I'm a highly functioning addict. I am trying so hard to get sober. When I told my family that I was currently using meth they were shocked. They never suspected that from me... I picked up meth this time after 4 years of sobriety. It has been 4 years since I started again. I went 85 days sober from Dec. 2021-march 2022. Then I've been using and stopping since March. The first few months suck so bad that I give in to the craving. I hope to be sober in 2023. Thanks for this video.
Let’s not cast doubt on anyone’s ability to continue their lives. I was a functional addict for 14 years. Comments like this aren’t what my channel is about. I have full confidence in Jessica to do what is best for her. If you aren’t here to support or learn or share in a positive way this isn’t the place for you.
Jessica, I was a functioning addict for 99% of my active use. My daughter and myself still get astonished expressions and responses when we mention my recovery or use. I understand 100% what you said about the cravings etc. If there is anything I can do for you please let me know. 💜
I’m so glad you found my channel! :-) I’m really planning on pumping it up in the new year! If you have any input, suggestions- anything, let me know!! Thank you JD for being so awesome
I disagree with the hygiene. I was a crackhead for 27 years. I took care of my hygiene. I still lost my teeth because they were all cracked from grinding them when I was high. That happens with meth as well. When you pump toxins into your body, you're going to have problems. Wherever the body is weak it furthers the problem. I was high functioning on the outside but torn up inside. You can't do drugs and not have severe problems. I don't care if it's just weed. You have issues you're not wanting to deal with. Start looking at ACTUALLY how these people are functioning. It doesn't matter if you have a job, own a house, etc. That's external shit. The soul is slowly being killed. We need to stop looking at the outside to make judgments and start looking at the inside. That will tell you right away. I look at the energy field. Energy doesn't lie. The energy field even tells what drugs someone is on. There are different frequency signatures on different drugs.
@@no2mob889 excellent question. I've had to develop THAT ability, but it starts with the intuition. Intuition is in the gut. You know how you get a gut feeling about something? That's intuition. As I've used it, it's gotten sharper and now I can actually see or sense the energy field and information comes about the energy field. I had to practice meditation to learn how to do this and quiet the mind enough to pick up on it. Anyone CAN do it. We all have these abilities.
@@rainncorbin8291 well my son was on some kind of uppers and his pupils were ginormous. He looked psychotic. He was more energetic than usual. he was aggressive.
I understand some ppl can use responsibly. I tried for first time last week and hated it. The insomnia, psychosis, depression and heart pounding made this the worst experience of my life! My honest opinion
@@rainncorbin8291 not necessarily true. It does happen. But most factors that lead someone to use in the first place, and societal reactions from that point forward, tend to create conditions that actually encourage addictive behavior. The other major factor being that the lack of clean regulated supply makes it incredibly difficult to use responsibility in the first place.
You are lucky in that aspect. Some people can use recreationally and never think about it. Some of us can’t. It’s not a conscious choice for us to put our lives and everything in it at risk. It’s a switch (for lack of a better way to explain it) that gets flipped inside us and we can’t turn it off.
I do It and it's good I quit and still happy don't be fooled by drug rehab places they just want your money. If u really want quit u can do it on your own!
I used from age 19 to 23. Everyday. Then I stopped an eventually got on benzos then opiates. And then I got sober in 2014 but not for long i got back on opiates and now I'm on subutex have been for about 7 years. And then for the past almost 4 years ive been back on meth again. And nobody knew until I told them recently. Not my doctors my family or my sober friends. I'm smart and educated and have a beautiful home 40 acres of property and Ive been functioning fine until recently when I decided its bad for my physical health and I decided I wanted to quit and then tried and couldn't. And then I tried again and couldnt. I suffer from depression anxiety disorders and ocpd and I'm highly sensitive and an empath so I feel a LOT very deeply and when I use i can distract myself with stuff and when I get clean all the emotions come back and I end up relapsing again. I take care of myself my teeth my skin i eat like a person thats not on drugs full meals and food thats good for you and havent had any real consequence to my use. But since I want to quit but havent been able to and that has got. E in a serious downward spiral of hating myself and feeling like a failure. If you want you can use me for your research!
