hey! also just wanted to touch on that this is just my personal experience and everyone's journey to recovery is different! Insta - @juliannasrabbitfood @juliannazalescik
the thing you said about wanting to look like kendall when you were 11... literally same. For the modeling part, I am also pretty tall and my first diet was CRAZY. Lost 3kg in 4 days for a casting and still didn’t get the gig. That’s what got my ED started.
GIRL I FELT THAT IN MY SOUUUUL. It was some unattainable dream to look like Kendall. Whenever other models y’all about their weight now I have to take a step out of the room.
aww... I really related to this on so many levels, the food tracking, labeling foods as good or bad, never eating with others or getting something different, and YES the addiction to the feeling... and just the fear that certain foods like bagels can bring, which is so hard for others w/o ED's to understand, so so proud of you for recovering girl.
Great video, I’m happy that you got better and are doing good. I liked the part where you said talking about it was a major factor of changing your life for the better. I never had an ED, but I did have depression for a long time and talking about it to my Mom and letting my fam know how I felt really helped me out so much. It’s crazy how sometimes we just need someone to listen to us. It felt like a burden was lifted from my shoulders and I remember feeling like a true human for the first time in a while and not just a lump of sadness wasting air. I hope more and more people can get the courage to talk about their problems💗
Thank you so much for sharing girl !! Truly and inspiration for me to get through the same thing that you went through and you’re so beautiful inside and out and once again thank you sm
I relate loll i’m no where near recovery but I constantly compare myself to victoria’s secret models measurements because i’m 5 10’ so i feel like i have to be 116 or else im huge. It’s helpful to see another tall girl’s ed story 🥺❤️i wish you luck, you’re amazing
just so you know, raynauds is caused by a lot of things - hypothyroidism, it can occur by itself as just an autoimmune disease, it can occur as a symtom of other autoimmune diseases.. etc. (i have raynauds and anorexia and hypothyroidism and didnt develop raynauds until i developed it for completely different reasons despite me being cold previously due to malnutrition from my ED)
Thank you for sharing your story ! I actually have an eating disorder i stared to eat like 500 calories a few weeks ago but me and my family had a family dinner this Friday and then they noticed that I have an eating disorder they just really expect from me to eat 3 meals a day , to eat normal but I can’t I feel bad when I eat 3 meals I have this huge fear to gain weight I want to lose weight so I stopped eating that much but like I feel like I’m stuck cause they always check what I eat and they really expect me to eat 1200 and more but I really can’t I can barley eat 800 I got used to eat I’m not hungry and I’m not even underweight yet or something I really don’t know that to do anyway be strong I’m glad that u recovered .
I’m wishing u the best on ur journey. And u already made a big step by realizing that your low amount of eating is dangerous. I seriously recommend talking to a specialized therapist who is trained in ED’s. That was seriously what changed my mindset
Julianna Zalescik thank you so much I actually really want to I just need to have the courage to tell my parents that I feel bad and that I need help sos it’s pretty hard I always tell them that everything is fine haha
I have been through the same journey as u . But came through it I have my own page where I share my journey in recovery from anorexia, eating disorder and bulimi anxiety and depression . I still struggle but I am physically fully recovered . Well done for starting your journey I know how difficult it is to share 💞💞
i feel like i have serious issues cause. i dont have an ed. but when i was in 6th grade i starved myself and purged. after a bit i stopped and started binging instead, and then the cycle repeats. i also stopped purging cause i noticed it was dmging my curly hair.
That is an Ed look up the defi of it .that’s an abnormal eating pattern and relationship with food. Also depending on how you purged sounds like bulimia
I’m sorry if it’s a personal question but did u lose your happiness when you had ur Ed cause I really feel like shit even when things that has nothing to do w food happens or is it just me
Holy fuck...Raynaud's...I've noticed lately that I have that and I've been really wondering what it was. I just thought I had bad circulation and accepted it. At least now I know what's up.
i'm just curious if you blame "the patriarchy" or let's just say straight males in general for your eating disorder? as in pressure to look a certain way in order to fit in with "the male gaze". whatever the hell that's supposed to mean.
Exactly! I have had Raynaud's since I was a small child, not even underweight. And it isn't considered to be an autoimmune disorder, it is a vascular condition. It is stimulated by cold and also vibration (like from a lawn mower or motorcycle).
Honestly, food, eating, fitness community on youtube started my ED
Same 😞
me too, intermittent fasting was what got me, it's so hard to get out of
Honestly yes I feel this still
@@ashleykali510 I did intermittent fasting again to try to control my food/hunger. Literally messes up ur bodies natural hunger cues :(
And yet here u are.
the thing you said about wanting to look like kendall when you were 11... literally same. For the modeling part, I am also pretty tall and my first diet was CRAZY. Lost 3kg in 4 days for a casting and still didn’t get the gig. That’s what got my ED started.
GIRL I FELT THAT IN MY SOUUUUL. It was some unattainable dream to look like Kendall. Whenever other models y’all about their weight now I have to take a step out of the room.
Yeah I definitely shouldn’t watch this. Thank you for including the trigger warning, it’s for the best.
aww... I really related to this on so many levels, the food tracking, labeling foods as good or bad, never eating with others or getting something different, and YES the addiction to the feeling... and just the fear that certain foods like bagels can bring, which is so hard for others w/o ED's to understand, so so proud of you for recovering girl.
