Now that you bring it up.... you're right. The GenZ's and GenA's didn't really get that experience (only getting obnoxious thumbnails and wacky sounds) and I'd not realized this. These videos really are comforting and now I know why - thank you!
There's nothing wrong in wanting to improve your mind. I didn't get my degree until I was 37 & masters degree when I was almost 46. Exploring knowledge to grow as a person is both enjoyable and rewarding, you get to explore new ideas & concepts, enrich yourself & grow as a person.
Here's the million dollar question for late bloomers (I'm 30 & need a degree) - at what age did you find love? Were they there for you when you got your masters?
@@samuelevander9823 Love has been illusive for me. I'm Dyslexic so getting my degree & then my Masters is a really big personal achievement for me, my parents have been very supportive in that respect.
You don't really need to find out what's goin' on You don't really want to know just how far it's gone Just leave well enough alone, keep your dirty laundry"" ignorance is bliss " we can always buy insurance
Im at the very beginning of a brutal eating disorder recovery. If i can be honest with just you, i havent wanted to recover, truly. But about an hour ago i was rotting in bed, scrolling on my phone as ive been doing with nearly all my life it seems, and i came across your previous video. Usually i just send any videos i want to watch to my "watch later playlist" and never end up watching them. But i saw your video and i actually couldn't tell what it was about, which i think intrigued me, so i watched it. And fuck, i felt like i met someone who actully understood my mind, who felt and thought as deeply as i do. What you said on for the first time in your life, no longer wanting to focus soley on being a pretty girl, to instead want to learn and grow, hit me. Im in nearly the same position, i have nothing to show for. No smarts, no looks, no goals or accomplishments, i just lay in bed all day looking on my phone at ways i can imrpove my life, my worth, to be prettier. I still feel this way honestly, but for the first time in month's, really since i was first put into hosptial care and had my recovery started, ive actully considered it. Your video made me want to, i dont know, be smarter haha. It made me want to work on my mind rather than just my looks. To be able to, like you said, think, and uss my brain lol. So i dont know, i wasent even going to write anything, but i giess i wanted to say, rhank you for being vulnerable and making/posting that video. -Amaya
Managing expectations is a good move. There's always gonna be a choice to make between saving up ideas to put out some video essay (like shoe0nhead), or a creative artistic piece, or just rambling about what's been on your mind lately, however silly or stream-of-consciousness it might be. Short content, long content, absurd, sincere, emotional, abstract, all good for expressing various facets of that charming weirdo who's creating it. If your content is built from your whims, interests, and inspiration, your audience will naturally filter to those who bother to follow along. Totally fine if you leave a few behind who couldn't or wouldn't keep up.
Saving up ideas for the future reminds me exactly of what some songwriters do. You come up with a riff, can’t add onto it at the moment, so you file it away for the future when it may work with something else. So maybe not the same thing but it is similar.
it took me 10 YEARS to no longer be stupid once i realized i was. i expect to will b much faster for you, but don't stress the time frame. you got time
"I truly sympathize with your situation because I can't how imagine how frustrating it must be to be aggravated by something so unimportant to you and your life" PREACH😂😂😂 I'm dying! Your septum ring looks dope!
Hey, I stumbled across your channel. Somehow it was in my feed. Anyways, I'm an artist, from America. I was really impressed with your ability to voice your inner desire, or struggle? Whatever it was. I'm really loving you. Have a great day. Your absolutely lovely.
I would say this if I wasn’t such a beta 😂 Because it’s like the honesty and openness coming from some beautiful yet unfamiliar face gives me really pleasant feelings. I have no idea what it is 😂❤️ 9:35-9:42 So cute 😂
Somehow Your previous video popped up on my feed - and I watched it today, out of curiosity. Watching You self-reflect was enjoyable and brought a smile to my face - as I've been following similar path those past few months. Dropping those weird programs that we all think are so important: be beautiful, be the best, constantly chase, and so on - dropping those to make space for introspection and improvement is a large step. I'm gonna stay here, and observe Your journey with joy. You are already awesome, and You will be even more awesome, and that is something to look forward to :)
I'd love to hear more about your curiosities, maybe find a rabbit hole that interests you and take us on your journey of discovery as you delve the depths of the subject. The important part is your interest in the subject, if you're having fun, we will have fun with you. I have a passion for knowledge and love learning new things every day, that's all I seek.
Hi, I'm one of the 40k who discovered your channel from your last video, commented, and subscribed. I, for one, applaud your dedication in staying true to your roots and vowing to remain stupid. Seriously, though... From your last video, I would enjoy listening to you discuss what subject, topic, or medium you've decided to take a deeper look at and hearing your thoughts and discoveries. Thanks for the authenticity, it's refreshing.
meal prepping ideas... setting the scene... lights, camera, action, failure... I do like the acceptance of organic vs what I would call forced, it seems more authentic. But I also like preparing, like the idea that a movie takes a lot of editing and kind of forced repeat takes to get something that comes out well-done. So, sometimes this, sometimes that. What makes something authentic? 🤔
A good question! Without jokes i think it is an authentic question, i mean maybe "What makes something authentic?" it is exist in your question also. Maybe "honestness" - sharing something personal and with self-reflecting? Or it is an one of weights in recomendation network, when we love to watch when different people is sharing with us something heh.
You inspire many people, and regardless of the direction or form your content takes, you will thrive. As you continue to follow your passion and create content from the heart, success will undoubtedly follow. Built it, and they will come. You've got this 💪
You already have the accent to seem intellectual, the next steps are probably the smoking jacket, mustache, and pipe. Looking forward to your next video!))
You remind me so much of the early days of TH-cam. Back then, since we didn’t have a lot of established ideas of what content was supposed to be, a lot of people would share their thoughts on things and show us little pieces of their lives. This was replaced by highly produced, shallow work. I’m glad some people are still making the former sort of content.
I see your foreheads growing nicely, the thinking is working lol. I think TH-cam feels very capitalistic nowadays, everyone seems fake, intent on selling something, or like they just have perfect stress free lives, its always so refreshing coming across videos of people just being real and vulnerable. It reminds us that we aren't the only ones struggling. Not saying all your vids have to be like that, I just think people really pick up on something coming from the heart. It's all a process, a video not doing well or an idea not shaping up like you'd hoped isnt the end of it, you climbed up there once you can do it again. I'm also kinda the same way with my creativity, it has to happen organically or i start to feel feel miserable/unfulfilled.. dunno if itll help but the best advice I've gotten on creativity is to not think about it at first, just throw paint at the wall and see what sticks/wait till i feel a spark. Soon as i started "throwing paint" out of sheer enjoyment/curiosity ideas started flowing a lot smoother. But yeah nice to see you're doing well, the visual rebranding videos actually sounds like a really cool idea! Also really love hearing artists talk about their art and process and feelings towards their art, I think that'd be a cool video.
YEEEEESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I WENT TO YOUR CHANNEL!!!!!! I really love the fact that this is a follow up! You taking that moment as a inward reflection of yourself and understand that you have you own contribution to our shared life experience as humans!!!! We all live different lives but they are all shared in one way, shape, or form. The fact that we, as people, know that we have emotions and realize that other humans also do; shows that we are more connected than what is on that surface. Use you, as in your individuality, to strengthen that connection between others. Humans are so successful because we have our distinct individual awareness and understand that others do,: i.e. being social creatures. That combination of traits is rarely seen between the millions of creatures on earth. Why not cherish it?! I subbed and turned on the notifications because I cant wait to see what you become!!!!! Once again, best of wishes!!!!!!
I did horribly through high school. I just didn't have the attention span for all that kind of work. I later realized in college and in the real world Im much better learning on my own because I can learn at my own pace. For me it's just small really fast bursts and constantly switching subjects and ideas. I think the education system only caters to one type of learning and then they tell the kids who that system fails that they are dumb, in one way or another. When someone is called dumb and stupid repeatedly it gets to them and for me I really just felt stupid and hopeless. But after high school I realized anyone is capable of getting good at anything and things like communication skills, reasoning, and problem solving were things I lacked at. I just try now. I've taught myself multiple instruments, I've learned music production, I volunteered at a church for some time and got some AV experience there. Took that experience and eventually landed an operations manager job. Where I'm frequently having to explain my knowledge on AV systems to new employees. Which furthers my understanding on it as well. It feels like im not stupid anymore and your videos really touched me emotionally. ANYONE can get good at ANYTHING so long as they want it.
I was expecting you to come back as Gary from that spongebob episode where he goes into his mind and discovered him to be super intelligent ;) jk (obviously) THANK YOU for putting yourself out there, you never know who you'll inspire
@@haropones So now that you have the world's smartest brain, is it okay if we keep thinking that you are very very pretty as well? You probably can be both a brilliant philosopher/astrophysicist and a world famous pretty much beautiful human being. Just trying to say, one doesn't really cancel the other. Since you are a girl you can do anything, so you can probably be smart AND pretty and only need to rest once in a while from all that hard work (lol).
Now you look like the player 2 skin for Colonel Sanders. It's a good look. You wear it well. Great vlog though Haro. It's always enjoyable listening to your smart brain thoughts. Keep making the content you want to make. But also, about six years ago I tried reading Beyond Good and Evil. Made it to about page sixty before giving up. That is not an easy read. So I'd be well up for a ten minute Haro version. Take care. Byeeeeeee.
