How Rose recovered from Derealization, Intrusive thoughts and Anxiety / DPDR Succes Story
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 31 ส.ค. 2023
- Thank you Rose for this beautiful story!
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The fact that she could go to Denmark with dpdr when im afraid of simply waking up and seeing anything or walking out of my room
she’s a warrior
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what are you afraid of? there's nothing wrong with you. (i have extreme dpdr) you have anxiety. thats your problem. face it. you arent going to die. You arent going to disapear, lose your mind, passout, develope a disease. None of it!
Hiii! I don't know if this helps at all, but I was also terrified of waking up and especially so afraid of going outside. I check on this video every once in awhile to respond to comments bc I know I needed that at the time. When it came to Denmark, I was kind of at a last resort- I had gotten comfortable with walking around the park and comfortable enough speaking to people, I had started to do yoga and went to a monthly meditation class, but the shitty DPDR feelings were still there and very present. I really forced myself to go and I was lucky to go with a friend who also had similar symptoms, I knew I needed to get over this newfound fear of traveling I had and to "isolate" myself in nature in a way. I guess I'm saying all of this because I *also* had these fears very strongly, and slowly had to push against them to feel more comfortable with them.
Thank you for mentioning how the initial panic attacks are actually traumatic for some people. I have had people I know tell me that I haven’t been through anything traumatic and it’s made me feel worse about all of my anxiety. I feel so much more validated when I heard you mention how the panic attack itself was trauma because after my panic attack from smoking weed and then later edibles I was impacted immensely 😭
Yes! Panic attacks can be really traumatizing for people. Like I said, trauma is anything that completely overwhelms your nervous system's ability to cope. It's so scary- glad this resonated with you because that was hard for me to accept as well
Me too! I have no experience with any drugs but my experience with DPDR feels kind of like it came out of no where. The first time I had it was traumatic for me , but I don’t know what caused it in the first place
This is so great I’m so thankful to Rose for sharing this. I went through almost the exact same situation, only with Amenita Muscaria. I’m 3 months into recovering from when the DPDR and anxiety got really bad. Thank you so much for sharing this 💓💓
I feel so relieved and sad and devastated and happy? That someone gets the fear of death, the sky being like it’s “trapping” you, reality feeling like a matrix and the nature of the universe feeling like too much. It feels like your tendons are being ripped apart and the fear and pain are too much for one human to hold so you disassociate. Thank you so much for this. Thank you so much for the hope of a life again. I had similar experiences as a child with anxiety and again as an adult with weed. I hope anyone who’s reading this sticks this out with me and stays alive. This channel has helped me find my own small grip onto reality again.
First offering I've seen from this channel. I've been through what was described at times. Didn't know it had a name. I found myself naturally gravitating towards the things that Rose mentioned, like farming and physically grounding earthy pursuits. Now, it's about regulating the nervous system and increasing capacity.
I'm glad you mentioned the "Oh I haven't thought about it in a while" because that's where I'm at currently. It happened a lot playing in that orchestra I was just in, or even at work! (: It starts small, and these days I can go nearly the whole without thinking about it! WHOOOO BOY it has been a journey (:
Yes! So happy to hear, totally a journey but glad you’re feeling balanced :,)
How are you feeling now?
Thanks Rose for sharing your story. I’ve watched many of Robins videos but this was the first success story video I’ve watched and boy can I relate. I did my first guided trip with over seven grams of the same type of mushrooms. Had a terrifying several hours thinking I had lost my mind and/or was in some type of hell. It’s been two months and it’s been rough. Some days the DPDR is intense and other days not as bad. I also realize how this is stemming from existing anxiety and OCD. Which is why I sought a guide in the first place. Any ways it’s nice to hear Im not the only one with this type of mushroom induced DPDR. Thanks to both of you for sharing this. As a side note, in addition to meditation, I’ve been doing holotropic breathing and it’s been a big help.
Congrats Rose, best of luck.
These videos always make me feel so much better ❤
This was so helpful as I struggle with both DPDR and intrusive thoughts
Rose, thank you for your courage. Everything you talked about are things I experienced firsthand, you are not alone, and that goes to all of you out there.
Thank you Robin for sharing videos like these.
I'm still watching but so far.. thank you so much for sharing this.. Rose is an incredible person!
