Keep being you, that's why people are still here after all these years. A lot of people probably started because of skateboarding (myself included) but have stayed because of you. Whether it's skateboarding or fitness or art or parkour, the people here have stayed around because of you. Look at Garret Ginner, he's adjusted his content into just what he does everyday and most videos don't include skateboarding, they're about his journey in life. He's built a great community and I think you certainly could as well. He's enjoying making videos again. Keep it up John
this is the truth. im 31 and have been skating since i was 14. i now work as a professional artist and i relate to john in so many ways. watching this because of who you are john 🙏🏼🙏🏼
John, I totally hear you 100%. I suffer from acute anxiety disorder and my twin has bipolar disorder. But you found that we have the ability to(with help) get through the storm. Finding a “distraction.” Is huge! But it has to be a healthy distraction. You found that. Only when things crumble, can they be rebuilt stronger.
Fuuu.... I lost my dad to cancer this past year. It's been very difficult and weird what will just sock me in the feels out of no where, and I don't wish that on anyone. Love ya guys, and you'll be in my thoughts.
Bro, all this self improvement stuff is just bull shit and unhealthy. You dont need to be productive all the time. Fuck this grind set shit. You dont need to fix yourself all the time. Life is just hard for 99% of all people and its not your fault when you feel like you are a failing in life. There is no cure and no cheat code. All these gym bros and sigma grind set people online who are telling you otherwise, are just trying to sell you bull shit.
You are incredibly strong to talk so openly. The worst thing is to believe "you" anyone is so different/complex they are beyond help and change. "that might work for you" negative self talk. Your depression points are some of the keys that have helped me for years. You are doing amazing and have so many insights andtalents. You got this! Thank you for sharing John!
I lived for my kids... literally, they kept me alive because they needed me. I was in deep depression. Pushed through for them and forced myself to be better and happier for them. That only got me so far. Then I realized I also needed to live for myself. I needed to be happy for me. That took some time. Worked out and got myself where I wanted to be and stayed there... cut out weed (only used when i was not responsible for the kids or even around them.. the rare occasion they were with their mom) and decreased alcohol usage. Came to terms that I was a single dad that was going to stay single and pushed harder into the working out because it made me happy. Got into traditional archery. I was genuinely happy. Then met the woman I married after I stopped looking for a person. Life is good. It's hard.. but good.
Amazing video bro I am currently or was struggling with depression because after this video it just confirmed my answer, it’s like deep down I know the right move ik what I have to do so it’s time to get it done thank you amazing video !
Thanks so much for sharing, John. As someone who's had a history with depression, this resonated a lot. Good luck with everything coming up. Rooting for you!
so crazy to hear. i started watching you in the midst of my suicidal depression in 2016 or so and your way of being made me feel a little calmer. i love seeing you evolve and dealing with life. thanks you for sharing your life with us. greetings from germany and keep killin iiiit!!
Dang John 26 minutes absolutely just flew by. Great video. I’m pleased to hear you’re personally doing better and I hope there’s a positive outcome to your current difficulties. Appreciate you talking so openly
I hope for you and the family you can finally settle down. I’ve been watching for many years and you have moved a lot from coast to coast and in between keep killing it you got this.
Sending love and positivity your way. Keep on working on yourself and moving in the light while also addressing the darkness in therapy. We don't know each other but proud of you for making the changes. It's not easy, everyone isn't doing it.
Hey John! There's so many comments, so you might not see this. But I just wanna say thank you for being real. We have to be real and legit about the "puddles" we're in, but we also have to be intentional to get out of our "puddle." We gotta see where we are, but we also gotta get out when it isn't good. Keep being real! Keep looking forward. You're precious brother!
This level of authenticity is refreshing; thank you for having the courage to be this open on a platform such as this. Sometimes it's good to be reminded that our existence doesn't boil down to one particular identity or set of skills. There are different facets to us, and awareness of the hidden ones makes the more visible ones shine that much brighter. Looking forward to your next video, thanks again!
It’s so heartwarming to see you are thriving, despite difficult challenges. You’re growing from all of this and inspiring so many people. Keep being one of the most authentic people and keep killing it!!
Thank you for not sugar coating how difficult parenting is, so many people pretend like it's all rainbows and sunshine and it's not...rainbows and sunshine is literally 5-10% of parenting, the rest is hell...and admitting that doesn't make anyone less of a parent or that child is less loved, it's just reality. I do not know how single parents cope! On the sour stuff, feeling for you and Sara, thoughts with you all! Keep the chin up and the positivity loaded where you can dude!
I love this video, it's so honest and truthful. If you are struggling, find someone to talk to, you'll be surprised how much people love you and want to help you, don't fight it alone, just seeking help will be the kickstart to healing. My depression symptoms greatly improved after being medicated, it feels fantastic, like having removed a slug that was shutting down my brain, you can really look and feel life completely different, but my therapist is starting to reduce the dosage and now I'm having anxiety thinking all this mental wellness is going to disappear overnight.