This feels sorta relatable to me. Growing in a certain subject is really depressing in this day and age, wether it be a certain skill or the general concept of intelligence. Whenever you go online, you will see thousands of people that are better at it than you. Its really hard to tune that out and compare yourself to the people around you, and not literally the best people at it world wide
"I don't wanna be stupid anymore" is something I've felt and that inner turmoil resonated with like a personal experience I'd had growing up with brilliant older siblings; feeling like I'm bad at everything else and not having faith in my ability to be adequate when it came to anything besides the stuff I thought I was good at. I'd be interested in hearing more about what you have to say when it comes to identity and body image. I also think the footage of the the places you've gone to in your previous videos is like, creatively inspiring. thanks harophones
Really resonated with your video thank you for making it! I didn’t like school at all, but love learning now. I think it’s important that we find the ways that we enjoy learning most, for instance I’ve never been able to focus on a reading, but now use audiobooks every day
Or another topic that could be interesting to unravel: Is there such a thing as evil? Is there such a thing as good? And how do you define one or both of them?
This was a great followup! I'd like to stress something again: It's not about pleasing others. And you know that, you just said it. And I know, this is easy to say, but hard to do. I'm also still struggling with this. Just keep doing what you're passionate about, and it's always great to share it with others, whatever it may be.
I just watched this and your last video at what has been an already really cathartic few days in my own journey of growth and self-discovery, contributing to what feels like one of the most serendipitous little period of my life, so thank you for that. I've subscribed because I really enjoy learning about people and watching them grow, and I've also realized I should put myself into contact with more people/communities where we can share what we've learned and just experience the journey together. I'm really proud of your effort, bravery, and honesty in confronting your own thoughts and identity (not to mention uploading it online too !!) because its a difficult and scary thing to do; it's inspiring and comforting to see while I try to do the same in my own life. Specifically in this video when you were talking about the sort of scarcity mindset you have in life, I think it's not an unreasonable feeling, like while yes the spontaneous, organic authenticity is what people love to see and is probably what drives the quality behind it, it's also worth trying to understand the process. There's this weird stigma around knowledge and conscious/effortful thought when it comes to creativity which can make it feel contrived, but understanding your creative process doesn't necessarily have to change how your creativity manifests, just when or how often it does. The feeling that comes after doing something that you value could be an innate drive to pursue what you want to keep doing or fear arising from a sense of perceived scarcity (it's probably a mix like most things), but either way, understanding how to cultivate those moments of curiosity, joy, and honest expression I feel can help you trust in the process more, and free your mind up to explore that part of you in more detail. I could go on forever probably but anyway thanks haha I look forward to whatever you're up to next and also to anyone who wants to talk about this stuff further !!
I think it's so silly that people care SO much about stuff that'll never even affect them, and I think that it must be projection. That they themself are so insecure about their own image, that they must place that insecurity on someone else to feel a little bit better. Even if it's just for a short while. If we all focused on ourself instead, then maybe this world would be a better place overall.
//No quantum physics breakthroughs... pfft You aren't defined by a video- don't worry. I know it's easy to want to expand the wells you've opened that people have pooled into, but there are so many factors involved, like an algorithm and the snowball effect. You are so much more and if all we do is chase that dopamine the numbers bring us then we lose ourselves to the machine. I hope you continue to foster a community that respects you being your true self, instead of you trying to stretch or cram into a mold manufactured by them. You seem more than self-aware and capable to pull that off so keep up the good work.
I'm grateful that you're sharing this vulnerable perspective. Reading your comments, I'm realizing how many of us have felt the same, but few of us are ready to talk about it.
I found what you had to say about when something you make goes viral so relating. When I went viral I felt so much pressure to have that happen again to make sure it wasn't a fluke. Sometimes I felt like I didn't really make the content I made, like I was so divorced from the outcome of my work. I hope that as your channel continues to grow you don't feel like you have to pidgeon-hole yourself into making any one specific kind of content and you feel like your posts are genuinely your posts, and that the channel is always fun and never all-consuming. Also I would love to hear you talk about your style and fashion. Subbed
0:18 just starting this after watching your previous video. Was looking forward to this follow up and glad I’m discovering you yesterday and today (shared), at the perfect moment to see what’s been on your mind since, and next. Cheers
I had a chuckle seeing the title of this video having just come from your previous one. Funny that it blew up like it did. I guess I'm not surprised. People are probably refreshed to hear genuine thoughts from thoughtful people. If you do happen to make more videos like this one or the last one it wouldn't hurt my feelings any.
I have no clue who you are but the last video popped up in my recommended and i ended up listening to the whole thing and this one. The whole experience was very endearing and enjoyable, and i wish you luck on your cranium expansion journey. I think you do a good job of articulating some complex things in very simple ways. Also your speech cadence reminds me of how i think sometimes. This was a cool rabbithole thank you for sharing lol
I found your videos ten minutes ago and honestly I'll watch anything you put out. You're entertaining af and I think a lot of people need to hear what you're saying.
I'm afraid Nietzsche's "Beyond Good & Evil" is one of my favorite books. 😁 Finding joy in knowledge is a driving force for me. I hope you enjoy it, too! 👍
I relate strongly to the struggle to "agree with myself on what I like and how I want to present myself." It's pretty wild, I often chalk it up to only recently even trying to start to think about such things, after having spent so long being committed to "not caring" and just generally assuming that there was no possible way I could present myself in a way that I would be happy with anyway. So it's interesting to hear that you've thought more explicitly about such things for longer but still have a similar struggle. Feels a little relieving to hear in a weird way, like maybe it's just part of the internal experiences of some people, and maybe I'm one of those people. In my case, it also results in me usually having a low-effort sort of style and appearance, which is okay, but often I think "dang if I dedicated some time and energy I might be able to figure out how to feel more like... confident and congruent in who I am inside and out." But alas... Different paths to get here, and different trajectories it sets us on.. Kind of a random point for me to recognize my own struggles in your description of yours--and I suppose they could actually be very different. I also appreciate you sharing what it's been like to have created a piece of content that performs well and the sorts of pressures that can make you feel (most likely because of capitalism, as you pointed out). I've often thought about how that would be stressful, even though I haven't really created content in like 20 years, I often think about ideas and then eventually get to "even if I found traction, it would probably only bring more stress into my life". That could also easily just be another excuse to not even try, which is definitely a pattern for me. And your previous video was of a format that I've felt compelled toward, because I've noticed that I don't really see people talking about struggles that I significantly or thoroughly relate to, only little bits and pieces here and there, so I figure maybe I could make content like that and maybe find people like me... Anyway, that's a tangent lol. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us.
7:16 Exactly! Just make a list of ideas, thoughts, projects and every once in a while look at them again and they will grow and grow in your mind. I do that for projects I wanna do videos for.
I usually stray away from youtube recommends and I'm glad I didn't this time! Thanks for sharing your thoughts on so many different things. I can relate to when you said reading and wanting to be smarter. And also the scarcity mindset. I think your realism in general is relatable. I haven't made a video where I felt the need to top it or gotten to the level of your viral. However when I get one stray comment i get excited. I just try to make fun and creative content that lingers on mind, similiar to what you said about your content creation. I wish you to continue to have fun in your youtube journey!
You have a god sense of humor. Hope you continue to find ways to grow and express what’s on your mind. Sometimes the best thoughts come through when we speak truthfully and honestly.
LMAO I just watched that video a few days ago and it's been on my mind since then. Now i open TH-cam and this is the first thing I see in my recommended feed, It really made me chuckle. I'm glad it did well btw! And sadly i don't really have any ideas for you to ignore but personally, I find this short videos where people discuss everyday topics or share their perspectives very enjoyable to watch. Just keep being you! (Or trying to find out what "you" is 🤔)
Sometimes I think that sharing is one of the best ways to learn, grow and give. Sometimes that is achieved through speaking and writing (or somehow presenting internet content) and sometimes it is achieved by looking, listening and experiencing (through whatever senses one has) the people and the world with you and around you. The digital world is part of that, but (thankfully imo) not all of that... I decided to go for hike the other day. Something I do regularly and enjoy and feel enlivened by for many reasons. At the top of a small mountain with a lovely overlook I have seen many times, there were two women chatting. One was (I'm guessing) my age and the other was slightly older. I don't tend to strike up too many conversations while out hiking. I don't wish to impose and meeting people isn't really the reason most people are out there, but sometimes conversation will come about naturally enough and attempting to remain mindful of the flow of the dialogue can help to determine when a conversation has run its course (in my experience). I can't exactly stop my ears, so it became apparent that the latter woman (let's call her Sarah, for convenience and anonymity) had received a job offer and was concerned about the salary... the employer did not make an offer so it was up to Sarah to provide a figure. She had not done this before and though she had a lot of experience in her profession (health care), she was nervous about this, which prompted the conversation with her friend, "Bonnie". Bonnie was a good listener and supportive, but had also not had much experience, though said that she had a friend who had done quite well in terms of salary by job hopping in the current job market, as she was willing to start in new situations and to ask for more than what her current position paid each time. Sarah did not seem comfortable with this level of risk (for whatever reason)... I opened with an apology for intruding (which they brushed aside graciously and allowed me to continue) and suggested maybe by trying to quantify dignity, as strange as that may sound, she might be able to come up with an offer she could be confident with. This turned into a group brainstorm about maybe dignity could be quantified in terms of cost and quality of living, talking to her peers about what they make in similar positions even though comparing salaries isn't always regarded as "polite" conversation and what does "polite" conversation mean in this context... getting exploited by an employer isn't polite that's for sure, and if you don't know enough through personal dialogues to make a confident self-evaluation of your skills and the value of your labor, that could happen... It turned into a lovely conversation on a mountain top that extended from here to our experience with being on both sides of health care (we had all been patients and patient advocates to some extent, as well as having some professional experience on the side of care giving) and eventually and in brief who we were and where we were from. It eventually ended in discussing hiking (as it tends to do with habitual hikers), but I felt like we had all been sharing together and that was really wonderful on a bunch of levels and not something I personally experience very frequently. We had probably spoken for close to an hour as it turned out, and as the conversation had reached a pleasant pause and I noticed the shadows getting longer, I offered a sincere good bye and the fact that it had been very good to meet and speak with them. I felt as if through the dialogue I had learned and grown, and, at very least, it seemed like Sarah and Bonnie had a pleasant enough time in conversation. Maybe our conversation written out in anecdote will allow its positive aspects to carry further. Best of luck and skill to you
OK… now I’m addicted to your channel… thanks a lot (as if I don’t have so many other things to do right now… and here I am, sucked into your videos. Haha… good on you).
