"When the Fat Girl Gets Skinny" by Blythe Baird - Short Film (Mend a Mind)

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  • Short film based on the poem "When the Fat Girl Gets Skinny" by Blythe Baird - • WHEN THE FAT GIRL GETS...
    All rights go to Blythe Baird for the poetry used. This video is for awareness-raising only. This video is not for profit or material gain.
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  • @Milkymilf69
    @Milkymilf69 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6525

    I get called fat by my family but whenever I lose weight they worry. Like what tf do you want me to do💀

    • @gagzii16
      @gagzii16 5 ปีที่แล้ว +180

      Same I used to be so skinny but they kept worrying and bugging me about gaining weight... so I did I ate and I ate purposefully just so my family stop, I regret that so much now

    • @mohyor1013
      @mohyor1013 5 ปีที่แล้ว +45

      Ikr....it annoys me so much

    • @alikat_2078
      @alikat_2078 5 ปีที่แล้ว +61

      One time I didn’t eat as much bc I just wasn’t hungry. I wasn’t starving myself, I actually just wasn’t hungry! My parents got worried and forced me to eat. It was terrible. So now I just eat a lot so they think I’m not starving myself.

    • @Milkymilf69
      @Milkymilf69 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      Lia welp I starve on purpose🥴

    • @sp4rk772
      @sp4rk772 5 ปีที่แล้ว +27

      @@Milkymilf69 Don't pls My parents do the exact same thing then when I'm trying to get better they just say *Why are you so fat?* It rly hurts and now I hate myself even more if u want we could talk like on snap on something xx (If u got it x) 💙

  • @noku9485
    @noku9485 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6852

    "It didn't offend me until I found out it was suppose to"
    True...

    • @hiimaperson4436
      @hiimaperson4436 6 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Same.

    • @remiolasunkanmi2300
      @remiolasunkanmi2300 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Same

    • @boujeeteen9486
      @boujeeteen9486 5 ปีที่แล้ว +24

      That line was said when I read this comment, I’m scared.

    • @MrFatala
      @MrFatala 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Boujee Teen no joke it just happened to me jajajajajaj

    • @ash3536
      @ash3536 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@boujeeteen9486 me too

  • @alexghost8539
    @alexghost8539 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7587

    "I only feel pretty when I'm hungry " ...

  • @999cosmic
    @999cosmic 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1372

    "Not obsessed with being empty, but afraid of being full."
    I can relate:(

    • @inbalbenbenishty6801
      @inbalbenbenishty6801 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      How are you?

    • @s4nphob1c21
      @s4nphob1c21 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      same

    • @samridhisingh6594
      @samridhisingh6594 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Same 😔

    • @999cosmic
      @999cosmic 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@inbalbenbenishty6801 two years of hard work later and i still struggle with my mental health, but i am so much better :) close to tasting happiness finally🖤

  • @cabinnie
    @cabinnie 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4682

    “If you develop an eating disorder when you are thin to begin with, you go to the hospital.
    If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with, you are a success story.”

    • @phrodite3882
      @phrodite3882 5 ปีที่แล้ว +77

      Soo true. I was thin to begin with. But no-one realized i hav an ED coz its not well mnown in our country and i sort of lost weight slowly so everyone thought i was always this skinny.💛

    • @missmewmew
      @missmewmew 5 ปีที่แล้ว +68

      "If you develop an eating disorder when you are already thin to begin with, you go to the hospital. If you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with, you are a success story" *I felt that*

    • @moores3263
      @moores3263 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      0-0.................................................................wut

    • @AngelicasRecovery
      @AngelicasRecovery 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      This is just so true.

    • @caseypowell155
      @caseypowell155 5 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      So fucking true. And so fucking sad.

  • @Geol0uTTV
    @Geol0uTTV 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2196

    She didn’t even use slow motion she just walked slowly...

    • @dianaval6082
      @dianaval6082 5 ปีที่แล้ว +93

      No shit

    • @wewewewewewewewwewe
      @wewewewewewewewwewe 5 ปีที่แล้ว +16

      Valentina Amor
      Lmaooo

    • @jujuh2144
      @jujuh2144 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Grandestears omg I just noticed that😂

    • @abigailsharpe6336
      @abigailsharpe6336 4 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      She gone be kept after class for late arrival

    • @DuCKie.03.514
      @DuCKie.03.514 4 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Wait did u think that she wanted to seems like its slow motion

  • @nlnrbnsn3127
    @nlnrbnsn3127 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2568

    when she said “looking at an apple and seeing 60” the waterworks started for me....

    • @jasper5627
      @jasper5627 5 ปีที่แล้ว +163

      what really sucks is she said "looking at an apple and seeing 60" but i couldn't help but think how it was definitely closer 100...

    • @sydneywestbrook7448
      @sydneywestbrook7448 5 ปีที่แล้ว +36

      @@jasper5627 hell, most are 116-130

    • @Yaoisachan
      @Yaoisachan 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I don't understand, 60 what?

    • @shineinstars
      @shineinstars 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      ah, same

    • @elenav.5470
      @elenav.5470 5 ปีที่แล้ว +43

      Yeah, I only see calories in food. Not ever for the taste. I just...what does it mean to eat only because it would taste good? I'm so afraid that then, one cookie or one doughnut will turn into 20. Ugh, I just don't know...

  • @chlofficialxo2089
    @chlofficialxo2089 5 ปีที่แล้ว +716

    "Breakfast tastes like giving up" thats when i started crying

  • @sarcastictrash16
    @sarcastictrash16 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3322

    “I only feel pretty when I’m hungry”… so fukin true

    • @v6790
      @v6790 6 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      SarcasticTrash relatable

    • @lutot5594
      @lutot5594 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Hungry and LIGHT

    • @gracelyn8794
      @gracelyn8794 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      SarcasticTrash Which is why I'm hungry now (:

    • @allysonb210
      @allysonb210 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Pineapple... you a Psycho??

    • @itakels69p.p70
      @itakels69p.p70 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I never feel pretty

  • @Linda-pz5se
    @Linda-pz5se 5 ปีที่แล้ว +986

    "I can only feel pretty when i'm hungry" Omg....😭I feel the same

    • @monoj3399
      @monoj3399 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I dont understand this plz explain

    • @hannahholman1347
      @hannahholman1347 5 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      @@monoj3399 she feels prettier when she's hungry because she feels skinnier not having any food in her stomach

    • @monoj3399
      @monoj3399 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@hannahholman1347 :( ohh ...

    • @s4nphob1c21
      @s4nphob1c21 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      honestly sameee

  • @Cerise.69
    @Cerise.69 5 ปีที่แล้ว +303

    The sad truth is that so many people tell you „love yourself,you are beautiful“ but then again they don’t think that about themselves...

    • @elizuhh
      @elizuhh 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Me in nutshell👏🏽😪

    • @Kraglin09
      @Kraglin09 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Dang I felt that...

    • @Elchan555
      @Elchan555 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Ughhh I felt that

    • @s4nphob1c21
      @s4nphob1c21 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      me to all my friends except myself lol

    • @oreofisk
      @oreofisk 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      True.

  • @maria-og7kn
    @maria-og7kn 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5724

    oKAY but her jeans are so cute

    • @juliahernandez1321
      @juliahernandez1321 6 ปีที่แล้ว +241

      LMAOAOOA I WAS LOOKING AT HER JEANS THE ENTIRE VIDEO

    • @anishkavsingh
      @anishkavsingh 5 ปีที่แล้ว +14

      What's the anime at your profile ?

    • @kazkilos
      @kazkilos 5 ปีที่แล้ว +13

      😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😭😭

    • @annawuhrer8649
      @annawuhrer8649 5 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      Haha I think I have the same pair of jeans. Got those from h&m

    • @hannahb6452
      @hannahb6452 5 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      maria I HAVE THE EXACT ONES THERE AMERICAN EAGLE AND THEY STILL SELL THEM

  • @pelinozge3639
    @pelinozge3639 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2690

    I like her voice, you can hear everything she feels in her voice

    • @kareemxo3
      @kareemxo3 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Fr

    • @semanurkarabacak6068
      @semanurkarabacak6068 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      If one can say what his/her true feeling, it always sounds impressive and captivating.