I could not relate to this more, I completely changed my life and cured my own depression in doing exactly what you are saying. I started working out this year and have been able to naturally reverse my diagnosis of being pre-diabetic. I did this all for my twin nephews who were born pre-mature and being the fun aunt and the third parent for these boys as my brother and his wife work. When they were first born, I was the least healthy physically and mentally, being able to change my life to be able to run around with them is what continues to drive my forward momentum. Love this content keep doing you!
Your videos are that space for me to use to self reflect. As a skateboarder, video creator, and aspiring artist myself you are genuinely the ideal role model for me in this lane. I think even your negative viewpoints especially the self reflective ones are important for the people watching your videos to see. This positive outlook is easier to scoff at than adapt for ourselves, however it really is true that positivity can inspire so much good. Keep up these update videos. (Definitely could turn this into a great pod)
Wishing you, Sara, your daughter and your family members well. Hoping they pull through. Parenting is tough, I have a 10 and 16 year old. You two are amazing parents, stay strong.
Thank you for making this video! I've been struggling with depression for years and years, im 24 now, had some really low points lately but this last week I've felt more comfortable with myself, I've had more desire to do things and I've had an easier time going into work instead of calling out. And I had a realization recently that, I can just go do shit! There's nothing stopping me but myself! Much love everyone! I'm happy I found your channel all those years ago.
@johnhill bro! Thank you for the video. I relate to every aspect of what you’re going through as our stories are almost identical over the past year! Fatherhood, family issues, cancer, fitness, and self development. I’m a composer living in LA, originally from Texas now but my previous life was professional skateboarding before a massive injury. It’s why I follow you, but I love the podcast style of your journey and this has been one of the most interesting videos you’ve made. Inspiring to hear your thoughts on LA too… I agree wholeheartedly. It can kill the original love of your “drug of choice”. Keep up the great work and I’m looking forward to hearing about how things develop. 👊🏻 enjoy Texas my wife and I miss it every day.
This video left an impression on me. In recent years I have felt very lost in the world. I don't like doing things. I lock myself at home and just like to be alone. It seems like I've lost the pleasure in life and I'm completely adrift. A few months ago I started going to the gym and started to feel a little better. I still have a little anxiety about going to the gym and I always start with negative thoughts. I hope to keep fighting to get better. Thanks for sharing John.
much love to all here, i truly mean it, we all have so much in common and the struggles feel horrendous at times. life is big and scary and expectations change faster than we can keep up. i don't have answers but can offer genuine love to my fellow human beings. hope you have an ok day today, and you're loved
Dude this is why I subbed to you originally. You just being you and your progression through the days. It was different from the overproduced and cut content of the time. Love you man. Younger you would be so proud of today you. Progress daily 🫶🏽
I appreciate this video John. I haven't kept up with your channel as much recently but I am so glad I watched this. The idea that its hard to make changes because you dont think you are worth making changes for really spoke to me. I think I really struggle with that myself. Thank you for this.
my gosh this video was so helpful and i can relate in so many ways. thank you for being so vulnerable. as scary as that can be, i commend you and ALSO THANK YOU
I got hit with anxiety disorder & subsequently depression around 9th grade (16ish years ago) & I've carried those with me for life. In recent years they've basically gone away, but I would never say I've "conquered" them. I've learned that they can come back whenever they want, and I need to be prepared for that battle. Thankfully, it's usually only about a day or two when it does come back, then I "overcome it" for quite a while again. My point is that unfortunately for us I believe these are lifelong illnesses that we can never truly vanquish, only work around & diminish their effects on us. Regardless, congratulations man. This is huge.
i started watching in 2017-18 becuase i found a lot of those videos to be super entertaining then they became motivating then i fell off because i thought you were becoming not such a great person so i stopped watching for years till this video just popped up and i have a whole new found respect for you john. takes a lot to feel comfortable with talking about this type of stuff and make people KNOW they arent alone with how they feel! thanks man
After having our daughter, Fitness / eating better changed my life drastically. I'm on a year and half of my health journey, I wish I had started sooner. So glad you are doing well man, always enjoy your honesty and video creations. Also your art...you always inspire me to keep going and keep doing.
Thanks for sharing, John, I really appreciate how vulnerable this is, and keep us involved with yours, Sara, and Baby Peach's life. Y'all are some great humans and support is always here for yall!
Awesome that your healing and feeling so much better! Gives me hope and faith for a happier life as well. Kudos to you John for putting yourself out there.