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Hi Rose, I too also had a bad shroom trip at a bachelor party in July and I have had so many similarities to you. However, I really never tripped before this. It's crazy because i ended up on NOCD and therapy through this experience as well and it truthfully so crazy how one instance turned up all of this within me. I'm so glad you shared your story, specifically about the shrooms. I've definitely had moments where I've felt like I'm tripping since then. It raised a lot of uncertainty in me as well and I have also felt the depression from it but thenl the same I don't wanna die conflict. I've tried to explain it to others that it's like I'm on my death bed in the present yet I'm fine all at the same time.
Hi Dave! Thank you so much for this, I know how scary it feels and really glad you can see the similarities in our stories- you're not alone in the slightest. The feeling of "tripping" is really the most uncomfortable sensation, but I hope you realize that you're not tripping at all, the drug is out of your system. I found that by telling myself my anxiety was linked to the feeling tripping, I could now identify moments I was just feeling anxious instead of spiraling thinking that a drug had ruined my brain. I hope that helps! You're safe and please be patient with yourself!!
Her experience is literally the same thing that happened to me, even the date (july 4th , 2023) except for the shrooms, its gotten better throughout the last 2 months but its not a gradual healing process, thank you for this video
Thanks Rose and Robin!!
Also got from that strain, wish I knew before taking haha
this gaves me motivation thank you so much
You will get through it!!!
Thank God for their bravery. Similar thing happened to me, but with marijuana.
Wellbutrin helped me tremendously I was to the point where I couldn’t leave my room or talk to anyone and my mom felt like a stranger I felt mentally slow to the point I felt like I was in a living nightmare .. absolutely NO positive feelings just less bad thoughts I suffered for 10 years like this alone … I couldn’t drive I felt like the passenger not driver and the road went blurry .. I didn’t recognize my image in the mirror nobody knew or cared just said grow up .. I’m just NOW coming out of it but it’s still there I just go to work and pretend to be normal then go home and zone tf out like I’m doing know I work with kids that need special help they help ground me ❤ thx for the video
She’s gorgeous
I keep coming back to this video because your story sounds exactly like mine,just that for me it was Edible Gummies😰It’s been tough and i recently started taking an SSRI and i’m just hoping it will take the edge off.
Any good news from the SSRI's
Rose thank you🙏🏼 what was your best strategy to deal with existential OCD? :)
Hi Rose and Robin, i hope you’re both doing well. I do want to add a PSA for Rose and anyone going on anti-depressants. I was going through the same thing as Rose and went on Lexapro and I thought I felt healed because of it but once I stopped it all hell broke lose and things got far worse than i had experienced before. I took it for 2.5 years and I’ve stopped it almost a month ago and i’m still suffering hell on earth. A lot worse than the DPDR and anxiety because of a bad trip. That’s how I found Robin. Rose I plead that you consider a very very slow taper off those drugs even at 5mg. Don’t trust what your psychiatrist tells you. Do your own research. I hope this doesn’t alarm you but informs you to take cautious steps forward.
I had the same experience on Lexapro it was so bad
Hey sis, I feel tingling in my forehead during meditation and after meditation my forehead become cool , is am I doing wrong meditation??
Hi Rose, I’m curious how long it took for the existential thoughts to taper off. It’s been 6 months for me now and I too was diagnosed with OCD through all this. Iv come a long way from where I started (panic attack on simulation theory in April) it snow balled into all these other theories and just felt like I was seeing the world in a completely different and terrifying lense. Like HOW is any of this possible or happening. My anxiety is nowhere near what it was (thanks to learning about OCD and avoiding my compulsions etc) but even in moments of calm I have these thoughts and I’m still like what…. Im also Christian so I struggled with that too a lot through this. I guess how long till or how did you get to the point your at now? Also I get bad eye floaters when I look at the sky and it freaks me out🤦🏼♀️
Hi Courtney! I hear you- in the beginning of my DPDR I convinced myself I was a brain in a lab and everything was a simulation hahaha- now I can laugh at that! It's taken me about a year, but it is so variable for people that I haveeee to tell you to not compare your recovery to anyone else's timeline- you will be fine, it just takes time for your nervous system to recover and that's on your nervous system's time! At 6 months, I felt very much the same as you- annoyed that I could understand what was happening, but still felt affected in moments of complete calm. I also don't have an exact moment where everything clicked for me, but I realized quite recently that I finally had a grip on everything that was happening in my mind and could ignore the scary thoughts (not repress them) rather than let them take me over. Eye floaters are also completely normal by the way, I've heard this is common for people with DPDR as it's directly linked to anxiety causing your pupils to dilate, thereby poorly filtering light and causing floaters. All of the scary thoughts you're having are common and normal although I know they feel incredibly vivid and immovable, like you've stepped into a world/pattern of thought you can't get out of. My best advice is patience, reading NOCD articles when you get anxious, and allowing yourself to ride the waves of this. You say you've come a long way since April- you will keep coming a long way! Take your time, keep trying new things and living your life. Much love
@@longislanddirt Omg I went through that too sort of solipsism theory that it sort of morphed into it was one of the worst and still bothers me just like all of the existential thoughts here and there. It’s definitely nice to hear you’ve reached a point where these thoughts don’t bother you and that you can laugh now.. I wouldn’t wish this apon my worst enemy it is truly a hard battle and can be so isolating because nobody really understands around you. Thankyou for your words.🙏🏻💓
@@longislanddirtHi Rose, I had one more question as far as the existential thoughts go, what did you find helped for getting over those? As far as simulation/solipsism etc goes? I find a lot of the times I’ll be doing “better” for a couple weeks where they don’t bother me as much but then I have these setbacks where I feel back to square one and it’s all I can think about again. Did you have these moments throughout your recovery?
