cleaning my depression room and taking care of myself [mellow vlog]
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- เผยแพร่เมื่อ 29 ม.ค. 2023
- hello frens of the internet :)
Depression can manifest differently for everyone and can look different depending on the season of your life. I hope that anyone struggling with their mental health does not compare what my mental health looks like to theirs. Especially since this video does not capture accurately what I go through. We all battle and navigate through it uniquely. I do hope that this can serve as some encouragement and a gentle reminder to take care of yourself in any way. Starting small like drinking enough water for the day, because sometimes that is the best we can do. This was a more light hearted mellow video, but perhaps in future videos I’ll share more about my mental health journey.
Thank you for showing up to life today, just as you are
I wanted to share that I’m not religious but I fully respect and honor all religions, as I believe there are many principle values and truths we can take from those sacred texts and apply to our lives if we choose to do so. My interpretation of God is not assigned to one religion, rather, I view God as a force of unconditional love. Regardless, the poem I read is one that can touch the heart of all beings, no matter if you are religous or not. Interpret it for how you want it to resonate with you and leave the rest behind. it’s all Love ❤️
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I don't really comment on social media, but this resonated with me so deeply, especially the part about returning to unhealthy habits after you've been around family for extended periods of time. Watching this was like watching myself last week- finding by (seeming) accident a small part of someone's life so similar to yours shared is such a profound connection. Thank you for sharing this, stranger. I wish you all the best and I hope your struggles lessen. Take care
Wow, such reflections. Thank you so much for taking the time to write your sweet message. I love knowing we are not alone in our experiences and how mirrored they are. I am sending you lots of love and courage as you navigate through the challenges in your life. 🫂❤️
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Same
Take care of yourself too, it's the most important thing right now 😊
I started tearing up when you showed that photo you keep of your younger self as a reminder of who you're talking to when speaking unkindly to yourself. What a great reminder to keep. I realize I might not be able to change the past, but that doesn't mean it has to keep following me in the form of sniping, uncharitable self-criticism. Thank you; this was a lovely video for you to share.
I’m giving you and your inner a child a warm cozy hug, sending lots of love to you both 🫂💓
Meetoo! Was about to comment this lol
I just love how this video is so realistic and we all can relate to it
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It is so comfy to see realistic videos. I feel like I'm being embraced
yes it’s comforting
Totally cannot relate to this in any way. I hope she recovers. God Bless.
dude sleeping as a way to avoid everything is so fucking relatable. thanks for sharing :' )
I cried during this. This might seem like just a calm video to some but I realized the pain that you’ve been going through is like mine. You were able to not give up and truly give it your all and it’s inspiring. It’s truly hurts me that you also seem like an amazing person who’s super beautiful and no one should have to go through this. You might have inspired me to clean my disaster of a room that could take a month to clean. When you read the poem your voice was so soft and comforting and the poem you shared was truly beautiful. I know you probably won’t see this, but from the bottom of my heart, thank you for this little bit of paradise.
i had a horrible couple of days to the point that I didn't get out of bed until 6pm today and i figured i would go sit in my chair instead and go on my laptop instead of my phone (baby steps) this was the first video that came up in my recommended and it is exactly what I'm going through today. it helped a lot, i really needed this thank you
So proud of you! ♡
You can do this!! Start small theres no rush your a beautiful person and alot of people love you
I hope you get better
Keep going!! 💗💗💗
I do love the fact that now people are more interested in realistic videos then in videos with high quality, expensive picture and etc. Nowadays such videos are aprecciated.
While watching this, I felt so calm and peaceful, I often try to find something like that to relax. Thank you!
the poem I read is from the book “The Gift” by Hafiz
it’s truly such a wonderful collection of poems by a 13th century Persian poet :)
[edit: I want to acknowledge that I’m aware my depression room is very mild in this video. My room truly has seen so much messier, and it just so happened that when I decided to film this video my room wasn’t that cluttered. I actually was debating if I should make it more “messy” so it was more realistic for how my room usually looks when I’m deep in a depressive episode, but I chose to keep it the way it is because that is what my room truly looked liked at that time. Please do not compare how your depression looks to mine, especially since this video doesn’t accurately capture the totality of what my depression can look like. Wherever you’re at on your mental health journey and whatever that looks like for you is so valid and so lovable ❤]
that’s really cool that you like hafiz! i’m persian and my family’s obsessed with hafiz so we have like 4 books lol. so i was surprised to see you reading it but im glad you like it!