Self love and forgiveness is the first step to waking up to the true nature of reality and remembering who you really are. So glad to see that you are finding your way. One simple thing that can change your life immediately by making you more present and less stressed is first thing in the morning sit down and stretch by touch your toes for 5 minutes before any distractions. Within a week you’ll notice a big shift in your experience. Good luck!❤
im glad for making space and time for how uncomfortable everything is right now. you are doing your best during a difficult time!! so please give yourself grace and a pat on the back. it wont be like this forever! you got this
It's usually the hardest times which make or break you. For me it was my lowest point in my life that pushed me toward recovery and the pursuit to 'fix' myself. I am a completely different person than I was 10 years ago, it's wonderful, life is wonderful.
I was watching this while building my Legos and it really hit me that where I am at, is okay even if I also have lost some passion for the things I love that keep me comfort, but I can do so much more and that I just need to focus on loving myself for my niece that was just born, though I can't do it for me. I've been watching john since I was 16 and now I'm 23, if there is anything I've learned from John its that I know I can do it and be the person I've visioned since I could dream about it, It'll be a challenge but I didn't come this far and watch him all these years for nothing.
I Got a lot from this video but learning to like myself is probably the biggest take away, and likely the reason I also struggle to stick to habits. Thanks man that was a real eye opening video for me.
Thanks for taking the time out of your busy schedule to share this. Going thru something similar and this gave me the last little guidance I needed 🙏🏼 have a blessed year
I know how it can be I just lost my mother on February 5 of this year to cancer. On a positive note and there always is a positive in everything is it sounds like you have a huge support group i.e. your wife’s family. So that’s nice just keep positive I know you’re not religious but I will say a prayer for you and your family anyway, I think it will help! Just keep positive everything will work out!
I needed to hear this, especially that part where you talked about your past self being dead. I am going to try to have that mindset going forward and become the person I want to be. Thank you ❤
"But I like it" trust me when I say these words are the most powerful words you can say to yourself. Do more of what you like and learn about the things you don't know but you know you like too. Good luck brother!
Excellent video. Depression is the black dog, as Winston Churchill once said. But the best way is to keep on fighting. Always working towards the good. It is very hard as you say, but you are doing a wonderful job of combating those negative thoughts. Exercise is the way to go. It has done me the world of good. Good luck with all you have going on. Hope and trust everything falls into place for you and your family. Take care mate.
"you need to change for someone, that you love. to become someone you love' this resonates , and is definitely true. but its also true for vice verca! when we see the ugly version of ourself we cant possibly love someone to our full extent
The parental adjustment alone is no joke but I can tell you’re a great dad! It does get easier soon. They start walking, talking and eating more normal food. Upwards and onward.
this was so good for me to hear. i feel the same way too. i am going to implement this in my life too! this has made me think of a few things im going to give uo and put in new things to make myself better
Surf, gym. Shallow, shallow reefs and surfing them. PTSD. Ex military nurse, former ER and forensic psych nurse. Some skateboard. Getting cheese grated by shallow, shallow reef at size. Thats what gets me through the day.
@@rubenlang ummm I don't think you understand. Cheese grated by a reef means you are surfing shallow, shallow reefs. At size means it's at least 6 ft Hawaiian. Then when the wave pitches you over the falls because of the suction being so intense and your rail angle was just a bit off, well it scraps you across the reef. Like cheese being grated. Wet suits help a bit. Helmets don't do squat, help you not get concussed but generally just get ripped off head. Wetsuit hoods help the most, with a helmet.
Would love to know the *how* of fixing your mindset. I think that's a really detailed subject that gets so diluted in the surface of the advice. When you've got severe depression, even if you know logically that your mindset is a big part of the problem, the learned behaviors and thought processes you're used to can make it feel impossible to ever change your default thinking mode. I think that's a sorely unrepresented topic as a whole. Lotta "fix your mindset" platitudes but not a lot of "here's how, and all the challenges you might face along the way"
You're awesome. Birdhouse dropped a legend. Stay good bro. 👍 For some reason the skate scene kind of reminds me of the Super Smash Bros scene. Super random Lol. Congratulations on being a father. As a new step dad, it's tough.
