4 months in the USA 🇺🇸 Update: Marriage + Thoughts on quitting YouTube
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да, мы рады, что вы все еще здесь, и поздравляем вас с этим, и у вас была традиционная местная свадебная церемония, я добавлю ваш магазин, если смогу. хорошая работа по созданию своего будущего, прежде чем уйти с TH-cam. Ура.
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Congratulations on your wedding! ❤️
Sounds Like you met up with a jealous controlling boyfriend mind you the best way to end an idols career is to both get a boyfriend & or get Married..? Fans Like single girls
First your videos are amazing and I think the quality is absolutely artistic, engaging, and heartfelt. TH-cam's algorithm is garbage and it treats a lot of its content creators unfairly. I believe things will get better in time and you'll reach your "zen". Stay positive and awesome!
Welcome back and congratulations on your marriage. I always enjoyed your videos. You took me to places and cultures I will never see in real life so thank you.
Congratulations on your wedding! 💫✨As an Eastern European girl, I have gone through the same thing, only in Canada. Please, do not think that your videos suck! It's just the mood/state you're in right now that is making you look at things with a much harsher eye. Please, continue what you're doing! You are amazing and so are your videos!!! Trust the universe! It knows better what you need right now than anyone else! Concerning new videos, there are so many things that don't require any money! Feature your local library, ocean shore, botanical garden, walking paths, thrift shops, community centers, malls... Look for new supplies, ideas etc. Sit down and interview people! Or just simply talk about your feelings like now! We're interested in everything! Just keep going and doing what you're doing!!! Looking forward to your next video!
Thank you so much for your kind words! And especially for video ideas!❤
Good luck in calif, you may need it.
Svetlana is the most beautiful bride I have ever seen. Hope for you happiness ❤. Good luck.
@edina97 Great ideas, would be good if she interviews new Russians or Eastern Europeans immigrants and what their experiences have been good or bad.
Svetlana, get a free library card! I 'm logged in to the libby app and subscribed free to a ton of digital magazines.
I couldn't say it any better.
Your videos do not suck. I an old guy living in Northern Canada got to see a lot of Russia that I will never be able to travel to through your videos. Your joy and sweetness made the places all that much more interesting. Thank you.
Thank you for the update. I hope you feel better soon. We miss you!
Thank you for your honestly and sharing your feelings. 😍
It’s wonderful to see you back on TH-cam, and congrats on your wedding! Please don’t feel so bad about your previous videos, they are wonderful and my husband and I have always enjoyed watching your content. Keep up the good work ❤
Congratulations 🎉 on your marriage, my wife and I wish you all the best. We hope you will stay on TH-cam, as we have always enjoyed your videos. My wife and I are in our 70's and, my wife's grandfather immigrated here from Russia so we really enjoyed seeing the many places you shared and learning more about the culture. Take care, be well, be happy.😊
Congratulations on your Wedding. Yes.weedings are important because a blessing comes from Heaven. To Earth. Babies comes from Heaven. We need to be Spirituality Aware. Saint Patrick shamrock ☘️ is a simple. Of a Family. And, don't forget to protect the Wedding Ring and keep it Safe. You speak good English. When we hear of Russia we think of Vodka, Siberia, and lovely Woman. Don't forget your Family is only of phone call away. You could teach the Russian language and Speak of your favourite books Slán. We need to learn about the economy. Economic Reality. Amen 🙏
Thank you so so much!
Congratulations newlyweds! Glad you are happy. Good for you.
Congratulations! We are so glad to see you again. The depression can take awhile to get better, so hang in there! You have made a major change and have a lot of things to adjust to. And you left your home and family. I don’t think your videos were bad, we really enjoyed seeing the scenery, food, shopping, and traveling too.
So good to see you back on TH-cam. Looking forward to future videos
I always enjoy your videos. For me these vlog style videos are just getting to peek inside the lives and thoughts of people you wouldn't otherwise get the chance to meet, and following their story. You're the first thing I thought of when I heard about the Ventura wildfires on the news (glad you seem to be out of their path), and one of the things I look forward to seeing is when your sister eventually comes for a visit. For me, just normal things from another person's perspective is interesting, esp. when you vibe with that person, which apparently over 100k people and I do with you. I hope you successfully push through the negative feelings...
