My OCD Story | David McDonald
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"Why could something spiritual be broken with a simple psychological trick?"
This question really nails it. Once you put aside the _need_ to believe, the idea the belief is _sacred,_ then you can break free.
As someone who has struggled with general and social anxiety, thanks for sharing. Glad you got help. Been enjoying your content and channel.
Thank you for sharing and your kind words.
Hey. Sorry I haven't gotten in touch with you yet.
I can relate so much. I got OCD about salvation, faith and the bible (found troubling things in the Bible that didn't square well with my fundie beliefs at the time), and probably looking back, psychosis too. My autism doesn't help with all that either... I struggled with this hell for 2 years, and I fully believed it to be spiritual. After a year of wrecking my mental, my family and my health (lost 20KG because I thought doing anything without faith was sin, and I didn't think I had faith, so I mostly didn't eat or take my medication, even when I had been constipated for 2 whole months) my parents dragged me to a psychologist. But they couldn't do anything for me, because I believed I was dealing with something spiritual and God was going to help me (famous last words I guess), and if I didn't listen to what the holy spirit was telling me (aka my intrusive thoughts and OCD) I would be resisting the Spirit.
I had gone through two psychologists who couldn't help me because I was stuck. I only prayed and read the Bible from wake up to falling asleep tired to waking up again. This is what Paul Washer thought me to do! This is what the Bible thought me to do! Call on him and he will answer. So they and I made myself more and more sick until I mentally snapped one day (2 years after it began?) and said there probably isn't a God. Only then could I start to recover, actually research what I was actually doubting about, start seeing I was delusional, malnourished, depressed and suicidal.
I still deal with anxiety and OCD every day, which is why I don't perform well at my job and haven't reached out to you yet, but it's more manageable when I don't believe that these things are actually God or the Holy Spirit. If it had taken any longer I probably would have died sooner rather than later. I'm extremely afraid to go see a therapist again (My friend who has PTSD thinks I have gotten PTSD from it all. I get a mental breakdown if I even think about it) but am slowly taking steps to do that. I have an appointment with my general health doc for a referral to a psychologist next week.
Thanks for sharing your story, it makes me realize I'm not alone.
Thanks for sharing your story. It sounds a lot like my friend's life atm. He is getting help but the process looks extremely hard 😞 I hope your appointment goes well and you get the help you need. Nothing but the best ❤️
I am so sorry you have gone through all of that. Paul Washer effected me too but I found him right before I started deconstructing so I wasn’t impacted too hard.
It sounds like you are on the right path, finding the right psychologist is key but for me a big thing that helped was medication (which I fought off for years) and actively staying on surface level things. I spent many weeks replaying an old elder scrolls game while listening to the Ricky Gervais XFM show from 2000. Doing something enjoyable (even though it didn’t feel enjoyable at the time) helped me keep my mind off the nonsense.
And IT IS NONSENSE. Don’t forget that.
Stay in touch, I hope you find the help you need soon.
I have scrupulosity OCD. I have visual and audible hallucinations. I also have anxiety and depression. The hallucinations are almost always religious in nature.
I am sorry to hear
I,m sorry to hear about your OCD .
I just want to first clarify that this is not an attack comment, I respect your rejection of religions for the reason you've explained, but I wanted to explain that my religion is different in a way that what you've been through wouldn't cause you to reject my religion as a bad thing. The reason for that is in my religion, spirituality and delusion are taught to be the same thing, in that delusion is just as bad as spirituality, that you can only trust spirituality when it can be logically understood as true. So let's say you heard a voice that said, "1+1=2" you would be able to trust that type of spirituality, because you can logically understand it as true (I suppose the word [trust] isn't exactly the right word for it, but I think you get what I mean).
My religion is called Flawlessism if you're interested in looking it up, and if not, I can respect that.
Can you share some resources? I’ve never heard of it.
@@DeepDrinks Sorry, TH-cam is removing my comment as spam. But if you try looking for Flawlessism, I'm certain you'll find it.
Have you heard of "Scrupulosity"? It's a term for religious OCD. I have suffered from it and going down the religious rabbit hole on youtube is interesting. Hearing a Catholic therapist explain the issues that religious denominations like Pentecostalism can cause was interesting. th-cam.com/video/aBVDziRE2kM/w-d-xo.html
Was the voice you heard audible?
I’ve heard that religious folks can get OCD pretty bad. My therapist used it as an example. I didn’t hear audible voices, just a strong inner intuition that I would once have called the voice of God.
@@DeepDrinks very similar experience too.