Thanks for talking about your mental health John. I think we need to normalize people talking about how they are doing. You mentioned self deprecating thoughts. In the last few years, I find myself going down the rabbit hole of negative thoughts about myself. Things like feeling worthless, nobody likes or cares about me, or like I have no value. Is there anything else specific that you've done that can help prevent spiraling like that? Thanks for the video
It’s sucks man we’re reaching that age where we gotta take care of everything and everybody is passing away. I just saw my uncle in New Jersey at my gmas funeral, who I had just spent the last 5 years care taking for cause she had severe dementia 🤦🏽 But He said come to visit him in Maine, bros already dead! Cancer outta nowhere🗑🗑🗑🗑 now my aunt has 6 months to a year left with a cancer diagnosis. My grandpa and granny both died from the same shhh it’s like every other year someone in my family dies, ever since my dad died when I was 12. It’s just been me and my mom ever since in this world, and I just learned the doctors lied to me and said my dad could hear my last words but he really died in brain surgery. He just had a headache and ended up dying from a brain aneurysm! The medical system is fucked by I’m glad they were able to help ur daughter! My doctor literally broke my hand while rapping my cast and made me get unnecessary surgery so I can’t open or close my hand all the way permanently now cause they stitched the skin to the tendon on my hand! Last 2 years been hell just trying to get help. Like u said it’s all about ur mental. This world is absolutely fucked but if u can just laugh all the bs off the better u can make it thru
Sometimes I’m just tired and it’s easier to not be so positive. I know it’s not right but it gives me time and the fuel to reevaluate. I know that’s wrong but it works. I come out of it driven.
Okay, great video! I really enjoyed listening to your insights here. But your in-the-moment Squarespace read was nice haha. I've heard so many Squarespace reads at this point that my mind goes blank, but there was something about hearing you include it into your thoughtful rambles that made it more interesting. 😂 But also, so sorry to hear about what y'all are dealing with right now. My heart and prayers are with you guys! 💛
Yo Jhon, I think you're feeling down 'cause your happiness is tied to hitting your goals (that you are not accomplishing). But you might not realize that to hit those goals, you gotta sacrifice some parts of your life. You're still skating and staying active, but maybe that's eating up time you could be putting into your career as an entrepreneur or artist. Maybe it's time to step back and figure out what would really make you happy, even if it means giving up other things. Or, maybe you'll realize you don’t even need to hit all those goals, and that how you’re living right now actually makes you happy. Just accept where you're at in the moment, be aware of what you're doing day to day, and give your best effort to one thing at a time. You're a smart and hardworking dude, and I've got no doubt you'll crush it at whatever you set your mind to. But you gotta make some choices and act with intention, while still appreciating the good stuff life’s already throwing your way. One more thing, man: learn to meditate. You seem like a smart dude, and smart people tend to overthink everything. Real meditation doesn’t have to take up any of your productive time-you can do it while walking your dog, heading somewhere, or doing chores. Wishing you the best, bro. Greetings from Peru!
GREAT VIDEO. CONGRATS FOR YOUR DAUGHTER DOING WELL. YOU SEEM LIKE AN AWESOME FATHER. I APPRECIATE THE GREAT VIDEO EXPLAINING YOUR LIFE DUDE. GOD BLESS YOU MAN.
Yeah, when I am watching some Kpop babe videos I think I need to stop watching all negative stuff on the internet and just put in good stuff in my mind like Kpop babes ha ha. I do find skateboarding to be an excellent stress reliever. I am in my late 50's so I am not as good as I used to be, but I still love skateboarding. I also thought I was going to quit at a point in my life and I am glad I started up again. Good advice on depression. Stopping all self-destructive behavior is excellent insight and good advice. Anyway, good luck with everything John.
Keep being you, that's why people are still here after all these years. A lot of people probably started because of skateboarding (myself included) but have stayed because of you. Whether it's skateboarding or fitness or art or parkour, the people here have stayed around because of you. Look at Garret Ginner, he's adjusted his content into just what he does everyday and most videos don't include skateboarding, they're about his journey in life. He's built a great community and I think you certainly could as well. He's enjoying making videos again. Keep it up John
Garrett is for me been all about skating, because hi is too young for me, John was one who inspired me in lots of ways 😉
exactly.. totally here because John is just an awesome dude
this is the truth. im 31 and have been skating since i was 14. i now work as a professional artist and i relate to john in so many ways. watching this because of who you are john 🙏🏼🙏🏼
John, I totally hear you 100%. I suffer from acute anxiety disorder and my twin has bipolar disorder. But you found that we have the ability to(with help) get through the storm. Finding a “distraction.” Is huge! But it has to be a healthy distraction. You found that. Only when things crumble, can they be rebuilt stronger.
Fuuu.... I lost my dad to cancer this past year. It's been very difficult and weird what will just sock me in the feels out of no where, and I don't wish that on anyone. Love ya guys, and you'll be in my thoughts.
Bro, all this self improvement stuff is just bull shit and unhealthy. You dont need to be productive all the time. Fuck this grind set shit. You dont need to fix yourself all the time. Life is just hard for 99% of all people and its not your fault when you feel like you are a failing in life. There is no cure and no cheat code. All these gym bros and sigma grind set people online who are telling you otherwise, are just trying to sell you bull shit.
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You are incredibly strong to talk so openly. The worst thing is to believe "you" anyone is so different/complex they are beyond help and change. "that might work for you" negative self talk. Your depression points are some of the keys that have helped me for years. You are doing amazing and have so many insights andtalents. You got this! Thank you for sharing John!