@@helili yeah I'm Persian & i felt the same too
من خودم خیلی دیوان حافظ رو دوست داشتم همیشه، ولی نمیدونستم کتابهای دیگه ای هم داره
فک میکردم فقط همین دیوانش مجموعه همه شعراییه که گفته
Thank you for your video. It made me realize lots of things, such as talking kind words to myself. And OMG the poem was the highlight for me. I also was wondering which song you are playing at the end? It's so calm and it feels like a lullaby 💕 And thank you for loving yourself enough to take care of yourself, I know how much energy it takes to do something as "simple" as having some water in those days. So thank you, you are loved and appreciated, and I fully believe we all are here for a reason. Being happy and living our best life is such a great way to start, right? May God keep your heart close to His, so full of warmth and joy. Because no matter what the world says against you, you may never forget God loves you immensely.
This made me go into tears because of how raw and real this video is for me. Everything that you bring up about making your bed, doing laundry and cleaning takes so much effort for any one that suffers from depression…
this video often comes up on my homepage just when I need it, it makes me feel very warm and calm and happy and resonates with me whenever it comes up randomly. it always feels like that warm honey milk drink the mom in ponyo makes during a thunderstorm! Thank you for making me feel very warm and calm and happy, and reminding me of the warm honey milk drink from ponyo! and thank u for reading us a poem and making us feel seen and connected to one another
🥺🥺 warm and cozy feelings all the way, I love that you felt that. I think I’ll rewatch ponyo too🐙
Sometimes I really need to remind myself that the simplest things are enough when the going gets tough. Managing to clean up or making some food for yourself or messaging a friend takes so much energy when there's a low. This video is so delightfully real and gentle. Thank you and I wish you and everyone in the comments all the best
I struggle with self depricating thoughts and your idea to keep a photo of you as a child to remind yourself that's who you're talking to struck such a chord with me. Because I couldn't imagine myself saying those things to her, but here I am! I might try that myself. Lots of love and prayers for your journey!
im gonna try that haha i hope it works
If your are good and loving to yourself, remember that at the same time you are being loving to the entire world. What you do to yourself gets extended to the whole world, energetically, and eventually throughout your life too.
So, you are helping us all by being kind to yourself.
I send you all my love.
Ikr! I heard of it before but forgot about it. Now I'm going to make myself some tea, search for my old photo albums and cherish my (child)-self more :)
This found me at the right time, I’ve been going through another depression slump these past few weeks, and I especially relate about using sleep as a coping mechanism. But I think I’m ready to start trying again, to continue trying even through the bad days. Because there’s always a chance that tomorrow will be better. Thank you for giving me a boost of motivation and comfort knowing I’m not going through this alone. Sending you healing and positive energy
hello love, I am smiling on the other side of the screen, knowing that you are feeling the hope of better days. I absolutely love what you shared about trying even through the bad days. We may fall often, but we’ll just keep getting back up, by then we’ll be such pros that getting back up is just an automatic response :)
Sending you courage and compassion as you move through both the positive and negative days. the light is already shining onto your reality ☺️
@@eternalrebirth333 ❤❤❤❤
how are we so similar?
Same and i feel so bad because of it
@@taehyunggtae 🍂
hey, I pray that you, me, and all of us who are suffering from something will get over it. we will find a way to get our spark back and come back even stronger. we shouldn't forget that every time we fell into that slump, we came out of it and this time too we will. that book from which you read that poem was pleasing enough for me i just want to know that book's name. thank you for reading this so long.
wow thank you for sharing your prayer with all of us here. Yes I fully believe we all will, and i have no doubt that our resiliency will triumph all the hardships.
also sooo happy to know you enjoyed the poem as much as I did, please check my pinned comment for the book title :)
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I've been struggling with and learning from depression and anxiety a lot recently, and it is so lovely to see someone else being vulnerable and intentional like this online. It is clear that you are doing your best to be gentle with yourself and keep moving forward, just wanted to say that you're doing great!!!! Keep going and thank you for sharing!!!
Everytime I slip back into a bad depressive episode I come back and watch this video I don’t know why but it’s extremely comforting. Thank you for helping me
I had such a hard time when I had to move back in with my parents after graduating from college. Having to re-adjust, becoming seen as a child simply by living under the same roof again, the guilt and shame surrounding it. I would stay up all night sometimes and sleep half or more of the day away others. My eating was irregular, I wasn't able to take care of myself like I had before for quite a while. It takes time, but things will absolutely change. Sometimes all it takes is one good opportunity that makes you want to take a leap, something that pushes you to get up and be passionate about life again. It happened for me, and I've been a lot happier ever since I was able to get back on the path I wanted for myself. Taking it slow, taking better care of myself, that is truly what helped me through that low time of my life. Wishing you the best!!