@rosekelso3795 rose your recovery video is great and encouraging! I'm currently struggling with existential thoughts bad. I've been stuck on questioning if my brain is making everything up which is so scary. To the point I'll watch a recovery video and then think that's nice but what if it's just another thing my brains making up. It's so scary I feel alone, I don't want to be alone. Can you help?
@CourtneySDawn are you doing better? I'm struggling with solipsism bad. I hate this.
What to do if i want to take the course but I can’t afford it😅😢 i live in straight hell for 5 years now
Can exist.Anx. Come from drug withdrawal ?
Do you still take medication? I am worried about dpdr coming back when I come off of mine!
I do! I've been on Lexapro since February 2023. I'm not worried that my DPDR will come back when I get off the medication for two reasons:
1. I now feel I can really identify the thought patterns associated with DPDR and can recognize my triggers more clearly, this took a lot of time and still I have things to work on here
2. If something does happen/I don't feel great- the medication really helped and I know it's an option I can go back to!
Stay on medication for as long as you feel is right for you (or what your psych recommends). When I started SSRIs back in Feb, it wasn't an immediate switch and I didn't feel 10000% better right away, it still took a lot of time and other factors such as meditation/yoga/farming/taking it easy. So if you're feeling this now, just keep moving through life and take it one day at a time!
When I flipped out on weed laced with angel dust in 1977. I can tell you, I have suffered on and off for 47 years. My derealization was horrible, and I have struggled with it on and off all these years. I am 59 now, and Menopause has been difficult for me. The attacks have come back full force, which I am still working on. It’s crazy because the horrible experience sticks in your memory, and never goes away. The worse part of all of it, is because I flipped out not only once, but three times because I did other drugs over the years, I now cannot take any medication without thinking I am going to lose it again. Believe me, that is tough, especially with allergies, and I can’t even take a decongestant without my heart racing through my chest putting me right back to 1977.
Hi to anyone seeing this who has got thru it, can you please help? I'm struggling with existential thoughts bad. I feel frozen with fear. I have support with family but no one who fits it truly. I would love to talk to someone who's been thru this and recovered. Please and thank you!
hi! I totally understand how it can feel awkward to talk about feelings like these to your family. I can talk whenever you need!
@@sarahstovall9979 are you recovered?
I’m not recovered but I’m going through the exact same thing ,24/7 existential thoughts . you’re gonna be okay , notice how everyone that goes through this is still alive to tell the story , you’re safe and not going anywhere. You got this
Read Noam Chomsky
Why?
fuuuh. Robin is a sweet lady but when you stop at 0:13 ... wtf? :D I watched your videos a year ago, what happend? You decided to become skeleton? :D You dont have meat on you head 😁
Rose is overhyped, not much to take.
What are you on dude
Hi! I’m sorry you feel that way, but this is a really unkind thing to say!
@@longislanddirt why?
This comment is so unkind and unnecessary.
@@kirstencorbett2289 i said that to two ladies who defeated dpdr and existential crisis.
Is it too much for them? to say first she is skinny aka looks old and second she is overhyped?
both is true
How do i get you as my coach? Can i get your email address so i can contact you