I understand where you are coming from. I eat. Sleep. Keep myself clean. Work and interact with people that would never know I was high unless I told them. However I am developing some health issues now that I'm older, and a small amount got me sentenced to 5 years in prison. So none of the being able to maintain mattered when the judge declared I spend 5 years locked up for less than two grams. Your gonna feel like shit for a while when you quit. Bananas, a good daily multivitamin, lots of water, and all the extra sleep you can alow yourself make it easier. Good luck and God bless.
I'm doing some right now lol. nice that youtube recommended this. I'm not gonna get addicted, I'm not touching this stuff until next summer (6 months from now). great fun but its horrible for your body. mildly cardiotoxic, very neurotoxic.
Sadly, I’ve heard that more than once from people. ☹️ Not a lot, but mostly from family members of people who are on methadone maintenance who don’t know about methadone.
I think your a very brave person cause society will hate you for being an addict but you are trying to help others at a potential loss of standings in your or maybe your job or friends and so many other things society tends to steal from the ones they deem necessary
Thank you Jacob. I don’t think about potential losses from those areas if I’m being honest. I only hope my videos help people. I’ve been on all sides of this - a person who used, a person who couldn’t quit, a person in recovery and now a person who is reaching out to help others. Thank you for being here and for your comment. 💜
I was sober 12 years and my woman cheated and I find myself in the middle of a relapse and this garbage full of fentanol which is super addictive but that's all an excuse. And an excuse is an empty shell for a weak person so I won't make excuses for myself or my behavior I just about lost everything since relapsing I'm 49 years old and destroying everything I worked so hard for and I no this.I hope you stay sober may God bless you
Hi Jacob, I'm sorry to hear about your relationship ending. Fentanyl is very addictive to people. I don't think that you are making an excuse, I think that you are having a hard time with a shitty situation (excuse my language) but the end of a relationship is hard enough without the added pain of your partner cheating on you. I know that you are hurting and right now it seems like you are in an impossible situation but you have pulled yourself out of this situation before. I believe that you can do it again. 12 years of sobriety is a massive achievement. You can do it again. If there is anything I can do to help you please reach out. God bless you.
The body is a healing machine. But residue remains. Trying new things, changing routine. Too much sugar, less caffeine, exercise. I had a stroke 24 years ago. Wanted to die because every time I looked in the mirror I was reminded of something I can't get back..me. that's changed. God is good. Stay in the light.
I do know one thing its possible to recover from that drug all you need to change is everything get away from the people and places or you will end up dead or in prison i know a guy that lost a arm and a leg trying to steal chemicals from a moving freight train and he still did not learn anything he kept going until he got 10 years now his parents care for him that was 20 years ago
It is possible! Everyone does it differently but it is possible! You’re so right about that. I’m sorry that happened to that guy (not sure if you were friends or just knew him) Sometimes it takes something drastic to bring a change, sometimes it doesn’t.
Yes it usually does. It typically looks like white granules, think sugar or salt. It is also possible to have larger shards in with it. It depends on how it was made and the quality of the substance.
I'm a highly functioning addict. I am trying so hard to get sober. When I told my family that I was currently using meth they were shocked. They never suspected that from me... I picked up meth this time after 4 years of sobriety. It has been 4 years since I started again. I went 85 days sober from Dec. 2021-march 2022. Then I've been using and stopping since March. The first few months suck so bad that I give in to the craving. I hope to be sober in 2023. Thanks for this video.
you're highly functioning now, let's see how well you're doing in a year...
Let’s not cast doubt on anyone’s ability to continue their lives. I was a functional addict for 14 years. Comments like this aren’t what my channel is about. I have full confidence in Jessica to do what is best for her. If you aren’t here to support or learn or share in a positive way this isn’t the place for you.
Jessica, I was a functioning addict for 99% of my active use. My daughter and myself still get astonished expressions and responses when we mention my recovery or use. I understand 100% what you said about the cravings etc. If there is anything I can do for you please let me know. 💜
Me too!
It may take your mind off the real issues that made use in the first place, it just makes you stuck at that point in your life.