this is so real as I relate as well. and very much resonate with that one good opportunity that makes you feel passionate about life again. I am so happy to hear that you have found what makes you light up, and that you are giving yourself the grace to go at your own pace. Thank you for taking the time to share this, I’m celebrating the both of us :)
when you said you kept that photo of your younger self to remind you who you are talking to when being unkind to yourself I just found myself crying cause I deeply resonated with it
I'm honestly so proud of you. I know I dont know you and you probably think I'm just some random person who doesn't know much. But just getting up and deciding to make it better for yourself is such a big step. I know what its like to feel so full and lethargic and tired and just stuck in a never ending cycle. Your going to have some bad days but keep on going.
thank you so much 🥺 don’t even have words tbh, just grateful to receive your kind message. sending you lots of love and abundance sweet one
@@eternalrebirth333 Its np. I hope you have a good day
I am glad to see that you are also adapting the benefits of Indian culture by doing Yoga and Gayatri Mantra. Hope you stay happy and healthy. Love from India. ❤
I sometimes find that videos online to help people 'get out of depression ruts' are very full on and can feel really overwhelming when you just want some motivation to do better but this video felt like a gentle hug and like it was coaxing me out of my unhealthy habits. Thank you for being such a gentle being and thank you for sharing your gentleness with the world.
i've been trying recently to get my life back into shape and this video made me feel great and more motivated to get through it so thank you so much for this!! Keep going, you are doing great dear~
ahh I’m so proud of you and touched to hear it brought motivation to keep going. thank you for your presence here, we growing through it together :)
@@eternalrebirth333 yessss exactly! Also thank you again :)
Ugh it was probably a good thing your video came into my recommended because the title of the video, “depression room”, really reminded me how my room was a complete mess and how I never bothered to clean it and I’m always just sitting around using my phone when I should be doing my homework that has been piling up, and I feel just so overwhelmed, but this gives me hope encourage to get through it
hey, i’ve been in ur situation and i want u to know that you can do it. i believe in you okay? just take things slowly, like doing a little bit of hw first and then cleaning parts of your room. you can do it!
It’s really good to see you doing laundry, stretching, reading and cleaning. Motivates me. Actually it seems easy when I see other people doing those simple things. But only you know what you have been through. Keep going. We all have good days and bad days. Hope you’re getting better little by little 💛
Thank you for sharing this masterpiece. This is another solid evidence that we should not force ourselves to do something just to be labelled as "productive" It is INDEED OKAY to take things slowly. In fact, being on bed all day is a productive/healthy routine for us. We should all be gentle in ourselves, in that way we can see what beauty we can do tomorrow.
I don't know why is this video in my recommended but you have a BEAUTIFUL voice while u reading that poem.
that is so so sweet, I love poetry and sharing it is honestly one of my love languages. So it means so much you and many others have enjoyed the poem🥹🥹
@@eternalrebirth333what’s the book of poems that you were reading? It was so lovely that i teared up
@@bunnyboo888 i would like to know as well!!
@@bunnyboo888 it is called The Gift: Poems by Hafiz
@@Eli-gl1fp it is called The Gift: Poems by Hafiz
seeing the words "loving myself out of a depressive slump" really put my own recoveries in persepctive for me. loving yourself gently enough to ease you back into routine is so so important so thank you for bringing it to light :)
So thankful for this video’s existence
I was feeling very depressed recently and I got this video on my TH-cam recommendation I absolutely loved this, I feel like I'm not the only one feeling this out of the world 🥺❤️
Thank you for sharing such a great video✨🦋
Your video is a gift. You are truly wise beyond your years and a blessing.
i cried so hard... i cant even tell you why. i guess i just felt really comfortable with you and last time i felt this pretty feeling was too much time ago. im so glad i felt it again. thank you angel, you cant even imagine how matter was your help to me... i love you!
this was the sweetest thing to read. all tears are welcome here, and all of you is welcome here, I love you too !
@@eternalrebirth333 I cant stop smiling to screen... you made my day better AGAIN... what an angel you are. god bless you!!🪷🥹
Such a beautiful soul, thank you for making this video. The guitar at the end was enough to make me burst into tears. Sending you loads of love.
Thank you ❤❤💫
It's been a week I was in a depression. Now I am going to clean my room.
i love how this is slow paced and calm, i love this🫶🏼
I really enjoyed watching your video. I feel grateful that there are people like you who exist and make me feel less alone in my current life issues. thank you so much.
I wake up today literally feeling like this.. and seeing this quiet loving video made me feel better. So at least I cried, wake up, clean up a bit and made my bed. I hope it gets better.