    • @corsellatuzen4919
      @corsellatuzen4919 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @ Semanur Karabacak
      Totally. And then it fades with time, because you get over the feelings.
      The intent of slam poetry is to capture the moment in its flourish the way no writing can, and project it out to so many lucky listeners.
      Listeners that can whitness the essence of life itself in your voice.
      While it is, while it breaths, before we grow old.
      I love her voice too. @Blue mold's calico cat

    • @orlaighfrancessca3040
      @orlaighfrancessca3040 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You should try our most recent short film on anxiety! th-cam.com/video/Ml244yX7-AA/w-d-xo.html

    • @myleechai21603
      @myleechai21603 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Blue Mold's Calico Cat IKR.

  • @jemimastone8645
    @jemimastone8645 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3077

    This is how slow the group of 8 girls walk in front of me when I’m running late to class

    • @nonenone5780
      @nonenone5780 6 ปีที่แล้ว +173

      Jemima Stone omg LITERALLY I swear I hate those people in the hallways omg and if they legit just stop to talk like WALK NORMALLY PLEASE

    • @katiepatton4519
      @katiepatton4519 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Jemima Stone lol

    • @tilariobest3088
      @tilariobest3088 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Lol

    • @w0w729
      @w0w729 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Jemima Stone XDDDD

    • @taylorsmith9488
      @taylorsmith9488 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Ikr some people act as though they don't have no place to be when I have to get to class that's on the far other side of the school

  • @giovannadominguez4487
    @giovannadominguez4487 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1151

    Imagine waiting and watching her walk that slow in real life. I wonder how awkward it was if they were silent he whole time she was walking.

    • @hanphilnoffz8827
      @hanphilnoffz8827 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      for being pretty fast and 3 sport with kinda strong leg im that slow sometimes I jog and 5 mph is normal for me for walking I just don't care play music

    • @bat5092
      @bat5092 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I'm pretty sure they slowed it down.

    • @jeannybe3043
      @jeannybe3043 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      I would laugh my as off

    • @nehakiran525
      @nehakiran525 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      bro......

    • @Maria-kp4ws
      @Maria-kp4ws 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      A R M Y 😂👌🏽

  • @natalieschmidt2115
    @natalieschmidt2115 6 ปีที่แล้ว +510

    I thought it was cool that the people in the hallway were showing the story the girl was telling as she walked. This is incredible. Truly wonderful.

  • @adriaunaa5745
    @adriaunaa5745 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2371

    Your gonna be late for class

    • @webgr0und
      @webgr0und 5 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Adriauna Mk explain why almost everyone have that profile pick like tf is this

    • @randomvegetarian
      @randomvegetarian 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      lmao

    • @butter7170
      @butter7170 5 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Chris Hanson you're

    • @keirafay4969
      @keirafay4969 4 ปีที่แล้ว +17

      Adriauna DNM you’re* I’m so sorry I had to

    • @Sondosskassem
      @Sondosskassem 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      @@webgr0und are you army?

  • @charlottemund684
    @charlottemund684 6 ปีที่แล้ว +797

    "The calculator in my head finally stopped."
    Amen. Best way to describe recovery

    • @EveLyn-qq4sz
      @EveLyn-qq4sz 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      I wish the calculator in my head would stop...

    • @Z3MBlE
      @Z3MBlE 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Eve Lyn honestly same

    • @gemmas9318
      @gemmas9318 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      OMG I READ THIS AS SOON AS SHE SAID IT

    • @jenny_melena7672
      @jenny_melena7672 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      +Frisk SAMME

    • @caitlin4128
      @caitlin4128 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      CharLotte Mund
      Agreed!!

  • @emilydavid816
    @emilydavid816 5 ปีที่แล้ว +122

    “If you develop an eating disorder when you are already thin, you go to the hospital, when you develop an eating disorder when you where fat, you are a success story.” This statement is so true on so many levels with society.

    • @estherkim4614
      @estherkim4614 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Does anyone else know this from tik tok

  • @Sofia-ik3sl
    @Sofia-ik3sl 6 ปีที่แล้ว +218

    I used to be very overweight, and when I starved the weight off me, suddenly people liked me. My family was proud, my grandparents said I was finally pretty, and my friend's mom stopped verbally attacking me and I became someone everybody found more beautiful than I was before. Girls online went from calling me a fake anorexic to inspirational. It stole 3 years of my life and countless friends. What's even worse is me recovering made me lose even more people. I still feel like a monster and I still feel like I'm scary, but I'm still so much more free on my worst day than I ever was during those 3 years. Usually I'm a stone cold bitch but this video was emotional. Thank you for this video.

    • @samrustech
      @samrustech 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      seraphic poison
      U r not a monster, just know that for ever person that does not like you for who u really r. There are 2 more people who do love you. 💗❤️🧡💛💚💙💞💓💖💘

  • @justCinthy05
    @justCinthy05 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1944

    Omg "when I was little someone ask me what I wanna be when I grow up and I said SMALL" That is so deep😭

    • @jessa95
      @jessa95 6 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      Sintija Ferk When I was a kid I said "Happy"

    • @majal.2040
      @majal.2040 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      omg you're like sooooo prettyyyy

    • @camrynhendrixs
      @camrynhendrixs 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Sintija Ferk when I scrolled to your comment that line literally said it at the same time I was reading your comment.

    • @justanuna1697
      @justanuna1697 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Sintija Ferk my brother said "rich"

    • @annazarnoch2875
      @annazarnoch2875 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      I said exactly the same when I was younger and it reminds me of it

  • @vincyvampy1374
    @vincyvampy1374 6 ปีที่แล้ว +487

    Two things
    One:BEST MANNEQUIN CHALLENGE EVER
    Two: this is so inspiring I almost cried in my school cafeteria

  • @margaretwirth2930
    @margaretwirth2930 5 ปีที่แล้ว +531

    Was I the only person who felt uncomfortable that she wasn't swinging her arms while walking?

    • @Grimlockke
      @Grimlockke 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      Nah

    • @BigCobra191
      @BigCobra191 4 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      she was walking slow and that is why her arms are not swinging. Imagine seeing a person walking slowly and swinging their arms

    • @sngnrm
      @sngnrm 4 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      I almost never swing my arms while walking. :0

    • @ademiller8952
      @ademiller8952 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      @@BigCobra191 them damn tiktokers

    • @leskyshashy5629
      @leskyshashy5629 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@ademiller8952 lmao

  • @jessiecorn17
    @jessiecorn17 6 ปีที่แล้ว +583

    This really makes me think.
    I've lost 12 pounds in the last few weeks because I've developed a habit of staying so busy I forget about eating.
    Edit: Wow this is two years later. I lived in South Korea for a few years and I lost 15 kg while I was there because of my not eating habit and I developed a vitamin b and d deficiency and lost a lot of hair. Atleast take vitamins if you have problems eating like me!

    • @dutchik5107
      @dutchik5107 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Same. But not that drastic for me i guess.
      Also the hot weather recently just makes me lose hunger and unless im doing something i dont get that thirsty. Or sweat.
      But like it is a common thing for me to forget about eating. Then later i usually just go a bit overboard with finding and eating food (like easily half a watermelon. As a snack...)
      It is part of mine and very common with autism.
      One kf the reasons autistic girls regularly get misdiagnosed with say anorexia..

    • @honeeyystudies1306
      @honeeyystudies1306 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Please take care of yourself!❤️

    • @annabellelen3121
      @annabellelen3121 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Jess Jess hope I could make it... :(

    • @user-gg8tl5yt7d
      @user-gg8tl5yt7d 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      forgetting to eat is not an eating disorder.

    • @boa9557
      @boa9557 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      eat while ur working

  • @kindcutediamond
    @kindcutediamond 6 ปีที่แล้ว +698

    i say I'm sick, they say no, I'm an inspiration 👏👏

  • @maizielaughton3151
    @maizielaughton3151 6 ปีที่แล้ว +178

    ‘I only feel pretty when I’m hungry’ ‘not obsessed with being empty but afraid of being full’

  • @paiger8725
    @paiger8725 6 ปีที่แล้ว +65

    “I only feel pretty when I’m hungry”
    Damn....