Thank you so so much for your sweet and kind words!🥰
Beautiful necklaces 🤩🙌🏻 Love the ribbon 🎀 So cute 🥰
Welcome back. Missed you.
It's always nice to see an update from you whenever you can do one. Congratulations on getting married. Starting from the beginning is incredibly exciting because you can do anything you want.
PS Your videos do not suck--they rock. :) xoxo You have a great ability to share your life and tell us how you feel. Very Creative. Thank you. :)
Thank you so much, dear! 🥰
Oooh I love the red bracelet!! Looks so cool and you are super talented ☺️
Also, congrats on your wedding!! I can imagine it would be a major adjustment to make such a big move. It takes major guts to open up about how you’re feeling mentally, so I commend you for that. As for your videos, don’t think that!! It’s only because of your current mindset that is making you look at your videos that way. I love seeing people’s videos that show their regular lives all over the world. It satisfies my curiosity and reminds me that my boring life is good too, and we’re all in this together! It makes you relatable, it’s unrealistic that any ‘regular person’ would be going out and doing extravagant things every week, so don’t let that get you down. You’ve got this 🩷🩷
Welcome back to TH-cam! I’ve missed your videos. I wrote a very long comment about five minutes ago, sent it, looked to see if it posted…nope it didn’t go through. 🤷🏼♀️ Congrats on your marriage May it be filled with love, laughter and prosperity! Keep posting when you feel the urge. 💕 Linda
Good to see you back. Congratulations.
Good to see you again😃
Congrats!!
Svetlana Your physical and online friends are with you for the bad times as well as the good, so keep your pecker up. Also congratulations on your marriage - So Good luck and all the best.
Congratulations on your marriage! Catalina Island is such a hidden gem. I love it there. Keep on being you! And, live your best life! Ventura is beautiful, and you're very fortunate to live here. I too am a Ventura native, and I enjoy everything the city has to offer. Keep the energy positive. Be well.
Hi from England.. your videos are so interesting and real, it’s a journey and it’s real, I love seeing different countries and the day to day stuff is not boring to me, please don’t quit. The beads are amazing and you have a great eye for style. Sending good vibes from the uk x
You're a very honest person and I admire your honesty.. I have watched several of your videos both in Russia and the U.S.and have found them interesting and and well done. Your bracelets are beautiful and would make a nice gift for the ladies in my life
(I'll be checking out your Etsy shop).
I've been through depressive periods and I found the best way out of it is to be grateful for what you have and think positive! Depression is basically one negative thought on top of another. Being positive works and remember you control your thoughts-
Sveta, life in the US can be overwhelming for immigrants, especially in Southern California, so hold onto the familiar like your beading business, as well as your new hubby. As I recall, holidays are not your most favorite times, so don’t let Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years get you down, but maybe try to embrace the spirit of them to get you through this period… good luck!
haha, that's funny that you remembered that (about holiday season)! But I feel like this year it will be a bit different for me and I'm looking forward to it!
stop simping. she is married
@deathlarsen7502 Where's the simping??? I'm giving her advice on how to manage... mind your own business twit...
@@deathlarsen7502 How am I simping??? I was just giving her some advice... mind your own business, twit...
I love all of your videos. A personal favorite was the picnic on the river with your family where you made the eggplant/veggie recipe over the campfire. I made the recipe and it was great!
Hope you rediscover your courage and confidence very soon. It's already there, just something challenging you spiritually at the moment. I find power and peace through just a little bit of yoga, mild brief meditations, hikes in nature, and prayers. You are very smart. You will get through this, and come out even better than before.
I am finding the best energy and peace of my life and in my heart right now...and I just turned 68!
We love you and your videos! 💕 You may just need a change. And that’s okay. Follow your heart ❤️
So glad to have you back! Your videos, and you personally, have a distinct vibe that always draws me back. I think, sure, there’s always room for growth, but you’re definitely a great creator so please don’t abandon your page.
Thank you!
Первый год будет challenging! А потом будет лучше! Удачи!
Спасибо!🤍
So glad to see that you are ok … I thought something happened to you and that was the end 🥺 … Immigrant depression is a real thing and it doesn’t necessarily go away. There is still a part of you that feels like you are a permanent visitor in the new country and it’s time to go home. But going home is not an option either, because you have moved away from your old life into a new one. Go hiking on the beach, buy a bike and go on long bike rides. This is the Cali lifestyle. I’m sorry you are struggling … the same happened to me when I moved to a new country from the USA. Take time and grieve your old life in Russia and remember that new adventures are waiting for you in Cali. Sending hugs from Florida 🌴🌴
CAJE IS SOOOO GOOOD!!! you are not going to beat that, dont even bother trying. youre very fortunate to have that there
Don't quit TH-cam, please! Your videos make my day!