I'm so glad this video reached me today. You helped me clear my mind from the many things that are going on right now, and inspired me to be kind to myself this evening. I'm gonna go shower now and take time for myself instead of trying to ignore the problems. Thank you so much for this and sharing this part of your life with us. I hope you're well :)
this made my heart so warm 🥹🥹 Thank you thank you thank you ❤️ I hope you continue anchoring the voice of compassion into your day
It was quite touching.. I saw a reflection of the feelings that I had experienced many times especially in the last month. I can understand how much energy it takes to be able to do small things, especially in a depressive moment. That's why I want you to know that the time and care you give to yourself, your effort, and the fact that you touch many people who have similar feelings are very valuable. 🌿💚
I learned that is a good habit to reward ourselves after doing a great thing even if it is a small thing, we should reward ourselves. Thank you! Your content makes my Friday evening perfect. Take care and wish you all good things happen to you.
Your room looks so comfortable and cozy and would give good vibes to be in
You're such an inspiration..I do hope that you'd reach more people especially those currently undergoing depression. Please continue inspiring us and may God bless you and your family always..❤❤
This video reminds me of my dark days when i just wanted to escape reality... But somehow i manged to overcome that darkness. Now also sometimes i feel like m worthless and feel like sleeping and never confront the reality. Your video was so relatable for many ppl and thanx for the video and thanx for sharing ur experience to us... Keep smiling because u put a smile in many faces like mine. 😃
I really needed this,,, not sure how this video made it's way into my recommendations but I haven't felt so seen in such a while. the part about the manifestation into the physical surroundings especially, hope you're doing better and thank you for giving me the motivation to clear my own room and in a way my cluttered mind too
Most realistic and calm video I’ve seen in a long time 💙💙 I hope you continue to create videos whenever you feel inspired. Thank you for your vulnerability 💙
I watch this video every time I need motivation. I have no idea why, but this video gives me so much comfort. ❤️
Hey! Thank you so much for posting this it made me clean my depression room and I feel much better now that I have a clean environment! Best of luck in anything you wish to accomplish!💗
Im dealing with this and this was refreshing to see other people deal with it too since social media can only display the good and make u feel like ur missing out :C Im trying to get better but its been rough
I'm really in love with this video. no crazy cuts or loud talking. just a very very chill, real cleaning vid. thank you
I don't think i've ever resonated so deeply with someone before. So glad i came across your video
this is my first time watching you but you make me feel extremely comfortable. you’re a great person. :)
hope you make more videos. this was very relaxing. sending love and hugs for each beautiful day you are here ♥
Oh my I'm just cried the whole video. I didn't expect it to make me feel such a strong emotions. And you're voice is so beautiful and calming
Thanks for sharing. I feel myself slipping into a depressive slump so it is nice to be reminded of ways to get through.
For some reason I cannot explain, your video has made me feel very warm inside. Thank you, and keep taking care of yourself. You're doing great 🙂
Really needed to see this today, I feel so blessed that you’re video arrived in my recommended when I needed it most! Sending my love💌
Girl your voice is so soothing mashallah💕 I can listen to u all day
You have helped me get out of bed today and shower. Thank you ❤️
This is me nearly every day. Staying in my bed and not wanting to get up, but this video is really inspiring to me to make a change, and try and come out of my shell. Thanks for sharing this.
i had a day just like this one today. thank you for making this
This is nice, I really enjoy the atmosphere in this video especially your room. It’s hard to find channels like yours for example I don’t know but it’s calming and v interesting. There’s just something about it yk. Look forward to seeing more ☺️.
Found your channel at the right time 🙏🏻 The past few weeks have been pretty rough, just going through a lot of unfortunate events that brought back a lot of the trauma I've been working so very hard (together with help from my therapist) to heal from. I was at my wits end, felt myself spiralling again, because I'm afraid of starting back at square one. It was all so overwhelming, I kept praying I'd find something here that'll help. That's when youtube recommended your videos. Listening to you sharing about your experiences with us and watching your videos is really therapeutic, you have such a soothing voice! ✨
I bawled the entire time, thank you so much for sharing this, I'm so looking forward to seeing more!
I don't know what do I like these videos. I love to see people being happy. Hope you the best, you are so strong 💘
Hi thank you so much for sharing this . Even though I cannot relate exactly because I struggle with anxiety this feels so comforting to watch . To know that I’m not the only one in the world who struggles with things that other people do so easily . So really thank you , glad this appeared in my recommendations .
i needed this. i so desperately needed this.