Jessica! I didn’t know you did content! I’m so excited now! This video had me straight from the name.
I’m so glad you found my channel! :-) I’m really planning on pumping it up in the new year! If you have any input, suggestions- anything, let me know!! Thank you JD for being so awesome
I disagree with the hygiene. I was a crackhead for 27 years. I took care of my hygiene. I still lost my teeth because they were all cracked from grinding them when I was high. That happens with meth as well. When you pump toxins into your body, you're going to have problems. Wherever the body is weak it furthers the problem. I was high functioning on the outside but torn up inside. You can't do drugs and not have severe problems. I don't care if it's just weed. You have issues you're not wanting to deal with. Start looking at ACTUALLY how these people are functioning. It doesn't matter if you have a job, own a house, etc. That's external shit. The soul is slowly being killed. We need to stop looking at the outside to make judgments and start looking at the inside. That will tell you right away. I look at the energy field. Energy doesn't lie. The energy field even tells what drugs someone is on. There are different frequency signatures on different drugs.
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How do I look at the energy field?
@@no2mob889 excellent question. I've had to develop THAT ability, but it starts with the intuition. Intuition is in the gut. You know how you get a gut feeling about something? That's intuition. As I've used it, it's gotten sharper and now I can actually see or sense the energy field and information comes about the energy field. I had to practice meditation to learn how to do this and quiet the mind enough to pick up on it. Anyone CAN do it. We all have these abilities.
@@rainncorbin8291 well my son was on some kind of uppers and his pupils were ginormous. He looked psychotic. He was more energetic than usual. he was aggressive.
@@no2mob889 sounds like meth to me. Just an opinion. Drug test him.
I understand some ppl can use responsibly. I tried for first time last week and hated it. The insomnia, psychosis, depression and heart pounding made this the worst experience of my life! My honest opinion
They aren't going to use responsibly for long.
@@rainncorbin8291 not necessarily true. It does happen. But most factors that lead someone to use in the first place, and societal reactions from that point forward, tend to create conditions that actually encourage addictive behavior.
The other major factor being that the lack of clean regulated supply makes it incredibly difficult to use responsibility in the first place.
You got bad dope sadly it's all pretty bad anymore hard to find a good sack nothing but paranoia and anxiety no euphoria and heightened libido
GOD saw fit to allow you a negative experience, which is called a blessing.
Once you use it, and if it's good remember this, that's as good as it's ever going to be.
I do it once in awhile. I own a business n addicted to wrkn n being independent. I don't comprehend allowing anything to cause you to lose everything.
You are lucky in that aspect. Some people can use recreationally and never think about it. Some of us can’t. It’s not a conscious choice for us to put our lives and everything in it at risk. It’s a switch (for lack of a better way to explain it) that gets flipped inside us and we can’t turn it off.
I do It and it's good I quit and still happy don't be fooled by drug rehab places they just want your money. If u really want quit u can do it on your own!
I used from age 19 to 23. Everyday. Then I stopped an eventually got on benzos then opiates. And then I got sober in 2014 but not for long i got back on opiates and now I'm on subutex have been for about 7 years. And then for the past almost 4 years ive been back on meth again. And nobody knew until I told them recently. Not my doctors my family or my sober friends. I'm smart and educated and have a beautiful home 40 acres of property and Ive been functioning fine until recently when I decided its bad for my physical health and I decided I wanted to quit and then tried and couldn't. And then I tried again and couldnt. I suffer from depression anxiety disorders and ocpd and I'm highly sensitive and an empath so I feel a LOT very deeply and when I use i can distract myself with stuff and when I get clean all the emotions come back and I end up relapsing again. I take care of myself my teeth my skin i eat like a person thats not on drugs full meals and food thats good for you and havent had any real consequence to my use. But since I want to quit but havent been able to and that has got. E in a serious downward spiral of hating myself and feeling like a failure. If you want you can use me for your research!