I lived for my kids... literally, they kept me alive because they needed me. I was in deep depression. Pushed through for them and forced myself to be better and happier for them. That only got me so far. Then I realized I also needed to live for myself. I needed to be happy for me. That took some time. Worked out and got myself where I wanted to be and stayed there... cut out weed (only used when i was not responsible for the kids or even around them.. the rare occasion they were with their mom) and decreased alcohol usage. Came to terms that I was a single dad that was going to stay single and pushed harder into the working out because it made me happy. Got into traditional archery.
I was genuinely happy. Then met the woman I married after I stopped looking for a person.
Life is good. It's hard.. but good.
Amazing video bro I am currently or was struggling with depression because after this video it just confirmed my answer, it’s like deep down I know the right move ik what I have to do so it’s time to get it done thank you amazing video !
Thanks so much for sharing, John. As someone who's had a history with depression, this resonated a lot. Good luck with everything coming up. Rooting for you!
It’s nice to see you again. Been waiting for a new upload. I wish you the best
so crazy to hear. i started watching you in the midst of my suicidal depression in 2016 or so and your way of being made me feel a little calmer. i love seeing you evolve and dealing with life. thanks you for sharing your life with us. greetings from germany and keep killin iiiit!!
Appreciate your honesty and authenticity! Your self-reflection is super helpful. Thank you
Dang John 26 minutes absolutely just flew by. Great video. I’m pleased to hear you’re personally doing better and I hope there’s a positive outcome to your current difficulties. Appreciate you talking so openly
I hope for you and the family you can finally settle down. I’ve been watching for many years and you have moved a lot from coast to coast and in between keep killing it you got this.
Sending love and positivity your way. Keep on working on yourself and moving in the light while also addressing the darkness in therapy. We don't know each other but proud of you for making the changes. It's not easy, everyone isn't doing it.
Hey John! There's so many comments, so you might not see this. But I just wanna say thank you for being real. We have to be real and legit about the "puddles" we're in, but we also have to be intentional to get out of our "puddle." We gotta see where we are, but we also gotta get out when it isn't good. Keep being real! Keep looking forward.
You're precious brother!
i appreciate you john, and i absolutely love these type of videos. Thanks for the talk and hoping for the best for you
This level of authenticity is refreshing; thank you for having the courage to be this open on a platform such as this. Sometimes it's good to be reminded that our existence doesn't boil down to one particular identity or set of skills. There are different facets to us, and awareness of the hidden ones makes the more visible ones shine that much brighter.
Looking forward to your next video, thanks again!
Parenthood is one of the hardest things anyone has to do, but selflessness is so good for most people.
It’s so heartwarming to see you are thriving, despite difficult challenges. You’re growing from all of this and inspiring so many people. Keep being one of the most authentic people and keep killing it!!
John, you truly are a brave man. Keep inspiring the world, keep doing what makes you happy.
Thank you for not sugar coating how difficult parenting is, so many people pretend like it's all rainbows and sunshine and it's not...rainbows and sunshine is literally 5-10% of parenting, the rest is hell...and admitting that doesn't make anyone less of a parent or that child is less loved, it's just reality. I do not know how single parents cope! On the sour stuff, feeling for you and Sara, thoughts with you all! Keep the chin up and the positivity loaded where you can dude!
I love this video, it's so honest and truthful.
If you are struggling, find someone to talk to, you'll be surprised how much people love you and want to help you, don't fight it alone, just seeking help will be the kickstart to healing.
My depression symptoms greatly improved after being medicated, it feels fantastic, like having removed a slug that was shutting down my brain, you can really look and feel life completely different, but my therapist is starting to reduce the dosage and now I'm having anxiety thinking all this mental wellness is going to disappear overnight.
❤ I absolutely needed to hear this!!! You have no idea... keep doing you and doing the things that make you happy. Bless you and your family!
I could not relate to this more, I completely changed my life and cured my own depression in doing exactly what you are saying. I started working out this year and have been able to naturally reverse my diagnosis of being pre-diabetic. I did this all for my twin nephews who were born pre-mature and being the fun aunt and the third parent for these boys as my brother and his wife work. When they were first born, I was the least healthy physically and mentally, being able to change my life to be able to run around with them is what continues to drive my forward momentum. Love this content keep doing you!
Your videos are that space for me to use to self reflect. As a skateboarder, video creator, and aspiring artist myself you are genuinely the ideal role model for me in this lane. I think even your negative viewpoints especially the self reflective ones are important for the people watching your videos to see. This positive outlook is easier to scoff at than adapt for ourselves, however it really is true that positivity can inspire so much good. Keep up these update videos. (Definitely could turn this into a great pod)
Love you John, it will be great having you back here in Texas!