I never realized until this video I have that same mindset of scarcity. Whether I had a good match in a video game, have a lot of money saved in the bank/investments, good job house etc I feel its going to drain way at any second and I won't be able to replicate the success again, almost like it was magic the whole time.
don't think this tooo much we will come and watch for your progress it doesn't have to do with any topic it's about watching someone open up and share their journey
Reading through some more of the comments here. Recognising there's a benefit to wanting to be smarter and think more is the first and most critical part. Everything after that is just sticking with it, refinement of it. Every year of my life, I keep wishing I were smarter. And I've just been through a horrific 15 years of my life that smashed me into anxiety and depression and it's not until this year I was finally pushed so hard I've started trying to make the changes I need. And I have gone backwards A LOT. When I have the energy for it, I violently despise the people who did it to me. So... I used to be smarter, I remember how it was, and now I can relate to how you're feeling. Anybody who tells you you're overthinking is somebody who needs to be ignored, possibly with a baseball bat or something. Once upon a time, I would've recommended a really good specific book. Right about now, I'm not sure I'd do that anymore. Instead, start with a book or movie or show you like or hell even a NEWS article or something and just start thinking about IT. Ask questions. Don't be afraid to look stuff up. That's key. The point is NOT "don't wanna be stupid anymore". The better view is "look, I just wanna be a little bit smarter today than I was yesterday". "Any day you learn something is not a wasted day" kind of thing. That very certainly includes "learning something new about yourself". Introspection is fantastic. Talking is fantastic. Talking something through is fantastic. Finding out you're wrong about something is INCREDIBLE and only two things are better than that: 1) finding out what the right answer is and 2) asking yourself "how'd I get here to the right answer?" and "How do I do that again in the future?". I cannot for the life of me imagine why TH-cam decided to throw your previous video at me in the sidebar. I had a bunch of debates with people today. On a comment page about one tiny aspect of the Lord Of The Rings movies. People there are... incredibly stupid, making up their own stuff and sticking with it. Instead of looking at plain clear evidence in front of them. Good luck.
So many young people are struggling and obsessing with the way they look. I hope they are able to find authentic role models like you who are willing to be vulnerable, inspiring them to find deeper things within themselves. They are going to need them.
You're just trying to figure things out nothing wrong with that but a piece of advice don't acknowledge comments that bother you because people will pick up on that and they'll use that against you and as far as content goes you're honest about your motivations and what goes through your mind most people don't share that information because it sounds unauthentic but as long as you put content out thats honest then you're golden oh and you have a very good speaking voice meaning it's easy to listen to don't know what you could do with that information but there you go😅
This helped me so I have to thank you. The past few months I've been in a kind of limbo or crossroads in my life. I've considered "getting in the ring" aka posting content that isn't the arthouse nonsense I've been doing on the internet my whole life. The problem is I don't want to make a fool of myself. I would rather have lived a long life and died unknown to the internet than to have influenced "the discourse" in a counter-productive way that creates more problems than solutions. At the same time, I know I have serious potential to be someone that strangers can listen to and learn something from, even if it's learning from my mistakes. So that's the impasse, and to an extent I'm still there. However, this video helped me remind myself that the weight of potential futures and fear of missed opportunities is not my individual problem, it is a much more universal struggle. Whatever you decide to do next just remember that you helped a lot of people with this video and the previous one. Best wishes to you!
The editing & music of the slice of life vlogs peaked my interest, the last video from an unexpected angle; there's a dearth of authentic engagement & sincerity in general-- people aren't present, staring into the black mirror smart device/phone void ... it spoke to those concerns. Chasing easy algo riding views isn't worth the time or worry. More material on your art development and Art in general would be an element I could stand seeing more of in the vids. _Keep on keeping on._
You remind me of how I generally have dislike having serious debates or discussions with people that (I perceive) as being smarter than me. But l think that’s really my subconscious not wanting to do critical thinking because it takes effort. But I don’t want to be like that, and it makes your mind stronger when you have deeper discussions that force you to evaluate what you believe and can defend.
I've no idea when I subscribed, or why, but I'm glad I did, because listening to you just ramble is actually quite therapeutic and to an extent, helps me overcome some personal issues I'm currently going through. I'm not trying to suggest you're somehow going to cure, or solve my issues by just talking, but it's meditative to have you blabbering on in the background while I just go vegetative playing a game or reading, and just mulling over thoughts. I'm glad your last video did well, and I had some things I wanted to comment at the time, but nothing I say can really offer much more than what others may have said at the time, I just want to say thank you.
Former professor here! Algorithm sorted me to your "idwtbs" video, and I watched this one after. Most of my students who grew intellectually (and by that I mean could *think*, not just regurgitate facts) had a common trait: They were able to have fun with their journey. They could be serious, but joyous too. I see both in you - and I look forward to seeing how you continue on!
I stash Ideas. Not just youtube stuff. I used to keep a digital recorder on me at all times, and I would hoard song Ideas, snippets of me playing instruments, poetry fragments, comedy, grocery reminders, skit Ideas, stuff I want to build, philosophies, and on a few occasions, I would record where I was going, and because of that I have audio from me talking to my mother and my uncle, now deceased. My point is, I now have an archive of creativity to review and pull from if I need inspiration. I call it "The Archive" or "mining for diamonds" when I go seek out a gem. I sometimes worry about my youtube contributions being too broad as well, so I started another channel for more random creative outlets haha. Trying to keep this channel focused on building stuff. I also saw your other video on wanting to think deeper or whatever it was called and I related to it because I feel like my thoughts get incredibly complicated and deep and sometimes it is really cool and sometimes you just feel like you know too much to be happy. But this title was cute so that's what got me into this video, then I went ahead and subscribed. I am not sure if the pressure should be felt, just post what you want and people will either resonate or they wont, zero sweat. I have (omg why am I still typing) a video nearing 100K views,that feels big for a little guy like me, but I am almost as proud of a few that have under 200 views. I do it because the creative outlet aspect, and to inspire others, that is most rewarding!
Omg 3:05 reminds me of that black mirror episode where someone sabotages a dystopian talent show and makes a super sincere monologue criticizing it and then he ends up with a show where he just repeats himself lol
Your last video went pretty viral, it must have really resonated with a lot of people. Also, I just wanted to say that I did quite poorly in my GCSEs; especially maths, but I exceeded in art and design, science and history. I'll be forty in November and just wanted to say that you remind me a lot of myself when I was younger, don't let anxiety get in the way of living your life.
Okay, this might be long. Sorry in advance. I just watched the last vid and now this... yeah, I'm subscribing. So literally everything you care to talk about will make a good video and likely be successful as long as you actually care and keep being real, which I can see you have NO problem doing. And as for worrying about the next idea for a video... who says you can't have new thoughts about an old topic? In fact, do you ever stop thinking or growing? If there's anything the response from your last video should teach you it's that people are naturally interested in your innermost thoughts/feelings, whatever they are, as well as wherever growth as a person takes you. You are an endless explosion of creative thought who merely needs to show herself to the world. Don't worry about what other people expect, who you are with all your flaws will always be good enough as long as you are honest and you care. Plus, you have a good sense of humor. ;) With the body image stuff, I'm an old cripple... I have SMA Type 1, I weigh 40 pounds (18.14 kilograms), I am more twisted up than Stephen Hawking except I can still talk. In fact talking is just about all I can do. I'm basically an evil floating head. Since I couldn't do physical shit and am conventionally ugly I was forced to focus on mental shit and really not giving a damn about being attractive. We have the inversion of each other's situation. I feel like that is relevant, like I can offer you the completely inverted perspective. I hope that with you knowing this about me, it'll carry extra weight when I tell you that what you are exploring here will absolutely enrich your life and the lives of the people around you. Your mind has value. You are meant to sharpen that fucker like a knife. I can see nature gave you a good brain IN SPITE OF HOW YOU HAVE ALWAYS FELT ABOUT IT. I'm excited that you're about to start exploring it's potential.
You can be stupid all you want.. you’ve got a heart of gold and are gorgeous!!! Ah I wish I had one of you, lol.. good looks don’t last, though so stay true to your heart. You’re a blessing for anyone who holds it.