This was so calming - I love your room! Inspired me to try and do something to care for myself
i love your room so much! this video felt like a breath of fresh air, thank you. i hope you're doing better.
wow i’m speechless. i’m so glad youtube recommended this video for me. you inspired and motivated me sm throughout this video in a way i can’t explain it :(
i like how this is calming but not boring. its hard to achieve that and this motivated me. i hope you do well in the future. i an rooting for you.
i love this, this gives me so much motivation. this is so real🫶🏼
This is so calming. Your voice and the entire video was so relaxing.
This past month has been really tough and i have been stuck in a depressive episode. It has been so hard getting out of bed and doing anything. Seeing you taking time to take care of yourself , even just cleaning up your desk and bed, made me feel a bit better and motivated. I feel I just wanted to say that . I wish you all the best and I hope you do more of videos like this.
giving you a big hug through the screen, I know how challenging it can be to do even the simplest of things. You got this love, break down tasks to the most micro level and start there. patience and compassion are your best friends. I believe in you, one step at a time :)
I can relate to this so much. I am also practising taking better care of myself and my belongings. Good luck on your journey.
i really appreciate this video and i really appreciate you for posting it as well. you seem like you have such a gentle soul. the little caption commentary was such a lovely touch as well, i feel like i know a little part about you :) it was very comforting and inspiring. thank you!! 🩷
Getting to this point, where you can a achive this AND film and edit it. Is really admirable. I really hope you get better every new day and find more things that make you happy. Just know that I really admire you.
This video is so comforting, I rewatch so often when I feel down or anything in that category.
Thank you so much for it, it truly helps and means so much🤍
thank you 🥺 thank you for making this space on the internet cozy :)
What a warm, dear little person you are! I'm sure you will feel better now your room and self are clean! It always helps me, but isn't always easy to do when you're down.
I truthfully love this video. It motivated me to clean up my own room which is something I haven’t done in many months until now. So thank you very much for sharing this video it has effected me greatly and I appreciate that. Have an amazing day and/or night ❤
9:07 had me in tears
this video is so comforting
i think i found my comfort video which im going to watch over and over again whenever i feel bad or i need to clean my room>i love it so much and u r so good at playing guitar! keep going 3>
this video was so comforting and relaxing to watch
it really does warm my heart knowing this brought some comfort and peace to you, thank you for your presence here☺️
This video is so relaxing that i came back to watch it after 5 minutes,so addictive 😊🧡🧡
That poem is now one of my favorites. Thank you for sharing.
Im so glad i came across your channel. This is how I am when I’m with myself.
this was so reaistic and relaxing at the same time. After that video, I took care of myself after a while
Thank you for this video. It really helped me calm down and helped me gain new perspective. I can start again and get back into things.
today i had really bad time during my anxiety moment and found out ur video and made me feel receiving a big hug of love, thank you 🫂🤍
This is so real, I loved this video so much
You are so beautiful, confident and strong! This is the first vid of yours I’ve watched and I am now a subscriber. ❤
Im crying this is so healing!
Thank you for making me feel that I'm not alone. When My depressive phase starts I don't even leave my Bed, often skip food. But Nowadays I clean my room to start a new cycle. Cleaning is one of my depression therapy ❤️
I saw me in you. I hope you keep posting and share your journey with us . Thankyou for uploading this video ❤️
love your voice🥺 i would listen to this to get to sleep, its so soft :(
Your voice is so calming, also you're so pretty
this video felt like a warm hug, thank you
This makes me feel so safe for some reason ❤ 🫶🏻
Watching this video really not only hit some very touching valleys in my own inner self, but moved me in a way. I just felt something special watching it, something beautiful…important. The words and poem expressed in this were truly beautiful. I also felt a heart string when you showed your old pic and why you kept it around. I felt moved to say that for all the negative you may struggle with or will struggle with, you are really special. I can’t explain it. Something about you just feels remarkably soulful and beautiful. You are someone special and I really love to know more. I’m just a guy on this side of a screen but thank you for these kinds of vids. They mean something amazing. I only hope that you know they are so amazing because of you being some awesome. Don’t be so hard on yourself if you can’t, and remember beauty is not in perfection, but rather in imperfection. Thus it is in our imperfections where we grow our gardens of reflection and presentation. Accept and love ever scar and don’t be afraid. You matter. The world is better because of it I am sure :)
thank you for this
this is my favourite vlog, thank you for making this:)
ur room looks so comfy omg
Thank you for shearing, your vid lowed my anxiety and made small piece of my heart actually believe that I am not the only one who is in condition like this. Every time feels like another part of me is healed, thank u again and wishing u all the best