  • @sanderp9768
    @sanderp9768 6 ปีที่แล้ว +498

    I don't want help.
    I was fat, now I weigh 45kg
    I still don't think I'm pretty enough...
    I eat for my mom, when she makes me, and I feel like dying on the inside each time.
    I was called fat and ugly so many times and I'm really sick of it. What angers me even more is the fact that the girls who are as fat as I was are called beautiful and feel so confident in their body without anyone telling them a single bad word, when I myself do not and am afraid of even wearing the clothes I like just out of the fear what others will say, having to constantly listen to how I'm this and that. I'm sick of the people who bullied me; in literally a year they came from calling me fat to skinny and flat. I've become obsessed with perfection, and I don't wanna go back again..

    • @dutchik5107
      @dutchik5107 6 ปีที่แล้ว +32

      Burried Alive but you arent perfect now.
      You will never be.
      All you can be is healthy. That's what most beautiful.
      Most people dont actually think those obese chicks are beautiful. People who say they are not get silenced. For hate speech. They only say it themselves. They should lose weight. But in a healthy way.
      You don't want to be 45kg. It is too low. Assuming you are not. I dont know what length you are.
      You dont have to go back to fat or hating yourself losing weight. You are still in the same place.
      You need to get to a place where you are mentally healthy. Physically healthy.
      We are biological systems. Those systems need fuell. Good fuell. Life tastes great. Healthy foods do, but yes. They contain some sugar. Some fiber. Some fat, vitams and minerals, protein. Fruit tastes great! So does fast food, but the aftertaste of that does not.
      I hope you are getting better.

    • @x.astar.x
      @x.astar.x 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      That's my goal!!45kg

    • @cecelia1783
      @cecelia1783 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      lonely blue ghost 🤦‍♀️ did you even read the comment?

    • @Ssookawai
      @Ssookawai 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      @@sophiaribas8585 you must be a midget because 45 is not only skinny but as girl whose height is 165 cm, I wouldn't even accept money, shitload of it to be 45, the world can fall in ruin but I'll never go anywhere near that number.

    • @Ssookawai
      @Ssookawai 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Your problem is that you lack confidence... Your weight won't matter the day you'll be flaunting it, pampering it and wearing the right stuff that make you feel happy.
      Start now with some exercise, go to the gym, I see that now it's time to tone yourself and get this beautiful muscles... Don't forget to chexh out your food intake and talk bout it in fora online or with a coach, even youtubeurs give good advice about the right stuff to eat while staying fit and slim.
      Next time you buy clothes, don't EVER settle with anything that would be "nice"... Spend days is needed going each time to a few stores /websites per day but if you don't feel like an impress or like you're about to go to the moon because you're happy, then don't buy it (unless it's some regular t-shirts to wear beneath sweaters or wool tops... Even these tshirts should spark with joy when you wear them, even if they're simple.
      Go back to your life, note down small incidents that might have caused this situation and figure it out, if your parents were part of it, or siblings, family, friends, etc, talk to them about and demand an explanation and even n apology would be welcome if you explain why you're talking about some old shit.
      Love yourself and do not abandon yourself because you're the only and the most important person in your life! 😘😘😘😘

  • @MaddysComicart
    @MaddysComicart 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5210

    at my lowest I was only eating an apple a day exercising as much as possible, I was still not skinny, but everyone I knew was congratulating me on losing a bit of weight.
    then a guy at school called me fat and that's where I gave up.
    All this hunger for what? still being fat? I was trying so hard not to be fat but I just was.
    I still am.
    I looked at old pictures of myself from baby to now, and I realized that I had always been chubby, just like my siblings, I'm not sure I am able to be skinny, I wish I were because I like the thought that I would feel better then but I know that's not true...
    I was never skinny, but I still had an eating disorder.
    When you're the fat girl with an eating disorder, people still call you fat.
    EDIT: Thank you for all your nice messages, this was years ago and I no longer suffer from it, I stopped stepping on scales and have now adopted a plant based lifestyle, it helps me with my anxiety of food and I can control what I eat in a different way, instead of looking at how many calories something has I look at what's inside.
    This helped me a lot!
    I am actually healthy, I'm not obese and I am slowly loosing the weight, which is good!
    I may be chubby, but that doesn't make me any less of a human, and I know that, thank you everyone for being amazing and sharing your stories, I wish you all the best

    • @itzelsanchez1517
      @itzelsanchez1517 6 ปีที่แล้ว +29

      Maddy's Comic art It's alright , I can be just like that too , but we're all still the same human beings , who will try hard to do better in our lives in a GOOD way , not in a DYING way.. It's just that PEOPLE don't RELIZE the hard work WE put into it..

    • @MaddysComicart
      @MaddysComicart 6 ปีที่แล้ว +63

      Luna LoveGood i mean, someone can be pretty chubby, maybe they already lost 50pounds.. how would you know? Insulting them is just dumb I don't get it.
      Even if someones super fat, why does it concern a stranger?
      And why is "being concerned for their health" translated with insults?
      As if thats whats gonna make them loose weight

    • @tayuyyauchiha
      @tayuyyauchiha 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      Maddy's Comic art this is heart breakengly true

    • @theooliver9935
      @theooliver9935 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      you are weak, then.

    • @sierra3292
      @sierra3292 6 ปีที่แล้ว +35

      Ale Palazuelos that’s just cruel what u said

  • @AztaTheGreat
    @AztaTheGreat 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5892

    i believe a girl i knew did a monolouge that was this or something simular. i believe it was this one

    • @risingstars3478
      @risingstars3478 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      A crybaby thats also a demon wow

    • @Daisy-kg4ho
      @Daisy-kg4ho 6 ปีที่แล้ว +177

      It's a different video with the same dialogue I've seen it.

    • @AztaTheGreat
      @AztaTheGreat 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

      Rising Stars my reason for think it wasnt this as it was cut down to fit a few minute time frame. so some stuff said wasnt added

    • @theonlydodecahedron3138
      @theonlydodecahedron3138 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Idk if it's the girl your talking about but someone was credited in the description.

    • @Withak81
      @Withak81 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Yeah its a different take on th-cam.com/video/XXFaaWmaltE/w-d-xo.html

  • @jonavelazquez9623
    @jonavelazquez9623 6 ปีที่แล้ว +573

    She sounds like Merida from brave

    • @Los_HermanitosCruz
      @Los_HermanitosCruz 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Yes

    • @vmcghee76
      @vmcghee76 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      She's Irish not Scottish

    • @alex41201
      @alex41201 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      That's not even the same accent though

    • @felix-hm9jn
      @felix-hm9jn 5 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@vmcghee76 yes thank you

    • @siobhanmckeown2045
      @siobhanmckeown2045 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      She Irish not Scottish :)

  • @theora8809
    @theora8809 6 ปีที่แล้ว +711

    i really dont appreciate the fact theres no guys depicted in this, boys are self conscious too, they have anorexia too, and this is coming from a girl, but this is so accurate and beautifully made

    • @honeeyystudies1306
      @honeeyystudies1306 6 ปีที่แล้ว +53

      KrioThea a lot of guys can be too shy to represent this sort of thing but I agree there does need to be a lot more diversity

    • @kellyrodgers5203
      @kellyrodgers5203 5 ปีที่แล้ว +97

      i think its bc the girl in it was just specifically sharing how it resonates with her. but yes boys do need more representation

    • @wewewewewewewewwewe
      @wewewewewewewewwewe 5 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Hey it’s not that deep

    • @allyceleste9670
      @allyceleste9670 5 ปีที่แล้ว +34

      Maybe a guy could write his own poem and star in his own film🤷🏾‍♀️

    • @diamondevans321
      @diamondevans321 4 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Shoutout to you for believing in gender eqaulity

  • @hannahmcmahon8246
    @hannahmcmahon8246 6 ปีที่แล้ว +419

    “The calculator in my head finally stopped “ it’s like reality , u put everything into the correct words so thank u for helping everyone watching this!