Thanks for the video. I am just a slightly older than you so I mostly skipped any internet in my early teens just because it wasn't around, I really started using socials at the age of 16-17, and it was far from what it is right now. Despite that I can really resonate with the pressure you felt when being younger, it's just it was coming from other directions. I've wasted my late teens and my early 20s pursuing a goal that was never mine, but was put onto me by my surroundings. I told a joke once and was labeled 'funny', so I tried really hard to mold myself into that image, as I saw that to be my potential path of success. I started imagining myself as an actor, and I actually did some acting but not on a professional level. But after years I can't relate to that, it just wasn't me. I also do TH-cam videos today, but that's not comedy. I might joke along if I feel like it, but it is never the topic of the video, I take it seriously. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
im not sure if i left a comment on the past video, i know i wrote something but sometimes i forget to send. but i did think it was nice of you to share something that vulnerable, and it was relatable in a way, even if in a somewhat mirrored or parallel way. i actually think that what you jokingly mention of "this is what i think a smart person would read" is interesting, just sometimes talking about something you've been reading post-"activation", even if not with literally the pretense of "this is what i should read to be smart", but more with the lens of "this is an example of something i would've been 'scared' to attempt reading before but now i am daring to attempt. whether i fail at it, or succeed". I think there's something interesting in documenting even those parts of the process. i respect if you don't want to do that tho or if you don't want to stick to just that one thing and want to manage expectations. I haven't really had expectations to manage but i definitely don't stick to just one thing either (obvious example is just my channel) and sidenote lol but this is the second video i watch of a woman addressing the audience complaining about septum ring in like the past month or so, sorry u have to read those kinda comments lmao. it legit is something that i don't even perceive so it surprises me to hear people hate it so intensely. it's not like i hang out w goth people all day either and i'm "desensitized" or something, none of the ppl i know irl have one but it's physically is not something that stands out that much, or so i would have thought. guess i'm wrong hahaha. maybe it's bc i don't work in an office or sth
_"this is what i think a smart person would read"_ -- performative trap for keeping up appearances, it's the same in looks/vanity as it is anywhere-- including intellectual & literary whatever. You push past it or you allow It/Them to psych' you out of it. _Make no apologies for your tastes & interests._ The Dilettante's enthusiasm & love for the object of their pursuit will with time supersede the cold and lifeless understanding of, say, the Academic with no real insight apart from what they've laundered second and third hand by vicarious experience. You yourself are the only gatekeeper in the end. Have to start somewhere, sometime. May as well be now.
I saw the previous video on my feed and was curious. Watched it all the way through and checked your channel to see if there was an update. I laughed out loud at the title lmaooo. In all seriousness though (I'm commenting just before I watch this video), I hope nobody made you feel like you have to be "smart" (whatever that is) now. I think the fact that you're reflecting like this is a sign that you're smarter than you think!
It's funny coming into this from almost the opposite perspective. I spent a lot of my life hateful and bitter towards people who didn't follow "intellectual pursuits," and I became downright rude to people just because they took care of themselves and had style. Of course I've changed, and I'm learning the value of making yourself beautiful not just for yourself but for the people around you. I think there's two parts to any subject: The first is actual advancement of that subject, "academia." The second is education, there's a strong argument to be made that research is only worth its impact on the world, and if people don't know what scientists learn, I think that's a huge missed opportunity. However much you delve into any subject, I'm glad you do. There's nothing more than I love than learning, except maybe the look in someone's eyes when they say "oh, that IS interesting." I love how subjects interweave, like how geology defined geography, and how geography defined history, and how history informs politics (though I guess I see history more as a dimension added to any subject). It almost feels like in choosing subjects, you can't go wrong (even if your sources can be bad). I guess it comes down to if the way school teaches you doesn't work for you, it's easy to think those subjects aren't for you, when I think any subject is for anyone who wants to take the time to learn it. In terms of future content, I'm a strong believer in the idea of making the content you want to at the pace you can. I think view-chasing or doing it for money is bound to end in disappointment. I don't think you owe anyone anything after a successful video, and more importantly, efforts I see to capitalize on a viral video more often than not end in worse content than a creator would otherwise make.
Hope you enjoy the process of making videos. It sounds like people enjoy listening to you so whatever you are into that's probably fine. Your thoughts about reading heavy books reminds me of when I try to learn languages. I've a very low IQ in that area but I can use other ways to learn so I eventually was okay at German and I had to pass it to get through 3rd year of engineering. I have no idea at the moment about other videos but the engine comes up with them so maybe later.
Everyday everyone struggles, that is the human experience. Right now you have no idea how your going to get smarter, what that looks like, what you need to do to give yourself that feeling. If you pursue it, than it will take experimenting. You could* just share your experience on what your doing, reading, walking, thinking, and if that is working for you or not. Help others relate to your growth? I think I would find that fascinating. Again its a could* not a should or a must. You do you in the end :)
I appreciate how sincere you are, and it reminds me of thoughts and challenges I've had over the years. I'll share a few quotes that have shifted my paradigm and bought about a certain amount of peace in my mind. "Aspire to those who seek the truth; beware of those who find it." -- Knowledge is infinite, and any one person can only discover so much. Those who know-it-all stop learning and stop relating to others, or even worse don't ever realize their follies. If you choose to seek wisdom and truth, then you are ever evolving. "You can never force a miracle. You can only create the environment where it's most likely to occur." -- 'Miracle' can be replaced with any type of challenge, large or small. Sometimes we focus on the end and forget that we must have joy and purpose meanwhile. If we are always miserable because of self-criticism and perceived outside-judgment, we unknowingly undermine our ability and opportunity to surprise ourselves.
I might be wrong on this because I only know you from two videos, so take it with a grain of salt ;) The thoughts of changing your style of appearance might be routed in the problem you discussed in the last video about how you want to stop worrying about your appearance (huge respect you posted this btw!). So maybe producing content about style etc. might amplify these sorrows and negative thoughts. But as I said... it could also be something you genuinely enjoy :D
This occurred to me today, whilst hoovering (a Kirby): _Happiness is - the ability to access Flow state of some kind (from hoovering or washing the dishes, to writing your book or building a house) - & to retain good key positive memories in one's mind_
we don't expect anything, i think people are just curious what directions you will take it's not every day that someone makes such a well articulated and genuine commitment to improve and change their lives in a certain direction - so you can make any sort of content you want, i subscribed because i'm curious to see what will happen, i.e. how your story will continue also, your septum ring is beautiful. it really flatters your face. my idea is : make any content you feel like, and once in a while (like once a month or every few months) make sort of like an "update" video about how you feel about your journey or progress. I think that would be sort of like a stress-free way to share with people how you perceive your own progress.
It's a fine line to draw to retain your 'innocent, playful child' in a society that doesn't approve of that. For me personally, critical thinking etc doesn't have to negate your inner child. FE I like to play pranks on my kids and friends, or do something 'strange/crazy', like enact a Jackass parcours in the garden and such. Yet, in doing so I'll always listen to what my better judgment tells me what to do or not to do. For instance people may think I'm batshit crazy letting other kids chase my eldest son with nettles, but we are actually creating great memories. Although their mother not always agrees with that ;'-) In any case, I applaud you for opening up to the internet nd sharing your feelings on here. It's not a small feat. I wish you the best of luck and happiness in whatever you want to do and achieve.
Re: ideas for content : 1. Something about your city. Based on your english, I assume it is not USA, but England. 2. You trying out new things. it could be some new style, new hair color, new outfits, may be a completely different ring for the nose, new food, new hobby. Something about what you never thought to try. 3. start some exercise regime... I don't know ... yoga or heavy lifting. Something you wouldn't expect of yourself. And post how it is going.
I also got a lot of random views back in the day & felt many of the same things you do.. Relatable video. Just remember you don't have any obligation to do anything you don't feel like - You could grind for the views, but I think it's more sustainable to make things which feel meaningful to yourself. 🙂Seems to me like you're on the right track. I'll stick around in any case, you seem cool.
One the best looking backdrops I've ever seen on TH-cam. Glammerous looking Women in a nice room, off camera sits a plate of pizza pockets and a 2 litre bottle of Pepsi Max 😏
This is the second time I've seen you, and you're just so adorable. Don't ever forget that. Yes, the algorithm somehow decided to show me your videos and I don't regret it. Beautiful people are always nice to look at! And hello from Russia. P.S. as for ideas - I don't know, honestly. Share what you want and what you can share and there will always be an audience.
I think that video grabbed attention because it shows someone being real. Its like when youre w someone, anyone, and they say something real and deeper, and its something you secretly have wanted to talk about too. So you perk up and feel a connection like aw yea i like this person, we relate. Like people dont get that as much these days, in real life or youtube.
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This reminds me of the early youtube content I liked. I forgot how much I missed actual sincerity
this hit home haha
The dying breaths of the age of authenticity... we live in the age of profilicity.
Totally
Now that you bring it up.... you're right. The GenZ's and GenA's didn't really get that experience (only getting obnoxious thumbnails and wacky sounds) and I'd not realized this. These videos really are comforting and now I know why - thank you!
Yeah probably before Google bought it. Now it's Themtube.
I wanted to see you beat a computer at chess
LMAO
Tried that a week ago
It was a computer in a hospital waiting area with a tiny chair in front of it
I lost so fast and didn't have fun 😂
I can beat the computer at chess any time. But it's not fair because the PC can't even kick back. 🤣
@@haropones Do you have email ?
My IQ puts me in the "gifted" category and I lose to the computer regularly.
There's nothing wrong in wanting to improve your mind. I didn't get my degree until I was 37 & masters degree when I was almost 46. Exploring knowledge to grow as a person is both enjoyable and rewarding, you get to explore new ideas & concepts, enrich yourself & grow as a person.
Thank you for the encouragement!
@@haropones You're most welcome.
Here's the million dollar question for late bloomers (I'm 30 & need a degree) - at what age did you find love? Were they there for you when you got your masters?
@@samuelevander9823 Love has been illusive for me. I'm Dyslexic so getting my degree & then my Masters is a really big personal achievement for me, my parents have been very supportive in that respect.