Wishing you, Sara, your daughter and your family members well. Hoping they pull through.
Parenting is tough, I have a 10 and 16 year old. You two are amazing parents, stay strong.
Thank you for making this video! I've been struggling with depression for years and years, im 24 now, had some really low points lately but this last week I've felt more comfortable with myself, I've had more desire to do things and I've had an easier time going into work instead of calling out. And I had a realization recently that, I can just go do shit! There's nothing stopping me but myself! Much love everyone! I'm happy I found your channel all those years ago.
@johnhill bro! Thank you for the video. I relate to every aspect of what you’re going through as our stories are almost identical over the past year! Fatherhood, family issues, cancer, fitness, and self development. I’m a composer living in LA, originally from Texas now but my previous life was professional skateboarding before a massive injury. It’s why I follow you, but I love the podcast style of your journey and this has been one of the most interesting videos you’ve made. Inspiring to hear your thoughts on LA too… I agree wholeheartedly. It can kill the original love of your “drug of choice”. Keep up the great work and I’m looking forward to hearing about how things develop. 👊🏻 enjoy Texas my wife and I miss it every day.
This video left an impression on me. In recent years I have felt very lost in the world. I don't like doing things. I lock myself at home and just like to be alone. It seems like I've lost the pleasure in life and I'm completely adrift. A few months ago I started going to the gym and started to feel a little better. I still have a little anxiety about going to the gym and I always start with negative thoughts. I hope to keep fighting to get better. Thanks for sharing John.
Great to see you doing what makes you happy bro 🙏
Hope to see more videos in the future, skate or not
much love to all here, i truly mean it, we all have so much in common and the struggles feel horrendous at times. life is big and scary and expectations change faster than we can keep up. i don't have answers but can offer genuine love to my fellow human beings. hope you have an ok day today, and you're loved
Dude this is why I subbed to you originally. You just being you and your progression through the days. It was different from the overproduced and cut content of the time. Love you man. Younger you would be so proud of today you. Progress daily 🫶🏽
I appreciate this video John. I haven't kept up with your channel as much recently but I am so glad I watched this. The idea that its hard to make changes because you dont think you are worth making changes for really spoke to me. I think I really struggle with that myself. Thank you for this.
my gosh this video was so helpful and i can relate in so many ways. thank you for being so vulnerable. as scary as that can be, i commend you and ALSO THANK YOU
I got hit with anxiety disorder & subsequently depression around 9th grade (16ish years ago) & I've carried those with me for life. In recent years they've basically gone away, but I would never say I've "conquered" them. I've learned that they can come back whenever they want, and I need to be prepared for that battle. Thankfully, it's usually only about a day or two when it does come back, then I "overcome it" for quite a while again. My point is that unfortunately for us I believe these are lifelong illnesses that we can never truly vanquish, only work around & diminish their effects on us.
Regardless, congratulations man. This is huge.
Sending love to you and your family. I'm so glad you got into art because I love seeing your work. Life is tough but you've got this!
i started watching in 2017-18 becuase i found a lot of those videos to be super entertaining then they became motivating then i fell off because i thought you were becoming not such a great person so i stopped watching for years till this video just popped up and i have a whole new found respect for you john. takes a lot to feel comfortable with talking about this type of stuff and make people KNOW they arent alone with how they feel! thanks man
After having our daughter, Fitness / eating better changed my life drastically. I'm on a year and half of my health journey, I wish I had started sooner. So glad you are doing well man, always enjoy your honesty and video creations. Also your art...you always inspire me to keep going and keep doing.
As long as you are self aware you are in a good position, keep grinding brother
Thanks for sharing, John, I really appreciate how vulnerable this is, and keep us involved with yours, Sara, and Baby Peach's life. Y'all are some great humans and support is always here for yall!
Awesome that your healing and feeling so much better! Gives me hope and faith for a happier life as well. Kudos to you John for putting yourself out there.
Self love and forgiveness is the first step to waking up to the true nature of reality and remembering who you really are. So glad to see that you are finding your way.
One simple thing that can change your life immediately by making you more present and less stressed is first thing in the morning sit down and stretch by touch your toes for 5 minutes before any distractions. Within a week you’ll notice a big shift in your experience. Good luck!❤
im glad for making space and time for how uncomfortable everything is right now. you are doing your best during a difficult time!! so please give yourself grace and a pat on the back. it wont be like this forever! you got this
Depression comes from people being so open with there life they let things and others come in
It's usually the hardest times which make or break you. For me it was my lowest point in my life that pushed me toward recovery and the pursuit to 'fix' myself. I am a completely different person than I was 10 years ago, it's wonderful, life is wonderful.