  • @minx_6297
    @minx_6297 6 ปีที่แล้ว +89

    *I...I have no words...this..is absolutely beautiful..*

  • @natalierondon8503
    @natalierondon8503 5 ปีที่แล้ว +417

    My brother has adhd and add and his pills make him lose his appetite and he was getting skinnier and skinnier. So when I was around 12 I started taking his pills. I would take 1 every week, scared that someone would notice the pills were missing. After about a month no results were showing so one day when I got home from school I took the package that held my brothers new pills off the kitchen table and hid it in my room. For hours that day my mom went searching for them but finally gave up and talked to his doctor to try and get a new bottle. After that I started taking 1 every 3 days and I sill wasn’t seeing a difference. So I started taking 1 every other day. And still no results. So when I had 9 pills left, I took one every day. On day 2 my lips turned white and I threw up all day. Luckily it was a Saturday and my mom was at work all day. In the middle of the night I woke up and decided to weigh myself. I had lost 6 pounds by throwing up all day. I was excited yet terrified what would happen. So I didn’t take one for 2 days. And then again for the next 2 days I took the pills. I didn’t throw up as much but I lost 4 and a half pounds. I was getting happier and continued that schedule until there were 3 pills left. So I took them 3 days in a row. On the day I took the last pill I fainted in gym class I was taken to the nurse and the called my mom. My mom found out and I got help. I’m now 17 and just want to say please please don’t do anything like this or starve yourself. If you want to lose wait talk to your parents and when they go grocery shopping go with them and buy healthy foods. And convince you parents to take you running every other day. Just please be careful and healthy.

    • @neverever3922
      @neverever3922 5 ปีที่แล้ว +7

      Natalie Rondon I’m so happy you’re doing better

    • @BubbleBunnyy
      @BubbleBunnyy 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      If you’re throwing up from medication please don’t take them they can kill you. Your body is having a bad reaction to the medication.
      I’m glad you’re better now though 💕

    • @turtle0621
      @turtle0621 5 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      I have ADHD and its true those pills can make you lose your appetite😕 for they entire day and drinking water will fill you up...i take them everyday just to focus in school bc well sometimes if i don't take it...im well😬 distracted and not even focusing on the lesson...

    • @maryhester5086
      @maryhester5086 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      BTS IN YOUR AREA !!! and so are you for calling a person who struggled with a eating disorder stupid..

    • @nanaa428
      @nanaa428 4 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      I have adhd and I recently started taking those pills. What you did was extremely dangerous as they can have really really dangerous side effects. The pills prescribed by your doctor are catered to the patient’s needs, each person needs something different. I’m happy you got help, congrats and I wish you a safe recovery.

  • @brooke9082
    @brooke9082 6 ปีที่แล้ว +164

    This video really hits home for me. I was always a normal sized kid. When i got into middle school the bullying started. People telling me that i am too fat to wear this or that. My "friends" telling me that i should skip lunch and go to the gym. Things started getting worse when people pushed me down, laughed, pointed, and screamed things at me. Even writting things on my locker. I started skipping meals and school. My parents couldnt stop fighting long enough to notice the change. My big brother calling me fat, ugly, and stupid. He said he was ashamed to be related to me. I started self-harming and attempted suicide many times. When i was 13 i was 75 lbs and still being called fat. I almost died. To this day i am still struggling with my disorder. School is still terrible, home is even worse, but i try every day to push through it telling myself that its only 2 more years till i can leave this life behind. Start a new life far away. Ive tried to be "perfect" all my life but i cabt achieve that. Im never going to be good enough for this family, always going to be too fat, too ugly, too weird, too fucked up, and even too me.

    • @vianeymorales2705
      @vianeymorales2705 6 ปีที่แล้ว +19

      Little Wolfy You are beautiful, and you don't have to like to your family, "friends" or others.
      You HAVE to like you

    • @shwetarehal022
      @shwetarehal022 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      Little Wolfy you've been fighting so long. No don't give up ever. They're gonna see how beautiful you are inside sooner or later. N trust me that doesn't matter. Keep Love yourself. May God be with you. Proud of you girl :*

    • @shirinakter2643
      @shirinakter2643 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

      **hugs** you are beautiful.LOVE.YOURSELF

    • @double-edgedallusionart6384
      @double-edgedallusionart6384 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      One quote that I have found to be true no matter what: "It will be okay in the end. If its not okay, its not the end." ~John Lennon. And no matter what I go through, cutting, body image issues, loneliness, it will always end at some point. Just keep moving forward and try to take it a day at a time. I believe in you. Stay strong. 💜

    • @TNT-jx2th
      @TNT-jx2th 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      No darkness, no season lasts forever. Just like there is an end to happiness there is also an end to misery and suffering. Don't forget that people change with time and what was once considered weird or fucked up may be precious and invaluable in the future. Love yourself. Even I, find it difficult sometimes, but I have made a promise to myself that I will start loving myself a bit more with each passing day.

  • @Lucia-ct2sj
    @Lucia-ct2sj 6 ปีที่แล้ว +659

    This video should be showed in schools. I love it, it describes very well an experience of someone with anorexia

    • @BlubbryVM
      @BlubbryVM 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      No, BC schools are to scared to bring reality to kids

  • @zuzannabojan490
    @zuzannabojan490 6 ปีที่แล้ว +828

    My friend was always called fat and I told her she's not. She cried everyday. I cried because I tried helping and made it worse. They started bullying me too. They called us fat. Ugly. Disgusting. Monsters. I always told her she's not alone. Me and her never had the chance to tell anyone about it. Our bully told us 3months after that she was getting bullied. She was called fat. And now was the time we thought about forgiving her. Me and my friend worked out. We started ourselves BC of her. We could have died. We wanted to die. But we forgave her. We still hate what she did. But the second we forgave her she smiled. Huged us. Cried. And said "I wanted to die and I thought if I bully someone they will feel my pain. " We all are the best of friends now. Me and my friend at the time of us starving ourselves we were already skinny and ended up being underweight. I hate my self for listening to the hate. Now I'm happy. Smiling. And our bully is now our bestie. Everyone deserves a second chance. ❤️♡

    • @lizabeth_e
      @lizabeth_e 6 ปีที่แล้ว +28

      You guys are so amazing human beings :) The fact that you guys are friends now really makes me happy even tho i dont even know you!

    • @zuzannabojan490
      @zuzannabojan490 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Emma S ❤️

    • @moonlightwolf2421
      @moonlightwolf2421 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      I get called fat all the time and it's mean to call someone fat but I just try to ignore them even though some times I can't cuss they say it all most every day.😐

    • @moonlightwolf2421
      @moonlightwolf2421 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      I loved your story I loved it when you became freind with the bully

    • @am-sz2fo
      @am-sz2fo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      woah...

  • @natviv2703
    @natviv2703 4 ปีที่แล้ว +33

    “Googling the calories in the glue of an envelope” .....

  • @nd2797
    @nd2797 6 ปีที่แล้ว +50

    It's so easy to love ourselves when we are naturally slim or pretty. The struggle is when you've been born shorter, thicker or less beautiful than the others. It takes more than saying I need to love myself, cause society keeps reinforcing the fact that no you're not beautiful. You dont fit the standards, boys don't ask you out or flirt with you, people don't compliment your looks, they talk about how smart or sweet you are. Your crush always ends up crushing on your beautiful bff, Clothes don't fit you like the others, your legs don't look good in shorts, your acne.. they don't go away. Love yourself. No I can't. I couldn't. I've grown up, the acne disappeared, I got the braces off, I wear light makeup, got a haircut, found the clothes that suit my silhouette (I realised i have a beautiful figure with the bodycon dresses) and heels made me taller. I get complimented and people flirt with me. I love myself. But only because I feel attractive. Do what you can to change yourself, but never compromise on health :)

  • @winstonchaychel
    @winstonchaychel 6 ปีที่แล้ว +956

    Holy freaking crap... This is some deep stuff.
    I just have to add it's sad in some parts of the world that if you're "big" with an eating disorder they won't help you because you're not almost dead yet.

    • @annaieg7173
      @annaieg7173 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      MrsG87 she didn’t write it.