You don't really need to find out what's goin' on
You don't really want to know just how far it's gone
Just leave well enough alone, keep your dirty laundry"" ignorance is bliss " we can always buy insurance
Im at the very beginning of a brutal eating disorder recovery. If i can be honest with just you, i havent wanted to recover, truly. But about an hour ago i was rotting in bed, scrolling on my phone as ive been doing with nearly all my life it seems, and i came across your previous video. Usually i just send any videos i want to watch to my "watch later playlist" and never end up watching them. But i saw your video and i actually couldn't tell what it was about, which i think intrigued me, so i watched it. And fuck, i felt like i met someone who actully understood my mind, who felt and thought as deeply as i do. What you said on for the first time in your life, no longer wanting to focus soley on being a pretty girl, to instead want to learn and grow, hit me. Im in nearly the same position, i have nothing to show for. No smarts, no looks, no goals or accomplishments, i just lay in bed all day looking on my phone at ways i can imrpove my life, my worth, to be prettier. I still feel this way honestly, but for the first time in month's, really since i was first put into hosptial care and had my recovery started, ive actully considered it. Your video made me want to, i dont know, be smarter haha. It made me want to work on my mind rather than just my looks. To be able to, like you said, think, and uss my brain lol. So i dont know, i wasent even going to write anything, but i giess i wanted to say, rhank you for being vulnerable and making/posting that video. -Amaya
Just eat some food, jfc
@@nosouponhead shut up
You’re going to do this. You’re going to discover entire new ways that you can experience joy and peace. I’m so proud of you!
@@nosouponhead4:09 is for you big guy.
@@nosouponheadhow about you just learn how eating disorders work, ‘jfc’
Managing expectations is a good move. There's always gonna be a choice to make between saving up ideas to put out some video essay (like shoe0nhead), or a creative artistic piece, or just rambling about what's been on your mind lately, however silly or stream-of-consciousness it might be. Short content, long content, absurd, sincere, emotional, abstract, all good for expressing various facets of that charming weirdo who's creating it. If your content is built from your whims, interests, and inspiration, your audience will naturally filter to those who bother to follow along. Totally fine if you leave a few behind who couldn't or wouldn't keep up.
Saving up ideas for the future reminds me exactly of what some songwriters do. You come up with a riff, can’t add onto it at the moment, so you file it away for the future when it may work with something else. So maybe not the same thing but it is similar.
it took me 10 YEARS to no longer be stupid once i realized i was. i expect to will b much faster for you, but don't stress the time frame. you got time
I would love to see more vlogs. You seem to capture everyday life so well in your vlogs its crazy.
This is so nice to hear, thank you!
Your introspection is refreshing, relatable.
"I truly sympathize with your situation because I can't how imagine how frustrating it must be to be aggravated by something so unimportant to you and your life"
PREACH😂😂😂 I'm dying! Your septum ring looks dope!
Hey, I stumbled across your channel. Somehow it was in my feed. Anyways, I'm an artist, from America. I was really impressed with your ability to voice your inner desire, or struggle? Whatever it was. I'm really loving you. Have a great day. Your absolutely lovely.
I would say this if I wasn’t such a beta 😂
Because it’s like the honesty and openness coming from some beautiful yet unfamiliar face gives me really pleasant feelings. I have no idea what it is 😂❤️
9:35-9:42 So cute 😂
@JordanMetroidManiac we are trying to not admit whatever that strange and unknown feeling is. The struggle is real man.
Somehow Your previous video popped up on my feed - and I watched it today, out of curiosity. Watching You self-reflect was enjoyable and brought a smile to my face - as I've been following similar path those past few months. Dropping those weird programs that we all think are so important: be beautiful, be the best, constantly chase, and so on - dropping those to make space for introspection and improvement is a large step.
I'm gonna stay here, and observe Your journey with joy. You are already awesome, and You will be even more awesome, and that is something to look forward to :)
I'd love to hear more about your curiosities, maybe find a rabbit hole that interests you and take us on your journey of discovery as you delve the depths of the subject. The important part is your interest in the subject, if you're having fun, we will have fun with you. I have a passion for knowledge and love learning new things every day, that's all I seek.
What a great idea!! I'm in.
Hi, I'm one of the 40k who discovered your channel from your last video, commented, and subscribed.
I, for one, applaud your dedication in staying true to your roots and vowing to remain stupid. Seriously, though...
From your last video, I would enjoy listening to you discuss what subject, topic, or medium you've decided to take a deeper look at and hearing your thoughts and discoveries.
Thanks for the authenticity, it's refreshing.
meal prepping ideas... setting the scene... lights, camera, action, failure... I do like the acceptance of organic vs what I would call forced, it seems more authentic. But I also like preparing, like the idea that a movie takes a lot of editing and kind of forced repeat takes to get something that comes out well-done. So, sometimes this, sometimes that. What makes something authentic? 🤔
A good question! Without jokes i think it is an authentic question, i mean maybe "What makes something authentic?" it is exist in your question also. Maybe "honestness" - sharing something personal and with self-reflecting? Or it is an one of weights in recomendation network, when we love to watch when different people is sharing with us something heh.
You inspire many people, and regardless of the direction or form your content takes, you will thrive. As you continue to follow your passion and create content from the heart, success will undoubtedly follow. Built it, and they will come. You've got this 💪
Exactly so!
She (you) need not make another video ever - just crack on say with writing - & she (you) will end up changing the World.
I'm at the septum ring part of the vid. It looks so pretty on you! Having one is so fun
I think part of the reason your video did so well is because you just seem like a really pleasant and kind person!
You already have the accent to seem intellectual, the next steps are probably the smoking jacket, mustache, and pipe. Looking forward to your next video!))
You remind me so much of the early days of TH-cam. Back then, since we didn’t have a lot of established ideas of what content was supposed to be, a lot of people would share their thoughts on things and show us little pieces of their lives.
This was replaced by highly produced, shallow work. I’m glad some people are still making the former sort of content.
I see your foreheads growing nicely, the thinking is working lol. I think TH-cam feels very capitalistic nowadays, everyone seems fake, intent on selling something, or like they just have perfect stress free lives, its always so refreshing coming across videos of people just being real and vulnerable. It reminds us that we aren't the only ones struggling. Not saying all your vids have to be like that, I just think people really pick up on something coming from the heart. It's all a process, a video not doing well or an idea not shaping up like you'd hoped isnt the end of it, you climbed up there once you can do it again.
I'm also kinda the same way with my creativity, it has to happen organically or i start to feel feel miserable/unfulfilled.. dunno if itll help but the best advice I've gotten on creativity is to not think about it at first, just throw paint at the wall and see what sticks/wait till i feel a spark. Soon as i started "throwing paint" out of sheer enjoyment/curiosity ideas started flowing a lot smoother. But yeah nice to see you're doing well, the visual rebranding videos actually sounds like a really cool idea! Also really love hearing artists talk about their art and process and feelings towards their art, I think that'd be a cool video.
Thanks so much for your thoughts!
I'm glad your brain growth is going well, soon we shall all see the fruits of your labor.
Mmm fruit
she actually looks so gorgeous here
Behind the face lies the snake
And in front of your monitor sits a dork@@topdawg3359
@@topdawg3359 Mans found his nans stash
@@topdawg3359incels be inceling
YEEEEESSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHY I WENT TO YOUR CHANNEL!!!!!! I really love the fact that this is a follow up! You taking that moment as a inward reflection of yourself and understand that you have you own contribution to our shared life experience as humans!!!! We all live different lives but they are all shared in one way, shape, or form. The fact that we, as people, know that we have emotions and realize that other humans also do; shows that we are more connected than what is on that surface. Use you, as in your individuality, to strengthen that connection between others. Humans are so successful because we have our distinct individual awareness and understand that others do,: i.e. being social creatures. That combination of traits is rarely seen between the millions of creatures on earth. Why not cherish it?! I subbed and turned on the notifications because I cant wait to see what you become!!!!!
Once again, best of wishes!!!!!!
I did horribly through high school. I just didn't have the attention span for all that kind of work. I later realized in college and in the real world Im much better learning on my own because I can learn at my own pace. For me it's just small really fast bursts and constantly switching subjects and ideas. I think the education system only caters to one type of learning and then they tell the kids who that system fails that they are dumb, in one way or another. When someone is called dumb and stupid repeatedly it gets to them and for me I really just felt stupid and hopeless. But after high school I realized anyone is capable of getting good at anything and things like communication skills, reasoning, and problem solving were things I lacked at. I just try now. I've taught myself multiple instruments, I've learned music production, I volunteered at a church for some time and got some AV experience there. Took that experience and eventually landed an operations manager job. Where I'm frequently having to explain my knowledge on AV systems to new employees. Which furthers my understanding on it as well. It feels like im not stupid anymore and your videos really touched me emotionally. ANYONE can get good at ANYTHING so long as they want it.
I just await the vlogs. You capture simple things so artistically.
I love you, Haro bb~ ❤ Also your hair looks soooo good!
Thank you lovely!❤
I was expecting you to come back as Gary from that spongebob episode where he goes into his mind and discovered him to be super intelligent ;) jk (obviously) THANK YOU for putting yourself out there, you never know who you'll inspire
Hahahaha exactly like that!
@@haropones So now that you have the world's smartest brain, is it okay if we keep thinking that you are very very pretty as well? You probably can be both a brilliant philosopher/astrophysicist and a world famous pretty much beautiful human being. Just trying to say, one doesn't really cancel the other. Since you are a girl you can do anything, so you can probably be smart AND pretty and only need to rest once in a while from all that hard work (lol).
I was born an idiot and I’ll die an idiot- but I’ll never stop learning!🎉
Now you look like the player 2 skin for Colonel Sanders. It's a good look. You wear it well. Great vlog though Haro. It's always enjoyable listening to your smart brain thoughts. Keep making the content you want to make. But also, about six years ago I tried reading Beyond Good and Evil. Made it to about page sixty before giving up. That is not an easy read. So I'd be well up for a ten minute Haro version. Take care. Byeeeeeee.
your humbleness and honesty and directness really resonate with me
This feels sorta relatable to me. Growing in a certain subject is really depressing in this day and age, wether it be a certain skill or the general concept of intelligence.