I was about to say the exact same thing she does so amazing I love watching her videos... Congrats on your wedding beautiful.. Just as you know us so many loves to see you back and your videos..
Thank you! I won't quit, I promise!🤍
Thanks!
Well done for making your jewellry whilst keeping your nails that cannot be easy. x I wish you all the luck in the world.
Congratz to you and your husband!!❤And i loved your older videos. I subscibed because of tthem. No pretence just you and your daily life. I love that!
Great to see you! We love all your videos, come and go as you please knowing you have your friends here ! congrats to everything!
Congrats!!! I wish you all the Love and Happiness in this world!
Your videos really don't suck, they are high quality, both in content, editing and tone. You're just a big perfectionist😊
You look amazing! Stay strong and eat healthy. I'm vulnerable to depression as well, and inflammation is a major factor that makes it worse, or can even be the root cause in many cases.
Congratulations! So happy for you guys! 👍👍
I’m sooooo glad your back,,,it doesn’t matter what u post,,,,you have a following, just keep us up to date and most of us will still b here watching,,,,,,,,,
It's good to see another video! As for Catalina, I visited there as a kid. It's one of my earliest memories. My family sailed there on our boat. I also remember stopping by a tiny island on the way and running through the plants. My legs started to hurt because I ran through stinging nettles. By the way, I read some research on successful marriages and the smaller and less expensive the wedding, the more successful (long lasting and happier) the marriages tend to be. Classy bracelets. I don't need one to give to anyone right now but I am sure there will be a time, especially around Christmas or Valentine's Day. It's good to see you making videos again. As for how you feel, you know you have friends and plenty of love from your follows on youtube. Every chapter in life has its challenges. That's what makes you value what you have... and what you will have when it comes. Life is river boat. You never know what is around the next corner.
Thank you so much for your kind words! ❤
Congratulations!🥳
Congratulations and successful marriage life , probably your priorities have changed, thanks a lot for TH-cam videos and your looks for things you showed , don't loose your optimism , bye-bye seeing you here from Greece , here no we can't set easily ourselves in ways of other countries, have some relative ideas of them or being in endless presumptions . . .. Also we have our difficulties of course , may you be happy in California since you've made your goal , bye-bye again and keep your cool,
in your way of course . . .. ... .. .❤
Congratulations on your wedding, slow down, take a breath and stop stressing, head down and start a new chapter in your life,❤❤😊
Congratulations on your marriage, ❤❤❤ best wishes to u and your husband. Everything will be ok over time.
Good to see you again and congratulations to you both ❤❤
Congratulations on your marriage 👍 🍾. Please take good of yourself and heal. I really enjoyed your videos, I did not think they bad at all. I thought they were well done, interesting, and informative.
I had a necklace I liked and I lost it last year so I will get one of yours! Please make shipping to Canada possible 💜
Congrats on your wedding! Don’t apologize for being absent because it’s perfectly understandable. What’s also understandable is being apprehensive about the future. If you need ideas check with your hubby and maybe include him if he’s ok with that. Another idea would be to interview other Russian people who’ve decided to stay here. That would also be a good way to connect with people from your country and help you if you’re feeling homesick 🙂
Aww, I'm very happy for you. Listening to your wedding experience put a smile on my face. I hope the two of you create happy memories for the rest of your days here in the United States, and beyond.
also many many congratulations for your wedding
all the best for this new chapter of life
I love your videos! Congratulations on your wedding.
I really like your channel! Sorry that you are depressed. Your jewelry is beautiful. Glad that you are back. Cheers!
Glad to see you again! First of all, I have to say that your videos do not suck. I can only speak for myself, but I have thoroughly enjoyed every one of your videos that I have watched, and I have seen quite a lot of them. You are interesting, fun, engaging, and often times educational. I hope that you will continue to post and always look forward to seeing what you come up with.
Good to see and hear from you again !
Maybe let us know how your family is doing back in Russia. Can your sister make a video for you and you include it in your next video perhaps? Great to see you again though! Congratz on your wedding!