    • @winstonchaychel
      @winstonchaychel 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      Annaie G still, it's the same. Nobody helps those unless they're almost dead. There's a documentary on TH-cam here that shows the epidemic in the UK of anorexic diabetics.

    • @winstonchaychel
      @winstonchaychel 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Annaie G there's also a book by Wally Lamb called "She's Come Undone", I highly recommend it.

    • @kierstynjohnson7794
      @kierstynjohnson7794 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      The sick part is that the big people with eds are almost dead.

    • @fruitzombie1009
      @fruitzombie1009 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      MrsG87 I clinically overweight by the time I was 14, so I started Restricting and purging. By the time I was 16 I went from 214 to 170. Still in my head looked fat. I got to 109 pounds and couldn't stop. No one tried to help me because I was fat, I was just doing what society expected. It's so important to realize that being heavy doesn't mean your not sick.

  • @Kenzie2004
    @Kenzie2004 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1342

    this girl should be a actor

    • @nonenone5780
      @nonenone5780 6 ปีที่แล้ว +33

      Chill It's Only Chaos ACTOR it’s actress 😂

    • @l_days127
      @l_days127 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Chill It's Only Chaos she wouldn’t really be a good one. It would take time to be one

    • @parkjms5004
      @parkjms5004 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      None None AHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAH i cant breathe thats so funny.

    • @nonenone5780
      @nonenone5780 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      parkjms hm okay

    • @babymonster-nn6um
      @babymonster-nn6um 6 ปีที่แล้ว +8

      It is literally the same fuckin thing, you don't have to correct her

  • @sofiaandersen4426
    @sofiaandersen4426 5 ปีที่แล้ว +20

    ok but can we talk about the people on the hallway managing to stand that still

  • @elle3615
    @elle3615 5 ปีที่แล้ว +34

    Just a question..
    Can you remember who you where, before someone told you who you are supposed to be?
    For me, that was 7 years ago.
    Too bad i cant change now.
    I was outgoing, and confident.
    Now, im depressed, and lonley.

    • @neoncolored6307
      @neoncolored6307 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Since one year has passed, are you doing better?

    • @danacheong9966
      @danacheong9966 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      We are told stories at a young age that we tend to believe as our minds aren't fully formed yet. This does not make their opinions truth. Change is one of the only certainties we have in this world. I wish you the best.

  • @WitteArtistry
    @WitteArtistry 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1866

    This is so powerful. WOW

    • @auracamacho1804
      @auracamacho1804 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Steffany Inoa shush

    • @steffanyinoa7223
      @steffanyinoa7223 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Aura Camacho omg that was not me my niece had my laptop and started adding comments everywhere 🤦🏻‍♀️

    • @lilscreamo7226
      @lilscreamo7226 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Steffany Inoa people always say that

    • @jazminenelson2744
      @jazminenelson2744 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Witte Artistry it was stolen

  • @funmitalabi9607
    @funmitalabi9607 6 ปีที่แล้ว +183

    I came thinking it was a joke, but now I'm leaving knowing this is the world we live in.
    Thank you for this video.

  • @no.7078
    @no.7078 6 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    "no you're an inspiration" why do i feel like no one will ever say this to me

    • @zachtimbol5276
      @zachtimbol5276 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      Its may be to late but however you are i know that you inspire people be you and do your best

  • @misskitty6700
    @misskitty6700 6 ปีที่แล้ว +15

    When it ended and the screen went black I saw my reflection and couldn’t help but cry 😭

  • @drorrakavy9550
    @drorrakavy9550 6 ปีที่แล้ว +347

    She just literally told my story
    Word to word. Thank you

  • @riankaden4118
    @riankaden4118 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4227

    This is so inspiring... seriously, you did a great job with creating this video. Lately I've been wondering if I developed an eating disorder without even knowing it. I'm losing weight unintentionally because my appetite has changed so much the last year. I can't get too much food in my stomach without feeling sick. Sometimes I only eat dinner because I just don't feel like eating. I exercise but not with the intentions to lose even more weight. I'm underweight and I'm struggling to gain weight. I don't like looking like someone who is anorexic; I want to be healthy but I don't know how to. I'm not obsessed with calories nor losing weight.

    • @dianafox3513
      @dianafox3513 6 ปีที่แล้ว +66

      Rian Kaden you should see a doctor who will give you instructions and advice i suffer from the same thing when I am stressed i lose some weight unintentionally and gain it back when the stress is gone

    • @lalaheaven
      @lalaheaven 6 ปีที่แล้ว +59

      Or you could be physically sick. There are a lot of sicknesses that changes your apetite, if you are losing weight without reason then you should go make an appointment at the doctors.

    • @liljodi02
      @liljodi02 6 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Rian Kaden i only eat dinner too

    • @rominag8423
      @rominag8423 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      +lalaheaven häq

    • @alinabishop8561
      @alinabishop8561 6 ปีที่แล้ว +22

      Rian Kaden , you no why? Because your killing your metabolism , when you skip even just one meal your body gets so hungry it tells you not to eat anything, it's one thing to skip eating lunch early and eating it later on but to entirely skip a meal is eating away your body , you might think hey I'm not eating so I must be losing weight right ? Nope! Your losing muscle and gaining fat , take it from a girl who knows that sick feeling , I was so skinny and beautiful until I started skipping meals than I started gaining weight and losing muscle , I'm all recovered now ( thanks to my mom who went through the same thing except now she's stuck inside an over weight body ) and all it took was for her to skip a few meals , than a few meals turned into skipping an entire day of eating and just filling up on water , than to the point her nice lean skinny strong muscular body was gone, so make the change and force every bite , I had too you can too, even if you throw up you'll eventually help fix yur motablislme making it alot easier to eat within a week of fully finishing meals you'll be fixing your body , trust me😁

  • @keelyfallis5927
    @keelyfallis5927 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    “ When you develop an Eating disorder when you are thin to began with you go to the hospital, when you develop an eating disorder when you are not thin to began with you are a success story. “
    That hit me so hard.

  • @datt_white_girl9800
    @datt_white_girl9800 6 ปีที่แล้ว +66

    But how am I supposed to feel Pretty when every time I step out of my room I’m getting told louse wait or your ugly I’m just so tired of it 😪😰 I just want to be normal

    • @dutchik5107
      @dutchik5107 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Datt_cringy ___girl dont give a fuck about what people think. See a therapist. People dont actually care that much. Get healthy! Yes eat an apple! But do it as a snack. Not a whole meal. Eat! Eat healthy! Yes work out, but not extreme especially not while really hungry. Get those endorphins.
      Find clothes you like and flatter your body!
      Don't focus on losing weight. Just having a healthy lifestyle. Yes it will be slower than losing weight with anorexia. But also a lot easier and more fun! But if you are a healthy weight. You will not lose. If you are underweight you will gain
      Anf with the working out. If you are getting stronger and your weight is slowly increasing, staying the same or not losing fast enough. Look at your measurements. Muscle is denser than fat.

    • @pelorosaculogordo2890
      @pelorosaculogordo2890 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      You can get healthy without getting into extremes ❤ I know it can be really difficult and it can take some time but i know that you will reach your goals with good habits and always loving yourself 💕

  • @s.jtrying9616
    @s.jtrying9616 6 ปีที่แล้ว +162

    As a recovering anorexic this video truly struck home. Ive been healthy now for about 3 years. I still fight these urges.

    • @sophietaekwondo8136
      @sophietaekwondo8136 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      S.J Trying well done for recovering you can do this

    • @shalinirb6417
      @shalinirb6417 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      S.J Trying very proud of you💋💋💋💋💋

  • @estherrerri4900
    @estherrerri4900 6 ปีที่แล้ว +573

    First 5 seconds and I'm in love with the accent

  • @sarazt6224
    @sarazt6224 5 ปีที่แล้ว +5

    "replacing eating with other hobbies, like making flower crowns. or fainting." wow. best 5 mins of my life.