Whenever you go online, you will see thousands of people that are better at it than you.
Its really hard to tune that out and compare yourself to the people around you, and not literally the best people at it world wide
"I don't wanna be stupid anymore" is something I've felt and that inner turmoil resonated with like a personal experience I'd had growing up with brilliant older siblings; feeling like I'm bad at everything else and not having faith in my ability to be adequate when it came to anything besides the stuff I thought I was good at. I'd be interested in hearing more about what you have to say when it comes to identity and body image. I also think the footage of the the places you've gone to in your previous videos is like, creatively inspiring. thanks harophones
Really resonated with your video thank you for making it! I didn’t like school at all, but love learning now. I think it’s important that we find the ways that we enjoy learning most, for instance I’ve never been able to focus on a reading, but now use audiobooks every day
Or another topic that could be interesting to unravel: Is there such a thing as evil? Is there such a thing as good? And how do you define one or both of them?
This was a great followup! I'd like to stress something again: It's not about pleasing others. And you know that, you just said it. And I know, this is easy to say, but hard to do. I'm also still struggling with this. Just keep doing what you're passionate about, and it's always great to share it with others, whatever it may be.
The benefit of wearing a septum ring is that expectations never go over the top. Good video 💯
Your style looks really cool✨
I just watched this and your last video at what has been an already really cathartic few days in my own journey of growth and self-discovery, contributing to what feels like one of the most serendipitous little period of my life, so thank you for that. I've subscribed because I really enjoy learning about people and watching them grow, and I've also realized I should put myself into contact with more people/communities where we can share what we've learned and just experience the journey together. I'm really proud of your effort, bravery, and honesty in confronting your own thoughts and identity (not to mention uploading it online too !!) because its a difficult and scary thing to do; it's inspiring and comforting to see while I try to do the same in my own life.
Specifically in this video when you were talking about the sort of scarcity mindset you have in life, I think it's not an unreasonable feeling, like while yes the spontaneous, organic authenticity is what people love to see and is probably what drives the quality behind it, it's also worth trying to understand the process. There's this weird stigma around knowledge and conscious/effortful thought when it comes to creativity which can make it feel contrived, but understanding your creative process doesn't necessarily have to change how your creativity manifests, just when or how often it does. The feeling that comes after doing something that you value could be an innate drive to pursue what you want to keep doing or fear arising from a sense of perceived scarcity (it's probably a mix like most things), but either way, understanding how to cultivate those moments of curiosity, joy, and honest expression I feel can help you trust in the process more, and free your mind up to explore that part of you in more detail.
I could go on forever probably but anyway thanks haha I look forward to whatever you're up to next and also to anyone who wants to talk about this stuff further !!
I feel you. I get the same anxiety over whether or not I'm being "creative enough." Also, I love your style.
I think it's so silly that people care SO much about stuff that'll never even affect them, and I think that it must be projection. That they themself are so insecure about their own image, that they must place that insecurity on someone else to feel a little bit better. Even if it's just for a short while. If we all focused on ourself instead, then maybe this world would be a better place overall.
//No quantum physics breakthroughs... pfft
You aren't defined by a video- don't worry. I know it's easy to want to expand the wells you've opened that people have pooled into, but there are so many factors involved, like an algorithm and the snowball effect. You are so much more and if all we do is chase that dopamine the numbers bring us then we lose ourselves to the machine. I hope you continue to foster a community that respects you being your true self, instead of you trying to stretch or cram into a mold manufactured by them. You seem more than self-aware and capable to pull that off so keep up the good work.
I'm grateful that you're sharing this vulnerable perspective. Reading your comments, I'm realizing how many of us have felt the same, but few of us are ready to talk about it.
I found what you had to say about when something you make goes viral so relating. When I went viral I felt so much pressure to have that happen again to make sure it wasn't a fluke. Sometimes I felt like I didn't really make the content I made, like I was so divorced from the outcome of my work. I hope that as your channel continues to grow you don't feel like you have to pidgeon-hole yourself into making any one specific kind of content and you feel like your posts are genuinely your posts, and that the channel is always fun and never all-consuming. Also I would love to hear you talk about your style and fashion. Subbed
This is so nice thank you
0:18 just starting this after watching your previous video. Was looking forward to this follow up and glad I’m discovering you yesterday and today (shared), at the perfect moment to see what’s been on your mind since, and next. Cheers
I had a chuckle seeing the title of this video having just come from your previous one. Funny that it blew up like it did. I guess I'm not surprised. People are probably refreshed to hear genuine thoughts from thoughtful people. If you do happen to make more videos like this one or the last one it wouldn't hurt my feelings any.
I have no clue who you are but the last video popped up in my recommended and i ended up listening to the whole thing and this one. The whole experience was very endearing and enjoyable, and i wish you luck on your cranium expansion journey. I think you do a good job of articulating some complex things in very simple ways. Also your speech cadence reminds me of how i think sometimes. This was a cool rabbithole thank you for sharing lol
3:25 I laughed out loud at that, you're funny. You've earned a subscriber. Edit: 4:04 chuckle
I found your videos ten minutes ago and honestly I'll watch anything you put out. You're entertaining af and I think a lot of people need to hear what you're saying.
I'm afraid Nietzsche's "Beyond Good & Evil" is one of my favorite books. 😁 Finding joy in knowledge is a driving force for me. I hope you enjoy it, too! 👍
Looking forward to reading it ^_^
I relate strongly to the struggle to "agree with myself on what I like and how I want to present myself." It's pretty wild, I often chalk it up to only recently even trying to start to think about such things, after having spent so long being committed to "not caring" and just generally assuming that there was no possible way I could present myself in a way that I would be happy with anyway. So it's interesting to hear that you've thought more explicitly about such things for longer but still have a similar struggle. Feels a little relieving to hear in a weird way, like maybe it's just part of the internal experiences of some people, and maybe I'm one of those people. In my case, it also results in me usually having a low-effort sort of style and appearance, which is okay, but often I think "dang if I dedicated some time and energy I might be able to figure out how to feel more like... confident and congruent in who I am inside and out." But alas... Different paths to get here, and different trajectories it sets us on.. Kind of a random point for me to recognize my own struggles in your description of yours--and I suppose they could actually be very different.
I also appreciate you sharing what it's been like to have created a piece of content that performs well and the sorts of pressures that can make you feel (most likely because of capitalism, as you pointed out). I've often thought about how that would be stressful, even though I haven't really created content in like 20 years, I often think about ideas and then eventually get to "even if I found traction, it would probably only bring more stress into my life". That could also easily just be another excuse to not even try, which is definitely a pattern for me. And your previous video was of a format that I've felt compelled toward, because I've noticed that I don't really see people talking about struggles that I significantly or thoroughly relate to, only little bits and pieces here and there, so I figure maybe I could make content like that and maybe find people like me... Anyway, that's a tangent lol. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us.
7:16 Exactly! Just make a list of ideas, thoughts, projects and every once in a while look at them again and they will grow and grow in your mind. I do that for projects I wanna do videos for.
I usually stray away from youtube recommends and I'm glad I didn't this time! Thanks for sharing your thoughts on so many different things. I can relate to when you said reading and wanting to be smarter. And also the scarcity mindset. I think your realism in general is relatable. I haven't made a video where I felt the need to top it or gotten to the level of your viral. However when I get one stray comment i get excited. I just try to make fun and creative content that lingers on mind, similiar to what you said about your content creation. I wish you to continue to have fun in your youtube journey!
You have a god sense of humor. Hope you continue to find ways to grow and express what’s on your mind.
Sometimes the best thoughts come through when we speak truthfully and honestly.
LMAO I just watched that video a few days ago and it's been on my mind since then. Now i open TH-cam and this is the first thing I see in my recommended feed, It really made me chuckle. I'm glad it did well btw! And sadly i don't really have any ideas for you to ignore but personally, I find this short videos where people discuss everyday topics or share their perspectives very enjoyable to watch. Just keep being you! (Or trying to find out what "you" is 🤔)
Sometimes I think that sharing is one of the best ways to learn, grow and give. Sometimes that is achieved through speaking and writing (or somehow presenting internet content) and sometimes it is achieved by looking, listening and experiencing (through whatever senses one has) the people and the world with you and around you. The digital world is part of that, but (thankfully imo) not all of that...
I decided to go for hike the other day. Something I do regularly and enjoy and feel enlivened by for many reasons. At the top of a small mountain with a lovely overlook I have seen many times, there were two women chatting. One was (I'm guessing) my age and the other was slightly older.
I don't tend to strike up too many conversations while out hiking. I don't wish to impose and meeting people isn't really the reason most people are out there, but sometimes conversation will come about naturally enough and attempting to remain mindful of the flow of the dialogue can help to determine when a conversation has run its course (in my experience).
I can't exactly stop my ears, so it became apparent that the latter woman (let's call her Sarah, for convenience and anonymity) had received a job offer and was concerned about the salary... the employer did not make an offer so it was up to Sarah to provide a figure. She had not done this before and though she had a lot of experience in her profession (health care), she was nervous about this, which prompted the conversation with her friend, "Bonnie". Bonnie was a good listener and supportive, but had also not had much experience, though said that she had a friend who had done quite well in terms of salary by job hopping in the current job market, as she was willing to start in new situations and to ask for more than what her current position paid each time. Sarah did not seem comfortable with this level of risk (for whatever reason)...