Good idea to use my sister😁 I'll see what I can do about it!
@@SVETLANAFROMRUSSIA We miss all of them as well. Look forward to seeing whatever you guys come up with! 😊
I am so happy for you and your new husband ❤ and to see you are looking beautiful and doing well. I will be here waiting, but an option is you could start a channel on just you talking and showing your beading, many people actually love videos on any crafts and arts, just please don’t stop on this channel... I fell in love with your videos because you are wonderful soul and openly honest.
Hi Svetlana, Congrats! Best wishes on your new journey and ventures.
Congratulations on getting married to you and your new husband. You really have a talent for making the Jewelry, they look amazing. For men crosses, black and silver are popular, along with weaved leather bracelets and soft woven leather chains.
Female subscriber here! Love the bracelets. Congratulations on your marriage. I’m aware of your stint in America when you went to college in Kansas. I was surprised to just learn you had another stay afterwards. I would be interested to learn about that experience and what You Tube channels you watch that inspire you and what you’re comparing your content to. I really enjoy your channel. Wishing you happiness. Definitely checking out your Etsy.
Thank you girl! I'll talk about things you suggested in future videos!
Road trips with your husband on your motorcycle and photographing it might be a new chapter for you. Santa Ynez Valley has tons of vineyards & horse farms with beautiful hills, as does Montana de Oro (rugged cliffs on the ocean) make for good photography. Maybe there's something in the community you can join--a class or something put on by the city or even one of the colleges? There are Russian ex-pat areas (restaurants etc) in LA you can visit if that might help you feel a bit of home?
Congratulations on your marriage! Wishing you both endless happiness and all the best as you begin this beautiful journey together.
I really enjoy your videos-don’t be too hard on yourself! Sometimes, our mood can affect how we see our own work. Maybe try uploading when you’re feeling your best, you might see your content in a whole new light.
Enjoy your time there! Who knows, down the line, you might feel the pull to return to your home country and be closer to your family. Many women who live abroad or end up getting married eventually decide to move back to their native country, especially when starting a family. The key is whether your husband would be open to the idea and want the same for your future together.
If the situation was different and you had grown up in the U.S. - your family immigrated, and years later, you met your husband on a trip abroad, I’m sure he’d be open to relocating with you to build your life together. You will see how it works out for you.
I wish you both love and success in this exciting chapter!
Firstly congratulations on the wedding! You looked like a fairy tale bride so elegant and beautiful! Secondly $11 for a coffee is pretty normal in SoCal (at least you seem that you found a very nice coffee shop)
I started to watch your channel because I met a lovely Russian girl and I wanted to learn more about Russian culture. (She really doesn't like to talk about it for personal reasons 🥲) and I just bought a bracelet from your store for her (hope she'll like it!) Over all I hope you just do what you feel makes you feel good and happy. You have always made good content, and regardless, I will continue rooting for you.
Thank you so much for the kind words and congratulations! Your support truly means a lot to me.😊
It’s so sweet that you’re taking an interest in Russian culture for her sake, and I hope she loves the bracelet! It’s always a special feeling knowing my creations are part of someone’s thoughtful gesture.
I really appreciate your encouragement-it motivates me to keep creating in a way that feels true to me. Thank you for rooting for me; it means the world! 💕
You have great content! Have you considered adding to the title of your TH-cam channel? Maybe adding some reference to being a newly wed now living in California in the title. This could raise interest in your channel.
Thank you for sharing with us!
Welcome to California! Great addition to the state!
Congrats on your marriage. Best of luck to you.
Congratulations to you both!
Good to see you again, Sveta. Transition sometimes brings depressive feelings, little dyings and new beginnings. It's natural. So important that you are self aware of what's going on. When my wife came here from Brazil years ago, we had a private little ceremony with just witnesses. A beautiful island would have been cool for memories for sure. Sometimes when we look back we wish we'd had a bigger ceremony to share memories with others. But life goes on. We had the same 90 day restriction you had and there's only so much you can do with both families in that time. Beautiful jewelry by the way. What a great creative skill to have! Praying it takes off for you. Deep breath & patience 😊
I'm from Croatia and glad you mension my country in positive way. I travel a lot.Croatia and Greece have have most beautiful sea in Europe. Personaly I prefer France mostly because of food.Congratilation for weding. Enyoj.