  • @milkxhoney1705
    @milkxhoney1705 4 ปีที่แล้ว +8

    “When Anorexia is the most interesting thing about me.” that hit different 😪

  • @gogi__
    @gogi__ 6 ปีที่แล้ว +149

    Wow so deep I'm going to show this to my teacher and see if she can show this to our school. Wow I feel like crying

    • @BlubbryVM
      @BlubbryVM 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

      your comment matches your profile pic perfectly

    • @MendaMindLargyYSI
      @MendaMindLargyYSI  5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      Thank you for helping spread awareness ❤️

  • @mxndlesspunk7304
    @mxndlesspunk7304 6 ปีที่แล้ว +78

    I remembered I got bullied for being chubby in middle school so I starved myself through highschool till I passed out in class and the teacher thought I was sleeping..... I wish people arent so cruel to shy people like me I take everything seriously too much some times when I shouldnt

    • @mmaantj
      @mmaantj 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Chim Chim nono dont starve yourself it wasnt good for Jimin so it isnt good for you

    • @nochucomethru467
      @nochucomethru467 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Nooo don't starve yourself for those jerks who bullied you. You are you. Don't ever change yourself for them. Who are they to change you? Please, love yourself ❤

    • @cj222100
      @cj222100 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      Chim Chim middle school is literally the worst.

  • @deltave3132
    @deltave3132 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    when i was little, someone asked me what i wanted to be when i grow up.
    and i said
    “small”
    that cut deep

  • @guckiie9765
    @guckiie9765 6 ปีที่แล้ว +11

    I have no words for how much this inspires me. This brought me too tears. Thank you so much. ♥️♥️♥️

  • @zeynepagirman2544
    @zeynepagirman2544 6 ปีที่แล้ว +672

    Who noticed the girl in the right moving her eyes and smilins at 1:43
    Edit,
    *sees lots of likes.
    Me: wow, people saw it too*

  • @lyndseywebb2477
    @lyndseywebb2477 6 ปีที่แล้ว +569

    This is such a beautiful video, I'm speechless and tearing up. Thank you.

  • @mprskrs
    @mprskrs 6 ปีที่แล้ว +45

    That accents

  • @jessicasart2596
    @jessicasart2596 6 ปีที่แล้ว +18

    If someone wants me to lose weight I'll be like
    '''Yo boi/gurl if I want to be fat, let me be fat. If I want to be skinny, let me be skinny. This is my BODY. I can do whatever I want. You don't own me'''.

  • @thelittleunicorn6196
    @thelittleunicorn6196 6 ปีที่แล้ว +202

    This is so moving, and powerful. Call a helpline if you have this disorder, and remember you are beautiful, no matter what society says or what the scale reads. You are amazing!

  • @zullycortez5716
    @zullycortez5716 6 ปีที่แล้ว +305

    For anyone out there who dosent think they’re good enough just know that YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL YOU MATTER trust god always 💛

    • @js7113
      @js7113 6 ปีที่แล้ว +4

      zully cortez eh

    • @ilhaanmohomed9317
      @ilhaanmohomed9317 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      zully cortez
      Honestly I relate to those people ur referring to. And I am shedding tears when I read your comment because I really don’t think I matter. There are millions of people who could take my place and the people who “love and care” for me would just move on. I didn’t care what people think. But why do people like me feel like disappearing? Why do they feel like their suffocating under ones arms just to embrace them? Why do they feel like whenever they lay down their falling in an empty pit. Sometimes all I feel is heavy.
      But even though I still feel this way I want people to know is to keep living.
      I know this is irrelevant but I want to say this anyway.

    • @iamnotlayla
      @iamnotlayla 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      you know, I'm getting tired of hearing this. people have said this all my life. I know I'm ugly. I know I'm not pretty. and I know I don't matter. but thanks for trying to make things better

  • @maddiecrozat1982
    @maddiecrozat1982 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    Thank you so much for making this!

  • @holliwood3226
    @holliwood3226 6 ปีที่แล้ว +94

    Really, really well done.

  • @JoyaLewisTheMusician
    @JoyaLewisTheMusician 6 ปีที่แล้ว +22

    If you have an eating disorder when you're thin to begin with, you go to the hospital.
    If you have an eating disorder when you are not thin to begin with,
    you're a *success story*
    Wow

    • @artsysundae
      @artsysundae 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      I’ve seen people talk about being pressured to lose weight because of their peers and then having anorexia. (Which should be recognized) but how about the skinny people who have a hard time gaining weight???

  • @samadon3077
    @samadon3077 6 ปีที่แล้ว +303

    This really hit

  • @garlik999
    @garlik999 5 ปีที่แล้ว +106

    OOf I eat around 460 calories a day and I burn it off every single day , I exercise twice and am fine , (?)
    Edit-well, I have been eating at least I think 1000 cal. And only exercise like 5 times a week .( For now) bUt I feel guilty. I want to not do this. It’s too much for me . I can’t I feel like a pig. I want to not have this conscious in me saying that I’m fat.
    Even now that I’m more tall 5’3 & 108-110. I can’t- I want to be beautiful.
    Being 14 is hard when all your friends are changing and look flawless. Their gorgeous bodies. Small waist and curves.
    Yet I, have to work extremely hard for mine . Yet I still don’t really have a womanly body. I feel like a potato. Everyone literally everyone went through puberty and they are picture perfect.
    But not me.
    My best friend, she is gorgeous. I love her and all as she is my childhood friend. She has always been prettier, and better at everything than I have. Beautiful long curled eyelashes, thick eyebrows, light eyes , hair and skin.thin , pretty small waist. She eats whatever but still remains . Beautiful. Basically everyone in school.
    Except me. I am disgusting I say to myself often. Checking much in the mirror. But yet I will never be as beautiful as them. All. My bff. Never. Yet many guys tend to like me. I think it’s all sick lies.
    Why would anyone like me . I am contrary to my bff or anyone. Not like I described . Big plump lips, almond eyes, with slightly long eyelashes but slanted down. Eyebrows look made but not really. Thin eyebrows slightly . Acne. Button nose. Tan. (🇵🇭🇲🇽)Not really a small waist or whatever. Thick legs but a quite small middle section according to everyone. Saying “your skinny” I object.
    I am supposedly a “late bloomer” but I have hair. Period . (almost missed it this month). Is there something wrong with me..? I just want to know. I just want to be beautiful. I want be confident . I just want to love myself.
    Edit 2 12.12.18-
    I feel like this is a blog now for ever month lol. I have been exercising still because I am afraid of putting on excess weight . I cannot say I have gotten any better really . I try to eat more . But I’m self conscious . I used to be confident about losing weight and I felt healthy and rewarded. I watched the anorexia videos and I thought to myself. “I’ll never get like that” but I am. Very slowly. I am scared for my health. But my mind. My mind is a dark place . It’s scary and I can’t find a way out . I want to cry. School isn’t helping either . I’m loosing tons and tons of hair each day I tried taking pills for my hair , eating more, exercising less. I just can’t swallow the pills. I feel guilty of everything . I once thought . I’ll be thin I’ll be happy. I’ll be healthy . But I am not. Despite I am trying help myself but if I tell my family. They will get angry at me and say , that they are disappointed in me and that they won’t love me because they tell me to take care . But how did I fall this deep. No matter what body I have. I will never be happy. I need help but there is no one . Not even my best friend . She will just say. “Your fault.” .. I am torn apart. I am failing . I can’t . Too many stress. I want to be okay. I want to be me. With no care. Happy. Eat. With no guilt . I want to escape this hole of dark, my mind. What do I have ? Do I an ED? I don’t know. I don’t want to sound stupid. Please. Help. 🥀 I need to learn to. Love myself. It’s hard. #LYtear
    Edit- 12.29.18
    Just to sum up.
    Still losing hair.
    Trying to eat healthy. I’m getting really bloated.
    No weight gain.
    My best friend turned out to be toxic. :/
    I’m stressed.
    Tired
    Happy new year & merry Christmas y’all
    2019: missed my period, Dec. but idk why.
    My hair is slowly getting thicker and I have been happier with my self these past few days. But that voice is still there .
    (This comments is from another vid. But I’d thought I would post how I feel here too. :/ so no one gets the idea of doing the same thing I am going through .. it’s not fun. I’d rather be happy.)