I understand where you are coming from. I eat. Sleep. Keep myself clean. Work and interact with people that would never know I was high unless I told them. However I am developing some health issues now that I'm older, and a small amount got me sentenced to 5 years in prison. So none of the being able to maintain mattered when the judge declared I spend 5 years locked up for less than two grams. Your gonna feel like shit for a while when you quit. Bananas, a good daily multivitamin, lots of water, and all the extra sleep you can alow yourself make it easier. Good luck and God bless.
I'm doing some right now lol. nice that youtube recommended this. I'm not gonna get addicted, I'm not touching this stuff until next summer (6 months from now). great fun but its horrible for your body. mildly cardiotoxic, very neurotoxic.
I brush my teeth accordingly not as a routine with bliss from zorba
blueberries help with memory.
Another one could be (mainly from people that have zero knowledge about drugs/addiction) that meth and methadone are NOT the same thing! 🤨
Omg that's a first for me!
Sadly, I’ve heard that more than once from people. ☹️ Not a lot, but mostly from family members of people who are on methadone maintenance who don’t know about methadone.
That's ok they'll come out with heridone for meth use
SOOOO not the same thing.
Not at all! But I am hearing it more frequently.
Kudos for seeing more then just the finger pointing side of addiction in general.
Thank you very much for this. I’ve been on all sides of this so I try really hard not to point fingers
I think your a very brave person cause society will hate you for being an addict but you are trying to help others at a potential loss of standings in your or maybe your job or friends and so many other things society tends to steal from the ones they deem necessary
Thank you Jacob. I don’t think about potential losses from those areas if I’m being honest. I only hope my videos help people. I’ve been on all sides of this - a person who used, a person who couldn’t quit, a person in recovery and now a person who is reaching out to help others. Thank you for being here and for your comment. 💜
I was sober 12 years and my woman cheated and I find myself in the middle of a relapse and this garbage full of fentanol which is super addictive but that's all an excuse. And an excuse is an empty shell for a weak person so I won't make excuses for myself or my behavior I just about lost everything since relapsing I'm 49 years old and destroying everything I worked so hard for and I no this.I hope you stay sober may God bless you
Hi Jacob, I'm sorry to hear about your relationship ending. Fentanyl is very addictive to people. I don't think that you are making an excuse, I think that you are having a hard time with a shitty situation (excuse my language) but the end of a relationship is hard enough without the added pain of your partner cheating on you. I know that you are hurting and right now it seems like you are in an impossible situation but you have pulled yourself out of this situation before. I believe that you can do it again. 12 years of sobriety is a massive achievement. You can do it again. If there is anything I can do to help you please reach out. God bless you.
Thank you for those words thank you for caring.
Never herd of meth until I got in Ohio. N I been only here 3 years. I never seen meth in real life til I got here
It spreading around.
Where u work at? The V A?
The body is a healing machine. But residue remains. Trying new things, changing routine. Too much sugar, less caffeine, exercise. I had a stroke 24 years ago. Wanted to die because every time I looked in the mirror I was reminded of something I can't get back..me. that's changed. God is good. Stay in the light.
Thank you for this. I try to stay there. Same for you. 🖤
You won't get more done while using meth the crash always puts you way behind
I do know one thing its possible to recover from that drug all you need to change is everything get away from the people and places or you will end up dead or in prison i know a guy that lost a arm and a leg trying to steal chemicals from a moving freight train and he still did not learn anything he kept going until he got 10 years now his parents care for him that was 20 years ago
It is possible! Everyone does it differently but it is possible! You’re so right about that. I’m sorry that happened to that guy (not sure if you were friends or just knew him) Sometimes it takes something drastic to bring a change, sometimes it doesn’t.
Instead of helping people out
Thank you for sharing this!
Welcome! Thank you for watching!
@@JessicaComptonHR what does it look like???
Does it make your pupils large???
Yes it usually does. It typically looks like white granules, think sugar or salt. It is also possible to have larger shards in with it. It depends on how it was made and the quality of the substance.
Preach
I'm up on G Ms. Hite me up you seem to know n have Real understanding
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Damn that aceiny tho.😍😍😍😍😍🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩
Is this TH-cam for real or making fun of dumb people?
I don’t make fun of people. It’s quite real.
No he's dumb thanks Jessica