@C.B-u5s I was in Barcelona twice, once in Loret del Mar.I think mine.Maybe I'm biased.We have more than 1000 island.
@@C.B-u5sAt the moment we have the same problem as you.Too many tourists.Spain is much bigger country.
I am English. Best thing about living in California for me would be the Latin American food, gas prices, free parking in many places, the dispensarys and the soda drinks with full sugar. Especially root beer. And the friendly American bar culture.
The things that suck would be seeing the poverty, scared of getting car jacked and murdered, great white sharks in the ocean, the police are often bullies, the prices for some basic things like Paracetamol are pretty high and access to healthcare for someone like me would be questionable.
Congratulations.
Catalina was the perfect choice. I have always loved it there.
I’m going to advise you to think about designing more not just jewelry. you’re very talented lady and you should do more never stop always push forward and create the things that you love that people will love
Congratulations!!
Hello again from Lancaster Pennsylvania Amish country. I miss your videos I hope you post a new one for your loyal viewers ❤
I have always appreciated your videos. Perhaps you could give us a a tour around different parts of California as your commentary and explanation is always great. Many parts of California as so beautiful (albeit expensive as crap, and high taxes) but in many cases you are close to an ocean, mountains, and desert - very cool.
Congrats Sveta🎉! ❤ I married the WRONG person so I'm glad you found the right one😅 and no sweat... life happens... I was away from TH-cam for 18 months! The people who love you will still be there❤ good to hear from you, I missed your videos
I am happy for you, my lady is in Barnual, we have not been together since the war, we plan to meet in Thailand this january. We really love each other and have not been able to give up. Your videos have been helpful thank you
Svetlana, first, congratulations on getting married. I can only hope you and your new husband have a wonderful life together. Second, I'll just ignore the comments about going home. Now, I'm having trouble with your "videos suck" comments because me and 130k people decided to click the subscribe button! So, do you give up and quit YT or continue? That is a question for you and hubby! If you do continue, your channel needs to adapt and change. Your no longer in Russian, in Russia, filming what you know! You are now a Russian, in the US, trying to film the unknown.
If you do continue, maybe you should begin producing some shorts and grow the channel like a business (Maybe show you working on a bracelet or buying that $5,000 cup of coffee 😂😂 ), This could be a quick win for you and a chance to advertise and grow your ETSY shop! If you just give up, it will be over and 130k people will fade into the dark and we will move on.
I know in your heart you will make the right decision that is best for you and your future! Good luck and if it is the last time/last video, have a wonderful life and it was enjoyable seeing and learning about your Russia life!
Thank you for such a thoughtful comment! ❤
its the honesty in the videos that makes them Great. thats hard to come by over here... content yea what first started me watching was the trips to the river with the cook out. i dont know many places in california that don't have scenic stuff a short ways away. a stroll down a pier or beach combing (looking for random stuff on the beach) like edina97 said. dont get complicated you never were and thats part of the allure. you've gotten this far, its out there, find it.
I have enjoyed your videos for years. You have a gift to tell your story, and I learned so much about life in Russia. But Russia is in some trouble now, and I am glad you are in America, and away from the turmoil. I am not surprised that the change has caused you to second-guess things, though. You are a good person, very talented, and you are doing the right thing. But this is not an easy decision. Be kind to yourself. Continue to tell your story, because you have many people who have come to love you and care about you. God bless you. I look forward to your next video.
Congratulations to you. Wishing you and your newly-wed husband all the best!!!
Just a bit of advice, don't talk about your unhappiness, and boredom because your husband might get offended. be patient until you get your permanent residency or citizenship. You are a very clever girl. I'm sure you will get what you wanted all along
I am so happy for you. I just discovered your channel not that long ago and was wondering if you did leave Russia. Now I see and it's like watching a real life fairy tale come true. Congratulations!