    • @ashtynford5993
      @ashtynford5993 5 ปีที่แล้ว +10

      {*}{*}너 겟 I just want to ask, are you ok? I hope you start eating more and being healthy I know you don’t want to gain weight but you need to eat and I know I don’t know your life but it’s always better to be healthy on the inside than look a certain way on the outside.

    • @ghost-md8li
      @ghost-md8li 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Hope you get better❤

    • @ishikakumari9351
      @ishikakumari9351 5 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      The inner voice u mentioned....it will stay. Forever.....
      But u tell it that u r the boss here... That voice is a resistance... It wants to resist change.. coz its easy to do the same thing over and over than bring a change and that voice wants you to chose the easy way ....
      But we all know.. life starts at the end of Ur comfort zone. So just keep improving... And love yourself. Exercising everyday is okay(untill u r doing it too much) but you must supply Ur body with food so that Ur bady has the energy required for it. Go see a doctor , that will help I guarantee.
      Also u should be proud of yourself... U r moving ahead..every step you take towards your goal is an achievement, appreciate it and keep taking the next step.😍

    • @perfectattendance7125
      @perfectattendance7125 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Please talk to someone it can be a teacher parent consular or even me. I want you to be okay. If none loves you just know I do even though I don’t know you, I think you are a pretty beautiful person. I don’t want you to walk the same path I did. I want 7 when I became insecure about my body. I fall into the catagory of “thick” but I was told that I was ugly sl*t ho* and that led to me anorexia in the 6 grade. I ate 200 cal per day and I got skinny but it wasn’t good enough. At home my mom and dad fought every night and I was given no attention. This ment i could get skinner without them knowing. But in the 7th grade I almost died. Tubes tubes everywhere in my body and I was suffering so bad. I had to talk to someone so I did. I moved schools and got to start my social life again. P.s if you want to talk we can in the comments

    • @rosenthornedrawsa.t.5758
      @rosenthornedrawsa.t.5758 5 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I hope you’re doing better now. For every time of darkness there will Always be a light that can shine through it all and lead you to happiness.

  • @kylereiiben3374
    @kylereiiben3374 6 ปีที่แล้ว +12

    I'm often refered to as "one of the skiney girls" yet, all the time still feel FAT, this means SO much to me!

  • @starfiretitan
    @starfiretitan 6 ปีที่แล้ว +246

    This is a true work of art. I'm moved emotionally by every second of it.

  • @TheM00Monster
    @TheM00Monster 6 ปีที่แล้ว +260

    I'm a guy, and most of us can't understand all the pressures that the world puts on girls. Body image exspically. But, I can relate to a lot of this. I was the fat kid all throughout my teenage years. I got sick and lost over 100 pounds and now I have this fear of gaining weight. I get sick and shake just thinking about it. I've fallen down the hole that is eating disorders. I'm too the point where my Mom is crying even looking at me because she knows where this is going. Living this way, thinking about food and about what little can you survive on. Its not living. Please, seek help if you're struggling, even if just a bit, tell someone. You're beautiful, you don't need to change. The world does.

    • @lancegalera
      @lancegalera 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      im underweight and its hard for me to gain wieght and all my friends make fun of me for that =/

    • @jojoanimated7314
      @jojoanimated7314 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      ❤️

    • @deeneps404
      @deeneps404 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Mark Galera I don't think those are friends if they make fun of you for that. If they were teasing you and you were having to fun too it would be different

    • @ItsMichelle
      @ItsMichelle 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Perry Allen you are so strong, you are a inspiration, please don’t give up and continue your battle may god bless.

    • @TheM00Monster
      @TheM00Monster 6 ปีที่แล้ว

      Its Michelle I'm slowly getting there. The little voice in my head is already pretty big. it's hard to shut it out.

  • @ketzketz5025
    @ketzketz5025 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Sometimes I wonder, arnt parents suppose to be supportive, but instead they tear us down even more

  • @izpot8986
    @izpot8986 5 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    “I only feel pretty when I’m hungry” damn I felt that

  • @skye8090
    @skye8090 6 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    That’s a long ass school

  • @littlesadeo
    @littlesadeo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +93

    You’re an inspiration. I used to starve myself when I was only 10. I overheard a family member say I’m fat and I cut my diet to only 1 light meal a day.
    Even now I’m struggling to believe that I can live in my own body. When I saw this it made me feel genuinely beautiful and with anxiety and insecurity that is hard to do. Thank you. ❤️

    • @itzelsanchez1517
      @itzelsanchez1517 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      It's alright, I don't wanna live in my body either but I still do , And I don't like going anywhere in public either , but it's okay, please don't starve yourself

    • @littlesadeo
      @littlesadeo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Luna LoveGood
      Thanks for being concerned for me. I really didn’t think anybody would care. ☺️ I try not to do it that often nowadays. There are just times where things get to me. I’ll try not to do it anymore. Thanks again. ❤️

    • @mariakara2419
      @mariakara2419 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      Little Sade same. a lot of families are like that... im so sorry, i hope it's better! ☺️💜

    • @Aee_1119
      @Aee_1119 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I understand what you been through. I’ve been called fat my whole life, my own grandma called me fat. I don’t eat a lot anymore, I only eat once or twice a day. Sometimes I don’t eat at all. I do workout, I watch my calories and I watch what I eat I still don’t feel good about myself.

    • @littlesadeo
      @littlesadeo 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      Amber Edwards
      I hope things work out for you. Please don’t do this. If I can try and stop, you can too.
      But it still is painful knowing people went through the same thing I did. Nobody deserves to feel that way. You ARE beautiful. Don’t listen to other people, good luck.

  • @anarchy_iter
    @anarchy_iter 4 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    "If you're not recovering, you're dying" this send me

  • @voiceyt4905
    @voiceyt4905 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    This is.... Powerful. It was the longest five minutes I have ever encountered. I sat here for a good 30 seconds reflecting this video after it ended.

  • @everlarkstars243
    @everlarkstars243 6 ปีที่แล้ว +130

    This really digs deep and its so beautiful

  • @ItsIliana
    @ItsIliana 6 ปีที่แล้ว +105

    That's so touching

  • @dxniellxaudios
    @dxniellxaudios 5 ปีที่แล้ว +53

    Skinny persons says "I wish im fat"
    Fat persons says"I wish I was Skinner"
    *All of us say this to ourselves,like feeling guilty of what we have done...*
    I totally relate to this.
    It really hurts me when someone told me that I'm fat or skinny.
    And I hate it.
    It really makes me happy when someone supports me.
    I feel great.
    But,when it got to bullying,I can't prevent hurt words.
    I feel so sorry to myself,to my body.
    So sorry to my ears who had heared those hurting words.
    I feel so lose.Lost in the middle of pain.
    The feeling I felt is just like a ground,who's only meant to be stepped,to be dig,and to be trashed.
    But, sometimes we can't probably can't say this to ourselves: "I can do this,why not?"
    *Why do we feel pain?*
    This comment has that answer.
    *We feel pain because we had done something over to ourselves,which made us really guilty.*
    *"Why are they skinny/fat? I wish I was like them..."*
    We say to ourselves, comparing ourselves to others who *THINK* that they're pretty,nice! We don't even realize that they're are our bullies that we can't prevent to compare to us.
    I just feel *PAIN* at this video.
    Then,I realize I shouldn't,I wouldn't and I don't have to.
    Cuz we have god,god made us to trust to ourselves,to look for what we deserve and pull it back to us.We deserve beauty, freedom and confidence.
    *(This comment is a advice to those who aren't believing to themselves.This comment only has 3 words: We are beautiful)*

    • @accroavous7969
      @accroavous7969 5 ปีที่แล้ว

    • @diamondevans321
      @diamondevans321 4 ปีที่แล้ว +6

      Gir- i have never in my life said "i wish i was fat" i would rather be slim and healthy

    • @virtualsurgery5251
      @virtualsurgery5251 4 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@diamondevans321 Are you saying being fat is unhealthy?

    • @rfk2298
      @rfk2298 4 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      lil cake being fat IS unhealthy

    • @oooceanman
      @oooceanman 3 ปีที่แล้ว

      @@virtualsurgery5251 nobody wants to be fat

  • @facecat6749
    @facecat6749 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I was doing great, no tearing up, not feeling sad, but those last few seconds about loving and being thankful for your body got me as soon as I heard "You are you". My chest is still tight from crying. Thank you for making me realize how lucky I am to have the body I have.