I opened with an apology for intruding (which they brushed aside graciously and allowed me to continue) and suggested maybe by trying to quantify dignity, as strange as that may sound, she might be able to come up with an offer she could be confident with. This turned into a group brainstorm about maybe dignity could be quantified in terms of cost and quality of living, talking to her peers about what they make in similar positions even though comparing salaries isn't always regarded as "polite" conversation and what does "polite" conversation mean in this context... getting exploited by an employer isn't polite that's for sure, and if you don't know enough through personal dialogues to make a confident self-evaluation of your skills and the value of your labor, that could happen...
It turned into a lovely conversation on a mountain top that extended from here to our experience with being on both sides of health care (we had all been patients and patient advocates to some extent, as well as having some professional experience on the side of care giving) and eventually and in brief who we were and where we were from. It eventually ended in discussing hiking (as it tends to do with habitual hikers), but I felt like we had all been sharing together and that was really wonderful on a bunch of levels and not something I personally experience very frequently. We had probably spoken for close to an hour as it turned out, and as the conversation had reached a pleasant pause and I noticed the shadows getting longer, I offered a sincere good bye and the fact that it had been very good to meet and speak with them.
I felt as if through the dialogue I had learned and grown, and, at very least, it seemed like Sarah and Bonnie had a pleasant enough time in conversation. Maybe our conversation written out in anecdote will allow its positive aspects to carry further. Best of luck and skill to you
OK… now I’m addicted to your channel… thanks a lot (as if I don’t have so many other things to do right now… and here I am, sucked into your videos. Haha… good on you).
I never realized until this video I have that same mindset of scarcity. Whether I had a good match in a video game, have a lot of money saved in the bank/investments, good job house etc I feel its going to drain way at any second and I won't be able to replicate the success again, almost like it was magic the whole time.
don't think this tooo much we will come and watch for your progress it doesn't have to do with any topic it's about watching someone open up and share their journey
Reading through some more of the comments here.
Recognising there's a benefit to wanting to be smarter and think more is the first and most critical part. Everything after that is just sticking with it, refinement of it.
Every year of my life, I keep wishing I were smarter. And I've just been through a horrific 15 years of my life that smashed me into anxiety and depression and it's not until this year I was finally pushed so hard I've started trying to make the changes I need. And I have gone backwards A LOT. When I have the energy for it, I violently despise the people who did it to me. So... I used to be smarter, I remember how it was, and now I can relate to how you're feeling.
Anybody who tells you you're overthinking is somebody who needs to be ignored, possibly with a baseball bat or something.
Once upon a time, I would've recommended a really good specific book. Right about now, I'm not sure I'd do that anymore.
Instead, start with a book or movie or show you like or hell even a NEWS article or something and just start thinking about IT. Ask questions. Don't be afraid to look stuff up. That's key. The point is NOT "don't wanna be stupid anymore". The better view is "look, I just wanna be a little bit smarter today than I was yesterday". "Any day you learn something is not a wasted day" kind of thing. That very certainly includes "learning something new about yourself".
Introspection is fantastic. Talking is fantastic. Talking something through is fantastic. Finding out you're wrong about something is INCREDIBLE and only two things are better than that: 1) finding out what the right answer is and 2) asking yourself "how'd I get here to the right answer?" and "How do I do that again in the future?".
I cannot for the life of me imagine why TH-cam decided to throw your previous video at me in the sidebar.
I had a bunch of debates with people today. On a comment page about one tiny aspect of the Lord Of The Rings movies. People there are... incredibly stupid, making up their own stuff and sticking with it. Instead of looking at plain clear evidence in front of them.
Good luck.
So many young people are struggling and obsessing with the way they look.
I hope they are able to find authentic role models like you who are willing to be vulnerable, inspiring them to find deeper things within themselves.
They are going to need them.
You're just trying to figure things out nothing wrong with that but a piece of advice don't acknowledge comments that bother you because people will pick up on that and they'll use that against you and as far as content goes you're honest about your motivations and what goes through your mind most people don't share that information because it sounds unauthentic but as long as you put content out thats honest then you're golden oh and you have a very good speaking voice meaning it's easy to listen to don't know what you could do with that information but there you go😅
This helped me so I have to thank you. The past few months I've been in a kind of limbo or crossroads in my life. I've considered "getting in the ring" aka posting content that isn't the arthouse nonsense I've been doing on the internet my whole life. The problem is I don't want to make a fool of myself. I would rather have lived a long life and died unknown to the internet than to have influenced "the discourse" in a counter-productive way that creates more problems than solutions. At the same time, I know I have serious potential to be someone that strangers can listen to and learn something from, even if it's learning from my mistakes. So that's the impasse, and to an extent I'm still there. However, this video helped me remind myself that the weight of potential futures and fear of missed opportunities is not my individual problem, it is a much more universal struggle. Whatever you decide to do next just remember that you helped a lot of people with this video and the previous one. Best wishes to you!
I love this, thank you for sharing, and please don't worry too much about what we want; show us what you enjoy :)
The editing & music of the slice of life vlogs peaked my interest, the last video from an unexpected angle; there's a dearth of authentic engagement & sincerity in general-- people aren't present, staring into the black mirror smart device/phone void ... it spoke to those concerns. Chasing easy algo riding views isn't worth the time or worry. More material on your art development and Art in general would be an element I could stand seeing more of in the vids. _Keep on keeping on._
Tao Te Ching
A good read if you've not heard of it especially for artists
For anyone really.
If not just a book of the self, it is most importantly a book about state craft.
One of the greatest books ever written.
@@scarletskunkjob9842 Yes
You remind me of how I generally have dislike having serious debates or discussions with people that (I perceive) as being smarter than me. But l think that’s really my subconscious not wanting to do critical thinking because it takes effort. But I don’t want to be like that, and it makes your mind stronger when you have deeper discussions that force you to evaluate what you believe and can defend.
that cruelly deville hair is so hot RN on youtube fashion girls.
"Is it an outfit or is he just Amen?"
I've no idea when I subscribed, or why, but I'm glad I did, because listening to you just ramble is actually quite therapeutic and to an extent, helps me overcome some personal issues I'm currently going through. I'm not trying to suggest you're somehow going to cure, or solve my issues by just talking, but it's meditative to have you blabbering on in the background while I just go vegetative playing a game or reading, and just mulling over thoughts. I'm glad your last video did well, and I had some things I wanted to comment at the time, but nothing I say can really offer much more than what others may have said at the time, I just want to say thank you.
Former professor here!
Algorithm sorted me to your "idwtbs" video, and I watched this one after.
Most of my students who grew intellectually (and by that I mean could *think*, not just regurgitate facts) had a common trait:
They were able to have fun with their journey. They could be serious, but joyous too.
I see both in you - and I look forward to seeing how you continue on!
I love your sense of style. You are so cool
Intelligence is the long term result of a habit of pressing forward when you're confused. There is no other secret to it.
Wow, you look amazing 🤩 x
I stash Ideas. Not just youtube stuff. I used to keep a digital recorder on me at all times, and I would hoard song Ideas, snippets of me playing instruments, poetry fragments, comedy, grocery reminders, skit Ideas, stuff I want to build, philosophies, and on a few occasions, I would record where I was going, and because of that I have audio from me talking to my mother and my uncle, now deceased. My point is, I now have an archive of creativity to review and pull from if I need inspiration. I call it "The Archive" or "mining for diamonds" when I go seek out a gem. I sometimes worry about my youtube contributions being too broad as well, so I started another channel for more random creative outlets haha. Trying to keep this channel focused on building stuff. I also saw your other video on wanting to think deeper or whatever it was called and I related to it because I feel like my thoughts get incredibly complicated and deep and sometimes it is really cool and sometimes you just feel like you know too much to be happy. But this title was cute so that's what got me into this video, then I went ahead and subscribed. I am not sure if the pressure should be felt, just post what you want and people will either resonate or they wont, zero sweat. I have (omg why am I still typing) a video nearing 100K views,that feels big for a little guy like me, but I am almost as proud of a few that have under 200 views. I do it because the creative outlet aspect, and to inspire others, that is most rewarding!
Hello by chance I caught your last video, didn't subscribe but I'm glad youtube showed me this one it was truly interesting and enjoyable to watch.
Omg 3:05 reminds me of that black mirror episode where someone sabotages a dystopian talent show and makes a super sincere monologue criticizing it and then he ends up with a show where he just repeats himself lol
Your last video went pretty viral, it must have really resonated with a lot of people. Also, I just wanted to say that I did quite poorly in my GCSEs; especially maths, but I exceeded in art and design, science and history. I'll be forty in November and just wanted to say that you remind me a lot of myself when I was younger, don't let anxiety get in the way of living your life.
Okay, this might be long. Sorry in advance. I just watched the last vid and now this... yeah, I'm subscribing.
So literally everything you care to talk about will make a good video and likely be successful as long as you actually care and keep being real, which I can see you have NO problem doing. And as for worrying about the next idea for a video... who says you can't have new thoughts about an old topic? In fact, do you ever stop thinking or growing? If there's anything the response from your last video should teach you it's that people are naturally interested in your innermost thoughts/feelings, whatever they are, as well as wherever growth as a person takes you. You are an endless explosion of creative thought who merely needs to show herself to the world. Don't worry about what other people expect, who you are with all your flaws will always be good enough as long as you are honest and you care. Plus, you have a good sense of humor. ;)
With the body image stuff, I'm an old cripple... I have SMA Type 1, I weigh 40 pounds (18.14 kilograms), I am more twisted up than Stephen Hawking except I can still talk. In fact talking is just about all I can do. I'm basically an evil floating head. Since I couldn't do physical shit and am conventionally ugly I was forced to focus on mental shit and really not giving a damn about being attractive. We have the inversion of each other's situation. I feel like that is relevant, like I can offer you the completely inverted perspective. I hope that with you knowing this about me, it'll carry extra weight when I tell you that what you are exploring here will absolutely enrich your life and the lives of the people around you. Your mind has value. You are meant to sharpen that fucker like a knife. I can see nature gave you a good brain IN SPITE OF HOW YOU HAVE ALWAYS FELT ABOUT IT. I'm excited that you're about to start exploring it's potential.