Thank you! It was a big change but I'm so happy it worked out 🥰
So happy for you...I am in New Mexico. Followed you for awhile now. Love your family in Russia, too.❤❤❤❤❤
I'm so impressed you made your own wedding ring. You could totally start a small business and be successful at it. I'd buy some for me and my friends!! You need an Etsy or a website! EdITED - oh my god you have one! I know what I'm getting as some Xmas gifts!! I love the style🎉
Congratulations on your Merriage - Svietlana that new chapter in your Live , 2 years is the worst time a way from Russia and after 2 years feel l8ke home sweet home I am waiting for next video, just take a time -Hell from Australia 😊
Hi, nice to see you back on . Congratulations with marriage. I have enjoyed looking at your early vids. I love Siberia having been to Novosibirsk three times and Altai . Set small goals .. From experience, this depression will pass , but we all understand the emotions you are feeling .. I would like to live in Siberia lol...Regards from New Zealand
HELLO MY GODDESS! I HOPE ALL HAS BEEN WELL FOR YOU! CONGRATULATIONS ON THE WEDDING! I HAVE MISSED YOUR AMAZING EYES SO MUCH!
I probably speak for most, we dont depend on you, but we definitely care about you and wish you all the best. You have taught people a lot and brought happiness with your mixed genre of videos..
Wish you the best! I lived in Ventura awhile many years ago, nice city, beautiful area. Congratulations on your marriage, moving to another country always feels a little empty. I am sure you are missing friends and family, make some new friends, it will help fill the void somewhat.
Keep the videos coming. They are very interesting.
My comment is a little late to this post, but I had such a great experience with Svetlana's Etsy shop that I felt I wanted to share that with her community. From the time I expressed what I was looking for to gift a close friend, she could not have been more helpful. I got more than I could have expected in this bracelet and I know my friend will love the design. Strongly encourage everyone to head to her Etsy shop for gifts (even to yourself), and a purchase might serve to brighten Svetlana's opinion of the holiday season as well😊 She has great support on TH-cam, so let's transfer that to her other venture as well. Thanks again, Svetlana!
My wife is Belarusian, 26, she moved to my country, Guatemala, like 3 years ago. During that time she has occasionally questioned her life and her career many times. Even though she's a doctor, she's had difficulty finding a job and finding a career path that she thinks will be successful. She's always feeling like she's not doing good. Fortunately, we've been able to keep the situation under control. Hopefully, your husband will give you all the support you need to accommodate your new life.
Nice to see you again. We all missed you. I hope you will make some new friends that will help get you through your depression. Congratulations on your marriage. Your husband is a lucky guy. Хорошего дня
Svetlana, I checked your channel yesterday as I thought I had missed a video from you. I was concerned when there weren't any updates. I'm so relieved to see you posting again! I'm just "up the road" from you, in Oregon. Stay well and enjoy this month of Thanksgiving.
Congratulation!!
Please don't leave TH-cam so many people are rooting for you! Maybe you can do cookie Russian food with Sevetlana tell us about your culture, teach us Russian words when I comes to your cooking, do nature walks incorporate your Russian heritage with your new life in America maybe you can also connect with Eli from Russian she also a Russian TH-camr! Is their a Russian community in your area!!!! Glad about your marriage!!! Your creativity so wonderful to see!!! I want to see you make Russian food!!! ❤❤❤❤❤❤
When I'm depressed it's hard for me to leave the house and nothing I do brings me joy. That said, we all get depressed from time to time and it is not permanent. But, there is so much in California for you to share with your countrymen back home. Get out and talk to some people, interviews can be fun. People make all the difference. Love your show, good luck.
Thank you so much for your kind words! 😊
Welcome back here!
I think you need to decide if being a content creator is what you really want to do. It can be a lonely job, so if you like being around people it can be tough. Only you can decide if it's REALLY want you want to do. And if the answer is yes, you really need to commit to it. Create a "studio" of some kind even in a bedroom, get good lighting and a decent microphone, because in this video you had sunlight in your eyes and the echo was bad. Also, I'd get rid of the background "elevator music". These are just my personal opinions tips and meant as constructive criticism, not an insult, so I hope you take it that way. I wish you all the best whatever choice you make, you seem like a nice, genuine person, so good luck!
Thank you for your comment! I agree with most of what you said and I reaaaaally appreciate comments like that! 🥰
Congratulations on your marriage. Your depression is quite normal as it is part of a grieving process for your previous life. It usually takes about 6 months to improve, soon;t be discouraged. You are in a beautiful but expensive part of the US, but there is so much to see and enjoy that is not expensive. Your are within easy driving range of many interesting and beautiful sites which would make great TH-cam videos, especially seen through the fresh eyes of someone new to the area--museums, galleries, hotels, shopping, outdoor wonders of the coast, mountains, desert, etc. Your videos were great because they were genuine and honest, so just keep that up.