: Intro by The XX
People say I have an ED but my electrolytes are fine so I don’t really believe them
your electrolytes can be fine the whole time if you have anorexia restrictive-type, or if you don't purge often. that doesn't mean that your isn't out of danger though - it's struggling just as much as someone who's potassium is low. if you feel you are struggling with food, please talk to people about it, and accept help - or get bloods done, and speak to a doctor. 💛 you matter.
through rose-coloured eyes - electrolytes can also be fine in people with bulimia.... and people with binge-purge anorexia.... everyone’s body is different and reacts different and eating disorders are mental health illnesses and it is the mental parts and behaviours that bring a diagnosis
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confused on where her anorexia comes in, all im hearing is bine purge disorder or bulimia
Binge purge is a subtype if anorexia, if your bmi is under a certain number then it’s anorexia even if it does look like bulimia
Sophia Rezende - and between binge purge episodes in anorexia, the person restricts
KEC RN true but restricting is also another form of purging but all disorders or mostly different it rly just depends on the person
If she was underweight at the time and using restricting behaviors the diagnosis would be anorexia b/p subtype. Obviously as you weight restore you "outgrow" the weight criteria so if she were to be rediagnosed now she would likely be diagnosed with bulimia or Osfed
As an emetophobe and someone who is deathly afraid of high sodium foods, thinking about throwing up disgusts me. I just prefer to drink water
You were doing it wrong then because I was Anorexic & Bullimia for 5years and I never had a health problem (i would get labs twice a year)
100% true
Your beautiful💖🌟
What song is in the background.
But its alright if u do it like 2 times a day right?
No hun , its never OK. Every time you purge, you are taking risks with your life. You can still get ruptured oesophagus, stomach , vomit blood, get electrolyte imbalances, that can stop your heart. But WORSE of all - it might 'only' once or twice a day at the moment, but unless you seek help to recover there WILL come a time when it takes over and you can't 'just' do it twice a day... But several times a day. It takes control, fully. Please reach out for help, it's hard work, but life can be and will be SOOOOOO much better ❤️
@@anovemberstar but i cant help it im a fattie. 👁👄👁✌️
@@anovemberstar what if you do it once a week???
Hey girl! Whereabouts in Aus are you based?
I'm based in Brisbane :D xx
Hey random but what’s the name of the backing music? :)
The xx - intro i think :)
I'm thin and eat like no tomorrow. Doctors check ups/tests are fine. Just have a tall thin father and a thin 6 foot 6 and a half uncle. 33 still thin. Would be happy a bit heavier but I suppose I should be happy I'm healthy and have all my limbs, sight, hearing and sense of smell :) I love food too much to bring it back up, even at my lowest moments in life. Throwing up when one is sick is an awful enough feeling. Glad you are ok now.
Im happy that u recoverd from your ed but did u really had to talk bad about africa ther is other places whit food issue u know
Omg memories of cardiac hill hah.
And still ....if only I could go back to my 62.6 lbs "me", I would in a heartbeat without any doubt. Shit is the same bug now I'm a fat 105 lbs cow.
C'mon, girl. Look at yourself.