Love to hear your feeling better and keep being you John! You are a beautiful human 🔥❤
I was watching this while building my Legos and it really hit me that where I am at, is okay even if I also have lost some passion for the things I love that keep me comfort, but I can do so much more and that I just need to focus on loving myself for my niece that was just born, though I can't do it for me. I've been watching john since I was 16 and now I'm 23, if there is anything I've learned from John its that I know I can do it and be the person I've visioned since I could dream about it, It'll be a challenge but I didn't come this far and watch him all these years for nothing.
John, you're going to love skating out here in TX. Love you bro. Been subscribed since I was 11 years old. (I'm 23 now)
I am in the same boat as you buddy and have just found this journey for myself a few months ago. Proud of you and thank you as always for the content!
I Got a lot from this video but learning to like myself is probably the biggest take away, and likely the reason I also struggle to stick to habits. Thanks man that was a real eye opening video for me.
thank you for being open with us 💙
Thanks for taking the time out of your busy schedule to share this. Going thru something similar and this gave me the last little guidance I needed 🙏🏼 have a blessed year
My heart is with you and Sara. ❤
I know how it can be I just lost my mother on February 5 of this year to cancer. On a positive note and there always is a positive in everything is it sounds like you have a huge support group i.e. your wife’s family. So that’s nice just keep positive I know you’re not religious but I will say a prayer for you and your family anyway, I think it will help! Just keep positive everything will work out!
I needed to hear this, especially that part where you talked about your past self being dead. I am going to try to have that mindset going forward and become the person I want to be. Thank you ❤
"But I like it" trust me when I say these words are the most powerful words you can say to yourself. Do more of what you like and learn about the things you don't know but you know you like too. Good luck brother!
Excellent video. Depression is the black dog, as Winston Churchill once said. But the best way is to keep on fighting. Always working towards the good. It is very hard as you say, but you are doing a wonderful job of combating those negative thoughts. Exercise is the way to go. It has done me the world of good. Good luck with all you have going on. Hope and trust everything falls into place for you and your family. Take care mate.
Very sincere and motivating video. Hope everything goes well as much as it possibly can!
"you need to change for someone, that you love. to become someone you love'
this resonates , and is definitely true. but its also true for vice verca!
when we see the ugly version of ourself we cant possibly love someone to our full extent
Thank you John I needed this vid rn
"everything needed to crumble" that hits home
Wishing you and your family love!
John keep up the great work
The parental adjustment alone is no joke but I can tell you’re a great dad! It does get easier soon. They start walking, talking and eating more normal food. Upwards and onward.
It's quite impressive what our silly little bodies and brains can put us through. Glad you're feeling better, even when life is so challenging.
this was so good for me to hear. i feel the same way too. i am going to implement this in my life too! this has made me think of a few things im going to give uo and put in new things to make myself better
Surf, gym. Shallow, shallow reefs and surfing them. PTSD. Ex military nurse, former ER and forensic psych nurse. Some skateboard. Getting cheese grated by shallow, shallow reef at size. Thats what gets me through the day.
how about pre grated cheese in the pack u ever tried this bro
@@rubenlang ummm I don't think you understand. Cheese grated by a reef means you are surfing shallow, shallow reefs. At size means it's at least 6 ft Hawaiian. Then when the wave pitches you over the falls because of the suction being so intense and your rail angle was just a bit off, well it scraps you across the reef. Like cheese being grated. Wet suits help a bit. Helmets don't do squat, help you not get concussed but generally just get ripped off head. Wetsuit hoods help the most, with a helmet.
@@rubenlang you know of pipeline in Hawaii? Well imagine something more gnarly again, like cloudbreak. Now you got the idea.
@johndoeyedoe you know of cheddar cheese? Imagine you left it in a cellar for 1 year. Now you have blue cheese
no pain no gain peace love and life to all
Would love to know the *how* of fixing your mindset. I think that's a really detailed subject that gets so diluted in the surface of the advice. When you've got severe depression, even if you know logically that your mindset is a big part of the problem, the learned behaviors and thought processes you're used to can make it feel impossible to ever change your default thinking mode. I think that's a sorely unrepresented topic as a whole. Lotta "fix your mindset" platitudes but not a lot of "here's how, and all the challenges you might face along the way"
Geez I’m exhausted just taking this all in. That’s a lot. Hope you are managing well.
You rule john! You will succeed with whatever you do.
You're awesome. Birdhouse dropped a legend. Stay good bro. 👍
For some reason the skate scene kind of reminds me of the Super Smash Bros scene. Super random Lol.
Congratulations on being a father. As a new step dad, it's tough.
sending good vibes your way for the family.
we shall see you soon and safe travels to Texas.
Thanks for talking about your mental health John. I think we need to normalize people talking about how they are doing.