You can be stupid all you want.. you’ve got a heart of gold and are gorgeous!!!
Ah I wish I had one of you, lol.. good looks don’t last, though so stay true to your heart.
You’re a blessing for anyone who holds it.
Thanks for the video. I am just a slightly older than you so I mostly skipped any internet in my early teens just because it wasn't around, I really started using socials at the age of 16-17, and it was far from what it is right now. Despite that I can really resonate with the pressure you felt when being younger, it's just it was coming from other directions. I've wasted my late teens and my early 20s pursuing a goal that was never mine, but was put onto me by my surroundings. I told a joke once and was labeled 'funny', so I tried really hard to mold myself into that image, as I saw that to be my potential path of success. I started imagining myself as an actor, and I actually did some acting but not on a professional level. But after years I can't relate to that, it just wasn't me. I also do TH-cam videos today, but that's not comedy. I might joke along if I feel like it, but it is never the topic of the video, I take it seriously.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts.
I understood your title goof, actually chuckled. thanks
im not sure if i left a comment on the past video, i know i wrote something but sometimes i forget to send. but i did think it was nice of you to share something that vulnerable, and it was relatable in a way, even if in a somewhat mirrored or parallel way.
i actually think that what you jokingly mention of "this is what i think a smart person would read" is interesting, just sometimes talking about something you've been reading post-"activation", even if not with literally the pretense of "this is what i should read to be smart", but more with the lens of "this is an example of something i would've been 'scared' to attempt reading before but now i am daring to attempt. whether i fail at it, or succeed". I think there's something interesting in documenting even those parts of the process.
i respect if you don't want to do that tho or if you don't want to stick to just that one thing and want to manage expectations. I haven't really had expectations to manage but i definitely don't stick to just one thing either (obvious example is just my channel)
and sidenote lol but this is the second video i watch of a woman addressing the audience complaining about septum ring in like the past month or so, sorry u have to read those kinda comments lmao. it legit is something that i don't even perceive so it surprises me to hear people hate it so intensely. it's not like i hang out w goth people all day either and i'm "desensitized" or something, none of the ppl i know irl have one but it's physically is not something that stands out that much, or so i would have thought. guess i'm wrong hahaha. maybe it's bc i don't work in an office or sth
_"this is what i think a smart person would read"_ -- performative trap for keeping up appearances, it's the same in looks/vanity as it is anywhere-- including intellectual & literary whatever. You push past it or you allow It/Them to psych' you out of it. _Make no apologies for your tastes & interests._ The Dilettante's enthusiasm & love for the object of their pursuit will with time supersede the cold and lifeless understanding of, say, the Academic with no real insight apart from what they've laundered second and third hand by vicarious experience. You yourself are the only gatekeeper in the end. Have to start somewhere, sometime. May as well be now.
I saw the previous video on my feed and was curious. Watched it all the way through and checked your channel to see if there was an update. I laughed out loud at the title lmaooo. In all seriousness though (I'm commenting just before I watch this video), I hope nobody made you feel like you have to be "smart" (whatever that is) now. I think the fact that you're reflecting like this is a sign that you're smarter than you think!
It's funny coming into this from almost the opposite perspective. I spent a lot of my life hateful and bitter towards people who didn't follow "intellectual pursuits," and I became downright rude to people just because they took care of themselves and had style. Of course I've changed, and I'm learning the value of making yourself beautiful not just for yourself but for the people around you. I think there's two parts to any subject: The first is actual advancement of that subject, "academia." The second is education, there's a strong argument to be made that research is only worth its impact on the world, and if people don't know what scientists learn, I think that's a huge missed opportunity.
However much you delve into any subject, I'm glad you do. There's nothing more than I love than learning, except maybe the look in someone's eyes when they say "oh, that IS interesting." I love how subjects interweave, like how geology defined geography, and how geography defined history, and how history informs politics (though I guess I see history more as a dimension added to any subject). It almost feels like in choosing subjects, you can't go wrong (even if your sources can be bad). I guess it comes down to if the way school teaches you doesn't work for you, it's easy to think those subjects aren't for you, when I think any subject is for anyone who wants to take the time to learn it.
In terms of future content, I'm a strong believer in the idea of making the content you want to at the pace you can. I think view-chasing or doing it for money is bound to end in disappointment. I don't think you owe anyone anything after a successful video, and more importantly, efforts I see to capitalize on a viral video more often than not end in worse content than a creator would otherwise make.
Hope you enjoy the process of making videos. It sounds like people enjoy listening to you so whatever you are into that's probably fine. Your thoughts about reading heavy books reminds me of when I try to learn languages. I've a very low IQ in that area but I can use other ways to learn so I eventually was okay at German and I had to pass it to get through 3rd year of engineering.
I have no idea at the moment about other videos but the engine comes up with them so maybe later.
the first 60 seconds: this is exactly what I expect - I think you should do it!
Everyday everyone struggles, that is the human experience. Right now you have no idea how your going to get smarter, what that looks like, what you need to do to give yourself that feeling. If you pursue it, than it will take experimenting. You could* just share your experience on what your doing, reading, walking, thinking, and if that is working for you or not. Help others relate to your growth? I think I would find that fascinating. Again its a could* not a should or a must. You do you in the end :)
Great idea :)
Enjoyed the video look forward to what you post next (:
So cool to see you actually getting more focused on what's important in your life. I'm excited to see your progress. no matter what that looks likes
I appreciate how sincere you are, and it reminds me of thoughts and challenges I've had over the years. I'll share a few quotes that have shifted my paradigm and bought about a certain amount of peace in my mind.
"Aspire to those who seek the truth; beware of those who find it."
-- Knowledge is infinite, and any one person can only discover so much. Those who know-it-all stop learning and stop relating to others, or even worse don't ever realize their follies. If you choose to seek wisdom and truth, then you are ever evolving.
"You can never force a miracle. You can only create the environment where it's most likely to occur."
-- 'Miracle' can be replaced with any type of challenge, large or small. Sometimes we focus on the end and forget that we must have joy and purpose meanwhile. If we are always miserable because of self-criticism and perceived outside-judgment, we unknowingly undermine our ability and opportunity to surprise ourselves.
I might be wrong on this because I only know you from two videos, so take it with a grain of salt ;)
The thoughts of changing your style of appearance might be routed in the problem you discussed in the last video about how you want to stop worrying about your appearance (huge respect you posted this btw!). So maybe producing content about style etc. might amplify these sorrows and negative thoughts.
But as I said... it could also be something you genuinely enjoy :D
that is not stupid learning is what makes you understand human nature.
This occurred to me today, whilst hoovering (a Kirby):
_Happiness is - the ability to access Flow state of some kind (from hoovering or washing the dishes, to writing your book or building a house) - & to retain good key positive memories in one's mind_
we don't expect anything, i think people are just curious what directions you will take
it's not every day that someone makes such a well articulated and genuine commitment to improve and change their lives in a certain direction -
so you can make any sort of content you want, i subscribed because i'm curious to see what will happen, i.e. how your story will continue
also, your septum ring is beautiful. it really flatters your face.
my idea is : make any content you feel like, and once in a while (like once a month or every few months) make sort of like an "update" video about how you feel about your journey or progress. I think that would be sort of like a stress-free way to share with people how you perceive your own progress.
It's a fine line to draw to retain your 'innocent, playful child' in a society that doesn't approve of that. For me personally, critical thinking etc doesn't have to negate your inner child. FE I like to play pranks on my kids and friends, or do something 'strange/crazy', like enact a Jackass parcours in the garden and such. Yet, in doing so I'll always listen to what my better judgment tells me what to do or not to do. For instance people may think I'm batshit crazy letting other kids chase my eldest son with nettles, but we are actually creating great memories. Although their mother not always agrees with that ;'-)
In any case, I applaud you for opening up to the internet nd sharing your feelings on here. It's not a small feat. I wish you the best of luck and happiness in whatever you want to do and achieve.
Re: ideas for content : 1. Something about your city. Based on your english, I assume it is not USA, but England. 2. You trying out new things. it could be some new style, new hair color, new outfits, may be a completely different ring for the nose, new food, new hobby. Something about what you never thought to try. 3. start some exercise regime... I don't know ... yoga or heavy lifting. Something you wouldn't expect of yourself. And post how it is going.
I also got a lot of random views back in the day & felt many of the same things you do.. Relatable video. Just remember you don't have any obligation to do anything you don't feel like - You could grind for the views, but I think it's more sustainable to make things which feel meaningful to yourself. 🙂Seems to me like you're on the right track. I'll stick around in any case, you seem cool.
Laughed out loud several times, thank you.
I get a lot of comments about my septum ring too :D I can't believe that so many people are disturbed about that.
One the best looking backdrops I've ever seen on TH-cam. Glammerous looking Women in a nice room, off camera sits a plate of pizza pockets and a 2 litre bottle of Pepsi Max 😏
This is the second time I've seen you, and you're just so adorable. Don't ever forget that. Yes, the algorithm somehow decided to show me your videos and I don't regret it. Beautiful people are always nice to look at! And hello from Russia.
P.S. as for ideas - I don't know, honestly. Share what you want and what you can share and there will always be an audience.
I think that video grabbed attention because it shows someone being real. Its like when youre w someone, anyone, and they say something real and deeper, and its something you secretly have wanted to talk about too. So you perk up and feel a connection like aw yea i like this person, we relate. Like people dont get that as much these days, in real life or youtube.