My ED started bc some girl told me starving myself was fun and easy to get out of so I tried it like an idiot and now I can’t stop😍🤟🏽
So understandable I’m sorry
Great video, I’m happy that you got better and are doing good. I liked the part where you said talking about it was a major factor of changing your life for the better. I never had an ED, but I did have depression for a long time and talking about it to my Mom and letting my fam know how I felt really helped me out so much. It’s crazy how sometimes we just need someone to listen to us. It felt like a burden was lifted from my shoulders and I remember feeling like a true human for the first time in a while and not just a lump of sadness wasting air. I hope more and more people can get the courage to talk about their problems💗
Thank you so much for sharing girl !! Truly and inspiration for me to get through the same thing that you went through and you’re so beautiful inside and out and once again thank you sm
omg thank you
I relate loll i’m no where near recovery but I constantly compare myself to victoria’s secret models measurements because i’m 5 10’ so i feel like i have to be 116 or else im huge. It’s helpful to see another tall girl’s ed story 🥺❤️i wish you luck, you’re amazing
I’m sorry you had to go through that and I’m even more sorry that this happens to so many other girls and guys alike. I wish you strength
Girl you are so strong, i wish you the best, keep fighting :) :)
thank you!
Omggg this is so random but I just wanted to say ur hair is so pretty!!!😍
just so you know, raynauds is caused by a lot of things - hypothyroidism, it can occur by itself as just an autoimmune disease, it can occur as a symtom of other autoimmune diseases.. etc. (i have raynauds and anorexia and hypothyroidism and didnt develop raynauds until i developed it for completely different reasons despite me being cold previously due to malnutrition from my ED)
It’s also very common with lupus, or you can just have it on it’s own. :)
Thank you for sharing ❤️ I wish you all the best. (Plus I love your collage wall!)
That wall was SO much work! Unfortunately it’s gone now due to home renovations :(
Thank you for sharing your story ! I actually have an eating disorder i stared to eat like 500 calories a few weeks ago but me and my family had a family dinner this Friday and then they noticed that I have an eating disorder they just really expect from me to eat 3 meals a day , to eat normal but I can’t I feel bad when I eat 3 meals I have this huge fear to gain weight I want to lose weight so I stopped eating that much but like I feel like I’m stuck cause they always check what I eat and they really expect me to eat 1200 and more but I really can’t I can barley eat 800 I got used to eat I’m not hungry and I’m not even underweight yet or something I really don’t know that to do anyway be strong I’m glad that u recovered .
To it * not to eat *
I’m wishing u the best on ur journey. And u already made a big step by realizing that your low amount of eating is dangerous. I seriously recommend talking to a specialized therapist who is trained in ED’s. That was seriously what changed my mindset
Julianna Zalescik thank you so much I actually really want to I just need to have the courage to tell my parents that I feel bad and that I need help sos it’s pretty hard I always tell them that everything is fine haha
Thank you for Sharing your Story, Great Video. Recovery is a journey
thank you! :)
You’re so pretty! You look so much like Leighton Meester 😍
i am recovering and you are so strong and gorg ✨✨
Thank u babe 💗💗
I have been through the same journey as u . But came through it I have my own page where I share my journey in recovery from anorexia, eating disorder and bulimi anxiety and depression . I still struggle but I am physically fully recovered . Well done for starting your journey I know how difficult it is to share 💞💞
Kelly Hocking thank u and sending u love!! 💕💗
Congrats on your signing. I wish you great success!
U r absolutely gorgeous!!! Wish I looked half as good as u ...u r very brave...wish u a beautiful life ahead
Thanks for sharing your story
i feel like i have serious issues cause. i dont have an ed. but when i was in 6th grade i starved myself and purged. after a bit i stopped and started binging instead, and then the cycle repeats. i also stopped purging cause i noticed it was dmging my curly hair.
That is an Ed look up the defi of it .that’s an abnormal eating pattern and relationship with food. Also depending on how you purged sounds like bulimia
Anorexic or Underweight? Here’s What She Told Me | Marcus Ward Show th-cam.com/video/KMt9LDhJWRc/w-d-xo.html
I’m sorry if it’s a personal question but did u lose your happiness when you had ur Ed cause I really feel like shit even when things that has nothing to do w food happens or is it just me
Hey no it’s not too personal! I was upset all the time and just a really angry person, and would start fights with my family for no reason.
Julianna Zalescik thanks for answering, needed to know that it’s not just me 😞
What. U have 260 Subscribers?? Girl I thought u have like 260k 😳💙
I can’t stop staring at your nails 😻😻😻
People call me fat
Well, it has a happy end :'))
you look like ariana grande & blair waldorf (leighton meester) mixed together 😍😍😍😍😍😍
Holy fuck...Raynaud's...I've noticed lately that I have that and I've been really wondering what it was. I just thought I had bad circulation and accepted it. At least now I know what's up.
YES went to so many doctors before they realized what was happening 😂
I didn’t know about Raynaud’s syndrome
i'm just curious if you blame "the patriarchy" or let's just say straight males in general for your eating disorder?
as in pressure to look a certain way in order to fit in with "the male gaze". whatever the hell that's supposed to mean.
Your "fact" about raynaud's is wildly wrong. Just so viewers don't take it as true
Exactly! I have had Raynaud's since I was a small child, not even underweight. And it isn't considered to be an autoimmune disorder, it is a vascular condition. It is stimulated by cold and also vibration (like from a lawn mower or motorcycle).
I started cause of EC lol
Raynauds isn’t always autoimmune. Yours probably wasn’t autoimmune
I have Reynards disease
U look like Eleven from stranger things 🙃
Hahaha I mean maybe?
Nah, she doesn’t. She looks more like Ariana Grande or Keira Knightley