You mentioned self deprecating thoughts. In the last few years, I find myself going down the rabbit hole of negative thoughts about myself. Things like feeling worthless, nobody likes or cares about me, or like I have no value. Is there anything else specific that you've done that can help prevent spiraling like that? Thanks for the video
It’s sucks man we’re reaching that age where we gotta take care of everything and everybody is passing away. I just saw my uncle in New Jersey at my gmas funeral, who I had just spent the last 5 years care taking for cause she had severe dementia 🤦🏽 But He said come to visit him in Maine, bros already dead! Cancer outta nowhere🗑🗑🗑🗑 now my aunt has 6 months to a year left with a cancer diagnosis. My grandpa and granny both died from the same shhh it’s like every other year someone in my family dies, ever since my dad died when I was 12. It’s just been me and my mom ever since in this world, and I just learned the doctors lied to me and said my dad could hear my last words but he really died in brain surgery. He just had a headache and ended up dying from a brain aneurysm! The medical system is fucked by I’m glad they were able to help ur daughter! My doctor literally broke my hand while rapping my cast and made me get unnecessary surgery so I can’t open or close my hand all the way permanently now cause they stitched the skin to the tendon on my hand! Last 2 years been hell just trying to get help. Like u said it’s all about ur mental. This world is absolutely fucked but if u can just laugh all the bs off the better u can make it thru
Sometimes I’m just tired and it’s easier to not be so positive. I know it’s not right but it gives me time and the fuel to reevaluate. I know that’s wrong but it works. I come out of it driven.
Okay, great video! I really enjoyed listening to your insights here. But your in-the-moment Squarespace read was nice haha. I've heard so many Squarespace reads at this point that my mind goes blank, but there was something about hearing you include it into your thoughtful rambles that made it more interesting. 😂 But also, so sorry to hear about what y'all are dealing with right now. My heart and prayers are with you guys! 💛
Yo Jhon, I think you're feeling down 'cause your happiness is tied to hitting your goals (that you are not accomplishing). But you might not realize that to hit those goals, you gotta sacrifice some parts of your life. You're still skating and staying active, but maybe that's eating up time you could be putting into your career as an entrepreneur or artist. Maybe it's time to step back and figure out what would really make you happy, even if it means giving up other things. Or, maybe you'll realize you don’t even need to hit all those goals, and that how you’re living right now actually makes you happy.
Just accept where you're at in the moment, be aware of what you're doing day to day, and give your best effort to one thing at a time. You're a smart and hardworking dude, and I've got no doubt you'll crush it at whatever you set your mind to. But you gotta make some choices and act with intention, while still appreciating the good stuff life’s already throwing your way.
One more thing, man: learn to meditate. You seem like a smart dude, and smart people tend to overthink everything. Real meditation doesn’t have to take up any of your productive time-you can do it while walking your dog, heading somewhere, or doing chores. Wishing you the best, bro. Greetings from Peru!
This too shall pass, both good and bad. Don't let your new self potentially getting down fuck with your successes in mental health
GREAT VIDEO. CONGRATS FOR YOUR DAUGHTER DOING WELL. YOU SEEM LIKE AN AWESOME FATHER. I APPRECIATE THE GREAT VIDEO EXPLAINING YOUR LIFE DUDE. GOD BLESS YOU MAN.
I think years of mushrooms' toughness made me feel like I could sort of get through anything
I needed this so badly! Thank you !
John your a legend
my depression is mixed in with 15+ years of iv drug addiction and multiple rehab and detox and psychward visits.
Fck depression. Like honestly. It is damn unfair. Props for hanging in there and thanks for the video.
BIG TALK! Love this openness.
Thank you for sharing this with us.
You got this !! You’re doing great !
I definitely needed this one today
Excellent, great video, I’m sure this video will help a lot of people, I hope all goes to plan for you and your family, peace ✌️
Appreciation for this discussion.
Great job, I am a year into my alchemy and doing great! Stay grinding, no pun intended!
Yo man I feel you and I'm going through some of the same stuff rn and this helped so I appreciate it
We love you John 🩵🔥🩵🔥🩵
Good to see you moving forward and doing well, John! 🙏🏼
Recently moved to Texas too. You following me? 😅
Love John Hill ❤️ & his content
Damn, not one kickflip.
Keep killing it though, dealing with depression is one of the hardest tricks to master in life!
Yeah, when I am watching some Kpop babe videos I think I need to stop watching all negative stuff on the internet and just put in good stuff in my mind like Kpop babes ha ha. I do find skateboarding to be an excellent stress reliever. I am in my late 50's so I am not as good as I used to be, but I still love skateboarding. I also thought I was going to quit at a point in my life and I am glad I started up again. Good advice on depression. Stopping all self-destructive behavior is excellent insight and good advice. Anyway, good luck with everything John.
Thank you squarespace!