  • @juliamitchell5537
    @juliamitchell5537 6 ปีที่แล้ว +9

    Imagine walking behind her in a crowded hallway when you're about to be late to class

  • @sadeudoh8220
    @sadeudoh8220 6 ปีที่แล้ว +373

    This is reality😢💞
    It's an amazing video❤

  • @poyo645
    @poyo645 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

    The words just so deep... thankyou for making this beautiful inspiring video 💥😢❤

  • @sonias9960
    @sonias9960 4 ปีที่แล้ว +2

    “When I was young- fat was the first thing used to describe it didn’t bother me then- until I found out it was supposed to” that line is the core of me because it’s true. I have never been seen as anyone or anything else

  • @naomiterborg2097
    @naomiterborg2097 6 ปีที่แล้ว +59

    This is so impressive! I don't have words for how beautiful this is! A few years ago I started getting 'fatter' and I wanted to be skinnier, I tried eating salads and not eating unhealthy. Now almost 4 years later I decided I don't want to be skinny. I want to be strong. I'm getting healthy for ME, I'm exercising for ME, I'm eating healthy for MY body, because I want it. Not because the public wants girls to be skinny, but because I want to be strong, I want to be lean and I am going to work for it!

  • @estefpowers173
    @estefpowers173 6 ปีที่แล้ว +223

    This was amazing and actually had me with tears.
    Thank you for this 💖

  • @beasone3639
    @beasone3639 5 ปีที่แล้ว +4

    This is so inspiring, literally my new favourite video 👏

  • @Sleepy1809
    @Sleepy1809 5 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I can relate to this, i had anorexia 3 years ago, i wad bullied for being so BIG for my age, everywhere, ppl judged me,ppl called me names. It made me sad. I stopped stidying in my free time and started to fail everything and i was obsessed of getting skinny. sometimes i didn't eat for a day and spent my time exercising. in the end i was hospitalized for 3 weeks. when i was fully recovered, ppl were so proud, i had many new friends and many ppl say that im their inspiration but i hate myself for getting skinny until now... I shouldn't change.. But I'm just glad that im healthy now..

  • @Hoid.
    @Hoid. 6 ปีที่แล้ว +138

    Incredible, beautiful, true and inspiring.

  • @justachupacabrawithinterne5856
    @justachupacabrawithinterne5856 6 ปีที่แล้ว +36

    This is so inspiring as she said “the calculator in my head finally stoped” I got chills they should show this video in schools to tell us that we are all beautiful

  • @mewrine6745
    @mewrine6745 6 ปีที่แล้ว

    I went through this and I’m still recovering alone. Thanks, it made me think I’m not alone.

  • @vedishadhurowa4029
    @vedishadhurowa4029 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    Thank you is all I would like to say for making this video
    TRULY THANK YOU 💓

  • @bababooey2436
    @bababooey2436 6 ปีที่แล้ว +125

    I saw these in recommends and I never regret watching it! This is so inspiring!
    As you all know, I'm currently in a diet right now. But after I watched this video, I don't know if I should continue dieting or not.
    I've been called fat for so many reasons. I wanted to wear the clothes that my mother brought me but I never got a chance to wear them, it's all because I look fat, and I felt sad and embarrassed just by looking at my mom's disappointed face. Before I started dieting, last July (2017) my weight was around 69.5.. I started dieting, my mom started worrying about me 'cause I eat less at morning and lunch and I never ate at dinner.. I started having stomaches too.. But that never stopped me, I continued my every 'routine' until I got my new result. I lost 10 pounds, I felt happy but not too happy, I wanted to stop dieting it's making me tired everyday... I wanted to eat my favorites my mom cooked or brought for me, but I always say, "You can have them mom. I'm on a diet." she said ok, but I know she is disappointed and sad... But I can't.. It's all because of my past (at 2012) I was bullied for being fat and big... I also have problems with my face, I have pimples and I got called ugly.. I cried and my mother's sisters told my mom about it, and she started worrying about it.. After that, I never liked socializing with friends and families anymore, I stayed at home doing nothing but looked at the mirror everytime I pass by and say, "I am truly ugly and fat as they say..." I always cried for that same reason, being fat and ugly. I started eating less and less, my mom brought me things to cease the pimples in my face, yet I was still not satisfied.. But when I went out for the first time at 2014, cause I switched schools. My mother's friends met me and said I was beautiful, I smiled. I thought at that time, "Did I changed? Did I grow thinner and pretty?" Then it happened, the second month at school I got bullied, I was called fat and ugly, again. I didn't started dieting, because my mom would get worried again.. But when It was 2017 summer vacation, my mom showed me a movie titled, "100 pounds of beauty" (it's Korean and it's amazing, I recommend it!), I felt determined to go back dieting and I did... And that's how I lost my 10 pounds...
    Even now, I still felt ugly and fat, and I also turned to an introvert because of being called ugly..
    I hoped you guys liked the story I shared, and I do hope that we all should love ourselves and our bodies..
    AND ALSO, when I was new at my new school 2017, my friend told me that one of her classmates said that I am awesome, and I'm like, "Uhh what?" I didn't even do anything 'awesome'😂😅..
    Yes, even though your are fat or ugly or both or being called by names, but some people might think/looked at you like you are beautiful and awesome!! (Even though, you didn't do anything 'awesome'😂) Just love who you are and what you are.
    P.S: my belly is screaming food so I think I should start eating now..
    Edit: Keep up the good work! I hope you can inspire millions of people out there!! 😀😁
    Bye~!

    • @hayleytodorovic7980
      @hayleytodorovic7980 6 ปีที่แล้ว +2

      I’m literally crying ur are so inspirational thank you for your existence and taking the time out of your day to tell this story to inspire loads of people you are really truly awesome 💜💜💜💜

    • @mimih3950
      @mimih3950 6 ปีที่แล้ว +1

      I am also bullied I think the both of our stories are similar thanks allot you are incredible

  • @BlytheB
    @BlytheB 6 ปีที่แล้ว +614

    Hi there! Thanks so much for making this neat cover out of my poem :) I’ve been getting some comments on my channel from some people who got confused, thinking that I took this from you guys or that I copied you. Do you think you could please clarify that this is my poem by linking to the original (which is on my channel) in the description? Thanks!

    • @MendaMindLargyYSI
      @MendaMindLargyYSI  6 ปีที่แล้ว +38

      Blythe Baird thanks so much! Will do.

    • @annaieg7173
      @annaieg7173 6 ปีที่แล้ว +21

      This is copying if she didn’t reference it this isn’t ok.

    • @nisthasrivastava9858
      @nisthasrivastava9858 6 ปีที่แล้ว +15

      Blythe Baird this is beautiful. Thank you for voicing thousands of us in one poem.

    • @jaydabalestrieri7349
      @jaydabalestrieri7349 6 ปีที่แล้ว +5

      Blythe Baird that’s amazing

    • @frankiegaming1765
      @frankiegaming1765 6 ปีที่แล้ว +3

      Annaie G they put it in the credits at the end

  • @nadinesheikh5097
    @nadinesheikh5097 3 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    This touched me a lot. The past month I was worrying about working out to get thinner. Mind you I'm already a small weighted girl. My family didn't question it, and when they did, I said "It's for dance." I cut my already small food portions in half. Weighing myself everyday to feel happy about the numbers dropping. Looking at my stomach at every mirror I see to see results. Full on skipped meals. Now I watched this realizing what I'm doing to myself. Realizing I'm doing all of this to fit the unrealistic beauty standard women put on teens these days. I write this crying to see this video as a wake up call to stop. Thank you for whoever made this video.

  • @emamay9453
    @emamay9453 2 ปีที่แล้ว +1

    I lost a TON of weight last year. People treated me like they had never before. The boys talked to me. They treated me like they wanted to hang out. People would want to be my partner. Then this year I actually started eating. I averaged out and now I have no friends. No one talks to me. I feel alone. This video hits close to home.